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What if Jon was left handed until his hand ended up burned by Jude Perry and he was forced to end up using his right hand because his left never quite worked as well after as it used to? Like his ability to use his hand is just another part the fears have taken from him
#jonathan sims#tma#the magnus archives#jude perry#tma headcanons#tma textpost#tulip talks#jon slowly realizing over time that oh this isnt going to heal back to how it used to be#that its never going away completely and will always be a permanent reminder of the pain he suffered for someone else's enjoyment#maybe he used to enjoy things like typing or cooking or just things that generally need two hands#but now his enjoyment is tainted by the pure frustration of his hand not doing what he knows it used to be able to do#Idk just jon becoming disabled and dealing with the frustrations and challenges that come with it#idk if any of this makes sense its 4am and I havent slept yet
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time to make your choice only you can be the one
#undescribed#bonk.png#ggg#great god grove#great god grove spoilers#ggg spoilers#<- bc of king n hand gesturing stuff for the au this one gets the spoiler tag#caption is a line from legend of everfree from eg movie of the same name bc its now linked to ggg for me bc of brainrot#first au stuff i dont like have anything really planned out n also dont really plan on doing anything with this beyond doodles#settled on inspekta being a horse bc i want him capochin patty n king to all be earth ponies bc of like permanent having it ingrained from#being an mlp fan as a kid that earth ponies are seen as less special bc they cant use magic or fly n that fits for story similarities#bc inspekta n capochin hating on patty for projection reasons AND inspekta's replacement anxiety n envy of king who in the au#is the only other earth pony lined up to become an alicorn (bc again being specifically an fim fan since i was a kid ingrained in with fanon#that ponies that become alicorns are almost exclusively pegasus or unicorn bc of earth ponies not having as clear of a connection to magic)#in my mind patty is the main character like the bizzyboys are also main characters but its like how the mane six are the main six but#twilight is the MAIN main character its like that n then godpoke is her sidekick (like spike ig but like mysterious stranger style <- idk#what i mean by this) she gets to be the protag bc the type of character godpoke is in the game n how im fitting them to be in the au doesnt#really work for a protag role while patty can be more readily slotted into mlp protag shes the only bizzyboy who cares about solving in the#game (as shown in hobbyhoo) n i like her so she gets to be the protag v-v inspekta is still doing the whole like shit from the game just in#a different way bc of mlp related restrictions n tone differences. the episode where luna goes to nightmare night after being freshly reform#ed walked so milldread section could run however cobigail's deal does run closer to that episode that to the game counterpart but like witho#ut cob having been banished for a thousand years theres no rift in the au bc its. mlp so sort of vague direction is related to the tree of#harmony n like maybe thats how inspekta powers up for the two parter transformation. a thought i had for a workaround for how inspekta keeps#king isolated was maybe turning king to stone n hiding her in plain sight but while that would slide in mlp (they turn a child to stone in t#he series finale apparently??) it leaves a bad taste in my mouth from the ggg angle so probably gonna do something else#art comments both inspekta n cobigail's pony names are taken from ponies i already had inspekta's comes from a different mlpied thing#n cobigail's comes from a fankid (spelled like kandi corn tho bc fankid's a rave girlie) the rest of the gods get to keep their names aside#from maybe bauhauzzo (whos role is undecided) huzzle n click clack arent ponies bc i felt it suited them more huzzle gets to be discordesc#bc i think its fun if like this versions god of chaos wasnt evil BUT that angle is used as slander against huzzle by inspekta#n click clack's a breezy bc small n bratty (we will be ignoring that breezies are mortal if i remember right bc thats not relevant)
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Gonna say something controversial.
Ford Pines is a nuanced character who is neither good nor bad. Absolving him of his crimes is actively a detriment to his character and does a disservice to the storytelling of Gravity Falls, but defining him exclusively by his mistakes without taking the time to understand him is a purposefully bad faith take that actively makes your enjoyment of the show worse.
He is neither a good or bad person, because "good" people and "bad" people aren't real. There's just people. And people fuck up sometimes.
If no one fucked up and if no one held onto those fuckups sometimes out of sheer desperation, the world of fiction would be way more boring, unengaging, and dull.
Ford Pines is a mess and I don't want him to be sanitized or demonized. I just want him to be a mess.
