#idk im musing dont mind me

[buggachat]

Sometimes I think about how Adrien, throughout the series, constantly grapples with his fear of abandonment. Gabriel conditioned him to believe that any love he receives is purely transactional, and that to earn affection he has to prove his utility. Adrien is constantly trying to prove his worth to his father for scraps of affection, and Chat Noir infamously crumbles on-screen any time he feels as though he is replaceable to Ladybug. It's a constant insecurity of his, like everyone will just dump him like a sack of potatoes the moment they find out how useless he is.

Meanwhile, all Marinette wants to is ensure that Adrien is happy. Because she loves him. She doesn't give two shits about how """useful""" he is. She holds him and tells him that she will never abandon him (both as Ladynoir and as Adrienette), and her fantasies are about saving him, not about him being "useful" to her. Throughout their relationship, Adrien is forced to disappoint Marinette constantly for reasons outside of his control (amok commands), and yet Marinette is still there for him.

At Adrien's lowest point, when he is forcibly torn away from everyone who had ever showed him genuine care, locked away in an all-white room and at his most "useless", right after disappointing Marinette and unable to even join the final battle or contribute in any way, she still saves him. She still loves him. Because he doesn't have to prove anything to her. Because he is loved and cherished for who he is, not for what he does, and that love is not conditional. Adrien's "happy ending" at the end of the first arc wasn't about him finally proving how useful he can be, because he never actually cared about being useful — he just saw it as the only means to feel loved and needed. Instead, in the end, he found out that he was loved and needed no matter what.

[bananararama-hasmoved]

Wanted to infodump to my friend about the selfship lore I'm making but I forgot that could involve breaking the news to him about me not being an anti anymore. I don't want to break his heart like that :(

[sshoujo-ais]

when it comes to like directly f/o or f/o related tattoos i pretty much only want 4?

theres serana that im getting, i also want the ram skull that rebecca has (but like not on my ribs bc ouchie and also its so fucking big and would pretty much just be all blackwork. but i have other plans for it). then i want like a harley quinn themed queen of diamonds playing card above my ankle (so when i put my socks on it looks like the card is in my sock like i was cheating with it) and finally i want the

do you see that tiny flower on the right?

well i want that flower on my hand

[ardentiron]

5 individuals have arrived

@stealthfeline ; @acaringautobot ; @solisanima ; @13urningstars ; @sparkmender

"Ahh, that's quiet a lot of people, huh.

I got some free time, why don't you tell me more about yourself?"

[fujouppy]

they should invent an abandonment that you cant see coming. they should invent an abandonment that you dont have to prepare yourself for for months or maybe even years. they should invent an abandonment thats quick and easy - like ripping a bandaid off!

[prestonmonterey]

intro

!! plz dont send me chain asks !!

(pronouns page is linked on there but also here if you dont wanna look for it:)

ok so uhh basically the gist of it

hi

im preston

uhh for names call me preston or pres or squid or orion or jaxon or actually just whatever you want i dont mind (more on my prounouns page) (if we're friends/moots feel free to gimme a nickname if ya want)

pronouns are it/he/they (the order of preference changes from time to time also neos are alright just anything other than she/her)

fandoms im most active in: varian and the seven kingdoms/tangled the series, camp here and there (will wood too!!), adamandi, the art of pleasing princes, starkid, spies are forever and percy jackson (mostly the musical bc im in a production of it :)

you can always interact with me! apparently im intimidating but i swear im really nice (i think) and id be really happy if you sent an ask at any time :3 i promise i wont get annoyed even if you think youre being annoying i just really like interacting with cool people :3

you can tag me in anything and everything! i promise ill look at it :3 and i try my best to do tag games and stuff (lmk if you dont want me to tag ya) but if i dont uhh, just assume i was like, really tired that day, or ive been tagged by another moot in that game before and im too lazy to dig it up :P sry

uhh im a minor too so like nsfw/18+ blogs dni

i try my best to use tone tags but if i forget and you need them please let me know!! (i also find tone tags helpful for myself) :3

theres more info on my card about like other stuff too

tag key:

#marble musings = original posts

#marble monologues = long posts/reblogs usually about chnt or just like existentialism idk

#marble draws = art/fanart/crafts/cosplay type thing

#marble games = i make games on google forms! hoping to learn to code or get an actual game engine to make full games past like choose your own adventures

