#i'm like if a bigender girl was so scared

[lgbtq-userboxes]

Requested by butterfly-cadaver

[asagirisfavpen]

Pushing the gay agenda onto bsd because I can

Ada:

- Dazai - demiromantic, bi, preference for women, he knew from like 10 he's not straight

- Kunikida - demiaroace, that's basically implied in the show, he/they pronouns, bi with preference for women, took him a very long time (like 22 years) to figure out he also likes men

- Ranpo - aroace spec, gay, prefers he/it pronouns but wouldn't actually care

- Yosano - lesbian, knew since day one, she/they

- Kyouka - she never thought abt this kinda stuff but she doesn't think she'd really care abt the gender of the person she likes, somewhere on the ace spectrum, doesn't care about pronouns

- Kenji - doesn't really understand, he says he loves everyone

- Atsushi - bi, preference for men (women scare him but it's understandable because the women he knows are Yosano and Kyouka), he/they but he's too afraid to ever tell ppl that

- Fukuzawa - literally never thought abt this before meeting Ranpo, but he now thinks he's bi without really any preference

- Tanizaki - transmasc he/him, is always too awkward to correct ppl

- Naomi - pan, absolutely no preference or care for the gender of the person she likes

- Haruno - she/he, aroace

Port Mafia:

- Chuuya - demiaroace, transmasc he/they, will correct you if you misgender him, bi with preference for men, he probably always knew he likes men and was shocked when he found out that some ppl only like one gender

- Kouyou - bi-curious but she's not wondering is she likes women, she's wondering if she likes men

- Mori - bi, preference for Elise

- Tachihara - never had the time to think abt, always assumed he's straight but then he got a crush on Gin and was panicking his gay. He's bi. Then after figuring out he's bi he realized he's also transmasc

- Gin - agender, couldn't care about pronouns, pan

- Akutagawa - demiaro, ace, bigender she/he

- Hirotsu - bi, huge preference for women, only like one man in his whole life

- Higuchi - lesbian (her crush on Aku is comphet), she/they

- Kaji - queer. Just queer. No label for this man woman thing

- Verlaine - they/them, gay

- Rimbaud - he/she/they, gay(er)

- Albatross - she/he, bi

- Pianoman - pan (Lippmannsexual), uses he/him pronouns but wouldn't really care if ppl would use any other pronoun

- Lippmann - gender-fluid, bi with preference for nb ppl, will sue snyone (kill anyone) if they misgender him

- Doc - gay

- Iceman - aroace

- Odasaku - doesn't care for a label, likes who he likes, is who he is

The Guild:

- Fitzgerald - Zeldasexual, never loved or will love anyone else so he's not even thinking about it (his pronouns are U/S/A /j)

- Louisa - bi, preference for women

- Poe - has a gay crises every other day because "what if this is the wrong label????" So he just says gay or queer

- Lucy - transfem she/her will kill anyone who misgenders her

- Margaret - seems homophobic but is actually an ally, she thought Lucy how to girl, she's questioned if she's bi before

- Nathaniel - homophobic homosexual (bisexual but refuses to admit his crushes on men because of religion)

- Mark - bi

- John - he/she, gay

- Lovecraft - genderqueer, aroace spec

- Herman - ally

Hunting dogs:

- Fukuchi - gay for Fukuzawa

- Tecchou - doesn't really understand it, he thinks that ppl shouldn't even label just love, and doesn't care what pronouns ppl use for him but if ppl misgender others he will correct them

- Jouno - gay, transmasc, will torture ppl if they misgender him

- Teruko - she/they/xe, queer

Decay of Angels:

- Sigma - agender, any pronouns, aroace spec

- Nikolai - he/it transmasc, gay

- Fyodor - aroace

- Bram - was once asked by Nikolai if he's gay and said "No. I'm actually too tired to feel gay right now." He/she

Other ppl:

- Ango - doesn't have time to fall in love or even think abt it, he/she

- Tsujimura - bi-curious

- Ayatsuji - says they're above gender (agender) and aroace

- Aya - currently questioning her gender (and life choises)

- Adam - non-binary, any pronouns

- Katai - transmasc, he/they/it, bi

[lastoneout]

I thought about growing my hair out again, to protect myself, you know? Cuz yeah I'm white and live in a pretty liberal area, but this is still Arizona and I've absolutely had people scream slurs at me just for having short hair and "god hates fags" is graffitied on a light post at my usual grocery store, so yeah. Nerves for sure. I picked a bad time to come out as bigender and butch.

But today I shaved it again. And I felt just as happy as I did the first time I did it. Comfortable in the knowledge that this, this is the real me. I got to look into the mirror again today and see myself. And it helped.

That's it really. I don't have a big message. I shaved my head again. I clipped my stupid carabiner to my belt loop. Wore my jeans and boots. I kept my "that's mr. dyke to you" button on my bag, right next to my "punch nazis" one.

I don't know what's going to happen to people like me. I still think I'm pretty safe, all things considered, I'm white and dating a cis man and live in a liberal city in an increasingly liberal state, and I can go full girl mode without it making me want to die too badly so if I have to hide I can, if I have to flee to a safer state California is literally right there, and I am thankful for that. But I'm still scared, too. Scared enough that I almost didn't cut my hair the way I like it. Scared enough I almost took the buttons off, kept my keys in my bag, switched my men's button-downs for girl-cut t-shirts, my boots for gender neutral sneakers.

But idk. I don't feel like letting the world win this one. I'm not a huge target, not by a long shot, but I won't stop being visibly queer. Not today.

