#idk i will keep pondering

[hauntingblue]

EPISODE 900

[inawickedlittletown]

Sooo I started to read other articles. I didn't after reading the ones that came out right after the episode that justifiably got everyone upset.

This one from tv insider had Tim saying this:

Moving on to Buck and Tommy’s breakup, talk about your approach to it. Why was Tommy sure that Buck would break his heart?

Tommy’s older and Buck is very new to this, and whether Tommy was correct or not, I think what he felt like was exactly what he said: I’m not your last, I’m your first, which is a special thing to be, but as Tommy says, it doesn’t usually end up being the same thing. And I think based on what we know of Buck, he’s maybe not wrong. Buck’s a little impulsive when he’s feeling a certain kind of way. He’s like, move on in, bring your couch. So I just think because Tommy’s a little older and wiser or maybe at some level he feels like he doesn’t deserve Buck, I don’t know. But I think he accurately diagnosed Buck. Buck’s still figuring himself out, and boy, that would be quite risky to move in with that guy as much as you would love to.

That does seem to be Buck’s go-to, which isn’t the best.

Exactly.

Are we going to see Buck single for a significant period of time now? Is he trying to figure out what he wants really out of a relationship?

Yeah, I think that’s right. As Tommy said, you’re still figuring yourself out, and his options have increased by 50 percent of the population. So knowing Buck, that’s going to be choice overload. He’s got to navigate that with a little self-awareness.

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So they definitely planned for this. That's what this reads like...they wanted to break them up so that they could send Buck through a period of exploration. Tim says everything Oliver said here in much nicer terms. His view of Buck is so...Idk, it's like he sees Buck as a kid that still doesn't know what he wants. And he decided to put that view right into Tommy's head too. It's a little jarring I guess but this show...has it ever been consistent?

What sucks is that 8x05 was written like they were doing so well. And then right off the back with 8x06 we have warning signs in the date scene with the girl that approaches Buck and how Tommy sort of shrugs off Buck checking her out. I really do wonder where hot waiter fit into this and I'm so glad we didn't see Tommy like checking hot waiter out or something. But I guess that scene was there to sow the seeds. We have Buck spiraling because of the Abby thing and we have Tommy maybe not realizing but reinforcing for himself that he's a stepping stone for Buck and being okay with it in the status quo.

The way that Tim speaks about Buck asking Tommy to move in, he makes it seem like Buck is just barreling in without thought...like if they went through with it Tommy might be proven right. But then what is the point of the scene with Josh where Buck is right on the cusp of an "I love you" just to then be like no actually Tommy knows how this ends and he can read Buck and knows they're not forever. But Tommy is not a mind reader.

Where there is hope is in that Tim doesn't outwardly say anything about Tommy being gone for good. As someone else pointed out the Lou interviews were done by buddie journalists with a bias so there is a question to how much that colored what we got and why they were so determined to close the door fully. Also...why did we get exit interviews in the first place for a character that only had three episodes...it's so odd.

The writers made a point of leaving this open. Do I think we'll get Tommy back any time soon. No. But after the doom and gloom and the time to mourn this a bit I want to be positive and there is really no knowing. Tim says he thinks Buck will be single for a while...okay fine...picture that being the rest of this season.

Buck won't just jump into another relationship...and Oliver gets his Buck slut era 2.0...what if S9 brings back Tommy? What if this is the long game...or at least the thing they can have in their back pocket if Lou is available later on to come back. But that's not something they can promise or that they can commit to and Lou isn't on contract clearly and Oliver wouldn't know if that's the plan...hell even Tim probably doesn't know if they'll do that. Or I'm giving him too much credit because as we've seen this season storylines have been rushed to close up at breakneck speeds so it would be an anomaly for him to prolong something like this.

All this to say, showing the network and Tim that bucktommy matters to a lot of people and that Tommy matters...it may just make a difference.

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i need someone to talk about my haunted house au with good lord. i have this whole chapter planned out in my head but the words have just not been wording recently and i think i just need to talk out my ideas to get them flowing

[mercyedes]

behind the scenes misc 🫶 -> from darragh cowley's insta

[bg3smash-or-pass]

Just a warning, I am feeling a bit out of steam, so this blog will probably hold off on posts for a few days as I get stuff organized. Submissions will still be posted/queued right away!

[fyrets]

Ok I know I said I need to stop being negative (or at least I implied it) but it's craaaazy to me how the most recent petsims (i.e. Lorwolf and Santae) have had behind the scenes drama spill out resulting in at least some negative reception from their audiences.

I wasn't around for early Lorwolf development, but I've heard there'd been at least some dissent before it fully launched and the crazier shit (former mod if you remember) happened afterwards. Now I think most people kiiiinda didn't end up caring about all of That in the long term, and most of its decline can be attributed to bad-to-mediocre management of the game leading to players generally losing interest. It's still wacky that it ever happened though.

