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hmslusitania · 3 years ago

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I was scrolling through your blog and got a wonderful idea. Hear me out. The fire fam. But in a leverage plot. They are all criminals playing Robin Hood and evening the score for the little guy. Idk I just love it and both shows have given me all the found family I could ever desire. But just think, instead of joining the 118, they’ve all had moments where they had to make that choice of what direction to go. And instead of being LAFD they turn to crime. And still find each other. Because yes.

So, Anon, my dearest. This is a screenshot of the table of contents in my "Potential AU Ideas" document. Which I created back on March 9th (I started watching the show on March 1st). You may note that the very first entry is, in fact, a Leverage AU.

I am incredibly unlikely to write it at any point because I am 100% sure I would just do an absolute hatchet job with the plots because I am nowhere near as clever as John Rogers et al, so you have given me an excuse to talk about what the details would be:

To start, we have our Mastermind, Bobby, who used to definitely be on the side of right and good, but disaster struck his family, and you know how that building they lived in was 0% up to code, disconnected sprinklers, faulty alarms, highly flammable materials? Well, the company he worked for insured that building, and do you know who faced zero charges and even made money off this tragedy?

So anyway, he is invited to crime, and would necessarily pick up his crew of the following:

Hen Wilson, an extremely talented hacker

of note, her rival hacker in the other team is Karen. They met back in the 90s in a hacker forum and it takes them several jobs as rivals to realise they're in love, it's great

Karen steals Christmas as a way to flirt with Hen at some point (and donates it all, obviously, because she's Karen)

Eddie Diaz, retrieval specialist.

He's also just like...inexplicably good at basically any physical skill? Need him to play baseball for a job? Check. Need him to be a dance instructor? Check. Need him to be a music star? Check. They have found exactly one (1) thing Eddie can't do and it's cook, but fortunately Bobby's got them covered on that

also, Lena is of course the rival hitter. I don't know why, but the scene in the Last Dam Job where the goon is like "Who are you?" "Well, I'm not Eliot" except with Lena saying it has been absolutely stuck in my head since I first had this passing thought of an au so ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

Chimney, thief

yes his name is just Chimney. No, no other information is available and even Hen can't find it when she goes looking.

Rival thief, appearing both in the Two Live Crews Job, the Inside Man Job, and the Last Dam Job is his little brother instead of his father figure, Albert.

yes this is at least 45% because of John Harlan Kim's role in the Librarians

ANYWAY

They get super duper burned on that first job as a crew and so they need someone new. At which point, Bobby announces that what they really need is Buck. "What's a buck" everyone else asks, and they go to a crap theatre in a dark corner of Chicago where our dear sweet Buckles is just absolutely blundering his entire way through Hamlet. "This is the worst thing I've ever seen," Eddie says, because of course he does.

The story comes out that when Bobby was in his insurance hunter days, he had repeated run-ins with this kid, who had clearly spent way too much of his life deeply unsupervised and turned to art theft on a lark, and Bobby had ended up a sort of surrogate father figure to him (which is why Hamlet instead of the Scottish play because y'know avenge your father rather than encourage your husband to the dark side) and eventually somewhat maybe talked him out of crime! Which leads to the first encounter of the crew as:

Buck: Bobby?!

Bobby: Hey Buck. How've you been?

Buck: Good! Good, I'm acting now instead of grifting, and it's going pretty well actually! You'd be proud of me!

Bobby: I am

Buck: So what are you up to these days?

Bobby: Crime! Want to help?

Buck: oh thank god

ANYWAY (again)

That makes the last addition to their highly effective crew:

Buck, grifter

When Buck has to lay low for a while on account of having to fake his death because of the Freddie Costas thing, he sends another grifter in his place, secretly

he is...a bit miffed when he gets back to find his sister and Chimney have fallen in love, but hey, it means Maddie ends up staying with the Leverage crew on a permanent basis so it's kinda a fifty-fifty scenario

it takes him an embarrassingly short period of time to fall in love with Eddie, which is convenient since it takes Eddie an even more embarrassingly short length of time to fall in love with him. They're just. they're gross. They're absolutely gross.

And where is Athena?

Obviously, obviously, with all her Lawful-Alignment tendencies, Athena has to be the insurance agent-then Interpol agent who keeps having far too amicable run-ins with them. Because she and Bobby used to work together of course, because of course they did. Perhaps they also are somewhat in love? Possibly? Who's to say.

(I've been flipflopping on who would be Maggie for the purpose of this au and I think it might have to be Michael? Bobby gets him into crime -- in frickin' 9-1-1 canon, let alone in an AU -- after he and Athena divorce and it's all so weird between the three of them, but you know, they do all manage to stay friendly despite *gestures vaguely* everything)

So! Yeah! If I felt I had the intelligence to actually write Leverage-style scenarios, this is how I would do it! If you've made it this far, thank you for indulging me.

also, I did sort of write a ficlet on this theme once back when we were all doing the mashup prompts

#the ghost ship scribbles #the ghost ship answers questions #leverage au I will never write my love #9-1-1 #sorry for the long post I got excited #the ghost ship fuses realities

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delfts-purple · 3 years ago

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Saints Row Reboot Thoughts

So originally I had a massive ass post of my SR5 wish list sitting in my drafts but since that's now useless, gonna do this. For some context I have been playing since 06, when I was way to young and I fucking hated 4. Now lets go!

My Wants and not wants:

Reboot after SR2 or SRTT. No hate, SRTT was alright but it may be easier and better to reboot from SR2. I seriously do not want you to redo 1 and 2. They are very good games that can stand the test of time and deserve their place. I may be more pissed if you retcon 1 and 2 than I was at 4. Like I guess I could live with a remaster if it was a graphical and control scheme overhaul only. I do hear you young fans, we did have clunky controls back then but they were normal so I don't get put off by it.

It looks to be the case we are going back to the roots and my god are we overdue.

Lets talk clothing. Basically the entire clothing system from SR2, that is what I want pray for. It was peak customization that I have not had another game match.

BIG PHAT GOLD CHAINS PLEZ. I know its probably not fashionable anymore but hot damn it looks so good.

Body slider/Gender slider (idk what to call it) from SR2. Not only is it great for our Trans homies. It was just a great, nah, amazing tool. Really before its time.

Please, make it so I don't have to be a body builder. Like skinny Bosses need more love. My boy Ty was always skinny till 3 and 4 forced him to be bulky. Skinny boys need love tooo!!!!

Honestly like a hybrid of the character builder from 2 and 3 would work. The color, make up and feature diversity of SR3. Paired with the fine tuning of SR2. Its just like chefs kiss.

Custom walking styles, I always loved that my and my friends boss not walk alike.

Two tone hair again maybe? I just think its neat.

Honestly just all the fucking activities from SR2 and SR1. I loved them all, well except Heli assault but people liked that to so let them have it.

Tagging, please, I love tagging.

GOLD/PLATNUIM WEPON UNLOCKS! So gangster like hot damn.

BOOZE AND DRUGS! Like I have had 100s of hours of fun fucking about with that. Like if we had the variety of SR1 in booze and drugs, I would die and got to heaven.

I mean if you can find a way to not make romancing a bastardization I guess you can keep it.

JUST DON'T! Don't bastardize that charaters.

Can we maybe have back some of that grit? Like SR2 was a prefect balance of grit and humour. SRTT felt like I was a toddler been mollycoddled by shallow humour. Not enough grit and felt like it was wrote by a 10th grader tbh.

Make the Boss... them again. Like non of this 'he hu puckish rouge' shit. I don't play a gang game to be a fucking hero. I know, shock, horror. I play it to be a sociopathic bastard. I got 100 fucking games where I am the good guy, sometimes ya boi needs a break. A evil, going to hell for this, I do question my mental status when I laugh at this, break.

Mission and cut scene replay. One of the reason SR1 and 2 save files can rack up into the 1000s of hours for me is this feature. If I want to play one mission, I don't have to replay the whole game. I can give in to whims. I do not have a word for it in English but it is maximum happiness with fun.

More cut scenes. Like there felt like there was less of them in 3 and 4.

Idle animations. My Boss just been like 'yep, Delfts gone, time to go fishing or drinking or smoking' was just great.

Look Gat was never some weird immortal, unbeatable guy until you made him that way in 4 onwards. He was the kinda hot headed, asshole, who got him self into trouble over it, guy who we adored. Bring my boi back.

A photo mode. I mean I got very, very good at cropping screenshots and clipping my camera of walls but, my Boss deserves better! He his my handsome little killer and people need to know that.

MKUltra elevator nightmare shopping/wardrobe/garage screens, you know the ones, fucking scrap them. Go back to how it was in 1 and 2. I do not need to be subjected to CIA brutality while playing SR. I got enough of that thanks.

Keep the phone menu, that shit was tight. Real immersed me and I love seeing the Bosses phone. I mean I have bought and made replicas of them ffs.

Make hazel eyes behave like the did in the remaster. Like damn. Just. I have a whole post on this shit thats how good it was.

I know you guys are good for it but keep them fun af cheats. I spent to long as a massive af beating up super small people as it rained corpses. Oh and the gravity was gone.

Don't have dual wielding as a fucking upgrade. My Boss just dual wields, let him, like you did in 2.

Weapon skins, like in SR4, that was alright. I wouldn't mind that one.

Keep the Bosses back story vague still. I haven't wrote and perfected his back story over the last decade or more so you can piss on it.

Jackets and hoodie, stop the putting my hair in a ponytail. Last time I put on a fucking track jacket I didn't have to tie my hair back, It didn't happen in 2 so why 3 and 4?

Respect and Missions. Can we either have a return to the old style respect system to make people play the side missions or just not make people play them by force. I fucking hate Heli assault and all that flying shit, so been forced to do it made me want rip my hair out. Like if they are there people will play the ones they want, I do not want to be made to do it by the main story. THX

Bring back the day/night cycle. I could play for much longer when it wasn't so monotone. Also it made me think about what I was doing when. Like I wouldn't got to the night club at 10am.

Bring back Nightclubs. Tyde want's to party and so does Delfts.

Stop making the character hollow 2D’s of their former selves.

A varied city, like Stilwater. Seriously, feels like a real city and I have lived or worked in over 6 in my life so I know. Steelport felt like what some Vatnik Babushka (Boomer Grandma) in rural Siberia would describe the city, dull and unrealistic.

Have the gangs act like actual gangs. You know, go around doing crime and harassing NPCs like they did in 1 and 2.

