#if i didnt care for my friends I wouldnt be putting all this effort into this blog. love you guys :3c

[thehauntingsofficial]

Well, looks like they deactivated… again!!!!

Let’s see how long it takes before they make a new account and pretend to be someone else. Lmao.

Good riddance! My team and I will be on the lookout for their new blog, but in the meantime, I'll keep making updates periodically!

[databent]

doesnt even feel worth it to try to have a social life anymore thanks to chronic illness + circadian rhythm disorder. cos im too sick and tired all the time to be able to make myself present in anyone elses life enough for them to find it worthwhile to devote any of their time to being friends with me. like who wants to talk to someone whos asleep all day and can hang out once every two months tops

[oceanwithouthermoon]

ive seen you say terusai is implied a lot but i dont remember ever seeing you explain why you think that

yeah now that you say it, i dont think ive ever gone into depth about it 😭 its really hard to put my thoughts into words because its sooo much, i started writing a long analysis recently on their relationship, why i believe they have feelings for each other, and why they would work but itll probably sit unfinished in my drafts for a while

for now, i'll give you a few of my most noteworthy thoughts...

the mixer scene has teruhashi unknowingly proving to saiki that her feelings are true, and he accepts that and stops trying to get her to stop pursuing him. i dont believe he ever actually makes any REAL effort to try to stop her from liking him ever again after this. he genuinely hadnt acknowledged her feelings as true or at least not as deep yet, which is why he thinks hes succeeding at getting her to move on until she proves that not only is she still thinking of him, but shes NOT thinking of a fake version of him... shes thinking of HIM... she genuinely enjoys his company even when hes doing nothing but sitting there (which is factually and obviously what he wouldve been doing in this situation, people deny that for some odd reason but like. thats what he does. with ANYONE. even his own family and everyone else who knows of his powers.) and wants him around... i think some part of him stopped because he felt guilty for not believing her feelings were true and trying to control her heart despite her genuine intentions, and another part of him was realizing that he doesnt WANT her to stop having feelings for him... otherwise, why would he drag the other guys away WHILE acknowledging that she wouldnt have gone with them anyway??? after inserting himself into a rock paper scissors game for who gets to be the one to be with her???? HELLO?

and the offu, although i dont believe it was a direct declaration of him being in love with her or whatever, has obvious canon romantic connotations... teruhashis determination is something saiki has admired about her since the very beginning, but it isnt until THIS moment that he thinks in depth about what that entails... she makes him realize all at once that she truly IS the type of person he admires most... and his "offu" is exactly what teruhashi needs, she would have a straight up epiphany if she knew about it, because he DIDNT gasp at how beautiful she is, or anything she forced herself to do, or when she forced herself to CHANGE, he ONLY gasped when she let herself embrace a part of herself that was REAL and TRUE, her unwavering dedication and pride.

THIS chapter is where they both have huge realizations about themselves and each other, and they both prove that theyre more than willing to meet in the middle for the other...

saiki lives his life forcing himself to blend into the background, not because he genuinely wants to but because hes afraid to be SEEN.

teruhashi lives her life forcing herself to be perfect and the center of attention, not because she genuinely enjoys it but because she believes she wont get the validation she feels she needs if she doesnt give everyone exactly what they want from her.

and yet, here saiki is, allowing himself to jump into the spotlight and be seen catching teruhashi out of nowhere and carrying her to the nurse. and here teruhashi is, allowing herself to be seen being imperfect, forgetting something, and not caring about her conversation with these men. FOR EACH OTHER. they both let themselves break down a wall because they care more about the other than about the fake selves they dedicate their entire lives to, THEIR GENUINE CARE FOR EACH OTHER GIVES THEM THE COURAGE TO DO THAT.

and this is probably the number one reason why i think their feelings for each other are implied... this alternate timeline is quite clearly one where saiki is more open with his friends, and he and teruhashi ARE DATING in this universe. theres absolutely no other explanation for the author writing that. he spelled out "IF SAIKI WERE MORE OPEN WITH HIS FRIENDS, HE WOULD BE DATING TERUHASHI"

the saiki of that timeline isnt exactly the same as the saiki we know of course, and their relationship will not develop in the same way, but theres clearly intention behind this and it wouldnt be written and called attention to if there was no significance, youd have to jump through hoops to deny that 😭

overall, i think they both have a lot of work to do on themselves before they can be in a relationship, but not only do i believe they WILL eventually get there but also that they both need each other on their personal journey to get to that point, or at least that they are and will continue to be important in the others journey there, and their romantic feelings for each other are so clear... these two are so important to one another...

[ninmnoi]

— Stop, you’re losing me.

mingyu x reader || angst.

summary ; trying to save an already failing relationship is a lot harder when he forgets your birthday.

(not proof read lol)

⋅•⋅⊰∙∘☽༓☾∘∙⊱⋅•⋅

Its your birthday, you’ve never made a big deal about it tell you met him. You still remember his shocked face and loud “WHAT” when you told him you dont found your birthday a big deal, its just another day. Ever since then, he always celebrated your birthday in fun surprises and dinners. He made it so important and meaningful for you, and the big part of that is because you know he’ll be there.

So your nothing short of despair when its past 5pm and he hasnt once messaged you. It’d be another thing if he just didnt message happy birthday, you wouldve been okay with goodmoring.

You sigh putting your phone down, bitting your lip as your eyes water. It shouldnt be this serious, you’ve never even cared about your birthday before, so why dose it hurt so bad now?

Mingyu

That god damn Mingyu.

He used to be such a soft spoken soul, aiding to your needs as you do with him, those first few years of your relationship. He confessed to you in your own backward, he put his effort and time into it. You can even smell the flowers that lead to Mingyu, see the lights that brightened his soft smile, that swift hair and tall figure standing nervously fiddling with the bouquet in his hands. And who could forget the blush that tainted his face and ears, tears threatening to jump out after you said “yes.”

Now, your even lucky if he stays with you a whole day. Its always this or that driving him away. When he left your sisters engagement dinner because a friend of his needed help moving in, or when he canceled a date because he forgot a “really super duper important project” as he said. The nights he wouldnt call, the empty king bed. The second toothbrush that hasnt been moved in 2 weeks.

