#idk. as i said thinking thoughts
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oh. hugo saying frollo was not only jehan's brother but became "like a mother" to him and then reutilizing the formula to say valjean became "like a mother" to cosette... thinking thoughts feeling things they're very very different but there's Something
#and personally i think that something is having one single affection that absorbs everything else#frollo is the king of obsession of course#his love for his brother is described as literally his first feeling ever and he made it the driving force of his whole life#valjean had known other bonds in the past (like his family) but society failed him and left him only cosette so he clung to her#he let her go for her own happiness but losing her meant he died#idk. as i said thinking thoughts#notre dame de paris#les mis#les miserables#victor hugo#by me#vc
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edit (10/23/2024) now that the poll is over: Original version, with 10 questions, from April 2023 here
And, given that the original is from April 2023, that means I can very easily say:
No, this was not an ISAT reference!
Just because I use parentheses and 2nd person pov and love the same concepts of what a time loop can do to a person doesn't mean it's ISAT
(Yes, I like ISAT, the original poll is why I was recommended the game! But if you look at the original, you can see all the origins of the options to choose from, including what spurred me on with the moss option from the replies)
If I were going to make something for ISAT, I would never be so vague, you can simply look at my ao3 for proof of that
#egg speaks#writing#polls#my writing#egg writes#my polls#poetry#time loops#listen I want to run this again#time loop poll#<- check that tag on my blog for the original 10 option version lmao#unreality#you know I didn't think I'd get fed up with people making isat jokes about this#I thought it'd be like oh hey neat same hat#we both like the same game#but people keep going “oh this is JUST an ISAT reference”#as if it's not a genuine work of creativity I did myself. it feels a bit devaluing#“op you played isat” yes but that came after the original!!!!!#I KNOW it's not meant like that but I want people to engage in my work as its own thing. you can make jokes about similar media!!!#but this is it's own thing!!!!#I want people to like it for what it is. I want people to enjoy it outside of other media. I want it to stand on its own#I'm flattered someone said it was good enough that they think it could be narration from the game and read just as well!!!!#but like. idk. all the other medias popping up (pmmm. orv. higurashi. etc) aren't people calling it a /reference/#if I wanted it to be an ISAT reference I would have tagged it originally. I would have targeted it toward ISAT fans more intentionally.#I love fanworks but this was an ode to time loops alone. I wanted people to think. to have to CHOOSE. I wanted PARTICIPATION#time loops as a narrative and as horror and as a group activity via polls on tumblr. also s/o to the person who said 40 hr work week so tru
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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago
#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW#when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas#or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it#my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT#IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently#most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of#smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say#its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words#its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me#5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention#doodles#diary#sona#puppysona#comics
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so just know, I'm healing / even though it don't feel like it
insp
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#good evening it is past midnight and i am here furthering the itfs scar kissing agenda#stumbled across the insp pic buried in my likes and i went oh this is relevant in the opposite direction :) I Can Use This :)#op has some of my fav itfs fanart ill b so real n tht piece ws swimming around in my brain fr Days#so i told myself today my reward for submitting my zine checkin wld b drawing yuuji kissing megumi's scars#also pls observe. /this/ is what i mean when i say tht megumi receiving affection looks like he is unsure and in mild pain#Does Not Know How To Respond To Affection Even From His Own Boyfriend.png#i LOVE drawing megu with this expression so sosos much the downcast sidelong gaze + furrowed brow.....#its SO good#also idk what i did with his hair here but the render actually turned out so well ?? best megu hair to date every1 pls clap#not 2 mention th shape of yuuji's bangs???? pats self on th back no offense but i am on fire w these boys' hair lately#that being said i decided i did not want to render anything else ddfdfjjghdjgf i got tired#kept the rest flat n took the opportunity to play around w light chromatic abberation on the scars#idk if any1 noticed but i found th retro film filter n used it a bunch on my recent comic#its so convenient it comes w built in noise n everything!!!!!!#anyway . caption is salt fv <333 if u care <333333#i think it is also a megu song but like . a post-canon megu song#i thought this wld take longer bc i was planning on rendering everything so i cracked an energy drink and am tragically awake#shld i start smth new we shall see smile :)
