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i always feel bad for treating this place like it's a diary but man. i wish i knew how to be better at giving advice, and just talking about emotions in general. i just feel like i'm not helping at all and it would be better if i just shut up. it sucks cause people are always so nice to me and their words mean so much but then i try to return it and it just... idk i feel like it just all sounds fake and forced. i've never been good at dealing with emotions, so i guess it's to be expected. but i always worry that it may seem like i don't care. i do, i just. augh
i'm really sorry feel free to ignore this i just had to get it out of my system
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So I'm on TikTok too (I don't post anything religious or witchy there though) and there's a TT account called Hellenic Education that's posting UPG like it's fact.
Sure, some of what they're posting is correct but most of it is either only for a specific cultus or comes from a ... let's call it Christian-lensed view of the Hellenic religion.
People posting incorrect information like that is what got me into my research posts here (for the whole....like, one year I had energy to do them) and while I will never do religious posts on TT it does make me slightly tempted to write a few more posts for Tumblr I've had in my drafts and just never finished or formatted. I'm never here to tell people what to believe but I can aggregate information in a way to allow people to make more informed decisions about their own beliefs and practices.
#i still read pretty regularly#and i got some more books in I've been wanting to break down#i just haven't had the energy to put everything together for here#i am fueled by spite and stubbornness though#and i loathe people who want to gatekeep the religion#as a warning the one i have furthest along is about money and its relationship with the gods...#in terms of how hellenic religion was practical while still being revenant#and how the development of money and the development of the idea of money expanded offerings#the other one is about practical offerings in places like Asclepius temples in which they ate chicken soup#that one is fun and a hell of a lot shorter so maybe i could scoot it up lol#this has been songbirdspells yelling at clouds#I'll probably delete this later tbh
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Looks at you
I (basically) finished setting up my server come join please
#please it has like five people and it's really lonely right now#not a scav#UNimportant reblog#i'll probably delete this later tbh
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Want to start my personal canon da replay/reread/rewatch but 1. Can't decide on doing this in chronological or release order 2. I'd rather have like a group to analyze the stuff and be hype about it with 3. there is simply so much media for da and while I do own genuinely all of it I'm a little overwhelmed by it....
But I need to start on everything now before I have to go back to school and da:v gets released
#debating starting a discord for the millionth time but tbh idk if i have the braincells to coordinate one#but i probably will just attempt to do it all solo 🤷♀️ bc i am antisocial af#idk#jules speaks#personal#delete later#just a lil overwhelmed i'll get over it lol
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Feel free to ignore this but I think I might take a couple days. Just been feeling really shit about my writing the last day or two. Like it's... fine. But that's all it is. Bland one-shots, lukewarm takes, and overwrought poetry. And then I look at what everyone else is doing and I'm just... yeah
Anyways. I'll likely still reblog a bit here and there, but I'll probably be pretty quiet the next couple days
#personal#i'll probably delete this later tbh but i figured i'd say something on the off-chance anyone noticed me going quiet#i just. idk. sometimes it feels like smut is the only thing i'm decent at#and then i see everyone else writing all these deep emotionally resonant pieces and multi-chapter epics and it's hard not to feel inadequat#and while i've always been a big 'create for the enjoyment of it! numbers aren't important!' person#i have also noticed my stuff suddenly getting like half the notes it used to and it is a little disheartening#idk. it's not like my stuff is bad it's just. mediocre. it isn't amazing. it's never gonna be anyone's favorite. and that's fine but also..#well. i guess that's one of the things about gale i relate to. if i can't be great at what i do then what's the point of even doing it?#no one wants to bother with someone else's mediocrity#i'm not great. i'm not fast. i'm not prolific. i never finish multi-chapter stuff. i'm just. kinda boring
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man. I've been reworking a lot of content involving Act II of Home Is Where You Are and like. ugh. it'd work so freaking well in novel form but I just Do Not have the dedication or the drive to start from scratch and rewrite everything that happens.
