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oh. hugo saying frollo was not only jehan's brother but became "like a mother" to him and then reutilizing the formula to say valjean became "like a mother" to cosette... thinking thoughts feeling things they're very very different but there's Something
#and personally i think that something is having one single affection that absorbs everything else#frollo is the king of obsession of course#his love for his brother is described as literally his first feeling ever and he made it the driving force of his whole life#valjean had known other bonds in the past (like his family) but society failed him and left him only cosette so he clung to her#he let her go for her own happiness but losing her meant he died#idk. as i said thinking thoughts#notre dame de paris#les mis#les miserables#victor hugo#by me#vc
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edit (10/23/2024) now that the poll is over: Original version, with 10 questions, from April 2023 here
And, given that the original is from April 2023, that means I can very easily say:
No, this was not an ISAT reference!
Just because I use parentheses and 2nd person pov and love the same concepts of what a time loop can do to a person doesn't mean it's ISAT
(Yes, I like ISAT, the original poll is why I was recommended the game! But if you look at the original, you can see all the origins of the options to choose from, including what spurred me on with the moss option from the replies)
If I were going to make something for ISAT, I would never be so vague, you can simply look at my ao3 for proof of that
#egg speaks#writing#polls#my writing#egg writes#my polls#poetry#time loops#listen I want to run this again#time loop poll#<- check that tag on my blog for the original 10 option version lmao#unreality#you know I didn't think I'd get fed up with people making isat jokes about this#I thought it'd be like oh hey neat same hat#we both like the same game#but people keep going “oh this is JUST an ISAT reference”#as if it's not a genuine work of creativity I did myself. it feels a bit devaluing#“op you played isat” yes but that came after the original!!!!!#I KNOW it's not meant like that but I want people to engage in my work as its own thing. you can make jokes about similar media!!!#but this is it's own thing!!!!#I want people to like it for what it is. I want people to enjoy it outside of other media. I want it to stand on its own#I'm flattered someone said it was good enough that they think it could be narration from the game and read just as well!!!!#but like. idk. all the other medias popping up (pmmm. orv. higurashi. etc) aren't people calling it a /reference/#if I wanted it to be an ISAT reference I would have tagged it originally. I would have targeted it toward ISAT fans more intentionally.#I love fanworks but this was an ode to time loops alone. I wanted people to think. to have to CHOOSE. I wanted PARTICIPATION#time loops as a narrative and as horror and as a group activity via polls on tumblr. also s/o to the person who said 40 hr work week so tru
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horrible truth bomb dropped on my head 20 min ago
#I DIDNT KNOW I DIDNT KNOWWWWW#when i say damn thats crazy its bc i DO think its crazy i think a lot of things are crazy. like how birds have cloacas#or the way ppl draw a five pointed star in different ways and everyone assumes their way of doing it is how everyone does it#my brother is not letting me live this down btw he literally shouted at me like HOW DID YOU LIVE THIS LONG AND NOT PICK UP ON THAT#IDK!!! IDK I THOUGHT SOMETIMES IT COULD BE USED TO EXPRESS GENUINE SHOCK??????#he says its my delivery that makes it sound insincere bc i say it in a monotonous voice which when i think abt it YEAH....#THAT DOES MAKE IT LOOK KINDA BAD IN HINDSIGHT.....#and then i told him i keep a list of phrases that tickle my brain so i can remember to use them in conversation and apparently#most ppl dont do that bc he was like ???? stop doing that??? just let the conversation flow naturally it sounds fake>????#idk man i feel like if i did that and blurted out 'i forgot people find stuff like underwear arousing for some reason' instead of#smth like 'i wonder what kind of ppl find this kind of stuff the bees knees' like i normally do. it would. not go so well.#ALSO THE FLOW CHARTS ARENT NORMAL? i make flow charts before i call the bank or smth so i know what to say#its not just to blend in its also so i dont waste ppls time going uhhhhh as i think of how i put smth into words#its called stalling for time and i dont care if i have to say smth like thats just how the cookie crumbles if it gives me#5 more seconds to process whatever the fuck someone said without letting them think im not paying attention#doodles#diary#sona#puppysona#comics
