#idk just a rant/vent

[set-wingedwarrior]

I think it's good to be critical of media and stuff, but too many people use that as an excuse to act like a dick, therefore actively seek things to be "critical" of no matter how insane.

Sometimes stuff simply isn't made for you. I promise you it's okay to dislike something without a reason, or for a stupid one. Taste is taste, it's fine.

And it also okay to like something flawed! Kill the cringe, enjoy your shitty show in peace! I have my fair share of bad media I just ended up loving for a reason or another.

I love to hate and bitch about stuff as much as the other person, but at least I don't do that to the face of who likes that stuff, nor do I judge them as morally bad just for liking something I don't.

[lumidotexe]

niche interest

[gougarfem]

i've never had such fake, shallow friendships as i have with white, liberal, "queer" friends. people i've supposedly been close with for years consistently left me on read when i texted them at 4am in hospital scared and alone with critically low sats because they didn't have the energy for emotional labour. you have to ask to vent, respect triggers, never ever traumadump, so real conversations are difficult because nobody wants to complain - unless, of course, it's related to identity somehow - you can say you had a bad day because your teacher is transphobic, but not because you had an argument at home or threw up or just didn't feel well - none of it comes from genuine concern but instead the rules and norms within your online community. constant reassurance, validation, knowing there's no possibility of a nuanced discussion on anything other than your approved safe topics. attempts at open communication feel sanitized and are laced with therapy-speak, not reflecting real human emotions, but "i sincerely apologize for crossing your boundaries" because it's ideologically wrong, the undertone is 'please don't make a callout on me', not 'i'm sorry', abuse and manipulation are wrong because they get you ostracised and put on blast publicly by your friendship group so any little disagreement comes with a flurry of reassurance that you aren't an abuser, and they still call you they/them behind your back, they still ask your other friends what they think of your opinion on ace discourse, have you crossed the line yet, can we cut you out yet, it's so fucking tiring and there's no space for real connection or humanity in all of it

[xena-niablog]

Tired of stalking your socials why don't you make the first move bro.

[calamaroo]

Started overthinking again and just felt like I should apologize for my octo-lore projects taking so long 😮‍💨😞 I'm really sorry, I'm trying, but it's a matter of motivation and time management (which I am notoriously bad at) but school is almost out for the summer so hopefully I'll be able to finish up my bigger ones then T^T

@hers-underwraps @xoxotifia @mildy-vibing @animalsalvationassociation @urautismdiagnosis-wistie @oatzimir @blurrymind11 @brownyanyk @cacartoon @traumatizedartist

I can't think of anyone else who's ever mentioned/interacted with my posts about the octo-lore, and I'm too embarrassed to tag other people, so.

[bride-of-hemlock]

I find it kind of funny how anti-AA "media literacy" experts around the fandom claim you can only see Astarion's Ascension as a positive if you "miss the point of the story", and then their "deep analysis" is just the most surface level, shallow, 1:1 equivalency between a fictional story in it's own fantasy world and a "sorta similar" real life equivalent covered up in American therapy speak and parroting hays code-esque logic based primarily off of epitext, route-break consequences, and like, maybe one line of dialogue or whatever.

Not to mention - multi-narrativity? Genres? Literary concepts (catharsis through violence, etc.)? Room for different interpretations of what's romantic (in fiction or otherwise - yes, some people love HEA actually <3 eternal love is beautiful, and so is mutual obsession <3), like a classic vampiric love - unpunished, intense, obsessive, devoted and almost holy - eternal? Themes - like a vampire representing sexual desire, as such - historically - the vampire (or the LI) must be punished - a trope subverted, by letting them be happy together (a reading wholly supported in-text, sorry not sorry-this is what makes AA romance so great too)? Internal world logic? Or the fact that it's DnD, not real life? Naaah who cares, we saw out-of-context tiktoks and a youtube video essay and a discord message from one singular writer with strange opinions on what constitutes a romance, surely we don't even have to 100% the game ourselves!

