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saw a dying squirrel yesterday and had a bit of a breakdown
#animal death#i prayed and cried a bit#idk WHY they were dying#its not the first time i’ve seen a mysteriously dead squirrel#my dad wonders if someone is poisoning them#infucking hope not#but also i hope they arent being killed by pollution#and now its gonna live in my mind for a while#cupid.txt
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#ace!!! ft. ruggie v far in the bg. fun fact ruggie is the most commonly featured char in background cameos for the series#im not sure why. bc i do struggle drawing him. but idk he looks fun and made sense in them all so i rolled w it. ruggie sweep#also fun fact all the pics have hidden mickeys in the bg bc i am NOTHING if not dedicated. i gotta honor the source material#i rly tried to keep some level of outfit diversity in this series but it sucks bc bday outfits are hard to logically justify. and silver?#he has so few cards. so i went a lil out of the box and put him under sebek's camp jkt here. i think it tracks it works well. its cyute#silver 'tending the fire' his ass asleep. that fire is tending itself. maybe the birds will poke him if it starts dying down#the outdoor environments for this series were sooooo fun to do. i tried some new brushes and AUGH the foliage the TEXCHURR!!! yum#twst#twisted wonderland#twst silver#ace trappola#ruggie bucchi#suntails#i also think that foot belongs to jack howl on the right but i truly dont remember. i finished this roughly a month ago
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Moon 36
Moon 35 | Moon 36 bonus
#chasingmoon#clangen#chasinglore#dewcff#cranecff#mintcff#epicff#mothcff#CAN EVERYTHING STOP HAPPENING AT ONCE no#SO hello epilogue goodbye quiver#guys i did not wanna kill her the game fuckin killed her!!!#and with both moth and crane fighting rogues at the border#crane sharpening her claws#moth in a bad mood#and THEN BOTH OF THEM RUNNING INTO A LONER ON PATROL THAT THEY CHASE OFF?? AND THEN QUIVER DYING??#they fucking killed quiver the little nut cases#when i tell you that these kits were not raised right THEY WERE NOT RAISES RIGHT#the timing is so bad you all have no idea its so bad im loosing it#anyway can we stop inviting cats to the clan we already had mint why is epi here too#(i say as if he doesn't delight me)#this wasn't evern everythign that happened that moon but its as much as i have the damn energy to draw#(maybe a binus page later with the cute shit dew and mint did while training idk)#anywayss um everyone is questioning soots leadership and going behind his back :/
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Kenny and JLH saying Ryan will have good acting moments this season... Shannon coming back... Eddie having important scenes/storylines towards the end of the season... Christopher, Buck and the Diaz family all on set together in what could very well be a hospital... will reveal, near death coma dream spec... recent catholic guilt arc............. what if what if what if
#like man atp i really don't know what it can be besides eddie like dying (please don't) or being gay like. idk what else makes sense#before the video for gavins bday you could argue it'd be him moving on w/ marisol#but now??? I don't really think it can be that anymore#like why were both buck and the diaz family there#why was the diaz family there at all?????? what could've been so serious that it got them to come all the way from texas to la????#eddies gotta be on his death bed bc there's no way#I'm scared hahahaha#eddie diaz#Christopher diaz#evan buckley#diaz family#911#911 abc#911 spec#911 spoilers#buddie
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To the people who think that doctors will start treating you better if your symptoms get worse and you get sicker:
They won’t, hope that helps ❤️
#personal#being worse won’t make people who don’t care about their patients actually care about you!!!#I got BAD and they were like 🤷🏻 idk why you’re dying#everything is so much worse and fucking finally I have a new np who I think might listen to me but I don’t knowwww#they don’t believe you if your symptoms are mild#and they don’t believe you when they’re severe either#disabled#chronic illness#chronic pain#arthritis#ehlers danlos syndrome#chronically ill#postural orthostatic tachycardia syndrome
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one of my favorite things about johnny silverhand is the fact that he acknowledges that he's the 'him' in the 'i can fix him' movement. he knows nobody could resist. even saburo arasaka took a glance at him and went "lemme try."