It drove you insane, but you still gave him the benefit of the doubt.

“Maybe he’s busy”

“Hes probably sleeping”

“God his phone must’ve died”

Your friends would yell at you over text, spamming you with the reality check you needed, but never could deposit. After pacing around the kitchen trying to ignore the cute cake you bought with a sad candle slowly sinking into it. You pick up your phone and call him.

Ring…

Ring…

Ring…

*click!*

Did he just hang up on you..?

No, he would have to be crazy.

You call again.

Same fucking thing, even quicker just 2 rings in.

You open his contact info, trying to see where his location would put him.

“No Location Found.” You curse, what is he hiding? Your mind leads to the one scenario you’ve been dreading, infidelity. The thought of him cheating makes you wanna throw up, but sadly its a most common event. You’re just so done with everything, putting the cake away into the fridge and changing clothes. Its now 6:42pm and with the major headache you have, you simply decided to sleep it off. Hugging the build-a-bear Mingyu bought you a year back, it muffles your sobs, soaking in the tears.

It’s cold and dark when your awaken by an extra weight adjusting it’s self onto the right side of the bed. You recognize it all to well. Mingyu pulls the covers over himself, giving you a small peck on the tip of your ear.

“You’re home” you say, your drowsy and hurt voice clear.

“Yeah- im sorry im so late” he whispers to you

“There's cake in the fridge”

“Cake? For what”

You sigh, “My birthday”

You can hear his breathe hitch.

“Fuck- Baby im so sorry. I didnt mean to forget. I was just so bus-.”

You sit up.

“Busy,? from what? So busy you couldnt even text? Because clearly it wouldnt have taken as much time as hanging up on me and turning off your location did. So if ‘busy’ is some new slang for ignoring then that makes way more sense.”

“I didnt even know you called, i swear. My location should be on babe.. I” He mumbles on

“Then whos hanging up on me? Making sure i dont know where your at? Is she fun?”

Mingyu’s eyes widen

“What are you talking about?”

“Her, you know.. Is she attractive? What is it huh? Skinner than me? Or maybe blonder? Or is because you dont need to be responsible for her?

“Baby no, its none of that.” He grabs your shoulders.

“I love you, calm down”

“How can i?” You exclaim, jumping off the bed.

“You missed my birthday! I waited for you like some stupid dog! I felt so stupid.”

“I dont understand, birthdays were never that big of a deal for you”

“They werent until you made it a problem! Now look at me” you say, the tear stained face and puffy cheeks evident.

Mingyu gets up, walking over to you.

“I know ive been distant, let me make it up to you”

“Where were you tonight?”

He stays quiet for a moment, taking a deep breathe

“My friend he uh… invited me to a club” he quietly says.

“Oh. Okay.”

“Okay..?”

“Mingyu, get out”

“What?” His heart drops.

“Get out! Did the club music deafen you?? I want you gone” You yell, tears streaming down your face as you push him out. Though you have little to no affect of moving his body, it makes it all the more depressing.

“Okay…Okay..” He quietly says, grabbing his phone off the dresser. Looking down at you with remorseful eyes. His heart aching at the messed up state your in. And its because of him, god.

You slam the door behind him, locking it. You sigh before faintly walking back to your bed.

And theres your build-a-bear, ready to be hugged and to soak all your tears again.

Atleast, that comforts you.

[aidlyncanon]

this is my first actual tumblr post since idk what to do but ive had this idea in my head for a while and I wanted to share 🤗

so heres what I think each sbg characters love languages are. I wanted to include both the love language they express towards other and the type that resonates? with them when expressed by others. i dont know how to word that but I hope itll make sense 🙏

if it's inaccurate im sorry im not great at wording but i did try and make it at least a bit accurate which is hard when im unsure to most of these

𝐀𝐒𝐇𝐋𝐘𝐍 𝐁𝐀𝐍𝐍𝐄𝐑

𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐑: 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄/𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄?

— I feel like this may be the only one that properly fits Ashlyn. I could see her maybe also liking acts of service but i cant exactly explain why.

Maybe its because I think its also what she would do for others that I think it would fit. Like I said maybe acts of service like people doing little things to make her life easier.

I have a headcanon that Taylor or Ben has things in their bags for the others (total mom friends) so imagine her shock when she found out someone had ear plugs in their bag incase she needed them?

you get where im going with this?

𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐘 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄

— I take little to no criticism on this. I can't imagine Ashlyn's being anything else. If she tried getting a gift she'd probably take too long wondering if theyd actually use it. Physical touch is a meh, she doesnt hate it but it wouldnt be her favourite. She said herself she isnt the best with words.

Her gift to people is just her presence. She'd be the type to occasionally need quiet but wouldn't mind being in comfortable silence with someone she likes. I feel like quality time would be her way of showing she cares for someone.

𝐀𝐈𝐃𝐄𝐍 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐊

𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: ???

— This is an idk because im basing these off of what we know about their background and character but we know like nothing so everything about this is based off of pure theory.

The only canon part i can mention is that during his conversation with Ashlyn at the school he mentioned how since he moved around a lot he never really had a true bond with anyone.

"You seemed like the type to only get close with people who mean something to you."

So Aiden didnt just want someone he could feel attached to, he also wanted to feel cared for. Its a two way street with him.

While I could see him loving physical touch as I doubt he got enough of that as a child and he clearly loves being touchy with people I feel like with what we know I could argue really any love language. He'd probably take anything if it makes him feel cared for.

I found a picture of a chart saying "your love language may show what you lacked as a child" and he checked every box so he's fucked.

I ultimately want to settle with physical touch as he seemed shocked when Ashlyn initiated the hug likely due to being the one to always initiate them. Like above he probably just wants his efforts reciprocated.

𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐏𝐇𝐘𝐒𝐈𝐂𝐀𝐋 𝐓𝐎𝐔𝐂𝐇

— Self explanatory we see him being touchy with Ashlyn. He also put his hand on Tyler (idk if this is still fast pass if it is my apologies).