Thank you
#sorry someone keeps sending bad ford takes into a server i'm in and they're getting to me#he's a prideful and arrogant man and also deeply insecure and compensating for that with ego#he wants to be a good person and do the right thing while accepting influence from the worst people in his life because he respects them#he's placed his entire self worth on a pedistal because everyone else held him to that bar#and he'll never reach it because he keeps putting it up higher and higher before he even can#like he coulda published his research at any time but chose not to because he wanted to make a wave in science so big he couldn't be ignore#he felt like if he wasn't someone extraordinary then there was no point to him at all because he cannot be ordinary#it's either excel or be outcasted. and he was done being outcasted#so he used that to build himself up as compensation for that looming feeling#and as a result he tried to reach up as high as he could and took bad deals#bill made it clear; it's the hillbilly or me. he's going to betray you. and as soon as ford thought bill was right it was joever#bill manipulated him onto that train of thought but he ultimately made that call at Greasy's that night#that's the fun part! there's the nuance!!#ford wouldn't have acted that way without bill's influence but bill did not actively tell him to treat fidds like that#it's so interesting because it's so layered and intertwined. so many variables rely on each other to happen.#this is a good man pushed in the worst direction possible by a being who intends him harm and ford is nonethewiser until it's too late#idk why it's controversial to say that i like my ford messy but here we are. i like him messy. he's not an angel but he's not a demon eithe#he's a goddamn human and the show treats him like one#journal 3 and TBOB also support this. hell TBOB's entire *point* was to show how bill managed to manipulate him#and show the horrors that came after. then it showed us that ford has nothing to be ashamed of there. it's not his fault#no one in his family blames him or thinks he's stupid for falling for bill. why do some people think he is or think TBOB thinks he is?#i dont get it#dimond speaks
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I still don't think Ben did anything wrong during "Duped." He deserves to do normal teenage boy stuff like see a movie on opening day, and he was trying to give himself that while also saving the world AND supporting his girlfriend's tennis match. He didn't spend enough time with his duplicates to realize that they had opposing personalities to their assignments — it's not like he sent his asshole-self to Julie's match on purpose.
#ben 10#ben tennyson#tbh julie's match is the least important thing in that episode to me#how often does ben get to take time for himself??#sumo slammers is pretty much his ONLY interest since he doesn't have time for anything else#he had to stop playing soccer and he has to shut down his whole house just to play a fucking video game#LET THE MAN SEE A MOVIE FOR ONCE!!#i also do not care that ben didn't pause his game to take a phone call with julie for this exact reason#he's a teenager it's literally not a big deal if he's kind of a jerk to his girlfriend#should he be? no but he also shouldn't be saving the world he's 16#he SHOULD be seeing that movie#he's a kid his relationships just aren't that deep idk why the fandom has such a problem with them
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Hey y'all! Do you have any advice about hazards to look out for in older houses? Like, what kind of testing do you need to do before renovations for formaldehyde, asbestos, lead paint, stuff like that, especially before moving into a house? Context: my dad is looking to possibly move into a smaller house, and he found listings for older houses (one he looked at today part of the house was over 100 years old) but then was talking about possibly needing to remodel a kitchen and I am not sure that will be as easy as he thinks it will? Older houses have different problems but I do not know enough about it
#the person behind the yarn#I think I have convinced my dad he does need a home inspection before buying a house#but idk what specific thing to suggest for the testing before construction projects#and like. after the multiple incidents of my mom either accidentally kinda poisoning herself or almost doing so#(which is a different but related problem. that's the 'natural does not necessarily mean safe' problem)#I do try to research potential hazards for my parents BEFORE it's an issue just in case#because if they mention it and I know off the top of my head what the problem is they usually believe me#also: just in case anyone else did not know this#don't eat raw elderberries. no matter how good a deal you get on them they need cooked first
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okay this is all based on thoughts i’m throwing together like a wendy’s soda fountain nightmare potion. but my theory is that the forbidden ones are only able to be summoned in places where the veil is thin, on account of their immense power and their being imprisoned deep in the fade by the evanuris. based on encounters with the forbidden ones, examples of such places are:
- kirkwall (xebenkeck). we know this for certain, as the veil being thin there is the reason behind kirkwall’s bullshit city planning and the fact that a lot of blood magic and possession happens there. the ancient tevinters who built the city did so specifically in a way that would allow them to take advantage of the thin veil and further wear it down so that they could do powerful blood magic there, presumably planning to summon xebenkeck, who is later actually summoned by tahrone