NPCs, make them like you did in SR2. They acted like real people, did the most random and weird shit. Felt real. They also all look different or their was such a wide variety in base models I didn’t notice repetition. SRTT and SRIV they were like 5 NPCs. I had occasions where there was 10 of the same model and I was like, two or three is okay but fucking 10?

Make them drive the way they did in 1 and 2 too. I have drove in a city for a long time and that shit was so real. People are dumb sometimes.

Bring back Freckle Bitches!!!!!!

If I think of anything else I will add it but feel free to add your own and disagree with me. I kinda want to here how all you others be feeling about this. I feel fear and happy. Also can you tell I blasted this out at like 4am.

#Saints Row #Saints Row V #Saints Row 5 #Saints Row Reboot #SR #SRV #SR5 #SR Reboot

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common-blackbird · 4 years ago

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Started!

This is my Inquisitor (so overjoyed you can be a qunari), her name is the default Herah and I decided I’m going to approach this game by staying true to a character and not looking to do everything and be on everyone’s good side u_u

I want to make a good background for her so i’m not telling anything. Yet. I’ll just say she’s a qunari mercenary and prefers using two-handed weapons.

Highlights from today:

Studying history does pay off! This was a reference to the famous book in environmental history - Guns, Germs and Steel by Jared Diamond. So proud i recognised it x)

Also i don’t have a good shot of solas but he cracks me up so much.. The guy has a posture of the typical retired grandpa (the only thing missing is to have him walk with his hands on his back). And there’s a scene where the party sees the rift and there’s the inquisitor facing it, cassandra bracing herself and solas... just standing like an old man

On a side note, Cassandra is so gorgeous and good and i already love her, i just keep taking shots of her TAT

As for varric, it’s so different than from da2, this is so much more “official” and you can see he’s the same as ever, but you’re not hawke, hawke’s not here, the gang’s not here and there’s nothing casual about the whole situation T-T

And lastly, my inquisitor has a horse now, i didn’t know that was possible in the game ;__;

played some more...

Let me start with.... The advisors! (+ cassandra... or is she also an advisor too?)

What a bunch. I love Cassandra’s and Leliana’s faith having a crisis bc they believe that Inquisitor is the Herald of Andraste and the way they deal with it. It’s really interesting. Leliana is completely opposite than what she was in origins and i’m surprised it doesn’t bother me at all! I love seeing this whole darker side that was only hinted at in origins, though it’s also sad when i think how she used to be. I wonder how she’s gonna overcome her doubting of faith.

Josephine is a delight. I keep using her for almost every war table mission for now. She radiates capability. She reminds me of those bureaucrats that are super nice and helpful and chill and even if you’re doing everything wrong she’ll just smile and say “it’s ok, we can fix it” and then goes and fixes everything herself (and you feel this insane amount of gratitude you send a whole separate email to thank her for her patience and help )

As for Cullen... It’s interesting... I got impression from what i saw in the fandom that he’s supposed to have had his allegiance changed and him rejecting the templars should have been him ultimately siding with the mages (or at least being anti-templar(?)), and that turning point that could have been a great way to show his character development during the game. Which i agree, only... i did not get that impression from the game so far at all. I mean, so far everything that i can remember him saying is totally smth he’d say in da2... He didn’t leave kirkwall bc of his disappointment with the templar order, he doesn’t seem to have any issues with the templars except those who go full war mode instead of trying to balance the situation. And it’s a really chaotic situtation, i love how they did it.

This line was amazing, i wish there was a special cutscene for that.

I’m loving the way they made this huge religious organisation in crisis have a complete collapse with the death of a key figure. I love the concept of inquisition and problems that it poses. I love you can see everyone’s reasoning and doubts reflect their background, but also see why inquisition can be understood as another power-grasping organisation trying to topple the templars, the mages and the chantry. Everything is divided. We got templars leaving the chantry, seekers leaving the chantry(?), rebel mages, loyal mages, rebel mages gone rouge, templars gone rouge, and suddenly there’s another organisation forming that you can totally believe is just another powerhungry force trying to get the piece of the cake by taking advantage of the power vacuum left by the sudden lack of the religious authority. (and only we know we’re The Good Guys). I love that we have characters who need to believe in the greater plan, characters who question the greater plan, and characters who want to utilise the power of belief and characters who don’t care for divine plans. The chaos is real and it feels real. I love that the centre figure of the whole holy business is a heretic of another culture. For the chantry this is the lose-lose situation (unless the inquisitor becomes religious by the end of the game). Which is why this line works so well.

Ok, now shorter updates:

Red Jenny! I know it’s not her actual name but it is in my head. Where’s that box i delivered ages ago >_> Anyways, she makes my brain work on 150% capacity. I can understand what she means only after i go over it for 5 times.

Forgive me but oh my god, i can’t believe that i can recognise one voice actor and now i have another mental image whenever he speaks. Like, he’s really good at bringing out a new character, but when he gets more casual he sounds like kanan jarrus from star wars rebels and i’m just “what are you doing here, space dad” ;__; Hopefully it’ll get old and i’ll be enjoying more iron bull. he seems nice...

Vivienne on the other hand is like a reverse Josephine(?) She seems insanely capable but hates customer service, however somehow she likes you very much and will do everything you need for reasons you can’t fathom. Have a screenshot. So classy. I already feel humbled.

and lastly, BREAKING NEWS: aveline finally hired carver ;__;

Tbh Kirkwall is still a mystery and i have so many questions but i don’t think i’ll get any answers... If a powervacuum of the divine cause this much chaos, how’s kirkwall faring without a new viscount? Like, yeah, aveline can keep in check, but umm it’s in a very vulnerable state which makes it a good target for any invasion... didn’t sebastian promise bloodshed?

That’s all for now, bc otherwise i’ll start writing an essay on cassandra.

We befriended a bear in the hinterlands!

lets start with this cool shot

so, i have been to the mages and to the templars and... i sided with the templars.... First i was all for mages since they offered negotiations while the seeker just walked away, but then it turned out that was a trap, there’s also tevinter mages there (which is a red flag for my inquisitor) and then there’s some time magic involved (which is a big no for me), and i just walked out. Felt bad for the mages but my inquisitor comes from a culture where mages have their tongues cut so...

Also this guy deserves a medal for putting up with corrupted superiors and annoying nobles.

And i met cole ;__; Where are Rhys and Evangeline ;___;

the templar mission was ok i guess... I was surprised that red lyrium was apparently circulating around for some time, not sure if that means since meredith or even before. I love the stories of corruption tho and to imagine what it’s like to be trapped in this organisation that just keeps breaking everything it stands for

As for the important mages, i’ve Dorian twice since i bailed out on him in Redcliffe :I I love the guy, he seems arrogant yet so kind (like, no one would have carried that annoying priest and yet he did, after he ran from his own people to warn us after i ditched him in Redcliffe? man ;A;) Every time i go with “ok the inquisitor fears tevinter and distrusts this rando who just popped in” i am marinating in guilt.

and then we fight some mages and die several times but we succeed and we meet the bad guy...

Is it an unpopular opinion to say that i like him as a villain so far? i saw so many jokes on his incompetency. Idk, i like that part where he said that he reached the fade in someone’s name, it makes me think he’s not just power-hungry person(?) who’s just evil,but was originally serving someone, and he said that the gods were either gone or corrupted and he spent hundreds of years thinking what to do with whatever happened so he seems like he knows what he’s doing and maybe(!just maybe) he is trying to fix things that are wrong but we can’t see that? And of course he hates the inquisitor, he has to redo his stuff all over again, i’d hate the inquisitor too. im probably looking too much into it. My wish is that, if he’s evil, he became so gradually, but originally had good intentions? Or there’s more to things going on that we just don’t know and he does... Maybe this was his tragic attempt to fix things but he would ultimately fail and be branded as a villain etc etc. I’m getting carried away

If it turns out he’s just evil for the sake of being evil then feel free to tell me so now so i don’t embarrass myself further with plotting myself lol.

A side note, is he the Architect? Or the same? In DA2 he says he’s a tevinter magister, right? and he ceased to be a human. Also in DA2 it seemed like he was the boss, and here he said he reached in the name of someone (probably more important than him). But what is the Architect then?

And with that we reach the skyhold.

in skyhold

I didn’t know you meet hawke so soon ;__; i thought that was like, somewere more to the end of the game, since the big decision and all. But the mission is already opened and i am going to procrastinate on it until i finish every side mission :<

Also he is so sad ;__; i understand, but at the same time... all that humour now bitter sarcasm :’(

(also, very shallow remark, but i really really prefer his looks in da2 than here... it’s like they softened him. He’s more...oh god idk bearish(???) than hawkish(????) you know what i mean? the nose isn’t as sharp anymore, the beard is... what is it with the beard... anyways i get the game has its limits so it’s fine. it’s fine! fine.)

then there was the fight that i remember since twitter >:D

It’s what made me want to play dragon age and i finally reached it T-T so good! I love how you can see the both sides and everything they say is true but they’re so angry at themselves they’re taking it out on each other TAT

Cassandra later says Hawke probably wouldn’t have joined the inquisition even if she found him, and i wonder now if that’s true... At first i thought, nah, Hawke has too much of a hero complex, he would feel too responsible to just say no. Besides, he’s with the inquisition now (tho i can’t find him anywhere anymore!). But at the same time, the way da2 ends was such an iconic walking away from everything, and not taking into account the hocus-pocus rift stuff, i can imagine him refusing, especially seeing how bitter he is now. It’s also a question of how much would have cassandra told him i guess. idk, what do you think? Would he lead or nah?

another person i want to find but can’t in skyhold are the templars with ser barris. i can use them on war table missions but otherwise they’re non-existant? i forgot to talk to him back in haven but now i wonder if it was even possible and if he was even available there, since he isn’t here. I spent hours just running around skyhold looking for the guy :(

and then everything becomes unimportant bc aaaaa!! she! is the arcanist! Dagna! im so happy and proud(?) she went and reached her goals x)

anyways that’s all for now, laters

some random updates:

so i did the halamshiral and gave up to my “stick to the character” mode, and nothing went my way, but that’s life. Met morrigan! i almost forgot she appears lol. And, despite also jumping on the wagon of give-morrigan-better-clothes train, i have to admit seeing her in her old clothes was a relief after that dress at the ball. It’s not the way the dressed looked, but the way she moved in it... god im shallow

i also initially didn’t like morrigan being at orlais court of all places, but after the conversation that’s supposed to explain why she’s there i’m kinda ok with it. I mean, i still need some more info. Wouldn’t Tevinter be better? she’d practically become a magister overnight if she got this good in the game so fast. It’s also unconvincing how everyone knows everything in orlais but somehow nobody connected that the random kid that has no bakcground whatsoever with morrigan who keeps checking on him? But at skyhold she’s just “hey i have a kid, he’s no trouble, right?” but hey, it’s morrigan. She can do anything. I’ll just have another story idea in my head.

