#i'm being so incredibly normal 👍👍👍👍👍👍👍

[gelphiegifs]

I've heard it said, that people come into our lives for a reason

[b-blushes]

YES YES QUEST SUCCESS! did groceries and LOADS of pages of photos (nor quite finished but i'll do the rest on the last day of the month) and then did not stall or have any other incidents while driving because i have been driving for literally a decade and am actually completely regular and skilled at it?? call me the driverrrrrrrrrrrr >:)

just as i was about to leave (nervous for the possibility of doing something embarrassing car style) i was like is there ANYTHING i can do right now to make myself less worried and was met with my old friend the thought 'PUT ON A HAT' so with the power of my 'laughing and smiling today' cap i gained +10 confidence :P And the thought 'if i could do this when i was seventeen i can do it 10 years later' on repeat in my head also despite this not necessarily being a fact that is universally applicable or true :P

NONETHELESS! VICTORY!

wednesday quest is 3 parts 1) groceries list + order first thing 2) complete at least one page of planner photos for may 3) drive manual car to appointment (i can listen to music whilst doing this! my friend my companion clancy the album <3)

throughline for all of these BE REGULAR. there is no need to be so so afraid hello. these are activities you have been doing for years without incident <3 believe in yourself <3 life could be a dream <3

[mcbeetlebeeb]

Perchance if your requests are open then I would like a modern reader with homestuck characters of your choosing?? If not that's ok you don't gotta if you don't wanna. Have good day

Hii, sorry for the INCREDIBLY late response, trying to remember how to use tumblr BUT YES I shall deliver 👍 thanks for asking question, I'll be doing the main four (ФωФ)

(and- hopefully I understand your question cause I'm ready to do this in head cannon platform- so??‐ 🫂 take it my friend)

⛅️John Egbert🎭

*deep inhale* NERRD

sorry, moving on

seems like the sorta guy to know fnaf lore, like all of it, I can't elaborate further

also he wears totally normal outfits with stupid stupid socks,,

silly socks, the dumbest you could imagine

I think at some point he'd be the mfker with some tape or a bandaid around the middle of his glasses to keep it together

hes a one pillow sleeper 😔

and by that I mean he has one singular pillow on his bed smh

he atones by sleeping with stuffed animals though

mfkin creepy ass light sleeper

and I say that cause I can fully imagine someone trying to get something while he's sleeping or even trying to wake him up

and he just sits up, all the way, no glasses john, eyes open all the way not groggy or confused

get this MAN SOME BROWN EYE CONTACTS!!

FUCK I THOUGHT THATD MAKE IT SMALLER HER FACE IS HUGE

no going back tumblr is already so confusing, sorry anon I tried to be funny now she's here

anyway..lord..

I think he'd forever go to bed at like a super specific time, and if he messes that up he feels wrong the next day

and that's all he'll tell you, "I feel wrong"

touch of the tisim probably perhaps maybe

listen his dad collected shaving cream and harlequins and clowns and stuff-..

I don't think he has freckles but more so little body moles speckled around his body

goofy smile, silly laugh, catch him snorting and slapping his knee n shit

tries to push up glasses with the nose scrunch thing, makes him show of his messes up teeth

an endearing young punster.

I definitely think if you'd be down, he's 100% the person too have nerf gun wars

something and John Egbert and a foam dart makes sense

and for some reason i connect that with bubbles

rip John you would've loved fruiter aergo

maybe, maybe more low quality photos of it though because idk

he has a strange love for...what's the word...

hmm.. eccentric things

he just holds them dear, think it's in his blood

who knows if that's a good or bad thing

expressive

I think you'd have to be, blind, deaf, mute and impossibly stupid to miss his body language

or just a meanie(?)

regardless not emotionally verbal, or at least not often, or- as much as he should

but physically shows it

like..for example if he was in a crappy mood, you'd be able to tell, and he'd confirm if you asked

and with him being expressive i would think comes with..what's the word again..uh..

responsive?

reactive?

especially to words, or touch

when he gets red, he one of them people to get red EVERywhere.

ears, down to the neck, shoulders, forhead.

dude looks like he's gonna pop a blood vessel any moment lmao

he'd be the person too have like reddened knuckles and stuff, cold hands, will press the cold hands into you for warmth

if he were to smell like anything, vanilla, faintly, all smells on him would be faint I'd like to think

☀️Rose Lalonde🔮

honestly my favorite to draw-

she is wrighting so many silly things for and too you

poems?

happening.

long strangely war letter back home love letters too you

they probably are never shown-

maybe unless you look or perhaps ask

she'd be...the best person to gossip over a drink with

tea, coffee, alcohol, water, soda

I think she'd be a mfker to sleep with socks

it's okay on some level cause they're socks she made herself

I also think not just gossip but she's like- she's a seer of light cmon-

she knows stuff

I think she may not look like it but she, is the ultimate yapper

and silly

silly Rose justice

shes a goofy goober too guys

there would be no way she's not

look at her friends

I think she'd like her hair to be pet sometimes

play with it gently, braid it for no reason

type of person I can see too sit with you on the porch as it rains

reminds me of mist and.. morning dew

chilly autumn mornings

where you can see your breath

shes one of them Halloween people

i just know she appreciates a crunchy leaf

*knits you this*

YOU SIZED OBVIOUSLY

also gloves

why not

stay warm

she'd want you too

she has dimples

both lil cheek dimples

I think she'd be someone to ponder her partner often

like, seeing a candle and going "oh perfect, you've found me here as well!" but she's in the middle of some store lol

or reading something, thinking about that phrase and linking it too you or something like that

something strangely meticulous

carefully, honestly, thought out.

shes the person too either meticulous take the time to paint her nails right

or paint them all fucked up, and then clean them up

leaning more towards the latter

am I saying that right?

she would smell like

mm, cold linen, and books, book smell

🌠Jade Harely🐾

ah yes

doggie

shes a sweetheart though

albeit a clumsy- narcoleptic one

she means well

most times

she has all the hair

everywhere!!

find her brushing herself

maybe???

maybe space powers debunk hair needs

I dunno probably pffhfhh

toothy smile

big toothy grin

I like to think she has braces

convincingly can bark and growl (before and after bec merge thingy)

probably got even more convincing dog bark talents

sit down with her and a good coloring book

entertainment for hours

she'd be up for most anything I bet

would possibly be bored laying around lounging

something tells me she'd have a thing with buttons

all shapes and sizes and materials

just- checks out as a Jade thing yknow

same with silly bands

somewhere there is glitter on this girl I'm convinced

maybe more earth glitter (dirt) than any other

but like, 🤷 I dunno man

can I pet dat dawg?

yes, pet the dog, dog longs for human contact

scratch that

contact

overall

shes just lonely, forgive her lack of "norm" social skills

brotha grew up on a damn island, with her dog, and stuffed grandpa

stuffed grandpa

I'd be a lil weirdo too

anon, I'm gonna tell you this now..

