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I might start transitioning back to drawing my OCs. I'm getting the feeling interest in GG20s stuff is waning and I dunno how much longer I'll keep drawing it.
#personal#not art#maybe it's the holidays but yea last couple arts for it didn't do too great#and i'm only gonna draw the au stuff if people are interested#plus i feel like the little mlp renaissance that happened over the past year is dying down#so i might start moving away from it#i need to figure out what i wanna do from here
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I’ve been thinking a lot about how Cass’ journey as Batgirl (more specifically after losing her abilities) directly relates to her perspective as a martial artist.
I’m convinced that her choices wouldn’t have been the same if she weren’t a martial artist. The thing is, when you love fighting, and when you’re good at it, you become addicted to a lot of things. To winning, to discipline, to having absolute control over your body, to enduring pain for the sake of greatness. And as someone who, same as Cass, lost all of that without consent because of someone else, I totally understand why when given the choice to be “mediocre for a lifetime or perfect for a year,” she chose the latter.
That’s what training is, after all. Your legs shake and burn to get that stance just right, your knuckles bleed because you can’t afford to let the skin get soft, you practice that kick a hundred times because you can always make it faster, harder, smoother. In the back of your mind, you know that you’re dooming yourself to the aches of the future, but you keep going because the idea of not achieving perfection is worse.
When Batman tells her “it doesn’t matter how long it takes, what matters is that you give it everything you’ve got”, the most painful part is that she had already given everything. Cass gave her childhood, her happiness, her sweat and blood. When Cass lost her abilities, it was the equivalent of dismissing all the sacrifices that got her where she was, like saying none of it was worth it. She was the best because she had earned it. So, even if she tried to achieve that same greatness again, the I could’ve been more would’ve haunted her forever. She would’ve mourned that potential for the rest of her life.
Lady Shiva herself is a martial artist, and she was perfectly aware of what had been taken away from Cass and what offering it back would mean. Refusing her offer was never an option. The proof?
Just look how happy she is immediately after getting her abilities back. She doesn’t even care that she’s going to die.
She’s great again, she has agency over her body again.
Her sacrifices matter.
Batgirl (2000) #9
#maybe I'm projecting onto her a little too much#but truth be told I mourn what I could've been every day#(i cried a little writing this post not gonna lie)#I'm sure leaving that chance behind would've killed her#so it doesn't matter to her if fighting lady shiva means dying anyway as long as she gets her year of greatness#batgirl (2000)#cassandra cain#batman#lady shiva
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(x) "Luca, my best friend and brother, and someone I'm lucky enough to call my teammate... none of this would be possible without you being with me through dorm rooms and billet houses."
#i'm gonna have to go back and make sure i transcribed the quote correctly but that's at least the gist of it#luca remains exactly the right size to tuck his face into adam's neck#absolutely dying about adam's side of the dorm room being perfectly neat and luca's being a mess and adam HELPING CLEAN IT#because luca helps him chill out#this was a great day for the fantilli bros y'all
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is this too romantic? am I going too far? is there any other way to write romance than all in, all encompassing, perfectly magical? no. this is fine.
#talking to myself as i write#it's so flufffffyyyyyy#i should write romcoms i'd really be great at it#except someone would inexpicably die or get shot out of nowhere#and then ya know#“dying in the rain talking about theology”#classic me#also fuck you bc theres so much i cant share anymore#because you took it all away#why am i rambling in the tags agani#no one reads anyway#so screw you you hurt me#but im not going anywhere#i'm gonna stay here and write this stupid fluffy romanctic shit#and love it#and then i'll write my dean and jensen and misha#and i will love that too#and someday i won't be so sad or indifferently angry at you#and maybe i'll get back to writing what i used to but cant now bc you took it from me#i should delete this but honestly no#i'm not goinig to#now im just curious to how manyt ags i can have#someone count this i cant math#anyway whatever#writing#henry cavill#whatttttttt
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VARGASTOBER - day 2 : johnny c.
