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axvwriter · 1 year ago

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In regards to Bobo, I completely understand. You only gave three days for submissions but I’ve been so surprised by how many matchups you’ve been turning out. I didn’t think so many people would submit in what I thought was a small timeframe.

Plus with Bobo she’s still relatively new character to me and I’m uncertain how well I’ve conveyed her. Like I wont feel completely certain until I try some more official writing stuff for her? Maybe? I don’t know, I might just be worrying too much for no real reason. Or maybe it feels off because I’m imaging otome harem for her in Twisted Wonderland for the funsies?? Oh I think I know what it is.

I haven’t decided for certain what type of relationships she’ll have with the entire cast of Twisted Wonderland. I say otome harem for funsies but when I start writing I might just make them all good friends. I wont really know until I get about writing them all. So even if I had Bobo get a matchup, it might feel like I gave incomplete information and thus not a proper matchup? So I’m completely fine with Bobo not getting a matchup. I’m mildly curious but I rather figure out more about her and her connections to the Twst cast.

Thank you for answering this. How are you not burned out? I think I’d get overwhelmed with so many requests! You’re awesome!!

Now I’m just going to gush over my match mostly to myself so no need to keep reading really.

!!! Ruggie eating the foods I don’t want to eat and/or finding someone who will enjoy eating them is awesome!! I’ve not given Ruggie much thought, but I thought perhaps he’d be upset at food waste, but it makes more sense that he’d be just fine/happy to relocate the food.

I am now intrigued to play one game of Monopoly Junior with him just to see if I’ll notice him taking my money or not. (I’ve heard Monopoly is a loooong game, but I have Monopoly Junior which is a much shorter playtime.)

Dang I’d love to hear his creatures ideas. The fun of creating stuff together! I did get his Dorm Uniform card and the vignette showed him being great at animal linguistics along with making a deal with Lucius. Having someone who can communicate with animals would certainly make vet visits easier. Actually being able to hear what’s wrong from them along with being able to reassure them of what’s going on.

He probably could find the good medium of pushing me to improve on certain things. Especially if I can get better at figuring out what works for me and communicate that with him.

Running errands together could be a great way for me to do a better job at walking for exercise. Considering how busy he is, I bet he’s naturally fast walker though. My dad walks pretty fast so I have to put in a conscious effort to keep up, especially if he feels like we’re running late.

I think I’d really love to just hang out in his proximity.

Oh no, I’ve thought of something a bit mean. We put together 1,000 jigsaw puzzles but I make him put it all away himself. Me and my mom don’t like the putting away process so our puzzles tend to sit out for quite a while. Though a few complaints even if he’s joking and I’ll help. I just at the very least don’t want to do the clean up all myself.

It has not been necessary for me to respond this long like this, but I’m seeing the appeal of romantic matchups. Not sure what it is exactly, but Twisted Wonderland has me entangled in a way that my other interests don’t.

Before I only had top two favorites for Twisted Wonderland but with this I finally have a top three. Ruggie, Floyd, and Idia. Now to see where exactly Ruggie lands as he might just shake up my lineup.

Geez I'm really cutting it close, but I've flipped-flopped a few times on if I want to participate in this or not. I'd like to have a romantic match-up, but if this arrives too late and/or you just don't care to do any more of these, I'm completely fine with you just skipping mine.

I love animals but mostly cats. I've had pet cats for most of my life so far and I'd like to keep that up in the future. I like chocolate with peanut butter. I like playing video games that are more on the casual side. I like the color pink and purple. I do also like board games and jig-saw puzzles.

I dislike most foods. I also feel like my nose has been put on the wrong setting because I don't like the smell of most foods either. Which I know is odd since it can be something as tame as spaghetti. I don't like the feeling of wetness of fabrics and I dislike soft, fluffy towels because the feel of when they get wet is eeeuuughhh. I'm not a fan of pvp games or even games that forces me to play with strangers. I worry too much about bringing down my team and just causing the other players to have a miserable time.

My hobbies are daydreaming and drawing. I love to come up with different characters and species. Most of my drawings just end up being character design. Playing video games is a hobby as well. I would like to get myself into the hobby of exercising and walking but that's unlikely to happen.

I don't believe I have any strong physical preferences. I do know personality wise I don't want someone who's mean even if they mean it in a playful way. (Had a friend that always called me stupid and it wasn't until going to a different school that I realized I don't like that.) I also don't want someone who's really pushy. Though I suppose I could use a little bit of gentle persuasian and patience to help me with certain things. But the key point there is the approach.

I've never dated but I think my love languages are physical touch and quality time. I like hanging out in the same areas as people even if I'm not neccessarily interacting directly. I also want more hugs. (All my brothers dislike being touched so my mom keeps forgetting that I like hugs.)

I'm kinda curious for Bobo too, but like I'm either cutting it real close or have missed the deadline here so doesn't seem right to ask for her.

For the sake of things, I'm probably not going to do Bobo, especially since I still have a few more to do. Sorry about that, but I hope you can understand

"Ah, I'm always so grateful for you sending in asks for this event and supporting me as much as you do! That's why I felt it's important to take time to consider who would be right for you. And I've finally come to a conclusion.

I believe my friend Ruggie would be good for you!"

animal lovers together!

seriously he's great with animals and would love to have some animals together with you

he loves to hear about all the new animals and creatures you imagine, and may even throw out some of his own ideas

his animal knowledge can come in handy when you need it

he doesn't play video games much, but he may occasionally join you for a board game or puzzle

just don't play monopoly with him...I've caught him stealing money before

anything you don't like to eat or foods that you hate the smell of, just hand them over to him or show him where they are

he will get rid of the food for you ✨

if you ever need help getting some exercise in, he's happy to support and help you!

you can go on walks with him or hang around while he's working or run errands with him

Ruggie is not really pushy, but he will bring something up if he thinks it would be better for you and he may try to convince you, but once you tell him no, he'll back off about it

he's never forceful with his approach and likes to give you the reality of serious situations

he's very big on quality time since he's often out running errands or working

but he does really enjoy when you spend time with him, even if you're doing your own thing, just you being there means a lot to him

#ryker the matchmaker #twisted wonderland matchups #reblog #long post #twst related #twisted wonderland x me #ruggie buchi x me #ruggie is a great character #all of the cast is great #its hard to give all twenty-two proper attention #ruggie🩷#! we can have fruit smoothies together!#fruit smoothies being the best way for me to get fruits in my system #i love fruit smoothies #gah im going to be all gaga for ruggie for at least a day #out of all the fandoms #anime boys of disney villains has me googoo eyed #though i have been enjoying the concept of understanding a villains motives #just the phenomenon of realizing how stupid a binary system in most things are #flight or fight? theres freeze too buckoo!#black and white mentality is oversimplification to an insulting degree #i understand the desire for simplicity but shucks it just doesnt work #im rambling off on a tangent in tags oof

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tweedfrog · 4 years ago

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@misssaurasaurus - “ This gives off racist energy and I don’t like it. Sorry that we brown people like to fan cast the only brown characters in the series as Bollywood actors “

I’m answering your ask in this form because I wanted to remove any identifying info about the OP from that post!

Ok so I dont really like getting into it with other blogs because I’m just more of a fan of smashing that block button but....zoinks

This is such a reach i have literally no idea where to begin? You can like Daenerys as a character AND acknowledge the story would have been far better if Rhaenys lived. The two are not mutually exclusive.

For people who dont see the clear racism in GRRM’s treatment of the Dothraki, Essoss, the Dornish characters I have pretty much nothing more to say. Same goes for people who think the Dornish are white. Tons of meta has been written on this subject and I have nothing more to add to it. The Dornish are described as dark and experience racialized abuse at the hands of other Westerosi several times throughout the story. Not recognizing that, and the fact that Martin’s writing is littered with racist tropes is kind of willful blindness at this point.

The whole “the Martells are rich” part....so is everyone? Its a series about the nobility they are all 1%ers I hate to be the one to deliver this news. You need to turn off your leftist brain for ASOIAF because everyone from the Lannisters to the Starks are feudal lords who live and thrive off the oppression of the peasantry.

Fruthermore the Martells dont know about Aegon being alive and I know this fandom loves the fAegon theory but it’s yet to be confirmed in canon. If Aegon is the real deal it means that a half Martell child grew up totally outside the sphere of Martell influence and wasnt protected by them.Therefore it is perfectly possible that in a Rhaenys lives AU she would either have grown up with Aegon and JonCon, or could have been on the run with Viserys and Daenerys. In the latter situation she would probably be up for the same sort of abuse and mistreatment that Daenerys recieved in canon because the abuse doesnt stems from Viserys not anything that Daenerys has ever done. Its even possible that Rhaenys would be in for more abuse since Viserys seems to blame Rhaegar being “unhappy” with Elia for his kidnapping of Lyanna Stark and the subsequent downfall of the Targaryens. Given that we know nothing about Rhaenys because GRRM brutally killed her off when she was 3, who is to say she also wouldn’t become a slave liberator? That’s the whole point of AUs - to put other characters in situations different to canon and extrapolate how you think they would behave.

I’ve got issues with Rhaenys reclaiming Daenerys’s canon Essos arc mainly because I dont believe that slapping a WoC on a story with racist and colonialist elements would actually solve anything. People of color are perfectly capable of racism towards other people of colour and honestly at this point theres so much to unpack in the way GRRM writes about Essoss i wouldnt want any character i like (and yes that includes Daenerys) to go near it with a 10 foot pole.

Also GRRM himself told Janina Gavankar (an indian/dutch actress) that she looked like Nymeria Sand so? Indian actors would be perfectly acceptable fancasts even if the author didnt do it himself. Anyways im going to continue fancasting bollywood actors and other non-white actors because I do what I want. Fandom is much more freeing when you stop caring with other people think.

#also my advice to anyone getting into fandom: the block button is there for a reason #block people left right and centre and curate that mf feed #makes everything so much more relaxing #ive seen so many people get furious when poc and esp black women get into fandom and start pointing out racism and anti blackness #or have the NERVE to fancast non-white actors #newsflash it is all make believe the sky will not cave in because someone used sonam kapoor as an elia fancast #also why would you put this in the rhaenys targaryen tag #if i say something even mildly mean about a character i wont put in in their tag because i assume people are there to see nice things

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traincat · 4 years ago

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Disregard my last ask because the latest issue raised a troubling question that I, as a black man, feel the need to clarify with you, a woman. That whole whole Ned Leeds/Betty Brant business is sexual assault via deception right? Like you know more about Clones and Spider-Man 616 than I but I feel like that’s besides the point because it happened to Betty. She is carrying the child of whom she thought was her dead ex-husband. And Ned clone has to know he is a clone. He has to know. Unlike Ben and Kaine, he has the awareness and information of the Jackal and the awareness of his progenitor’s death.

Or am I reaching too far and reading too far into things?

I'm glad you came back and asked this specific question because it's definitely something I have a lot of thoughts on, and I’m glad you asked my thoughts on it as a woman because I think this is one of those comic book storylines that’s hard for me to divorce that fact from -- the fact that I’m a woman definitely plays into how I view this storyline specifically and how it effects me, in ways I don’t think were necessarily intended by some of the writers involved in its ongoing arc who were not looking at things from the same perspective I’m coming at them from. I definitely don't think you're reaching or reading too far into things -- I think that is what's being presented on the page, albeit likely without authorial intent. Just as like a general disclaimer, I'm not closely following Spencer's run for the sheer reason that I'm not enjoying it very much, although I'm aware of the general directions it's taking through friends and social media. But I actually think this Betty/Ned issue goes back pretty far.

First things first, I think Clone Conspiracy really wreaked havoc on how Spider-Man as a series has always handled clones. Pre-Clone Conspiracy, there was a very clear clone narrative going on: clones are their own person, they are not direct copies or replacements of the original. You see this with Ben Reilly and you see it with the Gwen Stacy clones. Clones are treated as their own individuals, even if they have to struggle to get to that point -- there's even an issue of Spider-Man Unlimited where Ben and Betty go on a date. Betty doesn't know that Ben is Peter's clone -- he's introduced as his cousin -- and they both reflect on how you can't go back to the way things were. So even though Ben has all of Peter's memories regarding his initial romance with Betty, the narrative makes it clear that Ben and Betty cannot recapture that connection or that exact relationship.

Here's where Clone Conspiracy changed everything, in my opinion for the worse: Clone Conspiracy's clone narrative is that these clones are, essentially, the original person. I believe the Marvel wiki still actually lists the end of Clone Conspiracy as 616 Gwen Stacy's issue of death instead of Amazing Spider-Man #121, because Clone Conspiracy treated that Gwen not simply as a clone with all of the same memories, but as essentially Gwen resurrected through a cloning process. The Billy Connors who was cloned is treated as the same Billy Connors who was killed by his father in Shed (Amazing Spider-Man #630-633). And the clone Ned is treated as the same as 616 Ned. This is a mess, to put it simply, because it goes against all the previous Spider-Man cloning narratives and, honestly, most popular sci-fi clone narratives, and it's seriously undermining decades of good Spider-Man storytelling in ways that Slott didn't address and that Spencer seems unwilling to. It probably wouldn't have been a very big deal -- a frustrating one, but not a big one -- if all of the clones had perished at the end of Clone Conspiracy, but they didn't. Billy Connors escaped, and it's immensely frustrating to me to see Peter treating the Connors family reunion as something he can tolerate when Curt Connors ate his kid, and the Ned clone slithered away in the gutters to, I assume, spite me personally.

Which brings us to the current Betty Brant storyline in Amazing Spider-Man, where Betty has showed up heavily pregnant and informed Peter that the child is Ned's.

Yeah, I would say this is in fact the worst possible part. (ASM (2018) #67) Just speaking for myself, I'm generally not anti-pregnancy or baby storylines in comics, but this one is making me very uncomfortable for reasons beside Spencer being apparently unable to find any way to fit Betty into his stories without her showing pregnant.

So I'm actually going to take this back way, way to when Betty and Ned first got married, with some explanation of who Ned Leeds is for the uninformed, because, especially with the MCU's Ned Leeds in the mix, he's not exactly the world's most well known Spider-Man character. (I’m sure @ubernegro, who is much more well read on Miles Morales’ canon than I am, has thoughts on how the MCU’s Ned borrowed heavily off the character of Ganke Lee with a 616 Peter Parker character’s name pasted over him.) Ned was initially introduced as Peter's competition for Betty's affections -- Ned was older than both Peter and Betty, a working reporter, and presented as the more "stable" option compared to Peter, who of course Betty vastly preferred before circumstances tore them apart. Ned and Betty married in Amazing Spider-Man #156 and jetsetted off to Europe for Ned's job. This is where the cracks in the marriage began. Betty later reveals that she felt abandoned by Ned in Europe, to the point where she was able to come back to New York without his immediate notice -- as a woman, it's very easy to read their relationship at this point as being one filled with, if not abuse, then emotional neglect. Betty and Peter have a quick extramarital affair at this point -- Peter has just broken up with Mary Jane and Betty claims she and Ned are separating -- that persists until Ned returns and punches Peter over it.

(ASM #193)

(ASM #229) Betty and Ned reconcile off panel shortly thereafter, but that's pretty far from the end of the story. It's implied that the problems Betty and Ned previously had start to develop again, namely that Betty feels abandoned by Ned, that he is inattentive and, again, as a woman, it's hard not to read it as emotional neglect, if not abuse -- yet. Betty does start another affair at this point, this time with Flash Thompson, and Ned starts acting strangely. It would later be retconned that he was suffering the effects of hypnotism by the Hobgoblin, but like I said, that's a retcon, and what was happening at the time was that Ned was acting erratically in part because he was the villainous Hobgoblin. Ned becomes controlling, threatening, and verbally and physically abusive towards Betty.

(ASM #284)

(ASM #283) "I suppose you think it's all right for a wife to cheat on her husband!" "No -- but I won't let you hurt her, either." Leaving aside that Peter also had an affair with Betty, something he's conveniently forgetting in the above panels, I've always really liked this exchange, because the narrative makes it clear through Peter's response to Ned that, whatever the audience may think of Betty for cheating on Ned, it is reprehensible for Ned to publicly humiliate her and/or physically abuse her as a response.