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Was looking at refs and since Viktor has two different leg braces I was wondering, do we think he wears them simultaneously?? The refs don't perfectly line up perspective-wise so it's hard to tell but parts of the one he wears during the Hexcore scenes look like they could maybe line up with the brace that he wears over his clothes, but also some parts really don't and look like they'd be super uncomfy. Also HOW does he take these on and off. Experts weigh in
#viktor#arcane#ig my assumption would be that he wears both simultaneously cause in the scene where he injects the shimmer#it seems implied that he just threw off his clothes and kept experimenting#so one might assume he was already wearing the smaller one underneath#tho it is a funny image to think of him just being like 'one sec i gotta go all the way home and grab my other brace to do this'#he can take off the back brace too cause hes not wearing it in the scene where he's in the hospital bed and you can see his shoulder#where the strap would be#but that one seems to make even less sense functionality wise#everything looks like its screwed together#or screwed INTO him#but only the top bolts on his spine are i think#in the close ups of his back brace model it looks like theres cushioning underneath the parts of it that cover the rest of his spine#so he can take it off. but HOW#what parts of it unscrew/detatch to pull open and off#does it not do that at all and he just has to shimmy it off his shoulder and all the way down his legs to get it off like a romper#the shape language of the designs are cool but like. tell me how it wooorrkkksss#forgive me if im just dumb and dont know at all how braces work and theres a very simple practical explanation for all this#any king who wants to infodump about mobility aids at me....the floor is yours#something to be said i suppose about the fact that zaunites have crazy prosthetics with wild augmentations that work flawlessly#and piltover's like. idk heres some fucking uncomfortable ass metal. salo gets wheelchair in non ada compliant place#they havent ever needed to adapt to accommodate disabilities etc etc#or maybe artists were just like 'heres a design' and everybody clapped and didnt give it a second thought#and then they just turned off the visibility on the mesh when they didnt need it knowing thered not be a scene where its taken off#dont even wanna THINK about what that rig would look like#like 40 different controllers#soft body and rigid hard surfaces needing to move together....#a cold chill just shot up my spine#<- guy who is only an animator and doesnt know how to rig#forgive the magic wand tool with zero cleanup. i am lazy
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.A Royal Scandal.
#dragon age#dragon age origins#zevran arainai#cousland#anora mac tir#andrastopher cousland#dao#zevwarden#andrastopher x zevran#zevran x andrastopher#hof#.cannae believe ive never given thought to making andrastopher king before lmao.#.would zevran even be happy as kings consort bc it’s not like Andrastopher and Anora would be having a safari or anything like that.#.i think he’d like Andrastopher offering to give up the crown if zevran didn’t want to be consort- bc he would do that lbh.#.i know I said I was taking a break but apparently not idk.#.am all over the place rn lads.#.i feel like those nice few messages stopped me imploding a bit there thank you.#.i think I’m gonna just like only come online when I’m posting instead of lurking like a goof.
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oh would you look at that
part 1!
#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava#ava tco#ava tsc#ava red#ava blue#ava yellow#ava green#aaaand thats all my post s3 thoughts let out!#iiiiii think#yeah thats it ? yeah#cho's slept for a day in this context by the way#ive heard stuff about the sticks percieving time longer than humans i think??#pretty sure its a headcanon other people have but either way i find it very interesting!#so with that in mind i think tco's 1 day “”coma“” probably felt like 942894 months for the cg idk i may be overshotting that#at least tco is okay now! yeah ...i say as i plan another angst comic with tco in itWOAH im talking too much i mean who said th#lilacsart
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once in a while when it’s all dark and everyone has gone back to their sleeping quarters, lighter would sit out at the big couch next to the bar for a moment. playing with his lighter in hand, humming to himself. slowly he’d feel the fatigue hitting him and end up laying on the couch.