[dragongirltongue]

New Pinned post <3

Hi there, the name is Zelda, or one of like, 20 other names that may or may not be listed somewhere around here. If you know a name I go by that isn't findable here don't use it. <3

I'm bigender which is made up of girl and fem6oy, as such I use she/her and sometimes he/him pronouns when I'm feeling fem6oy enough <3

I'm in my 30s, not getting more specific than that until I decide it's not true enough to change it, don't try to find my exact age as I don't like sharing that information publicly, I don't even update it on my birthday <3

I'm a polyamorous bisexual voraphile freak and if you're over 18 you're welcome to talk to me about how much of a freak I am. I love to flirt and encourage it. Also happy to share my Other Blog with anyone interested, again as long as you're of age. <3

I'm a film graduate and currently working on doing something with that experience as well as working on a superhero comic and a 2D zelda style game. Feel free to bug me about any of those I love to discuss writing and media and want to encourage media literacy. <3

I'm also an ex-jehovahs witness and as a result I'm hugely into the holiday season in a very against my old god kinda way. Also big into sinning <3

Also I'm like, a dragon in probably an otherkin/thetadelta kinda way, like, it's core to who I am and how I understand myself so yeah. Despite this my fursona is a fox, the dragon in my icon is literally me <3

I also draw sometimes and when I do it'll be posted to @dragongirldrawings but always reblogged here too.

Also I'm a member of a plural system, feel free to check out the rest of the system over here @haven-sys <3

Further on the identity weirdness I'm an imaginary friend for the person who used to inhabit this body, they've been gone for like, over 20 years so it's not really relevant but I have started embracing my nature as a fictional creation, it's comforting.

Btw, if one of my posts containing my typing quirk ends up on your dash I take no responsibility for it. I use it in posts that are for me only and if they happen to resonate with others that's their choice to reblog.

I had intended to set tipping up on my blog for a while but adhd caused me to never get around to it sooo, homebrew tip button on my original posts. Feel free and outright encouraged to steal this idea <3

So yeah that's me, hiii I love you all <3

this post is specifically a6out tum6lr user Zelda dragongirltongue [tip]

DNI list under the read more.

lmao imagine if I actually made one of those finally, that's how you'd know I've been replaced with an evil clone or something.

That being said if you're looking at my blog to send me an ask or dm about what someone gets off to please understand unless they're actively hurting someone I rly don't care. I have a lot of ignored and blocked anons about this.

This goes double if the person you're trying to alert me to is trans femme, we don't play that game here, especially given that I know I've been targetted for things as simple as engaging in vore the wrong way for some people or whatever.

Like, I just want to make it clear I rly don't give a fuck what another adult does in the bedroom, I rly don't care if the bedroom happens to include their blog and I rly don't care if they like to flirt about it with other adults on this website.

Also if your pinned post is a callout for anyone about anything it's likely to set off my paranoia around you, which is to say I will not be able to trust you if this is the case even if it's for someone who's actually a danger to a community, like, actively.

Like, this ain't a moral stance or anything, it's a mental health thing. I see that you want to make your first point of contact into a crosshair on someone else I'm gonna be scared you're gonna aim at me next even if it's completely reasonable that you'd never find anything objectionable with me. It scares me and I'm gonna spend every interaction walking on egg shells around you cos what if you're digging for dirt, like, I got no way of knowing.

Anyway as the opening joke implies I don't see any worth in having a list of things to not interact with me over cos the lived experience on this planet is so full of nuance and I've formed deem friendships with people who'd probably have avoided me if I had a DNI and they cared about it.

I think DNIs are dumb but this feels like a space to talk about some general limits on what I'm gonna put up with on this website. I'm just here for a good time with other freaks, anything else is optional. If you want to drag me into your discourse at this point then I guess this is whre I ask you to Do Not Interact. To anyone else, I love yall <3

If you've been directed here after sending an ask my way please apologize for wasting my time [here]

tl;dr DNIs are dumb but don't drag me into your personal grievances with others.

this post is still specifically a6out tum6lr user Zelda dragongirltongue [tip]

[nat-stimmy]

haii!!! actual lesbian here! you can't be both bi and a lesbian! lesbian means non men that like other non men! ur a non lesbian so you should go kys!!!! ^-^

because we all know what you mean, you don't see us trans girls as woman so you say that bi lesbians exist because you're scared of us transbians!

now go fuck off! your carrds aren't valid sources and lesbians have never liked men!

-From, an actual lesbian <3

fascinating. do you tell everyone you disagree with to kill themselves or am i just special?

it's also really cool how you're putting words in my mouth. bi lesbian as a label has nothing to do with being "scared" of transbians and i'd love to see your source for that claim.

and carrds might not be valid sources, but what about Vintage Queer Literature and newsletters?

Like this newsletter from 1984 talking about bi lesbians being integral to the lesbian community? (oh look at that, it also talks about how Some Lesbians treat them terribly! not much has changed, huh?)

Or perhaps this excerpt from Lavender Woman, which talks about bi lesbians all the way back in 1973?

Whoops I dropped this Google Doc full of vintage mentions of bisexual lesbians! Clumsy me! This one also talks about the awful and inaccurate "non-man loving non-man" thing a little) Here's a Masterpost on the history of the term (with cited sources)

I would also like to point out that multigender lesbians exist and that means sometimes a lesbian is also a man. Sorry! You can't just go "lesbian means non-man loving non-man" without excluding tons of butch lesbians and trans lesbians who personally identify as partially men. Did you forget that bigender people are like... real? Genderfluid people? (And before someone tries to imply that I'm implying that binary trans women are "partially men" or something, that's not what i'm saying and you know it. I'm talking about people who personally identify themselves as being both male and another gender)

tl;dr you have drunk the lesbian separatism kool-aid and need to log off because telling people to kill themselves and accusing them of being transmisogynistic with zero proof is abhorrent behavior + if you saw the butches im friends with you'd hurl

[horrorcrew-diary]

I wanna make a post about being an alter in a system and being in a body that is trans in a different way than you are, but I don't know how to word it in a way that fully conveys my feelings and their complexities.

