#i'm really proud of this actually. also i hope i did the pronouns right is it he/her is it him/she help????

[mellowdrawsthings]

:D

[thefrogdalorian]

The Best of Both Worlds

Din Djarin x Female Reader Modern!AU

Summary: When a new Star Wars TV show called The Mandalorian premiered, you found yourself completely enamoured with the titular character. Enjoyment of watching the lone bounty hunter travel through the galaxy quickly turned to obsession. There was just something about the show that captured your imagination. Now, you spend much of your free time — when you're not working a fast-paced, minimum wage and incredibly stressful job at a prestigious London Museum— speaking to your online friends about your love for the show. There's just one thing... Despite how much you love The Mandalorian, no one knows the identity of the man behind the helmet... either in the show, or in real life. You only know him as Mando. No one has ever seen his face, no one knows his name.  Even after the countless hours of speculation from fans online, which even you have occasionally participated in, no one is any the wiser to the identity of the mysterious man who wears the shiny armour.  Surely, given the depth of your love for the show, you'd recognise if the man who you spend so much time obsessing over online was to ever cross paths with you. Right?

Content Warnings: Reader is AFAB, uses she/her pronouns and in her mid 20s. Age gap between her and Din is noted but not really central to the story. Grogu is human, hints of past trauma/child abuse before Din adopted him are mentioned but not described in detail. Some mature scenes later on in the fic but not explicit smut... because I just cannot write x reader smut! Author's Note: SO very excited to finally share this fic! Thank you to the lovely @suresnips for being my beta. I really appreciate you ♡ This baby was originally my NaNoWriMo 2023 project and was inspired by this post from @toxic-seduction that I saw one evening and couldn't stop thinking about! POVs will alternate chapter to chapter from Din to reader. It was fun to write that way! Set in London for a few reasons: partly because I love the movie Notting Hill and it has some of those vibes (if you squint), also, the village where Din lives is based on Elstree Studios just outside London, where the OT was filmed and ultimately because NO WAY was I writing a modern!AU set in the states, it would've been painfully obvious a Brit wrote it. While there are lots of references to places in London, I don't live there so it might not be truly accurate (Londoners don't come for me). Also, to be political for a sec, reader works at the British Museum and I hate that institution. This was actually the line of work I was interested in when I was at Uni but for many different reasons I did not pursue it. However, it works for the plot of this story and as you'll see, she doesn't exactly love it either and goes on a few rants. Just wanted to make that clear that her job there is not an endorsement of it or anything. I can't stand them or their historical apologist bs and I wish we would give back all the things we stole (including the Parthenon Marbles)! Finally, it was incredibly important to me that the actor behind Mando in this fic clearly be the fictional character of Din Djarin rather than the real person Pedro Pascal, because rpf is not my jam! I hope I did that pretty well but just wanted to warn that if you're expecting me to use Din as some kind of way to write a Pedro fic, this won't be for you! Okay, I'll shut up now! This fic is fully written, just needs editing so hopefully I'll get a couple of chapters up each week, but life happens. I'm very proud of this one and I really hope you enjoy reading it as much as I enjoyed writing it! Also if you would like to be added to my taglist for this fic, please let me know! Happy reading ♡

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Why Does It Always Rain On Me? [Reader POV]: After a dreadful day which saw you drenched by a rainstorm after leaving a hectic day at work, you reflect on your love for Mando and upcoming excitement for the sci-fi convention you will soon be attending with your internet best friend.

He Is My Only Priority [Din's Pov]: The character of The Mandalorian is known and loved by millions. But there is another, much softer side to the man who portrays him that Din Djarin is determined to keep hidden from the world, despite the challenges that presents for him and his beloved son, Grogu.

This Is Why (I Don't Leave The House) [Reader's POV]: Your internet bestie arrives in preparation for the Star Wars convention you will attend together. Everything is set for the greatest weekend of your life! Until you arrive at the con and find yourself overwhelmed by all the crowds and noise. At least you have numerous incredibly realistic Mando cosplays to distract you from how stressed you feel, and there's one in particular which is uncannily accurate...

Curiosity Killed The Cat [Din's POV]: Despite his reservations and against his better instincts, Din heads to a Star Wars convention that he was invited to. Although he fears that his cover will be blown, curiosity gets the best of Din and he can't resist attending a panel. But Din doesn't exactly find the answers he was looking for. Instead, he finds something far more precious. Something that he would never have expected...

He's So Tall (And Handsome As Hell) [Reader's POV]: Being back in the real world and returning to work after an incredible weekend at the convention where you had so many fun experiences is taking its toll on you. The thought of collapsing on your couch in front of The Mandalorian is the only thing keeping you going. However, the universe has other plans for you. News of an out-of-hours tour for a private client that you are asked to lead almost sends you over the edge, but when you finally meet the man, he is the opposite of what you were expecting. Weirdly, he seems familiar...

With A Little Help From My Friends [Din's POV]: Din returns to the set of The Mandalorian to begin filming a new season. Despite his experience and capability, he finds that he struggles to focus as his thoughts remain firmly fixed on a certain someone...

You're The Sunflower [Reader's POV]: Despite feeling certain that you'll never see the ridiculously handsome man you gave a tour of the museum to, a special delivery is about to change everything...

Your Face Hung Up High In The Gallery [Din's POV]: After a difficult few days of filming The Mandalorian, Din is excited to spend time with you as he finally takes you on your first proper date...

Have I Known You Twenty Seconds or Twenty Years? - (Reader's POV):  Despite a messy evening which led to you waking up in an opulent hotel which you have no memory of falling asleep in, memories of kind brown eyes and breathless kisses soon come flooding back to soothe your soul. Your relationship deepens as the two of you spending time together whenever your busy schedules allow. But one night, a turn of events causes you - despite Din's reassurances - to wonder if everything you have been working so hard to build together has just come crashing down around you...

There's A War Inside Of Me - [Din's POV]: The realities of the secret he is keeping from you begin to weigh heavily on Din's mind and he seeks advice from a certain curly haired co-star on what his next move should be. Things don't go exactly according to plan, not least because of the typically awful English weather...

It Could Be Love, We Could Be The Way Forward - [Reader's POV]: With your respective busy jobs keeping you and Din apart, a mystery date after a hectic day at work is exactly what you needed.

The Calm - [Din's POV]: When filming overruns and conspires to keep Din from the fun weekend he planned for you, he agonises over his decision. Fortunately, he manages to salvage the weekend, even after a calamity involving a rowboat...

The Storm - [Reader's POV]: The happiness you feel in response to a question Din posed to you is somewhat clouded by lingering doubts. Yet your affection for each other helps you to push those emotions down, until a weekend spent at his cottage changes everything...

P.S. - I tried to be inclusive for all body types and skin tones in this fic, but if I missed something, I do apologise. If you do spot something that takes you out of the fic, I am more than happy for constructive criticism as I wouldn't want anyone to be excluded on those grounds. I am always trying to do better and would love to know where I went wrong so I can improve and be more aware of these things going forward, so I would appreciate it if you could let me know if you do spot anything. Thank you so much! ♡

[gardensystemtv]

Technically Veilguard spoilers... I mean, I don't THIIINK it counts as a spoiler even by very liberal measures, but any actual spoils under the cut just in case! (context for those who don't know the game. it is about my strong feelings on how it handled Trans representation in the first 6 hours I played so far)

The dialogue option when interacting with the mirror, and talking about being trans.

I picked the bottom right option "feels good to see the real me." And I did not think to catch any screengrabs of it, but when I stream next, I hope to clip it maybe!?! Either way, She talked about how she is proud of the woman she sees in the mirror now, and actually, verbally, out loud, acknowledges being trans. While processing all this, it also made me realise that the game lets you pick gender identity and pronouns SEPARATE from the voice, and from eachother in this game... the voice actors must have also recorded the same dialogue but if you selected Man or Non-binary, right? I am using Feminine 2, because I think it's he one Erika Ishii did, or at least it sounds like them, but just thinking of the reprsentation, can we have them say "I am proud of the man I am" and whatever they would have used for non-binary (just person? is there something that is SPECIFIC to being non-binary instead of just non-binary that is not ambiguous but specific?) Because like.... I got REALLY hard into Dragon Age, primarily 2 and a bit of Inquisition, around the time I really struggled with feeling isolated due to a mix of the DID and gender dysphoria. And I can only imagine what it would have done to me if I had THIS in a game at the time. I am crying now thinking about it all EDIT: Went ahead and got screenshots and recordings of all the dialogue lines the game has to being trans. For me this is set to she/her pronouns, woman gender identity, and with Feminine voice 2! I don't have the time or means to record other options right now, unfortunately.