#idk why i keep rewatching this part with him and kerry#literally a middle school girl's sleepover the way they were talking about their ex bandmate's love lives#cyberpunk 2077#johnny silverhand#v is night city's greatest legend for actually succeeding in fixing him#WHILE DYING NO LESS! boss move
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god why am i so fucking stupid. having adhd is truly a curse and i hate bearing it
#not to vent on main but. fml actually!#in my health assessment lab we had this case study assignment to do and i freaking. misunderstood all of it so bad#idk why but for some reason i thought we were supposed to make up a patient ourselves for it#…we were not#no :) we were not :) there’s a freaking. TEMPLATE for the exact patient we were supposed to do it on in the module#that i opened once and then forgot about because adhd just works like that#and now im literally . kmsing because we fucking . we fucking presented these orally in class#and i was only half paying attention bc i was (incorrectly) documenting my (made-up) patient information on the record#and i thought it was weird that like 2 or 3 people seemed to have VERY similar patients but did not question it further#…which is to say. i may be stupid.#and now i feel like dying because im gonna have to email my professor and TELL HER how stupid i am#and hope that she takes enough pity on me and my cursed brain to let me do it over properly#because my lab grade is now barely a 77 and i need a 75 to pass. and our final assessment is tomorrow.#i genuinely cannot live like this anymore im serious#i need a fucking brain transplant#anyway tl;dr guys please pray for me please please please im actually disintegrating rn#to delete later
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Can you make a tutorial on how you world build and make ocs? I can't seem to make any people in my brain, but then when I try to come up with environments jobs, beliefs and little details to slowly come up with someone, I think: well I don't really know how people have influenced the world- it's a weird loop
To be honest, I don't think I can! Writing is an extremely personal process. The way I write is directly related to how I process things, what I find important in stories, years of my own analysis of my and other's writing, etc... The way you write will be unique to you, as well. But I can explain how I personally think of it.
The short answer:
Write. Write anything and everything, it's a tool to explore your ideas. Analyze your own writing, and write more. Then, as you discover which ideas you want to develop, write more to explore them more. You won't know what you want otherwise!
The long answer:
I think this kind of loop is common. It's easy to feel like everything needs to be done "at once," because our job as writers is to make elements logically fit with each other for our readers. But as you've discovered, developing multiple elements simultaneously isn't really possible, or at least is extremely difficult.
Personally, when I think of writing, I break it into three major elements; characters, world, and plot. As much as possible every scene explores one or more of these, and as much as possible these three things tie back into what I personally consider most important: theme.
Everything I do is in service of the themes I want to present. Without them my events feel aimless. It can take a while to discover them, but they're the core of my work. You will have to discover what you feel is the core of yours. Analyzing other media helps with this too.
Concepts in your brain exist in a state of infinite potential. But when you start writing you have to start making choices, which removes potential as you move forward... But you have to move forward anyways. If there's ideas you want to explore later, you can always explore them later.
What this ends up meaning, to answer your question, is that I don't think of my characters as "people in my brain" or my worlds as something people have influenced... Not at their core, at least. They are tools that I use to represent specific ideas. Obviously they're also my blorbos, but mostly they're serving a specific narrative purpose.
So above all else... Write. Write, and discover what you're writing about, and then start over and write with that in mind. Keep doing this. But you have to write!