Lucky, our old host, was on and off of testosterone for a few years since 2020, and we have lived as transmasc for almost a full 10 years.

HOWEVER.

I, the NEW host, am transfem. I'm an introject, and my source is a cis guy. I, being mostly fem presenting, am not. I'm bigender. I default to she/her. I enjoy having a body with female anatomy. I'm growing our hair out.

I never got to be a girl. I formed at a time in our life when we had been FULLY living as a man. For this reason, I identify as an afab transfem. There is a LOT of discourse online about afab transfem people, and it makes me very scared to be myself online. It's who I am, and I can't change that.

There is so much pressure on me to mask as the old host. Lucky was the host for ten years, and now all of a sudden, from the outside, it looks like we're detransitioning, or maybe even not trans anymore. That's not the case. We're still trans, just in the other direction this time.

There is a bit of a silver lining, I guess. Our partner system, my girlfriend, is taking me shopping for more feminine clothes for the first time this weekend to be more comfortable in my new body. I can't ever express how grateful I am that at least one person understands what's going on.

[gyrovagi]

hello and welcome to my gamer's den. i'm lok ming i'm 23 i use it/its pronouns. i draw when my wrist agrees with me but mostly i talk about my ocs instead of actual shit that happens in video games.

CANON PROTAGS/NORMAL MEN. INNOCENT MEN:

eloy "el" surana (blood mage/arcane warrior) - i'm like if a control freak could control things ❤️ with blood magic ❤️. generally well-intentioned but hypervigilant, always playing 5d chess about the worst scenario. world's first moral (not necessarily ethical) male bigender manipulator. wields a wholly inappropriate degree of political influence in denerim

seongmin hawke (primarily diplomatic, sword + shield berserker) - afraid that his abandonment issues will leave him. pathologically conflict avoidant, fawn response to the max - up until someone he loves gets threatened, at which point good luck leaving alive lol. 'i don't think i need to talk about my feelings,' says man who just broke the arm of a templar asking around too much about the darktown clinic and then continued making casual conversation with varric as if nothing happened

ga-sun "arav'assan" lavellan (archer, assassin) - king of compartmentalization. would really prefer to be one guy helping people on the ground rather than the unwilling inquisitor chained by power he never wanted, fighting for his life to be as politically uninvolved as possible. guy who is duty-bound never to return home

dak-wai (wi)thorne(s) (spellblade) - bellara kisser, direct port of my bg3 durge. vashoth grey warden mage seeking a righteous purpose after a complicated and bloody past, but who has yet to find a better general approach to problems than killing things with hammers.

TGIRLS SAVE THE WORLD(STATE):

sang tabris (champion) - next shem bastard who pisses me off i'm just going to fucking kill you. alistair did you eat yet ^_^. struggling to reconcile an irrepressible hope for a better world with the abject horrors he's been subjected to by the world he lives in at present. morrigan's lesbian husband.

so-min hawke (blood mage) - girl could you at least pretend not to be a chantry-hating apostate in the middle of the gallows. carver just got suddenly pissed off in a darkspawn tunnel and he knows it's not because of the genlocks

r trevelyan (rift mage) - tranquil since 18, and at age 33, honestly dealing pretty well with accidentally getting a magical lobotomy reversed. yeah ok so maybe the random prolonged neutral-expression weeping is a little off-putting. it's hard when you're the white girl who needs to save yourself

yazmin de riva (duelist) - embittered half-elf bastard child of the young lord owain trevelyan. frighteningly competent and driven, but has difficulty taking orders and working with others due to the huge chip on her shoulder. thinks lucanis dellamorte is a nepo baby

INSANE WOMEN AND MALE MANIPULATORS:

ngayu brosca (reaver) - what do you MEAN the fate of the country is dependent on two twenty-year-olds one of whom gets scared looking at the sun. has never once in her life believed she would live past twenty and that's looking increasingly likely as a prediction

rina hawke (assassin) - when you are endlessly bitter and refuse to deal with it in any healthy way because that would require you to acknowledge your resentment towards the family members you perceive as a burden. chronically insincere, subservient but seething the whole time, wouldn't be able to name a solid belief if you asked her, incapable of self-reflection. crack baby you don't know what you want...

caden trevelyan (templar) - wildly repressed homosexual. has weird ideas about being a man. constantly develops obsessive fixations on authoritative older men. believes he has the divine right to mete out violence. white boy who sucks 🔥

ha-neul aldwir (slayer) - born in the minrathous ambassadoria, hasn't been back there for half his life. fascinated by magic and magical artifacts since a young age. something of an oddity by both dwarven and non-dwarven standards, a guy with an endless thirst for life and little interest in denying himself pleasure or dwelling in guilt, for better or worse. unserious.

