#idk why i never realized this esp. cuz

[clockworkbee]

It’s hit me just now that Prince Dain had his eyes on the general's bastard daughters for quite some time, especially on Jude, seeing as the owl-faced hob who'd delivered Jude her first task from the Court of Shadows was the same one whom Jude had confessed to about feeling tired of being powerless.

[archangeldyke-all]

hope you're feeling better by the ghosting! Lesbian dating scene is hard out here 😭 have an ask if you're up for it. Or you can just listen abt this scenario I have, totally fine either way just wanna let these thoughts out. And you're my fav sevika writer so! It's a bit angsty/comfort ig? Basically Sevika explaining to reader why it's such a struggle to say "I love you".

Not just because it's an admission of feelings for such a character but I think it's also cuz loving someone also means you have to accept anything could happen to either of them, esp since Zaun and her job are quite dangerous. So saying those 3 words feels like accepting that risk and continue on which is a big thing to do, it's like willingly leaving yourself open to potential heartaches. Idk just recently saw posts about how love is not just a feeling but also a choice, whether to stay/commit/any other reason the person feels what love is. Felt like if the reader is the first thing she's ever cared about and don't wanna lose her (whether it's a breakup, death etc,), she would struggle saying it cuz it feels like accepting that risk which she doesn't want to. She would still make up for it by showing her love & appreciation thru other means tho! Mb the reader had anxious thoughts on whether she reciprocated, or Sevika feels bad for not saying back for so long that she felt like she has to explain why she's struggling.

Sorry if I'm rambling too long 😅 hope you have a great year ahead, love your writing as well! ❤️

i love this sm <33

men and minors dni

even though you've lived in zaun your whole life, you understand that your life's been a lot softer than it could've been.

you've never had to worry about where you'll sleep at night-- you've always had a dry, warm bed to rest in.

you've gone hungry some nights, but you're lucky enough to have never gone more than a few days without a warm meal.

and your choice in career keeps you out of the line of danger; safe and inside most of the day, home before sunset each night.

so, while you're zaunite enough to know how to keep your head down and mind your own business, you understand that for most people life's a lot scarier.

sevika's one of those people.

sevika's known grief for almost as long as she's known how to talk. she's spent her fair share of nights in the cold, and she's gone to bed hungry more often than she's gone to bed full and satisfied. plus, sevika's dedicated her life to being a revolutionary. which means sevika has a lot of enemies.

so it's no surprise that lovey-dovey words come easier for you than they do for sevika.

it isn't until two years into your relationship that you realize she's never said she loves you. sevika has to be the one to point it out.

"i think i gotta call it an early night, baby. you stay up and finish the movie." you say around a yawn, leaning forward to kiss your girlfriend on the couch. sevika pouts.

"just sleep on top of me here." she requests. you snort.

"you'll throw your back out carrying me to bed."

"that's just offensive. i could lift three of you." sevika's pout worsens. "goodnight." she huffs. "give me another kiss."

you laugh and roll your eyes. "i love you." you say with exasperation as you lean in to kiss her. sevika stiffens against you. you pull away to study her face. "'s wrong?"

"you always say that." sevika whispers. you raise an eyebrow at her, climbing into her lap to hold her face between your hands.

"well, yeah. 'cause i do."

"i know." sevika says with a tiny smile. it makes your heart flutter. it's quiet for a moment as you wait patiently for your girl to gather her words. eventually, sevika sighs. "does it ever bother you that i don't say that to you?" she asks.

you frown in confusion. "what, that you love me?" you ask. sevika nods. you sputter a laugh. "yes you do, you say it all the time." you scoff.

sevika blinks up at you in shock. "no i don't." she says. "baby, i've never said it. to anyone. ever."

oh. well, that's surprising. you furrow your brow as you try to recall an instance where your girlfriend let the words slip, and you're shocked to realize that she, in fact, has not. "oh." you say.

sevika gulps. "does that... is that bad?" she asks.

you blink down at her, and your heart shatters. "oh, baby, no." you coo, kissing her frown. "no, that's not bad."

"but-- i should be able--"

"darling, i know you love me." you cut her off. sevika blushes almost as red as she did the first time she saw your tits. you smile, brushing your thumbs over her crimson cheeks. "you make that very clear."

"yeah but i--"

"you moved me into your sacred bachlorette pad three months into us meeting. yesterday, you came home from work with a stab wound, and tried to make me dinner before patching yourself up."

"it was just a scratch."

"i'm not finished. you call me stupid shit like sweetbean and cookie-- and you do it in front of other people! you! sevika; the scary lady of zaun!" she chuckles a little bit at this. "sevika, i didn't even realize you hadn't said it until you told me just now." you kiss her nose. "it's not bad."

sevika leans forward to bury her face against your neck, inhaling deeply. "i just... i want to say it." she whispers. you nod. "i wish i could say it like you do; just, whenever i feel it." god she's romantic. you choke back your own tears as you kiss her scalp. "but... if i say it..." sevika trails off.

"if you say it, it makes it real." you whisper, nodding. "it makes it somethin' you can lose." you can feel her hot tears on your throat. you don't mention it.

"y-yeah." she whispers shakily, her hands clutching at your hips desperately. "and i can't lose you."

"you won't baby. even if the worst happens, i'm yours forever. i'll haunt the shit outta you." this pulls a startled laugh out of her, and you grin. "you don't have to say it for the rest of our lives, if you can't. i won't mind. just as long as we're together."

and that settles it.

for a while...

sevika starts practicing.

she'll spell it out to you, 'i l-o-v-e you, baby.' or she'll whisper it to you when she thinks you're sleeping.

at the three year mark, sevika can say it when she's drunk enough. it's fucking adorable.

"i have somethin' import'nt' t' tell you..." she says with a waggle of her eyebrows. you burst into laughter.

"oh, do you?" you ask.

"mmhmm. look." sevika darts forward to peck your lips, then pulls back with a proud smile. "i love'ya." she slurs. you grin.

"i love you too, baby."

"an' if this jinxes everythin' and y' die-- y' gotta make the haunting obvious 'kay?" she asks. you cackle.

"alright, love."

by the time you're married, the words are almost compulsive for her. sevika can't leave a room without shooting a 'love you' over her shoulder at you. even if you're arguing.

"oh, so you've conveniently got a fuckin' 'meeting' in the middle of the night, on your night to do fuckin' dishes?! if you don't get in the kitchen and grab the sponge right now you're sleeping on the couch!"

"it's six pm, it's a dinner meeting! i'll do the dishes when i get back! you act like i'm fuckin' negligent, but you're the one who doesn't know how to properly clean a fuckin' toilet! janna, you annoy me-- i love you, i'll be back by midnight!" she huffs as she slams the door behind her.

despite how pissed you are-- you can't help but smile a bit at her words.

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[crushedsweets]

Would you ever consider including nurse ann in more of your art/ stories? She's one of my favorite characters and I think your design for her is amazing lmao- I'd also sort of like to know what her relationship with the others would be like

yes. actually. i would love to . ok i have some vague ideas for how shed fit into the lore so thatll be under the cut !! i also start rambling about lulus lore too cuz i decided theyre friends.

ok so, again, my au is based around slenders forest being like... some sort of magnet for the paranormal. slenderman wants to keep all of these cryptids within the forest.

since its in a fictionalized forest in tuscaloosa, where marble hornets was filmed, i decided to move the abanonded hospital they visited up north of the tuscaloosa lake. she roams there.

