#idk. I just want to know who is fighting. why are the fighting. what do they all want. WHERE are they fighting. how are they fighting.
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đđđ˘đŤđ˘đ§đ đŹ - David Cliff x Black!OC
đđŽđŚđŚđđŤđ˛ - In which David meets a woman so alluring in a place so vibrant and magnetic
đđđŤđ§đ˘đ§đ đŹ - seductiveness(???), drinking, idk really knowâŚ.
đđđłđłđ˘đâđŹ đđ¨đđđŹ - this was supposed to be something small and one off, that why the songs I chose are basic but it turned into something moreâŚshe want even supposed to have a name but here we are. UNEDITED, sorry for any spelling errors and grammar mistakes.
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The chatter within the cafĂŠ was soft, the sound of ceramic dishes cloning together louder than the sound of actual voices within the small establishment. David sipped at the hot coffee from the beautifully colored mug he was given, the taste of three creamers and an unknown amount of sugars packets making the beverage just to his liking. The sun was shining through the windows of the place, surprisingly with gentle rays in the summer heat. The soft bell above the door would ring every now and then, people leaving with their order or a new person entering only minutes after the other. And although everything seemed to swell on this fine summer day, David couldnât help but be a little down as he sat across from Margaret, sipping at his drink
âYouâre talented, David.â The woman across from him said, her head tilting a little as she started in his eyes. And the man couldnât help the way he thought she looked a little adorable any time she did that, fighting the urge to upturn the corner of his lip. âMore than talented. But if weâre gonna make you the next big thing, we have to be a little more strategic.â She finished, tapping her manicured nails against the table.
David leaned back in his chair, unimpressed. âStrategic as in what? A gimmick? A viral moment?â He asked in a dull tone, fed up with the way the industry seemed to enjoy curated content rather than authenticity. He has all that, he had the life most artist wanted, the money at least. He just wanted to make music the peopleâs loved, music that spoke to others. Music that he felt was worthy. Not some pop record that he would have to preform at âI Heart Radioâ.
Margaret sighed. âStrategic as in exposure.â She said, a small smirk on her lips as she placed her hands on top of the table. âThe right rooms, the right performances, the right people.â She grinned. âAnd Iâve heard about this place onceâSmoke and Satin. Itâs supposedly the real deal. Classic jazz spot, live music, fancy dressed, invite-only type of scene.â
David raised a skeptical brow, his back still against the metal chair as he tapped his long finger on the side of the hot mug. âAnd youâve been there?â He questioned.
This caused Margaret to hesitate, the pale girl opening her mouth for a response as she moved to play with her long brunette locks. âWellâŚâ She began, her voice a little high her than before as Davidâs brow arched higher, his eyes squinting some. âWell, uh, not exactly. But I know people who have.â She said with an unsure laugh.
David blinked at her. âDo you?â He asked, his tone not changing from before, even at her obviously apparent lie. Margaret let out a sigh, shoulders deflecting some at her stupid attempt to hide anything from the observer man. âYeah, no.â She said a little dejectedly. David pursed his lips with a nod, but Margaret was quick to reiterate. âBut I did know a guy that lived in the apartment complex above the joint sometimes I cooks hear the music when I was in the lobby.â She tried to reassure. David just blinked at her, his eyes still slightly squinted as he brought the cup down from his lips.
âWhat, you used to date this guy or something?â He asked. He couldnât help but change the subject at her words, because now he was more curious about that than the actual music spot. Plus, the tension andâŚsituationshhip between David and Margaret was no secret, to them at least, they knew. But it was nothing serious, and the other wasnât sure of their partner wanted it to be serious, so they were in this weird state of limbo and sexual desire.
Margaret sighed at his words, rolling her eyes at him as a donât smirk graced her face. âThatâs not important.â
âWell, I think it is important.â David slightly grinned. âI mean, Iâm technically going to this manâs house. Imagine he comes downstairs to see us in his lobby.â He said, and he couldnât help but laugh at the thought, of Margaret bringing her current âflingâ to her old guys place of residence, even though they were technically waiting in this supposed renowned music spot.
âItâs gonna be fine, David.â Margaret grinned along with him. âIf you stall on this anymore, Iâll start thinking youâre getting cold feet, mister.â She said, raising her brows at him before being her coffee to her lips. David jerked his head back at her, a playful smirk on his lips. âDavid does not get cold feet. There is nothing cold about David Cliff.â He smirked. Margaret just rolled her eyes at him, bring the cup down as Davidâs smile widened some more. âYou should know.â He stated. And Margaret almost chocked on the hot beverage at his words, looking up into the seductive eyes of the man across from her who still held a grin.
David was doing anything to distract his mind from the stress that came with music most time, and he couldnât help but be a little intrigued by the music spot, Smoke & Satin. He didnât want to be just another industry puppet. He wanted his music to be felt, not mass-produced. He wanted it to be passionate and for it to have meaning. And if Smoke and Satin really had that authenticity, maybe it was worth checking out.
It wasnât long before night came, and thatâs when they had planned to visit the spot. That night, they arrived at a place called Lullabyâs Lounge, the building that housed Smoke and Satin. It looked like something out of another eraâa blend of modern upkeep and vintage charm, resembling an old luxury hotel. The golden lighting from the entrance cast a warm glow on the polished black-and-white tiled floors. The place has sort of an art deco style to it, the chandlerâs hanging making the place bright but calm. It was nothing like the grittier, hole-in-the-wall places David expected from a so-called authentic jazz spot. He was dressed in a normal suit, although he spiced his outfit up with a green dress shirt and sweater, giving the outfit a pop of color.
Margaret was dressed nicely as well, her long brown hair flowing down her back, dressed in a simple black dress that reached below her knees with a square neckline. They both analyzed the room as they walked in, but were intercepted by the polite voice of a man near the door. âHow may I help you two this evening?â They looked over to see a ginger man, dressed in a simple tuxedo. Margaret smiled at him. âUh, weâd like to go into Smoke and Satin, please.â She said. The man grinned, giving them a small and barley noticeable bow. âRight this way.â He said before walking before them, heading to the left.
Since the apartment and the bar were essentially different spots, he led them to an area directly parallel to the door, passing for the feminine windows until they made it to a hotels booth. Now David thought the club being there was pretty obvious for a place thatâs supposed to be weird if mouth, could see the place with a simple turn of your head once your entered. But he figured it was that way to not disturb the actual residents of the complex above that were just trying to go about their day.
âHere we are.â The ginger man said, leading them to the small line outside the large, dark wooden doors behind the woman at the podium. âYou two have a wonderful evening.â He flashed them a pearly grin before moving on his way, back to where he found them. David tried to ignore the look the man gave them, noticing the small eye sawing the glint in his eye. He tossed the interaction up to him assuming David and Margaret were a couple, and that was fine by him.
As they stood in line outside Smoke and Satin, the warm night air carried the distant hum of jazz from within. The line moved slowly, filled with people dressed in sleek suits, silk dresses, looking effortless out together. Margaret adjusted the long strap of her small bag, shifting onto one heeled foot. âYouâre quiet.â She said softly, looking over at him.
David exhaled, eyes scanning the golden-lit entrance. âJust taking it in.â
Margaret smirked. âI doubt that, youâre never taking things in. Youâre thinking something.â
David soared her a small glance, trying to hide to stop the smile that wanted to appear in his lips at just how much she knew him. His gaze then drifted back to the doors behind the hostess, trying to catch a glimpse into the place anytime another wakes in as the door was held by the tall man standing next to it. âI donât like scenes like this.â He stated.
This caused her to raise a brow, ceasing her arms. âScenes like what? Exclusive? High-end? Full of people who actually know good music?â She inquired playfully, causing him to cut his eyes at her. âScenes where people think they know good music.â He reiterated firmly.
âYouâre such a snob.â Margaret scoffed, though a grin was apparent in her lips.
David smirked. âIâm particular.â
She sighed, tilting her head toward the entrance. âLook, all Iâm saying isâif this place is as good as Iâve heard, maybe you should enjoy it instead of tearing it apart before we even get in.â
David rolled his shoulders. âWeâll see.â
Margaret studied him for a second before nudging him lightly with her elbow. âYou need to get out of your head. Have a drink. Maybe evenâGod forbidâhave a good time.â She stated.
David shook his head, but there was amusement behind his eyes. âIâll consider it.â He said with a coy shrug, causing the girl to let out a small laugh, both unbeknownst to the man they waited in line behind them, eyeing the two.
The line eventually led them to the front desk, where they were met with a knowing smile from the host. âReservations?â The tan skinned Asian woman asked them, flashing them a polite smile. Margaret glanced towards David at that, a little taken aback at the new information, before looking back at her. âI didnât know we needed them.â She said, letting out a small nervous laugh.
The host gave a polite but firm smile. âMost nights, no. But when she sings, we fill up quick.â She said, giving them a light nod.
âShe?â Margaret and David asked at the same time.
âStella Mougly.â The name was spoken with reverence from the hostess and a deep voice from behind them. Before either Margaret or David could turn around and respond to the woman in front of them, a man stepped in beside themâa tall, well-dressed figure with light brown skin, enticing eyes and an air of familiarity about the place. âLet them in, theyâre with me.â He said smoothly. âYou got it, P.â The woman at the desk said as she gave a playfully stern nod. The man, âPâ, as she called him, gave her a small laugh, his voice deep as he passed the pair and moved over to the doors.
