#im so tiredd i cant do this
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#idk what's wrong with me#god im so tired of being stressed all the time and im tired of it#just being fully my fault ugh why do i keep fucking up this entire uni thing#im just so stressed i freeze and i don't do the things i have to do i dont send documentation#i didnt sign up for ANY class yet because i just couldnt get myself to look at them and i think i fucked everything up and its going to#be a whole thing#idk i would just rather stay at home and do nothing but i cant so i gotta go#but i feel sick at the thought ugh#i dont feel any energy to do any assignments of even go to class already and im not even there im still at home#ughhhhhhhhhhhhh#im so tiredd i cant do this#i have to pack and i cant get myself to do it either#vent#sorry sorry sorry#i need to talk about it i cant talk to anyone here cause ill just get yelled at or something my fam doesnt get it it just makes me#feel worse ughhhh#idk if i should even go#i feel like im wasting people's time and money and my own sanity just to underachieve and feel like shit all the time but the one thing#that therapist told me was that i shouldn't drop out because it's gonna solidify my views that im constantly failing at everything so this#has been one of the main reasons im still trying idk maybe itll do something one day#but heyy if i keep at it maybe next month my uni will give me money so i can go to a psych appointment or something#tho tbh the more i think about it the worse i feel about THAT like yeah i feel like shit but i feel like if just was better and stronger an#less lazy i could do it all easily
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tw stupid vent in tags
#tw self harm#tw vent#“being a teenager is the best!” I CUT MYSELF ALMST EVERYDAY.#IVE SCARRED MYSELF SO BAD ILL NEVER EVER BE ABLE TO WEAR SHORT SLEEVES NO MTTER HOW LONG IT SBENE SINCE IT HAPPENED#I ONYL SPEAK TO LIKE ONE OR TWO PEOPLE IRL I AM DETERIORATING#I ALREADY HAVE A FUCKING SCAR SO BIG U CAN FEEL WHERE IT GETS DEEP#HOW .#HOW IS THIS GOOD#HOW DO I HAVE HTE BEST LIFE HOW R PEOPLE JEALOUS#WHENEVER I GET MISGENDERED I CANT HELP BUT BITE MYSELF UNTIL I BLEED which is really hard to do...#IM SO SIKKC OF IT#IM SO TIREDD.#im going insane again arent i#THERES NOT BEEN A WEEK WITHOUT SELF HARM SINCE GOD KNOWS WHEN#EVERY LIMB HURTS except my right leg specifically i saved that one for spare parts#oh and my goddamn mother only cares about how ill look because of the scars and not that im FUCKING BLEEDING OUT BCUZ OF HER NO LESS#DOES IT GET BETTER. DO I STOP CUTTING MYSELF??#everytime i see a little too much blood it reminds me of when i did it and i feel sick to my stomach
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Should go buy some groceries uffff i cant do it im way too tiredd but i need to eat something tonight so
Or i could have milk and cereals for dinner 🫡🫡🫡🫡
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Oh fair and curious soul, dost thou not see, Thy ways most strange, a marvel unto me? With hunger vast, attention thou dost crave, Thy efforts bold, both endearing and grave. Thy pleas for reply, a spectacle sweet, Though verily, they maketh thy pride retreat. Perchance I’ll linger, to jest and to toy, Then vanish swift, thy patience to destroy. What shall thy countenance be, I do muse, When left alone to ponder and peruse? Yet hark, good friend, let this truth be conveyed, Our sport is but mirth, in jest 'tis displayed. No word I utter should burden thy heart, For naught is earnest in this playful art. A dance of wits, a masque we employ, No more than jest, to amuse and enjoy! (With quill in hand and jesting heart, I weave my words, a fleeting art. Fear not, dear soul, my teasing tune, For laughter lights the darkest rune. In friendship’s bond, we’re lightly bound, A merrier jest could ne’er be found!) -Thy graceful savior, thy steadfast friend, [REDACTED] am I, till time doth end.
Hello again!! ^^ I know I've just responded to your last message but I didnt want to ignore this one! Im not to sure what to say to this one, cz Im a lill tiredd:3 I hope you like your name Ive given you! If you dont, thats alright as wellll^^ Ah... so you saw my post asking you to write back... haha... I have to admit I was going a little crazy waiting for you:3 Im much better now that you've replied, but I cant promise Ill stay this way for long hehhe! Patiently waiting -Izzy
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Guys im so ficking tiredni have to getnup and do shit today and tomorrow and the tday afterm im. god. .. im gonna pass away . Im not cut out for thsi shit im so. Hgelp . Im so tiredd .i cant doo tjhis
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i am thinkin..g about...
