#idk it's long enough so i guess i'll add tags

[cheriecoke]

.𖥔 ݁ ˖ SHADES OF RED — nanami kento

summary . . . kento tries to move on, but he sees you in every shade of red

contents . . . ex-boyfriend nanami, nanami pov, f!reader, reader is only mentioned but she loves the color red, suggestive part at the end, kento has a new gf but :/ he wants you bad — 700 words

notes . . . erm this is so self indulgent btw ! everyone around me laughs at me for only getting my nails done the color red and this was born bc i got my nails done today. in my yearning!kento era ig <33 he can miss us instead of the other way around smh

kento had never considered himself a sentimental man.

he’d always had the keen ability to let go of things easily—or, at least, to let go of them without too much regret. he’d never been overly emotional about things that served as reminders to his past. kento could’ve passed his childhood home and, sure, he’d feel a twinge of nostalgia. but it was one that he’d get over once he was out of the neighborhood, on his way to something different, somewhere better.

perhaps, it was a lack of sentimentality, or perhaps his future orientation was just a mechanism to help him cope with the ever-changing thing he called life. 

too bad that approach never worked when it came to you. 

even after you broke up with him, kento saw you everywhere he went. four years together was too much time, and time wasn’t enough to wash away the smell of your perfume, the love letters you’d written that he’d shoved away. kento still had a few of your belongings you’d never come back for. pieces of jewelry you’d left behind, and he’d never been able to get rid of. 

your pretty red lipstick still stained the corner of his sofa, the tiny little smear where you’d accidentally dropped the tube.

you’d apologized, embarrassed, so flustered he thought you might cry. but he’d only laughed instead, pushed the cap back on, and kissed the lipstick right back off your face. 

it had been his fault anyways.

your golden bracelet still hung with his watches, interlaced with rubies and diamonds. an anniversary gift he’d gotten you, and one that you’d thrown at him angrily when you finally left him. 

there was a red ribbon in the center console of his car, one that he’d left there in case you ever forgot a hair tie. 

there were reminders of you everywhere, there was red everywhere. the color of the passion, and the color of the fiery love that had burned bright between you. 

he saw you everywhere…

even in his new girlfriend. 

the first time gojo met her, he told kento how much she looked like you. maybe a little bit taller, her hair a little bit different. her lips were wider, eyes a slightly different shade.

still, the similarities were striking. and she’d never know.

besides all of the red, kento had erased whatever traces of you he could find, kept them locked up in a pretty burgundy box that was tucked away in his closet. 

and maybe she was similar to you in appearance, but she was gentler, softer, and she had an affinity for shades of pink. a light rose color was her favorite.

she probably thought that it bothered him, the obvious sign of femininity taking over his apartment. but kento appreciated that the lacy ribbons she left lying around, the lingerie sets, were much lighter than the color you’d tended towards. 

“kento,” she interrupted his stream of thought, as he stared at the splotch of maroon on his sofa, remembering how you’d stained his cheeks the same color.

he hummed. it’d been nearly six months since he’d seen you last. it’d seemed like longer. 

he shouldn’t miss you this much.

he did, though.

“i’m thinking of getting my nails done.” his new girlfriend—the one that looked like you but wasn’t you��stretched her hands out, looking at the chipped pastel pink at the end of her nails. half of the paint was gone. 

“okay,” he said, shrugging. shades of pink, she lived in. it’d be a shade of pink again.

she looked at her fingers, scrutinizing them like she wasn’t quite sure what to make of it. “i’m not sure it’d suit me, but… what do you think of red?” 

kento’s eyes had drifted over, and for a moment, he contemplated a protest. it didn’t suit her. she was a gentle, sweet soul. her voice soft, words loving—she was pink.

then, he remembered the softness of your palm over his thigh, your fingers threaded in his hair. nails longer, filed perfectly, a beautiful red color painted onto them. 

he missed you.

he felt guilty for his answer.

“sure, honey,” kento said, smiling. “that’s pretty.” 

when she came home later, kento had pulled her into the bedroom, turned off the lights, the room dark already with the sun that had set. her hands were smaller than yours, fingers more slender, but the color of her nails was the same. 

he could imagine your hands between his legs, stroking him lovingly. and kento had to seal his lips tightly to keep your name from spilling from them when he imagined you instead of her.

“mmm,” his new girlfriend had muttered, snuggling into his side. kento stared at the ceiling, sick with longing. “i love you. night, kento.” 

he didn’t answer.

when she was asleep, kento climbed out of bed, padded to the kitchen with his phone in his hand. it was past midnight, but you tended to stay up later, a book on your lap, with some form of red on the cover. 

his finger hovered over your name; there used to be a red heart next to it, and he wanted to put it back.

he wondered if this would just be another one of those times where his calls went unanswered. or, maybe, this time, you’d pick up. 

kento didn’t care anyway.

he pressed the call button.

[epiphainie]

i'll try to say this in the kindest way possible but what if we don't post bucktommy critical or bucktommy negative posts that people originally censored/kept out of the bucktommy tag by screenshotting them and putting them in the tag? people are allowed to hate a ship. idk what to tell you but they're allowed to have their opinions even if their reasoning seems stupid to you or it very obviously comes with bad faith arguments. as long as they're being decent enough to not cross the line and do keep it in their own tags/blogs, you don't have to be fighting them in our tags. if you so want to, sure do it on your blog, in your dms, in your discord servers. but i'm tired of seeing the blogs i know i have blocked for their silly takes because we keep circulating what they're posting in our own tags. seeing a collage of the stupid, negative, downright homophobic comments curated from all sorts platforms in the bucktommy tag, in fact, feels no different in practice than seeing the antis post in the bucktommy tag, especially when you don't add the useful tags like "discourse" or "fandom criticism" to your posts.

just my own two cents, hell maybe it just bothers me idk, then keep doing it i guess.

[hewkii]

Acht (Dedf1sh) Cosplay Rundown

feel free to copy or take inspiration :]

assembly instructions and print settings/materials for 3d printed parts are on thingiverse (headphones) (other parts)

models designed by me are in brackets in the materials list

Hat/Tentacles

black trucker hat with blank white front panel

[dedstencil.stl]

fabric paint

shiny indigo fabric

less shiny white fabric

glow-in-the-dark pigment powder

polyfill

metal marbles (to weight the ends so they hang properly)

two of [octosucc.obj] in different sizes

acrylic paint

conveniently enough i've had this hat hanging on my door for years. i got it with N from pokemon in mind but i never actually did that cosplay ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

here are the sketches i based my patterns on (1 square=1 cm). don't forget to add seam tolerances

Headphones

full details on thingiverse (mudmouth not included)

Arms

mesh bolero with built-in gloves

rit dye

fabric paint

10 of [finger_claw_vase.stl] in varying sizes

i wear claws under the gloves, but sometimes i'll wind up taking them off after a while since they can get uncomfortable and they make it hard to use my phone :/

Bracelet

[acht_bangle_vase.stl]

acrylic paint

glow-in-the-dark pigment powder

glossy clear coat

a cut up mello yello bottle

packing tape

eva foam

Misc. Doodads

red mirror shades

color chips

necklace chain

[acht_tag_jelleton.stl]

[acht_tag_ident.stl]

[acht_tag_hook.obj]

did you know that acht gives eight a mobility chip in the trailer but a power chip in the actual game? bc i didn't notice until after i'd already finished making the mobility one. so i've got a spare chip i guess

the dogtags were kind of a spur-of-the-moment creative liberty. i had the jelleton one sitting around from some experiments with composite filaments, and while i was brainstorming a way to incorporate acht's cool fish hook into the cosplay without needing to actually get my ears pierced it all sorta clicked together. i made the ident tag shortly afterwards and swiftly forgot what the text says :P

the rest of it

dress tunic thingy

metal eyelets

red string

camo pants

combat boots

i skimped on accuracy in favor of comfort for the lower half ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ the dress is more of a shirt, i added comfy pants bc i hate wearing colored tights (or god forbid painting my thighs green), and shorter boots bc more accurate ones are expensive as hell. plus any heel higher than this makes walking feel like playing qwop (skill issue). speaking of which does it bug anybody else how long acht's feet are on their in-game model or is that just me

idk if it counts as part of the cosplay but i also add a leather jacket when my arms get cold. i think it goes hard

To-Do:

ink the shaved streaks onto the hairnet

swap out the red leather cord for something less stiff

see if beans would work better than marbles

hand bandages?

single pointy tooth?

make a pre-sanitized version so i don't have to scrub off face paint every time

[megumi-fm]

26th to 30th Apr; doa🚲 complete!!

hi. gah. okay. here's my wrap up for the month

📝 prepped for and completed the last set of internal tests for this degree [2/2] (which I got through after much cribbing and whining and quite literally projecting study topics onto my blorbos 👍 ) 📝 started GRE prep!

