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My boy, Sorrel'thorn <3
+with scars (Which I cannot draw ;-;)
But yea, in case y'all haven't noticed, all my OCs that I've been showing you are all a part of a clan ✨️ anygays, back to hyperfixating on drawing w/ this pen-
#warrior cat art#erin hunter warriors#warrior cats#warrior cat oc#warriors oc#wc#art#cat art#idk#wc art#i've been hyperfixating again#hyperfixation#my baby#my boy#cannot draw scars fr#gremlin boy#yesh#idk what tags to use#SCREEEEEEEE#anyways back to work#art is work right?
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all too familiar
#mdzs#mdzs fanart#mo dao zu shi#lan wangji#lan zhan#wei wuxian#wei ying#wangxian#mxtx#HEYYY HEYYYYY#ok i rly missed them#have this doodle#ngl i've been going thru diff hyperfixations for several months now#but i will always come back to them#wx love#yes i have an ongoing record of drawing yllz and lwj I like it a lot ok#sorry about that it will happen again ^^
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Wrapping up the season with a redraw (Jan 2024)!
Thank you all for these last 6 months, I have loved making so many people laugh from my silly comics B*)
#dungeon meshi#dungeon meshi spoilers#laios touden#marcille donato#senshi#chilchuk tims#izutsumi#When I start my weekly dungeon Meshi posting#I never would have thought it would have pushed me to grow so much as an artist.#Nor that some of those comics would become some of the most popular things I've ever made!#I really did just want to start incorporating some more self-indulgent art into my week.#I love this series dearly and it has been a delight to be able to draw these characters and see so many new people learn to love them#Oh and don't get worried; I *will* still be drawing dungeon meshi fan art now-and-again.#I have a really cool thing to show off next Thursday!#I've been a fan for nearly a decade. This isn't a hyperfixation this is a part of my core personality.#This anime adaptation was beyond good. I'm so excited to see season two!
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YOU!! I DONT KNOW IF PEOPLE SEND ASKS ABOUT HEARTLESS ANYMORE BUT I RECENTLY RESURFACED BACK TO IT AND I JUST *EXPLOSION SOUNDS* /pos
BRO I cannot express to you how much I think about Doppel and Glass and their character concepts and their dynamic and just generally the story. Man, I don't know what it is about those two, but like...AJHSJHD!!
I really like thinking about angst and ways that you can make both of them complex and stuff, you know, separating from just "haha silly comic relief guys!" I like thinking about them and how their not the same, and how they're both technically separate beings kinda? And how they're different and stuff and AA-
ALSO I love they're character design man? Like, it looks...crunchy. that's probably a bad way to put it, but they feel like those sensory videos where people take wax and slime and crush it all up and its really satisfying and crunchy.
AUGH they're all so awesome and I love love LOVE thinking about Heartless as a story and how it would play out and stuff. Keep up the good work and stuff, sorry for word bombing you I just suddenly got a lot of feelings and had to get it out somewhere
sgssgfjsgh thank u so much for taking the time to send this ask dude!
Seeing any love for the Heartless gang always sparks more joy than I can convey, no matter when -- but ur timing is uncanny haha, these two have been on my mind a lot lately too! (Especially since the new Madds Buckley song dropped 'cause it's just sO--- 👀😩🤌)
I'm not very articulate rn but pls take this doodle as a big thank u for the encouragement and for sharing ur thoughts about 'em! 🪞💜
#abd illustrates#heartless#doppel & glass#this was such a nice message thank u again (^^)/#I've been pondering their backstory (and a bunch of others) more recently#so ur not alone in the “heartless hyperfixation resurfacing” club haha#tis the season#I won't get into it rn but “Drivers Seat” has been on LOOP since it dropped and it sparks such an AMV in my mind about them
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Top 10 Gintaka moments
(Arranged chronologically because it was too difficult to choose. Spoilers ahead.)
