#i'm so unwell right now

[whitedarkmoonflower]

[miaumus]

I'm writing a little story where Regulus has selective mutism and a hard time with words and now this has consumed my brain in a way that i can't even explain.

This is all i think about everyday. The way he communicates with his friends and the way they support him even when they don't really understand him. The way his relationship with James develops little by little and James tries his best to understand Regulus and his perspective of the world, never judging and always being appreciative of all his good and his bad. And last but not least his relationship with Sirius and the fact that they need to relearn everything about each other after being estranged and find new ways to communicate, they used to understand each other better than anyone else in the entire world and they don't anymore.

[juutdwae]

changbin belting out my favorite line from waiting for us........ my binvocals.........

[intheconfessiondial]

12 Months of 12 - September

[chronicowboy]

actually not ready for whatever profoundly devastating and romantic speech eddie is going to give buck to convince him he's not cursed. like imagine the fucking felisa scene but with six years of friendship and eddie's truly deranged talent for knowing the exact words to make buck fall a little more in love. all of this with his hand on buck's shoulder, thumb on his neck, by the way :)

[luff-gore]

(excerpts under the cut)

[...] The 1st. Lieutenant of the Erebus [Graham Gore] has got a dog if therefore you have not sent off Cæsar [the Goodsirs' family dog?] yet it is just as well to keep him at home poor brute as he is rather old for the voyage altho not so advanced in years as the one we are taking. [...]

- Harry Goodsir to John Goodsir (Woolwich Dockyards, May 6, 1845)

[...] Lady [Jane] Franklin has given us, among other presents, a capital monkey [Jacko], which with old Neptune & a Newfoundland dog which is coming & one cat will be all the pets allowed. [...]

- James Walter Fairholme to George Fairholme (Greenhithe, May 17, 1845)

[...] In our mess we have the following whom I shall probably from time to time give you descriptions of – First Lieutenant Gore – and his black labrador dog [...]

- James Fitzjames to Elizabeth Coningham, née Meyrick (HMS Erebus, June 5-25, 1845)

Source

Potter, Russel et al. (ed., 2022): May We Be Spared to Meet on Earth. Letters of the Lost Franklin Arctic Expedition. London et al. (Thanks to @lup-garou!)

[fanaticsnail]

Elevating the water cup to your lips and slowly tipping back the contents into your mouth, their voice holds an extra bite to their tone while they chastise you.

"You will take care of yourself, or I swear: I will take care of you so hard you won't be able to focus on anything other than how hard I'm taking care of you," they threaten with absolute love laboured in their gruff exclaim, "You got that? Say 'Yes, I got that', sweetheart."

Gulping back the water, they remove the cup from your lips and gently thumb over your lip to catch the after fall spilling over the seam. You smile up at them and offer them a soft echo of their order.

"Yes I got that, sweetheart."

"Cheeky," they retort in response, cupping the back of your neck and drawing your forehead to their lips. "Just know I have you, alright? I'm here. Drink your water, and do your best. That's all I could ever ask of you."

[blitzwhore]

Hold on, man... I'm having Thoughts and Emotions...

What if Stolas and Octavia made plans to watch the solar eclipse together on Earth to make up for not seeing Azathoth's tears? And maybe Octavia suddenly suggested inviting Blitzø and Loona over as well, since they were all together that other time, too?

And when Blitzø sees the awkward text from Stolas inviting them (I'd understand if you're busy or would rather not come, but Octavia seemed keen on the idea of seeing Loona again), he isn't sure he wants to go, because things with Stolas have been so weird lately, and he's deeply in denial about the feelings they have for one another. But Loona kicks him in the butt about it because he's being stupid, and so he reluctantly texts Stolas trying to sound as nonchalant as possible (shur y nut, portal plz) while freaking out inside.

And he doesn't know what he was expecting as he crossed that portal, but a mountaintop above the clouds is definitely not it.

