#idk where or when EDM came from

[colorisbyshe]

i am realizing i do not understand what makes a song a sample vs what is a remix

cause i REALLY like the dance track i want your soul by armand van helden and i REALLY REALLY like fake blood remix of the armand van helden song

just to find out i want your soul was sampling do you want it right now by siedah garrett which is ALSO incredible

so up to this point, i get that it’s “just” a sample

but do you want it right now ALSO has remixes, like this one i particularly like

and it’s like... that remix is ALSO just taking a small snippet of vocals and putting it over a new(ish) beat

when the fuck do you make a jump from sample to remix because it feels like both the eden prince remix AND i want your soul are just sampling......

[delightfulcollectivetyphoon]

Dave mustaine talking to reader and becoming needy and cumming in his pants👉👈

OOOOOOOO SHIT

this ones hella short sorry anon :(

it also kinda sucks ass but....idk where i was going with this

cws: uuhh cumming without being touched, dave being a lil shit, he has NO music literacy outside of metal

"You really listen to this shit?"

Your head swiveled to see Dave rummaging through your CDs, booklets strewn across the floor.

He held up Melanie Martinez and Crystal Castles CDs, eyebrow raised.

"Uuhhh yeah? Why?"

"Didn't think you were into pop and.... death pop?"

And so began your 2-hour long explanation of your favorite music genres. He sat quietly, putting the booklets back into their respective cases, stopping only to ask the most absurd questions. Ones that he knew would make you go on an entirely unrelated tangent.

"Wasn't that chick in another band?"

"Looks like a dude from a really shitty porno."

"What's the difference between phonk and EDM?"

"Nicki Minaj, Doja Cat, and Cardi B are the same fucking person. What do you mean?"

He enjoyed your seemingly never-ending spiel, before he noticed it was getting a little stuffy in your room. He was starting to sweat. You noticed the change in temperature too and stood to open a window. Without meaning too, his eyes followed you. Watching the way your shorts rode up your thighs, the shirt tucked into your waistband.

"Dave. Dave!"

He blinked quickly, snapping him out of his head.

"What?"

"It's still hot as hell in here, you mind if I take my shirt off?"

"Oh, uh, no."

"Thank god, feels like I'm sweating by the fucking gallon."

Your hands grasped the bottom of your shirt, pulling it up over your torso and head. An Adidas sports bra was the only thing separating him and your chest, much to Dave's regret.

"No problem."

You continued on your rant, unaware of Dave's staring. At this point, his brain was entirely tuned out, only clocking in when you stood up and began pacing the room, flailing your hands as you explained all your musical knowledge to him. His mind started to drift, first you asking him if you could take your pants off too, because god it was just too hot, and then to him bending you over your bed and fucking you until you could barely talk. His pants were noticeably tighter, his ears ringing with your voice. He imagined how good you would sound begging for him to cum in your pussy, how loudly you would moan when he was in between your legs. Before he knew it, his pants had a dark spot just below the waistband, and his dick ached from his release. He untied his jacket from his waist and tried his very best to discreetly lay it over his lap. You had only noticed something was wrong when Dave was shuffling around behind you. You turned around to see him white knuckling his jacket over his lap.

"Dave? You ok?"

His cheeks flushed.

"Uh. Yeah, I'm fine. You were saying?"

You sat down next to him on the floor, setting your hand on his shoulder, worsening his situation.

"No, seriously, what is it?"

Your hand landed on the jacket, thinking he had accidentally broken a CD and was hiding it.

"Oh come on, if it was an accident I'm obviously not going to be ma-"

Your hand pulled the jacket off him, revealing the spot and his already hardening length.

He tried his best to explain himself as your breath caught in your throat, your cheeks reddening. His explanatory frenzy came to a very abrupt stop when he felt your hand on his thigh.

"What the hell?"

"You could have told me."

His response was cut short as you palmed his through the fabric.

"uh! fuuck..."

"You gonna let me take care of you?"

His head flew back and he grinned at you.

"Fuck yes."

[valsnonsense]

Princess Strawberry of Pop

"OH MY GOSH!!! It's a Theraposa Blondi! Also know as a Goliath Birdeater! It's the biggest species of spider known to Trollkind! Did you know that they don't actually eat birds? They got that name from an 18th century copper graving made by Maria Sibylla Trollian who depicted one eating a hummingbird- wait where did they go???"

Parents: Queen Poppy and King Branch

Siblings: Choco (Sister), Vanilla (Sister), Apple (Younger Brother), Oran (Younger Brother), Lemon (Younger Brother), Lime (Younger Brother), Blueberry (Younger Brother), Grape (Younger Sibling), Iris (Younger Sister)

Age: 24

Pronouns: He/She/They

Sexuality: Pansexual

Genre: Pop/Funk/Techno/EDM/KPop/JPop

Voice Claim: Ashley Nicolette Frangipane (Halsey)

The third eldest of the Broppy kids and last of the triplets! Bubbly, upbeat, and chock full of endless energy, Strawberry takes after her mother in never ending positivity. But instead of parties, music, and scrapbooking, Strawberry's energy is directed at bugs.

Strawberry has always had a fascination with creepy crawlies. Arachnids, insects, arthropods, you name it. The more legs it has, the better. Growing up, their parents would have to turn their pockets inside out before they came inside, to make sure nothing crawled out at the dinner table.

As an adult, he studies all the fascinating bugs around Trollstopia, and the history of their kinds relationship with Trolls. Strawberry will talk endlessly about them to anyone who will listen for more than five minutes, which is mostly his sisters.

Strawberry has a diverse tast in music. She's never really felt set in just one kind. Strawberry likes loud, wild music that you can play at raves and parties, something that gets you bouncing endlessly. It helps her channel her near endless energy.

Strawberry is very close with her friends and family, and will often go out of their way to make sure everyone around them is happy, a trait she picks up from her mother.

She currently resides in Trollstopia alongaide her family.

Fun Facts!

- Strawberry is never seen without bugs somewhere on her person. In her hair, on her shoulders, crawling through her tail, ext. It often scares the hell outta other Trolls who don't expect to see giant spiders come crawling over her shoulder.

-Strawberry is currently dating Yeona. Strawberry loves to surprise her students with spontaneous visits and lessons on weird bugs. Yeona made the small anklet she wears when doing an arts and crafts lesson with her students.

- Strawberry has a large pet centipede named Jeffery. He's over a foot long and curls around her room while sleeping. Not many who walk in notice him until he uncurls himself.

