#i'm blushing. a little. a LOT
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
doctorweebmd · 1 year ago
Text
*80% drunk re-reading battle of the bands on the porn chapters* wow this bitch knows what she's talking about
7 notes · View notes
halfahelix · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media
@ninadove wanted Felix fluff for the Anarchist Gang server exchange, so have some wholesome Felix/Duusu/Amelie doodles! Bonus under the cut 👀
Tumblr media
207 notes · View notes
blushblushbear · 17 days ago
Note
You're the sole reason why I've become enamored with the kitsune boys these past few days lol. Thank you, I think?
I can't stop thinking about their heights tho like omfg, you've got this near 7 foot tall giant, tall af Haru and then the munchkin that is Aki lol. I'm wondering how they'd react to a partner that's even shorter than that, like 4'10, 4'11 lil marshmallow?
Aw shucks, you're too sweet
Tumblr media
Welcome to fox boy hell! <3
but 2 a quick asides,
when I heard that Fuyu was like seven feet tall I used my own height plus the difference between mine and his to see if cha boy could even clear my doors-- he could barely
recently I was at work and a manager was resetting a shelf and I was like 'wait, hold on, you can't put that product up that high, no one's gonna be able to reach it' (she's very tall) and she was like 'wait, okay, you try and get it from this height then-- how taller are you btw??' '5 foot 5' queue her looking at me like 'GIRL, YOU ARE NOT 5 FOOT 5'
we ended up calling over the shortest people who were working to test the theory and she goes 'Guys, Emma thinks she's 5 foot 5' which eventually lead to a debate of my height between me and them where they ended up getting a tape measure and measuring me.......... I am apparently 5''3........ (in my words 'man, fuck y'all, I hate you guys, I'm going on my lunch break <:''c') (...........also yes I did test the theory later that night by myself.... I am 5''3......)
so in conclusion Fuyu could not actually clear the doorways in my home lmao....
...also I am shorter than all Kitsune...
ANYWAYS
Aki:
Thinks it's cute and low key loves that there is someone shorter than him
10000% believes it adds to your charm
loves being the big spoon
loves being able to bear hug you
loves to scoop you up in a hug
Haru:
Also thinks it's cute
thinks your very precious
loves having this sweet little love to tower over when he kabedons you
loves to pick you up--- bear hug, bridal carry, just straight up off the ground
teases you about it but honestly FUCKIN LOVES IT
WILL rest his chin or arm on your head/shoulders
his precious little love
will DEF put things on high shelves to tease/mess with you/as a power move
also to see you reach for it lol
Fuyu:
PROTECTIVE
also a little worried about how he towers over you so much
constantly worried he might crush you if he puts too much weight on you
will get things off of high places for you without being asked
will treat you a bit like your delicate and fragile sometimes
is a little embrassed with the height difference between you two
but mostly just thinks it's cute
you're his sweet little mochi
little dumpling
tiny snow drop <3
17 notes · View notes
dont-open-dead-inside-25 · 6 months ago
Text
*voice of boy who just experienced romantic/sexual attraction for the first time* did you guys see that. that was insane. wdym you live like this
32 notes · View notes
screechingfromthevoid · 4 months ago
Text
Orym growing his hair out while Dorians gone because he's not really taking care of himself makes for an EXCELLENT gay hair cutting fic
30 notes · View notes
sysig · 1 year ago
Photo
Tumblr media Tumblr media
Wander-ful! (Patreon)
64 notes · View notes
ace-mage-bl · 1 year ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
Avan and Ace from Jock Studio
36 notes · View notes
thissmycomingofage · 10 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
4 notes · View notes
boxwinebaddie · 6 months ago
Note
Miss Ninaa!! When are you free for the summer???
hello, sweetling! and good morning, good afternoon or good night wherever it is that you are. <3 regardless of the time of day, please just know that the world around you is brighter bc you're in it. c':
so i just want to start out by saying that i know i say this a lot...but i cannot tell you what it means to me that you guys care enough about me to be curious about the trajectory of my offline life.
