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Guys I need advice, please,
this goes out to all the h50 and mcdanno fans,
i'm currently at the start of s7 and I've been noticing the cracks in the writing for a while now so I have a question,
Is it worth it, to keep watching after s7?
Like genuine opinions please, because I do love the characters and as long as there are still some nice mcdanno moments or just wholesome stuff with the team as a whole that's enough for me to stick around till the end
I just wanna know if it's worth it or if I should live a happier life and finish at s7 before things get worse?
So to the people who've made it through, what do you think? Spoilers are welcome
#i'm really torn up about this#like on one hand I know some of what will happen#and I am ready to see this through#but on the other hand#I do want to spend more time on things that bring me joy#instead of stuff that makes me mad#hawaii 50#hawaii 5 0#mcdanno#I really really love these characters and there basically the only reason I keep watching#so as long as their characterization stays consistent things can't be to bad#right?#Who am I kidding tho mcdanno has me in such a death grip unless one of them leaves I won't stop watching anyway
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Been rereading the early Inky Mystery chapters recently and I have to say I forgot how flirty Bendy was in the beginning like Idk how I forgot about that. In the beginning it's like a huge part of his character and he's just changed sooooo much.
All of them have, like Felix being a Dad to not only Bendy and Boris, but the Cup-Bros too like now it would seem out of character for him to do that cause of the whole Wiseton mess. Then there's all their banter that's more or less up and left (or literally flown off in some cases), Alice and Bendy's puns, Cups and Bendy's play fighting, Mugs and Boris being cheeky against their bros, Holly's excessive questions (like they're there it's just less and she more subdued), Holly joking w the Cup-Bros or Alice and Cala, Cup calling her Tree Princess, and Finley's jokes and little skits w Sammy (oh Finley, u adorable fox, it's been a while).
OH and then there's the "widdle wolfie" thing, my heart hurts anytime as I reread those like com'on man I can't take it. On top of it I finally reached the Group Date thing and Alice is so avoidant of a relationship w Bendy cause of culture and her parents which is killing me cause like her Mom was fine w it (love that btw) and yeah we don't know how the Upper would react but we could've avoided SOME of the heartache we have now and it just makes me wonder what would've happened if she had excepted at the time.
Overall I just miss their family dynamic and just everything before Finley died and the Dark Circus stuff!!!😭😭😭
Like it's so pure and cute and I miss it...
But alas here we are, the Quester Family torn asunder.
.....
Yeah, they were just such cuties and I love them. Unfortunately tho I love drama, angst, and the darker stuff more so I can't wait to see what's next. Anyway I must say farewell to thee my fellow existences.
#inky mystery#Quester Family#babtqftim#babtim#found family#I really want to blame it all on Sarah#But its not ALL her fault#It started w the death of a Fox#RIP Finley#Hold up#I wonder if we'll see him again#hmmmmmmm#Things to think about#Anywho I've made it to right before the Chirstmas chpt soo I'll be rereading Dark Circus soon#I'm not ready to see them be torn apart again#But I'm doing it anyway#Cause I love to drown in those inky puddles of angst#Also forgot how much of a little flirty grimlin Bendy was in the beginning#Like how did I forget that#Just HOW#Its a big part of his character in most fanons and I just forgot about it for Inky Mystery#for some reason my memory just said nope that's not important#Oh crap I called him little#I'm doomed#In that case.....#Bendy's a the tinyest pipsqueak of a beansprot I've ever seen in my life#There now I'm really doomed#Wish me luck lol
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[ * hey hello quick announcement I vibe with proshippers now (I have sorta nuanced views but I'm closer to being proship and I'm comfy hanging out with them so. If you don't vibe with that there's the three dots in the top right corner of this post, click that and it should give you the option to block me) ]
Edit 2: [ * HEY WHY DO I HAVE MORE FOLLOWERS NOW. THAT AIN'T RIGHT. THAT DOESN'T ADD UP. WHAT'S UP WITH THAT. I THOUGHT MORE PEOPLE WOULD UNFOLLOW AND MAYBE BLOCK. ]
