#idk i like these kinds of fics they're unique in their own way :3

[viktorrights]

the way you write sex is so phenomenal and unique and hot and lovely. I'm so curious about the process you have if it doesn't make you uncomfy to talk about. If it does, just delete and ignore!

omg no it doesn't make me uncomfy at all! I'm probably going to leave a really long answer though? because sex in fiction in general is really important to me, and the writing of it is something I encounter a lot in my life outside of online/fic. I'm one of those people that very rarely believes in the 'unnecessary sex scene' or whatever. i also might be really candid so... sorry!

i've also been a writing teacher and have read a lot of sex scenes lmao.

i want to preface this by saying... IDK about the merits of my own scenes. but since you asked I wanna talk about it! i definitely do not think I hold all the answers or some insane shit like that. i don't think I'm an expert at all like just because I'm about to yap an insane amount do not take it that way. like I'm literally about to read more your ass I'm so sorry.

i was raised catholic - so with a lot of shame surrounding sex, the body, and queerness - because of that it's really important to me to embrace sex both on a personal level and as a writer.

umm how do i do this maybe a list ?

details

i really love little details - and not necessarily ones directly related so the sex itself. how you actually get from point a to point b. the actual physicality of it is important. whose taking off what. who needs what. where are their hands? what do the sheets feel like on the skin? how bright is it? are there any sounds outside of the actual sex that they can hear? the ice machine whirring or cars honking outside?

for me that shit is so important because it does a huge act of grounding and making things feel more real and tangible and alive. not to get personal - and this is kind of insane of me I'm aware. but sometimes when I'm having sex I'll note a little detail that happens and it really puts me in the moment - someone fumbling with my shoelaces for instance. but if you aren't interested in having sex/haven't found the right partner yet like, you can still do this without experience.

2.

immediacy is really important for me in the same way its important in fight scenes. i have to be so immersed in the actual moment - and for me its entirely ruled by emotion - base desires. for me its really hard to go into a fight scene or a sex scene with too much planning because even if you plan what you're going to say in a fight or how you're going to be during sex it so so rarely lines up. i can't count the amount of times I had a fight scene or sex scene planned and it turned out completely differently than what I thought it was going to be. its to the point where I factor this into my outlines.

putting yourself in your characters shoes is so critical? so many moments in coming home I had one thing planned then it went another way - their first time together was supposed to be a lot more frantic and rough - and then I got to the writing of it and that felt incredibly wrong - their argument in the last chapter I posted was supposed to be much more rooted in anger and it was supposed to lead to a much different sex scene rooted in trust and control - and even now I just wrote a fight scene that was originally going to be strictly for comic relief, and it wound up becoming incredibly emotional and high stakes and kind of an accumulation of their relationship problems.

not to sound annoying but sex is an improvised dance - fights are improvised dances - so like in order to get that right you have to be cool with improvising and asking yourself if this is how your characters would actually do things in the moment, or if they're doing this strictly because that was the plan/you find it sexy.

(of course, on actual film sets when acting/directing this is a very different thing and improvising is dangerous but in the writing of it its so important)

3.

letting the physicality be rooted in not only logistics but the emotion of it.

4.

this is a sort of tangent but may be helpful? i was talking about this with some of my queer writer friends irl - specifically helping a gay male friend write a successful lesbian sex scene lmfao - it's really interesting to tackle writing sex outside of your own immediate sexuality. some people do not find the process much different but I do?

when I'm writing sex between two women, which is what I know, immediately connecting the emotional and the physical and the ATTRACTION based on the physical is something I can do more easily. when I'm writing sex outside that, the emotional takes huge precedent, and I often have to go back and add physical details/details specifically related to physical attraction later because its not as immediately accessible to me and like I said I like to write sex in the immediate. it becomes a two step process for me.

when I say this, I'm not talking about - physical body types or genitals or shit like that- that would be insanely transphobic and weird and reductive of the ways we can all experience attraction and also just not true to my own experiences. i just mean that the the moment I'm aware of someone's being a man it just changes how I interact with the scene because I can't as readily and naturally access physical attraction on a personal level anymore. i have to rely on the emotional and empathy to get me there instead of my own base desires.

I have a lesbian writer friend who does not feel the same. its different for everyone but just a note if you feel the same.

And at the end of the day, we're all just bodies in a room, and the actual emotional core of sex often transcends like. sexual preference. Also - having sexual attraction doesn't necessarily make you good/better at writing sex - think about all the ace people who don't have sexual attraction at all who can write amazing sex.

5.

just like any good scene a sex scene needs a beginning, middle, and end and its a huge mistake to think that beginning is like, foreplay , the middle is the sex and the end is the climax. I'm talking an EMOTIONAL beginning middle and end. - even if you're just writing a hookup/something that's supposed to be casual.

again good god i don't think im an expert. i have so far to go in terms of writing sex, especially since I'm still deconstructing my own shame. but this is just my general approach. sorry you probably did not ask for all this. i just love this topic.

[chaotic-on-main]

🦉Positivity owl reporting for duty! This was sent by a friend who wants you to smile as much as your posts make them smile. Please list five things that make you unique, four things you are super passionate about and why, OR three of your favorite memories. Feel free to send the owl to those who you feel deserve to smile🦉

🥺 the way I really needed to see this! It's been a rough go, I tell you what. Thank you anonymous friend, I love you 🩷

I'm gonna do them all, because I just need to think of the good and silly things in my life. 🤔

Unique

1. I used to go to the nurse a lot in elementary school because I played tetherball by myself (sad, I know) and I was frequently the victim of my own strength as it would come around and punch me in the face, specifically my nose. It got to the point that I would just wave at the teachers on my way into the building with my fingers pinching my nose and my head tilted back as I made my way to the school nurse. Anyway I don't think that had any lasting effects on my psyche whatsoever.

2. I have a scar on my cheek from when I tripped over a rock with a branch taller than me and it went straight into my cheek at an angle.

3. I have one dimple on my right cheek.

4. My adoptive grandfather played baseball with Jackie Robinson.

5. I took every math class available to me in highschool because I loved math so much (still do).

Passion

1. Leon Kennedy - I mean. Pretty self explanatory idk what else to tell you 😔

2. Video games - they've always been a part of me. They're a great way to immerse myself into other worlds, a great escape.

3. Creating art - whether it be with writing fics or making moodboards, I just love being able to express myself in the best way possible.

4. Making people happy - this might be toxic as hell to say but I'm extremely happy when I feel like I've been useful to people, no matter what that means for them. If I can make someone's day just a tiny bit better, I get so happy!

Memories

1. For my junior prom, my friends and I had our own "anti-prom" where we all dressed up in "prom attire" and went downtown to play laser tag in our dresses/suits and got dinner together. The night ended where someone somehow slipped in the public ground fountains outside of the capitol building and then we all ended up running around in the water, getting soaked in our prom get up. We all headed home after that around midnight, blasting All Time Low with the windows down.

2. My second All Time Low concert! My friends and I drove all the way down to Atlanta (I used to live in Nashville from ages 8-19) where we all went and saw All Time Low together!! It was a few days after my 18th birthday and my friends made me a poster with a bunch of stupid pictures of me and us and it said something along the lines of finally being legal in hopes to get me up on stage during Time Bomb when they used to bring people to dance and sing with them. I also accidentally smacked a security guard in the face with my phone because I was dancing in my aisle seat and he was right next to me and I didn't know. I felt so bad 😭 I apologized ofc but I went back to dancing lanflsllal. It was a really good birthday (because I literally just got my first tattoo a few days prior, an all time low lyric if you can believe it lmao)

3. Meeting my partner in person for the first time. I don't remember much, but I remember how elated I was to see him. His parents were so kind (and still are) and I dunno. It was a life altering moment because I decided then I wanted to move from Tennessee to be with him as soon as possible. We were long distance for years, like about 5 years. Young me wouldn't believe me if I told her where I was now lol.

Thank you for this! It made me stop and take a breath from my anxiety. I appreciate you nonnie 🩷

[iyliss]

Saiou for the ask thingie pls pls :3

YEAAAH LOVE OF MY LIFE

Why I like them/why I don’t: HES JUST SO he just contains so much, he's so incredibly sad and scared of doing anything and yet tries so much, he just can't communicate properly and the only way he knows how to is through manipulation and deception, he has learned deep in his heart and flesh that he's monstruous and wants to be loved and adored but anything he'd do for that he sees at as a proof of his evil... he's so full of fear and leathing and kidness and courage. as a villain he's terrifying and so subtle and he just has the BEST aesthetic (mix of lovecraft stuff and alien horror and tarot... perfection...). I truely think he's the most yugioh character of all times.

