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I'M NOT A KAISER FAN BUT I'LL READ KAISER FICS NOW AND THEN AND WHENEVER HE SPEAKS IN GERMAN IT THROWS ME OFF SM BECAUSE I USED TO WRITE FOR KĆNIG FROM COD AND HE'S AUSTRIAN šš
#melotalks#this has gotta be an original experience šš#like he'll call reader āmeine liebeā#and it always throws me off sm#NOT THAT I DON'T LIKE IT#OBVIOUSLY#nicknames r so cute#idek where i'm going with this#keep it up kaiser writers#i love u all dearly#michael kaiser#blue lock kaiser
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constantly being told i'm mature for my age (19) kinda makes me wonder how do the people around me perceive nineteen year olds
#i think... most ppl my age act the way i do?? not exactly like me but yk.. 19 is like the retirement age of ur teens ??? for me... no?#idek where i'm going with this#lol but like obviously young ppl wanna be young and turnt but like if u sit down with a nineteen year old i feel like we're all kinda#Just some guy#but i also could be perceiving my age mates incorrectly#all of my friends (except 2) are 23+#quite literally
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So Terry's in jail now. And Kreese just broke out (lol), but what if he gets caught again (because while he was in there for something he didn't do, he did break the law a few times during his escape).
They're unable to avoid each other. They don't share a jail cell, because the prison is not that stupid, but they see each other during meal time and in places like the prison gym. There's a lot of angry staring going on, their eyes finding each other the moment the other steps into the room.
One day some inmates set something on fire and all hell breaks loose. Kreese is still a 'shot caller', and therefore able to protect Terry during the resulting riot. Which means Terry owes him his life, twice now. And that brings back memories, feelings.
After that Terry becomes known as Kreese's 'prison wife', a title he wears with pride. They manipulate the guards into making them cellmates and live happily and evilly ever after, ruling a significant part of the prison together.
#idek where I'm going with this#I just want them to find each other again after s5... while being safely locked up#krilver#evil karate husbands#cobra husbands
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tfw Iām going through the tags and see someone using mine and my friendās ocās in an ask to someone else
#i know it's dumb to be upset about fankids and stuff#i don't ACTUALLY own anything or anything like that but....#idek where I'm going with this#i'm just upset and this is like the LEAST of the problems i have with this person
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I don't believe in destiny, but if destiny exists, then it is heading for Donna Noble.
#mine#doctor who#dwedit#david tennant#catherine tate#dw spoilers#i..... am not sure where i wanted to go with this gifset#it started off with the doctor and donna and destiny and aliens#and then i decided to throw in donna missing all the alien things#and now it doesn't really make sense???#or does it? idek#there's just a lot going on here bc i'm too excited#but it IS about donna so i'm gonna post it anyways :')#wooo 5 gifsets this weekend!!#haven't done that in a while :D
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the debate continues (pt 1) but kurama gets called in
bonus under the cut (ft hiei):
gay people
#can you tell i'm much more used to drawing hiei and kurama? lol. i just love their hair sm like.. mwah#anyway idek if this is funny but here's more of it ig#also i just typed 90s yaoi cover into google so i know nothing about that image or its source material so like. open to fun facts ig#yyh#yu yu hakusho#kuwameshi#kazuma kuwabara#kurama#shuichi minamino#hiei#anyway kuwameshi bi4bi moment and i think about the discovery of that a lot. also yusuke's nb to me so im picturing another side of this#where yusuke's like oh man... maybe i AM the girl??? but for gender reasons and not like. relationship dynamic or uke/seme reasons or whatv#also poor kuwabara. that's not going to help you very much i think. he's gonna believe in the yaoi hole :(#skrunkart#thinking about how kurama uses telepathy when he's first introduced and kind of never again after that?? anyway that's what going on in tha#hiei extra fyi#kuwabara kazuma#minamino shuichi#idkkkkk#hoorayy anyway so like. yusuke and kuwabara here like each other so much but don't know what that makes them (bi in this case) bc of the#past interest in girls. like they both have been into girls but they feel so strongly about each other they can't just ignore it. so they'r#like shit i guess we're gay now. and that doesnt fit right but what else could it be? and also they have like zero accurate knowledge of#queer people and queerness. very 'completely trusts an am i gay quiz' moment to me#they don't know where to look besides yaoi and that's Not For Them so that doesn't work. confusing times for kuwameshi i spose#plus kuwabara spirit sensitivity = gaydar in this case#a little tiny tiny kurahi in there. to me :)
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wait. when rick was talking to lori on the phone in the prison he tells her he "couldn't put it back together." now, in his proposal (!!!) to michonne he tells her she's "the only one who can put it back together." is this anything
#genuinely wondering if this was a genuine callback or if i'm making shit up out of nothing lmao#idek where i'm going with that but it's interesting#richonne#towl spoilers#the ones who live spoilers#the ones who live
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Hi Pia
I have 2 separate questions that are unrelated but share a subject matter.