Then there was news of the new divine that could be either cassandra or leliana and i don’t honestly know whom to choose. I’d prefer leliana over cassandra simply bc cassandra is more of a military mind, while the position of the divine would be more political. But lately every mission with leliana was spy spy, kill kill... Do we really want that for a religious leader? On the other hand, it would nicely round up her story from origins to inquisition... But cassandra is more of a public figure than leliana is...

when cassandra said:

“I want to respect the tradition, but not fear change. I want to right the past wrongs, but not avenge them. And I have no idea if wanting any of them makes them right.”

great moment. She’s usually so convinced and rash, i forget she’s more doubtful and open minded than what she looks like. Everything about cassandra is different from the impression she gives ;__; I love her so so so so much. (when she says she considers the inquisitor her friend i melted, next time varric pulls up the “seeker has no friends” joke, my heart will no longer be breaking).

I did a bunch of personal missions. Some were cool, some were ????. Also there were war table missions with zevran, that was cool. Also i love the codex entries in skyhold. The archery competition with varric banned? Dancing lessons failing bc lace harding is on the move all the time? Perfect.

And i met chargers, i like them, and aaah that staff-bow from the trailer is such a cool idea ;A;

What i don’t get with bull’s chargers is - they’re a mercenary group right? But isn’t swordselling seen as the complete misunderstanding of the qun? I get only bull is qunari, but he’s the leader of them? How is that not frowned upon?

And lastly, i don’t think i’ve said this, but i love that they added codex entries in the loading screens. love it.

update

After months of procrastination, i have faced my fears and have met alistair. it was very anticlimatic beating 11 level monsters when i was level 21...

but.. ALISTAIR TAT He’s changed... but not changed... but changed! Like, his personality is the same, but he’s more serious, doesn’t run from responsibilities, isn’t as bitter as hawke (also, why do i get impression that i am supposed to get the impression that they’re friends? they’ve met like, once, and talked for less than a minute.. whatevs. let’s pretend they’ve met again when on the run), i really love the inquisition alistair ;;__;;

Also, i managed to get that awkward demon baby family reunion :D

know that morrigan says the vaguest generic thing “i told him his father was a good man” bc of various world states, but i also think she’s come a long way not to mock alistair, and then when he notices that she didn’t use the opportunity he mentions that the kid changed her and she’s like “pfft, yea right, you wish”....

... when she was the one who said that in the first place ;;__;;

Awwww :> I love that they bicker but softly. Kids have grown up :’) Anyways, when will alistair start paying alimony

The only weird one is Leliana bc when morrigan was introduced she was like “danger danger” (smth i’d sooner think alistair would do), and when alistair is (supposedly) in skyhold, Leli doesn’t even mention him, only hawke. bruh, what were they to you, you almost died together ;;__;;

oh i also slayed a dragon. I didn’t even want to fight that dragon. It was a hillarious feat of inquisitor, solas, cole and blackwall, all on level 21, having to chug all the health potions right at the beginning while fighting a dragon that was... level 13, after which i just let go of controls and suddenly everyone was hella good at fighting and slayed it (only cole needed revival several times).

And, befitting the wild-dream feel that it had, when i got back to skyhold and visited companions, suddenly i was drinking pelin with iron bull, and he’s reminiscing on that fight with the dragon and i’m like

it was awful and you weren’t even there.

i forgot to update

but last time i was playing i finished the hawke/alistair sacrifice and all the torture i went through with deciding whom to sacrifice vanished bc frankly, at one moment, i wanted to sacrifice both of them, but in the end it was much more easier to sacrifice hawke bc inquisition hawke just didn’t feel like hawke to me, while alistair improved since the origins!

and now i remembered why i didn’t update, in the same day cassandra rejected me so i was sad and didn’t continue playing since then (i think last time i played it was around easter?)

new update

BLACKWALL!! or should i say Thom Rainier? Wow, what an arc! It was also so fun bc i was all strict mode, picking the third option, telling him his life is in inquisitor’s hands and all that, but in the end i set him free. He’s so good, a true knight T-T

Also i romanced sera. we’ll see how that goes.

Also, fave point in the game so far, i wanted, for so long, to sit at that val roeayoux (can’t spell) cafe and finally did it with cole’s personal mission. THANK YOU COLE YOU TRULY CAN READ PEOPLE’S MINDS.

another interesting thing was that after specialising as a reaver, cassandra said that drinking dragon blood makes you grow scales and become mad. Iron Bull said that inquisitor smells better bc dragon blood and that qunari generally smell better than humans. So i’m guessing qunari have fractions of dragon in them? ok...

and now i started that mission with morrigan and the puzzles are killing me lol, i am this 👌 close to just go chase calpernia and give up on a well of sorrows.

#it's a terrible time to start a dragon age game but it's the only time #meet me at val royeaux with my pal cole fixing people's lives every sunday 5 pm

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overdramaticly-dying · 5 years ago

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Man vs. Sewer

“Alrighttttt, here’s the next one (as requested by @dabibliophile)!!! Man vs. Sewer is a great episode, but it low-key caught me off-guard the first time I watched it... Like Raph genuinely lost it, and it wasn’t played off as a joke or anything which is how it’s often is in cartoons. I know rottmnt has its fair share of plot-related episodes, but tbh when I first watched Rise, I was seeing it more as a fun tmnt show, but this episode was what made me realize how good this series actually was...

anywayssss, let’s go

-Donnie’s apparently the designated texter of the group

-”Sweet, sweet Angelo”

-Donnie’s boardshorts, and how Leo just looks done with him while Mikey looks on in awe... Mikey is so precious I love him

-”I’m not a useful member of society”

-Leo’s genuine concern for Raph

-Dr. Delicate Touch

-”Where did you get that?” “Uh... borrowed it? from Splinter?” “Splinter. Who only owns robes and a shady past, let you-”

-the fact that they consider Splinter to have a shady past, and apparently make jokes abt it with each other

-Donnie is trying so hard to look angry, but he can’t help but smile when Mikey pulls on his tube

-”What? no, where do you think we are?”

-look at the teetlez in tubes. they cute. so smol.

-sports pass

-Raph saying that Lace Face has been in the family longer than Donnie leads me to believe that Baron Draxum gave smol Raph a football when he was in the lab even though I know that’s not true cuz it would’ve been exploded too. But still

-SPORTS

-”OUR FOOTBALL” *Leo slightly glares at him* “OH AND RAPH”

-”Then why doesn’t he has Splinter’s rugged good looks like we do?”

-Leo is Very Concerned abt Raph... idk, it’s really sweet, but his word choices can be worrying: “You know how savage Raph is when he’s alone. He’ll totally lose it if we don’t find him fast- clocks ticking.”

-Particularly the “you know how savage” and “clocks ticking” parts. They know this about him. They know it doesn’t take long. And it’s not played for laughs.

-How Raph starts taking deep breaths and his eyes look glossed over like he’s trying to avoid crying

-He didn’t even notice how much damage he did to the room...

-”Don’t lose it Raph! please...”

-THAT SOFT ‘please’ RAPH SAYS AT THE END GETS ME EVERY TIME??? HE KNOWS WHATS COMING???

-And while this is exaggerated, as someone who frequently has panic attacks, can I just say that this episode display’s the progress of what it feels like very well? You can feel it coming, and try all the deep breathing you want, but with every moment you feel more lost... idk I just really like this ep, ok??

-”He’s one of those turtle-jerks we hate y’know for... reasons I can’t remember... leTS EaT hiM!”

-”YES! well, actually, full disclosure, I dunno”

-”Today’s vibes were supposed to be chill, so I went ahead and filled my battleshell with refreshment.” “Just one, Donald?”

-”Then give us ice, for our horribly mangled bodies”

-*sounds of ice machine* “it melted.”

-”Raph was here.” “Leeeet’s not jump to conclusions Leon-” *points to graffiti stating ‘Raph was here’*

-Raph automatically called them ‘sewer monsters’... just an observation

-”I’M nOt as tOuGH aS i PReteND tO BE”

-”Someone could get really hurt on this... LET’S SEE HOW FAR IT SWINGS”

-This screenshot is cursed

-”Once again, I’d love to help bail us out with my undeniable and prestigious genius, but-”

-”That’s Donnie’s tire! I mean- Raph’s tube!”

-”Well Leo, since you sell the fewest action figures, why don’t you go ahead and jump first”

-”Leo, chill, we can’t freak out, nobody freak out, stOP FREAKING OUT DONNIE”

-Ok, but I do think Mikey somewhat relies on Raph to keep him calm and safe, after all, Raph is the mother hen and the most protective- especially of Mikey. It makes sense that Mikey is having a hard time too, and I think a lot of his flippant concern is just him trying to ignore that he doesn’t currently have one of the most stable people in his life, and they’re the ones trying to save Raph... it’s probably taking a lot out of all of them

-Mikey tried to cling onto Donnie while falling

-”MAKE A HUMAN SHIELD AROUND MEEEEE” Leo. you’re a turtle. you’re all turtles.

-”100% not Raph, staking my life on it, shorts” “RAPH. ALOOOOONE” “it might be Raph, but who’s to say anymore?”

-Raph may be savage, but he’s still got requirements for his taste, so he puts lemon on the crabs. But then again, he put it directly in their eyes???? was that supposed to be torture???

-”Are you barbequing villains?”

-Raph’s comment about having ‘no brothers’ makes me wonder if he remembers his years as a turtle somewhere deep inside and the time he would’ve spent alone... idk man...

-”No one’s gonna shout the answer at me and make all my problems disappear!”

-They aren’t scared of him after... They just immediately go to hug him... it’s very important

-”Aw, I love you guys” SAID SO CASUALLY BY RAPH I WANNA CRY

tl;dr this episode is really sweet, but surprisingly serious. It has its fun moments, but a lot of it feels like its hinting at more to come, and even if it isn’t, it’s still a really interesting look into Raph as a character

(also sorry this was a bit longer and slightly more serious than the others, it’s just a really great ep- check out @davids-cartoon-corkboard he has some really great theories on it!!)

