#i'm not very talkative in person & a lot of my friends are ramblers

[plusultraetc]

I didn’t send an ask but I’ll send one now! Which character from My Hero do you think you’d get along with the most? :)

oh thank you <3 <3

I thought about this for a good minute before I realized, duh, Kurogiri my best friend Kurogiri!! (I almost made that his tag on this blog lol) I don't drink for dietary reasons but I'll just sit at the bar eating peanuts and having a little chat. Ideal evening plans tbh.

[cinnabutcringy]

vertin and her relationships with others

hoo boy this one is gonna be a long one; i've barely really interacted with the fandom so admittedly if people have been talking about this, i might not really know! feel free to engage with this conversation however you'd like. this will also not be very structured, i am a pure yapper, a pure rambler at heart.

[ spoilers for the main story but specifically the first 4 chapters, i know i'll probably mention at least ONE major spoiler; also just as a cursory warning i will be talking about vertin-related ships in this one if that for some reason puts you off ]

so this has been in my mind for quite a while; again, as i don't engage a lot in fandom content (i am extremely nervous about joining discords despite wanting to and general fandom experiences make me wary but anyway) i'm sure there are people who have talked about this or think about it and i'm just not around to see it

before i TRULY begin, i just want to state: THIS IS NOT SUPPOSED TO BE HATE TOWARDS VERTIN SHIPS, PARTICULARLY THE WLW ONES.

i understand how important this game's sapphics are to people and i'm not trying to say you cannot ship sonetto with vertin or schneider with vertin, but i think that fandom culture as a whole is incredibly ship-reliant/ship-focused and in my opinion that tends to take away from the nuance of certain media/characters, and i just want to see if other people also share my thoughts but haven't voiced them or whatever.

anyway, to start this post out: i do not think vertin is capable of forming truly deep bonds and relationships with people. romantic or otherwise. at least, not right now.

while vertin isn't entirely separated from her friends and allies, i think it's pretty evident that on some level, she puts up walls between herself and other people. vertin as a character is extremely composed, reliable and overall a trustworthy leader. and she's not entirely aloof, she has her quirks and interactions to show for it

but the fact remains that i think vertin, ever since witnessing the "storm" at such a young age, has put up walls between her and others just enough to where she can assume her responsibilities without letting her relationships stop her outright.

what i mean is basically, vertin allows herself to get close to people to an extent, but there's always a bit of distance between her and especially the people she's known for years. she never read as someone who gets particularly chummy with other people and i assume it's both because she feels obligated to carry out her duty, and because ever since the first "storm" she witnessed, she's felt it incapable to get too close to people because she felt it was her fault.

the close bonds she had with those at a young age made it all the more painful when she witnesses what the "storm" is truly capable of. i think it's reasonable to say that because of this, she's hesitant to truly let herself express this closeness to other people.

this post was originally going to be focused on vertin and schneider's dynamic, because to me it's the one that is both the least developed and just makes the least sense, but honestly? ironically that'd also be focusing too much on the ship in my opinion. plus, it's not just schneider, it's sonetto. it's mesmer. it's matilda. it's practically everyone she's met in her life.

schneider is just the easiest example to me because (and, this could just be because of the pacing of the early chapters, who knows) vertin never truly had an opportunity to get to know her. vertin knows her backstory, vertin knows her personality, and vertin ultimately knows that schneider will not be forgotten. but that doesn't mean vertin is in love with schneider.

on the contrary, i think she has empathy and care for her, but i think schneider is more infatuated with vertin and the genuine kindness she was shown. vertin on the other hand treated schneider like she treats everyone else: with kindness, compassion, and understanding.

the kiss scene i think kind of gave people a preconceived notion about vertin or at least, people used her reaction as fuel without considering anything else. (personally if schneider kissed ME like that i think i'd be just as shocked but COUGHS thats just me)

another example with a character basically outright stated to be in love with vertin is sonetto; i think that vertin has or at least had feelings for sonetto too, but she drowns them out because of the reasons stated before. with sonetto i actually think there's even more layers to how she feels seeing as she knew sonetto since they were kids, and sonetto got to see vertin change in real time in response to the experience she had. though analyzing specific ship dynamics in this post too much will take away from the vertin analysis so i'll probably leave that for another discussion.

i think vertin's sense of responsibility and duty ultimately mixes a lot with her trauma and makes it harder for her to prioritize herself and whatever feelings she may have for people; she can't risk getting too close, because if she does, she may lose the ability to do her job and i think being the timekeeper is something that matters deeply to her.

in conclusion, i think vertin is a very complex character. i mean, duh. this post wouldn't exist if i didn't think that. she's been deeply wounded and is trying to avoid that wound being constantly reopened because of her own habits (getting close to her allies, letting her guard down too much) and i think as a result she ends up putting up walls when she feels she's probably getting too close to someone.

obviously this is the sort of post i'd want discussion to form around, so if anyone thinks i'm wrong or there's some sort of objective evidence anyone wants to share i'm happy to engage. clasps hands Let's Discuss.

[itsaspectrumcomic]

On anon bc identifiable info - advice/thoughts? - This is really long, I'm sorry D: I'm a rambler and all the info is important (to me)

I've always had problems with stuff (according to my mom, "things have always been harder for [me] than everyone else") like I'm always the last one out the door, I lose things a lot (like hats and pencils and water bottles) because I set them down and don't realize, I have a lot of trouble doing textbook homework/notes bc I have trouble focusing

And I have a lot of trouble with social stuff, I never have a lot of friends, I can't keep friends for more than like four years, I feel really disconnected with people and people generally initially like me but like me significantly less after interacting with me a bit

I read a lot, and when I was a kid I would lose all sense of reality outside the book until someone touched me or I finished the book, but I've had a harder and harder time reading anything but fanfic as I've gotten older, and I have a lot of trouble reading very technical/instructions/nonfiction stuff

I have pretty bad insomnia, and spent ~2 years when I was 10-13 ish sleeping ~3-4 hrs/night weekdays and ~12 hrs/night weekends, I have a really hard time getting to sleep specifically - and (tmi maybe tw eating) I've had chronic minor eating issues and constipation (chronic minor dehydration, losing ~ 10 lbs over summers from not eating, etc. like I'm not dying or anything but this will probably eventually cause wear damage)

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But I'm also a very good student, very smart, generally very good at what I choose to do, I just became a National Merit semifinalist, like, I'm doing "fine". I'm not dying, I'm not failing classes or anything, I've struggled since second semester year before last with getting things done, but I have like a 3.7 gpa rn (I could have a 4 if I tried harder (while I am capable of trying harder, it would destroy me))