Then Ned Leeds dies in Spider-Man vs Wolverine and he's revealed as the Hobgoblin posthumously shortly thereafter and that remains canon for years and years until it's later retconned out, as comics are wont to do. But that's not really that important for this conversation -- my point being, at one point in Spider-Man canon, it's made fairly clear to the reader that Ned is an abusive husband. He emotionally neglected and abused Betty several times over and physically hurt her at least once on panel, with the clear intent that the reader should realize that he is physically hurting her. So for me as a reader and as a woman, this has always been a really uncomfortable relationship. I have a problem with later Spider-Man comics claiming that it's "not Ned's fault" that he abused Betty because of the retcon that he was hypnotized, and I have a problem with the MCU making Betty and Ned into a cute summer fling in Spider-Man: Far From Home, because I feel like Ned's clear abuse of Betty either gets excused or entirely glossed over. And I don’t think the initial abuse storyline is bad -- I think there’s some amount of value in portraying Betty as a woman who marries too young, who experiences a terrible marriage, and who then spends years recovering from that marriage, which was the case up until they retconned Ned’s abuse of her as a side effect of him being controlled by the real Hobgoblin. What I’m specifically uncomfortable with is the post-retcon attitude that since Ned didn’t really mean to abuse Betty, it’s perfectly fine to portray the relationship in a positive light when even before Ned’s abuse became physical that wasn’t the case. I think that’s ultimately really irresponsible storytelling. As a reader, I’m not against soap opera style storylines -- someone getting impregnated by a cone of their ex-husband seems pretty par for the course. But there’s so much additional context here that I still haven’t entirely processed how I feel about this Betty storyline, except that what I feel isn’t positive.

So yes, I would agree with you when I say I think there’s quite a lot of deception involved in Betty’s pregnancy storyline -- the Ned clone didn’t tell her he was a clone, even though he had full knowledge of that fact, just as he had full knowledge of how badly the original Ned treated Betty over the course of their relationship -- that renders their sexual encounter and Betty’s pregnancy uncomfortable for me as a reader, to put it mildly. I don’t think it’s out of character for the Ned clone, given that he acts much like the original Ned: he’s selfish and controlling, withholding information from Betty to suit his own needs. The tragedy of Ned and Betty isn’t that Ned died, as more recent Spider-Man stories like to portray it -- including this one, where Betty doesn’t have the knowledge that a) the Ned she reunited with was a clone and not the original and b) that that clone later died. (ASM #816.) The tragedy is that writers continue to force Betty Brant into Ned Leeds storylines instead of letting her as a character grow past him, and that the only way Spencer thought to include her, one of the longest running Spider-Man characters, back in the story was to have her appear starry-eyed over carrying the child of (the clone of) her abusive ex-husband, and the tragedy is that nobody writing more recent Betty and Ned interactions seems to realize that Ned was a villain not because he was briefly the Hobgoblin but because of how he treated Betty.

#betty brant #ned leeds #marvel comics #long post/#wednesday spoilers #traincat talks comics #*replies

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kazuwhora · 3 years ago

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Hey, could I have a Tokyo Rev matchup? If that's alright ☺ I FORGOT TO ADD MY APPEARANCE ALSO I'M SORRY IF THIS IS TOO MUCH 😭😫🙏🏾

Ok so I'm a bisexual girl who uses any pronouns, mostly she/they. I am also around 5'5, I kinda wish I was taller so I could intimidate men with my height 😈 I am a Virgo, although I don't think I act like one. It's probably because I'm an Aries Rising and Pisces Moon. But n e wayz I am an ISFP 4w5 and tbh I kinda tone down my personality depending where I'm at💀 At school, people would describe me as kind, quiet, chill, smart, weird, innocent looking(that completely changes once I start talking because I say weird things. I once told my teacher about how some astronauts had herpes in Space 🏃🏾‍♀️). At home, my family(and friends) would describe as loud(Once I laughed so hard to the point where my mom could hear me outside), crazy, weird, chaotic, dumb(I say a lot of stupid things that make no sense 🤷🏾‍♀️), annoying, a troublemaker, competative, argumentative, mean, chill at times, really talkative although I have a stutter. I have noticed that in both areas, people have said that I'm a people magnet and a good person to be around 😁 When I'm alone I like to read fanfics 😏, listen to music, read my Warrior Cats books and when I'm with my sister or with Family, I love to dance, listen to music, watch anime, play sports, go for walks. I've been dancing ever since I was young, never went to lessons but still performed a lot for School. Most of the time, it's actually what people know me for. With my family, I was known as the Snake Girl for a few years because I really wanted one, I never got one but I do have 5 rats now 🐀 I've always loved animals, when I was younger I made a list of all the animals I wanted and there were like 20+ pets on there 😭 And because I love animals so much, I've decided I want to help them in the future but I also want to help people. I've been wondering what I should be in the future and it's changed multiple times(mostly because the hours were too long and I HATE 9-5 jobs) but helping animals and helping people is something I always want to do. So, I've decided that I'll do everything I want to do in the future and no one will stop me 😾 That's probably why I'm listed as the Troublemaker in the Family, I do what I want to do and say what I want to say without caring how other people feel because I'm my own person(Mostly, because I love having fun but also because they really need to hear it). My family doesn't like it tho 😕 whenever my sister does the same, she's always told that she's acting like me and that it's a bad thing but idc. When I'm of age, I'm gonna live my life the way I want 😌 I'm gonna get tattoos, get piercings, be a stripper while I get my desired degree in College/University. I'M GONNA DO IT ALL 💃🏾

I would also like to add that I smile and laugh a lot. I literally have smile lines from how hard I smile all the time. I could be experiencing any emotion like Anger, Happiness, Sadness, etc. and I'll still smile and laugh. I think it's the eye contact 😃

Appearance: I'm around the age of the Tokyo Rev characters, I'm 5'5, I'm not skinny or fat so I'm kinda in the middle, I have Auburn hair and eyebrows and have braided hair with beads in it 😩 I'm very hot, I also have glasses I wear occasionally although I really need them for my left eye 😫 I do think that the glasses make me look hotter tho so I wear em 👀

I hope that's a good representation of how I am and also thank you in advance <3

u are the definition of an aries rising LOL

IM MATCHING YOU UP WITH NAHOYA SO YOU CAN BE THE MOST CHAOTIC DUO TO EVER EXIST

im not even gonna lie to you here. y'all scare me. nahoya scares me, u kinda scare me (in a good way dw I literally dropped out of highschool nothing can truly scare me) but the way y'all absolutely hype each other up an energize yourselves off of each other is freaky and mildly concerning. its like, the two of you are somehow a match made in both heaven and hell because your brains are wired the exact same way but at the same time should we really be putting those two brains together????

all jokes aside though you really are mirrored versions of yourself and its fun as fuck for the both of you. nahoya, who lives for chaos and humour is delightfully enabled by your ability to take his jokes and follow along with his chaotic nature at the same speed without a skip in your step. you, are enabled by his ability to also match your speed and encourage you to do whatever the fuck you want because its your life and you should live it how you want.

when I decided on nahoya I didn't even think of the smiley thing but it just makes so much sense as I go back and reread your description?? like its meant to be ok

you two are THE trouble makers. ppl can't handle you and if you ever show up at any toman event mikey is immediately separating the two of you because even HE can't handle it. double trouble for sure.

nahoya says fuck a job. you can just hang out with him every day right?? no but for real, he 100% does not understand responsibilities and he doesn't get why you can't actually just hang out with him every day. he has so much fun with you and when you're gone he's like ?? tf do I do now?? disturb shit on my own?? damn. he does not like it one bit and will huff at you for having responsibilities. he swears he'll become rich so you don't have to do anything and he can just spoil you so you'll stay with him forever and cause ruckus together for the rest of your lives. this is his goal.

he's one of the top 3 worst boyfriends so im not even gonna lie that hes a shit boyfriend but I bet you wont care because the fun you have together and the freedom that your relationship holds is enough to make it all worth it.

psst.. he doesn't have to say I love you for you to know. it'll be clear in the way his eyes twinkle every time he sees you <3

#MATCHUPPP #this is so obvious like how could it be anyone but nahoya

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drawing-way-outside-the-lines · 4 years ago

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Indefinite Hiatus.

To anyone reading this, I ask that you respectfully do not reblog this post, as it is very personal, thank you. That being said, the post is long, I’m a writer, what do you expect? But there were so many things I needed to get of my chest, whether anyone reads it all or not, simply doesn’t matter. I had to speak it all out, in order to move on. I will as such hide it under a cut, in case anyone should be curious why I am going on hiatus. Which I don’t usually do, I tend to just take off for a couple of days when things bother me enough to leave. But I thought this time I had to make an announcement, as it is quite possible I am simply just done with this place, and wont be returning. I simply don’t know at the moment, and none of what I write in this post, is written as a form of attention seeking, nor a way for me to get people to show me attention or beg me to stay. If I’m going, I’m going, and there’s nothing anyone can say that would make me stay. I simply make the announcement out of the respect for the few followers I still have some respect for. I wont just up and leave with no word when there’s people on here I still care about. So to be abundantly clear. This is a hiatus. I might be back. I might not be back. Only time will tell. I may some days hang around to check up on cc, you may even see me reply a person here and there, and not reply others. This isn’t anything personal towards anyone. I am simply a person who constantly bend over backwards for everyone else, then push myself repeatedly aside. And I am officially done with it. From now on if you see me online, on any sort of platform, I will not feel bad in any sort of way for not being available, simply because I am online. From now on I will only engage in things that resonate with me, when they resonate with me. Anything else steals my peace. And I no longer want to allow that. I might be gone a couple days, I might be gone a month. Maybe you wont ever see me return, and that’s that. I will take the time I need, even if that means for good. I will no longer put others before my own well being. I might even come by to reblog this post a few times, simply for the fact that I spent many hours, weighing my words, trying to make them as polite, yet clear as possible. I spent lots of time and energy on this, so if I during my hiatus come by to reblog it, it’s not a way to seek attention, or more likes/comments. It’s simply that I made a large effort, and I want as many of my followers to read this, so there’s no confusion as to why I am suddenly gone. If you want me to clarify further than that/you’re curious what finally made a “kind” person give up, it’s all below the cut:

I’ve been sitting on this for a couple days. Debating on whether I should say something or not. But I’ve come to the conclusion that I want to be as transparent as possible, in hopes that, it may, help someone else avoid being in a similar situation. Maybe someone will learn something along these lines of words I so carefully have put together. Preventing someone else from getting hurt. One can hope. And I also hope by speaking up, I can release the negativity I have been carrying, and set it free. Preventing it from weighing me further down. A few days ago, I entered one of my oldest characters, Odette, into a model casting, for Billsims. An experience that should have been fun and enjoyable, but instead resulted in making the decision to pull Odette out of the casting, to avoid Billsims potentially getting in trouble. You see, on the application info post, Billsims mentioned that it would be nice if a bit of info would be written about the sim we would enter, but it wasn’t a must. I decided, as a writer, to write a bit about my character, cause you betcha, as soon as someone mentions they might want a few words about a character of mine, -and my words start spilling like iced tea on a hot summers day! So I added the basic info I thought Odette herself would find important. Among that, I mentioned she’s a ‘Romanian Gypsy’. I did this to best clarify what Ethnicity she has, and what she classifies herself as. If I had simply written ‘Roma/Romani’, many people might not have understood what was meant. And I wanted to be as clear as possible about her, plus the word Gypsy, is simply what she has chosen for herself. I furthermore added she’s a proud woman, and a Pagan. Surprise surprise, someone didn’t like this info, and decided it was okay to point that out on my application post. I still don’t understand some people’s need to constantly nitpick at anything they see online, specially in public, and specially when it comes to people simply having a hobby, enjoying said hobby peacefully, without harming anyone. Now, the post is still up on my blog, the comments are still there. Anyone is free to go have a look if they wish to know exactly what was said. But that being said, I hope and would like to think my followers are old enough to not attack anyone. Please. It wont solve anything. I also ask that no one bother Billsims about the matter, he was perfectly wonderful about it all, and had no issue with neither me, nor Odette. I was the one who decided to pull her out of the casting, in order to protect him, he even told me I was more than welcome to enter someone else. I decided against that however, to protect my peace. Something a very wise person told me to do. Thank you. I stopped replying to the person after my first reply, simply cause I saw no reason to engage in a debate that would lead nowhere. It seemed as if they already had a rather twisted view of me or my character or what was going on, quite possible a mix of it all? So I let them stay in their belief. Trying to convince them otherwise seemed like a tedious task, I had no energy to take on. And I instead went for advice from a trusted person, and enjoyed a long peaceful and uplifting conversation, rather than a fruitless quarrel with someone that was already so sure I was out there doing all sorts of harmful things through my character. I suppose the person commenting wasn’t a follower of mine, and if they were, I cannot imagine them to be a longtime follower. You see, I am aware Gypsy by now is often seen as a ‘slur word’, as this person was trying to educate me. I do not write something into my characters without making at least some sort of research first. Had this person been a long term follower, they would have known, I rarely ever use that word. As a matter of fact, not so long ago, I posted the bio of another character, Gabriella, she was also listed as ‘Romanian Gypsy’. So is the rest of the Lupei clan that both Odette and Gabriella belong to. They have always been listed as such. Ever since I started on Simblr 5 years ago. No one has ever commented on it before. And when I posted Gabriella’s bio earlier this Autumn, I was even met with surprise that I have Roma characters. So it seems, even long term followers hadn’t noticed. Which must mean, I am certainly not a person spreading the word around. It’s not the first time, I have had to get ‘whipped over the back of my head with a wet newspaper,’ by someone who thought I needed some schooling. I have had that experience twice before. So 3 times in total the 5 years I’ve been here. What a rebel I must be, since I have had to be corrected so many times. Once for having many gay characters in Polyamorous relationships. Once for having twins/blood related characters dating each other, and was as result accused of saying incest is right and spreading it as if everyone should be doing it. Which I never did, and never would. We have Game Of Thrones doing that already. First of, I simply don’t agree with that. I don’t think incest is right. However, I also don’t think it is wrong, if the people involved love each other and can make it work. And yes, that is possible. The person getting their panties in a twist over River and Jackall being a couple, did mention they had experienced incest close hand, so I do wanna defend them, and give them their space to be outraged, since I could understand it was a trigger for them. However, I cannot prevent everyone’s triggers, nor is it my job to do so. It is up to you to avoid your triggers, and to find a way to deal with them, so when someone does trigger you, you can handle yourself the best way possible. The whole world is never gonna wrap you in cotton. You need to wrap yourself. It took me no more than 2 minutes to find a very informative Wiki article about how incest IN FACT can be between two consensual adults, which the individual claimed could NEVER exist. Furthermore it can happen between two consensual adults whom happen to love each other just as dearly as two people in a completely “normal” relationship can. Two minutes research was all it took. Imagine if people would do just a minimum effort of research BEFORE they start attacking other people. Imagine a world like that. By all means, if I were out there on the street corners of the world, with pamphlets promoting incest, drag me to a side and slap me. That aint cool. But I am just over here, in my quiet little corner, doing my own thing, which btw you are more than allowed to disagree with, but don’t come knocking on my door with your disagreement. The very few posts I have ever shown of my incestuous couples, have all been very tasteful. And although it is mentioned on each characters bio, whom they are in a relationship with, I think it’s been years since I last even posted a pic of any of said people. I have posted far worse things, and no one ever mate as much as a squeak about it. Still, you are allowed to disagree, I just wish you would handle it in a better way than schooling everyone who does something you mildly (or even strongly) disagree with, and save the schooling for the real issues such as child pornography, Nazi’s, global warming, racism, whether people should wear a mask or not, and any sort of abuse/bullying. Here’s three alternatives I welcome on the other hand: 1. Scroll on. (I have talked with several of my long term followers, and they have confirmed they don’t always agree with the things I post, but they follow anyway, because they enjoy the majority of what I post, and the rest they simply scroll past. It doesn’t ruin their day, or their enjoyment of following my blog in general.) 2. Unfollow. You are always more than welcome to unfollow A-NY-THING on social media, if you do not like what you are seeing. When you subscribe to something/someone, the moment you no longer enjoy what you are seeing, you always have the chance of unfollowing. It’s not a permanent subscription for the rest of your life. Nor a chance for you to try to change what others are posting about. Specially as long as it isn’t harming anyone. 3. Block. The button exist on the vast majority of social media for a reason. Use it if you believe something or someone is so bad that it/they steal your sunshine. Block block block, and move away from it. If you keep hanging onto something you have blocked, what’s the point really? You’re still allowing it to affect you. Move on. And for the umpteenth time, even if my characters does something/say something/engage in something, doesn’t necessarily have to mean I agree with them/their choices/their lifestyle. With some things I do, others I don’t. I’m a writer. I enjoy writing things that challenges me, and challenges the reader. I simply don’t find joy in writing the typical white picket fence story where everyone fits into society, and everything is butterflies and Dandelions. But at the same time, I also don’t run around nitpicking at the people who do enjoy writing or reading these types of stories. The thing is, it’s fiction, right? I’m not writing about real life characters. So I ask you, do you believe every piece of fiction you have ever read? Does Lord Of The Rings or Harry Potter align with real life? If you can say no to that, then why on earth are you so dead sure that the fiction I write align with reality? For the last time, I do NOT agree with incest. For my characters, which btw doesn’t end at just River and Jackall, I do believe in it, simply for the circumstances of how the relationships happened. But you would have to read my whole story to finally understand it all. But I am not cramming it down your throat, specially if you have already made it clear you disagree. To that I once again want to add, my story is nowhere public, so I am really not in any way educating anyone on incest or ‘Gypsies’ or polyamory or anything else. I think polyamory is cool for the people who enjoy it. Have I personally ever been in a poly relationship? No. But I am at the belief people can do with their private life what they wish, as long as they aren’t harming anyone and everyone involved agrees. And to get back to what this post originally was intended to be about, the matter on Odette’s post, I have a few last things I need to say before I put the matter to rest: I'm not representing all of Romani, when I speak for my character(s). I never once mentioned this is how all Romani is. So if that’s what you read, that is on you and the words you add to mine, not my actual words or intention. I'm simply allowing my character and her family to be whatever they want to be, and call themselves however they see fit. As long as they are good kind people, it shouldn't matter much what they call themselves, as long as they don't use slur words for others. I never once claimed that all Romani is Pagan. Odette is. Her father or twin brother, isn't. Odette comes from a mixed background, and is as such a mix herself. And how beautiful is that? Wouldn't it be a shame, if we were only ever allowed to be just one thing in this life? I am not out here educating people on Romani culture, I am not calling people Gypsy in real life, nor do I do it online. In fact I don't call anyone anything in real life, cause people's skin tones simply doesn't matter that much to me. We are all just shades. No shade is more important than the other. We are all decaying plant food. Really. Odette has proudly chosen this word for herself, just as her family before her has been proud to do so. I have in no way portrayed my characters in the meaning of any sort of slur word. They are all highly intelligent well educated people. Odette is under education as a nurse. Her father is a well known and well respected doctor. Furthermore, they are all shape-shifters, whom can shift into very large wolves. Odette’s father being the Alpha. Wait, does that mean I am calling all Romani werewolves? It’s fiction. I am not standing on some stool somewhere preaching to anyone. I’m just me and my characters. I keep it between them and I 99% of the time. My roomie has a friend whom proudly calls herself a Gypsy. She has family whom proudly call themselves Gypsies. So not everyone views this word as bad. And yes there are real life people out there, who sees the word as positive and call themselves by it. Are you going to run after them too, and dictate what they are allowed to call themselves? Or is that only reserved for Simblr’s you disagree with? You simply can’t box up a whole minority like that and claim the word is always offensive and no one is allowed to use a specific word to describe themselves. Furthermore: Mixed background/ethnicity/religious beliefs/spiritual beliefs is a thing in the real world too, not something I made up over night to harm anyone. 'Gypsy' has never been said as a slur word coming from me, it was never ill-intended, and never will be, just like gay never will be said as a slur or ill-intention coming from me. Yet gay is also a word that has quite often been used as a slur. And still is. So, should we stop using it all together? No. It can be said in good intention, and in bad, it all depends on the person using the word. And people should surely be allowed to call themselves gay, shouldn’t they? Never have any of my Romani characters been portrayed in a bad light. (Or gay characters for that matter, but that's not what the subject is about) And if they ever would be portrayed in a bad light, it would certainly have nothing to do with them being Romani. I personally see no point in that. My story and my characters are a source of joy for me, I have no intention of bringing racism into it. Now, we can agree that the word Gypsy is by now used as a slur, but it wasn't originally a slur, and once again, I do believe a person is allowed to call themselves whatever they may wish. Odette and her family wouldn't call other people Gypsies, unless they knew they were okay with it, and proud. Added to that, I do not believe a word can be racist or a slur in itself. A word is just a word. A string of consonants and vowels tied together to create a sound. It's the person using the word, who gives it ill-intentions, not the word itself, unless it was deliberately created with the only intention of hurting. Which as far as I am aware, wasn't the origin of the word Gypsy. 'Roma (Gypsies) originated in the Punjab region of northern India as a nomadic people and entered Europe between the eighth and tenth centuries C.E. They were called "Gypsies" because Europeans mistakenly believed they came from Egypt. This minority is made up of distinct groups called "tribes" or "nations." Most of the Roma in Germany and the countries occupied by Germany during World War II belonged to the Sinti and Roma family groupings. Both groups spoke dialects of a common language called Romani, based on Sanskrit (the classical language of India). The term "Roma" has come to include both the Sinti and Roma groupings, though some Roma prefer being known as "Gypsies." ' - Source: https://encyclopedia.ushmm.org/content/en/article/roma-gypsies-in-prewar-europe So to really boil this whole thing down to the bone, so hopefully this wont ever be an issue again: I do not use the word Gypsy in my day to day life. By creating a character who addresses herself as Gypsy AND also happens to be a Pagan, I do NOT in any way indicate that all ‘Gypsies’ are Pagans. I simply state that my character is. Nothing more, nothing less. I do not agree with incest in real life, though I do believe people are allowed to do with their private life as they see fit, as long as they aren’t harming others, and everyone involved is agreeing. I do not promote Poly relationships. Although once again, I’m a firm believer that people are allowed to do with their private life as they see fit yadda yadda... I do not promote being gay or any other sort of sexuality for that matter. Not that I have ever been accused of that, but I wanted to cover it anyway, cause who knows, it might be the next one I should get corrected for. I have a few times mentioned being trans, that was also not in any way a promotion. I do not promote Necrophilia. And here I really must snort. Some years ago (on an old blog, not this one) some very dear followers of mine, gently persuaded me to make some rather graphic pictures of my character Raven, literally f*ck*ng some corpses. It was posted in October as some satirical Halloween-ish post, as far as I remember, and was started from a simple question of, IF, it could be done in ts3? I was then challenged to do it. I did. People clapped. I’m sure others cried. But to my surprise my follower numbers didn’t drop, they increased? No one came running to ‘teach me a lesson’. No one came around to tell me what my demon was allowed to do or not. He was free to do whatever/whomever he wanted. And that’s the thing. There’s so many things in my story, and about my characters, that you don’t know. Cause I don’t post it out there for everyone to see. Cause I am not trying to promote a thing. I am simply here to challenge myself, and along that line challenge the few people I ever trusted to be my readers. You see, I don’t write for the numbers, meaning I don’t write a story that is meant to have a large following. I write for me, cause it is one of the only things that has ever helped me get through life, and fight some of my inner demons, to fight complications, to fight grief, to cope with all sorts of personal things I’m going through, and to have a place to escape to when life is too scary. I write for the content, the depth, for me, not for the fame, not for likes, not for anyone else. This is mine, and I don’t promote it on any scale, I keep 99% of it in private, and the rest I do air in public I air on a very minimal scale. If you decide to get offended about the fact that I drizzled a specific word once on a post, and a handful of times on my personal bios, well, that’s on you. It’s not a word I am out there spreading like a wildfire. People that has followed me for years never saw it till recently. Which should really speak loud of how little that word has ever come from me. I’m a respectable person. I do my best to respect everyone around me. At any time. Even when people don’t deserve an ounce of my respect. But that does not mean I should be weighed down with the burden of never offending anyone, cause then I might as well never speak again. Fact is, now more than ever, people are so offended by almost anything they can come across on social media. Jumping to conclusions here and there, when all they could do is simply ask, before getting offended and as a result decide to school or attack everyone around them. For no one to ever get offended again, we should all log out, and never sign in again. Why does it have to go to these extremes where no one can speak a word any longer, cause everything is an offense, a trigger, a slur? So I stay here in my little corner, doing me, doing my characters the way I like them. It is up to you to agree or disagree. You are free. But don’t come at me expecting I’ll change a thing for you. Cause you will only get disappointed. These people and their story is my way to cope with life, and as long as I am not out there shouting slur words at people or promoting certain ways of lifestyle, or deliberately harming anyone in any form of way, I cannot see why I shouldn’t be allowed. Just as you are allowed to do your own coping. Just as you are always allowed to scroll on, unfollow or even block things/people, you disagree with. Odette stays the way she is. So does the rest of my characters. It wont ever change because someone disagrees. The only way my characters change, is by character development, which mostly they decide for themselves. And I simply don’t see it in the cards that Odette will wake up and not feel Gypsy or stop using that word to describe herself, cause she personally sees nothing negative in it. Nor will she stop being Pagan because her mixed religion/background is making you uncomfortable. There’s plenty Christians out there, with Jesus or Bible quotes tattooed on them, yet Leviticus 19:28 say: Ye shall not make any cuttings in your flesh for the dead, nor print any marks upon you: I am the Lord. Interpret that the way you want it. But allow my character to do her religion the way SHE sees fit, simply for the fact that I am sure you want the same respect. I will not ever change my characters or my story for anyone but myself. You can express your dislike from here and until you get tired of repeating yourself, you can unfollow, you can block, you can even report me and get my posts taken down. You can even take it as far as getting my blog shut down. It wont make a difference. My story has been written for 6 years, some characters was written even longer than that. The story is over 200 book-length-chapters, close to 300 as a matter of fact. If I should change anything for a person I don’t even know, it would be almost 300 chapters I would have to reread and rewrite. Would you do that for some person that came by a post of yours, disagreeing with the way you portrait your own original character? If your answer is yes, I truly feel sorry for you. Lastly I want to say, try to be kind. Try to breath before you go and attack someones way of doing their own thing. Before you accuse someone of portraying something a certain way, maybe take a look at the persons previous work. Is it a one time thing, or is it a reoccurring matter? It may just be an itsy bitsy thing that you are blowing out of proportions, sorta like entering a conversation you know nothing about and then start correcting people left and right. It makes little to no sense, and in most cases, even if you might be meaning well, you end up doing more harm than good. Like in this case. You didn’t get to teach someone something they didn’t already know. You didn’t stop someones inappropriate behavior. What you did on the other hand, was extinguishing someones last spark. Their last will to keep going. You take that to the bank now, and be proud of yourself. Was it worth it? You can always accuse and assume. You’re free to do just that. But maybe in the future, try to replace accuse and assume with politely asking if your ‘concern’ is valid or not. Try to be mindful, try to be kind, try to consider that maybe the person you are about to put on the school bench/attack/bully or whatever you are about to do, is fighting an invisible battle you know nothing about. Maybe you are going to be the last straw for them. So try to weigh it all, is your righteous crusade worth it? Is it worth it to spill your two cents on a possible harmless matter, just so you can feel you fought a righteous battle and took someone ‘evil’ down, whom in fact were just trying their best to survive, by doing the one thing that helps them through it all, in their own little corner, harming no one. You know, there are tons of people like that out there. Making someone online feel so absolutely useless/worthless that they end up taking their own lives. Then blame the victims for it. Now, I might be a pretty strong person, but that doesn’t mean I can’t be at the end of my rope, and you simply don’t know. Do you? Thank you for taking your time to extinguish my last spark.

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thefoulbeast · 4 years ago

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A little bit good deal of character analysis in regards to Saburota Todou in the Kyoto arc. This is for my own benefit bc I’m writing smth involving him...

Skipping over the 1st appearance in ch16 because it didn’t really have what I was looking for. Instead I’m skipping straight over to ch25 where Tatsuma shows up and they fight.

This got. Very Long And Very Rambly. So uh, yeah.

tw for canon typical violence and gore

So - Todou already has considerable enhanced physical abilities and regeneration before Karura. Granted, not as strong, but still there.

(man i wish i could do backflips like that when im 56 lmao)

He’s been planning this whole fiasco for over 10 years now (Myou Dha joined the order 10 years ago, and that’s when he first started on manipulating Mamushi)... I wonder how long he’s been eating demons and stuff? How did that even start? How many has he gone through over time? Things to ponder...

Anyways, my biggest question here is... what the fuck is up with his pain tolerance?

He’s straight up getting barbecued and all he has to say is, “I can’t heal fast enough!“ He doesn’t even look a little distraught. Just mildly inconvenienced by the whole thing. (Also - what kind of knife is that? The shape & handle is really funky :O)

I think he was originally intending to like. Eat Karura as soon as it showed up but he had Impure King as a last resort in case he couldn’t overpower Tatsuma (as was the case). The guy really did all his research and had a lot of back ups planned huh.

...I also want to know just how he managed to find out all the stuff regarding the Impure King. How exactly did he know that it hadn’t been destroyed completely? How did he know about Kurikara being empty? And the deal between Karura and the Head Priests?

Sir please cite your sources I’m so curious...

Back on track though! Stuff happens, Tatsuma gets it in the neck with the weird knife, Todou’s all healed up from those nasty burns again and it’s all dandy.

And then we get straight up fire eating.

Again... that should hurt, no? That’s mouth, throat, oesophagus and probably tracheal burns. And Todou just... doesn’t care. He’s still as calm and collected as before, no indication of discomfort. Personally? I’m unnerved by this lol.

The closest we get to discomfort is this when he groans a lil bit after he’s done eating but I think that’s more the stomach upset. From this point on I guess we assume he doesn’t feel pain from fire... but I’m still squinting at everything before this...

Adding this purely because I love these panels. This guy is so messed up. So very very messed up lol.

[Skip forward everything Im not interested in right now]

Someone is having a bit of a bellyache. This is why we don’t eat things while they’re still alive, sir!

But upset stomach or not, he’s still??

“Yeah it’s fine - hello yukio how have you been? - yes, I’m ready to throw hands with you; pain who?“

also... he may be a Huge bastard but I absolutely love how!! Polite he is!!

“Thanks for cooperating ^w^“ <- Todou after cutting off Yukio’s escape route with a wall of flame. lol. However he got evasive when Yukio asked: “What the hell are you?“

He seems to happily give out tidbits of non-vital information, but he obviously knows when to keep his mouth shut (10+ years spying on True cross and no one knew? This guy is very clever! Very tricky! Many secrets!)

I’m sorry this whole thing is so funny... Small, polite talk during fighting is exactly the kind of unhinged I expected from him and he did not disappoint in the slightest. Bless. (I mean he does admit that he’s only doing it to rile Yukio up a few pages later... but still... This man knows just how to get under people’s skin and is so very good at it...)

Also I love how this fight reveals so much about his character so subtly?? I honestly just rec ch28 for p much most anyone would need to get a feel of him as a character.

He’s got this new body and these new powers and the first thing he does is fight a teenager for shits and giggles. Except both the teenager and the younger body keep reminding him of his own youth.

Lower right panel... his face says they’re not happy memories. (In my very biased opinion I would call that expression a mix of “oh whoopsie�� and “these memories literally make me want to die”) (And oh Boy does it go well with ch106 pages 23-26 where we actually see how the Todou brothers interacted with each other and that is So Much To Unpack i dont even know where to start lol)

And then right after remarking that family is a sore spot for Yukio, he immediately goes “lmao me too I get it“ ( it’s actually ”Heh heh heh! I feel such a connection between us! Asleep or awake, you’re always hung up on your family! I understand. I used to be the same way.“)

And then finally I reach the part that originally made me want to re-read his scenes in the Kyoto arc...

Todou literally getting his brains blown out with water type bullets 😍😍😍 This is literally the only instance of him admitting that something hurt that I could find so far! What the hell! But that’s not all!

Even then he’s still smiling! He’s still playing around! He got shot through the head, said “oh ouchie“ and immediately shook it off and kept trying rile Yukio up like nothing had happened. Pretty fucked up in my humble opinion, not gonna lie.

“Ah yes I’ve sustained a horrific facial wound let me just dab at it with a handkerchief for a bit that’ll do it.“

He does underestimate Yukio though, becaue he doesn’t see the naiads coming at all. But even with the whole water prison, it bothers him for a few seconds and he’s back on track. He’s very... I’m not sure if tenacious is the right word, but perhaps diligent? Goal oriented?

Very hard to knock off balance, that’s for sure! And even if you manage to catch him by surprise, he seems to adapt very quickly. He’s just genuinely fighting Yukio to have a good time and doesn’t see him as a serious opponent.

But the chilling bit is that he was going to kill Yukio, just like that. He got a feel for his new abilities, had some fun at the expense of Yukio’s emotional state, reminisced on his past for a bit... and that would have been it, if not for the Satan-eyes.

Anyways this got so much longer than I wanted it to lol and I managed to fry my brain so I’ll leave off here. Maybe I’ll do smth aditional later maybe I wont. But just know that I am screaming about this unhinged bastard like 24/7 ❤

Idk if anyone even got to the end of this but I wanted to put my thoughts down somewhere I could find them later lol. Thanks xoxo

#ao no exorcist #ane #saburota todo #character analysis #the written words #saburouta toudou

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bigskydreaming · 4 years ago

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LOL I actually didn’t start out in a mood when I started posting that, it was more kinda just a “you know, this comes up often enough that its worth it to have the full context out there since so much gets left out” kinda thought. But in the process of gathering the actual images from the story, I got worked up because the part that reeeeally gets me is like....

