#idfk you get it tho i . hope lol

[stonerzelda]

Something i wish i knew as a kid is that no matter how scary it seems to know in x amount if time you'll be x age, when that time does come, whether you know it or not you will be ready for it. I spent my entire childhood living in fear knowing how fleeting it all was, trying to soak up every last moment and detail to memory, but in doing so I missed out on precious time mourning what had already passed. I may not feel 25 right now, but I know in just a couple years time I'll reflect and realize how young I still was, and I hope I don't hold it against myself for not appreciating it. There really is nothing to fear. I'll be different, but I'll still be me, I haven't lost all the versions of myself I aged out of, I've just grown to hold more of them.

Basically once you reach the age you were so scared you won't be ready for, you'll realize there was nothing to be scared of! Time has a way of making the pieces fall in place, regardless of whether you see the puzzle completing.

[lowkeyrobin]

Walker Scobell & Reader who got sick ? ( can be either platonic or romantic , idm which !! )

- 🗡️

okay yeah I can try!! ; this is very ambiguous to romantic / platonic so yeah lol ; thanks for requesting! hope you enjoy 🫶

WALKER SCOBELL ; sick

summary ; you get sick and walkers here to help

warnings ; language

word count ; 204

masterlist

he feels bad that you're sick for like 5 mins

5 minutes later and he's joking about it and making fun of you (a friends way of making fun of you)

"lol how are you sick"

"idfk can you please just go get me some medicine"

"ughhhh fine. don't get ur disease on me when I come over"

"blocked"

he's super sweet tho

if you need something he's on it

he gives you movie recommendations and stuff cause he knows ur just gonna be laying around all day

he looks up a soup recipe and surprisingly makes some good ass soup for you

he's setting alarms to make sure you keep up on medicine too LMAO

he runs you a nice bath as well

brother got you bubbles too 💀

he got a makeshift setup with some bath salts, a bath bomb if you like those, some water and other fun stuff

fun stuff as some cut up fruit in little bowls

he wanted to give you a little time to relax alone plus he wanted some time alone too

#healthyfriendship/relationship

he's always checking up on you when he isn't around as well

"hey hru feeling"

sends you dumb tiktoks and memes all through the day too

[tyunkus]

hi. maybe mean dom but like soft ? mean dom (but also like really whipped) soobin ? also i'm really into friends to lovers trope these days so like maybe you met at school and obv been best friends since and suddenly a few months to a year ago he just got like the biggest crush on y/n (?) ever but he thinks hell nah man if i confess it'll ruin the friendship and be so awkward (but everyone else in their friend group says wtf im sure y/n likes u too just kiss already) and u guys r at some. idfk. uni party at someones house and the two of u go together obv because that's what friends do right (!) but at this place he realises something (whatever it is idk) and like confesses and i guess they fuck bc *then* there's the kinda soft dom (or idk what it's called) soobin :3 hope this makes sense tho lol

I LOVE F2L OMFG!!!!!!! but omg im just thinking about soobin who can barely fucking breathe in his own room because that’s where he dragged the both of you after the party (theres no fucking way hes gonna have his first time with you at a house party of all places - and more importantly, you deserve a nice bed to get fucked on) and its like. he sees you all bashful n looking at the ground and hes just so taken with you he really needs to try and steady his breathing that poor guy and he confesses and just AHHH 😭

he would be so overwhelmed it translates to him becoming super steely and serious and SEXYYYY AAGHHHH pulling you in by the waist, so tall and broad and handsome, hand coming up to touch your cheek when he utters one word: “strip.”

you’re so ??? because u’ve never seen him so serious before, but then something in his eyes darken and he moves his hand down to your throat and murmurs, “i told you to strip, bunny.” HAHSHFHEHREHDHEJSUHSSJRJDKS

and so you do and then he becomes sososo soft with you, so enamored by your naked body, treating you like such a princess 💕💕 the softest, sweetest foreplay in the world, fingering you open to prepare you for his cock, so many praises ARGH and when he does fuck you he’s still so careful but when he finds that you’re okay he gets a little rougher, firmer grip on your skin and deeper thrusts EJDHDJDHRBEBR

[em0puppy]

i really don't normally do these things but i've been starting to feel just a teensy bit guilty about not being the sappy type lol and i got this urge at 1 am this morning while in a coffee-driven all-nighter and decided fuck it (this is a repeating factor in decisions i make. send help.)

so here's a small lil list of amazing people i'm genuinely overjoyed to be friends or even just moots with <3

yes im copying brookie bite me /silly

stuff under cut cuz this is gonna be long lol

@mischiefburns - my darling husband first of course !! <3 half joking marriage aside i'd say you're one of my closest friends - even if we've only known each other for just a few months. you're just the right amount of gentle and still know when to put your foot (er, claw-bug-thing) down, and i admire that about you. you know when to stop when boundaries are set up and to not push those, and you're not afraid to enforce your own, something i constantly fail to do (• ▽ •;) i love how open you are about yourself and how caring you care <3 ilysm !! mmmmwah :3 (im trying to get better at regretevator i promise)

@bluginkgo - first things first if you disagree with anything here i will punt you. (/silly /hj) you're so endearing, and your little emoticons never fail to make me smile. the message you sent me the other week really helped a lot, and your reaction spamming when i post art really does help with my motivation !! you're one of the most wholesome people i've ever met, and when your discord pfp changes to your sona with a bandaged leg i get worried for you. i love seeing your discussions in the nuzi server or your art popping up on my dash because HOLY SHIT YOU'RE GIFTED I TELL YOU !!!! like your nuzi fankid exploded my final 0.3 braincells i have left in the absolute best way but i'll save that speech for another time <3

@noridoorman - HIIIII MOM >:3 (i hope this tag is ok!! lmk if it's not <3) you're literally the second person i thought of when writing the idea down for this fhsfeesfigr. i love hanging out with you in VC and watching your stream or you drawing or listening to you and doomed voice ace attorney and you threatening to throw certain people (brookie and blu specifically) out windows or grab them by the scruff is literally the highlight of my day and never fails to make me laugh. you're so kind and funny and i'm sorry i can't share your love of k-pop 😔 (/silly) TRYING TO CATCH UP ON CINNAMON SCENT TOO BUT THE ADHD IS LIKE NUH UH </33