“Thank you for coming,” Stolas says, and Blitzø can't help but notice the way Stolas bows to him—and then he pushes that information aside, not knowing what to do with it. “I hope the localisation is fine, and not too cold. Anywhere else would've been too crowded.”

“It's whatever,” Blitzø shrugs, and hates the way some of the light leaves Stolas' smile. He's only been here for half a minute and he's already messed things up.

Next to them, Octavia is explaining the intricacies of solar eclipses in detail to Loona. Absent-mindedly, Blitzø notices the way Loona softens around Via, but keeps it to himself, not wanting to be kicked in the nuts. Instead, he looks around for a semi-comfortable stone and plops down on it, wincing when Stolas sits carefully by his side.

He's searching desperately for something to say when Stolas announces, “Look up, everyone, it's about to start!”

At first, Blitzø notices nothing. Well, nothing but the mild discomfort of staring directly at the sun.

But then he sees it. The moon—a corner of it, anyway—overtaking the powerful star. And, for a second, he can't breathe.

Of course, the partial eclipse lasts long enough that conversation sparks up again, though awkward and sporadic. Stolas asks about work, Via talks about the moon's mountains. Blitzø tries to quieten the voice that says he doesn't deserve to be here.

But when the total eclipse nears, they're all too entranced to talk. As darkness washes over the sea of clouds below them, the seconds seem to slow, and each of his heartbeats thrums through him, echoing in the ground underneath him. He's one with the earth and the sky, and, when it all goes dark, the whole universe stops breathing with him to experience this.

He only remembers to breathe when, in the complete darkness, he feels thin, long fingers curling around his own.

Too entranced to remember all the reasons why he's not allowed to want this, Blitzø squeezes Stolas' hand firmly back.

They are one. Of course they are. How could they not be, when the sun and the moon themselves are?

It's less than two minutes before the sunlight begins regaining its territory and washing away the darkness, but it might as well be a lifetime.

A lifetime he spends with Stolas' hand clasped firmly in his own, surrounded by their daughters, marvelling at the vastness of the universe. Feeling like, maybe, they're all insignificant enough to deserve all the love they can find.

But, inevitably, the moment passes and reality settles back in.

Blitzø doesn't want the moment to end, but, of course, the moment doesn't care. And, too scared to keep holding on to a hope that feels as fragile and ephemeral as an eclipse, Blitzø lets go of Stolas' hand.

[quinngefail]

Been thinking for a while now about "I wouldn't lie to you" becoming just this absolutely sacred statement between Adam and Lawrence. Something they don't just throw around lightly. A means of showing their intentions are completely genuine, and they mean what they're saying say with their entire hearts

Especially applicable to situations where either of them are having really bad bouts of self-doubt and just worry about this and that

For example,

"I'm sorry you have to put up with me,"

"There's nothing to 'put up' with."

"...That's not true,"

"It is." A pause. "I wouldn't lie to you,"

It simply hits so hard in just about any emotional scene I've thought of with them like... AGHHH 😭

[harmonytheme]

all those times you visited and we couldn't even hold hands.

[maximura]

[rollforjackass]

i could KILL him for this. motherfucker's every interaction with children has him being, if not nice, then at minimum kind and forgiving and genuinely invested in their wellbeing.

he asks crying kids what's the matter, he's afraid to hold a baby because he's worried he'll drop it, he goes after people who are mean to kids without a second thought. his whole mentorship with timothy hunter is him trying to do right by that kid no matter how he feels about it at the time. man would be the most loving dad in the world but because of his own awful goddamn father and the ways he thinks he takes after thomas, he doesn't think that's true. i hate.

[piratesmyass]

Something something trusting someone enough to undress around them

[cloudbends]

OH I AM INCONSOLABLE. DEVASTATED.

[heyitsrink]

Ch. 37 of Assassin's Fate

[fairyroses]

— SMALLVILLE, "Lexmas" (5.09)