#idk i think so much about the intimacy of having slept together and not knowing where they stand bc they haven’t discussed it

[lavampira]

wip wednesday whenever

tagged by @hythlodaes and @lilas days ago - ty beloveds!! this is so late but I’ll tag @coldshrugs @scionshtola @ghostwise @creaking-skull @aphoticfairy @daggertongue @narrativefoiltrope @veeples if anyone has writing or art or other creative things to share because I’d still love to see it!! from the sidalia wip again:

“Did you mean what you said earlier?” she asks, and though she whispers, ‘tis nearly too loud in the sparse, quiet inn room.

D’alia braces for him to deflect with residual bluster, perhaps brush her off with yet another turned cheek and grumbled dismissal of the matters of the heart again, or simply allow her to float adrift in the expanding gulf of silence between them. She would not blame him, particularly after all they had been through in recent moons.

She continues to wind the bandaging around his biceps, careful with the tender flesh and scale beneath her fingers. She decidedly does not think about the memory of those selfsame arms around her that has lingered with her for some time, or the dizzying warmth that seeps into her now from his body so close to her, still wedged between his legs with his large hand gripping her thigh as she works. Nor does she look at him until he tilts his head into her focus, his sharp eyes searching her in the dim candlelight.

“And if I did?” Sidurgu returns.

A frown tugs at the corners of her mouth even as her heart flutters in her chest. You were injured because of me, D’alia wants to snap.

He doesn’t allow her the chance.

“Listen, Alia.” Sidurgu easily encircles her wrist in his warm, calloused palm, halting her work. “I meant it. If you need me.” His scaled throat bobs as he swallows and a desperate look flashes across his face. “And I— Well, I want you to need me.”

[empressmcblondie]

I have such a vivid vision of GIRLFAILURE™ Jackie Taylor (some deluded AU, I guess???) going to Rutgers while Shauna ends up in Brown, and wow Jackie would be upset about this for like 15 mins but then she'd meet her non-verbal goth roommate and do her utmost best to bring a little sunshine to her life because in Jackie's head she needs it and she'll be told off time and again because girlie this isn't high-school, and boundaries are a thing. Eventually they'll become comfortable enough with one another for her roommate to pretend to listen to Jackie's frivolous rants (mostly about Shauna, an unnamed ex best friend, or kinda still a friend but she never emails or calls so idk what we are anymore). Jackie will eventually climb the social ladder, as Jackie does, and even though she's awkward and a little out of touch, she still manages to weasel her way into the in crowd. She realizes very quickly that in Wiskayok she was a big fish in a small pond, and here she's just a mediocre fish in a huge lake and everyone's so much prettier and have so much more going to them and honestly, being the soccer captain isn't that much of a big flex anymore... Maybe her mom was right??? But she still waves it around like a badge of honor because fuck people who think it's lame! There's something seriously endearing and magnetic about how she stands there in the middle of the party, her clickity clackity knees touching in her summer shorts as she elegantly holds onto a red solo cup in one hand and a cigarette in the other (she only socially smokes like three puffs you guys stop) and goes on and on about that one game where they got to nationals because it was their best game ever!!!!! The excitement!! The candor!! The memory of Shauna's hands weaving around her so tightly... Anyways, she'd experiment because everyone does (just a little weed nothing too crazy she hates it honestly and like a kiss or two between female friends... Okay so maybe it was more than a kiss but it's totally not a big deal and that doesn't make her gay, does it?) So, she'd come back on holidays and she and Shauna would meet because when they're face to face it's like nothing else matters literally so what if you didn't answer the 64 emails I sent you over the semester it's not biggie you were probably busy charming everyone with your short stories, do you ever write about me Shauna? Shauna's eyes widen so big when Jackie tells her she slept with a girl that they might fall out of her head and it's hilarious. So what? Everyone does it, Jackie would say, and Shauna would shake her head... She didn't. She didn't dare. There was something much more painful about the thought of Jackie with another girl than any other slight that may or may not have lingered between them but she fucked Jeff and kept it a secret she'll take to the grave so she literally can't say anything. Anyways, they'd dance this dance of unspoken yearning for intimacy and eventually they'll put the capital L and B in the LGBT because lord knows Jackie Taylor came out a lesbian out of the womb and Shauna Shipman swings both ways but for Jackie she'd swing the full home run. Yes, they end up together and it's as beautiful and unstable as you'd imagine it to be... But boy would it be worth it.

[fruitybashir]

Can't remember if you've talked about this a lot before so, hi, anything about Kris and Jan's relationship? Very curious, I love them!!

oh YES actually ive been dying to talk about them more lol since i couldnt fit any more backstory for them into holidate so let me just *cracks knuckles* tell you their whole deal actually

SO. basically the idea for how they met, got together, became best friends etc was this:

- they met as teens, probably were in the same class

- they discovered they had a lot of similar interests, same humour, very quickly got along really well and became really close friends

- they also both at that point had started to figure out their sexuality, but weren't open about it at all bc like. homophobia in school is no joke.

- at first that also meant they werent out to each other bc oh god what if i tell him and he thinks im disgusting and then he doesnt want to be my friend anymore and also outs me to the whole school and everyone will know

- im not sure exactly what happened but one of them wouldve accidentally found out about the other, the other wouldve panicked, but then like oh shit damn okay we're both queer?? nice!!

- if youve been a queer teen in an almost exclusively cishet environment and suddenly there was another queer teen, you probably know the experience of getting a crush on them partly literally just bc theyre also queer. so that happened.

- basically they were each others first queer relationship and did their first experimenting with each other etc

- they did however realised that hey actually? maybe romance isnt for them. maybe they just have a really deep friendship and they do love each other, just not like that - and that realisation is definitely 100% mutual from the start btw, no heartbreak for either of them, just relief

- so basically they just break off the romantic relationship and stay best friends etc etc

since then, jan has also been in kris' family and stuff like miha and chantal both love jan and treat him like a son. kris definitely first introduced him as a friend, and then came out to his parents with jan as his boyfriend and they werent thrilled but also not hateful. but they were relieved (at first) when they just went back to friends

idk if jan and kris still occasionally experimented or slept together or idk? i guess theyd definitely feel comfortable and secure enough with each other but ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

overall (to me) theyre definitely a little more than just best friends but on a very platonic basis. they have a lot of love for each other, theyd kill and die and pretty much do anything for each other, its a very very deep and powerful friendship

oh also, its been mentioned in the fic that they regularly sleep over and also they sleep in the same bed and cuddle and all that, like thats all part of the previous statement. platonic intimacy and all that.

ummmmmm this was kinda just a very long ramble and idk how much of that last bit made sense buy heres some jankris extra lore for you <3

[frogoru]

been thinking about moxie and thalia a lot recently and stuff they would do together... i don't think thalia would wear makeup or have much cosmetic knowledge before she meets moxie, and even after that, i still think she'd go for a natural look most of the time. but!!!!! moxie would definitely help her branch out and get into that stuff when she does feel like it, though. i can imagine moxie coming over with her makeup bag and just sitting with thalia as she rambles on and on about different products and what role they play in the overall process. thalia would be really confused with everything at first, but she'd get the hang of it as time goes on and she experiments with it more.

i always label nattie as the #1 character i project onto, but thalia has an almost equal part when it comes to that thing. i used to be really awkward and shy, and i feel like i kinda separated those 2 traits and gave them to both nattie and thalia respectively hahaha!!!!! moxie is also largely based on a close friend i've known for like 10+ years now (not related to the relationship issues stuff). when i was thinking about the makeup thing, it reminded me of my friend recording videos of her makeup routine so i could learn from them. i've always viewed her as this really confident girl who knows what's she's doing and kinda has it all figured out regarding how to present herself. i feel like my friendship with her kinda reflects how i think moxie and thalia's more platonic interactions would play out.

i don't really use the labels to describe them much, but thalia is demisexual and moxie is demiromantic. their weird little situationship antics don't start until after they've bonded and grown super close. i think thalia would have the same perspective of moxie that i tend to have with my friend; this perfect, untouchable girl that just... knows what to do all the time. you feel me?? thalia isn't that insecure, but she's still super socially awkward. she'd see how extroverted and socially adjusted moxie is and kind of idolize her in that regard. as they start to hang out one on one, i think that "perfect woman" facade would kind of fade and result in her seeing moxie in a more realistic lens. yeah, moxie does well in most social situations, but she's still a flawed individual regardless of that, and i think accepting that would bring them closer together since moxie wouldn't need to keep up that image in front of her.

i feel like i have a good idea of how flawed i want moxie to be, but i haven't really sat down and established them with myself fully. they've just been vague concepts i think about and then immediately forget because i'm doing other things when they come to mind </3 i think keeping up her image would be important to her though. really important. i wouldn't call her a people pleaser, but i still think having people like her is something she'd be very particular about. i also think this would kind of play into her promiscuous tendencies. while it's not the main thing that drives them, i still think her appearance and the sort of expectation her mannerisms set up for some people she interacts with leads her feeling obligated to sort of fulfill those ideals. does that make sense? idk it's 5 am and i haven't slept. but like yeah. she also craves intimacy that people get from relationships as well so she kind of uses casual hookups to fill that void as well. her libido affects things too but like smh that part is obvious.

[petrichorium]

tell us about the first cuddle session with shanks

I think shanks actually falls into the trap of being kinda unused to nonsexual (but explicitly romantic) intimacy,,,,,,, like he’s very touchy w his crew but that’s obviously platonic. In my selfship he and mihawk were a Thing but almost all of the contact between them was Under Pretense Of A Duel so not exactly soft and tender. He has flings often and is very much a sucker for after sex cuddling but that’s obvi got a certain connotation. If he rlly thought it through he’d probably come to the realization that the last time he had real nonsexual skinship w a partner was buggy. Twenty years ago. On the Oro Jackson. Damn.

Anyway. This is actually a bit insane but the first time we cuddle is before we “get together” ig. The first two years after we meet I resolutely refuse his flirtations, but he does steadily wear me down and by the time I do give in he’s very touchy. So it’s probably a couple of months before that??? And it’s actually. Outside my door LMFAOOOOOO

At this point he spends nights on the island either at the bar or on my couch, but I’m a bit stern about not letting him in when he’s too drunk, so half the time he ends up sleeping on my front stoop bc he had one drink too many and I know if I give a drunkard an inch he’ll take a mile yk. So it’s one of those situations, but on this occasion I have to get up in the middle of the night and refuel the light…….. and when I’m done w that as I’m making my way back I kinda. Take pity on him.