"he did that as a stay away from my girl" stfu. 🤗

𝐁𝐄𝐍 𝐂𝐋𝐀𝐑𝐊

𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

— I take ZERO criticism on this.

Were all aware how bad his bullying was so I doubt he heard anything nice about him.

The main thing that makes me believe this is that every time he gets complimented or something nice said about him he gets sort of flustered and blushes.

This ^ was ben after Ashlyn complimented his bandaging job. A small compliment I know but even after what taylor said about him opening up he blushed there too.

You can't deny it means a lot to him he probably thought about those for a while.

𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐆𝐈𝐅𝐓 𝐆𝐈𝐕𝐈𝐍𝐆

— I talked about this in a discord server briefly but I want to share it here. You know the quote "the quieter you are the more you hear"? Well thinking of that ive come up w the idea that Ben likely is more observant compared to most people.

Hed be the one to notice if someone was looking at something for a while in a store or hear it pass in conversation. Make a mental or physical note of it and get it for them.

I just imagine him being the type to be like "i know you like this" or "this reminded me of you". I feel like he wouldnt be the greatest at expressing it in many other ways so he resorts to getting people things.

Hes also pretty artsy so I can also just imagine him making people little things for them.

Like, tyler taught him guitar? gets tyler a new pick. Logan looking at something in the store? need to remember that. and so on

𝐋𝐎𝐆𝐀𝐍 𝐅𝐈𝐄𝐋𝐃𝐒

𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

— Similar to Ben's. I could maybe see quality time being important to him as he hasnt had many people want to stick around him.

I mean his parents didnt want him and barrons group are just assholes so spending time with someone who genuinely cares for him? Doing an activity he enjoys? Hes over the moon.

𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄

— I can see him wanting to help people, i mean he helped Noah (the guy who barron replaced him with). I can imagine him doing little things for the group and people he loves.

He might get a bit embarrassed if confronted about it but ultimately hed do it again.

𝐓𝐀𝐘𝐋𝐎𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐙

𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐄𝐑: 𝐐𝐔𝐀𝐋𝐈𝐓𝐓 𝐓𝐈𝐌𝐄???

— This is up in the air but I feel like it fit her the best? I imagine after her dad dying at a young age she grew up knowing that time with people is limited and can end at any moment.

So i can imagine her really appreciating someone spending one-on-one of just personal time with her. But i can also just see her appreciating any type.

My thing is I can imagine her being happy with receiving anything as long as someone had her best interest at heart then she'd become the happiest girl ever.

𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐖𝐎𝐑𝐃𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐀𝐅𝐅𝐈𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍

— Another give in, she does it ALL THE TIME. Its literally her defining feature. Shes very good with words and likes making others feel better about themselves. Seeing people perk up from her words would be enough to make her own day better.

I imagine she too, like tyler, had to be there for her mom a lot. So she probably learnt it from that experience. I also imagine her want to make people happier stemmed from seeing Tyler slowly lose interest in everything around him and wanting to be able to be the person who could make his day just a bit better.

Though like above I could see taylor doing things she knows mean the most of others. Like the moment she realized Ben likes words of affirmations she made sure to compliment him a bit more. After realizing Ashlyn likes quality time she would find a way to do that while also not overwhelming Ashlyn, say a movie or just going on a walk. Shed make an effort to make people happy based off of what they love the most.

𝐓𝐘𝐋𝐄𝐑 𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐍𝐀𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐙

𝐓𝐎 𝐇𝐈𝐌: 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄

— Tyler spent his entire childhood taking care of people so imagine how he would react to being taken care of for once.

I figure like at first hed be a bit reluctant however I think ultimately it would mean a lot to him to not have to always be rhe one taking care of others but being able to rest for once.

Like idk how to word it but I think it fits him, I could also see MAYBE words of affirmation? since he did want that when Logan Ashlyn and Ben found him but then again I dont blame him he was literally sitting bleeding.

𝐓𝐎 𝐎𝐓𝐇𝐄𝐑𝐒: 𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐒 𝐎𝐅 𝐒𝐄𝐑𝐕𝐈𝐂𝐄?

— This one has a question mark since im not sure. Taking care of others has just became nature to him, its his factory settings. Its not something he like goes and does to get people interested its just natural to him.

I dont think its something he'd do specifically to express care, he'd likely be unaware how much it could mean to someone since its just life to him.

Im not too sure what his would actually be MAYBE quality time again similar to Taylors in the sense that he knows just how fast someone can lose their lives so he likely would appreciate someone wanting to actually spend time with him.

Even if he wouldnt admit it.

If these are inaccurate then I apologize I did try to make them as accurate as I could but wording my thoughts isnt something i'm great at.

Most of these im unsure of but I wanted to talk about anyway so idk gimme ur opinions on them id love to hear them esp since im unsure for half of these :)

[sunsp0tarchive]

A little bit about my oc Aaron!!

I feel like i always mention him, when i talk about everyone else. He is the older half brother of Ellis (they have the same mother, which explains a lot about them.) and Margots ex-boyfriend. He is also Nuos ex-boyfriend. (Now she is Loreleis girlfriend.)

Aaron is a 27 year old man, living by himself in a one bedroom appartment in the city. Its messy, usually, but it doesnt bother him. He is tall, with dark, nearly black hair, and amber colored eyes. (i would say his nationality is central european/italian.)

To most strangers, he comes across as charming, charismatic, beautiful and kind of impressive, owing this to his good looks and the many hours he spends working out and lifting weights. But when people get to know him a little more, they realize that he is kind of an idiot. Aaron is not malicious or mean at all! In fact, hes very friendly and well intentioned usually. But he has such unresolved internal issues, that most people cant really form closer relationships with him, as he simply doesnt open up very much. Aaron is a little bit stupid, overall, hes not a mysterious handsome stranger or anything. Its easy for him to enjoy and appreciate short, physical relationships with others, but cant really bring himself to commit to anyone (especially after nuo broke up with him, 5 years ago.) So, to call him polyamorous would not be super accurate, because he doesnt actually put much effort into his relationships. For him, his short time together with Margot was supposed to be a casual, physical fling, while Margot simply wished for much more than that. It slowly dawns on him, that he didnt treat her with enough respect and this kind of sets in motion in his mind, that he wants to become a more responsible person overall. Hes not a manipulative jerk or anything, hes just dumb.