I've never read the books all the way threw, and I own 3 out of idk how many

so forgive me if this...- out of character

dirty nailz..

yknow how some big dogs have that mindset that they are little lap dog puppies?

her

oh you thought it was gonna be a lil head rest?

a lil lean?

no

blanket mode.

snuggle time.

accept it, at least for a minute.

I cannot explain why and I won't but, she gives me road runner vibes

just..yep, that's jade..harely..

what am I doing dude tf

also..don't ask me why, she would smell like pine, dirt, soil if you will, maybe lavender too, or more something..sugary? cinnamon?

am I making sense

⚔️Dave Strider📀

uughhh what haven't I said about this dude

hmm

I'm trying to remember what I wrote before tumblr rudely disrupted my wrighting and made me go back to the beginning

well let's see

eotushuf

here me out

this but on him

and it's soft blonde and and

there's spots that are missing from scars

and they go down to his hand,, and fingers

the hair on the side of the hand, you know what I mean

also has missing little patches

broad..finge nail

chews his nails

hhe.. uu h out of all of the four, probably the best to lounge around with

laying around

what's the word

parallel play?

being able to comfortably do yalls own thing in the same place

without a lot of talking

rhhrrgg

hes the type of person to 100% do the three hand squeeze thing

iykyk... (squeezing someone's hand to wordlessly say, "I love you")

and if you respond verbally, or even just squeezing back

he'll face away and do it back again

epitome of "putting on sunglasses so no one knows what I'm looking at"

you at you

he has..like stupid peripheral vision and uses it to advantage

I cannot say why but, he definitely has funky cool ties

just does i feel it

also, crackley

cracking his knuckles, his neck, back

when he stands it's like fine machinery sounding

clicking and popping in knees and hips

blonde

...eyelashes..

rough palms and scar knuckles

he smells like- a well slept on pillow ina good way- and also maybe

faintly of apple juice, carton apple juice..

guys this is buns, I'm so sorry truly, I'm also..so sleepy..😔

anon i hope this was right, and..to your request, I hope u have a good day (*^▽^)/★*☆♪

[futurequibblerjournalist]

Thought this was a rosekiller/jegulus blog but tbh I'm living for the expansion lmfaoo ermm not to be super gross but since you're covering more characters.... What do u think theyre like? Like ur sex/ual hcs for them ykk you're basically undeafeated when it comes to sex takes

Anyway big fan 👍

I suppose I've mainly talked about rosekiller and a bit of jegulus but this really is an everything that crosses my mind blog!! I wish I'd blabbed about Snape's gang earlier lmaooo

Just know I'm considering making "you're basically undefeated when it comes to sex takes" part of my bio, it's been a while since I've laughed that much (I'm very flattered, thank you anon my beloved). Anyway, I'm not too sure if there are any specific characters you wanna hear anything about but I'll just do a handful and you can ask for anyone I might have missed, alright?

(Please keep in mind that some of these are more ship-based than others vnjfnbjg that's just how my brain works. Also idk if you just wanted to just know about the work but you're also getting the equipment iykwim nvjfnbjgb)

Barty: Around average, somewhat skinny, crooked to the right, uncut, a forest of wispy blonde hairs crawling up to his navel and slightly up his chest, four Jacob's ladder piercings (he's also got his nipples and navel pierced though that's slightly unrelated lol). Ass-wise Barty is concave, he's got negative ass, if you're looking for cake here you're gonna leave starving. Evan frequently complains about Barty's bony ass digging into him when he sits in his lap. The things this dude would do in bed,, whoosh. Let's just get it out there, I'm a bottom Barty truther BUT only when it comes to Evan. I think it took him a good while to get there too but I've already talked about that here! You know that audio of Pimento from Brooklyn99? That's Barty but in the bedroom lmao. I think he would be especially fond of biting, choking, spanking, anything with blood, orgasm denial and semi-public sex where Evan has to do everything he can to keep Barty from revealing their location. I wouldn't go as far as to say Barty's got an oral fixation but he loves to give a sloppy blowjob more than what's considered normal. He also gets incredibly horny when Evan comes home from the gym all sweaty and he’s a sucker for Evan spitting in his mouth. Also this is not necessarily a kink thing but I feel the need to let you guys know that Barty most definitely has given himself a blowjob just because he wanted to see if he could

Evan: Slightly above average, competing with beer cans regarding girth, veiny, uncut, nicely trimmed coarse and curly hairs travelling barely above his navel. For obvious reasons Evan’s kinks are gonna somewhat mirror Barty’s but I do think there’s certain things where it’s different. If Barty wants Evan to get hot and heavy real quick he’s gonna put himself on some medical examination table with all his limbs strapped down and let him hold a knife to his skin so Evan can fantasise about chopping him up while he fucks him or something vcbcjcnv people think Barty’s the truly fucked up one but Evan’s just more quiet about it. He loves watching Barty choke on his cock, pushing the limit on what he can take and I think he gets off on his boyfriend being built like a cotton bud because it means he can see himself through Barty no matter if he’s fucking his throat or his ass. Spanking is a big one for Evan too, he loves seeing colour spread on Barty’s freckly skin and he loves the way his own hand prickles and tingles afterwards. I think to Evan sex is more about exploration of the body than it necessarily is pleasure (at least his own pleasure) so I wouldn’t be surprised if he’s the kind of guy who doesn’t get off every time him and Barty gets down to it (I also know some people headcanon him as being on the asexual spectrum and this is my version of that lol)

Regulus: Prominent clit that pokes outwards, outie, curly dark hair that covers just about everything, small but perky breasts (carries the weight of his breasts fairly high on his chest). The fact that I struggled a bit with both Regulus and James is so funny to me cause I’m literally working on a smut fic about them rn. This may or may not end up slightly tainted by that,, oopsie. I don't think about them as much as everyone else actually jvnfjbng. Anyways! I think James and Regulus are one of those couples that think they’re kinky but then you look at rosekiller and they end up looking quite normal. He’s got a thing with making James earn access to his body. Like,, “make me see stars by eating me out and if you’re lucky I’ll let you fuck me” type shit. It’s a lot of vaginal sex with these two but there’s the occasional anal. There’s more of Regulus pegging James though. I think Regulus enjoys putting on a show for James or just like,, a show for himself. He will masturbate on the couch just in time for James to get home in hopes that he’ll catch him. James begging? Huge turn on. I think Regulus is really sensitive and it's not unusual that he gets teary-eyed from his pleasure

James: Around average, above average girth, uncut, somewhat trimmed thick dark brown hairs that reach below his navel. James “Mr Munch” Potter, ah yes. Now that’s a man with an oral fixation right there. Regulus certainly isn’t complaining, he’s finally putting his mouth to good use, but damn. Loves trying new positions even if some of them have earned a slap on the arm from Regulus because it was too stupid. Likes overstimulating Reggie to the point where his thighs quiver and he grins like an idiot whenever he manages to get him to squirt. And it would hardly be James Potter if he didn't have a huge praise kink now would it?? This might also be me furthering my dom-ish Regulus agenda a bit cause I think James would be a sucker for being bossed around a bit.