What I like about their appearance: he's BEAUTIFUL right and so cute and so eerie and YET it's not like. a nice and proper way. he's strange and weird and uncanny and his beauty is both so undeniable and unique. his eyes are not just pretty, they're haunting, they're almost terrifying for how much depht is in them. Everything about him evoques something fascinating and yet a little wrong, because it adds in so many little bits of sickness. He nso clearly evoques something "wrong" and yet fascinating.

Do I prefer their dub names or original names? saiou is a very pretty name and i love the religious element and also that it might connect to "saiou ga uma" and all that... so fun... sartorius is also very pretty and fits him so well (and i love kumar. he's indian now. beautiful.). and ever since i saw those blingee i adore the nickname Sarty it's ADORABLE i love using it.

OTP: I already defended destinyshipping quite well but yeah it really has a grip on my heart... I will say though when it comes to Saiou I'm practically interesting in anything and everything there's just... so much untapped potential. I specifically love light/saiou because yay selfcest (and like the symbolism of the light's control over Saiou as a toxic lover, especially when put against Edo's own love... very dear to me). And also foolshipping... the way judai is so nice and patient with Saiou and Saiou can so easily reach out to him... "call you at 3 am because the Horrors are too much and I know you'll be normal about it" kind of relationship.

NOTP: Idk... there are already so little saiou works in the world... I'm just a little miffed when i see fics and stuff where Saiou just only exist to be abusive toward another character... I know the light is like that but at least exploit the specificities of the Light's abuse!

OT3: Yeah I already defended edo/judai/saiou over there. i also think something can be done with judai yubel and him.

Favourite card they use : ITS SO HARD WTF I LOVE EVERY ARCANA FORCE SO MUCH. Actually. Actually probably this one.

First of all because the kind in yellow is one of my favorite mythos thingie. And also because they so neatly integrated the fact the Death tarot card is often represented without its name (so it's not a monster but a trap without "death" actually on it). And also its so fitting to be used in season 4, when Judai and Saiou are facing immense change in their life and how they respectively deal with it.

Favourite moment they were in: All of them?? Absolutely every single time he's on screen?? Okay to pick something, lately i've come to really love his duel with Manjoume and how it ends... The final dialogue, that makes so little sense at first but after a few rewatch is so clear, the switch between the two side of his face, the rythm, the opposition between his tears and smile... It's such a beautiful introduction.

Least favourite moment: every single time he's not on screen. Actual no hm... I guess the final s2 duel? I don't rewatch it as much because it hurts a little to see the Light like that.

[radellama]

20 questions for fic writers

Tagged by @kanonavi , thank you!!

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1. How many fics do you have on AO3?

Five on main, one and a half on the side lol

2. What's your total AO3 word count?

Main: 60,314

Side: 5,776

3. What fandoms do you write for?

Basically just chrono trigger atm. Written for legend of Zelda and Castlevania in the past, but they're dormant/hiatus until I have time and insp again (and a one-word fic for NBC Hannibal lol)

4. What are your top 5 fics by kudos?

Well. I only got five lol. The one with the most is my hylink one soooo. Niche of niche

5. Do you respond to comments? Why or why not?

Yes!! I try to respond to all of them, especially if someone's taken the time to write a detailed comment for me. I really appreciate it, and have fond memories of making friends with some of my fave authors because I was a regular commenter!

6. What is the fic you wrote with the angstiest ending?

Haven't finished any lol. Unless you count the one shot/drabble stuff but like. I don't lol. I love angst and I'm sure half the lost fics I would've written as a teen that I barely remember were angsty to a comical degree, but if I had finished my hylink fic that might be the angstiest 😏

7. What is the fic you wrote with the happiest ending?

Talking planned endings since I haven't finished... My ct uni au, cause it's not meant to have an ending LMAO. It's basically a drabble collection haha. Otherwise... Idk... Maybe my st au ending? It's not sunshine and roses, but it has a nice ending that gives me a similar satisfying wrap up that various star trek finales have given me.

8. Do you get hate on fics?

Not that I can recall... There's some pushy and rude people I've had in the past but nothing enough that I can remember lolll

9. Do you write smut? If so, what kind?

Yeas 😏 I'll write anything now I've kinda overcome the juvenile feelings I had over it... I'd just get embarrassed and didn't know how to unpack that lolll. I don't think I have any published atm but that's why I have the side, I've def drawn stuff tho 😏👍

10. Do you write crossovers? If so, what's the craziest one you've written?

Not really. The closest I get is stuff like my star trek au, where I've made a universe heavily inspired by star trek and have the ct characters play a certain unique to that world.

11. Have you ever had a fic stolen?

Hope not 😑

12. Have you ever had a fic translated?

Nope

13. Have you ever co written a fic before?

Yeah!! One of the vague memories of my early teen years writing I had this cool android dystopian fic for some characters I made with a friend, it was super fun but we never finished cause we both progressively got busier through the end of high school... Oh also I had this one fic I'd write with my sister and it was one of the rare times we got along growing up, aaand this one 'fic' that's grown into its own thing that I've had with one of my besties since we were 14, we've talked about adapting it to be it's own original thing so it didn't come to mind at first cause it's now it's own thing and not a fic lol.

14. What's your all-time favourite ship?

Magland lmao. Specially crafted to be an all time favourite, what can I say?

15. What's a Wip you want to finish but doubt you ever will?

I'm hoping to get to all the big ones I wanna write eventually... I don't wanna write off anything just yet... I won't finish some of the old shit I never published cause it wasn't finished enough LMAOOO

16. What are your writing strengths?

I like to think that it's characterisation and world building. They're what I enjoy a lot and put huge amounts of effort into behind the scenes so I can confidently obscure it for the reader in ways that are fun to reveal without it feeling like bullshit made up on the fly

17. What are your writing weaknesses?

I wanna say dialogue but I've had compliments on it in the past.. it's just hard making sure it all sounds like them and not just me saying shit through them haha. Otherwise, I think I get stuck in scene transitions or when things need to have more added or cut out stuff to have a more natural feeling end. I'll get there eventually if I have the time, but..eh

18. Thoughts on writing dialogue in another language in fic?

Depends how it's handled, I think! If you're writing a bilingual character, or the scene takes place in a location that isn't the language the book is primarily written in, that can be kinda fun. I think I'd be more interested in knowing if and how the reader will get translations, whether the characters in that scene get translations or just understand that language, ect. To be picky and snooty about it, I don't think I've ever come across good styles of this in fic, cause there's not the same guidelines and such for traditionally published books, but like. Whatever lol. It's interesting to me, especially when you get to the territory of made up languages. Depends on the world, the setting and the scene for me I guess

19. First fandom you ever wrote for?

Probably Loz or CT when I was a kid lol

20. Favourite fic you've written?

So far, my st au. Sorry Harland

I've just put so much effort into it and it's been years in the making, it'll take years to continue, but I'm still working on it slowly so. Can't wait to finish it, got massive plans

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Not tagging anyone cause I can't be bothered, but if you wanna do these, just say I did!

[ihatedean]

Is jojo's bizarre adventure a good first anime? I've only watched Sailor Moon as a kid and maybe Dragon Ball but the art is so gorgeous I'm kinda curious!

people who aren't fans appreciating the art style give me life omg<33 i agree it's stunning ! ! just look at this ! wow ! !

EDIT: WOW OH MY GOD WE'VE ENTERED YAPPING STATE. SORRY. SHORT ANSWER YES IF YOU LIKE MULTIGENERATIONAL FAMILY SAGAS AND THEMES OF FATE AND BLOOD BUT IT'LL TAKE SOME GETTING USED TO. JOJO IS A WEIRD SHOW. ITS WIDELY KNOWN AS THE GAY ANIME FOR A REASON.

but to answer your question,, i'd say it's 50-50? i know a lot of people that aren't anime fans that LOVE jojo. it's a very unique show that doesn't follow the classic formula that other shonen anime follow like DB does, for example- this is either a huge bonus or it completely ruins the experience, because a lot of people compare it to other shows they're already familiar with. there's no better word for it, it's a BIZARRE series. everything is weird, the dialogue, the characters, the setting, the art. the author's writing style is something everyone sort of had to get used to and we love him for making us go through that.

i actually avoided the anime for years because i thought the characters looked gross and the lack of female characters was kind of an issue for me back then (it gets better it gets a lot better you just have to see it through). but it was my boyfriend's first shonen and he begged me for months to watch it together so i said fuck it- i think i made him watch twilight or play danganronpa in exchange.