SOOOOO nurse ann is just... a demon. slenders forest is sort of like limbo for a lot of the cryptids and kinda puts them in like.. a long daze and loops unless they're consistently leaving or being grounded by humans.

i dont EXACTLY know why/how she's in that specfic hospital, especially since i dont believe she has an official origin? maybe when the hospital shut down, she was let go and wasn't transferred to work in a new hospital, so she lost her shit and preformed some crazy rituals that ended up making her an undead nurse ? now she's forever roaming the hospital. or maybe she was killing patients when she was a human and kept doing weird demon shit with their bodies and the operator/zalgo fed off of her bad vibes. LOL IDK.

now about lulu cuz i drew her too.

i used to be sooo fond of lulu. and i originally said she was just going to be another ghost roaming the forest pointlessly, mourning everything and being incapable of interacting with humans, BUUUUUT. she is 24 and NOT A GHOST?!?!??!?! IDK WHY ALL THIS TIME I THOUGHT SHE WAS JUST A GHOST WHO AGES CUZ YK HOW CHIBIWORKS STUFF WAS BACK THEN LOL... i def am tired of little kids being tortured and all these children ghosts tho so im kinda glad to have smth new to write. anyway. so im thinking lulus just another little demon thing... i'm thinking her story goes.

she was in strict private schools all of k-12, and went to uni on her own in tuscaloosa. she wanted to branch out, have a little rebelious phase, make friends, etc. tried to join a co-ed frat. she experienced an absolutely horrific hazing when she was like 19, the frat fully believed they killed her by accident and in their panic, tried to bury her in slenders forest, and some demonic entity in the forest infected her before she was buried fully. she ends up climbing out of her shallow grave, never having died. perhaps the operator did it, perhaps zalgo like in her og lore ? PERHAPS ANN CUZ SHES A DEMON HERSELF?

anywaaayyyyy :3 l think theyd be cute friends. they just look really cute together and i could see good chemistry so i totally would love to expand on them and make them friends. maybe expand more on the type of species they are, what kind of powers they have(esp if i make ann the demon who infects lulu).

BUUUUT ALSO this made me realize i should totally look into adding zalgo to my lore. cuz it doesnt make sense for the operator to make anyone a demon, thats not really what he does.... and i dont want him to do that i just dont like the vibes. so mmm yes.

anyway in terms of relationships..

lulu and her are cool good besties beautiful they would take selfies and do tiktok dances together.

masky and hoody are incredibly indifferent to her, because they dont have to worry/visit her often. she stays in the hospital thats in the forest, and thats exactly where slenderman wants her, so theyre content. theyre kinda grateful she keeps lulu in the hospital too, cuz lulu actually freaks them out bc she'll be jumping at them and shit talking about their eyes.

tobys EXTREMELY scared of ghosts (bc of his hallucinations of his sisters ghost . . ). he eventually gets over it(kinda?) with sally, but he keeps accusing ann and lulu and the sort of being ghosts cuz they just.. kinda pop in and out. at least jack has to walk into the room to show up. so he doesnt like them

mmm jack wouldnt like her IF he knows that she kinda turned herself into a demon through like, a ritual or smth. he'd be beyond pissed to know someone CHOSE to be what he is. if he doesnt know, he doesnt care for her. he kinda jokes about 'well why dont YOU be their medic' and shes like 'dont fuckin wanna be'.

jane and liu and kate prob dont know her... kate might but wouldnt care.

jeff would prob think shes hot or some bullshit and nina would be beyond pissed. at first ninas like AHHH SHES SO COOL cuz shes a fangirl at heart, but the second she hears a single 'goddamn' from jeff shes livid.

ben prob wouldnt care much for her... hes so uninterested in demons idk why i just feel like he doesnt care.

clockwork would LOVE HER. she'd think she's so fucking cool. she'd try talking to her all the time but ann prob wouldnt be interested in clocky at all...

ofc the proxies purposefully come into contact with the paranormal the most because thats their job, so i wrote the most for them, but that doesn't mean theyre the closest or anything.

ok thank u anon you did smth to my brain that benefitted my mental health cuz i love writing this shit for the creeps thank u sm .

[celestie0]

🪷 CTFUUUUUU your gojo and reader sex tape post was so hilarious omg. Ngl to me they don't give the vibes of a couple that make one (I don't mean this as an insult omfg now that I wrote it it sounds rude as hell) but the type who are professional phone fuckers.

Doja cat's Cyber sex is their national anthem I just know it I had a little locker room talk with reader she told me 😙. And yeah what you said abt gojo's schedule being all over the place as a player I'd thought that too, which is why phone sex is 🔛🔝 for these two. Just two freaky frogs omg I know that dude sluts her out bad and she doesn't want it any other way

He's a player (the *other* type of player) too so ofc he'd have expertise in the area of tasteful nudes but reader's learning curve will be so exponential gojo would be left in the dust in a short amount of time😁 RIP BOZO‼️

Imagine a little roleplay scenario where reader dresses up as a cheerleader for gojo after he returns from winning some final match as a victory treat. That dong goes up at an angle of elevation so steep you could make a mean trigonometric question off of it. I need him BAD I need him esp when he's sweaty after a gym or practice session I'd climb that man like jack was climbing that beanstalk.

Anyway I hope you've been doing well sweets! Thanks for being so nice to me in your last ask and I cannot wait to see what you have in store for us I wanna see that horndog be his authentic slutty self around reader finally 🗣️🗣️

Imagine a little roleplay scenario where reader dresses up as a cheerleader for gojo after he returns from winning some final match as a victory treat.

oh dear sweet baby jesus the scream i SCRUMPT AT THIS…HOW HAVE I NEVER THOUGHT OF THAT oh mygooodd that’d be so fuckin hot 😩😩😩 i ran to add that to my notes LOL my head is in my hands i need to write that so fucking bad. HIM RAILING HER WHILE SHE’s WEARING A SKIMPY LIL CHEERLEADER COSTUME AFTER HE JUST PLAYED AN INTENSE GAME babe u cooked w this ty

HAHAHA i feel like they would make a sex tape but they obv wouldnt post it or anything lol it’d just be something they’d do when they’re both drunk asf while on vacation in their hotel room n then they freak out once they get home n realize they lost the flashdrive n someone out there in barcelona is now jerking off to their amateur avante garde porno

And yeah what you said abt gojo's schedule being all over the place as a player I'd thought that too, which is why phone sex is 🔛🔝 for these two. Just two freaky frogs omg I know that dude sluts her out bad and she doesn't want it any other way

okay you’re so right ab cyber sex being (at least post grad) kickoff couple’s anthem 🤧 that “i wish u were here rn” yup. but also LMFAO THATS SO TRUE AB THE SLUTTIN HER OUT he’d have her so downbad she’s flashing her titties at the webcam just cuz she wants to see him cum all over his stomach while he’s jerking himself off to her pixels ✋🏼😩 i was not anticipating to start this day off so horny LOL

idk i like to think all the nudes kickoff gojo has received in his life have been raunchy asf so when he’s so desperate to get a glimpse of kickoff reader while he’s away for work n is like “babe send me a pic please” for the first time n she sends something that’s genuinely really tasteful n artistic n subtle but sexy n leaves a bit to the imagination i feel like that wld drive him more insane than any explicit nude ever would HAHAHAHA

THE DONG GOIN UP YOU COULD PERFORM TRIG ON IT IM CRYING babe i wish to be half as funny as you are some day 🤣🤣

thanks my lovee omg im so happy you’re looking forward to it :””) 💕 you’re my honeybunch sugarplum pumpyumpyumpkin i love yaaa