Igor: Above average (even for his height), girthy, veiny, circumcised, thick black hairs that travel past his navel and up to spread on his chest. I’m going to mention the dreaded nonchalant piss kink that's not really a piss kink but more of like a piss neutrality (he does not seek it out but if someone came to him with it he probably wouldn’t object and also I think he's got this same neutrality with a lot of other kinks actually now that I think about it) and then the real star of the show! Homeboy’s got an insane breeding kink. He’s actually awful. He’d love seeing Charity knocked up but he couldn’t be bothered to actually care for the kid probably. He also likes ripping clothes, like getting to rip a hole in Charity’s panties?? Or just straight up getting to rip them off of her? The pipe would be rumbling at that. I don’t think he’d generally be the kind of guy who goes out of the way to do hard work during sex so positions like lifting his partner (even though he definitely can) are rare. He’s a big fan of doggy style and if he can push his partner into the mattress by the back of their neck while they fuck that’s even better. He’s hit the jackpot if he ever gets woken up via blowjob or if he can just turn around in bed, lift a leg and continue where he left off the day prior.

Aurora: Innie, shaves most of the time save for a thin stripe of hair that travels all the way up her navel (does not shave her body hair in general), above-average breast size (carries the weight of her breasts further down on her chest). I'm still developing her so I might change/add to this at some point, but I think the main thing for Aurora is that she wants to do things "how they're supposed to be done". She's got this vision of what sex is supposed to be and unless her partner introduces her to something else with thorough instruction I think sex is going to be fairly vanilla for her and I don't think she'd care much for it. I think instruction in general is pretty important for her and I think someone more dominating in the bedroom would make a lot of sense for her. I could see her being into lingerie or like,, making herself look nice for her partner. Also, I'm not sure if I see this as like,, a kink, but I do think Aurora appreciates somewhat odd features. It's not just "oh nice tits, great ass" with her, she thinks hands are pretty but she'd also compliment her partner on the way their collarbones look or the way their spine blends into the low of their back. She's giving big observer and I think she gets very quiet during sex outside of like,, sounds of pleasure. I could also see her as someone who'd enjoy those really horny audiobooks/erotic novels etc as a step in her discovery of what she enjoys

Edmund: Slightly below average, medium girth, hooked and slightly crooked to the left, circumcised, completely shaved (possibly waxed) everywhere except his armpits. I think I've mentioned this before but Edmund is the kind of guy who would consider himself to be so much better than everyone else over the fact that he's not into women because he's like,, saving himself and all that stuff but in reality he's just got no understanding of his own sexuality. His dislike of women does not help him either and to say the man struggles when with his wife would be an understatement (they still end up with two kids so you know, he got there in the end but oh boy was it an uphill climb). When it comes to his homosexuality much is left unexplored and he considers a kiss or some handholding (in that context) something he needs to wave his face over. One of his major problems with sex is also that it's messy. He is a shower instantly, strip the bed right after kind of guy. I think he's very slow to explore what he likes as well (I'm still debating whether or not the guy even wanks). He's probably very soft at first and very careful both for his own sake and for his partner's sake. I think he's a big condom user but if he doesn't he's 100% a it goes inside kind of guy because "that contains the mess". He's also oddly aroused by compliments on his slim figure. I've not thought about him in like,, a super sexual context cause I think it takes him a lot to get to a point where he indulges in sex he actually enjoys tho,, maybe I should do some more thinking about him sometime.

I THINK that's all I've got for now but whoosh,, it still took me a few days to figure this out lol. There are definitely some that have more stuff I need to flesh out for some of these characters but yeah njfnjbfgb here you have it. I hope I don't lose my crown of being undefeated when it comes to sex takes jvnfjbng

[quaranmine]

Re: your 2000 word fic

Jimmys relationship to the watchers is so interesting, especially compared to Martyn’s, because they’re in the same realm of thought with different means of approach (doubly if Martyn wasn’t born into the cult like Jimmy was).

Martyn’s realm of thought: God is real and hates me and I hate it back

Jimmy: God is real and everyone seems to hate that, and I’m not sure if I do

And like. Jimmy as a character is so [synonym of interesting] because he’s sort of a sheep. He has his own personality and opinions of course, but they are largely formed off of others and how they perceive him. Jimmy works well in group situations, but when he has to be alone, he flounders. So of COURSE when left in a high stress environment and isolated because of his red life, he’s gonna go back and try to find comfort in the gods that had a community. And Martyn, in turn, is going to see this and go “what the fuck are you doing, this isn’t good, the watchers are evil remember” to which Jimmy goes “they’re the only thing that loved me at face value”

Normal about this excited to see where this goes 👍

oh this ask is making me EXCITED again!

So, we're pretty close to the same page on this. Also this story is super duper AU to Evo. I'm keeping the same major story beats of things like 1) Martyn attempting to leave 2) the Listeners contacting them 3) the dragon fight & all of that 4) Jimmy being given a mission from the Listeners and 5) the Evolutionists leaving with the help of the Listeners. But the setting itself is very altered and the day-to-day life of the series is way different. (I.e. cult-commune.) It also won't be totally compliant with Martyn's eyesandears life series AU, just in the sense that I don't care enough to meticulously adhere to all the details. It'll just be kind of loosely influenced by all of the above.

You've also hit the same idea as me on Martyn not (fully) being raised in it. For what I wrote last night, Martyn was brought in to Evo with his family around age 12 ish, and allowed to continue outside education (Jimmy is very very homeschooled.) This basically means Martyn was old enough when introduced to the Watchers to not ever really be a true believer, and also a bit of a bad influence on Jimmy. Well, a good influence in this case. So Martyn definitely grows quite bitter about it as he gets older.