[The amount of times I've seen someone say "AA is abusive and tragic and can't love!" and then some variation of "I'd never/'ve never let him Ascend" is baffling. Or how they barely pay attention to what's happening... Like honey how do you have an opinion on a text you didn't even read (or pay 100% attention to)?? Please- 💀]

And, tbh the:

"this is a bad in-game choice & will lead him to suffering 100% because [idk, killing The Wrong pixels in a videogame] would be bad irl and [cites epitext] <3 it's the only right interpretation!"

is basically "the curtains are blue because the author felt like it!" except insisting upon itself by using fancy words, but I digress.

xoxo ꨄ︎

[queenlucythevaliant]

Just to clarify my thoughts (since I've had a number of people ask me about it) re: Job and cursing God. There's a big difference between cursing God as used in Scripture and how we generally would think of cursing at God today.

Cursing someone, in the Bible, has a lot of depth to it. It's not just saying "screw you " in anger, it's got a sense of forsakenness to it. It's the opposite of a blessing, a removal of blessing. If the blessing is presence, your face shining on the person you're blessing, then a curse is absence. In some translations, Job's wife tells him to "renounce God and die," which I honestly think makes a lot more sense to modern ears.

Job says a lot of unpleasant things to and about God in his anger and grief. So do the Psalmists. A number of the Prophets. So can we. God can take it if we come to him with honest expressions of our emotion, including those not-so-nice ones directed at him. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting mad at God and saying, "How dare you, you bastard" when you suffer unjustly. You can say much worse, I think, without sinning, though I don't feel particularly inclined to give examples. But as long as it's an honest expression of your heart, I think you're doing exactly what prayer is for. You're presenting him your heart with an open hand. He can use that. Opposite of love is not hate but indifference, etc.

Job doesn't renounce God. Neither should we. But I think when you're truly suffering, you're gonna have those feelings toward God either way. He'd rather you address them with him directly than try to avoid them. Cursing at God in the modern sense is actually a great way to keep the relationship strong and not end up cursing/renouncing him in the Biblical sense.

[netscapenavigator-official]

You know what? On the verge of sounding hypocritical, I’m so fucking tired of people acting like the politicization of Helene and Milton is a bipartisan issue. It’s not.

It was Predominantly Republican police forces that threatened to arrest civilians for rescuing one another.

It was Republican congress members that failed to adequately fund FEMA.

It’s Republican talking heads who are currently villainizing FEMA.

It’s Republican voters who are currently spreading conspiracy theories that Biden is controlling the weather.

This is not a general politics problem. This is not a moral problem. This is not an “ugh, people these days” problem. This is a Republican problem.

Lest we forget that the Biden & Harris administration has worked quickly, efficiently, and as effectively as they’re legally allowed to, every time a disaster hits a Red state. Meanwhile, Trump threatened to withhold FEMA funds from California when they were suffering devastating wildfires because he didn’t like their Democrat governor.

So let’s get it straight: This isn’t a case of American morals going down the toilet. This is yet another case of Republican weirdos being off their rockers and getting away with it by framing it like a bipartisan reaction.

Don’t even try to pretend it isn’t Republicans doing a vast majority of the dehumanization to these survivors. Doing so is not only completely incorrect, but a complete and total disservice to those who would greatly benefit from Republicans shutting the fuck up for once and being normal about a tragic situation.

[se-conway]

imposter syndrome hits crazy i go through self-doubt at least twice a week about how "good" THLASWB really is and it deters me from working on it

[jjdizz]

Posting this here as well

Food for thought

[oceanwithouthermoon]

maybe its just me but i cant stand when people are like "it just doesn't sit right with me how teruhashi thought about aiura 🥺" like yes... its not supposed to ??? because her thinking badly of other girls and prioritizing male validation over everything is one of her main flaws ??? can we talk about that WITHOUT making it seem like shes not allowed to have a single actual flaw without suddenly becoming an awful person? nobody can handle complex female characters at all and its so fucking annoying

[goosehadfood]

Wanted to make a piece celebrating the completion of the pigeon pot but uhgggg I hate this I loved the sketch but i was too unfamiliar with colored pencils and messed it up arrrrrg chromatic blacks are so hard to make my hand hurts. If anyone wants to see the finished pigeon pot then you can comment and I’ll post it but ugh I feel so unmotivated now.