#marble music = song covers :3 (yes i have all the filtered instrumentals i used for adamandi, lmk if you want them i can send em over discord or something)

#marble asks = answering stuff in my ask box

i think thats all of them :3 might add more eventually, and sometimes i forget to tag properly so sorry about that :(

i have some sideblogs if you wanna check em out (not super active on them but ill still try to respond if you shoot me an ask)

hatchetfield rp sideblogs: @thelilcloverpatch @fading-angelic-starlight @marble-man @honey-sparrow @ivy-wreathed-arches

and @hatchetfield-bone-thief

theyre all dead and uhh tw for spookies and violence and blood and sh and ritualistic sacrifice

i have a couple other blogs but those are secret :D

[doumadono]

Emergency request!!. Hi hope im doing this right but i would love some comforting douma if thats possible i dont really have presice ideas. Lately im feeling like i dont enjoy anything anymore even the things i love. There are so many changes with the people that surrounds me and i dont feel mattered or that i belong anymore or that people care. Im used/like to be alone but sometime its just painful idk why. Anyway i had to get these out thank you for indulging in my request and have a good day/night

Origami - Douma x gn!Reader

Synopsis: seeing his partner's sadness, Douma makes a swift decision to lift their spirits A/N: I'm really sorry to hear that you're feeling this way, dear Nonnie. Remember though that it's completely okay to have moments of doubt and uncertainty, especially when facing changes of any kind. Remember, your feelings are valid, and you are never alone in this. You do matter, and there are people who care about you deeply. If you ever need someone to talk to or just a listening ear, I'm here for you

MASTERLIST

In the tranquil garden of Douma's temple, a gentle breeze rustled the leaves of sakuras trees. Amidst the fragrant blooms and lush greenery, Douma's keen eyes caught a glimpse of his significant other, sitting huddled with their knees drawn up, tears glistening on their cheeks in a dim light cast by the moon. Concern etched his features as he approached. "Hey," he murmured softly, his voice a calming melody that seemed to dissipate the heaviness in the air. He lowered himself beside them, his movements deliberate yet unhurried. "Mind if I join you?"

They glanced up, their eyes weary but warm at the sight of him. "Of course, Douma-sama," they replied, their voice carrying a hint of vulnerability that tugged at his heart.

Resting beside them, Douma let the silence linger, understanding the need for a moment of solace. The gentle sounds of nature enveloped them, creating a cocoon of comfort that allowed their thoughts to unravel at their own pace. He watched as they wiped away their tears, their emotions painted across their features.

"You seem… distant," he ventured, his tone gentle yet inquisitive. "Is there something on your mind?"

Their gaze dropped to their hands, fingers fidgeting slightly as they struggled to put their feelings into words. "Lately, everything just feels… different," they admitted, their voice soft as if sharing a long-held secret. "Even the things I used to enjoy, they don't bring me the same happiness anymore."

Douma nodded understandingly, his rainbow coloured eyes filled with a mix of empathy and concern. "Change can be unsettling, especially when it feels like it's altering the things we hold dear," he mused, his words a soothing balm that seemed to resonate with their own feelings. "Trust me, I know this feeling damn too well."

A fleeting silence passed between them, each lost in their thoughts, until Douma gently reached out to take their hand in his. The touch was grounding, a tangible reminder that they were not alone in their struggles. "You know, it's okay to feel this way," he reassured them, his thumb brushing lightly over their knuckles. "Your emotions are valid, and I'm here for you, no matter what."

Their lips curled into a faint smile, gratitude shining in their eyes. "I know you are, Douma. It's just… sometimes it's hard to believe that I matter, that I belong."

His grip on their hand tightened ever so slightly, his gaze unwavering as he met their gaze. "You matter more than you realize," he said earnestly, his voice carrying a weight of sincerity that resonated deep within them. "To me, to the people who care about you, and even to the world surrounding you." With a tender gesture, he brushed a strand of hair from their face, his touch gentle yet reassuring. "You belong right here, in this moment," he assured, his words a promise that hung in the air like a whispered prayer.

They leaned into his touch, their heartache beginning to ebb away, replaced by a sense of comfort they hadn't felt in a while. In that tranquil garden, amidst the blossoming flowers and the soft rustling of leaves, Douma's embrace felt like a sanctuary, a reminder that even amidst change and uncertainty, their significance remained unwavering.

As the tears dried on their cheeks, they found solace in the quiet moments shared with Douma, their bond growing stronger with each word spoken and each touch exchanged.