I was in Gifted + Talented in elementary school, I'm an honors/ap student (my G+T teacher told my mom that the "gifted" basically means "neurodivergent")

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I didn't get help for anything until last year, when I kinda fell off (as much as you can fall off while getting a 3.7 gpa ig) and got assessed for insomnia, which I got help with pretty easily (apart for waiting times) which was amazing. Almost went too well iykwim

And I was looking into why I was having such a hard time with everything (social, focus, sleep, schoolwork,etc) and I resonated a lot with autism and some of the feeling very disconnected from society/ other people but I was like eeeh, I'm a teen and idk I'm not, like, having it that bad, so I was looking into more quantitative solid stuff and I took the AQ + CAT-Q + stuff which still have very subjective questions but I tried to be honest and I got 32 (AQ) and 139 (CAT-Q) and 157 (RAADS-R) but like idk I could be biased or misunderstanding or idk

I mentioned feeling like I had more, underlying issues to the doctor I'm seeing for the insomnia and she was basically like "I work with autistic kids - you're not autistic" which like on one hand, you're the expert and I've only really interacted with the internet so idk but on the other, you've spent all of two hours with me, mostly asking me direct questions about my sleep or talking to my mother, like, ofc you haven't seen anything of me. Did I make too much fake eye contact with you?? (BTW if you dislike eye contact for any reason, which I always have, look at noses (my mother taught me this one) or hair (my personal fav) bc it looks like you're looking at the face, but you aren't!!)

this is getting very long winded, I'm sorry if you choose to read all this but thank you it means a lot to me to get someone who knows something's thoughts on this

So I was like "I am having other problems" and she was like "I suspect you may have inattentive type adhd" and I was initially like what?? but I'm not hyperactive. Can't have adhd. What. But I've been kinda thinking about it and lurking at the edge of adhd communities and googling stuff (google is not helpful) and maybe? idk

SO to get to my point/question

I'm very smart. (not tryna be conceited it's just I am) I'm not currently *dying* struggling, though I am having trouble staying on top of classwork

I'm a girl

I live in the USA

I'm pretty good at acting normal, I have a couple friends (one has diagnosed adhd, one has diagnosed autism, one I'm not sure, one I think? could be neurotypical? but she's also like really not idk) (I (only?) have four friends (which is a lot, for me))

I don't know if I'm "adhd enough" (or "autistic enough" if I was right initially) ((or both idk)) to get a diagnosis. I have hypermobility that causes issues with my joints and has led to me not exercising enough and having to quit violin but I'm not hypermobile "enough" to get a diagnosis or help for it (which sucks because it's literally affecting my quality of life, like, I could be an amazing musician if I didn't have this. D: )

If I try, will I get a diagnosis, or will I be "adhd, but not enough"? Should I continue to spend (my parent's insurance) money on this if it probably won't go anywhere? I'm currently 17, starting my senior year of high school. Will things get disrupted in transition to college? If I go abroad for college?

Also, will I crash and burn in college without my mother's considerable support? (tw eating again) I have always had a really hard time getting and preparing and eating food, and without her/structure idk how much I will eat. I loose weight over the summer bc we don't eat as a family much. when I'm on my own, will I struggle even more? Especially trying to juggle food and school and living independently? What about after college? My uncle was fine until he graduated college and now he's alone and a misogynist and mormon and lives with my grandma and seems kinda really miserable except way more hate-filled - am I doomed to the same path?

anyways this is really dark I'm sorry

specific questions for you are:

should I pursue ADHD diagnosis? Autism?

is there anything specific I should mention/not mention/think about?

is there anything you think I (+ people in similar situations) should research, any specific sites/books/communities you think would be valuable?

would therapy help with anything? social, focus, etc. (I have not had a chance, and I have been noncommittal at mentions bc. i strongly dislike people, and talking to people, and emotions ): )

are things in general going to get better, or worse? please be honest, not reassuring

If you decide to answer this, partially or completely, thank you, it means a lot to me to get someone else's thoughts on this, if not, I completely understand, either way, I hope you have a good day :)

Hello! A lot of what you wrote feels very familiar to my own experience - I was also considered a good student but found things increasingly difficult to cope with, struggled socially, lost and forgot stuff, couldn't focus etc. You're definitely not alone in feeling this way!

You are not doomed and you are not your uncle. Things can always get better, even when you're at your lowest. You never know what will happen next - you could make a friend, you could discover a new passion, you could be offered a cool opportunity, you could get the chance to pet a really friendly dog. Life isn't a straight line - you might be struggling for a bit, and then some nice stuff will happen, and then you might go through a rough patch again, but then things will improve again and you might feel better than you did before.

For eating when you go to college - identify the foods you generally find easy to make and eat and make sure you have a supply avaliable for when you're struggling. For me, that's pasta (you can get dry pasta which lasts ages in the cupboard, but you could also try fresh ravioli which has stuff inside like spinach or tomato or cheese so it's a bit more varied), crackers, bananas, and breakfast bars. That way if you can't make a proper meal, you at least eat something. Also try to carry a water bottle with you everywhere (if you struggle to drink water you could try flavoured water or juice.) If you forget about needing to eat you could set alarms to remind yourself.

Side note: did you know that hypermobility and autism very often occur together?

Onto your questions:

should I pursue ADHD diagnosis? Autism?

It's definitely worth looking into - I can't guarantee you'll get a diagnosis because it really depends on the person/people assessing you and some are more biased than others (if you're able to choose, look for people who say they specialise in diagnosing women and girls or have positive reviews from people in that demographic). Personally I found it helped a lot with getting accommodations, people understanding me, and understanding myself (even before the diagnosis was official). I will say it's usually quite a long process so be prepared for that.

Btw, you can definitely have ADHD without being hyperactive - that's the inattentive type which is more about trouble focusing.

is there anything specific I should mention/not mention/think about?

Honestly a lot of what you've written will probably come up in an assessment! I had to fill out a form with info about my experiences as a child and the traits I have now, as did my mum. If you're high masking (basically when you try to act 'normal' and hide your neurodivergent traits) do your best not to mask so the assessor gets to see you as you really are.

is there anything you think I (+ people in similar situations) should research, any specific sites/books/communities you think would be valuable?

Untypical by Pete Wharmby is an excellent book if you want to learn more about autistic experiences. The author is autistic himself and has an engaging writing style.

How to ADHD is a YouTube channel that focuses on coping techiques for ADHD and is informative as well.

I've found the autism communities on Reddit to be welcoming and supportive - you might like r/AutismInWomen which is inclusive and accepting of self diagnosis and those who are questioning.

