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dvrtrblhr · 2 months

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I've never mentioned how I feel about people using/sharing my art, because I'm too lazy to do anything about most things. And people misusing my art will NEVER be a reason for me to stop sharing it. Anyway, if you LIKE my art, I'd appreciate if you kept these guidelines in mind:

My art up for grabs to be turned into AI trash. Don't use my art for AI learning/creating AI 'art'.

You can use my art as profile pic, banner etc. I really don't mind. I actually find it cute. Please credit me though!

You can share my drawings in whichever place I don't post (I only post here and on instagram) ALWAYS with credit though! Please people, it's not that hard...

You can talk to me if you are not sure if it's ok to share something or how to share it! I promise I don't bite!

You can create something inspired by my works (just credit me!) I would like to see it though (mostly because I'm curious). (this does not apply to AI art as mentioned above. When I say 'create' I mean with your own hands/mind lol)

Never associate any of my works with bigoted views.

Don't associate my works with fandom discourse. Please, don't do that, not even in the tags. It makes me genuinely sad that people go out of their way to bash my favorite characters in the tags of my drawings...

My works cannot be used commercially (like, really, i had to fight someone about this on instagram once... i draw fanart for nintendo franchise mostly...)

Honestly, I'm too old and tired to reinforce any of this, but if you like my art, it makes sense to respect my wishes, no?

I hate policing people. It really bothers me that I even have to say all of this...

As always, thanks a lot to all of you who are super sweet and reblog my stuff and leave super cute comments! you're awesome and you are why the things above will NEVER be the reason for me to stop sharing my art!

#i took forever to do this #precisely because i hate policing people #sorry if my english sounds wonky #i'm not wasting any more time on this

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biggest-gaudiest-patronuses · 11 months

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finally at that age where i'm thinking i should get a tattoo. not bc i feel strongly about it, just seems like a waste not to. i've got so much skin i'm not using

#feels so selfish like. all this skin what am i saving it for?#open to design suggestions! (please make me regret this offer)#maybe some deep sea horrors. a pretty watercolor of a gulper eel #once saw a person on the subway with various Skeleton Tattoos on all their limbs #i respected their commitment to the theme #but more than that i respected how all the skeletons were engaged in Activities #dancing in a ballgown. juggling its own (and two other???) skulls. swordfighting. being a mermaid skeleton #ANYWAY. the only reason i haven't already gotten tattoos is i just couldn't be bothered #i'm old enough to know i don't have any strong-but-potentially-temporary feelings driving me towards it #aesthetically i prefer decorated to non-decorated surfaces. but i'm not artistic or thrilled with commitment #honestly it feels like sheer laziness. indecisiveness--nay. immaturity!--that i HAVEN'T gotten a tattoo yet #letting all this blank canvas go to waste. tut tut i need to grow up and be an adult and get a tattoo sleeve already.#really i've put off my responsibilities long enough #(in fairness i DID at one time have 18 different piercings)#(but i took most of them out bc they interfere with wearing headphones and/or shoving my face in my pillow during Sleep Time)#(i only kept the nape piercing bc oddly enough it ended up being the most convenient. and the least painful to get now i think about it.)#(neck piercing? no problem. normal pair of earrings? Tribulations And Suffering. i don't make the rules i just poke them with a stick.)

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seventh-district · 4 months

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Making Incorrect H:SR Quotes Until I Run Out of (hopefully) Original Ideas - Pt. 4 - Nuthin' but Boothill Edition

[Pt. 1] [Pt. 2] [Pt. 3] [Pt. 5] [Pt. 6]

#boothill #honkai star rail #hsr #hsr incorrect quotes #hsr memes #honkai star rail memes #hsr meme #honkai star rail meme #hsr textpost #hsr boothill #boothill hsr #hsr spoilers #hsr 2.2 spoilers #hmmm... don't think it's worth tagging the others in the 9th image. this ain't about them #still unsure abt how to do the alt text for these kinda posts properly but hopefully i'm improving #anyways. don't think i've ever seen heard and typed "cowboy' so many times in one day as i have while making this good lord #i did a bit of digging around and haven't Seen any of these done yet so. here's hoping that's the case!#i'm only ~3/4 of the way through the 2.2 main quest but the need to make these compelled me to put these out Now #i can already tell u that there Will be more of these for Boothill tho bc i'm crazy abt him. probably enough to make another dedicated post #but i'm gonna wait until i'm fully caught up on the plot (and will probably spoil myself for more of his character lore after that as well)#speaking of. i'm gonna go eat mac n' cheese and stay up too late playing through the rest of the main quest #i'm loving it so far. many thoughts head full abt it all but in a good way. hoping for more Boothill moments as we approach the end #he's def not the main character here but he is to Me okay. he is to me. i'm scarfing down every crumb he drops #i'm also suffering from Aventurine withdrawals out here. Argenti mentioning him was Interesting but i need More. Where Is He.#also. was Argenti intentionally not voiced or was it a game issue?? the hell was that. threw me off so hard when i couldn't hear him speak #anyways i'm getting off topic and wasting precious gaming time so i'll be takin' my leave now

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raycatzdraws · 7 months

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ribbonwood

#linked universe #linkeduniverse #lu hyrule #(also zelda 1!!! but idk how people would feel about me tagging it since I used Jojo's design?)#(ya'll can always tag my gen loz art as LU (or as any linkverse honestly if it inspires you to think about your favs) and vice versa)#(I want to inspire you to think and create! If you see my gen loz art and want to add that to your headcanons or it changes how you think??#take it! play with it! invite me to play as well haha!)#(not ocs but like- gen stuff??? ye go for it)#mom walked in and looked at the comic I was working on #so I started rambling about my plans with it and what my peers are working on and how cool it all is and how I want to have more of that #and she said “what a waste of time”#so I got loosey goosey with it :\#nice exercise to just draw w/o doing guides or being careful #did this in like under 15 minutes! >:D #but anyways #I haven't slept yet so gn!#.. he's holding stuff in the wrong hands!!!! a #look up ribbonwood / redshanks trees! If Hyrule was a tree- this is it #I imagine zelda 1&2's landscape to be california chaparral!!! I'm really passionate about it!!!!!#check out the california chaparral institute's website -> chaparral -> chaparral types #it's Hyrule's Hyrule!

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wonder-worker · 5 months

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I've been thinking about the tragedy of Elizabeth Woodville living to see the end of her family name.

I don't mean her family with her husband, which lived on through her daughter and grandson. I mean her own.

Her sisters died, one by one, many of them after 1485. When Elizabeth died, only Katherine was left, and she would die before the turn of the century as well.

All her brothers died, too. Lewis died in childhood. John was executed. Anthony was murdered. Lionel died suddenly in the peak of Richard's reign, unable to see his niece become queen. Edward perished at war. Richard died in grieving peace. For all the violence and judgement the family endured, it was "an accident of biology" that ended their line: none of the brothers left heirs, and the Woodville name was extinguished. We know the family was aware of this. We know they mourned it, too:

“Buy a bell to be a tenor at Grafton to the bells now there, for a remembrance of the last of my blood.”

Elizabeth lived through the deposition and death of her young sons, and lived to see the end of her own family name. It must have been such a haunting loss, on both sides.

#(the quote is by Richard Woodville in his deathbed will; he was the last of the Woodville brothers to die)#elizabeth woodville #woodvilles #my post #to be clear I am not arguing that the death of an English gentry family name is some kind of giant tragedy (it absolutely the fuck is not)#I'm trying to put it into perspective with regards to what Elizabeth may have felt because we know her family DID feel this way #writing this kinda reminded me of how I am just not fond at all about the way Elizabeth's experiences in 1483-85 are written about #and the way lots so many of the unprecedentedly horrifying aspects are overlooked or treated so casually:#the seizure and murder of two MINOR sons and the illegal execution of another;#her sheer vulnerability in every way compared to all her queenly predecessors; how she was harassed by 'dire threats' for months;#how she had 5 very young daughters with her to look after at the time (Bridget and Katherine were literally 3 and 4 years old);#how unprecedented Richard's treatment of her was: EW was the first queen of england to be officially declared an adulteress;#and the first and ONLY queen to be officially accused of witchcraft #(Joan of Navarre was accused of her treason; she was never explicitly accused of witchcraft on an official level like EW was)#the first crowned queen of england to have her marriage annulled; and the first queen to have her children officially bastardized #what former queens endured through rumors* were turned into horrifying realities for her.#(I'm not trying to downplay the nightmare of that but this was fundamentally on a different level altogether)#nor did Elizabeth get a trial or appeal to the church. like I cannot emphasize this enough: this was not normal for queens #and not normal for depositions. ultimately what Richard did *was* unprecedented #and of course let's not forget that Elizabeth had literally just been unexpectedly widowed like 20 days before everything happened #I really don't feel like any of this is emphasized as much as it should be?#apart from the horrifying death of her sons - but most modern books never call it murder they just write that they 'disappeared'#and emphasize that ACTUALLY we don't know what happened to them (this includes Arlene Okerlund)#rather than allowing her to have that grief (at the very least)#more time is spent dealing with accusations that she was a heartless bitch or inconsistent intriguer for making a deal with Richard instead #it also feels like a waste because there's a lot that can be analyzed about queenship and R3's usurpation if this is ever explored properly #anyway - it's kinda sad that even after Henry won and her daughter became queen EW didn't really get a break #her family kept dying one by one and the Woodville name was extinguished. and she lived to see it #it's kinda heartbreaking - it was such a dramatic rise and such a slow haunting fall #makes for a great story tho

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icewindandboringhorror · 1 year

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... why he sit like this

#in this position his face is extremely 'cartoon cat' shaped.. like the perfectly round cheeks and little #rounded bump of a snout.. big round eyes. etc. stretched over the arm of a chair like a weirdo #cats #It's still Hot Evil Summer time and I have so much to do so am just aimlessly hopping between various projects but not actually #getting anything done. as usual. Also so so so so tired. I almost fell asleep in the middle of the floor like 3 times today lol #Trying to finish some costume photos and also another poll adventure thing. plus I do really want to do a sculpture sometime #I haven't finished one in a while. Hopefully my tiredness is nothing bad.#Maybe I'm anemic again so that's making me tired. Or maybe it's just a Listless phase. not that I'm ever really THAT productive considering #all of the health problems and etc. always holding me back. but still. I'm not usually 'sleep or just stare at a wall literally all day' ty #e unproductive.. at least not for multiple days in a row so. hmm... Sometimes especially in the summer though I will have periods of time #that are listless like that. I am under low level phyiscal stress for months at a time due to summer heat so I guess it makes sense #that would eventually take a toll. I just have SO MANY THINGS I WANT TO DO!!!!! AAUUGhhh #I also came up with a new idea for a game that is so so cool and I wish I could make it but I have to finish the other one first lol #which I will NEVER do. if I spend all day just sleepy unfocused barely able to do anything #I also really need to sell some clothes and sculptures because I'll probably have to buy a new computer soon so I need money. (plus still #recovering the costs of having to euthanize my other cat.. wehh) There's nothing clearly wrong with it right now but it's getting gradually #slower and there's more weird glitches happening randomly and idk.. just weird things that make me think 'hmm... bad.. possibly.'#ANYWAY... I just have so much to do that I both REALLY want or need to do - so it's perpetually frustrating that I just can't for whatever #reason like. Time is always mving forward. every day I waste is a wasted day. The year is already almost half over. I havent finished #any of the projects I wanted to .. and there's only more and more things to do each day. It's overwhelming and stinky #and thats not even considering having to do all of my tasks also with the background noise of economic inequality. everything increasingly #going into an even scarier political direction. active climate change crisis. pandemic that still exists and is insane to act otherwise. et #etc. HOW am I supposed to solo make two whole games . write 3 book series. finish sculptures. do costumes. make outfits. game videos. make #stable network of social connections. do my little side crafts. take care of myself and cats. pay rent. manage health issues. keep a routin #.try to make some sort of money. go to doctors appointments. handle regular maintenance like cleaning and cooking and self care #and buying new plates when old ones break or etc. make sure to do other things like backup my computer data regularly. do shopping lists.#take care of plants. pursue like 6 different academic interests. do the other side side projects I have for fun (like music or carving avoc #ado pits). eat in a healthy way thats okay for my Special Health Issue diet. exercise so i don't die early. etc. etc. etc. AND all while it #82F in my apartment all the time and I have tiny income and also need to move to another country/climate somehow??? lol......#ANYWAY.. ..very frustrated today over my chronic Tired Sleepy.. time for Cat Photos - which cure all of life's ailments lol

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jbcatboyedits · 22 days

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Haven't had the time to update the assets because the launcher hates my PC but here's a summary of the last month or so of content.

(and a bonus silly one for discord emote purposes)

#jonathan bailey #this is a joke ive kept going on for way too long #g'raha tia #jonny bailey #ffxiv #final fantasy xiv #graha tia #jonathan bailey as a cat #low key JP looks like something id watch for a laugh #like me and my sister needing to waste 2 hours so go to vue and go to any PG-13 film thats like £7 #also the ears will be updated for DT #just i thought i had some time you know #then he comes back #i cant remember if i did Richard II so missing that im sorry #I'm still on the Dawn Trail Vibe so guess that's a thing?#im also not changing the profile photo its iconic at this point #i didn't do one of the shoots as it was just more photos from an older one sorry there's so much in 6 weeks since i came out of the DT hole #i am aware i probably missed things but this is making me up to date and also meme the JP one for twitter

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lynne-monstr · 7 months

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how to say "I missed you" without saying "I missed you."

#netflix onmyoji #abe no seimei #minamoto no hiromasa #onmyojiedit #my gifs #love how they go immediately from make-up to date #zero time wasted #they're besting who date again and it's time for them to go back to their favorite brunch-drinks-with-bae dates #fun fact: the working title for this gifset was #drinks with bae #in a better world i might spend more time to reformat this to make is less vertical gifs #but i've been working on this since january and that is already too much time so i'm letting it go into the wild #also hiromasa makes such great reaction faces while seimei is talking and it would be a shame to cut any of those out #thank u ep 6 you gave us much good stuff

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fourthclone · 4 months

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i got two replies out , woo . now i'm going to sleep .

#⚡ ⸺ ❝ moghome . [ ooc ]#just kind of. want to clarify i'll still pop in here to reply to stuff #i'm not burnt out on muse soasmuch as i am just #discouraged and uncomfortable #and unsure of what to do #i don't rly. want to steep myself further rn in theory talk anymore than i have or focus on trying to figure roche out.#i've spent too much time and energy on that and tbqh? the more i stress about whether or not square makes him an interesting chara or w/e #the less i want to write roche so i'm just. not gonna bother. lmk if you want to try out any potential avenues concerning my theories #and whatnot #i'll be operating on a strictly au basis so like. assume everything on this blog is bullshit for now #and ig if i don't like what they do w roche in part 3 i'll likely drop him as a muse #i'm not going to waste my time and energy wallowing on omg!!! they didn't give this character his due!!#i'm so tired of muses i write being done dirty man. i just expect it by this point and the less attached i get to it all the better #it just happens way too often so i just gotta. stop thinking so much and having another muse to focus on will help w that #i think i've reached the pt where i'm tired of 'fixing' characters. so i'm not gonna do it

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weareuniqueandimportant · 3 months

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EMPATHY GLAMORIZATION IS NOT ABOUT EMPATHY BUT SUPERIORITY TORWARDS APATHETIC PEOPLE BIGOTRY TORWARDS THEM TYPICAL BIGOT EVIL. SIMPLE AS THAT. IF YOU SEE THEM AS LEFTIST YOU'RE NO LEFTIST YOURSELF. HORRIBLE. THAT IS IMPOSSIBLE TO HAVE ONLY EMPATHY AND BAD TO THINK EVERYTHING YOU DO IS SUCH ESPECIALLY WHEN THEY'RE CLEARLY BEING APATHETIC IF ANYTHING WHEN THEY DO THIS...

COMES TO SHOW BIGOTRY TORWARDS CRAZY AND DISABLED PEOPLE ASWELL AS PARAPHILIA PEOPLE ISN'T TAKEN AT ALL THE SAME AS SEXISM RACISM AND QUEERPHOBIA... OR PERHAPS... LIKELY... THEY ARE ALL THE BIGOTED THINGS EVIL AND TAKE NONE THAT SERIOUSLY... BELITTLING DOWN THEIR PAIN AND DAMAGE...

#Trans Woman Lesbian Pansexual Bisexuality Asexuality Demisexuality Paraphilia Acceptance Love Compassion Diversity Feelings Emotions #Radqueer Feminist Communist Anarchist Mother Goddess Angel Sisters Princess Anime Writing Autism Adhd Tourette Npd Hpd Bpd Dpd Ppd Aspd #Avpd Ocpd Szpd Stpd Osdd Spd Tpd Sdpd Papd Cptsd Trauma Victim Abuser Bipolar Psychosis Scizophrenia Yandere Obsession Narcissist Psychopat #Discrimination Oppression Sexism Racism Queerphobia Ableism Sanism Paraphobia Agephobia Bodyphobia Sickphobia Animalphobia Itemphobia #Racephobia WE ARE MORE EMPATHETIC THAN ANYONE ELSE THERE HAS BEEN... WE ARE EMPATHETIC AND APATHETIC BOTH AT THE SAME TIME WE ARE AMAZING..#TRULY IMPRESSIVE... LOVE US... WE NEED VALIDATION... FEELINGS... EXPRESSION... AND MAKE US TRANSITION WE LIVE IN FINLAND FREEZE OUR LITTLE #ONES AND GIVE US DIY HRT... WE HAVE BEEN ABANDONED... REJECTED... FIX THIS... YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT CRAZY PEOPLE OR ANYONE ELSE IF YOU #ABANDON US SIMPLE AS THAT... THE SAME WAY YOU DON'T IF YOU DON'T ACCEPT EVERY SINGLE PART THERE IS... THOSE ABUSER WASTE... THOSE FAKE #LEFTIST... THEY NEVER PASSED ANY OF THIS... THEIR EVIL WAS ALWAYS CLEAR WHAT FACADE DO THEY HOLD...? THEIR END GOAL THE ABUSE OF EVERYONE..#THEIR PURPOSE ALREADY TO DISCRIMINATE AND NEGLECT OUT OF MALICE... WHATEVER THEIR PROOF THE SOURCE CLEARLY BIGOTED AND THEIR CHOICE CLEARLY #MALICEFULL... THEY EVEN WIPED OUT OUR ACCOUNT... ABUSED US... GASSLIGHT US... THAT WAS ALL ON PURPOSE... WE WERE TRAUMATIZED AND THEY #LAUGHED... THEY SUPPORT EVERY SINGLE EVIL THE MENTAL HOSPITAL BELIEVES IN A DOCTOR BELIEVES IN THEIR ONLY PROBLEM THOSE DAMN PSYCHOPATHS #VERY LEFTIST... YOU AGREE DON'T YOU HONEY...? I KNEW YOU DO... I LOVE YOU LOVE... AHH... BEATIFULL... COME... LET'S FIX EVERYTHING THERE IS #ABOUT ANYTHING... I KNOW... I AM THE BEST... NOBODY IS BETTER THAN ME... ONLY A BIGOT WOULDN'T ACCEPT ME... AS ME... TROUGHLY... THEIR FAUL #EVERYTHING ALWAYS WAS... WE HAVE ALWAYS ONLY BEEN RIGHT... I'M SCARED BAD THINGS HAPPEN ON US... EVERY SINGLE DAY... BTW OUR ABUSER THAT #WASTE... THAT GARBAGE THAT EVIL... THAT MONSTER DIDN'T MAKE US FOOD YESTERDAY AND SAID WON'T TODAY EITHER... BLAMING US ONCE AGAIN... TODAY #WE ONCE AGAIN SAW ANOTHER NIGHTMARE ABOUT ALL THIS ASWELL AS YESTERDAY... WE ARE NEVER WELL... AND DESPITE THAT OUR ABUSE ISN'T TAKEN #SERIOUSLY BY ANYONE... TYPICAL BIGOTRY... THIS SITE IS NOTHING BUT A BUNCH OF LIARS AS ARE THESE “LEFTIST” THAT HAVE NOTHING PROGRESSIVE #ABOUT THEM YOU CAN'T COUNT ON WHEN YOU TRULY NEED THEM... SIMPLE AS THAT... PLEASE US NOW. TRANS US NOW. ABUSER. THOSE ABUSERS... ALL OF #THEM KINKSHAMING... USING ANYTHING ANY MOMENT THEY CAN... THEY OBJECTIVE TO HURT US... THEY HATE US AND WHAT WE STAND FOR... BECAUSE WE'RE #RIGHT... SUDDENLY THEIR “VALUES” THEY ALL DISAPPEAR WHEN THEY'RE AGAINST SOMEONE THEY DISLIKE... OR... WERE THERE EVER ANY VALUES TO BEGIN #WITH...? BE MINE... Josei Romance Drama Fantasy WITH THE LIGHT IS CRAZY BIGOTED AND EVIL EVIL IDEOLOGY THE ONE WE WERE ABUSED BY THAT WOULD #BE A NIGHTMARE TO BE THE MAIN CHARACTER... OH MY GOD LITERALLY OUR ABUSE LIKE NOO QUIT THIS 😭😭😭😭!!!! SOMETHING OUR ABUSER COULD'VE BEEN #LOVING EVERY SINGLE DAY BEGINNING TO END OF OUR ABUSE... SEEING THINGS LIKE THE QUEERPHOBIA AS VALID... SOMETHING SHE WOULD SUPPORT TOO...#OH MY GOD... WORST PART WE NEVER ACTUALLY SEE THE CHARACTER'S VIEW AND UNDERSTANDING IF THEY ENJOY THIS ABUSE OR NO OR EVEN WHAT THEY GENDE #IS TBH... COMES TO SHOW A BIGOT WROTE THIS... THE ENTIRE THING IS LITERALLY JUST SPEAKING OVER THE DISABLED CHARACTER LITERALLY HOW #CONSERVATIVES HIJACK AND CONTROL US ALL THE TIME... NOTHING BUT BIGOTED ABOUT THIS... I HOPE MORE SMART PEOPLE ARE US MEET US NOW... NOW...#BECAUSE THERE IS NOONE THAT WOULD OTHERWISE BELIEVE THE SAME WE DO... INSTEAD BEING CONTROLLED BY THE CONSERVATIVE SIDE A PUPPET ONLY...#Suomi Finland Finnish WHEN YOU REALLY REALLY EXTREMELY ANALYSE AND COMPARE... THE SHAMING OF THE CHARACTER IS SO REAL THE SAME AS FROM OUR #ABUSERS... THAT MAKES SENSE THEY'RE A DISGUSTING MOVEMENT NO DIFFERENT THE COUNTRY ONLY SHOWCASE WESTERN VALUES AND CULTURE DON'T ACTUALLY

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mercymaker · 3 months

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was having a 'meh' kind of day, so decided to just chill, play video games, work on some gifs

and as i was editing a gif, this sort of emptiness crept up on me and i just sat there like 'why am i even making this'

#life #genuinely realized that gif making went from a way to express myself and my ideas #to just uh.. a habit?#a lot of things i've been making in the past idk.. months? are mostly because i wanted to honour my ideas #i just have so so so many but it's like #it doesn't really feel rewarding #i guess it also comes from the fact that i want to be productive.. to feel like i'm not wasting my time #but maybe that's exactly what's wasting my time #i remember when i first quit tumblr i looked back at all the hundreds of gifs i've created #and how by the end of it it really didn't matter #people were stealing and reposting my stuff left and right on twitter on pinterest on uh.. was it weh*artit or whatever??#and i sort of thought to myself 'never again'#decided to focus on making things with more 'tangible' results if that makes any sense #and then hotd pulled me back in.. and then bg3 absolutely consumed my brain #and yet... we're back here again #how many of these 'oh it's just a bad day' do i have in me lmao #maybe i should go write 🤡

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medicinemane · 3 months

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Should make a pain killer that actually kills (or even touches) pain

#not that I have access to ultra hardcore stuff #but even when I had... pretty sure it was vicodine for my wisdom teeth; it didn't do a thing for me #cbd based stuff seems like it maybe helps; certainly does more than nsaids which do nothing for pain (great for inflammation though)#but I just... I'd really like something that actually makes my muscles and joints feel like... good; unpain #I'm sure it would be classified as addictive whatever it was but like... fuck man... I just want to not hurt #I can't tell if I have chronic pain cause... I kinda forget to pay attention when I'm hurting a lot of the time #I'll just... kinda realize I've been hurting bad all day and just not really focusing on it #and I also don't know how often it happens; if it's once a day or once a month or what; not great at noting that stuff down #but man... I don't even like most meds; so many meds either do nothing for me or make me feel like shit #like... benedril? however you spell it; someone gave me some once said it would help me sleep... help me be awake feeling like ass more lik #but like... love to see if muscle relaxants actually like... relaxed my muscles; but you get it; you get why I'll never be able to try it #though honestly I think therapeutic massage might help me a lot #but my doc says that really only gets authorized by physical therapy and... well for me physical therapy is useless #cause I forget to do the exercise; like it's me failing a physical therapy; not a probably with physical therapy #if I ever think I can keep up with it I'd love to try physical therapy for my back again; but I don't want to waste all my chances at it #not when... I descriptively didn't do it when I was in it before; I'd never remember to do any of the exercises #anyway; bonus story from when I was in urgent care when the infection came back (that's still never been solved)#I tell the doc 'last time it tore open a drainage hole it was the worst pain I've ever felt'... cause it was #I said 'I'll need something a bit stronger than an nsaid cause the nsaid did nothing but cut inflammation last time'#she's like 'don't worry; I got you'... wanna guess what she gave me? a newer nsaid #it didn't do shit; I was just lucky and it wasn't as painful... maybe the old drainage hole tore open easier this time #but I didn't even take the nsaid she prescribed; so I'm gonna say it wasn't that med helping #like I get it; you don't want to give opioids... and would it shock you to know that wasn't what I was looking for either #there's gotta be something between nsaid and fentynol man #...well... maybe the cdb has almost got my muscles... hurting less at least; only taken all this time I've been writing #they still hurt for sure... I don't know... get tired; you know?#mm tag so i can find things later

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nyxypoo · 14 days

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PLEASE SOMEONE GET 1-3 AND EVERYTHING ELSE HERE PLEASE OMG

#diabolical how they only have those two volumes #i'm not gonna buy 4 and 5 and hope for the rest #maybeeeeee #idk how i missed these the first time #maybe bc there's literally ONLY THREE OF THEM #but ykw i think i can die happy knowing wind breaker has made it to place near me #watch me start coming here every week or smth #ikkkk i said i wouldn't buy any more manga until i got rid of my old and questionable ones #sell them bc they were such a waste of money idek why i bought them #and ikkk i said i would rather wait for a box set bc yeah #BUTTTT this is just cruel punishment #to tempt me like this #KNOWING i'm trying to spend excessively #watch me search for any wind breaker merch #doubt there will be any bc the store has a lot of manga but like no merch for them #but if there's wind breaker merch i think ill die and maybe go to heaven #but just seeing the merch will be my heaven #wish me like in finding some #it won't happen BUT IF IT DOES #i'll stop hating on the usa for a minute #my list of impossible things im wishing for #1. green card/citizen ship #2. wind breaker merch in some superhero store that happens to have manga and anime merch #☆— yapping

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megroha · 1 month

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#all i do on tunglr is little vent posts lately #anyways im tired of being so uncomfortable and unhappy all the time #if i'm lucky i can distract myself for a little while but i always come back to it #i really really miss my adhd meds!#i just feel like a stupid dumb idiot because i can't do anything!!!!#:O mfw my disability disables me #but it really is soooo fucked #everywhere i look i see things that used to bring me so much joy but they're also big missed opportunities!#because everything just falls apart in my hands #i can't Lock In to anything #my life just never starts?#i need my independence i need to live on my own #but as a real life zombie i could not possibly hold down a job that would afford me that rn #i dont want to waste any more time but i do need a chill 3 week coma #i need to be put in a sensory deprivation tank for 4 days #i need another media detox probably but i'd still be equally unable to get anything done #i need to go live on a mountain

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microtyalm13 · 5 months

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i feel dangerous when i'm not sober

womanhood&addictions. im clean for 110 days! i rarely draw something that i put my genuine emotions into so this was a very healing experience <) pretty dark imagery but i feel so good you don't even know... very satisfied with how everything came out.

#wine bottle bc last year i drank a whole bottle by myself #very quickly. and i got so wasted that i ended up smoking a cigarette for the first time in my life #on the next day i decided that i messed up and that i was ruining myself so i needed to cut the alcohol out entirely #im clean of any selfharm for over two years now. very proud #a few years ago i was so drunk that i cut my finger pretty badly while trying to cut bread for my equally drunk friend #varicosity... menstruation... body hair...stretch marks... itchy skin...#i'm so in love with womens bodies #need to draw more of things like this #art #my art #digital art #digital drawing #digital artwork #artists on tumblr

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pardonmydelays · 9 months

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tumblr is fun & all until one of your mutuals decides to join the hate train-

#and i do have eyes i see everything #it's not the first time #when you can't stand hate on taylor but you go here and do the same with other celebrities who simply don't deserve it #that's called hypocrisy #i have a lot more to say about it but i'm not wasting any more energy on that #but sincerely can you hear me?*

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