🎓 got some gradecard related paperwork done 🎓 spoke to my prof regarding my internship deliverables for uni—report format, certificate requirements, etc etc

📥 I voted! it was the first central elections since I turned to an adult and the whole experience was quite interesting

💻 completed a bunch of tasks for my internship

💻 made like a super extensive flowchart about all the work done at my internship which took me like a total of 20+ hours T-T 💻 finished preparing my Uni Internship presentation! 💻 submitted the presentation to the assistant guide, waiting on her response to make changes atm

🍶 7+ glasses of daily water intake 🎵 svt's new single is out and I've been going insane about it and thus this challenge comes to an end... I had started this off as an 18day daily habit tracker but then it kind of grew out into a challenge for the month. Special thanks to Yumi the loml <3 (@thelastneuron) for starting the Days of April challenge (Yumi idk when you'll see this but i miss you and I hope you've been kicking ass during your hiatus). also massive thanks to Zip (@zipstidbits) for leaving the kindest comments/tags on my post during the past week and to Tanishka (@booksbluegurl) who is literally the sweetest and has been sending in asks and keeping me company during this challenge <3

there's a lot more i wanna yap about in regards to how the month went but I'll leave that under the tags xD goodnight besties <3

month end brainrot

april started off with dips and more dips but by the end of the month it feels like I've caught up. productivity is a wave so as long as I keep riding at it i'll be okay.

also. progress is cumulative. even the seemingly inconsequential completion of daily tasks has lead to an overall improvement through the week. things add up

I spent a lot of time this month (and moreso this past week) feeling dejected that I've been leaving my tracker posts (and my digital planner entries) incomplete... but like. the whole point of trackers and planners (and this studyblr) is to get work done. work is the priority and the tracking is a means to an end. so if im getting work done that is already a win. yeah... i've had to keep reminding myself that

there is no one-tool-fix for tracking and journalling. what works for planning out one task will not work for the other. I need to strop trying to fit all my plans into one formulaic strategy box

on that note. it's time to return to handwritten journaling. digital journalling (notion + YPT + discord + tumblr) was fun while it lasted <3 but my brain needs novelty again so it's time i switch back. I think I finally have an idea for a system that could be sustainable for me... although I say that every time I switch to a new form of tracking. but hey. as long as it helps me get work done for whatever duration of time, it's good enough

using kpop and kdrama references to make notes and study really paid off. ngl I only did it cause I was super desperate but incorporating stuff I couldn't understand with a topic I really like paid off. It also gave me the motivation and momentum to study for much longer than I otherwise would have

last but not least. my water intake has been really good this month! I've also been eating healthy and I've been cooking more my phone usage has also been reduced by a lot. sure none of them have had a perfect streak but i started at zero and it feels like I've levelled up quite a bit. the exercise component has been a bit difficult to maintain given my workload :/ i need to figure out what to do about that...

yep. that's it for now. this month really tired me out, I think im gonna lay off daily challenges for a while. For now I guess I'll stick to my (bi?tri?)weekly tracker posts xD

[m00nj3w3l]

Well here I am (ONS chapter 128)

Ok I'm finally writing out my thoughts about ONS' 128. Idk how long it'll come out (extremely long as I'm writing it it seems...) and also as always I want to hear others' opinions on this, but as a warning it will be mostly negative. I actually did a similar post back at the start of the year with BSD, but BSD at least managed to bounce back full force and do what it needed to do while ONS shows no signs of that.

I'll break it down into the following points:

>I'm also getting tired of the flashbacks (as many already did)

>I miss the Shinoa squad (will touch upon Mitsuba specifically and y'all probably know why)

>The belief that MikaYuu fans are getting much better content and why I think that's bs (will probably mention my theorem of "Mika, along with literally all the women of the franchise, got hit with the mysoginy stick")

So let's go I guess, under the cut so I don't clutter my non-ONS followers' dash.

>The flashbacks: I... Did not mind them up unti now, if I've got to be honest. Let's be serious here everyone probably expected a batshit crazy backstory for the characters, ESPECIALLY Yuu and Mika, and that's what made me not really complain. Now it has been like? 8 chapters of ONLY flashbacks??? Only things of the past with NO break and NO POV switches to at least let us know wtf is going on in the outside world. Christ. The fact that irritates me the most is that all of this adds nothing to the plot either!!! What are the MCs supposed to do now that they've seen one of them (WHO HAS BEEN 4 DIFFERENT SPECIES TOO SINCE THE START OF THE SERIES???) sacrifice for the 3rd time!!!! AND IN THE PAST AT THAT!!!! HOW IS THIS USEFUL FOR THEM OR ANY OF US AGHHFHGHHG. We got other gays going at it tho and that's just funny to me. This is just a BL masked as a battle shonen lmaoooo.

>The Shinoa squad: I feel like this is obvious. Where tf are they? They obviously are looking out for where Mika and Yuu are, how did we not see them again yet??? Some progress in their hunt (let's call it that) for those two??? Shinoa literally threatened to kill Mika (and, for a number of reasons, let me say this: ew.) I'd at least like to see her and how she's doing. And didn't Kagami promise us Mitsuba would get more screentime soon? THIS IS LITERALLY A PERFECT SETTING. SHOW ME HER AND SHINOA BEING IN CONFLICT CUS SHE WORRIES ABOUT HER FRIEND AND WANTS HER TO COME TO HER SENSES!!! SHOW ME HOW THEE LITERAL KIDS ARE DOING AFTER BEING ASKED BY A FULL ON 24 Y.O TO CHOOSE THEIR FAMILIES OR THE WORLD LIKE BE SO SERIOUS THE SETTING WAS *DECENT* (wouldn't say perfect cus I'm not the biggest fan of the "bring everyone back" plot but ok) FOR IT ALL I'M *explodes*

>MikaYuu: Oh boy ok here we go. So since I came back after my rewatch and catch up to this manga which resulted in hyperfixation again I noticed that the narrative of MikaYuu shippers getting better content cus a lot of the chapters now focus on them is... common. And for a while I just thought "ok" and moved on but now I'm fully on convinced it's just. Not true. Not because the content isn't there, I would be lying if I said that, but because it's... Not good. Good content, for me (as someone who clearly loves these two if you scroll for even 2 minutes down my fucking tag), would be seeing actual growth between them, some actual substance in what they are doing as of rn, and we are not getting any of that. Since when did we see them actually DO something? Last time we saw Yuu in his actual body and actually saying something was last chapter and he was EATING. Then we went back to them just passively staring at everything that went on. And to add onto this, I dislike demon Mika as a plot IN GENERAL because it recessed any development both for HIM and for Yuu himself. Yuu acts stupid (wtf happened to him after Nagoya I'm being so serious Nagoya Yuu I miss you so much) as shit cus anyway Mika IS strong enough to let him get away with it but not enough to oppose Yuu at some point and this was addressed as a problem for like 2 seconds and then nothing. Oh my God. And not only that but this fucking thing also shows that Mika did, indeed, also get hit with a mysoginy beam, but that's another topic I want to talk about in another post if anyone even really cares about it.

So... Yeah. I'm not tired (I only started catching up in March after my rewatch, so I'm still curios about how this will go), but I AM sad. I really miss the earlier arcs and the potential they all had that now seems like a long lost memory. Can we all collectevely just go back to the Nagoya one like if the series stuck to that path I would be able to excuse its flaws up until a point because GOD. The eyeball with its Seraph shit or whatever the hell it was doing was cool tho.

As always y'all can tell me what y'all think, but I'm mostly expecting this to get lost in the void given how dead the fandom is. So yeah, see ya.