"You know," Douma began suddenly, his tone gentle yet filled with a hint of mischief, "I've noticed that when the human mind is preoccupied with something engaging, it tends to forget about the troubles that weigh it down."

Curiosity flickered in his partner's eyes, a faint spark of intrigue amidst the cloud of their emotions. "What do you have in mind?" they asked, their voice lingering with curiosity.

Douma's lips curled into a subtle smirk, a playful glint dancing in his gaze. "How about we try our hand at origami?" he suggested. "It's a calming activity that requires focus and creativity. Plus, the sense of accomplishment when you create something beautiful with your own hands can be quite uplifting. I have always wanted to try it out but ever since I'm a demon, I tend to be occupied with more ghoulish stuff," he joked.

"Origami, huh?" they mused, a hint of interest coloring their words. "I've never really tried it before too."

Douma chuckled softly, his smile genuine and encouraging. "Perfect. Then it's a new experience waiting for both of us," he replied. "Come, let's sit down and give it a shot!"

[getsusekaii]

WHAT NOT TO DO WHEN INTERACTING WITH MY BLOG - Customizable Edition

BASICS !

Name / Alias: rubii, wubii, roob, puppy all fit haha

Pronouns: they/them

Blog type: single muse | multi-muse | non selective | semi selective | selective | mutuals only | private | other (specify)

Type of muses: canon | OCs | both | other (headcanon based canon characters like tengen and rika)

GENERALITIES !

Triggers people MUST tag: extreme eye gore, insects, trypophobia (for the love of god please)

Interest tracker / checker: I have it and it's mandatory | I have it, it's not mandatory but I'm more likely to follow back / interact with the people who fill it | I have one and I prefer it if people fill it in | I have it but it's to people whether to fill it or not | I don't have one | other (specify)

Reblog karma: I practise it | I practise it sometimes | I don't practise it | I always reblog memes from the source | indifferent | other (specify)

Rule passwords: I have one and it's mandatory | I have one and it's optional | I don't have one | I send passwords | don't sent passwords | [space for eventual additions / explanations]

3-5 ESSENTIAL RULES PEOPLE HAVE TO RESPECT

i have adhd which means my communication in the beginning is staggered and all, but by no means does it mean i dislike you or anything. i'm actually really shy af too even though i'm also trying to loosen up and be more open to talking to ppl more. more often this results in mild burn out, i just ask for your patience, and to never be afraid to reach out to me (sometimes i just forget to reply to dms bc my life is weird af)

do NOT, do not, do not, do not pressure me into writing ships. there are a select few moots who you may see i add and have an instant shipping connection with, and it's often times bc the mun chemistry is peak, but never forced.

no drama. idc if i follow someone you dislike based off of a tiny fight. unless it's something egregious and serious and something i should 100% be on the look out for, i don't wanna know why you dislike a person based off of something silly or they hurt your feelings. it had nada nothing to do with me. i just wanna write.

3-5 IMPORTANT PET PEEVES TO KEEP IN MIND

do not pester me to reply to threads. i work graveyard shifts, working 9 blogs here and there. a casual reminder here and again is cool, but please don't rush me

force ship, even if it's my OTP

thinking im scary, 'anxiety is preventing me from' etc. etc. idk why this bothers me so much, but it does. i don't know why you follow or anything if you're too scared to interact with me, or anxiety is your reason for not reaching out, esp if you followed me first. its a little strange.

2-5 THINGS THAT WILL LEAD TO INSTANT (SOFT)BLOCKING

weird ass ships.

too much complaining on the dash, e-begging, gaslighting.

following for follow count. i want people to write with.

2-5 THINGS THAT LEAD ME TO UNFOLLOW / SOFTBLOCK A MUTUAL / SOMEONE I INTERACT WITH

strange head canons, general things i just don't vibe with. no offense but we're entitled to our opinion and safe spaces

weird behavior, persistent annoying communication, soft gaslightling regarding threads/life/why don't my mutuals/followers blah blah.

2-5 REASON YOU DON'T TO FOLLOW (BACK) SOMEONE

i dont see ourselves vibing in general.

no age/rules/about page that's easily accessible.