.....it might not grip you from the start. part 1 is not a lot of people's favorite part. it wasn't mine- after like four or five episodes (of nine ! it's very short !) of being weirded out by it, i realized that i had to stop seeing it as a shonen anime, and instead began to see it as,,, a play,, of sorts. if you watch the first two parts you'll know what i'm talking about. it's drama. once i changed my perspective on it, i completely fell in love ! ! from part 3 onwards it's a lot more like the usual shonen, and i know it's a lot more enjoyable for the average fan, but the first two parts are charming in their own weird little way :)

looking back on it after watching twin peaks, there are a lot of similarities, with the quirky characters and the themes. i only started twin peaks because of a jjba fic inspired by it. if you like twin peaks, i'm certain you'll like jojo.

but this is my spn blog and i assume you like supernatural so. i'll say: don't expect the same focus on relationships that spn puts on the characters, but know that its present in every interaction. where sam and dean hold each other tenderly and talk about how they're the only thing that matters, in jjba you'll have one character looking at the other in a way that's just drawn differently and the fandom will go insane. the supernatural characters are built very very carefully and have a lot of details that fans memorized- jjba characters are just as good but have a lot more space to play with if you want, regarding headcanons and storylines. their lives and thoughts aren't as well documented as sam and dean's is what i'm trying to say lol you'll know what brand of underwear a character likes most but you won't know his birthday. it happens. yes a lot of the fanfic is ooc because there's barely any character to remain inside of.

last but not least. this is a wincest blog. the first six parts of jojo follow six different generations of the same family. this is not minor. there will be daddy and mommy issues, there will be strange family dynamics. the family tree is FUCKED up and when you learn why you'll either drop the show or become sickeningly obsessed with a certain little guy called DIO. yes like THAT dio. there are a lot of musical references. unlike some characters i know, he's canonically bisexual.

anyways WOW do i like this anime. idk what else to say if you need more convincing this is the opening i guess

[irithnova]

hi! how did your interest in hetalia begin? also, with mongolia as well. <3

Hello! :D

Well I became interested in hetalia when I first kind of started secondary school (UK) soo I think around 13 or something I became interested in hetalia? Then at 13/14 is when I first started getting interested in the country of Mongolia, so I guess me liking aph Mongolia was just a natural marriage between the two interests haha.

I guess I started to like hetalia because I've always been a history nerd and an anime/manga fan, and I've always liked learning about different cultures, so hetalia seemed like the perfect manga/anime for me. Admittedly, Mongolia wasn't immediately my fave character, Russia was my first favourite character. I was also a weird kid and a lot of my weird friends liked hetalia too! (I say weird in a good way).

When it comes to being interested in the country of Mongolia, I think it was because I got really tired of learning about European history. Not that I only focussed on European history when it came to my different historical obsessions lol I mean I had a huge ancient Egypt phase, but I wanted more. I've heard about the Mongols and their impact on European history but it was mostly to do with the spread of the black death (the UK wasn't affected by the Mongol invasions). Also when I was obsessed with Russia (still kind of am..) there were more mentions of the Mongols so I was like eh why not.

When I started to do more research on Mongolia's history, the more fascinated I became with it. I've always had an affinity towards cultures that were labelled as "barbaric" by its neighbours (I'm not saying I view the Mongols as barbaric, not at all, just that they were labelled that way), which explains my pretty huge Scottish history phase lol.

I was impressed by what they were able to achieve despite being the underdogs at the time, and the unique nomadic culture of Mongolia further drew me in to being interested in the country and it's history. Even beyond the empire era and before the empire era, Mongolian history is incredibly interesting.

The secrecy that Mongolian history is shrouded in before they came onto the world stage because of the lack of records to do with the Mongols, the huge Mongolic/Turkic empires that came before the Mongols, what the true origins of the Mongols are, Mongolia during the Ming and Qing dynasties, mass conversion to Buddhism, Mongolia's fight for independence in the 20th century and transition from communism to capitalism, and Mongolia today, it's all just so alluring.

Mongolian culture also really drew me in. It seemed so different from my own and I couldn't help but just, idk, keep on reading about it haha.

With all of this in mind, I guess this is why I'm so interested in aph Mongolia as a character. Going about characterising a man (or woman if you prefer) with such a rich and complicated history was a challenge I was willing to take up, and the more I learn about Mongolian history and culture (bc you never stop learning! ) the more and more complex he becomes.

Many hetalia fans in the past have just brushed him off as some brute and basically used him as the local villain of the week in a lot of their fics (I mean some still do it today but it's not as bad as it used to be...) and it frustrates me to no end because it just reeks of typical anti-Mongolian sentiment. There's nothing wrong with making him the bad guy in fics, everyone is free to show the dark sides of nations in their fics or art etc (I have a fanfiction myself where he is acting like an asshole, empire era).

But as I said before, the way in which Mongolia is characterised in a lot of fics (because it's usually fics) is just blatantly racist and/or ignorant towards Mongolian history and culture, and the writers would never depict another nation is such an unflattering manner, so yeah they're just using Mongolia as a cheap villain or they cheapen the character of Mongolia into a caricature as a grab for an easy one dimensional villain, which is a huge disservice to the history and people of Mongolia.

Even now, I'm still trying to be kind of careful with how I characterise Mongolia, because ignorance doesn't have to be blatant in order for it to still shine through. In the past, I've seen people hypermasculinise Mongolia and other central Asian characters. Listen, there's nothing wrong with headcanoning a character as being more on the masc side, I headcanon Mongolia to be more masc too!

But the issue comes from when people completely have a lack of nuance when it comes to masculinity in Mongolia and central Asia, and it really runs the risk of depicting them as barbaric and backwards. I've noticed how in the past, some people would hyperfeminise East Asian countries (more often than not, China) and in turn, hypermasculinise Mongolia, and it paints a pretty ugly picture when these same writers/artists make headcanons or art or whatnot.

Another thing I'm being careful with is how I headcanon Mongolia and technology. I know it's a joke amongst people that he can't even turn on a computer (and to those who joke ab this dw I'm aware it's a joke) but it becomes an issue when people unironically go around saying stuff like that, in my opinion (I don't think he's a technology wizard but c'mon he's not completely disconnected from technology to the point where he can't even use a laptop properly).

Some people tend to romanticise the rurality of Mongols and paint them as being a "happy, simple people" who are "too good for technology/capitalism." and this is just the classic "noble savage" trope all over again, just seen through a hetalia lens.

Of course, the nomadic lifestyle, generous hospitality and connection to nature is inseparable from Mongolian culture, and I would never try to deny or argue against that, it's one of the main reasons why I admire Mongolian culture so much in the first place! But going around perpetuating the noble savage stereotype only feeds into silly ideas outsiders have about Mongolian people. I've seen Westerners say crap like they're surprised that Mongolia has restaurants and wifi! And one of my Mongolian friends had an American literally say very boldly to them "I thought Mongolians still lived like cavemen" ⁉️⁉️

So yeah, I do hope my depiction/interpretation of Mongolia is thoughtful dhdsjd sorry I did kind of go off on a tangent. I'm aware that this is hetalia and it's not supposed to be a serious anime but am passionate and I hope I didn't come off too strong 😨

I think people's downright awful/racist depictions of aph Mongolia has only made me more passionate about him because I want to prove them so wrong haha! And it's the same with the actual nation. If anyone tries to argue with me about how the Mongol empire sucked because they were just "muhh barbarians" I will absolutely argue with them about it lol.

But thank you for the ask!! 🙏😳

[bonesandthebees]

GODDDHFJSKAJDJFKFKJSKFKFJFJF I FINISHEDDD I'll probs do a reread and do a proper review bc I didn't get a chance to write down my thoughts while reading through the first time but eueuudufvjjsjdd I'm so emotional that was the perfect fucking ending for glass bee oh my gosh :(( 🫶🫶🫶

They mean sm to me I feel so ougohuhohigihoh

I love your fics so much man they're genuinely so incredible and I think they're the most unique this fandom has ever seen. Like glass and stars are both sooo<333 the world building?? The plot and conflicts?? Idk it's just crazy to me that we get to read this shit for free it's fuckign professional level writing bee. Thank you so so much for sharing it with us 🫶🫶🫶 I'm so lucky that it's a part of my life bc it genuinely is one of my fav things in it

