#i'm unwell i'm sick about it

[gloomsday]

snippet from paste magazine: "JNCOs, Hype Priests, and Liberace: How Christina Flannery Costumes The Righteous Gemstones"

[lotus-pear]

learning to love

[angeart]

a quick sketch based on my and link's most recent rp—

[helenofblackthorns]

thinking about how much Ty hates change & how he was visibly distressed when he thought Julian forgot about the pancakes but he's the one who most desperately wants Mark to take over from Julian. thinking about how Julian's first line in the series is that Ty & Livvy are eating wax and how his hands are covered in wax too. thinking about how Julian thinks of them as his children but they're the siblings closest in age to him, the brother and sister he was probably the closest to growing up

[moregraceful]

It feels like getting pulled underwater—the sharp sideways tug, the slight drag of resistance, then falling, falling, till the waves close over his head. But Logan can breathe when he rights himself again, even if the light has a watery filter to it and the voices have a distant echo. // Sometimes Logan gets a glimpse of guys who've been long gone from the teal, clustered at the far end of the bench or sitting in the box across the ice. He heard Jason's voice in the hallway loud and clear, that infectious laugh. And he could have sworn he saw Raffi fucking Torres getting out of a car in the players' lot. Something tells him not to look up the rosters.

Commissioned @impmakesart to make a painting based on the Sharks' Cali Fin hype reel + the flip side by frausorge. Imp was amazing to work with and I could not be more emotional about this piece and so, so pleased with how it turned out!! 🙇🏻‍♂️🙇🏻‍♂️ Commission him here. Thank you Imp!

[daily-hanamura]

[badnewswhatsleft]

WAIT.......patrick smirking to himself while singing elton john's parts during srar SAVE ME...........

(source) at around 1:00 onwards...... im being so serious look at his little face.......

[voetballers]

I will say that I am extremely sorry for bringing my discussion of this situation to my blog where I'm aware that none of my followers (save for like... 4 friends who I already talk about how much I hate Dream) really want to see, but I do just want to rant about how purely disgusting this man has been as of late.

We all become aware of yet another victim of his, an underaged fan that he was acting sexually towards (a 16-17 year old whilst he was 20), someone who has contacted the proper authorities and after contacting them, posted video proof that Dream had sent the victim a SnapChat video of him moaning and saying that he wants to "fill (them) up", and says previously that Dream was in possession of CSEM, and he calls the person calling him out an "not mentally stable individual" and that "it's from a person who hates (his) guts" because 1) of course he would default to saying "oh she's crazy don't believe her" that every perpetrator loves to say, and 2) of course the kid you were acting sexual towards hates your guts. Of course a friend of someone whom you sexted when they were 16-17 and you 20 would hate your guts. That is typical behaviour of a friend — my friends hate my sexual abusers' guts. I would be upset if they didn't.

He actually confirms that he had contact with this teen, says that they "were in an awkward and weird relationship with (his) ex-girlfriend" — who is known for... also grooming his underaged fans to get sexual material from them — and still tries to paint himself as the victim. He says, verbatim, "I made the mistake of being intimate with with this completely above age friend years ago, and haven't talked to them in years", however the individual is currently 20. A few years ago, when he still had contact with his ex, the victim would have been 16-17. He doesn't deny that this happened, does not write it off, and yet still says that it is only being brought up to "kick him while (he's) down". He is a truly despicable individual, and it's sickening that he still has millions of fans whom will stay defending him, and whom still actively defend him even now. He said that the middleman (the person who made the burner account/talking publicly about it) screen recorded the video yesterday, however the victim had these videos back in 2019, when they would have been underaged.

He makes "jokes" about he, himself, liking minors, even with all this being known. The first time someone came forward, he said that it was the individual hating him. The second time, it was accusing them of defamation. This time, it's "they want to kick me while I'm down". He is vile. And this is not even counting everything else we already know about him.

[coffeeandcalligraphy]

btw

CHANGING STATES

Lately, something has taken hold / of me—not hunger, not shame. It is like a flower / blooming in the injury. —Richie Hofmann

On the evening Jeremiah decides he’ll drive thirty hours to Maryland, the other half of his mattress is cold and Madonna’s on the radio. In his bedroom, he taps his cigarette on the windowsill, the ash scattering into rainy blue hour, and listens. Time goes by so slowly, she goes, her voice singed through his boombox’s broken speakers. He’s meant to replace it, though he’s meant to do a lot of things: check the mail, make a quiche, buy lightbulbs, call his sister, take up cross-stitch, recycle an olive jar, move his bed to the opposite side of his room. But time goes by so slowly, and Jeremiah would know—he’s twenty-one, yet feels he’s been alive for much, much longer.

