#idk what I signed myself into

[yuseirra]

Hehe.. I'm okay, I mean.. Either way, it means I have one less thing to worry about.

If it is how it is, then I don't have to worry so much about what happens in this piece. If it somehow goes the way I want, I'll have something to keep on loving.

I honestly really still don't picture what point the plot would have and how the story would make sense if they decide if this is how the story would go in this direction,(it's a chapter, I still feel things should be seen in full and have some sort of good theme that wraps it all together) but I'm not saying that the author is wrong. They decide what to do with the story and their characters, I believe that for a creator, their characters can sometimes be like their child.. That's how it is for me when I write them, it depends on the creator, but I believe they will have a degree of affection for what they've brought into this world.

I wouldn't like it, it's underwhelming, and whatever this new chapter suggests could have made sense and fit better like 50 chapters ago and would have had better catharsis if it happened much earlier I feel, but that's my personal opinion I form after having read it with my own interpretations. I could say that I tried my best and put very careful attention to it in my own way.

You really don't need to try console me, it's getting really annoying.. I'm sorry, but being spoiled every single time for the past.. Month or two after having been very attached to a ship had been so rough for me, I think it was even worse than seeing how the chapters play out for myself and forming a clear opinion on it. Don't warn me or say you're sorry, I can handle it on my own. I'm really used to doing it for myself. why??; I'm just going to read or drop this series if I'm not satisfied with it, I want to keep giving it a chance and keep loving it if/while I can. It's fine. If I need it, I will organize my thoughts in a post, draw it out, or talk to my friends. I'll tell you if I NEED to talk! I'm having fun.

The really interesting thing about this work is, while I get really frustrated about how wacky and bizzare things turn out to be, I always find something about these chapters that.. Give me hope still? Idk if they are false hope though XD it's ridiculous, but I keep reading. I'll keep my hopes brightly lit if I can find them and I actually... Still kinda do. I wonder if it'll hit even more rock bottom than this lol. If you forget about Kamiki and Ai maybe this isn't the worst either, but honestly, I really, really am rooting for Ai in this one and her love. I like that about her and hey, if I'm the one who writes this story, I'd make her every choices worth it.

I feel the author really loves her character, she's well-crafted, so I want to believe that!

So there. Until next chapter drops!

[oobbbear]

Old man yaoi kill me old man yaoi…

[vamptastic]

dgaf about egg jokes they're harmless and at worst mildly stereotypical do your thing im sure ive made one before. however. i do feel like the whole discourse was kicked off by that "egg behavior to wear women's deodorant as a man" tweet and we all collectively need to agree that that tweet was dumb & stupid and women's deodorant is objectively superior to men's. actually men's hygiene products in general just suck more except razors. apparently its manly to smell like shit and have dry skin. if i had my druthers id force every cis man to use dove deodorant. id mean id still do it if it made them transgender but i see it as more of a public service in terms of smell than in that regard.

[perilegs]

i know astrology is fake but i'm not too keen on how a lot of people on this website seem to be clowning on it as a hobby a bit too hard. i swear the woman who thinks it's neat how she and her friends with the same sun sign are all similar isn't trying to say that you are who you are born as and there is nothing you can do to change it. it's a hobby. an interest. what happened to finding meaning and joy in the small things. does it affect you if someone enjoys tarot reading or crystals. does it make you upset someone has interests that they enjoy.

[thatonecrookedsmile]

"There's nothing wrong with dreaming. Wishing for the impossible is just human nature. That's how I got started. Just a pencil and a dream. We all want everything without even having to lift a finger. They say you just have to believe. Belief can make you succeed. Belief can make you rich. Belief can make you powerful. Why with enough belief, you can even cheat death itself. Now that... is a beautiful, and positively silly thought." -Joey Drew.

[OPEN YOUR EYES]

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I mean, at the end of the day, he wasn't so wrong about that last part.

This one also took a little longer to finish. I wonder why /s.

I usually don't like drawings where I have to create a design for a character I've never drawn before. It ends up making me force myself to come up with ideas and sometimes I end up not liking the design anyway. At least this time? That didn't happen (thank goodness).

At first, I didn't know what to do for this prompt. What I originally conceived was a more "joke" drawing with Joey and Sammy, with Sammy literally drawing the line between him and Joey with a big pencil. No big deal, right? But then the phrase "end of the line" came to mind and then… this happened. Funny. A while back I had an idea for a drawing about Joey's afterlife. The idea was much simpler, from what I remember. And compared to what we have, quite different.