David and Margaret exchanged looks before trailing behind the man, who led them through the lobby and into Smoke and Satin. The interior was cozyâtheir lighting was romantic, the seats were covered in this sexy green velvet, the floors had the same polished checkered patterns as the thick stripes in the lobby. David didnât see how such a place bled authenticity.
Their guide turned to them with a grin as they walked through the establishment. âLucky night for you two.â He said. âIâm Pierre, the manger.â He said before turning back around and maneuvering his way though . They walked through what looked to be the common area, some people sat in booths and at well decorated tables that were wrapped in a thick table cloth. This area also seemed to be more crowded, booths lined the wall while the tables were close enough for a person to fit through.
They thought their seats were gonna be there but they continued to follow the man that invited them in, not questioning his friendly nature. Pierre passed the bar on the other side of the wall, the trio walking down the checkered path that was available in case you wanted another drink. Passing the bar, he spoke to the man behind the counter. âWassup, Bernard.â He called out, causing the man to look up. The brown skinned man with a thick mustache smiled at him, giving him a small salute as he flashed his perfectly straight teeth with his silver grills. âWassup, P!â He cheered before going back to mixing the drinks in front of him.
The pair behind the tall man were then led to further into the room, passing some men who opened a velvet rope for them and then going down some steps that separated this sitting area from another. This section was separated from the other, an styled a little different but still styled cohesively. The floors were a dark brown wood, matching the tall walls not covered in picture frames, records and instruments. The lighting was dim and candles sat at the center of the occupied tables, encasing them into this romantic atmosphere. There was plush red-velvet seating, chandeliers that dripped from the ceiling like golden constellations and hum of conversation mixed with the soft melodies of a live band warming up.
Margaret and David were in love with the place as is, but this section was something more. It was alive.
Pierre led them through the large room, passing people dressed to the nines and in chatting away. The man stopped a table in the center of the room, the chairs almost like small couches with how large and plus they were. They were also set up sort of like a booth, two small sofas on either side of table while the other ends held large cushioned chairs as well. âThese are some of the best seats in the house.â Pierre smirked as he took a seat in one of the chairs at the end of the table, while gesturing for David and Margaret to have a seat on the plush sofa.
They sat down and almost immediately, a waiter was at their table. âAny drinks in mind?â They looked up to see the same ginger man from earlier, a polite smile on his face as she place the leather menus down on the table. Margaret and David glanced at each other since they didnât know what the place had.
âIâll take an a sidecar.â Pierre said, not even opening his menu for food as he looked down at the fancy silver watch on his left wrist.
âUh, Iâll have a Negroni, Iâd you serve that.â Margaret said. The ginger man smiled at her whilst nodding. âYes, we do.â He said before turning to David, and the man couldnât help but to see that same flint in his eye. âAnd you, sir?â He asked, not even bothering to write any of the drinks down. âIâll take an old fashioned.â David stated. The bright haired man hummed. âAh, excellent choice, monsieur. Iâll have those to you in no time, let me know when you want to dinner.â He said before drifting away from their table in the blink of an eye.
One he was gone, Pierre looked at the pair, a soft smile on his face. âMay I ask the name of the two people I invited to enjoy dinner with me?â He asked as he picked up the match box from the center of the table and sparked a light, the small ember brightening his face as he leaned to light the wax sticks at the center of the table. Their attention snapped over from admiring at the place to the manâs at the other end of the table, watching as he set the atmosphere further.
âOh! Iâm Margaret.â She smiled at him.
âDavid.â The man said with a small smile and a simple nod of acknowledgement. Pierre nodded with a hum, sparing a quick glance down at his watch again before looking back up with a grin. âWell, welcome to Smoke & Satin, one of the best places on earth. Time spent here is more than just an event. Itâs a feeling not many get to experience, so I hope you enjoy.â He said. And it seemed that checking the time on his wrist time everything perfectly, since the waiter from before being over their drinks on the silver platter. âHere are your drinks.â He said, sitting there glasses down on the crème colored cloth that draped the table.
âThank you.â David said, making sure to give the man his gratitude. âYou are welcome, monsieur.â The man said before sitting a drink down in front Pierre. âThanks, Hughy.â The green eyed man thanked him ginger. âNo problem, P.â He said before walking away. David couldnât help but to squint his eyes as he sipped his drink, not only at the intersection between the two, but also just at the ginger man in general.
Is heâŚflirting with me? He questioned himself as he smacked his lips a little, savoring the smooth bourbon. The thought lingered in his mind as he sat the glass down, questioning the eyes and the doorman turned waiter was giving him, and the French word that simply meant âSirâ, but felt like it had a different meaning to him. They were only got a few sips into the beverage before the light around them dimmed further, causing the room hush. A spotlight flared to life, illuminating the red curtains on the stage about twenty steps away.
A smooth voice resonated through the speakers, deep and velvety as it spoke. âLadies and gentlemen, we have our most esteemed guest of the evening. Sit back and relax to the most wonderful, the most talented, and just down right gorgeous⌠Stella Mougly.â
The curtains parted.
And there she was.
She was dressed in a sheer, tiger-print babydoll dress, that thin material shimmering under the soft glow of the stage light as the music began to play. The delicate fabric draped over her body like liquid silk, giving teasing glimpses of her figure. There were specs of glitter dusted across her brown skin, making her glow like something celestial. Her hair was long and black with subtle waves in it, making her look even more exotic and intoxicated. Dainty gold jewelry adorned her wrists and neck, catching the light with every subtle movement. Her heels were like gold as well, a thin strap going across her ankle and across the ends of her polished toes.
âOoh, la-la-la-la.â Was sung by the deep voices of the band as they eased into the song.
And then she sang.
âI did you wrong. My heart went out to play. But in the game I lost you."
"What a price to pay.â As she sung that last part, the lights became a little brighter to show the men that were singing as they played the instrument behind her. She smiled as she spared them a quick glance before going back to singing.
Her voiceâsoft, sultry, effortlessly controlledâwrapped around the melody of 'Ooh, Baby, Baby' by Smokey Robinson & The Miracles. The live band played in the shadows behind the spotlight, letting her be the centerpiece, the guiding force.
âI'm cryin'. Ooh, baby, baby. Ooh, baby, baby.â
She moved with ease, swaying with the music as she glided across the stage in a slow pace. The bandâs harmonies rolled like smooth waves beneath her voice, their presence steady but never overwhelming. Stellaâs sultry tone melted into the melody, drawing the audience into her grasp as effortlessly as a siren luring sailors to sea. She moved with intentionâeach step, each glance, each soft note weaving an intoxicating spell.
âMis-takes, I know Iâve made a few,â She crooned, her voice dipping into a gentle rasp that sent shivers down spines. She reached out towards the crowd, her nude colored nails catching the dim glow of the chandeliers above. âBut Iâm only human, Youâve made mistakes tooâŚoooohhh.â
The hush in the room was thick with longing. Conversations had faded into whispers, drinks were momentarily forgotten. Eyes followed her every move as she sauntered toward the grand piano at the far end of the stage, closer to the crowd. âIâm cryinâ,â She sang again, this time softer, letting the words linger before rolling into the familiar, aching refrain. âOoh, baby, babyâŚâ
The pianistâs fingers ghosted over the keys, his touch delicate yet assured. Stella trailed a fingertip along the glossy black surface of the instrument as she circled it, her dress shimmering under the low lights.
âOoh, baby, baby,â She repeated, her voice like warm honey, eyes lidded as she let the music carry her, eventually making her way atop the grand piano at the edge of the stage the the help of a hidden step stool.
âI'm just about at the end of my rope.â She sung into the microphone as she came into a resting position upon the sleek instrument effortlessly, leaning her weight on her right hand while her legs were thrown to the side in a seductive crossing. A small bouquet of roses sat at the center of the piano, wrapped in a satin gold bow. âBut I can't stop tryin', I can't give up hope.â She continued, her eyes flickering over the crowd she could barely see due to the bright light beaming down in her.
David was entranced.
The world blurred. The chatter of the audience, the clinking of glasses, even Margaret beside himâit all faded. There was only her. He watched as he pulled a rose from the bundle before her, the dark red a nice contrast to her honey skin that glistened with her every movement.
â 'Cause I feel that one day I'll hold you near.â She sung, her voice lifted highly match that of dear Smokey as her eyes drifted to the young man playing with focused intensity. He faced up at her, flashing her a large white smile that complimented his deep skin well. âWhisper, "I still love you. Until that day is here.â She sung softly as she leaned further towards the man the played the piano before her, letting the petals of the flower brush against his lips before trailing it down. She ran the flower along his chest that was covered by the black and white tuxedo.
âI'm cryin'.â The pianist stole a quick glance at her, his fingers never faltering but his ears burning red. Her heels dangled, catching the light, and the faintest hint of perfume drifted toward the pianist, who was doing his best to keep his focus on the music rather than the woman now practically lounging atop his instrument. A smirk tugged at her lips as she leaned closer, watching the way his Adamâs apple bobbed when he noticed her lingering presence.
She was practically laid out on top of the instrument now in order to tease the musician.
âOoh, baby, baby,â She cooed one last time, drawing out the final note, her voice floating like smoke, lingering even as the music faded. With a teasing smile, she let the flower drift lower as she turned over onto her back, its stem tracing the air just above his knuckles. He flinched slightly, barely suppressing a flustered chuckle, his dimples making an appearance as he tried to shake it off. âOoh-ooh, baby, baby. Oo-hoo-ooh, baby, baby. Ooh-ooh.â She continued to sing, laid out on her back as one of her legs bent at the knee, her full body shining under the spotlight.