1. Takasugi's laugh
After many encounters challenging the dojo, Gintoki sees Takasugi laugh for the first time, which becomes a core memory of his, a symbol of how things used to be and what he wants to preserve (ch. 517).
2. The promise
Surrounded by enemies, Takasugi asks Gintoki why he decided to join the war, to which Gintoki replies that, like him, it was not for a noble cause. At this, Takasugi recognizes that the two are good-for-nothing warriors, but asks Gintoki to take care of their sensei in case he dies. Likewise, Gintoki asks Takasugi to stay alive (ch. 516).
3. Gintoki's tears
Right after their sensei's death, Takasugi furiously runs towards Gintoki until, for a split second, he sees him crying. This becomes the last thing he saw with his left eye, a core memory that reminds him of the pain and grief they experienced (ch. 520).
4. Reunion at the festival
After 10 years of not seeing each other, Takasugi sneaks up behind Gintoki and threatens him with his sword, commenting on how easy it was and that he has become weak. He also tells him about his plan to kill the Shogun, claiming that within him there is a black beast that seeks revenge. At the same time, he confronts Gintoki for looking away from the past, making him unable to understand his feelings. To this, Gintoki responds that it's a shame that he underestimated him, which can be read in both a physical and emotional sense. It's assumed that they separate without another word (chs. 30-31).
5. They were the same
During a conversation with Nobume, Oboro asks her if Gintoki and Takasugi look like their sensei, to which she answers no, that the true resemblance was between them, since both had eyes full of sadness. As she says that, Gintoki and Takasugi can be seen passing each other, but only the former turns around to check that the latter is gone. It's worth mentioning that Gintoki warned Takasugi to be careful if he saw him walking down the street in chapter 97, but in the end he decided to not do anything (ch. 398).
6. Confession and realization
After their fight, with both of them on the floor, tired and full of injuries, Takasugi opens up to Gintoki about his suffering. He confesses to him that his face was the last thing he saw before losing his left eye, how devastating it was to see him cry, and the enormous survivor's guilt he feels, because he understands how much Gintoki loved Shouyo. To this, Gintoki responds that he didn't choose him, but simply knew what was important to theirsensei, thus lifting the burden from Takasugi's shoulders. Not only that, but Gintoki also confesses that, despite everything, he continues to see him as a fellow disciple of the Shouka Sonjuku and a comrade, whose soul he will protect (ch. 520).
7. Sword exchange
After a long coma, Takasugi awakens in Rakuyo and throws his sword to save Bansai. Likewise, Gintoki launches his bokuto to save Shinpachi, leaving them both unarmed. This is when they decide to take each other's sword and protect what is important to the other, reinforcing the message that a sword is made to protect the soul, and on other occasions that it even embodies it. Afterwards, they pass through hordes of enemies in order to see each other again, defending the other from an imminent attack and retrieving their weapon while locking eyes and making snarky remarks (ch. 573).
8. Pep talk
While everyone on Earth seems defeated, Gintoki hears a familiar voice over the radio. Hundreds of kilometers, far up in space, Takasugi tells him that they have everything under control and encourages him to continue fighting. Likewise, Gintoki assures him that on his side they haven't lost yet, and playfully encourages him, asking if he has already been reduced to junk. Despite being injured, Takasugi tells him to be ready when he comes for him, to which Gintoki smiles (ch. 650).
9. Let's rescue sensei
The greatest tragedy in Takasugi's life is not only the death of his teacher, but also that Gintoki had to be the one to kill him. Aware that he has little left to live, he admits that now he can be a little more honest with what he really wants to do. After fighting Gintoki as a way to punish himself, he's now able to recognize that he wishes to fight alongside him, while also wanting to alleviate his suffering by sharing the burden of his actions that day. Upon hearing this, the serious expression on Gintoki's face turns to astonishment at being able to achieve mutual understanding and once again have a common goal that is deeply personal to both of them (ch. 682).