#risingepisodetalks #haha I was low-key nervous when he asked me to do it #cuz his theories on this ep is what got me so invested in this show in the first place #anywayssss thanks for reading!!!#I'll try to do a new episode everyday #tomorrow I think I'll do mrs. cuddles #but feel free to suggest an episode and I'll add it to my list!#rottmnt #Rise of the tmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #episode analysis #tmnt 2018 #long post

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festfashions · 5 years ago

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Insomniac’s Beyond Wonderland Live Rave-A-Thon Was Actually Pretty Fun

So last night Insomniac Events hosted their first ever Live Rave-A-Thon in response to Beyond Wonderland being postponed. While Covid-19 has royally fucked a lot of our plans, it has truly made everyone more creative, and ironically, more connected via social media.

I, for one, have been enjoying my time inside. I’m really liking getting to work from home, and spend time reading, writing, and doing hobbies that I feel like I’ve forgotten about. That said, I still miss my raves and my rave fam! So joining the livestream last night was a blast.

The best though, was that initially I felt kinda weird and alone watching, but then I joined some chats, the YouTube live chat, texted my friends who were tuning in, and it felt like we were all together.

So here’s a quick recap of night one, with screenshots of some chats that made me LOL during. I saw the live stream on Youtube hit 52K at it’s peak, which is really incredible. Pasquale Rotella (founder of Insomniac Events) was hosting and said 1M were tuning in across channels, but I’m not so sure where? Twitch I saw 25K at one point but still idk about 1M... anyway...

8:00pm-8:25pm - Wax Motif

Wax Motif opened. He was a great start, good upbeat vibes but this was the beginning so I felt kinda weird just watching until I started connecting with people via text messages/chats and then I poured myself another glass of wine.

8:30pm-8:55pm - Mija

The gloves in the header image of this post is from her set. It was wild to see the DJs wearing gloves while playing. I’ll be honest, I had to mute her set and watch something else for a bit. It was a little too mellow for me, but I think others really enjoyed it.

9:00pm-9:25pm - Jack Beats

This is about the time that my bff and I, who usually run into each other at raves, decided to see if we could find each other in the live chat. Spoiler: we did. lol, just like a real rave, with tens of thousands around us we always somehow bump into each other!

9:30pm-9:55pm - Audien

Audien was where I really started tuning back in. He mixed in a little Imogen Heap, we were all over, but it was a blast. His set got my energy back up.

10:00pm-10:25pm - Party Favor

Party Favor was great. He was the first one to make some Corona Virus themed sound ups in his set. I also LOL’d when he turned down the music at one point so that the “crowd” could sing along to a song. Dead. Def was also laughing at Insomniac’s inserts like “Sanitized Hands Up!”.

Also checked out Twitch to see how they were doing, 25K.

Things started getting fun in the comments sections for me now too.

But I wasn’t the only person having fun:

10:30pm-10:55pm - 4B

In between sets Pasquale would talk a little as they disinfected the DJ booth for the next DJ. He coughed at one point which lit the live chat up LOL 4B had this one nice transition with ‘Toxic’ by Britney Spears that made me laugh, but to be totally honest, he did way too much for me. Each of these sets was only 25 mins, and I feel like the DJs that did better didn’t genre hop all over the place. Give me 25 mins of a good time damnit! 4B was the absolute choppiest with songs all night. I did though enjoy the throwback to Alors On Danse.

I decided to get some water during his set.

And spent some time in the live chat as well.

This is how singing along went:

There were occasional comments Corona themed of course:

And then loved the people living their best lives from home:

and this cracked me up, cuz none of us have forgotten the cough...

11:00pm-11:25pm - Kill The Noise

Kill the Noise was great. He also made some Corona Virus nods with some “Wash your hands bro!” sound ups before the beat dropped. I have a feeling that will carry on long beyond quarantined life. We got some dirty dubstep, and then some Billie Elish? It’s funny, was everyone’s sets feeling choppier. and all over the place because they were only 25 mins? Either way I was still into it. When he played ‘The Blood’ I was grooving for sure, and then he brought out a special guest, who was not 6 feet away which the live chat was very about announcing and then they HUGGED which really set the live chat off lol

Again, this is what Left/right singing along sounded like lol:

11:30pm-11:55pm - SAYMYNAME

Final set of the night! Whiteclaws were dropped while dancing, the comments were lit, we’d dropped only about 3K people on the YouTube livestream, and we were ready to party! Saymyname was, lol again, I'm sorry, genre all over the place. We went from Major Lazer to Fisher... He was playing a lot of tracks people know though so that was fun! He was definitely super hype and performed the most out of the DJs all night, so the energy was high and it was a blast.

Where would the end of the Beyond be without the hot dog vendors?

So this was fun! And I'm looking forward to joining again tonight! Look for me in the comments!

And to leave us, one post from today:

#words #text #beyond wonderland 2020 #beyond wonderland #audien #4B #insomniac events #EDM #EDM live stream #live stream #plur #ravers #EDC #party people #EDM LOL #LOL

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icameheretowinry · 6 years ago

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(for the character thing) 707?

First off, I want to thank @hagane-no-heart for sending this ask! 11,000 years later, I’m finally getting this thing answered. It goes without saying that if you’re unfamiliar with mystic messenger, this post is going to contain major spoilers, so proceed with extreme caution.

Full disclosure: I’ve played all routes to good ends, DLCs, available after-stories, and all secret endings. This post will rely heavily on 707′s route and secret endings, but I’ll also be referencing a few interesting things from V’s and Ray’s routes as well. The rest will be below the cut!

How I feel about this character:

The first impression you ever get of 707 (or Luciel, as he is referred to by other RFA members) is that he’s an absolute meme lord. His messages are full of typos, internet jargon, and copious amounts of his personal emote. He doesn’t seem to take anything too seriously (including his work for a secret intelligence agency), and derives lots of pleasure in pranking other members when he gets the chance. (His favorite target being the hugely gullible Yoosung.)

In Deep Story mode, the MC has the chance to join in on the fun, and honestly, it’s super entertaining! 707′s enthusiasm is pretty addictive, and the first four days of his route are spent just being goofs in the chatroom. While he later tells MC that his happy-go-lucky personality was a front, it’s those ridiculous interactions that get you on his route in the first place. All RFA members change after growing close to the MC, but the feeling that the MC understands them is critical to establishing that relationship. If there was no truth to 707′s chatroom personality, the only qualification for getting on his route would simply be not appealing to Jumin, and based on what happens after day four, I don’t believe it’s that superficial.

The jokes eventually turn flirty (at least on the part of the MC), and since it’s not something he’s used to, they really seem to catch 707 off-guard. He says he wants to get to know the MC better, and looks forward to seeing her online. My theory is that he gets in over his head before he even realizes it, which is adorable. Besides Jaehee (who’s a fangirl), I find him the easiest RFA member to “chat” with. He’s goofy, he’s genuine, and every conversation is a hell of a rollercoaster ride.

I don’t have the best screenshots for this (I was too busy documenting the cuter or angstier moments lmaooo), but it’s no understatement that 707′s a freaking genius. He created the RFA app, been a professional hacker since middle school, graduated college at age 18(?), can speak 17 languages, and builds functional (and sometimes terrifying) robots when he procrastinates. He’s book smart and street smart. Yet, he’s so nonchalant??? His brilliant brain is what’s gotten him so far in his life (for better or for worse), but never once does he brag or use his intelligence to assert any type of superiority. (If anything, he’s got a bit of an inferiority complex about it). He throws binary into his messages on several occasions like it’s nbd, but one thing he never jokes around about anyone else’s smarts. Honestly, it’s really endearing and refreshing to see.

Oh boy… Ok, so one of the reasons 707′s route is my favorite (which I’m sure y’all figured out already lol), is how well Cheritz handled the angst. While not the most realistic of circumstances (such as in comparison to Zen or Jaehee’s routes), the emotion feels very, very real. With work piling up from a demanding client at his intelligence agency, plus threats from an unknown hacker on the RFA, 707 slowly begins to crack under the pressure. His bubbly chatroom persona fades, and the clearly troubled person behind the mask is revealed. This guy’s had some serious shit happen to him, and he reacts incredibly realistically for someone in his position. He gets angry. He yells. He loses focus. And he pushes everyone who cares about him away. He’s buried a lot of guilt, sadness and trauma for so long, the pain he experiences when it’s all dredged up is very believable.

That being said, the transformation that occurs once he accepts his feelings for MC is freaking amazing. He goes from someone unwilling to make personal connections, to someone finally willing to put his trust in someone he cares about. For a person who’s gone through abuse, living with the reality that every relationship he makes is only temporary, and consistently putting himself in dangerous situations, this has to be the scariest thing he’s done in a long time, since the last time he did, things went so terribly wrong. Opening your heart to someone is scary, and the fact that his core arc is something so relatable, yet so often glazed over when there’s other aspects of a past or personality to enhance, makes him an excellent character.

These aren’t my screenshots, but I’d also like to draw your attention to a super cute (and not totally devastating, ok really devastating) theory called the 707 Reset Theory. Basically, there’s this theory that since 707 breaks the 4th wall more than any other character, he’s aware that he’s in a game, and watches the MC fall in love with every other character, only for everyone to reset once the 11-day cycle is finished. While I’m less interested in the main theory, there’s a branch that says 707 is in love the MC during every route, no matter the circumstances, he always falls for you. It’s especially evident during Jumin’s, V’s, and Ray’s routes. During Jumin’s route, he gives you an exasperated phone call once your route is confirmed. During V’s route, Vanderwood openly calls him out. It’s incredibly sad to know his heart breaks every time the MC falls for someone else.

I also noticed a couple of interesting details when I replayed 707′s route this past week. He’s LOLOL’s top gamer (earned by skill and not by hacking), which is basically something I understand to be a combo between clash of clans and skyrim??? The glinting glasses comment basically confirms that he watches anime, and apparently he’s a sadist? Lmaooo XD Finally, if his reaction to Yoosung calling him out for having feelings for the MC ain’t the most relatable thing ever, idk what is. (”My brain is not wired to have such emotions.”) Mood.