Would a woman omega or trans man omega who was infertile/sterile be allowed at Hillview?
And 2) Have you thought or would you ever write an mm pairing where one of them was a trans man?
I'm trans masc and I find it so hard to find good trans fics that deal with trauma recovery or aren't just pwp. And I love your writing so much that if you ever decided to write a transman fic I'd literally cry from happiness.
So, I was going to write a big long world-building response to this but instead I'm gonna take it back to something personal - you're asking me to consider worldbuilding for and writing for stuff I feel pretty dysphoric over in my personal life. I go out of my way to really, really avoid writing heterosexuality of any kind for a start, so I don't want to think about all the fringe cases where I can make heterosexuality possible at Hillview or the sister site. That's just...icky to me.
As for trans folk, being that I'm also transmasc, I'm mostly team 'if you want to see it happen you can write it happening. I have zero problems with that. But there's stuff I'm not writing about either for reasons relating to dysphoria, or for reasons relating to 'this is not actually why I enjoy writing in the first place.' This is why I don't do self-inserts, for example. I don't like seeing myself in my own stories, I prefer seeing myself represented in other stories.
So -> If other folks want to write it, they can! If they want to solve those worldbuilding issues, they absolutely can! If they want to write fic about it, I'm gonna set off a confetti cannon for them in celebration.
In terms of worldbuilding, the answer would just always be: It depends. If you want to find the fringe cases then sure, there would always be exceptions! But if there was any chance of fertility/pregnancy with their companion, then no. So it would absolutely need to be not just a hormonal transition (a lot of things can impact consistent hormonal uptake and I think omegaverse hormones in the Underline universe would actually impact them a lot too), but one that covered bottom surgery as well.
Is that like, a problem in honouring someone's gender? Absolutely!! The Underline universe isn't perfect. But preventing pregnancy is their biggest concern at Hillview and the sister site. I know in regular/standard ORFs, they only care about the fertility issue, and care about literally nothing else, and yes, that can be a huge issue re: trans folk. This world is a dystopia, it doesn't pretend to be anything else.
The fun thing about fanfiction, is that other people can erase all of that with a sweep, come up with some magical contraception, and just make it happen. :D
As a transmasc person myself, I have stuff I just don't like writing. Just like everyone else does. You are absolutely welcome and completely have my blessing to imagine whatever you like for Underline, to write it in fic, to daydream about it, to bend and change the rules that already exist or to make up new ones that don't exist yet, that work for a world you want to read about.
But for me...it just comes too close to 'if I have to change or figure out these things I also have to think about how to set up 'woman omega and man alpha' heterosexuality and I just don't want to.'
I'm so sorry anon. I'm going to circle this one under competing needs. Sometimes the thing another person needs to find gender affirmation, is the thing that will harm another person's experience of their own gender, even if that gender shares the same general name, even if that changes down the track. (This is how we get some trans people who hate genderbending in fic and say it's dysphoric, and other trans people who love it and say it's affirming. It's true for both, neither should impose their views on the other).
The TL;DR being: I write what I want to be writing. If I'm not writing it, and have never written it, it's because I don't want to write it. In the matter of heterosexuality: zero interest, I'll leave that for other folks. In the matter of being trans, dealing with my own gender stuff irl is already a nightmare that I don't want to have to write out a version of that again in fiction, because I can't live it twice, and I don't like writing fluffy stories.
#asks and answers#personal#idek if i should tag this under underline worldbuilding#this one is just super personal#about every year people ask me if i'm going to write trans stories#and multiple times if i will write heterosexuality and it's like#i think i just feel more strongly against most of it over time#i *might* write a transmasc story one day#i think about it sometimes#but it will be in a different world where there's likely zero transphobia#i'm not going to deal with it in a dystopia#it's funny how some stuff i can write out twice (like trauma recovery)#but gender stuff is too close to home#i will read it when other people write it#but yeah no#sorry anon#life hurts enough and i can't hurt myself more in fic#and i just know that's where i'd end up
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little shop images....
