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pawmesan · 1 year ago

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So yesterday I said I had ✨opinions✨ on the DLC and today I have come to the conclusion that as per usual, I will not chill until I dumped them somewhere lmao. It's mainly focused on what I've seen people say about Carmine and Kieran online, be it on tumblr or other websites.

Teal Mask Spoilers under the cut :3

I have no idea if I used the under the cut feature even right lmao I've kinda always just been a douche and ignored it when talking about spoilers as I've realised gfjdjrc

Ok anyway so. I think what personally bothered me the most is a lot of people saying "they just have a perfectly fine siblings relationship, nothing unhealthy to see here" and "Kieran is a coldass douchebag who view others as objects and only cares about strength". Both statements I strrroooongly disagree with.

First about his and Carmine's relationship, since it plays into the other thing. It seems that their parents aren't around, though it's unknown why. The grandparents are apparently pretty lackluster in taking over their job and because of that, it seems that Carmine has taken it on herself to take somewhat of guardian role for Kieran. Which is a role she's visibly overwhelmed by, which makes sense, because that's not a role you should have to take when you yourself are maybe like 17/18 lol. You can see that she absolutely does care for and wants the best for him, but at the same time she can't wrap her head around his actions and how he's feeling. So a lot of the things she does she does out of good intentions (for example telling the player for him that he's interested in them because she says he couldn't ever ask on his own, or the whole lying thing where she believes not telling him you guys met Ogrepon prevents him from feeling left out), without understanding that they have quite literally the opposite effect (Kieran feeling like he's unable to do anything on his own BECAUSE she does everything for him, and of course him feeling left out BECAUSE you and her keep meeting Ogrepon a secret). On top of that she clearly has issues keeping her own emotions down, so instead of reacting calmly she'd yell at him whenever he does or says something she doesn't like. And whether you want to see that certain one-liner as her implying she does also hit him when she's not "being nice" or not, she seems unaware of what effect these reactions have on her brother. I do think the implication might very well be on purpose, but it's just not as obviously stated as it could be because this is still a Pokémon game and we don't gotta be too in your face about child abuse in a game that like 8 year olds play lol.

Anyway, aside from him thinking he can't make decisions on his own and stuff, there's a lot of ways this treatment shows in Kieran. Notice how while Carmine is pretty open about showing her anger, he keeps trying to repress his own until later in the story where he's starting to be unable to do so? You can see that when you battle him the first couple times and he loses, the light in his eyes leaves briefly (yknow, the anime thing they both do where that shows them being angry/frustrated) before he grabs his head and just says aw man or something. And when she outs him on his crush or whatever on you, he also looks angry like that, but she immediately shuts him down like usual. I'm pretty sure that's a learned behaviour on his part, aka "when I get openly angry or sad my sis will yell at and/or hit me so I have to keep it down". That's why he always switches the topic, runs off or just goes quiet when he pisses her off or he thinks he pisses her or someone else off. It's optional dialogue so idk how many people have seen it, but Carmine confirms that at the festival, though she again misunderstands why he does it.

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So yeah, in short, in regards to their relationship, I think it's clear that it's pretty dysfunctional. For some reason Carmine's stuck with taking a caretaker role she cannot possibly fill given her own issues and age. As a result, she takes it out on her little brother who in turn has to suffer the double bagage of lack of parents and dealing with his older sister's moods. And with next to no social contacts outside of her, he's stuck in that situation and he's got no one to help him learn how to deal with this in a healthier way (same with Carmine really). All he knows that if he was "stronger", he could deal with this better. Like that cool ogre from the folktale that does not care what people think of it and keeps fighting for its right to be respected regardless. Stronger being a very arbitrary word here, as the only specific goal he mentions (in the beginning) is able to stand up against his sister.

Now onto the whole "Kieran sees Ogrepon, the player, probably everyone but him, as an object" thing which... yeah no, he's not a sociopath kcngjtc

More precisely, the player character comes in as this cool person who has no trouble beating his sister in a battle. They don't seem to have all that much trouble socialising either. Good thing he doesn't know all the kewl stuff we did at Area Zero and all or he'd lose it completely. I think a big bonus is also that we're not from his town, so we don't have any bias against his ogre idol. So like, he's head over heels for us, he actually gets to hang out with us and warms up as we realise we're interested in his stories and all and wow. He's found an actual real friend omg. He might not be 100% aware of that, but that's all he really wanted. He wanted to befriend the ogre because it sounded like it would be someone to understand him. And now there's suddenly this super nice person who's taking that role.

But then suddenly, that person hangs out with his meanie sister and stops interacting with him almost entirely. I have a feeling that Carmine hanging out with people he'd want to befriend and them making fun of him is just a thing that happened before and that's why he jumps to that conclusion right away. Keep in mind, the reason Carmine came to us in the first place is literally to make fun of his lack of skills at the mini game lol.

So yeah, the reason Kieran is so massively pissed off is because he does view the player character as a human being, and one he really really liked and put up the courage to open up to, yet from his POV we shamelessly take advantage of that and leave him alone again to hang out with his sis instead. Would probably come off to him like you just pretended to be his friend because you had to and now you're hanging out with the cooler kids and giggle about how silly he looked when, idk, he asked to have a sandwich with you lol. Of course this is not what the player intended (or is meant to intend) and I too felt physical pain when the game gave me no option but to lie xD but I'm pretty sure you guys making up and giving each other another chance is what's gonna happen in Indigo Disk.

For Ogrepon, instead of as an object, I think he just keeps seeing the ogre from the story in her. You gotta remember that he never gets to properly interact with her, he doesn't even refer to her by her actual name like Carmine does once she learns it. He doesn't understand that, ironically just like him, what she really wants is just acceptance and a friend. He thinks that the reason she's distrusting of him is not because she has trust issues and needs to warm up first just like him, but because he isn't as strong as you are, the one she does trust much easier. He's so convinced that nothing in his life will change for the better until he's "stronger" that... presumably the Dokutaro thing somewhere during the mid point starts influencing him. Not like, straight up possession, but more it taking advantage of his instability and promising to give him the strength he wants if he does what it wants. Just like the dex entries of the loyal three says what happened to them. So Dokutaro moreso takes the role of some guy who's a really bad influence and convinces you to do things that will harm both you and others with some sneaky lil psychological tricks. Because I mean, self-sabotaging is something Kieran literally does around the time he presumably comes in contact with Dokutaro. He completely stops trying to talk to you, he boxes the furret he apparently raised from an egg, he doesn't come along to help beat the loyal three to get the masks. I wonder tbh, if Dokutaro was influencing him, if it didn't lead him away from helping with that on purpose, since it originally made the loyal three steal the masks in the first place. I guess that would also explain why he would have been fine with Ogrepon just going back to the cave so he could get the masks back later. And while there definitely is the whole jealousy aspect, I think it's also Dokutaro leading him into actions he wouldn't normally do to get the masks. Because if he gets the masks it'll give him what he wants or whatever. I think without the Dokutaro influence, honestly, he'd probably just have locked himself up in his room for the rest of the story after you lying and sobbed into his Furret pal's fur lmao.

Soo yeah, I think that's about it. They both have quite some issues and continue the trend of ScaVio characters that really need a therapist lol. I like Kieran especially though, he's really adorable despite having his own set of flaws of course. So I do hope the next part will take his (and Carmine's) story into a satisfying direction. And I better get to give him a hug because he needs one smh. Maybe Arven can make him some top tier candy apples. Oh oh yeah, noticed btw that he adds Dipplin to his team after he gave us a candy apple at the festival and told us there's a mon that looks like one? Pokémon likes to do storytelling via the team, so maybe the Dippling reminds him of our broship 😔😔

#pokémon #the teal mask #kieran pokemon #carmine pokemon #furret deserves everything btw he better takes it back into his team eventually

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chaos0pikachu · 8 months ago

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Hi chaos,

I don't know if you've heard of the Ohm-Nanon fans going to Nanon's concert wearing Ohm masks but it happened? (I don't know how to end that sentence.) (Sorry, English isn't my first language.)

You have written about parasocial relationships so I wanted to ask why are people still involved in Ohm-Nanon? Bad Buddy ended so long ago and they are still doing all this. What makes Ohm-Nanon so special? We haven't see such huge bad behaviour from other pair brands.