And in this case, when I say "true believer" I mostly mean that they believe in worshipping the Watchers and that they're a force for good. There isn't really much of a "are they real" for any of the Evolutionists because they demonstratively are. Now, for Life Series members who are not former Evolutionists, they may not realize Watchers exist at all. And for later in life, the Evolutionists may question if the Watchers are truthful in just how god-like they really are.

Anyway. Yeah Martyn's very much like "God is real and hates me and I hate it back."

Jimmy, at least in the backstory part I've written, is a lot more like "God is real and hates me because I'm a bad person, and I hate myself because I can't figure out how to be a good one." In this case, he feels super trapped in his incredibly sheltered life and questions a lot of stuff. But he knows he shouldn't question this. Doubting the Watchers is wrong. So he wants to be good. But he can't shake all of his, like, existential anxiety about being trapped. And then he hates himself more for that. He's kind of killing himself from the inside out with cognitive dissonance. He's finding it harder and harder every day to believe but he thinks that's his own personal shortcoming.

Martyn has kind of arrived at a "I need out because the Watchers suck." He has more anger about the situation and less self-hatred. Jimmy is not there yet and is instead more like "the Watchers are right and good and I'm the problem."

(This is also pretty in line with your comment of Jimmy being kind of a sheep--he is struggling much more than some of other former Evolutionists to put aside how he was raised.) (I haven't mentioned Grian much but I think he was also raised in it like Jimmy, but unlike Jimmy he's pretty defiant of the Watchers. Which gets him nothing good in the end.)

It doesn't help that being constantly literally watched is like psychological torture? No wonder the guy's mentally ill. Which I think feeds into the eyesandears concept of Watchers feeding on negative energy. Jimmy's general existential distress is like catnip to them.

And like, he DOES join the Listeners. They DO leave Evo. He does leave, and live normally. But that doesn't mean that he comes out of his choice to turn his back on the Watchers unscathed, and that he doesn't feel guilty. I think the "I'm the problem" mindset leaves him vulnerable to going back to worshipping the Watchers again later. He still carries this deep seated sense that they're right.

So when the Watchers strike back, and he's placed over and over in horrible circumstances like death games, at some point it's all got to snap right?

"they’re the only thing that loved me at face value” - it's completely untrue and exactly the type of thing he still believes. He's the one that left, after all.

[divinequo]

YOUR FAV DEE SHIP NOW [please👍]

UH UH HARD TO SAY

on the one hand the og ship of life x Dee is adorable!!

I originally wasn't a big fan since lif seemed very flat and plain as a character with not a lot of information about her. But I still thought the ship held good promises so I stayed liking it, THEN THE NEW EPISODE CAME OUT AND WOOOOO

we definitely got to see more of her as a character and though we don't know as much about her we do know a few things

•She has hardcore hallucinations (as a sleep deprived person yesss normalizing hallucinations is incredible! We love to see it)

•She likes to visit the abandoned carnival (super spooky n cool👀) and even cut a hole in a fence to get through

•Shes fery energetic and very similar to heavy in personality

Over all sick ass ship! Super cute and I can't wait for more scenes between them. 8/10

Then there's Diana x Dee which is.. confusing but cute!

Since Diana's only been in one episode it's hard to make a decision. We could see she has a slight crush on Dee (which I find weird since like... Hes a stranger to her? Nothing wrong with it just, idk strange) which is interesting considering dee and his family in s2 ep6 are shown to be considered "psychos" by most of the students. (except heavys 'friends' who while ditched his party due to the missing people around can be seen on his Instagram being by his side as mostly good friends) so her potential shame and confusion over thinking dee is cute is definitely really sweet to watch, however even if lif wasnt involved or dees intended love interest i couldn't imagine him liking Diana back due to the differences, while their alot alike in superiority complexes and both are or seem privileged still live vastly different lives, I mean Dee purposely humiliated her infront of the whole class when the teacher already made a inappropriate comment to her (that bordered on being creepy and bullying from a grown ass man) sooooo I don't see it as much of a possibility, however the creators did say that they wanted to bring Diana back in storylines but that now wasn't the time nor place for it.

Still, I give it a solid 6/10

Villhem x dee

Ooooh this one's tricky and I'm unsure

While I love me some good yaoi and gayness (since I'm gay) there's not much to go off, afterall vill was only introduced in this newest episode and we have no clue or confirmation he'll reappear (by GOD i want him too, and now that there's a actual plot in the modern age of the story that isn't just a 6000 glam flash back episode.. love those too but yk, I want spice) so the interactions are scarce, but the idea of dynamic where both are complete nerds but one is hyper dorky and pathetically cringe and the other is more sleek, sophisticated and well minded is honestly pretty hilarious and it makes for a good crack pairing.

7/10

[subway-boss-jericho]

(threataning with art anon) yes! Rambles! Also you are so incredibly real for imagining all that stuff in different mediums (I have had similar experience) wish I could make a full animated film. That would be So Cool.

And! At one time or another I think I’ve read through the majority of the aus, but you are so right I freaking. Love the Mech AU. And coupled (uncoupled) looks like it would a verrry interesting character study (in like a “I wouldn’t do this but ingo would. Huh” kinda way)

help I’m reading them all again

also! I am here to encourage prattling I love prattling (it gives me more ideas for drawing-)

Hiii hii welcome back thank you for continuing to enable me :D

:D Yayy I'm so thrilled you like them. I never know if people actually think my wild bullshit is interesting or they just follow me for one thing (wheeze) ((Which, to be clear, is still totally fair and valid. No shame)) Of the AUs I've uploaded, I think the one that has gotten disproportionately ignored the worst is Coupled (Uncoupled). I am fucking obsessed with the coupled twins, and you're exactly right on the money there because holy Shit it's Such a character-study-rich situation to put them in. They were my in my top 3 indisputably Favorite AUs for a very long time (along with Steady Tracks and Spirit Keeper as the other two) and while I feel like I'm not super vocal about them they're still extremely high on that metaphorical list.

Realistically I could never actually list my Favorites, for the same reason why I can't really pick favorite pokemon. I like all my AUs for different reasons, so I may like one aspect of a given AU more than a different aspect of a different AU, but actually Ranking them As Favorites would be virtually impossible. Just know that I'm horribly fucking ill about coupled uncoupled more than most of the other smaller ones. Some day I'll vibe check you all so fucking hard with art or animation or writing out of left field that is about them, and then none of yall fucks will ever be normal again /lh /j

Actually. I've been struggling to write a caption for this thing so I can post it for months. Check this out:

I'M SO NORMAL ABOUT THEM.