These pages are back to back. They’re literally one after another. So there’s something....I can’t really think of any other word other than insidious, despite how dramatic that sounds lolol, but yeah, there’s something insidious to me about the fact that this became as widespread in fandom consciousness as it did, the WAY it has, because like.....in order for people to PULL those panels of Dick making Donna cry to prove their argument that he has a vicious, cruel temper.....

Like, there’s no way to at the same time NOT see all the stuff Donna says to him, the fact that he keeps TRYING to say “we shouldn’t have this convo now, it wont end well if we do,” and the literal physical violence Donna inflicts on him all while shouting self-righteously about how she refuses to just sit there and take his abuse, as opposed to....what she’s doing to him.....

And so the ONLY reason and ONLY way for ALL of that to get left out of this being cited the way it is as often as it is....

Is for the people who bring it up and pulled panels to ‘prove’ their takes, to CONSCIOUSLY choose to leave all of that out of their retelling of that scene to all the people who HAVEN’T read it for themselves.

And that’s even WITHOUT getting into the brainwashing context, like even if I’m to give them the benefit of the doubt and assume they read that issue but bizarrely, for some reason never read the actual conclusion to that very same story aka “So what DID happen with Raven and Gar and Vic after all?”

And so that’s also mixed in there for why I get so bothered by this topic, lol, because it keeps constantly getting brought up in order to elaborate on Dick’s ‘flaws’ and so people can write him as flawed, and its just....nobody’s trying to do anything skeevy, people are totally impartial here and just trying to help people write a better, more comprehensive Dick Grayson.....

But like? No? You can’t honestly say that I don’t think, if you KNOW there’s more to this than just hey Dick made Donna cry one time, what an asshole, she’s supposed to be his best friend that jerk.....and just like....deliberately choose to exclude that further context.

Because I full on do not believe anyone who does THAT, rather than just repeating something they’ve heard others talk about, like.....you can’t do that and be genuine and sincere about just wanting to write Dick as flawed for totally impartial reasons. That’s a deliberate attempt to make his character look bad at that point, leaving out all the rest of that scene let alone the brainwashing context, and so THAT’S what gets to me.

The fact that so many people just write Dick as this trigger-happy volcano ready to blow at any second and with a history of being cruel to his loved ones because he can’t control his temper.....because they’ve been genuinely convinced he’s just like that though, rather than a huge portion of WHY they think he’s like that being predicated on people deliberately reframing examples in such a way as to make him look like an asshole.

THAT’S what trying to smear a character looks like, and so its obnoxious constantly being accused of doing that with other characters by bringing up things they actually did in their right mind and even making an effort to see all sides of the conflict....while meanwhile, people are just like “oh I just want people to write Dick as flawed because that’s realistic, you know, no other reason.” I mean, Dick isn’t this cookie cutter Golden Boy he’s referenced as being, and he doesn’t actually need like, this terrible wicked temper to be ‘real’ and ‘relatable’ and ‘human’.....so I call foul on certain people acting like it is and that’s all this is about when really its like...no. You’re not impartial, you’re really actually intent on making this particular character look like he has a regular habit of being a jerk to people he loves because he has no self-control, and like. What if you just fucked off instead of doing all that?

And again, I’d just like to point out that people in this particular fandom ONLY ever seem to be fixated on what DICK’S character flaws are and how to write HIM, specifically, as flawed.....but in comparison, how often are people concerned with learning what Tim’s flaws are so they can write him as well-rounded and three dimensional instead of this brilliant wunderkid whose so heroic and self-sacrificing he just forgets to take care of himself? How often are people like, well I don’t like to write Jason as trying to kill his brothers and I also agree with his philosophy for the most part, so hey, what are some other flaws I can write him as having so I’m not going all ‘full stan behavior’......instead of people writing Jason as just totally misunderstood and never having really done anything wrong ever? How often do people focus on well what are some of Babs’ flaws, or how about Steph? Y’know?

I’m not going to pretend people aren’t fully aware of Bruce’s flaws, lol, but like....he’s front and center in pretty much all Batfam stories so its not really even like people have to like....LOOK far, so I mean, yeah you tend to have people split on whether Bruce is an asshole or a misrepresented good guy or somewhere in between....I’m just saying yes, granted, Bruce is written as super flawed by a lot of people, to put it mildly, but not in such a way that people have to go around LOOKING for flaws to write him that way.....but rather he’s written that way by people who are ALREADY familiar with specific flaws or flawed behavior and are writing ABOUT that or BECAUSE of that. Which is a very different thing from being like “Hey what are some flaws specific to Dick, how can I write him as flawed, specifically?”

There’s a very specific and particular almost...pointedness, to how people ask about - and are almost EAGER - to hear about or embrace Dick’s flaws in a way that they just flat out AREN’T with any other character, and given that there really is no actual basis in ANY of Dick’s stories to acting like he really is this perfect, untouchable golden boy who’s just completely unrealistic and impossible to relate to as is....there’s something decidedly disingenuous, IMO, to the way people fixate on Dick’s flaws, specifically, or look for or invent flaws for him, while saying that’s all they’re trying to do really....but while there’s literally no attempt by them to do anything similar with any other character.

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palettes-and-prompts · 5 years ago

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Prompts for:

A is the local mildly intimidating loner that nobody particularly likes but whose family has lived in the area for centuries and character B is a ray of sunshine and seemingly the embodiment of innocence and goodness that everyone immediately adores even though they just moved in... which is why A grows increasingly desperate to prove that B has been trying to assassinate them.

Dialogue Prompts

1) “You may have everyone in this town fooled but you don’t have me fooled.” “Of course I don’t, you’re smarter than the rest.”

2) “They’re fucking crazy, they’re trying to kill me! Tell them.” “I would never try and hurt you. I’m a pacifist, it’s against everything I believe in.”

3) “You got what you wanted, right? I’m in this hospital. No one believes me, they all think I’m crazy. I’m not crazy.” “I know you aren’t. You’re just confused. I only wanna be your friend.” “Cut the shit, I fucking heard you on the phone with them. You’re trying to kill me.” “Okay, so maybe I’m trying to kill you.”

4) “I’m telling everyone about you.” “Go ahead, they wont believe you.”

5) “Everyone’s gonna find out you’re out to get me. I’m gonna fucking prove it!”

6) “You could tell them everything if you wanted. But I mean, I’ve been nothing but nice to everyone here since I moved. You’ve lived here all your life and everyone hates you. So I wonder if they’ll believe anything you say without proof.” “You’re a fucking psycho.” “And I am really good at hiding it.”

7) “Who fucking sent you? Why are you trying to kill me?” “Sorry, client confidentiality. All I can say is that you pissed off someone very fucking powerful.”

8) “So, this is it, huh? This is the part where you kill me?” “...” “Just make it quick, okay? None of that torture suffering bullshit.”

9) “You did a very good job at digging, nearly blew my cover. It’s a shame, maybe we could have been partners in another life.”

10) “You can try to tell them, all you want but I’ve got them wrapped around my finger.”

11) “You can do everything to try and convince them of what I really am but you wont. They wont believe you and in the end I win. Because I’m better than you, stronger than you, and I’m smarter than you.”

12) “You wont get away with any of this, I’ll tell everyone!” “Good luck, with how crazy you’ve been acting it’ll be impressive if you get even one person to believe you.”

13) “You’re fucking crazy!” “And you’re not crazy enough. Maybe when you get on my level you’ll stand a chance against me.”

14) “You know, if you took your own life I could leave. I don’t even like your little town. And you don’t either so why stay alive anyway? No one here even likes you.” “Oh yeah, why are you so obsessed with me then?” “Because I like you.” “Guess someone likes me then.” “Yeah but I’m a psycho remember? I don’t count.”

15) “This your plan? Gonna shoot me?” “I was thinking something with knives. But that might be too dirty. I’d hate to ruin your floors.”

16) “Why can’t you just die?”

17) “Are you scared of dying?” “I suppose everyone is. Is that why you wont die? You’re scared?” “Terrified.” “What if I held your hand? We could die together. It’d be less scary together.”

18) “Who hired you to kill me?” “I think we both know who hired me. The real question is am I really going to kill you?”

19) “It’s a shame you have to die. I think we could have been friends.”

20) “You can drop the act, no one else is around.” “I do that act just for you, you know. I like messing with you. It’s fun.” “Everyone thinks I’m a psycho.” “But you know the truth! It’s like a secret that only you’re a part of, isn’t that fun? I hear best friends have secrets like this all the time.” “We’re not friends.” “Sure we are, I try to kill you, you try to get me thrown in prison. Classic friendship.” “I don’t think you’ve ever had a real friend in your life.”

Regular Prompts

1) Person A is a town local no one likes who witnessed a murder but doesn’t say anything because they’re not certain what they saw since it was Halloween. Person B comes to town and is nice and manages to win everyone over, even Person A. But B asks a lot of questions and if A’s being honest with themselves they look like the murderer from Halloween. They slowly realize B is the person and that they’re in town to kill them.

2) Person A is a local no one likes and Person B is their friendly and charming new neighbor who wants to kill them. While they act friendly around everyone else they’re completely different around A. Person A tries to tell people but just ends up looking jealous for attention. There’s a party coming up and Person A doesn’t usually go but they’re determined to prove B is horrible so they go to start a fight. (Bonus if the fight either makes people believe A or B refuses to fight so A looks like an asshole.)

3) Person A’s always lived in town and is known as the person no one likes. When Person B moves into town everyone adores them, but A can sense something’s just off about them. Turns out they’re a murderer but A can’t prove it. Person B hangs around A more explaining they don’t like to be spied on. Person A is determined to get them locked away forever. Person B tells them they plan on doing the same. (Bonus if B gets framed for B’s crimes.)

4) Person A tries to convince everyone the friendly Person B that moved to town is a psycho and that they’re out to get them. They’re perceived as crazy and are put in the hospital. Person B always visits them and is kind and gentle with them. A begins to doubt themselves and soon they begin to believe B’s not who they thought and that their gut feeling told them they were. They apologize to B and tell them they plan on telling the nurses they’re innocent. But the second they say that B reveals their true self and they’re exactly like A said they were. Person a goes crazy and tries to tell people but they just sedate them. (Bonus if B decides not to kill A and tells them they like watching them suffer like this anyway.)

5) Person A is convinced B is trying to kill them because bad things keep happening to them. When everyone tries to convince them otherwise they try to find proof but B continues to be nice to them. When A gives up and tells everyone they were mistaken they apologize to B over dinner. (Bonus if when they’re alone at B’s house afterwards B reveals their true self or B tells them all the bad things that happened were all accidents and that they were just trying to get A’s attention because they liked them.)

6) Person A doesn’t like B even though they’re super sweet to everyone in town they just met. They’re polite and nice but A is the only one who senses something’s just not right about them. When A sneaks around B’s house one night they see B killing someone inside. They call the police and tell them everything but when they go to B’s house the place is spotless and B tells them they were just baking cookies. The police leave and Person B looks to Person A and gives them this unsettling smile before going back inside. They’re then convinced B is out to get them.

7) Person A thinks B is a murderer out to get them while pretending to be nice to everyone else. But it turns out B is a murderer looking for a partner. This terrifies A at first but once they see how B is only killing bad people they decide it can’t be that bad.

8) Person A isn’t fooled by B’s lies like everyone and assumes they’re some sort of assassin with how they’re drawn to A most of the time. They try to convince others B is out to get them but the others don’t take them seriously. When A finally confronts B about the who assassin thing they only laugh and explain that they’re actually a demon and were drawn to A because A’s the only one who could sense their energy. (Bonus if that’s how A finds out they’re half demon or something.)

9) Person A is a recluse put in charge by their family to guard their magic and person B is the one trying to break them out of their shell and are constantly being nice to them. Person A thinks they’re great at first but they soon discover that B knows about them. Like, a lot, about them and they think back to the words their parents said about how someone would come for them to try to take their magic away. They think B is the one and try to convince everyone B is evil, which B denies and asks A what’s wrong. (Bonus if B only knows about A because they wanted to know more about their history in the town and C is actually the one after them.)

10) Person A rarely leaves their house but when they do everyone in town stares because they’re old money or something. But everyone doesn’t like A anyway. When B comes to town and their happy and smiley and nice to everyone A is convinced it’s all an act because no one could ever be that nice. B is especially nice to A, baking them cookies, sending them food. Person A thinks B is trying to poison them and they’re constantly being rude to B. Everyone shames A but B never says anything and just tries harder the next day. Eventually Person A finds them at their door and gets angry claiming they know B wants to kill them. But B just apologizes and confesses they just wanted A to like them because they’re not used to people not liking them. (Bonus if A feels bad and invites them in and they actually turn out to be good friends.)

If these aren’t what you’re looking for just let me know and I can redo them anon!

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belphegor1982 · 5 years ago

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I'm just imagining a cross-over of two of your interests - Bertie Wooster hanging out with Jonathan Carnahan. I think they would get along well!

(BERTIE AND THE CARNAHAN SIBS WOULD BE BUDS. More on that later.)

I’d heard of Jeeves and Wooster a bit but never really got into it until last summer, when I basically fell in love with Bertie Wooster, and since The Mummy is one of those few fandoms that’s always in the back of my mind just waiting for an excuse for me to fall back in, I realised at some point that the characters of both fandoms are pretty close in age, or at least the same generation. (And then TM/TMR took over my brain and I put Wodehouse aside for a while.) Evelyn must be about 25 in the first film; there’s 8 years between Rachel Weisz and John Hannah, and she’s two years younger than Brendan Fraser, so in my head the characters’ ages in the first film go thus: Evy, 25; Rick, 27; Jon, 31 (because a 5/6 years’ difference is more fun to play with than 8 years). Which would make Bertie exactly Rick’s age and (again, in my head), Jeeves 6 years older than Bertie.

I was just throwing ideas together and summing up what might come out as vignettes one day in different characters’ points of view, but it got long, so I’m putting it under a cut ^^’ It’s mostly headcanon stuff, anyway.

So. The Carnahans are a moderately respectable family, even if a lot of the upper crust turned their backs on John Carnahan once he married Salwa al-Masri, and Jonathan and Evelyn (respectively 13 and 7) are deemed suitable playmates for 9 year old Bertie Wooster. Bertie is a little baffled by the tiny force of nature that is Evelyn Carnahan, who despite being a tiny slip of a girl with lots of curly hair walks with purpose and self-confidence. (And she can read almost better than he does.) They have themselves a little adventure, and the sibs conclude that Bertie Wooster is a good fellow. As for Bertie, he’s also looking forward to further lessons in picking locks, climbing down drainpipes, and other exciting endeavours Jonathan seems to know a lot about.

At some point he hears Aunt Agatha make… derogatory comments about the siblings and especially their mother, who is a very nice lady, and resolves to keep being friends, because aunts can in fact be wrong, no matter how scary they are.

When Bertie’s parents die, the siblings find a muted sunshine beam that doesn’t look like their Bertie. Jonathan sets out to cheer him up with Shenanigans, and before they know it all three have taken a tumble into the duck pond of Brinkley Court. It’s a warm summer, so they lie on the grass and wait for their clothes to dry, and Evy talks about Duat and the Weighing of Souls while the boys listen. It sounds beautiful and terrible and probably shouldn’t make Bertie feel better, but it does, a bit. Aunt Dahlia is a little horrified at the state of their clothes, though.

Bertie attends Eton, with Jonathan a few years above him, so they don’t actually see much of each other at school. When the war rolls in, Jonathan doesn’t enlist right away (he tries to finish his degree first - and fails) and so spends almost two years (early 1917 to late 1918) on the Western Front. Bertie, as expected of a young man of his class and education, joins up as soon as he turns 18, but just before he’s deployed he’s hit by the Spanish Flu and spends the last months of the war recuperating and stationed in the South of England. He and the Carnahans write to each other as regularly as they can.

When Evy’s and Jonathan’s parents die in a plane crash, they receive a long letter from Bertie. A lot of words are crossed out and corrected, and it’s meandering and sometimes a little nonsensical, but unlike most letters of condolences they received so far it was plainly written by someone who is 1) kind to the very core of his being, and 2) intimately familiar with that kind of grief.

At some point, Aunt Dahlia reasons that since Bertie and the Carnahan girl get along so well, she might make a fine match, and she tries to push them together. Bertie is awkward and low-key terrified, Evy is nerdy and nervous and absolutely unwilling to seriously consider marrying anyone. She ends up swearing solemnly that she’ll never marry Bertie, which he is considerably relieved about, and they part as friends before she and Jonathan leave for Egypt.