You could also follow some of these people on instagram:

morgaanfoley - posts about her experiences as an autistic person

_ellawillis - posts about autism and ADHD and their daily life

candy.courn - posts about autism and disability as well as how that intersects with their experience as an asian person. Also has the most beautifully pink house

colourblind_zebra - makes cute and colourful art about chronic illness and neurodiversity

elliemidds - posts about autism and adhd and runs a community called We are Unmasked (weareumasked on insta)

itsemilykaty - posts about autism, mental health, and her book Girl Unmasked (which I haven't read yet but is supposed to be very good!)

Side note: I also have an instagram if you'd like to follow :) I'm itsaspectrumcomic there as well!

would therapy help with anything? social, focus, etc. (I have not had a chance, and I have been noncommittal at mentions bc. i strongly dislike people, and talking to people, and emotions ): )

Therapy can help a lot - with the right therapist! Look for people who specialise in neurodivergence, particularly in girls. The best ones are on the spectrum themselves :) It's OK if you don't click with the first one you try. You can 'shop around' until you find someone you're comfortable with (which I know can be exhausting but it's worth it when you find the right one).

are things in general going to get better, or worse? please be honest, not reassuring

Like I said before, things will get better, and then you might struggle for a while, and then things get better again. It comes in waves, at least for me. I know when you're having a hard time it can feel like it's going to last forever, but I promise it won't. There are always bright spots.

[copperbadge]

I've had Fete For A King on my TBR for a while, and have finally gotten around to starting it. The reason I put it off for so long is because - well, I think you've said you have aphantasia? Is that correct? My problem is the opposite of that. I hyper visualize, or whatever. And while I very much understand your admiration of Guy Fieri, I wasn't sure I wanted to read a romance novel with him in my head the whole time. Try as I might, I can't always control my brain's fan-casting. I once couldn't stop picturing a character who was supposed to be a 20-something Irish rogue hacker type as the dad from The Nanny (90s sitcom) and gave up reading entirely. However, the moment you (well, Gregory) described Eddie's physique as "built like a Viking" my trouble-making brain screamed "THOR!" So now Eddie is being played by a slightly less magazine-bodied Chris Hemsworth. Occasionally, the Aus accent creeps in. I can't fix it. It could be worse.

All this aside, I am very much enjoying myself and looking forward to reading the rest of the series. I have also recommended it to a bestie, who also has aphantasia - I figured if it wasn't boring for someone who's aphantastic to write, it's probably great for a fellow aphantasic to read. Thank you SO MUCH for sharing.

I'm s so glad you've been enjoying it! Even with poor Eddie "Thor" Rambler-Hemsworth. :D

Eddie is probably actually the most visually ambiguous of the characters, I think I do better describing everyone else. Part of that is intentional, even down to the "viking" thing because that evokes a specific mental association but that varies by person. Without getting into the weeds about it, while in my mind Eddie is a regular-bodied guy built on large lines, lbr: Guy Fieri is kinda fat, and gets a lot of shit for it. For years before the current renaissance he's having in the public eye, I would ask "Okay, what's he actually done that makes him so awful?" and it always boiled down in the end to two things: being dangerously enthusiastic and being unforgivably fat. I understand entirely people who find him difficult to watch because he does have a very specific style of talking/hosting/behaving that can be offputting, but a lot of people just offhandedly dismiss him because he's a happy fat dude.

So I wanted to deliberately leave space in the stories for people to read Eddie as fat and successful, desirable, and attractive, if that's where their heart lies. (Also, because it is a bit ambiguous, at some point I'd like to do a story with a protagonist who is fat in the same way Caleb is trans: the condition of the protagonist's body is part of who they are but not the point of the narrative.) But also like, some people won't think that, or would struggle with that, so I left Eddie kind of ambiguously "large".

ANYWAY, glad you could find a facecast for him :D And I hope your aphantasic friend also enjoys it!

[vibingandsimping]

Hey hey, I hope ur having an amazing week!! I would like to get a baldurs gate 3 matchup. I am a bisexual with a preference for men. I'm an average guy, pale as a ghost, cause of me staying mostly inside. I present myself as friendly, quiet, preserved, just a guy who gets along w everyone. But sometimes ppl are weirded out or intimidated by me (being goth in a small Slavic town isn't best). I'm really awkward and anxious w many/new ppl. With friends I'm open, dramatic, a bit of a rambler and love to prank/scare them. I hate physical touches very much, I don't even let my friends hold hands or hug me, the most they are getting is a hand on shoulder or a handshake. But to ppl who are really close to me, I love cuddling and just sitting near them. I am really patient and understanding. I hate talking about feelings and am just horrible at comforting ppl, that's why I don't usually argue and just agree with a person and avoid expressing feelings (can't even say simple 'I love you' without big struggle). I have a self isolation problem too, when I get emotional. I love music and art in general, I play guitar and also am an artist, and once in a while I try myself in poetry, I consider myself a bit of philosophy nerd. Also love going to the park/forest for alone quiet time, I love hanging out there, or even exploring some abandoned buildings. I love to listen to people ramble on their interests, also I like to give presents to the person I like. I'm super obvious on any romantic hints, and get really blushful and nervous once I finally get them. Damn, I hope it ain't too long, anyway thanks, I love ur work and I think ur really talented!! Have a nice day/night!!

Thank you for the sweet compliments. <33

I feel Astarion would be fond of you.

Astarion has gone through too much trauma to have to adjust heavily. He can adapt, of course, but to find someone who shares similarities with him would be great. You two have a lot in common. Easy enough to bond over but it could cause some simple arguments or disagreements. I can really see you two chatting over wine and discussing topics of life. Also, maybe gossiping over something.

The tree bark under the back of your knees was a dull burn each time you shifted. It was something you grew accustomed to during your adventures. Next to you sat Astarion as he poured you two a glass of wine. His fingers cold as they brushed yours handing you the glass. He sighed and tilted his head back; enjoying the forest air. You smiled softly and took a sip as the crisp environment settled into you. The camp was stuffy and being surrounded by so many grew tiring. So, you both trailed off for some much needed alone time. “As much as I enjoy the company we’ve kept…” Astarion began, your eyes darting to him. “I really don’t think I can handle hearing everyone squabble over simple issues.” He sighed in exasperation. You laughed a little and rolled your shoulders back to allow yourself to relax. “Imagine having to lead that group.” You chirped and Astarion rumbled in amusement. There was a silent understanding of comfort between you two. Whatever romance blooming was new and unexplored territory. So, you really relished moments like this even if little words were spoken. Inching closer minute by minute. You felt the sharp cold of his hand against yours, instinctively wanting to flinch away. Inhaling shakily, you allowed him to sit close enough to rest hands together. Sipping the wine and making casual conversation. Despite the advancement, you felt no pressure to do so. You both knew you could back out if it became too much. It was nice.

