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necrotic-nephilim · 7 months ago

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i personally have very complicated feelings on the Gotham Knights video game and the routes it takes with characterization. i think it has a charm to it and it goes in an interesting direction with everyone (especially within the confides of the plot of the game) but it does have certain moments that veer painfully fanon for me. (such as: the dialogue where Tim drinks too much coffee) it's an interesting story for what it is but i don't view it comics-based for characterization and therefore don't care to interact with it much for like. fanfic purposes.

that *said* though. i do have to give the game some kind of credit for giving one of the top five JayTim moments that lives rent free in my mind. every since i played the game, the cutscene lives in my mind daily. it's the specific cutscene where Jason and Tim are arguing about whether or not Jason's non-lethal bullets are too dangerous for the field, and the argument leads to TIm *standing in front of the target* Jason is shooting and telling Jason to shoot him. it lives rent free for me. i never stop thinking about this.

the absolute certainty Tim has that he is in no danger standing in front of Jason, who has a loaded gun pointed at his face. the way Jason *hesitates* for just a moment before lowering the gun. he thinks about it for just a second. Gotham Knights JayTim seem to get along very well and can rely on each other, but Jason still clearly holds a bitterness about his death and Tim that flickers through in some lines of dialogue under the guise of jokes. especially since this game deals *heavily* with concepts of Pit Madness causing an altered state of consciousness, i think it's believable that occasionally, Jason fights the urge to fight and hurt Tim for the feeling of being replaced.

i like their tension so much in this canon. they get along but you can *tell* Tim is afraid of addressing Jason's trauma or even addressing Jason head-on, and Jason leans into spooking Tim about it. which isn't very comics feeling in their dynamic, but it is an interesting way to place their dynamic if you're playing with a more timid Tim who's newer to the role of Robin. (which he seems to be in-game) he really doesn't want to offend Jason, or worse, piss him off. but he'll still face Jason head on for things like this, while completely aware of what Jason could be capable of.

and Jason seems very protective of Tim and respecting Tim as a Robin in typical Jason fashion. if Tim pushes, Jason *will* relent. he knows this is a kid who's proved himself and should be treated with equal respect, sometimes even more than Dick and Babs do in-game.

so for all that to culminate in Tim stepping in front of Jason's loaded gun that he *knows* is on the edge of being too dangerous, just to force Jason to listen? it's the most unhinged way Tim could've gotten his point across in this scene. he was literally daring Jason to hurt him and playing with a very dangerous fire. but he did it anyway bc he believed he could make Jason heel just at the thought of hurting Tim. and he was *right*. they're gay and i'm feral ty.

#necrotic festerings #jaytim #tim drake x jason todd #gotham knights game #i hate their character designs for what it's work #BUT the size difference. jesus.#anyway i could write a gotham knights jaytim fic i think #i'm *very* unsure the ages intended for these characters #bc tim certainly seems to be intended to be a teenager #whereas jason seems in his 20s so i think it's a gap that's bigger than the comics #which also makes it fun. usually you don't get a ton of age gap with jaytim they're just under 2 yrs apart #but this tim is definitely still a teen and jason is an adult.#and seems to enjoy being a bad influence on tim in the game so #there's such good fodder for some dead dove shit #anyway the funny thing is i like this game #you don't want to know how many hours i've played it #it's just best treated as a seperate iteration of the characters than being an adaptation of anything #esp since they're *so* vague and waffly on jason's backstory #as well as not giving a ton of info on how tim became robin #you assume it's similar to comics but some details leave gaps in the timeline. so idek #probably not somehting meant to be thought about too hard.#but i'm an overthinker at heart.#my point is they're gay. this is gay. it baffles me ppl don't look at this as the gayest shit alive.#tim daring jason to shoot him is the most tim drake thing in this game #well that and tim wanting to make a talon in the belfrey.#also NO one say a word about the gif quality /lh #i had to make it MYSELF #i do everything around here to show off their gay shit #sorta tempted to just make a masterpost of “every gay ass interaction between jaytim”#bc i've seen some clips from the titans show