PRONOUNS USERS GOING THROUGH IT/TRAGEDY WORLDSTATE;

enasa mahariel (ranger) - deadalive nothing girl who isn't. didn't anticipate that taking the vallaslin of dirthamen, twin brother to death, would be quite so prophetic. very clearly crumbling under mounting pressure while refusing to stop dragging the rotting corpse

bryn hawke (force mage) - half-avvar on malcolm's side, raised with what avvar beliefs and practices their father could half-remember from childhood. never quite at home in ferelden and struggling to come to terms with the idea they'll never be quite at home in their mother's city either. quietly shouldering other's burdens until it chokes them.

ga-kei lavellan (knight-enchanter) - turns out when you take an anxiety-ridden elf burdened with excess responsibility since youth out of their familiar environment and support system she'll have a bad time. solas' ex-spouse still misses him… but their aim's getting better!

orpheus ingellvar (death caller) - < he doesn't know (that he's the child of the last theirin king and the missing presumed dead hero of ferelden). surprisingly cheerful for a guy collectively raised by a bunch of necromancers, seems like a polite young man, but then he says something weird and offputting that makes you realize he's spent a lot of his life interacting with skeletons. and nevarrans.

ASSORTED GUYS:

dea surana - reserved but observant, knows it's best not to attract attention, tries to look after herself and her own in the ways she can. surprisingly worldly/cynical after her brother was taken by the templars at a young age and her life afterwards was spent largely on the road. then her situationship was like 'you know the hero of ferelden is named surana? circle mage, relative of yours?' and now she regularly talks to the king of ferelden

owain trevelyan - never really stopped hoping his older brother would come back from the circle and everything would be fine again. he's socially well-connected and charismatic, and could make for an influential heir to the house with motivation and an advantageous marriage - but he's a lot more interested in dragon hunting and boy bestiesisms with the prince of starkhaven.

valerie trevelyan - black sheep of the family, annoyed that this is more about lesbianism than being a fantasy communist. managed to pull off a 'buy my silence - for $8000 a month i will stop' ploy on her parents at 20, before she knew that this would end with her as the warden-commander's sister-in-law

ga-hou lavellan - middle sibling b/w ga-kei and ga-sun, closer to both of them than they are with each other. one of clan lavellan's craftsmen. tends to take things a little too lightly, an optimist unconcerned with anything outside of the clan and the present. the siblings' dads (and ga-kei, and his wife) are hoping the birth of his daughter will make him more serious. ga-sun likes him as he is.

everybody's parents tend to be less developed than their kids are but they exist. In my mind . there's also a couple other extremely incidental fellas but they'll come up when they come up. i might also ramble about my non-da guys here but (closes my eyes and passes away silently)

[21stcenturyschizoidfag]

OK SO. HERE IS.. avery 21stcenturyschizoidfags very silly impromptu mewtuals hunger games simulator thingulator post. this thing was fucking long i didnt realise maybe i'm just crazy and beautiful. will post the next bit after

AS A REMINDER HERE IS THE ROSTER.. i didnt really have any specific metric for who i added i just added who i thought would find this funny to be totally honest. and the caroline polacheks mole v azealia banks spoon thing is a reference to this i just find it really funny because i dont personally like caroline polacheks music also i ahve a facial mole like hers too. OK LETS BEGIN. BTW click on the images to see them better :)

da bloodbath

shaan being so scary like halloween time... ANA FUCKING DOWN LIKE STRAIGHT AWAY due to famed non-binary lesbian ally nicolas cage dracula in the movie renfield 2023... papa pavel and baby emilio working together ahh so cutes.. ram said im NOT starving in here. dee plans to FIGHT. everyone else gets the hell out of there

I FUCKING STRANGLED ISA TO DEATH ARE YOU KIDDING ME? ann doing everyone a favor and scaring that mole out of here.. aviv and cassis working together awww so friendlys. Someone gave proxy bombs which is very scary dont trust him with those his icon is the joker for a reason

day one and fallen tributes

dee and pavel each get stuff from one of numerous stans worldwide. mia sneaks up on mr. flow3 while hes busy writing dracula flow 4.. mr cage dracula and my friend olive feeling adventurous. mariam gets craftyyy and ellie wellie is homesick for equestria.. scott is a feminist as expected and scare-ah lives to see another day

cassis doing some tom and jerry stuff to accy OKAYY.. carolines mole uses its connections to caroline polachek proper (its attached to her face -_-) to get UNFAIR support from a stan. Nobody is surprised. BIGENDER TEAMUP from me and shaan.. I dont know how xe can bear to be around me after i STRANGLED ISA. TO DEATH. The oomfs are going hunting.. and then proxy takes my son hunting. I SURE HOPE NOTHING HAPPENS TO MY SON. & we mourn the loss of two souls. gone too soon.. gone too soon

night one

this broke my heart the fact that emilio is having trouble sleeping like EMILIOOO ): I LOVE YOU.. max doing everyone a favor by killing carolines mole BUT with the INCREDIBLY tragic loss of ELLIEEE.. mia and proxy chilling.. vi being an incredible chef and resourceful at that. is anyone surprised (smiles beautifully). the INSANE triple combo death of two incredible gay men and a beautiful and insane bigender. TRAGIC TRAGIC SHIT? Pavel spares the life of mr. flow3. Cassis has a little nap in a tree.. mariam having a mariam moment and ram REFUSING to allow it. mariam LIVES. ann like vi is very skilled in the kitchen and everyone claps and smiles. Me and that FUCKING spoon seem to have hit it off

day two and fallen tributes

emilio, accy & cassis are feeling adventurous asf.. me + olive + ram + sarah decide its time for food innit. AVIV PAVEL DEE AND MIA DIE. JUST LIKE THAT? THEY JUST DIE. THEY JSUT DIED? LIKE THAT. THEYRE DEAD NOW. LIKE BYE EVERYONE THEYRE JUST DEAD? i will mourn them. mariam and max are IN. THE TRENCHES. watch out please.. proxy and mr. flow3 are getting their battle tactics in

