#idk its like.. lmk but also not lmk? yknow?
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my moot said she liked my swk design a lot and it made me happy..
I put a lot of work into that design :(
#idk its like.. lmk but also not lmk? yknow?#like obviously its lmk because of the colors n overall palette but it has that RHY FLARE#kinda like how my homestuck designs were original but you could stil go ‘omg aridan empora!!’#yknow???#funky like that#anyways im happy about the uhm#yeah :)#i will be drawing him some more me thinks
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Want to write a cute, MAYBE modern au, hurt/comfort fic focused on Zuko and an oc he/him love interest. Based on this quote from the Brobecks: “Could this be love at first sight? Oh, wait, I said that before. I need a place for the night, happy to sleep on the floor.”
Uh i probably won’t have the spoons to write this for god knows how long so if u have any requests or suggestions abt it just lmk
#zuko#atla zuko#zuko atla#atla#avatar the last airbender#hurt/comfort#angst with a happy ending#hm or i could see what its like to ship him w sokka#i never have before but like im not#opposed to it yknow?#hm if u ship sokka and zuko tell me why? i also want to see the cuteness#idk just lmk
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While Ganondorf is busy as king of the Gerudo and Linebeck is often out at sea, they hardly manage to find time to spend together- but with the right timing and allowances, find time for a bit of desert exploration.
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ganonbeck fic complete!!
here's a new link to chapter 1, and chapter 2 is finally up as well.
FanFiction.net version: X
#take 2 new post bc the og got eaten and its finished finally#ganonbeck#ganondorf#linebeck#my writing#fanfiction#loz#legend of zelda#salty talks#ooooh boy. just another link to ch. 1 bc. uh. its been a year so recap also eeehh considering that the first post is eaten yknow#the ao3 version is m bc. it fits more with the new stuff. but in ff.net its still teen bc in ff.net m is usually just straight up smut#im not versed in how ppl post ao3 links and also i dont really care but this is a little nicer than the og one#a liiiiittle self-concious abt this hot minute since i last posted anything or posted a chapter link so idk lmk if smth is fucked#im gonna play stardew valley to cool off for a bit#oh yeah uhhhh. more lots of dialogue also final bite scene#imo it drags a little in some places but i do like how this turned out
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so i feel like how aspec sexuality connecting to abandonment trauma and personality disorders is not talked ab enough, well it is by ppl with personality disorders but i wanna talk ab it basically w my experience w bpd and being aro/ace spectrum
and i know fellow bpd havers know the feeling of being unlovable very well. For me i'm demiromantic and it would take literal years for me to actually develop a genuine romantic attraction to someone, and if when i do, that person would straight up become my fp and it would be torture pain and suffering (for me mostly)
Like romantic feelings for me is nothing fun, because its linked to my mental issues inherently i feel. And i still want a romantic relationship one day but that feeling of being unlovable and like, i'm just not suited for it (in the sense that i couldnt handle it i feel) is like,, i will just not try there is no point. I will suffer for another person always wondering do they hate me will they leave me, ofc they will there's not much i can offer even. I will end up hating the person i love and then go back to loving them and then hating them etc etc.. Not to mention amanormativity (idkkk if thats how u spell it or if thats the right term) but basically i assume people want something from me that i simply cannot give. I will never be able to have sex with someone, i will never want to, I actually just wouldn't put myself thru that for someone else and because i feel like thats all anyone would actually want from me i will just probably never want to be in a relationship. Like for me personally i'm supperrr asexual like u have no idea i've known i was ace since i was literally 10 yrs old and nothing has changed i will always be like this, and i dont mind doing *some* suggestive sexual stuff if its fun and chill but the second a line gets crossed i just want no part in it and i refuse to put myself thru that.
