#idk just a rant/vent

[lumidotexe]

niche interest

[lovethespoiler]

"reaper sans is a confident flirty pervert whose only personality traits are being gay and simping for geno looll"

okay cool but did you know that when he was one of the newly created death gods he hesitated to reap chara when they were murdered because of the compassion he felt for their determination to live which ended up causing the reaping to fail and cursing chara to be corrupted forever and he will never stop blaming himself for what he did ? that he no longer hesitates to reap souls or seems to have mercy when he does so even if he feels terrible about it because of the heavy amount of guilt he feels every day ? that chara is the bane of his existence because they are a visual reminder of his mistake ?

did you know he views life and living as something negative for the reason that when people are alive they have to feel pain ? and he used to despise life because he had to see how people were suffering from simply being alive when he was doing his job ?

did you know he hates his job and just wants to be himself in peace but he can't because reaping is what he was created to do ? that every single thing i listed above are just a few examples of his chronic depression and nihilism that shape how he views the world ? I CAN KEEP GOING !!

[gougarfem]

i've never had such fake, shallow friendships as i have with white, liberal, "queer" friends. people i've supposedly been close with for years consistently left me on read when i texted them at 4am in hospital scared and alone with critically low sats because they didn't have the energy for emotional labour. you have to ask to vent, respect triggers, never ever traumadump, so real conversations are difficult because nobody wants to complain - unless, of course, it's related to identity somehow - you can say you had a bad day because your teacher is transphobic, but not because you had an argument at home or threw up or just didn't feel well - none of it comes from genuine concern but instead the rules and norms within your online community. constant reassurance, validation, knowing there's no possibility of a nuanced discussion on anything other than your approved safe topics. attempts at open communication feel sanitized and are laced with therapy-speak, not reflecting real human emotions, but "i sincerely apologize for crossing your boundaries" because it's ideologically wrong, the undertone is 'please don't make a callout on me', not 'i'm sorry', abuse and manipulation are wrong because they get you ostracised and put on blast publicly by your friendship group so any little disagreement comes with a flurry of reassurance that you aren't an abuser, and they still call you they/them behind your back, they still ask your other friends what they think of your opinion on ace discourse, have you crossed the line yet, can we cut you out yet, it's so fucking tiring and there's no space for real connection or humanity in all of it

[queenlucythevaliant]

Just to clarify my thoughts (since I've had a number of people ask me about it) re: Job and cursing God. There's a big difference between cursing God as used in Scripture and how we generally would think of cursing at God today.

Cursing someone, in the Bible, has a lot of depth to it. It's not just saying "screw you " in anger, it's got a sense of forsakenness to it. It's the opposite of a blessing, a removal of blessing. If the blessing is presence, your face shining on the person you're blessing, then a curse is absence. In some translations, Job's wife tells him to "renounce God and die," which I honestly think makes a lot more sense to modern ears.

Job says a lot of unpleasant things to and about God in his anger and grief. So do the Psalmists. A number of the Prophets. So can we. God can take it if we come to him with honest expressions of our emotion, including those not-so-nice ones directed at him. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting mad at God and saying, "How dare you, you bastard" when you suffer unjustly. You can say much worse, I think, without sinning, though I don't feel particularly inclined to give examples. But as long as it's an honest expression of your heart, I think you're doing exactly what prayer is for. You're presenting him your heart with an open hand. He can use that. Opposite of love is not hate but indifference, etc.

Job doesn't renounce God. Neither should we. But I think when you're truly suffering, you're gonna have those feelings toward God either way. He'd rather you address them with him directly than try to avoid them. Cursing at God in the modern sense is actually a great way to keep the relationship strong and not end up cursing/renouncing him in the Biblical sense.

[netscapenavigator-official]

You know what? On the verge of sounding hypocritical, I’m so fucking tired of people acting like the politicization of Helene and Milton is a bipartisan issue. It’s not.