idk how else to share the updated version of that part of the story with y'all tho, considering that Khalan's journal is insanely outdated now and isn't entirely canon anymore, so I'll probably just have to accept that I likely won't ever be able to update the story for y'all in the way I wish I could. >n<;;
#spectre says#text post#delete later probably#tbh i'm so tired of being tired#i've had like. no energy to write or draw#even tho. the ideas are there. i've got so many concepts going through my head that i could work on and turn into some kind of tangible art#i tried writing out a new outline for act ii but i got overwhelmed with all the changes and plot holes that still need working out#so idk if i'll even continue with that#even tho it's just bullet points#fhgdjkfg#anyway#the idea of writing everything in novel form just sounds like. SO perfect for the story as it is now#i'd love. to establish both khalan and antony as main characters and focus on what happens to both of them while in Atria#eventually having their stories collide when antony's side of things merges with what's going on with khalan and aya#it'd feel less jarring than how it worked out in the journal#because this part of the story is just as much antony's story as it is khalan and aya's#and he's ultimately the one who fixes things and has 'main character energy' by the end of that act#so establishing him as one of the tertiary main characters early on makes sense i think#but yeah. there's just a lot i'd need to do and i know i wouldn't be able to keep up with it if i did try to start writing.#IM JUST RAMBLING NOW IM SORYO#it's just been on the brain i guess
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I wanted to buy 'the song of Achilles' to read but I can't decide if I should get it in English or Greek. Help?
Is the translation any good? I wonder... The English names bother me but weird dialogue/description due to different structure in the English language bothers me even more.
#me asking something not about English in the American TM website#I don't really expect an answer tbh but it'd be nice if I got one#I'll probably buy the cheapest option tbh because money 💸 💸#not art#text#might delete later#song of achilles
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#not sure whether to take 33 hits as “don't write this fic” or not but leaning towards not bothering with the rest of that one#probably for the best though as do i even want to write a long modern setting au?#(i mean long by ye olde fandom standards (ie above 10k) not in the world where 100k words isn't even considered long (wtf lol))#also kind of hoping i can get into some other fandom or at least some other main pairing but have felt that way for a while tbh#even as someone who writes a lot of niche things and rarepairs it turns out there *is* a limit to how low things can go before demotivation#oh no!#but i do not enjoy the “will i hit on something more than 100 people want to read this time?” dance with sylki fic of late.#& if you add in a 'weird niche shit' factor to that the numbers are not what you'd called “good”#fluff and some specific kinks seem to do well? but again i'd be back to “guess whether anyone will actually read this or not”#which is unpleasant and tiring after a while :(#i'll finish the other wip though as it's more my sort of jam anyway#felt sad might delete later#two years ago my problem with this pairing was “they'll read it but they won't comment” so i have not had a great time here overall have i?#BUT ANYWAY
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Loser streamer bf x girlboss streamer gf *tucks hair behind ear*
#johnny's silly rambles#someone touched her sword and he was like excuse me that's my gf's sword and took it from them#he's me when she does anything tbh#sorry for german streamer posting lol#I'll probably delete this later too
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stayed up until 3am last night and doodled Syllian, now I'm wondering if I should post it?
#gotta be honest I crave positive feedback rn and I'm not sure if this is the way#cause i don't think it looks that good tbh? I mean I like it! but probably mostly because it's syllian#ah well i'll delete this later when i've managed to distract myself again
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whenever i put on a nice outfit, i almost always end up sticking my Guz hoodie over top SBDHDKSL (photo under the cut)
anyways hiii i tried to put together an eclipse themed outfit today :3 we weren't able to see anything because of a few factors but it was fun to give it a try!! we made a pinhole projector and everything LOL
also here's a photo of my crochet clown that I was gifted last week! while we waited for the eclipse, i brought him upstairs to show my mother because she was in a good mood and being nice today fjdkdl. I think his name is going to be Max maybe ... still trying to decide !!
#idk if a day has gone by since i finished painting the hoodie that i Haven't worn it tbh#I've washed it ofc!! i used fabric medium and acrylics so the paint holds up in the wash! :]#but then after washing it i put it right back on SBDJDKL its just... a comfort object now i think LOL#dandy.cmd#dandy.jpeg#I'll probably delete this a little later - limited time viewing LMAO
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I think seeing Blur live will fix me actually
#big blatant lie it will make me so so much worse#doing dishes while watching the Barcelona live stream and I'm ?? not ok#also wondering how early you'll have to be to be front row.....#also gotta say! some songs are better now imo? or atleast the uuh instrumental are fucking great#Graham is on top??! the band members are really outshining Damon tbh and I'm happy for it#not sold on the unreleased song tho... but I'll probably change my mind when it's released 🤡#delete later#oh and forgot- atleast in the beginning- the person who is controlling the camera needs to fucking stop pressing buttons all the time
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#splatoon 3#sizzle season 2023#splat poll#i deleted all those cause i didn't feel like making all those tbh lsdkfnls#i wanted to put all the weapons on here...but i can only have like 10 weapons#so if i added the new two i couldn't add some of the alts#so i'll probably make one for those later
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ㅤat this point, they're beyond wasted and vibing out to music that's too loud with several substances on standby for when the buzz starts wearing off. happy new year!!
