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quitting school forever to get a job at hang out with my bff
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Lucky is he, Who lives unaware
#fantasy high#dimension 20#d20#fhjy#d20 fhjy#buddy dawn#the rat grinders#bakarath#oisin hakinvar#ivy embra#mary anne skuttle#ruben hopclap#potatart#i had to get these drawings out of my system. thinkng about how buddy was an outcast from the beginning#how he was left behind. how disposable he was#i think buddy is very isolated from the people around him from both himself the adults around him and the way he was raised#maybe he finds comfort in connecting with a deity#im gonna go insane. he has so much potential for good things if only he was actually given a chance#and not constantly being taken advantage of by people who dont care about him#rips my hair out#“arent you tired of being nice dont you want to just go apeshit” “dang y'all”#buddy dawn is going through it i think. just having a spectacularly AWFUL time#fhjy spoilers#NOBODY TALKS ABOUT HOW TIRING IT IS TO BE ANGRY ALL THE TIME. ITS AWFUL#hold on. i have a drawing of kalina and buddy dawn in a car running from the cops but thay didnt fit the tone of this post lol#they have walter white and jessi pinkman vibes to me. you get it#also id like to comment that the last image was meant to convey less of a#“the rat grinders didnt care about buddy dawn!!!” (though i think thats true to some extent)#and more of like. the idea that those four were saved and buddy was not#<- i like the rat grinders
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tag vent
#i have to move back to my hometown due to a mistake. a misunderstanding. and being too trusting in others ideas#and my boyfriend is moving an hour away as well. neither of us have been able to get a car or license yet due to money and i dont know when#we can see eachother again after we both move. since we started dating weve been sleeping in the same bed because we were/are roommates#just being gone for the weekend in my hometown is hard because i cant stand to be here but its worse because hes not in my bed every night#ive grown so used to falling alseep in his arms that i dont know what to do at night. i dont feel safe without his arms holding me#ive never felt safe where ive lived before. ive never felt safe in a relationship. ive never felt loved for who i am. that was until him.#now i feel safe in our home. i feel safe in our relationship. i feel loved for who i am. and now we have to be so far apart.#ive done long distance before but this is going to hurt so much my cat loves him she is super cautious and scared around new people but#she loved him since the start. not to mention shes my esa so that really mattered to me. he wants to move with me but it isnt happening#he got definite housing an hour away for super cheap in a town where he knows everyone and i have possible in a town where im surrounded by#people i know but am terrified of. im scared to move back here but have no choice. unless i make that terrifying choice of going with him.#the apartment he is getting is a two bedroom. id only have a studio. hes offered for me to come but im scared to move that far away again#i want to be with him but im scared to move to a whole new town with him. i know hes an amazing guy but we'd be moving away from my friends#and family. i already have to move away from all my friends if i go back to my hometown but this would be a different story.#moving to a whole new town with a guy that i only started dating 2 months ago? like yes. i lived with him previously and knew him for longer#than we dated but im still scared. i think rightfully so. but still.#but there are some pros to moving with him. hometown has no music scene and his town does and thats really important to me.#we'd also be close to his family. but farther from mine. hed be around friends and id have none no matter where i go.#idk im just rambling but i really needed to vent. i lost my best friend recently to the point of them siding with strangers almost and they#helped them break and enter into the house to intimidate me and bf and then a few days later came with cops after saying repeatedly that#they were an anarchist and acab but only when they dont use them apparently. because i guess morals/values only matter when its convenient#im so tired though but i cant sleep so i might write some cringe poetry and try to chill out before going on a late night/early morning walk#tag vent#vent in tags
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here's my overly complicated shinonomes/hanasatos/tonos/hayakawas headcanons. btw.
#theyre all related bc i said so.#shinei is kinda a little bit estranged from his family so akito doesnt know hes actually related to arata until a family gathering happens#and arata is a little bitch about it. “so nice to meet you shinonome!” “shut up you bitchass motherfucker” “my how rude!”#whereas minori and ena are just fawning over nanamin's stream stats.#idk if minori's brother is canonically called riori or not but i head that somewhere. i think ao3.#im not an “iori and arata are twins” girlie though. theyre like a year apart. iori doesnt turn up bc “her car broke down” (she didnt want t#how do the hanasatos get into a shinonome family wedding you ask? well. i see them as like irish families. shinei's firs cousin is like:#“oh shinomom! bring your family too! do you have siblings?” “i have a brother! he has two kids!” “is that 3 or 4 for the catering?” “4”#and she tells her brother three days before the event.#nanamins parents arent married but she keeps her dads surname#shinei is an only child but he has 7 first cousions. projecting onto shinodad too i fucking guess.#ramblings#no image id#pjsk posting#project sekai#akito shinonome#shinonome akito#ena shinonome#shinonome ena#minori hanasato#hanasato minori#riori hanasato#hanasato riori#< just in case#iori tono#tono iori#iori l/n#l/n iori#ln iori#iori ln
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Legacyerse: Cole - Tectonic Tribulations
Don't worry y'all, I'm not dead, I unfortunately had a life & fell down another fandom rabbit hole, as one does on Tumblr lol.