And that's the last of the Triplets!! I love Strawberry she's my little Poppy clone. I wanted one of my OCs to love bugs, idk why, I just think it's cute xP

Voice Example: Could Have Been Me (Halsey)

[sydmarch]

omg ok so the show tonight was tons of fun but GOD the fucking guest dj sucked so bad usually its someone we know like fred from tbs or ryan key or william beckett but tonight they made this HUGE deal of introducing Ryan cabrera & me and my friend are just like who the fuck is that. and he was the worst guest dj they've ever had like did not let a single song finish playing, all these weird glitches in his set like played ain't it fun & had to start it over 3 times played all these pop songs like HELLO we are at emo night. if we wanted to listen to lady gagatheres four gay bars within walking distance we would be at instead & half of the time he did play an actual emo song it was an edm or club remix like the WORST xlub remix of still into you where the beat didn't match, edm I write sins, edm welcome to the black parade, sugar were going down. it was SOOOO BAD thank god me & my bestie I always go with are both haters so we were shit talking & laughing the whole time but GODDDD & he went for an HOUR they never give a guest dj that much time it's 12-3:30 that's way too fucking long

do like by the time he was done I was so annoyed & had had a couple veers so they're like give it up for Ryan I literally was alternating between a middle finger and thumbs down and booing and yelling you suck fuck you LOL idk what got into me like after I booed the first time kinda quietly the dude behind me was like yeah that guy was trash & it encouraged me too much so I was just yelling after that LOL. some other dude comes up to me & is like "why's he a bad person?" & im like idk if he is or not. he's a bad dj. & he's like oh yeah lol he sucked LMAOOOO. & after his set he just kept fucking TALKING and TALKING me & the guy behind me were like "MUSIC! PLAY SOME FUCKING MUSIC!!" thankfully after that Jordan our best friend Jordan the good dj came on & played chop suey immediately & you could tell the entire crowd had been waiting for all the dance remixes to finally fucking end bcus it was like the craziest I'd ever seen the pit at one of these shows like guys were doing flips in the air one dude got kicked in the face.

& I'd wanted to look up the guest dj dude but forgot his last name (no service in the venue or I woukdve done it when we were like who is he) so I was asking people in the bathroom if they remembered his name or knew him & this girl's like "he's some fuckinf nobody one hit wonder from like 2003. he was on the hills I think" & this other girl was like yeah he sucked like I like edm but that's not what we came here for & im like YOU GET IT!!! anyway thank god Jordan closed out the show w an hour of good music lmao

[keii]

Finally making a post about the Sick New World festival with Sushi 😭❤️

This was such a long ass HOT ass day LOL I’m normally not built for any sort of festival settings, I’ve been to a K-pop festival back in 2011 in NJ (which was my worst ever experience in a festival setting ever LMFAO) and then an EDM festival in Ohio (and that’s music isn’t even my cup of tea), and now a rock one.

So we got there around 1pm because of FLYLEAF! While I don’t know A LOT of their songs, Sushi and I wanted to hear their most iconic songs live especially since they had the original singer. But as she was singing… her voice kept cutting in and out and we didn’t know if it was the mic, but then when she was talking to the crowd after the songs, we could hear her clearly! Unfortunately… that performance was a disappointment. So my initial impression on the rest of the acts we wanted to see was in a dire state…

But then Papa Roach was next and to our surprise they were AMAZING??? Sounded just like how they did in their recordings, knew how to rally the crowd, and for one of their songs they brought out a singer from Hollywood Undead which was such a HUGE throwback? LOL When he started to have the crowd make mosh pits, we saw this one shirtless guy BOOK IT to the pits LMFAOO as if he was waiting for that moment his whole life!! Then Sushi made a comment how that would be Jowa running into the crowd excitedly to join in the moshing LOL Goro would say he looked like a slut because he’s all shirtless 😒 LOL

Tbh the day was such a BLUR because it was SO HOT. Everywhere I turned… burnt bodies everywhere… when we got drinks after Papa Roach, I swear that Liquid Death was the BEST thing I ever drank… and it was just cold water LMFAOOO. Idk why I got the 21+ wristband because there was no way I was going to drink especially since it was so hot, plus I didn’t want to go to the bathroom a lot! Speaking of bathrooms, I was actually REALLY surprised that the bathrooms weren’t outhouses. There was a lot of stalls and it moved quickly— also it was CLEAN LOL. Only thing was trying to get INTO the bathrooms??? IT WAS SO CROWDED, I kept looking back if I lost Sushi just because there were SO MANY people, there weren’t set lines so people were just going in and out.

The other performances we saw were Chevelle, Incubus (lead singer wore a snoopy shirt), Evanescence, Deftones, Korn and System of a Down, and they sounded GREAT too! Like when Evanescence came out, I felt my body get chills hearing her sing because she sounded SO good. During the middle of Deftones’ performance, we decided to sit on those grassy areas and watch from the screen since we don’t want to be squished in the huge crowd… it was also during the time where the sun was setting and it was becoming cooler… let me tell you… I ended up enjoying that time where we were chilling on the grass and watching the performances on there only because we were on our feet the WHOLE day and it wasn’t HOT LOL. Anyway they sounded so good, I believe the later acts had longer set times, which was nice because we were able to listen to a lot rather than a few.

The reason I wanted to go to the festival in the first place was for Korn!!! They were my favorite because— I mean they’re one of my favorite bands and I LOVED the purple sparkly Adidas jumpsuit Johnathan wore. I did not know he wore that adidas tracksuit since he was younger… me fake fan. I was able to hear so many songs I loved live!!! I wished they played Liar too, but tbh just witnessing live was already more than enough for me. I want to go to a solo concert of just Korn and Deftones one day! We then saw System of a Down and again, they were great too— that’s what I can really saw because it’s true! So many of the performances we saw were REALLY good! It’s just that it was SOOO FUCKING HOT LOOOL

I was actually kind of scared that because it was so hot, my Tamagotchi 4U would be fried… I kept thinking “NOOO GORO’S DYING!!!!” But he was fine LOL it was just so bright outside that we couldn’t see the screen at all.

Tbh we could’ve came so much later for Evanescence or even Deftones, and that would’ve sufficed for us LOL We were also able to buy merch when there was barely any lines! Majority of the day it was so crowded, so that was lucky. Anyway, for the first time, I got sun burnt a bit on my shoulders??? And I realized LATER that my forehead was slightly darker than the sides of my face LMAOOO it’s a lot better now but I didn’t even notice until I was in Sushi’s bathroom with my face close up to the mirror. We ate Q Bistro for a late dinner, but it was unfortunate that they didn’t have the Sweet potato pizza!!! 😭 But the fried chicken and omelette rice was super good… next time…

It was definitely an experience and I’m glad to say I went to one with Sushi! Though yeah, my body not built for standing in one place in the heat LOL (no one is). But smh I saw that there was a weekend festival where Slipknot and Polyphia (and more) were performing and I was like “no way.” BUT I WONT BE SWAYED… SOLO CONCERTS ONLY LOOL