He is a sort of idol to Nuos little brother, who he takes care of sometimes. (He just watches over him, but its not like he is a great guardian or anything. They mostly just goof off like siblings, which gives Nuo some time in her busy daily life, as Aaron and Nuo are still friends and he wants to help her out.) Nuos girlfriend, Lorelei, dislikes him. She sees through his outward charm and finds him obnoxious. Also, Lorelei is a detective , Aaron is sort of.. a criminal. He slowly slips more and more into the criminal underground in his search for paying work. (he usually works low paying jobs that make use of his strength. Standing in front of bars or clubs or guarding places. He also used to be a cook, but sucked at it and got fired.)

Aaron is kind of vain about his appearance, although he wouldnt really admit it to others. He has no greater plans and just kind of lives in the moment. During this story he realizes that he ages, that his life is slowly trickling away, and he wants to make more of it. And that he has to face certain parts of his past, that torment him in a way that he doesnt want to explain to anyone, out of shame. Abandoning his younger brother in their home town and leaving by himself, wishing he could forget and just pretend that Ellis was fine. When knowing, that he left him in a dangerous situation and might have already died. When he meets him again one day, its as though a ghost of his past has come back to haunt him. Aaron is expecting conflict, but Ellis is just happy to see him.

Aarons mother was always strangely hostile to him, they had a very strained relationship. His step-father was the one who truly loved him and cared about him and raised him like his own son.

[fruit-salad-ship]

Pirate AU, captain Plum getting so angry at Peach, so stupidly furious, maybe she withheld information, maybe she did somethign dangerous and stupid, maybe she chased a ghost and endangered the crew, or just...was so dimissive to her own existence it just finally got to her, maybe she'd spent too long drowning her sorrows and being useless. Whatever caused it, Plum starts to throw her weight around as a leader. Kicks her second in command her sword, Peach doesnt even carry it most days, whats the point? She wont die if she's caught without it. So she sees it being presented, eyeing the captain from where she sits.

"Pick it up." Plums dead serious, Peach ignores her, she says it again, louder, angrier. the second time was not a request at all, so with a sluggish stagger peach gets up, picks her sword up, it is not in the best condition, she'd fix that but cant be bothered. It doesnt matter to her one way or another.

She instinctivley blocks an incoming attack, Plum is so mad, venting her anger at this woman through practice, or...maybe this isnt practice? She's attacking with real intent, perhaps a good fight would knock some sense into Peach. The woman seems only half heartedly bothering to defend, she doesnt fight back in any way, slowly being backed up to a mast, ducking to not get hit in the side, plums blade dinking off the wooden trunk.

This goes on for a while, with each lazy movement Plum becomes more furious, how is she putting so little effort into this and coming out unscathed? It dawns on her that if Peach was to fight back, would she have the clear advantage she thought she originally posessed? Plum thought she was the more refined and skilled fighter but...this womans wasting her potential.

Peach grows bored of the back and forth, instead of dodging, taking the hit. People tended to stop attacking soon after that. In a real fight she'd fake her death and get up after a minute of pretending to get back and protect whoever needs it. Plum however knows this tactic, she cant fake her death, the sword in her shoulder hurts, shes immortal, not immune to pain, grabbign it by the blade and pushing it back out of her, an act that unsettles plum, seeing the womans hand cut as she didnt struggle to remove her sword. No slowing, no time to think, plum takes another quick move to land another hit.

Theyre nose to nose, blade through this womans torso, poking out the other side. Of course Peach cries out from the sting of it, gutteral response, but it subsides, she can ignore it and focus on the captain, glaring up at her with such rage in her eyes.

"You done?" a raised eyebrow and calm demeanour from the old pirate. "Fight back." Plum wanted to see what was lurking on this ship, what she'd hired, irritated still from earlier. "You dont want that, just let me go back to my drink." Peach eyed the bottle stood on a barrel not too far away, just wanting a peaceful watch on deck. "No. You need to care. You need to do more than defend, I need a second in command who'll activley try to live, to survive, not just be a walking pin cushion and hope to die every time you take a hit."

This was stupid, the slight twist of the blade in peach's gut a threat, Plum felt guilt, she shoudlnt have been doing this, knew it hurt her, but would never kill. The irrittion that this idiot, this woman who could do so much, would just simply choose to do nothing instead got to her however.

"I'm not fighting you."

"Why not?!" Plums sword slid out and she took another agile swing, slicing through the womans shoulder, she didn teven try to move away from it.

"Because theres no point. You'll lose, all the skill in the world wont end me, its a fruitless task." And truth be told, Peach wouldnt raise a blade to her, couldnt even, unsure why, just...couldnt bare to fight her properly, fully aware of the horrors she'd enacted on foe in the past, no friend deserves that.

"So you only act when its too late? Only do something when youve already lost." At such close proximity Plum was able to glare at her, and for a brief moment, Peach felt something she'd not had in her for a while. Rage. Not more than four days prior to this she'd mentioned the past, her wife, the way she got revenge for what happened. It felt like...Plum was calling her out for that. For not doing enough then, as if what happened was her fault. While to some degree she agreed, the fact that someone would think she'd not fight tooth and nail to protect what she loved sunk in, a second or two ticking by as the fury started to collect.

Some small fragment of her old self started to surface, instead of pulling her body off the blade, taking one hand and shoving her opponent hard, sword going with her, freeing Peach and giving them a meters grace, space to adjust.

For the first time, Plum felt a little fear because of this woman, watching her straighten up, stop slouching, hold her sword properly, but more than anything, it was her eyes, they looked dark and menacing now, not tired or dismissive like before.

"I need to see that you dont let disaster hit before you do something. The crew need a second in command who cares wether they live or die. I need you to show me you have any real fight in you left, because right now, you look like youve given up." Peach was drunk, her shirt now had some holes in it, a small amount of blood on her person, wounds already healing up, sticthing back together, realising she'd not instilled any faith in anyone here since arriving.