- ellie 🐸

[carbonateds-oda]

ok thoughts were brewing in the shower again i need to force them onto other ppl now

so y’all know that one scene during the guild arc where atsushi goes under q’s curse and dazai has to lit slap him to snap him out of it? there’s usually two reactions i see ppl have to it, they either think it was shitty of dazai to do that to him or they think it was fair cuz they were in a time crunch and he needed atsushi to focus

whether u agree that it was understandable or not i don’t rlly care let’s just acknowledge for now that there was in fact a limited time they were working w

either way most ppl seem to agree that the reason he knew that would work was due to his past w aku and that he was basically reverting back to his old ways a little when he slapped him and i always see ppl using that scene to argue that dazai hasn’t rlly changed at all and he’s just as bad as he used to b, however i don’t rlly think that was why he did that or that it had anything to do w aku but rather sm else

cuz the main argument for why the slap was cruel is bc atsushi looks up to dazai and up until that moment he had been nothing but kind and helpful to him so having the person who saved him suddenly slap him out of nowhere could’ve risked making him feel worse, that and he’s alr been through sm other shit too sm that dazai is fully aware of

the more i thought abt it though the more i realized how much that encounter reminded me of another scene from dark era

i dont think i need to tell u guys just how imp oda was to dazai or how large of an impact he had on him it’s pretty fucking obvious, I mean he lit drops everything just to fulfill his death wish, basically what I’m trying to say is that he’s clearly someone dazai looked up to right?

and idk but it must’ve been pretty confusing to have oda of all ppl suddenly tell him that he’s never gonna find what he’s looking for and that he’ll always wander in dark alone and that nothing would ever make him feel better, while he’s watching him die in front of him no less

if u think abt it, it was a pretty cruel thing to say to someone like dazai, and it could’ve easily made things worse, but all things considered there rlly wasn’t any time for him to b sugar coating anything he just needed to make dazai understand, and make sure he snapped dazai out of that pessimistic ideology he had so he could finally start to heal before he ran out of time and left him on his own

it’s pretty similar to that scene w atsushi imo and i think that his reasoning behind slapping him like that had more to do w that scene w oda than it did w anything else esp w the whole “stop pitying urself” speech he gave him which is kinda like how oda was basically like “ur gonna keep being miserable if u go on like that”

idk I just personally think it would make more sense if that was the case but maybe I’m looking too much into it 🤷‍♀️

[destinyc1020]

Timdayas don't have anyone but themselves to blame tbh. It's not as bad as the 2 leads of Queen Charolette (idk if you watched QC but the leads had great chemistry to the point where fans were getting really weird about them and the male lead has a gf. It got the point where the leads were standing like 5 ft apart during promo) but Z and Timmy were definitely making a point to not be too chummy with each other this go round.

Though, I never thought they were besties and were just playing it up during the first press tour. This go round, they didn't bother selling that story especially since Paul/Chani has been sufficiently established. I don't even know if they really ship Z and Tim or if they just want Z to be with someone "trendy" to fulfill whatever image they have of Z/her career.

Timdayas don't have anyone but themselves to blame tbh. It's not as bad as the 2 leads of Queen Charolette (idk if you watched QC but the leads had great chemistry to the point where fans were getting really weird about them and the male lead has a gf. It got the point where the leads were standing like 5 ft apart during promo) but Z and Timmy were definitely making a point to not be too chummy with each other this go round.

I agree Anon. They really have nobody to blame but themselves honestly. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Re: Queen Charlotte...

Are you talking about these two?

I never saw this Bridgerton series, but I am familiar with them. I didn't realize ppl were shipping them in REAL life though. 🤦🏾‍♀️😵‍💫

That's gotta be awkward tbh....esp if you're in a rlshp with somebody else. Idk why fans can't separate acting from reality these days? ��

Anyway, I saw what they said in response to filming intimate scenes with each other (there goes that question again 🙄), and I thought their responses were VERY professional and insightful.

They had to film waaaay more intimate scenes than Timmy and Zendaya ever had to film for Dune, so that's saying smthg.

FF to Min. 2:32 where they talk about the "steamy scenes"

Idk why people think that love scenes are an "anything goes" type thing? 🥴 They are HEAVILY coordinated (JUST like fight scenes), and the two actors explain that in the video above, just like Timmy and Zendaya have been saying all along. It's just WORK. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Re: Timmy & Zendaya

I definitely think they're good friends. But that's basically it. I don't think it's as complicated as fans are making it out to be.... on either end.

I actually don't see this "awkwardness" btwn Timmy and Zendaya that some of you all are seeing on this press tour. 🤔 They've been laughing and joking with each other lol. I don't see them avoiding each other at all? 🤷🏾‍♀️

Z is the same way with just about ALL of her male costars imo. 🤷🏾‍♀️ She's different with Tom of course cuz he's actually her BOYFRIEND. That's just how Z is. Someone like Florence might be different. 🤷🏾‍♀️

Some ppl just approach things differently. Keep in mind, Z is a Virgo. Even she says herself that she is prone to overthinking things all the time lol. She plays things SAFE. Like, that's just her nature and personality.

Idk what Timdaya fans were thinking they were gonna get with this press tour, but these ppl are just doing their JOBS. They're working.

I still don't get the awkwardness some ppl are referring to honestly. She's been laughing at his jokes, she's acknowledged Timmy, etc. They just haven't been playing into the "Omg it was the best love story ever and I LOVED kissing him/her" fauxmanship that maybe SOME costars engage in lol 😆

To me, they're acting like any other normal cast on a press tour together. 🤷🏾‍♀️

[lesbiansanemi]

I’m also realizing the reason my kitties are so unsettled and lashing out more often is partially my fault. It is definitely because of the new guy and the goddamn dog that got moved in (esp cuz one of my cats has past trauma with dogs and when I got her it was with the assumption she would never have to live with dogs again) but it’s also because I’m not giving them as much attention. I used to be out in the living room/kitchen with them for at least 4-5 hours after work every day, petting them, playing with them, letting them sit next to me on the couch cuz neither were big on lap cuddles. And now because I hate being in the main apartment anymore I never do that…. They’re upset because I’m not giving them as much attention anymore and they don’t know why, I feel so bad but also idk what to doooo 😭😭😭

[odukora-ramblez]

Oh my godddd I'm digging old writing and I find it kinda unhinged that everyone was supposed to know that Truffs is from Corondale (cuz that was lowkey the main point of the old ass concept where he crash landed onto earth lmao) current Truffs pretty much never tells anyone until much later but I'm also finding out a funny ass plot hole that I didn't even know existed, cuz supposedly Truffs was actually rllyyyy close w Mallow (especially) and Pepper back when they were kids, and the rlly old ver kind hinged on them being the few that figured out his odd ass origins early on, its canon that the current arc has Pepperow never actually having ventured into the deep realm cuz they had to report back the portal opening to the agency whilst trying to figure out a way to finally liaise it w the alliance to work together against the world shattering threat™, so Orion goes off w them too cuz he now also trusts the rest of the youngsters enough to venture in there themselves esp w Jun there to guide them, but I was like wait if Pepper and Mallow never go w them they wouldn't..... have known Truff's secret identity.... Until I realize they probably always knew and was partly why they even trusted the team to go there w him on their side, but ofc they know it was better to let him reveal that on his own terms so they never said shit, idk man this doesn't change anything plot wise cuz its alrdy gonna be written like this cuz it makes sense but now there's just this rlly funny extra layer of Pepper and Mallow being equally unhinged in the way that they'd hide secrets from the rest of the world and call it a day, we alrdy know Pepper is someone that hid the truth of the Eternal from everyone early on and Mallow supposedly was only told the truth by Pepper on the day Birch admitted himself as the "culprit", wow they truly match each other's freak fr, toxic yuri not towards each other but towards the rest of the world, and the worst/pos thing is I don't think anyone ever finds out and they're just kinda deemed as normal, Oak is like particularly pathetic in this scenario, he rlly thought they were the normal ones but alas, hey now old man how r u coping w your perfect little pair of weapons that you deemed easily controlled but would actually backstab you cuz they're hiding way more than you assumed

[imraespace]

HIHIHIEHEIHOHIHI DAILTCHEKCIN BUT IM LATER THAN USUAL. ‼️warning i yapped so hard‼️ ..