[purplesurveys]

1944

Is your closet disorganized? It's not at the moment. I do have a great talent at slowly making it more and more chaotic lol, but when that happens I just do a hard restart and fix it back to how the clothes should look like.

Have you ever been to Times Square? I haven't but I would love to. I feel like I'd really enjoy my time there.

What TV shows do you watch on a regular basis? The only show I really ever enthusiastically rewatch would be Friends. I can't do that now, though, since they took it out of Netflix a few days ago. :( It's moving on Max when it launches in the Philippines later this month, and since I already have an HBO Go subscription (which will apparently rebrand into Max) I think I won't stay Friends-less for too long.

Have you ever accidentally left something valuable at a shop before? Not a shop, but I've left some stuff behind from events and never got to recover them. The things I feel most sorry for losing would be my pink Hydroflask tumbler (which I've had since college, so I was very attached to it huhu) + my power strip that I had bought just the day before.

What makes your life remarkable? Idk but I'm generally proud of myself for achieving as much as I have at 26 considering how shy I used to be or how much I really doubted myself since childhood. I still do...but I guess I'm just good at faking it till I make it.

Are you putting off doing anything that you really need to get done? Kind of, yeah.

What is the last thing you scribbled down on a Post-It note? Just work notes.

What are you currently listening to? I can hear the ceiling fan and a bit of my mom's TV upstairs, but other than that it's quiet.

How would you react in discovering your best friend was seriously obsessed with you? I'd tbh go straight to her fiance and ask what's going on and how I can help.

Do you care if your produce is organic or not? No.

Do you have any children? If so, how old were you when you had them? If not, do you think you ever will? No. I don't think I will.

Do you eat meat? Yes.

Do you get enough calcium? I like to think so. I drink milk everyday lol, for one.

Do you think before you act or speak? That's something I've definitely learned how to do more and more the older I've gotten and the more people I meet.

Do you have a SwagBucks account? I have no idea what that is.

Are you nosy? I could not care less.

Do you always try on clothes before purchasing them? No, it's such a hassle. I just pick something if I like it, find it in my size, and pay. Fitting takes such a long time considering I'll get it anyway lmao

Is there anything in your closet with the tags still on? I don't think so, no.

Are you happy with the size of your bedroom? It's the right size but I'm also looking forward to having a bigger room just for the sake of being able to experience having a spacious room.

Do you add people you don’t actually know on Facebook? No and I genuinely don't understand why others do that. Facebook, at least where I'm from, is different from other platforms in that it's designed for your personal network and keeping up to date with their lives. That said I uhhhh would have absolutely no reason to be adding strangers and knowing about their vacations or seeing their family photos. That idea is so weird...even stalkerish...to me.

What’s your favorite condiment? Mayonnaise. Chili garlic oil. Sesame oil!!!

Would you even want to know how much of your life has been spent online? Yes just out of curiosity but I know I'd be so ashamed of myself once I find out the number haha.

Do you shop at American Eagle? No.

List 5 things you’re afraid of: Losing a loved one, fire, cockroaches, rats, sharp objects.

Have you forgotten anything important recently? Ahaha last Wednesday I was out for a work meeting only to realize pretty late that I did not have either of my debit cards + my driver's license – I had transferred them into a smaller purse the other day when I went out for a family lunch and never got to place them back in my wallet. Fortunately I had my employee ID with me, but I still felt so stupid.

Would you say you’re an honest person? More often than not, yeah. If anything, I feel like I'm only ever dishonest toward myself – like about my personal feelings and frustrations and insecurities and such. In front of everyone else, though, I find it a waste of time to bullshit them.

The last Facebook message you received from the opposite sex, what did it say? It was just him telling me how to buy a PS5, haha.

What does the nicest message in your Facebook inbox say? I don't really keep track of stuff like that.

Is your best friend single? Nope.

What color was the ink of the last pen you wrote with? Black.

What does your pencil-case look like? I don't have one.

Where was the last place you went that was totally new to you, as in, it was the first time you’d been there? Good question. I wanna say Amici? I've had their food before, but I've never actually dined in their restaurant. It was a pleasant experience and the servers were all very nice.

When was the last time you used someone else’s computer? Around a month ago when I asked for permission to use Tina's laptop since she has Canva premium on hers.

Who do you dislike the most? Explain what you dislike about that person. I don't like one of my uncles because he's always been a useless dad who's done nothing but drag my hardworking, self-made cousin down...he's also a terrible TERRIFUCKINGBLE husband and has never kept a stable job...not to mention the fact that he subscribes to Nazism? You're fucking Filipino, what the fuck are you doing being a Nazi hello ahahaha??? It's just so frustrating watching a man have no redeemable qualities whatso fucking ever lol

What’s the longest you’ve liked someone without doing anything about it? I dunno. Like 2, 3 months? I asked them out immediately as I wanted to give it a shot, at least.

Do you use straightening irons on your hair? What brand? No.

What’s the relationship status of the last person you talked to? Single. At least I think she is. I don't pressure her to tell me anything.

Is there anything you would like to complain about? Yeah work sucks and I wish I could find something that brings me joy again.

What’s the first line of the last song you listened to? "Dearest, darling, my universe, would you take me along?"

Think of the person from your past that hurt you the most. Is there anything you would like to say to that person? No.

Does your mom like the last person you kissed? I knew she did.

Now your cell phone, what color is it? Light blue.

What was so special about today? The actual day sucked, but this evening I treated myself to sushi and found out that WWE Network is back in the country so I subscribed heheh. First thing I watched was Paul Heyman's HOF speech and let's just say I'm so glad I chose that.

If somebody tried to steal your best friend’s boyfriend/girlfriend, what would you do? That's kind of happening already. Gut reaction was to talk shit about the person directly to Angela, especially because she was already crying about it so I had permission to be angry and petty lol.

What was the last thing you said to your mother? Can't remember exactly but she was asking me a luggage-related question since she'll be flying out with dad in the next two weeks, and I just answered her on that.

When was the last time you cried? LOL I teared up a bit watching Hello, Love, Goodbye this afternoon - but since I was watching with my sister and I never cry in front of family, I made up some bullshit excuse that I had to pee but really it was so that I could let it out in the bathroom hahaha

Has anyone made you upset lately? Not really, no.

What are you looking forward to? Seeing my dad. Not working in my workplace anymore...

Does anyone completely understand you? Sure.

Ever stayed up all night on the phone? Yeah.

Do you miss your past? I do miss some parts of it, but it's all in a nostalgic sense. I'm not like, caught up or feeling stuck in 2016 or anything like that.

Do you have a reason to smile right now? I do.

Are you a forgiving person? No.

Do you say sorry first? Yes, if I have to.

Do you like cats? I like cats now - Max helped me with that. I'm still very much a dog person but my previous slight dislike for cats is pretty much nonexistent now.

Has someone promised you something and broke it? Sure.

Did you kiss or hug anyone today? Just the pets.

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night? It doesn't, and unless it's coming from family I'd be a little pissed off if anyone would be calling that late. I would also 100% ignore the call.

Is there anybody you’re really disappointed in right now? No.

Have you ever lost someone you wish you didn’t? For a period of time I felt this way, but it's also been a long time since I got over it.

Are you anything like you were a year ago? Yeah, in that I'm still a ball of nerves and anxiety at work everyday.

Have you ever felt like you hit rock bottom? Sure.

Would you rather spend a day outside with friends or inside alone? I'd love to spend a day with friends, mainly because I already work from home 5 days a week and spend most of my time alone.

Think back to this time last year, were you happy? Not completely.

Has anyone upset you in the last week? Sure.

What should you be doing? I should be sleeping but like it's the weekend so I want to make the most of my precious free time before work shoots up my blood pressure again.

Describe how you feel right now in one word. Escaping.

What would you do if you found out one of your friends was going for the person you liked? I don't like anyone.

Do you prefer drinking water from a bottle or a sink? I can't drink from the sink in the first place; tap water is not a thing here.

Will you ever run away and get married in Las Vegas with no notifications to either of your families? No.

Have you ever thrown your iPod in anger? I can't recall ever doing so.

Who did you last have a heart-to-heart conversation with? Angela.

Do you believe that there’s good in everybody? Sorry, no.

Has anything happened to you within the past month that has made you mad? Yes.

Would you ever get a tattoo? Probably not. Needles be freaky.