"Fine. Have it your way." That deep seated anger started to rattle around in her, for the first time during this exchange, taking a step forward instead of simply defending. Plum did all she could to stop what happened next. The swing of that chipped old blade was so heavy it broke through her defence, staggering her back quickly, Peach's pace refusing to faulter, closing the gap steadily, as if fully in control, it was daunting, she didnt flinch to block the striked plum threw, eyes set ahead. "This is what you wanted right?" another solid hit had to be dodged, not blocked, there was no way Plum could handle another stagger like that. Their fight was brief. within five hits, the old and in places rusted weapon wrapped itself in such a way around the captains pristeen rapier, a moment where peach flinged the sword across the deck, clattering as she took one strike to threaten.

Plum felt a sting on her cheek, a thin line of red starting to appear, such a controlled strike that it only scratched her, looking up to see the looming threat standing close. "Dont you dare think that I wouldnt act before its too late. Thats...not what happened before."

It was suddenly apparent how this woman gained such a reputation, not once since she'd joined the ship had Plum seen it, never seen her do more than the bare minimum. The sword was sheathed, and Peach turned, grabbing the bottle she'd been forced to leave, leading her way off up the other end of the ship to be alone.

At least the captain knew now just what she was working with, and it frightened her a little.

[askpsf]

Nathan, (I believe that's how it's spelt?) bud, tell us about your history with Willow. I'm so curious and would love to hear a big rant :3 -🌪

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aaaayup OK WAIT this shit goes so far back hold on

i met the kid when he was like 7 and i was 13 n he was still new to the whole foster care routine. huuuge wuss at first like i found him cryin in a corner bc his last home didnt last n he rlly thought they liked him enough to stay 💀 i was like Man i gotta show this kid whats rlly up bc u cant be going on with expectations like that. cant afford the disappointment cause that shit breaks u down until u got nothing left so i had to teach him that lesson before he found out for himself.

we ended up bein in the same home for a while , like a year or smth, so i got to show him the real ropes and all the shit he had to know to actually make it out there, like pickin locks n shoplifting n lyin to cops u get the idea. hooked him up w belle too cause he rlly needed help w the anxiety. that kid was like a lil brother to me n my crew were chill w him too, n even when we got separated we had a meet up spot on the edge of town so he was rlly putting in the effort to keep up n everything.

i was always plannin on getting my bounty hunters license when i aged outta the system, so i asked him to come w me and the guys so we could take care of him better than any foster parents could, n the jackass fuckin REFUSED. said he had to stay behind for his friend, some other fuckin kid i never met n he never told me abt, an i tried to tell him if hes the one stayin behind then theyd only weigh him down but he wouldnt listen. every fuckin thing i taught him out the window cause the dumbass got attached. an now im eating my words cause i realised i did the same fuckin thing w him. so i fucked off n left him behind like i shoulda done from the start

then like, four fuckin years later i hear from belle that him n his ‘friend’ got into the field an i tell her to tell him hes a fuckin dead man. first he turns me down, then he makes himself a threat to MY FUCKIN TERRITORY with his lil attack dog like i didnt teach him every fuckin thing he knows? like i wasnt fuckin good enough?? im tellin u next time i see his sorry face its gonna be on sight

[yellowbluemoonshine]

Probably rambling, but here are some more reasons why I don’t (romantically) vibe with MHA’s Shoto Todoroki/Momo Yaoyorozu. Whenever the pair are painted in such a light, Todoroki’s needs are highlighted more while Yaomomo’s are often overlooked (as if her needs aren’t as important). A more realistic/plausible take would mean that neither of them are truly happy being in a relationship with each other. Which would lead them to seek their (non-material/financial) needs elsewhere. Also, I’m not fond of the fact that both Todoroki and Yaomomo are pretty watered down when romantically paired together (character-wise). Any problems they may potentially have are often swept under the rug (notwithstanding Todoroki’s difficult past). The combo of OOC (out of character) and sheer sexism are some of the major turn offs for me.

About Ships;

You explained it well, anon. Thats also my problem too.

Actually, thats a common problem with most ships, especially canon romantic ones. There is a reason why people are interested in so called 'platonic friendship' between others than actual romance because when it comes to romance, authors dont seem to put any effort in it. Especially because of 'power of friendship' thing in shounen and mangas, besties have more chemistry than actual romance. Why? Because they are their own characters first. Because whole series is about their relationship and their center arcs connected to each others BECAUSE they care about each others a lot.

For some partners, 'friends' (or even bros/sis) have lines that used in romance movies. (I didnt realize this until others point this out).

'Its always been you and me.' , 'If only i have you'.

Difference between that scene for so called friends and romantic scene? For 'friendship' or 'brotherhood/sisterhood' scene, its earned. Its not out of nowhere. It took a lot times them to get there. Its deep. Its so beautifully written to the point that it makes many readers question that those so called friends are actually in love with each others. And honestly, in most series, it is really questionable.

Well, while platonic relationships are exist and its completely natural to explore those platonic relationships too. People can love each others without any romantic feelings but we rarely get actually well written romance without basic rules. Thats why it feels empty and superficial. And most of the times, its really toxic. It feels simple crush. It feels like it happenned because boy and girl are in same scene. It doesnt feel impactfull enough because in the end, we all know that its not true love. Because love is about getting to know each others, it happens with trust and respect. It takes time and effort. It doesnt happen out of nowhere. Especially at writing, i think it should be explored.

Like, some people already pointed it out;

Romance doesnt even need to happen but if you are gonna put it into your story but dont make any effort to write or actually explore it, then whats the point of writing it?

This is also what i think about todomomo too. I kinda explained it in here. They feel like classic shoujo manga dynamic but just like you said, anon, i think they both are/can be more than that.

Another reason why i think this happens is maybe because the idea of romance for them/media etc. Ships that naturally happen in story also works better than this. In real life, love that starts with friendship is the best, i mean if you cant even be friend with your partner, how can you even have healthy relationship with them? Let them interact first. Let it happen naturally. Let them have conflict. Let them try date. If it doesnt work, then it doesnt. Dont ruin your characters to make 'romance' work. (Because in life romance, most patners wouldnt want to date with someone who is 'in love' with their so called friends. Imagine, actually dating with brocon/siscon or some guy who would prefer their friends/or one specific friend over you, lol. Literally break up reason.)