YES I AM.. still sick …. i am sniffling and coughing as im typign this but we thug it out

i had photography club afterschool so i went but when it was done my bus legit passed by the school so iw as like “.. 😐😐 i guess im taking a different bus.” BC THE NEXT BUS WAS IN 30 MINS?? so instead i took another bus BUT THIS BUS GOES TO THE MALL SO THEN IWAS LIEK OK I DONT REALLT HAVE HOMEWORK I JUST HAVE TO APPLY TO A WHOLE BUNCH OF THINGS SO I MIGHT AS WELL JUST GO TO THE MALL

i went to the mall and spent 94 dollars…!!!! we are not financially responsible enough to go out on our own i swear my mother is never going to let me go out ever again after this but she was fine when i spent 150 in a whole day ….. SO ITHINK ITS OK.

i bought food and then a bluelock manga (THE ARYU COVER NOW IM ONLY MISSING THE KUNIGAMI ONE AND THEN WE WAIT FOR WHEN THE OTHER MANGAS ARE AVAILABLE IN MY COUNTRY..) and then i bought more food (bubble tea yummy) and iwas gonna buy a pretzel but i got distracted went into a store and saw chikawa. iwas like woah its that one thing on like every tumblr blog and thought of buying a keychain UNTIL I REMEMBER THAT THIS IS A STORE WHERE EVERYTHING IS 15+ EVEN FOR A TINY KEYCHAIN SO I RAN OUT. and then i was gonna go home but i took the longest route to the terminal so i saw a few more stores and i saw the cutest sleep wear ever so i spent a good 30 mins standing there aggressively comparing the medium and large difference (it had basicallt no difference.) and intensely typing to my mother asking WHICH ONE DO I GET and three workers came by and was like “lady are you ok” and i was like NO. i didnt actuallt say no but i just smiled and was like “yup..!” and sipped on my very empty bubble tea cup.. in the end my mother said medium and dad said medium as well so i bought the medium

after i bought it i was thinking oh i should buy a pretzel or chikawa AND THEN I REALIZED IT WAS 6 PM SO I RAN TO THE TERMINAL CUZ IT WAS GETTING DARK SOON. like i love walks in the dark esp when its winter and its like very chilly and snow gets into ur eyeball and practically makes u blind and ure fighting for your life because the wind hates you and almost trip on a rock + almost miss ur bus 😛😋🤪😜😝 (100% totally didnt happen to me last year… totally…… that random car that saw and laughed never happened either….!!) but baywyas i live in the most weirdest area to the point that its concerning if im EVEN SAFE TO WALK HOME PROPERLY WITHOUT BEING LIKE “AM I GONNA GET ISEKAID AGAIN” OR GET JUMPED BY A RANDOM BIRD like honestly somstimes i wish my parents didnt move to canada so ill live my hashtag philippines life (muehheuheueh octopus is filipino 😈😈 we learn something new everydya) but i also cannot handle extreme heat BUT I CANT EVEN HANDLE THE COLD EITHER WITHOUT GETTING AN ALLERGIC REACTION THAT TAKES 4-5 HOURS TO CALM DOWN. my cold allergy never lets me rest.

im gonna start tweaking because i have two applications to get through for LITERAL CLUUUBBBSSSS NOT JOBS CLUBS AND BOTH OF THEM ARE LIKE “treat this as a job application” almost like idk how to apply to a job….!! whatever ill live my barista life another day and meet rin itoeshee and we hashtag fall in love over a latte i make for him because im just a hashtag egoist (this will never happen but we all dream) WATCH ME NOT EVEN GET JNTO ANY OF THE THINGS IM APPLYING FOR BUT WHATEVER 💔 jts okay i think ☹️

OKAYAYAYA DAILY QUESTION

which bllk character would spend more money than they actually have in their bank account leading them to be 69 dollars in debt

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HAII LMAO TY FOR THE WARNINF

omg egoist/boss move.. honestly I hate being sick fr but it's also fun bc I like to be dramatic when I'm coughing or sneezing🤗

HELP NOT THE BUS LEAVIJF

YIPEE MALL TRIP!! yk the funny thing is I literally live like a 5 minutes away from a mall but.. I don't really go to it.. IDK WHY it's kinda boring tbh all thr good malls are IN THE CAPITAL and that's like hours away from me plus it's scary there so.. I'll stay here!

94 DOLLARS based of what you said abt Canada I used Canadian dollars to convert it to my local currency and apparently if you were using my currency you spent 474 dollars!! SO WHAT. I already cry when I spend over 200 dollars here.. but I haven't spent anything as yet so I have 500 dollars in my savings hahahheheheh🤫🤫

OMG ARYU I LOVE HIM I wanna go out and start buying manga bc I found a store that sells them but I have no where to place them. I NEED MY OWN ROOM UAGABDBAHS😒😒😒

omg sounds so yummy I want boba now

LMAO ON EVERY TUMBLR BLOG

15+ DOLLARS FOR A KEYCHAIN? IS IT BUYING ME FOOD??

LMAO not the worker checking on you at least your momma and pops helped you!!

walking in the dark sounds nice but can't do that here unless you don't wanna see the sunlight again! I walk from school to home sometimes when my momma can't pick me up and I'm always scared bc like once a man told me he was Jesus and he ordered me to give him a dollar HELP IT SOUNDS SO FUNNY BUT IT HAPPENED I was by the church so I walked back inside it HELP

OMG A NEW TRAIT OF 🐙!!

omg I hate the heat yet I live in a tropical island LAST YEAR IR HAD A HEATWAVE IT TURNED MY COLD WATER WARM AND MY AF WASNT WORKING EVERYTHING WAS SO MOIST. I don't think I was meant to be here I thought the caribbean life was gonna be on the beach drinking out of a coconut not melting in a puddle..

DANG YPU NEED AN APPLICATION FOR A CLUB?

LMAO BARISTA LIFE I'll be a background character witnessing the love while drinking my coffee with nagi!!

ITS OKAY IF THEY DONT TAKE YOU THEYRE JUST MISSING OUT ON A LITETAL EGOIST ENTERING THEIR LIFE!!

HELP talking abt nagi he would with all those games he plays

10/10 yap session I loved it

[impishsensei]

some sunday-themed (+ a little on romance/relationships) headcanons that are mostly just a repost from my old blog, though i'm adding quite a bit more so :3c remember these are just my personal headcanons based on my iteration of gojo ❤️ also it's written in a very rambly/stream of thoughts way so i hope it's easy to follow. under the cut for length!