THERE IS EVEN AN OPTION FOR NOT REALLY BEING COMFORTABLE WITH MIRRORS YET!

Combine that with being able to adjust your characters appearance through out the game, in theory, you could play out an entire transition timeline in this game, not just with a before and after, but changing your character progressively, tiny bit by tiny bit over the entirity of an entire playthrough. I'm not saying you HAVE to, of course. but the fact the game seems to be ready to facilitate that.... PERFECTION

[mikailys]

F: Am I disturbing you, by any chance?

i see this goddamn man and i lose it istg i want to punch him so bad.

i was trying to catch up with hsl on my other acc where i'm following nath's route and i saw the devil. i just hoped to never see him again in-game and yet here we are.

and oh my. wasn't i lucky enough to meet him again not once, but twice in the same episode, in the span of 5 minutes.

i'll just do a rant about this part of the episode because it's unbelivable that this is the only part i got covered before my ap brutally finished i only wanted the illus :(

also sorry if i'm being inaccurate in certain parts but i got back into the game recently and probably forgot some background info/context.

F: Nathaniel has always wanted to study Engineering at University.

N: *not very amused by it – comprehensibly*

i had no idea that during hsl ep40 he would attend the graduation ceremony – or maybe he did and nvm i don't remember it i mean it's been 5 years since i've last played it – and he had the guts to still impose himself and talk about nath like that. after everything that happened and with all the parents, kids and professors around?

god. like haven't you learned anything, have you, dumb fuck?

N: I have to stop by my parents' house because I need to take some stuff. But seeing how the wind is blowing, I don't really want to go there alone.

another thing i wouldn't have imagined is that we would actually go back to this old house. i can only predict where this is heading.

N: This house holds only bad memories.

C: Don't worry. I'm with you.

N: Yeah, thanks God. *cutely smiles*

bambolottino che sei ti abbraccio patatino cucciolino :(

and then we enter into his house and meet – again, unfortunately – that amazing person his dad is, who is never, ever satisfied and he can kindly go fuck off for as far as i'm concerned.

F: What was that foolish act you delight us with during the ceremony? (...) You understood very well. I'm talking about your speech. We have come to expect the best from you.

C: (Nathaniel takes a deep breath, to handle his increasing anger)

F: I wonder if you have anything left of what we taught you to make such a scene.

N: Dad, you really want to talk about what you taught me?

exactly f-word, do we wanna talk about what you and your lovely wife taught him? to always achieve perfection? to be scared to walk through the front door and spend the evening at the dining table with his family? cause, believe me, i wouldn't be so proud.

i guess we have different ideas about these so-called "teachings" you two gave him then.

anyway we leave with nath and then the most incredible thing happens. our soon-to-be father-in-law – omg bless candy's soul – calls us thieves. lol.

it's pure comedy at this point.

F: Don't play the innocent. I caught you in the act, you're peeking around. It's a hobby, right? For you to just stick your nose where you shouldn't.

well first i'm pissed you're thinking i'm a thief and second, i'm even more pissed because you're kinda right, snooping in people's business is actually candy's job so can't really argue on that.

C: I wonder what could I even stole in this house.

F: I don't know. You tell me. *damn chill bro*

C: Maybe your house is very big, but it lacks of the most important things.

anyway it's so funny that in italian - the language i'm playing the game in - he just keeps using the formal pronouns and i say it's funny because it seems like that behind his serious tone he's constantly trying to mock us in a kinda patronizing way.

but we're the bigger person and, even if i'm seething we can't be too unpolite to him, so we just tell him that his house sucks because there's no love within its walls.

politest person ever.

but spoiler he doesn't take it very well.

anyway to sum it up, he just says candy is responsible for nath's sudden change and for making himself look ridiculous in front of the whole school.

obviously we don't support any nathaniel's slander, for now, and we are ready to take over this insane situation by praising our bf who was right down the hallway, listening to this all madness.

N: None of this will make me look better in my father's eyes.

damn. that kinda hit close to my home too

after this argument we leave since we're good to go. but on the doorstep we're blocked by the best of wives and best of women (derogatory) who, unexpectedly, wants us to stop by and celebrate the graduation with the family – oh my.

okay i'm not gonna lie but for a millisecond i felt bad for adelaide. only a millisecond 'cause then i quickly regained consciousness.

i appreciate she's understanding the situation and that she still cares about her son wellbeing – in some twisted way – but i cannot excuse she was an accomplice to her husband's mistreating and beating and the fact she wouldn't report any of it if it wasn't for candy it's gutwrenching.

regardless, nath doesn't want to spend another minute in that house – understandably. when they're about to leave, adelaide takes candy by her arm and tells her to please keep an eye on his son and we, taken by an unusual kindness, accept, encouraging her to pay him a visit.

how sweet candy is.

just like a candy i'm so sorry but it was served on a silver plate

and after that we're done. nath takes us back to our home and asks us if the day after we want to go to his place, since we have never been there before – which it takes me by surprise cause i can't believe you two have been together for almost 14 episodes and you have never found a moment to go to his house before.

candy tells him that first she has to ask to his parents – but we already know she will go cause they have to do the deed – and that's all cause i finished my ap right after this dialogue :|

this ep with the new – not very new now but for me it still is – ap mechanic is exhausting. 550 ap just to fight with nath's parents really did the thing and i still couldn't finish the ep.

to think i still have to continue university life and start love life haha...

anyway to conclude: fuck nath's parents 🖕🏻

[nogenderbee]

hello!! If ur comfortable enough, can I request the pjsk boys with a fem reader who crossdresses as a male? ty <))

Hi hi! Yes of course! I don't know much about crossdressing beside description google gave me so I'm sorry if it's inaccurate! But if it isn't then I really hope you enjoy <3

(Also sorry that it turned out to be so short)

Akito, Toya, Tsukasa, Rui with fem!reader who dresses as a male

TagList: @vodka-glrl - come get your ginger tsundere~

@miya-akane - come get your ginger tsundere and calm coffee lover~

@alicewinterway18 - come get your future star!

@indi-has-fallen - come get your crazy inventor!

@bleachtheidiot - come get your boys~

⊱ Akito definitely met with crossdressing even tho he never tried that for himself

⊱ so when he sees that his lover is crossdressing, he has nothing against it

⊱ sure he may give you teasy comments like 'So are you a bot or a girl?' but he doesn't mean any harm and he puts so many sarcasm in his voice that it's hard to think he means it seriously

⊱ but if anyone else will even try to tease you about it, he'll be right there next to you to give them piece of his mind

"They said what to you?!! Don't worry I'll take care of it. What's their name again?"

⊱ as much as he supports you tho, he'll die faster than wear a dress

⊱ he mostly doesn't want to try it because he knows that many people and maybe even you (same lol) will make fun of him

⊱ he really doesn't care about what you wear as long as you feel happy and comfortable

⊱ at first Toya misunderstood your way of dressing as being transgender, so he called you male pronouns untill you explained it to him

⊱ and well... he feels guilty for assuming something like that just by the way you dress

⊱ if someone ever make similiar mistake, he'll try to explain to them as well as he can that you just wear male clothing but still are a female

"Excuse me but you're mistaken. She's a lady. She only wears clothes meant for male gender, that's all."

⊱ if you ever ask him if he's willing to try some of the female clothing, he'll say he's up for it but won't actually agree to wear them in public

⊱ that's how he discovers how dresses and skirts feel and let's just say he's not a fan of them...

⊱ so with that, he doesn't blame you for wearing clothes meant for opposite gender of yours

⊱ he's very supportive and would love to go on shoppings with you and look for some comfortable clothes for both of you

⊱ if you also have short haircut, Tsukasa could or could have not mistaken you for a male... not like Toya tho, he thought you were real man

⊱ but someone or maybe even you yourself explain to him that you're female who just crossdressers and he needs to just process it all first... so just give him a moment!

⊱ but then, he turns into your bigger supporter

⊱ he'll try to help you with choosing right clothes that will be comfortable and all, and do I even need to mention how much he talks when someone mistakes you for a male?