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honig-dachs · 3 months ago

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there it is

#whatever happened to fandom in these past 15 years #and you'd think this only accounts for so-called 'problematic' ships but no #(oftentimes very young) people will be like 'BUT THEY NEVER INTERACTED???? 💀💀💀'#or 'BRO THEY'RE NOT GAY IT'S NEVER GONNA BE CANON💀💀💀'#'UHMMM THEY'RE BEST FRIENDS/ SIBLING CODED 💀💀💀'#child i don't care #idk why so many ppl nowadays are OBSESSED with their ship having to become canon or otherwise it's not a valid ship #up to the point where they end up harassing not only other fans who don't ship it but even cast and crew of their media #like...this goes against the very essence of fandom #we're here to have fun and think up our little stories and write them and draw them #do i seriously expect deadpool and wolverine to ever make out on the big screen?#fuck no i don't and no one should because it's fucking disney #but in my head and here on tumblr dot com they are dating #married even #that's all i need #THAT WAS ALWAYS ENOUGH #why do you need it to happen fr to feel validated or even rewarded #why do you care if i ship something else than you do #why are you pitting ships against each other and make this a competition #why do you need your ship to 'win'#i'm sorry but that's really weird behavior #(and no this rant isn't actually about the poolverine fandom but i've seen this happen in other fandoms)#idek what the hell to tag this as #fandom things #shipping discourse #don't come at me tho i'm old

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c6jpg · 5 months ago

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i should have paid more attention to the first part of the little saurian world quest bc i am now fully invested

#0.txt #but ochkanatlan was good i enjoyed it. i appreciate that it was succinct but immersive kinda like the remuria world quest #i was kind of confused at the end but i just read people's summaries and i more or less get it now #genshin's writing can be super obtuse which is only aggravated by super long quests esp bc my attention span isn't that long #like honestly i still don't know wtf was up with the narzissenkreuz ordo and at this point idc either LMAOOO #but yeah its a shame aq/sq are so tied to the fact that this is a gacha and the marketability of its characters #bc that just lends itself so easily to ass writing. inazuma and natlan have been the biggest victims of that so far lol #meanwhile the wq's clearly have a lot more freedom to really give their stories depth #but their length and vague way of explaining things also makes them hard to understand unless you're really paying attention #idek what point i'm trying to make here. you can't win ig both modes have its problems afkjladsfj #i feel like i'm just constantly oscillating between rolling my eyes at a lot of the shit that happens in the main story vs being #completely ?????????? during a world quest #also per my last post i was super excited about ochkanatlan's ost at the entrance #but it honestly got more boring/generic the further you went in. still very pretty but it wasn't the next enkanomiya i was hoping for </3 #i am excited to explore more of the area though

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divinekangaroo · 10 months ago

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Can't explain how unspeakably hot Lizzie is in that specific gifset (prior reblog chain)

#the yearning the yearning #the taut and furiously trembling wire of her body #the curve of her arse through the satin #and after the sleek and sheeted softness of the actual sex scene which was really comfort and cradling #that particular stride is what's thrumming with heat and passion #wanting tommy to rise to that (and he can't)#what's hot about those two is never really about penetration #one reason why i like writing sex for txl as just this Thing that happens and maybe it's good and maybe it's bad but what's actually-#-hot is other stuff happening around the sex. more passion in one sentence than in 20mins of sex #also one reason why they feel vaguely queer at some level #one is the performative nature of their heterosexuality (tommy performing 'acceptable' masculinity lizzie performing 'acceptable' femininit #when they were/are both 'unacceptable' versions of both masculinity and femininity)#the other is how sex is the constant and the defining element but #sex is less of the point than the fact they are having sex with each other in that performative context #idek how to explain there's just some dynamic bending going on no matter how i try to parse it

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cmentary-drive · 10 months ago

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Okay so about the lore drop 😇😇😇