The past two months have been RIFE with drama in Santae's corner. The game is only in an "alpha" phase (though we could argue about how much of it is really an alpha testing phase and not just an early access marketing campaign based on how I've heard they aren't doing anymore wipes Lol Lmao Even) and is just about to finish its KS campaign, but there are people dedicated to exposing the staff and it's business practices. It's fucking insane to me. I know a number of people have at least decided to reduce their backing pledge if not pull out of it entirely because of this. That said, it's still doing very well for itself. The amount never went below $72k, and they're currently at $75k right now. There's also people who are, pardon my french, dick riding like crazy for Santae over in the drama blogs. I have no fucking idea where they're gonna end up going from here in the long term. It really depends on whether or not they can deliver an enjoyable game, unless a crazy assortment of skeletons spill out of their closet.

Meanwhile, the worst things that I remember ever happening for PB impacting reception is the color/breeding system change, uhhhh maybe the centipede/spider mystics, and a fabricated callout that got resolved in a day with nobody believing it in the first place. I've only ever seen a handful of anonymous complaints about things behind the scenes, and they have only been vague assertions with zero follow-up.

So like, what's the deal? If I'm willing to believe the anonymous dissenters of other sites, then I should also believe these few nothingburger anons directed at my site too right? But like there's fucking nothing. IF it's true things aren't perfect behind the scenes in PB, then why hasn't there been more spilled about it? I know PB staff are under NDA, but from what I hear that was also the case with Santae, and that sure didn't fucking stop them! So I have to assume things aren't so bad in this ship. Or that there's a better handle on keeping things quiet. One is more preferable to me, but ultimately will have the same result. It's very... Weird. To think about.

[pommigranite]

roles reversed 💙🔄💜

just a little what if inspired by cass apocalyptic series (CAS) by @somerandomdudelmao

[meowsticmarvels]

screaming to the crowd. zero escapers i need to know your thoughts/hcs on 1904!phi and her partner.... im thinking a lot about phis insane ass backstory. need to Know.....

[ball-of-butter]

them: what are you thinking about?

me: nothing

my brain: do you ever just sit there and wonder how differently things would have panned out if maven had attached himself to cal instead of mare? if the key to his humanity was his brother and him only? do you ever think that maybe maven would know he wasn’t and couldn’t be good but he would try to be anyways so he could be close to cal (because the crux of it all was that he didn’t want to be alone)? or do you think maven would’ve ended up destroying the both of them because he knows no other way (and cal wouldn’t leave maven to destroy himself on his own)? do you ever think about how cal would’ve been the only person ever to let him stay close? do you ever think about how the entire fucking story would have changed because maven’s character would have been different since he’s a warped mirror of everything he loves (a small list)?

[wynandcore]

Confession time episode 13 is one of my favorite episodes

[eff-plays]

It's rly wild that I can't write fic without first combing through the source material just to make sure I don't get the dialogue wrong, while others just see a character they like, don't play the game, and learn about them through fandom osmosis and then write the fic anyway.

I guess it depends on what sort of fic you're writing. I could be worse and actually try to get things right based on Forgotten Realms lore, I suppose, but I can't even imagine writing fic about a thing I don't know at personally, at least on a somewhat casual level.

[uranium]

also since the show this is how i disappear has taken on a really interesting, more menacing tone in my mind... probably has to do with my interpretation of video of the spider in the set waiting for and consuming the smaller spider (there was a lot of shit going on around me) that to me reads as like. i need to consume you to survive. i will wait patiently for you to come to me and then i will destroy you so i can live. this is the only thing i know. and then at the ending i saw a ton of smaller spiders, maybe killing the larger one together? which then says you will need to kill me if you want to be the one to live and when you do live you will thrive. but only with me gone forever.

which is SO fascinating to deliver alongside "im really not so with you anymore, im just a ghost so i cant hurt you anymore"... i always saw tihid as being desperately dependent on someone or something and the speaker either lashes out in their fear and/or hates themself so deeply they believe their every action to be wrong but with the background it makes it seem darker than that. the line still exists but it could then be interpreted as "the only way i know how to be with you is to hurt you and with you drawing away i feel myself drawn deeper into a solitary self destructive spiral. you are gone and without you to feed off of i am starving to death" and that is sooooo creepy and interesting to me

[politemagic]

contemplating releasing some of these blurbs from draft jail

[fluffacep]

Ever since I was a little girl I knew I wanted to be a man

[the-one-with-spider-brainrot]

A personal struggle I have is picturing things happening over such a long timespan. Its a little easier for tpotc because its all involving gods.

But it does mean my au timeline doesn't nearly last for hundreds of years compared to other peoples and the events from start of game to current update takes, as I've mapped out for myself, about 21 years or so.

Which for gods its nothing but idk, I think there's something about the speed and frailty of mortality that humbles ex-gods real fast especially if your new God of Death vowed off ressurections after the last one reminded them of the real mortal lives being toyed with.

Of course theres also just. Lamb gave everyone a Gold Skull Necklace when they got a chance to because they're lonely and the kids just age real slowly (Skull Necklace) and it does actually take place over hundreds or so years.

There's two options to go ig.

[dutybcrne]

Imagine if Khaenri'ahn tears could solidify into crystals,,,