⊱ like he can literally go on for HOURS with explaining that you're still a female

⊱ he definitely landed in dress once or more thanks to you and he honestly didn't thought that bad of it!

"Huh.... That's actually great! Perfect for future star like me!! I'll go show off Saki, I just know she'll love it as well!" spoiler: she did

⊱ Rui was the one who maybe not immediately knew but had option of crossdressing on his mind

⊱ and when it turns out to be true, he's proud of himself for figuring it out and also is your big supporter!

⊱ someone even tries to make fun of you and he'll be there by your side to hopefully help you

⊱ although the situation is a bit different when someone mistakes you for a male, he'll simply calmly explain to them everything

⊱ he brought the topic of him crossdressing by himself since he probably always wanted to try it but was too afraid of public eye

⊱ and thanks to that, he discovers he feels pretty comfortable in 'female clothings' but never wears them in public....

"Oh my... it's really comfortable and pretty! I am definitely enjoying wearing these~ Although society may not be ready for that yet... so let's wait for a bit before showing off!"

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[deathbxnny]

Hi there!

May I request a s/o (with any character you like) platonic who is like Asuka Soryu Langley

Description :

She is stubborn,very proud girl and comes across to others as proud and strong but she having difficulties in express her true feelings to others.

She does not like being looked down upon or told what to do as she wants to be viewed as an adult. She is aggressive and can be very opinionated. However, this personality is a front that protects a very vulnerable and insecure girl, a side which the viewer sees in her dreams or thoughts.

In conclusion:

She hide her truth personality by being agressive toward people and very confident confident to hide her insecure self.

Can I ask the s/o to be no-binary?

Thank you for reading, I hope I don't bother you.

Take care. ༶•┈┈⛧┈♛

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A/N: So, this is so out of order, as I usually do my requests by the oldest to newest. But when I read the name "Asuka", I just HAD to do it! I'm a huge Evangelion fan and especially one of Asuka, (which is probably predictable with me being a German lmao) so you know I was way too excited to see this haha!

Also I wasn't sure what you wanted, because you said "s/o" and then said "platonic", which confuses me. So I decided to make this platonic and a Teen reader, so it fit the character better and hope that's okay with you! And thank you so much for the request, it made me really happy!<33

Featured characters: Jing Yuan, Blade

Content: Mentions of reader being insecure, slight angst, fluff, platonic relationships, teen reader, sfw

Reader has no set pronouns!

((Not fully proofread))

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》Blade

Blade knew right off the bat, that your personality was just a facade. He could practically smell it and was very blunt with you about it too. He didn't care about the insults or rude comments your threw at him after, in fact, it made him just more curious to know what exactly your deal was.

But he didn't pry in the end. He acted indifferent to you and didn't react to your aggression towards him either. He'd just roll his eyes or give you a rude comment back and tell you to leave. Eventually your insecurities began showing themselves, whenever something you did went wrong. Especially during training. He quickly learned that he was right and your proud and loud demeanor was just in act to compensate for your fear of confronting your difficult feelings. And he understood that, as he sometimes felt the same.

He dismissed your attempts at trying to be an adult and you often thankfully listened to him anyways, even if you did it with alot of protesting and complaining, due to how intimidating he was. He made you accept the fact that you were still just a kid by force and that eventually also taught you how to accept yourself. He helped you out alot without even knowing it and for that you were thankful... even if you were too stubborn to ever admit it to him. Not that it matters, as he was too stubborn to ever admit how much he warmed up to you as well.

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》Jing Yuan

Jing Yuan saw through your facade pretty quickly as well and felt bad for you. He knew life must've been really unforgiving to you, if you had to put up such a strong and proud demeanor in order to survive. But you didn't need to do that anymore with him around and he made sure that you'd learn that fast.

He was calm and patient with you, never reacting to your attempts of being rude or insulting either. Instead, he would gently, but firmly tell you to drop the act already and just act your age. He supported you and praised you for everything, even if it was just the completion of a mundane task. He knew that you were insecure about your skills and wanted to make you truly feel more confident this way, which actually worked eventually.

He didn't mind you wanting more independence and was willing to compromise on some things, but he won't hesitate being firm and stern if he has to be. You didn't need to make adult decisions, if he was there and made sure you knew that very well. You began listening to him out of respect, as he did truly seem to care for you as a person and helped you out alot as well. Besides, the least thing you could do is to oblige to some of his requests as a thank you.

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A/N: I hope this is okay and coherent! I'm honestly a little sleep deprived again lately, as usual, but I did my best! Thank you again for the great request!<33

[applejongho]

On gender: sometimes I wonder if I'm actually nonbinary or if I just want to be alt and am doing it to break away from my parents' expectations. It's so frustrating to the point it's caused me partially not to come out to certain people because like. what if I'm wrong? And that sort of implicit disapproval masked as concern is so. It's so hard to confront anyone about it because of how it's framed.

I think the good and bad thing about both gender and identifying with a subculture is that there's not a strict set of rules you must fulfill to "join" either. But that means that you can come and go freely in any if you want to, or stay with one/a few forever. Whichever is more comfortable.

way more under the cut bc i started talking and never stopped 🤠

I can't speak on the nb experience because I've never identified as it or thought I was nb, but I can at least speak on why I'm not nb AND why I resonate with alternative subcultures all the same. I really resonated with alternative subcultures bc of the music and political ideologies but also because growing up I consistently never felt like I fit in with other girls around me. They all presented or acted in ways that just didn't click with me, to the point where I thought something was wrong with me for it. I didn't have the word or the idea that a girl could look like something else, so I dressed like they did bc I thought that's what I was supposed to do as a girl (but also my parents forced gender roles on me so it's not like i had a choice). I didn't get how others could like what they were wearing and feel comfortable in it. But then I started dressing "edgier" (when i got older) and all of a sudden I understood.

But the key here is I didn't ever feel like I wasn't a girl despite not resonating with the girls at school. And I can't exactly articulate that bc gender is so personal but I just know that I felt proud of female accomplishments in history and wanted to follow in their footsteps, I felt a social connection to girls and didn't feel "othered" (besides them liking how they dressed and i didnt), and when nb people started appearing in my life I didn't connect w them in that way or wish to be like them (in the sense like, I didn't want to "present" like them* or say my pronouns were they/them or whatever "precursors" there are to being nb). I've also heard that some nb people before realizing they are nb is they feel uncomfortable when they are indirectly called a girl or boy in a group of afab/amab people by a professor/teacher/adult/whatever saying "hey girls/boys!" and I never had that issue.

* = nb people present in a variety of ways and it's not a one size fits all, I just mean generally if I saw someone with they/them pronouns I wasn't like *kicking my feet* I want that

But like tldr, despite alt subcultures and being nb being similar in the idea that you're breaking society's expectation of [something], I could recognize I felt ok in the broad woman gender box while also feeling not ok in a specific gender presentation box. And that's all easy to say now that i went through my Self Expression Arc but it's a lot of trial and error, soul searching, Thinking, crying, observing others... until you begin to get a semblance of who u might be.

But like back to feeling like you're "faking it," ig something I've learned is that even if you're faking it, that doesn't negate your time labeling as That Thing (ie using certain pronouns and backtracking) and no one that matters will be pissed off that you backtracked. We're all figuring that shit out and if someone wants to be weird about it, whatever lol. Ig my advice is just do whatever you're comfortable with, come out to as many or as few people as you'd like to, and if you still feel Wrong ("they/them doesn't feel right to me anymore") then don't be afraid to try on a new set of pronouns or change up your style a bit. Unfortunately a lot of finding out yourself is just trial and error until something sticks.

I hope my experience/advice helps clear up some things and maybe others can comment too if they want, ie nb people that can fill in the gaps that I can't fill. Much love ❤️

[cincodenada]

Chuck!! This is a very good trot, I enjoyed it very much, and I hope you don't mind me adding my own long trot. This post is oddly timely in my life because I had assumed I was a cis bi dude for ages but have recently been realizing I'm actually a trans lady I guess, and it's been...pretty great actually??

I especially appreciate your thoughts about not wanting to take up space in transness because it's mostly been fine and not affected you negatively, because I very much feel that, it's important to hear and acknowledge the voices who have been hurt and figure out how to make that not happen, AND ALSO I think trans joy is just so dang important too!!