#cw shipcourse#tw shipcourse#<- [ * just in case ]#[ * I won't be posting any darkships on this blog though so dw this blog is going to be squeaky clean of that ]#[ * though tbh i already don't really post any shipping at all (minus tsn) LMAO i just draw Ink being a silly awesome guy ]#[ * this will stay on pinned for maybe a couple of days ]#[ * rude asks will get blocked. no hesitation ]#[ * just REALLY needed to get this off my chest because keeping this hidden (i didn't have a support network specifically for this but now#do) has torn my mental health to shreds like. i had to pull the vent animation card kinda shreds. ]#[ * i won't be posting about shipcourse either . stresses me out ]#[ * anygays. back to our regular schedule of cool Ink arts ]#edit: [ * I MEANT WEEKS I'M KEEPING THIS PINNED FOR AT LEAST A WEEK ]#edit 2: [ * There's a few recent ones which do have proship dni which... man... how do i tell you this... ]#[ * i avoid interacting with them though but since this is kinda a bit of a Situation ig I'm giving them the option of whether to block me-#or not ]#[ * because again no darkships on this blog ]#[ * anyway yapfest over ]#[ * yet ANOTHER edit: i am in fact a darkship enjoyer but. again I don't post that stuff here !!!!!!!!! ]#[ * just wanted to clear that up if that somehow modifies things ]
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Gender fluid? No.
Gender oobleck.
My gender nothing concrete until grabbed/perceived into shape another makes of me. Then i slip away.
Also. You shouldn't pour me down the drain.
#mine#gender#gender oobleck#nonbinary#gender apathetic#apagender#gender queer#oobleck#did this make any sense?#been on my brain but idk if anyone else understands it#no but seriously#as long as i know you're referring to me I'm not really all that torn up about gender and how I'm perceived#I've been called Michael before#that's not my name but it was part of the name i have for my server profile on that discord server#so i knew what they meant#also#my 8th grade history teacher used the typically masc spelling for my name for the textbook i was given#and i just found it funny cause he had the roster beside him#i didn't care though#just was confused at first#fggdf
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"Does that FE3H character have a bastard child?" tier list
One of the funniest things my sister and I have done with FE3H is create the Sylvain-Dimitri bastard tier list aka. on a scale from Sylvain to Dimitri, would that character have a bastard child?
Sylvain sleeps around and bitterly assumes every woman wants a child from him, so duh, while Dimitri would be so ashamed of holding hands with an unmarried partner, he would immediately marry them and claim all responsibility on the spot
The Gilbert tier is "they might if they weren't rizzless"
#fire emblem three houses#fire emblem#fe3h#three houses#dimitri alexandre blaiddyd#sylvain jose gautier#tier list#not art#i'm honestly surprised in a game about hereditary systems they didn't mention illegitimate children aside from dorothea?#but yeah bump the rating up a bit and sylvain's facing that#raphael is in maybe because he wouldn't really care about what makes a child illegitimate#he could have one out of wedlock but that doesn't mean he's not a good/present dad#also the way ferdinand introduces himself you know he's got half-siblings somewhere out there he's torn about
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just here to say that I loveee the way you have doodled jin ling. squeaky toy golden boy. the most nephew to ever nephew. thank you for delightful comics, that's all, mwah
I simply think the Jin DNA is full of lil guy potential; like sugar ants on a peony B*)
#better drawn mdzs#ask#MDZS#Jin Ling#jin guangyao#jin zixuan#mo xuanyu#They are taking a little nap after snacking on nectar....#I was working on some life study florals when I got this ask and thought 'I can combine these.'#Mwahs u back on the forehead; thank you for giving me an excuse to draw these guys#I really like doodling jin ling so I'm happy to know other people like him too#depending on how I rearrange these in my queue this is either the first time Jin Zixuan appears on this blog#or its right after he's been torn to shreds#Such is life! Jin Zixuan should have never disrespected the queen!#okay lets talk ants and peonys for a moment here#I use to think that peonys needed ants to help them fully blossom but that's not the case at all!#They want ants around to eat the pests that do more harm to them#peony's in China are associated with wealth and prosperity; but I've grown up with them meaning 'generosity and mutualship'#Yellow peonies are for fresh starts and new beginnings! Much to think about.