[segernatural]

They never talk about how weird it is.

Sharing a bed, that is.

Dean's used to his military sleep--four hours, straight as a board, the occasional hand clutching the gun under his pillow.

Sleep has rarely been more than a formality for him. Dean is not one to daydream or read in bed--the bed is relief. sacred, in that sense. Privy to his peaceful moments; reserved for Bob Seger, Metallica, and the obligatory unconcious hours.

if Dean didn't have to sleep, he wouldn't.

There's so much time... sacrificed. To sleep. For sleep. Rest? Is not a word in Dean Winchester's vocabulary. He doesn't do that. He doesn't get to. There are hours in the night that are his. That he gets to have. That he gets to participate in and be aware of.

33% of your life is spent sleeping. Dean's life was always supposed to be short enough that that mattered.

Things are different now.

His time, while valuable and needed, is not restricted to the extra hours he can carve out for himself. It's almost to the point he doesnt know what to do with it.

Well, there is something.

Extra time is something Dean will never complain about. He’s spent his whole life chasing it. There are better ways to use it.

But staring across the bed at Cas is definitely up there.

It's funny, he used to bemoan the pointlessness of some of these secret hours that he'd steal from the night. All of this time, but never doing anything with it.

In the recesses of his mind, he knows it's more than the notion of sharing a bed with someone that's keeping him awake. It’s even more than it being Cas, finally here next to him.

It's about appreciating what he has. Because he doesn't get to do that with the lights on. So here, in the secret, in the quiet place--Dean is allowed to indulge. So he does.

[clowngremlin]

my need to always be wearing an overshirt (hawaiian or flannel) vs the fact that i am super prone to heat exhaustion.....fight!

[kinnbig]

🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️🧍‍♂️

[zishuge]

i woke up last night in the middle of the night with the terrible, terrible thought that one day, hulijing would pass, and then it would be like li lianhua is gone for good

[devilemon]

i am so unwell about her. so so unwell

[fitzselfships]

I'm so sorry to vent again but. Man. I have been Super not okay all day

I've been paranoid all day that people are making fun of me behind my back for being super into my main self ship or that people secretly hate me. I've been so scared because of this that I've been sick for the entire day pretty much. There is literally no evidence to prove any kf this is true but again my paranoia has been so bad I can't make myself believe that it's not true

Not only have I been paranoid I've been feeling extremely depressed and numb and empty and I can't make it stop. I'm to the point now that I'm questioning if Zooble would even love me. My mental illness stuff is getting so bad anymore (and I cannot get help for it) that I don't know how even a fictional character could love me

I'm already scared of being abandoned by them. I worry sometimes that if they were real they'd want someone who's skinny and pretty and feminine and that they'd leave me for someone else as soon as they get the chance. I feel so stupid for feeling this way because like. They're a fictional character and cannot leave me but again my mental health has been absolutely terrible recently so combating these thoughts are Very hard for me most of the time

I'm really sorry for this. I try my best not to be too open about my mental illness stuff but just. So much has happened today to validate my fears of being abandoned for someone else and in general making things worse and getting this all out is the only thing making me feel even slightly better. Not even watching my fave streamer was helping me feel any better so that should probably give an idea of how bad everything is right now lol

Anyway again I'm so sorry for talking about this but like. I'm so tired of feeling this way and neither me or my former therapist can make this psychiatrist see me so idk what to do. It sucks :[

[princess-of-purple-prose]

[ID: Two pages from Trigun Maximum. In the first, Rem cries as she passionately exclaims to Vash, "Don't throw it all away! Don't let it go! Don't say you'd rather die!" Young Vash seems shocked as she exclaims that she wants to see the world together, because it's made up of more than worthless people. Rem's face is scrunched up and flushed, tears beading at her eyes as she cries.

In the second, Marlin fondly tells Vash that Meryl and Milly worry when he leaves them and that he needs to learn to let people help him out, because they want to do so. Vash seems surprised, then begins to cry. He looks similar to Rem, with flushed cheeks and tears at the corners of his eyes, as he cries, "... Don't... Just... Don't tell me something like that now!" End ID]

Like mother, like son.... [starts bawling so hard I choke to death]

[ID: Another flashback page with Rem and Vash. Vash smiles with contentment and says, "But... if you hadn't stopped me then... I never would have know that when you cry, Rem... you look like you're laughing." Rem is still teary, but she smiles happily. End ID]

Bonus :')