...like, i really just have the sweetest anons in the world, huh? ;-;
i feel unbelievably blessed and count my lucky stars everyday because of each and everyone of you. thank you for being your lovely, lovely selves and caring not only about me as a person but my silly and strange au styles from hell.
speaking of, i am aware that it does not seem like it because of how sporadically i post ncu related content ( if at all ) but i am trying to work on some stuff...as you know well by now, i like to really take my time putting out my work because the quality of the content that you read is paramount to me. you are all far too near and dear to my heart to receive lame, rushed, unclear boof ass content from me.
like...i simply will not do it. thank you for your paitence.
( i will say that i am specifically working on an ask about the greenhouse kiss which AAAAAA giggling, twirling my hair and kicking my feet, like it is SOOOOO satisfying, holy shit! it's also very, very important to the plot which is why i have been taking my time on it. i do hope to put it out today but i am trying not to make promises that i can't keep, get your hopes and dreams up just to dash them and most unfortunately, i do not have a great track record in that regard. i know it's kind of a bummer...but i like to be honest w/ y'all. )
ANYWAYS!
without further ado, here's a little glimpse into my life. xx
again, thank you for asking...that is very cute of you. c': <333
( this is lengthy and lowkey irrelevant. you can absolutely skip this but i think that i am pretty informative in here, so it might be useful? idk. )
so actually, my summer is pretty busy and jam-packed for the most part! or, the first two months are, at least. because i decided to take on summer camp here at the school i work on! camp counsellor nina!
i decided to nab a summer camp supervising position for a couple of reasons. like, obviously, teaching does not pay that much, so really, i need to make all the money i can while i can. don't worry about me tho, guys. bc actually am doing extremely well for myself. <333
( i am a very lucky person, haha -- god nerfed me by being mentally ill, but did make me pretty and personable...which gets me far in life. on the topic of mental illness [ of which i am very ] today i should fare quite well bc other than having a mild headache and being lowkey naseous because my mood stabilizer has that side effect for me...it is worth it when i rem(ember) to take it because it makes me very calm and level, so i am better at responding to my asks/doing my tasks. )
another reason is it keeps me busy...when i am not constantly busy, i get very depressed and fall into gnarly sprials. my job has a lot of downtime and when i am not running around like crazy because a bunch of teachers are out, i'm bored as fuck and i get lazy or restless.
very lame...this summer, i will be looking for a different job ( fml, if you are my boss, don't read this ) and i am a bad procrastinator so i missed the deadline for a fuck ton of teaching positions, but hopefully i can find something in the realm of associate or assistant teaching because....lmao, point and laugh but i am still a little too nervous to teach a whole class by myself. if kids get disadvantaged academically because i am too incompetent at teaching, i will die.
but yeah...if i am still babysitting fourteen year olds after this ( they did grow on me, but it's really not my speed ) please also point and laugh because i would rather go back to retail...yes, i am desperate.
on the subject of teaching kids that are in my wheelhouse and doing stuff my speed, summer camp is actually all k-5 so i will FINALLY being doing a majority of my teaching in the age group that i have my literal credential in. YAY! it's going to be hot as shit where i am over the summer, probably also tiring as shit ( have you seen how little kids act in the summer? ) but i am so fkn exCITED to work with the littles HEEEEELLL YES, BROTHER! uncle nina will be Vibing! <333
so for the first four weeks i am doing general camp stuff, getting a feel for stuff and wokring with all the grade levels...but the LAST two weeks, i get to specifically associate teach in the kindergarten classroom and AAAAAAAA!!!!! I FKN LOVE THE KINDERS!!!!! i visit them every other day because, again, i am bored as shit and they need help over there so i usually hang out with them in PE and play hula hoop tag with them...rn they are learning how to jump rope. soooo stinking cute, oh my god.