[blackhairedjjun]

tnc: freefall full thoughts

(cross posted from elsewhere i'm just putting it here too lol)

before this album came out, sonically my fave txt albums are tdc: eternity, tcc: fight or escape (i really like loser lover and moa diary okay), and m2: thursday's child. and i think tnc: freefall is DEFINITELY up there -- idk where it ranks exactly but mannn it's so solid, i get why the critics at the preview were calling it a pivotal / turning point album for them. it does so many things musically yet stays thematically cohesive, the lyrics are lovely, and just feels like a natural evolution for them.

thoughts on each track:

growing pain - i can't believe i'm saying this but i think this track has a chance to dethrone opening sequence as my new favorite album opener (and opening sequence is one of my fave txt songs ever). but WOW i love rock txt!! i love how they pour their hearts out on rock tracks! listening to this right after farewell neverland is such a delight bc you have the contrast between making the decision to fall vs. ACTUALLY falling. and the latter HURTS. and they want you to feel that hurt in the song. i love going back to this track and jamming to it

chasing that feeling - oh this is just slathered in that 80s synthpop sound and i adore it so, the synths are just so catchy and i can't really describe it idk that sound just scratches the itch in my brain the right way. but something about it is such a gut punch?? there's something about "my fate, come and kiss me" and "maybe i'll miss it for good / the sweet mirage" that just GETS me. missing something so bad but knowing you have to move on from it... ugh!! not sure yet where i'd rank this among txt title tracks but man i do love listening to it.

back for more (txt ver) - this is the pre-release, we already heard and loved this one. honestly i like both the anitta version and this one, i feel like their second verses do different things: the anitta version keeps things interesting by changing it up, the txt version does that by escalating things. i.e. the former introduces elements of latin and funk while the latter enhances the nice disco pop stuff already going on. but yeah this one bops, also this song being third in the tracklist + right after ctf confirms to me that it's about wanting more of that neverland stuff even tho you said you would move on from it lol

dreamer - mmmm this song is so smooth!! i've seen a few people calling it the more mature / sexier version of 20cm but i still like 20cm more lol. but they both have a smooth r&b sound that makes you want to melt so i get it! it's a little bit lo-fi-esque which is a vibe that i enjoy and just adds to the smoothness of it, then we've got those lovely lovely falsettos. also wow the lyrics to this are really sweet? like... finding that dream you once held on to when you were younger and getting meaning from it once again. ohhh i melt

deep down - this one is boppy!! unfortunately it's a mid-2010s edm-pop type of song which is not a genre i particularly like, so i can't imagine listening to this one a lot. but for people who like that genre i think it works well! also it being a sequel song to crown is just. so cute. awww

happily ever after - aka happy fools' more melancholy older sibling HAHA. like deep down i can't imagine myself listening to this much, i think it needs a little more oomph to really capture me, but it's got a bittersweet mood to it and it conveys that mood pretty well.

skipping stones - I LOVE THIS ONE. this + growing pain are my faves of the newly introduced b-sides! it has that indie rock ost vibe that i'm weak for but it's also so warm, when i listen to it i want to turn the song into a real physical blanket i can wrap myself in. everyone sounds so good here and it's such a treat to listen to. and when i looked up the lyrics they made me melt!! "in order for the me from tomorrow to embrace the overwhelmed you of today, when it touches the shining waves, i'll hold your two shaking hands"??? STOP YOU'RE GOING TO MAKE ME CRY. i started smiling suddenly while listening to this that's just how warm it feels

blue spring - ok i already knew i would love this one bc i heard it live, but i thought the studio version would just be a cleaner-sounding version of the live one. but then THE ADDED ADLIBS??? THE HARMONIZING??? OH I'M SO EMOTIONAL. MY HEART SWELLS EVERY TIME I LISTEN TO THIS AAHH BLUE SPRING I LOVE YOU SO. that said i don't like that they removed the guitar strumming intro at the beginning and there's some weird autotune shit on some of hueningkai's adlibs. but i love this song as a whole too much for it to detract from my listening experience

do it like that - we all know this one too lol. i agree with all the people saying that it feels out of place on this album and they just stuck it on here cause it needed to go somewhere, but yeah it doesn't fit thematically. it's cute and fun but to me this song is musical candy: a sweet treat to listen to but not too substantial. it does what it does just fine but it's so jarring in this context

chasing that feeling (eng) - can i just say that i love the lyric choices here?? "in my kaleidoscope are pressed butterflies" and "time's a thief that keeps on stealing" and "hoping for twice in a lifetime, is that too much to ask?" and even short phrases like "a perpetual high." mmmm chef kiss. this and the korean version give off different vibes, the kor one is more conflicted / melancholy while the eng one is more wistful / determined. i love them both though

[bandzboy]

I would love to hear your takes on how different groups/companies produce songs differently (or how they might be similar)!

there are definitely differences in terms of like what they mostly pay attention to in terms of the instruments used, vocal layering and arrangement and etc but i think in the end there are always gonna be similarities bc of how well... it's the kpop industry and companies will want to produce something that is trendy so i think in the end there's always a formula on how songs are made especially kpop songs i think there's a certain sound that kinda makes you go "oh this is kpop" and i am not talking about them singing in korean but rather the melodies that are used and etc but kpop as many people know it's not a genre of music in itself kpop is an industry bc, i am pretty sure this has been discussed and many people know, that there are many different genres in the kpop music like some groups do more edm, some do a more pop sound, some are more rnb or rock and etc i think you get where i am going with that!

(also side note i hate when i am looking for what the genre of a kpop song is and it simply says kpop and it's quite annoying) but anyways i think the differences start from there. but in terms of companies separately i have noticed a lot how songs from sm groups usually care a lot about vocal harmonies and there are many instances in songs where you can listen to harmonies in a song the example that comes to my mind is definitely exo's tempo bridge where that section is just harmonies and it's probably are very good harmony arrangement whoever came up with that deserves all the flowers and when people mention tempo i always think about that bridge it's very memorable!! also 127's superhuman intro is a good example too like the whole production of that song is still very insane to me! but in general i feel like sm tries very different types of music for their groups and they are not afraid to do so and i am pretty sure they work with a lot of producers internationally so that's why there's always something new they bring to the sound of a group and that's why most sm groups have something new and fresh every comeback but with that subtle sound the group is known for which is always very interesting to me as for jype... i think their songs for the groups in general are very performance driven if that makes sense like u can tell they were made to dance and perform in my opinion that's why there's just sections of songs where you have a part that spacious or with just the instrumental playing i am thinking about wannabe by itzy specifically but also likey by twice also has that type of instrumental built for a dance break and i think it's mostly bc their groups are groups that have a lot of focus on the performance aspect and end up making songs thinking of that specifically there's definitely nothing wrong with that honestly i think it's very interesting! not even sure if i want to talk about yge production bc... all i know of yge production is teddy and let me tell u.... he is genuinely needs to stop making the same sound or.... yge desperately needs to bring new people bc omg... i am not even gonna get into the whole bp think bc.... there's a lot but definitely it's sad how songs produced by their producers lack something interesting especially over the years they have been lacking something it's sad! idk much about treasures's and ikon's music but from what i know the members participate in their songs and honestly from what i heard from treasure's music... it's pretty good (going crazy soty) yeah but in general for the future they should start investing on getting new people to produce music for their groups bc atp the sound is becoming too similar and they need a new start! for hybe.... well this is complicated since hybe is a lot companies in one (😭) and there's not a way to really say what their production style is bc their individual companies have ways to do music differently even tho their producers appear in some of the groups music

