#i'm just too anxious though

[kiisaka]

[danwhobrowses]

So with Oaths and Ash coming Saturday and my anxious ass panicking about it all, I decided that although I said in my previous post of how BH might shape up class, ancestry and upbringing-wise (see here) that we likely 'didn't have time' to cover the Domain side of things, I couldn't quite shake mulling over it.

Following Daggerheart's latest reveals of transformations, this feels like an apt time to go into a bit more detail on how Bell's Hells might shape up, focusing more on Domain cards.

So to cover what we mentioned last time, I'll also list out the class, subclass, ancestry, and upbringing per character too, as well as their Domains, their Card Loadout and, if applicable, a card in their vault. Bear in mind I expect the levels to be Lv. 8 and multiclass rules in Daggerheart mean the secondary class' chosen domain will only be able to claim cards equal or lower than half their level - so level 4 cards or lower - I will mark the multiclassed Domain and any multiclass Domain cards in Italics.

Since we introduced transformations including the Werewolf, lets start with our woodworking lycanthrope.

Chetney Pock O'Pea Warborne Gnome - Ranger/Assassin multiclass Domains: Sage, Bone & Blade Subclass: Wayfinder (Specialization) & Executioner's Guild (Foundation) Loadout: - Deft Maneuvers - Gifted Tracker - Ferocity - Fortified Armor - Know Thy Enemy Transformation: Werewolf

Braius Doomseed Orderborne Firbolg - Seraph/Bard multiclass Domains: Valor, Splendor & Grace Subclass: Divine Wielder (Specialization) & Wordsmith (Foundation) Loadout: - Bolt Beacon - Mending Touch - Deft Deceiver - Smite - Restoration

Orym of the Air Ashari Orderborne Halfling - Warrior Domains: Blade & Bone Subclass: Call of the Brave (Mastery) Loadout: - Untouchable - Boost - A Soldier's Bond - Cruel Precision - Breaking Blow Vault: Vitality

Dorian Storm Highborne Skykin - Bard Domains: Grace & Codex Subclass: Troubadour (Mastery) Loadout: - Inspirational Words - Tell No Lies - Hypnotic Shimmer - Book of Korvax - Sigil of Retribution

Imogen Temult Hearthborne Human - Sorcerer Domains: Arcana & Midnight Subclass: Elemental Origin (Mastery) Loadout: - Unleash Chaos - Counterspell - Chain Lightning - Telekinesis - Spellcharge

Laudna Freeborne Human - Witch/Warlock multiclass Domains: Sage, Dread & Midnight Subclass: Hedge (Specialization) & Pact of the Endless (Foundation) Loadout: - Blighting Strike - Natural Familiar (Pate de Rolo) - Siphon Essence - Shadowbind - Eldritch Flesh

Fearne Calloway Wildborne Faun - Druid/Rogue multiclass Domains: Sage, Codex & Midnight Subclass: Warden of the Elements (Specialization) & Nightwalker (Foundation) Loadout: - Book of Tyfar - Natural Familiar (Little Mister) - Pick and Pull - Death Grip - Healing Field

Ashton Greymoore Slyborne Earthkin - Guardian Domains: Blade & Valor Subclass: Stalwart (Mastery) Loadout: - Bare Bones - Rage Up - Frenzy - Not Good Enough - Blade Touched Vault: Vitality

It is possible that Fearne and Ashton's titan forms can be the Demigod transformation but honestly the abilities on that state don't feel worth it, the transformations don't have the same trade-off that the Titan forms either - which isn't a terrible thing mind you, it still feels weird that channelling the titan emperor/empress empowers them less than Grog's Titanstone Knuckles made from a titan's heartstone and leaves them worse off afterwards.

It's also possible that some equipment/weapons could have domain cards baked into them, like how the Staff of Dark Odyssey could have Arcana cards Book of Vagras, Book of Homet, and Teleport in them to mimic the staff's abilities, but only allowing one card to be used per rest. Additionally, Natural Familiar is quite limited, though Matt could simply homebrew an upcast function, spending additional Stress or Hope, to retain Laudna's ability to use Pate's range to cast spells and Mister's Fiery teleport and ranged fire turds, they'll potentially need an item to cast the spell if Robbie wishes Dorian to keep using Coriolis too, since he can't use the Sage domain without multiclassing. There still also remains the question mark over Ashton's Dunamancy, and whether there's something more to be revealed or if Ashton's unique reality-bending abilities are - hopefully not - scrapped or underplayed to suit Daggerheart's style.