you were just checking on everyone, doing a quick night time stroll to make sure that no lights were unnecessarily left on at cheesetopia or any other areas. then you came upon lighter’s sleeping figure on the couch, jacket and sunglasses still on…
he looked peaceful but sleeping like that must be uncomfortable. so you start with his shades, carefully trying to remove them from his face. all of a sudden, his hand wraps around your wrist, his grip was tight. upon seeing you, he immediately loosened up, a little smirk creeping in on the ends of his mouth.
clearly, he was tired. not thinking straight and definitely half awake but that doesn’t explain why he instead pulls you on the couch too. now you’re laying down, back pressed up against his chest. he’s barely making any sense with his sleepy mumbling but you can feel him scoot closer to you and breathe in your scent.
you can try and break free but with his arms wrapped around your body, it was practically impossible (and lets be honest, you didn’t want to either). his breathing slows down, his mumbling comes to a soft stop and this time, he had truly fallen asleep. as if under some type of spell that causes him to sleep immediately after having you in his arms.
don’t worry, he’ll make sure no one knows tomorrow morning. he can just brush it off as both of you being tired and coincidentally sleeping together on the couch. for now, he’ll sleep without any worries, because you were here.
#luminotes ˚✧₊⁎☆#lighter zzz#zzz lighter#lighter lorenz#lighter x you#lighter x gn reader#lighter x reader#actually this one was marinating in my drafts ever since i saw the cutscene#like i just have random thoughts and then they disappear and then reappear again#BUT I HOPE YOU GUYS SEE THE VISION !!#idk what the vision is but i just love lighter is the vision actually#also i think zzz livestream should be this week but idk#i just cant wait to see more lighter#going to be so normal when he drops AUGSJSGSKSH#WAIT I JUST REALIZED I NEVER MEANT WHICH CUTSCENE BUT I MEAN THE ONE WHEN THEY’RE PLANNING OUR FUNERAL LMAOO#idk if the couch can fit two people BUT I BELIEVE IT DOES BECAUSE I SAID SO !!
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reigen you should tell him he’s not supposed to eat the green part
#doctorsiren#mob psycho 100#reigen arataka#shigeo kageyama#mp100 fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#originally mob wasn’t eating the green part#but my sister said that she thought he was because of the way Reigen was looking at him#the rendering didn’t turn out really the way I wanted it to#but it’s still good I think idk#painting characters over real photos is calming to me#the rake brush was a last minute decision but I think it saved the rendering bc I was not liking how it was looking prior to me doing that#also yes I know you *CAN* eat the green part of a watermelon#I don’t think I’ve done one of these redraws with Mob and Reigen where Mob wasn’t his little kid self#I just haven’t found a picture that feels right enough to redraw as normal mob and reigen#all of them have been little kid mob HHDUIHFIUF
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#happy late Halloween#thought about giving him bloody hands#my mom said it would make him look less playful#idk I think it would be funny#I mean his name is literally William the Bloody#I’ll draw him with bloody hands and put him on my insta#tho in retrospect tumblr is much more unhinged#spike#btvs#all fangy and ‘grrrrr’#buffy the vampire slayer#vampire#William the bloody#btvs fanart#james marsters#90’s#fan art#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#illustration#keelidraws#nothing like a bloody man to envoke a very strong literary response in me
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MILD NSFW!! Implications of fadoodling!!!