- irt his sexuality, satoru is best described as bi with a preference for women and fem-aligned people. he loves girls! he's literally that one silly "i don't date ugly girls? why? cuz they don't exist" meme bc he just... idk he adores women. soaks in the attention he gets for being a pretty boy like a fucking sponge he thrives on it (yeah he posts thirst traps). he's a lil bit disrespectful tho bc *ldr voice* you're just a man but he does try <3 basically in his eyes women are everything and men are just ken (not including himself). but he does like guys ofc esp pretty boys. ultimately tho, he rly doesn't care that deeply about someone else's gender... if he wants them he wants them

- more on that... satoru's type is generally someone that's cute + shorter than him he loves the shawtys idk. he tends to like people with more pretty/delicate facial features. he's more of an ass/thighs guy but lbr he's not like... so picky about that he will just go a lil crazy in giving them a lot of attention when yk. in terms of looks tho, his type isn't super rigid... he's just more likely to be super initially attracted to the above traits. outside of the more superficial stuff, they have to accept that they're not his first priority and it'll be extremely hard for him to truly let them in. he might never, actually, and it's extremely unfair and he realizes that, which again, is part of why he doesn't see romance in the cards for himself.

- ik i mentioned this a few times before in other posts but i'll say again he's kind of um... for the streets? not to be a dick tho but just... he wants intimacy, but he can't have true intimacy bc of his job/loneliness/priorities etc so he gets it ya know that way. despite this tho, i think he can actually be very sweet and will get crushes and stuff like that. even when he has fwb i think he'll act a bit too familiar/boyfriend-ish that'll have the other person feeling like "uhm... what are we...?" only for him to get cold feet rip. basically, it's not impossible for him to be in a relationship but i think it'd be hard/very heavy slowburn in a rather unconventional way. i don't think it's particularly hard for him to catch feelings if he's fooling around with someone a lot and genuinely likes them, but he'd be in total denial of that, and when it really dawns on him he'd try to ghost. same if someone he's fooling around with tells him they're falling for him... it's difficult to become his romantic partner and not for the weak of will. (is he even worth the struggle? ksadsa idk)

- if one does manage to bag this disaster of a man and he enters a serious relationship i think he's the type to fall very deeply in love! he's super clingy and possessive and he loves attention. he wants his partner to be obsessed with him like he wants to be certain they are never leaving. he's passionate and loves to spoil them rotten. very much into pda and loves to have a hand on them ALWAYS, be it through hand-holding or a hand around the waist. and yes this means he also can't keep his hands off them irt fucking too . the other day i came up with this hilarious idea that satoru can use rct to fill his balls back up so his stamina is endless. enjoy luvs (and yes he absolutely uses his abilities for stupid shit like this)

- in the bedroom... he's a versatile switch on paper but definitely prefers being a dom and a top. subby satoru is an absolute treat tho, he gets real whiney and bratty and then as a dom he's rly a sadistic tease. also he's got an 8 inch pecker bc ofc he does. bastard.

dirty talk - pls he loves the sound of his own voice he will NOT stfu LMAO also he just... idk.. has an absolutely foul mouth and will describe shit in detail and ask nasty ass questions like um someone put this man back in his enclosure. basically he loves to see his partner blush and squirm from the lewd shit that comes out of his mouth. one of his fave things to do is say smth absolutely disgusting in their ear when they're out and about just to see how it gets his partner flustered

notable kinks:

exhibitionism - he likes to fuck in public and also kinda likes to lowkey let it be known that he's fucking his partner. maybe not full-on getting caught but he loves being risky. he'll place a hand on their ass and grope them when talking to someone or have them walk around with a toy inside and ramp it up to the highest setting when they're ordering at a restaurant. yeahhh

voyeurism - he LOVES sending pics and receiving pics and also he loves to watch his partner touch themselves for him. drives him crazy.

breeding - i mean is anyone surprised. i got nothing else to say just he wants to pump someone full of his honored one seed

praise - this one is more directed at himself. he loves to get his ego inflated but he will also praise his partner lots too bc he wants them to feel good

sado-masochist - it's not super extreme but this does play into how much he loves to tease. he wont hurt them too bad but he does y'know like to overstimulate and maybe slap someone around a bit (esp spanking). choking's on the table too, he loves that shit. as for the masochism... subtoru wants his dick to get stepped on and prob wants to get stabbed idk i feel like he's not used to it and he'd go crazy for it a lil bit.

teasing/edging - kinda prob conveyed heavily already by everything above, but he rly will torment someone with slight touches and act like he's innocent and they're the dirty one bc he wants them to beg for it.. yep loves feeding his ego that way and would def be like "nope you gotta say it!" and he rly will not give them what they want until they spell it out for him. i mentioned above the use of toys, but also sending dirty texts/pics, cockwarming, edging, thighfucking so they can feel it but not where they want it... stuff like that.

idk how to really define this but he would love sexy roleplays like. his partner dressing as a maid or a nurse stuff like that lol also related-ish but he v much enjoys seeing his partner dress in sexy clothes to entice him (like lingerie or rly revealing stuff)

not rly a kink but he loves eating pussy/sucking dick/eating ass he will do it all day it will double as rct to his brain anyway this is all i can think of for now, there's way more trust me this man is a total pervert we are fr just scratching the surface here <3 i hope this makes sense and helps u all see more into this little gremlin freak's mind. to anyone who read this thank u and also i am sorry for subjecting u to this

[oceanwithouthermoon]

anyways guys after writing this after literally saying it wouldnt work, i thought a lot more about it so heres my saiki k-shera brainstorm 😋👍

when i think about a shera au, i feel the NEED to keep the catradora characters sapphic, so whoever would be catra would need to be either a girl character or a character i could hc as nonbinary

i kinda want it to be terusai but that wouldnt really make sense.. i could force it to fit but it would be a biggg stretch, especially because personally i think teruhashi also fits adora pretty well..

you could argue that a big part of catras reasoning for acting out was because of her humiliation at the fact that people werent seeing her for her worth, which could kinda be kokomi if she grew up being told by everyone EXCEPT for the potential shadow weaver/hordak characters that she was perfect.. like maybe she believed that she really deserved better and thats why she wanted to rise to the top..

its just not quite right though, ik people in the horde didnt exactly choose to be in the horde but i just cant see her with her perfect girl persona being a horde soldier.. i picture her more being the glimmer of the group, even though like.. catra and glimmer have so many parallels but it fits kokomi better if you think about it, she has all this love all around her but is still fighting to prove her worth and show everyone shes perfect

so yeahhhh, i think i like her as glimmer.. i kinda wanted kaido and nendo or kuboyasu to be glimmer and bow but with teruhashi in that role, id have to figure something else out..

actually, kuboyasu OR kaido could be catra ☠️ okok hear me out hear me out..

kuboyasu is super obvious, having been in a gang in the canon universe and then gone all straight and narrow ALL at once, which is tooootally similar to catra being in the horde and then having her super rushed character arc, which would make it make more sense too if it were him.. just add even more trauma to kuboyasu and you could definitely justify him staying in the horde for longer before going straight the way he did..