"problematic" ships (adult/underage)

tagged by: yoiked by @hazubekimono tagging: you're it now

[green-eyes-and-orange-ties]

I think it really speaks to the level of talent and dedication of the VA's of Night Shift Pod that they can listen to a song and channel that energy into their character so completely that it ends up on a unofficial playlist for their character

I couldn't see a Dagger playlist so ... um ... I made one (feel free to sends suggestions)

[astarionancuntnin]

✨Writing Interview Tag Game✨

Thank you for the tag @nyx-knox!! <33

When did you start writing?

Like wayyyyyyyyy back, I technically wrote my first story when i was 11. I didn't write again until i was 15 (original pieces + fanfics), then i stopped and Im back at it again at 26 ayoooo

Are there different themes or genres you enjoy reading than what you write?

if i really need to search further into my favorite books, i would definitely say psychological horror and dramas

Is there a writer you want to emulate or get compared to often?

I don't know writers enough to really get an idea of how to compare myself to any of them, but I do know that i tend to emulate what i'm exposed to, so if I read an entire series from an author, and they used a certain syntax, i'll tend to also do it by force of habit. (i also consider it a flaw cause i see it as hindering my writing creativity ;-;)

Can you tell me a bit about your writing space?

its my personal pc that doubles as my work space, so its a bit all over the place ngl haha, theres a lot of astarion stickers and posters, all the furniture (keyboard, mouse, desk, etc) is pastel purple (my favorite colour), i have three screens (mostly for work but its also useful in day to day life) and my three wallpapers are astarion, of course. sometimes when i feel a writers block, i found out that writing on my laptop does unblock me! in that case, youll find me typing away on my couch in my living room uwu

What's your most effective way to muster up a muse?

MUSIC. What I write will be highly dependent on what I listen at the moment, like I was really into boywithuke when i wrote my angsty fics, and then i moved to a dark romance playlist and that got me going for die for you but then i was unable to continue my other fic cause i wasnt in an angsty mood anymore ._. (i swear i didnt abandon it, it just isnt the playlists turn to play on repeat) and rn im a lot into sleep token and ari abdul

Are there any recurring themes in your writing? Do they surprise you?

So. Much. Smut. And angst. not surprising! my writing will also often depict my current state of mind. dw im in therapy, im working on it

What is your reason for writing?

It's my favorite creative output/the one im most experienced in! i wanna start drawing but i never find the time to really get into it and also terrified of failure which brings me to my second reason, its all i think i can do and i get dopanine reading nice comments teehee

Is there any specific comment or type of comment you find particularly motivating?

when people tell me about a favourite part, when they liked the tension i managed to create, how i convey some characters, and most of all when i get told they loved a character i created!! this is so encouraging and pushes me to continue <3

How do you want to be thought about by your readers?

i dont know how to answer to that .-. uh, i guess i want to be liked? seen as a good writer if anything? idk man ;-;

What do you feel is your greatest strength as a writer?

Definitely descriptions, and creating a build up in a scene. I feel like it comes naturally to me and people have often told me that they are never lost when reading my scenes which reassures me so much LMAO I feel validated I also think I make really fun dialogue, especially banter with my ocs/tavs

How do you feel about your own writing?

i often self criticise my own work a lot, and i get that imposter syndrome where ill reread my work before posting and go "what the hell" in those moments, im grateful im not writing on paper cause that sheet would find its way to the trash real quick ^^ ' im sincerely truly blessed that my partner offers himself to read my pieces and beta read them, and tell me his honest opinion (there are things i wrote i wish i could forget and yall better be thankful he was there to stop me from posting first versions)

When you write, are you influenced by what others might enjoy reading, or do you write purely for yourself, or a mix of both?

mix of both definitely. initially i wrote my own ideas and if people do end up liking them hell yeah!!! glad im able to find people that vibe the same way i do! then again, when i write for people, even if most of it comes from my silly little imagination, it was initially influenced by the request itself and is going to guide the writing specific to this piece, which honestly makes sense imo

Tagging 🏷️: @marlowethebard @roguishcat @anacdoce @charmandabear @marimosalad

[laprimera]

alrighty so after some reflection and getting some outside stuff prioritized Im done some blog housework so I can get comfortable here again.

im still gonna continue my hiatus until november cause the rest of October still has a lot of rl appointments and stuff going on. ill be nuking my ask and drafts to get into maximum turtle plot overdrive and just start things clean, but here's the skinny under cut:

. Ive went and cleaned up my followers list. mostly of inactive blogs, non-mutual or blogs that haven't reached out or interacted at all. I use to think I liked a busier dash but I think trying to keep up with it had been giving me anxiety even if my muses weren't involved in anything plot wise. FOMO has been really killing my vibe more then anything and I need to cut that habit out.

you're a-okay to refollow though! I'll do the same. none of this was done out of malice or a personal dislike, and I get being so busy w/ life and personal plots that you cant interact with everyone in a convenient moment. but if you see this as an opportunity to reach out then by all means! that and I might've accidentally unfollowed one or two of you cause side-blog deal, clumbsy thumbs, and uuh, dont mind me realizing that later down the line-my bad!

