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Loneliest boy in Paradox Space (it's his own fault)

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dirk the hedgehog

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when u keep having night terrors abt ur brother dying so u casually and calmly sneak in his window to check on him. but he's awake.

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Did I just never post this.

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CHAT UR BOY STILL CAN'T SHADE 🤪🤪

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another thing ive been thinking about is how edgy i used to be as a kid.. like i had the same love for gore but in the way that it looked like a child trying to seem cool and edgy.. because thats kind of what it was? i didnt want people to like me for reals so i tried to be as weird as possible.

tbh i grew up with a phone or tablet in my hand and that definitely fucked me up.. like why was a younger me on liveleak constantly? it was pretty cringe because i used to think itd make me more mature or something.. it never did i just kinda got to go to school with those images and videos on replay in my head as i struggled with basic writing for some reason.. like to the point i got put in a special class for what my grade called the dumb kids.. and i realized i should probably lock in the first day i went to that class. turns out i did know basic english writing or whatever and the teachers were confused as to why i was put in the class if i clearly knew what i was doing.. good times tbh

and no i didnt finish school actually... that was a middle school experience. my high school experience was doing the same shit except i showed up to class a sobbing wreck because home life sucked and all of my teachers thought i was dumb so i had to drop out and go to a mental hospital!!!!! and it sucked!!!! never finished school and i cannot afford to go back so haha yah.. thats how my life is going

but now as an adult (young adult.. i dont really feel like an adult) ill be driving around like wow.. i run a blog where i can post whatever i want and while i initially planned to go crazy reposting guro ive found that i enjoy sharing my art! i dont usually draw gore because of how much effort it takes and the fact im such a perfectionist.. and most of my hyperfixations wouldnt really fit a guro setting... but i still plan on posting it occasionally.. i just kind of care what people think now and i wonder if maybe some people who check this blog think im a freak with no friends and a shitty life?

um anyway.... thanks for reading my rambles i guess i dont really get to do this too often and i dont mind sharing my thoughts its just a matter of typing them out.. and then i get lost and keep typing on and on and on like im doing right now

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ive never played ultrakill! i just havent been able to afford it lately... but ill be damned if i dont get that gabriel plush... (im not gonna get it because i need to pay rent!!!)

i think ive grown attached to gabriel specifically because my boyfriend dirk (bless his mentally ill soul i think he needs to be put down like a sick dog) gets really freaky about that guy from what i remember. i want that guy! i want him because he is dirkcore.... but i dont want to date him!!! i want to give him a little kiss on the cheek.. like a thank you for making my boyfriend so deranged? if you see this hi dirk!!

ooh but maybe i should play ultrakill.... i havent thought it through! i just see it on my steam sometimes and im very much considering buying it when i have the money to.. maybe after i buy groceries and make sure i have rent money aside ill buy it.. dont let me forget this time guys

like i mentioned before im living in a stupid little rv with terrible internet connection so maybe a video game is the least of my worries. and for everyone who mentions, oh why dont i watch play throughs.. because i like to experience things!!! i love the joy of experiencing a video game myself!!!!!!

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That new thing you just bought? Your f/o actually bought it for you. They took the time to make sure it was something you'd really like! No matter the price, they don't mind spending money on you.

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its been a hot minute since i drew vanoss crew huhhh....... im so sorry guys :( i promise im still hyperfixated i just love dirkhal and phighting soooo much.....

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oh i finally got my internet working... it barely works at all but its enough to send images (which takes about 5 minutes... maybe 2 if im lucky!) so heres a medkit tjat i drew :3

vanosscrew soon perhaps.. and ofc im not gonna forget abt u dirkhal nation!! but im only one little bunny with a job!! i cant draw everything all the time!!!

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I have higher quality stuff coming. Have this thing for now.

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euuughhh i moved 2 a shitty rv and the internet dont work here... i fear i wont be posting for MONTHS! thats devastating.. uueeh... im sorry dirkhal nation :(

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dusts off this blog WHAT IS UP DIRKHAL NATION HAPPY 2025 WOOOOOO YEAAAAHHHH BABBYYYYYYYY THATS WHAT IVE BEEN WAITIN FORRRR

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Last puppetprince art I made for 2024. Happy New Year! I'll be making so much more in the coming year.

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5ever.

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anything helps guys plz reblog ^^