10. Born under the same star
While Gintoki's eyes reflect the despair he feels at having to strike Takasugi's body, he remembers their childhood together. Gintoki fought very hard to protect everyone, but Takasugi fought even harder to protect him, and although Gintoki was definitely not ready to lose him, Takasugi was content with the idea that he had prevented him from killing their sensei once more. Knowing that he has little time left, it's Gintoki's turn to be more sincere. He embraces Takasugi and reassures him, acknowledging that he did indeed manage to protect him and that he wished they could have drunk together more often. But Takasugi tells Gintoki he doesn't want to hear him like this and he asks him not to send him off with a sad face. Mustering willpower, Gintoki smiles and tells him to wait for him in hell, which becomes the last sight from Takasugi's right eye as he smiles back before dying. No longer able to restrain his emotions, Gintoki weeps as he watches the sunset (ch. 703).
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#Gintama#Sakata Gintoki#Takasugi Shinsuke#gintaka#takagin#I'm not crying ur crying#Wanted to post this for Pride. Clearly I didn't but here it is at last!! (pretending it hasn't been over a year in my drafts)#Partly to remember the chapters since I only save the images then I forget the number and have to look for it again like an idiot#And also bc it's still a hyperfixation ngl lmao#I really thought 10 moments would be enough but as I went on I realized I was leaving stuff behind#I've a list lol but if anyone has more ideas for moments you can send me a message or write it in your tags#Much more could be said about some but I tried to be ✨concise✨#I can write#Top 10 Gintaka moments#my post
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SO it turns out I have even more thoughts on him than I realized, like I wrote 14k words about him and I still have so much more to say so here’s some headcanons that didn’t really fit anywhere. NOT WORKSAFE, but this covers a wide range of topics, with the nsfw stuff being only like 1/4th of them.
Adam Frankenstein Headcanons
- General:
He’s a stew guy, like that’d be his go-to meal if he could have it. He likes that no matter what it always tastes a little different than the last time and how easily it can be modified with different ingredients plus it warms him and makes him feel cared for.
Gets cold easily and gets colder than most people can handle, though he still prefers to be wrapped up in something warm.
His voice is deep and can vary between gravelly and raspy, though it gets a tiny bit higher when he’s upset or extremely passionate about something.
Tends to mutter under his breath and talk to himself a little when he’s working on figuring out something complicated.
He can be a bit impulsive and it often bites him in the ass, but he’s working on it.
Has absolutely NO care for looking how men are expected to look at that time in society.
His hair gets very poofy and wavy when it’s taken out of a wet braid.
He has thin skin, and though he heals relatively quickly, he also scars very easily and bleeds easily too.
Will read anything and everything he can get his hands on. He wants to learn about the world as much as possible.
His favorite fiction genre is romance, and he likes big, toxic all-consuming romances and thinks they’re the height of romance. He’s a Heathcliff stan (hey, he’s gotta have SOME bad qualities, am I right?).
Not the best at singing, can’t really stay on tune, but he enjoys singing when happy and alone. Gets very embarrassed if caught.
Animals either adore him or despise him, there is no in-between.
Has a habit of slouching over when standing, to seem just a little shorter.
Feels emotions very intensely. He’s never just sad, he’s devastated, he’s never just angry, he’s furious, he’s never just happy, he’s overjoyed. It’s something he’s working on.
- Romantic:
He has a habit of staring at the one he loves for a long time, blinking very minimally.
Adam doesn’t like to be far away from you, and will follow you around like a lost puppy.
Very much would prefer to have some part of him touching you at all times, usually handholding.
Takes him a while to get used to you touching him as opposed to him touching you, but once he does, he melts.
Braid his hair! It’s practical, its cute, it says fuck you to fashion trends of the time, and it’d make him smile. Braid! His! Hair!
Loves the idea of helping out with mundane tasks, like he’ll cook and sew and be so very gentle when brushing your hair.
Uses so many little terms of endearments, the more reverence they show to you the better. He wants you to know he puts you on a pedestal and practically worships you.