Rest in peace to these fucking legends. We lost so many in ONE FUCKING ROUND. so many incredible individuals just gone like that. Greyed out pavel kitten and slay sister callie is making me scream laughing. Scoot and paddington greyed out is like who are these two little scamps. Good lord. GOOD LORD.

night two

Ram is sick what the hell when did that happen. IM IN TEARS OVER MARIAM BEGGING ANOTHER PERSON TO KILL HER. LIKE GIRL I KNOW ITS THE HUNGER GAMES BUT IM IN TEARS RIGHT NOW CAN YOU STOP? & LIKE ASKING MY SON TOO?? trenches. cassis sabotages THE SAD FROWNER scare-ah (maybe its for the best..) A spoon climbs a tree. i would love to see that. mr flow3 and ann also climb trees.. Olive is so focking cold. Dogboy bonding.. theyre giving proxy more fucking explosives i swear to g-d. OK accy looking at the night sky did make me a bit emotional because like he IS an alien.. is he homesick too? im so sorry. they took your ufo away from you to put you in these sick and twisted games..

TO BE CONTINUED..

[threepoint14art]

Loon drawing :D love her im killing her

Heavily inspider by the song "Bouquet Garni" by nilfruits! it's really good I reccomend checking it out :9

hey girl, ever have breakdowns and the only way you can somehow hold yourself back from going full insane is thinking back to all the shitty videogames you consume in the comfort of your own room? if so then you have something in common with her !1!1! hasashgihasg breakdown (videogame flavored)

I'll go a bit more in depth on him under the cut since I figured we changed quite a tad about her and I want to spread wisdom (our AU) to the world

So I'll start with design choices and then I'll move to his general character ヾ(≧▽≦*)o So:

The things coming out from his neck are antennae! they make her have really good hearing which SUCKS when you are overwhelmed (which she is, always) so rip!

His eyes have no pupil because arthropods and insects have them freaky eyes now <3

He has blue and red dyed hair to match the animatronics color scheme (thought the red is not very obvious here since he's tilting his head), though the white bits of his hair are not actually dyed! they are like that because he's a ladybug and they have those white spots on the sides of their little heads!

-His hands are segmented like that because of an arbitrary rule I made to make arthropods more recognizable amongst them bears and foxes and allat, since a arthropods are segmented I applied that to their articulations! fun fact, insects like Loon or Cami (We made her a mantis I'm sorry) have a division on their neck, while arthropods that are NOT insects, like Owynn, completely lack that! that's because insects are divided in 3 parts (head thorax and abdomen) arachnids are divided in 2 (thorax and abdomen) ((not exactly called that but semantics)).

-He has little ladybug earrings and actually he matches with Malva!(Usagi) ((we changed her name lol)) ((her last name is visco haha get it malva-visco))

-In general I made his hair darker, gave him a bit of acne amongst the freckles and made him more tan because we love melanin in this house

Now for,, character changes,,,

So first of all, he/she swag, bigender, Loon when masc and JJ when fem though it fluctuates too, good for her gettem. We obliterated that Malva crush, gone, exploded into pieces, and also she's ecuadorian now, gettem.

We turned that pathetic nervous shy thing of his into something way worse </3 She is still introverted and all that, but the main thing is that she does not like going outside! gamer goes outside challenge impossible, she does NOT like leaving his house shut-in guy who if outside for long enough has a breakdown, clings to Malva because they are best friends and she's like "safe" she's like a safe zone. Loon cannot function in social/public settings at all and just clings, which is also why a lot of people mistake him as "having a crush on her" even though they are a bajillion percent platonic

He's a bit of a cringefail loser and also a bit creepy lmao, always on her phone always trying to zone the hell out and think about a silly videogame, but also just nosy, hit antennae and insect stuff lets him 1) look wherever without people being able to tell, and 2) listen to stuff. So yeah, his ass sorta psychoanalyzes people and snoops through stuff to kinda distract herself from the horrors of being outside, which is why in this AU she's dating Owynn T-T sorta like the animatronic she isn't like actually out to get you, but instead acts like some sort of aid for the real enemy, which is Owynn, so yeah. Enabler and snoops through shit AKA has good info for Owynn's insane as shit ideas, insane of her but whatever.

Also given how in this Au we cranked the animal motifs to a thousand, being a little "bug" and then being next to like, a bear is terrifying to her, so besides being scared of just existing outside, she's also scared of people as a whole because little insect vs big animal, rip.

And i think that's most of it, if anyone read all of this and has any questions feel free to ask T-T sorry if the formatting SUCKS it's the first time I've tried putting something this long on tumblr <//3

[username-661]

I deleted the funtimekitten channel but to explain

Basically I am "her" I was basically unaware I was doing kinks I am 14 not kidding I was 12-13 then didn't understand when I said no I was rape threat and threatened to leak my address for saying no, when I was depressed the kept sexualizing it and making me feel bad for saying no all of them were 15+ I never supported "MAP" I didn't even know that disgusting thing was real and when asked about them I never said I supported all I said was "I support all who do not harm" I still believe it people just pushed my words out of context doesn't change the harassment I received trying to force me to support PEDOS (which is what MAP means.)

So yeah all my pictures aren't sexual I didn't even see them as sexual I am aroace and was forced into shit when I was depressed I refuse to do it and I left cuz I realized they were happy I was child like mentally (I am diagnosed with a mental disability at 11 so no it wasn't a joke nor is my memory problem they used it against me because they love CP that's it..) I also NEVER looked older then 15...I clearly looked 13 and I wasn't even fully developed. i was forced to believe I was older to make me feel bad for saying no its gross. i was threat I would be exposed for being "rude" multiple times and my "fans" what I saw as friends is what I wanted to do anything for its gross, (edit) that's completely why I left they encouraged my self harm and sexualized it when I was actually suffering and now I feel so much safer away from those shits, the fact I had NIGHTMARES of them hating me for setting boundaries says a lot how I was scared I didn't know how to say it that's just it.