Please never ever apologize for how you sound in English which is a dumb broken language anyway lol fr you're English is great

anyways um, what in the fucking purge?? lmao sorry the masks thing is just taking me out I'm imagining it and the image in my head is giving kdrama to the max with the discord music and everything lmaoooo

I had not heard of that b/c I don't follow actors like that at all this is very much Brand New Information.gif for me whew wow

Soft disclaimer here I am not an expert behavioral science or anything related so like, anything I say in regards to this is based only on what I've read, can link to from experts in the field, and speculation.

I don't think OhmNanon are necessarily "special" tbh like this behavior is extreme but I wouldn't call it "new".

In western fandom you had or still have fans behaving like this we just call them "tinhats".

Like, take Larries for instance, Louis just spoke about it in an interview that nothing he can say will deter the conspiracies theorists so he's kinda stuck. This article from VOX is old (2016) but it features a pretty clear cut timeline of the theories, and obsession tinhats have with Larry. Even before Larry there was J2 (Jensen Ackles/Jared Padalecki from Supernatural):

I want to note that One Direction stopped being an active band in 2016, almost 8 years ago. And neither Harry nor Louis have been spotted like, hanging out~~ in public for almost that entire time. Meanwhile Jared and Jensen have been been married to their wives since 2010, almost 15 years.

To play fair, Caitríona Mary Balfe (best known for Outlander) is also at the root of a tinhat conspiracy with her costar Sam Heughan. Caitriona has been married since 2019.

Western fandom likes to pretend this environment of fan entitlement, and obsessing over costars relationships is an East Asian entertainment only thing. I thoroughly disagree, and I'm sure the people involved in these various tinhat conspiracies, many who have been thoroughly and ruthlessly harassed along with their spouses, family, friends, and anyone else caught in the crossfire would also disagree.

For me the only arguable difference between like MewGulf and Larry is MewGulf played up skinship as a means of capital and for work, while Louis and Harry were just two dudes in a band.

[I even watched the old school MewGulf videos of them during Peak Fanservice Era and I gotta say it's all so obviously hilarious fake and played up I would have never taken them seriously as a true blue couple. They reminded me more of Adam Lambert making out with his bassist during his FYE tour (Tommy, who from what I remember is straight but idk 100%) for the fun and rock n roll of it all.]

I'm getting off track, I don't think OhmNanon are "special" by-the-by because I've seen this entitled and obsessive behavior with other tinhat ships. The length of time doesn't really matter, what matters is sunk cost fallacy:

"the phenomenon whereby a person is reluctant to abandon a strategy or course of action because they have invested heavily in it, even when it is clear that abandonment would be more beneficial."

Fans have invested time, love, and literal money into Ohm and Nanon, therefore giving them up - and thus giving up the "community" they've build with other Ohm and Nanon fans - is unthinkable and painful.

Combine that with general fan entitlement towards public figures, the para-sociality of believe you, individually, know what's "best" for this person - aka this STRANGER - and there's a belief that you can change or force an outcome that suits your needs and wants.

There's a lot of dehumanization involved in fan entitlement, ppl stop viewing public figures - especially actors and musicians - as products rather than people. And with a product if you leave a bad review, and enough bad reviews the company will fix and change the product.

But people aren't products, and you can't force them to do what you want or be who you want them to be just because it upsets YOU individually.

So at the end of the day, what's gonna happen with Ohm and Nanon? Well, they'll probably just keeping doing what they do. Filming their individual shows, maybe one of them will do another BL - I think Ohm already has one in the works? - and try to move on with their lives. They're coworkers and from what I've seen seem fine being coworkers. I'm not interested in speculating what their relationship is, or was, publicly, they've said they're fine with each other so I'm very es lo que es about it.

For fans, well they're probably slowly taper off eventually with only a core group of "true believers" or whatever like some MewGulf, BrightWin and others have. As fans I think the only thing we can do is discourage the behavior, and be empathetic towards the people being harassed.

Now I'm gonna leave you with my favorite debunk of a tinhat post:

#tinhats #chaos pikachu speaks

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essiekuko · 12 days ago

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'yk carl ur just like the son i never had. bc ur so UNLIKE the son i DID HAVE. come on out here monty, ur so amazing!' HELPPP

carl was so real. im evil for extra credit too dw 🤣🤣

imagine being a retired blogger. so excited

i thinkkk nessa and monty broke up cause he was gettin rlly busy working for the agency

WAITTT they were in the new p&f poster tg. omfg hope

yall b grateful now i practically manifested a new season cause i got hyperfixated on the 'getting the band back tg' episode last year (i attached myself to bobby fabulous lmfaooo)

WAITTT OMFG THEY HAD LIKE ONE GYARU CHARACTER IN P&F AND I WANT HER BACK!!!!

i love how aesthetics have not jst become a style, they're more like a lifestyle now. cause theres no explanation for why a picture of lipgloss is cottagecore. its girly and pink and light and feminine, and thats cottagecore. im too deep into the 'it takes obsession to be great' bc my obessions bought on by my 3d are what i believe is the only way i can be great. hunger hurts, but st4rv1ng works.

also not me being excited abt new p&f and then boom, health check up lmfao. rllyyy concerned for ppl who search for the innocent keywords in this post and then come across well. pro 4n4. tumblr u may be mad but this is ur doing with that post limit. now i cant segregate my topics. i gotta throw in my 3d discussions with a post abt a kid's cartoon. i rlly told myself i'd stop being so childish this yr in prep for when i turn 18. but its like, im js gonna bury it all and not actually mature. and thats not good i think? idk, better than having childish interests at 18.......srry ppl i offend, im talking abt myself not y'all. its just an insecurity, not being adult enough. but like, times are changing i guess. and im not insane abt these interests, cause theyre just lil things i find interesting, but im not so passionate abt them

im kinda glad j timbers went to the slammer. cause it means trolls 3 is the last trolls movie and they literally could not make a better movie than that. its usually, in trilogies, the 2nd is the best and 3rd is the worst. but in the, hopefully, trolls trilogy, 3rd is best and 2nd is worst.

i rb like 1 insane interests post on main and then go back to mass reblogging coquette lmfao. talk abt a coverup

OMFG WAIT DID I TELL YALL ABT MY BIG FEAR OF PRISMO

im very fortunate to have grown up in a kind primary skl. or yk, been in a popular friend group lmfao. cause my weird kid interests weren't considered weird, but they were pretty popular/widely liked at my skl unlike majority of other skls unfortunately. ppl liked my art, and fav animes, and my freaking gacha channel. i was known for having good writing, and i had diff friend groups who all jst equally liked me and certain things abt me and i didnt mind. and then i hear abt my friend's experiences, having weird kid interests and being treated as such. thats why i could nver relate to posts abt being the weird kid, cause fsr i've never been treated as such for liking those certain interests and having those weird kid behaviours, cause again, that was accepted in my skl.......now that i think abt it, i may have had pretty privilege......

and then it makes ms world look even worse. cause in such an accepting environment to grow up in, how did i still manage to find something to be insecure abt, and then start a brat era that changed my life forever. teen years...

i love brazilian miku sm omfg and i love how popular she is!! its like tropical miku and gives sm key west kitten/manba gyaru <3

an mbti quiz would only be considered at 1am

i love that 1 outfit of priscilla's, that black bucket hat & dress combo with the lil tropical patterns, i want it soooo bad

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apokalyptiskgengangare · 3 months ago