Basically, i agree with you, anon and its fun to make discussion so dont be afraid to send more asks, if you want, lol.

This post kinda become about ship post discussion but this happens too often and some people even wonder why others dont like their ships or they get mad at people for shipping so called friendship type of relationships. Hm, i wonder why, my friends.

[theambitiouswoman]

hello! just wanted to ask your view on something

so.. last month was my birthday, it was on june 1st. i have several close friends and i always make sure i have a gift for them ready before their birthday. i was in my hometown (im in college and i live in the uni dorm w my friends) so i cant celebrate it with them

until now, only 2/5 of them gave me gifts (very late gifts but im still grateful). i mean i dont beg for them to give me gifts but you know, i put an effort for them so i hope that they'll put an effort for me too

not only that, in the middle of my tight schedule i spare my time to make them my favorite pastries BECAUSE OF COURSE I LOVE THEM AND WHY WOULDNT I PUT ANY EFFORT FOR THEM? but still, they act like they didnt have time to wrap my gifts or even THINK ABOUT WHAT GIFT SHOULD THEY GIVE TO ME. ive told them several times that im sad and i dont like this behaviour, they said sorry but nothing has changed still

even when i ask them to accompany me eating somewhere they didnt reply to my texts or reply very late. i just dont feel that they are good friends and i dont feel that they can communicate well. they werent like this before. they act busy AS IF im not busy too.. like, ma'am objectively im busier than them, like really

what do you think about this situation and what do you think should i do? love you ❣️

Happy belated birthday to you 💗💗💗

I think it's understandable to expect reciprocity and appreciation from your friends, especially when you make an effort to celebrate their birthdays and show them you care.

It's possible that your friends might be caught up in their own lives and responsibilities. This shift will also cause a change in the relationship dynamic that you are accustomed to.

If you've already talked to them about this and they haven't shown any improvement, it might be worth reevaluating the dynamic of your friendship. True friends should be able to communicate and make time for each other, even amidst busy schedules. Decide whether their behavior is indicative of a temporary phase or a now permanent pattern. If it's an ongoing issue, I humbly think you might need to assess whether these friendships and take steps to figuring out what role you want those friendships to continue to play in your life.

It's very possible that you guys may have outgrown each other. People grow and change over time, and sometimes friendships that were once close and strong can naturally drift apart as people pursue different paths and interests. Friendships like any relationship, can evolve and change.

In your situation, if you feel that the dynamics of your friendships have shifted and that you no longer have the same level of connection or shared interests, it could be a sign that you've outgrown each other. It's natural for friendships to evolve and flow, and it doesn't mean that either party is at fault. Sometimes, people simply change, and their priorities and interests diverge.

It might be worth considering whether it's time to find new connections with people who align more closely with your current values and interests. After all, you can not force someone to treat you how you want to be treated. And you can't continue to feel hurt for not having your efforts reciprocated.

Remember that change is a normal part of life and as you continue to grow and evolve, your social circles will change as well. Embrace the opportunity to meet new people and form new connections that are more in line with who you are now. It's all part of the journey.

Trust your instincts and do what feels right for you <3 Prioritize your own happiness and well-being in choosing the friendships that will better your life.

[quadrant-query]

theres someone i really care about, ill call them z. we'd been best friends for a while, and had been heading in a pale direction for a little while. z found a matesprit at one point, and started spending a lot of time with him. throughout that relationship, it felt like z didnt really have time for me, even though they were my oldest friend. they and their matesprit broke up. (it was a complicated situation, neither party was fully at fault.) shortly after, we became moirails.

recently, some stuff happened, and they and their ex-matesprit might start hanging out again, and maybe even start dating again. im trying really hard to be supportive, but its difficult not to get jealous. the first time they were together, it felt like z never had time to hang out with me, and im worried that itll happen again.

it feels so selfish that im hurting about it at all. theyre my moirail ffs, im supposed to be happy for them, not jealous because another quadrantmate might take up their time.

im also worried that i might care more about them than they do me, or that they dont care about me in the same way. when we became moirails, they commented that "it wouldnt be much different" than us being friends, and i dont know how to feel about that. does moirallegiance even mean the same thing to them as it does to me??

any advice on what i should do? i know i should probably talk to them about it, but i dont know how to. anytime i imagine it, i just picture myself as coming across as selfish and immature.

thank you in advance for any tips you can give, sorry this was a bit of a long one.

This is a rough situation, and I'm sorry you're going through it.

Jealously about other quadrantmates might be not be common, but it isn't rare either. It makes sense to become somewhat resentful if your quadrantmate seems to be putting a lot less effort into your relationship than one of their others.

It's also a bit of a rust flag that your moirail thinks moirallegiance is not much different from your friendship. If it's true that they feel differently about the relationship than you, that would definitely confirm and also explain their lack of effort.

Sometimes the only solution to a problem like this is to make your feelings known. I understand that you feel like you are being unreasonable and even selfish, but the entire point of a moirail is to soothe and balance these kinds of things-- so you would benefit from telling them this even if it did not pertain directly to them. Communication is very good.

Alternatively, if you're really worried about possibly hurting them, I would suggest putting in more effort yourself to make a "good example". Take them on extravagant dates, ask to hang out multiple nights in a row, stay at their hive overday, start divulging more emotional secrets to them, maybe go a little overboard with the sensual papping and kissing. Really get it through their head that you're an important romantic partner who is taking this relationship seriously. This could inspire them to realize how unlike friendship it is and try to match you.

But in my opinion, communication is always the best option.