Now, since it's coincidentally Pride Month, how about we start off with a bang? Starting us off is none other than good ol' Cole!
Better Off Alone - Grant
Came Here for Love - Sigala & Ella Eyre
Closer - SIX60
Contra - Pixel Terror ft. Sara Skinner
Fall - V O E
Fast Car - Jonas Blue ft. Dakota
Future Starts Now - Kim Petras
Higher Place - Dimitri Vegas & Like Mike ft. Ne-Yo
I Want It All - Karmin
Loud - Stan Walker
More Than You Know - Axwell Λ Ingrosso ft. Kristoffer Fogelmark
My Dear - Summer Was Fun
Once In a While - Timeflies
Real Love - Clean Bandit & Jess Glynne
Resonance - Home
Shed a Light - Robin Schulz, David Guetta & Cheat Codes
Sweet Lovin' - Sigala ft. Bryn Christopher
This Love (Taylor's Version) - Taylor Swift
Where U Are - Throttle
Worst Day - Illenium & MAX
#the ninja legacy whip#legacyverse#cole brookstone#legacyverse playlists#I've been go for long enough that I don't know what to put in the tags lol#like hi hello I have glasses now because I'm too short-sighted to drive a car (even though I'm just getting a license for ID purposes)
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The dad who stepped up
#floyd.txt#theres more like this and of course he helps with the funeral#though now i think about it part of it may have been to spy for luzhin id guess. but i dont know anything ever#the adaption does too much. far too much. he does all the stuff when marmeladov gets hit by a car before he sees rodya or whatever#no more of this. lost media....the kiss#crime and punishment 2024
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Hate when a factual inaccuracy takes me out of a fic too thoroughly to continue. It's a me problem, I recognize this, and yet I can't banish it.
#this time it was 'there's no way there was caller ID in 1991 in japan'#though i maybe could have overlooked it if it hadn't also included rampant daylight PDA (again in japan in 1991)#one time i briefly hugged a male friend (another foreigner) on the subway in yokohama and the entire car gaped at us#i realize i can't expect a fic writer to know this kind of cultural thing but i also can't go along with a story that features it#once again a me problem#anyway the reunion of two people pretending they aren't in love requires awkwardly walking a foot apart#until one grabs the other to protect them from getting knocked into or something and then pulls their hands back like they were burned#this i wholeheartedly believe#i've been wanting to sketch out something that starts out with this kind of distance and closes the gap slowly for this pair#might as well fuck around with that instead of reading fic that will annoy me right?
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new emotion unlocked it’s called tracy chapman fast car 3am breakdown
#idk if it’s just bc i havent updated this app in literally like idk 5 years or if everyone has this#but if someone likes or reblogs an old post and you click on it itll send you to your own blog and show you#your own suggested posts on your own blog but like old posts. idk i’m sure everyone can do that but anyway#everytime some random person likes a super old post i click on it then i go down these rabbit holes or reading my own posts from like 2013#or 2016 or whenever and it’s like god. it’s truly like time traveling bc i read those posts and i’m like i do not remember typing that#but i Do like i was there but was i like u know what i mean and i just get engulfed in reading my own personal posts trying to figure out#what the fuck i was complaining about that day and then i also remember how much happier i was then even though i wasnt but like idk idk.#it’s just the nostalgia bait and i know it but also is it lmao like. id go back in a heartbeat#then i read my own posts talking about my dogs and i want to die or i read about me talking about my ex and i want to die#or just anything like i’m addicted to just looking back into the past just helpless like i can’t warn this bitch about anything#that’s going to happen and she was so clueless she was sooooo naive like she couldve fixed everything and yet.#anyway yeah it’s literally 3am and i have fast car on repeat so no i’m not okay goodnight <3
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why do dads just assume we've never had any interests of our own
#post posting#one time my dad walked in whie i was watching my girl#and he started laughing??#because he assumed i went on google. and searched 'movies with the guy from home alone'.#he also didn't think i even knew who Queen were?#he listened to them all the time in the car when i was a kid#and literally took me to see them in concert#i would also ask him to play certain songs while we were driving??#but no i couldnt possibly know who theyy are...#OH YEAH#he also though id never seen scooby doo. because he watched it as a kid#making it 'old school'. meaning i could not have possibly seen it as a child as well...#he also does this everytime i watch to wong foo#ive seen it like a million times its one of my favorite movies#and everytime without fail. he gets all confused because he cant imagine why or how i would be watching it...#i could list these things all day#i just dont understand does he think hes the only person whos ever had an interest before#what even
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not to be mentally ill but today when i went for a walk in a nature reserve i was climbing a hill and it was cold but so so sunny and everything looked beautiful and i saw so many cool things and i stood there and was like damn what's this feeling in my chest and why am i smiling so much?? my guy,, it's called fucking happiness. i was just present and content in the moment and couldn't contain myself so kept doing the silly arm shake thing i do and grinning at everything and then was like woah what's this feeling. fuckin, happiness dude.