But where is Jeeves, you may ask? Well, he enters the picture just after the above paragraph. Which means that one day, a few months after the events of TM, Bertie tells Jeeves about this childhood friend of his who just got married to an American fellow and will be coming for tea to introduce him to Bertie, along with her brother, simply spiffing people, really, can’t wait for you to meet them, old thing.

…Jeeves is not impressed. Mrs O’Connell seems agreeable enough, prim and proper and quite an authority in her field, but her husband’s tie is a little too loose and it’s clear he has no idea how to wear a suit properly. As for her brother, he’s a foppish cad who makes Jeeves itch to count the silver spoons the second he walks out the door.

Evy, recognising a fellow scholar from unlikely background, had a splendid time talking with him and Bertie, but Rick and Jonathan think Jeeves is stuffy and snobbish.

I think they’re all going to have a little adventure together, possibly with a slight supernatural twist, which will make everyone reconsider bad first impressions:

• From Jeeves’ perspective, Mr O’Connell clearly has more common sense than most of Mr Wooster’s friends and family, which is a refreshing change. As for his deplorable fashion sense (or lack thereof), allowances may be made considering the man’s history. (Though Jeeves privately thinks Mr O’Connell might benefit from having a proper gentleman’s gentleman to guide him down the path of sartorial competence.)

• Jeeves also mellows a little with regard to the Carnahan siblings, especially Jonathan (because he and Evelyn actually got on well enough). It’s transparent that both of them are genuinely fond of Mr Wooster, just as much as he is of them, and - unlike a number of his acquaintances - are just as quick to defend him and come to his rescue as they are to put him into what he calls “the soup” in the first place.

• It’s also what endears Jeeves to Evy and Jonathan, actually: the lengths this frightfully intelligent man is willing to go to protect the young master and make his life pleasant. They’re both familiar with the concept of service in a way Rick isn’t, and they recognise how Jeeves excels at his job.

• Plus (personal headcanon here) Jonathan, not being adverse to putting the occasional toe - or foot - or his entire person - out of what is legal for two chaps to do together, didn’t miss the way Bertie’s eyes shine when Jeeves is in sight like he’s never seen them shine, how enthusiastic his descriptions of Jeeves’ brilliance, how he’s splendid and grand and a paragon and such a perfect gentleman’s gentleman. Whether Jeeves returns the sentiment, Jonathan has no idea, but he hopes so. Call him sentimental.

• (Rick also noticed, and he’s fairly sure Jeeves does return the sentiment. Not because he knows Bertie, or Jeeves for that matter, but because he saw enough of the world to know what love looks like. He doesn’t say anything, though, because it’s none of his damn business.)

So that’s it for the mo’! I wrote about 800 words of the first vignette, from Bertie’s PoV, before my mind focused on TM and its characters almost exclusively and I lost what little of Wodehouse style I had. Here’s the first paragraph, for anyone still reading this :o)

I don’t know what it is about getting on in years, but I find as they pass that one tends to look back on one’s childhood days with a somewhat fonder eye than one experienced while actually living them. St Whatsit’s summer, halcyon days, as the Bard wrote. Not that I have reached the point my nieces, if ever they should set foot in old Blighty again, might start calling me “aged relative”, as I am sometimes wont to greet my dear old aunt Dahlia with, but some of the misadventures of my mildly misspent youth do seem a lot funnier now than they did at the time. I suppose it’s the same for any and all misadventures, really, since faithful readers might recall that some of the more recent situations this Wooster found himself in are far more ridiculous than letting oneself be trussed up and mock-mummified.

Promising, what? :D Hope I can make something of it.

Thank you for giving me an excuse to be ridiculously wordy ♥

#the mummy #the mummy films #jeeves and wooster #ask reply #Mummy headcanons #sammysdewysensitiveeyes

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not-a-space-alien · 5 years ago

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hey its me again wall of text sorry not sorry

k i saw your little treatise justifying zadr and yknow its a cartoon its not the worst thing ever of course nobody is gonna sue you for reblogging fanart or burn you at the stake or w/e and im glad you decided to open yourself up to a differing opinion but zim IS portrayed as an adult. there was even an unfinished episode where zim’s childhood and growing up training from start to finish would be shown so by the time of the pilot he is definitely a full grown developed adult by irken standards especially if hes a former member of an elite military force like the invaders. jhonen has said that the irony and sad comedy of zims character is that hes a grown ass man and a war veteran to boot who VOLUNTARILY goes to an elementary school every day and throws hands with an 11 year old boy who should be well below his notice because he’s that pathetic and desperate for validation that he’ll stoop to seeking it from a child. it also sets up a dynamic between them where dib is CHALLENGED by having to go up against an adult with way more experience than him while dib is just a child, so when he wins its more meaningful, which is a common trope in childrens fiction that an underdog young hero has to take down a powerful adult villain.

jhonen might joke a lot but he’s serious about this part of the characterization of zim and dib and he even went to great lengths to make dib look and act more like a kid in ETF (more emotional and naive, designed to look smaller/softer, going in depth with his relationship to his dad and sister and needing his dad to protect him at the end when he’s too overrun to fight alone) just to drive home the point of how young he is. it was a very deliberate move and jhonen knows what hes doing ESPECIALLY since he also left zim pretty much unchanged and also includes gags about zim’s relative maturity like animating him briefly grimacing because his joints are sore and the part where he pretty much gestures to his crotch and goes “theyre afraid to look at ALL-A THIS”. like you would not see jhonen do that sort of joke with an underage character ok. dont confuse his social awkwardness and self deprecating/trolling humor for not knowing the difference between right and wrong and not acknowledge when he means something sincerely because he doesn’t just clown on people and troll ALL THE TIME 24/7 hes a human, and times have changed with more awareness on issues such as the grooming of minors so he can go back on things he may have said in the past that he doesn’t agree with now or said by mistake. he has said enough times that zim is older than any human alive that its safe to take his word for it by now. judging by the one strip he did in JTHM about johnny murdering a pedophile who was about to prey on squee i think his stance on protecting kids is pretty clear. also i wouldnt put it past jhonen to have redesigned membrane to be more chaddy looking to divert the adult fandom’s attention away from dib and throw the fangirls a bone but thats a whole nother can of worms lol.

and the justification that zim is immature so hes essentially on dib’s level is a reversal of something lots of kids hear from either creepy or ignorant adults who tell them theyre “so mature for their age”. no matter how emotionally mature you are it wont ever compensate for the number of years youve been alive so that’s not very sound logic, and even in fic where theyre both adults it’s still pretty weird because it doesn’t erase their history where zim knew dib as a kid. that’s sort of like a grownup waiting with bated breath until a kid is “legal” so they can start dating. kinda like when jacob imprints on bella’s newborn daughter in twilight then having it handwaved away by saying he’ll wait till she’s grown up, which understandably drew a huge amount of criticism. it’s a loophole that might be mildly acceptable in some cases but the context leaves it colored with a residual ickiness that sets off some red flags for me and a lot of other people.

also you said zim is an alien and therefore the situation itself is unrealistic, but the reason invader zim’s writing resonates with people is because zim is written with very HUMAN emotions and motivations and part of the humor again is how irkens despite being aliens from another planet mirror some of humanity’s worst flaws such as being petty, gluttonous, willfully ignorant, arrogantly believing they are special and better than everyone else, easily manipulated by propaganda, all too eager to greedily colonize other societies etc making them not so different from us at all. so the premise out of context might not seem realistic but the idea of a sad burnout adult who doesn’t realize how humiliating it is to be consistently outsmarted by a kid less than half their age IS realistic and applicable to human interaction since we’ve likely all met someone like this before at one point in our lives for example a schoolteacher who has a personal vendetta against one or more of their students and has nothing better to do than antagonize them, or a really dumb parent that you fight with a lot.

another thing, i know you and other fans probably have a lot of sentimental value and nostalgia attached to zadr because you probably shipped it back when you were a kid yourself and you cant be blamed for something you liked as a kid, but youre an adult now, and you have to listen to the portion of kids in the fandom who dont like zadr and say without question that the age gap makes them uncomfortable. those kids ARE the priority. we’re grown up now and we have to put our feelings aside for them because that’s part of being responsible and mature. i feel like zim himself is a pretty good example of how not to act at our age [shrug emoji]

and anyway a lot of the same elements of zadr can be explored with zadf just as well with just as much potential for cute moments and as a bonus is it’s not creepy

You do bring up some good points, and I’m not saying you’re wrong... But honestly I’m still not convinced. I mean, stuff that Jhonen said, the thing is even if it’s the author saying it it’s still outside of canon, that’s the reason why Neil Gaiman got flack for Good Omens because they didn’t write an actual kiss or hug or hand-hold between Aziraphale and Crowley yet Neil Gaiman went on Twitter saying they were queer representation. I still don’t really put much stock into what he says because the unfinished episodes and Jhonen’s commentary don’t really change the dynamic that’s actually in the show. And again...Jhonen said if there were going to be romance in the show it would be Zim/Gaz, so he’s either a huge hypocrite or doesn’t view Zim as being incompatible with Gaz.

I do think it’s much better when Dib is an adult and it just makes more sense, and I actually do prefer zadf to zadr and if i were going to ever write fanfiction or make fanart it would probably just be zadf, just because i know this does have some stuff to think about and I totally respect that you have a different view of it, but i honestly just don’t see it that way. The analogy with Jacob imprinting on Bella’s child in Twilight isn’t really the same thing honestly. The author in that situation tried to make it not......that....by saying that imprinting isn’t always a romantic relationship thing, and that Jacob would be more of an older brother, but honestly that doesn’t really negate the impact of grooming that kid would have with Jacob around. The idea that Zim would somehow be grooming Dib seems really silly to me although you’re right, I think his characterization in Into the Florpus has evolved somewhat especially with regard to Dib wanting to get his father’s approval, but again Zim has parallels with that in trying to please the Tallest. the world-building and characterizations are inconsistent and scattershot at best. Like no, zim isn’t waiting for him to turn legal, that’s absurd, they’re nemeses coming at each other then learning to be friends. You’re right that that doesn’t have to be zadr but I still tag it as zadr so people can block it if they want to.

Like, I’ve seen people ship Zim with Professor Membrane instead of Dib. That seems very weird to me. that professor membrane would have a relationship with someone who literally goes to his son’s elementary school and who doesn’t know anything at all about human behavior and emotions.

I feel like with this discussion people don’t really understand the problem with age gaps. With age gaps, it’s not a matter of mature/immature, it’s about development. A ten year age gap sounds like a lot right? a 25-year-old and a 15-year old would absolutely have a predatory “relationship.” But a 35- and a 45-year old, that’s perfectly fine. Having a difference in age doesn’t automatically make the relationship unhealthy. so if Dib is 25 and Zim is [whatever the hell aliens years i still don’t really take Jhonen’s word for it bc he’s not consistent], that’s doesn’t mean it has to be bad. The thing about telling minors they’re “so mature for their age” to try and convince them that a person interested in them isn’t a pedophile is that we know a human being who is 15 isn’t developmentally at the same level as a 25-year-old regardless of their behavior. What is Zim? All we have to go on is how he acts, and he acts like Dib is an equal match, it’s not “he’s immature for his age,” it’s very unclear. Raw number of years isn’t the ultimate decider, for example in DnD lore elves reach maturity at, like, 100 years old so a 25-yo human trying to get with a 50-year-old elf would be predatory to the young elf even though the “younger” one is technically twice as old as the human. Do you see what I’m saying?

I also don’t really buy the idea that Invader Zim’s writing resonates with people because Zim is ~~so human~~. The guy steals a bunch of kid’s organs in one episode and flies into a tantrum over the slightest inconvenience. You have to be reading really deeply into it and dig into some old internet archives of things Jhonen Vasquez has said to paint it as realistic. You can do some interesting things with it wrt like, Zim being defective and starting to experience human emotions but that’s mostly fanon.

Well, you’ve given me some things to think about, thanks for explaining your side to me. I’m still going to tag things as #zadr so people can block if it can’t plausibly be categorized as zadf. I’m not actually making any fan content for Invader Zim so the point is kind of moot, but if I ever do I’ll definitely take this into consideration.

#invader zim #zadr #submission

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jesstinsource · 5 years ago

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Do you really think they wont make Justin and Jess endgame?

was thinking about this on the train this morning bc that is what my life has become at this point. and i really don’t know tbh. the writers have put so much effort into getting them back together in s3, more than they have any other couple in the show. brandon and alisha have The Chemistry that it’d be a pity to waste by breaking them up in s4, unless they do it at the end. i’m still convinced that the only way they’ll not be endgame is by justin dying. the postcard says ‘i’ll always love you’ and i don’t think they could ever fall out of love at this point, and especially not so if we’re following the characters until their graduation from liberty. it’s not like them being endgame in the season necessarily means it’s endgame for the characters. you could easily headcanon that they break up after a year or something. BUT, while the ship is very popular as of s3, many people and the show itself recognises that it is a mildly toxic relationship with that history. no wait. petition that we just start referring to their relationship as tragic rather than toxic, bc toxic implies that they’re unknowingly hurting each other in the present, and treating each other like shit. and they're not. they didn't mean to hurt each other. it all depends on whether the writers put effort into redeeming their relationship. clarifying tape 9, exploring their ptsd, and letting them recover together. and on a positive, brandon and alisha were on set together for most of s4 filming so that is a good sign (unless they’re killing off justin in the final ep, which i don't even want to think about)

#ask #anon #ask: jesstin #no one:#me: here's an essay

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uniformbravo · 5 years ago

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a bunch of winter 2020 anime first impressions from Me

Koisuru Asteroid / Asteroid In Love

ok ive already professed my love for this one so i wont get too much into it but basically it’s Extremely cute & im way invested in the two (HOPEFULLY romantic) leads bc their relationship is so sweet so far aaaaaaa

like do u SEE this shit im actually tearing up hgnfhrognfghdjfnjg

this show is Pretty and Cute and Space-Themed and Probably Gay what more do u Need. i love it 10/10

Keep Your Hands Off Eizouken!

so fucken good, this is the one i was most excited for based purely on the art style/animation and god did it deliver, everything is such a treat to look at i fuckin LOVE a setting w/ just as much personality as the characters

and My Goodness the Characters, 3 distinct girls w/ strong designs & personalities that aren’t like super moe/catered to cishet dudes heLLO

we Love a gremlin protag & her chaotic neutral best friend & the “fuck you dad i want to make anime” dreamer they meet........

also HELL YEAH it’s about making anime and they don’t even use that as a gimmicky set piece, the art is a huge part of the story and the detail with which it’s explored in the first ep gives me high hopes for the rest of the show aaaaa so excited to see where this one goes after that BANGER of a first episode

Jibaku Shounen Hanako-kun

switching gears to a less great one lol..... so the thing is this show’s visual aesthetic absolutely fucking slaps in a way that’s so rare to see in a sea of samey anime art styles, like the character designs are unique and everything is so damn colorful, the backgrounds alone blow me away w/ how fuckin Pretty they are??? LOOK at this shit

and just. this show has a lot of stylistic flourishes that make it like 100/100 Certified Good-To-Look-At Anime

which makes every other aspect of the show that much more disappointing lmaoooo like ok i can deal w/ a mediocre story if the visuals slap, which they Do, but also these characters look 10 & we’re doing the whole sexualizing minors thing which fucking BLOWS it’s so uncomfortable to watch........... i feel like it’s one of those things where they’re trying to justify it by being like “o well hanako’s like a thousand year old spirit or whatever so he’s not REALLY underage” but fuckin. fuck off he looks and sounds like a Young Boy yall know what ur doing ugh

it’s not a thing that happens Constantly throughout the episode, really just a few moments here and there, but it is in the op pretty prominently so i feel like it’s gonna be a Thing that keeps happening so idk if i’ll stick w/ this one in particular which is a Damn Shame bc it really is such a gorgeous looking show im mad

number24

ok ngl just from the character designs alone i rly didn’t think this one was gonna make as good a first impression as it did??? i guess the huge ensemble cast of pretty boys reminded me of last season’s actors: songs connection, which uh. was Not great,

so i went into it totally expecting it to be all shitty but it rly surprised me, i found it so intriguing? the characters are actually really endearing so far...... i love how it doesn’t try to shove the entire cast in our faces in the v first ep but instead starts out w/ a small handful and lets us spend a lil time w/ them while only giving assorted Hints and passing impressions of the others, that was nice

also love how very not “generic sports anime” it is right off the bat by dropping us right into the middle of these characters’ story instead of doing the whole “bright-eyed first year joins the team and fights his way to the top” sorta deal- which you’d think would be a confusing and awkwardly paced approach but in this case is handled surprisingly well, especially because it seems like it’s gonna have a lot more elements of a character drama than a straight up classic sports anime (which i am Super here for)