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Subjective Experience is a Bitch. It's fucking tiring to feel like you're unique in your Experience. Like the current Feeling ive got is just a general overprevalance of Men everywhere. I used to know alot of lesbians/sapphics whatever but ive either lost contact or theyve become bi or straight. And being the only lesbian you know and ontop of that being trans aint a good combo. Really feels like youre just a straight man. When everyone around you is so big on men and talk about how wonderful men are and you just feel like youve somehow made yourself worse by identifying as a woman. And also i hate hearing about peoples sexuality changing as they go on hormones. So much of my gender identity is encoiled with sexuality and god the though of that changing and me starting to like men sickens me and makes me want to hurl. also it feels really bifobic thinking like this but also idc rn. its probably inadvicable but i gotta get it out of my system, yes i kinda hate men and i try to work on that but also sometimes i feel like i need to find all my representation through stuff that others like and like no i want representation for me but its almost always dumb bullshit that doesnt apply to me. Im a Trans Lesbian who: actually have made efforts to think ideologically and doesnt just spew a haphazard socialjustiselibertarianism that has no grounding. i dont think NV is the best game ever its mearly good i dont like kink stuff like im fine with it but i dont want to engage im not actually that weird in my sexuality im a lesbian bc i like other women trans-cis and also fem presenting nonbinary ppl ig. Im shit at programing im shit at music I dont have a prefrance for anime or manga Im shit at hoi4 and only play it when im drunk enough that the hours i wasted on it dont feel bad im halfway competent at painting miniatures and an ok at sketching idk sometimes it feels like im just delusional and like people just go along with stuff

doesnt help that i cant find similar people when i dislike like a solid 3/4 of the transwomen i meet and idk why or whats wrong with me but it just happens i know like 2-3 transwomen i like and have liked since i met them. the rest i dont despise or anything but it doesnt make it better to be around them and i dont feel like i share something with them always like sometimes it feels like we're worlds apart just bc i dont think animes good and i dont think christianity is fundamentally evil

this post reminds me i need to take some fucking magnesium dubois ass behaviour

#pladder

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episbep · 5 months ago

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rehab days seventeen and eighteen

two really tough days. I got some bad/uncomfortable information and spiralled - taking 7 sleeping pills in 2 days didn’t help, it’s still using/abusing behaviour and I made some really unwise choices - namely arranging to buy 14 grams of ket for £140 - cracking deal but the enticement is too much. There’s too much to lose by doing it so idk why I’m tempted to go back to the dark days of addiction, idk what the appeal is in my fucked up little brain. I know logically that I do not want to be an addict, I have tried to stop so many times and it’s taken a fucking lot to get me this far (I’m only 18 days sober but it’s been a fucking mission and a half even getting to this point) and I know that using (especially a fucking half oz) will throw me back into full blown addiction and the consequences would only continue to get more severe. I’m not prepared to give anything else to this fucked up addiction despite having already lost so much, I still have so much left to lose and so much to work towards and look forward to that I do not want to jeopardise. I had a full blown meltdown after I was unable/unwilling to share in group therapy bc my little crush was told to ‘just stop talking and sit with it for a minute’ and that translated to ‘shut up’ in my mind. Couldn’t stop crying, didn’t want to talk, didn’t want to stay in treatment but didn’t want to leave either, didn’t want to die but definitely didn’t want to keep on living in pain like…it was awful. I could barely breathe and wanted to be alone but then was appreciative when Carl (the best support worker probably in the world) came and sat with and listened to me, followed by the centre manager lol the drama of it all was a bit much but I was not in a good place whatsoever. To cut a long story short I’ve been put on a risk assessing safety plan and have to - attend an online Buddhist centre meeting daily - stay with other people at pretty much all times - complete a daily diary that I submit as well as a personal daily diary - call the on-call number at 9pm each day and practice radical honesty (the last one I’ve given to myself bc I’m still chiding a lot and acting sneaky which is not healthy helpful or adhering to step one!) if I can prove my commitment to recovery and do all these over the weekend, they are going to explore charity funding to help me extend my stay in treatment and get the help that I clearly fucking need. That was my glimmer of hope. That is what’s keeping me going - that little bit of hope that just maybe I can be okay, that someone believes in me, I’ve just gotta show my dedication. There’s no guarantee, but there is hope, and right now that is enough. I thought I’d get clean and that would be that, I was not prepared for the amount of the hard hard work that I have to put in to sustain sobriety, and all the other shit that comes with it that I’ve had to deal with. The emotions are the worst of it. I’ve used ket as a crutch and a cure for so long, before that it was weed, before that it was drinking and the first addiction of them all was self harm. I’m amazed I haven’t reverted back to it, but I am both pleased and proud that I haven’t. Healing is so non-linear and I don’t ever know what the next day is going to bring. That’s why I just have to take it one day at a time.

#that church is where I got my newcomer keyring #it was a CA meeting but who gives a fuck what fellowship it is I’m accepting that I am an addict suffering with an addiction that is #wreaking havoc in my life that I loved #to me the keyring is a symbol of hope and admission of submission to the 12 steps and a sober life and mind #yes I was already 17 days sober but in the back of my mind I didn’t intend to stay that way and was already planning to relapse (clearly)#addiction is such a mindfuck like how am I gaslighting myself #didn’t mean to add the poll but dunno how to delete it #second picture is a yt video I watched about recovery before I came in here and the end part of that comment has lived in my head rent free #since I saw it #recovery #addiction recovery #addiction

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dorkbajirchronicles · 1 month ago

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Some more ideas from the notes:

- Leeran Mind Meld, an idea I love that I gotta bring up again (maybe served with lil gummy frogs)

- ants on a log, served with psychological horror

- mid-morph steak that's half raw and half well done

- jello shots for taxxons (I like this a lot too, maybe combine it with Oreo dust and one of every alcohol?)

- something space-y for Ellimist (edible glitter? Feet? Hmmm)

- ginger and maple, obviously. Idk if I want to do a drink with that or just do oatmeal cookies - I worry a drink would have a medicinal feel? Maybe make it with gin and lean into that? Someone also suggested just serving oatmeal in a shot glass which don't tempt me I just might

- grape juice visser 3 shot

(why yes I am constantly checking this post for ideas yes this is normal human behaviour no I definitely have no other tasks I am avoiding)

I also plan on making and running an Animorphs quiz and testing my friends. Brayden from the podcast will be there so he has an advantage but everyone else will have to use their best guess and it's really just a chance for me to trap my friends and make them learn about my favourite book series muahaha

I'm throwing an Animorphs-themed party in a couple weeks, mainly as an excuse to make themed snacks and cocktails. Here are my ideas so far:

- the Cube: a mojito with a large blue ice cube (Andalites)

- bark spritz: some sort of gin-cinnamon stick-maple syrup combo (Hork-Bajir) I've found luck in Christmas vibe drinks with apple cider added as well

- kandrona shot: cinnamon whisky and coke with a piece of cinnamon gum inside (Yeerks)

- thermal sunset: orange juice, rum, vodka, sprite, with a bit of grenadine (Animorphs)

#animorphs #this post brought to you by tessa the expert #i will be running the quiz and i am so excited

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ksjknj · 6 years ago

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theres a new video going round about BTS being problematic and some of the stuff is actually really shocking :((( idk what to think. have u seen it??? if u search 'bts being problematic for 4 minutes 20 seconds' on yt its there. im actually so disappointed in them.

dude i’m afraid i have no idea what you’re referring to but there’s been quite some shit circulating lately that accuses bts of various things uhh so .. yeah, i’m not sure? i’d say look at everything wearing your thickest sceptic glasses and think critically bc there is some absurd n straight up dumb crap

but also .. the boys are human, they make mistakes, they have done some problematic shit in the past. they’re still learning, still improving, still growing. joon apologised for what he said/did and has been repeatedly proving us that he’s read up on different issues, that he’s educating himself, that he’s trying to become better, that the mistakes he’s made over the years don’t define the person he is now

i see him dragged into all sorts of discussions when it comes to problematic behaviour of other idols, almost as if saying joon did smt similar might lessen the problematic actions .. but the funny thing is - namjoon is one of the only people who apologised for his actions, who has on several occasions admitted he was wrong, and whose behaviour clearly shows he’s learned

#i looked for the video you mentioned but no results so like. idk if this is a serious video or maybe a joke of sorts but yeah #this is my opinion on it and i believe it's always good to think critically bc without that we wouldn't get anywhere #i used to be very strict when it comes to 'problematic' behaviour but over the years i've learned several things and one of them is that not #everyone is as educated or as aware as you are. yes there are some people who are mean just for the sake of it and who are hateful #but mostly people are just unaware of different issues. i've learned patience is your best friend when it comes to it.. you gotta explain #to people why something is problematic bc most of the time they're really not aware.. anyway this got really specific really personal #but it's just bc we come from diff backgrounds n for example where i'm from people are not educated on most issues and why they're issues #idk what i'm trying to say besides: people make mistakes. they're wrong. but if you explain to them they might take it into consideration #and realise they were wrong #ask #anon