One thing that will piss him off quickly (unless you’ve maybe asked him to please hold back ahead of time) is someone insulting you. He’d be ready to go off on them in a scary way within seconds.
Ideal sleeping position: curled up around you like a pill-bug. He’s big enough that he can probably wrap his body entirely around you and would want to do that every night if he could. Horrible for both of your backs.
If you braid his hair (which you should!) he would want to braid yours in return if possible.
Tends to stand behind you when in public. Partially out of shyness, partially to serve as a warning to others to not fuck with you.
When he’s standing behind you in public? The slouch is GONE, he is eight feet of glaring intensity, like a pissed off lighthouse behind a tiny cottage.
Really doesn’t like anyone else touching you and would get a bit more clingy even if it was a purely platonic touch.
Honestly he’s very possessive. He’s found one person in the world who loves HIM, flaws and all, and he doesn’t want to risk losing you.
Tells you he loves you at least 4-5 times a day, including any time you leave a room he’s in.
- Sexual:
You know that image of the hamster eating a banana? You’re the hamster.
Massive, ridiculously large dick that’s still in proportion so it doesn’t look too crazy huge, but it’s still probably about 9-10 inches hard, 7-8 flaccid.
Absolutely aware of how big he is, and takes every step he can think of to make things easier, though it might still be tricky at first.
Adam prefers positions where he can see your face.
Very vocal, tries to hold back sometimes but fails, very loud.
Says anything that comes to his mind, most of which is just really over-the-top praise for you and how you make him feel.
He’s close to 400lbs of muscle, but very mindful of his body so that he doesn’t hurt you. Even if he lays on you he’d still be supporting himself mostly.
Not really fond of mirrors being involved. He’d love to see different angles of you, but himself? Not so much.
Thinks he’s going to die and ascend to heaven when he first gets a blowjob. Though he loves it, he prefers to give rather than receive, he wouldn’t want to hurt your jaw.
Not much aftercare the first time because he doesn’t know as much about it, but once he learns he’s a king.
Cleans you up, gives you a massage, water, holds you, praises you (even more!), makes sure you’re okay and that you enjoyed it too. He would melt if you do the same for him too.
- Familial/Paternal:
Ideally, he would have two children, he would love to be father to a boy and girl, but he would be happy with any amount or none at all and taking care of pets instead. He just wants to raise and care for something the way Victor never raised and cared for him.
So indecisive with names, like there’s so many good names he would want to use, he’d probably leave it mostly up to you.
The one name he’d really want to use? The second he hears the name Abigail means something like “my father is joyful” he jumps for it because that’s exactly how he feels about being a father.
So scared to hold the baby for a good while. He’s just so big and they’re so small and if he accidentally hurt them he’d never forgive himself.
Hovers around the baby though and still holds its little hand. As close as he can get without holding them.
Once he gets over that, he’s a very attentive father.
Very high chance any of his kids would have his black hair and some of his facial features. He’d hope they would have your eyes though.
Lets his kids climb all over him, pull his hair, swing on his arms, anything just as long as they don’t get hurt.
Very encouraging of them to explore and learn new things but also a bit of helicopter dad.
Torn between wanting to keep his kid/s safe from the world and wanting them to be able to do anything they set their mind to.
While not quite 8ft, I think any kids he would have would still grow to be a bit taller than average.
#adam frankenstein x reader#adam frankenstein#lite work#not worksafe#I thought writing a fic would get this outta my system#but he was a hyperfixation for me as a teen and he is again almost 20 years later#like a legit 'cannot think about anything else right now' hyperfixation#I need to write out a short summary of my S/I with him and work on a moodboard I've been making and a selfship playlist I've also been maki#send help#selfship
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I'm starting to think that I've slept on the brilliance behind Oogie's design, and now that I think about it, his design is so simple yet effective.
For one, there's the aspect that he's supposed to be the boogeyman, which when you think about it, doesn't have a set in stone appearance.