kaido is a bit harder to explain but pleaseeee just listennn.. imagine kaido growing up in the horde, with people like shadow weaver around him who has magic but claims the princess' magic to be evil.. and imagine kaidos whole jet black wings thing, and just like how in canon he basically imagines himself to have saikis life without knowing, he does it here too.. "the jet black wings" is basically shera.. so when saiki turns his back on the horde after realizing everything he was told about himself and his fellow princesses was a lie, kaido is fucking furious.. how could his best friend keep a secret like that from him??? he has kaidos perfect and most ideal life, and he never said a word??? or made an attempt to save kaido from the abuse he faced in the horde??? and saiki obviously didnt realize it was abuse because he was being abused too, but saiki saw how the horde treated OTHER people, and THAT made him realize it was wrong?? not when they mistreated kaido?? ok villain arc 😜

some character roles are really obvious though, like mermista and seahawk are OBVIOUSLY aiura and toritsuka, aiura is less tsundere and more just gossipy but i do think she would be a bit tsundere when it comes to toritsuka sooo its perfect

ALSO OMG AMP AS SWIFT WIND?? SWIFT WIND BUT HES A TIGER WITH WINGS OR SOMETHING INSTEAD OF A HORSE BECAUSE SAIKI ACCIDENTALLY DID HIS MAGIC ON A CAT INSTEAD..

fyi saiki obviously cant have the super duper overpowered esp he has in canon because otherwise he couldve just taken those who he cares about and fucking demolished the horde, so i imagine that maybe hes just extra powerful shera, like he transforms and is more powerful but he also prob has some of his powers even when hes not transformed.. i dont think he would have telepathy in the same way cuz like idk i feel like in shera if adora knew exactly how catra was thinking, she wouldve been redeemed a lot sooner cuz they wouldve just.. worked through it.. maybe he only has telepathy when transformed, and he just normally has super strength and other stuff..

the whole finding the sword and becoming shera prob wouldnt be the same cuz he would prob already be able to transform without the sword, so maybe the sword just strengthens his powers or stabilizes them, like his limiters maybe ??? idk i havent thought that part through

i think kusuke might be shadow weaver😭😭just think about it.. SW didnt know adora was shera but she knew she was powerful, so what if kusuke knows kusuo has magic of some kind, and eventually as they both grow older he finds out about the legend of shera and immediately knows that its kusuo.. kusuo still doesnt know who tf shera is, he just knows he's definitely a princess and cant tell anyone, so kusuke doesnt tell him about shera but holds his "evil princess powers" over his head just like in canon, tells him nobody else in the horde can know hes a princess (basically the same as calling him a monster in canon cuz of how theyre taught about them) and so on...

sometimes i consider writing about aus of the saiki k gang just in the universes of other fandoms i like (ie: the steven universe kubosai idea i posted) and then i realize that like.. it almost never works because saiki would be a totally different person if they all lived in a universe where supernatural powers were accepted and he had people around him with similar experiences..

so basically every au is just "what if kusuo saiki was less traumatized?" and it changes his entire character...

[actualbird]

good day po fave online kuya kong si kuya zak 🫶🏽🫶🏽

feel free to delete this from ur inbox if u don wanna answer i genyuweenly won't mind <33 pero how did u decide on a senior high school?? a strand?? A COLLEGE???? a career too doot doot doot

idk school and the future has been stressing me out :pain: also any debate tips cause in my head ur a very good speaker...... my first debate is graded so it's taking a toll on my grp 😓😓😓😓 AND labag sa kalooban namen ung topic AHAHHAHAHHA so namamlastik lang kami

thank u sm ule kuya kahit na idelete mo to, typing it out made me calmer ng onti seryoso ueuueue

>hopefully friendly neighborhood (marikenyo) grade 10 student

ps; ur luke cos is so cos goals the luke stan in me is screaming crying cause im curious if im taller than u /j im only 5'2" lawl UR WIG IS SO NICE TOO LIKE GENUINELY !!!! the styling is mwa chefs kiss

hi hi anon!! omg first off can i just say i got a nice boost of happy chemical from being called kuya zak like,,,,oh das me :'D

and it's alright, i dont mind this at all!! i really understand how the future can be stressful huhu, especially when ur in high school, so helping out in any way wld be my pleasure

i'll go thru this one by one (and under a readmore) cuz it seems uve been following here for a while so siguro by this point, siguro alam mo na na madaldal ako esp sa mga ask responses JHVKAJHSFVJKAHS

how did i decide a senior high school strand/college degree/career?:

unfortunately, i cannot help on on the High School Strand kasi 'di ko naabutan yung strand system in high school VSJHFVKSJDHGSD. my batch graduated right when they started doing strands, so i never got to experience it, huhu, nor do i understand the process (even after my younger sibling has tried many times to explain it to me, minsan bobo ako jVKJSHF)

but maybe my next stuffs can help out :D

in choosing a college course i.....really kinda just picked what i wanted to do. and this was a huge privilege i'll always be grateful to my family for, whatever i wanted to study, they'd support me. the courses i applied for in diff schools were the following, in order of first to last choice: Creative Writing, English/Comparative Literature, and BA Psychology (tho disclaimer: i only put this last one on application forms cuz it was needed, i didnt actually want to study that very much HAHA, it was writing or lit for me all the way)

on why i wanted those courses is....idk it's another thing that i think is also a privilege. ive always known that ive wanted to write, to study writing, and to pursue it later on. ive been writing and reading ever since i was a kid and i was pretty deadset on it from an early age.

i know that a lot of people dont have a similar experience tho sometimes, but i guess my advice for how to pick a college course is: what can you see yourself enjoying learning more and more and more about?

ofc, this gets a bit more complicated if ur family is strict and will only allow u to take certain degrees huhu. but if uve got the freedom to choose, i'd say dont just think about what you like, but what you'd like to learn about.

cuz college is work. it's a LOT of work. and while liking something can help, that Like can fall flat when youve gotta be doing all the requirements. it helps if, whatever u choose, it's something uve got a craving for knowledge for.

and honestly, if you dont know what to get or if you choose something and realize it isnt for you, thats okay too! you can shift courses in college! or if you want to learn more, you can take a minor degree! sometimes your first choice wont work, and thats okay. you can choose again and see what fits.

how i chose my career was a bit different from this cuz....the ph job market is in shambles JHVASFVASKJFHASVKFJAH

i currently work as a copywriter and despite the stresses, i really enjoy my job! but this wasnt my first job (my first job fucking sucked so bad that i resigned within a month) and i didnt land it straight out of college (i was out of college for over a year before landing my current gig). i got lucky with my current job, bc when it comes to careers, it's a lot harder to have a choice.

of course, all the jobs i was looking into were writing related: content writer, SEO writer, scriptwriter, etc etc. but theres a lot of companies out there that treat writers like absolute shit, a lot of companies who wont get back to you after an interview, a lot of companies who wont take you. i didnt choose my career so much as get lucky in the job market gacha (lol), but my advice here is that like...search within the industries you think you'd, at best, enjoy working in or, at minimum, can endure being in

which is a very depressing statement, i know.....life is tough, but there are good jobs out there with ppl who wont treat u like crud. if i got lucky, i can only hope more ppl can get this kind of experience too

and like i said in the college bit, if u find urself in a job u dont vibe with and u have the privilege/stability to be able to quit it:.....just quit it

a lot of these life choices are made to be really Big by schools and teachers and everybody really, but you dont have to get it right the first time. you can start over, it's alright, youve got your whole life ahead of you. if your life allows u the privilege and freedom to choose and discover new things, dont hold yourself back

i hope this could help somehow. i realize that a lot of this is medj philosophical jHVJHSFKJSD but back when i was in college, i wish somebody told me that it's not the end of the world if i didnt get it right the first time. so thats what i'll tell you, cuz it's true :'D

and as for debate tips HAHA, okay heres where i can give some more concrete advice because i LOVE DEBATING. I LOVE PUBLIC SPEAKING AND PRESENTING OMG OMG. it's a dream come true for me, people HAVE to listen to what ive got to say, it's a huge power trip JVSKJHFVAJS