#will roland#lsoh#seymour krelborn#in true jumping off summer stock documentation form....#meanwhile clutching the edges of a sink#clutching the edges of another one like & i'm not even that effective at finding / pouncing on Posts#like oh lord what do you mean guthrie theater uses ig stories....idek where on ig they posted the top image#i got it from checking on their fb just now. while the lower image is from their ig but Not their facebook.#making life more difficult. vs there's the ease of ''plot of lsoh generally Known here vs not knowing how they'd remix summer stock''#that yellow purple plaid going on w/that particular buttonup is always: more like going off#and the rare dishevelment look. still some surprises like: i'm not That familiar w/lsoh. never seen a live production for instance#saw the movie once and it's been a minute. & rick moranis is there (at bmc bway closing completely coincidentally. can you believe)#leaning in over the Computer One going wait. enhance the image (re: the photos & writing in the background)#but that top image truly is already high res enough you can see will's watch reads 2:59
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ok quick rundown of Edean Sonic's deal bc my brain is buzzing too much for me to sleep rn and he's easier to explain than Shadow:
Sonic was alive during the Planetary War aka that war that led to Edea's apocalypse.
He was a guerilla mech pilot--using a mech that was likely stolen + modified with the help of a Tails equivalent.
He was part of a sort of paramilitary organization that aimed to end the war by uh................sabotaging/destroying enough of all different the active forces' resources that they won't have the capability to participate in more fighting.
While the effects of his actions are debatable (big understatement), Sonic himself does truly care about saving as many people as possible. He evacuates civilians using his mech whenever he can.
At this point in time, Shadow was a relief worker/medic operating on the ground. He met Sonic during one of these impromptu evacuations. They don't get along, to say the least. While both of them ultimately long for peace, Shadow hates Sonic's (and the organization he belongs to) "fight fire with fire" approach to stopping the war.
When it comes down to it, they still cooperate really well when they have a common goal. So they at least respect eachother somewhat.
In fact, if it wasn't for Shadow's help, Sonic could've actually died from transforming into Fission form :]
Oh yeah, Sonic has Sound Type and is a full-blood Edean. He doesn't have canon's super speed, but he is still abnormally fast despite being Just Some Guy. I imagine he can go fast via literally creating sonic booms to propel himself.
Not completely canon yet?; but I once mentioned a lore tidbit that some of Comet's ancestors on her mom's side were mech pilots. And Sonic is also blue so maybe.............? š¤
#rey rambles#lore: edea#I'm working on an actual visual design I promise hfjjfjd#I still kinda want Edean Sonic to reflect canon's characterization somewhat and idek how close this goes#I was going for Edean sonic's morality kinda being a callback to how sonic has that thing#of doing what HE thinks needs to be done even if it makes him a villain to everyone else#like in satbk. yeah.#idek where I was going with this but oughhh Edean Sonic I am rotating him in my mind#posthumous characters my belovedddd
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#ok ramble time#classic this feels too intimate to share with anyone so everyone gets it#essentially last week there was a suicide on campus#he was not one of my students or in our department#I'm pretty removed from it#ans i really didn't think it affected me#but i guess it has#bc like i thought i was over#āØthisāØ#Like ok i have had active plans in the past#one of those this is how this is when this is where#just waiting for the final straw#but i clearly never did#and that plan would no longer work due to changes in circumstances and living arrangements etc#which is honestly probably for the best#bc i refuse to make a new one bc i know i do not want to go there#but im just TIRED and ANXIOUS#its not even the depression its the anxiety of living#i stay up until 3-4 in the morning bc i cant stand the idea of going to sleep#and i secretly hope each sleep will be my last#bc im not going to DO anything bc that would not be it#too many ppl care about me (unfortunately)#and then ive stopped eating (again)#and it's like idek if its bc i dont want to or bc i forget#its like i see myself self destructing but cant make myself stop#and I have not done anything physically stupid in quite a long time but ive started biting to stim#and i dont even know im doing it half the time it just helps#and skin picking. which none or this is the same as true s/h but it does scare me to a degree bc i dont mean to i just do it#anyway i don't expect anyone to read all of this i just had to get it out ot my head
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where did theo sleep when the dread doctors were still in town, and if he slept in the sewers, where did he put his truck??