You have a way of making me feel satisfied when I read your fic endings. Like. I hate it when stuff ends shfjfkf it's a problem of mine. I normally like will refuse to read/watch an ending bc I don't want it to end and also a lot of times??? I will just. Not like the ending. Either bc it's shit or the fact that it is an ending, but with your fics?? They've always been fucking amazing. I mean shfjgkf it def helps that there's another fic ur writing that I can read after this one's over, but for the actual ending part?? You write it so well man. It always ties up everything super nicely but not in like?? An unrealistic way where ur like "well that's just Too convenient". Like there's still enough of a question where the readers can leave it up to interpretation and come up with their own ideas, but all the major plot points are resolved and they all come together so nicely too?? And the last line is Always a banger. Ur so cool bee. Whenever I read the end of ur fic, I will literally smile bc im just like "aw man that's perfect" I SMILE!!! THAT'S CRAZY FOR ME NORMALLY IM SAD ITS OVER but with ur writing it's just like "damn holy shit that was perfect" rahhhssss I fucking love your writing Bee so so much

God and just... Glass is such a unique story too. Like ?? Cyberpunk religious trauma story?? Literally nothing I'd ever consume. I'm not the biggest fan of cyberpunk (I don't dislike it it's just not my preferred stuff to read) and as an agonistic person with religious trauma I normally avoid reading anything to do with religion LMAOODOFJFK (tho I've actually been trying to be more openminded and learn about all the diff types of religions and stuff) so I honestly was like "huh not sure what to expect from this fic but. It's bee so" And LORD I fucking??? Loved this fic??? So much??? Like I got so invested and I honestly really enjoyed the religious aspects of it a lot. It was such a fascinating topic like philosophy wise man. And oughhhfsjfk the way you used Wilbur vs Pronouns vs Pythia was genius. Like. That's such a creative tool to use?? Makes me appreciate writing sm. U just can't get this stuff in visual forms like tv/movies. It's just really neat seeing all the ways u play around with writing. It's super cool and impressive

Whenever I read ur writing it makes me feel like a smarter person tbh like. Just the way I turn my brain on to digest what you've written it's SOOO nice

And I am especially excited for rose bc I feel like my brain is gonna go haywire in that one too ehehehe also look at me go, finally reading a mcd fic (no literally bee. I haven't even read Passerine bc it's major character death. But I'm reading it for u. ^-^)

LORDDDFJFJ okay I gotta go do my french quiz now . And then I'll read rose ch2 BUT JUSR !!!!!!! UR AMAZING BEE !!!!! LOVE U AND UR WRITING SM !!!! TY FOR BEING EPIC ❤️❤️❤️🫶🫶🫶

awww thank you icy <3 this is so kind. I just love writing and always have, and it means so much that I have a supportive audience like you guys who are willing to read my silly stories

I'm so glad you like my endings. I always try to end my stories in just the right spot, when it feels like everything that needs to be said has been said while still leaving things open for the readers to imagine what comes next. I don't have super specific criteria for my endings, I just go with my gut on what feels right and it's worked out pretty well so far.

it makes me so happy that you took a chance on the kind of story you'd never normally read just because it was mine. I knew glass was a pretty unique concept because you don't usually see cyberpunk combined with those kinds of themes, so I was definitely a bit worried how many people would tune in for it. but I was so happy to find out that so many of you guys were willing to check it out because it was mine. like that seriously means so much to me to hear. I had such a fun time exploring those themes and emotions.

when I decided to do the pythia vs wilbur narration thing it felt like I was taking a huge risk. I was very worried that it would turn a lot of readers off to the story, but when I thought about the impact it could have as a format choice I knew I had to do it even if I lost some readers because of it. I really love experimenting with my writing and trying out new things, and as I'm sure you've noticed by now I have a particular affection for themes surrounding names and the power they hold. so it just felt like such a perfect way of diving into themes surrounding names while also getting a chance to experiment with format in a way I hadn't done before. I'm so glad it paid off well.

it means a lot that you're going to stick with under the hanging rose when you don't normally read MCD. I can't promise you won't be sad, but I can promise the MCD I have planned isn't going to be cheap or just angst fodder. it'll be narratively satisfying (or unsatisfying but in an intentional way lol)

thank you for all the love you give me icy this made me so happy to read <3 so glad you enjoyed

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HIIII I JUST READ THE FIC OMG I RLY LIKE UR WRITING U HAVE SUCH A WAY WITH WORDS FJSDNJBD like your sentences really just make me feel warm and cozy and 💕💝💕💝💞💝💗💝💞💝💞💝

yk what's funny, after reading all that i actually did not have anyone specific on my mind so i laughed at myself when i read the ending, i was just there vibing with everyone fr 😃

when requesting, i rly thought you'd go the separate fics route tbh nfbsjdbd bcs i thought it'd have been hard to write one fic with so many characters (that's why i also listed more than 4 of the prompts i liked, for if you were gonna write them separately hehe), but u made it work omg i'm envious!! i always have a hard time writing a story bcs i suck at designing characters uniquely ;-;

i loved how u wrote the characters btw they're so comfy <3 (don't ask what that means idk either 😭), and i imagined lily was lily from nmixx i love her so much!! and i love how comforting it is to read this fic like why are the boys so jsnadhamdb it makes my heart dkwjdksbkdbs like u get what i mean? i don't either but yeah :(((

NO I'M SORRY JDSBDJ BUT I MEANT LIKE the boys were so genuinely comforting to reader and it makes me wanna cry bdfsmxb i swear fics like these rly isn't good for weak-hearted ppl (aka me 🥹)

ty for fulfilling my request !!!

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I’m so happy that you enjoyed the fic!

At first, I was planning on choosing one of the boys for the reader to end up with but then I changed my mind because different readers would probably lean toward another boy so that’s why I ended up making it a “chose your own destiny” kind of ending!

You make me blush with all the compliments ☺️😳 thank you so so much for everything you said! It genuinely made my day 💕

And yes, Lily is Lily from nmixx haha I ended up choosing her thanks to the songs you sent!

Have a wonderful week and I hope to see you in my inbox soon again 🌥️!

Take care! 💕💕

[valleynix]

Chapter 8 is finished. It was a wild ride. I'm still not over those events. The further I went the harder it was to gather my thoughts but here they are.

As if the scene with Daniela wasn't already enough to kill me with its sweetness THEN THERE'S ONE WITH BELA my god.

Naur pls the Cass/Bela scene was already so funny with how dramatic Cass acted and then she got Daniela to join her in annoying their sis. I lost it when she grabbed Bela's arm and went Bela, Bela, Bela 😭

I love their little sibling interactions so much. Adding it to my mental list of fav scenes.

I really think that's how they'd be with each other in canon.

"Our human" awww <3

But yhm yeah that's it for Bela's self control. It left the chat.

"She sees you. It’s over, isn’t it?"

The horror

Bela's kinda (very) hot when she's feral.

Reader out there thinking about boobs while their life is under threat of being taken😭😭😭

THE CASS SCENE after the blackout absjswjjsjsj *inaudible noises and screaming*

I had to take a break to recollect myself HOW DO YOU WANT ME TO SURVIVE TILL THE END OF THE CHAPTER WHEN YOU'RE THROWING SUCH THINGS AT ME CONSTANLY FROM THE VERY BEGINNING.

NOT LADY D TOO, GIMME A BREAK.

Yhm yhm I got a break, coz here comes the angst

"You desperately hope this isn’t some hallucination Donna put you through, that you’re not just making a massive fool of yourself in the real world."

Haha

HAHA

HA HA

THE WAY IT WAS ACTUALLY MUCH WORSE

OH. MY. GOD

Honestly, I can't even be sad and heartbroken from the girls' death because for the whole time I was too amazed and mind blown at how it all just made sense instantly. How you described each of their death. And that through the chapters we could hear pieces of their lines, trying to reach to the Reader pls. But Reader was living those silly memories thinking it was the reality, while destroying everything they love in true real world. AMAZING.

Idk what else to say here it's just wow WOW chef kiss. There was no reason to be scared of how this chapter went, it was all done so well. I can just picture the flashbacks of the events from before as everything settles in place, the horror coz it starts to make sense and it HURTS.

Especially that Reader said they won't/don't want to hurt anyone.

Just sweet pain, sweet pain, it hurts so beautifully.

So just let me tell you, let me summarise my experience so far as we reached this important moment (idk how hard it was for you but regardless) I admire and I am impressed how you managed to pull it off, with the plot in general with its mystery behind the events.

But also with the characters. I think you gave them a fair amount of time to let them shine in their own unique ways. To show their personality and how they interact with the fictional world around them.

And I like how it's said on many occasions that Dimitrescus do bad things, they're dangerous and literally eat people, but it's not all they are. They care for each other, can care for other people too, and show other side of them. Because people are complex and so are they.

It was so exciting, trying to collect the hints and put them together to understand something. I had SO MUCH FUN trying to solve the mystery and waiting for the big reveal. Nice I wasn't completely lost haha.

I'm definitely not planning on dropping the story, I'd like to follow our dear poor Reader till the end and see them being happy if that's possible :(

This is definitely my favourite RE8 fic, one of my favs in general. Hell, if it was a real book it'd be in my favs too.