They're really tired <3
Extra:
hope u guys like my art!! :3 i don't usually draw cartoon, but i love them so much <3 and sorry for any typos, english is not my first language ;;
Gosh all i've been able to think is them for HOURS
#it's literally 3am#i can't stop doodling them#yes doomed yaoi is the reason i'm starting to post on tumblr#i never thought i'd start posting my art on tumblr#so yeah... that#fordford#fordsquared#fiddleford mcgucket#gravity falls#fiddleauthor#fiddauthor#stanford pines#billford#one person said they're gonna be called fumblecule bc they fumbled eachother#so yeah#fumblecule#mystery trio#??? idk i think#hope u noticed they exchanged clothes hihihi
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humans some of your humanoids
#my art#artwork#crow does art#digital art#legends of avantris#once upon a witchlight#ouaw#ouaw kremy#ouaw frost#kremy lecroux#morning frost#not totally confident in frost's design but like#thats just kremy. like yea thats EXACTLY how i think he'd look as a human#gideon would look identical and gricko would look like jerma btw LOL#idk since day 1 i've thought gricko kinda vaguely resembles jerma#im deffo insane but whatever dfhskfs#also torbek doesnt change at all. for some reason#i said this in the loa server but i think strangely enough he could pass for a really hairy human guy in his current form#something about him... idk i dont think he needs any changes
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(typing this as I walk to work so this is not articulate but) thinking a lot abt how les mis w javert sort of. hm. questions? problematizes? the Idea of dogs & the domestication of dogs (metaphorically ofc) like it sort of looks past the 'man's best friend' angle entirely & makes you think things like. kind of fucked up of humans [the social order] to domesticate the wolf [person outside of society for whatever reason] expressly to turn against & cause harm to other wolves in order to keep them out [away from respectable society] & keep themselves safe but never truly consider it an equal [it'll always just be a dog]. kind of fucked up that the dog finds enjoyment & life's purpose in this
#this is NOT to absolve him of responsibility tbc like He Did All That. but it's just soo#idk i think like i said the dog metaphors are way more interesting than in a lot of other stuff bc a lot of stuff is simply unwilling to#question the fundamental idea of a dog if that makes sense. they want it to be a fundamental good thing that can be perverted#but idk 'dogs are good. people and dogs are meant to be together. in a good way' gets conceptually boring really quick#<- to be clear this is not about dogs in real life. i very much like dogs in real life. just abt literary dog metaphors & motifs#thoughts#les mis#i will say though the metaphor in the book is varied & situational so you can't develop a single framework from it this is just one aspect#anyways where's that comic about wolves seeing a dog & thinking 'what a scary fucked up creature'. javert to me sort of
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Odysseus hates Agamemnon.
Of course he never lets it show. He doesn't know how long the war will last, but it will be long, and he can't afford to be on bad terms with any of the other kings (especially Agamemnon the lord of men). So Odysseus smiles at him, advises him, drinks with him like a friend... But the simple thought of killing your own child so for the sake of going to war is enough to make him sick in disgust. Behind his fake smiles he is overwhelmed by the hatred he feels whenever he faces that man.
#idk if anything is said about their personnal feelings on each other#also i genuinely cant remember what thought process led me to this hc#but i think its cool#i rly like the parallel betweem them#Ody went to war to avoid his child's death. Ag got his child killed so he can go to war#goes with my hc that Ody is a pretty chill guy until its about one of the few topics that makes him very not-so-chill#tagamemnon#odysseus#homer#trojan war#the iliad#agamemnon
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tgcf book spoilers, but one mu qing and xie lian snippet that I think about a lot is this one, at the start of xie lian’s second banishment when he’s surprised to hear mu qing being described as generous and kind:
as opposed to this memory from before his first ascension when mu qing started giving out cherries to the kids in the city:
I think it just really goes to show 1) how deeply mq’s actions truly affected xl and what he thought of him, but also 2) just how different mq and xl are fundamentally in the way that they think and approach things.
I don’t have a lot of commentary on xl that hasn’t already been said, but bc we get the story from xl’s pov, we see a lot of mq’s actions being framed as selfish or suspicious (which is fair, bc again, we know how much his actions hurt xl), but we also see a lot of misconstrued kindness, like in book 8 where it’s revealed that he knocked out fx in order to save him. it’s also pretty obvious how much mq still cares abt xl, with how quickly he volunteers as fu yao and the lengths he goes to protect him when he deems hc a threat, so I also think it’s very likely that mq leaving the trio first was exactly what he said it was — that he thought becoming a junior official, ascending quickly, would be the best way to take care of not just his mother, but also xl, fx, the king and queen, and himself, and so in a way, him leaving was him acting on his kindness. but ofc it doesn’t work out, and he spends the next 800 years fighting w/ fx about it, defending himself, his decisions, and his kindness, and nitpicking the accuracies of his statues while he himself remains completely misunderstood by the two people he probably cares abt the most.
and idk, I guess I just think that’s probably a really lonely way to spend 800 years.