- emprise du lion (imshael): okay i’m not 100 that imshael was summoned in emprise du lion. but that’s where it’s encountered. it was summoned by keeper thelhen of clan virnehn in 9:40 and bound and then later michel released it. but a) emprise du lion is known to be a place where the veil is thin (as evidenced by a number of things while exploring there), and b) i don’t know where thelhen summoned imshael and i’ve given up trying to dig through the masked empire to figure out where specifically clan virnehn was located at the time. but i think celene and co. went southeast from halamshiral, which is where emprise du lion is. gave myself a headache with this one
- the grand necropolis (the formless one): this tracks. it’s full of wisps and spirits and demons. i don’t remember if it’s specifically mentioned that the veil is thin there but like it seems pretty likely. the formless one has been locked in the necropolis since the storm age. unclear how it got there or who summoned it but it sure is in there and also possessing a high dragon’s corpse which emmrich was sure to remind me every time i died and had to restart the fight against it. which was a lot
this all lines up with that theory well enough. right. which leaves us with:
- the middle of denerim apparently (gaxkang): is there any evidence that gaxkang actually was summoned/got into the mortal world in whatever way in denerim? not really. just the note from an unnamed guy saying that he “heard the same tales as a lad in denerim, felt the same pull” re: gaxkang, implying that it’s set up shop there, and that’s also where we fight it. but allegedly it has been jumping from body to body for millennia and thus has probably traveled all over ferelden if not all of thedas. there’s no reason for it to have stayed in one place unless it can’t go anywhere the veil is thicker (which could be something but is an idea based on almost nothing). HOWEVER the point of this post is i think the the veil being particularly thin in denerim would be really funny
#denerim thin veil andraste’s birthplace something whatever idk andrastian lore someone else figure that out#also the demons haunting the alienage. Something there#seriously though what the fuck is gaxkang’s deal. what’s up with his ‘kingdom’ and ‘throne’#how did gaxkang get out of fade jail millennia ago before blood magic started being practiced#i guess that’s why he’s ‘the unbound’ but now i have more questions#xebenkeck and imshael are desire demons. gaxkang is a revenant which is a demon possessing a corpse and likely also a desire demon#fuck if i know about the formless one but that hatemail was pretty funny#anyway something something the forbidden ones are all spirits that abandoned their corporeal (elvhen) forms and became desire demons#after they were banished to the fade by the evanuris as punishment and then stewed in being pissed off enough to be turned into demons#why did i do all this#anyway i got here because i was researching thalsian. that rabbit hole is fucking insane btw#dragon age#dragon age meta#eliasposts
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It's missing my father hours rn so imma just dump a bunch of pictures here and cry
( sorry i don't know the source of anything I just had them on my phone)
(also dont read the tags i just need to let it out lol)
#I just realized I can call him dad easier than my real dad and now I understand why am I so damn attached to him#I always knew he was a parental figure for me#but now I connected the dots#How when u have an absent dad and a d34d mom a guy shows up in ur life#that tells u life advice that both of ur parents failed to do so#and makes u feel safe the first time in ur life#ofc ud become attached#i know for sure its unhealthy how much i love and miss him#he occupies most of my thoughts honestly#But how could i not cling to him so much when he was the only one who gave me hope in life#i try to keep going and even tho he is not here i keep telling myself whatever he taught me. i keep reminding myself he wants us to live an#bloom and be free#and that's what ill try to do#but you know somedays i wish i could just disappear and be wrapped in eternal happiness#its so fucking hard to pull yourself out of the slump man im so fucking tired im so so tired#somedays i wish id have the courage to off myself but i know that deep down i want to live and ive always wanted to live but i have no idea#how to live. i feel like i finally found a purpose and someone i love. but at the same time im always doubting myself and im scared of losi#g this little hope again and i know i should cherish and use it instead but each day i have this anxiety because rn i have nothing else if#lose this i seriously will lose everything atp. but ill still try bc rn its this or death so i should try im just damn tired yes anyways#sorry for being depressing some days just dont work out but thats okay#yes at the same time i want to get out of my head and try to find some friends but i cant deny that im highkey fucked up and i just cant le#go of my past and i still feel like that helpless unloved kid and idk how to form relationships this way. i dont trust myself at all so idk#how to trust others. and i feel like in order to find ppl that would love me i have to overshare abt my whole lifestory bc it still dictate#my life heavily. and since i met this band its better cuz im learning to deal w it and i want to heal from everything but yes at the same t#me who would wqnt to be friends w. someone that has like a year of life experience and 18 years of depression lol#so yes its complicated. bc i have friends but im like the funny friend. the one that is as shallow as puddle and has no problems but honest#y im genuinely sufferint qnd have been sufferinz all my life so i want to come out of my funny friend role. but that wojld mean i have to t#ll the shit i went through to all my friends but tbh it would be so random so ye. i do have a plan though. how it could work. But yes im ti#ed have been tired for 7 years now. But this time around i hope i can successfully get out of this torture cycle lol.#ok sorry this is what happens after puberty guys i could beva research case for a damn mental institute atp xdd