It was Predominantly Republican police forces that threatened to arrest civilians for rescuing one another.

It was Republican congress members that failed to adequately fund FEMA.

It’s Republican talking heads who are currently villainizing FEMA.

It’s Republican voters who are currently spreading conspiracy theories that Biden is controlling the weather.

This is not a general politics problem. This is not a moral problem. This is not an “ugh, people these days” problem. This is a Republican problem.

Lest we forget that the Biden & Harris administration has worked quickly, efficiently, and as effectively as they’re legally allowed to, every time a disaster hits a Red state. Meanwhile, Trump threatened to withhold FEMA funds from California when they were suffering devastating wildfires because he didn’t like their Democrat governor.

So let’s get it straight: This isn’t a case of American morals going down the toilet. This is yet another case of Republican weirdos being off their rockers and getting away with it by framing it like a bipartisan reaction.

Don’t even try to pretend it isn’t Republicans doing a vast majority of the dehumanization to these survivors. Doing so is not only completely incorrect, but a complete and total disservice to those who would greatly benefit from Republicans shutting the fuck up for once and being normal about a tragic situation.

[jjdizz]

Posting this here as well

Food for thought

[oceanwithouthermoon]

maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying

[tsams-and-co-memes]

Just heard that Kat is leaving a lot of her online spaces because no matter where she goes, she gets bullied and harassed, and I'm speechless. She's a wonderful, talented person, and she doesn't deserve any of this. It's literally just a witch hunt at this point, which is so so unbelievably stupid

Why can't people just walk away when they don't enjoy things? Harassing and bullying people because they don't cater everything they do to your specific wants and needs should not be the default that people resort to. Anyone who does this sort of shit needs serious, professional help, and they need to go touch some grass or something

I don't like that this is happening. Not at all. I know I usually try to keep this blog as drama-free as possible, but I can't stay quiet about this. I've stayed quiet about a lot of things in my life for far too long, and I'm getting pretty fed up with it

Some of this bullshit makes me want to leave this fandom too, but I'm determined to stay, because I love the stories that are being told, I love the characters, and while the writing can be a little silly sometimes, I like it! I adore what these shows are doing, and I'm so happy that I can watch these things for free, because if I had to pay money to see them, that'd really suck, and I'd never be able to afford it

I will stay as long as possible, and I will continue to support the VAs however I can, because they're amazing and they deserve all the support and love in the world

If there's anyone following me that supports the horrid behavior that's been going on, anyone who thinks people are justified to target Kat, or anyone who's sent any hate to any VA ever, I don't want you here. This is my space, and I want only kindness and acceptance here, so take your bullshit somewhere else

I'm tired of all this nonsense, and honestly, I feel embarrassed and ashamed sometimes to even associate with this fandom. It is so, so bad, but I'm hoping that it'll eventually be sorted out and resolved

[absolutelynotsanebaby]

Okay maybe a bit of a ranty post but god i find that theory that Nadakhan had Jay in his room for “weird reasons” so fucking irritating. A) yall don’t need to make up stuff about Nadakhan being weird to a ninja Nya is quite literally already there and B) yall just fucking made that up and pretend it’s ‘implied’. He was probably in there for phycological torture reasons or because he was trying to escape constantly or Nadakhan’s just! Fucking like that!

[crowleyholmes]

Guys help I think Crowley is possessing me I am very suddenly overcome by such a WAVE of love for Aziraphale????

I mean I've always loved him but Jesus Christ it just got turned up to 100 suddenly I mean he's just so GOOD isn't he???!!!

He's so kind and he's so nice and he's so PRETTY I mean have you seen him in his little outfit with the comfortable-old-couch waistcoat he refuses to ever take off and the silly little bowtie he thinks is so stylish and you know it actually KIND OF IS but ONLY on him??!?! and that beige coat that suits him so well and he just looks so well put together and also so soft and cozy at the same time like HAVE YOU SEEN HIM???