On a more personal note, this is the cutest shit I’ve ever seen. If someone ever flirted with me like this, I’d die it’s so adorable. More like critical hit to my heart ya doofus ^^

All the people I ship romantically with this character:

I mean, obviously I ship the MC with 707! Due to the nature of the game, the MC is different in each route and to get each ending. However, of all the routes I’ve played, I’ve loved her personality, and related to her the most, when she pursued 707′s good end. She’s a bit innocent, quirky, kind, and a very strong individual. She’s also practical, and has a pretty good head on her shoulders. She’s patient and understanding, but very forthcoming with her feelings. She and 707 are so cute together, and I’m hella jealous. Since it is a dating sim, you can self-insert to your heart’s content (and I do), but you can also just see it as a great ship. Either way, I’m here for it! Also, he’s considered end-game, which I totally stan. I loved Ray’s route, but this is the story I love the most.

My non-romantic OTP for this character:

While the relationship between these brothers has been pushed to the limit, they will always be my non-romantic OTP. They’ve gone through hell together, and even though mistrust, miscommunication, and separation threatened to drive them apart, 707 never stopped caring for Saeran. Saeran got manipulated, but in the end, I think they definitely made up. Their story has made me cry on multiple occasions and I just want the best for them ok!! T_T

One thing that I wished would’ve happened in canon:

I need to know what happened to 707 at the end of Ray’s route. Please Cheritz, I need closure! You can’t just leave me hanging!!

#character analysis #707 #saeyoung choi #mystic messenger

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xuseokgyu · 3 years ago

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This might be the longest one yet.......... rip. i had some stories to tell.... :((

My job is to mostly to tell people when they make mistakes lmao. i work in document quality control ? for a manufacturing company, mostly check the inspection paperwork and certificates for the medical/surgical devices. and then have to be like this... is not right. fix this. currently have a lot of prototype parts going through which have some added requirements but also they keep changing the prints so then obviously the paperwork then changes and its just been annoying cuz its redo-ing a lot of paperwork.

yeah, that makes sense and that is part of it sometimes... i also think im just not in the mood for certain genres of music at times lol.

lol yeah it was so funny in the beginning she was watching some mv's and kept sending me screenshots of jeonghan with different hair styles with this message "who is this????" and every single time it was still jeonghan. i was just like lmao you should just assume that its jeonghan at this point. her defense was that he looks really different every time he changes his hair. she can recognize him now at least. the only other ones she can recognize currently are s.coups (her current favorite member overall) and vernon (her favorite rapper in their songs - she really like how vernon raps). shes more rap biased lol.

thank you.. you are only a little late lol my bday was the 11th. the last time i played bingo i spent $40 total over two days (80 games @ $0.50/game) and won zero. its a skill... i only got close to bingo (1 space away) like 3 times total. it was really tragic... at one point the lady sitting at the same table as us was just like wow... i haven't seen you even get three in a row since i've been here (which was like an hour).

We went to the same kindergarten, then i moved away and then i moved back in the 8th grade (i also have known the friend that is getting into svt for the same amount of time since she went to that same school, though her family are basically neighbors with my cousins family, and they are really close, so i saw her a lot more overall but wasn't super close to her until more recently actually, when we went to the same wedding (my cousin's) and starting talking again)

also to help this make more sense (as in why would they remember me lol) my graduating class size at that school was only 22 people, and my cousins also went to that same school. my dad went to that school, the english teacher there had taught my dad when he was in high school, its extreme small town vibes. people would literally just recognize what family i came from and just start talking to me. and i'd just be frantically trying to figure out who they were. like oh god oh god am i supposed to know who this is?? have i met this person before???

actually the wackiest thing is one of my friends from when i moved (big school), her grandma, i found out after we moved back to the small town, used to babysit my dad and her grandmas house was literally a mile down the street from us... you could see her grandmas house from our living room windows. i was just like what?? her cousins also then went to the same school as me. and then we fell out of touch but then ended up going to the same college. where she would be like "i saw you on campus today" and i was just like??? i did not see you, where are you? i haven't talked to you in like 3 years wtf?? i'm not in touch with her anymore but my younger sister is currently roommates with her younger sister in college lmao. oh other bizarre thing... one of my classmate's (from the big school) relatives bought the house we sold when i moved in kindergarten, and idk for some reason a few years after we moved we went back to the old house for something idk, and my classmate was visiting her family at my old house at the same time. we saw each other and we just stared at each other like what are you doing here?? we had moved like hour away (highway travel times) lol so it was just so random. (wow i hope these made sense lol)

the heat was worse in the beginning of summer i think... or i've just gotten used to it lol. there was all that smoke though that blew in from canada a bit ago though. but thats almost become a yearly thing now unfortunately. lol your weather sounds like how the weather is here sometimes - i live in minnesota, we are known for our wildly fluctuating weather. extreme highs and lows.

I love piano in music! I had to learn how to play piano as a kid... my grandma taught (most) of the grandchildren. i'm not very good at it tbh i never liked to practice and i havent played in years lol. we also learned how to play the piano/read sheet music when i went to the big school for music class for a year. I feel like if you are able to buy a little cheap or used keyboard it shouldn't be too hard to teach yourself if you wanted to start?? at least simple songs. I guess learning to read music would be the hardest place to start if you've never read sheet music before?? but thats what cheat sheets are for tbh. write the notes in, write them on the keys whatever works. we had a foldable note cheat sheet thing that went behind the keys and said the name of the note and where it was on the staff behind all the keys. when I was learning i'd be like b b b where is the b im looking for... ah here it is *ding* ok and now c ... c . c. ah ha *ding* and then repeat until you can play at a normal speed lol.

oh hands down its Oh My! best summer song lol i love Oh My! .... You Made My Day is also my fav album... what about you?

also what's ur favorite cold drink (#2)? picked this one cuz I have been buying myself bubble tea like once a week almost uhhh all summer lol the tapioca pearls at this place are so much better than other places i've been to and this place has cheese foam that i have also become obsessed with (tho thats very expensive its an extreme treat myself drink add-on lol) the blended mango with cheese foam... so good.... its like $7 though. today i got the normal mango milk tea which i hadn't had in a while cuz i'd been going through the various types of regular? milk tea (made with different types of black tea - i love black tea i have um a lot of tea i think i have like 15 different types rn). Otherwise I almost always have ginger ale in my fridge lol its great for a lot of things and also just to drink. love ginger ale... i just love ginger honestly.....

Is 1am and I should be sleeping but I wanna answer this before reveal day!!!

Best job description 😂😂 I feel like your job is one that can become automatic very easily so I can see how the changes can be annoying

SCoups and Vernon are definitely the ones with more distinctive faces, they were the ones I recognized better first, same for my father... he knows the names of all the members now but he still messes up the three Js hahah Jeonghan Joshua and Jun always take a while for him to recognize, sometimes Wonwoo too, which drives my sister crazy cause two of her three bias are there 😂😂

These small town vibes are so cool! I love that you have this community and managed to form long lasting friendships!! I basically had the same classmates for ten years and as soon as we graduated I lost touch... I made great friends at college tho The pandemic has been hard, we are respecting our health and haven’t seen each other personally since it all started, but I hope once we can meet again everything will go back to how it was between us

I had a situation sort of similar to yours at school too ahha My mom was and had already been a teacher (P.E.) at my school for years so all the staff and a looot of the older students knew who I was, but I had no idea who those people were hahah To this day almost everywhere we go together we will encounter some old student of hers...

Is so cool that your grandma did that! But I can see how it was more a task than something you truly wanted to do so you probably wouldn’t be very excited heheh I was part of a choir growing up and we had sheet music but our teacher never truly showed us how to read it, I know the basics but is literally like a toddler that just learned the alphabet hahah

Oh my! really is THE summer song I completely agree with you there!! I also absolutely loove the mv and whole comeback seemed really cool

Oohh I only had bubble tea once and I want to drink it again!! I only know of one place that sells it here, it is still a pretty new “concept” so there’s not a lot of shops around... And I never had ginger ale! I’m super curious about it cause I’ve heard it being mentioned in, like, tv series, but I don’t drink sodas so I don’t know if I would break my “diet” for a taste heheh My favorite cold drink is lemon iced tea, the ones we have here are really sweet and kinda “sparkling”? (I don’t know how to say it... is almost like a soda but not really 😅) Even during the winter, we drink it during weekends cause is a “special drink” hahahah not a Brazilian thing, just in my house

#hope you had a great weekend anon!!#super curious to reveal day 👀#ask #anon #caratanonevent

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i-dont-want-to-be-listened-to · 4 years ago

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It's been months and I stopped posting, ultimately bottling things up inside

I got a job but I'm scared. I haven't been employed in over a year and it's after a few days, after the first time I get sick, that I give up and quit. I'm scared for that first sick day. After a sickday I feel so nervous like people are going to judge me the day I came back for calling out and being sick especially with my chronic illnesses. I'm scared to get fired if I have a sickness episode that lasts up to a week so I quit before it can happen. I don't wanna do that again. It's stupid but I'm just so anxious.

A few months ago after my last post my grandma died. She had been falling constantly during the last few weeks. She couldn't feel her left side I had to help her up and around constantly. She was in pain. The night she died I had my friend over who was also an ex caregiver. We helped her and she was calling for me all night every 5-30 minutes I'd sit there with her for 10 as she looked around she was in a haze and didn't know what she wanted. My grandpa was kicking himself cause he couldn't help her due to his own age and pain. I'm really glad I stayed her during that time. Grandpa would have sat there for hours and pushed himself instead of calling for help. He's just that stubborn. I stayed up all night even after others had gone to sleep. I only went to lay down when grandpa woke up. We had a lot of talks that night. She wanted me to stay because they needed the help, she was so tired she just wanted to rest she was jealous everyone else could fall asleep but she couldnt. All that. I didn't fall asleep when I payed down.i just payed there waiting for her to call. After a few hours I got up to grandpa pushing her in her chair to try and get her to bed. I then helped get her to bed instead. I payed her down tuucked her in and said goodnight I love you. She said it back and after an hour I finally fell asleep. Another few hours later I'm woken up by grandpa. He's on 911 and looks frantic so I get up immediately as he tells me he needs help.