@brookiedaaroacecookie - im claiming you and miko as my siblings we can be triplets (/hj /nf) BUT SERIOUSLY THO i view you as my younger sibling and i love hanging out with you <3 you officiating mischief and mine's (GRR OFC IT WAS REAL /silly) wedding will forever be a memory i'll keep and tell to my grandkids in sixty something years or something like that idfk. i still have your little tag thing screenshotted and i'm sorry i can't tell the difference between french toast and grilled cheese </3 (/silly) also whats keats and why do you always laugh at it or was that an autocorrect thing /silly but also /gq

@spinnydraws - DFUHERFGRGIE I KNOW WE'VE ONLY BEEN MOOTS FOR LIKE. A WEEK AND A HALF OR SOMETHING IDK. BUT. HEAR ME OUT. already i view you as a friend and i'm extremely grateful to be moots with you! you're extremely funny and kind, and when you like or reblog my art i ascend to heaven. everytime i see your art i explode all over again even if i've already exploded not five minutes ago. AND WHY ARE YOU LITERALLY SO N. LITERALLY. WAHT. (/vpos) BUT LIKE. honestly you're a big comfort of mine already (i have a problem of wanting to be besties with literally every n kinnie out there. uzi kintype noises.) and i'd love to get to know you more !! <3

@nuzilicious - i refuse to give up trying to make you undislike me. until then all u get is ur awesome and im extremely thankful u havent blocked and banned me!!!!!! /silly /j

@uzibrainrot - omg what do i even say. you're so wholesome and so goofy and i loved roleplaying md with you on roblox even if it was just for a bit and if you wanna do it again sometime i'd absolutely love to!!!! i know we don't interact much but when we do it's awesome !! i promise the art trade is almost done i promise promise promise shhdshjdshfh. ALSO WHEN YOU WANNA WORK ON THAT VOLL CRACKFIC TOGETHER LMK!!! :DDD!!

i would @ andy but idk his tumblr so um. andy if you see this, you're not only one of the kindest most woke and most funny beings on this planet (i've never seen a cishet guy do a colon three it's literally so funny HELP /lhj /gen), but also a mind-blowingly awesome mc player !! :DD

ok i must disappear into the void to take care of my cramps (ew) so im gonna die now but ily all sm and hope you're all doing MORE than great !!! :DD!!!!! (/p /gen) explodes and dies in the grand canyon. or something. idk i need to stop exploding.

[foxgloveinspace]

FOX!!! hello my beloved!! it has been a minute lol

i’ve been ✨going through it✨ lately lmao but i am nothing if not stubborn so i am pushing through

the one upside to the hell that is my brain at times is that it usually means i will be blessed with comfort dreams/daydreams!!!

and this time it was the sleep token boys again 🥹 and also so stupid. which was much needed lol. basically daydreamed that i went to the gym with all four of them. idfk why, i’ve never set foot in a gym, i refuse to start now, and i actively avoid guys who do go? i guess i can make an exception for the vessels lmao. anyways- they all went off to do their own things (iv focuses on lower body/legs cuz i mean hello have you seen those thighs? ii was all about arms and upper body- very good for drumming. iii was far too chaotic to stick with any specific workout so spent most of the time on the treadmill just burning energy lol) except vessel who came over to teach me how to squat with a barbell. there was a lot of banter and some mild flirting but man. that was such a nice daydream. kind of relaxing? maybe i do need to get a gym membership…

hope you’ve been well!! 😊🩶

Hihi exie!!! I’m sorry to hear you’ve been going through it🖤😔 I’ve been… ok, I haven’t been whiny about it on tumblr but I’ve been sick for like three weeks (or maybe I have been I can’t remember very well lmao) but I’m finally feeling better tho, oof. I hope things settle down for you soon!!

That is one funny dream. I really appreciate how your brain was like ‘these are the exorcizes that make since for the guys yes yes’, that is freaking amazing, lmao. Love how Vessel was like ‘ahhh, yes. Time to teach Exie some sick moves’ lmao. He didn’t even start you off simple😂😂

Me 🫱🏻‍🫲🏼 III: treadmill zoomies.

(We have one in house cause my dad is diabetic, and we live in the middle of nowhere, so it was cheaper then a gym membership he wouldn’t be able to drive to. I don’t do it enough but walking on a treadmill is so good for my adhd brain. It’s weird, but a lot of adhd people talk about how exorcising even once a week makes their brain work better. Need to get in the habit of it, especially cause I want to go hiking more oof…. This was a random ramble that has nothing to do with your dream, very sorry about that).

[pinkspiraling]

i can’t do it i have to tell you what happened bc ur my besties

nsfw, tmi

my friend and i went to a bar and it was the same bar where i had met this guy who was obsessed with me and he’s a bit older than me and he’s so fucking fine. i kind of ghosted him bc i’ve been too depressed to even want to see him. so at the bar i’m thinking about him and this bar was not very busy and we were like hmmmm…let’s go to the other bar where the guy works. so we go there, we get drinks and one of the bartenders gave us free shots. eventually he came over to talk to us (he’s lead bartender there) and he’s like “where you been!” then he makes us like three free yummy shots and he gave me a free drink and twisted the straw into a heart (i’ll put a pic later). we met this girl and hit it off with her and then we talked to a couple of guys for a while and it was so fun. they both individually asked me what i was doing after and i had to tell them i was going home with the bartender HA. and one guy was like “if it doesn’t work out with the perfect- beard-guy, hmu” and i got his number. but the whole time me and Hot Bartender are looking at each other and giving each other looks. oh my god. then i took my friend home and drove to the bartenders place. i only stayed for like an hour and the whole time we were yk doin stuff. we didn’t have sex tho bc he had to pick up friends from a party and he wanted to rain check bc he didn’t wanna fuck me and then just leave. he said he doesn’t want me to think that’s all he cares about. but i was like bruh. very sweet and respectful of u but i came here to get fucked lmao. i also am insecure and felt like maybe he was trying to nicely reject me or something. but i could tell he was trying to make me feel better and feel wanted. and he wants to hang out tonight or friday night AND sunday night lmao. if he doesn’t say anything then ig my ego will be bruised. idfk what to think. BUT IT WAS SO FUN! it was a great night and he is honestly a very sweet guy, i’ve never heard him say anything douchey or disrespectful. i’ve actually only heard him say overly respectful things about women lol. and after i left he texted me that he should have had me stay over and wanted to know if i wanted to come back lmao. but i was lowkey freaking out and idk i was drunk and felt rejected. we’re good tho i think and i have no regrets. i hope he wants to see me again. here’s some nsfw tmi: i was obsessed with his balls, he had the best nicest balls LMAO

[a-vicious-faithless-angel]

Ok ok so just like alright um so yall I just ok alright,,,hear me out... Now I'm honestly debating on posting this simply cuz,,,,idfk I got anxiety n shit even tho.....I should honestly not care anyway not the point.