#sunny's art#vargastober2023#vargastober#GUYS GUYS GUYS COME BACK COME BACK I DID THE ART COME B#nny#johnny c#jthm#oh no !! he's dead !!#johnny the homicidal maniac#man i was FUCKING DYING#i'm sick . ughhhhh#i already took a pill and now i feel better though#i think this is the first time you guys see me draw nny :0#great message on the shirt . thanks !#le copié a emily con eso de la escala de colores a blanco y negro y me funcionó . gracias emily . (tqm)#i'm so so so tired i feel like i'm gonna pass outtttttt#anyways . SCRIABIN'S NEXT !#and this time i WILL FINISH IT ON TIME !#hopefully ... i still feel like i'm dying .#a este sí le eché ganas (crying)#help me guys breathing feels spicy#also a little thing that happened#i was pretty sad because i had to give my friend's tablet back bc he needed it#and without it i can´t draw in ibis paint#i like ibis paint because it has a lot of pretty brushes#and then i opened sai and i had the prettiest brush ever there ?? waiting for me to use it .#soooo uhhhh#vargas#zarla s#vargas zarla
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time princess players how do y'all picture the MCs of every story
like since every set and piece of official art has a different hair colour, length, and style with every picture of them, and sometimes there's descriptions that don't match the images, which one do you go with
and do you make half of them look like your avatar or have your own designs
#dutp#time princess#when playing/viewing it through the ''story traveler'' lens#i often justify the hair colour changes in-universe by headcanoning that it's story kingdom magic that allows you to change your hair colou#by default i make half the mcs look like (taller versions of) me/my avatar (who's designed after me but with purple eyes) to some extent#but there are exceptions#like if the mc isn't white i'm obviously not gonna base her design off myself#except Maybe giving her my/my avatar's hair length#and if a spinoff shows the mc i'll often use that design#i always pictured zoya blonde until the salvia spinoff story came out and showed her with the light brown hair from that one set#it also described zoya as having black eyes which i went with#i didn't have a locked in eye colour headcanon for her before but i didn't really picture her with eyes that dark#probably because none of the album art gave her black eyes#though eye colours tend to be inconsistent in this game#nastia's described with gray eyes but that one album art gives her blue eyes#and on the flipside charlotte's described with blue eyes in one side story but her model doesn't have blue eyes#nor does at least one album art of her#i give virtually every mc long hair just because most of the hairstyles in those sets require it#i always picture cordelia with dark hair and ocean green-blue eyes#like a vivid teal colour. just fits someone whose name means ''daughter of the sea''#and sometimes i have her stop shaving her legs when she becomes a pirate because a) she lives on a boat#and b) representation of her leaving behind that gilded-cage life of fancy etiquette and ''you must become a perfect wife and mother''#in which she did everything society demanded of her at the expense of her own happiness#like yeah after escaping that i Will make cordelia stop shaving her legs. for the symbolism. and the fact that she lives on a pirate boat.#i always give aurora that pastel-almost-white shiny gradient dyed hair#because a) it's in half the sets b) it looks so so so cool c) it looks great next to the companions i ship her with#matches with novi and gives her a light-dark duality with selene's dark purple hair#idk her natural hair colour but i also give her the creepily pale eyes from Silent Night Rebirth#to match the pastel clothes she's so often in. this is not her natural eye colour either. hey that's p clearly a common thing in this city#i strongly doubt that selene's eyes are naturally that bright blueish purple
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HEY FELLAS GONNA FINISH LISTENING TO THE SECOND HALF OF THE GREAT GATSBY CAST ALBUM TODAY,,,, OH BROTHER
#the great gatsby#the great gatsby musical#cast album#i'm gonna cry#alr dying#jeremy jordan my beloved#save finch 2024
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secured an appointment with my doctor on monday to discuss upping my meds or changing them plus getting something different for my anxiety because I've been bursting into tears randomly and then crying for an hour to hours on end for a couple of weeks now and three family members and my therapist all suggested I look into updating my prescriptions 🤙🤙🤙
#i am having just about the hardest time (mentally/emotionally) i've had in my 20s jesus christ#good thing i'm gonna be out of my 20s in 10 days!! 🤪🤪#minus 2019 of course but that was a specific series of huge terrible life events that sent me into a tailspin#whereas 2024 i've just been...collapsing in on myself like a dying star#and i don't even get a cool black hole out of it 🤬#shit i've even been losing weight and have very little appetite and the last time i was so depressed i lost weight was uhhh#The Great Near-Deadly Depressive Episode Of Junior And Senior Year In High School 2012-13#so. that's shocking!#ann with an ie
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that booty hole song is stuck in my head again for no apparent reason so i'm here to file a formal complaint against you
i'm sorry.