And he's so gentle and he's so full of love for everyone and everything and he always tries So Hard to do the right thing... and he's so ready to change his mind about what The Right Thing is when he is presented with new information like that is such a rare trait!

And he's so FUN, you know all his weird little hobbies I mean who collects old prophecy books and misprinted bibles ONLY this weirdo!! And he's so obsessed with silly little magic tricks that aren't even magic at all when he could very easily do real magic instead but noooo, making people think you're doing real magic when your Not Actually doing real magic is so much more fun apparently idk??? And he collects licenses (shooting guns, driving cars, literally who knows what else, at this point I wouldn't be surprised if my guy knew how to scuba dive and fly a plane), and he learned French the hard way just because?? He likes learning I guess?? And he's so bad at it, it's so silly it's Infuriating but it's also so endearing he's taking such JOY in it!!

And maybe you'd THINK that's all he is, sweet little goofball, but no!!!! Beneath all that soft exterior, this very intentionally soft and fun and kind exterior that he's carefully cultivated for millennia, he's also so incredibly brave. I think about how he was ready to face the thing he feared the most, to save three innocent kids. He was so ready to give up everything he had, fall from grace and spend eternity in hell, just so these kids could live. Just so that family would be spared the grief. Just so they could have a few more short years of human happiness. He lied to his boss for justice and he lied to GOD for justice and he somehow got away with it who does that??? AZIRAPHALE IS WHO. And he Never backs down did you see him pick up his little sword at almost-Armageddon when Lucifer himself rose from hell to end it all and my angel was ready to fight Satan Himself if he had to HELLO???

And then he blew up his halo and casually declared war on hell to save two humans and his former boss and his bookshop what a fucking badass!!?!?

And have I mentioned how pretty he is yes I have but it's worth mentioning again because have you seen his eyes?? Color of the fucking sky, they are, and his nose is so perfectly shaped and his stupid lips with his stupid cupid's bow, and his hair!! Is just so Damn soft it's and I just want to watch him be himself and do his thing but I also want to HOLD him and protect him and keep him safe from everything because if anything ever happened to him I-... UGH.

I don't KNOW.

I JUST LOVE HIM SO MUCH.

[sickwithemotion]

ngl sometimes the inherent social isolation of being a lesbian makes me feel literally sick

[seventh-district]

“Why’s he call you Darlin’?”

on my knees begging my brain to stop trying to associate this song with Sam

[rapidhighway]

[coffeenonsense]

I usually try to stay in my lane most of the time (mostly bc I am far too old for fandom drama) but what the hell, it's friday, let's put that lit degree to use:

the way people are playing morality politics with fiction is really starting to genuinely irk me and I think some of the responses to ascended astarion are a perfect example of why this type of thinking is actually hugely detrimental to one's ability to meaningfully engage with fiction and also to the future of art.

astarion is one of the most well-written complex characters I've seen in recent years bar none (and I'm clearly not alone given the explosion of his personal fandom lol) and he has a truly compelling, emotionally resonant character arc whether you ascend him or not

If you keep him a spawn, you get a deeply touching, realistic character's journey to healing and personal growth where he learns who he is after the experience of his trauma and depending on the player's choice, explores his relationship to sex, romance and intimacy

If you ascend astarion, you get an equally emotional and well-rounded character arc where he chooses the power that allows him to have the desperate freedom and safety he's wanted, but in the process eschews any hope of real healing or personal development, and again, depending on the player's choices, restarts the cycle of abuse by taking cazador's place.

These options offer vastly different paths for the character and experiences for the player, but while yes, ascended astarion is the evil ending, and yes, ascending astarion is a tragedy, and a fucking incredible one (not only do you have astarion reigniting a circle of abuse but you have the narrative weight of KNOWING he could have actually overcome his trauma...hats off to the bg3 team tbh) but that does not mean ascending astarion MAKES YOU AS THE PLAYER EVIL

Ascend astarion because you love tragic story arcs, ascend him because you want to indulge in a master/slave vampire fantasy, don't ascend him because you want a healing character journey, don't ascend him because you want a sweet romance; all of these choices carry the same moral weight for the player, which is to say, none, because they are an exploration of fiction.