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gayspock · 2 years ago

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bro.... okay assorted thoughts from dna mad scientist

first of all i already said it but i am SO freaking in love with namtar's character design. the practical effects are so, so, so freaking good. the way he walked... literalllyyyy i hate 2 draw comparisons, but i think abt how nowadays so much shit is just cgi'd for the fucking HELL of it like... ough you could NOT get cgi that would be anywhere near as harmonious as this costume was with the actor's performance. that cunt was feeling themselves.

and in general i will say i just. like tbh i knowww ive said it a lot but its so good and refreshing how creative some of the character designs are. theyre freaking weirdoooo. WEIRDOOO. I LOVEEE it. the other little scientist... idid not catch names (thats one thing i will say abt farscape - the names are so hard to get a hang of omg lol..) BUT i liked that design too. smile. aeryn's transition was a bit iffy but HEY. cant win em all

anyways storywise itself ok. listen im goin somewhere with this. i think its just... tumblr saturation... that makes me so sick of "found family". like im sorrryyy. i mean- i dont hate it i DONT. but the way ppl discuss it on here is so... weird bc half the time it doesnt even apply, or it's like... yeah theyre guys who like each other but its kind of just a friendship group and idk to me found family is more of an emphasis on certain themes rather than just. guys who hang out % got feelings for each other but. ok sorry thats an aside rank bc...

but.. FREAKING WHATEVER ANYWAYSSSS like my point. is its like. maybe i sound like a cunt. i dont know. im not trying 2 be edgy, but i get it sounds like that its just- i feel like shitty behaviour is necessary sometimes to make it more realistic SORRRYYY LOL.... but its weirdly refreshing when its like... the point keeps being made that yeaahhh these guys ARE starting to take a bit of a shine to one another. BUT ultimately theyre all stuck in a horrible fucking situation, & theyre so desperately sick for their lives back that they'll do freaking ANYTHING and throw these cunts under the bus like THAT. like even just in recent episodes- a few of them have been willing to just leave them behind if they gotta.... like d'argo on that one planet, and rygel in the cell... they donttt give a fuck and why would they yknow

and so like watching them just. YNAK PILOTS FREAKING ARM OFF. CHRIST. like- like it makes sense man... ha ha fuck me.. it does. like shit man. you go through so much fucking horseshit. theyre just kind of having to put up with each other. theyre first year uni flatmates right now for realll, not even that, and theyve been put through some shittt. and i LIKE that. it makes sense. & i think it will make any deeper connections more organic later on

and spreaking OF ANOIAFKIWFK['PGJSEG OSMKGAOJISGJPISDJ I LOVE PILOT I LOVE PILOT ILLOVEEEE pilot... pilot,zhaan and crichton are my FAVOURITES. but pilot could sooo soo shoot up there- it depends on how much more we get to learn about pilot but aooah rughh aorigughgh eekk. eeek. smileee. sortyy. SORRRYYYYY. JUST GIGGLES. KICKS LEGS. CHARACTERRRR TO MEEEE SMILEEE YAAAYYYYYAAYAYAY

also i love what they did with aeryn this episode also and specifically her repertoire with pilot. they have a really good fucking dynamic, man. best friends despite everything. i am actually really glad i like her bc i WAS worried as... perhaps its a more mdern media lens, but i feel like characters of her background, or her baxkground adjacent, can be done ehrhrm. not very well. but i think.... thus far i really love the way the show does handle lots of little character moments in the episodes.

LIKE THATS!!! Thats what i like!! bc- SORRY, im going 2 use trek as an example bc its a. decent comparison. but u have tng, yah? and its not entirely fair- thats episodic, yknow. but a lot of ehrm the character are extremely static and kinda. shallow in tng. lIKE I LOVEEE them sure and theyre all charismatic but i think with many of them ... ehrm lac depth... and . mm its moreso theyre always there to service individual stories, rather than the story is there to service them. and sooo they have to be a little blank- bc they are basically functions, for individual eps, and sotheyre kinda ? at the whim to change from ep to ep bc of that . and we do get some character eps but due to the nature of the show... u dont get the slow release of development, building them like you do here.

and i loveee that here bc its well doneee it is. smile. the way each of them do get fleshed out in every episode and its at a pretty organic pace like ive been saying. and so i likeee aeryn bc i feel like- i feeeel like i was worried they might go too much, too fast with her and it wouldn't work. but the steadier pace.... again, i really love pretty much all her interactions with pilot. i freaking love pilot man . sorry

also love zhaan ive said i love zhaan i want more zhaan bc her concept is everything to me. grin. had 2 say that too BUT OH

on the topic of aeryn. one thing i kinda wish.... I MEAN THEY WOULDNT. AND IT WOULDDD BE FUCKING WEIRD FOR IT TO JUST HAPPEN IN SOME RANDOM EP. but goddd part of me kinda wishes that there was no hard reset in this ep. or at least aeryn had someee lingering issues from whatever that was bc christ was that fucked up. wha tt he hell giys

speaking of, i also liked the like... non-apology from d'argo. again going back 2 what i said. i think its again... i dont know. it feels all the more... natural 2 me... like he's like "oh i would do that again. for sure." and pilots like "i expected that." i think its again wht i appreciate from farscape... theyve done this a few times where its just... a very measured response from characters instead of just freakingggg... forcing them to grovel, trying to close the episode arc story in a narratively satisfying way...instead its just again like yeahh he isnt fuckin sorryyy man. and its fine. lets play freaking music

also final thought. i insist d'argo should have paws still . like lion paws. anyways

#Egg.txt #farscape liveblog

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aquagustd · 2 years ago

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Hi!!! as a response to the other anon who was saying something about how they wanted to see jk fold for oc just so sora can have the smirk wiped off her face… I honestly believe the whole reason she’s acting smug in front of oc at every opportunity in the first place is because she already knows oc has the ability to make him fold and not only that, it would be pretty easy for her to do it as well. And knowing this probably infuriates the shit out of her because in her mind she’s had to do so much shit and bend over backwards just to get jk to be hers, and even now he’s not really hers fully is he? Not with the conflicting feelings he has for oc now and the unresolved trauma between them both and the fact that oc and jk will always have special memories together, them being each other’s first love etc etc!! Idk if it’s really the case or not but her behaviour to me absolutely screams of overcompensation because she’s insecure about something. If she wasn’t she would have sat on the couch and ate the nachos like a normal human being instead of being like 💃��💃🏼💅🏽💁🏼‍♀️(this is her flipping her hair thinking anyone in the room actually gives a poop about her hickeys)

Also…. I have a theory/prediction that’s been weighing on my mind 🫣 I hope I’m remembering this correctly and I’m sorry if I’m not but I think you said that hie’s sequel will be about oc reconnecting with the person that she doesn’t end up with at the end of hie, and that it happens a few years after hie ends. and if that’s the case I honestly think it’s gotta be jk that she ends up with someway somehow IDK exactly how it would happen but knowing you I feel like you could write it and have it be 100% believable even though he’s incredibly frustrating and untrustworthy as a character right now!! The reason I think this is because if it were the other way around, and oc and tae end up together, that would mean jk would have to be out of touch with oc for the time period of years for them to be able to “reconnect” and I truly don’t see that happening with how involved they both want to be in junho’s life. Continuing to be a dad to junho inevitably means being in proximity to oc because there is no way oc would let jungkook take smiley and run off to somewhere for years I feel like hell would freeze over before she lets that happen and i also feel like jungkook despite abandoning junho once before would not by his own free will do it again. I think even though he’s not a very good partner he is genuinely trying to be a good dad. And with the way things are going in the story right now both oc and jk are trying to do what’s best for junho which is being as normal of a family unit as they can for his sake. Soooo idk IDK I may be way off the mark and you’re sitting here laughing at my theory because you have something completely different up your sleeve but I just wanted to get it out of my head and down somewhere!!