(there is a lot of rugby in the op though so we’ll see how things go, it’s only been 1 ep after all)

the air drop into the characters’ established lives makes introductions a lot more organic as well; since the characters are already familiar with each other we don’t have to sit around watching everyone introduce themselves to the protag, we get to infer their relationships and general opinions of each other through their various interactions & it’s a thousand times more engaging imo!!

i mean we do have this other first year joining as a manager and our protag did deliberately say he learned everyone’s names/info after deciding to become a manager so im sure we’ll be getting those character introductions anyway, but well. we’ll cross that bridge if/when we come to it

also i believe this takes place in college rather than high school?? i couldn’t pay attention to every detail but i definitely got that kind of vibe in which case Hell Yeah another welcome deviation from the norm babeeyyyy (i just checked and it Is college yeehaw)

basically what im saying is im tired of tropes & number24 just no clipped past the first 25 chapters of the sports anime formula and also it’s set in university AND it seems to be character-driven & im living thanks thank u

Pet

ok ill be honest i completely forgot that i watched this one lmaooo (which should give u a hint as to what i thought of it *thinking emoji*)

the art style’s whatever and the animation’s whatever, nothing special there. the show is like, dark?? more stupid than dark idk it feels a little bit “welcome to my twisted mind” but the twist is homophobia w/ a mild side of ableism, and also an entire episode of suspense wondering if im gonna have to watch this black side character die (he doesn’t, so there’s that at least)

honestly i cant even remember what drew me to this show enough to put it in my plan to watch, i guess the premise sounded interesting enough (something about controlling minds and erasing memories?), but mature psychological shows usually aren’t really my scene, especially when they’re executed.... Like That. i did kind of enjoy the twist at the end, mildly, though i feel like it was pretty obvious in hindsight and the only reason i didn’t see it coming is bc i can be astoundingly shortsighted when it comes to things like that (aka im DUMB)

since it took until the very end of the episode to Really introduce our dynamic duo tho, i feel like this ep was more of a prologue than anything and the Real show is gonna begin in ep 2, which is great n all but uh. idk if i care enough to give that a watch tbhhhh. i might just to see what the show has to offer but really truly honestly cant see myself sticking this one thru to the end lmao rip

hate to end on a bummer note like that but hey that’s all i got for this post ! i have more shit to watch so i’ll probably end up making like a part 2 w/ more impressions but this is getting long enough that it’s becoming kind of a pain to keep adding more so thats it for now boiyoeiyeoii

#i kept wanting to talk abt my thoughts & figured this format would be more efficient than making a bunch of scattered text posts #also this way i get to include pictures to help identify each show #which is a lot more fun and probably way easier to understand wtf im talking about #so thats my gift to u ur welcome #retag later #ani blogging

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humanscandrivestick · 7 years ago

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E.Q.--Early Water: A Halloween Special

Apologies on 2 fronts: 1) that this is a few hours late for the countdown, since I was working on it all day between actual work, and 2) its the first E.Q. story in MONTHS since The Lift. ;.; I swear to get back at it guys. I promise.

Taking place in the Side A part of the story (a first!), this halloween story takes place after album 2, and includes my favorite character Quentin for once XD. It also has some minor sexy parts so maybe nsfw just in case. Inspired by the Michael Hoenig & Manuel Göttsching song, of the same title: Early Water. Enjoy!

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"I wouldn't say its an urban legend, if it has good eyewitnesses," Pollex said, leaning back in his chair. He raised an eyebrow at his open chat screen at Django. "If, that is, you have some." "Eyewitnesses? Hell, old friend, I've been there." The older man, taking off his trademarked fedora, ran a hand through his sandy colored hair. Today's outfit was a navy colored button up shirt with grey pinstripes, and navy colored slacks. The usual contrast from Pollex's usual all-white attire, with light accents of lavender. The man in white sat up slowly, a look of puzzled concern on his face. "You've...been there? Are you mad? You don't know what else could have happened!" "I'm not the sort of man who sends his men into unknown territory, you know that." Django sighed and leaned back in his chair, a hand across his eyes. "In any case...the rumors are true. That place...is.... Its quite dangerous if word got out more." "Indeed. The young and adventurous often seek out higher highs than they're prepared for. I've already got the Suits and Hoover working the acid wave that's hitting recently, but no bites there." "You think they're related?" "I don't believe so. From your description, there isn't even the inkling of music. Is there?" He frowned in recollection. "Something's going on there. Definitely infrasound first, because you're getting nausea in the first part of the place. But if there was music...I don't rightly recall it. I'm sure there was. I can't think of anything logical that would cause me to see my late wives so vividly." Pollex frowned harder. "You saw your wives..??" Django sat up and gave him a long pained look. His eyes were the color of watered down aquamarines. "I don't believe in ghosts." "Nor I." "But I did see them, Pollex. I.... I held Mary in my arms....I could hear Lora's voice. This was...so real on every level, Pollex. If they weren't ghosts, they were one hell of an illusion. One hell of one. I'm thankful I had enough of my senses to take off and leave. Because if you were me....you wouldn't have believed they'd been dead for over 15 years."

Bass was on the floor of the music room, laid out on his back, smoking as he listened to Quentin and Treble play on some synths he'd whipped up on a building lark. He'd had the pieces lying around and wanted to see how much of a machine he could get out of them. Though the pair had spent most of their time mildly bickering over style choices and instruments, it'd been quite a pleasant, Ocotber afternoon. Treble was dressed lightly, jeans, blue converses, a light blue shirt and dark blue jacket. Bass stared at the ceiling lazily, wearing black denim jeans, orange high top converses with yellow laces (his candycorns, as he called them), and a long sleeved black shirt with red sleeves, sliced at the shoulder to expose them. Something halfway between summer wear and fall wear, but Bass was a Cali boy and he needed the transitional wear more than most. Quentin had similar colors in his outfit; a red and white hoodie with black sleeves, brown trousers and a pair of red sneakers, matching the color of his hair. "You know," he trailed off as he took a drag. Treble and Quentin glanced over from their bickering. "You guys sound like a married couple." Quentin went pink nearly immediately, but Treble rewarded him with a withering look and pushed his glasses up his nose. "Oh please," scoffed Treble as he unplugged the synth to test another piece of machinery. "I'd sooner swallow my tongue." Quentin gave him a matching look. "Gee, love you too, darling." Bass laughed. "We used to snip like that when we first started dating." "As if you actually remember that time period," Treble said coolly. Had anyone else mentioned Bass' memory loss--particularly that part of his life--Bass would have clocked him clear across the room. But from Treble, he only gave him another chuckle and drag from the cigarette, blowing a thin trail of smoke. Fade came in, plainly dressed because she had been working on Bass' side car to his motorcycle, wearing black tights beneath a long sleeved gray t-shirt dress that ended at her mid thigh, and white sneakers. It still had her usual touches, in that the cuffs and bottom hem had a trim of faded cream lace, and her neck ribbons were of a silken, silvery gray. She also had a kind of frilly, laced maid headband on, like a french maid, only it was adorned with a single black bat. Bass gave her a lazy wave. "Ey, Babydoll. How goes my second baby?" Her hands signed, and Treble had to look up because Bass was one of the few people he knew who didn't understand a lot of sign language. Your springs need replacing soon, but the oil is topped off. He repeated her verbally and Bass nodded. "Yeah, sounds about right. How 'bout my Lady?" He meant his kneeling racer, the RS80 Elegant Lady, a non-street legal kneeling bike with a side attachment made for sidecarcross or sidehacking. The 2 of them had been planning on installing lights for night riding, and refitting the sidecar portion to be a little more safer for riders other than Treble. It was a personal pet project ever since Bass scored half the engine and the frame from a junker months ago. To Bass, it was his ultimate plaything, besides the frankensynths he was wont to making on whims. To everyone else, it was a deathtrap to everyone but Treble and Bass. We're going to need to hack the frame to fit the components for the lights. The brakes need a ton of work. "Lights don't fit, brakes need work," translated Treble. "I'll do a frame hack when I can get my hands on the fiberglass and materials." She shrugged but part of her was excited for the project. She liked the challenge. "You ever gonna race that monstrocity?" asked Quentin. "Fuck yeah. I've been dreaming of a EL for ages to drive." Balance entered the room, a little more pensive than usual. Fade and Treble waved, but Quentin questioningly looked at her. She was dressed lighter for the season, with a black bandeaux style top that showed off her middrift, brown shorts and a short sleeved brown canvas top with faux fur trim. That was the English part of her showing. "What's the matter, Bal?" She was chewing her thumbnail in thought then looked up at them. "Mm. Dunno. Heard some weirdo stories, trying to decide if they're true." "What kinda stories?" asked Bass, sitting up to put the butt of his cigarette out. "Ghost stories." Treble raised an eyebrow. "Didn't think you were the type." "I was just messing around with some guys in the painter's department, getting stuff for the next few easies and directions and stuff." The painter department in question were Pollex's street artists and graffiti artists at the ready to tag places in the city to tell people where the next easy he was hosting was. It took a practiced hand to make the seeming vandalized art convey messages like locations and times and musicians, and it took a practiced eye to decipher them. Part of the department was usually made of artists and cryptographers. "Bass likes scary stories," Quentin said, pointing a thumb at him. Bass shrugged. "I like hearing them...been in maybe one or 2 in my life." Quentin gave him an incredulous look. He never knew that; just that Bass liked marathoning scary movies on a whim, though mostly in October. Treble had to hide a tiny smile. He remembers one of those. What was it about? signed Fade. "They say its a building where you can see the dead in." The 4 of them looked at her with varying degrees of belief. She looked at them and shook her hands at them. "I don't really believe in that stuff! I just heard about it. One of those, I heard from my friend's sister aunt's nephew's boss kinda thing." Treble rolled his eyes. "Well, then why do you look so concerned, if you don't believe in that." "Well, I wouldn'tve normally. But....well, I think I heard Cash and Moebius also talking about it when I went to see the boss. Like, I didn't think they knew I was there until I came around the corner. I mean, Cash, I dunno, but you know Mo. They're pretty clinical and stuff. Not superstitious. But they were talking about why people might see the dead. I dunno. I don't understand that psych stuff, they're hella advanced." "They were talking about it?" asked Treble, seriously. "Apparently the boss had a friend who went through it. I mean that could be anyone....but...I dunno. I mean if he was talking to Mo about it, maybe its serious?" There was a small silence, then Bass clapped a hand on her shoulder. He smiled gently. "Let's go ghost hunting, shall we?"

By dividing and conquering, the 5 spread out to each of their respective branches, hitting the streets, the internet, and other members of the Gemini Network. Bass easily gained information while Treble stuck to researching with Fade online. Quentin tried Mo. Moebius was having tea when he entered but the psychologist was rather evasive to him. "C'mon, at least throw me something," he said. Moebius had a face of mild dismissal. "Confidentiality." Quentin tried his little pout. "You're cute, Seek, but I'm afraid I can't do anything for you." Sipping tea, the young psychologist then sighed. "You didn't hear it from me." Quentin nodded. "Django." He was mulling that over when they met back up a few hours later. Treble and Fade were able to pinpoint a location somewhat: based on the eyewitness reports they were lucky it was within the city. Moreover, the recent rumors about it were relatively new, perhaps only starting in the last year or so. According to Bass' sources, it was an obscure test of courage, at least now that it was beginning to gain traction. Quentin waited until everyone had gone and simply reported back what he heard from Mo. "Django." Bass' and Treble's eyes sparked in sudden interest. "He knows?" "He's been. At least I think that's what Mo meant. She wasn't exactly the most enlightening, since it was confidential between her and I presume Di--er, Pollex." He was still getting used to the boss' "real" name these days. Bass glanced at his partner. "Maybe we should check it out. I mean...if the old man's ok, I mean." "I'm sure he is. I'd have heard something, or even Quentin," Balance said. Bass was looking at Treble now. "Well? Whatcha think, Treb?" Treble was quiet a long while, his deep blue eyes in calm, but deep, thought. "Let's go check it out. Just in case."

It was part of the abandoned parts of Staten Island, parts of the city that hadn't been rebuilt in decades, looking like a place most filmmakers go to film their post-apocalypse short films. In one of the condemned areas of a neighborhood there was a duplex that matched the descriptions. It had once been teal colored, but the paint was faded and peeling. Many of the windows and doors were boarded up, and covered in graffiti. Most of it was the usual gang tags, but a few were more cryptic. Crude spray painted tombstones and doors across the walls and boarded windows. What do you A pair of painted eyes replaced the word "see". Who are you looking for A few arrows painted on the front, dead lawn and sidewalk, all lead to the front door. The boards had been pried off, and were leaning against it, so it wasn't hard to get inside. Bass, Treble and Quentin all were wearing the back units, but opted instead for the visor headsets rather than the helmets. Treble wanted a wider field of vision than the helmets would afford, and forwent the extra armor for the ability to see clearly. Balance was armed with a handgun (as were Quentin and Treble), but Fade only brought her tablet, though in her backpack was a wireless harddrive set that could continually "talk" to the boys' units. It wasn't ideal, but Treble reasoned that perhaps it was merely rumor that was more dangerous than anything factual. "You don't believe we'll see dead people in there?" asked Balance, a little unsure. "I don't believe we'll see ghosts," Treble replied, as they inspected the outside. "A dead bum on the other hand..." Bass said, probably a bit too blithely than he should have. "That's not funny!" Balance and Fade said/signed at the same time, and Quentin was also a part of that chorus. Bass gave them a silly look but Treble nudged him sharply and rolled his eyes. They made note of the exterior, which didn't seem to have been disturbed or lived in for years. Quentin gingerly inspected the boarded windows with a light, expecting something to be looking at him. Fade was tracking anything she could with her tablet, moving towards the front with Balance as the boys inspected the grounds slowly. "Don't think anyone's been here except thrill seekers," Bass commented as he toed aside an empty beer bottle. "I don't understand," Treble said quietly. It made Quentin and Bass pause to look at him. "What?" asked the redhead. "A test of courage like that....like.... I don't understand why anyone would want to do something dangerous just for a thrill." Quentin considered that, but Bass looked up at the house thoughtfully. "Its what make some people feel alive I guess," the blonde said. He put his thumbs in his pockets and cocked his head. "Like easies....or riding roller coasters, or even doing drugs.... Some people just can't get the juice outta life till they squeeze the really dangerous stuff, you know?" Treble was quiet a long time. Then, "I know.... But sometimes I wonder...maybe they do that because they're emptier of the things that would normally make them feel alive." Quentin watched them both. There were times he could sit and listen to Treble and Bass talk and feel like they shut out the rest of the world while they did. Sometimes it was because they were so into something they just plumb forgot about everyone else. Times like this, he felt invisible because he knew they were trying to do something on a deeper level. Get into each other's heads. It wasn't as uncomfortable as it used to be, he admitted. Before he could add to it, they heard the sound of wood falling down. Immediately, Treble and Quentin took point back to the front of the house as Bass followed up. Then something took his attention. He slowed as the 2 disappeared around the corner. An unshakable feeling in the pit of his stomach, blossoming. He looked around for the source, but didn't see anything immediate. Still it was a gut feeling, like a slow wave of nausea building. He'd felt it once or twice before, but this was more subtle than he was used to. "The fuck....?" Instead of following his partner and Quentin, he activated his visor and started a scanning program. Treble and Quentin came to the front door where the boards had been moved aside, some had slipped to the ground with a clatter, which is what the boys heard earlier. There were no signs of the girls. "Shit, you think they went in??" Quentin asked. Treble inspected the entrance, where wood, debris, and even broken furniture had been blocking the foyer inside. He could see the telltale prints of sneakers on the thick layer of dust on the debris. "Unfortunately, most certainly."