#━━ ˟ ⊰ ✰ ic status ⋮ fighting a fight i'll win anyway.#excuse to make use of this gif bc it's one of my faves? maybe.#but mostly i don't want to make an ooc post bc i don't much care for new years#THAT SAID....... i do actually have a goal for this year#and that's to finally ACTUALLY take fucking steps toward getting a diagnosis so that i can maybe start to be a functioning human being#for the first time in far far too long#at this point i'm p sure i'm on the autism spectrum and/or adhd and only having treatment for depression & anxiety#and having psychs guess at MAYBE things like bpd are the underlying main issue#then not actually doing anything about it#has royally fucked over my quality of life since middle school (:#i don't like talking much about my life bc it's genuinely so embarrassing#but i figure maybe baring a little of my soul will help encourage me to finally take steps forward.#this is basically my happy place. my retreat. my escape.#and byan has effectively become my comfort character and a bit of an outlet#so while i'm out here crying about shit i just want to say a huge thank you to all of you lovely mutuals who have kept me company#and put up with my sharp and glittery little freak and given me all these amazing relationships for them#i'd be doin a whole lot worse if not for y'all you have no idea#thank you i love you and here's to hoping that 2024 is good and a better mental health year for all of us ♡♡♡#...there's a good chance i'll be embarrassed enough to delete all these tags later tbh#but i'm in basically the last time zone to hit midnight so it's probably late enough that most people won't see it anyway lmao
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I asked my mum if love is unconditional
She said it should be
I played it off as a hypothetical
Some random tangent from ethic class
But I think back to how she talks about
The T***ys and the R***ds and the F*gs
The terrible woke masses
Did you ever truly love me mum?
Or did you love the version of me with pigtails who idolised you and thought you a paragon of love and kindness?
I don't know if I love you
I don't know if I want to
You're my mum
But you're so so so mean
And you don't even know how much you hurt me
#It's been a while since I posted a poem#This is not really a poem tbh#But it's Christmas and later today I'll smile through so many shitty things#So tonight a crappy poem#For my mother#Trigger warning r slur#Trigger warning f slur#Trigger warning t slur#Transphobia#Homophobia#ableism#ableist language cw#trans homophobia#i'll probably delete this later
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woah rare other system part sighting lmao, here's a Guz drawn by not-Juno
#I was working with the base they laid out so I had to fudge some shit because they'd laid out the neck and shoulder weirdly RIP#like the head is too far over to the right lmao but I didn't feel like erasing a bunch of it to fix that#the hand behind the wrestling box corner thing is also goofed lmao#turning rbs off but Juno (Dandy is vaguely a cross-system name so it feels weird calling them that) might post the art later better#I don't know how they edit their photos but I think I maybe got close lol#this guys fun to draw tbh love a rough n tumble boy lol he's got the same body type as one of my OCs except Stasis is mostly a robot LMAO#dandyshucks#dandy doodlebugs#<- I'll add these just in case ig ?? idk Juno do what u want with this even if it means deleting it lol hope this is fine for me to post#ALSO THIS WONT BE A REGULAR OCCURRENCE LMAO I was just super bored tonight and happened to switch in during Juno drawing this guy#probably won't ever happen again lol#our drawing styles arent super different I think but also this is using a base they laid out so I would've done it differently lmao#maybe it is different though - apparently I'm not a good judge of shit like this bc they say I write and play accordion differently somehow#but I thought I was doing a pretty good job the other day of doing it like they do lmaooo but nah they said it was all noticeably different#I'm chatty tonight sorry lol been a hot minute since I've had any time in front but I'll scoot off now#💜so good at being in trouble
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