#idk if crush is the right word

[fagbearentertainment]

Since I was talking about the dozens of fictional characters I think are hot yesterday I wanna share a couple of my real life crushes

They include:

Eret

Niki Nihachu

And I had a “do I think he’s hot or do I wanna look like him?” thang going on with Wilbur Soot for a couple months in 2021 (it was definitely a trans thang but I’m putting him here anyway lol)

I’m arospec (maybe acespec too? Idk) so I don’t get many of these but for the past 3 years they’ve all been mcyters lol

[hiroshotreplica]

drawing yarrwhal and kayoss made me think about them more. i think kayoss' name is kayden. then yarrwhal just doesnt tell anyone what his is. i think theyd have a really solid friendship. maybe yarrwhal can crush on him too.. as a bonus..

[aropride]

me on my old blog circa early 2020:

[yeyayeya]

I literally can’t with Wen Kexing. Man is too much and won’t stop smiling at Zhou Zishu everytime they’re both together and it’s too fucking much omg

Man is in love already

[viveela]

what’s your opinion on kyman? I don’t like it but it keeps popping up on my page, and I’m trying to avoid kyman artists

Swings my office chair around w my hands folded together in dramatic lighting. I have quite a bit to say about this actually

So as a huge Kyle enjoyer there's certain things about this pairing that makes me feel like it's really unfair for him and honestly just bad for his health ngl. I could go on a whole spiel but I won't, this ain't about him.... specifically lol

But on the other hand...they ARE friends. I know it's kinda hard to swallow this truth but they CAN also be calm and peaceful together it is just rare....so idk. And I guess people enjoy the way they gravitate towards each other...whether that be for better or for worse. I think for me it depends on how it's being portrayed in the fan content. I don't ever seek it out myself but sometimes I come across stuff that I find cute or whatever. It's not my cup of tea though

Anyway I don't ship it myself and if I think about it too much I get upset lmfao but otherwise it's honestly not the woooorst ship I think u have to worry more about the way a person ships it (but honestly that can apply to basically everything). I truly understand avoiding it though, I have mostly negative feelings for it myself and truthfully I personally prefer them both with other people.

[revancchist]

i’m. so confused

[britneyshakespeare]

Yesterday at the high school I was in for this art teacher and they all had like projects they were gonna present to work on in Google classroom, so like many days as a substitute teacher it was quiet and I mostly just sat at the desk and read. But then this one kid in my peripheral vision was looking at me and when I glanced over her laughed a little. And I looked away cuz I was like whatever maybe he was whispering smth w his friends.

But then he says "I have a question"

"Yeah?"

"What two colors make purple?"

"Oh. Red and blue"

"Thank you... I appreciate the no judgment answer"

I didn't even think about it lol

[illogicalghost]

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[exopelagic]

i said i wouldn’t do it this time but it’s 3am and mods asleep. boy

[mell0bee]

critter followers i will have u KNOW. last thursday i was all caught up and i could have watched live but i decided not to for whatever reason and this week has been crazy busy for me (11hr shift today due to science taking forever) so i’m not caught up now (sad).

& just now im ready to close tumblr and go to sleep (due to the aforementioned 11hr shift) but i see some mutuals vaugeblogging about a Big Thing happening tonight and i am in fact nosy and like to look at the tag sometimes so i check the tag to see what’s going on. i was thinking “ehhh it’s probably nothing out of left field, maybe dorian is finally coming back or something. it’s not like imodna is gonna go canon or anything, but i need to check on the 0.01% chance that it does.”

& then

what

girl what

you’re telling me what??

[unproduciblesmackdown]

ppl will be explaining how a difference is a difference & not a Deviation from a Superior state, & people who are the ones considered Default Normal (superior) will be like "okay....to be polite....i Might say i consider Some aspects of Some people's existence mere 'difference' & not being less than me...." as like hey i'm a Benevolent god. i still actually get to consider you worse & don't have to "humor" anything that challenges my superiority. if you only want everything to fit into the norm then it will all come back to upholding the norm. thinking of people's analysis of their own realities as equally legimate as being like Obscure, Irrelevant, Superficial & then using that reasoning to justify dismissing them. same as worrying that the [Different Lessers (Others(tm))] as Everywhere = a manifestation of the awareness that, yeah, respecting them as equals Does threaten your norm which is smothering everything everywhere. ppl who need to lock in the idea of Borders around personhood like um Yes they're all delineated separate Identities outside any hierarchy & so i think it's relevant to for some reason push back against "ohh so now Everyone's queer" like why not. why couldn't they be. what if they were. what if queerness was everywhere b/c it's ideological not a cordoned off Alternative Identity that is accommodated by focusing on Love(tm) as the new border around whose existence we might begrudgingly accept at arm's length (i.e. being otherwise "normal"! just imagine swapping out the binary gender (or, deep breath, presumed Private Parts) of one partner in an exclusive romantic lifelong nuclear family marriage, & that is Gay / Trans Rights. still gross but maybe we can do it, as long as they don't talk about it or shove it in our faces or even exist for more than one encounter w/us in our lives b/c what are the odds). evergreen laughing at someone suggesting ableist logic might be embedded in language of past & present b/c it's just So little to ask for that it's irrelevant but it's also So much to ask for that of course i'm not gonna do anything more than pass it along like "this is why i don't take ableism seriously" like yeah it's the disabled randos like it's the individual cringe teens(tm) ruining [the cishets would take Gender seriously otherwise!!!] & that's why you won't think about it or do anything about it & continue being comfortable with the norm & resent that actually their Difference is Less & disability is something worse that ppl "excuse" & all these ways that people are & all these things that they do are funny & weird & inexplicable & etc & one can't possibly be cruising along perpetuating a hierarchy with a sense that you're reasonable, well meaning, kind, etc etc & thus Justified, systemic oppression definitely wants to maximize how uncomfortable & arduous it feels to everyone rather than push to make it more streamlined & rewarding to embrace, or at least accept, whatever superiority over others you're afforded

[corncobtv]

was super stoked bc i was scheduled to be in the back w my work crush today and instead 4 people called out and now it’s just me in back 🧍‍♂️

[tragedykery]

this may feel sacrilegious coming from tuser maileesque but sometimes. I think about maizula

[orphyd]

🧍🏾‍♀️

[0ystercatcher]

as much as i want to i cannot b part of the performative grrr i hate all my friends boyfriends grrrr because genuinely i usually dont? but i also dont think its useful or helpful and, from experience it just feels rude and dismissive? however i think very reasonable to watch out for your friends and keep a realistic (and valuable!) external perspective of them. especiallyyy when theyre in that early honeymoon stage and everything living la vie en rose and things can get a little silly. anyway i think its reasonable and adult to want to hear what your friends have to say about your current boyfriend or whatever too and i dont understand what anyone would gain if you exaggerated what you thought about him either to appease your friend or to make her...what. paranoid? feel worse? either during a relationship or after a break up....its the same reason why i hateee after i had failed attempts at relationships with men (more like. one man. but whatever) i genuinely liked, to hear my friends start talking total shit about him like...or if i want to talk about a discussion i had with current boyfriend... its like. if you felt this about him why didnt you say this earlier lol. it would have helped me figure some shit out. like. assuming everyone is grown up enough to handle honest conversations and are able to trust their friends judgement...why wouldnt you talk about this like normal people...

[singing-bones]

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