He is largely sober when I nudge him awake bc it’s been hours and he’s slept off most of the booze, but he’s also tipsy enough to whine (well, he’d do that anyway) and beg for me to let him in when I tell him to go back to his ship LOL and idk…….. it’s cute……… we’re headed into summer on my island so it’s a pleasant night and the moon’s full so I end up settling w him draped over my lap, absently stroking his hair as we chatter a bit. And I do let him in after an hour or so, we’re just both tired enough that he passes out on my couch and I don’t think much abt it as I head to my bedroom…….. and then I am Very embarrassed in the morning but he’s surprisingly not smug about it, just a bit overly chipper. Like you’d think we actually fucked w how giddy he is LMFAOOOOOOO

[eddiegettingshot]

okay Im the anon that sent you that ask about shannon and eddie + physical and romantic attraction and like the people that think hes only physically attracted to buck/not attracted to women are crazy. he very clearly finds ana attractive when he first sees her and literally the only thing he knows about marisol and their relationship is that he likes to have sex with her (or at least they have a very active sex life). not to mention eddie and shannon using sex as a distraction from talking about their feelings and place in each others life (eddie did once say sex complicates everything). like could be comphet but idk it just reads to me as clearly he experiences physical attraction to these women and has has good physical relationships with them but has a tendency to confuse that with emotional attraction, which is why "nesting" with shannon was a bad idea both times probably and why he was so confused at the end of their relationship and why "nesting" with ana and marisol isnt working out like he thinks it will. and of course adjacent to this is he might not recognize the connection he has with buck as romantic because it is fundamentally different than the connections he has had with women that he views as people he had a strong romantic connection with. like despite the buddie and eddie/shannon parallels re:what eddie is trying to replicate when it comes to his emotional relationship with shannon, buck and eddie's connection even different than eddie and shannon because when their relationship was too emotionally taxing they both ran away (multiple times) but when eddie tried to run away from the 118 because working there was too much for him buck was there the whole time until eddie let him in. and not to say hes not physically attracted to buck but like attraction to men and women are not always the same and buck literally said in the last episode he thought he was staring at guy's asses for funsies lol. anyways thanks for accidentally indulging me because I would much rather write eddie meta than read shannon spec rn lmao

no this is soooooo right. and also buck saying "i think you mean the first woman you slept with" lol (so out of pocket).

the reason i think it's probably genuine attraction is because i think you could make a pretty strong case that eddie not only confuses the two, but actively (if subconsciously) tries to replicate emotional intimacy using sexual intimacy. he has sex and it feels really good, he feels close to someone, he's enjoying himself, she's enjoying herself... that part is easier for him than talking about anything or being vulnerable, and he likes it enough that he can convince himself that sexual connection and emotional connection are interchangeable.

like, with shannon, he wanted desperately to be emotionally close to her again but things were hard as fuck, so they kept sleeping together instead. and with marisol, he was sleeping with her enthusiastically up until the point where he didn't want to be emotionally close to her anymore; he learned something about her that made him question whether he even wanted her in his life and that was when he stopped wanting to have sex with her. and he very obviously thought ana was hot lol it's kind of undeniable.

not to go against the fanon grain, but i'm pretty sure eddie's issue with "casual" isn't that he doesn't want to fuck people he has no emotional connection with, it's that he wants to fuck first and decides afterwards that that means he must also want the emotional connection (real or imagined) that, in his experience, tends to follow (.....it happened with shannon). and because he's obsessed with finding love that feels like magic, well........... like i can see how sleeping with someone he's super attracted to, combined with his intense emotional repression, has historically made the confusion easy lol

[theragethatisdesire]

cowboy jean nsfw alphabet please i beg of you🙏🙏🙏🙏🙏

oh you guys are going to kill me. kill me dead!!!! but i .....i cannot resist. i lowkey thought everyone had forgotten about our yeehaw boy but he haunts my dreams so i MUST. i'm so excited hehehehe.

nsfw yeehaw daddy headcanons below the cut minors get outta here

A. Aftercare

cowboy!jean is a good ole boy. he'll never leave you sitting there panting and covered in cum, he's always going to be a gentleman and clean you up, sweetheart that he is deep down. not big into the tender loving bathtime together or anything, but he'll cuddle and make sure you're well taken care of.

B. Body part

grew up on a farm, so he appreciates a well-muscled woman, jean loves your legs, like could stare at them all day. definitely a sucker for kissing you ankle to thigh before he eats you out, takes his time. he loves late nights on the porch where you swing your feet into his lap and he can just rub on your legs for awhile as you chit chat about nothing.

C. Cum

i think cowboy!jean is the most guilty of a breeding kink. doesn't want to cum anywhere but inside you. once you tell him you've gotten on birth control and it's actually safe to cum inside you and live out his fantasy without the risk of actually getting you pregnant, he's never "wasting a drop" again, as he puts it. can't wait til the day he can put a ring on your finger and toss your pills out for good.

D. Dirty secret

would love if you took charge in the bedroom. i feel like this jean comes off as being less enthusiastic about subbing than pretty girl jean, but even though he'd never ask for/initiate it, he would go crazy watching you pin him to the bed and using him however you want to get yourself off. wants to be your personal fuck toy once or twice lol.

E. Experience

idk why all of my variations of the boys are hoes, but yes, as we saw peeking through his window (lol), jean is a true, old-fashioned wild west cowboy that has slept his way around as he travels working on different ranches, so he knows his way around a woman's body quite well. weirdly, i hc that cowboy!jean lost his virginity very young too, so he's been at it for longer than most his age.

F. Favorite position

mating press, 100%. loves seeing you pinned underneath him, powerless and wiggling against his strong grip, especially when you cum like that. also the best position to get you pregnant in (not like he researched it) again, breeding kink!!!

G. Goofy

cowboy!jean is a pretty serious person in general, very quiet and contemplative most of the time, so i wouldn't say he's too into joking around in the bedroom. afterwards, he'll stay up and giggle and trade stories with you all night, but just not during.

H. Hair

let's be real here. you're both living and working on a ranch, no one's got time to shave when they're waking up at 4:30 every morning! always has a little thatch of curly blonde hair behind the zipper without fail, and never expects you to shave for the same reason.

I. Intimacy

once you've started seeing each other more, you learn that cowboy!jean loves nothing more than a slow, sweet night between the sheets. intimacy isn't something he's well-versed in, but it comes very naturally to him. missionary, holding hands, soft little kisses, the whole nine yards. he loves to treat you like the precious little thing you are to him just as much as he loves to reduce you to tears.

J. Jack off

working on a ranch is a hard-ass job, and more often than not, jean's so achey and beat by the end of the day that he doesn't even have the energy to jack off, especially not once you've invited him to your bed. he'd much rather walk straight past his cabin over to your little house and let you take care of him with your mouth, something you're always happy to oblige. i think he literally only jacks off when you're unavailable and he really needs to, otherwise it's just not something he makes time to do when it's a choice between that or valuable sleep.

K. Kink

breeding kink obviously, but i think what really tipped him over the edge is the voyeurism kink he didn't know he had when jean realized you'd been watching him fuck around. ofc he'd never do it to you again, but the thought of you peering in, doing something so unthinkably nasty really really got him going. again, also 100% a switch, loves the rare times when you take control and take what you want from him, especially after an especially hard day at work. i think he'd also get off going to visit you at work, watching you bat your eyes at the bar patrons (for tips, ofc), knowing that he gets to be the one to take you home that night. not sure if it's a kink, but it definitely turns him on.

L. Location

once he gets over his paralyzing fear of your father, i could see cowboy!jean really having a public sex thing? like wants to take you up in the barn and fuck you in the hayloft, or take you out to a field in his truck and fuck you in the bed of it. he's just so comfortable with nature and wide open spaces that it's become a bit of a fantasy for him.

M. Motivation

cowboy!jean loves watching you get down and dirty on the ranch, especially riding your horse. one of your favorite things to do together is take your horses out and get lost in the trails and jean literally can't hold himself together and ends up fucking you against a tree out in the middle of nowhere.

N. No

definitely no impact play beyond light spanking, doesn't like to mark you up too too much in case someone on the farm could see. cowboy!jean is a gentleman, so he's not too into degradation either. think of him as the ultimate soft dom.

O. Oral

nothing, and i mean nothing in the world makes jean feel better after a long day than a sloppy blowjob. you're the best he's ever had, and he takes advantage, always beckoning you to "come get on your knees for me sugar, was thinkin' about this pretty mouth all day". and who are you to complain, i mean look at him

P. Pace/Q. Quickie

so i'm combining these solely because of cowboy!jean x reader's schedules. while a quickie isn't your preferred method of sex, it's what you're often stuck with due to his hours on the farm, your complete opposite schedule as a bartender in town, and both of your respective exhaustion after a long shift. jean won't ever let you go without even if it's just ten minutes, always makes you finish with his mouth or his fingers if he cums too quickly to get the job done fucking (which is rare). because of the nature of your schedules, jean fucks fast and hard, just the way you like it. but if you've ever both got a few days off? you're not leaving the bed, let's just put it that way.

R. Risk

cowboy!jean isn't really a risktaker in bed in my opinion. he's pretty traditional and has all of his kinks well-identified. if you really wanted to try something, i think he'd be game, but i think he prefers it to just be you and him and some consistency between you both after all the inconsistency in his life up to this point.

S. Stamina

again, cowboy!jean is such a sleepy boy LOL he needs his rest! but if he can get a day off? this dude can go for HOURS i mean like nonstop round after round after round. you're more tired on jean's day off than you are when you work a double lol. def makes the most use of his time when he can find it.

T. Toys

understands that toys are useful, but again, he likes consistency and he gets off knowing that he's the one making you feel so good. does, however, go insane when you send him videos of you playing with yourself with your toys. he has a whole folder under lock and key on his iphone 8 (LMFAO u know this man is not technologically advanced okay) of videos of you stuffing yourself with toys, moaning about how you miss him when he has to go over to other ranches to sell horses and shit.

U. Unfair

between the two of you, you are absolutely the tease. jean's just so fun to rile up. after you start sleeping together, you don't stop the antics you used to get his attention in the first place, in fact, you get worse. shorter dresses, shorter shorts, oh no! forgot to wear a bra to come check on ace down at the barn! it drives jean crazy, especially when the other stablehands are making eyes at each other and not-so-subtly nodding at your ass when you bend over to pick a few things off the ground. believe me, you're going to pay for that later.