These guys....as lovers [Mind blown ik] I have so many thoughts...Like I already talked about their relationships with each other but I wanna go into different detail yknow? Like all together, I think these guys do really love each other, they've grown to really care and give a shit since they just have each other [Sorry I will never not mention how they only have each other yall] When I think of them as a whole its just a bundle of platonic dudes happily together <3 Who learn to be close with each other, that rely on that closeness as a source of comfort...God the thoughts...

But, honestly I dont even remember what prompted to put 2 n 2 together but I've thought a lot about Woods + Hackett as well as Dauda + Bishop [Idk if my last gtfo post was kinda telling or the post with just Bishop n Dauda] Anyway those 2 kinda plagued my mind, of course I think of all of them and or the other relationships but I just,,,,kinda wanna talk about that stuff yknow?

Woods n Hackett....gosh theyre so silly to me, I could go into my headcanons n everything another time [cuz some of those hcs hng ideas behind them hi yall] They're....not soft lovers but in their own way they are...Call it enemies to friends to lovers whatever you want I don't think they started off entirely liking each other, Hacketts sarcastic remarks kinda being.....a little jarring considering where they where! However like the rest of them, you grow used to it, expecting it. I believe Hackett was the 1 to really express his feelings n ask, Woods agreeing despite some internal thoughts [Hi] When I think of them, I think of them seeking each other, fighting away isolation. I think of tracing of skin, tenderly with rough calloused hands. I think of hidden kisses, hidden from the others, not out of fear but Woods preferring the privacy when he shows his affection. Theres the hesitation of being more intimate, of whispering those words, its been so long.

Dauda n Bishop are really interesting to me simply because I believe Bishop didn't develop and tried to push away those feelings at first but boy! You ain't leaving any of them for awhile! Better get used to this! No lol but seriously, there was already distrust and general distance he tried to put between himself and the others but after awhile, after all of those rundowns,,,slowly you open up, you lower that wall and let some people in. But someone more intimate like that? Fucking terrifying, big no no, nuhuh nope! He cares, and he will express his care in.....ways [aka sometimes being an ass!] But when I think of it, there's a lot of unknown, unfamiliar territory, almost like he's crossing a boundary, alas Dauda's a patient man who loves this pragmatic bald British boyfriend! He's patient with affection, allowing Bishop to go and test the waters. Holding hands, cupping faces, soft whispers shared when alone, of encouragement, of love, of hope.

When I think of them I think of "its been so long since I've last felt this/done this" Trust in someone they barely know, yet feel like they've known for years now. ...<3 Do I think the others will catch each other doing this? Yes absolutely. Do I think sometimes they joke about it n give them a hard time? Absolutely you know it; you cannot tell me Bishop would be getting on Hackett n Woods on a mission cuz they're off in another room being the worlds most quietest queers right then

[dumpster-fire-deluxe]

Good time of day to you, most preeminent rubbish receptacle! I hope this obnoxiously long (1) book rec finds you well, I took my (prescribed) adderall today if it's any consolation lmao

As a fellow palpatine enjoyer, I was wondering if you have read "Lords of the Sith" by Paul S. Kemp? Kemp commits one cardinal sin, in that he uh, he makes Darth Vader run lol, like a lot. He uses the word "sprint" often. But other than THAT, it's stupid good. It's about the early days of the empire and the subjugation of Ryloth.

Both plots are given a similar amount of time and meet together at the end so idfk which is the A plot and which is the B plot, but let's call ryloth's rebellion the B plot, since our sith friends arent in this one til the end.

The A plot? Darth Vader and the Emperor crash land on ryloth (a la RoTS, palpatine even makes a fucking joke about the similarity) in ryloths single jungle, its equatorial (think the amazon for climate, but spread over the entirety of south america for size) with just 2 of palpatines red guards, and all the radios on the whole planet, including imperial transmissions, all of it, are down.

So they're just, stuck there, no help, traipzing through a huge ass old growth forest trying to find "out" with stampede amounts of large bug-like feral carnivorous animals and a small rebellion trying to personally hunt them down (the bug monsters are included in the "personally hunting them down" bit, btw lol)

You get so much insight into how palpatine works, thru his actions, thru how the red guards react to finding out palpatine has the force, what they think of him in general and also through Vader's perspective (pov character), and theres parts throughout where it's clear Vaders being a bit of an unreliable narrator (lol @ him being a reliable narrator) which is always fun, and palpatine's teaching vader darkside lessons and philosophy on their trek, including some excellent zingers and one liners which are v in-character actually, and hes actually participating in the action and violence too, no one but vader and his personal redguard are there so he can use the force willy nilly without having to keep up the weak old man persona and dude goes ABSOLUTELY ham. That robe of his generates ungodly amounts of static electricity, just shocking.

And the A plot, that's Cham Syndulla and his freedom fighters (the characters from the TCW ryloth episodes) and there's twilek/ryl political stuff on the ground and senate levels and theres guerilla warfare and secret missions and theres even spycraft! Really good spycraft!

It's set riiiiight after RoTS, so this is like, the FIRST act of resistance against the Empire. Actually wait, maybe that's why vader keeps running. He hasn't learned he doesn't need to yet, slow learner and all that. I'll downgrade that to a venial sin. But it still displeases me.

It's ~350 pages (8"×4" book, avg paperback size if that helps anyone), but both times I've read it, I finished in under 3 hours, cause its that captivating. It also reads a bit different each time, I noticed new stuff that enhanced the story on ea read, so if you(or followers) have read it already but it was over a year ago, it's def worth it to read again imo.