#idk where I was going w this actually#but misunderstood mq who cares so much abt how he’s perceived is smth that I think abt a lot#really resonates w my eldest daughter scapegoat of the family trauma tbh#also to be clear I don’t think xl was in the wrong for chasing him away either#I think they were both just twenty year olds doing their best in a situation that twenty year olds shouldn’t have to face#that said I do think it’s hilarious and incredible that fq spent 800 years beating each other up instead of having one (1) conversation#anyway! I love all three of them! I’m glad they get a happy post canon!#oh also I think mq deserved more than just a ‘just so u know dianxia never thought that poorly of u! just be normal!’#i think he deserves an apology actually#tgcf#tgcf spoilers#mu qing#xie lian#feng xin#xianle trio#yams thoughts
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I think the reason people believe chuuya would be the more open and affectionate in soukoku (as like. A romantic relationship) is because they believe him to be the mentally stable one and i think the reason people seem to believe he’s one of the few “mentally stable” characters in bsd is because he does not let himself be seen as vulnerable, and the few times we do see him go through something genuinely horrible and having a moment of vulnerability he does not really have the time to truly process it and ends up “moving on” pretty quickly (for example when he was at the flags’ funeral and adam interrupted him, or how when the sheep betrayed him dazai was immediately at his side trying to convince him to join the pm). And even if he does process it and thinks “man that was pretty fucked up wasnt it” it is never shown on screen so i feel like a lot of viewers end up seeing it as him not being bothered by these events and just a pretty chill dude that doesnt wallow in grief or self pity. But i think him never wallowing in grief or self pity is kind of a problem because in the end all he is doing is suppressing all that trauma and not really trying to acknowledge it, but at the same time when he does he ends up pinning the blame on himself (how the sheeps betrayal was his fault, the flags dying because of him). I feel like this impacts how affectionate he is too because he has built up so many walls that at the point when the flags make a party to celebrate the one year anniversary of him joining the pm he gets suspicious, then surprised and then flustered and tries acting like he doesnt care about it. All this is to say that i think him believing he cant show weakness and has to maintain the facade of being “the strongest” makes him seem like some regular degular guy (if he’s not fighting dragons) ends up him getting viewed as some mentally stable, communicative guy with maaaybe just a bit of anger issues when in reality he got so embarrassed by dazai’s corny speech in mersault that he shot him in the head with a gun
#im sorry for rambling#this is such a jarbled mess but i had to get it off my chest#im not good at putting my thoughts into words#this isnt to say that i think dazai is any better#but if i had to choose… id say dazai would be the one giving love confession speeches#chuuya would get flustered and call that gay and dazai would opt out saying ‘ya thats pretty gay idk why i said that lmao’#i also think chuuya not having eccenticities or Traumatic Flashback Moments impacts this as well tbh#like yeah hes a minor character and it would also be silly of him to have Traumatic Flashabck Moments#during the Traumatic Moments (strombringer)#but him not having any eccentricities like dazais constant talks of suicide#or kyoukas and akutagawas uhh… oddly intense personalities? how the hell would you describe it?#or kaijis. well. mad scientist shtick#i feel like it makes him seem less traumatised by the events if that makes sense#sure hes kind of aggressive… but he’s usually mad at dazai so the whole ‘anger issues’ thing seems like just a chuuya thing with dazai#rather than a sort of defense mechanism#is anything im saying making any sense#i am a chuuya doesnt know how to show affection in a gentle way because hes not used to it truther. bye#chuuya bsd#dazai bsd#bsd chuuya#bsd dazai#soukoku#skk#bungo stray dogs
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