I go in. There's her lunch and roses from grandpa sitting on the night stand. She's laying there, her dentures are out, she's not breathing. Grandpa hands the phone and tells me to do for. Now I go to do what I'm told. But as I put my hands on her I just feel how cold she is. It was like the touch was draining the heat from me. Now I'm sitting here realizing she's already far gone there was no coming back as a lady on the phone screams directions at me. I start gently following her directions so grandpa doesn't freak out. I didn't have the heart to tell him since he was trying so hard. I just couldn't. Finally the first police officer comes in. The girl on the phone finally hangs up as he takes over. It was too much so I just went and held the door open for the police and parametics. Though in the moment I just imagined my grandma's ghost yelling 'leave me alone I'm tired let me rest' as them as they tried to bring her back. Eventually they have grandpa waiting in the hall. Our neighbor comes over to help comfort and explain the process to us since he heard the call on his radio. At this point my fiance and friend have moved me to the kitchen. I'm a mess thinking I should have done more, convinced her to get medical attention last night. Something as my friend and fiance hug me while I sob. I had to lock my service dog in her cage after my dog spent all night helping me take care of her. When they finally stopped trying after an hour they had someone come pick up her body. She looked peaceful when I first touched her but as I said my last goodbyes I could barely look cause after all that there was blood on her face. My dog was trying everything to hlget out of the cage as they rolled her out. Once the door was closed the dog went straight to the spot grandma died and played. After that the dog only sat in the spot that grandma used to sit in. Since then whenever people leave the house she freaks out when they come back after more than a week. Acting happy that they came back and we're there. My family came over the day after and just started taking and claiming her stuff. Pissed me off so much. After the initial breakdown I couldn't get myself to cry and they hugged me crying, all of them, saying I can't imagine what you sent through having to take care her thank you, but then the few weeks after started telling grandpa kick me out in a month I'm the worst I just abuse and take advantage of his kindness and all that. They didn't actually care and how they acted and talked about me showed it. My mom came back into my life and tried to control it but when I said no disowned me and my bio dad told me that I need to apologize for how I've handled things,(I got distant and closed off and I don't message him or visit cause they guilt trip alit and I can't handle that right now and that is the way I grew up to survive. It's the only way I know how to handle things. I mean he wasn't there I didn't even meet him till after I was 19.) So idk if I'll actually continue to associate with him cause a lot of the factors aren't my fault.

I don't need the family who can't empathize and care. If they want someone they can bend to their will it's not gonna be me.

Ontop of all this the crazy bitch and my old group who have been destroying my reputation with rumors as much as they can in all my areas of interest were suing me 3 times. We only have one more case to go to but I'm just so tired. They kept saying my fiance that was protecting me was dangerous and I was posting about them ect with no proof so I gathered 700 screenshots of proof including some videos as well but despite the cases being dismissed, she still is going around the communities surrounding 2 of my biggest hobbies talking shit and getting people to hate me block me and spread rumors without getting my side. It's tiring and I even made new accounts due to the bullshit.

My grandpa gave me until my birthday to get out but my fiance hasn't gotten a job, 2 roommates bailed and the other roommate quit her less than part time job cause it was too hard to get there. I'm the only one making money and we have less than a month and I just started. Grandpa said if we need longer he can extend it as long as everyone here is working. I'm trying to get to that point.

It's all really fucking hard. I just hate myself at this point. The things that bring me joy I'm scared to post because of the rumors, outside of my hobbies my friends left again band I'm down to a small handful who actually care enough to talk to me. I keep thinking back to loosing my best friend cause he told my family about my engagement a month or 2 before the official announcement we wanted and he said I'm too much drama and he's not willing to deal with me anymore

That hit hard. He was only of the last people I expected to hear that from. It makes me wonder how many people close to me actually feel that way but continue to tell me I'm great.

Even my internet friends left. In one night they went from 'your a godess' 'i have a crush on you' 'your baby's to 'your the worse you use everybody for your ego ' 'you never cared about us' all cause I told one to shut when they said maybe my fiance just wanted time away from me and didn't want to tell me.

I've just given up this year, people who want to leave me can leave at this point, I just want friends who actually want to be in my life and care about me. I know I'm a shit person but at least I'm trying to work on it. I just need someone to tell me everything wrong with me. Just go off full honest opinion no holding back. So I can take it and better myself. Not that crap of there's nothing wrong with you. Just tell me I'm a bitch like your all probably thinking..

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bentchcreates · 7 years ago

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#FeelsSoProm - January 27, 2018

So, it’s been a month since Prom happened. Heehee. And I want to formally and officially say I’ve had enough time to process my feelings by posting a blog about it. It’s been awhile since I’ve rambled in this site anyway. *This is also your lowkey warning that this is gonna be a long-ass post.*

Cue Maria and the children: “Let’s start at the very beginning!”

Getting There

This might be mundane information for you, but getting to Commune that night was quite monumental for me. XD See, I’ve never driven to Manila on my own. I sound very pretentious and sheltered when I say that, but it’s the cringe-y truth: I always had a chaperone when I drive for more than 100 Kilometers.

I didn’t even realize I had been doing it until that night, when I didn’t have my sisters or even just one other person on the passenger seat to ask to open Waze for me. But that night everyone was occupied and it was impractical to not drive to Makati especially since I know we would not be done by 11pm.

So I went alone, punched my destination on the app before the trip and enjoyed the British robot voice that told me to keep right or go straight ahead in EDSA. My anxiety spiked so high, but I pretended I was Ironman (super smart and rich, lol) and JARVIS was navigating me through the seemingly circular one-way streets of Makati. I also had Adele’s 21 playing on endless loop. The CD’s been stuck on the car’s CD player for close to three years now, but I’m not complaining.

And I did it! I reached Commune in one piece (even though It took me close to an hour to find a parking space! Haha!) I was so proud of myself.

Prom, and What Happened There

This was my fourth #romanceclass event so I knew a little bit of how things worked - how to prepare for things and all that - but the thing with these events is that everything is new and it’s always better than the last one.

The Prom theme was an idea in the community that, as per usual, just popped out of nowhere and organically grew into reality. HS Prom wasn’t great for everyone, or just wasn’t there at all for some, and this was a chance to retcon awful memories with wonderful ones.

Getting fancy and all dolled up wasn’t a requirement, but in the days leading up to Prom, people were posting dress options and accessories and instead of feeling sick to my stomach in dread like my actual proms, I was very excited to see everyone in gowns and dresses, suits and slacks. I wanted to attend in a three-piece lavender or turquoise formal wear, but haha, my wallet dictated that I rummage through storage boxes for old clothes and by the MIRACLE of Christmas in January, I still fit in my favorite pink polo and gray jacket. (Let’s not talk about the pants.) I washed them three times, once for every year it hasn’t seen the light of day, tbh.

So anyway, I get there and I am welcomed by friends who are suddenly gorgeous and fierce and oh so stunning! Track the #FeelsSoProm posts everywhere and you’ll see me posing a lot with these beauties. I was also kind of feeling my look that night, so yeah, I’ve got a lot of photos with my face in there. Haha. All around me were princesses, queens! And I couldn’t help but think “omg, I’m friends with royalty!” Haha. The stage was decorated with balloon letters and DIY flowers and it was adorable!

The usual selling table was also filled with our books and while I already felt super happy seeing Summer Feels among them, seeing Start Here for the very first time was glorious!

The order of business was the live-readings of steamy scenes. I’ve done this before, mid-year last year, and oh my god, it was So.Hot. (I haven’t posted a blog post about that bec idk, I still can’t words, tbh) This time I was more relaxed probably because I’ve spent more time with my friends in real-life at this point (as opposed to just social media previously) and because there was another thing keeping me distracted. Haha. More on that later.

The list of the readings were announced a few weeks earlier so we kind of knew what we were in for, but the sequence of the readings, as well as the actors who’ll read them weren’t given directly. It was a nice “surprise” to not expect what was next until Mina’s introductions.

I will not pretend to remember everything that have happened in the readings except that Salve and Migs were their usual awesome. I had to remember they weren’t in their teens anymore since they usually read the YA stuff but heh, that night, YA was practically banned. The read The Duke Takes a Bride by Suzette de Borja and I wanted to take off my jacket bec of the heat! LOL.

It was my first time to hear Jef and Gab read live, they’ve been away for a while...and that’s why they had to read the longest part (Submission Moves by Camilla Sisco). Gab’s dress was stunning and Jef, well, let’s just say lemons had such a massive effect on everyone, the author (who wasn’t even there!) rereleased the ebook on Amazon with a fresher citrusy cover. XD

Sam (flawless eyeliner among other flawless things!) and Migs(spiffy af) read Better Weddings Than You by Mina V. Esguerra and it’s the backrub scene, my favorite! The sexual tension in the book was one thing, but the live-read version was something else! #GaHoates didn’t kiss that night (thank god! I’m still recovering from so much happiness last time!) but they still killed it with Chasing Waves by Bianca Mori!

In between the readings, we had breaks to drink away the thirst (LOL) and to take more pictures. I was hailed (self-proclaimed, really) Prom King and at one point Caryn turned me into an iteration of the Santo Nino. Wahaha. (I’m so directly going to hell. Do not pass Go! Do not collect $200!) I also had short smoke breaks, mostly with Brij and Oya and Pach. Gio was also there, asked me a few questions about my story and haha, I’m glad to report I was able to speak like a human person and I didn’t have yet another out of body experience (that would come later).

The last two readings killed me. They were from our newest book, Start Here, and for the second time, queer romance was featured in these #romanceclass live-readings! Brij’s Lemon Drop Friday is already so wonderful, and read by Rachel and Sam made it even better. The last story was my story, read by Gio and Fred and I refuse to talk about it now. I’m saving that for the Start Here reflection paper I’m preparing for posting sometime in the future. LOL

What I will say, though, is that I didn’t expect people to respond to it the way they did. Of course part of it were because of G and F’s extraness (like, extra extra!) but I didn’t really expect people to laugh at some of the lines I also thought were funny, and ‘aww’ at the lines I also thought were sweet. To have my work live read was one of the goals and I was fortunate enough to have my work chosen as early as it did in my #romanceclass journey. I am also very fortunate to have all these wonderful people around me, who, right after I died and lived again several times in my seat during the reading, wrapped me in their arms and celebrated with me.

This community’s natural instinct to support and nurture beginning writers like me, who are still figuring out this new thing we found inside ourselves, is #romanceclass’s strength. I probably cried when the reading was going on (I can’t remember everything, like I said) but it was because I was so happy! I still cannot properly express how happy I was. I don’t think I ever will.