*****

Medium CW for fatphobia; one of the lady moffs gets compared to a Hutt (only in a few chapters, but its constant in those chapters) and her appearance is spoken about by her direct underling (a pov character) in very, uh, conducive to fascism way. which, apropos ig lol. Hes pretty much the only one doing it tho, like palpatine and vader absolutely have the opportunity to jump in on the fat bashing but neither do.

No wait, palpatine makes fun of orn free taa's appearance, but to my mind it's a 50/50 on whether he was mocking him for being fat or if he was doing a "Jesus this guy sweats a LOT when he's around us, eh vader? Embarrassing for him, huh? Probably thinks he's gonna die. Go ahead and toss him into the bulkhead on your way out I need to make a point later" and the second is more, uh, in character for him, so.

The fact that you're into palpatine of all ppl indicates to me there's probably not a lot of cw's that you'd need, but just incase I wanted to give it cause it's like, very realistic (it's the most realistic part of the damn book, it's star wars lol) and there isn't any warning in the text that its coming. At all. Belkor (pov character) complains about mosquitoes and then goes on a spiel in his head about how fat and gross and gluttonous and lazy his moff is out of fuckin nooooowhere just cause shes in the room now, it's our literal introduction to her character. And I KNOW I have friends that'd be at minimum bothered by that for sure, so, its getting mentioned.

Also by nature of the story being set on ryloth, there's slavery, there's forced sex work, there's a vigilante ex sex worker that murders imperial johns sometimes, for fun. Theres on page drug use, cause its ryloth, the planet where they mine the drugs. But like, nothing about spice remind me of any singular drugs IVE taken (unless you've somehow got access to opium concentrate to mix with some cocaine and a micro dose of lsd lmfao) so i doubt anyones gonna be jonesing for the shit han solo's smuggling if you feel me.

The fatphobia IS jarring though if you're not expecting it, i think Kemp got free reign to be an asshole about her cause shes an imp. He doesnt do it to the other imperials, but i dont think there are other female presenting imperials for him to rub his 2015-era internalized mysogyny all over either.

So, okay, 1 venial sin, 1 cardinal sin that wasnt considered a sin by publishers when the book was written, and probably wouldnt have a hard time going to print today. But (spoilers: but not really, this tells you nothing i could mean anything by this) she gets hers. Also she's a lesbian.

(And no they don't burry their 1 gay if any of your followers want to know before diving in, but also shes not in a relationship it isnt a gay story there's no romance shes just a random fictional facist who likes bush, and its v likely that someone figured they could squeeze a queer in there for brownie points if she was in the bg and a bad guy. She's still a v compelling character tho, and one of the few characters who expirience growth and betters themselves, and good lord the tragic backstory.) Either way id probably hang and that means i say shes cool.

Got it in paperback off thriftbooks for smth like $3, if you/anyone don't have access to a library!

Adderall made me aggressive so you're doing much better on it than I did 😂

and palpatine's teaching vader darkside lessons and philosophy on their trek, including some excellent zingers and one liners which are v in-character actually, and hes actually participating in the action and violence too, no one but vader and his personal redguard are there so he can use the force willy nilly without having to keep up the weak old man persona and dude goes ABSOLUTELY ham

Okay I'm sold I'm gonna read it lmao

The fact that you're into palpatine of all ppl indicates to me there's probably not a lot of cw's that you'd need

Idk why but I laughed so hard at this. "If you're into THAT then you must not be shocked easily". Like, it's so true, I'm known for being stoic or apathetic (I'm the one people confess or vent horrific things to because they know I stay cool as a cucumber). Guess the Palpa-porn was on-brand all along 😂

Thanks for the recommendation! I'd heard of a "Vader-Palpy buddy road trip on Ryloth" book, but I hadn't read it yet. I found the audiobook so this is going to be fun 🎉

[redrawthecolorlessworld]

(not exactly) poorly explaining rhymix characters' backstories (part 3)

hi everyone

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1. Colorless

how convenient that he's first...!

guy who has seen The Horrors of the World™ and loses all hope in everything and basically views the world as colorless.........do you get it now

a lot more might be elaborated during main story. who knows tho lol

2. Lea

i don't have much to say other than the fact that she had connections with spasmodic...... (lesbianism????!!!!! /hj)

3. Pandora Paradox

used to be The One Who Transcends All until she decided to do something that may have already been mentioned in past fic posts (aka her wanting to end the world because she thought that it's imperfect and shit like that). she got stopped by tsunagite and then boom. into prison realm she goes. after centuries or smth idk she gets released by tsuna because tsuna feels bad and misses her :(( let's go lesbians let's go. YURIIIIIII

4. Tsunagite

was a normal human being at first. also met pandora and bonded with her for like a full year or smth i forgor. pandora tries to fuck shit up and then tsuna stops her and seals her away into her prison realm. pandora ends up transferring some of her powers of tsunagite, entrusting her with the task of finding a successor for her. also tsuna misses her so she lets pando out like. a long time later. this is incomprehensible.

5. Mope Mope

was in an abusive household. watched her dad kill her mom right infront of her. the dad eventually gets arrested but she just. hates him a lot. eventually craves violence. lol

6. Mayoeru

she had a loved one. they live far away from memoria, though. she only met them once during a summer festival and never saw them again ever since. that's all

7. Trap Crow

.....will be elaborated in side story 1.

8. Aria

Nothing™

9. Suito

one of the first living beings to set foot onto rhymix. has lived a long life, and even got to know many people. his life isn't too interesting, aside from the very obvious beef between the elves and the humans of gyroscopia.

10. Ling Hao Cheliang

used to be a very upbeat and actually emotional kid, but then the experiments and the prosthesis replacements kind of fucked with his memories and his ability to feel emotions so. whoops

11. Ether Second

is simply here to complement with ether strike

12. Nhelv

explained in his introductory:

he used to like composing music but then after entering music contests and losing all of the time he gets really burnt out. do you see the reference and inspiration here yet

13. Random

dude idfk he's just there living his life taking whatever comes at him as if his playing baseball or smth idfk

14. #D3D3D3

sort of explained in her introductory??

the experiments related to the prosthesis led her to view the world and the universe in general as nothing. just blank. a Blank Universe.

Heh.