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so just know, I'm healing / even though it don't feel like it
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#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#itafushi#fushiita#jjk spoilers#jjk manga spoilers#good evening it is past midnight and i am here furthering the itfs scar kissing agenda#stumbled across the insp pic buried in my likes and i went oh this is relevant in the opposite direction :) I Can Use This :)#op has some of my fav itfs fanart ill b so real n tht piece ws swimming around in my brain fr Days#so i told myself today my reward for submitting my zine checkin wld b drawing yuuji kissing megumi's scars#also pls observe. /this/ is what i mean when i say tht megumi receiving affection looks like he is unsure and in mild pain#Does Not Know How To Respond To Affection Even From His Own Boyfriend.png#i LOVE drawing megu with this expression so sosos much the downcast sidelong gaze + furrowed brow.....#its SO good#also idk what i did with his hair here but the render actually turned out so well ?? best megu hair to date every1 pls clap#not 2 mention th shape of yuuji's bangs???? pats self on th back no offense but i am on fire w these boys' hair lately#that being said i decided i did not want to render anything else ddfdfjjghdjgf i got tired#kept the rest flat n took the opportunity to play around w light chromatic abberation on the scars#idk if any1 noticed but i found th retro film filter n used it a bunch on my recent comic#its so convenient it comes w built in noise n everything!!!!!!#anyway . caption is salt fv <333 if u care <333333#i think it is also a megu song but like . a post-canon megu song#i thought this wld take longer bc i was planning on rendering everything so i cracked an energy drink and am tragically awake#shld i start smth new we shall see smile :)
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question: do ppl ACTUALLY say things they don’t mean when they’re angry? or is that just an excuse after letting something true slip? i wouldn’t ever say something i don’t mean in anger, so the concept confuses me.
but something was said to me that is bothering me, though apparently was said in an argument and wasn’t meant. but i don’t rlly believe it wasn’t like, deep down true thoughts/feelings??? anyone have any insight? anyone say things they don’t mean in anger?
EDIT: this was a hastily worded post that i didn’t expect to get notes. this is a genuine question asked in good faith that i got a lot of amazing answers to!
also re: the many ppl saying “OP is lying about not saying things they don’t mean in anger because everyone does it”— i genuinely have never done that. if i say something mean while angry, i meant it. that’s literally why i asked this question and why the concept confuses me, because i wouldn’t do something like that so i wanted perspective from people who do it. idk why y’all can’t believe that lmao not everyone is as prone to anger and outbursts
#i know im asking The Autism Website but lol will tag autism stuff cuz i think my confusion is related. idk#autism#autistic#actuallyautistic#autistic community#autistic problems#autistic life#autism problems#neurodivergence#neurodiversesquad#personal#btw i do wanna note that this post is abt an abusive person tho#not everyone who does this is abusive! but in my specific case yes#just a warning cuz some stuff being said to me can be a lil uncomfy when saying i should forgive them#i HAVE. MANY times. too many#the anger post#< if you wanna hear more of my thoughts on this#and others thoughts
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oh would you look at that
part 1!