[moonmoonthecrabking]

(livebloggy) thoughts about the studio versions of eurovision 2023 songs on spotify (don't judge me). also if i say something has "energy" or "vibes" it is almost always neutral/positive.

aijā: the instrumental fooled me into thinking this would be far more upbeat and Quirky. then the melody came in and it's slower than my personal liking. uh, sir are you okay? i do like the strong pulse with subdivisions, i hope that's right terms. i like the ending "please don't wake up" (ig that's the bridge) and the stripped down ending (i do mean ending this time) in latvian.

dance (our own party): i liked it until the verse lyrics came on. AND I LOVE THE INSTRUMENTALS THOSE ARE REALLY BOPPING. the chorus is neat!!!! the verse seems like dichotomy. but not in the best way. idk. i'm really enjoying like the whole song aside from verse 1. apart from that section it's great! also i acknowledge that when i write in this post format my bitchiness and criticism grows three sizes so yk

who the hell is edgar?: is it cringy? MAYBE but it's fun OH THE CHANT DAMN. like the music, even though it's upbeat and electro, suits the vibe of possession and horror. even without the chant (though that was sick). which the last song was missing in the first verse. look. early favourite tbh. thanks austria! (the 'who the hell is edgar?' at the end took me out tho ngl)

breaking my heart: it's not bad. it's cute! it reminds me of something i would do warmups to in dance class!! (not a bad thing at all). the texture drop and tight harmonies is done really well. if you described this to me i'd probably expect to hate it but i'm vibing!

so far when i looked up which country each entry was from i wasn't super surprised. idk what that says but i'm saying it.

tattoo: i know this is loreen. thing is i didn't get the hype for euphoria so we'll see. it reminds me of something? oh it's kinda got greatest showman vibes in the chorus. not really in the verse but. also the pre-chorus does remind me a little of church music (like hillsong music). instrumental reminds me of the slow part of love is blind (lithuania 2012). i think people will probably really like this, i think it's mid.

because of you: i have listened to this one before, admittedly. just dance energy. again reminds me of warmups when i did dance as an extracurricular. the lyrics aren't for me, but if they're inspired by a real person, then that's cute for them!!! i just hope they don't make the staging really basic tbh

heart of steel: i like how it's going hard on the minor key. some villain energy. which i respect and endorse wholeheartedly. like it's chill, but evil, and i think that's what we all need to embody a little bit. also reminds me of 'don't get sad, get even' in vigilante shit. idk where i was expecting to come from, but this is very cool, ukraine!!

carpe diem: i like how it starts a lot, less how it builds. OOOO GUITAR OOOOO. i am a child, but that's besides the point.

d.g.t (on and off): i can't really describe it?? it's very rocking for such a slow song, i love the snapping and the rhythm. the high parts, less so, but it really depends on how it's performed. 6/8 my beloved. my beloved. mmmmmmm dynamic interest mmmmmmm. i am not one to wish different from the high notes but uh, not my fave part of the song rn (then again i generally prefer songs sung lower)

ai coração: OOOO THE PIANO RUN LIKE IN SHREK 2. it's so danceable but non in a generic edm way oh i am in love i love her voice ohohohohoh. thank you portugal this shall be in my top.

power: GIRL WHERE WAS THE INTRO. uh very hillsong. idk what to tell you it just gives strong christian music vibes at the start. the electro undertones minimises it but still. STILL. not even just the music the metaphors too.

stay: it's too slow for my liking. it's not bad, it's just. that sort of song. parts of this are familiar, from other eurovision songs. the chorus gives very 'we are the world! world peace!' energy. not my favourite, but if you like it, i'm happy for you!!

eaea: i have listened to this before!!! i think it's neat!!! the vibes are immaculate!!! thank you spain!!! (don't love it as much as slomo but that was the top of my spotify wrapped so yk)

samo mi se spava: it's giving the 2005 dcom minutemen. no i will not elaborate.

blood and glitter: is this... rap rock?? contrast?? it's giving some form of campiness ig?? I LOVE IT. THE VARIETY. GERMANY?? damn nice work germany!!

we are one: it's a little to 'simple happiness' for my taste? but at least it's happy and uplifting!!! i don't love it but i respect it!! it does however remind me of the australian Classic 'for we are one but we are many, and from all the lands on earth we coMe'. i sang that song for like 4 years before knowing the lyrics. like damn i was really rather no thoughts head empty when i was 5. yeah ireland i'm not shocked.

cha cha cha: giving uno energy?? very high energy!! actually add this to a get psyched mix bc this slapsssssss. wooooooooo

mama šč: hey i don't get it i think it's doing A Lot!! but i'm really keen to the staging, and it's bopping

tell me more: it's very sweet and cute. like if it's this sort of slow song it can manipulate me. even if there's non-mischa bachinski rap (seeeee, rtc mutuals, i can slip the references in there!!!)

bridges: reminds me of a matter of time from 2018?? it feels very soft and a little angsty but not in the way i like?? the lyrics, while so valid, aren't what i wanna listen to to live my best life yk?

break a broken heart: ooooo i love the rhythm of this one!! dare i say believer vibes? also the disney channel movie zombies? i know this sounds bad but i'm genuinely thoroughly enjoying it!!! vibes king

what they say: it's sad deep in a way that doesn't particularly mesh with me, unfortunately. although 'i got too much on my plate' eyo same man

evidemment: feels very epic and very french. OH A DANCE BEAT OH. we're vibing now perry the platypus!

solo: it's very upbeat beach vibes. look i just really like it. it's so slay girlboss, you know???

i wrote a song: hmmmmm at least someone's taking alexander rybak's advice!!! not my personal cup of tea musically (not much melodic interest and too staccato for me) or lyrically (since i'm translating catullus, i'm not in the mood for scorned lovers who decide to write verses about how they're getting their revenge. but i don't dislike this artist!! i do hate catullus)

soarele si luna: PASHA PARFENI!!!!! i'm really enjoying this one!!!! (not as much as his 2012 entry, but i had 11 years to fall in love with that one, it'll take time, and they're very different)

due vite: not my thing, and that's okay!!

watergun: it's not my kind of ballad, i hope this person is okay!!

duje: i love the strong pulse with the native language and the violin runs and how it says hyped!!!