15. World Vanquisher

idk yet L

16. Convergence

i can't tell you this early, y'know? you gotta find out through something else. just wait until that time arrives.

17. Defection

worked for testify for a long time. that's all

18. Infinite Strife

has beef with world ender ever since they first met. that is literally all

also she actually has her own fear. nobody else should know about it yet.

19. Frey

sort of explained in his character teaser post

used to be a bright young kid who others would think would grow up to become someone remarkable one day. he said a lot of philosophical things too. however notalano lost its color, and at the same time, frey lost his parents. so he became more quiet and reserved ever since.

20. Horizon Blue and Bloody Marquis

used to be close friends, and even blue had feelings for marquis. but then they got taken in but uhhhhh astaroth, i guess???? and then marquis changed and blue is sad :(

21. The 90's Decision

she doesn't have too much shit going on with her. dw abt it. she's having fun

22. Pure

i don't really know yet ouch

23. solips

has always been curious of the world around him, including being curious of Himself???? damn bro what the fuck. idk what else to say i haven't really fleshed him out that much yet

24. Vulcanus

used to be friends with technicolour, and during the horrible accident in their hometown, he managed to escape and survive. now he resides in gyroscopia, waiting for the day where he and techni can reunite again

also he befriended inverted world. lol

speaking of inverted world...

25. Inverted World

she doesn't have much going on with her. she just really wants to travel all over the world, and maybe even go into parallel universes herself. that's all

THAT'S ALL OF THEM YAYYYYY

[mistergoddess]

absolutely petrified to take 1 day off work even though i am experiencing burnout to the degree it's become physically taxing... extreme clumsiness and brain fog and so completely drained and fatigued and nauseous and headachey so like at this point i am physically ill from it. and mentally i fear for myself if i keep going like this. because work has been so fucking awful lately and it's starting to show up very much in my mental wellbeing. and ive called out maybe once every TWO months ive worked here, so that means in 8 months ive taken like 4 sick days, but ive caught major shit for it every time (despite the fact that there are other people who call out like every other day) and i don't trust myself to not just go "ok then i quit good luck covering the next 3 weeks of closing shifts i was scheduled on" if they try to say shit over me taking one day off.

also i wasn't even scheduled to fucking work on tuesday and they changed it on like... sunday... with no notice, did not ask if i was available, just changed it, right before the week started... which is such a dick move. the other day one of my coworkers was checking out the new layout and was like "this is on purpose to make people miserable so they quit and they can get new people in" and i was like you're so fucking real for that because ever since the change i've been just miserable coming in because it's so awful and poorly thought out by these idiot managers who don't actually work there and just moved shit around willy nilly and made it so inefficient and frustrating and brutal and idfk like non-ergonomic to work like this...

so that, and then this week the incidents of 1) random new lady just wandering up to me and starting to follow me around... only for a while into it for her to go "oh yeah i'm here for training" and it was just like oh that's cool i would have really loved to be mentally prepared for that in any way at all and not just have someone kinda walk up and start staring at me like wtf am i supposed to do with that like just??? assume i'm supposed to train her? tf?? and it was LATE in the shift too like i was in clutch closing duties time like. absolutely mind boggling and infuriating. that a manager couldn't even come over and be like oh hey by the way this is so and so can you just show her shit for a while and have her help you close... like NOTHINGGG she just came up and didn't say anything and started just following me and looking at me. and then the second incident 2) changing my off days randomly at the LAST minute before the week starts... just fucking DISRESPECTFUL. those two disrespectful ass things happening on top of the first week of the new layout which is making working my station incredibly brutal and difficult has made it such a miserable time when up until now i've LIKED this job and now i feel like im going to flip the fuck out and have a panic attack at work and quit on the spot and make a big scene about it any day now.

so. ugh. i'm really doing rough and experiencing very clear burnout and i need to quit but i don't have the energy to job hunt while working here but i definitely can't quit first with no other plan and just be unemployed on the job hunt because that's risky boots so like... idfk what to do. gonna try to stick it out a lil bit but i need to be trying to look for smth else :( i need something that pays more and well. i can't really hope for better management in this city lol i get the sense that kind of everywhere you go bosses are going to be psycho. also like everyone i know is always jobhunting even tho theyre looking for the same shit i do and that worries and weirds me out but i also think theyre just being really selective and not taking the kind of garbage i would... but anyway if i could get something that pays a lil more and has a more consistent schedule/better hours then well :/ that'd be nice at least...

but i'm super scared it's fucking scary i do not have that dog in me to hustle in this city lol i just took the first really crap big chain hospitality job that was easy to get, but up until this week at least ive liked it :( and the commute is easy and i get so much free food which is pretty much the only way i can afford to work here... and i like the people i work with a lot :'( and the shift leads are fine, it's just management that's fucking awful and SO stupid and neurotic and unfair. and our customers kinda suck dick bc they're hella stupid rude stressed out asshole big groups big families tourists and i'd love to be somewhere where the clientele is a little less of a shitty demographic.. and the being in weird half closeted limbo at work is rough lol. and also closing my specific station is fucking grueling and exhausting as hell so it's not particularly easy work...

like :( all signs point to i gotta get the hell outta here pretty soon but im soooo scared <3 i do not want to job hunt <3 especially with burnout <3 i am in a bad position <3 bc if i quit rn i'm gonna need time to recover from burnout and historically that's taken me a little while and we ARE NOT IN MY HOME TOWN ANYMORE TOTO I CANNOT JUST CHILL FOR A BIT IN BETWEEN JOBS I DO NOT HAVE A SUPPORT SYSTEM HERE *AT ALL* OR EVEN FRIENDS AND IT'S TOO EXPENSIVE TO JUST LIVE OFF MY SAVINGS FOR A FEW MONTHS... so that'd be really stressful and bad to have no time to recover from burnout and have to try to find something new right away... but also if i just idk stay... i'm just gonna go nuts from the burnout getting too bad and quit anyway like i'm not gonna recover if i just stay. so i'll be in the same if not a worse position... so idk what to do... lmaooo........