#alan becker#animator vs animation#ava#ava tco#ava tsc#ava red#ava blue#ava yellow#ava green#aaaand thats all my post s3 thoughts let out!#iiiiii think#yeah thats it ? yeah#cho's slept for a day in this context by the way#ive heard stuff about the sticks percieving time longer than humans i think??#pretty sure its a headcanon other people have but either way i find it very interesting!#so with that in mind i think tco's 1 day “”coma“” probably felt like 942894 months for the cg idk i may be overshotting that#at least tco is okay now! yeah ...i say as i plan another angst comic with tco in itWOAH im talking too much i mean who said th#lilacsart
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reigen you should tell him he’s not supposed to eat the green part
#doctorsiren#mob psycho 100#reigen arataka#shigeo kageyama#mp100 fanart#digital art#my art#procreate#originally mob wasn’t eating the green part#but my sister said that she thought he was because of the way Reigen was looking at him#the rendering didn’t turn out really the way I wanted it to#but it’s still good I think idk#painting characters over real photos is calming to me#the rake brush was a last minute decision but I think it saved the rendering bc I was not liking how it was looking prior to me doing that#also yes I know you *CAN* eat the green part of a watermelon#I don’t think I’ve done one of these redraws with Mob and Reigen where Mob wasn’t his little kid self#I just haven’t found a picture that feels right enough to redraw as normal mob and reigen#all of them have been little kid mob HHDUIHFIUF
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#happy late Halloween#thought about giving him bloody hands#my mom said it would make him look less playful#idk I think it would be funny#I mean his name is literally William the Bloody#I’ll draw him with bloody hands and put him on my insta#tho in retrospect tumblr is much more unhinged#spike#btvs#all fangy and ‘grrrrr’#buffy the vampire slayer#vampire#William the bloody#btvs fanart#james marsters#90’s#fan art#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#illustration#keelidraws#nothing like a bloody man to envoke a very strong literary response in me
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MILD NSFW!! Implications of fadoodling!!!
They're really tired <3
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hope u guys like my art!! :3 i don't usually draw cartoon, but i love them so much <3 and sorry for any typos, english is not my first language ;;
Gosh all i've been able to think is them for HOURS
#it's literally 3am#i can't stop doodling them#yes doomed yaoi is the reason i'm starting to post on tumblr#i never thought i'd start posting my art on tumblr#so yeah... that#fordford#fordsquared#fiddleford mcgucket#gravity falls#fiddleauthor#fiddauthor#stanford pines#billford#one person said they're gonna be called fumblecule bc they fumbled eachother#so yeah#fumblecule#mystery trio#??? idk i think#hope u noticed they exchanged clothes hihihi
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(typing this as I walk to work so this is not articulate but) thinking a lot abt how les mis w javert sort of. hm. questions? problematizes? the Idea of dogs & the domestication of dogs (metaphorically ofc) like it sort of looks past the 'man's best friend' angle entirely & makes you think things like. kind of fucked up of humans [the social order] to domesticate the wolf [person outside of society for whatever reason] expressly to turn against & cause harm to other wolves in order to keep them out [away from respectable society] & keep themselves safe but never truly consider it an equal [it'll always just be a dog]. kind of fucked up that the dog finds enjoyment & life's purpose in this
#this is NOT to absolve him of responsibility tbc like He Did All That. but it's just soo#idk i think like i said the dog metaphors are way more interesting than in a lot of other stuff bc a lot of stuff is simply unwilling to#question the fundamental idea of a dog if that makes sense. they want it to be a fundamental good thing that can be perverted#but idk 'dogs are good. people and dogs are meant to be together. in a good way' gets conceptually boring really quick#<- to be clear this is not about dogs in real life. i very much like dogs in real life. just abt literary dog metaphors & motifs#thoughts#les mis#i will say though the metaphor in the book is varied & situational so you can't develop a single framework from it this is just one aspect#anyways where's that comic about wolves seeing a dog & thinking 'what a scary fucked up creature'. javert to me sort of
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.A Royal Scandal.
#dragon age#dragon age origins#zevran arainai#cousland#anora mac tir#andrastopher cousland#dao#zevwarden#andrastopher x zevran#zevran x andrastopher#hof#.cannae believe ive never given thought to making andrastopher king before lmao.#.would zevran even be happy as kings consort bc it’s not like Andrastopher and Anora would be having a safari or anything like that.#.i think he’d like Andrastopher offering to give up the crown if zevran didn’t want to be consort- bc he would do that lbh.#.i know I said I was taking a break but apparently not idk.#.am all over the place rn lads.#.i feel like those nice few messages stopped me imploding a bit there thank you.#.i think I’m gonna just like only come online when I’m posting instead of lurking like a goof.
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Odysseus hates Agamemnon.