-- BUT YES I AM SOOOOO FREAKING STOKED YOU GUYS LIKE I WAS MADE FOR THIS BROTHER. i am gonna wear so many crazy outfits and do such weird makeup pray it doesn't melt off my face.
also, during camp, they go on little field trips and things, hopefully swimming, ( uncle nina is mermaid nina ) and feed you the same stuff as the campers so i get to eat like a nasty frat boy and have pizza and pasta and stuff, which, let me tell you, i am genuinely stoked because they cater a free lunch for the faculty here everyday and it's supposed to be all fancy and shit...but there is a reason it's free because it is SOOOO mid. like it really is kind of ass. i don't know how they do that.
but, sigh, camp is only six weeks so i have to fill my time with other stuff ( also i guess that means in six weeks from when school is done on june...14th, i think? i am free? ) i hope to use that time to structure the fuck out of my life, planf or the future because i am hella bad at it and i hope to do a lot of writing! kind of a pipe dream at this point becaue all my stuff has been *british tolkien vc* actual shite and i can't finish anything...but maybe when i feel better, writing will come easier? when i am less busy and stressed? i hope so. and i hope you guys are still around if i am here but i Completely understand if you are not! it's been a long, bumpy ride. you did your dues and you are free to step off at any time. again, i do not blame you. i am annoying.
BUT YEAH! that's my summer for you! summer camp, hanging out with my cat ( her name is lily, she is very beautiful, very kind, very fluffy and dumb as rocks but she is my babygirl ), getting lots of sushi, going to the thrift store, doing self care stuff, doing less self harm in various odd forms specifically in the form of self sabotage, getting my life together and organized, finding a new job, bettering myself and the world, being kind, entertaining all of you and hopefully writing again! yay! i'll update you as much as i can.
and please, please, pleeeease update me on your lives! i know i don't always respond, but i read everything. my friend who won FIRST PLACE for her raven sculpture, I AM SO PROUD OF YOU BABY. my friends who unfortunately went through breakups, i am so sorry, please know it is their loss, you are stronger for it and i hope you heal, but if ravesey can...you can baby. also proud of my various friends going to college and my friends that are not! my friends toiling through their lame jobs and my friends who are dipping their toes in the world of creativity through writing, drawing expressing yourself! i love, love, LOVE you! thank you for sharing your lives with me.
( speaking of friends, i am specifically hoping to spend my summer bonding with my rant girlies and we made a little group chat and we are being so funny and chaotic and unhinged. i love them all so bad. )
BUT YEAH! thank you for asking my love! look out for some important in character asks, hopefully some finished or more distinguished writing and know that if i am not responding or posting, it is not because i lost interest...as you can see, i am very busy, especially as the school year approaches an end, my summer is a little busy, i fall into ugly manic/depressive cycles and am working on taking care of myself...offline. thank you for understanding.
and thank you for being here! you are troopers, forreal! you are angels and saints for putting up for me and enduring me never posting or posting really chaotic weird stuff. i love you. thanks for caring. <3
i love you and i hope you heal,
uncle nina, future ceo of glamour girl summer camp <3
P.S. i am specifically working on developing and post more about my other aus because i want to give you some variety and challenge myself to do stuff out of my comfort zone! so if you are excited at all about the tsot/tfbw nina stuff, please make some NOOOOISE! lol and if you are not i totally get it, but if you could give me gentility and grace, i would appreciate it because i'm insecure abt it. MWAH!