#I wish there were a cleaner answer to this kind of thing#and I also wish that there were a way to answer that didnt feel like 'just do it lol'#but... genuinely you kind of just have to do it!#I find it helps to reframe writing as trying to figure out which ideas I don't like#then if I write anything that feels bad to me#it's not about being a bad writer or anything like that. it's just something I dont want in my story and I delete it.#like if you find yourself naturally coming up with worldbuilding elements. its okay to just start there!#you can start like 'I really want giant mushrooms' and then start thinking about how cool that would be#and like oooh what if there were really cool caves full of mushrooms and all glowy yeaaah#then you start building people from that. colonies of fungal people or something. this is still worldbuilding#then you might think now. whats a plot that could go with this and show off my cool mushrooms.#maybe the mushrooms are all connected and the main one is dying and no one knows why. it's a classic plot.#if you still dont feel like you can find a character in that. keep going! why is it dying? how can it be saved? can it? if not then why?#etc etc etc. when I am writing I actually ltierally write out 101 questions like this as I'm going and then I answer them#and if I cant answer them. then I figure out a different situation that doesnt bring that question up LMFAO#eventually you can decide you want a hero who idfk will replace the big mushroom or something. a sacrifice and immortality simultaneously#then you can be like yeah so my themes are probably about sacrifice. connection to others. love for your community. stuff like that#and then you can go back to your world and say. yeah I think that people should have telepathic communication on some level!#I'm just making all this up right now but I just want to illustrate somehow how this kind of cyclical process can actually be a tool#because it's not about getting it all right at once. its about leaning into the cycle and how it guides you through developing these#anyways idk if this makes any sense. if this doesnt feel like it works for you then it probably literally doesnt#but writing more and analyzing writing more is ALWAYS good#it will never make your writing worse to do those things.#unfortunately (said with all the love in the world) writing is an endless process of learning more about who you are and what you care abou#its wonderful but it's hard and theres no way to skip that process#good luck!#asks#anon#writing stuff#oh also if at any point you go hm. that big thing isnt working for me I think...
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i have to wonder if it’s actually a feasible ploy to have kristen die for even a second, cause on the one hand it seems like it makes a lot of sense, on the other a lot of this world works on the 60 second rule to account for the widespread availability of shit like revivify doesn’t it? like, adaine’s status as the elven oracle will transfer upon her death, and adventuring parties will move to pass/fail (iirc?) if a member dies, but only once the minute-long grace period is up. i mean, the ploy could always be to just keep her down for at least a full minute, that wouldn’t be too hard if they get tpk’d. like “oopsies! i just happened to arbitrarily decide to revivify kristen last, but it turns out i only brought 5 diamonds with me, so let me go fetch my stuff and i’ll do raise dead instead ^_^”
#idk i could see it going either way#i imagine the rules around your only follower and cleric dying could be a little less bureaucratic and lenient#rambles#fhjy spoilers#fhjy#d20#i don’t super remember the rammys of a party member dying#but if i’m not horribly misremembering the 60 second rule was relavant cause riz of course briefly died at the end of sy#wait correction multiple of them died i forgot. adaine died i think that’s why both were relevant
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something deeply funny to me that this happened with the span of 10 months
#ive kind of told myself i wont be drawing d*nte again because ill be honest drawing him has brought no joy to me in the past few months#and being able to like . completely not worry about drawing smth that doesnt make me as happy and instead redrawing screenshots from my#favorite movies is very nice. despite me posting wips and saying IM DYING WHY DID I DO THIS im having fun and i think the final results loo#really nice#will i draw dante in the future at some point? maybe. leaning on probably not but who knows!!!!!#but idk i just want to draw stuff i actually like and actively care abt Lol#also ill be nice and say that i liked the love machine dante and something always very funny about my Favorite dantes:#they were the ones to not 'perform' as well. simply tells me that no one has real taste anymore#this dante wasn't a favorite by any means but i did like him a little lol#thats my metamorphosis. no more red shackles i suppose
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Tidbits of ATSV That I Enjoyed (Or Alternatively: Just Miles Being The Most Endearing Spidey Ever)
Miles patting The Spot's head after successfully webbing him (I don't see this as condescending, but rather him still engaging with the humanity of a villain like Spot) and ~very assertively~ telling/asking him not to escape.
"I'm like Robin Hood-if he gave to himself."
Miles' spidey senses going off when he arrives late to his dad's party because there's nothing more frightening than Brown parents when they're mad at you. Beware the chancla or correa!
O.k. So we all know there are different versions of the movie out there. You may already know that one of the slight differences is when Miles goes to save Inspector Singh. There's a version where you can hear Gwen's voice in the distant background yelling no! when she thinks Miles gets crushed under the rubble, and there's another where she's silent as she webs to him. Now, I have found ANOTHER version (online) where her shouting is even more at the forefront. She's practically screaming and sounds more desperate, (prolly because it's close to the same way her Peter Parker died so she's reliving trauma) and the fear in her voice is palpable. That one haunts me.