[voxasks]

🫐 (idk if you're still doing this but here we go)

Hello! I am an INFP-T. I have ADHD, Anxiety, and Autism. I am also Aromantic and Asexual. I have a joke with my friends that I am collecting A's. I don't have any crazy traumatic things in my life. It's mainly just people being manipulative and controlling assholes. I have a very bad grudge problem.

I won't share too much for my own privacy, but I will say that I am too protective for my own good. A lot of people tell me I'm the nicest person they have ever met, but I strongly disagree. I think I'm pretty grumpy and easily frustrated. I just get upset really easily.

I have a lot of empathy for people around me. I have often been told that I care too much. I have more empathy towards strangers than myself. I am an artist who focuses on animal illustrations. I can not draw humans to save my life. It is too hard for me.

I am a rambler. I will talk for hours about my special interests, but I also feel bad when I do it. My current special interest is actually you, lmao.

I hope this isn't too terribly long. I just found this ask a lot of fun. I hope it's easy isn't too hard to understand. I'm not the best at explaining things.

-🖌

( ahh, so sorry anon, but the 200 event has long passed 😭 i am trying to prepare for a 400 follower event though! so sorry again! )

[heliads]

Hi, congrats on 7k!! May I have a 💌: love letter with Leo Valdez? I go by she/her.  I get pretty anxious when thrown in certain situations rather that be talking to a group of people or just one person. But when I get to know someone I never stop talking. I am a ranter and rambler which means I could be ranting about something that happened and then start talking about something else that may or may not be related to the original subject. Though I do enjoy listening to other people talk. I am considered the mom friend because I tend to be the most logical. I'm also a very determined, stubborn person who usually is kinda pessimistic but still has a huge imagination. And despite all the anxiety I am usually a relatively confident person and am not afraid to take up for anyone I care about. Also I am pretty good in school despite having a kinda bad memory. Also an INTJ and Sagittarius. 

I absolutely love writing, art, music, reading, and watching various shows/movies. I also really like walking around and enjoying nature. There's a few nature trails I love going on and would go to the zoo every weekend if I had the chance. Which also goes along to my love for animals. Also I do like going to random places with my friends. 

And that's about all I can think of to say, hope it wasn't too much lol. But anyways, thanks in advance :)

i am also a walking believer. i love going places

Leo always gets nervous at the campfires. He can’t help it. It’s a reflex from the machine shop fire, he supposes, flames get a little too tall when no one seems to be paying attention and he can’t help but freak out. Leo is supposed to be sitting with the rest of the Hephaestus cabin now, but he’s clinging to the outskirts of the whole gathering, knees hugged close to his chest as he tries and fails to convince himself that he is in control.

Someone’s shadow darkens the grass in front of him, and seconds later there’s another camper sitting by his side. Leo recognizes her in a second:  Y/N L/N, one of Leo’s better friends at camp. She knows enough to identify his physical signs of distress, and offers a solution accordingly.

“Distraction?” She asks.

“Please,” Leo replies. Anything to get him out of his own head.

And she talks to him. She talks to him about everything. Pop culture news she should have no way of knowing since they’re not supposed to have Internet access at camp. The training drills they did this morning. Even the campfire songs, rating them on a scale of ‘gods-awful’ to ‘put this on Spotify ASAP.’ How much she wants to explore the woods surrounding camp even though they’re totally filled with monsters.

As she continues, Leo lets the sound of her voice fill his eyes, blocking out all the stress, all the fear. He feels his fingers unclench from each other, his shoulders lose their stiffness. She carries him away on a billowing wave of her words, and Leo is alright. Of course he is.

He blinks and she’s gone silent, staring out at the fire instead of him. When she notices him looking, she grins, a slight tint of self-deprecation shading her eyes from their previous shine. 

“Sorry,” Y/N murmurs, “I have a habit of rambling. Tell me to stop next time, alright?”

“No,” Leo says a little too quickly, “No, please don’t. Keep going, actually. If you want, that is. I– I liked hearing you talk. A lot.”

Y/N flashes him this smile, and Leo thinks his heart might overload. “Well,” she grins, “if you say so.”

She remembers something that had happened yesterday, a funny story involving a satyr, four new demigods, and way too much celestial bronze. Leo tilts his head back and lets himself take it all in. The stars, the fire, her. Everything is perfect.

thank you for taking part in my 7k celebration!

[hellishjoel]

fic author self rec

When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love ❤

tagged by the beautiful and talented @undercoverpena (personal kylee note: I'm very thankful to have found a place on the fanfic writing side of tumblr, amongst very kind and talented writers. I only started writing on here in july, and though I've had some ups and downs, it's a hobby that brings a lot of happiness to me at the end of the day. thank you for reading my works and I love you guys :))

✨ talk me down

JOEL MILLER

AH! talk me down was my first fic on here and it totally blew up, I couldn't believe it! I'm really proud of it since it was my first attempt to write smut in FOREVER and I was expecting it to get absolutely no response, but imagine my shock when I watched so many lovely people respond to it by screaming in the tags!

✨what happens after

JOEL MILLER

I feel like what happens after really gave me the chance to reflect on my progress as a writer. I'm really proud of the layout of the story, jumping between present and the previous night with fluidity. no smut, but lots of feels! I'm always afraid to write something with no smut because of the lack of interest for readers who are just looking for porn without plot (which is totally fine!) but I remind myself that this is just a hobby to entertain myself and I don't really care about the reception of it, just the craftsmanship!

✨table for two - slow shift

FRANKIE MORALES

my tft friends I see you! this was my first time writing anyone besides joel miller, and WOW how much fun have I had writing this series! making the environment of a shitty diner and sleazy player frankie morales was a blast! can't wait for many more chapters!

✨psycho - say my name

JOEL MILLER

psycho is a really precious character to me, she feels like my hot unhinged alter ego. her chapters have always been based off requests, so it's been a great way to incorporate my little community! the brat x brat tamer dynamic is a blast to write and I wanted to take this chapter to show the depth of joel and psycho's relationship, that they have their ups and downs but they're also very ride or die.

✨cinnamon girl - off to the races

JOEL MILLER

how could I leave out dbf? cinnamon girl! my first ever series! sometimes it's hard to write because I feel like there's a lot of expectations with it, and I honestly have no idea where it's going to go, but that's sort of the fun is navigating their relationship, the secrecy, the limited time of summer, etc. but dbf was hot for summer, let me tell you that!

no pressure tags, sorry if you've already been tagged, I'm super late to this trend lol @perotovar @bageldaddy @joelsversion @ramblers-lets-get-ramblin @agentmarcuspike

[leorawright]

I'm back at it again for the matchups :]]]

Romantic and platonic || Cuphead || matchup

Looks: short(5'2" help me)+mid-size, hazel eyes, curly red mullet.