Balance, while the boys had been in the back, peeked into the front door, scanning for anything. She turned on her flashlight and peered into the dusty darkness. Fade was behind her, peering in with apprehension. "I don't see much," she said, as she straightened up and started to move some of the wood blocking the way. Fade caught her elbow and shook her head, pointing towards the back. Let's wait for them, she seemed to say with her yellow green eyes. They looked a little scared. "I just wanna look in the entrance." She managed to make a space for her to enter the foyer a bit of the way. Even with the sun trying to push its way in, it was still unimaginably dim. She climbed over a broken chest of drawers and part of a dining room chair set as she followed the front door hall. She was a yard or so in when she pointed her flashlight down the hall and gasped. The hallway walls and floor and ceiling were covered in writing. It wasn't anything vulgar, obscene or even horrifying. They had writing, long passages from something she'd longed to read with her own eyes. Every so often was a signature she'd only seen in blurry internet photographs when she'd gone hunting for them. Trancer 9 Like handwritten scripture on the walls of the duplex were the very passages written in a book rumored to have been lost in the fabled City of Lyrics. The answers to all her questions for the future of music, the very weapon the rebel networks needed to tear down the Music Corps. Here, on these walls, like a siren song. Abandoning Fade, she quickly began to follow the lyrics, the words and passages further into the house. Fade, hearing Balance move away from her, began to panic. She pounded and smacked at the boards, trying to call her back, but her friend was already moving away, as if in a trance. Nausea and a small headache had started to build in her, and she quickly turned, thinking she would get the boys to come back. On the other hand, there was no telling if they were alone in the house. What if something or someone came for her? Without another thought, Fade quickly scrambled after Balance, kicking over and off the boards and dilapidated furniture to follow her, despite her feelings of sick and dread. Her own small flashlight barely gave her much light to see, so she used her tablet as a light as she made her way into the hall, and then into what looked to be a living area. The walls were full of graffiti, holes from vandals or just chipping and peeling paint and wallpaper. There wasn't a sign of Balance in this room. She was about to head back out to get help when she heard a thump in the next room, probably a hallway or even the kitchen. She froze, straining her ears, but heard nothing more than her heartbeat, and the silence making the barest of hums, like a slow fan turning. Not hearing anything else, she cautiously made her way to the hall and looked towards the kitchen. Nothing. The hall to what she assumed were bedrooms were also dark and empty. How far did Balance run off to? She turned to the hallway and saw someone standing in it. She opened her mouth in a silent scream, but the figure only stood and watched her. With the sun streaming in behind them, it was hard to make them out. Her body was completely frozen in fear until the figure began to move towards her. When it was close enough, she could see, amid the backlighting and the haze of dust, it was Treble. Tearfully she threw herself into his arms, where she sobbed silently, trying to calm down enough to tell him what happened. His arms closed around her and she felt one of his hands run through her hair softly. As she caught her breath, she looked up and was about to sign to him what had happened when she froze again, this time in shock. It wasn't Treble anymore. It was Angelo.

Bass came around the corner as Treble was moving aside larger pieces of debris with Quentin hurridly. "Guys, you gotta hear this." He was attempting to link what he was tracking to them when he finally noticed what they were doing. "Whoa. What happened?" "The girls went inside by themselves," Quentin said, his voice tinged with a little panic. Bass quickly went to the open doorway and peered in. "Jesus. Why??" "I have no clue why they would go in by themselves." Treble unholstered his gun and was about to go in when Bass caught his arm. "Maybe its this." He pointed to his visor, so he nodded once and activated his, and Quentin did the same. Bass shared his headphone input he was receiving. It was a low hum, and by the look of their HUD sensors, it was unmistakably infrasound. "Something just started the infra broadcast. I can't pinpoint all the speakers, but I know they're in there. Maybe they went in to check it out." Treble glanced at his open texting windows and they were blank. "If Fade had noticed them, she'd have told us." Bass chewed his bottom lip, and Quentin let out a frustrated exhalation. "Let's not waste time, let's go get them and get them back out." Treble led them in, and looked around. The hallway, and kitchen areas were empty. Bass took note of the increasing level of infrasound on his visor, but swept the area with his eyes. "Split up?" asked Quentin. "Shit, doncha watch horror movies?" snapped Bass. Treble was moving down to a hall and found a bedroom, where he found Fade collapsed. Quickly he was gently checking her for injury before moving her too much. The blonde and redhead were right next behind. "Is she all right?" asked the younger Trancer as Treble gently pulled her into his lap as he checked her. "No, she has a left too," quipped Bass, though his tone wasn't at all joking. Quentin, irritated, snapped, "Damn it, Bass, now's not the time!" Treble shushed them both, but his own unease and irritation was growing as well; perhaps the infrasound was beginning to take its toll. "She's passed out, but I think she's ok." Instead of coming to, as Treble gently shook her to wake her, she only wordlessly mouthed something over and over. "What's she..." asked Bass, uneasy. Treble paused, watching her, and then, "....I think...its....'Angelo'." Bass started at him as he pushed past Quentin, to kneel at his side. "Are you sure?" "I know how to read lips. I'm positive now." The blonde watched her as her half opened, yellow green eyes blankly stared at something far away. It did seem like she was mouthing those syllables. "Why's she doing that? He's...." Bass shook her her a little more forcefully. "Hey. Fade. Come on, babygirl, wake up." Unresponsive, she only lay limply in Treble's arms. Bass exhaled, and turned to Quentin. "Hey Quent, can you--" The redhead wasn't anywhere to be seen.

Quentin heard someone calling his name, so he turned to look down the hall as Treble and Bass tried to rouse the poor collapsed girl. Finding no one in the hall, he went towards the kitchen, following the sound towards the foyer as it led him towards the stairs to the second level. At the top of the hall was a figure. "The fuck are you?" he asked, drawing his gun. The figure didn't speak, only moving towards the rooms upstairs, and against his better judgement, Quentin ascended the stairs to follow it. It wasn't until he followed it to a bedroom and it stopped that he got a better look at it in the dim light coming from the single unboarded window in the staircase hall. They were wearing a Corps suit, with a blue armband with Trancer 0004. Rust red hair. Deep green eyes. Small creases near his mouth and eyes, portraying graceful age. Quentin nearly dropped his gun. ".....Father....?" HIs father only gave him a small smile. "My little suzerain...." Quentin shook, as his hands slowly pulled the headphone visor off his face. "You're...you're not dead....what are you doing here?!"

Bass lifted Fade and Treble followed him back out, as the sun was beginning its climb down the sky. They had a few hours left before sunset, but it wasn't prudent to push their luck. Not at this stage. He leaned her against the house in the backyard, and looked up at Treble. "I don't wanna leave her here by herself." "I'll go back in for them," Treble said as he checked the gun and activated his visor again. "I don't want you to go in by yourself either." "We don't have a choice. I don't want her by herself while we're inside. That may be what they want. Whoever they are." He exhaled. "I know but...." Treble reached over and gave his hand a squeeze. "I'll be careful." He started back around the house, and Bass decided to make himself useful while standing watch. He linked up with Fade's tablet and the harddrive, trying to sort out the data he was finding, trying to find a source. Damned if he wasn't going to try finding the source of the mystery. Treble reentered the house and listened. He could almost hear that droning, the infrasound that was making them all irritable and sick. Still, that couldn't be all that was happening. He was sure he heard voices; Quentin? Balance? Someone else? On a hunch, he started up the stairs when he heard Quentin talking to someone. He paused, straining his ears, but couldn't hear anyone else. Was he talking to himself? He frowned. Infrasound doesn't usually make people talk to themselves. It merely made them sick, anxious. Slowly, as silently as he could, he climbed each stair with deliberate slowness. He couldn't hear the conversation yet but it sounded one-sided. "N...no.... I...I can't. I can't...go back...." Treble reached the landing, then he heard another sound, a loud thump as if someone had fallen onto the floor. Still, Quentin continued to speak. It obviously wasn't him. "I.... I want to. I want to so bad....but I'll be...." There was a pause, as if someone was talking to him, and yet the TC still couldn't hear them. Was it possible they were signing to him? The thump had come from another room, and the raven-haired man made the decision to check that first; Quentin was obviously conscious. Maybe in danger, but not so far. It was possible that what Treble heard was Balance, and she could need the help more than he. He found an open bathroom where a light was coming from, floor level, and quickly peeked in. Balance was on the ground, her flashlight on the floor. He checked the hall, listened for Quentin, then quickly checked on her. She was breathing, didn't seem to have hurt herself badly, and seemed to also be in the same, half-lidded trance as Fade had been. He was about to pick her up when he heard the barest sounds of music. He thought it was being patched from Bass, but it wasn't, through that channel. He removed one headphone to get a better bead on it. That's when he heard the sound of Quentin hitting the ground in the next room.

Quentin's hands were trembling uncontrollably. HIs father was supposed to be in Paris. Why or how was he here? Of all places, the middle of nowhere, in a supposedly haunted house? And his father wasn't even dead. As far as he knew, his father was a live and well. "Father, what are you doing here?!" he asked, hoarsely. "I've come to take you home." His father sat on a dusty table and gave him a gentle look. The redhead fumbled for words. "Go back...home? I can't go back! I'm....Father, I've....I've defected!" The magnitude of the word slams into him hard, saying it out loud makes the last few months now startlingly real. After the Sound Tower, he was effectively a dead man. His father of all people should know that. "Oh son....that won't matter. Come back home. I'll take care of everything for you. You'll never have to worry again." "N...no.... I...I can't. I can't...go back...." He shook his head, trying to clear it, but it only became more muddy and foggy. As small tinny in his ears began, as if there was the sound of a song far, far away, on a radio, barely picking up the signal. "Of course you can, suzerain. I'll make sure of that." "I.... I want to. I want to so bad....but I'll be...." "Nothing is going to happen to you. I promise. You'll never have to worry about a single thing anymore." There was a throbbing ache in Quentin's chest. The thought of going back to the way things were before the tower. The freedom to play music again, the way he was trained. The release of all the sleepless nights, never knowing when the Corps would catch up. If...if his father could manage it.... If he could go back to the way things used to be.... His ears were ringing, filling with the deep sounds of music, and his longing was so painful and powerful, he barely registered it. Where...is that music....coming from....? Quentin dropped to his knees, then to his side, slipping away into the eternal moment of an endless possibility.

Treble could hear it plainly. It was a gentle ocean of music, so soft he could barely hear it. He removed his headphones to get a better listen, slowly getting to his feet. He knew it as soon as he could clearly hear it. Ambient. Dealers on the street called it Ambi for short, an offshoot of 303, or Acid. Insidious stuff, one doesn't understand what's quite happening until its too late. Once the listener drops into Loss--the feeling nearly all musicians and listeners alike feel when listening to music, where the world can be shut out, and the mind opens into mild suggestion and pacification--the mind picks up and takes over, often inducing visions or hallucinations in the listener. Acid often delivers highs that the mind quickly finds addictive, causing the abuser to constantly feed their addiction by listening constantly to it, forgoing all necessary functions of life until brain death. Ambi on the other hand is mostly unpredictable, causing hallucinations and visions that one can't tell if they're real or not. Instead of cutting off the world like 303 might, Ambi augments it, adding to the world the listener still occupies, so that they can't separate illusion from reality. While it normally lacks the addictive nature of Acid, Ambi still claims its victims every year through manipulation and misuse. There was a reason it was banned and outlawed, with many Trancers in the Corps being unauthorized to even sample or use it without special granted access. Somehow, amid the infrasound jacking, someone had inserted Ambi into the broadcast. That was why Quentin had been talking to himself, or Balance had run off, or Fade was lapsed into her litany of her dead fiancee's name. Treble got to his feet and made his way to the hallway to the stairs. He had to tell Bass. If they could interrupt the jacking, they could conceivably break the spell over the house, and maybe find the culprit. He paused at the landing, as the music was now audible enough for him to catch it without having to strain his ears. With the layer of infrasound, it made for an uncomfortable feeling of nausea and anxiety amid his determination. Putting a hand to his face and shutting his eyes, he tried to clear his head. Too late, a voice in his head scolded, You idiot! Put your headphones back on! You're falling in! That's when he felt arms around himself, warm and comforting. His instincts, still sharp amid the dulling senses, made him tear himself away and reached for his gun reflexively. Bass was behind him, his eyes puzzled. Treble let out a sigh of relief. "Damn it, Bass. You scared the hell out of me." He shook his head, and reached for his headphones he dropped. "Bass, we need to get Quent and Balance out. This place is being pumped full of Ambi." Instead of saying anything, Bass reached for Treble and, with firm force, pushed him to the wall, pinning him. In shock, his partner looked at him incredulously. "The hell are you doing?!" he cried before his partner leaned in and started to lap hungrily at his neck. In spite of the situation, the raven-haired TC let out a thin groan before trying to escape. "Nnn...B-Bass, stop...." But Bass only continued, his hands groping around but still keeping his partner against the wall as he chained kisses from his neck to his ear, then to his mouth where he deepened the kiss. His tongue darted against Treble's, hot and forceful. He moaned, trying to protest, but they were drowned out by his partner's lust as they slid to the floor. Counterpoint to his partner's assault, the music continued as Treble struggled both to throw him off, but also struggling to not fall under that same spell. He groaned as Bass ground himself against them, trapping Treble as he writhed and tried to rise off the ground. "Stop...! Bass! Stop...! Its the...its the music! Try to....try to fight it!" He was quickly losing his battle as he found himself returning the kisses and lustful moaning, and just before he became overwhelmed, he had a sinking, terrible thought: This...this isn't Bass.... This...this is me.... I'm....I'm.... He let out one more whimper before shutting his eyes and allowing it to take him over. I'M the one who's under the music.

Bass, after a few minutes, found the source of the infrasound, and tried to isolate the channel. He frowned as he saw more layers to the audio data flow than he expected. There was more than the base noise he could feel and hear. He spent some time tuning it, unpacking it until he found an audio channel and he isolated it further and amplified it. He immediately regretted it. He knew the type of music within seconds, and he quickly got to his feet. He made an aching decision and quickly left Fade in the corner and entered the house. He pulled his own headphones off to hear better, and just above that barely imperceptible hum, he could hear it. Ambient, and it was in the house. It wasn't obvious until he reached the stairs and heard a soft groaning. He quickly climbed the stairs and found Treble, on his side in the hallway, trembling, his sapphire colored eyes half open and glazed over, his alabaster skin flushed pink. He knelt down and touched his partner's shoulder, and he groaned lustfully, softly. He shut his eyes briefly, calmly listening, then he slid his headphones on, and using Fade's tablet, started to trace the signal. Outside it was hard to get a bead on it, but inside was a different story. Almost immediately, the visor began to pick up all the speaker sensors, and he followed them to the back bedroom of the duplex, where it was shut and boarded up. The boards looked newer, the nails were still slightly shiny, so he found a sturdy chair and began breaking the door down. It took awhile, but he gained entry into the abandoned room. A single computer machine was in the back, near the back window, and it was on. He checked the screen, where a program was running. Speaker setups were shown to be in every corner of the room. An infrared sensor was at the entrance of the downstairs foyer, and when tripped, would activate the entire system for just about 48 hours, before shutting down into sleep mode for the next trigger. Bass reached over and yanked as many cords as he could out from the back of the computer. He checked an impulse to pick up the devil machine and throw it out the window or to the floor. They would need to investigate it further, of course. The sounds gone, it was like a weight immediately listed off his shoulders. He sighed in relief, and leaned against the wall as his thoughts started to collect like rain in a dish left outside in a storm. After a few minutes, he picked up the keyboard and slammed it repeatedly against the floor, trying to rid himself the the anger he was now feeling. The betrayal of music. The mishandling of the art. The wretched feeling of having someone be taken advantage of. Bass clenched his fists in anger. How dare they. How DARE they do this to his friends. To HIS Treble. He heard someone come in, but he didn't turn around. He was too angry. He felt Treble wrap his arms around him. The anger began to evaporate like dew off the grass in the morning. "Let's go home," Treble said quietly.