Jefferson trying to equate studying for his police exams to childbirth, which Rio quickly nips in the bud.
Ganke having a soccer poster of Son Heung Min, a famous Korean footballer who currently plays for the Premier League Tottenham Hotspur and is captain of the South Korean national team.
Miles having a Sashimi (his universe's version of Supreme, but I just like the idea that Miles loves eating sashimi. Like I know that kid has good taste in food) poster in his bedroom.
The fact that Miles kept in touch with Aunt May for long enough after the events of ITSV that he helps her move.
The Spot saying he was one of the more handsome scientists at Alchemax according to his colleagues.
Miles and Gwen having the same collectible toys, the only difference being that he keeps his in the box and she doesn't.
"Hey, don't try to wow me with big words, man," *in deep manly voice* "I do crosswords every day"- Miles after Spot points out Alchemax as "the crucible of our connection!"
Miles going, "This job is so dumb sometimes" after he tries to web Spot at the deli, but it goes through a hole and lands on his face.
"Nahhh, he seems more Dominican to me." Kinda want Miles to meet a native Dominican Spidey because that dynamic would highkey fuck hard *pun not intended*. They would repair relations between our two islands-PR&DR.
"Almost there Mami *smiley face* *cowboy* prayer hands*"
The college admissions coach at Visions Academy straight up saying, "That's your story! Now, just stick to the script..." Ma'am what???
"Calmate Mami, eso no es my fault."
"I've hit a lot of different villains with a lot of different food...I'm just trying to lighten the mood."
Miles in his angsty teen era and smart-mouthing everyone around him. Love that for him.
"He almost killed his mom as a baby, I mean, look at those shoulders." No but for real tho. Those shoulders are as wide as a truck. Kim Seokjin who??? (if you understood that reference, ily).
Miles writing a love letter to his dad in 2 cakes.
Gwen at the water tower chowing and saying how feelings make her hungry after her and Miles talked about how they can't be together cause it would end in tragedy. Like Gwen, come again?!
Also, Miles' and Gwen's talk at the Williamsburg Bank Building being lowkey the catalyst for the 2nd/3rd acts of the film. Without them both kind of silently admitting their feelings for each other, Miles probably wouldn't have chased after her the way he did. Pretty sure you know the rest.
"I bet she doesn't even speak Spanish," and Jeff going "Que barbaridad" in his very broken Spanish. Queue Rio's bombastic side eye.
Both Gwen and Miles referring to Spot as a Villain Of The Week, even though neither of them have spoken about Spot to each other.
"I was bitten by a-wouldnt you like to know? Know what I mean?" SIR. Chill. This movie is for children.
The Spot inverting himself, going from a white mass with black spots to a gaping black hole with smaller white spirals. It's giving Junji Ito.
The irony of Pavitr exclaiming, "Well that was another easy adventure for Spider-Man!" right before an incoming canon event. HIS. He was about to experience his first big loss, and his happy-go-lucky nature would've been challenged.
Miguel saying conyo! when all the Spideys start pointing at each other.
"!Cállate!" "Nosy!" Sidebar: we don't talk about Gwen's banter with bad guys enough. She's so funny!
A lot of the Peters saying hi to Gwen as she passes HQ because she is canonically the one lost love--the love interest they all would've ended up with had she not died, so they all have an affection for her.
Web-Slinger going "Giddy up!" Cause he's swinging up.
Miles offering his fresh new takes on how to deal with the Spot upon meeting Miguel, saying "He just wants to be taken seriously. Like we all do." MILES YOU BEAUTIFUL, COMPASSIONATE GOLDEN SUNFLOWER BOY I LOVE YOUUUUU.
Hobie referring to Peter B. as Humbling Reality Spider-Man, which considering how steeped in tragedy the Spidey lore is, is really saying something.
Miguel's nonono no puedo más no puedo más. His misery is very funny and delightful to me. Little bitch ass.
"You know you're the only Spider-Man who isn't funny." Yes! More Miguel slander in the next one, please! Little bitch ass.
"Snitch!"