I really hope you don’t feel pressured or like I’m trying to squeeze any spoilers out of you j promise I’m not!! I just thought hmm that might be plausible and I wanted to share with you <3

everything you said about sora 👏🏻 she is insecure about something, & that something is the fact that she knows jungkook holds oc to a very high level and considering how sora & jk’s relationship started off, that’s gonna be sitting on her shoulders as long as oc is around. and she’s not gonna just sit and do nothing about it…that’s why she’s acting so smug, etc. deep down she knows she’ll never get 100% of jungkook. now the question is how deep does her hate run 🫣🥴

oof that’s a v good theory. tbh it can go either way with jungkook and taehyung. i don’t want to go into detail bc that would mean me spoiling the fic but jungkook can disappear. he did it before and he can do it again. we already know he leaves now and again. who’s to say he won’t leave for a prolonged period of time ?? he can keep in contact with junho but if he leaves, tae’s gonna be there & oc will have no reason to talk to jk unless it’s about junho, etc. so there is a possibility of jungkook leaving again & then reconnecting with oc after years.

also, your theory wasn’t bad at all !! no theory is a bad theory !! unless it strays too far from the plot 🥴 it is a v good theory. vv big brained and had me thinking and choosing my words carefully 🫣

#ty for sharing <3 #fic: hie #squishies #hie: theories

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beansmakesthings · 4 months ago

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I will ABSOLUTELY engage with you!

Alliance theatre. Maybe a basic answer, but idk it just hits so good.

Jane Doe and Mischa

Uhm Virgil I guess? Idk he's the one with the least character and I love everybody too much.

Yes. I can't pick one favourite. They all go so hard.

If I can count cut songs, Tragic Fact. Not that it's bad or I genuinely dislike it or anything, I still know all the words and bop to it, but I think it's one of the weaker intros cause it's kind of excessively long without giving that many details aside from 'this town sucks ass'.

If I rank them by personal taste and not by their actual effectiveness at establishing the start of a story then, Waiting for the Drop, The Fall Fair Suite, The Uranium Suite, U-R-A-N-I-U-M, Tragic Fact (I think The Uranium Suite is the best one at establishing the story though and I get why they went with it)

BUT AT THE TOP OF THE PEAK THERE'S A MOMENT WHERE YOU'RE KING OF THE WORLD AND SUDDENLY YOU'RE HURLED OVER UP AND THEN DOWN TOWARDS THE CARNIVAL GROUND SCREAMING JOIN THE CRAZY TWISTED SYMPHONY OF SOUND 🗣🗣🗣🗣🔥🔥🔥🔥🔥

Probably Corey, but I mean he's basically part of the draft for Mischa

I'm not the biggest Nischa endgame shipper. At least, not unless they do genuinely stay dead. I think it's cute as a mutual crush, but if Mischa came back to life and didn't have a big happy family with Talia after a song and monologue like that I would cry

Perfectdolls. There's nothing funnier or sweeter to me than this bitchy ginger having her entire understanding of herself and her sexuality flipped on its head because of some weird creepy doll girl. Plus, if they come back to life, I think Ocean dating an autistic girl would really put into perspective how terrible she's been to disabled and queer people and she'd probably improve a lot more

Mmm probably Ocean and Constance? Not that I don't get it, but I just think Constance probably had a big crush on Ocean that got steadily ruined over time by Ocean's behaviour and I doubt Constance would want to be anything more than friends after all that.

Emily Rohm has my entire heart, what an icon

LISTEN. Jane Doe is Ocean's character arc. Yeah Constance is absolutely part of it in making Ocean realize how terrible she's been, but Jane Doe is a physical manifestation of Ocean's bigotry and her gradual acceptance of her is Ocean coming to terms with herself and starting to be better. To go from calling Jane a thing and a freaky monster, to hearing her pain and actually trying to do something as opposed to brushing it off by throwing her a party and writing her a song, to ultimately choosing Jane over herself to come back to life because Ocean isn't the most important person in the room and she isn't better than Jane Doe. To be the physical embodiment of someone's capacity and gradual willingness to change, can that not be considered love?

Gus Halper's Mischa. He doesn't play my boy to be an idiot

Okay listen, we all know the McCarter Theatre production was fucked behind the scenes, but with that said, the choreography that Eli Mayer does in This Song is Awesome and Talia is amazing and the entire staging of thay version of Talia is brilliant (my one gripe with Talia is his mispronounciation of the Ukrainian but honestly that's probably the fault of whatever dialect coach they brought in)

Oh man Majectic Rep and Roxy theatre's Jane Does gotta be some of my favourite make up in anything ever

We do not talk enough about Lillian Castillo on the official soundrack doing Sugar Cloud. She put her all into it and it touches my very soul

I have far too many headcanons for RTC so um... a random headcanon for Ocean is that she secretly likes Mischa's music and has an account on YouTube no one knows about that she saves all his song with

This one is kind of nitpicky, but because I'm a nerd it's always bugged me how the accident happened. Because it is SO UNLIKELY that they would've come off the track at the apex of a loop. There's too much centripetal force and inertia acting on the car to keep it on the track. My 'theory' on how this could actually be possible is that the loop they were on was one of those ones that starts to twist halfway through the loop, which they call an Immelmann roll I believe? The axel broke as they were coming to the twisty bit, so they were starting to go sideways as opposed to directly upside down, which is what allows them to come off the track while still being more or less upside down for the whole 'saling through space' stuff.

Hot_smokey_cowboy on Ao3. Absolute bangers fics and a friend of mine, but she hasn't updated in while. Still really good stuff though.

Can I say hot_smokey_cowboy again?

No, I don't have any OCs for RTC. Unless you count my take on Penny Lamb which is pretty much entirely my head canons, but that's wayyy too long of a conversation lol

I mean, probably The Strangest Person in Town or something like that. I have a lot of family that live in small Canadian towns kinda like Uranium and let me tell you, I can barely talk to my cousins' friends because we have so little in common. I can tell they think I'm weird. I don't mind or care at all, but yeah probably something to do with being seen as a weird kid lol

"It took a horrible accident for me to realize how God damn wonderful everything is." But really that entire monologue from Constance was pulled right out of my heart and thrown on the stage to face me

I want someone in a Dogulous costume. Even just stick some dog ears with little alien antenna bawbles on them to Karnak's head. I just need everyone to turn to someone and aggressively call them a 'son of a bitch'.

I mean, I think everyone's talked about RGC at this point, but I'll throw some more promotion their way. Good shit!

Alliance Theatre, RGC, Roxy, McCarter, Majestic Rep, and one more but I literally cannot remember the name sorry

No. They literally came to my city on the Canadian Tour and I missed it by being 8 and in a family of people who didn't like theatre

I would LOVE to play Jane Doe. I'm already a soprano and can sing The Ballad of Jane Doe kind of decently. Give me some more vocal training and spooky makeup and I'm ready

The overwhelming theme of love. Ride the Cyclone is funny and dark and the characters are flawed, but at the end of the day, everyone in the show either expresses their love and passion for something, or they learn to be more open to love and to become a better person. It's a show about how powerful and important love is and how, if shown enough of the kindness and compassion there is in the world, anyone is capable of change.

Ride The Cyclone Ask Game!!!

Just some fun little questions!! Please do rant as much as you want with any and all of your answers :D

Favourite production?

Favourite character?

Least favourite character?

Favourite song?

Least favourite song?

How would you rank the opening songs?

Favourite cut song?

Favourite cut character?

Unpopular opinion? Or if you don't have any, a popular opinion you agree with?

Favourite ship?

Least favourite ship/ship that you don't understand the hype for?

Favourite RTC actor(s)?

Favourite representation of [insert ship]?

Favourite interpretation of [insert character]?

Favourite take on [insert song]?

Favourite costumes/set design?

Favourite vocal performance?

What are your headcanons for [insert character]?

Do you have any theories?

Favourite RTC fanfic/fic author/fic recs in general?

Favourite RTC fanart/fanartist/any fanart you love?

Do you have any OCs? If so what are they like?

What would your catchphrase be and/or what 'The ___ in Town' would you be called?

Favourite line of dialogue?

Something you haven't seen in a production that you want to?

Any underrated productions you love?

How many productions have you watched? Which ones?

Have you ever been to see a RTC production?

If you were in a production of RTC, who would you play?

Overall favourite part of RTC and/or the fandom?

#rtc #ride the cyclone #ride the cyclone musical #beans answers stuff

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wind-becomes-lightning · 3 years ago

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Sharing my very long (super long) final comment on @butter--peanut‘s story kamui blues (which ended today). Idk why I’m posting it here too, maybe because the fic means just that much to me, or because I met Kris & @foebito through it, but yeah.