I love your style, your way with words and how you operate with the language, especially that you keep any feature (besides the eyes) of the Reader up to imagination which I assume requires more effort.

This story completely captured my heart, I love your mind, I just wanna... kith your brain for allowing you to create it, this piece of art, a masterpiece.

And sharing my thoughts on your work with you brings me so much joy too🥺 You seem like a kind and beautiful soul

can i just say that i genuinely almost started crying while reading this :’)

OKAY BUT ONTO THE POINTS!! very glad you got through chapter eight, because it was one of the more difficult ones (i think 13&14 are also difficult to get through because of plot??)

*im just out here trying to kill y’all with these scenes of the girls HEHEHE

*PLEASE BAHA, i ADORE writing them just like regular siblings that love but annoy the hell out of each other 😭 Cass has a flair for the dramatics and Dani just likes joining in on the chaos

*listen Cass just saying things (like “our human”) without thinking about the implications is so <333

*the one thing coming true that you’ve been fighting so hard to stop :’)

*i was so worried the feral scene with Bela was gonna come across as SA-y but i’m so glad it hasn’t been received that way 😭 like homegirl was genuinely about to kill them but in the most mocking/teasing way

*listen boobs are just priority B)

*PLEASE I LOVE CASS BAHAHA, she’s so just… *her*

*i simply must destroy the sapphics’ minds with my powers of gay >:)

*THE DELVE INTO THE ANGST WAS SO FUNNY IM SORRY, going from this sweet, tender moment to just “oh my god. oh my GOD”

OKAY BUT!! i am genuinely so happy you liked the chapter and that everything made sense in the end, at least in some way. it was really fun tying events together and having slips of reality, moments where things don’t seem quite right, but i’m glad to know the anticipation of what’s been going on was worth all the pain and wait

the really heartbreaking thing i tried so much to add onto the already confusing plot was that you could definitely hear them trying so hard to reach Reader, even if they were completely lost and couldn’t understand what was being said to them :(

the thought that Bela never gave up on them, that Daniela never thought they couldn’t be saved or redeemed… i love writing these murderous, sadistic, cannibalistic women as people who genuinely care and are just PEOPLE. seeing them try so hard to reach someone so far gone hurts so well imo

but i’m really glad you did like it and it makes me so happy that you admire all the work i’ve put into it :’) like that’s honestly one of the sweetest things i’ve heard recently

i did try to be pretty fair with each Dimitrescu and sometimes give them their own designated chapter, just so we could really bond with them and see them as more than just what the rumors about them say or as who they pretend to be. Bela is a nerd that enjoys music, Cassandra loves science and art, Daniela loves getting lost in her romance novels, and Alcina is a wine loving mom who adores her daughters above all else

honestly, i think it was your chapter seven ask?? you were INSANELY close to what was going on and i was like oh my GOD she’s figured it out. i genuinely don’t think many people actually guessed what was going on, but it was so interesting seeing how you saw things through your own eyes and how each hint connected in your brain :D

i can say for certain Reader will most likely get a happy ending, even if we have to wade through a mountain ton of angst to get there. with long stories like this one, i dislike leaving things angsty and with an unhappy ending, but also because of all the shit they’ve gone through (and will continue to go through). happy endings after going through a LOT of traumatic shit are simply superior

GRRR KNOWING IT’S ONE OF YOUR FAVORITES MAKES ME SO HAPPY, i will actually cry. pls thats so sweet omfg

i honestly highly dislike fics where it’s supposed to be like x reader but it’s just an OC?? i do try my best to keep everything inclusive, save for the eye color, and i do sometimes have to change scenes to fit that but still keep the vibe 😭

but god, i will literally never live this down. this ask is going to be ingrained in my memories for months to come and it’s going to be what i look back on when i’m feeling down about my writing

thank you so so SO much for sharing your thoughts with me <33 i do look forward to hearing what else you’ll say or come up with in future chapters, since there are still plot points and antagonists we have to work through before our dear Reader can be happy for once :’) <3333

[phantom-does-a-thing]

hey, i love your fics and all your headcanons about the prime defenders! i love the way you do dakota's chronic pain (or something similar?), its a very unique one. can you tell me more about what you headcanon for each of them?

Oh! Hi sweet anon! I'm so glad that you like my prime defenders stuff! I love writing them and they are just so !!! to me.

Aha I never do talk about headcanons in public so I've never made a coherent list so I will do my best but I absolutely LOVE talking about this kind of stuff <3 headcanons my beloved. They will be under the cut!

this is really long btw.

you ask me to talk and I won't shut up.

William Wisp

this is my boy! My dude! Me FR! I think about him all the time uh headcanons tho hm.

His eyes glow in the dark

He's ALWAYS cold (doesn't produce his own body heat) and is just constantly shivering (I mention this one a lot in my fics)

Legs and hips are a little messed up, he walks with a limp (he is unaware that he does this but other people can notice it). Often hip and knee pain. Syrup brought up the idea to me of a ghost cane and I think about that a lot.

I think it would be funny (haha) if he's scared of the dark and claustrophobic

The claustrophobic one makes me a little insane bc he would know how irrational the fear is since he can literally... go intangible... if he's trapped in a small space he can get out of it.

I also think he would be very afraid of heights! y'know! makes sense!

He would like to sew I think. His main sweatshirt that he wears is just covered in embroidery and patches that he sewed on it.

He doesn't necessarily have food allergies but he does have a lot of sensitivities. He cannot digest much. (Onions, gluten, lactose, yknow food sensitivities).

Rigor mortis! LOL! I think sometimes he just straight up cant move yknow

I ALSO THINK that sometimes he just loses random senses. Like taste and smell. (I have a ghost character that has the same thing happen to him... Boy my beloved).

He sleepwalks a lot or otherwise just straight up doesn't get sleep yknow?

He knows so much obscure information it is INSANE and also a little frightening. He sends random articles to the groupchat in the middle of the night (poor Vyncent who has his ringer on all the time)

He also just like knows way too much and is scarily good at finding things on social media, he will be able to find a social media account within minutes (like my sister fr).

I think he would like cop or mystery shows like Criminal minds, Macgyver etc those type of shows idk. Maybe NCIS?

This isn't really about William but I think that the wisps mess with him whenever they're bored so he has just straight up resorted to giving them their own source of entertainment so they just leave him alone.

He has a record player that he puts on just so they can mess with it and so he can have a little bit of peace.

I think that electronics go a little funky in his presence, sometimes he just straight up cannot use his phone ("hey did you get my text?" "*phone screen is just static* no")

Speaking of texting, he pretty much NEVER responds to texts and either types for 10 minutes and sends a long paragraph response or types 10 minutes and responds with a singular emoji. It's impossible to tell which response it will be.

But if you want to get a hold of ANY of the boys, William is the best bet to text bc he will actually read his messages (he cannot have his phone off of silent bc he has to look at the messages right away, he just won't respond immediately. The message will be read tho).

He's a stress cleaner (when the rest of your life is falling apart at least you can control one aspect of it)

Will is absolutely ATROCIOUS at playing video games, he doesn't have the reaction time and much prefers making Dakota or Vyncent play a game and he'll watch

He's probably like the biggest impulse spender of the three and absolutely comes home from work with stupid things that he bought.

OH MY FAVORITE HEADCANON BECAUSE I AM PROJECTING!!!! BUT!!! BUT BUT!!!

I think that William has muscle issues in his eyes. His eyes cross a lot, especially when he's tired. He's SUPPOSED to wear glasses for it but he doesn't. He only ever wears his glasses when Tide (or Dakota) tells him to. He would have thick square framed glasses that he technically doesn't need to see but his eyes are still a little messed up.

Ok listen, William is from Deadwood. Deadwood is a real city in South Dakota. I think South Dakota should be real. William has the most rural midwestern vibes ever. In my head he is midwestern, he has to be. He needs a thick midwestern accent. He is a corn boy (hi Syrup)

Ok I've been talking about William wisp for too long I need to move on to someone else UHHHH.

Dakota Cole

He loves baking fr! baking and cooking is his specialty and I think besides Tide, he would be the one to cook for the boys.

Stress baker

Sits on the counter all the time (Will and Vyn are sit on the floor type guys).

His hair IS technically curly but it's so frizzy it's impossible to actually tell, it's just a mass of red fluff.

I think it would be REALLY funny if he was naturally ginger but dyes his hair redder.