. unless carefully plotted otherwise, anything outside my own canons, affiliated blogs/mains or plots is no longer canon to my own. any interaction or thread initiated towards my muses will default fall into my lore/verse unless vice versa or its plotted and etc etc. It's no longer just hanging there in the void so to speak. I need to feel more in control of my own narrative I think and trying to puzzle a lot of contradicting outside plots, dash events, etc has been mentally taxing when rp shouldn't be occupying so much space or anxiety to begin with lol.

this isn't to say everything thats happening in the dash or w/ other characters isn't important ofc! and I still want to participate; it'll just fall under a crack/non-canon tag. if things end up lining up p' well with whats going on here then I might take it into canon. This is p' much what I've been doing to begin with, it's just more concrete now and Im being more careful of what Im willing to accept now. Im ofc open to discussing stuff! DMs and disco for those who have it are open always even if I take a moment to get to it!

. Im no longer answering anon asks that are personal in some way, ie, around subject matters that aren't general headcanons asks or 'hey how do you feel about-' sorta deal. I dont feel comfortable taking it to public and while I understand having the fear of being identified, it's not fair if I'm the only one bearing the subject so to speak. If you want to talk to me through DMs you can either tell me your UN (no burners either) so I can bypass permissions here to chat or you can reach me at @shiny-miltank where my IMs are not barred to mutuals only. I don't bite really! and my discord is not public. tbh Im still very anxious about being on disco to begin w/ cause social anxiety flare ups. idk tumblr dms always seemed easier to chat until I know you on a personal basis-its just worked that way.

. making it more strict that you dont? put my geeta in place of plots, events, etc that I havent participated or plotted with, nor can you make assumptions for them based on said events. as slapped on every piece on my about/rules/pinned/etc shes heavily canon-divergent to begin with so no one knows her intentions/actions (save for me ofc) and wont act in what presumed canon-geeta would do or your own version so to speak. easy enough to slap me an IM for "is it okay to-", plotting, or just make a nebulous npc stand-in.

. things that havent changed are the use of my lore and headcanons into your own! I love seeing it integrated or adapted into other lore and seeing just how much it inspires and changes over time!

this all seems rigid but really it's just reiterating whats already in my rules and no one here has been a huge offender at all :' ) this is more for me to follow and I cant thank everyone enough for their patience and creativity for as long as I've been here. Im loosey goosey and go with the flow 90 out of 100 times.

this goes for the rest of my muses, which Ill probably clean up when Im back-but yeah! miss ya'll! hope you've been doin' good! the terrapagos plot will continue then and Ill resume reaching out and leaving details! hopefully in time for dlc ; >

[leolingo]

(rant about linguistics, aphasia and q!quackity’s impairments post-memory loss!!! to anyone who knows more about any of this, PLEASE add on or dm me id love to learn if anyones into neurolinguistics or anything of the sort)

ive been digging deeper into q!quackity’s condition (because I quite literally CAN’T stop thinking abou it) + taking note of his symptoms/behavior and it seems like what he’s dealing with could be called alexia (acquired inability to read) with agraphia (acquired inability to write), which are types of general aphasia, except i still need to know MORE about his production and comprehension i need to get in there!!!!!

it seems like he could be experiencing literal/verbal alexia with agraphia, which would mean he can’t recognize written letters or symbols at all and that is why he’s unable to read (this is all very tentative… all i have to go off of is my psycholinguistics class and as many academic articles as i can read). from what ive seen, q!q hasn’t actually tried to read any signs out loud, there’s no verbal attempt or production of speech which would make sense if he really can’t recognize the alphabet. BUT. what bothers me is that he can speak spanish with no issues. since spanish has a high proximity between phonology and orthography, theory says people who are able to speak it should be able to read and write the phonemes. and he can’t — or hasn’t tried. THAT makes me think he Can recognize the letters themselves

