#idk is this anything?

[corvidaebreak]

FAITH x Mouthwashing

[transchesters]

punished - ethel cain

[clovesnz]

“Oh sweetheart come here”

“...please? Just, come over here for me”

“Hold on, hold on. I know it itches. Let me have you for just a moment.”

“Can you look at me?”

“Bless you.”

“Hey hey hey, uh uh”

“Bless you”

“...fuck, bless you”

“Oh hun. You’re so fucking pretty like this”

[redstainedsocks]

I know there's a well loved niche for royal whump, but lately I've been thinking a lot about royal *guard* whump.

Hurt for being loyal to the old king, punished for doing the thing they were trained to do. Grief-struck at the loss of their fellow guards in combat. Guilt at failing at their most important task: protecting the heart of kingdom.

[911s-bravest-soldier]

i dont know if this is anything

But eddie seems to not like reading. He reads to Chris to keep up what Shannon had started, and he knows that its important, but there's like several moments where people on the team are reading books where eddie is like kinda being like ew about it? idk if im making this up LMAO

But Buck is constantly reading. Mostly self help books, yes, because my guy is nothing if not a mess in search of answers. But yeah hes read several books, and even in the coma he was a teacher, and idk i think theres probably something to do with the fixing and also something to do with escape.

But i feel like eddie was probably wayyy better at school than Buck. Buck had issues with sitting still, listening, authority etc. But eddie was probably more reserved, the catholic guilt kept him from acting out, also being from a smaller conservative town with his parents for parents...I mean its clear he feels like he has a place and he has to follow order. Thats why his fall back was the army. He followed orders there, where as a parent, no one tells you how to do it. You have to do the telling. You see him open up a lot more when Shannon leaves, and he really steps up for Chris, but Eddie still has this like mentality through a lot of things like he's waiting to be told what to do, or like he's waiting for someone to lay the path out and give him the answers. When he "falls short" of that "path", he punishes himself for it. He lets his parents take Chris to Texas, he stops letting himself be happy. He hasn't earned it.

But buck is all about action, going out and finding it and trying everything under the sun, and putting everything into getting better. And the idea of learning and growing is a little less scary to Buck. And he was never good at school, never really went to college, and so reading is less framed as an act he did to be good but rather something which he wanted to do. Where as Eddie probably read more growing up because he was told to, but there's no one telling him to now so he doesn't. He avoids it because its one thing they can't tell him to do anymore.

[sluttyhenley]

gotta catch 'em all

[timelord-of-the-moon]

You know you're fucked if these two randomly show up on your zoom meeting

[aubergine-with-no-peen]

just started playing disco elysium and started connecting dots so behold: the product of me opening ibispaint at 4:am:

alternatively:

[sunshineastro]

i have thoughts on occasion. (some of) my mxtx trans headcanons!

xie lian: never planning on medically transitioning. was going to when he turned 18, then Shit Happened, now he’s decided that it just isn’t that deep

lan wangji: going the whole way baby. cannot get that phalloplasty fast enough. also, fish mouth scars but they look Not Great

bingmei: “double” incisions. probably not planning on doing anything else he wouldn’t do anything that would compromise the possibility of him getting pregnant

liu qingge: inverse T/anchor scars (reduction, not removal) and on T. probably going to get a metoidioplasty

[mustangs-flames]

What's the purring thing like now that it's updated?

Predominantly, a mimic's 'purring' is a holdover from them being in the void. When they aren't in the material plane (our world), they naturally vibrate at a frequency that matches the background noise still left behind from the Big Bang. They aren't really aware that they're doing it, it's just as natural as breathing is to humans, and because of the frequencies coming from the void around them, they can't even hear that they're doing it anyway.

In the material plane though, 'purring' becomes a sort of self-soothing thing. When a mimic longs to be back where it knows it is safe (the void), it will create the same frequency. It's not so much an emotionally driven soothing thing as it is an instinctive thing to keep it level-headed and an efficient predator. M!Cesar (and other mimics like Daniel/Nobody) with his humanity has found that there is now an emotional quality to this act - when he is overwhelmed/stressed/upset and alone, he will emit this frequency to feel safe. When he is very happy or content, he will also do it out of a desire to share that happiness with those around him, to make them feel as safe and good as he does, too.

The problem is that the sound made is generally uncomfortable for human ears to listen to. It involves a lot of heavy static, grains, pops, and even high-pitched whistles/shrieks. It also picks up interference from nearby radios, televisions, and anything transmitting sound (such as baby monitors), so sometimes disjointed words and clips of music or TV shows/broadcasts are mashed up into it.

It's pretty much uncharted territory for a mimic like m!Cesar because it's never happened before. It's not supposed to happen. And he can't always help it, but he does manage to get a grasp on stomping it down enough that it can't be heard. But when he does that, he's left feeling oddly jumbled up, like he's having to hold back some part of himself.

The plan is to have him eventually figure it out enough that he can channel the sounds a little better and make them more refined, usually into shapes/tones that he knows Mark likes. So imagine, if you will, them huddled up on the couch/bed together and m!Cesar 'purring' but very gently weaved through it all is Mark's favourite songs or lines of dialogue from his favourite films. M!Cesar mostly 'purrs' because of Mark anyway, so it makes sense for the sound itself to reflect that. For it to be tailored to the one person he loves more than anything else.

Not that he'd ever tell Mark he did that though lol

[acetheta]

“forever he told me” like a fucking liar. “forever” he told me like he meant it. “forever” he told me like he wasn’t in love with someone else.

my name is leo valdez and i’m in love with a dead man.

his name was jason grace, and he was horrible. horrible in the way that he was perfect in every way. horrible in the way he made my bones ache in how much i needed him to breathe. he was my oxygen, and without him, nothing works the way it’s supposed to.

what am i supposed to do? get over him? no. trust me, i’ve tried. it didn’t fucking work.

[we-fucked-up-evolution]

Matt Mercer: "This room in Aeor is filled with chains and people were driven to oblivion by this demon who's being kept from the Abyss by ancient tech"

Me: "Mmh, sure. I wonder what Tharizdun, the Chained Oblivion, sort-of-god of madness who seems to lord over the Abyss, is doing right now"

[junicoins]

Date idea: we go to an adult toy store and pick out a dildo for the other person to ride. And when we get home, we mutually ride the dildos and just desperately watch as we fuck ourselves silly.

[a-demonic-duck-of-some-sort]

You can bring a horse to yuri but you can’t make it ship

[ohbutwheresyourheart]

the phantom as a metaphor for depression and/or substance abuse. you've been alone for so long, been unhappy for so long, disconnected from your art for so long. but one day you find something that helps you cope. and, for a while, your art comes back to you, but there's a greater and greater price to pay. and more and more often you find yourself stuck in this terrible, frightening, dark place you can't escape from on your own. and when you first try to explain it to someone else, someone you trust, they initially dismiss you or act like you're just ~crazy~

raoul as a metaphor for recovery. remembering that the world exists beyond that terrible, frightening, dark place you keep finding yourself trapped in. let me be your freedom, let daylight dry your tears. the nagging memory that love and life and freedom exist, even when the phantom is trying to pull you further and further down into the darkness.

christine, christine, don't think that i don't care, but every hope and every prayer rests with you now

because nothing is more frightening than committing to recovery, but you have to do it. you have to. and nobody else, no matter how much they love you, can do it for you. you are the one who has to face down the phantom.