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tell us about the royals au!!! (im on my knees. please.)
Ohhhhh my friend you have started me on a RANT I hope you’re ready!!!
I don’t know that I’ll ever actually write it so I’m not too worried about spoilers, and the wonderful people in my dms (which are still open btw) bouncing ideas with me are always going to come up with great ideas so I’m putting WIP in big red letters, things are subject to change! But for now, some ideas. Most of what I have will be under the cut, but if you want to know more about a specific part/have any questions please I’d love to chat :D will link to the art/posts I have so far!
(In this au I’ve been referring to Neil as Nathaniel at first and then Abram (hello names as a plot device), and everyone else right now is some version of their name)
Kevin and Nathaniel were raised at Evermore castle, Kevin to be in direct competition to Riko/see which of them might claim the throne (not thought out yet), and Nathaniel as the Moriyama’s attack dog, born and raised to take his father’s place as such. The two never met in person, but Nathaniel knows and recognizes Day because of course he does, and Day knows the name Wesninski means a very, very dangerous person. Essentially the top assassin on the continent.
But as we do, Day decides he can’t/won’t handle the treatment anymore, whatever the last straw may be, and runs off to Palmetto in a kind of desperate chase of the stories his mother used to tell him when he was little. He knew she loved that kingdom. Somehow he finds Wymack - the twin’s royal advisor - or Wymack finds him, and once Wymack realizes who this kid is and has reason to believe he’s not here on Evermore business, he puts Day’s incredible talent and training as a tactician/commander to work as his pupil.
Meanwhile Nathaniel is still at Evermore, mistreated and learning from his own failures and mistakes until he’s nearly as good as his father at the family business.
I don’t know how long Nathaniel plans it, but he either plays the part for long enough or his skill is so undeniable that when the Moriyamas have plans for the Palmetto Kingdom, they send him and one other accomplished fighter to kill the king. Nathaniel goes quietly and decides he’s not coming back if he can help it.
So instead of killing the young king, Nathaniel’s panic has him turn on his partner at the very last second, stopping them just before they can get to the king. He takes them somewhere far away and does what he does best, leaving no one to report back to the Moriyamas. From then on it’s a waiting game to see how long the family will wait before they send someone after him.
Day’s followed them, and Nathaniel turns around from the body and sees this man he hasn’t seen in years, alive and safe away from Evermore. It’s as elating as it is crushing - because Day heard his partner call him by name, and there is no way Day will ever let a Wesninski walk away alive. Not if he knows what’s good for all of them.
Except Day doesn’t kill him, even when Nathaniel asks him to. (Better Day than Riko, Nathaniel knew that even when they were all stuck at Evermore). Instead, he takes Nathaniel back to the twins/Wymack, gives him a little bread, and they sit until he can pry out an explanation. (See the comic of this first meeting here.)
Day and Nathaniel spend most of their time together because Day refuses to let Nathaniel out of his or Wymack’s sight until he proves not a threat to the royal family, which proves an issue because between Andrew’s rotation of personal guards (he never gets along with them well enough that they stay/aren’t fired) Day is Andrew’s guard, which sometimes means Nathaniel is stuck a lot closer than Day would like. But after a long, long time, Day and Wymack decide Nathaniel was serious about the whole “runaway” thing and isn’t playing spy (maybe there’s some dramatic event/Nathaniel protecting a twin that convinces them or maybe it’s just a lot of little things over time). Andrew, after a rough spat with the latest guard, is again in need of a new one. Finally Day just asks “is there ANYONE you could possibly pretend to get along with that can do the job” and Andrew knows Nathaniel is dangerous he just doesn’t know exactly how or why (but oh he is curious) so maybe he just straight up says. “Wesninski.” And Day has to go “…. Fine.”
So boom. They knew each other superficially before, but now Andrew and Nathaniel are spending most of their time together and miraculously - no arguments. No spats. Day thanks the gods there’s no physical altercations (that’s probably what got the last guard fired so quick). Nathaniel is just a mystery with shady ability to tell the truth and Andrew can’t help his curiosity. Good old fashioned andreil :D
From here the timeline becomes essentially nonexistent, I have no idea when these things happen in relation to each other but so far they’re all things I like and want to include!
1) there’s plenty of games and competitions at Palmetto, we love a good tussle, and Nathaniel usually does quite well - he’s not good at playing fair, but his underhanded methods are not technically illegal and usually he can use his preferred weapon - dagger rather than sword. He does well except for the one time an opponent accidentally says/does something that was constantly said or done to Nathaniel while “training” at Evermore, and he comes back to Andrew and the tent he watched from in the beginning of a panic attack. Andrew doesn’t know anything about Nathaniel’s past at this point, but he knows a panic attack when he sees one. In trying to talk him through it, Andrew realizes that yes Nathaniel is scared of being hurt, but he’s more afraid of hurting others. Nathaniel won’t let Andrew call him by name, he flinches every time Andrew says it. After, Andrew asks what he should call him instead, and Nathaniel finally asks to be called Abram.