Slaps top of this guy. He can fit two people's worth of the worst existential socio-emotional crises in him. I love gel pens.

I've decided to keep rambling about whatever the fuck on this topic, but I'm putting a cut here for my sanity:

Anyway! I really did make this AU entirely because I saw a fandom trend and went Whoa! Did we consider The Implications! And then didn't wait for an answer. Considering the implications is actually the Thing I Do the Most as I am writing in general, as any friend of mine can easily confirm. It's how a decent number of my AUs happened. I also have a trend towards either 1. trying to make an AU that doesn't touch on anything I've seen other people doing or 2. is explicitly inspired by what I perceive as trends in the fandom. Coupled Uncoupled is one of the latter, being directly inspired by Diamond Crossing. God I was not normal about diamond crossing. I'm Still Not Normal about diamond crossing.

I'm a HUGE fan of fusion in media, just in general. I don't actually know a whole lot of examples off the top of my head other than steven universe, but fusion as a concept drives me totally crazy. What if you and your friend/best friend/closest ally/rival/enemy/lover/a stranger etc could be the same person through a process so crazy intimate and vulnerable that it forces you to expose your deepest weaknesses, insecurities, emotions and motivations fully and without restraint. Sure I can be normal about that 👍

But yeah coupled uncoupled isn't like, me looking at Diamond Crossing or any other fic for that matter and going "I could do it better/I don't like insert plot point A," it was actually me looking at diamond crossing and going holy FUCK this is the COOLEST SHIT I'VE EVER SEEN. I need to participate in this or I am going to die. Then I came up with a million different ideas of fusion stories I thought would be interesting to tell, identified aforementioned trope of using the b2/w2 DNA splicers as a plot device, and went. ohohohohohohhoohohohoo i could do something silly and fucked up me thinks.

What if fusion was great and cool and awesome and a coping mechanism for a trauma/grief and also not what you thought and also more than you bargained for and also didn't give you the closure you were expecting and ALSO you didn't know how to make it stop.

Fusion as a mistake. Fusion as a regret. Fusion as a character flaw. Fusion as a major conflict (that isn't inherently connoted about?? forms of abuse and toxic relationships?? can we use fusion as a metaphor for other nuanced things too?? pls let me have this /lh)

Anyway their story is extremely complex and just by listing off ^ that I am extremely underselling the level of interwoven conflict and complicated emotional states of all parties involved so please do not misunderstand and think that one of the twins is fucked up and evil. I swear i didn't mischaracterize them that badly 🤣 The main point of the story, just off the top of my head, is actually focused around the theme of vulnerability, conflict resolution, and the strength of relationships founded on communication.

Trying to avoid spoiling The Entire Plot because I really think Coupled (Uncoupled) is going to be my next major fic project but in essence it does get better and this new tool available to them only opens the door for them to be closer than ever before and express care and compassion in new ways unique to them. i might make myself cry if I keep yammering. i care them

God I totally just used your ask as an excuse to go off. I've been doing that every time you send an ask, actually. This is why I love asks. Tysm <3 And I hope you enjoyed reading or if you didn't and TL;DR then basically god i'm so ill about them.

Every day I think about how a friend of mine made an entire animatic for this AU and yet we can't put it anywhere because we both want to remake it digitally. thats going to be one hell of a day when that bombshell drops

Thank you for the ask, and as always thank you for listening!

Coupled (Uncoupled) Masterpost

[exotic-dinostuff]

Hey, my name's Dino or Dino if you know me irl, I don't see the point of an introduction so moving on eheh

If you've noticed I'have been in a constant state of inactivity in the murder drones fandom the reason being (in the most straightforward way) I have graduated ✨ and I am no longer in middle school (yes I'm under 15), but as some friends might know I am an incredibly anxious person when it comes to change, it stresses me out a lot, I left my friends and teachers and so did them, but it hits hard on me personally because I am an overthinker, "oh what if they forget me" "what if I had a conversation with them and I annoy them" "do they still see me as the same person?" When I'm stressed I struggle to draw normally it doesn't really help that I accidentally offended an old classmate while having too much fun talking and forgot how feelings worked (they called me an Autistic little bitch after but I kinda deserve that ngl, Im not diagnosed with autism by the way they just say I am because they think I'm weird)

I still make art but just not murder drones I've been just constantly drawing them for a year straight, I enjoyed it but of course it doesn't last forever, I am still developing my own OCs and I want to focus on them instead, I've taken an interest in omori and well, yeah I've lost a lot of interest in MD, I don't plan of leaving Tumblr or the fandom for my current interests this is were I met my friends and I like this place as it is, if I get more comfortable I will share my other art and I guess that's an update :]

If you have questions you can ask! I'm pretty sure I haven't covered all my answers but okay 👍 take care people

[hdra77]

hello hi I hope you don't mind me rambling to you but here we go anyway!! I'm brainrotting so hard over rw I need to ramble to someone From the deep magenta pearl from Shaded Citatel:

Trying to decipher the date system, this one seems to be yyyy.dd, or year.cycle. since there are three 0's on the cycle part, we assumed it goes up to 999 (since there are some numbers about as high as 700 in iterator chat logs) before resetting- like 1000.999 -> 1001.000. Now, here is the date on a log from the "I struggle to accept being a bug" conversation between 5P and 7RS. Takes place after the ancients are gone. (from dark blue pearl/dark green pearl in sky islands, the logs are chosen randomly from the ones i'll add below).

So, ancients left somewhere between 1514.008 and 1591.290. Here, the date on where Erratic Pulse participates in some silverist group. (I don't remember if it's actually sylverist or not, a (also from dark blue pearl/dark green pearl))

Here, when they find out about Erratic Pulse. (also dark blue pearl/dark green pearl)

Here, Moon announcing to the local group about Pebbles' increased water consumption. (from dark blue pearl/dark green pearl too)

BSM: Two cycles ago, my neighbor Five Pebbles drastically increased his water consumption to four times the normal amount. He has been unresponsive for a period of time longer than that. The two of us share groundwater, and I have been without water for almost a cycle.

On 1654.110, Moon announces that it's been two cycles since Pebbles increased their water intake. It happened on 1654.008.

Moon did the forced broadcast on 1654.116, 8 days after the increased water consumption started. 8 days of suffering Moon endured before she had no choice other than force communications.