I can't prove I'm FuntimeKitten but I am "her", I'm not a girl BTW i went by whatever others wanted and now I don't even feel safe wearing dresses, I was agender or bigender my searches then suggested but I am now nonbinary and it feels great to be myself and not care anymore. <3

To whoever is reading this have a good day, and leave me the fuck alone. 🥲

[tuhbanbuv]

Earthworm Jim makes for an interesting transgender allegory now that I think about it...

Just think about it: a character who is chased and attacked by everything and everyone, seen as a freak when in all reality he just wants to save the princess and play with snow globes and shit.

Think I'm just overexaggerating? He's literally called a "freak of nature" in the show, by an old man no less.

Earthworm Kim is literally his dysphoria, her final line being along the lines of "I know where you hid those magazines". Sure, that can be taken as him having pervy magazines but maybe Jim is jealous?

Also he's afraid of public restrooms. Aside from the gender aspect bathrooms are already terrifying so that's no fucking surprise. (real talk we should just have unisex bathrooms and just have stalls labeled toilets or urinals)

Earthworms are biologically hermaphrodites (a controversial term for beings who have both complete male and female sexes at once), and can mother and father other worms. Jim was a normal worm until getting a rather masculine suit, so he could've been forced to be strictly male when he, she or they don't even really want to. He's probably stuck in the toxic masculinity of old superheroes (the old "aww, we were saved by girls" line comes to mind), and is so scared by Kim's appearance that his instinct is to push her away further.

I'm not saying Jim is just transmasc or transfem--he can even be genderfluid or bigender as a mechanic of the Kim fight is literally switching between him and Kim whenever you touch her. There's no one right way to be trans or hell, even your birth gender. Hell, I'm nonbinary masc-ish myself and still love dolls and the color pink.

As someone both in the LGBTQIA+ and autism spectrum, I've certainly felt like an IRL Earthworm Jim, not belonging anywhere, being too weird or childish to understand, saying wrong things at the wrong time because it takes me a while to get a hint, and so on. I've felt personally attached to Jim. Now that Jim is being reclaimed as an LGBTQIA+ icon...it's interesting, to say the least. And funny af how the biggest transphobe asshole made the most trans character ever.

Here's a video of someone else who pretty much says the same thing but better. It's a criminally underrated video that makes some interesting points.

TLDR: Jim is a LGBTQIA+ icon and Doug Tennaple can suck a can of worms.

[hello-there-world]

hi thought about Charlie again. in the Rewrite. specifically in the games. no we're not getting into my Very Sad version of the Novel Trilogy. trust me, i found a way to make it sadder.

so!! my girl <3

like her dad and brother, she is incredibly southern. this includes her using southern sayings (mostly picked up from her dad). her favorite one is "Well, bless their heart" because it can technically be used genuinely (which is how most people use it i think) or as a thinly veiled insult (how my mom says it's Technically used). it just depends on the context of how Charlie says it. if she says it in either a mocking, sarcastic, or deadpan tone, she's basically saying "Ah, so their stupidity caught up to them, then? Is that what I'm hearing?"

yeah...Charlie's not exactly a 100% perfect angel, but she's not a Bad Kid either. she's a sweetheart, but she's rough and rugged. she lends a helping hand, but that doesn't mean she won't cuss you out if you're a dumbass. she fights dirty if she has to, verbally and physically.

Charlie dealt with bullying in school, mostly from another girl named Brittany and her clique. Charlie honestly could've given less of a shit (and usually did) but Brittany would drag her friends into it. which she was Not fine with.

Charlie's not even sure what Brittany's problem with her is. the long story short of it all is that while most people think Charlie is Weird /pos, Brittany and (most of) her small clique think that Charlie is Weird /neg.

so...probably the weirdest way to view the scene but like. when Brittany and a few of her friends locked Charlie outside, Charlie's reaction was less "Oh no!! :( Let me back inside, it's raining out here!! :((" it was more "BRITTANY YOU BITCHASS MOTHERFUCKER, LET ME BACK IN RIGHT THE FUCK NOW! I SWEAR TO GOD, I'LL KICK YOUR ASS WHEN I GET BACK IN THERE-"

so yeah, had William decided to be Normal and Actually helped her get back inside, we probably would've gotten a scene of either someone needing to hold Charlie back before she started a fight, or Charlie getting into a fight with Brittany.

the reason Charlie likes the song "My Grandfather's Clock" was because Henry used to sing it to her. Henry also made the music box for her.

Charlie is technically transmasc and bigender, but uh. she kinda died before she realized that.

a lot of Charlie's friends and family would also call her Charles as a nickname.

so...you're probably wondering: if Charlie's meant to be the most "pacifistic" of the souls, why does she try to kill the nightguards in Fnaf 2? well...the short answer is that she kinda had a Moral OCD-Induced Mental Breakdown (she failed to save five whole children and practically had to watch them die, and in her incredibly traumatized mind, killing a few nightguards is how she makes up for her "failure." (because, technically, someone should've been working there to keep them safe, and no one was, but the SAVE THEM minigame takes place at like 11:15 at night, so no one was there yet))

William didn't think that Charlie was responsible for like. the three dead nightguards (in the span of two weeks post-SAVE THEM) until Alex pulled up the security footage. which showed her killing the guards. William put the music box in place to keep her from. y'know. Continuing To Do That. it's the only time he's really been Scared of her as a spirit.