[f3mtguy]

oh that's... 😐

i have a lot to say about this but i don't even know where to start, sigh. trans men seem to only be interesting to people for our bodies, but only if they can shame and degrade them. the impregnation in question is 'forceful' (cnc) a lot of the time, and 99% of the kink subreddit is detrans and misgendering. (i don't wanna kinkshame the trans men who are into any of that btw, that's not my style. i hate it personally, but whatever floats your boat as long as it's consensual, y'know. i have a few kinks myself that i'm sure some people would be like 'uhh what?' about as well.) but i hate that that seems to be all we're good for, apparently. sexual gratification, misgendering, forced impregnation fantasies, and degradation.

[cartoonstxrys]

It baffles me that people will simp for Jimmy Crystal (a villain who has done horrible things) because they consider him attractive, but they will hate on Meena (a character who has done nothing wrong) just because she’s a plus-sized character. The double standards in this fandom is atrocious, if you’re going to hate on a Sing character, at least target your hate on a character that ACTUALLY deserves it, like I don’t know, Mike the Mouse or Jimmy Fucking Crystal.

[bisexualseraphim]

Also, I refuse to entertain the discourse as to whether acespec people are “oppressed” or not, but I will say it’s really fucking lonely — especially if you fall somewhere on the spectrum that’s a little more unconventional.

I’ve discussed many times before how I feel absolutely no attraction whatsoever except towards my lovely partner. I went through the phases queer men tend to: exploring many types of pornography and cruising on Grindr. I really tried, and none of it has ever done anything for me. It wasn’t until I started having sex with my partner that I realised, ohhh, so that’s how most people feel. And even then, enjoying sex with him is far more of an intimacy thing than the actual physical sensations. I do not fantasise about other people or consume porn. There is only him.

And yet when I’ve spoken about this in acespec spaces, I’m still treated as some sort of weirdo who doesn’t belong. I’ve literally been told many times that I can’t be demisexual because demis will still fantasise and consume porn (although that doesn’t line up with my understanding that demis require a close bond to feel sexual attraction, but never mind), and I’ve even been accused of having some weird internalised Christian puritan shit going on because I genuinely cannot comprehend ever looking at or thinking about someone in that way who isn’t my man. As if anything about this is a choice for me and it is offensive to them somehow. As if only feeling attraction to one person is like… “worse” than never feeling any attraction at all. I’ve never once shamed others for how they experience sex and sexual attraction and never would, yet people act like that’s what I’m inherently doing just by speaking about my own experiences.

So no, I won’t say whether acespec people are “oppressed” or not because honestly, when is this shit ever going to come up in conversation and ever be that relevant? But the fact I don’t feel I can talk about it even amongst other queer people, even amongst others in the acespec community, kind of speaks for itself.

Being a queer man who can’t relate to all the stereotypes and anecdotes about enjoying casual sex is one type of loneliness. Being a queer acespec man who can’t even relate to most others in the acespec community is another. I can never win, and either way I do not fit in.

[doliminuz]

My mothers obsession with being naked and sometimes wanting to see me naked was actually insane looking back

Girl why did you constantly have your hooha out you've got a dressing gown on tie the damn thing up you've got 3 kids in the house AND you're right across from your sons' room. And often times I was in the room with her naked, I SLEPT with her while she was naked.

"We're both girls" Okay and cover up woman. I dont care I'm you're daughter I didn't want to see that.

Then she'd say the same when she'd watch me change after I repeatedly asked her to leave/turn around or when she came into the bathroom to go to the toilet while I was showering, so I hid behind the curtain and she YANKED IT BACK?? What was the reason.

And all those times she'd make me hug her while naked? Hell I still remember trying to sleep only for her to be hugging me from behind while naked and I could FEEL the hairs pressed against me and EW EW EW EWWW it's gross and weird and creepy WHY was she like that

Shes so weird.