And i'm also very fine w being single like i only ever feel like i want a gf once in awhile but i feel completely whole just by myself and my life is objectively easier and more relaxing without romance. For me i don't think i'll actually be ready for a genuine romantic relationship until i feel like i am and that will be hopefully when i'm older lol
Idk i feel like because of the stigma against aro/ace ppl and also the experience of bpd, it enhances the feeling of being unlovable. But I want to make it clear to ppl reading this post that i'm aware that i actually am lovable, this is just a feeling. And i didn't write this to complain, and if you have the same experience as me or a similar one, that doesn't mean there is no hope for you or for me. The world is so much bigger than how my brain perceives everything. Like i do want to stress that these feelings are mostly a symptom of my mental illness lol and if you have bpd or a pd it doesn't make you unlovable, bc everyone is lovable by default yknow.
Even people who's hearts are a mouthful, like mine. And even if ur reading this and you don't have the experience of having a pd but you still have feelings of being unlovable or like, there is no hope for you in romance because you are arospec or acespec or both like me, well there is hope for everyone because the world is so much bigger than societies stigma and people are as diverse as the stars.. But lmk if you have a similar experience anywayz ppl <3
#longish post#bpd#actually bpd#borderline personality disorder#actually borderline#asexual#aspec#aromantic#demiromantic#bambi lesbian#ace lesbian#personality disorder#aroace#acespec#arospec
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OOC | Varmont Belief System Thoughts
sooooo im having some frankly insane ideas abt Roderick’s belief system thanks to the Phoenix iconography (like…boiled down roderick might legit worship death effectively a la the faceless men of braavos in asoiaf/got?!!?!! Though in a slightly more life/death ying/yang creation through destruction kinda way a la dark!motto ‘in my end is my beginning’ sorta way idk Sfjkhffg HELPPP!) and before I get too carried away bc idk if we need a death cult emperor 😂😭 ummmm I wondered if you had any thoughts abt the varmont faith/the one god/etc adhkkjgdgh
ok so!!! this all comes out of the symbolism of the phoenix married to the whole ~fire focus in both that and in...well, roderick's actions laksdjfkljsdf so here're some ideas i have which may or may not be any good klsdjfkalsdflkj
creation through destruction as repped by phoenix.
burning witches cleanses them, releasing their lifeforce out into the world clean and pure.
perhaps reincarnation a la phoenix or perhaps destruction and death creates new souls and life etc????
Phoenix flames, sun, light, fire — dichotomy of light/dark, good/evil — Astaira and the staffords literally take the night as their standard (three stars in the night sky) and worship demons, conquest cleanses etc
oooh maybe infuse Phoenix w Renaissance salamander motifs — immune to fire and poison etc
ok so mary queen of scotts, her motto (as mentioned above) was 'in my end is my beginning' by which she meant as a catholic that yknow she'd go to her reward in heaven etc but what if such a concept were present in like...a more ~ouroboros kinda way as represented by the phoenix
so the ouroboros is an ancient egyptian symbol of a serpent rounding on itself to eat its own tale, which representing basically...unity and the natural eternal cycle of destruction and re-creation
in ancient egypt, this meant...oof ok so not to get ~too bogged down in ancient egyptian spiritualism/philosophy which is its own huuuge topic needless to say hahahaha but they had two really bit concepts that i think could impact us here: the tension between chaos (bad) and order (good) w their god-emperor maintaining that balance and the belief that without him there to do that everything would collapse into deadly chaos AND that...in essence...the soul was split into parts, w basically like...life force which was also a familial essence being a part of the soul that recurred in the world, and personality being part that was ~just you that would go to its ultimate judgment after death
there is also the ancient saying 'death is the only god who comes when you call' right
so!!!! w the ouroboros and phoenix symbols being connected (cycles of life, death, rebirth), what if we basically connect cleaning fire w order (i know, i know!) bc...you can summon a fire, right, you can make that you can't really make earth yknow...so its ~controllable even tho we don't think abt it that way like...i swear this can work ;DDDDD as a cleansing, controllable, destructive force that gives birth to new life (after a forest fire new life bursts from the ashes in a way that it doesn't w say a flood or a drought yknow) and yeahhhh idk!!!!!!!