DO YOU MEAN THIS, this song, the bootyhole song, that?!1?!
hey @drunkeddiediaz remember the booty hole song?! HUH DO YOU REMEMBER?
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ouhhh i'm turning into my grandmother [chewing on wriggley's gum]
#just me hi#the wrigglerrrr#love the word wriggle btw. prolly cuz the W is there but ya can't hear or feel it hbhgbsh#it's like between wiggle and writhe and it's Perfect hfsh :3#//AAAnywho. yea#she's always got at least one in her purse and the wrapper is fully intact. i still don't trust it lmhvfjs#idk what that woman is putting in her bag !! she is a real enigma lol <3#/anywho like i mentioned a bit ago i've been keeping gum so i stop chewing on other things lol#this is working pretty well ! ! i've gotta remember to bring some on car rides though bc That's where i fail to catch it hghfsk#//aaaand in the other news;#watched the deadp0ol movies. dear lird hgkfjskvjg#very fun fact; when i watch stuff i like going in nearly 100% blind. i am also oriented aroace so HKSKVJ#i Did scour pirating sites until i found ones that let me watch the 3 movies lmaoo ; it took like 2 hours i think. crazy hghfs#anyway i think the first two were just a lot more fun; the energy was great !! disney kinda tuned it down for the current movie :/#iyunno. the second movie gave a lot more than the third. and also who are all these people. what's a multiverse lmvajfhvjs#the movie felt like it was on the edge of an inside joke. don't think i liked it very much compared to the other two but oh well#oh i also didn't like the time-reversal. dude what was gained gfhshv - 3rd movie doesn't even exist to me anymore. dead to me <//3#/oh i've also been watching seinfield when i eat lol :3#i was watching dungeon meshi while doing that and it was very relaxing so in the meantime!!#it's fun i like it lol :33 it's just mostly friendly but when i do think it's funny i am dying hfhvsbgh#i like kramer he is strange pfsvh#//and i think i'm gonna write rnnnn ? maaaybe!!#i have a bit of business to attend to tho [straightens my tie that just appeared] so prolly in a bit lol :)#toodles!! send me on my way !! [gets slingshot as the song plays]
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Okay but I did finish the first Worlds Beyond Number episode and immediately picked up The Infinite Playground again and I do think anyone doing anything creative, anyone involved in a hobby- or fun-based community (like fandom!), and anyone who likes games of any sort or game-based media should check out this book.
#in this chapter we have discussed: openness to play as an adult. play regarding death and dying. altering rules (cheating!) to create fun.#highly recommend! it's great!!! it's also super readable!#cuz one would hope an academic writing about play and fun could make reading fun!!!#megs is reading#like genuinely i do love love love actual play as a genre because it really does SO much to encourage play!#anyway I'm gonna see how far i get before the episode bye#sorry not to be a fucking dweeb nerd about it BUT ALSO#read the book i beg of you it's not even long either
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Wyn's party met our enigmatic Lady Strahd yesterday and it!! certainly went a way!!
Highlight of the game so far for me, though. Like, WOW I love the way our DM plays her. Absolutely cool and poised and in the queenhood of her power. Suffers absolutely no fools and no insult, but spoke to Ireena with the gentle disappointment of a distant and disapproving parent. Charmed our fighter when we managed to break through enough of her hold on Ireena to politely decline the invitation to Castle Ravenloft, and then BIT HIM (for minimum damage) while he was charmed to show us how easy it was. Was so insulted when our wizard then tried to cast mage armor on her as a show of thanks for her personally coming to greet us (because that's how he usually sucks up to people, by doing random acts of magic on unsuspecting folks) that she backhanded him for almost his entire health pool and then BIT HIM TOO and reduced his hit point TOTAL to 4. And then set her wolves on us. He legitimately only survived because one of her damage rolls was a 1.
Only Wyn managed to avoid being bitten, charmed or compelled to see/do something against her will, and Strahd still made sure to get a little dig in at the fact that she "didn't tend to do things that keep people alive, historically."
Not to be a lesbian but HOT DAMN. WHAT A WOMAN.