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skin tone aside i think what's throwing a lot of people off to make the natlan character designs seem like "pokemon" or "not genshin" is that the designs are relatively modern-looking compared to the fantasy/traditional aesthetic that genshin usually goes for. if anything i'd have expected these kinds of designs from zenless zone zero
#0.txt#like it looks more like urban streetwear and the girls are wearing sneakers/athletic looking shoes instead of heels for once#i can't speak to any cultural references though so i'll leave it at that#but i will say my initial reaction seeing them was more positive than seeing the sumeru lineup which just felt straight up orientalist#but we've also only seen 3 characters so far (technically 4 with iansan). i am really really really dreading the pyro archon based on leaks#also i think some people's expectations were leaning way too into the “war” aspect given we've known next to nothing about natlan#but maybe take a step back and consider how you look saying the nation based on brown/black/indigenous cultures#should be a desolate war-torn wasteland#these areas and cultures ARE vibrant and full of life like lmaoo i'm sure you'll get your big fancy volcano somewhere
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One of the most annoying missed opportunitis in TGED in my opinion is the complete lack of a relationship between Javier and Marbella. Like yes Arcos was the one who saved him, but he has way more in common with Marbella. They were both commoners, they were both saved at a young age from absolutely abhorrent fates by Arcos, and most importantly, neither of them have no connection with their parents or any outside support system. (Javier's parents are dead, but we don't know what happened to Marbella's family/friends after the mercenaries sacked their village).
I just think it's really out of character for Marbella to see this kid her beloved husband brings home one day, whom she can see has witnessed the same horrors and born the same heartache as she at a far younger age, and not do everything in her power to help him? To track down recipes from his home region, to soothe him when he had nightmares, encourage him to make friends with Julian, and just overall hold his hand through everything as he adjusts to a world that is so alien compared to everything he's ever known.
And just imagine the angst. For the first time since her marriage, if not her rescue, Marbella has someone in her life that shares so much of her childhood experiences and background. (At least who isn't being paid to hang out with/serve her). But she never feels like she can keep him. At first they were merely waiting for next of kin to come claim him. But by the time they realized no one was coming, it was clear to them that Javier was going to be the greatest swordsman the world had ever known. He would have to leave one day, if not for his own glory then for the sake of the helpless across the continent. He was never meant to be her child. (Or so she thought).
Plus Javier's entire character arc revolves around him slowly realizing that love and duty are not mutually exclusive. This could have been reenforced by his relationships with Arcos and Marbella. He's devoted to Arcos because he admires and respects him as his savior and lord, but also as a genuinely good person who helped him grow into the man he became. But he loves and respects Marbella because she was the one who made him feel safe and not alone when he was at his most vulnerable. (Not to say that Arcos didn't try, he just never lived through what they did so it was harder for him to connect to him.)
Maybe the reason he has a seemingly closer relationship with Arcos is because he thinks it's a simpler relationship. Just a lord and knight, nothing else. (I think it would be really funny if Javier was only aware of his filial pining towards only half of the Frontera couple.)
I think I lost my train of thought halfway through this post but tldr; Javier should have been a secret mommas boy.
personally i think javier is just lacking in relationships in general. like. this man barely talks to anyone who isn't lloyd. the only two other people i think he's close to is arcos and julian which does make his lack of relationship with marbella more conspicuos!
i've talked before about just how out of character it feels for the fronteras to not really have a more personal relationship with javier considering the literally everything about them, but you make a great point that javier is pretty close to arcos while he barely has any interaction to marbella. which personally i think it's because bk moon is allergic to writing women sometimes and arcos is just more integral to the plot than marbella unfortunately :/
but if we're talking in-universe explanations it could totally be what you said! javier probably just found it easier to connect with arcos, because he already had that lord&knight connection with him.
he was in a very tenuous situation when it came to his place with the fronteras, because there was really nothing tying them together when he was a child beyond their goodwill. becoming a knight to the frontera family is cementing his place with them in a way no one could really deny. it made it real even if it's not really what he (or them) wanted it to be.