anyway lmk if this makes any sense/is any good as sort of a foundation for our one god religion??????? cause i feel like maybe this one is just...maybe one bridge too far? ;alskdjfkljdsf ;DDD
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Why I think Mafuyus been getting these 4 stars
I get why ppl don't like that mafuyu was a 4 star in all of the 4th rotation cards but like also she's pretty damn relevant to everyone in niigo right now
I'll see if I can find it but there's a rly good post on here I found a while ago about how the immisible discord 4 stars portrays niigo through the eyes of mafuyus mum but it explains the base if my opinion of why I think the 4 star thing is fine from a story and character aspect
Kanade stealing Mafuyu who was meant to be in a cage, and instead in kanades 4th event she's thinking about her family. And yknow. Kanade kinda took mafuyu in. So she's family now, she lives there. Also Kanades issue is about her saviour complex, in which Mizuki is the person she's hoping to save. So if anyone has Mafuyu in their 4 stars it's gonna be Kanade since they're so linked as character and I think its weird to pretend they're not.
With Mizukis card, it very clearly kinda depicts them as a source to run away, the whole stealing kids w candy thing, Mizuki in the 4th event its about helping mafuyu and planting the seeds of the idea to run away. Also the event is called our escape for survival. So. Idk how much I really need to go about this one.
Also bonus points for Mizukis pride sleeves
And Enas is her being rebellious in a school setting by being an artist, as art and the way mafumom wants mafuyu to succeed in school typically don't mix. And Enas event is about her being an artist making the decision to go to art school with her dad being involved. And with them both having issues with their parents regarding their futures and passions I think its p fitting to have mafuyu be there.
Idk if this makes any sense to anybody I'm just spitting some ideas out cuz I need to get em out before i sleep, I u have anything to say feel free to lmk! I'm v tired rn so if this is incoherent or just basic then that's why
#anyway#tomisonline#niigo#kanade yoisaki#mafuyu asahina#ena shinonome#mizuki akiyama#nightcord at 25:00#25 ji nightcord de#rambles
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I had a utmv harem(??) fic idea, and idk if im ever gonna write it, since im not much of a writer, so I'll put it out into the world in case it miraculously gets to someone who wants to try their hand at it (lmk if you do!). Feel free to ask questions if you want, i put more thought into this idea than what i wrote
Basic skeleharem/antiharem fic setup, machine goes brrr and drags a bunch of alternates into one universe, but Fresh (post loveball, give him some extra feelings) is also there, and stuck bc of hand wavey bullshit i never figured out. Anyway, Fresh is stuck not only in the universe, but in his host (which was already Not New when he got yoinked) bc self preservation. Yknow, most people dont take kindly to soul eating, body snatching parasites in their home and he isnt here to to risk his life for what he thinks will likely be a temporary road block. So he's rationing rn, hes gonna make that little soul last as long as possible (or until hes able to leave, whichever comes first)
Enter Y/N, a human with plenty of excess soul energy they're not using for a currently slightly starving parasite to slorp up. Figure humans already have more ambient soul energy than monsters, but yn here gives off more than average, whether its stronger soul power or just an average soul that leaks more than normal souls, it makes a decent meal. Fresh slightly glues himself to them bc Food, and they become buddies. Yadda yadda, he gets more feelings as time goes on bc hes been using the same host for a while, and either romance or qpr happens, i like the qpr option bc i like emotion having Fresh to still be aroace.
I personally would make it an antiharem if i were to write it, gives me less work for other characters and much more of a reason to have Fresh be concerned about his continued existence (antiharem fics are basically made to have the majority of the cast ooc and mean). In that case i figure the main girl probably doesnt like Fresh very much and avoids him (not much food from her), he shows absolutely zero interest in sex or romance and is too smart for his own good.