Other aspects/forces do, for example Death: which is usually depicted as a skeleton under a cloak with a scythe. And that design can be played around with.
Going back to his design, sure there’s no set in stone appearance for a boogeyman, but there's just one trait that is quite common: the sack to put children into.
Another thing is that there's one boogeyman type creature called the Bugbear, which comes from the word "bugge" which means "a frightening thing". The word "bugge" basically makes up the word bug which is of course another word for insects.
And Oogie is this exact combination of the two.
Plus, bugs/insects are generally a thing that some people feel disgusted by. Heck some people have phobias of bugs/insects, arachnids and snakes.
So by combining the two, it not only creates a simple yet uneasy design, but it finally gives the boogeyman a a type of face.
In fact, I'd say that out of the other designs we've seen for a boogeyman in media, Oogie's is by far the most popular.
So when you think about it, Henry Selick and Tim Burton created not just another iconic character, but also a worthwhile recognizable face for a boogeyman/a personification of fear.
Props to them.
#ngl I've slept on oogie boogie as a villain#now since ken page's passing I've been interested in oogie boogie as a villain#I guess I didn't appreciate the role until now#so now I'm slightly hyperfixating#so...#expect a few more posts about oogie boogie#random fandom stuff#the nightmare before christmas#tnbc#tnbc oogie boogie#oogie boogie#me hyperfixating#hyperfixation#i'm hyperfixating again#henry selick#tim burton#death puss in boots#puss in boots the last wish#character design
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Honestly, I'm really grateful that my brain isn't wired to jump from hyperfixation to hyperfixation. It has its own unique drawbacks, sure, but I've always found it really comforting that I know what to expect from myself.
#falling out of love with my own projects is something I find really oddly horrifying#but the only time I really ever stop loving something is if the thing itself gives me a reason not to like it#the only reason I ever really stopped doing VOH fanart is because the fandom for it dried up completely and my my job at the time demanded#all of my art attention#i've still drawn the characters a few times since then tho#I still love them with all of my heart lol#same with slayers and sailor moon#and ofc my love for dmc revs back up into action every time a new game comes out#(looking at the reboot) not you#been hyperfixated on resident evil since 1996 lol#killer instinct since 1994#god now that's a thing why have I never done modern killer instinct fanart? Sabrewulf's new design is a chef kiss#I've got my ancient KI fanart from the 90s have I ever posted it for you guys lmao it's amazing. all the love a 10 year old can pour#as we speak I have some of my voh doujin [hush you they're clean/story driven ones] on my desk bc I was reading through them again#anyway my point is... there's a few things I fell out of love with ofc#but those were all for actual 'story jumped the shark/tied to a bad experience' reasons#I'm thankful that my exact form of audhd doesn't come with jumping hyperfixations#ofc this means you're stuck with soli#stuck with it forever#(villainous thunderclash)#I love tumblr's post culture most of this post is in the goddamn tags
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I haven't watched more than like, 8 episodes of once piece, but i just want to say that i'm loving your live(?) blogging of the episodes as you go. especially all the sanji x luffy, it's all very cute in general but also how excited you get about it is fantastic.
that's all! i just love seeing people passionately enjoy things.
AAGFGHGHF THANK YOU OMG........I feel like I've been REALLY annoying talking about Sanlu nonstop but I'm glad at least somebody is enjoying it lmao. But if there's one place where I SHOULD have no filter and feel free to talk about my ships constantly, it should be my own blog right. LOL
Essentially,
#Also live blogging is fun for me too ESPECIALLY when I can come back to it later#Like. In a couple months or years#I can scroll through my tags and relive everything I was feeling in those exact moments#Just makes for good memories <3#Shima answers questions#Anyway thank you for letting me unashamedly rant about OP and Sanlu. I appreciate you 🥰#Nice things#Again I'm so so so glad I got into OP. Not only is it just a fantastic show in general but like#I'm properly hyperfixated on it now and I haven't been that way towards anything in a HOT second#It's good for me bc that means I'll be writing and drawing and creating more#I've drawn more over the past month than I have over the last year. Probably. Lol#One Piece#Sanlu#Lusan
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Revun doodle dump time
#ttrpg#pf2e#dnd#tieflings#dungeons and dragons#original characters#pathfinder oc#dnd ocs#oc art#ttrpg character#revun#dove art#vivere campaign#once again this is not even... CLOSE to all of the art i've made of them recently#help i've been hyperfixated on my own oc for five months now
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An Adventure Time fansong I composed inspired by an excerpt from the 2015 tie-in novel The Enchiridion & Marcy's Super Secret Scrapbook!!! which expanded on Simon and Marcy's story in the show and detailed off-screen moments of their life together through their perspectives.