I also have generally had it pretty good, I checked basically every privilege box I know of, and was pretty comfortable as a cis dude, but I also have done much thinking around the Button Question and my response has very long been "can I switch back if I don't like it" because OBVIOUSLY you want to push the button, right, I mean who wouldn't?? but I am someone who likes to have options, I don't like doing things that limit my options, I always have a backup plan.

But it turns out that not everyone wants to push the button, even with a backup plan. And then I grew my hair long for the first time in my 30+ years on this earth, and realized that it was possible to actually like what your hair looked like. And then I decided to see what it was like to wear dresses and skirts, which was pretty great and also led to finding out what it was like to be called "they" and "she", and I started to realize that not pushing the button is also a choice that limits my options, and that actually those are options I would very much like to have.

I've long believed that transness didn't require dysphoria, but as I started reading more stories of trans folks who didn't "always know" and weren't actively pushed out of cisness by pain and dysphoria, and chatting with more trans folks with all kinds of stories, I started realizing that maybe that...also applied to me??

So I pushed some buttons to order some breast forms and see how that felt, and then when I ended up just kinda wishing they were attached to my body so I didn't have to put them on all the time, and with the encouragement of my friends I pressed quite a lot of buttons to talk to therapists and things, and have been gradually tiptoeing into physical transition and...all of this has been the best thing I've ever done for myself. Hands down.

Change is still scary, and I am still uncomfortable changing things without perfect backup plans, but I am so glad I did. I am looking forward to future-me in a way I never have before. I see and get to know women and other gendery folks in that ballpark who are older than me and realize that actually there are things I want to be when I grow up.

And the thing is, I still believe that cis men should be able to wear whatever they want and grow their hair however they want! And trans folks don't have to do anything to their appearance or bodies or pronouns to be trans, everyone is on their own trot and we all have different experiences and that is beautiful and THE BEST.

None of my exploring made me trans or changed my gender in and of itself. But it turns out I am also someone who is very much affected by how other people perceive me (in interesting ways, I am talking to therapist about that too). Shifting my presentation and suddenly being so much more comfortable and happy and excited about how I existed out in the world was...quite unexpected, to say the least, and helped me realize that "cis dude" was perhaps not the best way to describe myself.

It's still novel and so wild to me that when I look in the mirror and take pictures of myself now, I'm...excited about who I see? I like her, and am proud of her? And some of it is the hair and the earrings and things, but mostly it's just...seeing myself as a woman, rather than contenting myself with a gender that in retrospect never really fit all that well.

Gender is a big ball of spaghetti and I don't claim to nearly have it all figured out, or to know where I'll end up, but I can say that "nonbinary trans woman" is a much more comfortable place for me to exist than "cis dude", and wherever I go from here, I'm so glad that past-me made the big scary decisions and changes that got me here. I'm so grateful to everyone who shared their stories and helped me get here, and it's so rad to hear trans stories that overlap with mine in some ways and don't in others, and gain an appreciation of the many ways that trans folks exist.

So thank you, Chuck, for sharing your trot, it was a really wonderful way to start my day. Your story is different from mine but also much of the same, and transness is big enough enough for all of us. We DO need stories of transness without dysphoria, just like we need stories of transness with dysphoria. We need stories of transness with all manners of outward transition or lack thereof. And yes we need the trans stories that are full of joy and discovery and excitement, in many ways!! Because all of those stories are important and real, and all of those stories will be like someone else's story, and they might help someone else realize that maybe it could be their story as well.

What flavor of queer are you, if that's not too invasive of a question?

question is just fine with chuck it is kind of interesting story.

on LGBTQIA trot i am TECHNICALLY two letters

easy first one is B that does not need any more explanation. that has always been my trot

second way is what i have learned through talkin with my online buds way of non-dysphoric trans. it has taken chuck LONG time to understand this but it has been fruitful journey i think. long ago chuck would post online about becoming other people or things or concepts or wrestling with my IDENTITY as a buckaroo (whether that meant becoming sweet barbara or becoming my reverse twin or becoming the entire seahawks footballs team, very handsome). in fitting with my entire heckin LIFE some buds probably thought these were jokes when they were not at all. they were just personal artistic bubbles tumbling up and popping in ways i didnt understand yet.

but through posting these thoughts and THEN writing trans tinglers and talking to my trans buds online, i started to realize there are all kinds of versions of a trans identity INCLUDING the ones that rolled around deep inside of me that i never had a name for.

three events helped chuck understand this

first: the trans buds chuck talked to while researching harriet porber said 'well i always knew if i could press a button and change my body to match my gender i would instantly do this' and chuck thought 'of course woudlnt we all do this?' and they said 'well no, do you feel this way?' and i would say 'yes very strongly'. i will FOREVER be grateful to trans community for these conversations and maybe it is another reason why being anti-gatekeeping is so important to chuck.

second: thought about all the games i have ever played like a dang videogame or a role playing game, chuck would ALWAYS choose ladybuck character. didnt really think this was a unique thing at time but it is a pattern across whole life

third: chuck was trotting around with some buds and they all said 'whose bod would you choose if you could transform into any body?' (this is common topic for chuck believe it or not.) and the buckaroo guys went around naming the usual brats pitt or handsome channing and it got to chuck and i said 'obviously brie larson' and then the dang guys just kind of stared at chuck and then i realized 'oh, i didnt even think my answer was unusual but i guess they were only talkin guy bods'

these three things happened pretty close to one another but they were all bubbling up for decades and expressed in various ways even chuck did not entirely understand

anyway. chucks way is NOT that i feel uncomfortable in my body and it does not bring me grief. i am not upset about it honestly. i do not even THINK about it most days. however, it is all TRUE and in a purely technical and utilitarian sense of A PLUS B then YES, male would not be my preferred gender.

didnt talk on this for a while because there are MANY dysphoric trans buckaroos who go through a lot of hardships and i have gone through ABSOLUTELY NONE IN THIS WAY. it has not made my life more difficult and it does not haunt me, so i do not want to have my voice drown out other trans buds who need space to shout. i am very privileged so even though technically this applies to chuck i do not need or want any bonus points.

that beings said, part of my journey on the autistic spectrum was to recognize that EVEN THOUGH my personal story is not tragic, it is still an important one to get out there onto this timeline. IN FACT there should be more stories of buckaroos who love being autistic like chuck. i am PROUD of my trot and i love my autism (this is also why i wanted to explicitly say my lead character in camp damascus is autistic)

so in the same way, when directly asked, i will say: i am technically non-dysphoric trans ALSO this has not weighed on my life at all. my story is not tragic it is full of joy and excitement. i will not shy away from this because there are all kinds of buckaroos on this spectrum.

anyway that is my VERY LONG TROT hope you enjoyed getting to know chuck a little more thank you for this question buckaroo

[ghostly-clown]

Hiii! I love your writing, and I just read your Headcannos if the slasher liked a guy.

I was wondering if you could do the same, but with someone who uses it/it's pronouns, and is Agender? Thank you so much. And if you're not comfortable using it/it's pronouns, you can use they/them.

And preferably with Jason, Michael, Brahms, and Thomas. (I'm not sure if you write for Tommy)

You're also more than welcome to add anyone else.

Have a great day/night <33

Vry cute idea that I am more than happy to write for <3

Includes:

Jason Voorhees, Michael Myers, Brahms Heelshire, Thomas Hewett, Corry Cunningham, Bo Sinclair

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Jason Voorhees

- He a little confused at first (he lives in the woods alone so...)