I know I'm saying this to the villain fucker website but it bears repeating; just because someone wants to engage with evil, fucked up characters or content does not mean they support evil acts in their real life, and furthermore, exploring dark, taboo or tragic concepts safely is part of what fiction is for. It enables us to look at those things from a distance, work through difficult feelings and develop greater understanding of what makes our fellow humans tick — and before you get it twisted there's also no moral issue with exploring fucked up media bc you're horny or just, because. You can take it as seriously (or as sexily) as you want.

It's starting to really concern me how many people not only do not get, but are violently opposed to this concept, because equating what someone likes in fiction with their real life moral code and actions is an incredibly dangerous and let's be honest, immature way of thinking that not only stunts your ability to engage with fiction but ironically, hampers your ability to deal with complicated issues and emotions in real life.

I don't know what's driving this trend (though purity culture is certainly playing a role) but it's definitely something that's not just impacting individuals but contributing to the commercialization of art, where we get games and stories and tv shows and books that regurgitate the same safe, mass marketable plotlines and character archetypes over and over and over again so corporations can squeeze out as much profit as possible.

Anyway, remember kids: There's no such thing as thought crime, reaching for morally pure unproblematic media is directly contributing to the death of art, and this is why funding the humanities is important.

[vangbelsing]

I need to rant/vent about pre launch anxieties/criticisms, so if that's not to your taste, pretend you do not see 😑 Also I don't think I'll mention spoilers but I'll tag it just in case

Okay so. For starters I GREATLY dislike Rook. From literally everything I've seen (and I have watched almost everything that has come out) they talk without player input WAY more than even Hawke did. They feel like they very clearly have a personality Bioware wants them to have but since it's a Bioware game they're giving you some choices. Like?? Even the Inquisitor didn't have this much auto dialogue. I'm sorry but I do not like it. At all. Either give me a character I can make my own or give me a fully fleshed out one, I am not here for the halfway. I just reeeally do not like the game taking agency and having my character constantly interject without my input. It takes me out of it so much. I know I'm in the minority on this, but everything I've seen of Rook has put me off. I much prefer silent protags, I'm sorry.

And for the next one, it looks like you can't have conversations with companions outside of their scripted cutscene dialogues. Which??? I'm sorry what. For the game that says it has the most fleshed out, fully realized companions, you have substantially lessened the amount of interaction the player can have with them. (seemingly, may be different than I'm thinking) It's just a strange choice to make, I think? Why wouldn't you let players have little side convos like asking them about their pasts and their homes? That is such a weird fit for the game that says it has way better companions than the others. Getting to ask Solas about the Fade or talking to Dorian about Tevinter was such a highlight of the game and the characters for me. Having Alistair tell you about how he grew up with dogs and Zevran getting homesick whenever he describes Antiva... It's small convo moments like that which really help cement them as being people as opposed to just characters in a game, in my opinion. They're just as important, and I'm gonna be so let down if we can't have talks outside of scripted cutscenes.

Still excited for the game but. God, I'm anxious and concerned. I'll gladly eat my words if it comes out and all of this was pointless worrying, but these are very important aspects for me, so if they turn out to be... Not the best, I'm gonna be ridiculously disappointed.

[cartoonstxrys]

It baffles me that people will simp for Jimmy Crystal (a villain who has done horrible things) because they consider him attractive, but they will hate on Meena (a character who has done nothing wrong) just because she’s a plus-sized character. The double standards in this fandom is atrocious, if you’re going to hate on a Sing character, at least target your hate on a character that ACTUALLY deserves it, like I don’t know, Mike the Mouse or Jimmy Fucking Crystal.