In the book, Marceline writes this poem after Simon leaves her in Everything Stays, and it was the moment that absolutely shattered me to read years ago and made their farewell in the episode thrice as heartbreaking :'> So when I revisited this book a few nights back, I suddenly thought it would be a neat idea if I gave Marcy's poem it's own melody:
This was super fun and emotional to put together and I really hope you all enjoy this just as much as I did arranging it <33 (also I don't know if any copies of this book are still available anywhere but if you do manage to spot it I HIGHLY encourage you to get it, especially if you're really into the Simon and Marcy lore of the show like I am <33)
SoundCloud Version
Text version of lyrics below:
You're my old friend
I don't want you to go.
Is this really the end?
Please tell me no.
You said your mind
Was getting warped and hazy.
Before I was blind
To all of your crazy.
I still love the old you
I want you to know
There's too much we've been through
Do you have to go?
I hope you find peace
I hope you calm down
Please Simon don't lose yourself
To the crown
#adventure time#at#adventure time simon#adventure time ice king#adventure time marceline#my works#original music#simon petrikov#marceline abadeer#marceline the vampire queen#simon and marcy#ice king#fionna and cake#fnc#oh btwthe book was written by Martin and Olivia Olson but I havent been able to tell which one of them (or if both together) wrote this poe#the fact i've had this book for 6 years now and it all it took was my AT hyperfixation to resurrect thanks to Fionna and Cake to open#-it again
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Y'ALL-
WCUE has updated for fall and I am PUMPED
Anyways, imma dissappear for a couple more weeks- ✨️
#wcue roblox#wcue#warrior cats#erin hunter warriors#update#game update#roblox#my upload schedule is just-#I've been hyperfixating again#hyperfixation#send help#i'm mentally ill#bye
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Spoilers but here we go
Ok so. I want to say that I did not look at leaks or anything and I still knew immediately that the sampo in the main story was not Actually Sampo. I figured it was sparkle but that wasn't my own theory, I saw some people say it and it made sense. I knew immediately when "he" didn't introduce himself w his full name, and then I had to pause the game because that's a weird thing to be able to deduce I fear.
But the companion quest?? Oh boy
Because my first thought when Sampo showed up there was "he seems much more... real", and the more he talked in that first scene the more I started to get my hopes up. Props to his VA for being able to have his Sampo voice (which already switches up tonally a lot) and the Sparkle Sampo voice, which sounds very different (if you're insane like me and know what the guy's voice sounds like intimately). In the companion mission he's a lot similar tonally to the Sampo on Jarilo, and I got really excited that we were gonna get actual Penacony Sampo
I had heard that Sampo and Sparkle don't get along, and I didn't guess the 'twist' until right before the end, so I was viewing Sampo's participation in the whole detective thing as a "I am playing along but Aeons I hate that woman". Identity theft is not a joke kids, but the Masked Fools as a general rule seem to disagree
Unrelated, but was anyone else a little disappointed by Black Swan? I got hyped about a semi-omnipresent wise.... i dont know, but she's a lot less formal than I thought. I'll get over it tho
And the conversation at the end... I'm seeing a lot of people assume that this memory (and therefore the dream we go through as the companion mission) is from before the Express lands on Jarilo-IX, but I really don't think so. Watch me get proven wrong, but I really do think theyre setting up another major conflict in Belobog, and Sampo's preparing himself to help out Belobog's citizens. I'm hoping that might be a change for a Sampo 5star, and I desperately want that.
and yes, I think we're gonna get a sampo 5star before a march 5star. She's the logo of the game, her secrets will not be spilled so easily.