Charlie might technically be the "leader" of the spirits, but that doesn't mean she Entirely knows what she's doing.

Charlie, despite everything, doesn't hate William. she can't bring herself to. that doesn't mean she forgives him, nor that she isn't fucking furious with him, but...those don't necessarily equal hatred. i'd say this UCN quote sums up Charlie's feelings towards William pretty well: "I don't hate you, but you need to stay out of my way."

Charlie is actually the one who voiced Marionn when she was little! their voice is literally just Toddler Charlie!!

Charlie is Pan, but kinda oblivious about it. she thinks that Everybody kinda likes everyone but a Lot of people are just being weird about having to like Only the opposite gender or you're Wrong. she pretty much inherited her dad's sexuality, she just doesn't know.

Charlie would've grown up to be/dress like a butch and i accept no criticism on this (/hj)

Charlie my beloved <3

She sounds so cool... I really like the UCN quote there, too, cause it just... there's a deep sense of kinda... apathetic bitterness? She doesn't hate him, but...

[confessions-official]

Multiple in one so I don't flood things

I'm bigender. I don't think my boyfriends always recognize it - I usually dress masc and stuff. I still like being a girl sometimes. I don't think it's known. I feel like I'll have to throw that away bc I'm too scared to talk about it to them.

Two. I'm disabled. We don't know what it is. I on and off lose memory, am in constant pain, and hallucinate often. I'm scared of dying before them bc I don't want them to WATCH me die. I don't want to break up either bc I love them to death.

 

[brick-van-dyke]

Unfortunately, I am thinking again and am reminded again how heterosexual TERF women continually steal shit from lesbians and try to erase butches because they hate them so goddamn much. ESPECIALLY he/him butches and queer women and non binary dykes. Hell, even bisexual women, non binary people and he/him folks who are dykes in some way or another.

In fact, as a bisexual bigender trans man dyke, this'd be me. For real, we were here before you all decided to be offended by lesbians who dare to even use a strap because that scares you! Or call themselves men! And no not "because of safety reasons" but because we've always done it and still do it regardless. Because it's part of who some of us are. We have loved tits, pussy, straps (plastic or bio) way before you all decided to use lesbian to mean "we hate men". It's the "we fucking love women and wanna kiss women" club. It's not hard, lesbian means we kissy kissy women in a way the hettys don't like.

Because they think only gender roles abiding men can kiss gender roles abiding women and anything that's different is a sin or yucky, that's what offends them! That's why when lesbians are a femme that looks very feminine and womanly and such OR a butch that looks like a man people get pissed. That's why a woman with a beard makes people pissed. That's why a man who has breasts who kisses women makes people pissed. Because it denies all the gender roles that are defied here. It doesn't matter if a woman has a pussy or a dick, because it's already against the damn rules if she kisses girls and no one's gonna care when they call her a sinner like the rest of us.

They don't care that I'm a dude who looks cis, because I act too feminine, yet dress masculine and androgynous, and I have breasts and a pussy and like people with breast and a pussy as well to boot plus I like men and that's all against the bloody rules so I'm a freak of nature them who they want to legislate against. Hell, even in the community (esp among people who refuse to learn what older queers have lived through or anything about our history) being non binary to the point you aren't able to fit cleanly in any single clean label makes you really easy to hate. It doesn't matter that my love of women and my love of men makes me hated as a man who loves men and a woman-like person who likes women, because god forbid I call myself a dyke because my gender relates deeply to being a he/him butch. And the thing is, we've always been around since always but people get pissed when things aren't neat, tidy and easy to digest for their convenience and personal ease. When our existence is actually broad and vague, that makes people puzzled and scared, despite us all being fluid as people. It's our species whole thing to not be consistent or always the same or easy to understand. We're complex. But I digress...

There's just so much to this I could delve into but the biggest thing here is that regardless of what TERFs think, so much of it is borrowed from queers. So much is just stolen shit they rebranded and repurposed but made for hets. So much of feminism was built from queers, hell, from gay men. So much of feminism was built from lesbians and bisexuals and trans people. So much of the terms that TERFs use and the rights they have were built off our backs and now we're the fucking enemy? Lmao okay. Who do you think helped you all fight against abusive cis men? Not cis men saying you all need to join up with their anti trans groups that for sure. It was the gay men who look down on and lesbians you all call predatory and the drag queens who pushed to normalise the idea that femininity isn't just for women but men and, for you all, that it doesn't define a woman. Who stood by you all this entire time? And now we're all expendable, us queers.

And hey, we don't want you in feminist circles either since you've all proven yourselves to be sexist as hell. But I'm still pissed that so much of queer culture and our efforts have been used, borrowed, taken for granted and repeated as if it came from you all when a lot of it came from us. Like, sweetie, no. You all really think heterosexual women built feminism without us? You all think when you say "all men are gross perverts to women" you're not realising you're forgetting the gay men who aren't fucking attracted to women and have been treated like shit for being attracted to men? You think banning drag queens are some sort of thanks to all the times they've pushed against the idea that dresses must only be worn by women and pants can only be worn by men? Are you all fucking kidding me?

Everything about TERFs are borrowed and stolen, but hey, can't be surprised. It's the same for all bigots, they're never original aren't they?