#hush frenchy#d&d#i need a curse of strahd tag#the wyn tag#wyn bannon#i'm also coming to the rapid conclusion that strahd could ABSOLUTELY win wyn to her side if she plays her cards right#it's gonna depend largely on if the party eventually melds together but like#right now? after the durst house and the infighting and the wizard nearly getting them all killed because he's got too much pride?#wyn is painfully aware of how little regard anyone else has for her#at least past the surface level#now she's aware of just how badly she is trapped and just how strong strahd is#now she's cut off from a lot of her goals and the ability to act on the pillars of her moral sanctity#now she knows that she's really REALLY alone and has started to accept that her death is poised to claim her HERE in barovia#she is in a PRIME position to be courted to something that gives her a purpose#if strahd comes in and says dying is for suckers and these fools don't care about you#if she says come join me because you're not going to get love or care anywhere else but you could have RESPECT#you could have POWER#you could do something meaningful if not great#tHAT COULD DO IT
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The tragedy of Daenerys' marriage and overall relationship with Drogo is not lost on me, I get it, I see the red flags and the issues and the glaring sexism and inherent abuse of it all.
But consider: They're not real and the way they look at each other is cute as heck, Your Honor.
#sgldgkslgk#the way he's so protective of her??? and the way she's so protective of him????#and the way when he's dying???? and she touches his face his brow softens?????? hello???????????????????????? i'm unwell#likewise there are obvious ''this is survival'' problems with daenerys becoming khaleesi. she clearly had no choice in the matter.#but like?? idk i find her story extremely comforting and empowering actually.#the fact that she flipped a horrific fate on its head and reclaimed power not only over drogo but his entire khalasar AND#AND!!!!!! used the power she earned to show mercy toward others even those who she owed no mercy (lookin at u viserys).#i don't precisely know how her writing gets ruined i just know it happens so i get that saying this is prob gonna bite me#but as it stands now just finishing s1... i really adore daenerys and i think this is an interesting way to write a strong female character#it's not perfect obv but idk. i just. i think she's great. i love her resilience and i love watching her find her footing.#fate gave her a bad hand and she said ''alright. but i will do it my way.'' and she DID. she refused to break. she's getting her agency bac#i suppose it's yet to be seen if she succeeds but i am watching her v closely and i love her i love her i love her.#i also love her and drogo but i'm willing to accept that as my problematic otp skgslgkslksdl they're just. so soft. he's so proud of her an#idk man don't look at me. i like them a lot. they are my guilty pleasure and i'm sad drogo is dead.#there's no love between them at first but no one can convince me that there was no love by the end.#merri watches game of thrones
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I don’t want to start drama but I’ve seen some concerning posts floating around about how distasteful and disappointing it is to see certain creators “support” Dorian and I hate to break it to you guys, but if you’ve ever interacted, shared or created anything regarding The Arcana you are supporting Dorian yourselves.
Being in the fandom alone is supporting Dorian by creating engagement, publicizing the game and being part of the audience they’re trying to target.
And even if you were to delete your whole blog and everything you’ve ever posted to enjoy the original game in private you would still be supporting Dorian by bringing traffic to the app they now own.