#like obviously he had trouble finding places to sleep in the truck in 6b#so one can assume he didn't sleep in his truck through s5#so did he sleep in the sewers somewhere?#and where did the truck go that it wasn't consistently towed?#bc wait he was in a different car in the first half of 5a#when did he even get the truck??#how did he even get it??#did the doctors buy it?#did he steal it?#i have so many questions#theo raeken#teen wolf#i so badly need to rewatch s5#i'm so tired idek if i'm making sense
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welcome to my stranger things alternate universe / timeloop / time travel speculation corner! The theory (is that what it should be called?) Is under the cut, inspired on some set production leaks. I go into how I think time travel could work in this universe with some help from USS Elridge's disappearance and reappearance through time.
Hello stranger nation, I was looking at set photos for s5 I believe first uploaded by will80sbyers.
I notice this Hawkins high chalk board (I assume) and the math problem on it seemed interesting to me.
This was my interpretation of it. I am not 100% confident on it but if anyone smarter then me has other interpretations I would love to see them.
I also have a small theory on how time travel might be utilized in this universe. Again, there is likely huge holes in my theory and anyone with strong ideas willing to bounce off what I put down is more then welcome.
USS Elridge going outside of time then coming back, with two of its passengers potentially going forward in time during this leap creating a time paradox sort of situation due to them being returned back to their present time. (technically now their past.)
This might also be why there is multiple / alternate universes in general, as they created different possible futures due to their absence in their original universe/timeline and the absence of them in the alternative universe they accidentally visited.
now here is where I speculate who are potential knowing time travelers, though again if anyone else has better conclusions I'd love to see them!
(Dr. Who's time-war anyone?)
Thanks for coming to my Tedgate talk. *launched into dimension x*
Even more, thanks to everyone who has been putting all the leg work on this series (some shoutouts, wheelercore, henrysglock and aemiron-main who have had some really awesome thoughts regarding the series! And anyone else I might gotten ideas from but couldn't remember when posting this! Yall stranger things theorists rock!)
#st5 speculation#st5 spoilers#henry creel#edward creel#Timeloop gate#Alternative universes gate#Stranger things speculation#stranger things spoilers#Multiple universes gate#Sorry if I sound pretentious#I struggle with tone when I'm ātalkingā to myself#scott clarke#martin brenner#richard brenner#sam owens#the creelers#I am also trash at writing bear with me if at all possible#I was going to add a Dr. Who time war poster but already had too many images gg#I should probably provide a pastebin transcript or something#Or remake the post lol#Bear with me#The f nonsense might also stand for fillial hybrid#But idek where to start with that haha#strong language
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Hey radical spicy hot take but Trapdoor is 100% a ruby song. And. Trapdoor is 100% a oscar song. They are a mirror to each other. They are put on the same pedestal. They bear the same weight. They occupy the same space, simultaneously, impossibly. Do you see my vision?
anono... how does it feel to have such a big brain. all songs are rg songs if you try hard enough. š¤
Yes, Trapdoor is first and foremost a Ruby song, but her and Oscar are 100% mirrors living such similar character arcs. I could talk about all those parallels in a post all their own (one day), but for now a really good example is actually comparing Trapdoor to Sky is Falling (thank you @greenteaandtattoos for pointing it out first).
I'm gonna ramble a bit
Trapdoor is a song about the weight Ruby has been carrying. How she has tried so hard and how it's seemingly done more harm than good. It talks about how she doesn't feel seen or heard or needed, let alone wanted. How she's losing herself. How she feels like a trapdoor, part of the floorboards being walked on and unnoticeable. How one more step is all it might take for her to break and fall further into the depths below. And simultaneously like a trap that will lead all her friends to ruin.
And Sky is Falling (in my opinion) is a song about the weight Oscar has been carrying. How he's struggling with moving forward in light of everything he's been through and everything they've lost. The song itself is cited as referencing the original Henny Penny (aka Chicken Little) fairytale since it's a story that uses the song's title as a cry wolf for fearing the end of the world. But that feels a bit like a red herring to me. Or at least not like the whole picture.
The original myth of Atlas and the weight of the world isn't actually about the god holding the world on his shoulders. It's about him holding up the sky. So whether you read it as Oscar struggling with what to do given Atlas is falling... or struggling with how to move after Ruby falls, (Ruby, who was holding Atlas on her shoulders. So when she fell, so to did the city in the sky) is up to interpretation.
Some examples of how the songs mirror each other a bit tho:
Trapdoor
Though I try to keep the hope alive
Sky is Falling
Lost all my hopes and dreams
Trapdoor
Watch it all Unfold As I Cascade below Frozen In the darkest moment I can't bear the weight I hold
Sky is Falling
Starin' at the casket, hopin' to move past it Knowin' things will never be the same, and that's it Cold soaked as I'm standin' in rain Feelin' nothin' but pain until I see you again
Both of them struggling to hold onto hope. Both of them struggling with the cold of grief. The water imagery in "cascading" and "rain". The feeling of drowning. How to keep moving in the face of it all.