(i've also talked about this before. i've talked a lot about tged OTL)
but this also comes with the drawback that now they're stuck in their roles in a way they weren't when javier was just the child they'd raised. now he is a knight, they are his masters and there's a degree of separation between them that wasn't there before.
and with arcos javier at least has the excuse of being his knight to justify his closeness. but with marbella?? he doesn't have a 'reason' to be close to her. so he isn't.
but i really do adore the idea of them having their own relationship with each other <333. i'm holding your entire ask close to my heart and never letting go <3333
#hey i got an ask#appledawn3464-blog#tged#the greatest estate developer#javier asrahan#marbella frontera#i'm fascinated by how little relationships javier has actually#like i know it's because of plot reasons#but i still find it interesting that nothing ever indicates he was supposed to have them#even without lloyd's influence in the plot#like even when lloyd says he had a lot of romantic interests#he doesn't really seem torn up about 'denying' javier the chance to meet any of them#or any friends or allies for that matter#for someone who seems actually torn up about being the reason javier didn't become renowned through the continent#him not caring a little bit about the relationships javier lost by being always at his side#kinda just makes it seem like none of those relationships were actually important at all#sorry i know this ask was about marbella but i got distracted by the shiny lmao
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forever will be haunted by all the thoughts I have about my ocs that I don't voice/draw/write about because I don't have the skills/capacity/time/motivation to do so.
i'll think up of something that's got me chewing on glass and punching concrete and just ahhhughhh
i could write essays about them. i'm so tempted to make some whole ass powerpoint detailing them and picking them apart with the help of the enneagram just for funies
sometimes i just will sit in silence after thinking of something about them or i'll cry or i'll be like 'LET'S FUCKING GOO!' and then literally do nothing with it
aaguuuughhhh
So many thoughts just....there.
and i feel even crazier because sometimes it's just me screaming into a void about these guys
but i love and appreciate the couple of people who listen when i do scream into the void <3
but oh my god.
i'm being consumed.
#this is specially about tay'kaa#in the past couple of weeks i have thought up SO much about him#and how his background is and how that shaped him as a person and how that in turn is reflected in his relationships#and in turn also how he is with crosshair#like this man is textbook 3 type on the enneagram#specifically a 3w2#i just have SO many thoughts about him#and i really wanna put them somewhere#oh i'm so serious about the powerpoints or essays or something#but i'm torn because i feel like if i don't do it i'll explode#on the other hand i know i SHOULD spend time an energy on things that matter#because i'll spend way too much time on that shit for it to not really matter in the end#ah well#gnawing on my ocs like a bone#they make me crazy#i love them so much#i wanna talk about them so much#ocs#sw ocs#max night posting#lmao maybe if i could draw better it would be worth it
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so. for A Long While now we've considered officially pursuing converting to judaism. and we've finally really started the whole research process and getting familiarized with the religion and everything and. does anyone have tips on how to feel comfortable in a new religion when you've been so harmed by specific religious groups in the past (especially when the religion you have bad history with is so close to the one you're converting to, like being another abrahamic religion)