ESFP-T personality type. I'm transmasc, gay, and aro/ace spec. I am one HELL of a fantasy nerd, Dungeons and Dragons being my biggest creative outlet for drawing, writing, acting, etc. (I also have ADHD, so my memory is horrible, and I struggle to navigate social situations, despite loving talking to people lol)

I am a rambler(usually about dnd or music I'm singing in chorus), one of my biggest love languages is quality time(giving and receiving), and I love bouncing ideas off of my friends to help fill in plot holes, or just to share in general. I also get a LOT of serotonin from seeing others happy, especially when they're talking about something THEY love. It's a very nice feeling. I'm also pretty big on gift giving and acts of service(giving) and physical touch(receiving(not entirely used to it though)).

I wear a lot of brown and green(mostly brown), and tend to play more chill and relaxing video games; my reaction time is horrible so anything with combat just stresses me out! I'm also a hUUUGe fan of naps, and watching comfort movies/series while drawing or relaxing.

TL;DR- transmasc, gay, fantasy and music nerd with ADHD who likes rambling, being rambled to, Owlbears, being silly and making stupid jokes, and is pretty good at analysing people(including myself).

Hope that's not too long lol, thank you and have a wonderful day/night!

Cuphead and romantic and platonic!?

For romantic...

King Dice!

I headcannon that he's a fantasy nerd deep down

So when you ask him to look over a new dnd plot he nearly combusts from happiness

His love language is also acts of service but he'll gladly throw some cuddles into his daily routine

Your color scheme and his purple jacket actually clash quite well

When he's with you he tends to relax a lot more so that includes being a lot looser and sillier

Comfort movies are a must for him he needs to feel that happy with you settled right next to him it's heaven on Earth

For platonic I'd say...

Grim Matchstick

Of course he doesn't mind if you ramble to him about Dnd!

He loves listening to all the plot ideas you come up with and will carefully offer constructive criticism

He's not used to having a friend so it's easy to make him happy which in turn makes you happy!

Any rant you want to go on, any movie you want to watch, any new plot idea you want to share, your best friend Grim will happily listen

[yellow-faerie]

Okay in reference to your tags on the Bode post you reblogged from me: I kinda had a theory you were the anon! And I'm honestly very glad to find someone who feels the same way about him because I haven't seen many other people (other than my sister) who do!

If you don't mind me asking, I have two questions for you: what did you think of the rest of Survivor, and what sort of Star Wars fan fic do you write? I saw you mentioned it in your bio!

Lol I do think I went through a few of your posts before sending that ask - but yes, I do agree! Bode is a lot more complicated than I think a lot of people give him credit for; he's a father and a man haunted by a lot of loss which doesn't excuse his actions, but does explain them and make me feel a good deal of empathy to him. I think there's actually a line when they're in the ISB base where Cal calls him a traitor and Bode is like...no, I'm a father

Which is really not an excuse for killing people Bode (but is a very good explanation for how he got where he is)

You said it a lot more eloquently lol

(interestingly, Bode is a sort of parallel to Anakin in some ways - killing and betraying people they see as family/very close friends for the people they love, even though it changes them into something unrecognisable that the person they love can't quite reconcile with)

I do not mind questions at all!

For fanfic, because that's the shorter answer, I write pretty much anything - legends, Kotor, swtor (to some extent, I haven't played through enough of it yet to do proper fic), og, rebels, tcw, extended universe stuff (and even a bit of the sequels although that has to be veru handpicked lol)

I have interacted with so much of the SW universe to some extent and it's such a good sandbox that I will dabble in writing anything lol

(currently I'm doing a lot of Kotor stuff as I finished survivor and decided to fill the hole with yet another playthrough of my favourite unfinished trilogy <3)

As for Jedi Survivor, Imma put my thoughts under the cut because I have...a lot of them lol (there will be spoilers)

I love the graphics, so SO much

Each planet felt different and unique and reminded me how much I loved to play JFO

Also the worlds felt a lot bigger? I think it's because I didn't really do much side stuff, just kinda beelined the plot so a lot of the side quest stuff was just kinda there as fun background NPC chatter lkl

MERRICAL! MERRICAL! MERRICAL!

It's being survivors of two separate genocides by the same tyrannical government and even when you search elsewhere, you still belong at each others side

And it's the Merrin talking Cal down when he's about to kill Denvik and it's Merrin giving Cal space to work out if he wants a relationship or if that wouldn't work but letting him know her own intentions

That moment on Jedha where she calms him down from a nightmare but then takes her own comfort just by being near?

And it's Merrin in general lol my darlingest fave <3

Also! After that kiss on Jedha after everyone has gone back in, my brother said (as a joke) "and now they have sex!" And then it immediately cuts to morning

Iconic moment

Also on Jedha - spamels! Someone out there went desert creature - so, a camel - a camel in space - so a space camel - a spamel

Which just makes me think of the tinned meat which is a...really weird thing to be thinking about

Greez opened a canteena! Monk, I love him - also Mosey

In fact, all of Ramblers Reach, I really like that they gave you a main base that's so...connected to people in this game??

Also that garden, I could spend all day in that garden

And the High Republic stuff! I still think it's weird that everyone is treating it as if it's ancient history when it's two hundred years ago BUT I really love the aesthetic and the story

I tried getting into the high republic books a while back but only managed one before I had to return them to the library, but this game has made me really excited for the high republic game and has inspired me to try and read the books again

Shout-out to Dagan Gera for being sufficiently unhinged for me to like him, and Rayvis for giving off massive Kotor!Mandalorian vibes

And Bode was a very interesting twist villain as looking back in the game, you can see it almost

(also my older brother called him being a traitor twelve minutes after meeting him which was either incredibly perceptive or he saw it online and is thing to make me think he's incredibly perceptive - either way, he got ridiculously pleased when he was proved right which did not fit with the mood of Cordova's murder lol)

And Kata! It's definitely going to be some time before she fully trusts Cal etc. etc. HOWEVER, we now have a daughter and that is wonderful (I'm living for the found family)

And CERE!

I WAS EMOTIONALLY DEVASTATED IT'S LITERALLY THE SECOND TIME CAL HAS HAD TO CRADLE THE BODY OF HIS DEAD MASTER YOU DON'T UNDERSTAND HOW MUCH THIS HURTS ME

And it was the way Greez was so uncharacteristically ANGRY after Cere's death - and just- dhhfjebidnde

On a less devastating note - Cal, my dude, should have had to have had time to recover from both the slash wound from Dagan and the blaster shot from Bode which were both to the upper torso

Like...they caused enough damage in the fight to be a weakness but you can just walk it off apparently??