On 1681.662 (keep in mind, we're assuming that each year is 999 cycles), 7RS and CW have a conversation about how badly rotted Pebbles is becoming, and about how Moon has been unavaliable for quite some time. From 1654.108 to 1681.662, which is 26975 cycles (and the average person lives about 29200 days), Moon is suffering with the lack of water degrading her structure (assuming she hadn't collapsed by that point,) and lost any way of communicating with somewhere between those dates.

Where am I going with this? I'm honestly not quite sure, but wanted to share with you just how incredibly long this all takes. All this time, all the effort Pebbles put into reaching ascention, fighting so hard for a freedom he couldn't even be certain he'd obtain- all worth nothing. And in the end, Moon still forgives him.

Ohh interesting!! I never even thought that those numbers were actually dates to begin with 💀 now i feel even more bad for moon

Also feel free to ramble! This is a safe space for any rainworld theories or just rambling about them in general! 👍 i love reading them

[sarah-sandwich]

Rules: Answer and tag 9 people you want to get to know better and/or catch up with.

Thanks for tagging me @monaisme!

Favorite color: green 🍏🌿🌵

Last song listened to: Our Love from Arcane and now Take a Chance on Me by ABBA is playing 🌈

Currently reading: oh boy. I've been hopping between books again. I'm about halfway through Lords and Ladies by Terry Pratchett and am a few chapters into Clytemnestra by Costanza Casati, but I've been craving (spoiler alert!) a really good romance so I think I put both aside for a bit and see about getting into the bridgerton books

Currently watching: I'm like 4 episodes into dungeon meshi 👍 I am slow and inconsistent at TV shows though. Also about halfway through a movie I'm watching with my husband. I think it's called Army of Thieves? It's about a German safe cracker hobbyist that gets brought into a heist and everything in Europe is like normal modern Europe but in America there is a zombie?? apocalypse?? just happening????? as a background plot???????? I'm incredibly charmed.

Currently craving: a good!!! fucking!!!!!! romance!!!!!!! I'm so tired of attraction at first sight that never goes any deeper than wanting to bone but being anxious and awkward about it 😮‍💨 I need to FEEL it! Why this one?? SHOW ME!! He was a boy she was a girl just isn't enough for me Avril!!! Am accepting recs. Save me tumblrinas. Please.

Coffee or tea: A cup of coffee at the start of every day makes Sarah a happy girl. But it has to be my shitty store brand hazelnut stuff with an entire tablespoon of sugar and a splash of hazelnut creamer or it's just no good.

No pressure tagging: @myarmsaretoolong @fieldsofview @incognetomisquito

Side note my cat was attacking me while I tried to finish this. Photographic evidence:

[starcollectorsilas]

this is just a little yap because I don't know really who to talk to about something like this so I'm screaming into the void instead, feel free to ignore <3

today i finally got pain medication that should help with the chronic pain I've been dealing with for roughly three years. I'm very obviously not upset about that fact, I am incredibly relieved actually and I'm really excited to see how I feel tomorrow after it hopefully begins to take affect.

However, this just feels very anti-climactic. I'm unsure how to word it (hence my unusually pretentious way of wording my sentences, I think it's a defence mechanism in response to the vulnerability-- detaching myself through the use of formal language), but it feels as though there should be... more?

I think this is rooted in a few different places, somewhere between the sense of loneliness I have yet to address since my mum moved out, and my need to prove that I am actually sick. Usually through every step of this my mother has been there, not neccassarily to 'hold my hand', as I first thought to put it, but as an observer. She was at least there for it. Through all the things I have tried.

Now, it's just like it's a normal night. I've talked about it a lot, persistent in my attempts to share how excited/nervous I am out the possibility of what a new medication may cause-- both in terms of pain relief and in terms of side affects and how my mental health may improve/worsen (at least if it worsens y'all can get some of the GOOD Dazai angst lmao) as a result.

But everyone else has something more important to do. It feels childish to ask my dad to just sit with me while I take it, I'm 15 so I should be able to do this by myself but there's just nobody there. Nobody's here while I try it, nobody will be there if it makes me feel sick or tired and I doubt I'll be asked how I feel in the morning. It goes past the medication, deeper than I could ever hope to pick apart in a tumblr vent post but this just to happens to be the catalyst for all the Feelings to start building up. I don't want to call my mother so she can sit on the other end of a phone line not paying attention for three minutes while I take medication that really isn't a big deal to anyone but me.

There's just normally somebody there and there isn't this time. There hasn't been for more than a year now but it's just different this time. Uhmmm anyway vent over I am now going to stop being a baby and take my meds 👍 I'm going to have some apple juice with them :3

[good-beanswrites]

sorryf im being mentally ill about hallucination event right now SO in the LCSyS au, would there be something like it :o? Like after all of it's over or something, how crazy would it be if Jackalope tried to get them all together just to do one last concert?

Never apologize for being mentally ill about Milgram content 😌👍 We are all in it together 😔👍I'm combining this answer with a reply to @kikithedeceiver (and spiraling out of control from both)

I've had a lot of ideas about the project being public in LCSyS, but was holding off including it for few reasons – the audience’s voices would conflict with Es as their own character. Knowing the public was watching would change the way the prisoners acted (even if they thought they were acting natural). It’s a long time that the families would have to deal with the public knowing about their loved one’s almost-crime. I also like the idea of this au ending with the prisoners returning to very normal lives. 

Buuuuut it is such a fun idea, and popularity seems an essential part of an actors au. So, I’m not naming this as canon, but here’s a pitch if you liked that idea and wanted to run with it :3

The team doesn’t tell the participants that they’ve been recording/collecting certain material to release. If a translation is left out by accident, the prisoners just assume it’s for a foreign team member – they have no idea how close/far Milgram reaches. 

The third trial begins. The prisoners are inside the prison, and on the final stretch of the trials. On the outside, Jackalope contacts families for signatures to release the material publicly. The team thought about censoring names and things, but seeing current fans’ investigation skills, they knew it was a matter of time before they put pieces together anyway. This may be super illegal but for the sake of the story I’ll say that family consent is enough lmao.

Some of them are easy to convince to sign off on everything, since it can raise awareness for their loved one’s struggles. Muu’s family takes the longest, as it would risk ruining their reputation. (They’re only swayed because it truly is a great opportunity to show off Muu’s talents for those modeling scouts, and she didn’t actually kill anyone in the end.) Kazui’s family refuses to release his info, but Hinako uses sway with her marital status to sign off instead (I pictured things happening fast enough where she hasn’t gotten an official divorce yet). Hinako still struggles with what he did, but she thinks he’s doing something incredibly brave now. I’m not 100% sure what’s going through Amane’s father’s mind, but if the murder really was in line with the cult’s beliefs, maybe he believes that Amane will be be a shining representation of their religion. He wants to show her off as their little golden child.