[hypergamygimme]

So I just went to see this guy I've been talking to for over a year now long distance. I went alone, payed for everything the hotel, and flight and all and it didn't go well at all. The guy and I have been having communication issues, I have felt that being long distance that we are he should call, face time me more but he kept telling me to go visit him and how he would not put in effort to talk to me if I was not coming or booked a flight. So I booked a flight to see him feeling pressured because he told me he wasnt ever going to see or talk to me again and that he would block me....I expressed many times how anxious I was and overwhelmed with all of this but he assured me it would be okay and that we wouldnt just hookup, we would do other things and not just drink...so when i got there he was working and told me to continue to message him so that he knew i wasnt going out and meeting other guys so I did but still had a dating app downloaded on my phone as I am keeping my options open because the situaton with him has been hard and hes not my boyfriend...anyway so while hes at work he tells me to get dressed up and ready to go out because we were going to go out for drinks and dinner. So I got all ready he came and brought the alcohol which I was confused about because I thought we were going out, he then said we were going to drink first then get dinner and i suggested sushi which we was down for so we drank the hotel tequila with a chaser and I ended up getting pretty drunk fast...All I remember after that was walking to get sushi and in the restaurant he asks me to pay and i was like ok..so then they try charging my card and it declines so then he pays but then asks if i can cash app him...the rest of the night was a blur and woke up with throw up all over the bed, he had left and I tried reaching out to him to discover I had been blocked. I was so anxious because he told me how he wouldnt leave me, how i didnt want to drink alot especially not get blacked out but did...i tried calling him from private number and he finally unblocks me and messages me and goes "listen. I blocked you because you were talking to other men, thats so dirty, you were even trying to meet someone down here, i saw the dating app, the messages, i cant trust you, you really came here to hoe out, bye for good" then blocks me...im just so hurt he not only looked though my phone when i was drunk but sent himself money for the sushi while i payed for everything to go see him and waking up naked not remembering anything....The very reason I even had a dating app and was talking to other guys is because he doesnt treat me right and so i especially dont trust him...i could have died being blacked out

Sorry that happened to you but you girls are have to grow up and take accountability for your poor actions.

I honestly wasn’t even going to respond but you ladies have to be more careful! Stop spending your own money to go see guys. Stop communication once someone disrespects you. Keep your guard up until he proves he’s worthy. Stop drinking so damn much! Don’t fall under pressure! Don’t go with anyone you don’t feel completely safe with. Let family /friends know where you are and who you’re with. SAY NO! One guy should not rule your world, YOU rule your world. Stop being so nice to these assholes. Be mean!! Guys come and go, stop acting so desperate. Don’t do something like this again , this could have gone so much worse.

He had no good intentions for you in the beginning and he played you. It’s that simple. Stop dating and focus on your self esteem.

Stop putting your life in jeopardy for people who don’t care about you.. actually NEVER put your life in jeopardy for ANYBODY!

[voidselfshipp]

Supernatural F/os and the flowers that represents them.

"This Is stupid" Dean teased with a smirk. "Really? Flowers?" "Dude" Sam interjected "cmon they took the time to make a list" The oldest winchester shot a playfully annoyed look at jerico and said "alright then, go ahead"

Excerpt from s13 episode 24 "Quality time" (fanmade)

Lucifer: Hydragena (Gratitude for being understood; Frigidity and heartlessness) Snapdragon (Deception, Graciousness)

Gabriel: Lillies (associated with Gabriel in biblicall paintings) Red Carnations (Alas for my poor heart, my heart aches, deep love)

Sam: Aloe (Affection, also Grief) Clematis (Mental beauty)

Arthur Ketch: Chamomile (Patience in adversity) Edelweiss (Courage, devotion)

Crowley: Crab Blossom (Ill nature) Purple clematis (associated with royalty)

Balthazar: coriander (hidden worth/merit) peruvian Lilly (associated with wealth)

Death: white Rose, red spider lilly (associated with death/passing)

"Romantic love is nice and all, but what happened to platonic and familial love! You surely didnt leave us behind, did you?"Charlie whined. "Of course she wouldnt, dearie!" Rowena interjected, almost offended that Charlie would think jerico would leave them out. "Alright then!" Jack Chirped with gleaming eyes"tell us!"

Excerpt from s13 episode 24 "Quality time" (fanmade)

Charlie: Ivy (Affection, Friendship, Fidelity) Arborvitae (unchanging friendshipp)

Castiel: Dill (powerful against evil) zinnia (Thoughts of absent friends, lasting affection)

Dean: gladiolus (Flower of the Gladiators, Integrity, Strength, Victory) Oak (Strength)

"Okay then, what about family?" Bobby said "ya idjit didnt leave us out didja?" "Since when do you care about flowers?" Dean teased with smirk. "I can appreciate flowers, ya idjit!" Bobby replied with annoyance in his tone and s slight blush on his cheeks.

Excerpt from s13 episode 24 "Quality time" (fanmade)

Rowena: Sage (wisdom) Datura/ Devils flower (Power + pun bcs shes a witch)

Bobby: peonies (family) Marigolds (stubborness)

Jack: White Carnation (Innocence, pure love, sweet love) Lilac (Joy of youth)

Mary (mother in law): Lily-Of-The-Valley (Sweetness, Tears of the Virgin Mary, Humility) Carnation (Fascination, female love, mother’s love)

"So?" Jerico mused. "Thank you for putting the time and effort in doing this, babe" sam thanked with a smile. "No probs!" Jeri chirped.

Excerpt from s13 episode 24 "Quality time" (fanmade)

Only mutuals allowed to reblog.