#its. um#we tried like. a sort of prayer (more like begging) today. and didn't realise how much the idea of speaking to. a higher power#scares us so bad we couldn't stop crying through the whole thing#i think it's partially mixed feelings about the evangelical town i grew up in#and then extremely mixed feelings about my rejection of the version of g-d that town taught me#and feeling like my life has been cursed because when i was 8 i said I'd stop believing in g-d because i wasn't getting any help#with things like being ostracized from my peers and always always getting sicker by the year#and since then both those problems have gotten way worse so. idk#im just scared. as a child i was taught that g-d should be feared not loved. it felt like the relationship i had with my biodad#that acting incorrectly in any minor way deserves severe punishment#and any suffering you endure is clearly a sign of your wickedness#and i just want to know that this g-d i turn to now. is not like that. is not vindictive and cruel and scary to think about#i need a religion that doesn't make me consider i have ocd even more. i need comforting arms to run to. i need light and faith#and i feel drawn to judaism in a way i can't explain#but i know if i fail this process in some way. if i get rejected. if i Do It Wrong somehow#it will feel like a part of my soul has been torn out. so I'm scared to really truly start because What If. What If. What If. yknow#i just want to know i wasn't truly cursed for being a child in pain. and that that won't be a black mark on my soul forever#idk#i also don't know what tags to use for this so uh#please let me know if i need to add anything#I'm sorry if i trigger anyone without warning it is not my intention i just never know how Actually Bad my past. is. until i need a tw
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Mathilde 'Tillie' Ingellvar, aka Rook, Mourn Watcher and Taash lover
#cherchezlafatfemme#dragon age rook#dragon age the veilguard spoilers#datv spoilers#dragon age#dragon age the veilguard#datv rook#Ingellvar romancing Taash is just as juicy as I thought it'd be#And Qunari Ingellvar is also great it really emphasizes a sense of otherness even among the mournwatch#She and Taash bond over feeling torn in multiple directions#She's learned about Qunari culture through other Qunari in Nevarra and through books but that's not the same#but anytime anyone looks at her that's immediately what they see#She can't hide being Vashoth she can't just stop being#But she feels so at home and safe in the Necropolis#So connected to the spirits and the undead who have always welcomed her#She and Emmrich become so close very mentor/mentee#And I loved that she could bring it up to Taash during their argument with Emmrich#Like hey wtf babe I'm also a necromancer though? And Taash clearly having some cognitive dissonance#Trying to reconcile disgust for necromancy vs attraction for Rook and realizing they can just ask others to help ease their discomfort#And the others will care and not just brush them off#And also discomfort doesn't mean the other person is wrong or bad#They're literally the cutest couple anyway#and i'm obsessed#One thing#Wish she could be fatter#LOVE that she can be chubby watching her move and take up space makes my heart sing#Just would've liked to see a less defined collarbone#My girl is soft and squishy and tall compared to most but short for a Qunari#my edits
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I don't think this is Moe's first offense (saying something brazen/flippant) but I do think it's the first time it's called the King a bitch. And it won't be the last! The funniest part of Anna being the one to take charge and chew Moe out is that it gives Moe the opportunity to do The Exact Same Thing to Alfonse one-on-one (you know... to test the waters... to see how he feels about it....). Which it is. Also promptly chastised for.
FAVE PANELS...