my sister's crown: women supporting women. i'm not the biggest fan of the english lyrics or the melody in the verse BUT THE CHORUS SLAPS like majorly so. i don't love the soft ethereal it gets in the english chorus but when it changes languages i do. i think this is a hint that i don't love music in english as much

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promise: my country :) i've listened to this one already. i find it rather repetitive in the verses (particularly the first one), the music is fine!! certainly not my least favourite of our entries!!! i really like the music in "cross my heart til the sun turns red in the sunrise" (possibly aided by the brevity of it) and also when they absolutely fucking rock out in the instrumental

burning daylight: i personally don't love it, it reminds me of like 2013 indie stuff. also, to be nitpicky, there's one specific lyric that is the sorta thing that i know pisses me off so. yeah. didn't Help.

queen of kings: yeah this one was an early favourite of mine i've already listened to it. it just musically gives me dark fantasy vibes and energises me, you know?? very disappointed the studio version doesn't include the italian and latin chanting, but it's still like a great song to run to (i don't run). i was a little concerned about if she'd be able to pull of the vocals live (based only on the studio version) but when i watched her melodi grand prix version she fucking slayed

unicorn: i love the epic intro, it was kinda too much of a drop for me when the singer came in. pre-chorus feels a bit basic (***for my tastes) or is it the chorus idk but it reminds me of the circus climax of madagascar 3. the phenonamal part is a bop, and i really do like the ending part!!! the first half just wasn't my taste as much (aside from that beginning instrumentation)

if it's not on spotify, i wasn't bothered to listen to it (but ofc i will eventually!!). honestly this feels like a pretty good year (to meeeee) but not the highest quality ballads/slow songs (i know there's a difference, but for the sake of eurovision, no there's not)

[hospitalterrorizer]

diary109

12/31/2023

sunday

new year's eve is okay.

we were invited out but couldn't / can't go, since my gf is sick. that's okay because i feel ugly today and don't want to go outside ever again. there was another shooting today on the strip/ around the mgm, i guess maybe not actually a shooting, just a man going crazy and firing a gun into the air, a poker player, a guy who did some pro stuff i guess, even. nobody died, hopefully no one was injured by the bullets as they came back to earth or whatever. idk how 'in the air' he shot them really, maybe just vaguely towards the sky, instead of directly up. he probably hit some kind of losing streak. the big vegas shooting, the one in the mandalay bay, happened for likely similar reasons. that guy wasn't a pro but it probably had something to do with gambling, maybe not even losing, maybe something to do with not being comped. that's at least my favorite theory, i hate the people who talk about conspiracies with that one. all those annoying people who say 'no motivation' or whatever, it's basically proven at this point that human life as something that happens on its own terms instead of by a law one projects, and life outside that valuation process, is utterly meaningless and gives anyone license to kill anyone. think of all the incel shooters, the shooters consumed by irreal fantasies, adam lanza wanting to 'save' kids from suffering so killing them. that is the essential pulsion, i think.

the end of this year has given me lots of reasons to be unhappy, i am going to sleep before the year is in i think, i'm already tired, i feel sick too.

2024 is going to be fine. this year was fine. probably good. i don't know. it was another year i was alive. that's all. maybe not. i love my girlfriend, we've lived together this whole year. she made me travel with her, which was nice except for when it wasn't.

what right do i have to complain at all though, i didn't pay anything for any of that. i am such a stupid bitch honestly.

today i learned about a fashion designer from 2009 who made clothes that i think are cute who seems to have gone insane. his name is paul griffiths, his brand was babycakes, his website is totally insane.

the book seems like it's entirely nonense, the guy is into annunaki alien conspiracy stuff, he's like way into rishi sunak on twitter it seems like. i don't find it annoying, that stuff, it just makes me really sad. maybe it's because of this video from 8 years ago.

there's parts in this vid that make me feel something terrible, like when he talks about not wanting to ever go outside, and how he's okay with just going crazy in isolation, then he begins going on this tangent about how you have to be truly kind, and how he's failed himself in that, and then he talks about how he hates the times where he's hidden behind a character and coldness instead of being himself and being kind. and then he launches into a thing about genetically altering human dna to correct human evolution.

it seems like his brand was doing really well in the whole like, i wanna say 06-09 period, and up to 2014 he seems like he was pretty normal, even in the vids from 2015 where he's not freestyling while watching himself obsessively build in minecraft he seems lucid. even now he seems lucid, he just seems to get lost in these pretty schizoid/delusional things, that whole kind of conspiracy spiritualism got to him like it did a lot of millennials it seems like. really depressing to see. it's good to remember how that happened though, it helps put a damper on nostalgic revisionism, to treat this stuff like it truly died, or something. even the aesthetic he was doing in 06 and onwards, that whole thing still lives on in like meow wolf big room edm bro psychedelia. it's sad because i half like the stuff that fomented all that, the super weird japanese pop art inflected stuff, harajuku excess and so on. it's so ugly/frustrating where that all ended up, the big brostep festival edm world, all the cool music that came from that weird nexus too, absorbed by that, where metalcore warped tour bros absorbed electronic music, creating some of the worst aesthetic strains we still are around today. that stuff is ignorable maybe, for some people, but it's still all around out here.

here are his clothes/the photoshoots he did for his clothes that i found on his blog, which is here:

here's something i read on the blog that made me want to cry just now:

"im gonna be meeting Panic at the disco tomorrow and ill be at the show in Manchester. ill get them to wear Babycakes with the silly outfits that they wear ;D

business is going crazy. greg got a hair cut today. BCthelabel is going well, you will all hear lots about that soon :D kyle is amazingly hot ;] Mummy and Daddy are splitting up but ive got my mum a cute new house :D

Rawr!

I love taking photos…

This is where i work, I employ all my best friends and my mum."

the falling off and going crazy after reaching this kind of high is devastating, he really was featured in all kinds of magazines and stuff, he went to warped tour to promo his clothes. anyways the clothes and stuff:

it's such an annoying and particular thing the brand did, but i am into some of it, there's this one rainbow shirt that i think is really cute but i probably just want that because it reminds me of the some girls album art. the site also has some other crazy stuff on it, he's made little games, apps, one thing is a whole drawing app, one thing is like this mental clone of minecraft he made.

it all makes me feel like this song:

the ugly cheap synth stuff, oh to add to it, paul is super obsessed w/ chiptune stuff, which i'm super into, anyway, that ugly cheap synth and then the dirty feeling of the song, the bombed out remains of 2008 still living. too many cultural images in my head informed by american apparel. right now i'm wearing american apparel thigh highs. isn't that fucked. no matter what i'm going to be someone obsessed with always being skinnier, trying to figure out ways to be pretty, seeking eyes on me while hating it always too. i'm so sick with my own self. ugh.