V. Volume

dirty talker, but louder than pretty girl jean. again, lots of grunts and groans, loves to compliment you, tell you how good you're doing and how good you feel, how pretty you look, etc. again, he's the ultimate soft dom.

W. Wild card

i sort of already said this, but he loves outdoor sex. like out in nature, in the trails, bed of his truck, after swimming in the lake, etc. he just can't get enough. something about having his wild girl out in the middle of nowhere split open on him just really does it for jean.

X. X-ray

i'm going to go seven inches, but he's pretty. like, pretty pink tip, smooth, veiny. every time he pulls his pants off you just want to put him in your mouth.

Y. Yearning

i think that while jean is always super exhausted from work, when he decides in the middle of the day that your shorts are a little too tight or you've batted those pretty eyes at him one too many times, it's over. he's coming over to yours to fuck you silly, come hell or high water. with exhaustion and stress comes the need to find something to take your frustration out on, and luckily for jean, he has your body to do whatever he wants to. lucky lucky you!

Z. Zzzz

oh yes. literally within 10 minutes of you both getting cleaned up and snuggled into the sheets, jean's asleep. usually you're the one setting an alarm for the both of you so he can sneak out of your house before your father's started marching around the grounds. poor thing is just so worn out and so content laying in your arms, he's snoring before you can even turn the lamp off. precious<3

[livebloggingmydescentintomadness]

the cockles masterlist, part 1

split in six for link limit reasons

WARNING: this post glitches and crashes on mobile. it’s recommended you view this on your desktop, or at least on your mobile browser rather than the app. if my desktop theme is hard on your eyes, try an extension such as Just Read or Reader View to customize the layout and colors.

if you’re still having trouble viewing, or if you don’t want to have to switch between the five posts, here’s all of the links compiled into a google doc.

welcome to the cockles masterpost, a labor of love/insomniac hyperfixation.

i recently wrote this cockles manifesto, but after it got a lot of notes and i kept adding more links to it, i decided i should just go through my 8 years of archives and compile all the cockles posts in a much more accessible and navigable way. after everything with the series finale and destielgate, i figured we could use some happiness, and it turns out there are a lot of people who’ve never heard the cockles gospel.

important disclaimer: yes, i do think that jensen and misha have a private romantic/sexual relationship, but no i do not, in any way, think that they have ever cheated on their wives. we think they are polyamorous, which is a real and valid thing, and misha is openly poly. some people love more than one person, and that’s okay. their families are close and we love and support all of them.

second important disclaimer: despite the amount of innuendo below, this is not about fantasizing about two hot guys fucking. cockles is about the joy of witnessing two people who love each other and make each other happy and are disgustingly cute together. we’re not fetishizing, we’re just appreciating what they publicly share with us.

third important disclaimer: because some of y’all don’t know, the cardinal rule of cockles is that we don’t talk to cockles about cockles. DO NOT leave any comments on their social media accounts implying anything. not even green and blue hearts. they know that we know, but it’s on us not to make it weird. if we’re too obvious and say too much, they might start sharing less. don’t say anything.

NOTICE: if this list is too long or you don’t know where to start, i wrote a post that one might call an illustrated guide to cockles that breaks down many of the most important moments and what i think they mean.

for the sake of my sanity, these are in no particular order.

last updated: 3/8/23

🐚 denotes new content

part 2 (#pray4jensen, gag reel hijinks, some posts i’ve written about cockles and rps)

part 3 (know your cockles history, the intimacy)

part 4  (the glory of jibcon)

part 5 (just for cute)

part 6 (jibcon continued, just for cute continued)

That’s Suspicious:

jared Knows part one | part two

that time misha flashed his crotch at jensen and jensen visibly gulped (op has me blocked, idk why, so i can’t reblog) (oh wait i just found it in my archives, but the commentary on the other one is intriguing)

another post about the previous incident i was able to reblog

10x05 “they’re a couple in real life”

“he mentioned that you have some video of him, jensen?”

jared knows + jealous jensen

“misha’s been working out!” “he has though, hasn’t he?”

jensen falling out of his chair over misha being called straight

“the season i met my wife... isn’t this the season you met misha?”

the vaseline comment

jared putting jensen’s arm around misha

“misha started a fire? he’s pretty hot.” (misha: the acceptable nomenclature is smokin’)

the almost kiss?

another almost kiss... ruth connell points it out

misha “has the legs” for a princess leia bikini

“i’d love to do a western slash romcom with misha” (bonus: full-body shake)

“he sounds like that in the morning.” “how do you know?” | video

“whoa, that’s really romantic.”

jared says misha slept in his apartment, “it didn’t mean anything” (bonus: “he’s jealous!”)

misha’s favorite thing to do in his free time

“i would wanna be a fallen angel.”

“talk about a spoiler alert.”

jared suggests jensen might want to be one of misha’s “toys”

jared: “dog [sticking its face in jensen’s crotch] thinks it’s misha!”

even robert singer knows

“this is not misha, you know that right?”

misha, your fly is open... | leaning in to look at his fly is normal right?

the mishalecki/cockles difference in touching | another version

fan: “happy birthday to me!” jared: “misha?!”

midday pants change? 🤔 misha’s shirt turned inside out?? 🤔

“I just have a quick question about the photos that you took with Misha”

leaving the bathroom together?? (after jensen already left another bathroom, then went in with misha to another bathroom)

“let’s put jensen in the closet.”

jensen’s shifty eyes

jared saying that jensen named his chest hair misha

the way they sit when all three of them are on stage

the time jensen implied they woke up together and then got flustered as he backpedaled

the onstage moment that jensen seems to imply that there are two different people he’s in love with

s15 box set put jen/mish photo parallel with jared/genevieve

mark sheppard’s comment about misha loving jensen

the time jensen called misha a hemorrhoid and s.e. hinton, who has spent a lot of time on set, asked “how do you know?”

so misha showed up to his charcon ‘21 saturday panel wearing the same clothes he was wearing friday night... with the addition of what looks a lot like one of dean’s jackets  

jensen and misha wearing two different shirts by the same brand, which misha definitely didn’t buy for himself  

the “@jensenackles is too tired and lazy to say thank u to chicago, so i’m doing it” tweet that misha quickly deleted 

the man just off-camera in jensen’s cabin video sure as hell sounds like misha 

jensen posted photos of himself in a portuguese shirt from a german store shortly after misha took trips to portugal and germany 

jensen wore an australian brand shirt not long after misha was in australia

jensen’s blue and green bracelet at jib12

misha tells fans it’s jensen’s fault he was late for photo ops  

jensen changed his shirt in the middle of the day, around the same time they were both late for their ops

jib instagram post framing rob/ruth and jensen/misha the same way

wearing similar peace symbol shirts by the same brand 🐚

both seen with... um... white... stains... on their clothes... 🐚

jensen sees misha stick his tongue out, slaps himself in the dick to calm down  🐚

mishananigans:

calling jensen “sweetheart” | gifs | video with clearer audio  🐚

“sorry your camera operator keeps checking you out like that”

walking all the way over to be next to jensen on the red carpet

“jensen is very submissive”

“you’re asking jensen to hit on me? that’s definitely something he will easily do.”

“i’d take jensen home”

misha gazing at jensen

“jensen’s the horse”/”my kids have seen jensen having sex many times”

more “jensen is the horse”: “do not tweet that fanart to me”

“my favorite prop is dean”

hugging jensen

only clapping for jensen

“jensen is like spinach... soft and wilts easily”

imitating jensen’s “hey big boy” | more

messing with jensen’s ear onstage | more gifs

kissing a stuffed animal while making eye contact, names it jackles

calls jensen “tidy”

misha says he only does fake orgasms with jensen

gets talked into improvising a song by jensen

says that jensen’s trailer is covered in photos of him

“you’ll always be my princess”

talking about clothes sharing

grabbing jensen by the hair???

misha’s tell | misha’s other tell

sticking his finger in jensen’s nose

spilling tea on how much jensen loved dressing up as cowboys | “he showed up on set with his own cowboy hat in a box” 🐚

“tell your gishwhes story”

drew hearts all over jensen’s face

“with you it’s like my friend and protector.”

tweet about jensen’s bowlegs

that time misha put on lipstick and kissed jensen’s picture

“i use that same [dean] pillow”

draping himself on jensen’s shoulder

that smile

“It warms the cockles of my heart. Words chosen carefully.”

blowing on jensen’s ear

“jensen sings to me all the time.”

whatever misha’s hand was trying to do here

“jensen doesn’t have any annoying qualities.”

“that. mother. fucker.”

that time misha said “or him” and looked sad :(

putting his leg over jensen’s shoulder

“i’ve been told that we stare at one another’s eyes longingly.”

heart-eyes at sdcc

answering if the handprint was modeled after his hand

throwing gummy bears at jensen

calling a scene of jensen he directed “sexy”

“dean would probably be attracted to me”

misha very carefully trying to answer who would be the king to his queen

“jensen wants a body like mine, and that’s understandable.”