#best i can do are unexplained drawings of random shit i saw in my head which idek if i would consider lore #i am trying to write it actually but all i have is 7 chapters that all feel like filler episodes with dead ends #i swear i really wish i had any good lore to share but my writing ain't shit i jave literally nothing besides sketches too far into the #future #so like ik how id want to end it more or less or what consequences she would suffer from certain situations #but i actually have no idea how to built it up to reach any of those points

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pamshindouu · 1 month ago

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Rei and Hackmon's character song is such a misunderstood work of art

#Digimon ramblings #the amount of people I see complaining about Hackmon talking over Rei's singing #or just dumbing it down to “haha Hackmon didn't know he was supposed to sing”#do you not see THE SYMBOLISM #THE DISCONNECT BETWEEN THEM #Hackmon trying to reach out to Rei #showing support and giving him advice and making observations #while Rei is just too absorved in his search for Hajime almost driving himself insane #but Hackmon stands by his side and continues calling out to him #which like #I think it's really interesting how Hackmon says Rei's name so often when talking to him #just in this song he says it a total of 9 times #almost like he's constantly reminding him of his own existence #calling out his name making sure he doesn't forget himself #then eventually Rei stops to listen and reply to him #and OH MAN the way he talks so softly at the end hhhh #I love them... I love them so much #I feel so alone in this tho #idk like #I see people writing entire essays exploring the relationship dynamics between human characters in Digimon and pointing out symbolism #and whatnot #but it feels like there's such a disregard for the digimon(/appmon) themselves and their bonds with their partners #almost like a refusal to acknowledge them as individuals with actual thoughts and feelings #idk it's just a feeling I get #but anyway sorry for venting in the tags lol #idek what I'm writing anymore it's 4 AM I SHOULD GO TO BED #should I even post this #it's dumb #oh well

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ceramicbeetle · 7 months ago

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officially 10K into this fic and having a realization about where I'm at on characterization so far, so i'm wondering:

#N posts stuff #i'm like. this first draft is really the writing equivalent of layout sketching: which characters are where / what's the scene About #with the expectation that the second draft will have the building blocks there to build up specific characterization further #but i'm realizing that i am in fact SO broad strokes on the characters so far that i'd need to do extensive studying #of the source material to really hammer in the characterization in a way that i would be satisfied with. a task that at this point #likely wouldn't be very fun. so i had a moment of 'oh idek if i'll be able to finish writing this fic :(' and got sad about it #which was where the 'oh. actually if i'm That loose on characterization right now I could just. shift the characters in #Whatever ways i want them to go and just make them OCs instead of fanfic...' which would actually be like. technically speaking #a Lot more fun bc this fic is so self-indulgent that i keep having moments where i'm pulling back on other elements i'd want to #incorporate into the fic bc 'if it's Too self-indulgent with numerous headcanons it won't be Good to fandom readers'#(ie the character who would Really vibe being a furry and the other begging to be a tgirl)#it Might wind up being something we do no matter what but i am still curious if there would be like. an actual audience for it #and not just something i'm doing all for myself lol; i used to make a LOT of ocs but haven't really done it in Years nd Years #i had a 'no way' moment but i Have had multiple people tell me they read my fics Regardless of whether they've seen source #material or not. so tentatively hopeful the answer is yes? but i'm curious :3

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throes-of-warm-tornadoes · 4 months ago

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now that i am taking a study break (aka getting ready for work… when ashnikko wrote Working Bitch she was talking about me btw 😜) i would just like to take a moment to talk about how this class fucking HUMBLED ME. i’ve never got less than an A in any courses related to my major (which… yeah. should be the fuckin goal) but now i can only hope and pray i pass this class with a C (minus)

#i am teetering between getting an A and failing entirely bc this entire class is made up of three exams + one paper #i failed the 2nd exam (don’t wanna talk about it…) and since idek how he harsh he is for writing assignments i am like oh GOD #i asked him for feedback and he was like “O.O. oh diva… i don’t do that here” then what do you do?? 😭😭#he’s funny as fuckkk though it’s a lecture based class NOT discussion based and he takes that to heart #i tried bringing up a discussion point and he straight up said “alright let’s move it along what are you trying to say??”#whatever girl

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lostboithoughts · 1 year ago

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No summer ever came back, and no two summers were ever alike. Times change, and people change..