A beat of silence followed before the applause erupted, a mix of whistles, cheers, and appreciative murmurs filling the room. David blinked at it ended, letting out a breath he didnât know he was hiding as she small smile graced his lips before he began calling along with them. The lights the shift off again, encapsulating them in darkness as they waited for the next act.
"Ladies and gentleman, welcome, The Midnight Muses." The lights slowly brightened as the unmistakable drumbeat of Be My Baby by The Ronettes began, that iconic, heart-thudding rhythm filling the air. A hush fell over the crowd, anticipation thick as smoke in the dimly lit lounge. There, with a soft glow illuminating the stage, Stella stoodâstanding tall at the center, draped in a new black boa that had to be given to her in the darkness, her presence commanding yet effortlessly elegant as she danced along to the thumping beat before they began.
To her left, slightly behind, stood her backup singers, dressed in matching black baby doll dresses. Their silhouettes were sharp, their high ponytails swaying ever so slightly as they moved in perfect synchronicity.
âThe night we met, I knew I needed you so. And if I had the chance, Iâd never let you go.â Stella sang, her voice warm and inviting, wrapping around the melody like silk. The boa curled in the crook of her elbows, its feathery texture contrasting against her smooth skin. Her backup singers swayed, their harmonies tight, a perfect echo to her lead. âSo won't you say you love me?â She continued, following the same choreography as the girls behind her, being her arms out in a pleasing motion. âI'll make you so proud of me. We'll make 'em turn their heads every place we go.â
Her eyes flickered across the crowd, a knowing smile tugging at her lips as she shifted her grip on the boa, her fingers brushing against the soft feathers as the chilies dropped. âSo won't you, please.â
âBe my, be my baby.â The girls behind her sung, their voice harmonized perfectly, the sound soft but powerful.
âBe my little baby?â Stella continued, her voice capitulating the perfect raspiness of Ronnie Spector. âMy one and only baby.â
âSay you'll be my darlin'.â
âBe my, be my baby.â
âBe my baby now (My one and only baby) Whoa-oh-oh-oh.â
Then, as the music swelled, she took her first step down the stageâs grand staircase. She moved slowly, purposefully, letting the song breathe as she descended into the audience.
âIâll make you happy, baby, just wait and see, For every kiss you give me, I'll give you three.â She promised, each note carrying a teasing lilt as she eased onto the dining floor, the crowd clapping along, enchanted by her presence among them. She trialed her fingers along some propels shoulder as she passed them, singing powerfully within the audience.
David was watching, his eyes never leaving her, even as he took a large sip from his glass, gaze trained on her at her over the brim as she moved within the crowed. And he couldâve sworn her eyes caught his as she continued to sing. âOh, since the day I saw you, I have been waiting for you. You know I will adore you 'til eternity.â
From the moment she stepped off that stage, his eyes never left her. He leaned back in his seat, one arm resting along the back of his chair, but his body was taut, his focus razor-sharp.
And then before he could even think about itâshe was there. At the same table as him, singing her beautiful song. She draped an arm around Pierre, offering him a soft smile through her singing before slowly dragged it away, her soft hands growing over his expansive suit.
She then sifted around the table, leading to the boa trailed along Davidâs shoulders, a feather-light touch against his skin. His breath caught, though he masked it well. The world around him dimmed, the clinking of glasses and murmured conversations fading into nothing. Her voiceâlow, sultry, hypnoticâwrapped around him like the boa itself, pulling him deeper into her gravity.
âSo wonât you, pleaseâŚâ She continued as she pulled the black scarf around the man, whose eye didnât leave her once. The words curled between them, her eyes locked onto his. âBe my, be my baby?â
Davidâs lips parted, but he said nothing, just watchingâcaptivated, mesmerized.
She was singing to him. She had to be. He knew it. He felt it.
âMy one and only baby,â She crooned, the intensity of their eye contact sending a charge through the space between them as the Blake scarf slowly forged from his figure. âBe my baby now!â
Thenâjust as quickly as she had ensnared himâshe was gone.
She turned on the âWhoa-oh-oh-oh!â spinning away, leaving nothing but the lingering warmth of her presence and the faint scent of of jasmine as she moved through the tables and back to the stage.
The crowd erupted, their cheers filling the lounge as she hit the final notes, her backup singers right in step, harmonizing flawlessly until the music came to a dazzling close.
A thunderous applause followed, whistles and calls of her name ringing out as she stood center stage once more, soaking it all in.
And DavidâDavid sat there, still feeling the ghost of her boa on his shoulders, still hearing her voice in his ears. For the first time in a long time, the infamous playboy was at a loss for words.
Stella smiled, radiant and full of life and she waved and bowed to the crowed with her singers next her. She then turned to blow kisses to the band behind her. The stage lights dimmed again, bringing everything back to its romantic atmosphere as she gave the crowd another playful wave before disappearing backstage.
Pierre turned to them with a deep chuckle, still elated from the small performance as he watched David and Margaretâs expression. âShe gets to you, huh?â
Margaret exhaled. âSheâs incredible. That was⌠effortlessly amazing.â
David frantically blinked, still processing. âSheâs a true performer. But more than thatâher voice is clean. You hear how she bent those high notes? Thatâs a real soprano, but sheâs got jazz in her chest. Her breath control is crazy.â
Pierreâs grin widened as he slightly arched a brow at the man adjacent to him. âWell, look who knows there stuff.â He said with a small smirk, gesturing to David as he glanced at Margaret, who shared a small smile with the man as well. âI told you. Smoke and Satin isnât just a place. Itâs a feeling. The history here is deep.â He said, sitting up more in is seat as he began to explain the lore of Smoke and Satin, not caring if they didnât care to hear.
âAs you can tell by walking in, Smoke and Satin is the restaurant/ jazz bar, connected to the apartment complex that we call The Lullabyâs Lounge. The complex was actually the first black owned business in Los Angeles, which sort of gave it an easy target for racism, especially being in closer to white neighborhoods of that time. All people tried their damndest to turn this into another example of a ghetto, white people to love a point that all blacks were alike while black people thought the others that lived there were saditty and sell outs. Not long after all their attention since opening, the establishment gained a lot of traction.â He stated.
âIt soon became a place of refuge during the civil rights era. Rallies, meetings, after school programs, different practices, hell, church, were all held at this building at some point. Right in that room over there.â He said counting over to the lit section that the pair had to walk though to get to the section they were in. He then gestured to the room they were sitting in. âThis little VIP-esque section was actually hidden. It was a secret jive joint that brought in black folks from all over. A place for grown folk to unwind from their hard days of trying to gain freedom. This room would hold everything from poetry to swing dances. Itâs a place of comfort for the community, and it still is in way. The owners still live in the building to this day.â He explained.
David and Margaret blinked and gaped in astonishment at the life history they were sitting in, getting to experience.
âTime passed and this section became a restaurant, a cover up for the secret room in the back when cops started snooping around just because they wanted to. It then became really popular among famous jazz musicians and Black Hollywood elites of that time, and it never really lost its touch. The shtick of the exclusive word of mouth thing was something that rich people enjoyed.â He explained, his bright eyes drifting between the two as he told them the run down. âTraction didnât start becoming what it was with reservations and stuff until Lady Stella showed up.â He said, not missing the way Davidâs eyes seemed to glint at the sound of the womanâs name.
âShe was getting major attention for not only her voice. I, on the other hand, started out working here as a creek receptionist, but Iâve been a loyal customer from the beginning. My parents took me to Lullabyâs all the time growing up, thatâs why when business stated getting more than serious around here with how money Stella was bringing in, I was allowed to take over to help the elderly owners run things smoothly. And thatâs essentially how Smoke and Satin became what it was today, though I would owe majority of my thanks and graduations to Stella for that.â
Margaret and David listened as Pierre explained the history of Lullabyâs Loungeâhow it was the first Black-owned housing complex in Los Angeles, how it became a refuge during the Civil Rights era, how jazz legends and Hollywoodâs Black elite once filled these very booths. And how Stella, in many ways, revived the magic.
Pierre then smirked. âThis place only comes to you when you need it, not when you just want it, die to his rich history. I like to call it magic sometimes.â He said.
Margaret leaned forward, her fingers lightly tracing the rim of her glass as she took in Pierreâs words. Her expression was one of quiet awe, her usual sharp demeanor softened by the weight of the history he had just unraveled. âThatâs⌠incredible.â She murmured, glancing around the lounge as if seeing it with new eyes. âI mean, I knew this place had a vibe, but I didnât realize it was history.â She then smirked, shaking her head slightly. âAnd magic? Thatâs a hell of a way to put it.â She glanced around the lounge, her gaze landing on the framed photographs lining the walls. âIâll admit, though⌠this place does feel different.â
David, meanwhile, sat back in his chair, absorbing it all in his own way. His gaze drifted across the roomâfrom the framed black-and-white photographs on the walls to the way the candlelight flickered against the mahogany wood. He exhaled, a slow, measured breath, through his nose, drumming his fingers against the table. âSo, whatâyou think certain people just end up here for a reason?â His tone was casual, but there was something thoughtful beneath it. He doubted he believed the useless tale for even a second, but why did he wait for a reasonable response from the man. Why did he sound curious?
Pierre leaned back in his chair, nodding once. âSomething like that. People donât just stumble into Lullabyâs Lounge. They find it when they need it, even if they donât realize it.â He gestured around. âThat history, that energy? It sticks. And somehow, it knows when to pull the right folks in.â
Margaret studied Pierre for a moment before shrugging. âI donât know if I buy all that, but I do know I donât wanna leave anytime soon.â She took another sip of her drink, looking satisfied.