Miles shouting out Peter's name for help whilst Miguel pins and lays into him the fact that he's an anomaly. This after he momentarily glitches back to his ITSV store-bought suit. Mimicking the way-in also the first movie-Miles shouting out Peter's name for his own rescue as Doc Ock attacks him at the research facility. Because even though he feels hurt by Peter at this point, that's still his dad mentor and he still instinctively looks to him for protection. Rip my heart out why don't you!
Gwen sneaking back into her and her dad's place just to get that printed polaroid of her and Miles, a pic she already has on her phone.
Earth-42 Miles wearing Nike while our Miles wears Jordans.
#hi. ive seen this movie 8x in theaters and twice on pirating sites. i am unwell#also sorry not sorry for the miguel slander. i am a miles loyalist thru and thru thst bitch is on thin ice#but also literally can't get over gwen “it really is so nice to get to talk to you. me & him its different. in every other universe...stacy#cause directly underneath that she's actually saying. “i missed you. and what i have with you i literally do not have with anyone else and.#you dont know this but ive met hundreds and thousands of spiderpeople. nd even in my friendship with hobie its not like what i have with yo#and im actually really smitten with you. the one person i shouldn't be smitten with bc there is no happy ending for us. and idk...#if i should hold off. and im letting you know all this so that you can decide for me. whether to take that lesp of faith or not with you. &#hope that say yes and make the first move so that i cant but help to just sink into you.“#AND IT MAKES SENSE! SHE MET HIM JUST AS HE WAS LIVING THROUGH AN EXPERIENCE SHE DID. OF BECOMING SPIDEY. AND RIGHT AFTER#SUFFERING THE GREATEST TRAGEDY OF HER LIFE WHICH SHE WAS ABOUT TO BEAR WITNESS THRU WITH HIM. SHE WAS THERE FOR HIS UNCLE DYING AND WATCHED#HIM BECOME SPIDERMAN. WE FORGET THAT THEY ACTUALLY WENT THRU SOME HEAVY THINGS TOGETHER. THEYRE TRAUMABONDED. I KNOW THATS NOT WHAT THAT WO#ACTUALLY MEANS. BUT IT MAKES SENSE THAT SHE CAN ONLY TALK TO MILES BC THEY PERFECTLY UNDERSTAND EO.#anyways idk why im shouting. im high rn. but crazy how all of that meaning was subtly thrown in there. like we got a confession scene folks#from gwen of all people! i love that for me.#also back to miguel: so i know he's hot. but if a hot person were to ever be rude to a waiter we agree theyre no longer hot right? right.#atsv#miles morales#itsv#miguel o'hara#the spot#ghostflower#gwiles#gwen stacy#ghost spider#gwen x miles#rio morales#across the spider verse#into the spider verse
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Every day I think about how and why The Promise writers could have the gang agree so easily to Zuko asking Aang to kill him
#even if it WAS for a fair reason why was aang the only one who was like WTF about it. why were they all so ready to agree to zuko dying.#idk just. no one really having a reaction except aang and then katara nodding at aang to encourage him. bothers me.#regardless of why zuko asks him - he doesn't want to turn into ozai and start a war again - why aren't they more freaked#this is on the writers not on the gaang i promise i love them#atla#avatar#avatar the promise#i'm saying stuff
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8-Ball having a tattoo of Bill on their shoulder blade is kind of crazy
#its the page after introducing all of the henchmaniacs#the one where theyre all running away in a getaway car and 8ball is shooting at the cops while pyronica is flashing#idk why i didnt think bill was a bigger egomaniac. like he was talking abt ford having a big ego? he should take a look at a mirror#though reading more. i rlly do believe he thinks he was trying to liberate his dimension and stanfords#yada yada the trauma of all he knew dying before his eyes and how he wants to do it to the rest of the world bc he still thinks abt it#and that he regrets it but doesnt want to admit it yada yada#etc#tbh i still didnt read a huge chunk of the book. mostly the one where he shows u the secrets to the universe#and the early parts of his past human dummies. but wow it rlly paints a picture how much ford was the one guy he gaf abt#and how socially isolated ford was prior to bill. theyre 2 pieces of a fucked up puzzle that were cut in a way to force fit each other
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at this point I don't even know if tag fragmentation in the general russian holmes space is worth addressing. a few years ago I successfully kept the ancient customs intact because I wrote a post so deranged and pretentious it displeased people into doing what I wanted but nowadays what's the point in making a grand return of being terminally online if yall kinda right