I think he deserves freckles too, tons of freckles, all over his body

His stomach and the back of his neck is super sensitive (William constantly tortures him w cold hands to the back of his neck)

He is fr like a walking space heater, he is always hot and gives off so much heat

Weighted blankets aren't really heavy enough for him but he loves being compressed fr

I think he absolutely is so affectionate, a ton of casual touches and just like yknow. Hugs, arm around the shoulder, headbutts, nudges all that type of stuff. Personal space is not a thing w/ Dakota but he backs off quickly when it's not welcome.

He does give big hugs though and will tackle someone to the ground if he hasn't seen them in a while. Absolutely massive hugs. Big squeeze.

I think he also loves to hold hands whenever they're walking places he will hold hands with one of the boys.

Gift giving is his love language, he loves getting the boys things that reminds him of them.

He likes watching cooking and baking shows too, absolutely

He has so many joint problems, mostly in his hips and knees (bc that's where he fights mostly) but his back, shoulders and elbows hurt as well during times. He cannot sit on the floor for very long otherwise it will hurt.

Around the base he has various braces and stuff to help w that along w/ stretches and all that

He would be SO good at platformer games (cuphead, donkey kong, super mario bros etc)

Dakota will sit and do something for maybe half an hour at most and then move on to a different activity (exceptions for this are baking, watching tv with the other boys or crochet). Compared to Will and Vynce who could sit for hours doing something specific.

He would just have a ton of stim toys I think, there's a couple that he uses often but he does have a lot in general just bc he'll see one and think it's interesting enough to buy.

This is kind of for all three of them, but around the base they have whiteboards n stuff to draw on, he always draws pictures on the board. (Will and Tide are the only ones to leave actual notes, Vyncent just draws faces).

He has so many pillows on his bed, he would love pillows. Absolutely cozy fr.

Short. I don't care how tall he is on the character sheet. This dude is not over 5'5. He cannot reach the top shelf.

I think he likes fruit punch for his select choice of juice.

He is accidentally the mom friend and by that I mean he just knows his own body well enough to have stuff that he needs. It just happens that no one else in the friend group knows how to take care of themselves.

Re: previous thought. If you need something, he'll probably have it in his bag, he's just like that.

He doesn't always see messages when they're sent but he always responds right away. (rule of thumb, if you need a text to be seen, text Will. If you need a response, text Dakota. Do not text Vyncent).

I don't care about the canon universe for this one headcanon but Dakota would LOVE Spiderman I think.

I think he would have a lot of night terrors.

^I had to add that one because I realized I didn't have that many sad headcanons for Dakota.

I think Dakota also steals clothes a lot. They just let him tho like no one cares. William will see him in the kitchen in a dark T shirt that is the most jarring image but just does not say anything. (He is not allowed to do laundry, certified thief fr)

Ok I've been talking about Dakota too long, Time to move on again

Vyncent Sol

Fr one of the most Boys to Boy yknow? he is a creature fr!

Eyes glow in the dark, Dakota is the only one without glowing eyes, he lives with two cryptids fr.

you can pry the headcanon that he has a tail out of my cold. dead. hands. He has a tail I believe in it.

Re: ^ that thought, super long skinny tail with a little tuft of fur at the end.

Continuing with that, whenever he's upset or scared he wraps his tail around whoever is nearby, constantly hits people with his tail but does not notice. Whenever they're in public he wraps it around his torso to keep it hidden.

Big ears fr! constantly twitching and flicking back and forth, they move so much it's funny to watch sometimes. Also floppy ears tbh.

I think he would have sharp teeth and sharp nails.

When he was younger, his hair used to be like a very pale lavender and was a lot curlier than it is now. He still has the baby curls but he tries to hide them bc he doesn't wanna be seen as immature.

His hair is also super delicate and soft, he cannot use shampoo or product bc it WILL destroy his hair, you have to be very gentle with it.

He purrs. Absolutely does.

Not a fan of physical contact but puts up with it for Dakota

That one post of like that really grumpy cat reluctantly purring on the chest of someone who was sick? yeah that's Vyncent. He hates comforting people. Will purr to comfort others tho. Even if he is wildly uncomfortable with every second of it.

Vyncent would be such a light sleeper, he has super sensitive hearing and will wake up at every little sound. Headphones are not just to hide his ears <3 too much noise gives him a headache all the time.

he would LOVE bugs and plants. Wants to know more about all the nature on prime <3

He always talks about little facts super excited and Will and Dakota always are excited about it too (even if it's common knowledge for them, it's not for Vyncent and he's excited about it).

Will, despite being terrified of bugs, gives Vyncent facts about bugs in return (Vyncent loves hearing about it!)

He's the type to torture bugs on the playground but it's completely scientific, he's doing it for science purposes. He wants to know more.

Vyncent thinks Will and Dakota are super hard to read, they think the same of him. They have different body languages <3

I think he would be allergic to stupid things in the same vein that dogs are. He can't have onions either. (poor Dakota loves onions but no one else in the base can have them except for Tide).

He likes sitting with the others and just kind of sitting in the same room as them, not even doing the same thing. He's just vibing.

I think Vyncent would walk really quietly and constantly sneak up on people by accident.

You could hand Vyncent literally anything and say "eat this" and he would. Same thing with Dakota but for Dakota it would have to at least look like food. Vyncent will eat a rock if you hand it to him.

William showed Vyncent how to do emojis one time and it has been one of Will's biggest regrets (Vyncent now pretty much only texts in emojis. No they do not makes sense).

I think Vyncent would get so motion sick in cars.

I think that he should have a noticeable accent, no one can tell what TYPE of accent (obvious reasons) but it's uncanny enough that he does not sound like the locals.

He deserves a little uncanniness as a treat, limbs too long etc something like that idk. He should be more of a creature.

[taegularities]

Ahh Rid i was rereading a thousand reasons why again and idk why but my app crashes every single time i try to reblog it 😭 i'll try again via website but i thought i'd send you my appreciation here first...and it's gonna be long 😭 because this story is one of those that have the ability to change lives 🙏

i know that it's based on a movie (if i remember correctly?) but frankly i don't care about those opinions that it's not your original idea because you wrote everything that in a movie is only seen, you described and put boundaries on ideas and made them your own, reading atrw is reading whatever you wanted us to read which is far more detailed, emotionally oriented, and i'm not even starting on all the work it takes to have an idea and create it in your way through actual words... it's a beautiful artwork for me and so well-paced considering it covers such a big chunk of experiences. i read it for the first time months back and i was ruined for days bc it was exactly what i needed to know to help me with my life choices that aren't easy to make 🥺 the way you write is so real and genuine, i learn so much from your stories and atrw is a prime example and i come back to it again and again when i'm not sure, when i need the comfort that your words and storylines give of what is more. it's simultaneously a tough pill that's also so beautiful, loving, emotional, true and therefore so comforting... i don't know if i make sense, it gives me so many emotions all at once, i consider it to be one of those groundbreaking stories that i'll remember for many years ahead 🥺🧡 and it's because of what you created with the idea you had, it's the you factor for me and not just the general plot... i love it how you created it so please know that whatever people said about you writing it with a existing plot in mind, is their opinion and there're people like me thinking very differently 🥺 i love everything about atrw, the characters and how you described them, their thoughts and motivations, THE EXPERIENCES like i felt even the cold and snow on the mountain tops, the wind and sunset when they were in that small town, the gentle change from not knowing what is it that jk and oc were feeling to realisations and accepting them, oh god RID HOW ARE YOU SOO UNBELIEVABLY GOOD AT WRITING 😭🧡🧡🧡 i could write you 837473 essays on how i love your writing 😩

i have to stop myself now this ask is getting out of hand and it's so all over the place, you can keep it private bc it may be too much 😓 but i just really hated that i couldn't say anything about it bc of this app crash 🥺 take care love and i'll happily move on to the new jimin and tae's stories, i just felt like it was time for me to read atrw again 🧡🧡🧡

omg i'm so sorry, i needed to make & eat dinner, but i'm here now 😭 yeahhh, it's probably cos it's a 40k fic 🤡 i can NEVER reblog the original post either on mobile, but it works on desktop !!

nevertheless, thank u so much for sharing all ur thoughts like 🥺 THEY'RE NEVER TOO MUCH !!!! i don't even know where to start. but gosh, the fact that you mentioned how it's still somewhat unique makes me so so happy, because i sometimes feel bad when someone praises atrw's plot, cos it's not TRULY mine. but u said it's the way i wrote it down and captured the emotions that u love so much and that's !!!! SO SO damn kind of u to say :(((

UGHHHH the snow and sun and sunset, that takes me back fr. the nostalgia 😭 and the "you factor"? idk why but this really got to me, bcos it's so beautifully phrased, so gosh truly, thank u for all ur words. every single time u send an ask or leave a review, my heart lights up :((( and ily :(( <3

[freetobeafcknriot]

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tuo!! hello dearie! <3 sorry for not answering sooner, uni has been tough all week :c thank you for asking though!