"I....I didn't know Ambi could do that," Balance said as they debriefed with Pollex, Moebius, and Django on a video call. Irate at their impromptu investigation, Pollex had to forgive them quickly when they were able to bring back the machine for analysis. He began to regret giving the EQ unit the autonomy he had, though he couldn't argue with the results. And in any case, it seemed like Django was additionally grateful. Moebius, dressed in a lazy japanese gakuen style uniform, nodded. The psychologist conveniently left out her little lead she gave to Quentin, and no one brought it up, thankfully. "Ambient's pretty potent stuff in the right Trancer hands. It makes some pretty convincing hallucinations. Anyone with any sense of Loss is at its mercy, and when it gets combined with some 303 elements, you've got some serious recipes for disaster. More so with the layer of infrasound." "That was part of why it was so diabolical," Bass replied. "The infra layer was pretty strong. It masked the audio layers until I was able to rip and isolate. That shit ain't kids play; that's some next level mind control shit with the right mix." "If we get a hit on the machine, we'll let you know," Pollex said to Django whom tipped his hat to them. "I'm grateful to you guys," he said. "Still....don't make it a habit." "They won't," Pollex said, icily, giving them a look. The 5 responded with varying degrees of shame, from Balance and Quentin with the most, and amusingly Bass with the least. He ended the call and waved them off. "You're dismissed....but don't let me catch you doing that kind of stunt again." They filed out of his room as Mo followed them out. They were on their way back to one of the music practice rooms when Mo piped up. "Actually...if you don't mind me asking....what DID you guys see when you were under Ambi?" Treble simply flushed and glanced to the side as they sat down around the various instruments, himself and Fade at a piano bench, Quentin and Balance on chairs by the guitar rack and Bass, predictably, on the floor, already lighting up. Fade hesitantly signed, I....I saw my late fiancee. Mo gave her a look of sympathy and nodded. "I'm sorry, sweetie." It looked like Treble at first though. She flushed a bit and looked at him, and he gave her a questioning look back. "Hmm. Par for course, I hear. They can make hallucinations change, depending on mindset." Balance spoke up. "I...I saw the Book of Trancer 9." Quentin and Fade looked confused. "Its...something I've been looking for....it was on all the walls, like writing and stuff...." She cast her eyes away, embarrassed. "Never mind...I guess its hard to explain." "You didn't see anyone deceased?" asked Moebius, interested. "No. I wonder why." "I didn't either..." Quentin said softly. He was looking at his hands. "I saw my father. But he's alive. And he told me...he wanted me to come back to the Corps." Treble considered that; it made sense for his responses he remembered. "That's interesting. Only one person saw the dead." Treble didn't say anything. The only person he told was Bass, and he was disgusted with himself. That he had allowed himself to fall under so easily. Bass watched his partner and sighed. "It would make sense then...for what everyone saw. The file name for the audio was 'desire'." Mo looked particularly interested. "Oh so? Maybe that's why everything was so...varied with you guys. I mean, I know some people see deceased loved ones, according to the rumors. Most everyone does. I guess if they heard the rumors, their inner desires would manifest illusions of their dead loved ones. On the other hand, yours all seem to...tie into your deeper desires. I assume." She gave a quick pointed look at Treble, whom evaded the look by setting himself at the piano and beginning to play. She gave him a disgruntled look of disappointment then stood up. "Well, if you guys wanna unpack it, you know where to find me." She headed for the door, and Bass followed her out. She looked to Bass, as he was heading down the corridor towards the drink vending machine. As he fed the machine his card, she poked him on the arm. "What about you, candycons?" Bass shrugged. "I didn't see anything actually." She blinked. "Really?" "I don't Loss. So Ambi doesn't work on me. It never has." She was quiet a long time. Then, "What about your Acid reaction?" He was also quiet a long time, sipping his bottle of water as his deep black eyes stared off onto some unseen point. "Acid's different. You said it yourself. Rejection Fallout. I'm having an allergic reaction to the music....not falling under its Loss. Or whatever." They were silent in the hallway a long time. Moebius sighed, then gave him a reassuring ruffle to his hair. "You're lucky you're Lossless. That's a really rare quality." She started down the hall, and was around the corner before Bass also sighed. He leaned his head against the wall and looked at the ceiling with a look of unease. "I have loss in other ways, sweetheart. And I'd never call it a good trade off."

#E.Q.#E.Q. Fridays #Side A #Album 4 #Treble #Bass #Quentin #Fade #Balance #halloween special

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singingpuddle · 8 years ago

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My commentary whilst watching Buzzfeedblue’s “The Murders That Haunt The Lizzie Borden House”

Hey… so i’ve decided ill just do these whenever i feel like it. The video is 3 months old but turns out I never saw the whole thing.

A refresher:

1. this was a joke ship… not so much anymore

2. This post is super long

3. I long for the day I no longer have to cross out the boy in boyfriend when it comes to these two. I mean COME ON, they just seethe domesticity.

4. After a little bit i will stop putting full names, so just know.

R=Ryan and S=Shane

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Height Difference for the win.

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Ryan: “You cant go through the front anymore, you gotta go through the back.”

Me: I know deep down that that wasn’t meant as a euphemism. But…

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Me: So you guys arent married.

R&S: No…

Me: But your alone in a haunted house and the first place you go in the house is the nursery?

R: That’s where we ended up going first.

Me: Im watching you two. *seedily looks them up and down clutching adoption papers behind my back*

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(i caught him mid shookness)

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R:*scared and shook*

S & doll: *Laughing asses off*

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R: “…ongoing investigation into the question. Are ghosts real?”

S: *Looks into camera like he is on the office* Things I do for my boyfriend

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R: *Telling story*

S: *says something mildly funny to break tension*

R: *Immediately brightens up*

Me:Look at the Smiley Lil Boyfriends in the Murder House™

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Political Correctness is key when ghost-hunting

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Me: Sherlock Holmes and Jhon Watson who? I only know Shane Madej and Ryan Bergara.

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S: *doesn’t believe*

R: *Builds altar to voice snipping* It proves EVERYTHING.

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Me: Are you flirting by…

S: wielding an axe at my boyfriend?

Me: Yes?

S: Well not flirting..

Me: Its flirting.

S: Then yes, I am flirting with Ryan via murder weapon.

Me: Knew it!

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Ryan “I think my boyfriend is crazy and that’s exactly what I like about him” Bergara

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Quick question… is it just me or is Shane actually letting Ryan do this at his own speed?

Like Shane didnt even say anything about the lights, Ryan did. And Shane’s response was like a soft “sure”. As if the decision is entirely Ryan’s to make. In all seriousness, that’s some A+ character growth right there.

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R:*minorly shook*

Me: its da radiator ya dingus.

S: *Softly indulging Ryan’s shookness*

Me: Awww… look at the Boyfriends being all gay and shit supportive of each other

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S: *Talks about murder in a way that makes Ryan laugh*

Me: Im not sure how much fluffier we can get this episode… I think maybe we should stop here. Wait…*shipper senses tingling* I guess not.

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*Something seemingly legit paranormal happens*

Me: *Legitimately surprised*

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Let us just take a moment to Imagine them as fathers of a little girl who’s afraid of monsters under her bed so they spend the night in her room assuring her they are scared equally as shitless as she is. And in the morning, when they are all okay. Shane says something along the lines of “See no monsters, If there where any we would have caught it on camera.”

Ok Resume normal comentary

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Ryan “My boyfriend is a complete dork and which is yet another thing I like about him.” Bergara

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Dorks™

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R: It pisses off the ghost if you take his money.

S: yEET i fiNa piSS oF sOmE gHoSt

Me: *Not surprised just, a little disappointed*

S: Im only doing this to piss of the ghost, not because I want the money.

Me: *No longer dissapointed, still not surprised*

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Me: This must a new type of foreplay ive never heard of, because you guys have been flirting this ENTIRE VIDEO.

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S: *Immediately sits down with all of body facing Ryan*

Me: Not boyfriends…

S: Makes joke exclusively to make Ryan Laugh

Me: …sure.

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Me: Uh… Ryan…

S: *COUGH*

Me: Your kinky gay fantasy is showing

S: Awkward…

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R: I feel the Haunt

Me: is that all your feeling?

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Me: What do creepy children sound like to you?

R&S: British

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*static*

S: oh shit

R: See PROOF

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Me: Romantic? Creepy? … Why not both?

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S: “LIZZIE”

R: *shooketh… but for good reason*

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Me: … Wait a sec… your… sleeping… here. THEY ARE GONNA SLEEP IN TH SAME BED AREN’T THEY… I CAN FEEL THE FRICKING DOMESTICITY FROM HERE *vibrates with excitement and anticipation*

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Me: Shady Shit™

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Me: You seem a little impatient there Shane. Just want to crawl into bed and cuddle your boyfriend sleep?

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1. Domestic Ghost-hunting

2. He actually is doing what Shane would do, but different.

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Me:Now… Im not saying it looks like your imagining Ryan straddling you but…

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Me: Yeah give me that gay shit

Me to Me: No… But Murdering is bad.

Me: But so is homophobia… actually on second thought, WHO THE FUCK IS WRITING LIZZIE BORDEN FANFICTION… LIKE, WHY?

Me: Not saying that Lizzie wasn’t hecka gay. Just that maybe don’t romanticize gruesome murders.

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Me: Welcome to “Relizing your domesticity” with our guests Shane Madej and Ryan Bergara.

(+ Flirts Good bants)

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DOMESTIC HUSBANDS BEING DOMESTIC

(Fight me, They look married)

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Me: His eyes look cool in the night vision. Creepy, but cool.

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Look at the sleepy boyfriends sharing a bed.

Me: Just share the fucking blanket. It wont friggin kill you. GEEZ

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Me: This is NOT what waking up next to your boyfriend is like? Hm… okie dokie then.

(also A+ for the first screengrab, it looks kinda cute and romantic. Like they where a cheesy couple and shit)

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They are looking directly into the black hole sun that is shyan.

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Cute and Creepy, just the way they like it.

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50 More Interesting Questions

Rules: fill this out and tag at least one person you’d like to know more about! Or just fill it out! Or don’t! Answer only some of them! Make up your own questions! “What kind of requirement is that”, you ask? A reasonable one! Who am I to tell you what to do? Anything goes!

tagged by @o0w0o :3

i’ll be tagging from the start because i want them to know about me (because i consider you my friends ^^ ) : @dreamsinparadise @mellifluoussanctuary @tentori21 @nikkihime @o0w0o …

if other people want to become my friends too i absolutely don’t mind (i’m just extremly shy i can hardly start conversations lol …)

it’s long so i’ll put it under the cut (i had to use my laptop for Tumblr to actually accept the lenth…wtf are you doing Tumblr…)

1. What kind of food can’t you stand?: when you find something that looks disgusting and not edible tell me…you can safely count that into the list of food i can’t stand.

2. If you could choose one minor inconvenience to never have to deal with again, what would you pick?: hair…. I’m sure most girls know what i mean because it’s really annoying.

3. Have you got any useless talents?: my lack of talents ?…

4. If you could be really really good at one thing, what would it be?: DRAWING… i wish i could draw … that’ll save me alot of trouble…

5. Name a few people you think are extremely good-looking: from real people none.

6. What was your favorite way to pass the time as a kid?: i don’t remember .w. …

7. What is something you’re proud of?: i don’t think i ever did something that i could be proud of.

8. What’s one character flaw in people that you just can’t tolerate?:empty pretty words… if you don’t mean something then don’t say it !

9. Do you consider yourself to be more of a leader or a follower?:i consider myself the neutral loner… but if i’m forced then … follower leading others is a pain.

10. What kind of student are/were you?:the normal average loner student who sits at the end of the class near the window who doesn’t say or do anything unless the professor decides otherwise.

11. Butterfly effect question! Has there ever been a seemingly minor decision you’ve made (at the time) that ended up having a profound influence on your life?: making friends that clearly are only after me because of what i can offer them and then betraying me and my trust when my period of usefulness has ended… that pushed me to the red line of almost creating a double personality which is still till now in progress…

12. Name your most irrational fear/aversion: I HATE BUGS… I DON’T SCREAM ALL THE TIME WHEN I SEE THEM BUT I CAN’T STAND THEM (i once needed to use my uncle’s bathroom but inside there were 3 FLYING COCKROACHES…. I just got out before even entering)

13. Are there any fictional characters you find especially relatable?: Saizo and Masa… My personality is a mix of parts of theirs… i feel like if i add a bit of yasu into that mix i’ll be fine dealing with anything coming my way…

14. If you drink, what kind of drunk are you? Alternatively, what sort of person are you at parties?:i don’t drink so i guess we’ll never know… and i freaking hate parties… loud noise, loud people, and clearly some people who can’t help interfering or forcing what i don’t want on me.

15. Do you fall in love easily? Or does it usually take a long time for you to trust someone?: i don’t fall in love…and i learned to not trust people… if you want it you have to deserve it.

16. Would you rather have one close friend or 100 casual friends?: one close friend… isn’t that the obvious choice anyway ?

17. Do you consider yourself to be more of a slob or a neat-freak?: in between i think…

18. Describe a place (imaginary or real) that you would find incredibly cozy: that background with the cherry tree we see in Saizo’s routes…

19. Do you have kids? If not, do you want them someday?:i don’t have… i wont have… and i don’t even want to marry… (people around me keep telling me « you have to be like this or that so you can marry » it’s really annoying… well guess what i wont freaking marry you can count on that)

20. What was your favorite book as a child?: i don’t remember .w. …

21. Name one thing you just don’t get what all the hype is about: hmm, depends on my mood… lol

22. Name one thing that you think is tragically underrated: i don’t know… i don’t care about ratings… if i like something than that’s it…

23. If you had to be glued to a person for a month, real or fictional (who you have never met), who would you choose?: that would be SAIZO… but i have a complaint about the duration… i want to be with Saizo all the time, not glued but just with him…

24. What’s something you’d like the chance to do someday?:GOING TO JAPAN !!!

25. Do you typically speak your mind when you have a controversial opinion? Or do generally prefer to not rock the boat?: i don’t speak my mind… i mind my own business.

26. What’s the dumbest fad you’ve been caught up in?:do falling unceremoniously from the stairs of my school count ?… i was in a hurry ok…and the person in front of me just abruptly stopped out of nowhere which made me miss my step… that was so embarrassing omg…

27. What’s something you thought was cool as a kid/adolescent, but now cringe at yourself for?: i don’t know… XD

28. What’s a trait you consider to be very admirable?: acceptance… accepting people as they are…

29. Is there a particular kind of item people always tend to give you as gifts? (For instance, people always get you things with ducks on them because you like ducks, etc.): i never received a gift… so i won’t know

30. Do you speak multiple languages? Which ones?:i do, leaving my mother language out (which i hate for no reason…) i speak French and English… now self-learning japanese when i have free time.

31. Would you rather live in the big city or the countryside?: countryside… i want PEACE AND QUIET.

32. Has there ever been something you were certain you’d hate, but ended up loving?: yes… though i don’t remember what it was exactly._. …

33. Do you mind being the center of attention, or do you prefer the spotlight to be on someone else?: definitely AND ABSOLUTELY NOT !

34. Favorite holiday?: most of them

35. Are you a more go-with-the-flow type of person, or do you need to have things planned meticulously?: go with the flow xD

36. Is there something you loved so much you wish you could forget it and experience it all over again? (A tv show, book, series–anything.):i don’t want to forget it … but i want to experience it all over again.

37. What hobbies do you have?: OTOME … also cooking sweets which my mother doesn’t let me do…

38. If you could have a superpower, but it was only mildly useful, what ability would you want to have?: INVISIBILITY !! Don’t ask me why… i could spend days telling the reasons…

39. Something people are always surprised to learn about you: i don’t know… even mother doesn’t exactly know me… they only know what i want them to know…

40. Something that took you way too long to figure out: that if i want to survive in my society… i have to be always alone, indifferent and not trusting and to not freaking share my excessive kindness and sensitivity with people… because it hurts so much later…

41. Worst injury you’ve had?: i was once furious because of my professor at that time… after lunch at home father forced me to go cut a watermelon which I didn’t want to do… and because of my anger i ended up cutting deep into the skin between my thumb and index finger of my right hand… it hurt so much… and it took me a month to completely heal…

42. Any morbid fascinations?: i am not answering this

43. Describe your sense of humor:i don’t think i have it… probably sarcasm… but only inside my head.

44. If you had to be born in another era/place, which would you choose?:as long as it’s in slbp world, i don’t care��:D

45. Something you are irredeemably bad at:DRAWING… which is annoying because i can’t get my OC drawn D : … and i can’t pay for a commission too TwT… oh well as long as i can imagine it in my head then it’s fine.

46. Something that sucked but you’re glad you went through: changing town every 3 or 4 years since i was a kid… thank god we don’t have to anymore…

47. Would you rather have a really godawful ugly tattoo in a place that is only slightly inconvenient to conceal with clothing (upper arm, thigh, etc.), or the coolest, most beautiful tattoo ever in the middle of your face? (Neither tattoo can be removed or concealed with makeup, and the ugly tattoo will deeply offend anyone who sees it.): both are HELL NO when i want one i’ll get it done where i want it and unless i’m certain it’ll turn out GOOD i’m doing anything… on the other hand i want to stay natural.

48. Are you more of an optimist or a pessimist?: PESSIMIST TO A FAULT…

49. What would be the most flattering compliment someone could give you?: unless you absolutely mean it then don’t even think about saying it… because you are deceiving no one…

50. Something you feel people often misunderstand about you: everything about me… people paint me in the color they want to see me in… not that i actually do something to correct it… if people really want to understand me they’ll figure it out by themselves.

#i really want those who are tagged to read this ...#because outside from these type of things it's almost impossible for me to open up fully #and i actually want the friends i make to knoww about me #oh and Tumblr.... I DIDN'T KNOW YOU HAD A FREAKING LIMIT FOR TEXT LENGH FOR THE MOBILE APP...#i mean #come on really ?#why the hell do you eveen have it #=w="

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