ANYWAY, DEBATE TIPS:

i am so sorry that the topic that got assign to u and ur grp isnt something u like huhu. but my overall tip for debate (and any public speaking tbh) is. fake it

like, legit, just fake it. the delivery portion of debate, to me, is basically theatre and acting HVKJHVFKJAHFAS

imagine the most confident speaker uve ever seen urself, maybe somebody so confident na nainis ka sa kaniya, and do exactly that:

get that good posture, make motions with your hands because this helps get people's attention. if eye contact makes u nervous (it makes me so nervous huhu) u can blur/unfocus ur eyes, U Do Not See It

maintain a good rhythm with your speaking too. speak with moderate loudness and emphases for the less important, and then idiin mo in the bits na gusto mo parang mic drop moment ahfjshfa (which is usually saved best for the latter portion of an argument, but good to pepper it in as well thru the whole thing with ur most important pieces of info)

tho ofc thats all only on the public speaking bit. if im remembering correctly, high school debate does also rely heavily on the research/outline stuffs u have to do prior to the debate, and for that, i have less advice huhu. im not all that great of a researcher, but as long as uve got ur reputable sources all arranged well, oks na yan!

i feel like at this point i shld tell u that in high school, medj patapon ako na estudyante, basta pumasa ako, ok na yan sakin JHVJSHFVKDSJHFKS

that being said, pls take all my advice w a grain of salt, ha! because what works for me might not work for you. everybodys got different methods of speaking, researching, choosing degrees and careers. but even if what i said doesnt match what wld work for u, i hope ur main takeaway na lang is that u can do whatever u want in whichever way works best for you

anyway, thats all ive got to say for now! i hope smthng here could be of use and that you have a great week, anon :'D

(P.S. WAAHH, THANK U FOR UR KIND WORDS ON MY LUKE COSPLAY :DDD!! i got the wig secondhand for a steal price HAHA and......yes, you are taller than me, im 5'1" JHVJSHDFVKSDJHFVDSKJHFDSKJJKHVKJH)

[lennjamin-o7]

you'd be surprised at how many people reread your fic lmao, I also love rereading your fic (esp for the angst 👀). One of the funniest thing I realized at one of my rereads is that all of the blessed ones have the same 'short word + name of weapon' pattern techno does. I did an irl facepalm for not realizing it sooner lmao.

My favorite scenes is definitely techno's dream sequences, esp because it's genuinely does feel like a dream. Idk how to explain it, but it's scratching my brain in the best way. Plus the way you revealed the blood god!! Honestly I think that's one of the best application of "show don't tell" I've seen in a while. Cuz, you never said that it was the blood god, but Everything in that exact moment just Screams it. I just love the dream sequences alright. Also, the fact that the blood god actually hates how the church is treating techno is really funny to me, cuz now there's three parties who wants techno, and none of them will go down easily (unless techno's gonna off of blood god's hand with that little bet 👀).

Alright this is getting too long, I've already poured out so much in the comments and somehow I'm still having thoughts abt this fic 😵‍💫 what I want to say is, this is such a good fic I love it very much mwah /p

side note: I don't know why, but my brain has decided that your blood god looks like Mohg from elden ring (tw for body horror if you decide to look him up tho). I mean, his title is Lord of Blood so it kinda makes sense.

I'm so happy that something I created gave you enough joy that you read it not once but TWICE. But you insinuating that you read it more than twice. Bruh. I'm just incredibly flattered 💚💚💚.

I am incredibly proud of the names for the Blessed so I am glad people enjoy that, too, and it's not just me giggling at it. I originally was making it that every Blessed had 2 Syllable Adjective + 1 Syllable Weapon, specifically. So it had the exact same stressed syllables as Technoblade's name when said outloud. Just so it was even more integrated into the fic. (Also, Subtleknife is a nudge at His Dark Materials series by Philip Pullman, which also has religious themes to it. Especially in relation to religious zealotry and overreach. So, I thought it would be a fun little fitting addition)

But as I added more names, it became harder to do that pattern because there are only so many 1 syllable weapons. And I really didn't want to keep reusing weapons, even if in Universe that's what they would have had to do. And I had the wiki for Melee weapons open on my computer for so long lol. So, I know I eventually caved on sticking strictly with that setup as more side ocs were named.

I am so glad you like the dream sequences! I have a BLAST writing those, and I have actually written two or three that never made it into the fic because I felt I needed to use them more sparingly. If I use them too often, I feel like it will ruin the tension of them, you know? So, as much fun as I had writing them, I do have to restrain myself lol. But trust me, I love them very much. And there will definitely be more in the fic because I am weak and want more. It definitely scratches my brain, too.

And I am glad I've been successful with the Show, Don't Tell. That is one of my personal goals when I started writing this fic in particular. To do better with show don't tell. And its really encouraging to hear that it was successful. Especially with the Blood God, because I was trying to hit that niche of, like, eldritch horror. Which HAS to be show not tell. Because I can't just say "hey, this guy is horrifying and incomprehensible!" and have the same impact. I had a lot of fun trying to find the right words to get across the feelings of those scenes. It was a lot of effort, but really really fun effort.

And Techno is in the middle of a multi-sided tug of war and doesn't even realize it lololol. Unfortunately, he's the rope. Which isn't, you know, great. I mean, for him anyways. All of us that like angst are having fun.

I love every word so if you are worried about it being long for me, please don't worry. I'm screenshotting it, printing it out, and eating it. I love it. Delicious food. Chef kiss. I love it. And I love the comments. And I am so happy it makes you happy enough to rotate it in your brain. Because it also rotates in my brain.

And I've never played Elden Ring, but I did look that up and fuck that is a cool design. The people who designed that game really went off. And feel free to imagine the Blood God like that, its looks neat as hell!

And its not like I've described what the Blood God looks like.

Because Techno hasn't looked at him yet.

Which I'm sure isn't significant. :)

Have a great day! And seriously. Thank you for the ask 💚💚💚

[i-luvsang]

this is saur random but if ateez worked in a mall where would they work ?

i feel like hongjoong would work at hot topic :0 jongho would sell cellphone cases