#fire emblem#feh#moe really is. a type of guy. it immediately gets scared when anna first corrects it. so what does it do? dig the hole deeper. double down.#THAT REALLY IS MOE'S BRAVE FACE.... playing dumb or getting oppositional. sometimes both.#but it is NOT confrontational... epitome of i'm just a little birthday boy. EXTREMELY annoying type of guy LMFAOOO#i feel like anna has been v patient w moe up until this point. like this has to be a three strikes you're OUT situation.#and both alfonse/sharena have been such hard working straight and narrow types that. they have never seen anna like that.#I REALLY THINK. it's like. anna is The Literal Commander Of A Military Unit and also given her background#more or less she could have been killed for having an attitude like that. hypothetically. we don't know her background. BUT THEORETICALLY..#i like to imagine it does come from a place of that though.#also moe may be an authority hating shithead but it does VERY quickly come to respect anna actually.#you have to Earn it. be Worthy of it. it sees that anna is extremely capable and skilled and fair. it respects that.#so like... i think it genuinely doesn't want to upset or disappoint her. however... it does have ... moe tendencies.#anyways even though i'm in between a dozen things i just had to draw this out and i'm so happy i did tbh#i don't really know how anna feels about moe. but it IS extremely funny to imagine moe is just torn asunder by her at one point#AND. IT FULLY DESERVED IT. it is taking the L here.#ALSO THE FACT THAT ALFONSE IS PISSED TOO. IT'S SO FUNNY TO ME. moe you just fucked up big time#IT WAS TRYING. TO BE NICE. 😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭😭#fe alfonse#sharena#fe anna#moe tag#summoner oc#my art#my comics#also that is. a whole other comic. moe committing the offense again and getting sternly corrected#until it's like ooooohhh. wait. you actually respect your dad... okay. um. let me think of something else to say#LMFAOOO... i think third time's a charm. it doesn't dare say that to sharena. what if she cries. moe is also gonna cry. and thrup
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i'm really hoping tgr gives me motivation to rewrite my epic raven!laila au that only made it to the outline stage before i lost my flash drive
#my post#that and some of my spn fics are the only stuff i'm really torn up about losing#but alas. no one can bring back writing from a flash drive that vanished. we press on tho#maybe reading more abt laila will drive me to slog thru the process of figuring out everything again
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WAKE UP!!!!!! THE TRAILER FOR SEVEN KINGS MUST DIE HAS DROPPED!! 🔥
#seven kings must die#the last kingdom#uhtred#edward#aethelstan#ALFRED'S DREAM IS COMING ALIIIIIIIIIIIVVEEE#Finan#Sihtric#they look so good!!!!!#King Constantin being a battle-beast per usual#this look so so good#and epic#though I really could have done with a bit more light#this trailer literally gave me chills#I'm torn between not wanting any context for this movie and feverishly consuming every bit of content about it 😭#ALFRED WAKE UP your grandson and husband are ✨fighting ✨#tlk#tlk fandom#alexander dreymon#mark rowley#arnas fedaravicius#rod hallet#harry gilby
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I can't decide if I want to put like. A link to my Dragon!Scar AU or not in my pinneed which I'm going to redo or. If I just leave it to fall into the depths of my blog since I'm not going to touch it anymore I don't think BUT if anyone DID something with it I'd want to see. I just plan to repurpose my designs (maybe) into ocs. But I'm not really sure yet... Losing interest in stuff sucks but I'm into something else that makes me happy. I do miss the community around it and getting ask/talking to people but just how it is
#space.text#I'm torn since I do have 3 aus I started but do I want that linked or not#Those who are sticking around with me moving on#you are cool#and you can still send me ask about things!#Tho you should really send me canon transformers to draw LOL#Soon ocs will be up I'm just lazy and I haven't fixed my watermark#Ugghhhhhh
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- Marten & Nohren -
#digital art#illustration#art#cowboys#original characters#my art#thought I might as well slap some colour on this now since i'll be away this week#i've got so many ideas floating around my head for story stuff I want to draw for these two#i've been writing them for almost a year now and i have a bunch of different AUs i'm excited to make designs for#the outlaws AU is one of my favourites though#excited to see how their designs change as i get more confident with drawing people#i'm not gonna info dump about them too much i think. I'll probably just let the story unfold trough the illustrations etc#cause idk if anyone's interested in the story stuff. i'm happy to answer if anyone asks stuff though#but the short version is that they grew up in the same town but didn't really get to know each other until later#Marten has a bad accident that leaves him bedridden for over a year while his father hides his condition out of shame#so Nohren takes a job as a hand at their ranch and figures out which room they're keeping Marten locked in#they become good friends and Nohren visits him in secret for almost two years while helping Marten regain some mobility#they take up the outlaw life after Nohren is seen with another man in town and decides he's better off getting out of dodge#Marten is torn about leaving the ranch behind but he comes along eventually#that's the very basic gist of it#they good kiddos#Marten#Nohren#Outlaws AU
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