David chuckled, shaking his head as he pushed his chair back. âWell, I guess weâll see if I start feeling enlightened after a bathroom break.â
Pierre smirked knowingly. âYou might.â
David shot him a look but didnât press. Instead, he stood, rolling his shoulders before heading toward the back of the lounge, weaving through the tables as the warm hum of conversation and music followed him.
David exited the lavatory shortly after entering and a good wash to his hands, but he wasnât quite ready to return to the table yet. Do instead, he made his way to the long, mahogany bar that lined the far wall, lining up with the same bar in the upper lounge, the bars connecting with a small set of store and separated by a tiny wooden door that stopped at hip height. His trudge over to the bar with the lit counter top was slow, his hand in his pockets as he contemplated what drink to order next, and questing if he should get food.
And thatâs when he saw her. The ethereal being from the stage.
Stella.
Up close, she was even more stunning. The slights sheen of sweat on her collarbones from dancing under that beaming light, the slight smudging of her mauve lipstickâsigns of a woman who had just poured her soul into a performance. She leaned against the bar, stirring her drink absentmindedly.
David wasnât one to freeze up, so before he could even think about he it, he was at the bar standing next to her as he ordered his own drink. He did a double take the at same ginger man, Hughy, behind the bar, mixing up drinks. Hughy glanced up at him with a small smile and an arched brow, waiting for his order. âA Black Orchid, please.â He statedâa rare, moody cocktail with an air of mystery, much like the man himself. The choice catching Stellaâs attention just enough for her to glance over.
Hughy brows raised in surprise before he finished the drink he was making for a man at the other end of the bar and began to work on Davidâs. Hughy���s eyes then drifted to the singing woman who glanced over at David, a small smirk drifting upon his features.
The drink arrives in a sleek coupe glass, its deep, inky purple hue shimmering under the low bar lights. A single black orchid petal floats delicately on the surface, almost too perfect to disturb. The scent carries hints of dark berries, aged rum, and the faintest trace of smokiness, intriguing yet smooth. He was quite surprised they even had the drink, not many places did.
Stella, perched gracefully at the bar with her own drink in front of her, watches as he lifts the glass to his lips, ones she couldnât help notice the plumpness of. Her curiosity is piqued not only by the drink, but as well as the handsome manâs next to her. .
âThatâs not on the menu.â She remarks, voice low and velvety as she looked over at him, her head rested on her arms lazily, giving her this sultry look as she gazed at him.
David softly grinned, taking a slow sip as he looked over at her. âIt didnât have to be. I hear you can order anything at this bar.â He said with a simple shrug. Stella nodded at that with a subtle hum that he could barely hear over the music and chatter that filled the vibrant atmosphere, causing him to lean closer subconsciously. âSo, this is your first time here?â She asked. David, who was now closer to her just nodded, looking her in the eye. Stella blinked as she looked into his eyes, his taller frame making her catch the candle lights flickering in his eyes.
She then tilts her head with a small and curious smile, amused. âSo whatâs in it?â She asked, softly jutting her head to the drink. David blinks from their small staring trance, looking down at the drink and sailing the skinny black stew lightly, the ice shifting against the glass. âDark rum, blackcurrant liqueur, a little vanilla, and just enough mezcal to keep it interesting.â He leans slightly toward her, his voice dropping just enough. âNot too sweet. Not too bitter. JustâŚbalanced.â He said, looking her back in the eye.
Stella watches him for a moment, her own smirk forming. âProfound taste, monsieur.â She said, giving the man a small clap. Davidâs brow twitched at the familiar word heâs been called all night, causing his eyes to glance up at the bartender, who was now gone and replaced by a woman. His eyes furrowed slightly at the disappearing act the ginger man kept pulling, but didnât dwell on it due to the fact that he was speaking to someone. âYou speak French?â He asked, looking back down at Stella, noticing her perfect accent when she said the word.
âNo, not if you want to count the required class I took in college.â She said with a small smile, this one far more genuine and amused as she watched David laugh a little her her. âBut fancy people like you usually love it when someone else pulls out another language. Itâs good for business.â She said with a small shrug.
âWell, no business on my side, because I am far from fancy.â He said before bringing his glass up to take another sip. Stella arched a perfectly shaped brow at him, causing him to shrug a little. âI try.â He added, causing the woman to smile with a nod, now agreeing with him.
He waited a beat before speaking, watching as she never once sipped from her own drink, just slinking the beverage around as its ice melted in the ball round glass. âThat was⌠unreal.â He said softly, causing her to look back up at him. She blinked with a glint of confusion. âYour performance.â He stated. âIt was really good.â
Her smile turned soft as looked at him, but he could see something unreadable. âThank you.â She said softly.
David leaned against the counter, tilting his glass slightly. âMost people hear a song. And even though those are basic classics, I felt those. It was like hearing it for the first time all over again.â He explained before taking another sip of the drink that was starting to make him buzz some.
His compliment made her smirk over at him. âAh, are you a musician?â She asked.
âSomething like that.â He shrugged as he swirled the dark liquid in his glass. âYouâve got crazy control. The way you flipped those transitionsâseamless. And your band? Tight as hell. You got them playing behind you like itâs second nature.â He began again. And now, Stella looked at him. Really looked at him.
Most people gave her the same rehearsed complimentsââYour voice is amazing,â or âYouâre so talented.â But him⌠he paid attention. He listened.
She finally took a sip of her drink, mainly out of pure nerves of being under his intense gaze and heavy compliments, her eyes lingering on him for a moment longer. âSounds like you know your stuff.â
David chuckled. âGotta know what youâre talking about when youâre in the game.â
That piqued her interest. âSo you are a musician.â
He smirked but didnât answer right away. Instead, he raised his glass in a small toast. âTo real music.â
Stella watched him for another second before clinking her glass against his. âTo real music.âAnd just like that, the air between them shifted. It had already been thick, humming with something unspoken, but now? It was stronger. More certain.
Neither of them wanted the moment to end.
But it had to.
David glanced over his shoulder toward the table where Margaret was still waiting, Pierre now missing as well, which was understandable since he was the manager. With a slow exhale, he straightened up, setting his glass down on the bar.
âI should probably get going.â He said, though he didnât move right away and his voice didnât sound too convincing to either of them. Stella blinked out of the trance the handsome man had put her in, nodding at his words but there was something reluctant in the way she did it. âYeah.â She said softly, just now realizing that his close proximity had her entrenched within his dark amber and smoked vanilla scent.
Neither of them moved.
For a moment, it felt like the whole lounge had quieted, as if the world had carved out a small space just for them, just for this moment as they started at one another, trying to end the night.
Finally, David forced himself to step back. âGuess Iâll see you around, Stella.â
She blinked, realizing thenâshe didnât know his name. âGuess so.â She said softly. And before she could ask, he had already turned, disappearing into the dim light of the lounge.
And as he walked back toward his table, the strangest thing hit him. Margaret was still waiting. The woman he was in a situation-ship with, the woman he had come here with.
And yet⌠he couldnât bring himself to feel guilty of the time he waisted with another woman.
Not at all.
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đ(*â˛â˛â˛>ďš<â˛â˛â˛*đ) migraine - rafe đ(*â˛â˛â˛>ďš<â˛â˛â˛*đ)
Summary: You are Rafeâs younger sister and Sarahâs fraternal twin. You were supposed to hang out with the pogues today, but you got one of your awful migraines and rafe takes care of you.
warnings: descriptions of vomiting, please skip if this triggers you.
word count:Â 1.9k
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I woke up to a knock on my door. I opened my eyes and looked over to the door to see Sarah open it and walk in.
âWhy arenât you ready yet y/n?â Sarah asked me.
âWhat are you talking about Sar?â I asked, groggily
âBoat day with the Pogues, remember? Itâs already 8â she said
âShit I forgot.â I said. âYou go ahead, Iâll meet you guys there.â I said, rolling back over.
âOk, see you there y/n.â Sarah said, leaving the room.
I sat up, when I was met with the familiar sharp pains in my head and blurriness in my left eye. I groaned in pain.Â
Iâve been getting migraines for around 3 years now, ever since I was 15. They started when my dad and Rose started fighting more and more. When they started, they were manageable, but throughout the years, theyâve been getting worse and worse. Now. theyâd become unbearable. My head would be throbbing with random sharp pains and my left eye would become crazy blurry, I would get nauseous and throw up sometimes, and I wouldnât even be able to eat or drink anything without it coming up. And to make things worse, I had run out of my migraine meds, and I could already tell this was one of those days where nothing would stay down as I was already feeling so nauseous.Â
I knew there was no way I could survive in that summer sun with the pogues all day, because not only could I not drink water, but if I wasnât drinking beer with them, they would know somethingâs up. I pulled out my phone, turning the brightness all the way down and opened up the group chat. There were a couple new texts from the pogues.
jb: whooooo boat day!!!!
brainiac pope: iâll meet you guys there in 30 minutes, my pops made me do a couple deliveries
kie: headed to the chateau now!
captain maybank: hey sarah, r u and y/n on ur way?
fav sister (sarah): i'm coming, y/n will meet us there, she woke up super late as always lol
jb: honestly, i expected thatÂ
I had to come up with a lie fast, so i typed:
y/n: About that guys, I canât come today. Dad wants me to help him prep the Druthers for the hurricane later this week.
fav sister: I thought Rafe was helping him with that tomorrow
y/n: nope, he changed his mind i guess, lucky you got out early
captain maybank: youâre literally his favourite kid how did you not get out of it
y/n: idk ig he needs 2 ppl or smt
kie: ok, we will miss you!!!