#history: in the ice age the soviet series were exclusively russian sherlock holmes#the 2013 show is about to appear under a surprisingly generic title of Sherlock Holmes that is also russian#the contemporaries can't come up with anything better than naming it the new russian holmes#it is a decade later#soon it will be 11 years of nrh being *new*#and russian sh keeps dying out in favour of soviet sh#tag fragmentation occurs where the historic russian sh name with almost 15 years of tumblr history gets shafted in favour of soviet sh#a relatively new tag nowhere near of the russian sh legacy#as someone who actually scrolled it all the way back to the very beginning and yes to the first posts of circa 2010/2011#you can guess why I felt strongly about it since you are just creating an issue that never was and also making a false impression#of how sparsely populated soviet sh is while all this time it was just a secondary but also straight up unused tag#the same thing having two tags with totally different content bc of tag fragmentation is quite annoying#but it is now the modern age and idk if you can even go that deep into any tag anymore with how the search function doesn't work#and who could be wrong. russian sh Is soviet. nrh Is new. and nrh will never change and mix with the russian sh search forever.#plus what is the issue. russian sh gets one post a week and nrh gets one every half a year. the annoyance exists to me only.#do we assemble a council and grant both shows new unique tags and resolve the mistakes of our ancestors#while erasing 10+ years of history behind their current tags in the process thus basically wiping the fandom clean#or do we just live with it while occasionally shrugging at how this all happened#I thought and fought to keep it the way it was because adding to a search that goes back to 2010 is what it's all about o7#but nowadays truly. everyone else is technically right. what's the point
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i'm a white hair sanzu truther
#idk i just prefer him with it#i thought he only dyed it when he joined the kantou😔#also thought he and senju were albino and that's why they had white hair#the pink hair is cunty and i also really like it but only at a certain time#certain time being bonten#at least imo#sanzu haruchiyo#akashi haruchiyo#tokyo revengers
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where is that post that is like 'if u were the girl he wanted communication would be easy for him' bc yeah... no matter how much u dont want it to be, it's true
#not me being the most dumb bitch alive thinking i was just being considerate and patient...#for 10 months 💀#and then being slapped in the face w a actually none of it mattered at all nearly enough as it did to u#and u were not even worthy of talking to or trying to communicate with or simply discussing any of it and our feelings#(which were only my feelings in the end)#and u were pathetically daydreaming and fantasizing and missing whatever 'it' was between us but i didnt really care#and it never mattered that much to me and idc to have had talked abt it and see if there was anything to off there#u were only worth being thrown away without even being told anything abt how i felt or was i was thinking#bc at the end of the day what was everything to u and what mattered so much to u was not even 1% as important to me#💀 legitimately i am dying !!!!#ig what hurts me the most that it was smth i was willing to fight for or talk abt to see if we were on the same page or were our heart lied#or like .. idk im just hurt at the fact that for him all of that was just smth to throw away. not even worthy of talking abt or simply#not even giving me a chance bc i know that time's running out but the fact that#he didnt even find it worthy enough to give a chance TALKING abt.#also what hurts me so fkn bad is that if i didnt force myself to go against my avpd and try to ask i wouldnt know anything#bc he doesnt tell me anything of that stuff and he didnt the first time either and im like#i truly am so pathetic letting someone have so much power over me just bc i love them and want them so bad#when im only a speckle of dust in their life#like ..... what is wrong with me? both bc why cant i ever be loved#EVERYBODY else always has someone!!!! i NEVER do!!! and like idk#and this is worse than a crush bc h actually talked to me and told me things and said things and it was real#(to me)#and then just stopped and i didnt know what i did and it could never be talked abt either and it just suckssssss#like why am i so fucking deeply and incredibly unlovable and worthless and not worth anything??????? not even a talk???? like wtf
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