to confirm this i would really like to see him try to spell…. Or just name a letter! if its confirmed he CAN recognize individual letters, then id say what we’re looking at is more like pure alexia (without agraphia) — only a reading impairment, which would cause him to be unable to Arrange the letters in a sensical order. Its tough to check any of this w minecraft as a medium…. with a keyboard (or, in rp, on a communicator/in chat) it’s kind of impossible to know if he’s clicking at random or actually Trying to seek specific letters. but ill say that the way he sometimes dictates what he’s intending to write makes me think he DOES have the visual of each letter in his mind, and just struggles to order them or accurately transpose them

its also interesting to me how theres no sign of a speech impediment. q!q could speak fine from the very first moment we saw him. all hesitation was modal/owed to circumstance and not actually tied to his production of speech. i think that has more to do with the memory part of things! it could be that the extend of his memory alteration only goes as far as his writing and reading do. speech and comprehension come first in regular human development, and those are the faculties he has kept mostly unaltered. there could also be an argument to make about this pointing spanish as his first language (like cc!quackity) and english as his second, which would explain the dissonance between his production in one language and the other — but given that last stream he did express knowledge of english, idk if its relevant

i dont know much about the actual anatomy of things but i think it’s interesting that most aphasia cases are caused by lesions on the left temporal-parietal lobe. AND that its also possible for aphasia to be caused by head trauma like a hard hit to the head or deprival of oxygen (due to drowning? food for thought).

psa i know the situation in canon could be a lot less deep than im trying to make it. i get that. i dont expect the writers team to have researched the symptoms to this extent, but i enjoy discussing it. this is part of my major and a big area of interest for me so i find it really fun :) ill keep reading on this topic as much as i can and reblog w more of my musings if i find more relevant info. baseline qsmp team please let me in i need to study q!q under a microscope (lovingly)

[03petition]

I havent really seen any postal related rps like ever and it got me curious to if you have an interaction wish list, like characters youd wanna interact with

WUGHH.. OK SO. dont even get me fucking STARTED

Not Important (notim)/ the antagonist from HATRED the game sucks absolute shit. worse than postal by a fucking longshot. so i dont expect anyone to write him but hes absolutely up there on my muse wish list.. hes such a pathetic shithead and i want to slam him against dude.. maybe p1 dude.. with FERVOR.

duke nukem self explanatory

literally any character from the yakuza series i used to write majima, im up to date to like a dragon/7.. and with the majima pirate game being announced recently its been on my mind..

ANY POSTAL DUDE VARIATION... yes any.. i fucking love doubles... p1? p2? bd?? OTHER DUDE from bd?!?!?! p3??!?!? p4?!?! postal doe??? come here ill kiss you with tongue

ANY SAW CHARACTER!!! also i absolutely love saw. idk if theres anyone out there who writes any of the jigsaw apprentices but i have soft spots for mandy and mark. though also the idea of having dude interact with strahm is really funny to me. dude deserves to be put in an unwinnable jigsaw trap. john would probably fucking hate him lol

vaas montenegro from far cry 3 (sorry)

james earl cash from manhunt (sorry again)

literally any horror/dark original character. give me your freaks, weirdos, creeps, etc. now.

tldr i love the worst type of guy/gal/grunglo/creep/etc. they would mash together either super super well or horrendously and regardless, shit would go down. and thats what i live for <3

[konfizry]

you can make a compelling argument for alphen being from any of the five realms

Calaglia is where you start the game, where alphen built his first support system and also where he crash landed and slept for 300 years. (remember that naori's promise was to send him back to his home. unlikely that she even knew where he was from exactly but WHAT IF. arise is full of super convenient happenstance whats one more on top of the stack u know)

Cyslodia is where alphen experiences the death of his mentor (with all the psychological rewiring that comes with it) and also gets the armor he wears for a solid chunk of the game. said armor is also explicitly stated to tie him with Dahna's past

Menancia is where he ends up living a manifestly happy and fulfilling life after the end, as implied by the end credits (and pretty much confirmed by btd. if you go there)

Mahag Saar has really cool aesthetics. uhhh that's it. and also as you go through the adan ruins (i think.) alphen muses that it must have one been a bustling city. he doesnt really do that elsewhere?? the writers probably didn't mean for that too be him reminiscing a deeply entrenched memory or anything like that but if you wanted to interpret it that way, no one could stop you