Also just on the topic of them being mirrors, it's interesting how many of these songs can so easily link back together. Trust Love's "open up your eyes" to Sky is Falling's "cover up your eyes". Then Sky is Falling's direct parallel, Touch the Sky. In my opinion, this song talks about both of them. The first verse is very Oscar "Little Prince" Pine, but especially this part:
I'm soarin' like I never have before Flying self-assured and free And I somehow feel I finally feel like me I looked in the mirror and I gotta say It's been a long, long time since I felt this way Right now, I'm just a bit surprised 'Cause I feel just fine and I might just touch the sky
And then directly towards Ruby's ascension in the second verse:
Open doors and so much hope in front of me Full of confidence, every challenge crushed My heart's electric, racing endlessly Feeling like the stars have all aligned Illuminate the darkness that was blinding me Now I'm positive that it's my time to shineI will explode, you'll see me rise You may not even recognize I just can't wait for this reveal
But also... very strong argument can be made that both verses apply to both of them. Finally feeling like themselves, the people they've wanted to be, the ones they're meant to be. These kids and their identity issues... But especially cause, um, Ruby isn't the only one that explodes.
So to summarize, Oscar looked in the mirror - not the mirror that showed Oz's reflection, but the mirror he sees in Ruby - and he became more like himself. Influenced by the hope she inspires.
And Ruby, like Alice, fell through the looking glass. But in the Ever After the only Oscar that was there to stare back at her wasn't a reflection of hope, it was was one of fear.
So she had no choice but to fall further and looked inward. Until she found the hope that was always inside her. The hope Oscar always knew was there because he sees her.
And the fact that Ruby's hope, her motivation, has always been "the people she hasn't lost yet". And how Oscar is the only living companion Neo 'kills' to hurt her. I'm getting so off track here but...
The Parallels. It's CINEMA.
They make me UNWELL.
Edit: I ended up just talking a bit about how they're mirrors through song and not so much Trapdoor from an Oscar lens. It is so strongly a Ruby song to me that it's hard to apply to him, even if it does fit him in some ways as well. All alone in crowded rooms and all that.
#is this even coherent#i feel like that conspiracy meme guy#w all the red string on a board and idek where half the threads go#BUT I'M HAVING FUN SO THAT'S ALL THAT MATTERS EHEHE#sorry if u wanted a different answer ldkjfkld#ask#asks#anon#anono#chainalysis
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Treating fictional stories as some kind of moral compass is generally not the great idea some people might think it is.
You really shouldnāt expect every single story to depict every single relationship in a morally correct way. Sometimes, authors are going to romanticize a relationship that would be seen as wrong and/or immoral in real life and you know what? Thatās fine. Because the point of fiction isnāt always to tell you exactly whatās right and wrong. Sometimes that might be the point of a fictional story but a lot of the time itās up to you, as the consumer of whatever content, to make up your own opinion about the content you come in contact with.Ā
Dark fictional stories always has and always will exist. There will always be fiction that deals with things you donāt agree with and you know what? Itās up to you, the person consuming said content, to decide what kind of content you like and can deal with in a healthy manner.Ā
And if you donāt like it or agree with it? Please, for the love of god, stop consuming the content thatās making you upset. I swear, you will be so much happier if you dedicate your time to the things you actually enjoy.
Also, donāt harass people for enjoying fiction you might not agree with because I donāt know about you but I personally think that sending real life, actual, people death threats and harassing them will always be way worse than any fictional stories one might be able to consume.
#this is probably incoherent as fuck but idc#i'd prefer no discourse but who fucking knows where this will end up#it probably won't go anywhere honestly#anyway#i'm not gonna respond to any hate or harassment#you're entitled to your opinion and i'm entitled to mine#idek how to tag this#fiction#purity culture#anti purity culture#i suppose#fandom#proship#anti anti
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save me dan and phil dan and phil save me.... I'm begging i need it I'm omw home from a hellish day at work and I'm like omg there's a new video oh thank FUCK
#like the guy crawling in the desert meme where I go right past water into dnp games vid#thank god#hope i get home soon to watch it cause I'm trying not to cry in the bus and Failing#tipsy dan and phil save me (if they drink for real idek yet)
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