📷. What is a headcanon you have about your own work?

i hope i didn't misinterpret the question, but━ okay in my head, 90% of my works are all connected. yes, this includes fanfics from different fandoms: sometimes i even sneak in a little reference or a mini cameo that only i (mostly) can spot because i honestly find it funny and kind of cute for my otps to cross paths without noticing, okay? unless it's a very unique au we're talking about (idk for example, 'crescendo' and 'unpredictability' can't take place in the same universe or storyline if you will because the first one's a fix-it of 15x19 while the other one completely ignores 15x19; however, both of them can be linked to all my other non/midam fanfics etc.), they're all a big ohana lmfao.

📷 Do you have any WIPs that you would never let see the light of day? If yes, what are they about?

yeees, i do! i have a wip that is kind of a comfort fic / story i keep adding little bits to whenever i feel lonely or sad, so it’s not really directed towards anyone else but me. talking about characters and ships that the people i usually interact with on here know, yes to that too! i have a midam au that i’d be reluctant to post and am working on for fun (there is a lot of worldbuilding and stuff to adapt and i always get carried away with these things, they're my cup of tea). maybe something will come out of it eventually, sooner or later, but━we'll see.

📷 What do you like most about your own writing?

i'm a bit self-conscious about my writing ━ mostly when it's stuff written in english, though it's not exactly out of my comfort zone it surely takes more effort ━ but i'd say i like how i express emotions and the feelings that link two or more characters. without interrupting or slowing the scene down, that is: it's all in their gestures and body language, in the tone of their voice or in the eyes, etc. (along with what goes on in their head and heart of course). we're humans, i think we're meant to feel for others in a way, to form a connection. so whether it's sadness, frustration, love, an erratic mixture of multiple stuff at once, conveying emotions as real as i possibly can is kind of my thing. comes with having a sort of oniric writing style and being the empathetic type i guess, but i read my own fics sometimes, and it always satisfies me when i can feel the tension or in general, i can not only see the characters but also feel them.

fanfic ask game

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B4, B6, C3 for the fanfic asks 🌼

Thank you for the ask! 🌺

Who is your current favourite author? What is their best story?

Oh God. I love and hate this question because I don't want to single someone out. I follow so many amazing fic authors for whose stories I'd immediately abandon my real life activities (and already have in the past). I can't just choose one so I won't. These are in no particular order:

@kckenobi is one of those amazing writers and I always run to AO3 as fast as I possibly can whenever she's uploaded yet another incredible piece of art. Every single one of her stories is painful and renders me speechless in their own way. I can't judge which is the best story because they're all fantastic but Light to lean on or Six Feet under have a special place in my heart.

@katierosefun 's multichapter fics are something I look forward to every week and I'm already dreading the day they'll be finished because they never disappoint or fail to captivate me. Simply amazing. I love THG and TCW so really, ever in our favor, is a treat and was basically written for me and to these memories is a different kind of heartbreak every chapter. Still it leaves me craving for more.

I really have to control myself not to geek out.

I'm adding loose stitches and holes by @.katierosefun and @.kckenobi because they're...something else and I'm still not over it and technically it's a collab so I'm using it as an excuse. Now these two stories are arguably their best work because both their writing styles just match perfectly. I didn't expect the feast I would get but I literally lost it when they posted those fics and cried a tiny bit when reading it. Freaking heartbreaking and mesmerizing. (ahhh shit I did geek out a bit)

Now @lazarusii 's stories are holding my heart in a stronghold (collection of Obi-Wan/Ahsoka fics) and especially In the Depths of the Wind and Rain lives in my mind rent free. I've only read it once or twice so far because it's so heavy and emotional and idk if I'm strong enough to feel that kind of pain again but damn I catch myself thinking about it every once in a while. I was hesitant to read it at first because it was tagged as horror and hell am I glad I took the risk because it's the definition of beautifully tragic and dreadful. I love it.

Last but not least @revenge-of-the-shit 's Disconnected Conduit has me geeking out every new chapter and the idea in itself is so fleshed-out and cinematic that I ask myself again and again where the plot idea's are coming from and if I can be let in on the secret. The story is unique and it makes me lose my mind half the time because I wanna see it on screen although the author is doing an amazing job storytelling wise so I feel like I know what everything looks like anyway. I've never read anything like it before and I lose myself in it every time.

What is your favorite story trope? Why?

FOUND FAMILY! If it is even a trope. As I said before idk how this works. But found family and angst are my favorite things to read about. Because, well, they're the most entertaining. They make me feel all warm and fuzzy but also fill me with dread. I'm a sucker for pain if any of you didn't already know that and found family with angst gives me a hurt/comfort vibe even if the fic is hurt/no comfort.

Is there anything that makes you nope out of a story? What is it?

1. The use of endearments like babe, baby, honey.

2. Too big paragraphs.

3. Hello, my name is... (you get my point)

4. First person (I just can't read first person in Fanfiction)

5. Also smut because... I don't like it and I don't get it :'D

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Thanks for tagging me :)

Man and that TikTok cover is so freaking pretty

1 favorite piece of clothing you own?

Hmm I've gotta say my jacket that used to belong to my grandfather. He used to wear it all the time and now it's a nice way to keep him close to me. Also a sweatshirt that someone dear to me made for me

2 comfort food

Ok so I HAVE had authentic Chinese food when I was staying with my friends in China - some of it was so delicious and there was one thing I discovered there which became my favorite food - but for COMFORT food absolutely nothing beats that cheap americanized 'chinese food' you get at mall food courts or little shops in sketchy neighborhoods. There's nothing like some orange chicken and noodles to just,,,, idk provide comfort I guess

3 favorite time of year

Autumn. The weather is perfect and the trees are beautiful and all my favorite clothes are best suited for autumn. Also my favorite holiday is Halloween and I just love the vibes around Halloween time and the decorations and everything

4 favorite song

Oohs and Ahhs by needtobreathe - not only bc it was a big part of my life when I was going through a tough time but also because of all the interesting things the band did with it. They made three or four versions of the song and they're all so unique and interesting it's really inspiring as a musician. The four versions x x x x

Then there's these two unreleased tracks by Betcha - Oh to Be Your Only One and Who Knows. I can't really describe why I love oh to be so much I just do. And then Who Knows really resonates with me lyrically.

I really could go on forever like I wish I could name the entire discographies of Matt Maeson and Two Door Cinema Club and Phoebe Bridgers and Betcha and Amber Run etc etc etc but yeah

5 do you collect anything?

I don't really actively collect them but I have a small collection of what I like to call 'weird music boxes.' They're not really weird I guess they just can serve different purposes than just being music boxes. I also have those pressed penny things

6 favorite drink?

Tea, eggnog, chai and this one very specific kind of juice from a local store

7 favorite fics

Feral by atmd888 - a Rogue x Logan from X-Men fanfic - I love the relationship development and the exploration of Rogue's mind - it's so well done I've read it all the way through at least 3 times

Promises of a Living Wife by Eriksangelofmusic4ever - a Christine x Erik from Phantom of the Opera fanfic - au where the plot of Love Never Dies kinda??? happens except Christine runs away with Erik instead of thinking he's dead

Don't Be Afraid, I Feel It Too by FlowerChickie - a Rey x Kylo Ren/Ben Solo from Star Wars fic - I'm pretty sure the author wrote most of it after only the first movie in the sequel trilogy came out and man they developed their relationship/romance so freaking well uhg it was beautiful

drink up your movements (still i can’t get enough) by NeverMessWithTeddyBears

I was looking through my Google doc where I save all my favorite fics and Someone to Stay was also on there lol.

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thanks @donnas-troia 💕

1. favourite piece of clothing you own?

a streamer merch shirt from a twitch streamer xellle (gaxelle on yt). if you're looking for star wars and marvel fan reactions, that's where you should go.

2. your comfort food?

oh MAN i love food, that's a whole damn list lol but to name a few:

- lasagna. my mom's lasagna is always nice, but i have a special soft spot for the frozen lasagna i first tried when i was 8 years old.

- a good pepperoni/meat lovers pizza.

- la mian noodles from this one place in town. no scallions, no oil, just a bit of light broth at the bottom of the bowl. i love the taste of the plain noodles as they are.

- xiao long bao aka soup dumplings. always a fave.

- a bag of peanut butter m&ms.

- a bag peanut nips (peanuts thinly coated in chocolate and candy shells) but i can't find a place that sells it anymore.

- fish and chips. battered, with tartar sauce and a slice of lemon.