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So funny that the people who talk about how if they were faced with the trolley problem they would simply derail the trolley and kill everyone hahaha funny lol. Well now they’re abstaining from voting in the US election
#if nothing else. vote for the US government you’ll best be able to protest and actually make change for#like no offence but the democrats aren’t great. but also trump wanted to get the military out to deal with BLM protesters. with real guns.#idk how you think you’ll be able to cause fundamental actual change in your country if your president reacts like that to *peaceful* protest#also idk how this goes over so many peoples heads but. you can do multiple things at once#you can protest and cause change and get involved in local government and you can vote! two things are possible
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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children#In everything I do#Like legit#I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her#And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything#But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious#Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life#But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends#While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury#And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline#Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else#It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk#It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything#But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently#And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians#I’d be so mad#And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief#For losing their loved ones#This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit#This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow#And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything#Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal#And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just#Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off.#Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night#I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this#Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do#or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up#I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think#p
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anton belongs to @poicyss
#someone help them LMAO#im all kinds of panic induced stress rn so. woe pregant auggie be upon ye#shes very excited but also extremely fucking nervous and couldnt think of any other way to break the news#also because how do you deal with the spawn of a literal shadow creature. what the fuck do u do#im sure theyve probably discussed the possibility of being parents once in a while but not like actually intended to conceive#idk much else though ive never been pregnant. shrugs#i think her bump is probably smaller bc vincent forms as a dog before he takes on human form a couple months after being born#so the fetus is smaller.. although its more obvious when shes in her animal form so she doesnt transform while pregnant just in case#can you tell ive thought abt this a normal amount#my art#myart#doodles#my oc#friend oc#augusta#anton#suggestive#?#i mean kinda..? its implied this is after they boink but not much else#oc lore
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i rly struggle w being so attuned to peoples emotions and taking these feelings on as my own like i'm in like a state of hypervigilance and alertness and it ruins my lifee
#like im not being funny but is this what an empath is#like ik we're all like this on some level#but genuinely all my life i feel like i am so affected by the emotions around me like more than anyone else n idk how to deal w it#like its so exhausting and like on a real not my business a lot of the time bc theres nothing i can do abt these situations#diary#tiyas thoughts
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Being a Black fan of Jason Todd is one of the most exhausting experiences I've ever had within fandom.
And I was a K-Pop for 12 years.
#Jace says#Jason Todd#Gonna tag but I don't feel good tagging#Either way#I rly had to latch onto the white boy that is constantly being thrown into narratives about how he's some unique evil when he is...#...at best a fucking nuisance#Yeah that's a major oversimplification#Most of Jason's post res pre 52 appearances are him being a menacing villain#But then you realize it's because he's constantly being thrown into OTHER people's titles as the antagonist#And he has to be an antagonizing force#Since he's the antagonist#And that's how storytelling works#Can't have a conflict without an antagonist#Until you realize he's here to deal with a worst evil#And because he's chosen to do that by acting as a villain#You see what I'm saying here?!#Jason by virtue of being the bad guy has to be menacing and a threat#He has to introduce tension into the story or else he might as well just be another hero#But when you actually look at his actions he'a not this great evil the narrative keeps building him up as#Yeah he kills people#So what?!#So does Batman#And guess what?!#9/10 Jason shows up and starts killing people it's because those people represent a worst evil he's decided needs to go#Idk#Point is that intersectionality is A Thing^TM
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Im not even sticking around for the drama that stuff gives me heart diseases im just here to see where this guys gonna lead us and to make fun of him if it ends up bad and ignore it if it was good