Under cut because its very very long....(plus it contains fic spoilers)

So it ended. We knew it would eventually. It seems a little unreal to think that there won't be a chapter anymore, mayb you feel similar here. I've told you that I have thought of what to comment for the past few weeks (yes weeks!) to summerise all my feeling of this fic and what it means to me, what it brought to me, so I'm typing this down before bed. I wanted to do it tomorrow, but I can't wait. Maybe you'll read this in the airport before your big flight or sometimes in San Franscisco in a hotelroom when you have time to breathe, whenever it is, I'm sorry, I have not pre-written this, but I can tell it's going to be long and full of sappy thoughts. Apologies ahead.

When I found this fic in July last year, I had just finished my Naruto read through, the first time to the end. I went into the kkob tag not because I was a hardcore shipper (thats henry's doing!), but just out of interest. Kamui Blues was the top fic and I got hooked on the tagline alone. It was just chapter 1. I remember clearly how hot it was that day, such a hot polish summer, and I sat on my bed phone in hand and reading. I lost the fic again because I closed it, but accidentally found it again maybe a week later at Chapter 2. As you know I wrote my first comment then too (I cant believe its been so long!) That day I was laying next to my boyfriend in the heat, gesturing my ass off about this fic I had found and what premise it had and even he said he thought is a great set up (and he does not like Obito so thats a wow!).

I loved the early chapters, and while the rest of the story is also very very dear to me the early story is my favourite part. I think it is good to have Kakashi at least a little happy, enjoying himself and Obito a bit unnerved and pissed off. I think the dynamic works well when Obito is just a nobody. Scenes in my head are ofc the one henry drew (in the hospital!) and the time kakashi says "Im fucking you apparently." Amazing.

You know I did not know that you could sub to fics because I'm an idiot, so from time to time I checked in to make sure there wasn't a new chapter. IN august I was finally able to go back to Germany again, so I opened it olny when I was in a very long line for a rollercoaster (Phantasialand Bonn btw, Tauron is the coaster- its.. very good), my best friends hand on my shoulder to guide me forward when necessary I read 3 chapters at once and when I was done it was like falling out of a trance, I had completely forgotten where I was. I told him that thats just my favourite fic, he shouldn't worry too much. My head was like WOA. I know I commented that, not to brag, just because I was like WOW. I'm pretty sure that was the chapter in which KAKashi recognises that Tobi was in Akatsuki all along.

I was so sad to hear Kakashi was framed as a bad person, a collaborator during the pain attack. I do not hate AU's in which Kakashi turns his back on konoha for all the shit they've done to him, but being framed? It was an important point of course, Obito taking charge not only of their lives but his own emotions and I loved the Kage summit a lot when they - how did henry say that- "make out while watching television". Memorable is especially the scene in which Kakashi says "I love you" to show the kage that he is under genjutsu. Ah, I want to read that again now.

I checked again week by week, it became such a normal behaviour on a friday that my friend whom I watch esports with on fridays knew that I was absent during game breaks because I was reading. He doesn'T know naruto apart from the general knowledge most people have but he sure knows kamui blues! :D I gotta admit, that was the time Obito died and didnt die and then Kakashi freaked out and while NOW i understand why that all happened, at the time I wondered if the fic had gotten a bit out of hand, if you had a plan. YOu know it happens in fic writing that the author does a plot twist just for the sake of a plottwist and it gets resolved instantly. THis was obviously not the case her at all, but I couldn't know this at the time.

Then the break. I remember feeling like I would have loved to offer you help on the writing process, but I had just recently watched the anime myself so how could I help? So instead i followed you on tumblr. I followed henry on tumblr and I know we talked about this just earlier today, but both of you followed me back and I was like WOO. I was so small then still, back before the groupchat existed. Then I met Henry through a stupid meme and we talked kamui blues until we realised we were both native speaker germans- what a coincidence!! And they were just the most annoying and lovely little person on my heal "read the other stories, read pitch black" I read Kiri through in the break and loved it and I gave in and read pitch black. I got this little community of ours on discord, I got closer with henry and we were wiating for the return.

When KB came back Henry spoiled me (a little! They screamed like a madperson on tumblr!) and thats when we started talking about chapters after the landed in private messages. It was like discussing your favourite episode of a tv show with each other and I enjoyed that time very much. I wanna shortly mention in the story shit started getting real and Sakura took Kakashi's eye and I gotta say, as much as I hated Sasuke, more than not I liked Sakura. I'm glad you gave her the arc she got, because she really deserved that. Oh and that you dressed Obito in jonin clothing! Perfect.

And then you and I started talking in pm's and I remember you mentioned something about a character being re-animated in kb (later id find out its shisui) and I told henry and henry went like "YOU GET KAMUI BLUES SPOILERS" as if I was included in insider trading or something. I was terribly nervous because I liked talking to you, but I didn't want to overwhelm or annoy you because by then you'D become an idol of some sort (which is crazy i know) and I wanted you to like me. I tried hard to balance between talking to you and leaving you alone and it too me all my courage to ask you if you have discord. And you did! And we started talking more. Woop.

(I know ive said it a lot but) AND THEN we made the groupchat thing for my fanfic dumbs and Henry and me were worried TOGETHER we might overwhelm you with constant chatting and oc talk, but I think you actually enjoyed it. I love getting babysit by either one of you and while I love our discord server a lot, our groupchat is just a bit more familiar. We got to hear your editing process through the final chapters while Henry and me live blogged each time a new one came out. That was nerve wrecking because I had to read it all fast, but it was so much fun too (and must have been terribly fun for you anyway). I cant believe you brought rin back (but not sakumo, come on). And obito got to be a badass and Kakashi and TENZO, god, I - still have feelings on that, i know you know, but urgh the poor boy, at least he wasnt captured all war long.

Here we are are now, the final chapter (After that wonderful smut we got to read early, yummy, dead animal kakashi and all). I think the fact that we decided to read it together on voice chat was the best decision ever and I'm so glad you were the one reading it to us. I did cry, a couple of times actually, i just ate it up so you guys wouldnt laugh at me. Its utterly perfect this ending, full of warmth and love and sunshine and the way here has been utterly perfect. Henry said it best when they compared it to Song of Archilles (read it and weep!)- a happy end, but what a tear jerker one.

So much has changed since and because this story caught my eye. I think part of why I cried today reading this was because I was reading it there with you and henry and how we will be friends well over this stories end. It seems so rather random that we met this way, I wouldnt know how to explain it to my mom. I'm so endlessly grateful to you and the universe because it brought this together. This was a fantastic novel and I want to congratulate you again on finishing all of it. I can't even say I'm proud, because I didnt know you back then, but I feel like it anyway. Kamui blues means a big deal to me not only because its a great fic (And it is!) but also because I now have you guys in my life and thats just such a gift to have. I will be forever thankful and ugh im teary again

I'm running out of characters (really true!) so I just want to again wish you a great flight, cant wait fo you to be back so we can watch some JJK so you can fall in love with the next friends to enemies to lovers ship there is (one has white hair and one has black hair even oops!) and maybe, in summer, we can all meet somewhere and just hang out. An Austrian an australian and a german going into a bar -there is a joke there somewhere I bet. I send you many many hugs, tiny tiny forehead kisses and wish you all the best. I cherish you a lot, Kris, I'm glad I met you. Congrats on finishing the masterpiece. I think its going to be around for a long time.

#we had a live reading today by the author #kris read the last chapter for us on vc #and i did cry just fyi #anyway kris idk when you have time to see this i hope you have a safe flight and a great presentation and a nice conference #also ilu both you and henry ok hugs #i should go to sleep now its 11.30 i took so long to type out this comment #kamui blues

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whumpmatsus · 3 years ago

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Hi I’m a silent fan who loves your work:) I’m too shy to say it directly but I do! I have possibly an odd request if you’d like to write it but you don’t have to if this is too out of your zone ;__; I headcanon ichimatsu as autistic because he displays a lot of behaviours I have with autism as well (low monotone voice, doesn’t really emote a lot,shown to be uncomfortable with being touched sometimes, difficultly saying verbally and directly what he means, even the way he sits with his knees right up to his chest LOL) I was wondering if you could write something to do with that if you wanted to! It could be anything like hurt comfort (have you ever seen the scene from the osomatsu game dead or working where ichimatsu and osomatsu get a job together and osomatsu yells at their boss for making ichimatsu feel bad that he’s not able to naturally smile and speak as expressively as his brother is by saying “that’s just how he is!!” ..I thought that was so sweet😢 maybe something along those lines but with any brother you want! But my personal favourite ichimatsu relationships are with kara, jyushi and oso lol)

Sorry that this is such a specific request you can reallt do whatever..I love your writing so much! Thank you!

hiiii, I'm so glad you like my content!! if you ever wanna come talk directly, I'm 100% okay with that, but as someone who's kinda shy myself I totally understand that it's not easy 💜

as for the request!! I don't know if this is a headcanon I'd subscribe to personally in my usual writing of Ichimatsu (my headcanons for him right now are depression and anxiety, social anxiety, and avoidant personality disorder) buuuuut it's definitely an interesting one to play around with, so I enjoyed exploring it, and I can absolutely see why it's a headcanon you have!