I shut my phone off and tried to fall back asleep, but my bed wasnât doing it for me, so with whatever strength I could gather, I went downstairs to the pullout couch with a trash can. I sat down on the couch, bringing my knees up to my chest and resting my head on the cushions. I whined in pain, feeling another sharp pain shoot through my skull. I tried to fall asleep, but the throbbing in my head and the sickness in my stomach kept me up. I couldnât even do anything at all since my nauseousness would come back. I was so thirsty and hungry but I knew I couldnât eat or drink anything or else I would throw up. I just wanted to sleep and be left alone today. After about 3 hours, I managed to doze off for a bit.Â
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âYeah, sure. Iâll be over at around 7:45.â
The sound of someoneâs voice woke me up. I opened my eyes again, feeling the throbbing and nausea coming back. I winced in pain, looking over to see who it was. It was Rafe. I immediately settled back in. Rafe was the only person who knew about my migraines, and he always took great care of me. But Rafe was just telling someone, probably Topper or Sofia, that he would be going over in a couple hours. I froze, trying to be unnoticeable, because if Rafe saw me here, he would want to take care of me and I couldnât let him cancel his plans.
Rafe and I were each other's favourite siblings. Ever since we were little, we would always take care of each other. He would always comfort me when I was upset, I would always cover for him when he snuck out, and we were just always there for each other.
Rafe was about to step out of the house, but another sharp pain hit, and it was the worst one Iâd had all day, causing me to let out a loud whimper. I covered my mouth, hoping Rafe didnât hear it, but of course he did.
âY/N?â he asked, looking around.Â
He came into the living room, seeing me in a ball on the couch, covered in my favourite fuzzy pink blanket. He jogged over to the couch and got down on his knees next to me.
âHey hey hey, whatâs going on? Is it one of your migraines?â he asked.
I nodded slightly, afraid to speak or move my head too much.Â
âDid you drink any water?â he asked
âNo, itâs one of those days where nothing will stay down.â I said.
âDid you take your meds?â he asked
âNo,â I said, shaking my head. âIâm all out.â
âOkay, hang tight.â he said, heading towards the door. He left, closing the door softly, so that the sound didnât cause my headache to get worse. I sat there, massaging my head, trying to ease the pain a little bit. After 15 minutes, I heard Rafeâs car pull back in the driveway. He gently opened the door, holding a small paper bag. He went into the kitchen, and I heard the fridge open quietly. Another strong wave of pain hit me. I groaned loudly, trying to focus somewhere other than my awful headache, but I couldnât. The waves of pain were getting more frequent now, occurring every couple minutes. Rafe walked into the living room, holding a glass of water and my migraine pills.
âYouâre a fucking lifesaver, Rafe.â I say, accepting the pills and water from his hand. I put the water down on the table and swallowed the pills dry.Â
âYou need to drink water.â Rafe commands.Â
âI canât Rafe, I canât keep anything down today.â I said.
âNo no, drink it. If it comes back up, then I wonât make you drink anymore for a while at least, but it will help a little bit.â he said.Â
I was about to argue back, but the pain shut me up. I took small sips of water, turning into gulps as I finished the whole glass. Rafe sat down next to me and started massaging my head. He always knew exactly what to do in these situations.Â
âHave you eaten anything?â he asks, whispering.
âRafe, I already told you, nothing will stay down.â I said.
As if on cue, I felt the water I drank start to come back up.
âRafe, the water is coming back up.â I muttered
Rafe immediately got off the couch and grabbed the trash can from beside the couch and handed it to me. I lifted it to my mouth as I gagged up the water that Rafe made me drink.
âOkay, weâll take it easy for now,â Rafe said once I was done vomiting. âFor now, try to go to sleep.âÂ
I nodded and laid down on the couch, bringing my knees up to my chest. Rafe laid back down next to me, going back to massage my head. Within 15 minutes, I fell back asleep.Â
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I woke up to see Rafe sitting in the reading chair next to the couch, texting someone. He had changed from the polo shirt and jeans he was wearing earlier to a graphic tee shirt and sweats. His eyes immediately fell on me and he got up and came over to the couch.Â
âHey sleepyhead, feeling any better?â Rafe asked with a small smile.
âWhat time is it?â I asked Rafe.
âItâs about 8:15 now, you slept for almost 7 hours,â he said.
âWhat happened to your plans?â I asked.Â
âI told Top I couldnât make it.â he said.
âWhy?â I asked, still half asleep.Â
âI wasnât about to leave you to deal with this by yourself.â he said. âAre you feeling better at all?âÂ
âActually, yeah,â I said. âMy head still hurts, but I think I can manage water and some food now.â I said.
âThatâs good. Iâll go make you something.â He said, tuning to leave the room. I stopped him.
âIâm sorry.â I said. Rafe turned to look at me.
âWhat the fuck are you sorry for?â he asked, getting down on his knees to meet my eyes.
âIâm sorry you had to cancel your plans to take care of me.â I said.Â
âDonât apologize,â Rafe said. âItâs not your fault.â He got up and left the roomÂ
 I sat up, crossing my legs. I pulled out my phone, the brightness still all the way down. I opened my text messages. I had one from Sarah and a couple from the pogues. I opened the one from Sarah first.
fav sister: Sleepover at the Chateau, come if you want. We missed you today!
I opened the text from the pogues 4 life group chat.Â
jb: hey y/n, you almost done? today was no fun without you
captain maybank: yeah, I had no one to shotgun a beer with!
kie: hey I offered!
captain maybank: yeah, but it's not the same kie!
kie: whatever
pope: we missed you today though y/n and we hope u can come for the sleepover.
I texted a quick âthanks, missed you guys too.â and put my phone away just as Rafe came back with another tall glass of water, some toast with avocado on it, and another one of my migraine pills on a tray.
âHere you go mâlady.â he said, setting the tray on my lap.Â
I took a bite of the avocado toast and took a sip of the water. .Â
I finished eating quickly, took my meds and got up, picking up my phone. Rafe immediately got up, making sure I was good.
âIâm gonna go upstairs to sleep.â I said.Â
âYou want me to come upstairs with you?â he asked.
âNo, you go out with Topper. You shouldnât have cancelled your plans just to take care of me.â I demanded.
âNot a chance in hell. I cancelled for a reason y/n. The only question is do you want me to come upstairs or stay down here?â he asked again.
âCome up with me please?â I asked.
âOf course.â Rafe said, getting up and following me up the stairs.Â
I got in my bed and snuggled under the covers. Rafe got in after me, kicking off his slippers. He started to rub my back and massage my head again. Before I drifted off to sleep, I looked over at Rafe.
âI think I already said this, but thank you Rafe. I love you so much and thank you for taking care of me.â I said.
âAnytime y/n/n. You would take care of me in this situation, plus I know how bad your migraines can get, especially if you donât have your medication.â he said, taking a small break from massaging my head.Â
I gave him a little hug before turning back around and drifting off to sleep for the night.
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A/N: Sorry it took me so long to update, Iâve been super busy lately and havenât had much time to write, but Iâm back! (I say as if 2 days is a long time). Love you guys so much!
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In which Stone sort of has a daughter and Ivo and her are not getting along
so I've talked about this fic I started writing back when the first movie came out and since a few people seem interested I decided to post what I wrote back then to test the water
on the base concept this fic is supposed to be stobotnik but this first part doesn't even has Stone in it, as it is only the first encounter between Robotnik and the kid
it's also not supposed to be the first chapter and it's short but that's all I got the motivation to write back then and it's been 4 years so I'm just, I'm gonna post it now cuz that's long enough okay, we will see how it goes later đ
for context this takes place after the first movie and will only be canon-compliant up to that point
also uh cw r slur??? idk I don't condone the characters' language but it's there
tagging @thebadevil @alexcole1326 and @nosebleedy99 'cause you commented on the other post
- Meanwhile a few months latter on the mushroom planet -
The Doctor was looking for a way on a tricky path, a collapsing old mushroom cap he needed to step on in order to reach a better point of view, when his appliances went insane: there was some dimensional shit going on. He heard a big crack, like thunderbolt, then the dimentional fluctuation faded away.
Maybe two hours latter he heard something again, but something small, something he hadn't heard in a long time. It was not the wind, not the mushrooms growing, not his own breath, not Agent Stone rolling away. It was something that moved by itself, something alive, something animal. It was footsteps.
He was prepared for anything, really, he was prepared for humans, talking blue hedgehogs, other feaking rainbow animals, dinosaurs that would try to eat him... He was ready, and ready to fight for his life if necessary! What he wasn't really expecting though was a child in some kind of safety suit shaped like a dress? With a lot of shiny technological device attached here and there. He didn't get to see their face a lot but based on its proportions and the way it was standing it was obviously a human child, or a weirdly humanoid shaped alien, because as far as Robotnik knew the probability of an alien species to evolve in the exact same way as human, if statistically possible, was very low, and the probability to encounter it even lower.
The child glanced at him for a second and didn't even look up from the touchscreen tablet in their hands when they addressed him:
"I am looking for a human man who was known on his home planet, Earth, as Dr. Ivo Robotnik. Would you appear to 1) know English and 2) have seen a human looking quite like you, in that the human male standard shape and size are similar to yours. He should have a pale skin and dark hairs, and apparently a 'glorious mustache'?"