Of course, this is just me theorizing and I could be completely wrong, or just close to the mark like I was last time inferring that transformative states would probably be introduced soon so we'll just have to wait and see.

[rubenesque-as-fuck]

You're definitely not lovebombing, as that is something one chooses to do intentionally in order to manipulate someone into giving you something you want. But you? You're just genuinely expressing your feelings and feeling anxious about it. It's scary being open and honest with people you care about, but it's good to do it anyway. You can't get what you want if you don't try. I believe in you and I'm rooting for you!

Very fair, thank you for the reassurance! I often fall into the thought trap of "hmmm, is it manipulative to be nice to people I care about because I want them to be happy?" which is annoying.

But also, I can't be fully open/honest about my feelings because he's made it clear that he intends to keep a level of casual-ness to everything while he continues to process his own grief. This is not a time to confess that I'm falling for him, he's absolutely not ready for that yet. All I can do is show my affection through action. And I guess I just worry maybe it's too much affection/too many actions, if that makes sense.

[blackjackkent]

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[lieutenantselnia]

Imagine crawling under the Horned King's robe to cuddle with him ... It doesn't necessarily have to be a sexual situation (though it could possibly lead to that if you're both up to it - I mean does he even wear anything else underneath there?👀), but could also simply be a tender moment of both physical and emotional closeness.

Author's note: This was originally supposed to be an imagine at best or simply just me yelling out my thoughts about the Horned King, but somehow it kind of accidentally turned into a short story. Things you do at 5am I guess. This man probably has to much control over my mind at this point (not that I'm complaining).

The Horned King x Reader - Cuddling under his robe

It's cold this evening, though this is not something particularly unusual. The wind is howling around the walls of the castle, and you're snuggling a little closer to the Horned King as you're resting in your shared bed together. You feel his grip around your waist tighten ever so slightly, when suddenly an idea sparks up in your mind. Maybe there is an even better way to escape the cold than just pressing yourself up against him ...

He tilts his head, but doesn't say anything yet when you wriggle yourself out of his embrace and crawl towards the foot of the bed. You hesitate for a moment, but eventually decide to lift the hem of his robe.

"What are you doing, my dear?"

You can hear mild confusion in his voice, and stop in your motion for a moment, one of your hands pulling up the fabric a little while the other is resting on his calf.

"Just trying to escape the cold ..."

With that, you lean forwards and start crawling under the king's robe. The thick fabric holds off any light, so you let your hands follow the contours of his body as you move upwards, careful not to put your weight onto him in an uncomfortable way. You can feel a smile forming on your face as you finally stick your head through the collar - which luckily is wide enough to fit both of you.

"I thought it might be warmer underneath here, and I have to say that I'm not disappointed. But I also just wanted to be close to you ..."

The Horned King's gaze turns soft - over time you've learned to read his more subtle facial expressions - , and when you lean forwards a little to press a kiss onto his lipless mouth, you can feel him eagerly reciprocate the motion, to the best of his abilities at least. He lets out a content sigh as you rub your nose against his cheek and wraps his arms around you, resting his hands on your back. You allow your body to relax completely as you lay down on top of his own, and although he's not giving off any body warmth, you relish the feeling of being pressed up against his bare skin.

"This is perfect ..."

You mumble as you're nuzzling your face into his neck. Your eyelids are starting to get heavier as he gently rubs your back, and a yawn escapes you.

"Rest now, my dear."

Your king's soothing voice still reaches you as your consciousness starts to drift off into the shadows.

"Rest well. I will not be going anywhere right now ..."

[bigcats-birds-and-books]

Books of 2024: GHOST STATION by S. A. Barnes.

I've been intrigued by this one since the hardback release, but since I'm more of a paperback person I Waited™, intending to preorder said paperback.

Un/fortunately: In the course of my waiting, @asexualbookbird read it, and ey had Beef. Like. Enough Beef that I canceled my preorder and checked out a library copy instead. Library copies suck to photograph, my lighting setup for this was unhinged. So! We'll see how this goes!

[femmeloverboy]

The thing abt having slightly controversial opinions (aka believing in transandrophobia) means posts I have made might be floating in water somewhere and might have loads of notes. And I will never know. That's scary! I HATE BEING VAGUEPOSTED. I don't think I've said anythjng that warrants that but if u talk abt transandrophobia at all, that warrants being drowned and shamed to a lot of ppl bcuz to them its inherently bigoted for some unknown reason. Like isn't it honestly strange that ppl will believe you are a disgusting human and equivalent to an actual bigot for just liek. Believing tbat trans men face unique discrimination and that's it. Guh. I will never understand.