TSA America - Just Relax - a 2013 short misha (and vicki) made where he plays a tsa agent who searches, fondles, and almost kisses a blond southern man. danneel has a cameo as the wife of the southern man | some gifs | more gifs

evidence that misha is bisexual

“i would choose to be the car, because dean would ride me all day.”

talking about how he and danneel love each other, how danneel ordered dabb to write a scene for the two of them

misha bought jensen knives for their anniversary? (11th anniversary gift is steel)

further speculation on misha’s comments alluding to traditional anniversary gifts

the “why would you want to wear a cowboy hat in vancouver?” bit from the mockumentary

the “misha is alma” theory + my analysis | alma tag (remember not to leave any comments implying anything or i will hunt you down.)

misha’s “i might ship something between us” post wishing justin bieber jensen a happy birthday

a video of misha calling jensen “jens”

the alma separation + reunion poems (one day later misha posted a video of himself at the beach)

“what is jensen’s favorite road trip snack?” jared and misha visibly write down “cock” | gif of it

“nice ass”

mirroring jensen during the jib closing ceremony

misha: “we all know which one of those guys we wanna bang.”

misha’s text about missing his “blanky” that he kept in jensen’s apartment | possibly wearing jensen’s shirt in it

implying that jensen is the “most handsome, charming member of the supernatural cast”

misha being thrilled that he’s on top of jensen

“it really warms my cockles”

breakdown of misha’s 2021 trip to colorado. hillary swank posted a video of misha riding horses with her, and she lives in the same town as the ackles’. to our knowledge jensen wasn’t there at the time, but he likely visited danneel and the kids.

the time misha talked about cockles rpf onstage

“it’s easy for our clothes to get mixed up, that’s all.”

misha saying he wanted his character to have sex with “one of the boys”

gishwhes item: “jensen ackles thinks he’s such a tough guy now that he’s soldier boy, but we know that he’s just a big softie. prove it: create a portrait of jensen as soldier boy, all out of skittles gummies.” + misha’s dumb tweet about it

gishwhes item: “jensen kayakles really floats our boat. compose a rollicking sea shanty to wish him well in his new role as soldier buoy on “the boys”.

when misha posted a photo of himself splayed on what appears to be the bed in jensen’s trailer

misha’s tweet about being part of a queerbaiting ship, versus an actor with “CRAZY EYES and a knife in his pocket!”

misha’s heartfelt reply to the ackles’ post about his poetry book

misha’s poem ‘men in woods’ and how it might be about jensen | more theorizing

calling jensen “stud” after his role in rust is announced + fucking amazon tweeting about the “stud” tweet

watching jensen from backstage at denvercon

tweeting that he was “up all night” after the tragic death on the set of jensen’s movie rust, saying he sends all his love to jensen

when asked if he thought dean and cas’s wedding vows should include the word “obey”, misha spontaneously declared that he would like jensen to say that to him. “whatever you say, mish.” | video 

“@jensenackles, you could probably use a shave, but you’re a tad too slim to be a “bear”.”

misha liked a post tagged with 'jenmish’ 

collection of misha’s hearteyes 

“jensen thinks i’m a god? i’ve picked up on that vibe a lot.”

discussing how their response to photo op requests to kiss each other on the mouth is “sure, why not”

misha’s “here’s looking at you, birthday boy” post

his and jensen’s battle to have the lower voice on spn

“i felt like jensen posing in a photoshoot”

“get your own colors, jensen”

gish item: “macaroni art of jensen mac-kles. (you can add some cheddar but this is already pretty cheesy.)”

“you’re thinking of dean that’s handsome. jensen is actually quite challenging to look at.”

billie eilish: “what’s jensen like?” misha: “hung like a field mouse”

biting his lip while jensen talks about soldier boy’s codpiece

misha's story of jogging together and nearly falling on ice 🐚

misha drew a heart on a picture of jensen wielding handcuffs 🐚

"i don't remember doing a sex scene with jensen"  🐚

"dentstiel" post  🐚

misha's tweet about the cockles easter egg in the last of us II | jensen's quote tweet  🐚

and lastly... please, nobody tweet this at misha (or any other cast member), but misha, if you do see this... please don’t tweet it either. thank you.

[bbugyu]

no warning + xu minghao

he saw you laying there, swimming in his pillows, and suddenly he never wanted you to leave.

wc.2803 | smut, fluff, this is some real sappy shit, fuckbuddies to crushbuddies, artist/uni au, yall probably go to nyu or sumn, cursing, mentions of alcohol use, fem reader (sorry), realization of feelings mid-coitous, someone please stop me from writing more vanilla porn

suddenly just really needed to write this? idk man. based off the song sleeping in my t-shirt by zak waters! because apparently i only write fics abt boys getting turned on by their partner wearing their clothes.

*

"fuck, i am so not excited to walk home. it's so cold outside."

"stay, then."

you both had only just slipped your underwear on when the words came from minghao, and you watched as he settled back into his pillows and lifted an arm for you to lay under, a far cry from what had happened on those pillows less than five minutes earlier. you thought of his hand on the back of your neck, pushing you into the mattress while he fucked you silly from behind, and you decided you must still be drunk when you spotted his shirt hanging off the side of the bed, pulled it over your head, and settled into his side.

the two of you exclusively met under the cover of nightfall, but you never slept. an unspoken agreement, that the two of you used each other to relieve stress and fill a need, not for comfort or love. minghao was a man of few words. you never spoke to him much outside of quick conversations and whatever filthy shit he felt like saying while you were under him, but he seemed intelligent and kind. you met him the first time at a school run art show that you were both in. you really loved his paintings, and he made an insightful comment about the societal implications of your mixed media sculpture before you were dragging each other into a bathroom.

minghao was fun, you thought. you were compatible, probably, considering how good of a lay he was, but it had never even crossed your mind to let it go any further than that. you knew he felt the same way - minghao was someone that couldn't not be honest - happy to call upon you at 1 in the morning when he was feeling needy, or to come home with you when you ran into each other at a party, but always walking you to his apartment building's entrance or slipping out of your dorm room before either of you could even think about spending the night. he was candid. knew what he wanted. you did, too, and neither of you thought you wanted anything more than you had.

when minghao was suddenly ripped from sleep by his hangover, he winced into his palm and rolled out of bed. stumbling only once, he made his way to the bathroom to chug a glass of water and immediately take a piss. he pushed a thumb between his eyebrows to attempt to alleviate some pressure, a steadying hand landing the wall in the hall outside his bedroom.

he blinked and looked into his room, noticing the figure on his bed for the first time since waking. you were framed by the doorway, your beautiful curves barely hidden under his own shirt. the thin fabric cascaded down your skin in a way that made gravity look like an artist and you it's canvas. his cloudy brain felt clear, suddenly, and he struggled to understand why. minghao stared at your form, knowing full well that you could make his hot blood pump, but since when did you start making his heart race?

he closed his door behind him as quietly as he could. almost cautiously, minghao returned to his bed, pulling at the loose covers until they were over both of your bodies. he stared at your sleeping face for a moment, wondering if he had ever seen anything so beautiful in his life. his fingers itched for a paintbrush as he hovered over you, elbows planted on either side of your ribcage. you stirred slightly, and he shoveled a hand under your waist and pulled you into his chest, placing a gentle kiss on your cheek.

as you awoke, you squinted at minghao's ear, recognizing it but still slightly confused. you resigned to letting out a soft groan as his lips moved to your neck. "what's all this?"

"you stayed the night," minghao said, pulling back to let his eyes flick across your face, brushing your hair from your lips as your arms settled around his shoulders. the early morning light that peeked through his curtains made you think that it was far too soon after you had passed out to be awake again, but you thought it highlighted his features well. "you never stay the night."

you kept squinting at him, doing your best to remember the night before as your fingers carded through his hair. "you told me to."

the smile on his lips was brief, but didn't go unnoticed. he kissed down your jaw, expertly pulling a small noise of enjoyment from your lips, his fingers splaying under his shirt across your waist, feeling as much of you as he could before skating it over your ass and down your thigh. you gasped when he bit at the vein below your ear, causing your thighs to part just enough for him to slip his hand over your clothed core. you groaned again, wiggling your hips slightly as you stretched, still working through your sleepiness.

"are you not satisfied?" you joked, your voice laced with the fragments of a yawn. you felt his lips part on your neck, and you had half a mind to believe he was smiling as he slowly began rubbing you above the fabric of your underwear.

"i don't think i can ever get enough of you."

a low moan left your dry lips, and you bit at them as he teased you, gripping any part of him you could - his hair, shoulders, bicep. it took a moment, but your arousal woke soon after you. your limbs tingled in anticipation as his long, lean fingers ran across your slit, giving you less than you wanted. "minghao, please."

"shh," he brought his face to yours, planting a kiss on your lips between your whimpers. "patience."

minghao knew you. and he knew your patience was thin. even still, he enjoyed the noises that fell from you as he circled your clit, feeling the moisture gather at your perfect tight hole. swiftly, he pulled aside your panties and swirled his middle finger in your juices, pushing the prepared finger into you. you gasped, clutching him closer. "f-fuck."

he admired the way your eyebrows knit together, your eyes squeezed shut. he kissed along your neck again, making your curl your nails into the back of his neck, surely leaving crescent moon imprints as he pumped a finger into you, his palm rubbing against you in a way that made you squirm. your breath was labored, maybe still partially asleep, and you couldn't help the sustained moan that tumbled from your lips when he added his ring finger. you wondered, briefly, how a man's hand could feel as good as his. how he managed to park you right outside of an orgasm just by pumping a couple fingers into your vaguely sore pussy. 

and he kissed you. it wasn't the first time, of course, your mouths had been all over each other many times before. but the way he slotted his lips against yours made you whine, thighs squeezing shakily around his wrist. he slowed his pumping slightly, working your lips into the open mouthed kisses he craved from you. you gasped into his mouth, and he curled his fingers in you, pushing skillfully against his favorite spot of yours. your eyes opened, eyebrows raised and staring at him in awe of the feeling. he watched you a moment, hair splayed across his pillow, and wondered how many times he had underappreciated this view.

"h-hao-"

he kissed you quickly. "yes?"

"please let me cum."

he looked at the clock on his bedside table. "it's only six in the morning and you wanna cum?"

you pushed a frustrated closed fist against his chest. "you started this, you better finish it."

normally, your attitude would have earned you an extra five minutes of teasing and a stinging red handprint on your ass, but minghao found your blown out pupils and your sleep riddled gaze endearing. he kissed you again, curling his fingers as he pumped into you. you let out a squeal, hands moving from his chest to his shoulders to his neck, trying to grip any amount of him as you tried to hold on through your orgasm. you trembled as his fingers slowed in you, letting him place gentle kisses all across your face. you blushed, unused to the intimacy. if you were in a less dazed state, you would have commented on it, but minghao's palm kept you quiet as it unhurriedly rubbed against your almost overstimulated nub, fingers remaining in you.

despite your release, you ground against his hand, biting at your lip again. the corner of minghao's mouth quirked upwards, pleased with your responsiveness. "do me a favor, baby."

you blinked, your hands landing on his chest as he began pumping his fingers again. "what kind?" you asked, forcing the words out instead of the whines that wanted to escape you. 