I'm not autistic myself (at least not that I know of; tho I do have some anxiety and maybe possibly undiagnosed ADD, but again, that's only a possibility so idk) so I hope I portrayed it ok, at least the behaviors Ichimatsu would have!

this is technically Allmatsu because DUDE all the brothers are so supportive of him, but it does skew a bit toward Parkamatsu because... well, I haven't written a lot of Parkamatsu here yet XD

I hadn't seen this scene before because I've never played the game and had some trouble finding English subbed videos of people playing it, but I found an English subbed one of this scene this morning and AUGH MY HEART, OSO IS A GOOD BIG BROTHER FIGHT ME!!

I hope you enjoy!!! I tossed some brief NPCs in there too because I thought it would be cute lol

As far as the Matsuno sextuplets are concerned, even though Osomatsu can be a dumbass and a jerk sometimes, he’s the eldest. That gives him a little more (unofficial) authority within their little group. If he says something that’s not totally ridiculous, the rest of them listen. They follow his lead when it’s reasonable. He doesn’t know best all the time, but some of the time.

That ‘listen to the oldest brother when he’s not being a stupid ass’ effect is probably how they all ended up working in the same restaurant.

It’s a good idea, and Osomatsu made sense when talking about how they should all apply there. Maybe they could work in different departments, but if they’re all working in the same place, they can keep an eye on each other. It’ll be easier to talk to each other on lunch breaks… and maybe they can pull a couple silly pranks on their coworkers, pretending to be each other like they did when they were younger.

Besides, it’s time they all got jobs anyway, even if it’s just part-time. They’ve gotta start somewhere, after all. It’s been about a week since they started; they’re settling in pretty well. Osomatsu and Choromatsu are doing great as bartenders, Karamatsu and Jyushimatsu are hard at work in the kitchen, and Ichimatsu went along with Totty to be a server.

Everyone else seems to be doing pretty great. Ichimatsu, on the other hand, is half a step away from hating his job.

It’s not that he isn’t putting effort into it. He’s doing the best he can, and jobs aren’t supposed to be fun, sure, but… this goes beyond him simply not liking the job. It’s not a good fit for him, he thinks. His brothers are all enjoying their jobs, and meanwhile he’s struggling to get through a whole shift without running to the bathroom to cry.

In the single week he’s been here, he’s had so many customers complain about him. He doesn’t engage, he isn’t friendly, he speaks quietly and sounds like he’s bored, he slouches, he doesn’t laugh at people’s jokes… the list of complaints customers have about him is endless. Every day it’s something new.

He’s always been a little different from his brothers. He has trouble with anything social, and his face has never been as expressive as them unless he’s really feeling something ― forcing an expression onto his face is difficult for him. Even though he tries to work his life around it, and it doesn’t bother the people who love him, it’s a huge obstacle to his new job.

Every time Takeda-san, the general manager, tells him that he seems not to be doing well, Ichimatsu tries to defend himself by saying he’d be more comfortable working in the kitchen. He’d switch places with Jyushimatsu in a heartbeat, even though it would mean working with Karamatsu.

And every time, Takeda-san tells him no, he’s just not trying hard enough, that he has to do better at this job. “There’s no job-hopping around here, so just try harder,” he says, so Ichimatsu tries to double down on the effort he’s putting in.

It doesn’t really work, though. He’s already trying as hard as he can to do a good job. There’s really nothing wrong with his performance. He’s polite and doesn’t give customers attitude, he brings everyone the right food and corrects mistakes if he makes them, he tells everyone to have a nice day when they leave. It’s just that he doesn’t usually have a smile on his face, and his voice is a little flat, and he doesn’t connect in a personal way.

Seriously, what does Takeda-san expect? He’s doing the best he can. If he wasn’t trying as hard as he could, he’d have already given up on this bullshit. Even though it’s not the best job for him, he’s still putting in as much work as he can.

At least he and Totty are a pretty good tag-team working together. The restaurant is on the small side, so they share the main section. If one of their tables is ready to leave and whoever served them in the beginning is busy with another table, the other one will tap in to finish things. Right at the moment, Ichimatsu notices that Totty’s currently trying to get everyone at one table their food, while the table he got earlier looks like they’ve got their check ready.

At the moment, he just put in orders for his own table, so those won’t be ready for a few minutes. “Hey, Totty,” he calls as he steps away from the kitchen doors. “Want me to get the check from table 4?”

“Ah! Are they ready to pay? Sorry, this food just came out… yes, please, if you don’t mind!”

“Yeah, no problem.” He walks over toward the table, doing his best to collect himself; he can feel Takeda-san’s eyes on him from behind the cash counter. Table 4 is a young family with a couple of kids, and although they’re entertaining themselves, they also seem to be patiently waiting for someone to take their payment. “Hey, guys… sorry about the wait. You’re all set?”

The woman smiles and reaches to hand him the tray where the check is set. “It’s okay, hon, we haven’t been waiting long!” With her other arm she catches the whining child who presses himself into her side, laughing. “Yep, here’s the check and my card. Could we just get a receipt after you run it through?”

“Sure.” He takes the tray from her and moves to step toward the counter, then an afterthought pops up in his mind. “Oh, uh… there was nothing wrong with anything for you guys, right?”

The man, with the more energetic little girl clambering in his lap, beams. “No, no, everything was great. Our server was really attentive.”

Ichimatsu nods. “Okay, good. Be back in a minute.”

Practically as soon as he steps behind the counter to take care of the check, Takeda-san is grabbing him by the arm. He freezes up, only able to look at his boss in fear for a moment, then tries to pull his arm back. “Takeda-san? I’m just taking care of this…”

“Yeah, no. I’ll take care of it, because apparently, you can’t even follow simple instructions right.” The check and the woman’s card is snatched from his hand, and as Takeda-san processes the payment, he continues to scold Ichimatsu. It started out just loud enough for him to hear, but now the whole restaurant can hear it. “You just don’t listen, do you? Are you lazy? I get so many complaints about you, it’s unreal! I could just have your brother do your job, and it’d work out better. He actually knows how to smile and be friendly to people.”

When he steps out from the counter toward table 4, Ichimatsu can’t do anything except follow, looking and feeling a little lost. (Actually, what he feelsis two inches tall. This is nothing new and he hates it all the same.) “I’m not paying you to have that resting bitch face, to talk as if a little bit of work and serving people is an inconvenience for you.”

“But it’s not…” he mumbles, quickly looking down to avoid any eye contact his boss might try to give. “I’m trying my best.”

“Well, maybe your best just isn’t good enough, right?”

That sentiment makes Ichimatsu’s heart sink. As much as he gets nervous in social situations, he thought he was doing an okay job no matter what Takeda-san said. All his brothers are proud of him, and proud of each other. It’s not his fault that Takeda-san put him in a department that doesn’t quite mesh with his personality and strengths. “I could… go try being a dishwasher in the kitchen. Maybe I’d be better at that.”

“You’re joking, right? You’re so incompetent, I wouldn’t even trust you with that! If you can’t get the hang of something as simple as smiling, you’re a lost cause at any job!” Takeda-san sets the check tray back down on the table so that the customers can take their card and receipt. The action is coupled with a smile that looks so fake, Ichimatsu wonders if Takeda-san knows everyone can see right through it. Totty’s fake smile is better than that, for fuck’s sake. “I apologize for the service you received just now.”

With that, he turns back to Ichimatsu. “Listen, if you’re not more happy and welcoming by tomorrow, Ichimatsu, I’m going to have to let you go. If you can’t follow orders, there’s no place for you here.”

The woman in the booth, now trying to calm the clearly overstimulated child who’s still attempting to hide his face in her side, looks up at Takeda-san with a confused expression. “H-hey, what do you mean? There’s nothing to apologize for. He was just fine.”