Of course he never lets it show. He doesn't know how long the war will last, but it will be long, and he can't afford to be on bad terms with any of the other kings (especially Agamemnon the lord of men). So Odysseus smiles at him, advises him, drinks with him like a friend... But the simple thought of killing your own child so for the sake of going to war is enough to make him sick in disgust. Behind his fake smiles he is overwhelmed by the hatred he feels whenever he faces that man.
#idk if anything is said about their personnal feelings on each other#also i genuinely cant remember what thought process led me to this hc#but i think its cool#i rly like the parallel betweem them#Ody went to war to avoid his child's death. Ag got his child killed so he can go to war#goes with my hc that Ody is a pretty chill guy until its about one of the few topics that makes him very not-so-chill#tagamemnon#odysseus#homer#trojan war#the iliad#agamemnon
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hey in ur peri animatic: (https://youtu.be/OCqlRuDaXYU?si=K52WDu_vw9rg7chz) that I have been permanently obsessed over since today and have watched about 20 times by now so much that I have drawn & posted stuff based on it what was that partial bug form peri had?
I haven’t watched either of the show btw so if it’s explained in the show please tell me plsssss
OK, SO the bug thing is not technically canon to the series. It's based on my own headcanons for fairy biology, but i do have justifications for it!! Fairies have very strong shape-shifting abilities, so it would make sense that the form they show to humans isn't necessarily their true form(not to mention extreme that mimicry is very common in insects). And you want to know the visible traits almost every fairy has in common? Being very small with Insect-like wings.
The fact that their humanoid form isn't their true form in actually confirmed in the show! Cosmo and Wanda are revealed to look like biblically accurate pseudo-angels in the museum episode. (I say pseudo angels because the Flaming Sword of Eden is only debatably sentient and I don't think is considered an angel. Ophanim are also debatably not angels because they don't have wings (sorry for the angel tangent I like angels))
So wouldn't their true forms be angelic then? Well, yes. But I like bugs so. Also I have more headcanons to justify myself. I like to think that they have both a true-true form (incomprehensible to the human brain, probably exists mostly in a dimension invisible to us, that looks how we imagine biblically accurate angels), and a fairy form (which is visible to humans but is naturally very insect like and tends to scare people). So, in order to interact with humans, they have to learn to shapeshift into a humanoid form but will occasionally slip if they get too relaxed/aren't careful, hence the mandibles coming out when he yawns!
The reason they struggle so much more with human forms than the animals or objects they typically turn into is that, well, they aren't trying to convince those animals or objects. The more human they try to look, the harder it is to keep up convincingly. If you turn into a really uncanny squirrel, only other squirrels will notice. If you turn into a really uncanny human, they form a lynch mob and burn you at the stake.
#fop#fairly oddparents#fairly oddparents a new wish#fop a new wish#headcanons#ok I think I said everything I wanted to#my brain has so many useless thoughts bouncing around in there#their bright colors would also imply that they are poisonous to eat#my personal theory is that Jorgen is half human idk how else to explain whatever he is. tall. no wings. that or he's something else entirel#maybe he's a higher rank of angel#fairies are definitely a type of angel in this world#but they don't seem to line up with any specific rank as far as I can tell#they behave most like I'd expect a Guardian angel to which could make Jorgen an Archangel or Principality#but Ophanims are in the first sphere of heaven which. uh I don't think it's right#to be clear I'm not even religious im just way too into angels#Uhhhh anyway I guess the moral of the story is that I did that just because I wanted to an because nobody could stop me#Actually Im just thinking about this now#I mostly drew baby poof without bug features to keep his design uncluttered visually#but fairies having naturally very human looking larva would explain how changelings happen#something something evolution. mutualism. those parasite birds. idk#ok im out of thoughts now seriously this time youre free now#speculative biology
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tgcf book spoilers, but one mu qing and xie lian snippet that I think about a lot is this one, at the start of xie lian’s second banishment when he’s surprised to hear mu qing being described as generous and kind:
as opposed to this memory from before his first ascension when mu qing started giving out cherries to the kids in the city:
I think it just really goes to show 1) how deeply mq’s actions truly affected xl and what he thought of him, but also 2) just how different mq and xl are fundamentally in the way that they think and approach things.