but oughh ok yeah i'm so scared and hesitant to call out which is such a clear sign it's such a toxic workplace :/ but also i don't wanna lose tips that day :/ but i'm gonna have to suck it up it'd be all of like $20 less so whatever i have paid sick hours so i need to get over the slight paycheck loss of tips for ONE day real quick bc i need that day so much more than i need the $20 (i do need the $20 too) so really the only fear is gEtTiNg iN tRoUbLe... i'm just gonna tell them i'm going to kms if they don't let me have a mental health day idk no matter what i have to stick to my guns and not grit my teeth and force myself to go in i need to just call in sick because fuuuuck

[abyssal-endling]

family nonsense

my dad is a fucking idiot who, despite the fact that he should not be doing so much yard work, went and broke his ribs and now has to worry about a collapsed lung if he's not careful. he refused a CT scan (despite most likely also having a concussion) because the ER was "taking too long" and then, knowing full well the pharmacy's hours, did not go get his pain meds in time, and went AFTER the pharmacy closed. so NOW he's having a fit that he didn't get his pain meds (apparently he expected me and my mom to get them or something??? but did not clarify this until after the pharmacy closed so idfk) and is taking it out on everyone. and is possibly expecting ME to not head back up to school so that way i can help take care of him.

also apparently my brother's having some kind of meltdown or whatever because i go to the same college he went to and im "ruining it" for him (his reputation??? the memories??? who fucking knows.) and has become weirdly possessive over me doing a job he ALSO had because "that was my job". like. buddy. you were the one who encouraged me to apply not only to the college, but to the job as well. sorry that the school's changed since you left in 2018 but like?? idk man thats a you issue? my mom says he's mad because im ruining the memories since im having issues (said issues are housing not giving me my damn accommodations) and both of us are like. lol buddy you fucking hated this school for like your first year and a half too.

its so. idk. my mom doesn't want him to come home , but she's recommended i don't come home for the weekends he's here because he's getting so angry constantly and cannot have other people exist in his space. the whole summer was him having meltdown after meltdown because we were ALSO doing things in the house, like cooking and talking and existing lmaooo. i literally couldn't have people over without him losing it. she even said she's getting afraid to be around him because he's starting to do the same shit my dad does and throw things. its a damn nightmare and we've talked about getting me a house up near my school because she doesn't want me or my pets (lego and the 3 tuxedos) getting hurt. the costs would be a lot but at this point it'd be better anyways. ugh. its a fucking mess.

my wrist surgery is in two weeks tho so hoping thatll go well

[toehwa6]

Just got back from a drive to get a milkshake fucked up on Valium and I told my friend I was good but on the way back I was like I’m just trying to set myself up to wreck my car and kill my self. Hopefully I don’t take anyone with me and just hit a pole or something.

He was like that’s fucked but I was laughing like naw I’m a thrill seeker and he was like no thrill seekers make sure they can do shit again you’re just suicidal and I was like fuck I guess that’s what it is I guess.

Got “diagnosed” or whatever with fuckin agoraphobia today cause I’m afraid to leave my house.

I fr thought it was like being afraid of going outside but I looked it up and it’s like being afraid of being anywhere that isn’t “safe”

Dawg I dealt with this shit on the way home from work today I stopped to get gas and I was like holy fuck what am I feeling rn I’m going to fuck my arm up and take a bunch of pills idk I would kill my self to make this feeling go away

I wasn’t even depressed or nothin it was so weird I just didn’t want to feel that way anymore

Idk I just want to fuckin die I guess. I fuckin hate being alive and dealing with this shit

I thought back pain was bad but naw fr being afraid whenever I do shit sucks more idk at least if I’m in my house and my back hurts like I’m good at least idk

I fucking hate this shit I wish I could just fucking die

I got home and talked to the doc and he was like it’s cause you’re isolated and you don’t talk to no one that’s why you’re all fucked up btw stop smoking weed so that’s why I just took a Valium

Probably not a good idea but idfk this shit is fucked now I’m just writing this shit not thinkin about nothin

I just feel like I gotta get somethin out today fuckin sucked

I feel like everyday fucking sucks when I think about it but it doesn’t really, it just feels that way

I hope I get better eventually I just don’t know what’s wrong and everytime I think I’m getting better I just keep getting worse

I’m supposed to be good at this point but shit just keeps getting worse

I was tellin my friend if I get pulled over on Valium I don’t even care I’m just gonna tell the cop I’m trying to kill myself and go to jail idc

I fucking hate being alive

I hate talking to people I hate talking to doctors I hate talking to everyone I fucking hate this shit

I gotta go chill with these people I don’t really fuck with this weekend and I’m just gonna get fucked up on Valium or Tramadol or something and have a good time I guess

I tell people I don’t like them that much and they’re fucking annoying but it gets me out of the house and fr it’s a lot of drama that I enjoy which is kinda fucked

Idk I fuckin hate everyone

I’m happy I could open up to my gf and my good homie cause it feels good to talk about stuff but even then being vulnerable and talking about my problems feels like that makes shit worse too

Idk what to do about this shit I think I’m gonna get high even tho I’m not supposed to

Idk idk idk idk idk

I fucking hate this shit

Just gonna sleep this shit off and hope tomorrow is better even tho it won’t be

Again and again and again

Can’t wait to I fuckin kill myself even tho I don’t think I’m gonna do it

I’m afraid of goin to hell so I gotta push through and just deal with this shit

I think if I get fucked up on Valium and wreck my car and die that counts as suicide but idk I hope not I don’t want to go to hell I just want this shit to stop

I hate being alive

Glad I could get this out somewhere I don’t like talking to people about my problems so I just talk to myself and nothing on here

Idk I guess it makes me feel better

Idk I fuckin hate this shit

If someone reads this shit gets better even if it don’t feel like it I promise just hang in there and don’t give up that’s what’s important just push through

Fuck everyone else love yourself that’s what matters you’re all alone in the end

Funny I told my gf that and she was like that’s dumb as fuck what if you got family and shit around you when you die

I was like lol bitch that’s not the point but I love that you think like that

Mah bitch be holdin me down frfr

I fucking hate being alive

Sorry I keep saying that

Who am I talking to

Why can’t I stop saying sorry

No one cares anyway

Alright cya

[darlingpwease]

I really didn't mean for it to be longer, that's my bad (╥﹏╥)

..then isn't that some 'you' time??? How I spend some me time is I read, play games, write, or just chill in my bed. What's ur 'me' time if it's considered work then?? 🤨 /neu wait really???