The one and only way you have to stop supporting Dorian, if you care about it so much, would be to distance yourself from the series entirely and go join another fandom. Never play the original game ever again and never interact with any fan creation regarding it from now on. 👋
#you're basically saying you dislike people supporting the company by working with it#while you yourself are supporting the company but indirectly by giving visibility to their brand#let's be coherent please#I personally don't care about dorian just like I never cared about nix hydra#but I still like the game so I'm gonna cherry pick whatever I want#and full offence but between this and continuous character and ship discourse you guys are unsufferable lol#you're murdering the fandom from the inside by being toxic af and finding the most bullshit excuses to attack artists for shit#that doesn't matter and then you turn around and whine and wonder why the fandom is dying and no one is posting anything new anymore#like MMMMMMMMMNHHHHHHH 🤔🤔🤔#it's a mystery I wonder why#mentioning this because I also saw some discourse about dorian being awful for supporting quote unquote tOxIc and aBuSiVe ships 😨😨😨😨#with the most basic and vanilla couple I've ever seen here#like nix hydra was never great either but I've never ever seen posts claiming that if you support them you must be an awful person#what changed exactly?#it sounds to me that you guys are just really bitter that the new quote unquote canon content is... not super good so you're trying to#vent your frustration in any way you can#which means attacking independent artists who use the platform because it's easier to reach and demolish them rather than the company itself#I log on here to recharge after a day of work and all I see is people acting like twelve year olds trying to be mean like bruh#it's literally the hom3stuck 2 fandom situation I called it#tagging this as discourse so you can blacklist it if you don't wanna be annoyed#discourse#the arcana#dorian era#not art
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Spending a lot of time and money to make a custom bright red leather jacket just to be the specialist man in the bakery section of the grocery store was such a great investment. I love my red jacket. Everyone should make their own special jacket
#textpost#I love my black jacket with the jackalope and terminator skull and cyborg demon skull on it too#But the red one has a thermal liner and the pockets are more comfortable#Even though it's the same exact size as the black one it's like very very slightly shorter??#Which is fine until I need to zip it up and then it looks kinda dumb#But honestly I never zip these things up anyway because they also have laced sides and#well. with all my belts stuff too.. then with the jacket zipped up it's kinda like#Who's this guy with the very fitted slightly too short screaming bright red jacket with the slutty laced up sides#Doing here at the vaguely Christian family lunch and breakfast restaurant#See the problem is that I love being a bit of a special snowflake and I'm tall enough and look angry by default enough that#I can get away with looking a lil saucy and out of place all of the time. What're they gonna do? Get made at me about it lol#I've never had anyone get angry with me about how I dress/look in public which I appreciate a lot#But I get a lot of stares. That used to bother me but I don't notice now and it's funny going out sometimes with my#super self aware/shy sister because she's like 'everyone is staring at me/us :(' and I'm like 'what. who?'#I dyed my mohawk purple the other day btw and this new leave-in conditioner is great#My hair's like idk 8 inches? on top now and the conditioner is almost enough to make it stay up on its own again#Sorry this got long I'm exceptionally sleep deprived and stoned#Instead of Jack-O' posting I'm jacket posting tonight hah!#The shade of red I used for my jacket was fire red btw lol#I wanna put more spikes on it
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My doctor messaging me at 12:30 in the morning to tell me she wants to do a telehealth visit abt the side effects I'm having with my new Lamotrigine dose (including worse insomnia than my usual insomnia, as u may have guessed lmao) is. something.
#text post#like i know why i am awake babe why are YOU awake this late#and god why do we have to do another visit#they aren't bad enough to make me stop this dose and i haven't been on the new dose long enough to let it even out#can i not just Not have to do another uncomfortable visit where even if things turn out okay after#i later feel like I'm still not being wholly trusted/treated like i know my body and how i feel#i had worse side effects restarting this med months ago and we didn't have any additional visits for that#they fucking forgot to even book me for a f/u and i had to call in and beg for one basically#and then they misbooked it for the wrong reason and with the wrong doctor#and made it out like it was my fault when i made clear i begged and told the receptionist i spoke to to book said appt#that it needed to b with my doc for the Lamotrigine and that i hadn't been told when to follow up so i was just. doing it#bc she said i needed to but then didn't say when to book it#they're trying hard and im trying to give them grace but then this shit happens and like#im tired. makes me want to go into my new doc like nah never mind im fine. don't ask me nothing and i won't bug you with anything#unless im dying or nearly dead already.#would suck beyond believe attempting to raw dog life mostly again but goddamn. im so sick of this lack of stability with my care#anyway. probably an appt next Tuesday which is great#that's the week of the weekend that i work again and the week before my bday#(a bday I'll be working now which I'm not normally irked abt but. i am a bit rn)#so cool. yeah. let's stack anxiety and fear over a medical appt on top of everything else for that week#and that's not counting that this weekend I've been tasked with buying and getting signed a v expensive and rare figure#for my mum's bf and I'm kind of terrified im gonna fuck it up#he paid for tickets to the con the figure will be sold at and that the person he wants to sign it will be at#so if i fuck this up he'll want (understandably) to be paid back asap for that#and that's money i don't fucking have rn#i really wish she had waited till the actual day proper to contact me bc i couldn't sleep before this#and now i definitely cant bc like#it's dumb. but what if she takes my med away. it isn't perfect but it works better than any other med I've tried#what if she wants me to try a new one. i cant do that and b dealing with major side effects during the intense work schedule#that'll be happening for me v soon and then into November
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