For once he didn't really know what to say, it only took half a second for him to remember how to register English words but the kid was faster and after a jaded sigh they resumed: "NÇ huĂŹ shuĹ pÇtĹnghuĂ ma? Kya aap hindee bolate hain? ÂżHablas espaĂąol? Hal tatahadath alearabiatu? Tumi ki bÄn-"
"YES I do speak English, and other language stoo, thank you very much. Who are you and what are you doing here anyway?"
"I am here to find the Dr. Ivo Robotnik, I have already said that. Are you retarded or something? If you are don't worry I can explain things again, more slowly, I am trained for that."
"I AM, Dr. Ivo Robotnik," he said, trying very hard not to break the child's neck. "I know you're looking for me, what I'm asking is why? Who are you and who sent you here? No. You know what in fact I don't care who you are. I just want to know who sent you. Which government or secret agency, that sort of thing."
The mildly disgusted and doubtful facial expression they made as they were double-checking his appearance was speaking volumes about their internal thoughts.
"I have no more time to dedicate to you. I'm a very busy person and searching for you already wasted far more of my precious time than you deserve. All you need to know is that a very important person want you and you will follow me now if you don't want me to make use of force."
And on that, the child turned their back to him and disappeared behind a mushroom.
Great. One of those child genius who thought they were above everyone else just because they worked for a random government. He should know, he was one of them. But that kid would learn soon enough what their real place was: down below.
He still followed them though, because they looked like they knew a way back and, well, even if he was smart enough to find a way by himself, thank you very much, the sooner he could beat that hedgehog the better it was. Also, he could just kill them after learning whatever device brought them here and no one would know.
âââ
Soon they arrived to a more open area. The child seemingly took measurements, they walked around taking notes on their pad for a few minutes then stopped.
"Come here," they said while pointing the ground. "Don't move."
They took a device from their bag, some kind of tripod filled with wires and LEDs, and placed it on the ground. They stepped back and typed on their screen some more.
The tripod beeped and light beams came out of it, scaning the mushroom cap they where standing on. A dozen of flat devices escaped from the bag and and went to place themselves on strategic points marked by the beams.
The child then placed what looked like a power cell in the tripod. That blue glow emanating from it, could it be... But he had no time to think about it, lights amplificated by stimulated emission of radiation came out of the tripode and to the discs, reflecting into the others, and soon the whole place was illuminated. Reality torn open for the second time this day in a deafening din.
When he oppened his eyes again a ring, looking almost exactly like the one that brought him here, was now open on the ground before him. Almost, because it looked like it opened on a room specifically equipped for that purpose, and with the whole procedure to activate it, it could only mean it was a more primitive technology.
The Doctor looked up at the child, who was scrutinizing him for his reaction.
"I bet you didn't do that yourself, it looks just like this creature's gold rings portals," he said with a smirk.
"Yeah of course," responded the child with spite, "it's reverse engineering."
"Lame."
"Well at least I'm not stupidly stuck on a damn mushroom planet like an idiot. I favour efficiency upon ego, that's why I am here saving your ass and you are pathetically crawling over there covered in mushroom goo. Now, you will have to excuse me..."
They pressed some hiden button in their gloves and Robotnik felt something stinging his neck.
"...but I don't trust you."
The last thing he thought while falling to the ground and through the ring was: "But... That's my tech..."
#soooo... what do you think of it?#i think it's like the second time i post any of my writing in public so im not gonna lie im a little nervous#there was a little more written but it's back on earth so i decided to just cut the 'chapter' in half and focus on that part#i don't have a title yet but im gonna try to think of one#the kid has a couple reasons to hate ivo it's not 100% gratuitous#but you may learn about that in the future đ#i mean if... if you're interested đđ#also you very much can send me asks about this story if you want it might help with motivation maybe? (please)#(im very afraid of not being able to keep writing im a total mess ngl)#anyway uh... i should stop rambling#oh also don't hesitate to point out spelling or grammar errors or anythingâ english is *still* not my first language ah ah#stobotnik#is that okay if i tag the ship even tho this part is very much not about it?#like i kinda plan for it to happen at some point maybe but im not *sure* it will because i don't really have a *full* story planed y'know
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i do this out of stubbornness not fun.
like i literally did not let my parents buy me an audiobook i so desperately needed cuz âi can finish the book on time i swearâ
(spoiler: i will not finish the book on time and this just lead to me being yelled at and a fight (which btw i will not back down in and will not admit im wrong in because guess what? Im stubborn) w/ my parents, who then forced me to buy the audiobook anyways)
I swear, my worst quality and fatal flaw is how stubborn and proud i am.
and i dint even realize it either. Like i full ass dont want to be this stubborn but i cant not.
i wont admit that one of my friends is amazing just because it started as a joke and now i cant. Iâve admited that heâs the friend i feel most comfortable with, iâve admited that hes wonderful, and sweet and caring and that i dont want to know where id be without him. But I will not admit heâs amazing. Idk why. Just because he wants me to ig.
anywayssss: this turned into a rant that doesnt really have anything to do with thw og post, so sorry about that!
Once I relize in wrong I'm just arguing for the fun of it
I will pull out the stupidest arguments just to see how long it takes you to notice.
#Im just slowly baring my soul for my tumblr#Cuz i dont know who else to go to about this#Which is sad but whatever
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tbh i think that even unwinnable fights should be winnable. some of the BEST fights i've ever run as a dm were ones i built kill the players (in a fun way. I had some cutscenes prepped so even the loss would be a different flavour of win)- but then they were clever bastards and managed to either win the fights or pull themselves out of trouble. I think it's perfectly fine to plan for a fight that players aren't supposed to win, but you need to let them. if they can't win, they can't lose, and the meaning of that encounter is diminished. do that too many times, and they stop trusting you to give them roleplay prompts and start expecting to sit there waiting while you drive the story for them.
but if they can win... if there is always the chance to win, no matter how impossible the odds, then they ALWAYS have hope. they always get invested. they feel the big emotions of success or the big emotions of failure, and you fucking Win as a dm/roleplay prompter/lead bastard.
#qsmp neg#qsmp crit#discourse#<- for blacklists#im not grumping or anything im just musing on like. the mechanics of why everyone is so upset about the latest fight#and how it can be avoided while still keeping these fights genuinely difficult and intense#its hard because there's so many players and they all have wildly different strengths and weaknesses#so someone who could take on the code easy needs that enemy scaled differently than someone who isn't a big fighter#but it's hard to do that in a world where they interact w the same enemy#and you only have so much man-power to cater to a big server like this one#and then you bring in the big powerful items that the players can and can't access but which the admins have ultimate power over#and the fact that some of the admins themselves have lag issues or aren't super great at pvp so they accommodate that with better gear#and it starts getting messy#but for the fights themselves yeah regardless of what armour or gear or killing-methods they use there should Always be a win condition#and idk maybe there was one and we just didn't get to see it#but if that win condition is 'parents sit in the safe room with their babies while the others are overrun'#then i think there are ways to build better win conditions#anyway i love game design and player/dm interactions qsmp hire me now i want to know your behind the scenes#jk im too busy to apply#but man. i wanna nerd out so bad that sometimes i think about it
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gymnast kaito x sharpshooter shinichi meet-cute in the olympics au
#kaishin#i can already hear my brain going BUT SOCCER PLAYER SHINICHI RAAAAAAHHHHH#but shapshooter shinichi tho cmoooon CMOOONN#yall have seen the olympic athletes yall have seen the flavor#i saw yeji and yusuf and im like OKAY SHINICHI SHARPSHOOTER#also gymnast kaito this is canon in my brain idc#i would love to see kaito's floor routine like pleaaaaaseeee#also that one epke zonderland london 2012 high bar routine but make it kuroba fucking kaito RAAAAHHH#also also in my mind shinichi would only wear glasses and he'd affectionately call it 'conan'#idk a whole lot about the olympics and either sports so im not confident enough to make hcs#thats why im just yapping here LOL#might binge watch some olympics related videos and articles later idk#yell some hcs for this au at me I'd love to know!!!!!!#dc prattles#ALSO FUN IF KAITO GREW UP IN PARIS AND HE'S REPRESENTING FRANCE WHEWWWW#but it's also fun if kaishin are both team jp and theyret meeting for the first time yippeeee#akai would be shinichi's coach maybe đ¤#also i looked it ip and apparently karate was removed from the official olympic games FUCK but WE DONT CARE BECAUSE#OLYMPIC ATHLETE BESTIES SONOSHINRAN MY BELOVED I WILL FIGHT FOR YOU#anyway sonoko in gymnastics ran in karate and sharpshooter shinichi WOW WOW WAIT MY BRAIN HAVING A MASSIVE ROT RIGHT NOW#oh you just know sonoko does all those tiktoks with a shy but excited ran and completely forced to participate shinichi LMAO#kaishin meet through sonoko ofc đđđ#sonoko and kaito are besties too and are familiar with each other for both being in the gymnastics scene#anyway kaito and shinichi meet and kiss and fall in love#ALSO SHINICHI THIRSTING OVER KAITO'S MUSCLES LMAOOOO#AND KAITO THIRSTING OVER A FULLY CLOTHED SHINICHI POISED FOR A SHOT LIKEEEE#oh they wanna makeout real bad i fear#ALSO KAITO IS THAT ONE ATHLETE WHO KEEPS STEALING THE CHOCOLATE MUFFINS IN THE OLYMPIC VILLAGE LMFAOOOO#the tiktoks of that guy was so funny lol i just know kaito would do the same#you know what maybe I should've just typed this on the post and not on the tags but it's too late now LMAO i want more of them tho omg đł
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so often i see people try to downplay violet and minervas relationship like it wasnt Real enough or was some Inferior Romance that her relationship with clementine could Never compare to, and i find it so annoying and boring
she LOVED minerva!! and its okay that she did!! she was her first love!! childhood best friends turned girlfriends!! seeing her being so heartbroken and miserable about what happened to minnie, how deeply and desperately she missed her, hugging that bed frame so pathetically. but clementine makes her CARE again. makes her LOVE again. slowly violet becomes comfortable with the idea of opening her heart up to people again, after trying so hard not to because the pain of losing people she cared about was too much to bear (especially when she blamed herself for them being gone)
then she learns minnie didnt die. shes falling in love with clem while grappling with the fact that minnie might still be out there??