"grab a rubber."

your hand immediately went to the table, feeling for the drawer handle. you peeked once to pull it open before shoving a hand into the abyss, fumbling for the familiar foil packet. minghao admired the way your chest rose and fell, the way your thighs moved slightly as he worked you up again. the way your eyes shone at him slightly when you successfully presented a condom to him. he chuckled lightly, his hand never leaving your core as he forced his boxer briefs down his hips. he pulled back until he was sitting between your legs, discarding his underwear. "you know where it goes."

your back arched at his fingers brushing against a sensitive spot before he helped you up, pulling you by the arm with his free hand, the angle of his fingers changing and pulling a wanton moan from your lips. with half lidded eyes, you ripped the shirt from your body, minghao's hand running up your side to caress a mound while you tore open the condom and rolled it down his length, hands lingering on the member as you felt your mouth water. he scissored his fingers in you before squeezing your thigh and pulling the fingers out. you watched, mouth slightly agape, as he sucked your juices off his own hand.

you hardly even registered him pulling your panties down your legs, but every part of you felt on fire as he pushed you back onto the bed, caging you in as he readied himself at your entrance.

you were gripping his jaw when his hips pushed into yours, and you moaned into his parted lips. "fuck, you feel good."

minghao would have returned the sentiment if he could think of anything to say, but his mind was blank as he sank into you, suddenly realizing that the feeling of you was much more intoxicating than any liquor he had ever had. he slipped his hands under you, lifting your bare chest to press against his, wrapping his arms around your body. you whined as he thrusted into you, his pelvis rubbing against your sensitive nub, your fingers grasping at his jaw and sinking into the hair at his nape as he groaned against your lips.

"fuck, hao-" feeling your breath, short and hot against his ear, was the only thing that made him realize his forehead had sunk to the pillow beside you. he attempted to compose himself, pulling back, pressing a hand into your hip and pushing into you slower than his previous pace. your hands stayed on his neck, and he stared down at you.

"the sun suits you," he said. and with only those four words, you realized that minghao needed more from you than your previously agreed upon arrangement. you also realized that you might need more, too. your fingers brushed aside the hair falling over his brow, and you pulled him back down to kiss you. despite the fact that he never asked, and you never responded, he knew your lips on his was a confirmation. the resounding yes you had given him was never vocalised, but he tasted it on your tongue as it fought with his, felt the electricity in your fingers as they dug into his hair and gripped at his shoulders. he knew it from the way your legs wrapped around his hips, pulling him even closer to you.

you gasped when his pace quickened slightly, the familiar coil winding tightly in your gut. "minghao," you whined, pressing your head into the pillow. "right there."

he let out a delicious low groan at the way you tightened around him, his hips almost stuttering to a stop just then. his grip surely bruised your hip as he held his own end back, continuing to roll into you until you were babbling against his lips, a white hot wave washing over your body. you quaked against him, and he held your jaw steady, foreheads together, as your tight walls milked him dry.

you were panting, staring up his eyelashes against his cheek. you had always thought minghao looked intimidating, even when he was laying you out. but, in this moment, as he opened his eyes slowly, all you saw was a boy finally giving into something he wanted.

he kissed you, his lips pressing gently against yours. you let out a small noise when his lips moved, letting your head fall to the side as he worked down your neck again. you whined as he slipped out of you, desperately trying to keep your grip on one of his hands as he sat up to trash the rubber. he laced his fingers with yours, his other hand running up your torso and his lips settling on the peak of a breast.

"minghao," you warned, gripping his hand tighter. again, you could have sworn you felt him smile against your skin as he worked his way down your body. he ran his hand down your thigh, pushing it to the side to open you up. "w-what are you doing?"

"nothing," he muttered against your inner thigh, slipping his hand from yours to push your other thigh out of his way. he placed kisses on your thigh in a line, pointed directly to your core. your hands gripped at the sheets, at his hair, anything they could when he licked a stripe up your slit. you moaned, your back arching off the mattress as he pulled your thighs over his shoulders.

his tongue gently lapped at your spent pussy, and it took everything in you to not squeeze his head between your thighs every time the tip of his tongue flicked against your clit.

minghao knew your body better than anyone. he knew your weaknesses and your sensitive spots. his lips felt like worship, and his hands ran up your body like he was making sure you didn't drift away. you wrapped your fingers around one of his hands, sighing when he laced his fingers with yours. "what did i do to deserve this?"

you caught a moment of eye contact when he looked up to you, giving you a bit of reprieve from his tongue against your core. "stayed over."

a laugh fell from your lips. "is that all?"

he ran his tongue through your folds again, eyes meeting yours. "be your beautiful self."

your face burned, partially from the state he had brought you to with his mouth, and somewhat because of the words that left his lips. a moan surprised you on its way out your lips as he slipped a digit into you, curling directly into your g spot. your knuckles turned white against his as he dug a third orgasm from you, your legs shaking helplessly as he held his tongue against you.

it took you yanking on minghao's hair before he pulled away from you, and you panted with your head buried in his pillows. "c'mere."

you didn't have to ask twice. minghao licked his lips and wiped at them briefly, licking his finger clean again, then wasted no time as he crawled back up to lay with you. your arms found his shoulders easily and he wrapped his around your torso, pulling you into his chest as he settled. your heart skipped a beat when he pressed a kiss against your cheek, and you wondered what the hell you had been doing keeping him as a booty call when he could make love like that.

"do you wanna get breakfast?"

you couldn't help but laugh at the sudden question.

"later, i mean," minghao clarified. "after more sleep."

"are you asking me out, hao?"

it was his turn to laugh, his hand running down your side. "uh, yeah. i am, i guess."

you smiled, your palm resting on his jaw as you kissed him. "i'd love to."

[bibbawrites]

Smutty abcs for luke? Don’t hold back ;)

SMUTTY ABC’S - LUKE PATTERSON (18+)

A = Aftercare (what they’re like after sex)

Luke always makes sure to help clean you up, bring you a glass of water and then snuggle up together with words of praise about how amazing you were (which sometimes transitions into dirty talk which ends in another round or two)

B = Body part (their favorite body part of theirs and also their partner’s)

Luke loves your ass, he’s always touching it and resting his hands on it when you’re cuddling, and he loves to slip his hand into your back pocket when you’re out with him 

Your favourite body part of his is his arms cause just look at them, and the way that he always has them on display means that you can’t help but look at them and thirst over them

C = Cum (anything to do with cum, basically)

as bad as it could turn out to be, Luke loves to cum inside of you, he just loves the feeling of filling you up and seeing his cum drip out of you when he pulls out

D = Dirty secret (pretty self explanatory, a dirty secret of theirs)

Luke secretly loves being the sub, he loves it when you take charge and dominate him, just as much as he loves dominating you 

E = Experience (how experienced are they? do they know what they’re doing?)

Luke likes to brag about being pretty experienced, but had only slept with one person (alex) before you, so the things that he knows you learnt together, and he’s always researching new things to try 

F = Favorite position (this goes without saying)

you’d expect it to be something wild but honestly Luke loves missionary, its more about the roughness and dirtiness than the position so he’s perfectly fine with you on your back with him on top of you

G = Goofy (are they more serious in the moment? are they humorous? etc.)

he does enjoy a good flirty joke during sex but most of the time he’s pretty serious 

H = Hair (how well groomed are they? does the carpet match the drapes? etc.)

idk why but I feel like Luke would be pretty well groomed, not shaved but neatly trimmed at least 

I = Intimacy (how are they during the moment? the romantic aspect)

during sex Luke isn’t really romantic, but when he’s coming down from his orgasm he always reminds you that he loves you and tells you how good you were

J = Jack off (masturbation headcanon)

he doesn’t really need to masturbate now that he’s dating you but occasionally he will if he knows that you’ll be coming over, hoping that you’ll arrive and catch him and finish him off 

K = Kink (one or more of their kinks)

the main one would probably be dirty talk, the boy has an absolutely filthy mouth and he’s not afraid to use it, he also really loves choking you and he loves getting his hair pulled

L = Location (favorite places to do the do)

Luke is a little bit of an exhibitionist, so he loves doing it in the studio where he knows theres a chance that someone could walk in at any moment 

M = Motivation (what turns them on, gets them going)

anything and everything that you do, you could be just walking past and a dirty thought would enter his head and he would get a little turned on he also loves it when you talk back to him

N = No (something they wouldn’t do, turn offs)

Luke is pretty adventurous, there isnt much he wouldnt do, but one thing he really doesnt like the idea of is watersports

O = Oral (preference in giving or receiving, skill, etc.)

he loves giving and receiving all the same, but i think he would like eating you out just a tiny bit more than he would like getting a bj

P = Pace (are they fast and rough? slow and sensual? etc.)

He loves it fast, rough and dirty, if he isn’t pounding into you with streams of dirty words flowing out of his mouth then it just doesn’t feel right

Q = Quickie (their opinions on quickies, how often, etc.)

Luke would be a pro at quickies, both you and him would be ready at a moments notice to get it on, and wouldn’t care where you were (you have had sex in quite a few public toilets) 

R = Risk (are they game to experiment? do they take risks? etc.)

experiment is Luke’s middle name, he loves to try new things, no matter what they are (theres only a few things he’s not into and you both know what those are, but anything else he’s down for)

S = Stamina (how many rounds can they go for? how long do they last?)

I feel like he would have pretty good stamina, and his sex drive means that he can go for quite a few rounds, especially if you take little breaks in between

T = Toys (do they own toys? do they use them? on a partner or themselves?)

yes he has toys to use on you, he bought a couple of vibrators after hearing you mention to Julie one time how you wished he would get a little more adventurous with toys, not that he wasn’t adventurous in the bedroom you just wanted a little more 

U = Unfair (how much they like to tease)

Luke LOVES to tease you, whether it be sexual or even just plain flirty he loves teasing, and he loves to do it when you’re having sex cause he loves hearing you beg him to do more than just tease 

V = Volume (how loud they are, what sounds they make, etc.)

I feel like Luke would be pretty vocal, especially with his dirty talking and the fact that he never shuts up during sex, I can imagine that he’d be pretty vocal with moaning as well

W = Wild card (a random headcanon for the character)

He has always wanted to have a threesome with you and reggie but he’s worried that you or reggie or both would say no if he asks, so he keeps that fantasy to himself

X = X-ray (let’s see what’s going on under those clothes)

Despite being slightly on the shorter side Luke has a pretty average sized dick that he is not insecure about at all 

Y = Yearning (how high is their sex drive?)

very high, Luke is horny pretty much 24/7, which can be both a blessing and a curse

Z = Zzz (how quickly they fall asleep afterwards)

depending on what you did and how long you went for, when you get a little bit friskier and kinkier then Luke falls asleep pretty quickly but when you’re more vanilla then he likes to cuddle and talk for a bit before falling asleep. 