[carbonbasedmatter]

ig i've had tumblr long enough so here's my intro yay

★ABOUT ME: you can call me trey, tris or something related to my url :) he/they, istp, minor, audhd, south asian, trans guy, demiromantic(?) bisexual

★BYF: this should go without saying but dni if you're racist, homophobic, transphobic, ableist, xenophobic, exclusionist or just discriminatory in general

I made this blog so I could have somewhere to be myself I mainly post about fandom stuff, fictional characters, music, my art, rants and random personal stuff (I also vent here sometimes if you're uncomfortable with that please block the tag)

i'm a multishipper I guess...I don't know I just like analyzing different dynamics between characters and seriously cannot tell the difference between romantic and platonic stuff sometimes

english isn't my native language so sorry if I make mistakes/don't make sense sometimes

other than that im just a teenager so also naturally a bit cringe and annoying (that's what I tell myself anyway😞)

send me asks about me or my interests pls pls pls

I love talking to people and making friends idc if we have like one thing in common feel free to message me

★LIKES/INTERESTS

reading, art, sleeping, music, alt subcultures, chess, plants, fall, queer history, global history, the middle ages, chemistry(love hate relationship with the subject) crocheting, mbti, skating, philosophy ( esp existentialism), ranting, crystals, sea animals, bats<3

★FANDOMS(idk if i'll post abt all of these lol):

heartbreak high

ghibli movies

osemanverse(mainly solitaire)

mphfpc

bojack horesman

the magnus archives

total drama island

south park

derry girls

the good place

community

parks and recreation

house md

nathan for you

brooklyn nine nine

young sheldon(NOT tbbt)

breaking bad

arcane

life is strange

ddlc

scott pilgrim

heathers

mlp

tmnt

star trek

death note

blue period

the promised neverland

chainsaw man

the disastrous life of saiki k

gilmore girls

carmen sandiego 2019

the owl house

avatar tla

adventure time

alexa and katie

the worst witch

high school musical

just add magic

the perks of being a wallflower

stand by me

a series of unfortunate events

fear street

dead poets society

the outsiders

★MUSIC:

pixies, mcr, mitski, radiohead, mbv, car seat headrest, the front bottoms, system of a down, dazey and the scouts, la dispute, asleep at last, teen suicide, queen, neutral milk hotel, nirvana, the cure, the brobecks, paramore, ajj, brockhampton, tyler the creator, childish gambino

(music is my special interest so there's a lot more hehe but I kinda tried to include a few from each genre)

★SOCIALS:

mutuals/followers can ask for them (discord/spotify) I promise I won't say no im just terrified of someone I know irl finding this account lmao

i've gotten really comfortable with tumblr though so this is basically my main form of social media right now

[sam-loves-seb]

new year's ask game for fic writers:

thanks for the tags @mybrainismelted and @rayrayor !

1) What fic did you have the most fun writing this year and why? Or, if you can’t decide, what was most fun about writing this year for you?

i had the most fun writing what we stay alive for this past year, it was really a passion project of mine that turned into this wonderful labor of love

2) What’s a scene/story that you finished and felt “wow, I really accomplished that, that actually went so well”?

probably loving you with no conditions, i've always really wanted to write a fic with that premise but i put it off for a long time because i was worried i wouldn't do it justice. but in the end, i think people really liked it, and it's one of the fics i'm most proud of tbh

3) What helped provide the most inspiration for stories, if anything? Was it poetry? A song on repeat? A gorgeous gifset? A walk outside? A book you read that made you want to change everything? Whatever it was! Tell all.

unfortunately the thing that inspires me most continues to be running/exercise. i cannot even begin to tell you how many plot bunnies/outlines i wrote in my head during runs last summer when i was training for a race. idk what it is, but when i'm locked in with my headphones on, my mind starts to wander and it gives me some really good ideas (and some wild ones, but those are fun too from a creative standpoint)

4) What is something you want to share about what you’ve written this year? A particular line, a comment that made you feel really good, a scene that was difficult to write — you get to choose! What do you wish someone would ask you about when it comes to what you’ve written?

god, i don't know. i've gotten a lot of really wonderful comments this year, too many to pick just one.

a scene that was difficult to write would probably be all of chapter four of orange juice, that fic overall is hard to write (but i still want to finish it someday)

but i write more fluff than anything so i also wanted to add a scene that was really fun to write, and that was writing mickey high as fuck in i need you (like cake on my birthday)

and to start off 2024…

1) Do you have any writing/creation goals for the year? What are they?

my goal for the year is to write two (2) complete multi-chapter fics. i mostly exist in the oneshot world in the shameless fandom, but i miss plotting big long fics and i really want to try and stick with at least two this year.

2) Is there a fic or idea that you’re really excited to be able to continue to work on in the new year (shout out to my fellow fic writing folks who take forever to finish wips, sometimes it’s nice to be able to continue working on something even if you wish you’d gotten it done! Now you get even MORE time with it!)

i think rock star mickey au is the idea that i most want to see come to life in 2024. i've been plotting it in my head since like july and one day i want to be confident enough to actually write the vision that plays on a loop in my subconscious.

3) What’s something new in your writing you want to try/are going to try? A different writing style? Different fandom? Darker works? Fluffier? Longer or shorter?

god, i mean, i guess i want to try writing more smut? i don't write a lot of it rarely any ever but i want to put a little bit in my big bang fic, and maybe some in some other fic ideas i have too. so yeah. maybe i'll try more of that in 2024 idk don't quote me on it.

4) What’s something you love about your own writing that you will continue to appreciate in the new year?

honestly i really like the way i write dialogue. it sounds very natural to me, idk if anyone else agrees, but when i re-read some of my fics i'm just like yeah exactly he would say that

(and maybe it's bad or wildly out of character but idk. i like it.)

tagging anyone who wants to play <3 happy 2024 my friends!

[windor-truffle]

As I get closer and closer to actually being able to post my WIP on AO3 I have to figure out the hardest part of fic writing... the tags 😓 idk if it's just me but I've always struggled to figure out proper tagging etiquette on that site. Maybe y'all can help me?

I think I've decided to rate it 'Mature' mainly for the frequent suicidal ideation/attempts (though I honestly think a level-minded teen could handle that topic just fine). That will definitely make it into the main tags too, it's a whole character arc and themetically relevant part of the story that is nevertheless dark and good to warn readers of.

Where I tend to get stuck is the smaller instances of potentially triggering things. For example, Aston hits his son once (1) in chapter 3, then that never happens again for the remaining 25 chapters. Should I still add "domestic child abuse" to the main tags, or is it enough to put a warning in the author's notes of the relevant chapter (with specfics on where it begins and ends in the paragraphs, like how some YouTubers mention timestamps in their videos so viewers can skip certain topics)?

I personally would prefer the latter so I can avoid just the upsetting part and enjoy the rest of the story. To use myself as an example, I am easily squicked by vomiting. If I see a fic tagged with vomiting I will most likely not read it because I assume if they tagged it it must be relevant enough to be noted, but I actually can handle it being mentioned once as long as there aren't any graphic details. In fact I can think of a specific fic I enjoyed that did NOT tag for vomiting and only mentioned it briefly so all I did was wince a little and move on. If it had been in the main tags, I never would have read it.

I guess my confusion boils down to whether the tags of a fic are meant to convey EVERYTHING in a fic or just the most relevant aspects. I've heard tagging compared to a nutritional label before, but unlike those I feel like AO3's current system just doesn't allow you to convey the ratio of its contents well; to me, a 500 word fic that mentions a squick is worse than a 50,000 word fic where that same squick can be easily drowned out by other non-triggering events. I'm just worried that tagging my fic with "child abuse" will make it sound like it's ABOUT child abuse when that's only a very small part of it, like calling a cupcake salty just for containing salt. But I suppose for someone allergic to salt it might be better to be told that immediately, instead of in a missable author's note.

And this isn't even getting into some of my other confusions around AO3, like knowing the exact popular phrase to describe a trope--- I recently posted a fic in which the type of love the protagonist is feeling is left to interpretation, with room for platonic or romantic readings. I'm certain there's a term for that in fan fic (I definitely toggled the "other" button under relationships), but my inputted tag "ambiguous love" didn't seem to be a thing, only "ambiguous relationship" which is NOT what I had in mind--- the relationship dynamic is established (at least to the characters), it's just the internal feelings of one character that are loosely defined on purpose. But I suppose this one's up to the tag wranglers, though I wonder sometimes how accurately they can assign intended meanings to the tags without reading the fics for context.