I don’t have a lot of commentary on xl that hasn’t already been said, but bc we get the story from xl’s pov, we see a lot of mq’s actions being framed as selfish or suspicious (which is fair, bc again, we know how much his actions hurt xl), but we also see a lot of misconstrued kindness, like in book 8 where it’s revealed that he knocked out fx in order to save him. it’s also pretty obvious how much mq still cares abt xl, with how quickly he volunteers as fu yao and the lengths he goes to protect him when he deems hc a threat, so I also think it’s very likely that mq leaving the trio first was exactly what he said it was — that he thought becoming a junior official, ascending quickly, would be the best way to take care of not just his mother, but also xl, fx, the king and queen, and himself, and so in a way, him leaving was him acting on his kindness. but ofc it doesn’t work out, and he spends the next 800 years fighting w/ fx about it, defending himself, his decisions, and his kindness, and nitpicking the accuracies of his statues while he himself remains completely misunderstood by the two people he probably cares abt the most.
and idk, I guess I just think that’s probably a really lonely way to spend 800 years.
#idk where I was going w this actually#but misunderstood mq who cares so much abt how he’s perceived is smth that I think abt a lot#really resonates w my eldest daughter scapegoat of the family trauma tbh#also to be clear I don’t think xl was in the wrong for chasing him away either#I think they were both just twenty year olds doing their best in a situation that twenty year olds shouldn’t have to face#that said I do think it’s hilarious and incredible that fq spent 800 years beating each other up instead of having one (1) conversation#anyway! I love all three of them! I’m glad they get a happy post canon!#oh also I think mq deserved more than just a ‘just so u know dianxia never thought that poorly of u! just be normal!’#i think he deserves an apology actually#tgcf#tgcf spoilers#mu qing#xie lian#feng xin#xianle trio#yams thoughts
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Whenever fanfiction has Dean say he hates Cas’s coat or thinks it's stupid or ugly and he wants to see Cas out of it as soon as possible I simply must disagree. He kept that thing for a whole year full of rank water. He saw Cas back in his usual getup and gotar bonar. Dean loves cartoons. He loves costumes. He loves Cas’s coat.
#he wants to jerk off on it. who said that.#he wants to jerk off on it both on the outside (marking his territory) and on the inside (intimate and defiling.).#he wants to wear the coat and nothing else and jerk off and then give it back to Cas while it's still warm from his body.#idk who said that must have been the wind#this is a passing thought I haven't seen this recently#Dean does ALSO very much enjoy seeing Cas dressed up but he LOVES base Cas who wears the same outfit every day#am i projecting because I always dismiss when cas is described in other clothes and imagine him in the trench coat anyway. yes.#but there is textual evidence that dean likes the coat#also his 'you think it's crappy 🥺' 'eye of the beholder' comment#even if he DID think Cas's coat was lame. which he doesn't!!! he could never say it to him
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happy siffrin day / loop plush drop day / loop day!!! :D
#in stars and time#isat#isat loop#isat siffrin#isat spoilers#isat act 6 secret encounter spoilers#<- since. yanno. LMAO.#a thought crossed my mind briefly thinking loop and sif could technically have 2 stated different birthdays#if we assume that siffrin said a random date when asked about when their birthday was cuz they forgor#then that could also mean loop? said a DIFFERENT random birthday??? when asked who knows when?? if that makes sense???#so they could share an ORIGINAL birthday but when asked on two seperate occasions they couldve STATED two different days???#idk where i was going with that tbh it was more of a random thought than anything else ASFASDAS#also!! favor tree topped cake!!! i thought it would be fun to draw#was originally gonna just have siffrin and loop on it but then#it looked empty so added the party and some birds :]#however poor planning meant the cake was uh tinier than expected to fit everyone#oops!!! still fun tho!! no regrets there#also please pretend the toppers are more to scale and are kinda like mini plushies since#i thought itd be a fun touch cuz the loop plush drops today :D#okay! tag talk over!!
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