#hi baby!#thank you SO much for asking you are so stinking cute for this like omg i am blushing thank you so much#i am working on answering some asks but its slow goings but i am emotionally stable nina today so hell yeah brother#i love the greenhouse kiss ask but it requires a lot of context moving parts and me explaining stuff thoroughly#thank you for being paitent i hope its worth it#i also don't know how much people care about my dead ass fanfic or any of my stuff but thanks for fighting the good fight#anyways! camp counsellor nina!#i get to work with the k-5 kids i am so stoked its gonna be loud and very hot outside but fun and enriching#very stoked to do something entertaining#when i tell you i am BORED it fucking sucks like this job is so ass and rn my school is kinda going through messy drama#so it's not pleasant to be here i am not having fun#BUT I WILL! and i have a lot of fun answering my asks hell ya#wokring on getting another job holy shit please pray for me#but yah! trying to be a better me and come back into myself and write more comfortably you guys are helping me#thank you for respecting my time and need for space#i am pretty introverted inspite of my little god complex big scary writer routine and i get overwhelmed by attention#i never quite know what to say but i'm trying#write to me anytime i love you#also i had a friend send me an ask and ask me if their question is odd -- it's not sweetheart i just don't have an answer yet#i haven't shdslkhdld thought about it hard enough but i will get back to you haha y'all are unhinged and kind and so cute#ily ily ILY
6 notes · View notes
silverselfshippingchaos · 7 months ago
Text
Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media Tumblr media
ash and a.qua, as told by pokemon since I was digging up some old writing about them
2 notes · View notes
meownotgood · 1 year ago
Text
AKI NUI IN. KON HOODIE. SO
Tumblr media
14 notes · View notes
lindensea · 1 year ago
Text
Watched Porco Rosso for the first time last night, and was really surprised at how sexist and "made by a man" it was? I can't recall ever watching a studio ghibli movie and thinking that before. It wasn't even that the female characters were written poorly because for the most part they weren't. But all the men were constantly commenting on women's appearance and bodies, hitting on a 17 yr old, there are weird shots and lines, and the female characters' plots exist for Porco Rosso's
7 notes · View notes
longagoitwastuesday · 1 year ago
Note
I've also been reading the three musketeers and the thesis chapter had me Cackling. the clowning on learning latin in particular and aramis as a character constantly emphasizing that being part of the higher sought after and hard-to-get-into regiment of the king's musketeers is just kind of a temp job for him is so funny. character of all time. (also bazin wanting aramis to be a abbe so bad is so good)
Disclaimer that I was actually not reading the book, just giving a look and toying with the idea of reading it soon. In fact I was reading something else, but the chapter was so funny I've abandoned it and will probably start The three musketeers instead xD
Yes! Bazin was so funny. While reading him I couldn't help but be reminded of Smee wanting to leave Neverland and done with Hook's obsession for Peter Pan. Aramis dismissing being a musketeer is hilarious, but it becomes particularly funny after reading Cyrano de Bergerac, where Cyrano mentions being a musketeer wistfully a couple of times. While I was reading the play I kept thinking that Cyrano's aspirations were basically to be Aramis haha
The use of Latin each character (the curate, the Jesuit, D'Artagnan and Aramis) does was indeed very funny, as well as insightful. I ended up reading a paper on the command each of the four protagonists has of Latin, and I loved the comparison it established between Athos and Aramis. I don't have an opinion on this formed because I have yet to read the book, which is a good thing (it will hopefully keep me from rambling), but I found what I read super interesting.
The chapter was very funny, and I felt Dumas managed everything very well? I loved the writing itself. Every part of the chapter worked wonderfully as a whole to enhance every aspect, making the funny parts more fun and drawing a more clear lively depiction of the characters.
By that I mean, basically, that even from the initial interaction between D'Artagnan and the hostess in which he asks for Aramis and she goes "the charming hot guy?" we can see Aramis' hypocrisy and unsteadiness by a mile. It's hilarious to read the chapter and see how Aramis ends up contradicting everything he does or says, at times not even that long after saying it xD
Which takes me to the thesis itself. Honestly, I loved the topics. I know they're supposed to sound a bit ridiculous and funny, but I thought Dumas conveyed very well the air of some of those intricate questions of theology that seem trifle but have a lot of implications, and end up being of a very poetic nature (such as the question about how many angels can dance on the head of a pin, one of my all time favourite questions). I wasn't very interested on the topic of the hands until the Jesuit commented that sprinklers "simulate an infinite number of blessing fingers"; that's beautiful.
Now, the topic Aramis himself proposes is just gorgeous. The way he defends it with a syllogism is so clever of Dumas considering the link between theology and the development of Logic. Besides that, despite how unorthodox the topic may appear at first, as Aramis himself puts it, there is a lot of truth in what he says about the world being full of temptations and it being very much a sacrifice to leave it, and how there lies the devotional act. I ended up being very intrigued by the potential development of this thesis in a mix of appreciation of the world as God's creature, and thus the leaving of the world as an act of true love for God, of more importance; how instead of an easy surrender, the struggle and doubts are as much reflection of the condition of humanity's frailty as it is a more steady and full surrender to God.