So after the readings, when the event was officially over, we stayed back a while and made it an actual Prom. I danced with princesses (my heroes), watched my OTP have their first dance (Hint: THE DRESS FIT, no question!), received wonderful wonderful news (wide eye emoji times three) and hung out with people I didn’t think I’d have so much fun after just bonding with them on computer/phone screens for most of these friendships.

And being the DOERS that #romanceclass were, we already have a brand new project underway (Thanks, Ron!). Not one to sit on laurels, these romanceclass people.

It was a night of Romance, a wee bit different from the romance expected of Proms, but a night where love triumphed, nonetheless.

The After Effects

The immediate effect was I got hungry. Heh. I was still running on adrenaline as I drove all the way back to Bulacan (still on my own, still anxious af) so after I took my exit, I decided to get myself (drum roll please) a Happy Meal. I couldn’t resist! Burger, fries and a toy? Let’s be real.

I was also really pumped that the toy was Snoopy and that one of the poses was called “Famous Author Snoopy”! It’s basically Snoopy sitting on top of his iconic doghouse, typing away at his typewriter. It’s also a paper embosser. The scrapbooker in me wanted to hug the McDonald’s Drive-Thru crew in drunk happiness.

The longterm effect split two ways. In one way I got inspired and brave enough to release the poetry collection I’ve been sitting on for a long while now, Signed B. I don’t know exactly why I felt like it was now screaming at me to publish it, but I did, and now I got screenshots of it at the Amazon Poetry Charts on my desktop and I’ve got 5 reviews on GoodReads from happy readers.

The other way is that I got to be more comfortable with The Other Story and now I can say I’ve actually let it go to let that piece work its way on its own. I don’t know if it’s the same with other writers but when I make something, whether a written piece or a floor plan, I’m sensitive of my shit. I hold on to it so hard and I’m easily offended when I get comments.

Last week was the blog tour for Start Here and as expected, I couldn’t please everybody. But I didn’t mind the low-rated reviews on my story as much as I thought I would. I was genuinely happy that the whole book was being read and that people were invested enough to blog about what they thought about our stories. I was able to read those and take notes for self-improvement instead of zooming in on my mistakes and my shortcomings. I had been trying to please everybody for such a long time, accepting critiques this openly was somewhat alien to me.

I already knew my target audience, and they loved it. They laughed at my jokes, they ‘aww’-ed at my sweet lines and I was there to experience it firsthand. I even had people I’ve never seen or talked to before, come up to me for a signature! Would you believe?

And yes, I’m still learning the ropes, but I knew I wasn’t alone in this new adventure I was writing for myself. I have my people.

Now...I don’t know how to end this long-ass post again so I’ll leave you with five words I think about when I think of that night: It was the best Prom.

#Romanceclass #feelssoprom #bentchcreates #review

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survivor-mesopotamia · 4 years ago

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Ep. #2 - “Shit ain’t over till the fat lady sings and I didn’t warm my pipes.” (Cameron)

Day 4: Well. I survived my first tribal council of the season, and even though it went exactly according to plan, while I slept my entire day away, I'm still really hesitant to tell myself that I'm doing well on my tribe. I'm really nervous that my tribe mates are playing me, and that I'm really boo boo tha fool here. I called Megan post-tribal, and I was finally able to get some closure on something that happened between us in our personal lives, which felt really good. After that, she asked me about the idol, to which I had responded "Wait, Julian didn't tell you?", which hopefully sows some seeds of doubt in Megan about Julian. Ideally, if the Enlil tribe has to go back to tribal council, the four of us can bear witness to a Megan vs. Julian war. Because unfortunately, the connections I have outside Enlil, are shared with either Julian or Megan. If Megan and Julian are going after each other pre-merge, or during a swap scenario, I don't have to share those connections anymore. After that, Megan and I just talked about the nudes we received during quarantine ~ I then promptly ran to Will to tell him about the potential crack I just formed between Julian and Megan, which was met with genuine excitement. I think I'm really gaining Will's trust, and I think we vibe so well together. Love that guy! Overall, it wasn't a very productive day because I woke up at 4:30p PST. Love that for me, thanks for shading me @ Tribal Bodhi.

going into this scavenger hunt as the tribe that went to tribal last is worrysome. It's a challenge that's fully dependent on our activity, so we are at a serious disadvantage against the other two tribes that get to choose someone less active to sit out. We don't have that luxury. The point/life system eases the blow, however, since we can get less active players 1 life while more active players can get 3. In case we lose, I'm trying to connect with everyone on the tribe. I really don't want to vote anyone out though. I have an alliance with Julian and JJ, and one with Will on the side. Chrissa wants to work with Julian, JJ and myself, and I think Megan and JJ have something on the side. I'm nervous for who would be the target in the vote, and any vote would hurt all of our games collectively. Hopefully we win because the next vote will not be easy AT ALL.

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jj and zachary are so fucking annoying to this challenge and if i vote for you first at the swap, its probably because youre typing too much during this challenge sorry not sorry xoxo - sincerely johnny a month from now

let me be clear with andrew I was not calling his hosting unfair i was calling the fact that a majority green item giving him a point unfair not the hosting but lack of yellow, also i have a headache i don't feel that good. and I just don't think zach should have had a point for it nothing against hosting obviously i watch a movie trivia thing where literally they have a challenge to challenge any questions that are unfair, that doesn't mean they are calling the question writers or the answer writers unfair.

Zach just won the tribal challenge for us which is fantastic. We can maintain the illusion of a unified tribe longer, which keeps us together in a swap situation, and Zach has clearly painted a challenge target on himself over the last two challenges which will make him go before me if our Triforce ever becomes the minority. I'm really happy with my position in the game right now

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me and monty trying to find the idol and decode this annoying ass video https://imgur.com/a/lu7sbMu

Forgive me father for I have sinned it's been approximately three days since my last confession so far can't complain really we be winning they hating we be riding pretty damn clean I've got a majoritu alliance I didn't start so odds of it falling around me and being the first voted out slim to none thank the sweet baby jesis and all that good shit. Oh well that's all for now

JULIAN’S HOST CHAT GUEST, ZEE:

I am filling in a confessional because you told me to. I am in front of my fan because it's hot. I'm thinking that it seems pretty stupid to ask me for a confessional. Julian's prod chat isn't very interesting because he's distracted.

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also just threw out madison's name to johnny. if this shit backfires on me ill be ):

https://youtu.be/Pqck1gayfJU

https://youtu.be/FMay7NycsPw

yo yo yo homies!!! fuck the scavenger hunt and the mobile Skype app !! Lowkey scared but I think I’m close with everyone on the tribe except madi soooooooooo that’s probably who will go tonight. I’ve connected a lot with Monty and am hoping we can work together closely moving forward 💕not sure how useful my relationship with Zach is going to be come swap/merge bc it seems like he’s ALREADY making himself a target like the big doof he is. More later 💋

https://youtu.be/Qg47yupj1bQ

https://youtu.be/vUK8A1qWVoA

Hello tumblr survivor world! Sorry I didnt confess for episode 1, I was going to but i accidentally exited out of the page when i almost finished writing it. Anyways, it was just a cast assessment for my tribe so tl;dr everyone on my tribe is great and its really sad that we have to vote someone out now. So this whole weekend I was away so I was REALLY worried that I would be voted out since I sat out of the challenge. But after talking to Johnny and Isabelle, it seems like Madison will be voted out tonight. Which is so bad bc this her first game in a year, but hey it's our first vote and it's not me so it's not really the time to make a stand. _________________________________________________________________________________________ Okay I took a break from writing this confessional and there's moreeeeeeeee so part 2 I guess. So I had a call with Johnny and we came up with an alliance of me, him, Isabelle, and Benji. What an iconic alliance, right? But also while Johnny and I talked we got onto the topic of idols and why it is that there hasn't been an idol post yet. I brought up that wayyyyyy back when in Malaysia and some other games around that time, some of the idol hunts were less clear cut. We ended up looking at the blog and clicking the "idol system" tab and it brought us to some weird crab video with audio that sounds like a pokemon cry? Idk part of me thinks its just a joke but I also have to consider that it might be SOMETHING. It said remember to like and subscribe so I sent a screenshot of me liking and subscribing to see if that would do anything but nope. Johnny said he'd do some thinking about it and get back to me later if he figures something out. Also tribal seems super clear cut so I'm a bit less worried now but y'know how it is I can't not worry about tribal.

i just spent $8 on a spectogram and STILL cant find this fucking idol im gonna kms... monty im sorry im steam rolling ahead looking for this thing without telling you, but thank you for the first clue xoxo... if i get stumped in the future ill reach out for SURE (but idt you trust me that much so this seems kinda valid to me) ((FOUR HOURS LATER: i told monty lololol)) ALSO FOR FUCKS SAKE I think madison is gonna go, and truthfully, im fine with it because it's the easiest thing to do due to her poor performance in the past few challenges and just being the least AROUND the tribe, but i know that it'd probably be better for me long term to get rid of abby because i just dont see her as a long term ally for me. i think she's close to JJ and Megan on the other tribe, and she's becoming much more acclimated to the tumblr survivor community that i just BET that she maybe has an additional connection on the rookie tribe. If I can attempt to break that up before we get to a swap, I think that's what im going to have to do figure out if we lose another challenge before a swap... i dont really want to see ANYBODY else go besides abby if im thinking about a second boot. i bet it wont be easy to take her out tho also, if madison goes, this is like...... lowkey vindication for game changers???? last night i talked about this with monty and i was like hmmmm "is it ugly to bring up past game history?" and his response was "not if it's within the same series" .... so. vindication

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omg i just told madison how to find the idol system thing i hope she doesnt tell anyone i told her about it LMAO........ this almost seems too easy.i got added to two alliances today. why do i not feel safe? is it me going? WTF IS GOING ON

excited to be first boot because no one will TALK TO ME!

Things haven’t changed much since my last confessional! As far as I know the tribe hasn’t started into alliances and we’re all riding some excitement at having so far avoided tribal. I think the rest of the tribe and I are all feeling good and just focusing on making the tribe switch without losing any members.

from round 2 https://youtu.be/fk002uG2HoI

Hi sorry I forgot to do a confessional this round so this will be short imma just say a few things 1. I don’t trust julian one bit he can stop being shady to me 2. I can’t believe we aren’t going to tribal I’m so fkn happy i was able to pull out the win for our tribe because I didn’t want to lose anybody else 3. I love and adore will with all of my being and he’s my number 1 ally right now 4. I find it highly doubtful that there’s only one idol in this game and that you can’t find it until merge but that’s as far as I can get in the idol search for now so I guess there’s nothing I can do about it 5. I’m still having fun can’t wait to fuck up another flash game yay!!!