[mego42]

fav lines tag

RULES: share your favorite sentence/paragraph from each one of your fics and tag 6 other fic writers to do it too :)

tagged by the talented brilliant incredible @foxmagpie (💖)

tagging: @pynkhues @hypermania @bethsuglywigs @riosnecktattoo @missmaxime @sothischickshe @joeyjoeylee

some ground rules: I’m only doing brio fic bc at some point when I wasn’t paying attention I wrote a metric fuckton of it and we’re already gonna be here all day bc my other ground rule is I’m allowed to interpret the concept of a line however i want. i’m also gonna tell you why i picked them bc no one can stop me. cool? cool. good talk. 

your monster looks like mine

okay so my first choice for fav would be the entire ~conversation around whether or not beth had a choice when she set rio up bc oooof I just love how that came out so! much! BUT if I’m limiting myself to something closer to a line, I’m going with this one. i love what it establishes for rio’s emotional state when it comes to beth, i love how it captures their push/pull constant one upping battle, I love the rhythm of the flow of it and the grandiose verbiage (i was having a frankly unreasonable amount of fun with natural phenomena imagery throughout the whole fic and this captures a bit of it). idk I just think it’s neat.

The words rip through him, a bright, blazing comet trail whipped across his sky, illuminatin’ his landscape, impossible to ignore.

Elizabeth’s spread out on the bed below him, golden hair tumblin’ around her face, mouth red and swollen, lookin’ up at him like she’s got him. Like she’s figured some shit out. Like she fuckin’ did something by putting that together.

Like Rio doesn’t fuckin’ know. Like that doesn’t fuckin’ haunt him, torment him, mock him every time she pulls some of her bullshit and he’s left picking up the pieces, knowin’ damn well what the right answer is but also knowin’ he’s always gonna be wrong when it comes to her.

--

a song inside the halls of the dark

another one where I’d pick a whole scene if I could BUT if  the whole opening flashback isn’t on the table (idk I love it for 14,000 reasons including how it sets up the bookend structure for the chapter, how it sets up a bunch of the final payoffs, the tone of it, idk everything about it came out exactly how I wanted it to and I really love how it tees up the ending), then I’m going with this bit from the final brio scene. it ties back in a whole bunch of threads that have been woven in and out all the way back to the first chapter and closes them out in a way that also feels (to me) like a beginning which I love bc the whole theme of the chapter is it’s a beginning, not the end.

What does it mean then, that he’s slept so soundly beside her?

The playhouse glows softly. She wonders how many more times she can get away with sanding it before it weakens past the point of supporting the kids’ weight and the whole thing collapses.

Behind it, she can see the long shadow it casts reaching for the boxwoods bordering the yard. The lines of the structure frame windows of bright moonlight on the grass, eerily reminiscent of the windows that loomed large in the nightmares Beth abruptly realizes she hasn’t had in weeks. Not since that last night at Rio’s loft. And that’d been the last one since...his car. Canada. The night all of this started.

Beth blinks. What does it mean that she’s slept so soundly beside him?

A-live, alive, alive, I—

Her breath catches.

—

pills’n’potions

I don’t have any grand reasoning for why I picked this bit from the 4th (i think?) ~ch as my fav, I just really like writing annie and rio interacting and I especially love writing them with annie like, intellectually aware that she should probably be afraid of him but also spiritually incapable of not being herself and rio being wildly annoyed by it

"What?" He asks, giving the t an edge sharp enough to cut.

There's a pause. "What like you didn't hear me, or what like what do I want?"

[...]

"Hello?"

Now the sister sounds like she's getting annoyed, and Rio's really gotta do somethin' about the two of them runnin' 'round actin' like he's someone they can get away with not takin' seriously. Like he's some sort of pet. Defanged. Declawed. Fuckin' neutered.

"Get to the point."

"I mean, I kind of did in the message."

—

trade my heart for honey

the only thing sexier than rio being good at pool is beth being a fucking shark and rio being out of control turned on by it.

Dropping all pretense at being less than she is, Beth grabs the cue ball, positioning it slightly to the left of center where the felt is slightly more worn. Even without the tell, she's seen Rio put it there enough times to know it's the table's sweet spot. Out of the corner of her eye, she sees Rio shift his weight before she tunes him out entirely, drawing the stick back and letting it fly.

It's as close to a perfect break as she's probably ever managed. The cue ball connects dead on, scattering the rest far and wide. The one and the six drop neatly into pockets, the four and five coming to a stop right on the edge of the left side and far left corner, nearly closing off that whole side of the table.

Every stripe remains in play.

"Solids," she says, not letting herself dwell on the way Rio's mouth hangs slightly open, his eyes glazed over.

—

swaying evergreens

the whole theme of this fic is the terrifying intimacy and vulnerability of sharing your most precious moments and memories with someone you care about and I like how this touches on that along with sort of nutshelling the double edged sword of grief-tinted memory which is another major theme

There's somethin' extra about these unguarded moments. That Elizabeth trusts Rio enough to drop her guard completely and give him this completely unvarnished look at her. It's been over a year since he's been back in her bed, since the first time he'd slept here, but there's still somethin' tentative about it. Like there's a part of him that's never going to be all the way over the first time he'd been here, that can't fully believe how far they've come, that this isn't going to crumble, melt, drain away.

Truthfully, Rio doesn't mind it, that faint edge. He's well acquainted with the different flavors of loss, and the threat of it's a counterpoint that keeps him sharp. Lets him know this is real but not somethin' he'll take for granted.

—

swear on a silver knife

there were a couple of sexy tension bits that made for strong contenders but ultimately this won bc I’m obsessed with how this reference to 306 came out.

“I told you. I got my own debts to pay.” He bit off the words like it cost him something to repeat them.

Beth shivered, abruptly right back at that picnic table, cheeks wet and staring at him, searching for any hint of the man she’d—she’d—anyone besides the cold, unfeeling stranger sitting beside her, blood so fresh on his hands she could nearly smell it underneath the scent of the cold, misty night rain falling around them, blurring her eyes, beading in her hair and on his eyelashes.

—

listening through the air shaft

this was a really hard one to narrow down but I ultimately went with this but bc I love it for a culminating look at how beth and rio’s relationship has evolved throughout the fic and also bc a version of this scene was the first thing I wrote for the whole fic so it was fun to finally get there with everything in place behind it. I also just love it as a reference for the dichotomy of both beth and rio and also how complicated that is makes being around them for everyone else

They aren't even doing anything, just quietly working side by side, but there's a synchronicity to their movements, a quiet peace that makes Dean feel more like an intruder than anything else that's happened today, and he hates it.

It’s so far from the guy that’d broken into his home, beaten him up. Who’d looked at him with those terrifying, blank, shark eyes before casually shooting him in the chest like it was nothing right where they’re about to sit down and share a meal.

A guy, Dean suddenly realizes, he hasn’t seen any hint of in a long, long time. It’s not that he doesn’t think that part of him isn’t there, it’s just...it’s weird, is all, how completely he puts it away.

It reminds Dean of Beth, actually, now that he’s thinking about it.

God. They look so...so domestic. Sweet. Disarming in a way that completely undermines everything Dean thought he'd known about the guy and their whole...thing.  

He just—he doesn't get it, what Beth sees in him.

—

now use both hands

idk I just like this bit let me live

"What are you—what service?"

He makes himself take the route through the showroom that brings him right past her, leaning in and softly brushing a lock of hair out of her face for the first time in longer than he can remember.

Her eyes flutter shut, and he feels absolutely nothing.

"Helping sad, lonely housewives get off once their husbands are done with them."

Her eyes snap open, and he makes himself look at her long enough to watch the hit land and the hurt bloom.

He's empty, untouchable, she's nothing to him.

Rio doesn't look back.

—

I'd give her a HA! And a HI-YA!

you can take my made up backstory for rio and mick from me when you pry it from my cold dead hands.

Mick had been there the first time Rio'd had to get his hands all the way dirty and had kept an eye on him when he'd gotten blackout drunk after, and Rio'd done the same for him. Every bloody, grimy step Rio'd climbed, Mick had been right there with him, watching his back all the way to the top.

The point is Rio's Mick's brother in every way that counts.

Mick'd seen him twisted up over business and twisted up over personal shit, but he's never seen him let both get twisted up like he had since that fuckin' weasel Boomer'd got his ass handed to him and Rio'd gotten curious about it.

—

as the world turns, the blunt burns

I pull this every time I have to pick a fav and I can’t even really explain it aside from I think I’m really, really funny and that’s enough

Beth suddenly sobers as much as she can when she feels like she's simultaneously floating away and sinking into the Earth and wipes her eyes. "Are you gonna get in trouble?"

"You're in the house, ain't you?" He's answering Beth but looking at Rio.

"Mick," Beth frantically tugs at his pant leg because apparently, he doesn't have all of the information. "We're in the yard."

"Yeah, Mick," Rio says, glaring. "You're in the yard."

Mick shrugs, and Beth realizes he isn't scared of Rio at all. That's a neat trick. How does he do that? Maybe he can teach her.

—

smoke, fire, it’s all going up

there are realistically many other better lines in this fic but this one never fails to make me laugh so it remains my fav.

"You- you-" She sputters at him, flailing around a little. "You were the one that started mailing me pieces of a dead body."

"You blocked my number." Rio snarls, which is not what he'd meant to say, and he hates that she trips him up.

"That is not a proportionate response!"

—

got a kiss (with your name on it)

it was this or the text exchange at the beginning of the fic bc I strongly believe established relationship brio would continually roast each other for their past dumbassery but the elizabeth kink won out

"Come here," Rio's voice is thick but insistent in a way that brings every cell of Beth's body to attention. She hooks her thumb over her bottom teeth and drags her lower lip a little, a gesture full of who me mock innocence, waiting for him to say-

"Elizabeth." There it is.

There's an endless amount of things that Beth finds ferociously, irresistibly sexy about Rio, but when he says her full name in that commanding tone? Even if she's pissed the fuck off and has no intention of doing what he wants, it gives her goosebumps.

—

say it’s all in my head (i remember what you said)

I will be real with y’all, I forget I wrote this fic a lot of the time hahahaha but! that means every time I’m reminded I go back and am like oh yeah! I like this! anyway there isn’t like, one specific but I really love most as much as I really like the tentative breathless nervousness and then also overwhelming so muchness and I like how this but captures both of those

For a single, breathless moment, she stands in the middle of the room, alone and terrified.