The topic of Aramis' thesis is somewhat paradoxical yet sound, and reflects doubts, as well as an appreciation for the world, aesthetics and beauty; I think it reflects so much of what makes Aramis himself.
And then, again, there's the whole hypocrisy through the entire chapter (which is what makes it for me haha). The way he says he isn't defending a regret at renouncing the world while proposing the thesis, that the mere idea is sacrilegious, how he insists he won't miss it, that friends are but shadows and the world a grave, and still how his resolution wavers almost instantly with his "And yet, while I still hold to the earth, I would have liked to talk with you, about you, about our friends" (and what a tender shaking), only to end up asking D'Artagnan to tell him about the world in the last line? Hilarious. What an hypocrite xD
But how extremely charming and adorable, I must admit! I love how when D'Artagnan tells him "But how are you going to live while you wait for me? No more thesis, no more commentaries on fingers and blessings, eh?", Aramis smiles and replies "I shall compose verses". Truly one of the characters of all time xD
#Aramis#The three musketeers#Les trois mousquetaires#I want to keep this to find later on. I'm truly sorry for the tags#And I'm sorry for talking a lot. I honestly tried to keep it short but there's so much I wanted to talk about‚ the chapter is so good#In fact there are a lot of things I haven't mentioned or developed that I loved#such as the fact that Dumas waves the chapters in such a way that that of Aramis starts with Porthos‚ while the chapter of Athos#starts with Aramis‚ linking the three friends together metatextually as they are linked together narratively by D'Artagnan visiting them#I also wanted to ask whether Aramis was the anon's favorite character and whether they had opinions on his position vs. Athos' for example#But the anon being an anon makes it hard to ask#I wanted to talk a bit about the developing of theology through paradoxes and Logic at times and how fitting that seemed for Aramis' thesis#He reminded me a bit of theologians such as Dionysius the Areopagite and Scotus Eriugena among others‚ and even Kierkegaard#But I must admit I always think too much about Neoplatonism and it's been long since I read these authors thoroughly so it may be a stretch#I had a lot of fun imagining the potential development of the thesis Aramis proposes though. Now I want the thesis now haha#And truly‚ the writing of the entire chapter was a thing of genius in how every little thing has later significance#to enhance something else. Such as the joke with Aramis moralising about the food‚ the conversation with the hostess‚#D'Artagnan's overall discomfort as if mad fanatics‚the world as something to renounce but the instant temptation of asking for his friends‚#the way D'Artagnan reads Aramis like a book and how he blushes and responds in poetic yet theological terms with too much fierceness#The way he blushes and exposes himself#And the entire thesis Aramis proposes being a good reflection on his character (no wonder he is adamant on pursuing that one#and only that one‚ like a calling). How the chapter and the thesis are a good summary on his character#But also how those lines I quoted‚ D'Artagnan asking what hell do and Aramis smiling and replying he'll write verses‚ are as well#Truly‚ the writing was so good. And yes‚ I agree with the anon completely#Character of all time#I suspect I'd love him immensely#Even in this chapter alone he was everything I wanted and more of what I didn't dare to expect. Now I just want to see him plotting#I loved these fragments so much that now I fear reading the entire book and being let down xD#Oh but I'm rambling again...#Anyway! Thank you for the ask and sorry it took me so long to reply. I had a lot of fun with it#Too much‚ that's why I took so long to reply. I read and reread and then I wasn't able to summarise. Thanks for indulging me in my fun xD
10 notes · View notes
sliebman10 · 11 months ago
Note
1: Coming Across A Silver Moon. Cabin!Wolfstar is dope!
2: Seeing how Coming Across A Silver Moon is only one chapter...XD
3: I love how you write Sirius. Fun uncle, but he has his own problems he's working through!
4: Wolfstar, hands down.
5: The Notebook. Fred and George shenanigans call to me!
6: I distinctly remember the gentle care between Remus and Sirius in Coming Across A Silver Moon (Boy, how many times am I gonna mention this fic? XD), and the sweet end with them living in a cabin together!
7: Sweeter Than Ice Cream really made me feel for Sirius as he remembered his uncle and Remus helped him take the letters back to the ice cream shop.