I don't think so

(I am going to write fic about this, probably)

Zee - I was so suspicious of Zee to begin with because she was so cheery but her voice kinda sounded like Nikola from the Magnus Archives and like-

Yeah I was fully expecting betrayal from Zee right up until we got back to Rambler's reach and I realised...she's just cheery, that's just her personality

I talked to her the bare minimum lol, I couldn't get creepy talking doll out of my head

That beginning sequence on Coruscant though?? That moment with the Jedi Temple where Cal realises what's happened and you can see the horror and bone deep resignation within him (and that's probably the first time that he properly starts wondering if he can do anything about the empire, after all there's that whole plot where people are like...settle down a bit)

I honestly wasn't that attached to the rest of Cal's crew who died - apart from Mags, literally JUSTICE FOR MAGS 2023, SHE DESERVED BETTER

There were so many little bits that made me genuinely laugh and feel things throughout the game and it felt a lot like Star Wars which is a big thing in its own right

Also Cordova being there threw me off but it was a nice surprise, if a bit weird lol as I was fairly convinced he was dead/in the unknown regions - but hell, I kinda understand it (even if us finding him in the last game might have made his appearance a bit more understandable)

I do have some things I'm not so happy with (some story choices in particular, and the way they presented Cal's slow descent to the dark side being the main ones) but I'm overall really happy with the game

It was the sequel that jfo deserved and it was it's own game in it's own right and I really enjoyed playing it - now I've finished the story, I'll probably stop doing such intense playing, but I do genuinely want to 100% complete it which says a lot, because I don't usually have the patience to do that

There's so much I could probably say that I can't think of now (and I don't think I've said anything about BD-1 which is a travesty of the highest proportions because my boy <3 I missed you <3 I'm so glad you're here and thriving <3) and I'm not really getting into the things I disliked because it would bring the post down (and also I need to be a bit more eloquent and a bit more awake for that one lol)

Anyway, thank you very much for the ask :D it made my evening, ngl, I love talking about star wars

[vhagarlovebot]

REPUTATION. tell me a little bit about yourself and i will ship you with one of the characters i write for.

Hi! Congrats on 3k! May I have a one of these? I go by she/her.  I get pretty anxious when thrown in certain situations rather that be talking to a group of people or just one person. But when I get to know someone I never stop talking. I am a ranter and rambler which means I could be ranting about something that happened and then start talking about something else that may or may not be related to the original subject. Though I do enjoy listening to other people talk. I am considered the mom friend because I tend to be the most logical. I'm also a very determined, stubborn person who usually is kinda pessimistic but still has a huge imagination. And despite all the anxiety I am usually a relatively confident person and am not afraid to take up for anyone I care about. Also I am pretty good in school despite having a kinda bad memory. Also an INTJ and Sagittarius. 

I absolutely love writing, art, music, reading, and watching various shows/movies. I also really like walking around and enjoying nature. There's a few nature trails I love going on and would go to the zoo every weekend if I had the chance. Which also goes along to my love for animals. Also I do like going to random places with my friends. 

And that's about all I can think of to say. Anyways, thanks in advance :)

i ship you with peter parker because i really think you could match his energy. and he’s just a baby, i’m totally sure he would just listen attentively to everything you have to say. i also think you’d have a lot in common and your dates would involve going to art museums or just staying at home watching movies.

[mystifiedmess]

ok ok ok ash, i hope you’re ready for my HCs—i can’t seem them being as good as u bc u set a high and but i’m gonna give it an honest effort.

1. ambivert leaning towards introvert? u prefer having a smaller group of friends that u can let loose w & u social battery takes time to recharge.

2. not a big fan of alcohol? like—u try it, gives u the ick & the you’ll nurse the same drink for a long time.

3. u were the smart kid in school—slightly overachieving, liked sitting in the front, had the answers type

4. you’re good at like. crafts and stuff? all that DIY stuff—bracelets, jewellery, photo frames idk

5. not a big sports person but swimming is good stuff

6. u have a high pain tolerance (this has to be true bc what u told me about ur tattoo—)

7. ur parents r pretty chill w you and u get a lot of only child benefits but ur also not like. a spoiled brat?

8. a rambler!!! can talk for days about anything & everything, interspersed w so many tangential stories & events

dude you said you don't see them being as high as mine and then having the first one dead on correct is most i didn't study for test but topped class behaviour jsjdh

1- my irl friends have this ratio that is just my speaking and interacting with people is inversely proportional to the no of people. it doesn't matter if these are people i have known all my life. like at max i can stay at my bffs house for 5 hours then i Just start getting the hives and it's too much

2-ohkay so i haven't gotten hammered yet (haven't had the chance, but so far my experience was that i liked it enough, i am cautious with it tho but that's more getting caught by family ke karan wala scene)

3-i wish lmao why do people have this perception (you're definitely not the first) but i was an above average kid till like 10th. i had something of a harry scene like where he's smart but he doesn't have studious habits so it didn't really translate to grades you know. the sitting in first bench thing is slightly true (i want to sit infront at time cause i can't see past my hands without glasses,my eyesight is just the most whack thing)

4- oh yeah this is dead on like i didn't do jwellery but i did make a lot of other creative stuff as a kid loved arts and crafts. I'm that stationary friend even now my pouch is 1/2 kgs 🥲

5-ooh so i love running (like track/relay races and stuff) i love cycling just the feel of being so fast that the wind just kisses your face and you get the temporary relief from heat or the world even becomes blur i love that feeling

also love swimming as well tho but besides that don't like any games that involve balls so you're right in a way

6- yeah you're right about it, even rn i ahve a injury which i thought i was adequately describing to mom but turns out just sayin I'm okay and it's not that bad when it is bad doesn't work who knew 🙃

7- bhai so you're dead on for half that I'm not a spoiled brat (also does anyone else physically get the ick when they have to compliment themselves in any form and even if it's a very true statement)

but while i am an only child. my parents are bihari which idk if you've heard about them but they have a reputation ™

they are the strictest species to be on this planet and that's why i am Machiavellian and just like a liar ™

8- did you by chance speak with my friends cause!!!!!! i get this so so so much i can't be on a topic for more than 5 mins. i could start with history of earth and will somehow reach to the depths of feminism and it's reality in india to some meta discussion about a character

I'm that one friend that's just like- so what topic were we in again

the other friend : which one of these 18 topics are you talking about

over-all dude you've got a pretty good idea about me 🫂

[lovings4turn]

Congrats on 100 followers bee!! I loooved your previous account and I'm glad to see your new blog grow <3

𝐁𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐄 𝐎𝐅 𝐅𝐑𝐀𝐍𝐊𝐄𝐍𝐒𝐓𝐄𝐈𝐍 — send me a fandom and tell me a little about yourself, and i'll tell you who i think is your perfect match!