- Sees other people call you it or they and eventually is just like 'huh, guess that's what they are'

- It really dosnt bother him though, he just thinks it's interesting

- Dosnt talk so pronouns are easy

- He kind of likes the idea of not really falling under a specific label and just seeing you being a person

- Very sweet with u, not much would change from a normal relationship

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Michael Myers

- he gets called 'it' alot so he's a little surprised that someone would choose to be called that

- This will also make him the shalsher who understands how you feel the most in terms of not really being a man or a woman

- He would do his regular stalking thing, he dosnt know how to people very well

- Only after a while will he realise he's stalking you cause he's got a crush

- I think he would also feel like you understand him more by using it/it's pronouns

- Loves you vry much and would Slaughter anyone to miss gender you >:(

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Brahms Heelshire

- Learnt you use non-binary pronouns when you jokingly told the doll

- He lives in the walls so like Jason he dosnt know that people can identify as something other than man or women

- His curiosity is peaked and that's what will eventually lead to catching feelings

- After coming out he will ask you alot of questions, none of them are ment to be rude he simply wants to understand

- In the end he would love u relentlessly as the touch starved bb he is

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Thomas Hewitt

- He has a vague idea on non-binary people and it's only from what Hoyt has said

- Then he meets you and your so sweet and kind nothing like Hoyt said

- He would take you to his cellar but never dare hurt you

- He's just trying to keep you away from Hoyt, for obvious reasons

- He would be very sweet and to make up for the harsh meeting he's gonna do his best to comfort you as much as possible

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Corry Cunningham

- Probably the only slasher to actuly know what they/them it/it's pronouns are

- And he complete respects all pronouns no matter the person

- He will however check with you constantly to make sure he is using the right pronouns

- His blood would BOIL if anyone used the wrong pronouns on purpose

- But that person won't be a problem for long and after hes done he'll try his best to comfort you

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Bo Sinclair

- He's heard of people using other pronouns but he isn't well educated in it

- Unfortunately he will make many mistakes but as long as you point it out he'll fix it

- He just wants you to be happy so he'll actually do some re-search into what it means to be non-binary

- The more he learns the more his respect grows

- After that he's never made a mistake and is very proud of his genderless partner

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I hope I did this ask justice!

[outivv]

Studying with the first years drop it rn or I'm eating ur dry wall

Synopsis: studying with first years >:)

Warnings: swearing, and not proofread

Game/ fandom: twisted wonderland

Characters: first years (ace, deuce, Jack, epel, and Sebek)

Pronouns for reader: gender neutral/ not mentioned

Note: this is just for fun, but I do apologize if they’re slightly ooc

A/n: hello! Don’t eat drywall it’s poisonous D:

— ace —

A menace.

Whining, and complaining the whole time. You aren’t allowed to go to the library together because he’s so loud when studying with you.

You barely get anything done, because he becomes so frustrated so easily. He can’t focus very well either.

Ace: “HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO MAKE A FUCKING LINE GRAPH???”

Mc: “…it’s just a bunch of lines ace.”

You kick him out of ramshackle dorm not long after you start studying.

— deuce —

Oh deuce.

He tries. He really does.

But he gets so frustrated like ace.

He starts off strong, and then just fizzles out like a sad sad candle.

Deuce: “why does there have to be letters in math…”

Mc sobbing: “I don’t know deuce… I really don’t”

He does study much better with someone with him though. Makes him stay on task oddly enough, and he asks a fair amount of questions! And when you’re right there it makes it much easier!

— Jack —

Loves studying with you, but acts like he doesn’t.

Literally such a good student it’s weird.

Mc: “you actually listen during class… I just screw off with ace and deuce…”

Jack: “you’re a disappointment.” /j

His tail will sway back and forth when you ask him a question. He feels so proud when he gets to teach you something, or just help you out with something.

If you fool around a bit too much he’ll tell you to quiet down, but won’t tell you to leave, nor will he stop studying with you.

— epel —

Could go one of two ways…

Either you both do great! You study for an hour or two, and actually stay on task and did really really well! And then you go get some food as a reward for yourselves when you’re done! :)

Or you both end up so frustrated you scream in the middle of the library, and get kicked out for the day.

Epel: “MATH IS A BITCH”

Mc: “FUCK YEAH”

Librarian: “…get out…”

It’s one or the other. No in between.

— Sebek —

Mmm… ಠ_ಠ

A prick.

You easily get off task? Hmm… hope your eardrums survive his very, very loud lecture.

Sebek: “HUMAN YOU NEED TO FOCUS AND WORK HARD TO PASS THIS CLASS, DO YOU NOT WANT TO GRADUATE???”

Mc sobbing: “stop yelling at me.“

He will make sure you study, and he will get his work done way way faster than you, so he can focus on helping you. It’s sweet but also damn dude… you just went through a weeks worth of homework in an hour.

— everyone :) —

You all study at ramshackle dorm. It’s nice an cozy, even if the wind blows through the dorm.

It turns not cozy real quickly though

I can see Sebek and deuce just yelling at each other honestly.

Deuce: “THIS IS SO FUCKING DUMB”

Sebek: “STOP SWEARING”

Jack and epel are actually doing their work, and working together on something.

Ace and grim are struggling together cause they don’t know how to solve for X

It’s chaos. But eventually… it all works out. Mostly because epel and Jack helped everyone. :’)

After everyone calms down it’s actually really nice, and helpful! And surprisingly people get a fair amount of work done! :D

[thesoleilla]

Hello dear sun,

I, the great gods of the gods of the gods, have arrived with a request for you!!!!!

I'd like to request for BSD yeah and uh Hurt Comfort YEAH

And i'd like uhhh Dazai x reader YE (that was predictable)

Uhhh Since i have no idea i will use whatever come to my brain !

Soo ! Let's say that we have a reader, a female reader ig with she/her pronouns because i said so ! And we have a Dazai ! Reader go through an existential crisis and ig she dissociate from herself and the real world so she gets confused and she just idk sHe AlSo SuFfEr FroM coTaRd SyNDRoMe

Good luck dealing with that!

Thanks !

Hi god!^^

First off thanks for the request ^^ I really appreciate it

And second off…

Here's your request!

(Srry I'm not really proud of this especially how I characterized Dazai but whatever this is my first time writing bsd stuff)

Also BIG trigger warning for s**cide

It happened again.

You got into a crisis and ran out of the office making everyone worry about you.

You didn't think this Y/N person deserved to be cared for but well, they probably thought listening to you was a waste of time right?

You didn't know what they found interesting about you really, you were just a rotten person in your eyes; but they tried so hard to make you see "the real you".

And you also looked for her, the agency gave you hope but she was nowhere to be found.

Every search ended in you finding yourself more and more rotten, and today you just couldn't stand it anymore.

So, after coming back emptyhanded again; you decided you had enough.

You carefully wrote a note and stuck it under your desk, hoping they'd only notice when it'd be late enough.

It was rather simple really, it didn't even reveal anything concerning but you figured they'd understand right away, after all this was a detective agency.

So, pretending you needed to leave for a mission, you ran out of the agency, tears filling your eyes as soon as you left.

But luck definitively wasn't on your side today as you randomly bumped into Dazai on your way home who was probably skipping work (again)

Uh oh, this wasn't good.

Why did he decide to skip work now of all times.

Well to be fair this wasn't very out of character for him…

But why does he always seem to slack off specifically where you are?

Couldn't he just find his own suicide place instead of constantly just picking somewhere between the agency to your place?

You brushed off your tears, hoping he hadn't noticed them yet.

"How could I deal with this without raising suspicion?"

Was a question you really didn't need to ask since Kunikida was already there about to put Dazai out of his misery.

So you planned to quickly run away while they argued back and forth for like the 6th time this hour.

But do things ever go as planned when you're apart of the Agency?

And the answer to that is a big no.

Because Dazai was already trying to use your "bad mental state" (his words not yours) as an excuse to avoid writing a report about his last mission.

God, was he really going to use that as an excuse?

Well, looks like he will.

And that really angered you, because you actually kinda liked him honestly, and you two definetively shared some traits; and you were starting to think that maybe he actually cared for your rotten self.

But well, looks like he didn't as he's litterally using you as a tool to slack off.

How nice of him. However, this doesn't seem to be working very well since Kunikida just grabbed Dazai, picked him off the floor and is screaming not very nice things at him.

Thanks for the distraction I guess?

That allowed you to discretly run away to your place without raising more suspicion than you already did. And you finally succeeded!

Pheeew that was harder than expected!

Maybe that's why Dazai struggles so much doing the same, you really underestimated how hard this would actually be… no, no you didn't want to think about this jerk again. Did he really lie to you about finding a not so rotten part in you for so long only to use you like that?

I mean it's not that you actually believed what he said or anything… but still that did hurt and you can't deny it.

Well, whatever you didn't really care anyways, he was allowed to use you like that I mean, it gave you a purpose at least... a dumb one but still! It was something, so you dying was useful! Yea,right suicidals help eachother! Well, I mean he did almost ruin your plan but whatever, you would have done the same! Right?

Aaaargh and there you were your mind drifting away from the task...Could you not complete such a simple task?

Knock.

Knock.

Knock.

Huh? Is dying without being interrupted really that hard? God, you were starting to understand him way too much!

But who could that possibly be... someone from the Agency perhaps? Nobody usually came to visit you so it's probably just about work!

However you did tell them that you were going on a mission... Could such great detectives forget about that?No...no that wasn't right.Dazai must have told the others so then...

IT WAS HIS FAULT AGAIN????

Man, you really needed to settle this with him in the afterlife!

"Y/N can I come in?"

Wait.That voice. Did he really wanted to bother you at a time like this? Out of all the people at the agency he's supposed to understand your feelings better! So why is he interrupting you like this?!

Could it be... he didn't lie? No,no this is Dazai we're talking about he wouldn't be actually serious about his reason to slack off! And maybe you just invented his voice and he isn't actually here!

"Y/N open the door or I call all the agency here. You know they'd come. So just open it. I promise, I don't want to stop you or anything, I just need to talk with you."

Okay, so this wasn't a strange hallucination and he actually wanted to talk with you? Huh that's weird... pretty out of character if you ask me

"Just don't bother me" you said as you slowly opened the door only for it to reveal a totally calm Dazai, strange considering the situation but heh, it was Dazai we were talking about, would he seriously be agitated by something?

"Wow, you finally opened it! I almost thought you were just going to leave me on the doorway!" He said, with way too much energy in regards of the situation...

"So what did you want to say that was important enough to stop my attempt?" You said, rudely trying to get him to tell you and leave as soon as possible, freeing you from him and freeing you from... everything really.

"Hey!Were you actually planning to do it alone? Do you really despise me that much?" He said, slightly offensed by your detachment.

"Ugh, no I don't and you know that it's just that all of your attempts have you know... failed and I'm starting to believe you actually don't take it so seriously... so no, I don't think you're trustworthy enough so that I'll succeed" You replied, about to kick him out if he says anything to anger you again.

"What do you mean"I'm not serious" do you really think killing yourself is that easy?Come on there's already someone stopping you as early so you should've realised how hard it is!" Dazai said, in a joking tone but you were starting to sense real anger coming from him and god that was one of the scariest things you felt in your life!

"Yes I don't think you're serious, you're literally joking right now, and besides I don't know if you're aware of this but you are the one stopping me right now so, will you leave?" You said pointing towards the door,trying to be menacing (you were failing miserably, but how are you supposed to scare an ex port mafia executive?)

He looked like he was about to start talking,so he apparently wasn't going to give up on whatever he was planning for you; and so you just decided your feet were very interesting and focused reallyy hard on them.

But he didn't speak, instead he just patted you on the back...huh weird but...strangely relaxing.

"Y/N?" He whispered into your ear as quiet as humanly possible, even though his humanity was indeed questionned by a lot of people.

"Yes?" You whispered back, really softly.

"This might sound really weird but.. can you stay in this world for a bit? I'm scared that the afterlife gods hate me for teasing them about dying for so long... and I don't want them to separate us as a revenge." He lightly giggled at the last part but he seemed really serious, and almost... hurt?God seeing him weak like that was definetely not something you'll get used to. But it was sweet, very sweet; he seemed almost vulnerable? Were you just having a fever dream right now? This can't be real. Dazai. The-old-executive-of-the-port-mafia-Dazai. That Dazai. That Dazai was also the one being clingy and really close to you. Is that really happening?

But you really didn't know how to respond, your logic told you to say no, not to stray away from your goal...but logic was fighting with another thing in your brain. Your feelings. You tried to supress them for so long...but the big wall finally broke down, breaking you down with it. Yes you felt good things about this person. And yes you were starting to feel good things about yourself too. And you don't have to be ashamed of it anymore. Because this part isn't ugly. It's just who you are and you're tired of hiding it.

But yea, you did breakdown. Your knees fell to the ground taking you with them. And soon your tears fell too. Every single thing about you was crumbling down. Whether it was physically or mentally. But a certain someone won't let you be ashamed of that. In fact, he was already picking you up and bringing you towards the couch, which was making your heart literally burst out of your chest. But he won't let you be alone in this anymore. Not after he saw you vulnerable like this. So he grabbed a blanket, put you on the couch and cuddled next to you. And you stayed like this for who knows how long. But after seeing you vulnerable like that, he decided that maybe he could show himself a litle more vulnerable to you too. And hell did that feel great.

You both were starting to slowly fall asleep (even though neither of you would have admitted it) but just before that you heard a soft mumble coming from the man right next to you.

"Y/N"

"Yes?"

"I won't allow you to try and die alone"

You giggled for a while "Only if you promise me to do the same"

"Of course...but actually I won't let you be alone anyways... not until you're fully better"

And at that moment you both knew, that you didn't want to be fully better anymore. Because you wanted to stay like this forever.

[cosmic-glow]

Would it be alright for me to request loki x GN reader headcannons where reader is able to cast basic magic and asks Loki to teach them more?

Notes: This is my first time writing to Loki, and I thought the request was really cute so I hope this is good and you like it! Good reading!

Loki, your magic teacher

Genrer: Soft headcanons.

Warnings: None, is SFW.

Pronouns: None.

Character: Loki Laufeyson, from Marvel Universe.

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To be honest, what started Loki's interest in you was your ability to bewitch people and manipulate them.

He found it so attractive

This is your main magical ability, and the one you control best. But you also have talent for others.

However, you were having some difficulties, so you realized that who better to teach you magic if not your s/o, Loki? 

Doctor Strange and Wanda are not available so it will have to be him.

"You want ME to teach you magic? You have books that teach you that, why did you suddenly come to me for that?"- he asked suspiciously. 

You explained to him that the problem was in the practice, in the theory, which is what the books taught you, you understood, you just couldn't actually do it. 

Loki was torn between liking that you came to him for help and not knowing if he would be a good teacher, because everything was already so natural to him. 

"Look, darling, the fun of our relationship is that I'm more powerful than you, so if I teach you everything I know and yo-", "Loki..."-you interrupted him with an impatient expression-"I was only kidding, my love", he laughed. 

"Right, right..."- he thought for a moment, he wanted to start with something easy- "you can already manipulate objects, but can you teleport them?"- when you said no a smile formed on his face- "it's very simple, look"

And then he picked up a mug and threw it up, but before it fell, it disappeared and appeared back on the table. Now playfully he threw it, made disappear, and picked up again somewhere else before it fell.

"Are you going to teach me or show off, Loki?"

"You're very impatient today, dear"-he joked. "What I want you to do is mentalize the object and where you want it to appear, okay? Just imagine that it's already there and it will go there, here, try with this apple."  

You held it for a while and imagined it on the table, and then you released your magic. The response was a loud noise of something hitting the table behind Loki, which startled him a little. 

"Was the table your goal?"- he asked watching the apple roll over it. "Yes...."-"All right, you got it, let's just try it more subtly this time , okay?" 

Loki is patient with you. When he was learning he didn't have someone to help him, so he gave you the support he wished he had. 

If you were trying too hard but kept failing he would take a deep breath and tell you to take a break.

He doesn't want to lose his temper for considering something easy and say something stupid to you. 

Sometimes he leaves you practicing alone but keeps watching from afar.

He praises you by clapping his hands when you can do it correctly.

Because he has a lot of experience he gives you several valuable tips.

"I can't do it, Loki! No matter what I do, it's no use!"-you said in irritation at one particular spell. Seeing you holding back tears of frustration squeezed the man's heart. 

He wrapped you in his arms and placed a kiss on your forehead, then looking into your eyes he asked you to explain how you were doing and what the problem was. 

After that he would be able to find out what mistake you were making and help you with it.

Is so proud when you can perfect one of these skills and use it in everyday life.

But he still teases you by saying something like, "Wow! Where did you learn that? You must have had a good teacher”. 

More complicated spells deserve bigger celebrations when done right, so he usually hugs and kisses you at the moment and then presents you with something. (Even if you say it's not necessary).

Anyway, Loki is really committed to teaching you, because seeing that you have learned something thanks to him massages his ego. 

And also he knew that you would be happy if he agreed to help you, so there was no way he could say no to you. 

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[beeindaclouds]

heyy! i really enjoy your works and i just recently made a tumblr to follow you and others! if there isnt already could i be star anon? ALSO fun fact i am talking to a v sweet guy who is totally ok w me being trans and literal butterfiles. could we have how like dteam + punz + karl react to you being trans (afab to non binary w they/he pronouns?) (romantic)

Hallo thank you for requesting!

Welcome to my blog! And yes, I can totally add you, welcome to the family star anon <3

I'm so happy to hear that you've found someone and I hope he treats you right ^^

Hope you enjoy <3

Some of the DSMP reacting you being Trans

Includes: Dream, Georgenotfound, Sapnap, Karl Jacobs, Punz

Reader: from afab to non binary, they/he

Click here before requesting, please <3

You've never told anyone that you were trans

Of course people, especially those close to you, had their ideas but kept it to themselves to not sound mean or intrude

Which you much appreciated

But you wanted to at least tell your own boyfriend that you were, especially now that you've been dating for a while

So, you did. And the results were more than positive

❝ Dream ❞

Not only does he remind you everyday of how much he loves you beyond just your gender

He will go out of his way to buy you stuff that will make you comfortable in your own body

Need a hair cut? He's got it

You didn't want to wear a dress for a wedding and wanted a suit? He takes you to buy one

Dream will actually punch whoever dares say anything bad to you. Man does not hold back, he loves you very much

❝ Georgenotfound ❞

George's reaction was very underwhelming, but for the right reasons

He never fell in love with your body or your gender, he just loved you

So whether you were a girl or non binary never mattered to him

Did that fact almost brought you to tears? Yes. Did George immediately hug you thinking he said something wrong? Absolutely

But you made sure to tell him that you were ok, just taken back by his amazing words

❝ Sapnap ❞

Sapnap is always your number one supporter no matter what you do or say

So when you came out to him he was just simply happy that you had told him

If you ever needed advices or help or comfort he'd quickly be by your side

And if anybody dared insult you he'd curse them out. Literally. Toxic Sapnap is scary, ok?

You both probably share wardrobe because not only is it comfy but it smells like each other so

❝ Karl Jacobs ❞

He's just so proud of you for coming out to him and it's so happy to see that you have found yourself

He has reassured you many times that he'll continue to cling to you no matter what gender you are

Nothing much changes between you two, he loves you just as much as he did before you told him anything

And you are very grateful for that

❝ Punz ❞

Mans's like "Really? Cool" and moves on xD

It's not that he's not interested he just doesn't see it as something that would put you under a different light

He does start giving you more of his hoodies tho, which you simply adore

And if someone makes fun of you it's frikin over from them, doesn't matter the gender, they're death on sight

Punz will also go out of his way to correct any person that says your pronouns wrong, or name if you wanted to change it

[xnchxntmxnt]

hi spence congrats on 200 followers i’m so proud of you!!!

hi i’m ri or rianna whatever works lol

my pronouns are they/them and i’m agender so like, i barely experience any form of gender but i’m afab if that helps lol

i don’t have a preferred gender just whoever you feel like i vibe with

i’d describe myself as compassionate, excitable, and a nerd

i’m a psych major so super passionate about that, i love music (i sing and play piano!), and i’m very into video games

in a partner, i’d need someone who isn’t gonna treat me differently cause i have adhd. they’d have to be willing to listen to my hyper fixations all the time. also someone who doesn’t mind how cuddly i am lol

someone who doesn’t actually listen to me would be an absolute dealbreaker

i don’t have an aesthetic per say but i like sweaters and being incredibly casual i dress very gender neutral lol

listen i love like, lemonade pink that’s kinda my thing right now (hence my kinda pink peach hair)

my favorite songs are wayv’s nectar, shinee’s replay, exo’s what is love, stray kids’ maze of memories, and anything troye sivan or halsey to throw some english in there for you lol

favorite genre is kpop for sure lol but like, i also listen to a lot of halsey, troye sivan, p!atd, some older 5 seconds of summer

for fun facts i’m an aquarius and infj so do with that what you will lol

i’m also a lil adhd nightmare that’s a huge part of who i am as a person

okay sooooo i did some thinking...

im gonna match you with....

☁︎︎ Hinata Shoyo ☁︎︎

look at him he's so cute anyway

How You Met

Your brilliant mutual friend, Kozume Kenma

He asked if you minded if his friend played games with the two of you because he was over and wanted to play video games

Which of course you were like sure because even if it got awkward you had kenma to talk to

Safe to say you didn't have to worry about that

The moment you guys started talking you just clicked and it was awesome

Actually

The MOMENT you started talking, hinata gasped because OH MY GOD YOUR VOICE IS SO COOL

Cue kenma facepalming in embarrassment

Take that as you will, he thinks your voice is amazing (more on that later)

Anyway THEN you two clicked and tbh you talked more than kenma could imagine

The more you got excited, the more he did, and then the more you did and it was just an endless loop of being excited and happy and so cute omfg--

I ship it

So does kenma

After you got off the phone with kenma, you got a text from and unknown number that just said “HI HI HI HI HI OKAY SO HI ITS SHOYO! KENMA GAVE ME YOUR NUMBER I HOPE THATS OKAY”

How can you not love him

Anyway

You guys talk more and more and CONSTANTLY text each other

And this turns into meeting up even without kenma

And texting super late at night and midnight talks and sharing everything with each other

And eventually he started to like you and realized “oh thats not just me being weird those are--those are butterflies. Okay.”

I'm lazy i have no idea how you got together but it was probably perfectly awkward and wholesome and really cute

General Headcanons

You guys don't have to go out for dates because you cuddles and play video games w LEDs on and its a whole vibe experience

And he loves it tbh like

Hes fine if you wanna go out or something thats fine

But he just likes spending time with you

And you being you

And he loves it

Quality time & physical touch love language like

Any time he can get with you is the best

Love love love love LOVES to kiss you

Just because he can

And because its fun

And like!! Who doesn’t like kisses!!

He of course respects your boundaries so if you're not a touchy person and will only do what you are comfortable with (even though he might get a little carried away once in a while and then immediately apologize if he even thinks if he made you uncomfortable) (like too tight hugs or something)

But if you do like hugs & kisses & holding hands and all that? He’s all over you 24/7 good luck getting him away

He has to be touching you somehow like holding your hand, arm around your shoulders, waist, whatever

That whole “you get excited he gets excited” thing? Still going strong

Anything that makes you smile, he’s IMMEDIATELY enthusiastic about like you cant get him to stop

Sometimes he’ll get into it more than you are

Hyperfixation mode go brrrrr

All he needs from you is to get excited for him when hes happy about something

“RI RI RI RI RI BABY GUESS WHAT?? DID YOU SEE THAT AWESOME SPIKE?? IVE GOT THIS VIDEO OF OUR LAST PRACTICE THAT YACHI TOOK FOR ME WHERE I DID THIS REALLY COOL ATTACK WITH KAGEYAMA--”

Good luck getting him to stop talking

Not that you would of course

But i mean like he’ll go off on some completely other tangent when you're literally trying to ask if he wants a snack

So you get up and motion for him to follow and he does

So you just make him the food you were gonna offer and he eats

And stuffs his face and then keeps talking

God hes so cute

anyway

ADHD nightmare brain? No problem. Him too. You two can just infodump at each other nonstop and just vibe

That’s all i've got for this one tbh

I wanna give you one more idea SO

Kisses

Again

Yes i'm back at this idk what my problem is maybe im just touch starved idk

Yknow what i think is cute? Eyelid kisses

Faces are just so weird and cool and every face is just a little bit different

And eyes in general are just really cool

So like

Hes grouchy grumpy in high school because youre taller than him

So he wants to kiss your forehead or eyelids or something (because thats so gentle ugh) he has to go up on his toes

And then growth spurt hits

And hes the same height as you

And then hes taller

And now he’s all giddy because “look ri baby i can kiss you now” and then kisses ur forehead and makes the little mmmmmwah noise

Protect him

Forehead kisses are more for day to day stuff but like

Im going back to the eyelid kisses here

Theyre for more sweet moments

Like the two of you are just laying in comfortable quiet

And he’ll kiss each of your eyelids

Then your nose

And then finally lips

And he pulls away with this huge grin on his face

Because he's so lucky and so in love

Okay last idea i swear

He’d get really mad at people really quickly because based on what i know about you i’d guess that you two would look relatively “straight passing” just bc long hair & afab yk yk (people are dumb)

And he’d IMMEDIATELY jump on people about pronouns like

“Oh your girlfriend is so pretty!” “I know, they’re amazing and I’m really happy they love me as much as I love them.”