My Purple edit is amazing right now. But having played more games than most of these newbies, I have decided to take on the role of teacher and becoming more of a "role model" for these newbies. I feel like I have the closest bond with Zach, and I need to get a little closer with Collin. I have Grace from past games, and then there are the others who I do not really have any strong bonds with at the moment. I guess I need to start going to them more and show that I want to work with them.

https://youtu.be/yhwXzqrTcsA Confessional 2 for round 2

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Madison voted out 6-1

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xqr · 7 years ago

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LLSIF Things 29: The First UR Pair

And by that I mean on the same account (and not on the Helix which came to me equipped with 2 pairs).

Our sacrifices. Our event SRs I doubt I’ll ever get a copy of. Our SR healer Mari. And our timer shit Nico.

I’d like to thank everyone for smashing it even tho the 4th dude dropped out.

This occasion on the other hand... Wtf were y’all doing? I s2g wao-wao powerful day was too much for some people. This wasn’t the only time I got an A on this.

Thank u, Klab.

Wow look that person has 7 mics!! Wow look at that person’s name! It’s somehow funnier to me bc it’s on JP and misspelt.

Anyway, it was a fun event. The morning it finished I was enjoying my holiday in Spain, and I thought, nah, I won’t wake up before maintenance for a few more event points. I have the Hanayo at 60k already.

BOY IF I’D GOT MY ASS UP I WOULD HAVE T2′d AGAIN.

wew klab u shouldn’t have

Nice and easy, thanks

OTANJOUBI OMEDETOU!!

Anyway this is the actual birthday I care about. Give me that sweet step-up box (I wasn’t going to, but JP was rich and wasn’t chasing after the new Yohane UR).

I’m currently running a pure Printemps team, so only pure Honks needed. I might as well for 30 gems. Just 30, I said.

HOLY SHEET

PURE HONK? CHECK. SCORER? YES. UR FUCKING PAIR??? YESSS

wew. Nice. And that Initial Honk I got last August, so an instant seal.

FOOKIN GLORIOUS. Let’s just look at it a little longer. I love them.

In my excitement I forgot to screenshot the 2nd pull bc idk why you’d expect anything more than a 1SR pull after getting a UR, but I was just like !!!! PULL AGAIN PULL AGAIN.

At which point I was like well I might as well get an SSR while I’m here. Honoka doesn’t even have a pure SSR yet so Idek why I pulled tbh.

WHAT THE FLYING FUCK. HOW DO I PULL 2 URS in 120 gems and yet EN couldn’t even get 1 in 1200. I’m calling the fucking idol police. This is bullshit.

Look she even came with an SR too. Goddamn. Not a single SSR lel. And I fucked up this shot bc I was so excited. 2 SCORERS. TWO. Both into teams immediately.

FUCKING NICE.

Shame I couldn’t get her to lv3 too, but idek how I pulled these skill supports out my ass lel.

This was actually alright. But at 924 notes it took some time to get it all right on the same attempt.

Idolising for the Aqours team. No more PLs, only scorers.

ur too kind

blessed be the scorers

tfw I was almost in T1 for score.

9% smile, 3rd yrs bonus, scorer. I wanted this Eli. My smile teams on both damn servers are the only ones still running 12% centres. :( Also the Honk was cute.

I can’t believe I forgot to SS. But this is a fair pull. Shame no one’s going into a team any time soon.

Even the PLs can’t save us.

For a song I’d already FC’d on JP I was disappointed with how long this took :(

Thank u, WW klab, even if Lantis or whoever it is hasn’t given the UK a live viewing.

well, i got my smile UR, but not even she can save us from 4th place in SMs. But -288 is an improvement on -500.

Holy shit I’m in T1??

Me: is enjoying being in T1 Senpai: appears

I’ve been a fan of OtakuReborn’s scouting Quests since they began. So I am quite aware of how powerful his teams are/have the potential to be.

Well this was unexpected. Still got smashed in terms of MMR, but my score wasn’t too far off. Sometimes I wonder if whales play with aesthetic teams or something.

Bc look even when I brought out my best team I was only a few scorer skill activations away from winning.

Me: haha dildo420!! Great name Dildo420: haha -474!!

EN is poor, but any Honk is potential team material. Ideally would like a 2nd copy of the initial SSR.

Ok cool, got the new SSR which is also a scorer.

And she’s idolised with skill lv 2!! Good stuff. Nice bonus 2 SRs too.

What a good team member. The EN cool team continues to out-do everyone else.

I finally made it. And in the end I picked Aqours bc there’s no chance of timer skills, guaranteed 9% boost, and they’ve generally got better stats.

Beautiful. I love this Kanan. But tfw I already have an Aqours pure UR and really wanted either of the other attributes (lol who am I kidding I wanted another smile UR).

Also can u believe after all this time I only have 1 pure Heal SIS. Such bullshit.

And the most points lost this SM goes to the smile team (no surprise) which even beat out that time we had a powercut and I came last when I should have won.

This will help in the next Aqours event.

I actually spent a gem outside of event time so I could make 50 gems before midnight. What I didn’t know was the new summer goals gave 3 gems for the FC of a Master. So I didn’t even have to spend that gem...

Yes!! Got the initial!! Also China Dress following me again

Make the smile team great again! (lol when was it ever good? Back when I first started and it had an idolised SR!! Wow so strong!!)

Dem sacrifices. China Dress Honk was just begging me to let her go.

Iwillnotbuythealterfigureiwillnotbuythealterfigureiwillnotbuy

She’s beautiful. I love her. I need all my Hanayos idolised asap.

thanks for my 2 Rs.

1 miss :(

1 good. If only I’d remembered to buy the supports. :(

Picked You bc best girl and I’m a sucker for China Dress y’know.

Helix

Goodbye, girls

wew nice skill.

And then I went into the pool with my phone in my pocket on day 1 of my holiday and the Helix account had to wait 2 weeks.

Here we can see the Helix’s tier. I was halfway to Ruby :( Such a shame I missed out on the rest of the SM, on 2 birthdays, on Aqours Live login bonuses. The game has been good to F2Ps this past fortnight and Helix has missed out on it all :(

We have been reunited tho :) In the Helix’s stead I created a new account, the NaCl we see above, having just reached the first Ruby (thank u LP overflow). It was an account ‘just for fun’ during my holiday. And I did have a lot of fun. And a lot of salt bc it is now 3 URs rich. I’ll post the story of the NaCl account soon and it’ll be given away.

‘welcome back to idol hell.’ 2 goods. Should have bought the supports. :(

#llsif #llsif things

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MEA Impressions: Tempest Edition

I’m gonna talk spoilers about my new favorite ship. Beware the spoilers!

bitch this ship is confusing as hell

but that’s maybe because i spent ... idk half and hour exploring it?

i also got lost on the normandy when i started playing the OT so don’t take my word for it

anyway the ship actually looks LIVED IN.

everyone has their own little space, but ryder’s space is the COOLEST

awesome windows. can’t wait to see the pretty views from all over the cluster in it.

MY FRIENDS SPACE IS SO BEAUTIFUL

armor customization seems frusrating at first, since you can’t manually set the rbg color values so you have to manually align them on the wheel but ... there’s an awesome funtion that basically allows the color to transfer over. so you color in your chestplate and the game automatically adjusts your other equipment (arms, legs, helmet)

i haven’t looked much at the r&d terminal, but there seem to be a fuckton of crafting options. my completionist heart weeps tears of joy

i helped liam move a couch. he was so proud of it! he loves his couch.

ryder drinks their beer out of a glass, liam prefers a bottle

dr. lexi stabbed ryder. ryder was like “oh you’ll do fine!” and lexi looked her in the face real hard and said “i just stabbed you”

cora had an angry biotic outburt. i don’t ... really like how the game handles her biotics? it seems like everything about her is either about biotics or alec ryder. goddamit i want to get to know CORA not her fucking biotics. i mean liara was a pretty powerful biotic too, but she was so much more. cora seems to have a superiority complex because of her biotics. ugh.

pls let cora talk about herself and not about her biotics thanks

no seriously this sounded so negative but she’s actually great. they’re all great. god i wanna be friends with them all (and smooch most of them)

i have not seen an angara yet.

the galaxy map takes some getting used too. it’s super beautiful, but i immediately went with the keybinds i was used to from the OT and well. it didn’t work. but i can see how after some time playing around with it i should understand it a bit better.

guys. the galaxy map. god. it’s too pretty. when you go to a new system, it ... swooshes, for lack of a better word. it’s amazing and pretty and it provides such good material for screenshots.

THE GALAXY MAP MUSIC MADE MY HEART SING

god this is one of the times that reminds me how much i love music

nostalgia. i cried.

no really. i did.

KALLO JATH MUST BE PROTECTED AT ALL COSTS

sadly, no option to flirt with him (yet)

let me kiss a salarian, bioware

btw, salarians are fucking tall. they’re really, really tall. i wasn’t ready for that.

you use ladders to get up and down most of the time. it takes a bit, but not nearly as long as the elevator in me1

the crew quarters look really cozy!

there’s only one escape pod????? maybe it’s the only one we can see.

there’s not a lot of crew wandering around. none, now that i think of it.

... i can’t help it. i have to say it. the tempest is shaped like a dick.

i mean, the normandy was pretty phallic-shaped too

... i seem to be literally 12 years old pls excuse me

you can launch probes from the galaxy map. haven’t really figured that one out.

the emails the crew sends you are really cute

i haven’t received my deluxe edition casual outfit, sadly. also no pet pyjak in sight so far.

maybe i just overlooked it idk

SAM gets more fascinating by the second. oh god, i wanna know more about him. also, he can be really fucking funny sometimes. (ryder: “oh look, dad’s coffee machine! mom bought it for him while he was designing you because he needed the caffeine” SAM: “i didn’t know i owed my existance to a bean.”)

ryder treats SAM like an additional, weird brother. super cute.

cora and SAM are learning about plants together. isn’t this the cutest thing ever?

i haven’t seen the crew wandering around yet, but i’m looking forward to it!

how am i supposed to wait five more days guys help

#mass effect #mea #me:a spoilers #mass effect andromeda #mass effect: andromeda #mass effect andromeda spoilers #mea spoilers #spoilers #mass effect: andromeda spoilers #ellie plays mea

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