For stranger things if that's alright?

I'm an infp, my enneagram is 4w3 and I'm a taurus sun, gemini moon and scorpio rising.

I love reading, my favorite genres are poetry, Russian lit, and mysteries! I adore adventures, witty and playful banter, joking around and having indepth discussions on anything and everything! I adore all forms of art and I have quite a few creative hobbies! I listen to a lot of modern/indie rock and I love watching films very much! It takes me a while to feel comfortable around new people but once I do, I become really talkative and outgoing. I love helping out and I'm the therapist friend, people come to me to vent or for advice and comfort. I'm smart and ambitious; I love being the best at everything I do. I'm quite the hopeless romantic and I love being in love! My love languages are acts of service and quality time.

thank you so so much darling - that's so sweet oh my god, i really appreciate it n im glad to have you here nonnie🖤 i'd love to do that for you, and thanks for sending something in!! so sorry it took so long!

i'd have to ship you with . . . 𝐫𝐨𝐛𝐢𝐧 𝐛𝐮𝐜𝐤𝐥𝐞𝐲

+ you and robin would be the most adorable couple; i'm convinced you're actually made for each other. your personalities bounce off of each other's perfectly, and you're always on the exact same wavelength.

+ like you, robin can also be very talkative and outgoing - we all know she's a bit of a rambler, so she's glad that you can match her energy and are more than willing to listen to her go on her little tirades. the two of you have mastered the art of a witty back and forth - it's almost like you two have your own language, the way you can effortlessly bounce off one another and recite inside jokes like its nothing.

+ thanks to robin knowing little russian, she loves to hear all about russian lit and your favourite authors and books — she sits with her chin in the palm of her hand positively beaming at you as she takes in all of the information you tell her, even if she’s never heard of the book in question before

+ so, you’re a hopeless romantic? well you’re in luck, because so is robin! she’s absolutely smitten with you, and it shows. you're her first relationship, so robin takes every chance she can to shower you in affection and plan the cheesiest dates imaginable. late night picnic topped off with stargazing? done. kissing in homemade pillow-forts? now a weekly occurrence. making you mixtapes? she's a pro at it. robin is head over heels for you and won't ever let you forget it.

+ good thing you love watching films — your girlfriend working at the video store means you have endless of options for saturday night 'movie nights'. you two have gone through almost every genre in the book, one night going for a full sci-fi evening, another being exclusively the cheesiest rom coms imaginable. its become robin's highlight of the week.

[cursivebloodlines]

The way Dougie was about to genuinely respond before he realised that was the whole point of pretending that biscuit-gate wasn't initiated by them. Their little secret. Silly man, always a bit delayed to a joke. Though, he could argue that it was quite late - and he was deprived of biscuits until now, that is. So he needed the energy boost. It wasn't a big deal anyway; he'd happily buy them back if their owner became miffed. Felicity's rambling was precious, and once again she reminded him of him. Such a random conversation topic to have and yet he kept up just fine. "You know what, you're absolutely right!" he said, eliciting a soft chuckle. "If it's bad for you and you're having a biscuit anyway then you may as well have the sugar. I know two wrongs don't equal a right but I'm hardly inclined to believe sugar and a biscuit or two will kill us. I think we'll be just fine," he teased slightly, grinning a little over at her. Now it was his turn to ramble and...did he even make any sense? Probably not. Doubtful. But he had a feeling that she could keep up. Or at least, that was what he hoped anyway.

Felicity's words were sweet and for some reason her kindness meant a lot to him. It didn't take a lot for Dougie to find any words of positivity nice or sweet. Having spent so long being told otherwise, years of being told how he wasn't enough essentially, he clung on to any positivity directed at him like a dog tethered to a bone. Even something as simple as I really hope whatever disruption it was wasn't too unkind to you. "To me, it was whatever, it was nothing. You know how things could be but...I think some of my friends might disagree with me on that one so the jury's out...but thank you, really. That's lovely of you to say." That was an understatement and he could already hear the voice of his friends at the back of his head telling him that losing your self-worth because of one person to the point where it affected you getting to where you want in life was indeed, very unkind. But he chose to ignore that. Was that already oversharing? Dougie wasn't sure. It's not like he wanted to get into specifics and he didn't want her to feel sorry for him by all means. He was just simply...doing what he always did. Talked too much. His brief moment of panic faded when she started talking about herself, he was always better at listening to other people instead of talking about himself. "An artist? Wow! That sounds amazing," Dougie said sincerely, giving her another warm smile. "What sort of things do you like to paint? A variety of things like people or landscapes or do you dabble in a bit of everything?" he asked out of interest, genuinely intrigued. He had never been remotely good at art but he wanted to. Instead, he enjoyed appreciating it from a distance.

Which, the thought was, perfect for Felicity's next question. His eyes widened, visibly impressed that her work was being displayed in a show. The rambles started again but he listened attentively, a smile crossing his lips as he said nothing until she was finished. She was sweet, creative, a rambler like him and not to mention she was pretty and - Dougie ought to stop letting his mind wander like that. "I'm not so good at the whole words thing either if it's any comfort," he replied first, eliciting a soft laugh though he wasn't laughing at her directly. "I like art, yeah. Art is everywhere, isn't it? Even the people who say they don't like art have to like it to some degree. Music, painting - like you - or writing, television, etc. Art is all around us always." Where did that come from? Bloody hell. "And I'd - I'd love to come and see your work displayed. if it's not a bother, of course, to get a ticket! I can always pay for my own if you can't... I - and it will be just the one for me. Unless you want me to find someone to drag along..." he offered, laughing quietly at the thought. "But thank you! For inviting me along. That's - I - that's really kind of you and I'd love to."

"What biscuits?" she joked as she took one from the pack, agreeing that she would keep this a secret from god knows who in the practice. "I like mine with a splash of milk too, and one sugar...I know it's bad for you but I think there's no point in not having the sugar, if you're going to have a biscuit anyways, and you can't not have a biscuit with tea so therefore you might as well have the sugar, you know?" she rambled as she took another sip. What was she saying? It made sense to her anyways.

"It does that sometimes doesn't it" she said when he remarked how life got in the way of his career at a certain point. "I really hope whatever disruption it was wan't too unkind to you" she said, the words falling out before she could really stop herself. For some reason she felt the heat rise to her cheeks when he asked her what did she do, she never was that comfortable talking about her art, even though putting yourself out there and talking about it was part of the business, but in a normal conversation like this where she wasn't trying to sell him a painting for her to pay her bills, she found herself stuttering a litte. "I am an artist actually...mostly paintings, it's uh...well it's been a lot better here in comparison to other places" this was for many reasons. There seemed to be an interest in art in this city, and galleries and exhibitions had been a lot more accomodating for 'new artists' than in previous places, and also she no longer had James who would have persuaded her to stop art as best he could. That it was a waste of time...