"Death" is what came for Joey, and it's what comes for everyone. What he faces is nothing less than what will determine his fate. It is the very Arbiter itself - the eye that sees all - who decides where souls whose lives are over will go. The heavenly gates in the great beyond? The burning flames in the darkest pit? The void of vast nothingness? Somewhere else beyond? Reveal your soul and the Arbiter will decide. I have a certain guess as to where Joey is going, but I'll leave that up in the air.

Maybe I thought just a little bit too much about a character that I probably won't draw in a long time,but i don't mind giving a little lore even to characters that i don't see using much in the future, you know.

(Also, since I used Joey's audio log from BATIM CH3 in the beginning, did you know that Dave Rivas (Joey's current VA) did his own reading of that audio? He's going to be a guest on the Indie Horror Talk Podcast, and the video they posted teasing Dave's appearance there has him reading this same audio log, only with his Joey voice. So now we have Joey's first audio log in the series voice acted by both his first VA (David Eddings) and his current one. I thought that was cool, you know. I found this out a while back and wanted to talk about it for a sec.)

(Alt. without the text):

[lemonstrashcan]

fellow afab genderfluid people yall ever get feelings of masculinity so strong that you fear you just be a trans guy in denial bc you're scared

[tiredofthehumanlife]

If my family and friends learned ASL I would talk so much more.

I can't even explain it to them but it's like even though I know all of English and I can express myself with it a lot faster than I can with ASL (exclusively bc I'm new to ASL and only have like a year and half of learning it under my belt) I'm so much more comfortable with ASL.

I hate talking so much I get like word vomit and everything comes out wrong. I hate the way I sound and people almost never hear me. Either I'm too loud or too quiet and it angers me. I get frustrated and then people think I'm upset with them when I'm not.

But in ASL, I'm so much more comfortable. I don't have to talk and I just use my hands. Things can come out wrong but not because my mouth is slower than my brain but because I'm new and sometimes your fingers move in the wrong way. I don't have to hear myself talk and I just like the way my hands can move and the words fall off my fingers and I don't have to think so hard about it

Uh but no one around me wants to learn so off I go with stuttering and running out of breath

[hamable]

Porter better have nemesis alert on because I’m coming for his ass with so much bureaucratic WRATH and ANGER and RAGEEEE and I will fucking disintegrate him.

OOOOOOOHHHHRHRHRBSBSB I can’t get over it I’ll fucking show him rage let me at him. Let mE AT ‘IM.

[risingsunresistance]

RANBOO CASUALLY DROPPING A FURSONA AND IT'S COOL AS HELL???

[eddsworld-nonsense]

I will now forever have "clown lingerie" in my search history because of this I hope you are happy.

Unfiltered + Flats under cut

[canis-dies]

01. Housofpsychoticwomn - Ethel Cain. // 02. Housofpsychoticwomn - Ethel Cain. // 03. Ciencias Naturales - Juan Gatti. // 04. Manual of surgical bandages, devices and dressings - J. M Goffres, // 05. rabbittutor. // 06. Unknown. // 07. Rick Berry. // 08. Uncarné_10 - A.Na. // 09. Deathless - Catherynne M. Valente. // 10. Unknown. // 11. Unknown. // 12. Suren Manvelyan. // 13. Suren Manvelyan. // 14. Suren Manvelyan. // 15. Etienne - Ethel Cain. // 16. Atlas and Epitome of Operative Surgery - Otto Zuckerkandl. // 17. сердце, рука - Tverdaya. // 18. Venus De Medici - Francesco Calenzuoli. // 19. Peripety (1) - Jen Mazza. // 20. Peripety (6) - Jen Mazza. // 21. Peripety (Artist Statement) - Jen Mazza. // 22. Unknown. // 23. Reclining Nude - James Jebusa Shannon.

[fadewalking]

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[palehottubchild]

fr tho i think SLTs is actually such a good concept because im just thinking like yes we had the biology sex education of hormones are a thing and if you dont use a condom this is what your penis will look like but if anyone ANYONE had been open with me about what sexualities are and how they feel then maybe someone wouldve said 'hey this is something that you actually feel its not a thinking thing and yes, some people actually DO start this early. if you dont relate maybe look into the words asexual and aromantic' then i would have maybe felt less like a freak and not forced myself through both guys and girls trying to find something that actually felt right because right now nobody talks about it especially not when it comes to teenagers which is fair enough but also it really really would have been beneficial to me and im sure other people if it was discussed in a respectful controlled manner

[rapidhighway]

i might've fucked up -.-

[forgetfulmachineart]

The art that I adore is either "most beautiful and creative combination of colors and shapes and motifs you've ever seen in your life that you will spend hours picking apart" or "warning sign"

[ford-ye-fiji]

being your father’s favorite child is a burden not often talked about