[schizofrienyya]

another thing ive been thinking about is how edgy i used to be as a kid.. like i had the same love for gore but in the way that it looked like a child trying to seem cool and edgy.. because thats kind of what it was? i didnt want people to like me for reals so i tried to be as weird as possible.

tbh i grew up with a phone or tablet in my hand and that definitely fucked me up.. like why was a younger me on liveleak constantly? it was pretty cringe because i used to think itd make me more mature or something.. it never did i just kinda got to go to school with those images and videos on replay in my head as i struggled with basic writing for some reason.. like to the point i got put in a special class for what my grade called the dumb kids.. and i realized i should probably lock in the first day i went to that class. turns out i did know basic english writing or whatever and the teachers were confused as to why i was put in the class if i clearly knew what i was doing.. good times tbh

and no i didnt finish school actually... that was a middle school experience. my high school experience was doing the same shit except i showed up to class a sobbing wreck because home life sucked and all of my teachers thought i was dumb so i had to drop out and go to a mental hospital!!!!! and it sucked!!!! never finished school and i cannot afford to go back so haha yah.. thats how my life is going

but now as an adult (young adult.. i dont really feel like an adult) ill be driving around like wow.. i run a blog where i can post whatever i want and while i initially planned to go crazy reposting guro ive found that i enjoy sharing my art! i dont usually draw gore because of how much effort it takes and the fact im such a perfectionist.. and most of my hyperfixations wouldnt really fit a guro setting... but i still plan on posting it occasionally.. i just kind of care what people think now and i wonder if maybe some people who check this blog think im a freak with no friends and a shitty life?

um anyway.... thanks for reading my rambles i guess i dont really get to do this too often and i dont mind sharing my thoughts its just a matter of typing them out.. and then i get lost and keep typing on and on and on like im doing right now

[dumbbitchfrommars]

i cant talk to you right now - im angry at you. if you hadnt given me poor advice i wouldnt be in this situation right now, broke and traumatised.

i guess that anger is god teaching me to listen to my own intuition over everything else.

i just want to cry and sleep. like thats the extent of my bodys capabilities right now. just cry and sleep...

i tried to make myself a nice lunch. it was shit. i actually tried! and it was shit. its always when you make an effort.

i cleaned the bathroom but for some reason it didnt work. everything was still dusty, i was just spreading the dirt around. and already the sink is covered in stains again. why dont any of you respect the work i put into it?

i wash my car, its dirty again.

i go to work, my bank account stays empty.

i make plans, i never really wanted to in the first place.

i buy things i dont want.

i look at my face and judge every imperfection.

i look at photos of me when i was younger... i look playful and happy and free. i try to be like her again, but im afraid of becoming her again. anxious, angry, hurt, taken advantage of.

im uncomfortable in my body.

i dont like my life. i want to start my phd so i feel like i have a purpose again. purposeless purpose. distractions...

is she trying to steal my personality? is she a true friend? is anyone worth my fucking friendship? my time, my energy? im alone. ive always been alone. its exhausting but it WORKS. its how i cope. i dont need you to analyse my problems for me... you dont know me. you dont know my life, you dont understand who i am. no one is me, no one can be me. therefore no one can be THERE FOR ME> they dont know how. i cant show you how. you try and you try and its so futile. its so ingenuine. people only care about themself and what they can take from you for themself. im so fucking tired of it. im tired of using all my energy up on you. im logging off.

i like being by myself.

that day... my ex was so upset that id disappeared. but i had fun frolicking and exploring by myself. i was confused, something was wrong about the experience at hozier. as perfect as it was, something was wrong. i wanted to be there alone. i would have left early, i wouldnt have waited in line to buy drinks, i would have found a spot that suited me... it would have been mine and mine only.

i would have saved MY money by not going on a trip that wasnt my idea or intention.

i wouldnt have gone on that camping trip... i wouldnt have kept giving him chances when my gut told me something was off... i would have quit that job and stayed quit.

i need to figure out what i want. i know what i want right? wrong. i know what i want long term. what do i want right now? what do i fucking want? i want to cry, i want to write, i want to be alone. i want sex. good sex. i want to feel like myself again. i want to be alone. i want to scream at everyone who did this to me. i want to disappear.

i want to read, i want beautiful things to come back to me. i want revenge. i want revenge oh how i want my revenge... i want to smash his windows, i want to throw rocks in his house. i want to steal his mail? i want to hack all his shit and delete it all. i want to kill him. lol. i want to strangle him with my bare hands. you deserve to die, you know that though dont you? you deserve to die because you hurt a girl with a pure and genuine heart. you are pure fucking evil and you deserve to die a horrible death. i hope someone kills you. im glad someone keyed your car. i hope someone punches you in the face. i hope someone beats you like the pathetic piece of shit that you are. i know you get bullied at work because youre a cunt and deserve it. you deserve this shitty little life you live, youre a bad person, you deserve it. i hope you die. i hope you die, i hope you die, i hope that you fucking die.

[thebigqueer]

I saw your response to the other anon, was there really no indication that she wanted to break up before she did? In my experience, people can be really good at pretending... Which sucks to say, but I just find your situation really baffling, so I'm curious

yeah there was genuinely no indication at all!!!! which is why im so shocked and hurt about it. and youre right people definitely can be good at pretending but i guess its just so sad to me because the entirety of summer she was so genuine about wanting to spend time together during fall sem & she seemed so excited to do so many things together this sem which is why me & all my friends (and even her friends) are so surprised by it because literally everyone knew how much we liked each other. i know she has a tendency to overthink and the day she broke up with me she said "ideally i would have brought it up earlier in teh summer but it was something id really been thinking about for the past week" which is also why i guess im a little irrittaed? because if it was something shed seriously been considering for only a week (and mind you, this was like the one week we werent able to consistently talk over video call) then how did she know it wouldnt get resolved over the fall semester when we ACTUALLY get to spend tiem together you know?? like i really wish shed maybe given us a chance to work it out??? instead of just ending it before we could even get a chance??? she said she didnt feel an emotional connection and we could work it out over fall but she didnt think it was fair for me to put in effort cuz that would feel unfair but its like. she doesnt even know half the things id do for her. if she told me she was felling this way i would have tried my best to do whatever it was to make her feel more comfortable. all of this to say im not trying to send any hate her way & for anyone on here who actually cares about this (im surprised im getting anons about this lol - not in a bad way im just surprised people are actually reading these posts) i dont want anyone to think that im pissed at her about all this. im just generally irritated at the situation but i dont mean any harm her way and i really care about her and i know she cared about me too. i can overthink as much as i want but at the end of the day i know she meant it when she said she cared about me and shes never been bad to me at all so im not trying to spread rumors or speculate about her thinking process in any way, its just my own feelings about the whole break up. the entire situation is just so like... shocking. like NO ONE saw this coming - i dont even think she saw this coming until the end of the summer.