[cupcakewebkinz]

FULL ANGST IT IS, I'LL COOK IT, SIZZLE IT, SEASON IT, FRY IT AND EVERYTHING ELSE I PROMISE AKDHAJDHSJ

I'll even make a smaller joke version cuz I don't hold back when I write angst COUGH COUGHHHH, I don't wanna make y'all miserable, I'm already numb these days BAHAHAHAHA

As for the meet and greets, should we host a discord group or server or something like that? I think it'll help letting people know when we are available way easier but of course, if any of y'all want! I can try making them since I use discord for years now shshs

TWO IN ONE LES GOOOOOOOOO WE'RE WINNING!!!!

Of course, take your time with it, but know that I'm a very excited dorito waiting for it hehehe

I love angst sometimes, I just suck ass at writing it (queue the army of fans coming out with pillows and compliments screaming "KAI NO SELF DOUBTING NOOOOOOO" lol)

OKAY SO I'VE BEEN ASKED THIS A LOT UHM-

Look I only don't have a discord server in the making because I'm worried sick about moderation issues, I've been in a few similar ones of my friend's own fanbases and I've watched them go from chill to extremely unhinged in the worst ways a few times and I'm genuinely just terrified of that happening to people here. I'm NOT saying I don't trust you guys, I'm saying I don't trust Discord lol

If I had more than just me and Loni willing to mod, I'd be so down, but right now it's just us two so I've been really iffy about the idea. HOWEVER- If you want to help out, I'm sure we can make something happen! I will happily dm you my discord if you want to chat about it, but I've genuinely only been iffy about it since I know what can happen to servers and the LAST thing I want for ANYONE here is for them to suffer through a raid or something insane like that.

[b-blushes]

thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3

[in-tua-deep]

sometimes when i have a Bad Dream where i wake up with the adrenaline rush that makes me feel like someone has poured ice water underneath my skin, if i go immediately back to sleep it just. drops me in the same dream.

so last night when i had a dream that i, a single father, witnessed a murder through a window and immediately was the Most Stressed because they knew who i, a witness, was and i needed to protect my 8-year-old daughter - obviously i didn't want to go back to sleep instantly

however i should note that sometimes i will continue dreams anyway even if i stay up for a bit. however, it does reset something! it resets the genre

so when i went back to sleep i was thrust into??? a romcom? apparently i, in a fit of extreme stress, hired a massive bodyguard for me and my kid to protect us. i was very secretive about this whole thing (you know, on account of the murderer, and not wanting to explain why i had hired a bodyguard)

however, apparently from the outside looking in, this apparently meant i was moving on from my ex and ✨finally dating again✨

i did not pick up on this misunderstanding but it was a series of hijjinks where i was trying to hide my bodyguard's existence, bonding with him and my daughter (and fondly watching him bond with my kid) while the neighborhood ladies were like. idk. gossiping over tea on when i would finally introduce my beau and trying to hint that they would be 100% cool if i, you know, was dating again and wouldn't it be so nice if my kids had another figure to look up to etc.

then, when i finally figured out that this was the belief i, in an apparent fit of insanity, decided to lean into it

anyway that's how my horror dream where i witnessed a murder and someone kept breaking into my house became a fucking. fake dating romcom.

[zipquips]

i rememorized how to solve a rubik's cube!

[kimtaegis]

Seeing you complain about not getting engagement every time you post while getting so many notes per post makes you seem so ungrateful. Do the people who engage not matter enough to you? My god. Makes me want to not engage.

without those very precious people whose support I can always count on I wouldn’t post at all anymore, they mean the world to me and I keep telling them that and express my gratitude towards them. I keep reading nice tags and asks over and over because they genuinely give me so much motivation and happiness.

why would you send such a message hours after I deleted my complaints where I even reflected that my negative feelings about it are a problem that goes way beyond tumblr and that I don’t know how to let go of them? and your first impulse was to make me feel even worse about it? that’s incredibly insensitive and I don’t think I even want people like that engaging with my work so by all means, don’t.

[ilkkawhat]

"i'm not that kind of person" i said, when a manager encouraged me to leave ten minutes early yesterday yet here i sit wishing i was the type to call in just cause i wanna stay home and write

[bugmistake]

the crazy thing about having low self esteem is that it doesn't just hurt you, actually

[dandyshucks]

[whispering] hey. is this good. i'm so scared fdsjkl (finished(?) guzbug ref sheet)

sweats nervously. is there anything i should add or change. looking at you with a deer-in-headlights stare.

[imjustexistingtbh]

post cancelled i want to die