The experiment is published in its current form: music videos, voice dramas, timeline conversations, interrogation questions, etc. It’s brought to more than just science/psychology circles, though. Jackalope has no shame in marketing it as entertainment, hence the stockholders mentioned. He assures the sociologists that this will be a major breakthrough for them. He tells music labels he's got the new hit thing for them. He leans into the excitement of releases and merchandise in the hopes of gaining attention for the experiment. Needless to say, it works. Even though the audience has no sway over Es’ decisions, they are encouraged to make decisions for themselves on what they would judge each prisoner. There’s the same types of theory/analysis/discourse posts passed around. 

When the trials end, the prisoners are released into the world to find they’re famous. Instead of trudging back to their lives feeling that society hates them, they find tons of adoring fans telling them how much they understand and forgive them. Even if their final verdict was guilty, they have hundreds of voices assuring them that they are loved. That they are not alone. This attention really helps Haruka, Amane, (and maybe Es) who don’t have a good home to go back to. Not only can they reenter society, they are welcomed with open arms. They are looked after and showered in love. Some of the adults realize they want to use this popularity to lead the charge of social change. They create/support projects meant to help people who are facing their struggles.

And of course, there’s the other type of fame as well. Yuno loves answering fanmail and turning her karaoke hobby into a music career. Kazui goes from a life of feeling rejected and disgusting to scrolling through comments upon comments of men oogling him. Mahiru gets offers from fashion magazines and blogs to write up sections about self-love. Amane gets to live out her dream of being a performer, hinted at in her first two mvs. Fuuta is flustered by all the positive attention his appearance/voice is getting. Mikoto… well, I just wish him luck when he opens tiktok…

Which brings us to the live event! The prisoners have tried to keep in touch while adjusting to their new lives as almost-murderers-turned-idols. They’re amazed at how well-recieved the trial songs were. Those were some of their most personal, shameful secrets, and people relate to them? People love singing them?? People want a concert featuring them??? Jackalope encourages them to get together for one last encore. Some are thrilled with the opportunity, others are still nervous about the whole thing. Some think it’s in poor taste, that Jackalope is milking them for entertainment. But with a bit of conversing amongst themselves, they realize they all want a chance to sing like that again, and see each other in one place again. (It’s ironic because in my head Mahiru is the one to convince everyone to come ;--;) 

It’s strange putting on the uniforms again. Es is unsure about putting on their guard’s cloak. But the minute they stop onstage, they’re met with wild applause. They can sing their fears and dreams to a huge crowd and see in real time how it’s reaching others. They hear the cheers after each song. They hear that it’s streamed all over the world. All of them have an absolute blast, and pour their heart and soul into their performances.

[applestorms]

4, 15, &/or 25 for the ask meme?

hehehe sure ^w^ original ask game

4. If your favorite character weren’t in Death Note, what anime/manga do you think they would thrive in?

HMM. ok, hear me out: near in mob psycho.

admittedly i still haven't watched s3 yet BUT, even w/o that context i think he would be such a fascinating character in that environment, like-- mob's Whole Thing throughout the show is about wanting to be a normal kid and figure out his normal middle-school aged boy problems, in such a way that he Doesn't have to rely on his one incredible mental ability to fix everything for him. the Parallels of being this uber-talented kid that everyone reveres for their talents but also not really giving that much of a shit about that talent themself is already present. i feel like near would make a really good enemy-to-friend rival here, like he starts off totally ascribing to this idea of Well, This Is What I'm Supposed To Do while internally suffering under the weight of the whole Legacy thing before mob is like NO!! YOU CAN BE WHO YOU WANT TO BE!!! and flips his world-shit crazy style. also ritsu n mello could totally relate inferiority-complex-wise and watching them interact would be funny as fuck👍

15. Which character’s personality do you relate to?

god =3=" i guess L? i try not to be such a fucking manchild like him but i do somewhat relate to the overall mindset of not giving much of a shit about conventional social expectations. + sweet tooth, + obsession with light yagami. lmfao. i fear i may also be quite a bit like misa in some ways, specifically when i'm really excited about something/comfortable around someone i can go Full Stubborn Dedicated and get enthusiastic about shit in a way that expresses itself more like her than L. thoughhh, i think i probably relate to light more in terms of his underlying fears/angst/etc. so. idk, some mix of those three? ^w^ (you tell me tbh how do i come across)

25. At what point did you fall in love with Death Note?

HMM. good question. there's a couple points that i think might've tipped me over the edge from general interest to one of my most dedicated fixations yet, though it probably comes down to this: reading light's death in the manga. in part because it's such a Fantastic scene, easily one of if not the best in the entire series imo, but also because i kinda accidentally edged myself and didn't read it for years LOL. like i read the manga back in high school (black edition) but dropped it due to Circumstances and never ended up reading the last half of vol. 5 + vol. 6 until a couple months ago. oops.

also once i started to really get on board w/ meronia/the wammy's kids is when i think i Really started to commit to DN as a whole. "there's a point where if you start taking interest in wammy's house in the latter half of DN it's all fucking over for you," etc. etc. or however that post goes. really, it's once i started taking a Big Look at both near and light (around the time that i wrote this post, still one of my favorite astronaut rambles tbh) that i really started loving this series <33 (also the fact that this fandom has been great in my experience, at least around here!! :3c)

[shadowredfeline]

Three in One Response Post.

Responses to my Filipino Friend and my A-Pal.

First Response.

It would be fun for the three of us to play Ultimate Marvel vs Capcom 3. The only characters I use in the game are Chris Redfield, Amaterasu, and Frank West. And yeah I did choose three Capcom characters, because I'm sure you both can handle being challenged by either not just me, but also my brother and my BFF from Highschool. But maybe this might give us an idea of wanting to draw Shadow, Spot and Maxwell playing Marvel vs Capcom together. Even Caleb since he does play as Dante, and some of the Marvel Characters like Captain America and the Incredible Hulk and even Wolverine. But normally my BFF may choose Spiderman, Iron Man and Wolverine, since those are the characters he would choose.

Second Response.

Paul 😺⚔️⚒️: I didn't know you do enjoy making your Cars nice in the 90s. Maybe we can go somewhere together just the four of us. Since usually we would usually go to the Arcades or we can get Dairy Queen or Whataburger.

Debby 😺📱🖥️: I bet you two will love Whataburger and Dairy Queen. With Whataburger, they sell the best breakfast in the world. As well as for their best milkshakes and ketchup we use whenever we order some fries.