LMAO STOP NOT HONGJOONG AT HOT TOPIC HAHAHDHDHJS ur right tho :,) everything abt him fits it, esp his style ofc. thats lowkey why he was hired. but like. he’d never actually buy anything from there😭😭 all his stuff is like way higher quality lmao bUt he’s definitely a good worker

aND PFFT JONGHO SELLING CELLPHONE CASE WHYYYYY IS IT TRUE. he’s only working there because his friend referred him and he didn’t want to do the work of applying somewhere else. but somehow it suits him and he’s very good at picking out phone cases that look good. tho he definitely secretly makes judgy faces at people who choose ugly ones lol

okay okay uHhhHh lets see seonghwa works at like. idk probably some fairly generic (but nice) clothing store but somehow he finds the items that actually look good. he could’ve been hired just for his face but he’s super nice and a good worker too. they post him as a model to promote the store on social media alllll the time

yunho is working at a little pretzel shop like cant you just see him in the blue auntie annie’s ballcap and tshirt lol. his friendly manner fits it very well and he always waves sweetly to any kids who come. him and seonghwa are everyone’s mall worker crushes bc they’re so nice and friendly

no one knows how the heck yeosang got his job at the jewelry store😭😭 like usually their employees are at least in their thirties but there he sits behind the counter displaying diamond necklaces looking anything but interested. he’s actually really good with customers tho, and especially good at convincing them to buy the more expensive option lmao — alternative concept he works at some skater boi shop LOL

okay okay idk how common this store is but my mall has this store calked box lunch and its basically just unofficial but nice/pretty merch for mostly animes (i have some v cute studio ghibli tshirts from there) and i feel kike san would definitely work there !!! his image just fits the store and he always talks abt his fav shows with costumers

mingi is working at some cool dude clothing shop like— realizes i know zero cool dude clothing shops IDK UM he’s similar to seonghwa but his store is cooler lmao. he just chills around and he looks like he’s slacking off and he either definitely is or he finished all of his tasks really early

wooyoung works at a vans shop. i almost said mingi did cuz he does fit the vibe but then i was like wAIT WAIT THATS ACTUALLY LEGALLY RESERVED FOR WOOYOUNG so yeah. do i have to explain. no i don’t lol if y’all can’t see it idk who wooyoung is anymore

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Anyways I don't think I even ranted about In trousers, the prequel of Falsettos, even tho it's a whole other pleasant mess. First of all the guy who played the main character described it as a fever dream and uh ACCURATE.

It's basically about Marvin, before he left his wife. Well kind of, it jumps a lot between times and half of it is just weird fantasies by Marvin. It also features 14 year old Marvin who's kind of a brat and also is SOOO repressed like he has a girlfriend but he just spends time at the school play most of the time rehearsing to get away from her and wants to have a crush on his female teacher both as an excuse to not be with his girlfriend and because she's not someone he could actually be with. And then he marries his wife and has a child (originally two children but that conflicts with Falsettos so they took out the song referencing the other child in later productions)

And theeeennn he meets Whizzer Brown, and there's a whole song about gay sex there because WHY THE HELL NOT and he decides to divorce Trina and yeah everything after that is covered by Falsettos.

And like. It is so relatable for me as someone who struggled and tbh still kind of struggles with internalized homophobia, also, it debuted in 1979 like. It never made it to Broadway both because it's so hard to follow and because. It's 1979 and the musical is very gay. And it unfortunately is kind of lost media like there's a 1985 version that's heavily rewritten because idk Will Finn realized this is too chaotic BUT ALSO it's not less but MORE gay (probably because the actor of Marvin didn't know it's gay originally) like in the original there were sublte references and he never like. Outright says "i like men" Or something even the gay sex song is kind of subtle but in the 1985 version he literally says shit like "In my mind I'm kissing men" like that's not very heterosexual my dude. But yeah there's one existing bootleg of a college production of the 1985 reworked version and there's the 1979 cast album and that's basically it so it's kind of lost media :(

It's a shame cuz the songs are literally all bangers I'm saying this unironically

OOOH that sounds so cool holy shit def my kind of thing!! Ty for this infodump it was very interesting and yeah i get what you mean, it’s really a pity how much media was lost to time.

we stan songs about gay sex tbh

ahhh yeah gay media esp media showing internalised homophobia hits hard

“In my mind I’m kissing men” I’M CRYING LMAO I LOVE THAT

But i love that even though it didn’t get to broadway and homophobia at the time the bootleg still survived. Generations of gay people writing and acting and drawing and passing it down to future generations to say you’re not alone, to say there are others like you, to say it will be okay. 

Istg I need to watch Falsettos one of these days man remind me when it’s holidays in a few weeks ahh

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hm. time to psychoanalyze myself i think. cw traumadumping cw long ass post cw oversharing 😭

the srs cws are talk of sex and stuff but in a sad way not a horny way, sa, men on the internet being gross, bad coping mechanisms, etc

like. idk. i was thinking abt this last night and now im thinking abt it more and like. i feel like. the way i appear in headspace and stuff is just. completely based after. OH MY GOD SOFT BOY CAME OUT? um. sorry it just came on shuffle. ANYWAY. 😭. i feel like how i appear and everything is just based off of like our brain trying to be attractive to- well men mostly. other genders nd stuff but mostly men Specifically cis men. and like. literally none of us actively want to have cis (esp cishet) men attracted to us ❤️. but its like, i know Why like i know its cuz one of my roles is a sexual alter and our brain made us appear the way we do in headspace as part of it trying to keep us safe etcetc WHATEVER i dont care 🫶. like. i literally even- like for instance when we were dating our ex i remember trying to like. be attractive to her and make her like me/us even tho like. i was uncomfortable as fuck and like. i did the same with redacted from irl and just didnt set boundaries at all- no thats not true we definitely did set boundaries. i was just bad at enforcing them- i guess cuz i was like. idk completely lost in this mindset of like, not being able to say no and not feeling safe and feeling like it was my only purpose inguess?

and then like- i also feel like. imean i dont really get the love languages thing but if i had to pick one it would definitsly be words of affirmation and like- i feel like. okay 😭. im not a good person by. whoever the fuck uhh. pat the bunny i think? plays in the background. like for years and by for years i mean ever since 4 days after i turned 18. my thing had been like. posting on reddit . in various subreddits that like, Well the men in them are not very nice to me or to women . and like. i feel like that ties back to the words of affirmation thing cuz i was like intentionally seeking out people who would hurt me (<- which also ties into being a persecutor). and i dont do it anymore because months in the getalong shirt with nik made me feel bad abt it 😭 and then i started to realize that i like when people are nice to me actually. and then i was like Huh maybe tjats not super healthy for me probably. (it is not). well and thats the reason im banned (by nik) from reddit and sex with cis people forever.

but like. 😭 SORRY THIS IS SO LONG. writing a damn novel here. ANYWAYYYY. the whole posting images on reddit dot com -> talk to creepy men on reddit dot com -> intense self hatred and shame -> nik fronts and freaks out and deletes everything -> i feel bad -> i do it again next time i feel like making myself feel terrible on purpose for fun Spiral. like. ive spent all this time gojng down that spiral and now its like. bro i jusr want someone to be nice to me. like i spent ages convincing myself that actually i didnt care abt the shit those men were sayinh & that i liked it and now im like. i literally dont. like. i dont wabt someone ive never spoken to who didnt even say hi or ask what im ok with to say like. waves hand. stuff im not repeating just make up something genuinely disgusting and a bit terrifying and ive probably heard it. and now i dont even KNOW like. what i want i guess. idek my sexuality cuz ive never bothered to think abt what i want cuz i was too focused on what people i dont like/am scared of/etc to think abt how i felt. which in retrospect. bad and scared and. etc.

anyway. idk its just dawned on me the other night how much of who i am is wrapped up in how much i want everyone to like me all thw time and also how much i dont like myself. and like im working on it. and if working on it means thinking about drm from minecraft youtube ******* ** ** ***** so be it i guess 😭. idk man if nik can read dr*amnotnap fic and call it coping i can thirstpost abt drm in my head. idk.

ig im just. now that im able to be more normal and rational and stuff im able to see like. damn i was really bad at dealing with my emotions and tried to do that in ways that were not healthy for me or anyone else. and now all my sense of. who i am is wrapped up in that i guess. which sucks. and im working on it . SLOWLY! but im working on it

tldr: damn this guy should probably talk to a therapist abt all this shouldnt he. well thats okay at least hes hot