(The good thing is we have peer reviews later. The problem is that this dude is the teachers favorite so idk how that'll go. Me and like 2 other members are gonna try and send an email to our professor and hope that she'll take pity on us lol. I think that due to how blatantly obvious the favoritism is,, they agreed because of it?? Idfk. I think we just all suck at communication in this group.... thank u for ur works tho Dove <333 ur too sweet, I think I feel my cavities acting up again /t /j /pos /affectionate imgonnagocrashnow)

Blegh- it's already slowly in motion... /hj

NOOOO IM SORRY!! I remember quite a bit of things, even some things from when we first started talking,, but I truly don't remember this one I'm sorry!! ( ´��ຶ□༎ຶ`) ...just... just let me die from afar and leave me there after <//333

Of course those are lovely too. I just have a preference to certain animals and certain tones. All colors are cool tho when they're all a good mix,, those are always really cool to see in artworks <33 oh please, as if I had anyone else. Even if I was tho I wouldn't even put it in an ask lmao /t /hj

WH- I'm so glad I don't meet you face to face, because I know damn well that it'd be a struggle if I were to hear u say that <//333 /pos? /neu?? /idk??? /not good, not bad, but it's not neutral /it's like a weird thingy /not negatively tho /idk how to explain it??? /going into hiding tho <33 ah?

-panna cotta

oh nooo sweet panna cotta wrote me more what a horror suddenly I have to answer more to their words??? noooo I don't like to read what he writes and think how cute he is noooo ://// shush silly :////// I want to bite you sometimes, not just because you're cute, but also so that you stop being so anxious ://///////

of course not. if my brain is working, how can this be resting time?🤨 or what, do you want to say that you are resting while analyzing what happened during the day or your emotions during "you" time??? during "my" time, my brain generates cute things and ideas while I cuddle with my toy, imitating a dream; the rest of the time I work🤨🤨 absolutely. it was also in yesterday's post, where are the ideas (if you haven't forgotten it yet /t /hj); you've just suddenly become a bit too,,,, smooth. it's disturbing, but rather in a good sense i think.

(mmm, that's what they call a "justified advantage," right? hehehe; I don't think others will appreciate it, but then it will surely be very smooth for you — as long as you have at least some foundation, then everything will pass. just try to hold on well and confidently with your pretty quiet nature, don't throw yourself into a tremor and don't make that bunny face, and everything will be great♡ oh, that's bad!!! what if it's caries? you have to take care of your teeth, especially when it's baby teeth!!! try not to be such a sweet thing and eat healthy food<333 /t /hj)

mhm mhm... 🫤 for some reason, I can't believe that a person who confirmed that he plans to stay up at night suddenly says that he has started taking care of himself. do you know why?🫤🫤🫤 /t /hj

... ha. not until you give your consent<3 also, I promised that I would take care of my cute worm<33 so... no❤︎

you're so peaceably flexible with this "yes, but", "of course it is", "I don't argue, but", that I don't even know if I want to tease you or just put you in a box, because I'm sure some law prohibits being so timidly relaxed,,,, I mean, you've said before that you're like that, but I really didn't expect you to be even more like that than it was even said</3333 /ht /hj /neu<3 oh, so there was another belly, right??? I get it, I get it. no more mwahes for you — I'm not kissing cocottas who already have someone!!! 3:<<< puf puf puf 3:<<<<< /t /hj

don't worry, honey, if we were face to face, I wouldn't say that to you — I would bite your lovely cheek right away<33333 hehehe~ AHAHAHHA noooooo cute cutie</33333 maybe you mean "shyly"? "uncomfortable"? "don't do what again"? /ht I mean, where else can you be besides my pocket and my box? very suspicious, I think I'm going to erase the inscription with a pencil, you're reacting very strangely🤨🫤 /t /hj

[echoesofadream]

no literallyyyyy I loved when he was rawr emo boy grr !! but now he is wealth wealth rich Justin Bieber going insane. I guess we should have seen it coming, considering his young debut age and big success ofc hed land in that weird space eventually... aw this Made me kinda sad actually like it was funny being like yucky greasy long haired sweaty gamerboy but actually hes just child labor ptsd crashdown era :(( maybe he can collab with vernon and make a cringey emo song and get motivated to become a rockstar instead of twitch streamer? *have u seen Vernons solo its. its uh im really embarrassed I will forever remember the review a mutual or something posted "the song/mv is like something I made up to make fun of him" lol...) oh my god im getting more and more stressed thinking about jungkook now... even tho im not following him super closely cause yeah I dont have time to watch all those lives cheesus I dont rlly like lives anyway unless theyre special like tea time w hao or jungkook drinking wine or the hilarious bts live the legendary one anyway.... many worries.... also I agree maybe drugs would be good for him? its best to suffer in swagfull ways if u should suffer but I fear he doesnt have enough swag like, technically its swag to be an alcoholic but Liam Payne of one direction is swagless so his alcoholism is cringe so I think maybe jungkook couldn't pull of drug addiction unless he like killed someone maybe or became a girlblogger ? hmm much 2 think about and im sooo tired im gonna sleep now zz goodnight echo -misa ofc

Hi hi good morning misa hope you slept well 💞

wait you’re right. This must be a really confusing time for him because he has everything he could ask for but all his members are doing different stuff and like what should he do? When hes been working for one goal since literally t h i r t e e n y/o literally a CHILD. Like he has strived to be an idol and the best and given everything he has, literally sacrificed his youth. Like i would be so lost. But it seems like maybe he is just chilling. Maybe he should keep the dog…

That said yesssss can he PLEASE make emo music I KNOW hes got it in him, he can make IU-esque ballads also, punk rock indie pop.. but he should become a rockstar.. well whatever he wants i mean i think he just needs direction.. baby boy… AKDJFK thats so funny i think i saw something similar that vernons* lyrics seemed AI generated but yours is even funnier. Yeah good idea. Also no I cant watch his like three hours lives no matter how much i love his voice id rather just listen to decalcomania 1 hour version than all those endless kareoke covers. Hmmm yes all the fics ive read where hes done drugs hes been in like a downward spiral and im afraid theres truth to that, i think he could possibly go overboard also especially if he needs the drugs to do music. And hmm he does seem to be drinking in those lives and idk how to feel about i mean its his life i just mean theres a difference between decadence and suffering artist. Not to self insert on my favorite kpop boy but i think he also has the addiction gene. Maybe he should stick to the dog walks and gym routines for the sake of his wellbeing and maybe just go be a twitch streamer if thats what he needs💔 i feel like hes got so much inside of him to let out but its stifled by the fact that hes a 20 smth (idfk) millionare whos been cut off from the outside world due to being an idol since literal childhood. ok wow this is depressing. :/ i agree he should kill someone, he needs new demons

*playing Sad girl by lana*

[allisonlol]

Omg I would love a part two of the s/o moving in 😖💞

a/n: hell yea!! u didn't specify what characters so i just chose some at random!!

warnings: none!