#in my mind #in my feelings #quotes #life qoute #life is crazy #words are poetry #writing words #words #nostaliga #nostalgic feelings #memories #take me baaaaack #oh wow #damn #damn that’s tough #idek at this point #i miss the old days #i miss the old me #what happened

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hickeygender · 1 year ago

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reading an unpublished partial draft and realizing that the fic isn't gonna finish itself

#i just want yue to become a kyoshi warrior and team up with zuko and later jet... the utter potential of that trio!! the power!!!#but if i want to read this very specific scenario i must write it myself. it's gonna be a MAJOR fucking longfic too. like at least a yr of #precanon as well as books 1 2 and 3. book one would probably be the broad strokes save for minor divergences. but it'd start to veer into #major au territory in s2 and idk what s3 would look like. idek what s2 would look like tbh! and s1 is still in the conceptual phase!! i #have abt 13k precanon written out but even that is a small fraction of what i need to write. at this point i'm p sure it would be a series #which is incredibly intimidating!!! augh. i'm bummed abt the scope of this project meaning it'll probably never even get published 🥲#len speaks

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wormandzeewriting · 10 months ago

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I am;

I am the fire that burns hotter

I am the water that drowns life

I am the sun that blinds beauty

I am the plants that choke wonder

I am the rabbit that runs faster

I am the snake's head that bites after

I am the pebbles on a rocky shore

I am the cliff on a great gorge

I am the rain after a long drought

I am the colors on the horizons peak

I am the birds in watchful rest

I am the world as it turns slowly

I am the wolves that taste flesh

I am the cicadas screaming in day

I am the owls singing at night

I am every word that has ever been said

I am the lights reflection on water

I am the trout swimming upstream

I am the driving force of nature

I am the artist of every tragedy

I am the feathers on the wind

I am the clouds billowing in the sky

I am the bones that bleach in sun

I am the pieces of life in everything

#poem #poetry #original poem #original poetry #Written by Worm #i forget what inspired me to write this #i think I was scrolling on pinterest for a while and just started writing at one point xd #idek how to tag this-#universe poetry #life poetry #life poem #poems

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randomingoftherandomness · 6 months ago

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#this is me just screaming into the void #but this week has been hard. like one of the hardest weeks I've had to get through in the longest time #tues was my great grandma's 12th anniversary of her passing #wed I got the news that a friend passed away suddenly #thurs was my late father's birthday #fri was that friend's funeral but I can't go #and there's a whole host of other things going on in my family now that I cannot put out into the internet just yet #personally I'm just so so tired #I am not spiralling. At least I don't feel like I am. but it's been so hard #I cannot turn to my family because of whatever's going on right now #I can't really turn to my friends just yet because my emotions are still percolating #my only consolation and also burden is that I will be away for a wedding soon and after that my last big trip for 2024 #I feel so spread thin right now #I actually sat in the car with my sausage McMuffin crying to Hao's Haicheng and Woozi's What Kind of Future this morning #it's the first time I cried like that in a long while because I rarely let myself get to that point #idek why I am writing this #I think I just wanted to scream into the void for a bit #gab irl #thing is with the friend that just passed; he was part of the party crowd I used to run with #we are all kinda spread all over now -- some moved back to their own countries; some married and moved; some with kids...#we haven't partied together since before the pandemic #we kept talking about wanting to link up soon and catch up #I had even been thinking about him lately #and now he is gone and I do not have the place to pour my grief and my regrets into

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rippedlovelines · 9 months ago

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i think if i tweaked some lines on my kevneil fic it could be semi-ready for posting. big if btw. i’m not sure why, even. when i wrote it back in may i was so enamored w the way it turned out. then i forgot abt it lol.

little snippet bcs why not: