#i’m too shy to approach people 💀

[evildeerboy]

whenever ian hears even slightly indie music in my car he asks “what is this, do you know this person” and 99% of the time i have to be like “no ian that’s the hyperpop duo Food House i do not know them personally” but yesterday he asked “vylet pony? is that one of your furry friends” and i finally got to answer “if you count twitter mutuals i’ve never spoken to then yes”

[shapard]

Sun and Moon 🌙

Lucifer x bunny!sinner!reader

No one dares to harm his little bunny

When I pre-read the chapter I accidentally read Sailor Moon instead of "Sun and Moon." Got me confused for a second💀

Soft Lucifer, Violence

You didn’t know how lucky you got when you started to date Lucifer. 

His outgoing nature was so attractive to you. He was a complete contrast to your personality. He is an extrovert, and you are a complete introvert.

He liked meeting new people while you enjoy staying in his garden. He planted your favorite plants in this garden.

You cured his depression with every smile you gifted him. Sometimes Lucifer even spends time with you in the garden. Either on a picnic date or doing gardening.

Even though Lucifer could easily get gardeners to do that job, he couldn't resist how much fun you actually had. When a new flower started to grow you pulled him towards the little sprout.

You're so cute and innocent. How did you even get into hell?

You two loved the peace when you’re alone, no words need to be spoken. Just you two under the red galaxy in pentagram city. 

In the winter Lucifer holds you close to his body as his wings cover the areas his body can’t hold.

Lucifer was madly in love with you.

How soft you spoken and how shy you were in other presence. Meanwhile in his presence you were hyperactive.

You showed him all kinds of things you drew and painted for him. Lucifer was so proud of you. 

Ever since he found you in some bush, completely hurt and bruises scattered all over your body. 

Your little bunny ears dropped in fear when you saw Lucifer approaching you. Your little tail twitched when you saw the juicy red apple in his hand.

You wanted to run off, but the apple smelled so divine and good.

You quickly snatched the Apple out of his hand and ate it in silent, your eyes never left his figure. The juice of the apple is melting on your tastebuds, and you sigh in pleasure. 

This Apple taste amazing. 

Lucifer chuckled at your antics. A blush creeped on your cheek and your ears covered your face.

How embarrassing the moment was for you, for Lucifer it was the cutest thing alife.

 

You sat down on his couch and hissed when the alcohol pad touched your open cuts. “Why were you in the bush anyways?” Lucifer giggled at the flashbacks how you sat there in the mud.

“There were some shark guys. They didn’t stop following me and I was so scared… I don’t even know where I am nor why I’m here.” Your ears sunk a bit and Lucifer regrets bringing such a sensitive topic up. 

You've changed so much and grown fond of him. And that’s where everything begins. 

Lucifer started to make a little bunny that looked just like you. A quick reminder of his cute little bunny girlfriend that awaits him after work.

He lets you stay in his estate to protect you at every cost. You were too adorable to not care about you.

He just loved how your tail wagged when he showed you some of his newer ducks that were inspired by your art.

The walls in his empty and cold mansion started to fill with your paintings. The old pictures of him and Lilith were slowly replaced by your art.

But one day changed everything about your relationship.

Your blood dripped down on the cold surface. The laughs from the shark guys were terrifying. You were scared out of your mind. 

Your phone dropped in front of you, Lucifer contacts are complete on display. “Call your little lover boy.” You shook your head desperately. 'No.'

Lucifer was always helping you out no matter what. You don’t want to be a burden for him, but you found yourself always in trouble. You wanted to cry and disappear.

Meanwhile in the Morningstar estate Lucifer was going crazy.

He was having a phenomenal day with his daughter and when he came back. 

You were gone. 

All that was left was a fur ball of your h/c hair and a little note. The note burned down in his palm as he read through it.

The sharks kidnapped his precious little bunny. His wings sprung free and glides through the air like a knife through butter. 

He couldn’t keep himself from punching into the shark men till they were a puddle of bloody meat. 

He threw your numb body over his shoulder and flew outside, leaving the burning building behind him.

After that event your social anxiety only grew. Lucifer encouraged you to be more social, but it cost more pain than relief.

So instead he gifted you a high quality camera for a new hobby you wanted to explore a long time ago.

Photography.

How couldn't he give in when you looked so excited talking about stuff you wanted.

He left the whole pentagram knowing that no one would lay a finger on them.

No one dares to touch his precious bunny.

A/n: I couldn't help myself not to share this.

💫

@i-have-no-life-charlie @sirenetheblogger @concentratedconcrete

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[your-local-hoemie]

Can i request childe and diluc with shy reader? Reader hides behind them whenever someone approaches them and gets flustered easily!

Your wish in my command dear anon~

The more I write about Childe the more my conflicted feelings towards him grow. Like I hate that dumb donkey but I love him so much aaAAAAAA.

Warnings: fluff, gn!reader, swearing? I didn’t check through so I can’t remember if there is or not 💀, not proof-read.

Character: Childe, Diluc.

Childe~

God he finds everything about you precious

The second you’re out in public and you hide behind him when someone decides to ask for directions

Oh boy

He’s kicking, screaming, crying, giggling-

Ok I’ll stop

But seriously his little heart can’t handle it!

He knows how anxious you get in public but he’ll still “accidentally” pull you into scenarios where you find yourself tripping over your words and slinking behind him

He just finds it adorable!

And something about you seeking his protection even if it’s from unwanted social interaction boost his never ending ego~

He loves the feeling of being your big strong boyfriend who can protect you no matter what!

But if it genuinely makes you too uncomfortable he’ll stop!

If you suddenly find yourself getting overwhelmed and his silhouette doesn’t provide enough concealment he’ll promptly excuse himself from whatever he was previously doing and take you away to a calmer, quieter place!

Being a big brother and a surprisingly good one at that he’s more than used to dealing with this kind of stuff!

He also finds it a strangely refreshing change compared to his usual charismatic and outgoing personality

He always makes sure to remind you that you have nothing to be ashamed or embarrassed about!

He genuinely finds you so precious and he adores everything you do so please never be anything but yourself around him!

Diluc~

He’s such a sweetheart!

I can not emphasise how much of a gentleman he is ;-;

The second he notices you going into yourself and hiding behind him he’ll immediately excuse himself and take you somewhere else!

He’s used to talking to people and dealing with social events

He has to be!

But he knows how overwhelming and uncomfortable it can be when put into those situations

He’d be lying if he didn’t find it absolutely adorable though!

He just wants to scoop you up in his arms and surround you so you always feel safe and secure~

The first time you did it to him after establishing your feelings for each other he just kinda stood there for a moment like

??

Where’d Y/N go?

When he felt your hands clinging onto his arm like he was your only life line

Oh boy

His face matched his hair istg

He knows he’s strong

And he knows that he’s more than capable of being seen as a protective figure!

But something about you wanting his protection even if it’s just from uncomfortable social interactions just makes his heart melt faster than when he uses his pyro vision vision in dragonspine!

Always reassures you as well

The occasional “it’s alright. I’m here” can be caught slipping out of his mouth

Not to mention head pats ;-;

He never wants you to feel embarrassed or ashamed by it!

He adores you and he’ll always be there to protect you from anything that makes you feel scared or uncomfortable~

Yoooo I’m on a roll!!! Dies for a whole week

I might post some sketches I’m doing of Scara cuz I found the funniest fucking bit of lore in the game and I can’t stop wheezing over it.

[positively-mine]

Reki and langa with a s/o who’s a cuddly person and always wants to be holding their hand/arm or playing with their hands/hair (pretty much just a clingy s/o) thank you

Affectionate s/o

Just you being clingy & how they would react.

A/n: Nowadays i realized that im touch starved and this anon hit the spot 😕😐 anyways hope you like this. Sorry i posted this 3 days late btw, my orientation is really killing me. The campus is so much bigger than i thought and travelling time is way too long 😅

Reki Kyan

When you guys started dating he had known a little that you’re affectionate

He had observed you and he would see small interactions such as you holding onto your friends arm or sleeve

However..

When it became official, he wasn’t expecting to be bombarded with your ministrations

A stuttering mess and a blushing fool was what he was

He didn’t think that you’d want to immediately have physical contact with him and he’d thought he had to slowly ease into it

It’s hard to understand him when he’s speaking with a quivering voice 💀

I’m sorry but sweaty palms

(Nothing against people with sweaty palms or anything)

Just be prepared to wipe your hand after holding his because this is the first time he’s been this close to a girl

If anyone remembers the episode where they were on the ferry and reki wanted to approach the girl in white

From my deduction skills as a literature student i hc that he still has “awkward flirting” with you

Won’t go into detail bc I might get second hand embarrassment

Now when you play with his hair..

He’s like putty in your hands

malleable

I can totally see him get sleepy when you play with his hair

Pretend you don’t see it though

He will get super embarrassed

At this point he should just paint himself red

Cuddling is something he wants to do but is really too shy right now :(

Langa Hasegawa

I don’t think he minds it

He’s used to getting tackled into hugs by his mom so one more person wouldn’t be a problem

Either welcomes it or initiates it

You’d be walking to school together and he’d be like

“Can i hold your hand? (´∀｀)”

I have a strong feeling that when you hold hands,

He always turns to you to give you an award winning smile

Then gives your hand a squeeze

Maybe not blush but its like dusted on his cheeks

Prefers to interlock your hands together instead of you holding his arms

He’s also a person that likes to fiddle with your fingers

When he’s thinking he’ll be playing with your fingers

Or when your walking together and he’s mindlessly playing around

Will hum if you play with his hair

But i can see him prefer you to massage his skull

Or braid his hair

He doesn’t mind

Doesn’t even care if you give him crazy pigtails

As long as you’re playing with his hair

Will also want to return the favour

Not very well done let me say

It’s not that he does it on purpose but it’s because he doesn’t play around with his hair

Often enough you’ll see him twirling a strand of your hair around his fingers

He likes the soft feeling of your hair round his fingers

Definitely a hugger

Compared to reki he’s not as shy to cuddle with you

But would like it if he was the big spoon

He likes to feel you in his arms and him enveloping your frame

Falls sleep immediately after cuddling with you 🫣

[thoughtsforsoob]

this is for your launch event!! (sorry for the last ask i was on a airplane when the post came out 🥹😭)

but anyways my friends most commonly describe me as a person who’s looks dont match their personality as in i apparently look super sweet, cute and approachable but have the exact opposite personality (💀😭)

a lot of people also describe me as intimidating because im blunt but i swear im nice 😞😭😭 (i feel like im insulting myself now LMFAO) another common thing i hear is that i’m mean but secretly nice. OH and also that i never compliment people so when i do they know its genuine HELP 😭😭

my hobbies are drawing and anything creative honesty, i love cooking and ice skating or things that get me moving like dancing and sports!! my favourite colours are pink and ocean blue,, my fashion sense is like the igari makeup style and i have a pretty feminine energy!!

i would like to be paired with either enhypen or txt thank youuu 🫶

A/n: Thank you for submitting this for my event! This is no nice of you :) anyways, I decided to pair you up with someone from txt so I hope thats okay! Please enjoy and let me know what you think.

I pair you with….Soobin!!

As soon as you talked about your personality, I immediately know soobin would be perfect. He is a little more on the shy side and doesn’t really like to take charge in situations but you seem like you would do all that in a heart beat.

If he can’t make a choice on what to have for dinner, you’re able to just sweep in and make a choice. Then hes looking at you with these big, lovesick eyes because that reminds him why hes so in love with you

I also feel like he would really like your fashion/makeup style. I think soobin really likes cute girls and you seem to fit that description. He would be so excited if you buy some clothes and make up and do a fashion show or a makeup demo for him. He would practically beg. “Come onnnn. Please??” He gives you his best cute face and how can you say no to him at that point?

I feel like your personalities are very contrasted and that is perfect. Soobin seems like someone that cannot be with someone that is too similar to him or he would quickly loose interest. You bring a little change up to his life.

He loves your honesty. It makes him blush when you go up to him and tell him what you honestly think of his look that day, even if its not a very good opinion.

“Soobin, that outfit is no matching at all. Go change.”

“Teehee. Okay :)”

He would also be very supportive of your hobbies, especially ice skating. He would take you on skating dates and would watch in awe if you show him any tricks you know how to do. He would ask you to show him how to do something simple and when he falls on his butt, you pick him up and hes blushing.

[crystallizsch]

Hi...I'm new to the twst fandom, and i saw you help out someone else with recommendations so i was hoping you could help me tooo? 🥺 I'm worried about bothering people with asks and stuff, so i was wondering if you had any recommendations for blogs of nice/welcoming people in the fandom? 👉👈 It would be nice to make some friends...

You seem really friendly and welcoming, which is why I managed to send this...I just don't want to annoy anyone...💔💀 Thanks!!!!!!!!

AWHH HELLO HI WHAT THANK YOU SO MUCH??

i sometimes worry that i may be too overwhelming (if that’s the right word for it???) to even approach so that means so much to hear 😭💖💕

also i MAY have rambled too much,,, i ended up giving (unsolicited) advice as well im so sorry but i just wanted to say some additional things too about making friends in the fandom in general 🤧

anyways anon it’s all right under the cut 💖

AAGH FIRSTLY welcome to the twst fandom!! so glad to see you joining in!

i’ve only been in the fandom since the beginning of this year actually! and so far as my experience goes it’s been so fun!! people create amazing things and share amazing ideas with one another so i hope you enjoy your stay!

ALSO it makes me happy that you even think i’m approachable enough for recs 😭💖

i'm admittedly very biased though because a lot of the blogs i consider nice/welcoming are already mutuals/friends of mine 🤧

and i’m lowkey highkey kind of shy mentioning them again ahglsjdlsalk so i’d like to point you back to that original post here even though im assuming that you literally just came from there 😭

im so sorry i couldnt be more helpful with recs 😭💔 but all of them i do consider pretty nice blogs!!

ANYWAYS PLEASE DONT WORRY ABOUT “ANNOYING” ANYONE YOU ARE NOT A BOTHER most people love receiving asks/interactions!!

i really understand the feeling though!! it’s hard making that first move sometimes,,, and honestly (i know it sounds incredibly cliche but) you’ll never really know if you’ll click with someone here until you try!!

and i'm not sure if you post or not but! it's definitely how I've met the people i’m mutuals/friends with here!

i’ve made friends with others who regularly/every now and then reblog with nice tags or comments on my posts ;;; and i do the same on my main blog! i tend to leave a lot of tags when i reblog posts that i like

and sometimes it just,,, happens??? especially if you and the other person have a shared interest in the fandom!

anyways,,,

send people asks!! reblog with nice tags!! comment!! just let other people that you're there!! the right people for you will reciprocate 💖💖💖 (also this is in no way being against people who just prefer to silently lurk/interact btw i still appreciate you guys 🫶 this is just for if you want to interact more and make friends in the process!!)

but that's just me!!

similar to what i said on the original post i encourage you to find and interact with other people that you think you would vibe with!!

there's a lot of different corners in this fandom that are into way different things about the game than me. and the people that i vibe with might not necessarily vibe with you which is not anyone's fault!! it’s just the way it is 💖

(also i forgot to mention this in my original post --- i'm not sure if you're a minor or not so make sure if you decide to check out some blogs allow minors to interact 🙏 ) (and a lot of blogs outline their boundaries and rules on their intro posts that are pinned so keep that in mind!)

i have no idea how to end this hsjshsjs but generally just find others who like the same twst things as you and interact with them!! it’s okay to do little by little until you’re comfortable, there is never any rush 🫶

AGAIN i hope you have fun here and i wish you the best!! 💖💖💕

[iniqiiiluvs]

ATWOW X BLACK READER

Pt.2 (also platonic)

Neteyam:

He would be so interested in you he would study your facial features and compare your hairstyles very sweet he would definitely be obsessed with your skin idk he just gives me that vibe

especially if your dark skinned 😮‍💨 that boy is gonna be all up on you

Lo’ak:

Ooh boy 😬

He would unintentionally offended you

“Why does your skin look like that?”

“Cause I’m black nigga💀”

Ntm on him he’s learning 😭 in all honesty he’s very kind and respectful but don’t let him slip up around his daddy cause he WILL get scolded

Kiri:

Very open and excited she already has a human friend why not have another one she’s so respectful she asks a lot of questions tho especially since her mom (grace),spider,and her dad are white she most def thought all humans were 💀She would always be touching your hair (she would ask first)

Tuk:

She probably wouldn’t ask that many questions probably be confused as to why you would look different from spider

She LOVES your hair and loves all the styles you can do she would def mimic you she def popped out with puffs (the puffs looked nothing like yours because the omatikiya’s hair is straight) but they didn’t looked bad you complemented her and played the rest of the day

Ao’nung

Wouldn’t be too fond of you either (Just like his mama) yeah he’s never seen a human like you but when you approach him immediately starts asking you questions and you telling him theres different races of people and all that good stuff

Tsireya

Would be weary for a second but would approach you and start talking to you

Very kind

She got so happy when you complemented her braids and curly hair

Y’all are besties now 🧍🏾‍♀️

Roxto

would steal glances left and right the boys shy so you would have to approach him

When you do he gets all stiff and nervous maybe it’s because he thinks you’re pretty maybe it’s because you’re a human and he’s scared you never know

He’s such a sweetheart he wants to ask you questions but he doesn’t want to offend you 🥲

[fablecore]

Irini, I need your help on something 😔

I just went to college a few months ago and had a difficult time getting to know people because my coursemates are all snobby and I’m a little older than my peers so I went to a society event where I met this guy who is in a different department and a senior but he’s younger than me and I knew immediately he was interested in me but I wasn’t into him so I told him I wasn’t looking to date even though I am. The problem is we hit it off so well that even though I wasn’t attracted to him I would have at least gone on a few dates with him except I met his friends shortly after at that event and one of his friends is my exact type and I have a huge crush on him. The problem is he is really quiet and has only spoken to me that one time and because I’m in a different department, I haven’t been able to meet him again except for this guy who likes me and even though I’ve told him that one time, we’ve hung out a few times as friends and he’s dropped a few times he wants it to be date except each time he says it only when he’s been drinking. One of my friends was at the event with me that time and she noticed that ANOTHER person in that group was apparently into me as well but not the guy I like which is a shame because I don’t think I’m his type. Anyway, I feel like the guy that likes me is building up to asking me out directly for real but it’s been going on for months now and I don’t know how to say no again especially because that guy is his best friend and I am interested in him. But also, I don’t know how to approach him because he doesn’t seem to find me attractive based on the girls I’ve seen him around with and I don’t want to break off their friendship especially because that entire friend group is super tight knit and it may be all for nothing since he’s not into me but also, I don’t know how to tell that guy no because so far I’ve been politely ignoring his feelings and treating our outings as friendly even going so far as to mention when I go on dates and on a separate pub event, he got too drunk and was jealous over some guys who kept getting me to drink with them so I can’t see this ending well. Also, I just don’t know how to talk to that guy since he’s shy and only hangs out in his circle and his department and our college has like forty thousand people so I can never run into him

bluntly ask the person you like out for coffee and be honest with the person you're not interested in. let the chips fall where they may.

read all about love by bell hooks.

someone once told me the "romantic sparks" you feel when talking to a crush is actually just your anxiety 💀 something to keep in mind

in high school i quickly and brutally rejected peers who were into me, which i later regretted. not the rejection, but wishing i had approached it with appreciation & thanked them for their vulnerability. i was too young and didn't know how to end relationships with grace & didn't know how to thank people for our time together even though our paths eventually diverged. love and loss go hand in hand. a young heartbreak won't be the end of the world, not for you or for the people who like you. this is all the advice i feel qualified to give. i'm sorry about the uncomfortable situation you're in and i hope you find a way to resolve things without too much stress. wishing you the best

[bisluthq]

How tf do you guys even get in relationships, I’m like 24. Never been kissed. Never been on a date, I mean I’m kind of shy and don’t drink, do drugs, don’t go to college & kind of stay at home most of the time but like… HS ended in 2017 for me and nobody was interested then. Like am I that ugly. 💀 no man approaches me

Okay real talk: life isn’t a romcom. If you “stay at home most of the time” you’re not gonna be “approached”. Like you just aren’t. The odds of that happening are minimal like a dude isn’t gonna strike up a conversation with you on the bus and turn out to be the love of your life. That’s not very realistic. If you want to go on dates, you’ve got to start being proactive about it. Go on the apps (if you’re shy something like Christian Singles or JDate or whatever the Muslim equivalent is idk your religious background might also be a good idea), join clubs/societies/groups to meet more like minded people, go on getaways (you get singles getaways tbh where that’s literally the point), if you’re nerdy (which it sounds like you might be - lovingly said) you can try Reddit. Ask friends and family to set you up tbh a lot of the time people will have ideas for who you might work with (not that they necessarily will be correct but it’s a starting point). It’s got nothing to do with you being pretty or ugly (which you AREN’T, I can guarantee that). That said, confidence is sexy. If your default position has become “I’m too ugly for anyone to want me” you’re likely to find that to be a self-fulfilling prophecy so I’d also recommend working on self-esteem. There are a lot of courses and affirmations and such you can do but also personally I recommend decentralizing appearance from your self-worth especially for pursuing romantic connections. Would you want to spend your life with someone whose primary interest in you is based on “you’re hot”? No, you want to be with someone you connect with as a person. Which is why you should be trying to meet like minded people - not just randoms. The like minded/connection thing is what’s fundamental here tbh. For example, I live a pretty hedonistic and hectic lifestyle so you and I for example probably wouldn’t work well. That doesn’t make either of us less deserving of love but it’d be a waste of our time to try and make things work lol so idk it’s also about presenting yourself honestly on the apps/putting yourself in the correct spaces/as I say you can try Reddit and again just be honest in terms of what you’re looking for. I went on r4r for you and someone like this sounds nice for example idk.

I guess my point is BE PROACTIVE if this is something you want.

[nickfowlerrr]

🦋 “When will you be mine” w/ Steve Kemp🥰

when will you be mine

continuation

pairing: steve kemp x reader (do i need to tag him as dark or is that just already implied seeing as how he’s a serial killer? 💀)

words: 1k

notes: i know i said short little blurb but my fingers wouldn’t stop typing lmao. also i didn’t mean for this to be so “YOU” ish but oh well 🥲 this is my first time writing for steve kemp so i’m still trying to find him in my writing - we’ll get there eventually 🥴 anyway! thank you for sending this in!! 💙

“You again,” the familiar voice jested, causing you to turn around and eye him.

“Hey, that’s my line,” you retorted with a small smirk. “Back so soon, Mr. Kemp?” you lilted teasingly.

“For the thousandth time, it’s Steve. Please,” he begged, “please, just call me Steve.”

You smiled at his playful dramatics and nodded, conceding.

“Steve,” you corrected yourself, earning a smile from him in return. “Was there a problem with your drink?” you asked, worried.

“No,” he assured you. “I, uh, I actually just came back to ask you something..” he trailed off, sounding almost nervous.

“What’s up,” you prompted him to continue.

“You do catering, don’t you?”

His simple question caught you off guard, you weren’t expecting it with how fidgety he was being all of a sudden.

“Uhm, yeah. Yeah, I do,” you nodded.

“Great,” was all he said in response until you squinted at him, a small smile playing on your lips as you fought the urge to let your nervous laugh escape.

“I’m having a little get together next weekend. Just a few people, really small. But, uh, I’d love to have you cater, if you’re available. I haven’t stopped thinking about your cupcake since you let me taste it last week. The cupcake, you gave me - that cupcake, I mean. It was fantastic, I know I’ve told you before, but you’re a really great baker,” he babbled as he blushed at his poor word choice and obvious fumbling. You had to bite your lip to stop yourself from smiling so big. Even now he was adorable.

Steve was in your shop weekly if not daily getting a coffee and whatever food item you suggested to him any given visit. He was your favorite customer and you couldn’t help yourself from developing a bit of a crush on the guy. He was gorgeous, funny, smart, so sweet, and charming as hell. You had made him a special cupcake for his birthday last week and since then, he’d been..just a little different when he came in. Almost shy, nervous, though he tried to hide it, it always showed through by the end of his visits. You were worried you had screwed things up with the cupcake, made him uncomfortable or something, but now you felt relieved knowing he really did like it.. And with how flustered he was getting, you thought maybe he really did like you, too.

You had no idea, but Steve was smitten with you the first day he walked into your bakery cafe.

He always had a lot on his plate, though. Never wanted to get you tangled up with his work. He didn’t see you like he saw others, he wasn’t interested in getting you to sell you. He wanted you all for himself.

But he didn’t push it. He couldn’t. He needed to wait for the right time. And he would, to make sure there was no chance of anyone or anything fucking things up for him, he’d wait for the perfect time to take you, to finally make you his. Seeing you as often as he did, talking, flirting, just being around you when he could, it was enough for him for the time being. At least it had been. Until last week. He walked into the cafe and when you saw him, the way your eyes lit up, it made his heart sing. You ran to the back and returned with a little green pastry box just as he approached the front of the line. You took over the register and gave him a soft smile.

“Happy birthday,” you offered, placing the box down in front of him. “I made you this. It’s red velvet..and your drink is on the house, too,” you added, batting your lashes at him, though he wasn’t sure you even realized you were doing so. It was adorable and he smiled back with a sincere and grateful ‘thank you’, shoving the cash he had to pay for his usual order into your tip jar when you turned back to get his drink before you walked down the counter with him to talk a bit before he would inevitably have to go to work. All day, he couldn’t stop thinking of you, couldn’t focus on much of anything.

You remembered his birthday and you made him a cupcake. A special cupcake just for him. He knew his feelings weren’t one sided, but your consideration and obvious care really showed him he was right. He decided that day, he couldn’t wait much longer. You belonged with him. He needed to be careful, now, though. He couldn’t get sloppy just because he had feelings for you, he needed to keep his patience. He just needed to get you out of town. His new home was almost finished and he couldn’t wait to get you there. It would be perfect. Just like you.

He didn’t want to be too confident, didn’t want to freak you out or scare you. So he’d play the part. Make sure you felt safe. Because you were, you had nothing to fear with him, he’d make sure of it.

You helped him schedule the catering, chose what pastries would travel best and picked one of your most popular flavors. You told him you’d be there right on time and it was going to be a rather small gathering, no more than ten people, if that, so you were the only one who needed to work it, it’d be easy. The “venue” was a bit of a ways away, but Steve insisted he’d cover your gas money, so you weren’t going to complain or argue. Plus, you really wanted to do this for him, you would have said yes no matter what. With the plans all set, Steve left looking more sure of himself than when he’d first asked about setting something up. You didn’t think anything of it and returned his smile and ‘see you later’.

Steve was thrilled. Everything was set and now he had a week to ensure everything was ready for you at his place. Just a week, he kept reminding himself. Just one more week and she’ll be mine.

part two

[kennacore]

Number One Fan (A Puff x Reader Smut Fic)

Notes: Hey!! So uhhh, this is my first time ever publicly posting a fanfic of mine online😨😨 ?? so I’m kind of scared but like💀💀hopefully y’all will like it !! :]

Disclaimers: Smut (obviously), Puff is downbad as fuck, Breeding kink, AFAB reader, reader is shy, there’s a mix of degradation and praise included.

Word count: 4475

Update: I’ve created a version that include AMAB terms!! Its located here.

This was your first time ever being at a concert. Everything was so thrilling! There weren't very many people at the concert, but you didn’t mind! That just meant there was more room for you. The crowd around you was cheering, dancing and singing along to the lyrics of whatever song was currently playing at that time. Flashy colorful lights swam across the dimly lit room as music roared from the speakers. The bass that boomed from said speakers was so strong you could feel it rattle you to your core.

You weren't typically the type to go to such an upbeat event, you tended to be in more quiet, reserved areas. But you just had to go see one of your favourite bands of all time. The second you heard Your Favourite Martian was performing in your area, you knew you had to go. You’ve been a fan of them for ages now, so getting to see them play up close in person was such an honour. You loved not only their music, but the band members too! You had small crushes on each of the band members, but especially the lead singer, Puff.

You were grateful you had a spot that was so close to the stage since you could see better that way. You couldn’t help but eye Puff up the entire concert, he was even better looking in person. Sure your eyes would glance over at Axel, Deejay or Benatar occasionally. But you mainly stayed fixated on the singer in front of you. He had caught you staring a few times, but everytime you two made eye contact you would be quick to look away from him in a bashful manner. You were never good with eye contact, especially when it was with someone you had crushed on for so long.

Time passed on and it seems as though the concert has come to an end. The band members all waved to the crowd, before shuffling off backstage, except for Benatar. Before the front curtains could be drawn down, he approached the mic before speaking into it hesitantly.

“Ello everyone! Uh, Puff forgot to mention this… but we’re havin a little meet and greet tomorrow evenin. It’ll be located at the backside of the concert hall here if that’s your cup of tea. We can even sign somethin for you or—“ Benatar was cut off by Axel, the drummer of the band, who poked his head out from behind the stage. “They get the point dickhead! You're ramblin bruh. Get off the stage you virgin.” The brunette shook his head before his head disappeared behind the curtain once again. Axel’s words seemed to make the blonde sheepish, because he was quick to turn red as he waved farewell to the crowd before scurrying off stage to join his fellow band members.

So, there was a meetup? Oh man, you totally need to go! You would love to meet them all, but especially Puff. Getting to actually speak to him one on one would be a dream come true. You just hoped you wouldn’t be too nervous around him, but being so close to the singer would surely make you act up. Are you seriously willing to embarrass yourself just to say hello to him? Yes, yes you are. With your mind now being made up, you wandered back home for the evening, and made sure to get lots of rest that night. Because you couldn’t wait for what awaited you tomorrow.

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Tomorrow evening came faster than you expected. Your feet peddled you across town on your bicycle as fast as they could. You could have taken your sweet time getting there, but you just had to meet them as soon as you could! You were too eager to take things slow. You made sure to wear one of your best dresses, it was a bit showy but you may or may not have done that purposefully. You wanted to show off for the band! Your dress was a simple short black dress that hugged your curves nicely. The dress also revealed a good amount of your cleavage; it was perfect.

At last you arrived. You hopped off your bike before leaning it against the sidewall of the concert hall. Quietly you made your way around to the backside of the building, your heart was pretty much leaping out of your chest as you took those final steps. You could hardly contain your eagerness.

The closer you got, voices came into earshot. “There still ain’t a single person here Puff, we might as well give up man.“ a deep voice spoke distantly, their words were followed by a sigh. You could only assume it was Deejay, due to how deep the voice sounded. “I cant fucking believe this! No one came to our meet and greet!? This fucking sucks satans cock! Like c'mon there’s gotta be SOMEONE out there who would want to meet us!” That was the voice of Puff! You could easily recognize it in an instant.

As you approached the tour bus, their words finally hit you. No one else came to the meet and greet? That’s awful, you could see why Puff was upset. But, at least you were here now! Hopefully having at least one fan show up would make them happy.

You took one last deep breath as you approached the tour bus door, gingerly giving it a light knock. “ That better be a fan and not Tig and that little bitch again, if that little bride of Chucky is out there, I’m outta here man.” you heard the deeper voiced individual speak from the window. You had no clue who Tig or ‘That little bride of Chucky” could be, but that wasn’t your main concern right now.

At last the door swung open to reveal Puff who was standing there in all his glory. The singer was quick to look you up and down with a smirk before speaking “damn girl, you have some great fucking tits on you!” Puff exclaims. Instantly you felt a rush of heat go to your face, your lips part slightly in shock at his words. Did Puff from the hit band YFM just hit on you? Holy shit. “Puff you dumbass bitch, they’re probably a fan! Knock it off before you scare the poor fuckin thing man.” Deejay shakes his head in disbelief at Puff’s words.

You couldn’t help but look down at the floor timidly, you surely didn’t expect this. “Oh shit, are you a fan? My bad haha. You just really do have some nice boobs.” Out of the corner of your eye you could see Deejay sigh while facepalming before taking a sip of what seemed to be orange juice. You gaze up at Puff before nodding “yeah! I um, I’m a fan! My name is y/n, I've been a fan of you guys for quite some time now. I’ve always especially been a fan of you, Puff… ” you trailed off as you began to shyly fidget with your fingers and sway side to side gently on the spot, it was a nervous habit you had picked up. “Well hey! A fan of ours is always welcome into the tour bus, especially such a cute one. Come on in.” Puff smirked as he gestured for you to come on inside.

After a little while of you, Deejay and Puff sitting at the table chatting together, Deejay stood from the table. ”Yo uh, it’s been real nice meetin you, Y/N. But I gotta go get them idiots Axel and Benatar from Burger World. Them motherfuckers gonna have the place blown up if I don’t get my ass down there soon. I’ll be back later with those two dumbasses if you wanna talk to me then.” the chubby man grinned while giving you a friendly pat on the back, before he headed out the door. You returned the smile and waved farewell before turning around to face Puff.

This means you and Puff were now alone in his bus together, holy shit. Your face went red at the realization. Puff laughed aloud as he took notice “Damn girl, you always blush this bad around guys, or am I just that irresistible?” Puff flashed a cocky grin your way while raising an eyebrow. You let out a nervous chuckle before shaking your head “sorry I just, I’m a bit nervous…” you gave Puff a shy grin.

“Well hey, there’s no reason to be so nervous, it’s only me! You get to hang out with the best singer in the whole world one on one baby!!” Puff chuckled and gave you a wink. Oh there’s no way he DIDN'T know what he was doing to you at this point. The way he kept smirking, winking and calling you such flirtatious nicknames... it was driving you mad! Your blush probably got worse, your face was on fire at this point. All you could mumble was a small “gosh…” this of course only made Puff laugh again.

“Anyways, did you want me to sign anything for you? Or did you just come here to see the one and only Puff Puff in the flesh” as he spoke, you realized you forgot to bring something for him and the others to sign! “Oh no… I forgot to bring something for you guys to sign. Oh man, this is awful…” You admit as you place your head in your hands, you felt incredibly embarrassed.

“hey c'mon now girl, don’t sweat it! I’m sure I can find something around here to sign for you.” Puff gave you a thumbs up before he started to venture around the bus for something he could write on. A few minutes later, Puff came back with a scowl on his face. “It seems like that idiot Benatar wasted all our paper on his garbage diarrhea songs again! So I’m other words, I don’t have anything decent to write on.” he shook his head.

“Oh, that’s okay Puff! Just getting to meet you was enough for me” you beamed at the boy in the red hoodie. As you finished speaking however, Puff got an idea. “Wait, I have an idea. How about I just give you my signature on your arm?” Puff quirked an eyebrow upwards while questioning you. You nod in agreement at his plan as he grabbed a marker from his hoodie pocket. “Alright, just follow me baby, I’ll take you somewhere more comfortable.” Puff smirked a hella devious smirk as he took a hold of your hand before leading you towards the back of the bus.

Puff led you to an area that contained bunk beds, this must be a sleeping quarters of sorts for the band members to rest in; yeah, that made sense. The man sat down on what you assumed was his bed, before patting the empty spot beside him. Hesitantly you sat next to him. Puff then without warning pulls you in closer to him, before grasping onto your arm. The action made you gasp as your heart skipped a beat. Being so close to him was making your head dizzy. He was quick to press the marker to your skin before scribbling down his signature in a seemingly sloppy way.

“Do you want me to sign… anywhere else?” His smile seemed innocent enough, but there seemed to be a devious glint deep in his eyes. You gave the singer a confused look “what do you mean, Puff? Do you want to sign my hand too or something?” You joked, but to your surprise Puff nodded. “Yeah sure, I might as well spoil my number one fan” he says before grabbing your hand. Once he was finished this time, he gave the signature a little kiss.

You couldn’t help but hide your face after that gesture. He was being so flirty towards you! You swear your heart was going to explode. “Oh Puff, thank you a lot. You're really sweet!” You spoke through your hands, your words probably came out in a muffle but he seemed to understand regardless. “Don’t sweat it babe, it’s just a little signature. It's really nothing! Hell, I’d do way more than just a signature for my number one fan!” He chuckled.

Way more? What did he mean? Slowly, you uncover your face and question him “Hey um, Puff? Did you say… way more? What exactly do you mean by that?” You gave him a confused look as you tilted your head to the left, almost like a lost puppy would. “This is what I mean, Y/N.” Puff leaned in and closed the gap between you two, that small kiss was fast to escalate into a whole makeout session. You couldn’t help but whimper into his mouth as the two of you borderline tongue fucked each others mouths. His kisses were sloppy, desperate and passionate. You fucking loved it. The feeling of his lips on yours made your head feel fuzzy. At some point you had to part for air, the pair of you were panting as you gazed at each other.

“Sorry if that was forward, babe. I couldn’t help but think you wanted it! I saw the way you practically eye fucked me while I was on stage at the concert the other day, the way your eyes trailed all over my body… you must really want me, don’t you girl?” as Puff teased, that cocky grin made an appearance on his face once again. All you could do was softly sigh with a nod as you look down at your hands “yeah um I uh, I really uhm… I think you're just… y—“ you got cut off with a small kiss from Puff. He leaned in close to your ear before whispering “save your voice for later sugartits, trust me you’ll need it for how much you’ll be screaming my name.”

His words left you stunned and even more flustered than before if that was even possible. A rush of arousal shot straight between your legs. You could already feel just how soaked you were. Was this really happening? It felt like a dream. Well, if it was a dream, you might as well go along with it. You leaned in close to puff before giving him a gentle kiss on his cheek.

You hesitated to speak, but eventually you managed to croak out some words. “Puff, are you um… are we going to? You know…” You questioned. Puff found your shyness adorable, he knew he was going to have to tease the fuck out of you this entire time. He just couldn’t resist! “Oh hell yeah babe! if you want me I’ll totally have you bouncing on this dick in seconds. I’ll do anything you want me to.”

Your breath hitched at his words, he seemed to notice because his downright evil grin only grew wider. You felt lightheaded as you spoke again “ Puff… please…” you mewl out. Although you didn’t directly say what you wanted from him, Puff seemed to understand. He grabbed your hips and shuffled your body over onto his lap. You could already feel how hard he was through his jeans. “Oh Puff… I’ve dreamed of this for so long.” You confess to him through a whisper as you desperately begin to grind yourself against him. You didn’t mean to, but your body seemed to move on its own. The friction felt incredible.

“Oh fuck, don’t stop babe.” Puff moaned out as he snaked his arms around your form, just so he could give your ass a squeeze. You let out a gasp at the contact. “Holy fuck, your so fucking soaked already! I can feel it through your panties. You must really want my cock bad, don’t you?” Puff teases as he leans up to kiss you hungrily. You got butterflies in your chest as you returned the gesture. While the two of you were making out like a bunch of horny teens, Puff laid on his back. You were now straddled on his waist, meaning he was now beneath you. Puff broke the kiss so he could look up at you.

There you were sitting on his lap, face burning red while you stared down at him with half lidded eyes. “Fuck… you’re so hot. Can you rip that damn dress off yourself already?? I need to see those fucking huge tits already. It’s driving me crazy not being able to see them!” Puff whines out, he was begging you to strip at this point. You nod as you reach your arms behind yourself to unzip your dress. You slowly slid out of said dress before tossing it to the floor carelessly.

You felt extremely self conscious being so exposed to him, yet you still reached your arms behind yourself once again, this time to unclip your bra. Once it was off, it joined the dress on the floor. You gaze away as Puff gawked at the sight of your bare tits. “Fuck baby, your tits are fucking massive!” he praised as he eagerly fondled your boobs. You gasp at the sudden contact, all his praise made your stomach flutter. Your heart was doing flips in your chest.

Puff was quick to put his mouth to work on one of your tits as he played around with the other. He swirled his warm tongue around your erect nipple before he began to suckle on it. The new sensation caused a loud moan to slip from your throat. You were heavily ashamed with how noisy you were being, so you were fast to cover your mouth up. Puff continued his assault on your nipple for a moment, even occasionally biting at it before letting it go with a ‘pop’.

“Babe, you gotta uncover that mouth of yours, I wanna hear all of those filthy noises. C’mon, please baby?” He gave you pleading eyes. You hesitantly uncover your mouth “Alright, but Puff um… fuck, could I please suck you off?” your voice quivered as you spoke. You couldn’t believe what you were saying. It was now Puff’s turn to blush, he was surprised by how bold you were being all the sudden. He was fast to nod in response though as he eagerly striped himself.

Once he was naked, you instantly began to gawk at his cock. Puff noticed where your eyes were and laughed “take a picture sweetie, it’ll last longer” he joked before yanking off your soaked panties. This caused you to yelp outloud in surprise. “Hey listen, it’s only fair that you're fully naked if I am too.“ Puff began to look you up and down now that you were fully exposed to him. A bit of drool slipped through his lips. He was looking at you as if you were his prey. “Damn, you’re fucking hot” he commented.

You couldn’t help but nervously giggle at his words while your hands trailed down his smooth chest. As your hands explored, you were admiring his body. His figure was slim, he wasn’t super buff or anything, but you didn’t mind. His entire body was a light tan color, and he had a few freckles and moles on his body here and there, but he was perfect in your eyes.

At last your hands made their way to his cock. You once again gawk and stare at it. His cock seemed above average, and had a slight upward curve to it. A bit of precum dripped from the tip of it. Experimentally, you swipe your thumb across the tip, which causes him to hiss and arch his back. “Fuck, don’t tease me like that” he whimpered. You teasingly smile down at him only to continue the action. Puff could only whine and shuffle around as you did, occasionally begging you to finally suck him off, he sure was a needy man.

You decide it’s finally time to put your mouth to work. Slowly, you lean down to place a few kisses on his throbbing cock. You accidentally left a few lipstick marks here and there before finally giving him what he wanted. You wrapped your soft lips around his tip before enveloping his dick in your mouth.

Puff gasped sharply as his hand found its way to your hair; he now had a tight hold on your locks. You were quick to get to work. Gingerly you begin to bob your head up and down on his dick, causing the boy to moan and curse out. His grip on your hair only got rougher. “Fuck, babe! Oh god… that slutty little mouth of yours is wonderful, ugh.” This only encourages you to pick up the pace. Puff is now a moaning whining mess beneath you.

You look up at Puff for the first time in a while only to notice he has his free hand gripped roughly in his own hair. You also take notice that his glasses are tilted sideways on his face, pretty much sliding off at this point. Puff’s face is burning red as he’s looking down at you with half-lidded eyes. His chest rises up and down as he breathes hard. Knowing he looked this way all because of you instantly sent more heat down south. He looked so fucking good right now.

“Fuck, I think I’m going to cum… holy shit don’t stop” Puff moans as he begins to pretty much mouth-fuck you. You gently rub his thighs to subtly encourage him, and it seems to work because it’s not long before he’s shooting his cum down your throat with a deep groan.

You swallow his load, because spitters are quitters. Plus you had to admit; it tasted good. Sure, it was salty but you loved the flavour regardless. At last you remove your mouth from his cock, some of his cum that you couldn’t manage to swallow had slipped out of your mouth and down your chin as you panted heavily. Without much thought, you return to your previous position on his lap, once again straddling his hips while looking down at him.

“Um Puff, do you want me to… to um, ride you?” you inquire. Puff nodded eagerly as he grabbed a hold of your hips “Hell yeah!” you giggle at how excited he was, but you had to admit you were just as eager as he was. You slowly shimmy yourself down onto his cock. You gasp and arch your back at the sheer feeling of it all. He felt great inside of you. You remained still for a moment as you adjusted to him, but after a few moments he needily began to plead for you to ride him already. As you begin to bounce yourself up and down on his cock, you place your hands on his chest for extra support.

Puff grasps your hips tightly as he admires you slamming yourself down on his cock. “You look so good riding my cock like this, it’s almost like you were made for this dick.” Puff comments as he gives your ass a rough smack. He did have a point, maybe you were made for his cock because the way he's stretching you out is driving you wild. You continued to move up and down, as you did you couldn’t take your eyes off of Puff. He wasn’t even making eye contact with you anymore, he was just gawking at your bouncing tits, which oddly enough flattered you.

Soon enough you started to feel your orgasm approaching, and you're sure Puff was close too with the way his moans were getting more whiny.

“Puff… I want you to cum inside of me. Please breed me, I want you to fill me up with all of your cum. Please Puff, oh please! Don’t waste a single drop, I wanna feel it all inside of me” You plead, any shyness you had was thrown out the window as you neared your climax. Puff looked stunned, but his cock twitched inside of you at your words which meant he was most likely into it. “Holy shit, are you for real? That’s so fucking hot. Don’t worry babe, I’ll be sure to cum real nice and deep in this pussy” Puff suddenly switched your positions, leaving you now laying on your back as he roughly fucked into you.

Your legs instinctively wrap around his waist. “Oh Puff, faster please!” you cry out as you grip onto the sheets beneath you. Puff obeys and fucks into you with all his might. You're sure the entire bus is probably shaking at this point due to how violently he was fucking into you. Anyone who was even remotely near the tour bus would definitely know what was happening, but you didn’t care. You almost wanted everyone to know that you got to fuck the one and only Puff.

“Fuck babe I’m gonna cum, I’m going to fill you up so good baby” Puff huffs out. Hearing those words slip from his mouth was enough to send you over the edge. You toss your head back as you let out one final moan. You cum hard around his cock. Your legs shake from the intensity of your climax, and your back is arched. Feeling you cum around him, and seeing your face as you cum is enough for Puff to finish as well, and he was true to his word. He was balls deep inside of you, emptying everything he had inside of you.

The feeling of him filling you up with his cum had you in pure bliss. Was this heaven? You sure were convinced it was. The both of you panted hard as you gaze longingly into eachothers eyes. After having a moment to recover, you spoke softly to the man above you. “Puff… thank you for this” you smile while closing your eyes, letting out a dreamy sigh. Puff shakily laughed as he pulled out of you. “Trust me honey, I should thank you. That was some of the best sex I’ve ever had! Can’t wait to brag about this to the others later” he snickers in an almost evil sounding way.

You get embarrassed at the thought of him sharing this experience with his fellow band members, but you're too tired to truly care. You can only smile sheepishly and shake your head as you pat the spot beside you. Puff didn’t hesitate to curl up right next to you before passing out. You giggle at how fast he fell asleep, but you were well on your way to joining him in dreamland.

As you cuddle into Puff’s side you can’t help but think about what the others would think if they saw you two. Red paints your cheeks at the thought, but you were too drained to get up and slip any of your clothes on. So you simply throw his blanket over you too and shrug it off before drifting off to sleep beside Puff. This truly was one of the best nights of your entire life.

[mkellc]

𝗺𝗮𝘁𝗰𝗵𝘂𝗽 𝗳𝗼𝗿 @ahoyren !!

hiiiiii

you requested stranger things and percy jackson and i really wanna write for both these fandoms but i have other matchups i need to do aswell i’m sorry, but i hope you still like this one!

i had to ruin my blog aesthetic for this grrr but its ok bc I adore this character

(also, we are one in the same bestie, I have literally the exact same style and hair and im also a intj, and have the same music taste 🙏🙏)

ok sorry for rambling here’s your matchup:

𝘀𝘁𝗿𝗮𝗻𝗴𝗲𝗿 𝘁𝗵𝗶𝗻𝗴𝘀: 𝗲𝗱𝗱𝗶𝗲 𝗺𝘂𝗻𝘀𝗼𝗻 !!

eddie is a more laid back, goofy person who likes to have fun and is very immersed in his interests, specifically being a nerd for dnd and playing guitar. His personality is sarcastic and humorous as well as his outward appearance being almost scary. although people say “opposites attract” i think the same goes for people who are similar. which is exactly the case for you and eddie. this is because of your similarities of being passionate with your interests and being a bit intimidating on the outside. also the fact that the different things you both love are rlly nerdy (lol me too) so it would just be two nerds in love, what a great match.

hcs:

the first time eddie saw you he was like “whoa,… cool”

your style and hair immediately caught his eye

he watched you from afar for a while, noticing your sarcasm and wit before deciding to approach you

when he did he was met with almost complete silence, which he was not expecting

but he was interested in how you were shy and quiet even though he had seen what you’re like around your friends

he started finding excuses to hang out with you and be around you because you were so intriguing that he wanted to know more about you

eventually you became very close friends and then lovers 🤩

he admires your passion for the things you love and finds your music taste awesome

he always asks if he can read whatever you’re writing and if you say no he’s just like “damn,” but if you say yes he will grab the paper/whatever you’re writing on and twirl around with a smile then read it

he lets you borrow his rings

he tries to teach you how to play guitar but won’t let you touch his guitar (like bruh it’s not that deep just gimme the guitar) eventually he will let you touch it though

but if you like singing he will play guitar to some songs you like so you can sing them if you want

i like to think eddie’s love language is mostly quality time, but im sure he would also love physical touch once he finds out that you like it, and he would try his best with words of affirmation

because he is so much taller than you, he would love trying to pick you up for you to wrap your legs around his torso and kiss you that way rather than leaning down

in an argument, neither of you want to back down, but most times you decide to be adults about it and solve it rather quickly. and then one of you (usually eddie) is like “um, y/n, can we go get pizza now?”

overall your relationship is full of fun and inside jokes, you always make each other laugh and each of you become another thing the other is crazily passionate about

a/n: i’m sorry if i got eddie’s personality wrong or wrote their or anything, this is the first time i’ve written for him and he hasn’t been in the show that much yet either lmao 💀

i hope you like it and i’m rlly sorry if you don’t but either way have a good day/night!! <3

[trivia-bangtan]

after (jjk) 003

masterlist

pairing: patient!oc x patient!jungkook

genre: friends to lovers au, kinda a hazel and gus trope, | lots of angst, fluff and suggestive themes

warning: this chapter is a bit lighter, but not by much 💀

authors note: thank y’all for the support ❤️❤️ this chapter and tomorrow’s will be a bit shorter than the last but just bc i don’t wanna dump everything on y’all a at once 🤪🤪 gotta build the story yanno? anyways 🤠 as always leave comments questions or concerns for me 😔 i promise i don’t bite 🤡 enjoyyyyyyy 🥰

the week following up to the second meeting was long and annoying. due to my dangerous nature when i’m alone, i wasn’t allowed to be in my room for too long and being forced to partake in family time (which just consisted of me sitting next to either of my parents while they did their daily business). it was torturous to say the least.

but by the time tuesday rolled around, my mother couldn’t seem to hide her excitement.