him...eyelashes
#cats 1998#cats the musical#alonzo#im so tiredd and all i cant thibk ab is this#how his one eye has white lashes n the other do not#the details.... so good#luv it#luv him#luv u alozno#scopophobia#i guess
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god im so tiredd of people trying to turn the area 51 thing into like a hot take about Revolution... nobody is gonna actually go do it in the first place and people who dont already agree with you about overthrowing the government uwu are not gonna be the least bit Convinced by you going “wow you fucking idiot i cant believe you value alien life over real suffering people” bc they made a halo joke on twitter
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can ppl just respect my fucking boundries!!!!
im tired of every fucking bitch out here crossing what im comfortable with and compromising my health and safety!!!!
if i tell you its not safe for me to do X and you push me to do it im gonna start to resent you!!!
ive been the fuckin most mentally unstable and socially isolated since i was assaulted n kicked out, HAVE SOME FUCKING EMPATHY!!!! nigga i barely can afford to eat, im suffering working as much as i can as a multiply disabled person, im highly traumatized and im not fucking coping!!!!!
nobody is out here helping me (or is doing the bare minimum) with my whole ass life, ive got so lil social support bc im not in contact with friends or family, and some of yall online and irl cant give me simple basic human respect!?!?
no dont fucking try to text me when ive asked you not to bc i want to interact on my own terms!! no im not gonna go x that is literally unsafe for me just bc it makes you happy! no youre not finna sit up in my dms and patronize me over some bullshit!! no i dont want you to call me 15 mins after i said "im upset and i need space" bc you personally felt like you needed to apologize over what i need for my mental health!!! no youre not gonna objects like theyre more important than my life because youre only worried about it getting lost/broken and not me being potentially hurt!!! no youre not gonna sit here and sexualize me and act like its accident when you know youd never be comfortable with anyone doing that to you!!!! no youre not gonna do things to trigger my psychosis and or mania and then blame it on me!!!!
im tiredd of feeling so disrespected!!! respect my boundries!!! yall dont know half the shit i go thru but feel so comfortable defining my life experiences!!! taking away my truth!! and crossing very clear boundries!!!
dont reblog!!! but donate to me tho bc ive only have eaten 1 meal a day for 2 weeks!!! cashapp $sleepyhen venmo: sleepyhen
#dont reboop#me#personal#vent#sns but im not coping and for everyone to expect me to is asking for too much!#lots of ppl have deeply hurt me in the past 2 years im so fucking traumatized i need yall to be empathetic to that#so respect my boundries!! what i need!! what i can and cant do!! and what my limits aree!!!#please respect that after being assaulted i have 0 brain space to maintain relationships unless its already hella healthy n positive#i dont have brain space for a lot#so if im not responding or ask u for space or tell you i nees certian boundries in place to have a healthy relationship fucking respect that#respect me!!!!#this is about many ppl so if u feel attacked its not chu
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Hurts?... I guess.
life update, so on the 1st of october you had decided that you wanted your freedom. You wanted something new. You wanted to be the bad boy, the player you were. You missed the feeling and decided to leave me, leave our relationship. It was hard, it was the hardest 2 weeks for me. Seeing you with the other girl, seeing you change, seeing you become someone that I had never thought you could be. I cried my heart out, and my lungs feels heavy every time I woke up. I became the crazy ex-girlfriend because I cant move on from you. We were okay, but i really think this breakup gives us time to heal from things we never talked about during our relationship. The, on the 17/10 you decided to call me, drunk, crying telling me that you miss me. You can’t live without me. You made mistake, and I am being who i am, I take you back into my life. You told me things you had done at my back, the cheating, the heartbreak. I was disappointed. I was devastated. But i cant live without you. It’s hard. Really hard. So i choose to fix things back with you. I choose that. But I can't help feeling that you had done things with her. Things that i always beg for you to do for me in our relationship. The spotify cover makes my heart shattered. You look so inlove with her. You look happy with her. I really want to fix with you, i really want to have a future with you. But my heart still aches when there were things that you did with her. I was hoping that when you decided to leave me, there was no girls involve. But, things had been done. There’s nothing i can do about your mistake. I try to accept, but it is hard. and i dont think you’ll manage to stay. You’ll leave me again. I really think that you actually can leave without me. How can i let the past go? maybe it takes time. but im trying. im not sure, why im trying but, im trying. haihh. im so tiredd. The fucking girl had touch you!!! ride your car!!! went to our place!! aaaaaa im so fucking mad!!!! my heart cant take it actually!!! im a sentimental person, so little things i do take to heart and it stays. fuck, when will i recover from this? haih, is this the right decision? is getting back with you is the right thing to do? or it will just hurt me more in the future? will i be okay when you’ll decide to leave me again? am i being taken for granted again? what am i supposed to do. im stuckkk. really.
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it’s literally at the level of torture like actual sleep deprivation torture that every time I fall asleep my heart starts racing and I panic until I’m forced to keep myself awake bc I literally feel like I’m dying I !!!! Wtf do I even do!!! Am I actually having a heart attack!!!!
#i want to call my mom but its 530#am im so tiredd#im so scared like do i need to go to the er#i cant afford that
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