8: How calming it is. There's always a general air of serenity to it that I can't help but love.
9: What A Game. Not really for you updating it, but for me reading the next chapters!
10: The only reason I'm even into Wolfstar is because I read your fics! Same reason why I watched Harry Potter for the first time, because your writing convinced me to try it out!
11: Hmmm...George and Fred shenanigans with Sirius and Remus!
12: I actually read Coming Across A Silver Moon about three times when you first posted it, and at least once more since then. Can't help it, it's the fic that really got me into your writing!
13: *Gestures broadly at this entire ask* Not like I ever shut up about CAASM!
14: Boy howdy, another answer with Coming Across A Silver Moon in it! I knew nothing about Harry Potter or soulmate tattoos, so I was wary of the fic as a whole.
15: No questions, really. Just a general screaming noise!
Oh wow. Thank you for the extensive response. I'm happy you loved Coming Across a Silver Moon so much..my first fic that you named XD. That fic took up residence in my brain and just poured out in a few days. I was teaching a Fairy Tale unit at the time and was like...a Wolfstar fairy tale is happening.
I do hope you get a chance to finish What a Game when you have the time/brain space. That one was fun to write.
As for Fred and George and Marauders shenanigans...that is definitely on my to do list.
3 notes · View notes
coquelicoq · 2 years ago
Text
hugo's sentence structure is so much easier on me than that of dumas. sure he will also include behemoths that make me forget what we were talking about by the time i get to the period, but usually those are just lists. in the first 80 pages i've only noticed one OVS subordinate clause (and it was very short). this comes as a pleasant surprise, because the author's note on the very first page of the book is the following single sentence:
Tant qu'il existera, par le fait des lois et des moeurs, une damnation sociale créant artificiellement, en pleine civilisation, des enfers, et compliquant d'une fatalité humaine la destinée qui est divine ; tant que les trois problèmes du siècle, la dégradation de l'homme par le prolétariat, la déchéance de la femme par la faim, l'atrophie de l'enfant par la nuit, ne seront pas résolus ; tant que, dans de certaines régions, l'asphyxie sociale sera possible ; en d'autres termes, et à un point de vue plus étendu encore, tant qu'il y aura sur la terre ignorance et misère, des livres de la nature de celui-ci pourront ne pas être inutiles.
bit of a mouthful.
#at first blush it looks intimidating because it's so long but really it's just four tant que...clauses separated by semicolons#even the mid-clause asides are easy to parse because of all the commas#good lookin out vicky. i appreciate you#les mis#the sentence with the OVS subordinate clause is#'Cependant‚ comme la lune allait se lever et qu'il flottait encore au zénith un reste de clarté crépusculaire‚#ces nuages formaient au haut du ciel une sorte de voûte blanchâtre d'où tombait sur la terre une lueur.'#the subject noun phrase is only four words from the beginning of the clause. piece of cake after dumas#actually i guess that's not even OVS since it's intransitive. what do we call that? can u tell i'm 15 yrs out from my last syntax class lol#french#my posts#also enjoying lots of little turns of phrase that i always forget about until i see them in the wild and get a little frisson of pleasure#like ne savoir que trop in 'Les gens accablés ne regardent pas derrière eux. Ils ne savent que trop que le mauvais sort les suit.'#and plutôt que...ne in 'il se laissa tomber plutôt qu'il ne s'assit sur une pierre'#ALSO i am finding his authorial asides very charming. like the parenthetical in#'Le hasard faisait que le matin même il avait rencontré cet étranger de mauvaise mine#cheminant entre Bras d'Asse et... (j'ai oublié le nom. Je crois que c'est Escoublon).'#or the way that the second sentence of the book is 'let's go on a tangent' and then fully 67 pages later he opens a chapter with#'One last word.' and then writes ANOTHER three pages#it should be annoying but instead i am just endeared
4 notes · View notes
inkskinned · 1 month ago
Text
she's singing in another room and my dog is asleep at my feet. my grandma asked me why i haven't found a man yet and i laughed. oh, you know. i like my house clean.