all the reading i've been doing is obviously related to that. but i wonder about how that stuff condemns basically, how much of this is anyone's responsibility, any of the cultural images i take up are given to me, yeah, but i can't tell if they're happy gifts, gifts i received happily and only realized later, or i know that's not the case, these were things i'm stuck with, or stuck to, given to me because they seemed to be the only things i really responded to. weird skinny girls, and like 8 year old me, seeing that, thinking, that's something to tether myself to. it spoke to every negative thing, rather than being a fantasy of 'womanhood' or whatever, like terfs or gender critical people would put it. the only thing that made sense of my disolcation or whatever.

back to paul, now he's also really into ai stuff, generating women (really they look like kids but i don't know if that's his fault or something the ai does when he tries to get it to generate people) wearing clothes that look related to the brand and putting the logo on the pictures. i don't think it's false advertising, he's just fallen for another scam.

it's the end of the year, and i'm just thinking about this.

this year really has had beautiful moments for me, going to japan with my gf, or my gf taking me, my gf taking me to chicago and me us getting to stay with a long time online friend, us staying out really late, us just being in this apartment, me cooking for her. i want to cook every night, i want to get back to that, the fact i'm not makes me feel sick. like i want to do something bad to myself, i don't know why i'm feeling so fucked up right now.

all of reality is queasy, lo and behold this song:

and i am tired. tomorrow i am going to listen to my album again, and see what now needs correction, and see if there's anything i want to delete, but i don't think i'll be looking to delete anything off the album. we'll see though.

anyway i really am getting tired. happy new years, and

byebye!!!!!!!!!

[jentlemahae]

it’s so word that bp/yg/teddy are afraid to grow their sound yet they have chosen to release songs that imo don’t fit the bp sound at all. yeahx3 and byw are not bp songs to me. they’re so generic that literally anyone could have released them 🫤 this isn’t to do with them being brighter songs either, bcs aiiyl dkwtd and forever young still all have that bp flavor to them

you could argue that ready for love would have fit the bp sound but only in 2017, when they had mostly edm title tracks (and when edm was actually a thing lol) but it didn’t come out in 2017, it came out in 2022 after they had grown and changed their sound and now it’s so out of place, which makes an already bad song even worse. it’s like every time they take steps forward in their musical evolution they release an old or outdated song which puts them right back at where they started 😒

well yes yyy is different from their usual sound but i can already tell u that that song was made in 2020/2021 when disco was plaguing the kpop industry, so yes it sounds different but im sure they weren’t hesitant to release it as part of born pink bcs they figured it would have fitted nicely in kpop as a whole (they were wrong but that’s for another conversation) + personally i think byw does have the bp sound ? yeah it’s generic and predictable but to me it makes sense in the grand scheme of things idk 🤷🏻‍♀️

and rfl is similar to yyy - they made that song years before but chose to release it with born pink just bcs they saw that fans liked it. if u ask me it was a last minute addition bcs they knew they would have been jumped if bp2 had less tracks than bp 1 lol since a) like u said that sound makes no sense on the record, b) the album sounds better and more complete without that song, and c) we know they chose not to include it in the album so imo they had already shelved it

[justonefeather]

That post got me thinking about all the shit i listened to as a kid. My mom listened to Linkin Park and three days grace with me, we shared a lot of music, we also listened to breaking Benjamin and Nickelback and Tool... My dad would listen to like, Eminem and DMX and limp Bizkit and Korn.. idk where i got edm from but i LOVED that shit, one of my first modern type edm songs was blood sugar by pendulum, i quickly got into hardstyle and dnb and then when dubstep came out i was like WOW !! I had a CD from maybe 2007 ultra music festival that my mom bought me that i CHERISHED and i am so sad all my CDs were taken away by that fucking flood.. i had so much good shit in that little binder

[1-800-hellraiser]

My Andre Lee Headcanons

These are some of my Andre headcanons because he lives in my head rent free. I have Inside Job braintot lol. If you have different headcanons of him that's fine, these are just personal ones :)

Cw for drug use and drug making

Sfw!

♧ Andre has sensory issues with certain fabrics. Specifically with velvet and wool. Velvet rides up easily and makes his skin itchy, and wool gets stuck on the dead skin on his hands. It makes him very uncomfy :(

♧ He LOVES grilled cheese. He lived off of grilled cheeses along with Ramen when he was in college. If you can make him a good grilled cheese, mans is head over heels with you immediately.

♧ We all know Andre is an EDM type of guy mostly, but his guilty pleasure is pop music. He is a Belieber and a Directioner, he has been since 2012. He also listens to the Twilight movie soundtrack once a month, it heals his soul. 

♧ Andre owns a pair of the Balenciaga platform crocs courtesy of Gigi during an annual Secret Santa. He wears them to raves and semi-formal Cognito events. 

♧ The crocs came with charms too. He wears them on his regular crocs though because he usually doesn't wear the platform ones to work.

♧ Myc is Andre's best friend no doubt but he's actually really good friends with Gigi too. They go clubbing and bar hopping sometimes when they're both free. 

♧ Andre and Myc did date for a while, but they didn't stay together because they thought they would just be better off as friends. 

♧ Andre's favorite soda is Sprite, no I will not elaborate 

♧ Andre can't drive for shit (to be fair he is high most if not all of the time). He has totaled the Cognito company van MULTIPLE times. So he's not aloud to drive anymore. It has to be literally anyone else but Andre. 

♧ I feel like Andre is the type of guy to vape instead of smoke cigarettes. He thinks they taste gross and would rather have like a Piña Colada flavored Hyde or something like that. Myc teases him for it lmao. If Andre's vaping and Myc walks (scuttles? Idk) into the room he'll make a comment like "it smells like a high school bathroom in here."

♧ It's heavily implied that Andre is queer. I see him as Pansexual and Transgender. He uses He/Him pronouns. 

♧ It's canon that Andre grew up with strict Christian parents, I think he's done drugs before but managed to hide it from his parents. Nothing hard, but he has smoked weed at sleepovers with his friends before. The only way he could get away with it is because he would wash his clothes that he smoked in and his parents wouldn't know. 

♧ But as soon as he moved out, he started getting into hard stuff. He wasn't scared of trying new drugs and drinking because his parents weren't able to dictate what he did anymore. Sure they don't approve of his lifestyle now, but he doesn't care what they think.

♧ Andre still watches cartoons because bright animated tv show goes brrr. He watches My Little Pony with Myc a lot.

♧ I think Andre uses drugs to cope with his OCD and Tourettes because he HATED taking his medication for it. His medication would make him feel horrible, so when he found out he could use other drugs to cope with it he was ecstatic.

♧ When Andre was hired into Cognito, he started doing so many drugs. Ofc the government has access to so many unlisted drugs that nobody could find anywhere else. But his job also have him access to a lab where he could just make his own drugs. 

♧ He definitely watches RuPaul's Dragrace. His outfits are so,,, just,,,,, I can't put it into words but I feel like he has an appreciation camp fashion and drag queens. 