And I have plenty of other questions too, most but not all relating to my particular fic: Does a chapter set partially inside the Rockgagong count as vore? (it's a little more graphic than canon but that's a very low bar and I'd hardly say it's intentional). Is it okay to tag things that haven't happened yet in the chapters I will be posting first, or will that confuse readers who are expecting those tropes to appear already because they have been tagged? (I'm worried I'll forget to update the tags once the relevant chapters are posted). If a relevant trope would be considering a spoiler is it okay to not tag it at all? (my instinct would be to still tag it, especially if it's something potentially triggering, but I also personally would rather not know so I could maintain my emersion instead of waiting for the thing to happen). Feel free to weigh in on this, friends, as you can see I'm generally clueless and prone to overthinking 😅

[genshins1mpact]

I've always had interesting dreams but last night's was very interesting 👀 to sum it up briefly, Xiao had a half adepti spirit baby 🤭

World building/oc lore:

Now for the long story, and bear with me cause I'll probably have to explain my oc and hc and try to tldr the world building behind this dream, bc it's far from the first time I've had a dream either as myself or as my oc hahaha. But anyway, so my oc Aerin kind of just showed up in Teyvat sort of how the Traveler does (Aether in this case), and she and Aether bond over missing their siblings/family. She has jobs in both Mondstadt and Liyue atm, depending on where she's staying or doing commissions and the like; either helps out at Good Hunter/Angel's Share when they get too busy, or helps out with paperwork at the Wangsheng Funeral Parlor. Uhh did I forget to mention she's one of 3 demigod(?) kids? Well yeah, it's her older brother (dendro), then there's Aerin (hydro/pyro), then her little sister (electro); they're Hades/Persephone's kids btw.

Aerin sort of got dragged along the incidents of the story, so she got to know the main characters pretty well, and is especially close to Venti, Xiao, the Liyue kids (including Hu Tao), etc. Basically, since she's one of Hades' kids, she can see spirits and they often come to her for help and she tries to help them get stuff done so that they can cross over to the spirit realm and all that stuff, hence why she's good friends with Chongyun and Hu Tao specifically. The archons being gods themselves get along with her and they all trust one another in this sort of wine book club tea-time kind of way, and even others like Ganyu show up sometimes. As Xiao comes to trust Aerin and they start to bond, the other adepti (like Cloud Retainer) start to kind of watch over them more, and even have an ongoing joke as to when either one of them will notice they like one another.

The dream itself:

And now as to how this all ties into the dream, which has a lot of technicalities in and of itself, I'll try my best to describe it without getting... too lengthy haha. Like I mentioned previously, Xiao and Aerin bonded, but in this case it seemed to work in an almost like a werewolf mate kind of way? Xiao essentially became so attached he imprinted on Aerin and some sort of mark appears at the back of her neck (it's Xiao's constellation lol), and so they kind of have to come to terms with the fact that they're unofficially officially together now. Xiao gets embarrassed and spends a lot of time "protecting Liyue" and so they're in this odd state of not communicating, until Aerin gets sick and then Xiao runs over to check up on her, and they sort of fall asleep huddled up together, that being the sort of catalyst of them really starting to get together. Aerin is very patient with Xiao, as neither one of them really have any relationship experience, but she knows he's been fighting for millennia on end and isn't exactly going to suddenly change overnight or anything. Hence a bit of a slowburn tinged with angst as they got closer (lots of timeskips in my dream), until they received some shocking news. Xiao's away for work that week and when Aerin goes in to work at the WSFP, Zhongli congratulates her (but she has no idea why). Later when she runs into Ganyu, the same thing happens, and it isn't until she visits the table to speak to Cloud Retainer that she finds out why. (This part is where it gets sort of weird, I know lol). But basically CR tells Aerin that the two have bonded so strongly that it basically created enough adeptal energy that was transforming into its own being; i.e. rather than pregnancy, it was like a spirit baby born from them... yeah. Anyway, she speaks to Xiao about this and of course they have to kind of deal with things all over again, they'd just barely become affectionate and all of a sudden there's a kid thrown into the mix. Some months later (might've just been a month idk, time skips yk), said spirit baby kind of just shows up one day when they're all at that table with seats for Morax, Cloud Retainer, Guizhong, yknow the one. And so yeah, Zhongli, Ganyu, Xiao and even the other 3 (Retainer, Shaper, & Carver) all showed up to congratulate the uhh happy couple. They sort of had to get used to taking care of their daughter, but she was "born" looking sort of like she was already months old or smth and grew up fairly quickly, like I guess that mix of yaksha adepti and demigoddess just made for one hell of a tough kid. SO she looked a lot like Xiao when she was born but when her hair grew out she looked more like that red beta Xiao design (in homage to Aerin's black/red scheme I guess?) And they had no idea what to name her until one day Aerin kind of looks at Xiao and goes "well, how about Mingxiao, like the lantern in lantern rite? that way you'll both be Xiao and Mingxiao like the lanterns?" and Xiao wasn't entirely on board at first but then remembering when they went to the festival together and everything the idea grew on him. Aerin always felt like the odd one out since she's an Outlander™️ and not a Liyue native, but everyone else treats her like family and she and Xiao became very close, and once Mingxiao's training began, the three were an unstoppable force to protect Liyue. Though somewhere at the back of her mind, this feeling that just as mysteriously as Aerin appeared in Teyvat she could always dissappear just as fleetingly... so Xiao wasn't the only one fighting off his own demons 🤧

tl;dr: my oc aerin and xiao basically had an imprint/bond mating thing happen and then that bond created a spirit baby that looked like beta (red) xiao and they named her mingxiao (bc of lantern rite) and they became "new liyue™️'s official future protection squad", with hopes that mingxiao would be a leader for the next generation of liyue/adepti in general.

(beta xiao design, for reference to mingxiao)

˗ˏˋ  The end...  ˎˊ˗

[danpuff-ao3]

Danni, thinking time!: 🌿💝✨

Ephie!!!! 😘

🌿how does creating make you feel?

Answered here! But TL;DR: empowered and fulfilled!

💝what is a fic that got a different response than you were expecting?

Oh gosh! It's all such a blur. Generally I try to keep my expectations low so often it's me not expecting things to have done well. Like Orange Blossoms!! I was so pleasantly surprised, since it was something I'd just written for myself as a birthday gift, and it was fun! And it got much more love than I anticipated! Then Collateral Damage...I don't know what I expected, but I wrote it for Ron-Draco Fest in 2021. I was new to fests. New to writing Dron. And I was absolutely blown away by how much love that fic got!

But the one that really sticks with me is Safe and all the shock and horror it got. The initial wave I sorta saw. "I thought I tagged everything, but this part was pretty subtle, so I guess I see it, let me add some extra warnings." But it still got heat from people. I can't tell you the number of times I edited that work, adding more tags and warnings to the A/N and summary, etc. Only when I finally threw "dead dove" on it did it stop, though I can't be sure if it was the dead dove tag or the fact that so much time had passed.

At the end of the day, that story did what I wanted it to do. It was meant to be intense. I wanted people to be impacted by it. To feel that fear and uncertainty. It was designed for maximum impact, so go me? (I really do need thicker skin for a lady so hellbent on tormenting her readers, though 😅)

✨What's a fic you've posted you wish you could breathe life into again and have people talking about it? (or simply a fic you wish got more credit)

My truest answer I'll save for last cuz it's embarrassing and I hope people will have tuned out by then...🤣

Sorted related to the previous question, but White Lies and Silver Bells. That's one of few that I didn't manage expectations so well on and sorta hoped would perform better than it actually did. In fairness, the LJ community was very sweet while Hoggywartyxmas was posting, but idk, I think I had been looking forward to sharing it to AO3 so much and it got a more lackluster response. Which is sad cuz I'm quite fond of that one! I finally wrote the foot fetish Snarry I'd been long dreaming of!! Anyway that feels really crummy to admit to, but it is what it is!