3. fav time of the year?

when the new comics get released? christmas? in terms of seasons, i'm okay with summer since i live in a tropical country, but i wouldn't mind a bit of winter and snow every once in a while too.

4. fav song?

i love SO many songs. but to name a few...

do the talking - lucidious

home - x ambassadors, bebe rexa, machine gun kelly

unstoppable - the score

do ya wanna taste it - wig wam

death, death (devil, devil, evil, evil songs) - aurelio voltaire

we are young - fun

this december - ricky montgomery

also this one vid on tiktok is now my new comfort track:

5. do you collect something?

rage, social anxiety and insecurity. oh, also comic books, pokemon cards, etc.

6. fav drink?

milo, ice peach tea, ribena, etc.

7. fav fanfiction (if you are comfortable to share)?:

wonderdove -- It's a Wonderful Solstice by AnnCherie

frenchie x kimiko -- Someone to stay by fandammit

zaray -- Time Will Tell by StarryBlackSky

titans (not really ship related) -- Look At How My Tears Ricochet by Not_So_Mundane_After_All_97

tagging: @not-so-mundane-after-all-97 @wilder-fangirl @theheroofhorseshoebay @bestavengerromanova @scorpio-karma @joyscott13 @wonderbatwayne @caitlinsnow-yayyy @fefaachicago

[inactive-syub]

any tips on writing sex scenes? you write some of the most unique sex scenes I've read because they're so detailed and the way you write is both hot and dirty but also emotional which I feel like most writers chose either or. also it feels so realistic, and very idk in the moment? I really appreciate the lack of kinks bc this fandom is so kink obsessed so ur fics are a nice break. and for someone who writes so much sex, it never feels boring or repetitive which is a huge feat.

oh wow, i am rly honoured tbh, thank u so much??? this got kinda long bc i got excited, lmao, but i rly hope it helps and definitely don’t be afraid to ask if you’ve got any more questions, or want me to elaborate more on any points here. i rly love helping ppl w their writing if i can!

the small details. the small things rly make a smut scene kinda more intimate and whatnot, and usually the smaller things aren’t so sexual, so it’s probably what’s often missing from a lot of more heavily kink focused pwp bc there’s already so much going on, it’s hard to remember to include those little extras. but like, it could be, idk, a kiss on the cheek that seems so weirdly innocent in the moment, or hand-holding, or something said, something that’s more personal to the couple. it’s rly something u need to think about in relation to each scene specifically bc these things will always be different, for every pairing, every story, etc.

emotions. i guess some writers kinda focus on the physical sensations when writing smut and forget about the actual emotions the characters are feeling. for me, in my writing, i rly view smut as a whole emotional experience and like, sex usually is. i’m not saying it’s always a huge, meaningful, soul-ascending thing, but even if it’s just elation and a sense of freedom, the rush of excitement that comes from fucking a stranger, those are still emotions, y’know, if they’re not described, your reader isn’t going to know they’re there and they will sense something missing, even if they don’t know what it is. a lot of the time, i’ll write the smut first, i’ll write plain nastiness, focusing on the physical, then i’ll go back over the scene and add the feelings, just so i can spend some extra time w them, lmao.

dialogue. this is rly important to me and it’s something i get complimented on a lot, managing to work humour and stuff into a sex scene. so, when i say dialogue, i don’t mean “dirty talk” bc dirty talk is kind of a kink? it’s not something all couples necessarily enjoy and are good at? so, i usually like to inject a random bout of bickering over the position or something instead, and it makes the characters more relatable and less like porn actors, y’know. i think writers worry about that spoiling the “mood”, but personally, i don’t think it does.

choreography. there’s nothing weirder than reading a sex scene and not being able to visualise where their limbs are and who’s straddling who and are they still standing or are they on the bed now? no, wait, they’re against the wall?? so, u literally need to choreograph it in your head. you don’t need to write every move they make, but be constantly aware in your own mind of what position they’re in and then drop little hints and details into your narrative to keep your reader updated on their main movements, y’know. like, idk if you read my fic “old habits”, but i rly made a map for that at one point to get them from the door through the apartment to the bed, just to see what obstacles i could throw in and stuff :’)

lastly, sex is gross. u didn’t exactly ask about this, but i wanted to mention it anyway bc i get so mad when sex is over-romanticised. it’s rly a sticky and sweaty and often kinda clumsy process and it’s okay to draw attention to that because that is sex. you can’t say it’s unsexy bc it’s literally what sex is, u know what i mean? and including stuff like that is another aspect that makes it more “real” and relatable, i think.

i actually think those first four aspects especially are the main things that can make a sex scene unique, so keep that in mind, too, maybe. because, like, they’re gonna be totally different for every ship and every story and even every scene, so. they’ll rly set each smut scene apart for you, i think. 

god, i hope i made sense, it’s like 2:00AM :’)

anyway, on a more personal note, making every smut scene i write unique is something i worry about a lot and struggle with and rly strive towards, so you coming in here and saying that rly made my day. thank you so much, and i hope i helped you!

[bonesandthebees]

Honey and tangerines!! The beach town setting is so beautiful, and the visuals in my head are making me want to sketch this.

The descriptive phrases like "passenger in his own mind" and "giant machine that ebbed and flowed" which are sprinkled all throughout the chapter are so beautiful! I absolutely live for connections and metaphors and these were such a delight to read. I love your writing.

Tommy's awkwardness around Phil was so understandable and, sort of natural in it's depiction? You really nailed the feeling, and even other things such as the atmosphere around Wilbur being off but also not quite completely bad, and the odd feeling Tommy has around everyone of liking them but not quite feeling at home.

Can we talk about the beach description? Yes. Literally beautiful.

Puffy!! Tommy once again chooses to work in an establishment run by Puffy and we're here for it. Your writing of her character is so pleasing, the reasonable yet understanding vibe is so sweet. I can't wait to see how that goes.

And of course, Tubbo! The chaotic feels their duo has was there right from the start. I mean, a fireball thrower? I'm instantly sold hahah

The vibe of this fic feels so, calm and chill in a way that most slice of life settings do, and it's really nice to see that after high stakes settings such as stars! I do like your rendition of this as well, and the natural feel of it all is so pleasant. Thank you for the chapter!!

What made you come up with this particular beach town setting, and what inspired you to write this? I'm so curious because it's rather different from your usual fics but it's still so fun to read. <3<3

Hugs and cookies, hope you have a good day :D

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aa thank you for the kind words snowflake!! i love using fun metaphors like that in my writing and i'm trying to do more of that because it's still not a method i'm super used to, so i'm glad you like those lines :)

very glad i got the awkward atmosphere across. it's not fear necessarily, but more just that tense anxiety. this place is nice, but he's still new and out of place and it's just making things a bit strange. he just needs time to adjust!

i love writing puffy as just this very understanding and kind boss, plus I thought of the mcpuffy's reference and thought it was too fun not to include. and yes tubbo is very chaotic as always, i've missed clingyduo they're so good

well, I came up with the beach town setting mostly because I live in a beach town. I'm a southern california native, and while I didn't grow up in a beach town, I've been living near the coast for most of my adult years so far so it's an atmosphere I'm quite familiar with at this point. I thought just a sleepy small beach town really fit the vibes and aesthetic I wanted to have with this fic, and so far i'm really enjoying writing it!

the initial concept for this fic popped in my head when I had a very out of the blue realization that my ex-stepbrother, who I haven't seen in over a decade, is the same age as cc!wilbur. idk what sparked that realization, it occurred to me and then that got me thinking about my ex-stepbrother again, and the few attempts we made to reconnect which never really lead anywhere. then I started thinking, 'man, that's a unique dynamic I haven't seen written in a crimeboys fic before' so I started brainstorming the idea into a story lol.

I've also been wanting to write a fic that feels like a coming of age style indie movie with a lot of calm slice of life vibes for ages now because I love that genre, and my fic vanderlyle crybaby cry was my first attempt at that, but it ended up being far more serious than I originally intended it to be. I'm still really proud of the end product, but it's not what I initially set out to do. the similarities between honey and vanderlyle though is that there's a lot of projection of my irl experiences onto the story itself, but heavily exaggerated to create a more compelling story and to differentiate it from myself. like vanderlyle!wilbur's struggles were based off my own crisis with uni i had in my junior year, but my mental health at that point in my life didn't get as bad as wilbur's is depicted in the fic. for honey, while I like the idea of reconnecting with my ex-stepbrother, I don't have a super strong desire to do that. also, I don't hold any resentment towards my ex-stepfather and never wished he stayed with my mother, unlike honey!tommy who definitely has some unresolved issues regarding phil.

so basically my inspo was a combination of projection and wanting to write a coming of age indie slice of life fic lmao