(Fyodor, Dazai) When Their S/O Moves in with Them

Fyodor

he has great taste so i know he has the best designed place

only second to chuuya's

lives in an apartment near the outskirts of the city

has that nice ass dark interior too

but i digress

fyodor would let you move in only weeks after you started dating if you wanted to

and who wouldn't

sees this as a way to keep you closer to him, and therefore safer

rushes you to get all your stuff moved in after only a day??

probably calls nikolai over to help carry the furniture bc both of y’all are too WEAK

...which ends up being very eventful

^nikolai drops your favorite lamp down the stairs btw. and yes it broke </3

you guys share a bedroom since he doesn’t have an extra guest room 

fyodor probably has some secret room locked up that you’re NOT allowed to enter

dw it’s just his office lol. he’s trying so hard to be mysterious 😐

it’s always super hot in his apartment because he keeps the thermostat set to like 80 degrees

you’ll be sweating and begging him to turn it down while he still continues to insist that he’s freezing

ok that’s enough slander for today

his apartment always smells good!! like that clean linen febreeze

there’s always some soft classical or symphonic music playing over the surround sound at any given time; it’s actually really soothing

his kitchen is always STOCKED with the best kinds of foreign foods too...fyodor is a man of taste as previously mentioned 🤗

Dazai

move into what, lmao?? a storage unit???

kidding. i’d hope he’s moved out of there by now

but we all know that dazai is practically broke 

so his apartment is pretty small and basic, like a studio apartment

i’m being pretty generous with these but:

dazai is another one who wants you to move in right away, after a few months of dating or so

unlikely that you'd get your own room since the apt is already so small

not that u mind...(or maybe u do, idfk)

dazai is that specific breed of person that NEVER locks their doors so pls start doing that for him 😟

^sometimes atsushi just randomly shows up?? he tells u it’s because before u moved in, HE was the one who made sure dazai didn’t leave any important documents out in the open for ppl to find

his apt is surprisingly clean tho?? probably cuz he can't afford many belongings in the first place

i'm not sorry that this has just turned into repeatedly bashing dazai and his living situation

once you've unpacked your stuff and settled in, you make his place actually look lived in

while you're there, you take it as an opportunity to help him fix his absolutely cursed sleep schedule

literally have to drag him to bed at a normal time

you do most of the shopping too, since the first day you moved in and checked the fridge it was completely EMPTY

dazai could care less about how you furnish or organize the place, so feel free to do whatever you'd like with it

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[brain-go-brrrrr]

I wanna do these all at once cause ik I'm gonna forget ;-;

1. Hw - about 210lbs (95.3kg)

Sw - 186.4lbs (84.5kg)

Cw - 127.4lbs (57.8kg)

2. I'm 5'3 (160cm)

Fuckin HATE my height, can't control that but I can control my weight 😌

3. Love the ribs and thin lanky fingers

4. Biggest fear is gaining it ALL back and then some, I don't want to go back to a size xL when I'm now a small :/

5. I'm doing it for me. I originally wanted to eat healthier but most if the time I tried it didn't work and I gained. And once I started losing weight healthily, I felt powerful and could control my urges so I just kept cutting cals :)

6. I used to eat 2 bags of chips in a single sitting then have a bunch of greasy shit. I used to binge cause I had no friends so I was just filling time lol

7. Yes. Everyone in my family is CONCERNED abt how quickly I lost weight lol (about 60lbs in 5 months :/ )

8. Mostly just an hour of just dance (wii game) or 10k steps. Only cause im not as motivated anymore.

9. Mostly doctors saying I should've lost a bunch of weight as an 8 y/o lol,, but other than that, everyone ignored me when I was fatter

10. Pasta, excessive cheese, and macadamia nut cookies.

11. Don't have one ;-;

12. Cucumber, garlic hummus, tuna, low cal mayo, and pickles.

13. 👀

What do you think?

14. Ugw - 90lbs (40.8kg)

Idk? I've been losing close to 10lbs a month so maybe I'll shoot for Christmas? (Its August 2nd rn.)

15. Peskitarian. I have been for about 5-6 years? Tho I've stopped eating hot dogs and bologna and noticed I've gotten paler lol

16. I've wanted to lose weight since I was 10 lol (18 now) the beginning goal was to fit into cosplay costume pants, tho I don't cosplay anymore ;-;

17. 👁👄👁 maybe (undiagnosed as of now)

18. Pickles. 🤤🤤

19. Had to about 5 days ago, but by choice, about 2.5 months ago?

20. 500 cal max with intermittent fasting every so often lol

21. Idfk,, I wear a men's small but they're a bit big cause I only wear oversized clothes. Probably a women's small?

22. I'm at my lw :,) hope to not gain ;-;

23. Mostly just the cosplay community on tiktok only boosting the thin people who looked most like the characters :/

24. Idk i kinda just use them as tags? I mean, you shouldn't encourage someone to have an ed, but it'd be nice to have a community that knows what you're going through and can be there for you :,)

25. Never thrown up on purpose BUT I do over exercise whenever I have more than 500 cals lol

26. Death? Being smaller than my boyfriend? (I mean I already am. Hes taller and probably close to the same weight as me ;-;)

27. I have SO much food aggression. Whenever I'm around food and I have to eat, I pick apart my food and make it look unappealing

28. Idc. It'll probably just be easier to get skinny jeans lol

29. Not me! Idk,, my bf is really beautiful but beauty is subjective :)

30. Don't wanna do this part,, im done :,)