Black Skies probably did as well as could be expected, but gosh I was (and still am!) so proud of that one!! That was posted for Blackcest Fest last year. Then Romantic Notions!!!! I really need someone to enjoy the plant porn with me, geez. Where are all my horny kinky friends at???? Teardrop in Your Palm...that's one I couldn't expect to do well, but man oh man do I love that fic!!!!! And Close Enough!! That one actually hurts my feelings a bit 😂 I breathed life into a dear headcanon and yet...so little appreciation! Though to be fair the appreciation it has gotten more than makes up for it!

But truly, the first thing that came to mind...if I could breathe new life into a fic, or more...stir up chat about it anew. As truly dumb as this sounds, it would be Contempt. You know...the fic I never shut up about? The fic that astronomically outperformed all of my wildest hopes and dreams?? Yeah, that's the one. But truly, it is my dearest story. Can I really be blamed for wanting it to have more love???? Probably, but oh well. I'm just so in love with it and obsessed with it myself and it haunts my mind often enough and I don't think I'll ever tire of hearing about it! Though everyone else probably is haaaaa.

Let's Get ((REAL)) fic writer asks

[stevesbipanic]

Overshare time!

tag 10 people you wanna know better!

thanks to @orpheusredux  for tagging me!

relationship status: Perpetually single but enough friends to keep me company

favorite color(s): Purple just cause its always been my favourite since I was a kid plus there’s lots of flowers i like that are kind of a light but still vibrant purple. Green is also a favourite cause I love forests so a nice deep dark green.

favorite food: pizza hands down, specifically homemade pizza since my family has a pizza oven so you know its gonna be good, plus every pizza is different so everyone can enjoy a pizza they like.

song stuck in my head: Chrissy Wake Up, by Schmoyoho and we all know why but Running Up That Hill (Deal with God) by Kate Bush also is stuck pretty deep in there for the same reason. My brain will just latch onto songs so quick.

last thing you googled: “eddie munson eyeliner” cause i had to show my friend what we were missing out on!

time: 8:40 am

dream trip: Rome/Florence/Naples in Italy

last book you read: Red, White and Royal Blue by Casey McQuiston since I saw lots of people talking about how they're adapting it for a tv show or maybe it was a movie idk.

last book you enjoyed reading: Solitaire by Alice Oseman, Heartstopper got my into the comics which got me into her books and I love them!!

last book you hated reading: Cursed Child by J.K Rowling 100% do not support her but I do like Harry Potter so I read it and it was terrible.

favorite to cook/bake: pizza for cooking and gingerbread for baking, a lot of my friends are vegan so i have adjusted a lot of my baking recipes to be vegan

favorite craft to do in your free time: origami, making cranes while watching lectures helps me focus

most niche dislike: touching cheese, love cheese, cheese is great, can’t stand the feeling of the oil on my hands

opinion on circus(es): I definitely hate the idea of any animal in circuses so I like ones that are like Cirque du Soleil I guess as long as everyone is treated well which I know they aren't always in the performance industry.

do you have a sense of direction:  I’ve definitely gotten better since i was younger and moving to the city certainly helped BUT in general no, the GPS saves me a lot but i can get around my neighbourhood just fine alone.

tell us about you D&D character: Ok so she’s basic at times and a lil dimwitted but hey she never went to school so we gotta just accept she ain’t the brightest. I play a Woo Half-Elf Rogue named Allys. She's so cute, has a lot of trauma from her past but has an adoptive brother figure. I'll always add stuff to her randomly like we were in the library when I said that she never learner to read but she loves picture books and she tells people she's allergic to green apples but she just doesn't like them and she thinks rubber ducks are evil.

OK, please don't feel like you have to do this, i got tagged and just thought it would be nice to introduce myself since i suddenly have a lot of followers who i appreciate so much <3

@ftrmrs-ally-keofield @stevethehairington @steveheartington @steve-harringtons-slut @anaischp @to-be-deleted @realhellfireclub @jayjay-thejet-plane @screechwhisper @jesskier

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

I wasn't sure if I should put my reply to the comment you made on my pictures in a reblog or just send it to you directly as an ask, so I just chose this way because I just kind of babbled about some of the things I was thinking while I was drawing them and that seemed kind of weird to add to the post?

But anyway, I must have read your reply and tags like 20 times, thank you so much!!! I'm very happy to hear you liked them! And don't worry, I immediately took your zombie comment as a compliment, because I wanted to give him the same sort of haunted and unsettling 'might break into a sprint on all fours and bite you' look you gave him lmao. And as far as horrible noises go... I looked up jackrabbit distress calls and yikes.

Actually, Ingo without his coat was the first one I drew, because I was obsessing over how he looked in that first picture of yours and absolutely Needed to draw what I thought he had to look like under his coat. And the second thing I drew was the one with him and Emmet, because I realized that, even if he couldn't see all of the damage through the coat and tunic, That's what Ingo looked like the first time Emmet saw him again. I had a lot of feelings about that, and also liked the contrast between them. Plus the general feeling of like, they can no longer stand together as perfect mirrors, but it doesn't matter, they'll work to meet in the middle all the same.

And the scars! While I was adding them I was like he probably doesn't have anything too bad on the torso because his coat isn't really shredded there, and he's fast enough that most things couldn't catch him to do much damage. But pokemon throw their attacks in the game, he probably handles babies with sharp claws and an instinct to climb, and his coat had to get torn somehow, so those scars were made with the intent to look like they came from his coat no longer being there to protect his legs and forearms from getting cut up instead.

... Does Cyllene have blue fur?? Because I was genuinely wondering about that.

i mean it's your post you can put whatever you want on it, but yeah this is cool too! as long as you don't mind if i keep answering your asks publicly lol

anyway thank YOU again for the lovely art!! yeahh he should have those vibes of like. "that thing is a PREY animal?? are you SURE??" also do we think anthros are capable of like making the same noises as their regular animals? i mean, the kids can purr i am not budging on this matter they NEED to purr or i'll riot. so i guess by extension other anthros can make similar animal vocalizations in addition to regular speech? but maybe it's considered something you only really do instinctively and/or doing it on purpose has specific social connotations.

hhh yeah... i think your drawing is pretty spot-on re: what he would look like, and Ouch yeah that would hurt emmet So Bad. including the fact that in person he's also visibly in High Alert mode and he's breathing wrong and his hands are shaking and- what did they do to his brother?

the idea that a good portion of his scars are just from overenthusiastic sneasel kits (kits? cubs?) though, lmao. but that's its own, like, ingo, you don't have to let them scale you using all of their claws. but he just doesn't care enough to stop them. but most of them are probably a shifting array of temporary-and-fading scars anyway. and then there are the bigger, nastier ones, from the full-grown mons that were actually on the attack...

mmm i almost feel like i'd need to do some color tests to decide whether she's blue, or sandy regular mountain lion colors, or a mix of both. like it might be too overpowering to make her grey-blue on top of her survey corps outfit, but then the sandy color might be too much of a contrast, or the mix would just look weird. idk i might revisit that! hmm.

[glitterslag]

I fully believe that Chrissy was is 18 so the edissy discourse doesn’t bother me but like…I found Seb in the v*yeurs attractive so my moral has been is spinning wildly out of for a while so idrk about the ages of two fictional characters.

There's already a LOT circulating round on here in relation to this so i'm not tagging this post - i don't need to add fuel to the fire. But i'll be honest I do have quite strong opinions.

This got pretty long btw so I apologise!!!

Chrissy was in her final year of school meaning she'd have started the year aged 17 and finished it aged 18. Eddie, being a triple senior, was two school years older, so starting the year at 19, and turning 20. So two school years' difference. I guess if he had an early birthday and she had a late one it could be closer to 3 years difference. But if the reverse was true it'd be closer to 1 years' difference. Anyway, around 2 years' between them, give or take.

For me that isn't weird - that was quite normal in my school. For me it's more about life stage than age difference - like if Eddie was in his second year of uni and Chrissy was a year 13 for example. Maybe that would be a mismatch. But both in highschool???? I think the difference is negligible if I'm honest.

I do understand that some people feel it's inappropriate! And that's fine. Maybe it is a little inappropriate in some cases. And maybe you wouldn't necessarily enter into that relationship in real life. But TV isn't real life, and neither is fanfiction. Not all of your faves have to have pristine morals. And all this hate that's been stirred up around it is really excessive and uncalled for. I don't know what to say to people other than just block the tag and don't look for it if it bothers you?!