Ganath Haros is Vholran's realm. so that. uh makes it cool? right??? alphen very much got stranded there. lost everything and then regained hope. freed himself, shionne and everyone else from vholran's mental grip (let's all pretend that that whole arc was written that way. it kind of wasnt, but. uh) Also it's the last Dahnan realm you visit. sooo if you choose to see alphen's journey as uh. him finding his way home then it maybe it works? (tho not quite because then go back to other realms and then to lenegis so. idk lol)

also he could be from a place that got caught in the blast of the first wedge's explosion and was vaporized. it solves a lot of problems actually. i mean like. i dont think the writers want us to think too much about where alphen is from. it's more convenient if we just go "it's all gone. nothing's left". that way we don't have to anguish about alphen walking into places he's known 300 years ago. because thats not what that game's about (maybe it should have been (at least in part) but it aint)

naturally im typing all this nonsense while keeping in mind that dahna's continents were not divided up into the 5 realms we know today so at the time of alphen's life and therefore being calaglian or haros ganathian wouldn't have meant anything to him or anyone who lived in that time. unless there was like a huge empire hanging about, and even then. like. yea it wouldnt have been the same you get me.

but ye guessing what alphen's place of birth might be is pretty much not the point. it was always about him being from Dahna. the rest does not really matter.

Doesn't stop me tho.

[otherhearted-culture-is]

Hi um im mads😁i have a few (maybe a lot) of questions.

So im having trouble finding my identity. So i know and accept that im human, but sometimes (ever since ive heard abt therians and otherhearted ppl) i have the erge to run on all four legs and i get a few animalistic insticts. Ever since this, i awakened as a therian May 17, but i dont think im a therian anymore cause doing more research, i might be otherhearted.

Ive taken some quizzes and idk what to do. Im positively sure im otherhearted but i cant tell to which animal. Idk what animal i connect to, but i get the animalistic instincts of that animal.

So in concludion, the main thing i need help with is figureing out the animal im connected to.

If you dont have the time or answer to respond, that's totally fine and i just tried to reach out (not getting my hopes up on a response)!

Have a great day🩷

Interesting! Up until recently, it hadn't occurred to me that someone could know they were otherhearted without knowing their 'type in the same way otherkin often do, but you are the second example I have seen this week. And like... why not, right? Why wouldn't it happen? Not sure why I never thought about it before. Though it's very different from my experience, so I'm curious what it feels like. If anyone knows of a personal essay or the like going over that, let me know!

Anyway, enough of my aimless musing, here's my advice:

I think good old fashioned Research will probably be your best friend here. You know what instincts you're experiencing, so search for animals whose behavior matches those as closely as possible. Read about any that stand out as potential hearttypes in detail. Keep in mind that it is possible to have multiple hearttypes and/or be 'hearted with a clade instead of a specific species.

Also: I think the majority of advice geared towards figuring out one's theriotype should be portable to this, so seeking out posts about that might help you.

I wish you good luck! And thanks for that image, I will be stealing it and sending it to my friends immediately after I post this.

[marsixm]

i think i realized that ultimately my issue with how bdsm kinda is irl vs how it is on ofmd (that i prefer) is that its the same as my issues with like, the idea of someone describing anything as just a checklist of the dictionary definition of that thing. like i do understand for safety reasons why certain things have to be so rigid and coded but also i find it very bizarre and alienating how its like “ok we’re In A Scene now” ok “im playing this role now” or like oh this sentence and interaction is in the roleplay but wait no this ones not idk like i know for some other autistic people this kind of structure is more freeing bc its more clear cut, but to me it feels like a pantomime in the same way filling regular social roles is and i just dont vibe with it, and i also am not personally interested in doing specific kinks that would require more elaborate specific “scenes” (and im not saying no one should, this is all just a personal musing) vs like, i think things that are incidental in a relationship and not necessarily Explicit explicit (like telling someone to tell you what to do, and “learn to sound mean”) like its not about whats actually being said and done its about the subtext and what layers that adds to a relationship? like it almost feels more.. Earned than like. just doing what someone else says because theyre your ~master or owner now or whatever. i guess what the heart of the matter is is that i like things that feel more organic in general. i dont like things that feel forced or set up. same reason why i dont usually like the idea of meet ups or dating apps irl. its just not how my mind vibes w things

and again this is just a personal musing after spending a couple years living intensely closely with people whose entire lives revolve around bdsm, and how seeing something that resonates more with me has made me reflect on it, and not a statement on how things should be, or whats “right” and “wrong”