Paul 😺⚔️⚒️: Totally. And every time we go to Dairy Queen, Debby usually gets a Blizzard, while I get myself a Peanut Buster Parfait which is really good.

Debby 😺📱🖥️: And maybe next time not just the four of us, but we'll see if Windy and Scottie might tag along with us. I'm anytime they want to go to Whataburger, they would enjoy having their breakfast meals, and for Dairy, Windy can go for the same thing I would eat or my husband too.

Paul 😺⚔️⚒️: But if Scottie wanted Dairy Queen, all he would want is a Banana Split. That would be his favorite.

Debby 😺📱🖥️: And you both are welcome to do some 90s related things with us. It can be the four of us or we can have Windy and Scottie join us. Even when you, me and Windy got pregnant with Shadow, Tory, Spot, Riya and May.

Paul 😺⚔️⚒️: And not only we'll listen to some 90s music, but we can also listen to 70s and 80s music too. And we'll see if we can also go to the arcades or play some NES, Super Nintendo, Nintendo 64, Sega and PlayStation together. Because I'm sure I got experience with the PlayStation when Bonn showed it to me.

And for the third Response.

I bet you'll enjoy a delicious American meal. Plus, it can be something the three of us would have for either lunch or dinner. But for our A-Pal's pic, I was so Off the Record for Bloo to be doing something like that. Normally it would've been better if Frankie and Mac were to read them a story. Because Frankie and Mac are smart to handle reading the Imaginary Friends a story. Same for Wilt, Sheila and Sweetie to do it too. If Lisa always wants to do Foster's stuff too. Or if we like, we can do Cartoon Network in Persona 4 Golden by having Mac explore the Midnight Channel with his Cartoon Network pals. And Lazlo would always call Mac his Partner.

[capricioussun]

Took a drawing break lol

Anyway can u tell me about Horrortale and Horrrorswap and their personalities?

What a coincidence I am taking a break from drawing! Definitely a break and not procrastinating 👍

The horror boys!! Starting with the classic duo, Dove and Patch, depending on where in the timeline, their relationship is...a little rough. Almost all of my horrors started out as their classic counterparts before diverging, following similar origins as the original horrortale.

I'll focus mainly on "post recovery" though since, while still underground, both brothers are...not doing so hot! That being said, after some time to recover and get their bearings, things are a bit tense between them. Regardless of what transpired underground, they still care about each other, but both cope with what happened in significantly different ways that also clash sometimes.

Dove is...pretty similar to Rus, in a lot of ways. He’s trying to move into the future with his best foot forward, but it's difficult at times. Both literally and figuratively. He wound up with a lot of chronic health problems from the mutations that prevent him from pursuing life in the ways he used to be able to.

He doesn't let that stop him, at least more than he can help, but it does serve as a constant reminder of what he’s lived through, which can be just as mentally taxing some days.

Patch on the other hand. Well, he's still Sans, but...he doesn't trust so easy anymore. Which is saying something considering how "easily" he trusted before. Mostly, his priorities are him and his brother and not much else. It took a while (and medication) for him to really believe they were finally safe again, and it'll take much longer still to trust things wont just regress again.

He’s very rough around the edges, doesn't joke or even speak all that much anymore. He deals with his own chronic conditions, but physically, they're not usually as troublesome as Dove's. He'll ease up more with time, and he’s not entirely closed off to trusting others if they can really prove themselves to him, but that's mostly monsters alone. He'll probably never fully trust a human again.

As for the hs brothers, tbth, I have about three different versions of their origins (post diverging from a normal us) and I haven't really been able to settle one which I actually prefer for canon. Which means! Their characterizations are subject to change, but probably not *too much, since I'm pretty happy with how they've turned out thus far!

Focusing again on "post recovery" Coal and Rust...certainly have their own struggles with each other, too. They're haven't totally broken apart, and Rust has a weird like...avoidance yet protective thing going on with Coal. He’d rather not spend a lot of "casual" time around him, but he’s also very protective of him around others, so he winds up lingering nearby if new people are involved.

Coal has his own problems with his brother, especially with the fact he won't take advantage of the fact they're finally safer to heal. Frankly Rust would probably never make any effort to recover himself, he'd have to be "inspired" into it by something, but that something isn't ever gunna be Coal, and so that can be a cause of friction between them, too.

Independently, Coal is friendly. He probably comes across pretty similarly to a cross between Blue and Berry, as far as attitude and energy level, but he’s also entirely blind, which of course brings its own challenges with it.

Unfortunately a lot of his progress is due more to repression than actual healing. But! He’s...working on it. He'd be incredibly excited to explore the surface world, but don't let his presentation fool you. He’s about as genuinely trusting as Patch.

Rust...has a lot of hang ups. A lot. His belief that anyone can do better had certainly been put to its paces, and...well, he hasn't totally become bitter and resentful. But he'd rather just kinda exist than live.

Between the physical chronic problems, and the weight of all the mental ones, it makes every step into a new life very, very difficult, which is why he’s so stuck in his ways. With time, and with something somehow managing to push him to it, he'd do better. He'd never be like his old self, but he'd level out a lot and at least be able to enjoy the peace.

[mameillieureennemie]

I am so incredibly serious right now. Reading Come a little closer, has had me more engaged with a piece of writing than anything has for months. Please continue writing in this space! I'm just a random spectator and not a member of the community or anything but I cannot imagine that others wouldn't want you there especially after making such a major contribution <3

I hope that came out alright. Please feel better and remember that this is just your head being mean to you and not actually real! There is demonstrable proof that you are absolutely appreciated, i.e. the notes.

Jesus, got my titles mixed up. At the absolute worst time! But my point still stands!!!!!! I noticed we even used the same turn of phrase of your head/brain being mean to you, but that's because it's true and accurate. I will see myself out now. It is 3 am, and I messed this up entirely anyway 👍

Thank you so much, dear anon! This means so much for me, and I truly appreciate you sending me these messages. It's just been a hard couple of weeks without my medication, and, unfortunately, my brain tends to evade logical thinking most of the time. 😅 So I started feeling I was a problem when in reality, I'm not a problem to begin with. I just exist in the fandom space, writing my silly little stories and being immensely grateful that people enjoy these silly little stories.

I'm back on my medication, and I'm starting to feel a bit more normal again. I really am thankful to you, anon, and your kind messages! Truly, you are a sweetheart and also a member of the community! You don't have to write or anything to be deemed a member, you just being here is amazing in itself. 🩷