Ultimately I decided I wanted to write for Chrissy because i just don't particularly enjoy writing x reader fics. I prefer when I have a character to work with and I can really flesh them out instead of having to keep it vague enough to apply to readers. I also really enjoyed watching Eddissy on screen. I loved their dynamic, and it truly came across to me as a very pure and lovely bond that I wanted to explore more. I thought it was amazing what the actors managed to convey in only a few minutes of screen time. It really made me want to explore their relationship, so yeah.

Sorry for this turning into an absolute essay btw!!!! Lots of thoughts. And yeah, exactly as you said I went feral for Seb and even like... Ben's Roger? I mean he was portrayed as a massive womaniser and there's plenty of fics out there with him cheating and doing drugs and all sorts of nefarious stuff but we all gobbled up fanfiction about that so like...? Idk what to even say other than it's literally fanfiction. Humans have flaws. It's not that serious and if it truly bothers you, don't engage and just go on with your life 🤷‍♀️

[neowinestainedress]

so I have a fic request which is actually based on a dream I had a few days ago 🤞🏻😩 its basically where oc and haechan are dating but to hyuck, oc is a rebound and he often ends up unintentionally? hurting oc. she feels like she comes second to him no matter what. oc well, continues to be with him bc she is enamored by him (I cannot stress this enough) like she can't see his red flags or even if she can she finds them real pretty djsjsj just yea she is smitten and will take whatever haechan gives, even if it's a stupid heart breaking relationship bc hey at least they're in a relationship. like idk how to put this but oc is sooooo in love? idk if we can call that but oh well. this is how things progress but cut to a few scenes into this and oc meets jaemin through a common friend or maybe they were already friends (also if you do actually end up accepting this req can you make them all friends - hyuck oc jaemin and hyucks ex, that way it'll hurt more 😗) and like- oc and jaemin are soooo compatible? like idk they just share the same goals and all when it comes to being in a relationship and all that and so maybe like jaemin does actually harbour a smol crush on oc and gets real mad when hyuck keeps treating her bad. he often ends up idk wishing oc just woke up from whatever fantasy land she is in and sees things as they truly are. idk but if you could add soft smut (with either of the two boys (or both idontmindjejsjs)) and like lots of jealousy and hurt (from hyucks side as well like, I want him to be all you're MY girlfriend to oc but then proceed to not treat like that YK) also sorry this got so long. it kinda made sense in my dream but dkjsjs it's all hfkajejd here 🥺🥺🥺

and most importantly if you're open to accepting anons, can I be 🫧 anon pls. I'd like to interact more with your blog 😭

OH MY THIS IS SO GOOD AKKDKF I WANNA KISS YOUR BRAIN i love this so much but i need to plot this well because it can be really interesting if i do it well. maybe it would be better as a small series, like around 5/6 chapters. i think that a one-shot would cut a lot of important parts??? (or it would be way too long like my usual) i think it would be even more heartbreaking if haechan is the one that makes oc and jaemin meet like imagine being unknowingly the reason why your partner finds somebody that treats them better and will probably leave you for them PAIN also i love the idea of jaemin being haechan friend but having no problems pointing out how much of an asshole he is (hyuckie i'm sorry i love you one day i'll write you as a good person) even before he catches feelings for her and then he starts to have a crush on oc and gets even angrier because she doesn't want to see all haechan's red flags. about hyuck'sex... how important does she have to be? like was she nice in the dream or was another reason of pain? it could be interesting if she's actually nice and tries to wake oc up too but oc takes it personal maybe thinking that haechan's ex is not doing it for her but just wants to have him back so she gets defensive because he's a walking red flag but red is her favorite color aaand i'd never say no to some good smut but i guess cheating is allowed, right? or do you want it to be like haechan and oc break up but he's still jealous and wants her back but on the other side there's jaemin and she's stuck (so jealousy, sex, and all that)

yes i actually have an anon list but there's just one person (two with you) so i can add you to it. but there's a problem... i can't see the emoji I'M SORRY. i copy-pasted it on google and saw that it's the bubbles emoji (right?) and the weird thing is that i can see it on every other social (and i even have it on my whatsapp keyboard) but i can't see it here and i don't have it on my phone keyboard so can you pick something else and then i'll change you to it when i'll have it?  i'm just temporarily tagging you as bubbles anon so i can easily come back here and change it to the anon you want to be

[soldierallen]

Married. 13

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Part 12:

Appearances; Alexandra Daddario, Chris Evans, Chase Crawford, Sebastian Stan.

Warnings: sexual themes, a bit smutty, fluff, blood? Idk if that’s a warning

Note: I’ lost the password to this account I lost my god damn mind and I gave up on my favorite story, the one that I’ve been wanting to tell this whole time the second to last chapter starts now❤️

Sebastian Stan x Reader

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Christmas had passed so did new years, y/n's job was fantastic she was having the time of her life traveling across the country for interviews and really putting herself out there being a director for the paper it was amazing, oh wait you're wondering what happened to Alex and y/n?... oh right that part...

That night.

"I didn't mean to hit you in the face it was by mistake" Alex yelled, sebastian pulled y/n throughout the house to get her into the kitchen she slowly lifted herself up onto the counter whilst he looked at her nose blood gushing may I add droplets falling into the floor

"Alex what the fuck do you want?" Sebastian opened his freezer looking for something to ice her nose that was bleeding harshly, y/n's head tilted back slightly

"I wanted to talk to you, But she’s always here she’ll always take up your time that letter you wrote that wasn’t for me it was for her you lied to me... you never loved me it was all fake" she was crushed, both Sebastian and y/n rolled their eyes not believing her bullshit, but also y/n thought... what letter?

"how's this, how dare you think that it's okay to barge into someone's house uninvited and unwelcomed hit someone in the face with a door that LIVES here, oh should I also mentioned how you got her fired, broke her mentally and almost made me lose my relationship with her because of some "agreement" with money, Alex we talked about all of this and it never once came CLOSE to you apologzing to her, I never wanna see you again" he handed y/n a small bag of icey broccoli she laughed at the bag and put it on her nose extremely dizzy

"if that's what you want seb, i- I thought we meant more than that" she swallowed "I'll walk myself out", and with that she left

"That was first time I ever heard you defend me from her" her eyes got watery

“I’m sorry I never did, I’m never I never thought about your feelings or even thought about how you felt or what you was going through seeing you with Henry was enough for me to know that I wanted you she wasn’t the one who helped me all these years it’s always been you.." he kissed her head gently as she came off of the counter

"Seb, I love you" her heart stopped in her chest, and sebastian’s heart starting beating so loud I think the neighbors next door were able to hear it, he put his hands in his pocket.. He was spechless not able to configure words

"I didn't expect me to say those words with a broken nose a bloody floor and as your roommate... sebastian stan I love you and if you don’t love me that’s fine I’ll move out I’ll move to Alaska an-" he pulled her body closer to his, his hands leaving his pockets wrapping around her waist as he kissed her his other hand around her neck thumb caressing her cheek she was in awe, he pulled his lips away and her forehead touched his "I'm madly in love with you doll I want this to work let's make this work"

And after that night they went on their first date which was an absolute disaster from start to finish, starting off with y/n’s dress getting soaked from a pitcher of water spilling on her, Sebastian tripping over nothing and taking a bad tumble, to right before they got home the car breaking down it was just a mess.

It's been three months, everyone is friends again I mean y/n and Henry aren't too friendly but they talk when there in the same room together. Tonight should feel no different and it isn't but what y/n doesn't know is that sebastian's hiding something.

Pretty important might I add.