Then Rio wets his lips and comes towards her, moving with that languid grace she's never been able to look away from even before she had any idea why that could be.

All of the fear collapses like a dying star, sending a supernova of relief and molten heat zinging through her from the top of her head to the tips of her toes. Her head swims, and every cell in her body feels like it's leaning towards him- like she's made of magnets on a molecular level and he's the lodestone.

He gently pushes her bangs off of her forehead, slowly running his fingertip down the side of her face, leaving a trail of fire in its wake. He tilts his head towards hers and stops, going no further than halfway, leaving it up to her to close the distance.

She lets her eyes fall shut as she leans into him and tentatively touches her mouth to his for the first time.

—

the world is on fire (and no one can save me) / what a wicked game you played (to make me feel this way)

two for one!!! idk if either of these is my number one favorite line from either fic individually but I really like how they both play together. I like writing beth and rio pov and having them mirror each other’s narration both in thought and structure a lot bc I like thinking of them as two versions of the same

Beth checks her phone, nothing from Rhea, and sends a quick I'm here, text me when you're close, and I'll grab a table before wetting a paper towel and wiping away the last of her smeared mascara. With precise, brisk movements, she snaps open her bag and fishes out her compact, her lipstick, and her mascara; lining them up click, click, click on the tiny shelf below the mirror.

She can live with this; she has to live like this; she will live like this.

She flips open the compact and methodically dabs away the flush and pallor and shadows that are not grief, are not loss, are not anything other than shock and horror that she'd gone so far, that she'd lost control, that she'd killed a man (that man).

and

So what the fuck had he been doin' with Elizabeth fuckin' Boland, giving her chance after chance to cross the line? What the fuck was the point of a line if it might as well not be there at all? All because he liked her big blue eyes and the way she worked a tight sweater? Nah, that ain't him. That can't be him. That's the kind of shit that'll get you killed, and he's got three spent bullets in his pocket and a scar next to his heart if he ever needs the reminder again. 

He shifts in the driver's seat, reaching into his pocket and fishing the bullets out. Lining them up on the dashboard with a definitive click, click, click. He looks past them to the brightly lit valet station. He's been parked in the back of the lot for ten minutes now, waiting for Rhea to give him the go sign. He ain't hiding, doesn't need to, Elizabeth ain't lookin' for him, he just wants to make sure he sees her before she sees him. Get a good look first, so he can size up the situation.

[wolfwhiteflowers]

So I see carylers freaking out over the fact that the actress moved to Georgia and is confirmed for S11. I mean I get it, we’re all tired but at this point I’m not even gonna stress about it. If they intended to have her be endgame with Daryl they would have waited until season 11 to build it up more. It’s implied that they’ve already slept together and most of the “first moments of intimacy” happened off screen. I know shows don’t always follow logic but let’s not borrow trouble yeah? Breathe.

Yeah I'm feeling overwhelmed by shipdom reaction. I'm gonna do what I think is ok or what is enough for me. Everyone's different. I guess it's best to not read so many opinions.  Idk. I even avoided Rick movie thoughts and caryl spin-off show thoughts. Because everyone was so edgy and opinionated. Idk I'm going arc by arc .. I Already made a photoset on how I want the movie to go/ my happy ending. Just to like have it there for me..  And let it go. Idk.

So I haven't heard that she moved there in GA but something like she will be in s11. Idk for how long she will be in s11. It really makes me think Kang wants to do a love triangle arc or to show Daryl in a romance and .. Then she dies? cos idk if she's in the spin-off too. 🤷 Something to show character growth with Daryl and I think if Caryl will be canon by s11 finale. They know what works for them in their relationship. It could be that Carol realizing she has romantic feelings for Daryl. Maybe Daryl realizes he always wanted to be with Carol, and Leah was someone he was settling with.  Just Caryl angst..again. 

Anyways this reminds me of CZ ..on how the arc started in s9. I was really upset by learning that timejumps😒, Carol married him and the writers just rushed it ..forced it on the show. They made it all ooc for Carol/shipping. (And during last of Rick in the show). It made it seem ooc of everything. It made me wonder if they got something else in plan with Henry, Z, and pikes. But I dont really trust the writers so I just felt stuck in the middle.  So what I did I didnt watch s9 -hate watch it. I just kinda ignore Carol plots and focused on Rick/Rlchonne/TF. It was hard but I learned that Carol moments were meh and Cz was not so developed. I realized Carol asked Daryl if its ok to marry Z or something. That was an intimate Caryl scene...ukno like we don't see that kind of scene with CZ. Or Caryl scene kept being top bonding scene to me like writers still care about Caryl that way.

 So ..i just avoid it..waited till when the season ends /arc ends to know wtf the writers were really thinking. And I was surprised. They really wanted to forced the ship to have Henry be piked and add more drama to Carol. CZ was over. Even in s10 writers didn't try to get CZ back again like a real ship/endgame way. 

So I guess I'm saying  to wait it out to see how this daryl/Leah arc will go and see what it means till s11a or finale, idk.  To see if writers will still focus on Caryl and their bond like how they always are. And wait for more news and facts n quotes on how s11 is going. Or , if its too much then you could stop and take a break. Check on it s11 finale on what is going on to see if its  ok to get invested again or not. 

It is frustrating with daryl/Leah thing and because. I don't trust the writers 100 .. Random ships. They had Rick / jessie before they get to rlchonne for comic plot reasons(eye shot& hand chopped off) even tho it was rushed and weird for me to see R/J. So it's hard to be positive... Caryl might be like bell@rke, a ship of 2 leading characters, who just ended up being friends (and she shot him dead 🙃) but so far the story is going kinda the way I predicted/wanted to go. 

[deamaia]

now I'm super curious which parts of the malec portrayal you didnt like 👀

oh damn. uhhh well it's a combination of everything really??? And let me be clear that I love malec a lot I mean you all know but some of the little things that happened in the show left me feeling very :/. i love them a lot and will go to my grave saying they are one of the best same sex couples in tv... AND LET ME BE PERFECTLY CLEAR WHEN I SAY THEY ARE AN ALMOST PERFECT TV COUPLE THEIR LOVE ON SCREEN OVERSHADOWS ANY CRITICISM THAT I COULD EVER HAVE. THAT SCENE WITH ALEC CRYING BECAUSE MAGNUS IS HIS WHOLE WORLD??? WILL NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME CRY BECAUSE OF HOW AMAZING IT IS. but... things like the writing where alec suddenly didn't care about magnus, and listen alec's whole world is magnus he said it himself, I'm not mad about him having other priorities, I love that for him, but him completely disregarding magnus several times just... I DIDNT VIBE WITH THAT. and then you have the fact that the writing for them was awful in 2A. literal shit. I hate 2A with my entire being so ofc the shit show that it is had to drag this perfect couple with it. i mean you are telling me these two have never felt like this for anybody else and the episode after they've slept together for the first time they act like coworkers who flirt with each other????? HUHHHH???? also you have the fact that magnus is disrespected by shadowhunters including alec several times and most of the time it's not even properly addressed??? alec did apologize every time he did something that hurt magnus but like sometimes it just felt like they were looking to have magnus be upset yk and WHY?? WHAT WAS THE REASON. I hate the writers. and also the big issue of the physical intimacy lmao, I personally don't have a problem when s couple doesn't touch on screen because kissing scenes and like cute scenes make me uncomfortable and I cringe a lot BUT I think what makes me feel yuk about this is the fact that even in scenes where they are meant to be physically close and in their own little world they still managed to look awkward?????? and sometimes in scenes it felt like they were purposely trying to be as far from each other as possible dhdhsjsks and I guess I few other things but it's 4am and I'm crying over my fave xiao zhan yk also this lowkey made me want to rewatch the show idk maybe I will go stupid for a couple of days and just get brain rot for fun

also AGAIN I WANT TO MAKE IT PERFECTLY CLEAR I ADORE MALEC. THEY HAVE SUCH A SPECIAL PLACE IN MY HEART THAT I DONT LET ANYBODY TOUCH. I LOVE THEM SO MUCH AND EVEN IF A FEW THINGS MAKE ME 😠 THEY ARE STILL HIGH KEY PERFECT AND NOBODY CAN CHANGE MY MIND. GOODNIGHT. STAN SEOKJI.N.

[justkpopjokes]

SVT’s Reaction to their GF Coming Out as Asexual

A/N: YAY as an ace person this makes me very happy :’) Also to everyone who doesn’t know, asexuality is a spectrum, so I tried to include a variety of ace gfs here lol. REACTION REQUESTS are open!! (they’ll be open until I get a ton in one go)

S.Coups

Not to be repetitive but Cheol is The Pride Supporter in svt so like... he’s so supportive when his girl comes out. He’s not sure what asexual means but he’s willing to learn and looks up the term and any related ones to make sure he’s well informed! His gf comes out pretty early in the relationship knowing that he’s going to be supportive, so they establish boundaries quickly and clear up any misinformation about aces.

Jeonghan

Doesn’t really care in the sense that he and his girlfriend were working well together even before she came out of the closet; she doesn’t need to be attracted to him sexually to love him. In theory, it shouldn’t affect their relationship that much at that point. He for sure supports his gf in her process of coming out to other people (if any) and doesn’t love her any less!

Joshua

Joshua knows a fair amount abt aces & is just happy his girlfriend is comfortable enough to come out to him! He asks questions if she wants to answer them, but if not, he stays quiet until she’s willing to talk about it more. More than happy to let his gf explain her asexuality (if she’s full ace, grey-ace, demisexual, etc) if it makes her feel more comfortable/in tune with herself.

Jun

Very verbal about his curiosities and questions to his girlfriend. “What’s asexuality?”, “do you think I look attractive at all?”, “Have you ever had sex?”, etc. He doesn’t have any ill intent, he just wants to know everything so he doesn’t ruin their relationship and friendship, and that may come off as blunt. Chatty cat will ask all his questions at once, which is overwhelming to his gf, but once she/the internet answers his questions, he’s content and respects his gf’s boundaries.

Hoshi

Another dude that would likely be confused but 100% supportive and glad his gf has opened up to him. He’ll ask questions too, especially if he thinks he’s crossed a boundary in the past. (If he did end up crossing a boundary, he makes sure not to do so again.) Doesn’t feel the need to discuss his gf’s sexuality after that point unless his girlfriend wants to or something concerns him.