I think there's gonna be a huge thing on Jarilo after Penacony finishes up, we're gonna return to the planet to lend a hand, and the threat will be big enough that Sampo is changing his role - his mask - to do something about it. Hopefully, you know, helpfully, but I'll take anything at this point
AND WE STILL HAVEN'T GOTTEN A SAMPO TRAILER YET DAMNIT
#morgan's madness#honkai star rail#sampo koski#honkai star rail spoilers#I do think the lack of a sampo trailer is pretty telling#and you know what? this bastard has managed to make me start writing fic again for the first time in like three years. so good job#this makes no sense but its 1am and I've been riding the hyperfixation adrenaline high for about 2 and a half days nonstop -#with just star rail and almost a whole week and a half just jumping from one intense interest to another. my life is in shambles
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back to listening to shane and ryan as my sleepy time audio narrators
#my post#been this way for a couple nights#my hyperfixation became unhealthy again so i've had to change some habits and routines of mine#sleep audio#buzzfeed unsolved#ghost files#i love waking up in the middle of the night to the most random unhinged phrases and sounds#lmao#shane madej#ryan bergara#are the best
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okay. hello guys. my bad for not responding to stuff or being as active recently, had a lot of work to be done and other stuff to focus on that took a lot of my time. I wanted to make more art, but I unfortunately had to put that energy into other things (which got to the point where I could not put them off any longer and had to stay working on it). I know I missed a lot of stuff and I'm sorry for it
#unfortunately there are moments where i am forced back into reality#and i remember that i cannot actually spend my life creating and hiding away forever!!! crazy#honestly a lot of it has also been the fact that i am just tired everytime i get home#and my health issues that have been steadily building up#they're really catching up on me and ive been having to visit the clinic more than im happy with#theres just a constant sense of fatigue nowadays#also uh#admittedly my interesting in Alien Stage has been waning#not replaced by any other media in particular. just started focusing on irl life stuff more often#which is why i barely post on shakingparadigm anymore/dont really post anything of substance#its really mostly this alnst oc thing that makes me want to stay because i genuinely enjoy and adore what we've created here#im pretty invested in this even though im not as invested in the source material anymore#not to say i dont like alnst anymore! i still do. i just don't dedicate all my attention to it anymore#which is for the best actually. because admittedly the things and time i have sacrificed for alnst did create a few consequences#sometimes i forget how bad a hyperfixation can fuck me up#again I'm really sorry for everything I've missed#and for being late to apris birthday#and the solauri round#and more#amazing stuff that you guys have made#me bones just dont work like they used to i fear. please give me time#im.sorry again#sorry this post might seem kind of depressing#just dont mind it if you want#thanks for your time#misc#rant#(?)#vent
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Deanna Leimert has everything. powers of the gods. an angsty backstory. majority of the only braincells in any group she's in. an ex husband. a werewolf fuckbuddy. a gay best friend. the best hangover cure you've ever had. religious trauma. homecooking skills. the ability to butcher a goat. a medical degree. a dump truck ass. and an etsy shop
#maybe she's born with it#maybe it's powers of the dawnfather#can you tell she's my favourite?#guess who's been busy for months since exams started and then had other shit going on so they binged all of both party splits last night#it's me!#and i finally got to watch live again! i've missed it so much#going back to my roots after hyperfixating on clone wars for the past *checks notes* since may 4th#goddamn i have not made an original post in fucking forever#time to break out the sleep deprivation+coffee+media brainrot combo; my old friend#critical role#bells hells#deanna leimert#aabria iyengar#cr3#andis thought geyser
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