then she meets minnie in the woods. but minnie has changed just like she has. theyre both different people now. and slowly violet is forced to come to terms with the fact that the person she loved so deeply isnt that person anymore??
violet at the beginning mourning minerva and blaming herself, to shooting her to save clems life. she LOVED minerva once, but she doesnt like the person she is now. and shes not gonna let her hurt anyone else she cares about. shes done mourning her by the time they get to the bridge, only crying out for tenn
like idk i just find their relationship evolution to be so interesting and sad as shit. the fact that they once loved each other so much and it has now come to this?? but violet makes her choice and she Chooses clementine, because she admires and loves clementine, probably similar to the way she used to admire and love minerva if the way she talked about her is any indication
i just think "i never thought i would ever feel this way again" is way more interesting than "wow minnie Never made me feel like This"
#violet makes minnie a stronger character literally Just by being there#the way vi and minnie and clem all bounce off each other is so fucking good#CLEM SLEEPING IN MINNIES BED IS NOT AN ACCIDENT#clem has essentially replaced her. and minnie is seething about it. because she wanted them all to follow her to the delta#but instead theyre following clementine. who she sees as a threat to their lives. when in reality the real threat is her and the delta#now its minnie who is sad and lost and doesnt know how to grapple with it#instead doing what she can to save herself. even if it means hurting the people she cares about#and violet HATES THAT!! and shes willing to fight to save the people she loves#even if it means hurting someone she used to care about more than anything#she places that shot so perfectly. she doesnt WANT to hurt minnie. but she wasnt gonna let her hurt clementine either#she may have loved minnie once. partially blames herself for what happened to her. but theyre both different now. and she loves clementine#LIKE IDK that evolution is just so good and makes the clemvi romance even more strong??? violet knows Exactly what and who she wants#so by downplaying the vinerva romance it inherently makes her choice to choose clem weaker??#the more she loved minnie the harder that choice was. and she chose clementine#anyway this is why the clem vi minnie boat fight makes me bark like a wild beast#either i see people try to downplay her love for minerva OR they overhype it and act like she never got over her#when her getting over minnie is the whole point!! taken vi trusted her bc she LIED to her about sophie!! and clem broke her trust#god shes so heartbroken and confused in that cell get her out of there!!!!! vi i'll save you every time!!!!!!#thinking about clemviminnie instead of working what else is new#twdg#violentine#vinerva
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every day i kick a rock and bash my head into the wall because i'll never get to go on a big space adventure and become tightly close-knit with my new found family up there <//3
#re lrb..........#i mean realistically if i was in the voltron/quintenary stars universe chances are i would probably NOT be one of the people#going on the space adventure.#i'd be roped into the plot when the aliens invade and earth almost gets destroyed. spoilers for arc 2 btw sorry#but man. child soldierism aside i wish that were me so so so bad#sadly kicks a rock when will EYE have a deep and mystical connection with a giant ancient cat :(#its not even that i want to interact with the main cast bc i dont really i just. wanna be in their position man#i think one of the reasons why voltron grabbed me so hard (among MANY) is how badly i wanted to do what the main characters did#i remember when i was first watching it while it was coming out i would CONSISTENTLY daydream about being launched into space#with a handful of other people and having to fight a war and grow up far away from home and all the suffocating stuff that came with it#and then coming back years later already solidly knowing who i am and being confident in that#so i'd actually be brave enough to be unapologetic about it. and i'd be found family with the people i went to space with also#that parts important#idk man just. i dont like saying i was abused when i was younger because i really dont think it was like that and it isnt even close to#what how people who have really been abused have had to go through#but sometimes i really do wonder. like now that im (mostly) out and able to review everything with an outside perspective#not even getting into the cult survivorism stuff this is JUST family dynamics im talking about here#bc that shit is a whole other can of worms#i think my parents were genuinely doing the best they could with the cards they were dealt but. jesus christ.#i would have given ANYTHING to be able to run away from all that. and throw magic cats into the equation? brother im GONE#anyway this tags ramble has derailed in a MAJOR way. tldr i wanted to be a paladin sooooo fuckign bad bro#like it actually makes me SICK how much i want a lion. red you are my forever girl even if only in my heart <///3#i still do want to do all that out of principle but its not as desperate now i just really love space and really want a big kitty friend#winter speaks
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i feel like reading/watching mbf immediately means knowing who i am as a person and... i cannot allow this
#you all know that i can't stand gatekeeping and how that's why i bring up what i like all the time in various contexts#but the surprising thing with mbf for me is that i can't talk about it as freely to people who don't know me#because i can't find a way to translate it without having to offer some crucial segment of myself#i enjoy sharing ideas and thoughts more than anything else but i don't like sharing me the person behind them#because i really cherish my individuality as something important in spite of where it takes me sometimes#i don't want to tarnish it!!!! i don't want even the smallest piece of it to be missing because i wouldn't know what to do anymore#i'll stick to typing out thoughts here and to my mom and to my med textbooks#but i must say it feels strangely refreshing to have something that is only my own this way because i always have to put myself out there#and this way i am not giving anyone the opportunity to twist it into something terrible about me#my spontaneous outbursts might ruin this for me though#letters from stephanie*#i dislike that i can't step outside of my own experiences with this like i usually do because art should be shared#this is suchhh a crazy person post#i think i finally get what my dad means when we fight about how i shouldn't say everything i think all the time#he doesn't want me to filter myself he wants me to preserve who i am from harm because stepping up sometimes won't help#who i'm trying to help but it will ruin me in some way even if it just makes me upset#i think that's how he manages to be calm without betraying himself?#he isn't lying he's just saying what he thinks when it matters and to those that matter#like most of the time i am right to single myself out but there is a particular shade of grey when i shouldn't do it#idk this is literally donna telling the dr YOU CAN STOP NOW.#realistically i just need someone to calm me down when my passions turn against me#overly personal post once again i am sooo sorryyyy look away
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it's been one day and im still pissed when will this end. season 4 had some neat assassination scenes but none of them shined as bright as the writers assassinating the characters like go off monarchs
#like dude#all of these characters have SO MUCH potential#and it's wasted time & time again#LUTHER MY SON why do they keep portraying him as himbo material#like sure he can be goofy and fun whatever who cares but???? it's like they keep using him for JOKES#klaus idk dude they just wanna torture him ig?#in every single season they put him in yet another traumatizing situation and for what lol#they don't even use it for character growth it's just?? angst for the sake of angst atp#ALSO STOPP LUTHER DIDN'T EVEN GET TO GR I EVE SLOANE#five...............#marvellous five writers have already talked about his character assassination and no one knows better than them ok#im just soooo tired#also LOL BENNNNN#im a ben blog AND HERE I AM SAYING NOTHING#BC WHAT THE FUCK WAS THAT JENNIFER INCIDENT HUH#sparrow ben was a mistake there i said it i don't care#sparrow ben has no connection to the hargreeves !! fight me if u disagree#viktor wanting to save him and their little bonding scene where ben says 'im scared' is cute & all and was probably meant to parallel +#ben comforting viktor in s1 i if i remember correctly??#BUT THAT'S NOT EARNED u know why#bc ben <3 doesn't get <3 bonding moments <3 with <3 them <3#bc he IS right#they're not his family. his family was KILLED#they fumbled so hard with the jennifer incident im so pissed#really went & made his death so... idk how to explain#a plot device#that's all ben is#he IS a plot device#literally gets no growth whatsover#avril's ramblings
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I JUST REWATCHED PIWON MOVIE AND I HAVE THINGS TO SAY
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#okay first of all THEY DEBUTED WITH A MOVIE !!!! that's so crazy every time i think about it im like woooow#jongseob and intak acting debut when ???? they were sooo good omg unlike kyo i didn't remember how bad he was đđ but his#character is hilarious so it's fine <3 ALSO i completely forgot yoo jaesuk and jung haein are in it like guysss what are u doing here hihi#anyways absolutely oscar worthy real cinema if u ask me#now after taking notes and watching the new trailer a few times i think that p1epi is actually chaeyoons weird talking plushie#but since it's away from her it can't talk so that's why jongseob create that thingy to translate from#dog language to human language and i think it's there because maybe the members got like lost in time and#it wants to remind them that they have to save the entire world from the apocalypse#also p1epi came down from the sky just like the alcot meteor like ummm yes we love symbolism đââď¸#i saw someone saying the dog it's actually intak because the dog came through the window and intak wakes up next to one but it doesn't make#any sense to me so we're throwing that idea in the trash can#talking about intak hes now has blue eyes so that means he got infected but honestly when did that happen while he was fighting#some zombie? idk i think i have to watch all their mvs again for clues but what that means he's one of the bad guy now??#also i may be insane but what if the shop represents the world and seeing it in flames means the members couldn't save it and their lore#ends with the saddest ending ever like yeah sorry the apocalypse won#OR WHAT IF !!!!! they aren't the ones who can save the world they actually are the reason why it's ending like the masked ghost#actually created them to spread the virus and that would also explain them at the end of the trailer looking#at the burning shop without doing anything like they ARE alcot the meteor thats gonna destroy the world#but that would be too dark i know they're the heroes so it will have a happy ending#i have many theories but im starting to scare myself so ill shut up#pt