♧ Like in Blue Bloods when he wears that outfit to the Reptoid gala. You can't tell me he's not inspired by camp fashion. 

[f-ngrl]

instead of 20 posts

the hwimin album was real and his leaving h1ghr fake 🤯🤯🤯 love the album it’s very. hiphop? kind of raw? but ofc v professionally produced. but like it has hardly any hooks and everyone raps more and there’s very little singing. he brought us sik-k 😭 and so many underground rappers. some of them idek. he could have easily used bigger names but decided to show he’s still in khh like that. i never would have dared to dream abt any of this and appreciate it a lot.

sik-k said yelows mob. the last time i heard it (indirectly) was when groovyroom were doing that 6 edm songs project and coogie joined and groovyroom said “we’ve never worked together before even though we’re on the same team”. the time before that was in summer 2020 when one of them posted a pic of groovyroom and vangdale. i was gonna say can vangdale come back now but he will on moon sujin’s album! can’t wait!

ourealgoat’s ep came out. the mv is by the same director as always but not shaky this time. the songs are nice but idk how i feel about it being so pop-y. i want to keep supporting my faves but in the end i like rap better than singing and hiphop more than pop and if everyone becomes a pop singer. idk we’ll see.

i can really rec rb nine. his voice is amazing and he already has daytona’s support. i think he may grow big quickly and dearly hope he sticks to his style 🤣 just for my own entertainment haha. no he can do what he wants but i’m telling you his latest ep is very enjoyable. he said full album today at 6 but ig it was a 4.1 joke.

yumin’s ep will feature kyung jaehwan (jehwwn), cloudybay, kid wine.

lil sunder11 new little song. these days he only posts his gf and seems very in love, cute:D

i’m overwhelmed by all the news and then i just want to listen to music i already know. why does everyone release stuff at the same time!

when did goaty and yucca become so close. i love to see it obviously. yucca is not on goaty’s ep so maybe it will be the other way around. last boy the class 2 i’m aaaaaaah

i ended up liking kitsyojii’s album a LOT. not only bc of hd bl4ck bc even on hd bl4ck’s album i like kitsyojii’s part the most now. i recommend it if you like rap. and hd bl4ck’s album is a bit more mixed genres but v great. he’s already preparing his next album woah. i’m telling you i cannot keep up with lbnc i haven’t even had time for leebido’s ep which is also a great one. watch a live performance of leebido feat. chaboom here.

yln foreign and cherryboy17 released an ep on soundcloud. idk if i’ll have time to listen but it’s probably good. it being only released on sc makes uncutpoint look soo bad. like get your shit together you’re trying to be a music releasing company.

leeyoungwoong posted a story of a screenshot of his kkt chat where someone says trade l said when he comes back to korea (from the us) they will have a livrside reunion concert but i’m not sure it’s an april fools joke. it may be that they wanted to have a concert after they saw last saturday’s concert with mighty lynx and some other crews of their generation. that looked fun so i’m not completely writing it off as a joke :D

gyu hyuk 6-track ep will come out 4.6

since released merch + intl shipping

lil poet of friemilli/flocc released a 10 track album feat. blase, deepflow, rakon today.

pullik released a new song with a “new team” called cmnd, i don’t understand who they are but it’s kind of soft so meh.

that’s all for now i think, thank u bye :D

[demon-trees]

Douxie x chaotic y/n headcanon?

Idk its late and you know what that means time to write up a story idea but never write!

Enjoy this little headcanon I came up with! Is it good, probably not 😅

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She is chaotic neutral

Very chaotic

Her magic will overrun everything, like her, its wild and tricky but very powerful and she's not afraid to let it run free unlike some wizards and witches. She enjoys the beautiful chaos it does. It doesn't hurt that the color of it is a nice green/blue it goes well with Douxie.

She's a bit mental but usually keeps herself in check but it slips when she's in mid battle with an enemy then she just doesn't care about the damage around her. The fact that she's not afraid to kill someone does bother Douixe a lot but tells him he should be grateful that she does has morels to extent, kill those who do harm to others and protect those who are too young to do it themselves(a slight foreshadow to her backstory perhaps?). She enjoys dark humor hehe

Sometimes she'll cause a little chaos for the fun of it but, makes sure it doesn't effect any women and children but gives zero shits about men (maybe certain ones). Her little antics sometimes land her on the opposite sides of him and at times the trollhunters. Again she just wants a little fun no need to get upset over spilled tea this isn't the Boston harbor 😊(may have caused war but that just means her fun will last for awhile longer).

She will always flirt with Douxie he'll do the same but they never date its a will they won't they type relationship, she thinks he's better off with someone else who's more stable and doesn't cause him too much trouble. She'll may lean in for a kiss but pulls a nasty trick and leaves the poor boy hanging, he'll get even eventually. Maybe?

Is deathly protective over "her" sweet medieval punk boy, but will dropkick his ass if he does something stupid like WHO LEADS PACK OF GOBLINS TO A CITY(she would but nows not the time for that!). She may not always travel with him but that doesn't mean she can't run into him every now again. Once he had a whole Dracula's army after him because he took his precious book and was on the run for 2 years that was until she got word on the situation. Let's just say there's a reason people believe vampires are just make believe. She could have killed Dracula himself but some Hellsing or whatever got ahold of him before she did. Such a shame really.

I imagine before she starts an adventure or battle her clothes change into something extra (think of Loki from marvel in that  one scene where he's walking and his clothes change into armor). Lastly if you think I won't give this boy a big titty goth girlfriend your wrong because that's what she is. Sometimes when she's in the middle of a fight and has that crazy look in her eye he can't figure out if he should be scared or kiss her senseless. Maybe if he's quick enough he may have a chance of actually kissing her(no that one time when he was drunk did not count!)

She is deadass a half century older then him but stopped aging at 20 but is a whole 2 heads shorter then him(wears high heels to make herself around the same height as him this absolutely unacceptable wanna fight you walking emo bean stalk cause she will! 6ft my ass STOP LAUGHING YOU ABSOLUTE NINEY). He plays guitar and she sings but prefers a mix of edm,techni,dubstep into it.

And now finally yes she gets along with archie she loves him but loves fenrir a bit more.

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I'll leave some pictures down here of what her fighting clothes would look like and dm me if your interested in taking this story and making it your own.