"I'm going to work extremely early tomorrow so I'll be home at like 6pm okay?" She was standing behind the couch as Sebastian was sitting he put both of his arms out behind him he brought her body closer to the back of the couch and himself they kissed upside down "I love you" her heart fluttered at his words "I love you too" he touched his sweatpants pocket and slowly stopped she went in her room closing the door and he groaned loudly into the pillow putting his hand in his pocket pulling out a velvety red box

"Just do it? What’s wrong with you" he looked at the engagement ring box he heard her bedroom door open again QUICKLY shoving it back in his pocket, "hey seb can you come to my bedroom” she yelled out from the other side of the door, he slowly walked to her door, when he pressed on the door revealing her room candles lit, she was sat on the edge of the bed dressed in a silk robe, a bra and panties he flirtatiously smirked at the sight of her "what do I owe the pleasure.." he asked pushing up the sleeves to his crewneck sweater, "I regretted your offering a few nights ago I told you I wasn't ready yet to start getting intimate like that" he nodded remembering crossing his arms over his chest clenching his jaw, "please forgive me" she untied her silk robe letting it fall to the floor seductively his breath hitched in his throat at the sight of her for the first time he was mesmerized by the shape of her body it didn't matter to him what she looked like the curves of her body or her petite figure he didn't care, she was his and he loved her.

"you're forgiven" we're the only words he could let out, he wanted to know every wrinkle, every freckle, every beauty mark, on her body he wanted to be a genius of the anatomy of her body, he got closer his hands finally finding her skin chills circulated all over her body as he got right behind her kissing her neck one arm creeping to her stomach her back pressed up against his front she felt the heat between her legs light a fire

as he gently unclasped her bra taking the shoulders down sensually his lips connecting once again with the skin between her neck and shoulder loving the feeling she reached over behind her touching him through his pants he felt a little hard which turned her on even more, the hand that was on her stomach slowly inching closer and closer toward her heat, she loved this teasing she just knew she would miss work tomorrow, "tell me if I should stop" he whispered so low she barely heard what he said, his hand found her heat rubbing circles teasing her so badly her body pressed up against his she stopped him turning around ripping his shirt off his body revealing his magnificent body his chain dangling her hands gently reached his waistband of his pants pulling them down as he stepped out of them, "this should be fun" he whispered finally their lips connecting the only thing keeping them apart were the underwear between the both of them, the teasing kept going which made things more interesting when finally they had enough with the foreplay.

"So how was I I haven’t been at it in some time” she said with a smirk he traced her skin with his fingertips loving the warmth her skin held

"phenomenal" he said in the lowest voice he sounded cheesy as hell she pushed off him which made the two laugh a lot they cuddled closely to each other a moment they never wanted to forget for as long as they lived..

That morning she got up got ready for work she picked up the clothes off the floor his sweatpants inside out she picked them up to fold them when something fell out of the pocket a red velvet box her eyes widened her skin was getting really hot, he was gonna propose??? Or he is? What- she quickly put the box back in his pants and threw them on the floor

"Y/n, mr Crawford needs to speak with you." His assistant came up to her at office “can’t he just call me men are useles Lucy” the assistant laughed walking out, she got up going to his office "chase if this is about me being late-" she was going to explain herself until he stopped her, "nope I have a job proposal” proposal that word it scared her to say the least... “I'm handing it over to you first if you don't want it I'm giving it to angie. Y/n I want you to take the duchan case." Chase said She was in shock "chase-" "you know how much you mean to me and this company you're the right women to take it I offered it to you first" "what do I tell Sebastian?" "If you take the offer? Well hi honey baby sweetheart I have to leave for the next 5 months to Brazil and I won't be back anytime soon and also I can't have any contact with you or anyone else for that matter just my boss" chase said with a laugh he clicked his pencil once he ended his sentence.

"Haha very funny," she rolled her eyes "listen can you give me two days?" He nodded standing up as did she "I need your answer by morning the second day alright kid" "yes sir" they hugged and she left, her relationship was very friendly with mr Crawford he didn't treat anyone in the company the way he treats y/n I guess because they get along so well. Y/n has a chance to leave the country and figure out a case and be a reporter something she'd never thought she would do, but she would lose seb..maybe even lose the proposal if she leaves

"Hey I'm home" she yelled as she took her keys from the lock, closing the door she felt a strange sensation come upon her like it wasn't sebastian in the house but someone else, her instincts kicked in she grabbed the stick for the fire place walking around the corner it was a women cleaning which startled the women that was cleaning she threw her rag in the air she was filled with fright, "miss I'm so sorry I thought mr stan told you I was coming in today" y/n huffed with relief "it's okay not to be rude but why did he call you to come in today?"

"He said a special occasion" she told y/n, she shrugged her shoulders what was sebastian's special occasion? Is he gonna propose???

"I never got your name?" Y/n said

"Margo" she reached out her hand for y/n to shake it and she did "um I guess carry on sorry for almost beating you to death" she laughed and the women did too she went into her bedroom and laid on the bed “what am I gonna tell him do” she was in panic mode what did she do when she panicked... “CHRIS come over” she said he laughed on the other line “what is it this time” he said “an emergency for your ears only mr Evans I am warning you”

It was an hour later Margo cleaned the entire house it was spotless... why did he ask her to come in?

“He’s gonna WHAT” he said

“YEAH I saw the box”

“did you see the ring?” He whispers

“no I wanted it to be a suprise! Now tell me what to do”

“Don’t take the job offer” Chris said “are you gonna elaborate or that’s it just don’t take the job” she was anxious

“you’ve wanted him your whole life and you have him now and you’re gonna give up on him for a job? There’s more to live than a job” Chris said “you’re right I just this is so good for me I’m scared that.. I’ll lose on this opportunity and I lose out on my seb” she wanted to bang her head into the wall

“Choose Sebastian or the job”

“Sebastian”

“Than you’ve made up your mind!”

“I want him Chris i always will but will he always want me like he does right now will he change his mind in 5 months will he decide he doesn’t love me after all, I have to think about these things because he makes promises and doesn’t keep them... I just hope I’m making the right choice” she said

“You are” he pulled her in and they hugged while they sat down, their legs up bodies close their heads on top of each other’s, they heard the door open “cheating on me already” Sebastian walked in with a laugh “yes kiss me” she said with her lips puckered he kissed her sweetly “hey Chris” they hugged “I guess I’m gonna go... good luck” he said grabbing his jacket and kissing her cheek “bye text me when you get home”, and he left Sebastian nowhere to be found

“Seb....seb....” she looked in the kitchen in the bathroom in their separate rooms where?.. oh the “backyard” he looked out into the skies some beautiful buildings “I have something to tell you” he said looking at and it at her, “what” she got closer closing the door behind her.. “I got offered a job..and I’m not gonna be here for a while” her heart broke “what...” “my boss told me I have no choice I have to take this job she can’t lose money on my account, baby” he turned towards her “ it’s in another country they want me to run one of our out of country offices for the next 5 months” she laughed, “I got offered a job today that I can take or leave they want me to report a story in Brazil for 5 months and I didn’t know if I should take it because of us..” he was amazed “baby a reporting job that’s amazing I’m so proud of you” he kissed her for a brief moment putting his hands on her shoulders rubbing them “tonight was suppose to go a lot different, this wasn’t suppose to be happening now” he fiddled his pocket pulling out a letter “hi beautiful, I’m writing you this letter cause god I miss you things haven’t been the same without you I haven’t been able to see you remember when we slow danced at dance rehearsal, when you helped me pick out the flowers for the wedding, I just want you to know that I love you and when the right times come they come. Seb x” he said as he read out the letter “she found the letter when she came home after a few days away thinking it was for her, I wrote this letter for you I wrote letters every time I missed you he pulled out three letters from his jacket pocket “I confessed my love for you in all four letters because I thought maybe you’ll reciprocate it one day I hope today is that day” he got down on one knee her heart was racing she pushed her hair out of her face to wipe her tears

“We’re going to be apart for 5 months I don’t think I can wait that long to marry you y/n so for gods sake y/n y/m y/l will you marry me so help me god you stay in my life for the rest of my life” he said with small tears pouring out of his eyes she hugged him so tight she was bawling her eyes out she kissed him a million times it felt like “I knew you didn’t even care about the ring” he laughed she didn’t even put the ring on she knew he loved her a ring didn’t mean anything

“Yes a million times yes” she couldn’t believe she was saying these words to Sebastian of all people she was saying yes to getting married to him she was engaged!

“Sebastian it’s so big!” She was amazed “you deserve it my fiancé” a smirk left his lips she loved hearing that word come out of his mouth “I might just rip your clothes off now” “is it cause I said my fiancé” she nodded kissing him once more “I’ll only be able to call you once a month for the 5 months I’m going to be gone” she said he nodded “me too” they both knew this was going to be a hard task however it’s happening to both them..