#think the arm shake thing might be stimming (??) i referred to it as pogging and was informed that i've been using that word incorrectly#but yeah stimming ig#the arm shakes!! we all know them...#anyway do you ever get the feeling that other people experience happiness differently to you?#idk last week i was v depressed and now ive had a couple days in a row where ive been giggling with people and ive been cuddled and kissed#and today i took myself off on a walk and i was so so happy and then as i was walking back to my car#i had the gut wrenching feeling that i needed to text my parents that i'd been outside and had a good day and saw multiple cool animals#and that i loved them. because i suddenly got really worried that i would die on the way home and no one would know i'd been really happy??#even though id literally sent my bestie loads of photos and texts and a literal voice note while staring at a robin lol#anyway and then i was floored by the realisation that i carely deeply about whether i died or not#because i was pmsing last week and that is a terrible time for me and i end up being kind of passively suicidal ig#so to have such a big change in the space of a week was a huge shock#these tags are sooo incoherent and span so many emotions#i promise i've had a really lovely day. i just am anxious all the time and depressed sometimes#in a way that is harder to predict now my periods have stopped.#im realising this is the kind of stuff that should probably go in my diary but i've got this far with the tags that i can't be asked.#if anyone is still reading#you do not have to respond to this or like it in any way. i promise lol
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finding out last years toon fest was in Atlanta is really funny to me
#clemramble#WHAT DO YOU MEAN IT WAS 2 HOURS AND 30 MINUTES AWAY FROM ME. COME BACK.#i say this but in reality id get too frightened to go like a small animal huddling in the corner of the room#...also i wasnt crazy into tt until may (month school was ending) so. yknow.#but its funny to think about. one beautiful car drive away#i get there and then get scared and run out forever because idont know anyone#and also bc its more tt r focused and i know ... less than id like about it. not like thats an issue but i just probably wouldnt be#able to participate in the trivia and stuff . or atleast i think. i dontknow what all they do there if i must be honest but it seems fun#i do need to play it someday.. i think i made an account and then just never had the motivation to play#would you believe me if i said its because i love zap gags and they dont have zap in that one#i looove electric based attacks#i do need to figure out what that monkeys deal is though. i must find out one day#everytime someone talks about him it just sounds like hes always going through the trenches#anyways sorryijust think its funny it was so close. and now its 15 hours away
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Stylus & Dae are the only ones of the main 4 who can drive but Stylus is banned from it on account of road rage
#<- tried to reap someone who no-blinker cut him off#begs the question of how he got his drivers license though. or even if he DID get one. I think his adherence to rules would make him want t#but can you imagine. angel in the dmv. they ask for two pieces of mail with his name and address and he gives them#two tax forms sent to heaven. no address. red eye on his id photo they stopped trying to retake after the 4th try of realizing#they couldnt get rid of the glitchy effect. doesnt have a car on account of everything but memorized the entire drivers ed book#is appalled at the everyday persons blatant lack of regard for road laws. drives at the speed limit. angel in the dmv...#sonaverse#lore dump
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going through answered asks from when i was 18 wanting to hold myself so tightly
#i’ve never cared for the whole i wish i could see my younger self thing#because from where i was standing it was always still bad so thought why would i want to see them now#things are going to become very hard again very soon but last year was the best year of my entire life#i did something terrifying and then i claimed my life as my own#and a year later i have a car! and im driving! you can’t understand how impossible of a thought this was to me before#i live on my own and i’ve decorated my body and my bedroom and i can buy things i never thought id be able to own#i miss connecting with others my dash is a total wasteland now but i just#seriously cannot believe where i am right now. even though some things are still so screwed up and more screwed things are on the way#and i’m terrified of course. january is the perfect month to feel like ending it all. too much unknown#but still 2023 felt like magic i didn’t deserve and yet i basked in it#i’m not incredibly successful i’m not very interesting but im still so proud of myself somehow. even though i hate myself#it’s not as much as i used to. i appreciate myself more now and i can see how i needed me to get here. and im grateful for me#and for everything i have. i’m just speechless i can’t believe the life i currently have#i’m waiting to enter the era of travelling and intimate get together those areas are still slow coming#but if i could do this i can only hope and hope and squeeze my eyes tight to make them appear someday#i miss so many things but i don’t miss the old me. she sucked but she also cared and she’s still here in fragments#it’s strange to write this way i’ve never felt this sort of compassion before i was so so deeply depressed#it was inescapable and for good reason i don’t know how i made it through anything i’ve endured#i have to thank myself for always being too scared to die