But that was in the past. "do you like art? because you know I am...well I have some paintings that are going to be featured in a show next week...it's not that big of a deal really, it's uhh...well it is kind of cool too but...anyways yeah it's on next friday night if you had any interest...maybe I could get you a ticket...or two...if you need a two ticket, i mean second ticket...like I said I deal with art...not so good on the whole words thing" she really was trying to stop herself from talking, but something about the handsome heroic vet made her words run like a river. It was also her way of seeing if he was already taken...if this crush would end there tonight.

[matchmakerecorner]

Hey! May I get a matchup for Genshin Impact please? 🐇💮 (Fair warning, this is a little overly detailed, as I tend to be a rambler)

My pronouns are they/them, and I'm bi and demi, so gender doesn't matter! I'm currently a college student studying robotics and electrical controls, and I'd probably be an Electro claymore user as a Genshin pc!

My hair is a rich purple color with the sides shaved, and my style tends to be very thrifted/punk/masc leaning. I've had more than one person tell me that I always look either like an anime character, or a homeless teddy bear.

I'm a pretty eclectic person, and very ADHD, so I tend to be a jack of all trades with hobbies. I tend to come off as pretty quiet (and a little intimidating in appearance), but I become a snarky gamer gremlin of a friend if I get around to trusting someone! I take a lot of pride in being the weirdest looking electrical engineer you'll ever meet, and in being very protective of the few people that I trust. For those I care about, I tend to act like a very chaotic but protective older sibling, just as I would for my little brothers!

In my spare time, I like to write, play video games, program weird electronics projects (I'm building a custom lightsaber atm!), and I like to thrift and upcycle clothes by hand stitching them! I'm also a pretty big foodie, despite my sensory issues with food, and I love to experiment with home cooking! One thing I wish to do again is to get back into martial arts, as I used to be a competitive Tae Kwon Do artist back in my youth!

One final fact about me is that my ADHD meds tend to give me insomnia, so I can often be found lurking around my college dorms like a raccoon late at night.

Thank you so much, and I hope y'all's day is pleasant!!

🐇💮 | We've decided to match you with...

♡ Yoimiya thinks you're really cool! She absolutely enjoys talking with you, watching you work, just being around you in general is enough to make her feel happier than usual.

♡ She actually really likes your style, so sometimes she even asks you to let her wear your clothing! Maybe she'll even ask you to help her pick out some of her own the next time you both go shopping together.

♡ Yoimiya loves to cook with you! With the two of you working together, you could probably think of some really awesome and unique food combos and recipes!

♡ Whenever you can't sleep, she's always there to grab some sparklers and go outside with you! Where the two of you can just play with sparklers and have fun. If you get bored of sparklers, then she always brings some snacks that you both can eat while you look at the night sky.

♡ Yoimiya enjoys having you as a travel companion. You both could do so many fun activities together! You go on walks in unknown areas, the two of you might even end up taking a creative class together!

♡ She's not very informed on making things other than fireworks, but she'd really love to learn some things from you. She's also willing to help out in anyway she can! Sometimes she even likes to help you come up with ideas for different projects. Maybe you even have a shared project you both like to work on together!

♡ In return, she enjoys to take you out whenever there's an even with fireworks in it. She'll even teach you how to make fireworks if you ever find yourself interested.

♡ You both probably like to ramble to each other after really long days. You could be writing with her sitting right next to you, just staring off into space, lost in thought. It's quiet, which is an amazing atmosphere for writing. But if you write better with noise, then she'll ramble about her day and ask you about yours.

♡ One things for sure; you will never have a dull moment in your life!

The Other Choice(s):

Childe: He would love to train with you in martial arts! Loves how chaotic you can be, and he'd do everything in his power to get you asleep.

Albedo: He finds your projects very fascinating and really would like to learn from them, maybe even help! He's not too high on energy but he enjoys drawing with you writing right next to him.

.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜

A/n: It's so cool that you're making a custom lightsaber! Both of us really enjoyed reading your description of yourself, too! It was very entertaining! We really hope this was to your liking, if not you can ask for a rematch up! ^^

.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜・.・゜゜

| Teleportation: The Map Room | Matchmaking |

[ccfetish]

What happened in London during the LMDC tour? I saw your post….wasn’t a fan at the time and would love to know what you’re referencing.

It's not gonna be anything well known as I never talked about it and it was a private moment but I had two very different experiences.

I need to explain how the venue looked in order for this to make sense lol. The main area of the venue (the lobby) was a big open space with a round balcony above it that stretched across the walls but was hollow in the middle with four staircases in every corner of the building leading up. When we first entered, that upstairs area was closed because it was where m&g was happening and when we were allowed up the line wrapped around that balcony and filled the whole space minus the one corner where the m&g was.

Like I mentioned I had met Darren the year before and had a really great time. I'm a really talkative person and I'm able to adapt to any conversation which is probably why my m&g with darren at elsie stretched so long - as we're both ramblers and we kept going on and on about the most random things lol. When I met him at LMDC it wasn't the case - the m&g wasn't bad by any means but he was very quiet and subdued in a way I hadn't seen before. Lea ended up being more talkative which shocked me. He was kind and gentle but seemed almost sad (although I don't want to assume). He also spent a lot of the concert talking down on himself (I remember he did this at other lmdc concert too, saying it was the perfect time for a bathroom break before he sang his original songs).

He was in general a bit odd. However, I did have a great moment with him and it's not something I've ever really shared except with a few close friends. After m&g ended my friends and I had walked around a bit looking at merch etc. and we were trying to find the bathrooms. I saw a sign pointing up the stairs and starting walking up. I wasn't really looking where I was going until I reached the top and looked up, I realised I had walked straight into where m&g's had happened. Lea and Darren were right in front of me quietly talking and I kind of froze until Lea saw me, nudged darren, pointed to us and whispered something to him and laughed. Darren turned around and smiled before stage whispering 'I don't think you guys are supposed to be up here'. I was still in shock as I hadn't expected to bump into him so I just stared until Darren started laughing and said 'I think we've spooked them' to Lea. He then turned to us and jokingly yelled 'Get out of here!' as he waved and told us to enjoy the show. It seemed very different to how he had acted at m&g. I believe lmdc was the last time he ever did m&g and while this story isn't anything special (and I hope it made sense lol) it has always stayed in my mind.