And just

Death glares

Bottom line protect this precious baby but he's also gonna protect you bc he loves you

A Date Idea

Okay okay i mentioned this before

You guys do a lot of stay at home dates

Just because you can and its fun

That doesnt mean its not super fun though

He’ll come over in the afternoon and just greets you with a hug

Every time

Every single time is a hug and pronaly a cheek kiss but hug

And you guys go to play video games or a couple hours

After that? He’ll get bored, toss the controller to the other side of the couch/bed/whatever and sit behind you and wrap his arms & legs around you like a little koala

And listen to you play

And after a while you lean back and you guys cuddle for a little while because hes so comfy and who doesnt like cuddles

Until you can HEAR this man’s stomach rumbling and youre like “do you want dinner” and hes like YES PLEASE

So you guys go make dinner together

Sometimes you order takeout but imagine how fun c o o k i n g with hianta would be

After dinner its movie/video game/board game time and you guys just vibe like that until you go to sleep because you guys do sleepovers and he still calls them sleepovers even as an adult and its cute

Yall ive given up on the zodiac research im sorry im too tired for this-- anyway edit timeeeee

Your Aesthetic

Playlist

Ugh i'm sorry I don’t know a lot of kpop and I don't just wanna give you the first song that I hear that I think is cool y'know? But I’m gonna listen to some of the things you recommended one day if i remember (lol remind me please)

Accidentally In Love - Counting Crows

Pretty Face - Public

cotton candy (Acoustic) - YUNGBLUD

Love It If We Made It - The 1975

Always - Panic! At The Disco

Runners up

Nishinoya Yuu, Bokuto Koutaro

[titsuya]

HEY SAR! Congratulations on hitting 1K! proud of you! I would love to participate in your event hehe. I would like a Haikyuu matchup

Here are my details for the matchup:

Hello! I go by the name Ray on social platforms. I'm plus sized and 18 years old. I'm pansexual and female. My pronouns are She/They. I'm a Capricorn sun,Cancer Moon and Rising. My personality type is INTP- A 5w4

okay so I'm actually a very emotionally closed off person. I wasn't like this before but since a few months I find it a bit hard to sympathise with people who listen to their heart instead of their head? I'm also not very social. I'm pretty impatient but not all the time. My love language is physical touch but I'm literally touch starved lol. I'm kinda clingy if I'm close to someone and very jealous and insecure too ig(thanks to trauma).I don't really care what other people think of me. I'm cool about most of the things. I barely react to stuff. I'm very very very sarcastic. I kinda like my sense of humour too. I've been told that I have a dark humour. I enjoy scrolling on my phone most of the damn time actually and writing too if I'm in the mood. But when I'm not on my phone I'm either drawing or working out or watching anime or literally daydreaming.I absolutely hate parties until and unless it only involves 3 people. I have many favourite colours actually lol but I think Red tops it all. My ideal date is definitely an amusement park or a festival(food preferably). I like keeping hamsters/rabbits as pets but I've Never been allowed to lmao.

So yeah that's it! Thank you!

hi baby 🥰 thank you so much that means a lot i hope u like ur matchup :) <3

I MATCH YOU WITH

USHIJIMA WAKATOSHI

you guys are actually so good for each other. you have enough in common to where you can get along, but you have a lot of things you could disagree on. there’s a perfect balance between you two. you’ve taught him so much throughout the course of your relationship and now you can both make your dark humor jokes with each other :)))) <3

YOUR TROPE: i’m thinking… strangers but more like acquaintances to lovers (a little bit of angst right just because you both are kind of emotionally closed off— ur trope is complicated im sorry)

you only ever knew of him, really. he was a regular at your coffee shop, and you knew his as mr. “large black coffee, no cream, no sugar” ushijima. he didn’t really talk much to you and you the same. one morning, though, you had fell sick so couldnt go in for your normal morning shift. you didn’t think anyone would miss you much since you’d probably only be gone 2-3 days max. but unbeknownst to you, ushijima wakatoshi very much did notice. he didn’t say anything the first day, but when he got no, “bye ushijima! have a nice day,” with a smile and a sweet coffee instead of his regular, he was unhappy. he asked for you the next day and the day after that, but the day after he sees you and is like, “ray, where have you been?” you’re obviously confused bc you didn’t even know he knew your name and why he was even asking for you… but you explain that you’ve been sick and he says, “well, i missed you and your coffee,” completely deadpanned and you’re kinda nervous now, “i-it’s just black coffee…?” and he’s like, “yeah, but no one can make it like you can,” and you guys kinda just bloom from there (u know after u open up to each other) :) (im so sorry this is so long)

YOUR SONG: I THINK — tyler, the creator

i chose this song for you to elaborate on the angst of your trope. vulnerability is so hard for both of you but you both have such strong feelings for each other. you both have some things that are holding you back like people taking advantage of you or just past trauma, etc. hence the “i think im falling in love, this time i think its forreal” you get together in the end and realize you’re both worth more than you think <3

moodboard !!!

DRABBLE (the drabble is short omg im so sorry)

he was grasping your hand so tight you felt as if it may fall off. there was so much fear in his eyes, but you couldn’t help but let out a loud laugh.

“toshi, relax!” you yell over the creaking gears of the roller coaster you were currently on. “it’s fine, just keep holding my hand!”

it was kind of a mistake for you to say that because now you can’t even feel your hand. the pros of having one of the most powerful pro volleyball players as your boyfriend.

“if i die, just know i love you,” he says, bluntly. “and this is your fau—“ he’s cut off by his own gasp, the cart going down the steep hill.

you scream all filled with joy and adrenaline and look at wakatoshi to see that he looks like he’s about to pass out, but then you see the corner of his lips tug up… like he’s actually enjoying it.

“i love you more!” you scream, hoping he can hear you with the strong winds. he does, looking at you with a big grin, squeezing your hand once more.

[lettersfromkokichiouma]

Hey. 🛐 anon here, I just had a whole breakdown in the school bathroom and my brain started telling me that I'm not good enough and also I'm on a different account, and so much is happening and my life is falling apart again, and ugh, also I've been 7 days free of s3lf h4rm so I guess that's good. But like, I've been yelled at for not focusing on math and junk, but like, im sorry, im not good enough, the teacher says that I am fully capable of doing these things but I'm not, obviously. This sucks, I'm sorry, I just had to rant to like, my favourite person in the world (you!) I honestly think that you're amazing, you listen to me more than my actual family and friends. I really appreciate you. You don't even know how much I appreciate your support. I'm sure that you support me more than my parents, My mother yelled at me for using they/them pronouns and I stayed up all night crying. My other hamster died. My dad barely cares about me. It's like, all the people who cared about me before, don't care about my existence now. I get PTSD from when my cousin said that I could trust her. And then she leaves me, with my suicidal problems, to deal with it myself, when my parents found out I was suicidal all they did was ground me, the blamed the internet.

-sincerely 🛐 anon :(

“heyyyy, you are good enough, you really are!

it doesn’t matter if you fail school or whatever, that doesn’t mean you’re not good enough!

school doesn’t decide your worth, especially math! i hate math.

i know people think differently and all that, but the way it sounds to me, your mental health should be paid attention to a lot more than school right now.

sure school is important and blah blah blah, but i want you to feel better! not worse!

and by the way, i’m really proud of you for being clean for 7 days! i know thats like super difficult and its really impressive that you made it that far!

and that’s no lie! im seriously impressed.

keep going, okay? try to fight that urge like how i fight all my enemies!

also, your pronouns are super valid and i’m sorry your mom is too dumb to understand that!

yknow i seriously cant stand people who dont understand pronouns and are so mean like that! you can go by any pronouns you want!

me and your mom would not get along well!

especially since you said your parents grounded you for being suicidal? jeez what kind of people are they???

you deserve love and support, not to be grounded!

and...im sorry about your hamster, im sure they loved you. someone in D.I.C.E. had a hamster that died too...it was pretty depressing....

but.. i’ll listen to you all you want. i care about your existence! and i care about you!

it sucks that your friends and family don’t act like they care, i’m sorry about that...

i feel alone too. it’s hard.

but it’ll get better, i promise. and i’ll always be here for you.

feel better, okay?”

-Kokichi Ouma

(the owner of this account is here for you too 💜💜i hope you feel better, i think you’re really cool and i don’t want you to be sad,, 💜💜💜)