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i love muting people on twitter some of you bitches are very dumb
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#what do you MEAN gojo wasnât traumatized by toji??? đ#i donât think that gege has to spoonfeed every single morsel of information for you⌠like if you READ the manga youâd know đ#why is the reason gojo works so tirelessly on his infinity??? during his fight w sukuna why was he reminded of toji???#LIKE HELLO??? this is why heavily shipper brains are so useless to me#this one was goge shipper and for some reason they just completely watered down gojoâs personality/trauma like HUH#geto isnât the only person who went through things đ#also saying that geto was the only person who saw gojo as a person⌠thatâs true to an extent#pre-defection geto ABSOLUTELY! gojo never was around Normal People so thatâs why he acts the way he acted itâs obvious#but iâd argue post-defection geto⌠even for a little bit⌠saw gojo as a tool rather than a human#bc he even tells gojo that if suguru was gojo then his impossible ideals wouldnât be impossible anymore simply by the virtue of being gojo#i think after people realize satoruâs strength they immediately throw away his humanity#which is something that his kids donât really care much for⌠like yeah gojo sensei is strong but the 1st years donât gaf that much đ#i think they see him more for his personality than his Strength but they obviously know heâs the strongest#and i think they know he wants them to be strong too#satoru also said he can only save people who want to be saved#i think heâs in constant of his students for that reason too⌠they save each other & communicate & are allowed to be kids#i think also bc satoru finds it so important to enjoy the mundane things of life and to enjoy friendships bc thatâs the only thing that +#he himself had cultivated during his years as as student too#this became a rant but . @ shippers & @ anyone stupid⌠stop watering down gojo#itâs my biggest pet peeve idk why but nothing pisses me off more in the jjk sphere than people watering down gojo#just bc his trauma manifested in different ways doesnât mean that he wasnât hurt đ#like donât forget about satoru gojo!!!!!! heâs a lot more emotionally perceptive/mature than people give him credit for#personal
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breeder himself pointed out how there's no difference between the world of man and the world of beasts so fundamentally what is his ideal world changing that doesn't already exist...EXCEPT the bugs
#if all he wants is a wild bug world where everyone is fighting and killing and eating each other to survive#why dress it up as something moral and just? why not be honest abt it?#and what equality is he talking abt? would the unfair advantages stop being present at birth? would the strong still not exploit the weak?#his ideal world solves none of the problems he mentioned (the problems HE went through!) and makes him laughable as the final villain#makes no sense. and i don't really mind that he wants to Watch Them Fight as much as i do him not being an unrepentant freak abt it#like! jungle juice in all its horror is so cool! it turns people into bugs! and thx to genetic variety the end result is never the same!#and he is testing it out on everyone and ANYONE!! stop being normal abt it!!#idk ghouls i can't put it succinctly but man reading ep 78 has sucked the love for breeder outta me#and who knows. i'm on S2e22 so maybe i'll be pleasantly surprised!#jungle juice
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i ship inhun in a way that differwnt and more swagful than anyone else btw.
#TBFHHHHH i know i know i knowwww i say a lot. but i dont even ship in in the traditional sense#i dont think it will b canon and i dont rlly WANT it to b canon. its just insane like ZAMNNNNN why r u looking at each other like thatatttt#i dont think that if (IF) inho reveals his identity gihun is gonna magically b like Oh my god⌠okay well i like u now. more the opposite#and i dont think inho genuinely likes gihun all that much. i think hes obsessed w him in a way that borders on it but. u know#to inho gihun mostly just represents the parts of himself hes locked away. hes like the person inho used to be or cld have been#i think he DOES want whats best for gihun but like. just in his own opinion#to him whats best is to just.. pretend these issues dont exist and move on.#i think being wrapped up in the games is sickening no mattter what side ur on and he knows this. and just wants gihun to forget#i also do think he sees Something special in gihun. but its not like Ahhhh come and rule by my side đ LOL#yeah like i said. the recognition of the self. DONT GO DOWN THIS PATH MAN FUCK OFFFFFF#um. also yeah gihun i dont think wld have such a thrn around to like date himmmm oh my god lol#i think its likely hell end up Not killing inho for various reasons and possibly even leaving room for redemption#but yeah i dont think he wld ever trust him even. i dont think he wld let all that slide đđđ#gihun x youngil is bantssss. but not real at all sadly#rhe best fic i read of them was a pre series fic where inho wasnt the front man yet. and he met gihun by chance#and kinda used him to convince himself that what he was doing was right. For The Greater Good etc#i cant remember what it was called but it was sooo good i need to find it sometime#sniffâŚ.. living in a sad world where every body mischaracterises them sooooo bad and evil.#THE BEST INHUN CONTENT was the animation of them over the megamind breakup scene. MY GOD#ill be honest. igaf abt their dynamic soooo hard but htemain reaosn i âshipâ them is bc theyre both INSANELY FINE. AND I NEED THEM BADLY#and. im obsessed w them separately. so of course they are making out sloppy style in my mind#ill b honest as well i dont think gihun is in the right state of mind for aany of That AT ALLLL rn either.#and as well w inho not being intersted in that way. and also he shot his brother bc it was aconflict of interests. btw.#whatever tho lol the memes and shit r funny as fuckkkkk so idc. keep fucking#anyways sangihun đđ for fucking everrrrrer in terms of an actual ship#tho i dont think they wld ever be canon either. well i mean. for obvious reasons#but also bc i dont PERSONALLY think sangwoo wld ever allow himself that. BYE#idk idk idk maybe i am wrong and i know nothing.#SORRY. ik i am fighting invsisible demons again i just saw a post abt Sickos who know Nothing abt the ThemesâŚ. NO GUYS.. PROMMY THATS NOT ME
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i genuinely need to be put down like a dog i cant do this anymore man holy shit
#yall dont know the meaning of terminally online til u meet me#i hate myself so much its not even funny i am the most miserable worthless scum#my sleep schedule is 7am to 3pm all i do all day is rot on the couch and sometimes draw if i have a drop of motivation#depression is completely kicking my ass and im not even fighting back i give up what the fuck man#theres not even a point for me to keep trying i just want to stop feeling such deep despair 24/7 please#i dont want to die i just want the pain to stop so i can peacefullylive out the rest of this year before i turn 18 and its all over for good#but i cant even have that! im just gonna suffer the whole time thanks great#i wish i could just get better and fix all of this but i cant its not working we dont have the money to#actually get me the help i need to make it work. i just have to figure it out or die#i just wanna go back to ***** ** *** i just want to stop being lonely and useless#i dont know why im posting this shit to tumblr. its so stupid i should just be journaling or something#probably because im worthless selfish scum. idfk.#the last 6 months have been a complete blur. just rotting on the couch or in bed occasionally seeing friends once every other month or so#ive already wasted half of being 17 abd im probably gonna waste the rest too. ill do nothing of worth before i die.#even my art is ugly and horrible and not worth leaving behind. people tell me to work to improve it but i dont have the time left#ill never create any of the things i wanted to create ill never be a good artist im just going to die exactly like this#an absolutely terrible person.#the only people i can talk about the things that make me a terrible person with are people who are terrible in even worse ways#no one can comfort me except them because theyre the only people who know what ive done and actually do see it as less than absolute evil#because they know absolute evil because it is them. but i actually donât believe that i think theyre bad but could be good#idk what im saying anymore#someone shoot me#please im not kidding#just make it stop#tw vent#tw sui#delete later
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this is also why i stopped using my tracked tag for a while tbh
#and i might do it again bc its just#a reminder that no one rly cares abt what i do / who i am etc#which might sound over dramatic idk how else to describe it tho its just hollow#it feels very much like a Chore and a Task and if i dont reblog things fast enough from my tag#people get very angry and/or upset with me even tho theres just#so much content and i have 0 time so everything gets queued no matter what#like this whole experience feels like a chore lmao#and it never ever used to#but now theres so much animosity if i dont behave / interact with things Properly#or whatever the make believe rules are idk#this dash can just be so negative like have we all truly descended into madness during this hiatus#bc like i get it ive been up and down and all around too but ive never been straight up MEAN to anyone in this community#and i never want to either so this entire situation thats been bubbling for months just feels like shit#bc what the fuck changed and how do we get back to where we were#i never ever ever ever felt this way before like idk the middle of last year#but ever since like last fall its just been idk. Bad#once again im sorry if ive ever done anything to upset anyone but my silence / absence doesnt mean i dont care#ive just been Incredibly busy due to some real life changes that are out of my control#i might not have energy to answer everything but i do Read everything and it does make me smile#and i save messages that are kind in my heart so i can be reminded of the root of what this blog is supposed to be#a space for something im very passionate about and previously had nowhere else to express said passion#so like idk if we all like the same things why does this weird feeling of competition linger over us lmao#why do all ccs have to fight???? each other???? when we all love and do the same things????#i have nothing against anyone personally but what i Do take issue with is the way that ive been doing this since 2021 and im fully just#ignored and shoved aside by so many people for reasons i fully dont know or understand#so yeah idk this is a novel i just woke up from a spontaneous nap bc im so exhausted i can only stay awake for 3 hours at a time#but yeah anyways idk !#be nice its so easy !#tbd
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