“what’s got you jumpy?” i asked. i wondered if it had to do with the fact that she could have another chance at eyeing jungkook. the thought made me gag internally, the whole cougar trope a secret trigger for vomit.

“i’m just… happy you’ve made a friend in your group on your first day. you’ve always been the shy quiet type that it was hard for you to make friends growing up. your father and i used to worry for you when we had to move and you had to start a new school,” she says, a reminiscent look in her eyes.

she smiled softly, like they were fond memories before continuing.

“your teachers used to tell us during conferences that you were so smart. way too smart for your age. but you never talked to anyone. that you used to purposely sit in silence so the kids got bored and left. you valued your solitude,” she scoffs. i could tell where this conversation was heading and i didn’t like it one bit. i hated talking about me.

“stop while you’re ahead,” i murmured, peering out the window.

“hun, i don’t want you to think i’m attacking you or not on your side but—“

“please… just. just stop,” i sighed, feeling that guilty ick sliding up my back. at this point, i knew she was doing this intentionally.

“i’m sorry. i don’t want to make you upset,” my mom sighs, offering me a small smile. i ignored her, hoping that we could continue the drive in silence. the drive wasn’t very long, but it felt like it was an eternity before we pulled into the parking lot, approaching the drop off area.

“i know that this is our last hope. but hun… it won’t work unless you try to make it work,” my mom says, parking the car. my face is void of any emotion, but my heart was torn between feeling nothing and feeling everything. i looked up, catching jungkook make his way across the lot. he spots my mom’s car and smiles at me, causing an involuntary smile to inch it’s way across my lips.

“i’ve got to go to a meeting today. think you can find your way home today?” my mom says. i glance over at her, catching the way there was a mischievous smile on her lips. i scoff, nodding my head before pushing the door open. my mom yells that she loves me before i shut the door, ignoring the stares of everyone as i walk into the building.

“thought you’d be too scared to come back,” jungkook teases as he spots me walking down the hall.

“you talk like i have a choice,” i smirk, walking past him.

“i love it when you speak sarcasm,” jungkook winks, causing me to roll my eyes in return.

i couldn’t explain it. have you ever been around someone who makes you feel like an entirely different person when you’re around them? someone happier? better? like there’s hope at the end of the dreaded tunnel?

that was jungkook. he seemed to have this way of getting people to be their best self and you didn’t have to know him very long for it to kick in. it was just his natural charm.

but i wasn’t entirely sold. jungkook and i were two cars headed very fast towards the edge of the cliff. nothing good could come from it. right?

“you think you’re gonna be able to stomach story time today?” jungkook asked, catching up to me and walking side by side.

“i don’t know. isn’t the whole point of a surprise is to be inconspicuous until the time comes?” i shrug, avoiding eye contact.

“wow,” jungkook muses, gawking at me.

“what?” i ask, gauging his reaction, trying to decipher why he was staring at me that way.

“you really are an enigma aren’t you?” he chuckles, making you laugh in return.

“you have no idea,” i chuckle.

-

the session this time around wasn’t as bad the first. maybe because i already knew what to expect when i walked through the doors and sat in the uncomfortable blue chairs. it was the usual droning of the same old stories, different emotions.

and of course, as cliche as it was, namjoon waited til the end of the session to call me out.

“try to be uhh, more conversational this time, eh?” jungkook snickered as i stood up. i rolled my eyes at him and shoved his shoulder, slipping past yoongi’s outstretched legs.

“you’ll do great,” yoongi said, a small smile on his lips. i nodded at him and dragged my feet towards the head of the group. namjoon gave me an optimistic smile before stepping aside and taking a seat in the front row.

“uh.. hi. again,” i murmur, my voice monotone as i eyed the crowd. i spotted jungkook trying to stifle his laughter, yoongi smacking his arm. i glared at jungkook which made him laugh even harder.

“look, i’m not the emotional type. i’m just here because i have to be, not because i want to. but i guess if i gotta be here, gotta make the most of it,” i shrug. i looked over at joon who was smiling fondly, almost proudly, at me. it made me uneasy but a small sense of pride fluttered through my chest. it only seemed to grow when i peered over to yoongi and jungkook, both of them smiling at my fidgeting figure. despite the distance, i could still read their eyes like a book.

see, the thing about me is i can read people through their eyes. their thoughts, their emotions, that kind of thing. my mom used to tell me it was my super secret power, i just think it’s because i was fearful of people reading mine, so i learned to mask everything through my eyes.

but it was different here. everyone could read me in different ways. some read my body language, some read the tone in my voice as i spoke and some, like me, could read my eyes. it was hard to be deceitful when everyone here lied for a living. but that was the whole point of this group therapy. specifically this one. because i couldn’t lie and if i did, i’m sure anyone here wouldn’t hesitate to call me out on my shit.

“very true, yn. thank you. and as always have a great week everyone! see you again!” joon smiled, announcing the end of the group session. i shoved my hands into my hoodie pockets and made my way out of the room. a large hand clasped themselves around my arm, stopping me from leaving. my gaze immediately found the hand, following it up to its owner. namjoon.

“you mind if we speak for a quick second?” he smiles. his smile was easy to read: polite and gentle, but firm. like there was no other choice. i nodded my head and followed him to the back of the room.

“what’s up?” i ask, trying to rush this conversation so i could go home.

“i spoke to your doctor. they informed me of—“

“please don’t. not here,” i cut him off, knowing exactly what he was talking about. i could see jungkook standing not too far off in the distance, waiting for me.

“i don’t want to add any stress, but i just want you to know that i need to keep your doctor updated on your sessions. i know that it may be hard, but i really am here to help. if you could come in next session with a little more of an open mind, this whole process will run along smoothly,” namjoon says in a hushed whisper, understanding my need to keep everything private. it made me respect him a little more than i already did (despite the bar being literally at the lowest it could be). i nod once and exhaled a deep sigh.

“okay, i’m picking up what you’re putting down,” i murmur. namjoon places a gentle hand onto my shoulder and nods before looking up at jungkook.

“keep an eye on her, yeah?” namjoon teases. i roll my eyes and shake my head, however, donning a small smile on my lips.

“trust me, she’s had my eye since the day i first seen her.”

[the-golden-dragoness]

OKAY for that ask thing: short, shy (but much less shy when with friends?), polite, being normal is overrated, funny, friendly, & positive !!

I like to think of myself as all of this, so I’m glad other people do too!

Let’s be real if ur on tumblr ur already not “normal”

Apparently I’m one of the most approachable in my friend group? Despite no one really approaching me ever lol

And I guess I am short T_T I’m 5’4” or 163 cm which I don’t find short short, but I am one of the shortest/the shortest on either side of my family. Tbh I think part of why I don’t feel very old and feel like I’m not responsible enough for certain things is because everyone is always taller than me and it makes me feel like I’m still a child 💀