Battle outfit (you'll pick which one)

Everyday outfit

And the rare casual date outfit

Note he hasn't seen her in any type of dresses or skirts since the early 1700s

[cactusandfir]

good morning evening here are my notes from the edm/sea game last night! (12.18.21):

venue notes

there were so many more oilers fans than i thought! i was worried about wearing my jersey so i didn’t, but it would have been fine

the new arena is super well designed! the space felt really open in a way i don’t know how to explain, but sometimes i get claustrophobic in older venues and this didn’t feel that way at all

the only downside was that the seats were tiny. i’m a pretty small human and i was still shoulder-to-shoulder with the people on either side of me

i always write down stuff like that for next time, and i was thinking i might write up a like, anxious person’s guide to going to a game. i’ve been going to big events by myself for ten years now, and i think my planning process could be helpful for people? idk i feel like when i first started going to things alone it would have helped to have some resources for how to do it, so i’m going to think more on that

on to the game!

this whole game was very physical and the boys were very pushy!

in particular jeremy lauzon did a lot of fighting, he had a fun little skirmish in the first period, and then i think it was in the third that he pushed an oiler into his own goalie (driedger tonight) and cause a goal whoops

vince dunn had a scramble with mcdavid where he like, held on to his shoulders and spun them around a bit, very titanic-esque

and then vince went on to pick on connor for the rest of the game, he would shove him every chance he got which was all the time because their lines kept going out together and i want the tea! is this just the regular mcdavid vendetta or did something else go on??

actually, i spent a lot of time watching connor and leon sorry not sorry

connor is a cat confirmed, his hips and knees are like, liquid in the way he moves which probably helps him be so fast, but idk about bodies it was just fun to watch

connor got kicked out of two faceoffs, and on the second one he threw his head back and sighed dramatically, and oh buddy, it’s okay

leon got kicked out of way more faceoffs and was way less dramatic about it

but he played really well i think he had like three assists so whatever, also you can see his giant stick blade from space

sometime in the third i think it was tanev? who got really hurt and they didn’t call a stoppage and we were all super worried

it looked like he walked off on his own but i also missed some of it because at the same time some people in the lower section were getting kicked out!

a group of drunk people were being belligerent and a bunch of security came down and it was this huge commotion and no one knew where to look

that was almost at the end of the game and the oilers stayed up one to win it and everyone was shaking their heads

if i could choose my own three stars they would be:

driedger for his many impressvie saves and suffering an own-goal

lauzon for the best sweaty curls of the night

kailer yamamoto because when they were doing the goalie helmet taps at the end as he skated back up the line everyone shoved him a lil, playfully, as he passed and it was so cute and i already checked the streams and neither broadcast got a good video of it. when will we all get full videos of the goalie lines of our favorite teams like we all deserve?!?!

[eldritchdraaks]

Here is a more comprehensive explanation of this whole anime pilot dream I had, but without the frantic writings of a man who just woke up from said dream.

(If you didn’t see the last post, I had a very vivid dream about a short anime pilot and I’ve been hyper-fixated since.)

The world is close to your average modern setting seen in most down to earth anime, but with a BNA, Beastars, Amazing World of Gumball kind of spin to it. Plenty of humans, plenty of other creatures that share ancestry with flora and fauna of earth, and even some robots, but nothing is of the supernatural. things are about as peaceful as regular earth, so yeah there is racism, but it's not the theme being explored here. Other similar settings have done the racism theme better. This is more in line with a happier District 9. A more specific city setting would be like a gentrified urban downtown.

The main character whom I've dubbed Bug Guy since my dream didn't come with any names, starts out as human. You never get a good look at what Bug Guy looks like before his transformation. It's always back of the head or neck down shots of him, but you know he's human, there's no doubt about it. He has no family, no friends, and hardly any social life. His only drive is pursuing his career in music. His talent is EDM, because why not. He has a laptop with all his tech on it. Despite being a loner, he knows he must branch out and collaborate to get his name out there and start making profits. There's a local studio he wants to hit up where a Music Group of a few young twenty somethings often hangout and record, as well as take lessons and give them. It's whatever floats down there. 

The leader of this group is a tall blonde girl, white or white passing. She wears a red visor and her hair in a ponytail from the top of her head, and it sticks up like a paint brush. She wears a white button up polo, plaid-patched black jeans, and has a guitar case over her shoulder, since she plays guitar.

His encounter with the Mafia-type group is a wrong place, wrong time scenario. After a good first impression down at the studio and introducing himself to the Music Group, Bug Guy takes a train to a darker part of the city to visit his favorite café. It's not much but he likes how quiet and empty it usually is during certain hours. However he doesn't make it to the café. Mafia is doing a heist and they derail the train in order to crash it into a building as it’s passing. Might be a bank or lab or government facility, that's undecided, but the people are the train who survive the crash need to be disposed of, since they were witnesses.

Now, the Mafia group (dubbed Bug Mafia by one of my friends) is just a group of shady people, like the evil teams from Pokémon. They're doing some shady shit and they can't have any witnesses or otherwise getting in the way. I'm not entirely sure why or how, but the best way to achieve this goal is to transform Bug Guy into a strange bug thing not based on a specific insect. Alternatively, it's a made up rare species. 

The reason he can be transformed is because all non-human people are humanoid, and thus have DNA relating to humans. So, a human's DNA can be altered to become a creature. Yep, that's my reasoning; Deal with it. 

Mafia don't really care how they get rid of the witnesses, and changing Bug Guy into a bug was probably just incidental, something related to their work or the heist and they think it worked out in their favor. Probably think they killed a human and there was an unrelated bug person looking 'dead' on the ground. Whatever the case, Bug Guy remembers nothing about the crash or what came after.

Bug Guy wakes up in the morgue because bug people are notoriously difficult to declare alive or dead, maybe. IDK anything about insects. His realization/freak-out doesn't come ‘til he gets home, because nothing about his situation sets in until he can see himself in the mirror. However he doesn't believe he's doomed or his life is over. He gets over it fairly quickly and chooses to resign himself to this fate. His partial amnesia isn't helping either, because at times he's not sure if he ever was a human. Are his memories lying to him? Looking at old pictures helps, but they always include his family and friends, and it just makes him hurt. He's pretty sure he was human, but he always needs to be reminded, grounded to reality.

So from there on he tries to live his life as normally as he did, dressing the same, acting the same, etc. of course after a few days he'd figure out his anatomy is all different, he needs different hygiene routines, and a new nutritional diet. He's been getting sick from eating the same old food he always used to. 

Bug Guy goes to the studio, gets some strange looks, and meets with the Music Group. They don't recognize him, and there's a back and forth of misunderstandings before Bug Guy uses his one braincell to tell them that he is the guy from before. The group, notably the leader, are stunned. From there the Music Group pledge to help him get through his current crisis, even though he doesn't want any help. But nah, they want to help and that's how they make him their friend. Bug Guy learns to open up again and appreciate having people in his life again. They help him find out what happened to him and go up against Mafia and that's kind of all I have. 

By the end, Bug Guy is DEFINITLY stuck as a bug, but it would be built up enough that you'd think he'd get his human form back, only for hope to be ripped away at the end. Coming to terms that he would be a bug for the rest of his life is a good way for him to close the chapter on the old him, the loner that cut himself off from everyone when his family died. He's a new person now. 

And he vapes sugar water!