Before she or Takeda-san can say anything else, suddenly Osomatsu is walking over from the bar area ― looking angry, with Choromatsu still behind the counter wearing an expression of shock. “You can’t fire him just for not smiling and shit! He’s not giving bad service; people just think they’re allowed to be jerks because he didn’t bend over backwards to be a happy robot for ‘em!”

Takeda-san’s face contorts in displeasure, even though he’s never had any issues with Osomatsu before. “Osomatsu, get back to your station. This isn’t any of your business.”

“Are you kidding me?! You’re being a dick to my baby brother, that’s the definition of my business! You’re mad ‘cause he doesn’t force himself to smile and he doesn’t talk all peppy, but he doesn’t need to do any of that to be good at his job! That’s just how he is!”

Takeda-san is having none of it. “Well, I hate to tell you this, but if that’s just how he is, then he’s not going to be here much longer, and I’d be surprised if he could find a job anywhere else.”

By this point, Totty is far beyond done serving his table and has gravitated toward the scene. “Hey, that’s not fair! Ichimatsu-nii-san is doing a great job. Whoever’s complaining about him probably just wanted something to complain about in the first place. I mean, didn’t you see how he noticed my hands were full so he came to take care of this table? He could have just ignored it and let me deal with it, but he was trying to take care of our customers.”

Ichimatsu shakes his head and takes a step back. “Hey… it’s okay. Osomatsu, Totty, don’t worry about it… if I get fired, then…”

“Ah, no!” Osomatsu reaches up, taking his uniform tie off before tossing it in Takeda-san’s direction. “You’re not gonna get fired, because you know what? We all quit! You’re not gonna treat one of us like crap and expect the rest of us to just be okay with it! Ichimatsu’s a good worker, and if you’re gonna fire him just because he’s not super smiley, then you don’t deserve any of us!”

He storms over and takes Ichimatsu’s hand. Despite feeling a little embarrassed by the scene, Ichimatsu can’t stop himself from shuffling closer to his oldest brother’s protective presence. “We’re outta here, Ichimacchan.” He turns his head toward the bar area. “Choromatsu, let’s go!”

As Choromatsu scurries over, giving stammered apologies to the customers he’s just served at the bar, Osomatsu marches himself and Ichimatsu toward the kitchen doors. “Karamatsu! Jyushimatsu!”

Both of them poke their heads out of the kitchen; it looks like the two of them are covered in flour from whatever they’ve been working on. “Ahahah, what’s up, Osomatsu-nii-san??”

“C’mon, we quit our jobs.” Osomatsu gestures for them to get over here with his free hand. “Takeda-san thinks Ichimatsu not smiling and talking in his normal voice is worth firing him over. So we’re all leaving.”

Karamatsu and Jyushimatsu’s aprons, along with Totty’s apron and Choromatsu’s tie, are thrown at the manager’s feet. “I suppose it was inevitable,” Karamatsu sighs dramatically, draping an arm over Ichimatsu’s shoulders. “We were never destined to stay in one place of employment forever. So as the winds of change blow, so must we be carried with them.”

Ichimatsu manages a soft chuckle, though a smile doesn’t come with it. “Ow… painful…” But he turns his head in against Karamatsu’s shoulder anyway, thankful for one more wall of protection.

“You lazy NEETs have been here for a week!” Takeda-san hisses. “Good luck if you think you’re getting a reference from me! If this is all it takes for you to walk out of a job, none of you will ever amount to anything!”

Jyushimatsu hurries behind Ichimatsu to ‘guard’ him from that direction, throwing his arms around Ichimatsu’s middle. “We will so, because we stick together! Ichimatsu-nii-san deserves a nicer boss than you, anyway!”

“L-let’s just get out of here, can we?” Choromatsu mumbles, hurrying up to join Osomatsu’s other side. “Sorry, Takeda-san, b-but… but you treating Ichimatsu like that is… r-really out of line. We can find somewhere else to work.”

Osomatsu scoffs and starts the walk out. “Yeah, that’s right! We can find a better place to work, and we don’t give a shit about your reference. But as for you, good luck not shutting down during the dinner rush when you just lost two-thirds of your evening employees because you decided to be an ass!”

Nothing more really needs to be said, so the six of them are out the door.

It’s already dark outside, and when Totty shivers, Ichimatsu immediately pulls him in for a hug. The youngest sighs as he cuddles into his big brother. “What a night. I didn’t know he was that bad… you don’t talk to your staff like that in front of customers!”

“You don’t talk to them like that ever,” Osomatsu huffs.

“Well, yeah, true. But definitely not where customers can hear you. Double bad boss points.”

Choromatsu frowns, patting Osomatsu’s shoulder in an attempt to calm him down. “What’s his problem, anyway? S-sure, Ichimatsu isn’t Totty levels of friendly and sociable, but he was giving pretty good service.”

Ichimatsu continues to try and hide against Karamatsu’s shoulder, earning a deep chuckle and a tighter embrace from his older brother. “You guys didn’t have to do that…”

“You didn’t even like that job,” Jyushimatsu hums. “He should have switched you and me, but he was being stubborn and mean! We’ll find an even better job. Maybe you can be an official kitty-petter! That’s a thing, right?”

This time when Ichimatsu laughs, his lips quirk upward a little. “I wish.”

A small part of him hates that just because of his own incompatibility with the job, his brothers all don’t have jobs now either. But… he sort of gets where they’re coming from, why they quit with him, because he wouldn’t want to work for someone who treated one of his brothers the way Takeda-san treated him.

The six of them stand there in the chilly night air for a moment, then the restaurant door opens.

It’s the family from table 4, with the man holding the little girl and the woman holding the little boy. As soon as they see the sextuplets, the woman’s face lights up and she races over toward them. “Oh, my God, I was hoping you guys hadn’t left yet! That manager… what kind of person treats other people like that??”

Ichimatsu stiffens up a little, shifting his eyes down. “Uh… I’m sorry.”

“For what? That was him being a horrible person, not you.” She shifts her child around for a moment to fish in her pocket, and Ichimatsu notices that the little boy seems to be avoiding eye contact the same way he knows he does. When the woman looks back up, her smile softens. “I don’t mean to pry, hon, but… are you, you know… autistic?”

Ichimatsu lets out a quiet hum and nods. “Yeah. I think that’s why I’m not…”

“Super expressive?” She returns the nod, gently bouncing her child. “This little one’s autistic too. His face doesn’t get that expressive either, and I know when someone tells him to smile or cry or ‘talk normal’, I get so mad. People shouldn’t treat each other like that. There’s no reason to just not be nice.”

Her other hand reaches out to him, pressing several bills into his palm. “Here, you deserve a little something extra after having to put up with that crap. I know it doesn’t make it okay, but… I hope the rest of your night gets better.” Her smile turns brighter as she looks toward everyone else. “And hey, if nothing else, there are a bunch of people who wanna stand up for you. Looks like you’ve got some pretty great brothers.”

Ichimatsu glances from the money toward his brothers, then back to the woman. For once, he manages a small smile of gratitude; it’s not big, but it’s noticeable, and the fact that it’s there means he didn’t have to force it. It’s real. “… Uh. Yeah. Thank you. I… hope you guys have a good night, too.”

A moment later, the young family has disappeared, presumably heading home to let their son decompress from the overstimulation. It was… nice of them to stop and say anything at all.

Everyone is silent for a moment, then Osomatsu grins as he ruffles Ichimatsu’s hair. “Alright! Drinks are on Ichimacchan! Let’s go get some beers, then we’ll find better jobs tomorrow!”

The group seems in agreement, so off they go down the street toward the nearest bar. Although Takeda-san’s words and treatment are probably going to stay with Ichimatsu for a while yet, he can shove them away with the memory of how fiercely his family defended him.

… I do have some pretty great brothers, don’t I?

#Osomatsu san #whump #Parkamatsu #Allmatsu #Ichimatsu #emotional whump #verbal abuse #ableism #caretaking #THEY'RE GOOD BROTHERS AND YOU CAN'T CHANGE MY MIND!!!#God I love them so much ;-;#it's been a while since I've written something this fast lol I hope that doesn't mean it's bad xD #WE LOVE U ICHIMATSU UR A GOOD <3

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