[shineyfish]

hi i hope its okay to rant in your inbox for a bit. im having Issues with being bigender because im Scared because like ive fought like most of my life for the right to be perceived as a man, a guy even, so it feels like im just giving up on all that effort by accepting that i might Still be a bit of a girl ? like im really anxious about the whole thing and im worried that im betraying other trans men by doing this. i still flinch away from being called a woman or a girl or anything like that because im used to it being uaed as an insult to me but the thing is , i dont think i Can discard that part of me.

but on a lighter note, my friends are having a hard time (silly thing to be clear) picking between the new name i picked for myself and calling me mind. like i can very much see the hesitation in my headmates when they wanna address me and theyre picking between ginny and mind. which, i feel like im a bit of a cartoon character for picking the name ginger because. i Am a ginger.

anyway sorry if this is all weird to share 👍 im just excited to talk to other bigender people and maybe youd have some advice on this

ITS OKAY, RANT AWAY MY FRIEND!!

God I absolutely understand the feeling of like. Fear that I've had it wrong and the whole bullshit that surrounds masculinity and what it means to be masc [ESPECIALLY considering I used to id as transmasc alone, and being seen as feminine made me point blank feel uncomfortable]. It took me a while and a good bit of dysphoria for reasons I wasn't able to properly place to actually realise Oh it's how I'm Thinking about my gender that's causing this. I'm trying to shove a round peg in a square hole and yeah it fits, but not as good as it could.

For me at least, a lot of Being Bigender is taking femininity and making it my own. I've joked before that I found my femininity in the trash outside and that's exactly what it feels like to me. Recycling something to fit me better. There's also something for me about the Contradiction between it. I'm a pretty boy and a handsome girl! At the same time! There's something really special to me about being like that. I'm a pretty face of makeup right beside a black eye and bloody nose from winning a fight. I'm a contradiction and it makes me feel so happy.

A lot of growing up knowing I wasn't cis meant being seen as fem felt. Bad. To put it lightly. It still kinda does, tbh all I've really done is cherry picked the parts of being fem that work for me and combined them with what I already had. I took everything that I liked about it and threw out the rest. I love eyeliner but lipstick is too much sometimes, if that makes Any sense. It's a process, and you'll figure out what works for you best by experimenting! The best advice I can really give is just. Have fun! Listen to shitty music! Experiment with things you were afraid of! Be loud! Be yourself! You've already come so far and you deserve to be so fucking proud of that!!!

Figuring out what you want for yourself is difficult. I'm really proud of you for coming this far :) my asks/dms are always open if you wanna talk more btw!! It's entirely up to you and I hope you figure out what fits you best and makes you feel happy!!

[bitch-spectrum]

Boo! Identity Update! I'm also being a mean queer!

So, if anyone seeing this didn't know, My name used to be Miller but I was disowned by the family member who gave me that family name so..... I decided I didn't want to keep it.

I'm going by Michelangelo or just Mica for short now.

I used to identify as a transmasc nonbinary guy but I've found out recently some things about myself and I'm bored of that now.

I found out that I have an intersex condition. One of my alters was told a little while ago and just forgot to make it public within the system.

Before finding out I had been reconnecting with my femininity. While I want to medically transition, I no longer think of myself as just transmasc so I'm dropping the label.

I liked nonbinary as it's a functional umbrella term but honestly? I think I'm going to also label myself as a hermaphrodite.

With everything going on in my country right now I could honestly give less shits about using language that doesn't hurt your precious feelings so if me saying hermaphrodite scares you, suck it up butter cup. I'm here and I'm a dykefag. Cope.

I feel like I'm both a girl that grew into a guy and a guy that grew into a girl while being neither at the same time. I don't really want to use bigender or boygirl or androgynous because, sure they sound nice and the flags are pretty, but I want a label for myself that makes people feel a little uncomfortable at first. Both in and out of my community.

I sort of want these sanitized kids who are like "ALL GENDERS ARE VALID" to REALLY think about what they're saying. Do they actually believe that and not feel threatened by me reclaiming this word for myself or are they actually lying to themselves about what they stand for?

I want cis people who are in the LGBT+ community be a little squicked at first while they get used to it because god knows cis people dont get a single say in how I chose to label my identity.

I want allys and people who aren't in the community to look at this identity and feel awkward or uncomfortable.

I want to weed out people that the community shouldn't trust by how I'm treated for a label I'm reclaiming.

I'm no longer pansexual either. The flag is still cute as hell IMO but now I'm identifying with just being sexually queer. My attraction to anyone feels like male attraction, female attraction, and Other attraction all at the same time.

When I'm with a man I feel like a gay man, a straight woman, and an nbspec person being attracted all at the same time, for example.

Same thing for women and nonbinary people.

Gender isn't a factor in my attraction because I feel homosexual in the relationship regardless; its queer.

I'm queer and I want to be unapologetically queer because of the genocide going on in my country right now. I want overly sanitized children to widen their world view, I want to be visible for people who are closeted. I want to be a weirdo in public that weird kids see and feel less alone in the world. I want to be a freak in public that other adults see and are inspired by, even a little bit.

I don't want to be clean or PC. Nothing about what's happening is Clean or PC. We're all the enemy to these fuckers who want us dead, they don't see a difference in how we label ourselves. But if we're going to successfully fight these oppressors you can't be policing identities.

I don't fucking care if you don't understand it. You don't have to understand someone to respect them. Just get over yourself and move on and focus on the big problem that's being faced right now here in the USA as well as other countries going through the same shit.

If you want community, if you want family, if you want to win this fucking fight you better not say JACK FUCKING SHIT to the people who are fighting with you just because they identify with an "outdated" label, or have conflicting genders, or weird pronouns, or are "mspec lesbians, or are "lesbian men".

GET.OVER.IT!

Also, nothing against people who use the labels I've dropped (obviously). They're just not for me anymore.