my girlfriend is also my man is also "my partner" if i'm in a professional setting. yesterday we went to a ren faire and a man mimed at me - you're together? and at my delighted nod, his baffled, you're gay? made me laugh. a woman with rainbow hair said i love the two of you together. you're both so beautiful it's absurd.
my dad introduced my partner as my "..... friend. or whatever" the other day. he knows we're dating. in the same way, i was never able to get my sister's husband to stop saying that's gay like it's 2008. he still uses the word fa***t, and my sister's defense of him has always been well, he's just kidding.
my lover and i dance to old music in a tiny kitchen. we judge new music together and take food critique very seriously. we watch love is blind before we fall asleep and agree that if they had a queer season, it would be bloody but also make for excellent tv. of fucking course queer people would know someone for only 2 weeks and agree to get married. what are you saying.
at a bar with friends, a man puts his hand on my wrist. got a boyfriend? and yes, i do have a boyfriend, she's amazing. i am texting her while i wander around a gas station named after geese. i am visiting a swing state for a wedding. in the candy aisle i overhear: she's actually like a lesbian it's disgusting. two teenage girls with packaged sandwiches in their hands, giggling. no literally, like. i'm not, like. okay with her being there while we're all, like, naked and changing.
my girlfriend and i tailgate, drink gin and cider out of cups. from the frat group beside us, a man corrects himself with one of his friends: bro, i mean, nonbinary entity, and it makes everyone around him laugh, myself included. he razzes his friend the same way i would have killed for at 19 years old - like nothing happened, he continues: you apply sunscreen like an alien. he does a little sassy (and fairly accurate) dance interpretation of the motion. his friend is laughing so hard they're crying.
i am lucky, i live in a safe neighborhood in a safe state. my masc passenger princess comes up from DC. i drive her for an hour to where all the leaves are a violent arrangement of color. we walk along the trails, letting autumn into our blood. in this part of the state, there's a lot of pickup trucks and trump signs. when we chastely kiss before getting into the car, i accidentally make eye contact with a woman holding her child's wrist. she looks disgusted. she looks fucking pissed.
two hours later my girl and i are eating dinner on a patio, soaking in the last warmth of new england sun before the chill of winter sets in. we are giggling and trying to talk through plastic vampire teeth. at another table, i see a young woman sit up straighter. i watch her watch us. she blushes and takes her partner's hand from across the table. shy, like the taste of evening has just become something deeper.
it's worth it for this moment, i think. my lover is still humming the same song she's been singing for four days straight and i don't want to kill her for it. her guitar is beside my bed. her toothbrush is in my bathroom. in a few moments i will make us lunch. we are lucky enough to have found each other. it is lucky enough to be in love.
#writeblr#wlw#i often think about like.....#being happy in a gay relationship is sometimes so odd#bc u can forget how stupid ppl are.#bc ur so USED to being gay. and u forget other people GENUINELY ARE homophobic#so it's like. girl pardon?????#but also there are moments where it's like. ohhh the kids are alright#like watching someone razz someone else.... so fucking wholesome#“lemme get this bitche's pronouns before i make gentle fun of them” .... i would have KILLED for that.#THAT is how u know ur accepted#not just tolerated#..... when ppl are like. sure ur nonbinary congrats but WHAT is this fucking sunscreen application#ps idk if "razz'' is a real word but someone asked what it means -#i've always heard it as being a term for 'gentle & friendly teasing'' which like#i personally notice more from my guy friends but is like - when a person isn't#LIKE ACTUALLY teasing u (it's nothing personal/mean) they're just laughing w/you about something#my friends often put on a little voice and call me an anemic little bitch#like 'ooooo the anemic little bitch is cold??? does she need a mouse blanket#bc she's SOOOO SMALL AND ANEMIC???''#and it doesn't hurt my feelings (it makes me laugh very hard) bc 1. i actually called MYSELF that first#and 2. i'm not sensitive about it!!!#a proper razz is when you are ALSO in on the joke - i ALSO think it's funny#for some people i personally find that when they razz u it's when they love u -#they've noticed something genuine about u and love u enough that u know they're not being mean#this is cultural and personality based of course but i'm hispanic#if someone isn't making fun of me it means they hate me . obviously.
15K notes · View notes