Wonwoo

He likely knows the most about asexuality out of everyone from reading about it before. So he asks a ton of specific questions about his girlfriend’s asexuality, what she’s comfortable with, etc. Overall very caring and considerate about his gf’s opinions and boundaries. Likely joins in and agrees on her debates about unnecessary sex scenes in movies/media!! (b/c cmon now, what is the benefit)

Woozi

Confused but quietly searches up asexuality and likely other related things too, like aromanticism! (If anyone in svt is aromantic, it might him, so maybe he has a revelation about himself lol.) He doesn’t think any less of his gf because of her asexuality and is definitely okay with a relationship without any sexual intimacy. Doesn’t really discuss asexuality unless his gf wants to, since he understands it and doesn’t fear that it will get in the way of their relationship.

DK

Idk why, but I feel he’s someone who would know an odd amount about asexuality. Like, he doesn’t know exactly what it is, but he also kinda...gets it? He just knows his girlfriend well and understands that she doesn’t find him attractive in that way, even if it’s unclear what t h a t is exactly. He catches onto the meaning very quickly and is perfectly fine with a relationship without any sexual intimacy!

Mingyu

His girlfriend probably comes out because of Gyu asking her if she’s ever slept with someone before/ever considered it (or smth similar). He’s only asking because he’s a curious puppy, but his girlfriend either hasn’t considered it or slept w/someone and didn’t feel attracted to them. Like I said, he’s curious, so once his gf comes out, he searches up the term and all its details. He feels bad that he wasn’t as considerate before or didn’t even notice that his gf never talked about sexual things, so he makes sure to educate himself.

The8

I see Minghao as the type of person to want to bond for life, so he doesn’t immediately dump his gf like a jerk and instead adjusts his actions to better boyfriend and respect her boundaries. He has an idea of what asexuality is and is very supportive of his girlfriend!! Triple checks that his gf is comfortable before doing anything remotely sexual or even asking about it.

Seungkwan

He doesn’t know too much about asexuality and is scared to cross any boundaries, but also doesn’t want to ask a dumb or obvious question. So he keeps his opinions and questions to himself until he knows a decent amount or his girlfriend assures him that she’s comfortable answering any of his questions. He just wants to be considerate even if he’s unsure how to!

Vernon

Vernon is ON BOARD to learn about asexuality if he doesn’t know already. His questions are less about asexuality itself and more about how he can do a good job at respecting his girlfriend’s boundaries or supporting her. Lets his gf chat with him about her doubts if she’s still questioning her sexuality and helps out in any way he can to make her feel comfortable with her identity. I see him as BIG aroace supporter ok??

Dino

Kind of confused and kind of concerned. He likely hasn’t met a lot of ace people if any, especially since Korea doesn’t generally support pride people, so he needs some explanation on what asexuality is and how it may or may not affect their relationship. After he gets an explanation, he assures his gf that her sexual orientation is valid if she ever doubts it. Might even educate his siblings about the aro/ace spectrum!!!! Goes from knowing nothing to knowing everything.

[etspera]

@ Tagging Game

i was tagged by @hitsuaya who is fantastic!

rules: tag 10 people you think would like to be tagged, and copy/paste the asks into a new post. Answer all/as many of them as you want!

1. do you prefer writing with a black pen or a blue pen? meh, i don’t mind either: writing with my hand is what makes it special! 

2. would you prefer to live in the country or in the city? i love Budapest, don’t get me wrong, but as @hitsuaya mentioned, living by the sea together is an absolute Goal. Hitsu could decorate our walls with their drawings Jean Cocteau style (https://www.atlasobscura.com/places/la-villa-santosospir)

3. if you could learn a new skill, what would it be? i am learning knitting at the moment, don’t at me... also, i would love to know how to use photoshop!

4. do you drink your tea/coffee with sugar? no. 

5. what was your favorite book as a child? Baráth Katalin, a Hungarian write, had this book where a girl gets lost in Greek Mythology, cause HERMES asks her one day after school. It basically shows Jason’s story with the Golden Fleece through a Hungarian teenage girl’s eyes.... AMAZING. Also. Hungarian Shaman book: Gergő and the Dream-Catchers!! Meg Cabot was also a fave, I remember eating her books.

6. do you prefer baths or showers? showers, cause they energize or sooth me. I can feel actually clean after them idk; it’s not a rational thing. 

7. if you could be a mythical creature, which one would you be? Vampire - why be dead when you can continue to be funny and sexy. 

8. paper or electronic books? there is nothing like paperbooks, though i understand the pain of not knowing where to store them. 

9. what is your favorite item of clothing? i have a long cotton dress that is covers me BUT lets air in and since it’s a simple beige thing, i can accessorize boldly :-) 

10. do you like your name? would you like to change it? i love my name, thank You. 

11. who is a mentor to you? a what. 

12. would you like to be famous? if so, what for? not famous, but i want to have something to be remembered by. :-) A book or several. 

13. are you a restless sleeper? depends on my moods: when there is a lot of work, i sleep like a baby, when something has upset me, i find it hard. also, many mock me cause i can fall asleep VERY easily. 

14. do you consider yourself to be a romantic person? i know i am, it is my hybris.

15. which element best represents you? water - last year and this year taught me humility and how emotional i really am. i fought a lot over the years to hide this part in me, or “correct” this sensitivity, but what i learnt that it’s a core part of my personality and who i ultimately want to be. 

16. who do you want to be closer to? i want to be loyal and supportive of the friends i have, and be much stricter who i let in close. 

17. do you miss someone at the moment? yes.

18. tell us about an early childhood memory. i remember memorizing floor tiles at my grandmother’s house with my brother. It was summer, the window was open, my grandmother slept in the afternoons and we connected imaginary dots and names different shapes through the tile geometry. it’s a good memory. 

19. what is the strangest thing you have eaten? Bayou stew with alligator tails in it.

20. what are you most thankful for? every opportunity to learn something new, and also that fate (however you call it) let me meet loving people whom i can freely love too!! YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE.

21. do you like spicy food? YES. Hungarian cuisine is also more than ideal for this purpose.

22. have you ever met someone famous? i’ve seen them from afar and that was enough.

23. do you keep a diary or journal? continuity?? in this brain??? less likely than you believe. 

24. do you prefer to use pen or pencil? pen

25. what is your star sign? libra sun, cancer moon, capricorn rising... control freaks united.

26. do you like your cereal crunchy or soggy? I love CRUNCHY cereal, but imma be honest with You, i usually forget i have breakfast ready and it gets soggy. 

27. what would you want your legacy to be? i would like teenage/ young adult/ adult girls from a modest or abused background in my present and my future feel understood and represented; to make them feel and make them know it gets better and we are not alone. i would like to teach a lot of children and teenagers about the absolute humanity and joy and selflessness and cruciality of art. 

28. do you like reading? What was the last book you read? Yes! I reread Joseph and His Brothers by Thomas Mann. That book series fucks. 

29. what are you afraid of? being shamed and misunderstood. 

30. what is your favorite scent? cinnamon; the air before a great storm. 

31. do you address older people by their name or surname? nicknames, though i check with them. i rarely use people’s first names in person, it is a very intimate act for me. 

32. if money was not a factor, how would you live your life? “in a small house near the ocean in Italy of course” :-) 

33. do you prefer swimming in pools or the ocean? T H E    D E P T H   O F  T H E   O  C  E  A  N.

34. what would you do if you found $50 in the ground? i mean. i would search for its owner a bit, but otherwise keep it and buy myself and/or someone a gift? 

35. if you were to get a tattoo, what would it be and where would you get it? have already a scale sign on my left arm; i’m thinking of tattooing a quote too. 

36. what can you hear now? cars outside and some music from my brother’s room. 

37. where do you feel the safest? when i am alone. but that can also bug me or take me down in the long run. 

38. if you could travel back to any era, what would it be? i am not that interested in time travelling - human nature remained and remains as terrible and terrific as before (though i’d check out 16th century Europe). 

39. what is your most used emoji?  🙃 🙃 🙃 🙃 🙃 🙃

40. describe yourself using one word. wistful.

41. what do you regret the most? cruelly and very suddenly cutting one specific person out from my life in fear of intimacy and as a remnant of deep-seated childhood issues.

42. last movie you saw? Mother/Madeo (2009) superb film. 

43. last tv show you watched? Santa Clarita Diet, netflix you fucking coward.

44. invent a word and its meaning: hypatheon - a sense of dread actually paralyzing you. 

if the following people have time and energy and are in the mood, please don’t hesitate: @trulytheoretical @neverfeedthesarcophagi @mybrainishealthy @niquesse @wolfhalls @woman-wolf-witch @vividfantasy7 @via-whitmore @merfaerie @sovietspies 

[cowboyjen68]

how do u know when u have a crush on a girl? I've been friends with my best friend for 5 years, she's kinda toxic for me but we have SO MUCH history together, she's been with me through the hardest times, Ive never had a crush before at all, the other night I slept over at her house, it was the first time I'd seen her in person in 6 months and I started crying... we slept on her bed and i just wanted to kiss her, but idk if this is just "we're both girls and I'm lonely" or if I rlly like her ???

When you have a history with someone you feel at ease or at least used to their general being. You can predict them and there is more familiarity. Those feeling can make a friendship feel like a crush, especially between two women that miss the touch of another. 

Do not mistake arousal with attraction. Arousal is something our body does beyond our control. As sexual being we can physically get turned on because our body reacts to certain stimuli naturally and without our input. The warmth of a women, her smell, the thought of intimacy all can lead to our body feeling aroused. 

Actual attraction takes place more in the brain and transfers that to arousal. When you have true attraction, you feel the warm, maybe tingly sensation even outside of an intimate situation..like laying be bed or sitting near each other.It can happen from something as benign as a simple text from them because the attraction is only partially sex based the rest is how much they activate your “happy”.

Even if you feel attraction, if she is bad for you..DON’T. There are women out there who will feel mutual passion for you (the sexiest thing in the world) and want you to be happy and the best you can be for no other reason than they care about you. Maintain this friendship as platonic and put your energy into finding someone to start fresh with. 

You will know a crush by the little things. ..You remember a small gesture that they do when talking. Or a freckle on their face that you want to kiss. When you think of them.. you want to just sit and think about them and your body will react. You will feel warm..maybe tingly. That kind of stuff is when you know you have an attraction.