#That one tweet the good sir made abt comparing the stories (potential) ending to onk's lifted one of my eyebrows now im intrigued#Ive always had issues with it since I started it lmao#its good at making people think unfortunately theres just 1 too many flaws in how it executes it now were here#Like i said if he really wanted this to nail the landing its should've just been a multiple choice video game / visual novel / whatever#Not only will we get to see the other routes we'll have more things to discuss with eachother#and the fandom is less likely to turn into a political argument twitter esque cesspool#Like i understand why a live big audience like this was chosen; The IRREVERSIBLE Community Voting nails the 'This is what you wanted'#idea home; where all participants who are interested are directly put in the chair of Jury & Judge & even though YOUR idea might seem good#not everyone would agree with it#Like its good on paper but seriously it wouldve worked better if it just focussed on 1 guy per viewing like idk disco Elysium or umineko or#any other well known well thought out ''Your actions & thoughts have consequences'' games#Like you put 10 (/11) characters in the spotlight & youre supposed to figure out everyones deal and judge them correctly#but we cant do that when theres 1. only 3 chances to change the direction of their development / get deeper insight#2. They dont even exist outside of the main attraction which are the mvs#3. They can just die unsatisfyingly without any conclusion to their arcs or explanations if the audience fucks it up badly#Like what are you gonna do when this story finishes? Make it a time loop to give the audience another chance to explore their characters?#Umineko no naku koro ni can be downloaded for free through umineko-project.org or purchased through steam or bought physically from a game-#nillas#vanili powder#i love having hatred in my heart I needed something else to make fun of after Mashima ended EZ like that#I can make fun of episode 8 but im too much of a coward to rlly point things out As Of Now so mlgrm going out in flames woukd be fun#im not saying it Should id love it if a miracle can occur and save its issues thats been there since the premise but yea. I dont think so.#anti milgram
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6/09 • Day 1 • Past or Future
A Glimpse into the Past

Also quick edit!!! These kid designs are of Alfonse, Triandra, Peony (Sharena) and Sharena (Peony)! Unsure on ages, just. Ambiguously small LMFAO (sorry if I wasn't clear enough! I forgor.)
Well, I may not have been able to make time on my big piece, but I do have these concepts/roughs I made for it! Only focusing on the most important parts of each design, which is why the clothes are left blank lmfao
Something I've been headcanoning for a looong time is that the girls who'd become fairies had slightly different appearances, as humans/children. The biggest reason behind it is to make the changeling shenanigans more believable -- I can accept mistaking a blonde/orange for a blonde/pink, especially if there's no reason to think otherwise. Maybe it's a trick of the light. But I draw the line at your sister inexplicably having lavender eyes every now and again when they're supposed to be green LMFAOOO
If Lif can have red eyes, Totally Not Sharena Peony, as we know her, can have lavender eyes. After becoming something not quite human. Before then she gets blueish-green eyes. Which has the same effect as the orange being juuuust slightly off but like why would you ever think about that!!!!!
Some other thoughts:
> I like to think that Triandra and Peony/Sharena are half sisters, which is why she stands out a bit.
> I also like the idea that Triandra and Alfonse have some visual similarities, too. Mostly in the hair, both having somewhat androgynous styles, with a waviness to it. There's a sense of familiarity, in foggy memories.
@sharenaweek
#SharenaWeek2024#fire emblem#feh#the big piece was waayyy more sharena/peony centric....... like it included all four but the focus was def on her 🥲#also more of a memory so like. well i got something else in mind for change of fate anyway 🫡#also can you believe. this was such a huge deal to me. can you believe i specifically went out to buy a very specific pencil#for peony's hair gradient/color. like. if you've been here a while You Know. the trials and tribulations#that have been me trying to get peony right. and esppp for this version of her that's more pink leaning orange#i just. did not have the right pencils in my arsenal for her.#i feel like i'm a lot closer now though. only thing about this design that nags at me is the fact she looks less like henriette#like i DO like having the darker/aquamarine almost blue eyes as a solution. bc it's an easy thing to miss#in the same vein as the orange/pink. and if you look through specific/esp older feh comics#you can see some sharenas that do have darker/more blue leaning eyes!#idk though how do you guys feel about it. for me the peony curse continues (but i'm getting there!)#sharena#fe peony#fe triandra#fe alfonse#my art
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every time i start to think things might be looking up with my dad some bullshit happens that makes the guilt kick right back in again
#thots et al#googles 'is it possible to save your father'#he was just starting to get more exercise and feel healthier and he says he broke his toe???#i just dont know what to do man#i already blame myself for his most recent episode because i didnt care for him enough#and im gonna blame myself for whatever happens next too#because every day i go around knowing full well my father is miserable and alone but being too selfish to care enough to visit#i just finally made a date with him too#idk man#lately not a lot makes me full-on cry but thinking of him is so fucking painful im always crying over him#i wish i knew how to deal with this#i wish i didnt have so many good memories of him despite the bad cuz then i wouldnt care#and yet... i dont care... do i?#because if i did i would do something. right?#at least thats what people say#ive never exactly understood this sort of thing#i think nothing is more terrifying than the physical degradation of old age-- nothing else scares me so much about it#but eventually you grow old and there is no one left#yet still the young shun you#yet still your own daughter shuns you
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