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Did my makeup all nice only for my ride to not be able to take me to work lol
#we had a winter storm yesterday#full blizzard#and now my car is snowed in at the parking lot at work#i let my boss know last night because i was getting a ride home from one of the leads and wasnt sure id be in today#she tried to set me up with a ride but it appears this has fallen through#because ive been waiting two hours and heard nothing else after being told to put a pause on the idea#its still snowing today#though not as bad as yesterday#so i may just have a four day weekend who knows#aint no way a lyft is gonna pick me up tho lmao#butterfly selfies
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Tfw your mom is probably having a heart attack and no doctors will see her but you're too busy crying because there's Valentine's Day stuff out
#im gonna drive my car through a fast pace if they dont see her in the morning#its so stupid that my nerves are more tore up thinking about Valentine's day its such bullshit#freaked out though. feels like the whole world is crashing down on me and here i am. back at square one like i knew id be#one step forward is two steps back in the future. its easier to sit still. freeze up. wish i could sleep it off#at least my dad can watch over her for the weekend and my old best friends mom whos my moms friend is a nurse and is helping. kinda#i just wish i had the spoons to take care of her. she doesn't deserve this shes been through SO much and always been so good#and she just fucking graduated. been helping her with job applications whenever i feel up to it#sometimes i feel like im the one that makes her sick. every gray hair is from me. she didnt have these problems until she was pregnant#im just a fucking curse even from the get-go. i think id have traded my life to give to her. she's so much better than me and is so strong#i wish i had the capacity to tell her how much i love her and to take care of her but my nerves are shot and it feels like... idk#like people hurt. hurt me and i hurt them. it's better to hide in my room so i dont act stupid when i get hurt by something#even my cat has noticed it. avoids me and sits and meows when i leave my room. my dog too. hes been laying on me whenever i let him#just wish i could bash my head into a wall. not really for violence but just to shake off whatever is wrong with me#doesn't help that my lungs are hurting and breathing hurts and ive been sick but i cant just say that because ik my mom will neglect herself#and not go to the doctor. but shes been a lifelong smoker. just stopped smoking about a year ago. started vaping. and im SO proud of her#but vapes are terrible and do horrible ahit and im 99% sure she has SOME sort of immune system issue and just... augh#i knew itd catch up to her. it scares me that shes worried. i wish i could just rewind time#whatever. just tired of keeping it in my head and im so frustrated with doctors and my thoughts make more sense here#i just want everyone to be okay. id give my life for my parents
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i wish i had an exact copy of myself. sigh
#i wouldnt even do anything crazy with it like hed have his life id have mine. Thats my thing abt like um stuff like this with specifically#the fiction clones where they r like. an exact copy of you with all your memories#the second they r made they r no longer an exact copy of you bc from that point on you have 2 different experiences of life you know .. like#even judt like. you wkae up in a lab thats a pretty big experience. i can speak for myself and say id be 1#scared 2. kind of excited bc im a freak like that. thatd be a pretty picotsl moment 4 me#and then . whyd i almost misgender myself. i was talking abt the clone and called ot they... while i did just establish that the clone is#not exactly me so ig i dont know his pronouns. Sorry connor. but also the clone Is me at the aame time do you guys get it bc the clone even#if it Knows she was cloned it still has all my memories and still is a connor you know. its just that from the moment hes made we have two#different trajectories and every single second changes us further. like my clone might see a car accident or something and be super changed#by that. anyways i didnt mean to go on a tangent baout the identity of a clone (its something i think abt a lot bc of um. teehee. gestures#at my head) basically i wish i had a clone bc i think the like. itd be so easy to talk to her bc i wouldnt have to worry abt anything or be#scared... like yeah shed be a weird overly sensitive dickhead BUT she probably wouldnt misinterpret me bc we have similar thought patterns#so hed understand what i mean by things and hed get it and itd be easy. and we could be good friends and we could both get better and become#better ppl and obv wed both grow into completely distinct ppl and i think thatd be good... cloneor where r you. need you#itis my fault though i need to not be so paranoid. bc 'i wish i could just be friends with myself' makes me sound kind of like an evilperson#so disclaiming I would like to make friends with a lot of people and have a lot of different friends with different lives and interests and#passions i just have trouble with that and i think being able to talk to a clone of myself would be a good way for me to get used to talking#to ppl again its like training wheels. you get it. and also i think i could fix her
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