TLDR: I made up a fic that tortures Fresh bc i wanna cuddle him
#fresh is straight up not having a good time rn#i might do art of this idea‚ itll be under the tag haremverse/haremverse!fresh if i do#utmv#fresh sans#fresh parasite#undertale#fic idea#fic prompt#undertale fic prompt#undertale fic idea#cat screaming about nothing#i love fresh‚ i promise
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rant 🤪
i love my best friend dearly and spent three months after i got eras tickets trying to convince her to come with me bc i got extra and she kept just saying she can’t bc school this school that but now! a month before the concert! she’s like oh btw i was talking to [this other friend of ours, my og swiftie friend] and also some other people who are going and now i think i wanna go but i don’t have my schedule yet so i have to wait but i wanna go sooo if you still have the tickets lmk how much bc i want in but if you did sell the tickets it’s fine
mind you this is like 24h after i Finally came to terms w rly selling them (for AGES i was like. i wanna hold onto one more bc what if she wants to come so i’ll sell the others in a pair and my dad was like ??? you’re insane but whatever lol) and NOW? after talking to other people??? now you decide you want in????? and idk why i’m irrationally weird feeling abt this maybe it’s bc i am in fact exhausted but. girl ?? i spent months trying to CONVINCE yes convince you to wanna come and ???? nothing. but now??? bruh.
and to boot! my dad and this whole selling tickets for a fortune thing. he’s always been like ? you’re just lol gonna give it to her for face value? that’s a $1200 gift we’re talking about. and i’m like bro it’s not a gift lol she’ll be paying for it. but he’s like dude profit margins. and i really didn’t feel that way til yesterday when i was told (by stubhub or wherever i was looking) that my seats have been selling for upwards of $3k which is INSANITY in its own sense but yknow what he did have a point! and i know i’m not actually considering not giving her a ticket bc thag was my whole point of getting however many i could at presale bc. i do wanna be able to go with friends and have it be a whole time yknow?? but now i’m feeling petty and like. bro i talked this up for so long and it took. someone else’s opinion to get you to wanna come w me???
and don’t get me wrong we’d have the time of our lives she really is my best friend and my sister wouldn’t mind if she came (i don’t think) bc she’s chill and they like each other but also like. i’ve gotten into the mindset that it really is just gonna be me and my sister and i got underratedly hyped for it!!!! like yes she’ll be 13 but yknow what that’s such a blast and literal core memory for her i have no doubt about it. and now i’m like. maybe we Shoukd just be going alone not with other people even if it is my best frjend
UGH so many thoughts and honestly it’s not imminent bc obviously she didn’t commit yet but i’m gonna have to tell her she needs to commit or not bc i have to list the tickets soon so i’ll either save hers or i won’t but like. she needs to commit to it
🥴🙃🫣😵💫
#this has been a rant#sorry idk i’m having a hundred mph thougjts abt this rn#and if this makes me sound snobby. idk what to tell you man sorry lmfao
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now. tell me about your ocs. like in general i mean
ok!!!!
this is tekz!!!!! she isnt really an OC but whatever. im stealing her. She came from an abandoned 4-part story on deviantart in 2009 called wolfs life!!!
you see!! my sibling collects vinyls and cassettes and cds and shit, right? they get them from bandcamp and he likes this one artist called OK glass!! Ok glass used to go by the name dictionary attack and one of his old, extremely obscure songs was called WOLFS LIFE 3. (it probably would have become lost media if he hadnt archived it lolz. this isnt particularly relevant i just think my sibling is really cool XD) anyways they showed it to me cuz the song and by extension the story was TOTALLY my kinda thing!!! and it WAS!!!! the song goes super hard. Its pretty much a narration of wolfs life 3... there arent any songs for the other parts. nobody knows how mr. john dictionary attack (idk his name LOL) found the story. Pretty much nobody cares about it except for my sibling and me. This song is a fucking treasure and both it and the story are such relics of their time that i cant help but absolutely ADORE how silly they are!!! Anyways the story itself is about a girl named Tannika, who goes by Tekz!! She has a crush on a boy who sits next to her in math class and a preppy best friend who ends up ALSO having a crush on the same kid which in 2009 translates to them being RIVALS!!! Anyways one day on a full moon tekz turns into a white wolf which is the rarest and presumably most magical type of wolf!!!! She turns into a wolf on full moons or when something romantic happens between her and her crush. Theres a reoccurring motif of one of them going "can i borrow a glue??" and them both going "red in the face". During math class. Anyways im OBSESSED with this story and the song. Wolfs life only ended up having 4 parts, one of which was never actually a part of the series itself for some reason!! And the story hasnt been updated since, yknow, 2009. So ive taken it upon myself to revamp it and make everyone emo!!! surprise user wildspiritwolve on deviantart!!!!
Anyways yeah. the song is so insane. i love it. Literally some 13 year old writes a really cliche self-insert story about wolves and uploads it to deviantart in 2009. 2 years later some random dude finds the 3rd part SOMEHOW and makes a song out of it that nobody cares about. in 2021 the song almost becomes lost media but luckily it doesnt because some random kid downloaded it. Said random kid shows it to their autistic sibling (ME!!!!). Said sibling becomes extremely attached to the song and its characters. Every part of this story is so obscure and weird!!!! My versions of the characters are pretty much my love letter to the internet, which allowed this chain of events to occur, much to everyones horror.
Heres Wolf's life 3 in all of its glory:
here are some links to the original story:
and this one is chapter 4!!:
sooo. thats just 1 of my ocs. the others dont have as much irl backstory to them but lmk if you wanna hear about them too!!! i hope you enjoy!!!
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ok so bananaleaf au, aka swk/pif au, AKA the specific one i wrote with Hari just... is so full of YEARNING and just !!
honestly, with the details of the novel bleeding into the LMK verse, i really, really, really like the idea of the ‘ perfect family ‘ image being broken and for someone to just.. idk, be her friend ? and of all people, Wukong, despite not being able to finish the journey unlike in the novel, becoming her friend seems like a very funny kind of irony ?
then as he hangs out with her, learning of DBK’s infidelity and Iron Fan’s reluctance to leave out of pure stubbornness, there’s a sort ‘ forbidden fruit ‘ aspect to it -- she wants that freedom Wukong has, and he wants her to be loved and give her that freedom. in her reluctance, there’s also Red Son’s feelings to include in her eventual decision to leave the Bull King, but she just !! wants to go back to being someone’s one and only, to be loved and happy and happy to be loved and not just an extention of someone else and a thing to brag about !!!
it does happen, eventually, as Wukong, who is equally as frustrated with her as he is in love with her, and keeps her company in DBK’s absence ; he brings gifts, showers her with poetry and pleads with her to let him sweep her off her feet ! but the shift happens over a long period of time and its ! just !! so !!
[ VAGUELY GESTURES WITH HANDS ]
YKNOW ???
#☼ ◜ooc.◞#◜iron fan / au. swk.◞ 🇾🇴🇺‘🇷🇪 🇦 🇵🇪🇦🇷🇱 🇮🇳 🇾🇴🇺🇷 🇴🇼🇳 🇫🇱🇴🇼🇪🇷🇧🇪🇩.#// this variant is exclusive to hari and they just!!!#// make me FEELS THINGS
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thanks ! i am unfortunately an insane honor roll student so im like constantly on the grind tm - but i enjoy it! also. warning for the rest of the ask bc it is just a huge "here is my opinion, whats yours?" so if its like uninteresting lmk 😔 I am unfortunately studying craftsmanship and business/finance ethics in college so its like my thing tm
anyhow - i get what you mean about the whole seeing your peers' work not perform as well and being disheartened. i and many other nsfw oriented writers have been there before and im sure people will be there after : its not a bad thing to want recognition and it was one of the main reasons why i took a step away from writing.
but the main thing that brought me back was that writing itself so very fun, and in order to participate in "fun" i had to reevaluate what it means to "succeed" in a craft - esp on tumblr dot com hell site supreme - and re-reconcile that with my own wants and needs as someone who participates in the craft of writing. how much do i care vs how much should i care about numbers in comparison to others, and does it mean more when friends or strangers like my work, and so on and so forth. im not saying you should do this too or that i have a particular answer to that balance, more so just some misc. thoughts from one writer to another.
anyways sorry for the wild tangent - hope it doesnt sound like a lecture 😳 i know its "just" fanfiction but fanfiction is also tied closely to community, and to participate in community is a skill in and of itself ! all of this is just to say that, like fairy anon said, i think you should have fun. put your enjoyment and emotional enrichment in your craft first and foremost and be proud of the things you did and also be proud of the things that succeeded at the same time, and all that. its ok to get silly with it and still be scared, and its valid to let those fears keep you from getting too silly all the time - but i would still rather you get silly than not at all, if that makes sense
- 🐶 to the moon
omg honor roll student... i haven't been that academic since i was a freshman in high school TT
i get what you mean! part of my issue is that i have a genuine passion for writing, to the point where i want to be like. an actual author someday. so i spend days and weeks writing and editing and putting everything i've got into a work just to watch something i spent maybe ten minutes on get more notes and i'm like 👹👹👹
i might sound whiny and annoying about it and i really do enjoy writing just for fun and not for notes!! but. yknow. sometimes i don't feel like i get much back at all and i'm just like a monkey sitting at a typewriter
maybe i take this shit too seriously idk.. i've been having a lot of doubts about my writing and a lot of performance anxiety recently. like i have a lot of anxiety about people judging me for the things i write...? it might just be all in my head but i've always been like that i have really bad social anxiety lol one reason i don't have ANY socmed outside of tumblr
i'll try to be less serious and have more fun, but i get caught up in my own head sometimes.
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small ramble/vent ???
ive been hanging out w one of my friends a lot recently (primary school friend that i lost contact w and then met again almost a decade later lol; we work together now too) and i really enjoy his company and feel pretty comfortable around him (as in as comfy as i do with my friend of the last decade) but our manager made a joke about us dating and my brother also thinks we have a thing (he talked to his friend who is the younger sibling of one of my friends, who told me HAHA) and i. im scared again?
like. im scared the friendship is gonna start.. dying, drifting, etcetc. and i dont think it'll be like what it was in highschool but i feel like im gonna be super sensitive to it if people start talking about it behind our backs?
like if theyre upfront and are just asking then thats fine, but if its constant jokes and whispering behind my back and if it makes my friend uncomfortable and leads either of us to start distancing ourselves from the other, im gonna ??? be really sad?? and i know this sounds super childish and im hoping all my current friends are more mature than the people in highschool but yeah idk i.
im seeing him tomorrow and i kinda wanna be upfront about it (ie explain my worry and ask him to just lmk if it happens and if it makes him uncomfy etc and just communicate if he doesnt want us to talk/hang out as often/give me lifts often) but i qlso feel like. it's gonna make things weird?
and yet at the same time i think (i hope?) hes like. idk the word but i think/hope he can understand that and not let it make it weird? idk if that makes sense.
we did talk about relationships and stuff and i feel like he really is emotionally mature/rêcptive/intelligent (.????) compared to the other people around me HAHAHAHAH and in a serious way, not in a dismissive way, so i feel like it'll be okay but also 😃😃😃 scared. always scared.
((was gonna leave the following out but then i started thinking more hm)) also between you and me, im actually seriously lowkey scared i actually have a crush on him??? but also im happy being friends/with the way things are rn so i dont think so. i think my main worry is that when i get comfortable with someone, i get worried about the rumours etcetc and so some part of me wants to have something solid/legit so thatpeople CANT spread rumours and whispers etc. you cant tease people about them dating if theyre actually dating? /// i feel like level of comort w some of my other male friends too but they have partners so im like. idk i dont have the same stress because people wouldnt say the same things yknow idk if that makes sense.
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A Midsummer Night’s Kiss
Fandom: Code Name Verity
Word Count: 540
Ship: Julie/Maddie
Notes: I wrote this on a whim after beginning a reread of Rose Under Fire. I played around with my style a bit too so it might read differently than some of my other stuff, but I really like it and might mess around with the style more in the future? Who knows!
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“Hey Queenie, want a cigarette?”
“Sure.”
There’s a shuffling of bodies as the pack of smokes makes its way towards the woman called Queenie. That’s not her actual name, though.
There’s a sound of bombs outside, but the girls in the bunker remain calm, sitting in a cloud of cigarette smoke.
Queenie pulls one out, graceful as ever, and holds it between her fingers, examining it for a moment. She closes the tin and holds it up to her lips. Someone offers a light while someone else takes the tin.
A deep inhale, letting the tobacco and nicotine and smoke swirl around her lungs before exhaling, a puff of smoke escaping her mouth.
Already she feels more at ease than she was earlier.
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She takes another drag, noticing someone sitting by herself in the corner. Queenie exhales again and stands up as much as she can in the bunker, moves over to the girl sitting by herself. She takes a seat next to her, introduces herself, and offers the cigarette.
Secretly she wants the other girl to take it, to know what her lips would taste like.
“No, thank you,” she says, holding up a hand and looking at the girl who had offered it.
Queenie was disappointed for a moment, but took a seat and another drag of the cigarette.
They talked together for a while, and it was nice. It felt like they were just hanging out in the cellar while hiding from their parents after accidentally knocking over the priceless family heirloom.
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They talked long past the life of the cigarette, hands inching closer to each other, but not daring to touch, not yet.
Queenie asks if the other girl, Maddie, if she’s ever thought about kissing another girl before. Maddie says she hasn’t thought of kissing anyone since the war started. Seen too many girls lose their fiances to the war already, and now wasn’t really the time to be thinking about those things.
“Maybe once,” she says, “in school. There were always pretty girls that you couldn’t help but think about that.”
Queenie moves her hand closer, fingers brushing Maddie’s lightly.
“I know,” says Queenie, “exactly what you mean.”
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She looks over at Maddie, eyes drifting to her lips and back to her eyes, hesitating for a moment before leaning in and leaving a ghost of a kiss on her lips. They tasted like the sky, like the feeling you get before you jump from a plane, knowing that everything will be fine but still hesitating before taking the leap.
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She pulled back, pulling her hand away, the realization of what she had just done and the guiltiness of doing it settling in.
Maddie pulled her back in, wanting to taste the lingering cigarette smoke and the feeling of landing a broken plane on the first try, knowing that she had taken the risk and succeeded, chasing the high that came with it.
And for a moment, the sounds of bombs exploding above them were gone, as the two sat together for the rest of the night, hand in hand, just talking and stealing kisses in the middle of that warm summer’s night.
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They knew it couldn’t last forever, though. Nothing ever does, does it.
#shay writes#code name verity#julie beaufort-stuart#maddie brodatt#femslash february#idk if there's any prompts for that but is f/f and yknow.#the brief search i did showed some stuff but i dont think this fits any of the prompts people came up w?#but its still femslash and february so im using the tag#if someone wants me to remove it just lmk via ask ig#smoking tw#cigarettes //#ask to tag too#also i want to know what yall think of this style. like i said i really enjoyed it#but do you guys think i should post more w it?#okay im done tag talking byeeeeeee#NO WAIT ONE MORE THING#I FORGOT TO ACTUALLY SAY JULIE'S REAL NAME EVEN THO I DID SAY QUEENIE WASNT HER REAL NAME#I WANTED TO WORK IT IN SOMEWHERE AND I JUST KINDA SLIPPED THE 'and introduced herself' IN THERE SO IT WOULD AT LEAST NOT BE WEIRD#TO HAVE THAT LINE AT THE BEGINNING#okay really done tag talking now
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after spending the day rereading my first novel for the first time since i wrote it, i have a message for 16-year-old izzy:
you did great.
#IT WAS MESSY. so so SO MESSY. i cannot overstate the messiness.#the concepts i was attempting to convey were so far beyond my skill level at that point#and the plot was so overcomplicated and poorly executed#but there was So Much Love in this thing. so much Passion and Intent and Hope.#it’s still to this day the most ambitious thing i’ve ever attempted#and i’m so glad i did. because i love having it now to look at and i love how the ideas have grown and changed with me as i’ve learned#until we’re here. now. and i’m gearing up to scrap and rewrite the entire thing with a new premise that might finally do it justice.#i’m very proud of young me for the time and effort and perserverence that went into cursed draft 1.#(which is rly like cursed draft 4 being realistic but. yknow.)#idk. i’m rly happy i reread it and that i was able to enjoy it without judgment#and i’m rly excited bc i can see it for its parts now and i know how to take what i loved and amplify it into a truly viable story. :’)#ALSO if u wanna see a whole reaction thread w snippets lmk i can link u to my twitter thread! or just go follow me there! im @izzylizardborn#izzy.txt 2019#cursedwip
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hi hello bit of a long shot but does anyone have the les mis 1985 barbican preview audio that isnt this one? i know it exists but any person i’ve found who has it closed their trades in like 2014 or something and its stressing me the hell out. i have stuff to trade (here) or if anyone wants to gift it that would be great too. thaaaaanks
#les mis#les miserables#musical trading#uhhhh idk what other tags to use#sorry :(#also if u wanna trade for anything else anyway just lmk what u have and we can... work somethin out#im like literally about to tear my hair out#like ive seen a transcript but it cant be the transcript of THIS version bc parts are different#and its missing the first line of stars also#aaaaaa!!!!#i actually also need an audio of the original cast at the palace theatre too#but yknow
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purrs of delight and embarrassment
"tighnari," ignored. "tighnari," ignored. "tighnariiiii-"
"what do you need now, y/n?" tighnari sighs, finally responding. there isnt any point in ignoring you, youll just get more annoying.
"you know what im gonna ask you, so whats your answer?" you smile, trying to look as convincing as possible.
tighnari glares back at you, why cant you take no for an answer? he wouldve let you later but hes busy and theres ppl around. "no y/n, you cant pet me right now. one its dehumanizing and two im busy." he finally responds, only succeeding in making your smile fade, your resolve isnt broken yet.
"but think about it foxy! i get to pet your ears and tail and you get to be pet, its a win win deal!" you try your best to reason with him and you swear you see him contemplate it, but alas his response barely differs,
"y/n there are people around." you quickly catch onto whats going on, so you do your best to tease him, "oooh i get it! your shy arent you foxy ;D?"
"y/n stop calling me foxy!" he hurried to hush you but failed.
"if you were shy you coulda just told me yknow! ill get us out of here ;)!" you wink at tighnari before making an automated vine bot to do his work for him using your dendro vision.
(reader has a dendro vision that can make vine people or animals that do wtv she wants. lmk if u wanna see more of that concept ;p)
you smile, proud of your creation. you also snicker at tighnaris shock, "now your workll be done and you can come home with me! lets get going foxy!"
"y/n since when could you-"
"since forever, now come with me!"
you and tighnari set off to go to your house. when you get there both of you take showers, change into comfy clothes tighnari stays over alot so he has clothes at ur place ;) and crash on your bed.
once you get comfortable on your back you open your arms, waiting for him. tighnari wordlessly settles in on top of you, laying with his head on your chest and his arms circling your waist. this position gives you full access to his ears and even his tail and he knows that, thats why he did it. you smile at him knowingly, but all he does is scrunch his eyes shut.
with a giggle you place one hand on his ear, rubbing circles into the base of it. your other hand is on his tail petting it. you think a little bit about what would happen if you gave it a tug but dismiss the thought in favor of enjoying this moment with tighnari.
and then... he starts... PURRING!
your beloved foxy is purring, you need to engrave this moment into your mind forever, but then he quickly stops. tighnari burrows his face further into your bust in his embarrasment.
"awe, didnt i tell you you dont need to be shy? its just us, no one elses here. its just me and you at home foxy <3." you reassure tighnari to the best of your ability and slowly he starts to pur again.
after 15 minutes of staying like this tighnari falls asleep. you smile down at his sleeping form, glad that he feels comfortable enough with you to be vulnerable like this. you fall asleep a little bit after him with your face snuggled in between tighnaris ears <3.
i was so close to making this smut, but i decided on fluff. maybe ill make a tighnari smut post later idk. i have a bunch of drafts and a few requests im working on so ill probably be posting more <3.
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#tighnari x reader#tighnari fluff#tighnari x reader fluff#genshin fluff#genshin x reader fluff#anime fluff#fluff
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