#idk why this felt so hard last time

[thosetwofirefighters]

🎶 Music Tag 🎶

thank youuu @eddiediaztho for the tag!! I did this one a while back, but I am more than happy to do it again! I love tag games like this <3

rules: spell your url with song titles and then tag as many people as there are letters

Turn Up the Beef (feat. Emma Stone) - The Lonely Island (please, I'm begging you, if you haven't seen Popstar: Never Stop Never Stopping, go watch it) Happy - Kesha Obsessions - MARINA Sloppy (feat. UPSAHL) - KiNG MALA Elephant - Sizzy Rocket

Tear the Night Up - Aly & AJ Welcome to My Island - Caroline Polachek Overture - Arm's Length

Fish Out of Water - Carlie Hanson I Am Sin - FLAVIA Ruin My Life - Zolita Erase You - Rebecca Black Fruity - chloe moriondo Island - Miley Cyrus Girlfriend - Hemlocke Springs Hotel Room - Lauren Sanderson To Be Young - chloe mk Elevation - Gia Woods Red Wine Supernova - Chappell Roan Safe Places - Cassidy King

definitely not tagging 20 of y'all lmao no pressure @mooshkat @the-likesofus @mysteriouslyyounggalaxy @paqerings @wheelsupin-five @lilbuddie <3

[unnamed-atlas]

Finally finished sweet tooth s3. Having incredibly mixed feelings

[that-was-anticlimactic]

one of the worst feelings ever is wanting to write but your hands hurt too much or the words just don’t want to work so you just sit there staring at a half finished doc with tears in your eyes bc you want to write and you need to write but everything is telling you that you can’t

[dockaspbrak]

Jobs for someone not cut out for real life but who excels at mimicry

[tearingdread]

havin a normal one 👍

[usertoxicyaoi]

anyway i love being asian and i love saying that out loud with my whole chest out. there's so much tradition and history in our culture and when you're in the west sometimes you fail to understand or you miss the sentiment, the reasoning, the point, of certain practices within the culture. either that, or you feel ashamed of them. until you start seeing, for example, white people doing and taking up practices belonging to the asian culture and you, as an asian, are like .... uh ............ what the fuck am /i/ doing being ashamed about it then .......

like. for example, oiling your hair. when i was a kid, my ammi would oil my hair every single time a day before i was going to wash my hair. that act, yes, held so much meaning for the both of us. it was something my naani did to her, so she did it with me. generational. it was our bonding time. it was her teaching me how we look after our hair. and then ... as i grew up, i didn't get my hair oiled by my ammi anymore. when she asked me why, i had said to her back then that i looked greasy and it was so embarrassing because i'd smell of oil when i would go to school and. yeah. she stopped doing it. and my hair got damaged. and its been years and today, i saw my ammi oiling her hair, and she just called me over, and i sat on the floor and she oiled my hair. and it just felt. like a lot. and i felt ... heavy.

and then i realised that despite being in my late twenties, there's still so much left in me to unpack and unlearn and relearn wrt me being asian. i thought i'd gone past that phase. but i haven't. and thats okay!

which is why its so important for me to have ... this space ... i guess ... where i can validate myself. where i can watch things that are asian, made by asians, doing asian things and following the culture so that i too feel comfortable in my own skin. in the people who look like me. in the food i eat. in the clothes i wear. in the languages i speak. in the art and media i enjoy. in all the big and little things i do.

but anyway. i love being asian. i wish i could talk about it more and how much it means to me when i make a deep dive and indulge within my culture and how rooted that makes me feel. i often feel like i've neglected so much of what it means to be asian, but its still not too late. and there's a deep comfort in that.

[bsaka7]

HELLO??????

[autisticlee]

I know it's wrong and bad to say this, but sometimes I really hate when my friends have other friends. (specifically when I can't also be friends with those friends) because every time I want someone to hang out with or talk to, the only couple friends I have are always busy with their other friends. when I want to plan something with them, they will always choose the other friends over me. they will cancel plans *with* me as soon as other friends ask, but won't cancel plans *for* me when i ask. they will use up their social spoons on other friends and leave none for me. always putting things with me off or simply not responding at all.

i'm always told by random people when I say I want mkre friends "it's better to have a couple great friends than many aquantances" or something like that. but honestly it sucks because you can't rely on 1-2 people to always be there for you every day or every week when you want or need someone. if you keep asking, you're seen as annoying and clingy and they will ignore you eventually (or worse)

it's annoying that they get to fill their social needs at all times, but I never get to. because i'm never the one that gets to go first in the social queue. and when it gets to my turn, it refreshes and i'm pushed to the back again.

the only solution I can ever think of is being friends with my friends' friends too....but for some reason!!!!!! that never works out!!!! (if my friends will even share their friends with me to begin with)

[pegasusdrawnchariots]

the eternal question: is scheduling w friends as an adult That Hard or am I just bad at it

[dazais-guardian-angel]

went to my first con in 4 years on Friday to meet Kaiji Tang and got a Dazai autograph + video recording of him reading to me. He was the sweetest person (as I knew he would be) and interacting with him was lovely, but also at the same time oh boy it sure was an extremely stressful, ugly wake-up call of what it feels like to live in a world now where everyone around you has blissfully moved on from covid and can enjoy things normally and happily, while you'll forever be trapped in a hellscape of perpetual fear 🫠🫠🫠

[alteredphoenix]

Something I've noticed, but: yuri manga don't last very long, do they?

[the-casbah-way]

hey girl is it normal to constantly feel like a lost child watching all these adults walk past and waiting for one of them to take your hand so you can just go home but instead none of them can see you even when you start screaming and you just always want to go home even when you are home and you always feel so guilty and scared and like ur walking on eggshells with yourself and everything is always so fragile like when ur little and ur favourite teacher yells at you for the first time and every time someone touches you or looks at you and actually sees you it feels like you are going to shatter or something. let me know girl haha

[ji-lixie]

also ughhghg im gonna get some stupid shit off my chest so

tw for talk abt body image shit

i think the weirdest part of growing up fat has been realizing... i’m not as big as i thought i was?

like. yes im chubby, yes i have a tummy, i know these things as a fact bc i can see myself in the mirror. but when i went off to school (pre-pandemic), i saw girls who were bigger than me. fuck, i was friends w girls who were bigger than me. im plus size, but idk one of them told me that i’m not fat compared to her (bc she was both taller and stockier than me) and it just made me realize how damaging theater was for me while growing up??? that my high school drama teacher claimed to understand what it was like being a bigger girl in theatre only for me to realize years later that i was nowhere near as big as she kept making me feel like i was

like. fuck man no wonder i dealt w body dysmorphia for so fucking long. even now i always feel bigger than i am and it fucks w me a lot. i know im fat, but im not morbidly obese as ppl kept (and keep) making me feel like i am. im just short-ish and i have a chubby tummy.

[britneyshakespeare]

i always feel like such an impostor in church btw

[basementxdweller]

insert witty and charming and incredibly funny joke here that makes you find me irresistibly attractive

[hecksupremechips]

Ooooooghhhhhhhhh stressed 🥺