2) Balls! Masquerades! Abram doesn’t have many outfits, he wears the regular issued uniform to every event. Andrew will not stand for this. Abram always wears clothes that cover him fully, which is fine, Andrew can work with that. He’s still seen Abram in a tight shirt or two. So he commissions one of the most knowledgeable people in the court (we’re thinking it might be Allison, she’s a noble but she’s great with textiles/embroidery/etc) and gets Abram a new outfit. It still covers him, its still protective material, but it looks better. (Find Abram in a corset here). Andrew handles it totally normal and rational in his head when he sees Abram actually wearing it of course.
3) Day probably assumes for a little while that Andrew and Abram have got a more or less normal guard/charge relationship, even thinking it’s slightly antagonistic considering this is Andrew we’re talking about. (This doesn’t fit the timeline, but here’s a mini comic of one of Day’s misunderstandings hehe)
4) king Aaron! He became king at 18/20/whatever age we decide this universe deems old enough because he is in fact the elder twin here. I imagine their parents have both been dead and gone for at least a few years at this point. Dan is Aaron’s guard and she and Abram hit it off great as coworkers and friends. More on the uncertainty of the twins backstory later. (Drawings of Aaron and his queen Katelyn here!)
5) the angst. The Moriyamas should have heard from the Wesninski boy months ago - something somewhere went wrong. So, naturally, they go to collect their property. If they get away with it, we can imagine how it goes. What I don’t know is if the twins, Day, and Wymack know for sure he was kidnapped or if they have a little nagging in the back of their head that wonders if he’s only run away from the castle or if he’s run back to Evermore with everything he’s learned.
When he’s recovered, Day doesn’t let Andrew too close too often for a while. If Abram forgets where is for even a second too long - waking up from a nightmare, having a flashback - it’s long enough for it to be fatal to whoever might get too close to Abram. It’s already almost proved fatal for Andrew, after Abram played normal so well that Andrew let it slip - he forgot Abram was taken back to Evermore for them to finish making him into a thoughtless weapon, and they’d nearly succeed. He wakes Abram too quickly and ends up extremely lucky Abram recognizes both his voice and the way Andrew didn’t call him ‘Nathaniel’ or ‘Wesninski’. There’s really a huge amount to possibly be covered about this point so I won’t go into detail here - but if you like hurt/comfort you know where to find me 👀
6) the biggest thing we haven’t figured out is Andrew. Either he was kidnapped at a young age and only recovered in his teens, or the elder King Minyard didn’t much care for his second son. Though I’ve always liked the idea of Mr. Minyard being a good man who died shortly before the twins’ birth and their mother just couldn’t handle the grief or knowing that the twins look like him. Anyway a lot of the twins’ issues after both of their parents are dead are the advisors or other people around them that try to take advantage of their youth and inexperience for their own gain, without realizing that both Aaron and Andrew have had to grow up much too fast, each for their own reasons. They can usually see right past the tricks. It’s why they both trust Wymack so much - he’s one of the few adults that are truly there to help them, and not make decisions for them.
Im sure there’s more I missed, but this is long enough as it is lol. People have asked about the Trojans/Jean in this au, and I’d love to include them! My brain’s instinctive response is that Jeremy is some sort of high end noble/royal of a faraway kingdom, and Jean (always last to leave the nest, im so sorry baby) somehow gets over there, but I don’t have an idea of his or anyone else’s roles yet. Renee could even still have a hand in him getting there if we really want.
So I’m still writing snippets and drawing over here lol but i promise I don’t bite if you want to talk :D
#dear. lord.#this got long#very handy that tumblr adds a read more button to mobile as soon as I learn the shortcut for it#whatever I’m uh#invested#that’s the word I’ll use#I TOLD YOU ROYAL AUS ARE MY ABSOLUTE BABY#my main ocs have a royal au too that’s equally as long winded#it’s insane what this universe can do to me 😭#uhhhh okay tags#my writing#royal au#asks#neil josten#andrew minyard#aaron minyard#kevin day#david wymack#aftg#all for the game#oh also lemonzestedtea#your tags bless me#thank you for the cool pillow 🙏
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kinda afraid to step in this discourse, most of all because i didn’t even finish the show yet (but i just finished s2!!!) but i’ve seen a lot of this fandom behavior and fandoms’ behavior in general.
and like i see a lot of bucktommys complaining about the buddie fandom (including in the buddie tag) but i never actually see the buddie fandom doing anything that terrible, like what i saw the most was them stating they don’t like tommy and even the actor that plays him, but they stayed in their lane and didn’t harass anyone?? maybe i’m in a privileged part of the fandom.
also, saw even people who claim to be from the buddie fandom talking about how this behavior is ruining the experience for them?? and i’m like what behavior?? and this is literally how fandoms work!!! there’s always fights!!!
all i’m saying is if it’s bothering you so much, just block these people (i know i did) and if it’s something truly serious, report them!!!
however, if it’s taking the joy out of the experience for you, maybe you’re just not that into it anymore.
#fandom discourse#911#buddie#bucktommy#chill out ig?#is what i’m trying to say#like ship wars always happen#and whatever you choose to ship is okay#just stay in your lane man#i’m blocking most things bucktommy#because i’m already pretty invested in buddie#and rarely do i multiship (if you do good for you my joy is just as big not multishipping)#though i do multiship sometimes too#but from what i have seen i don’t think i will like bucktommy much so#but i’m not attacking anyone for it#that’s all
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fuck it lester the doorman did it
#the sequel to the classic omitbs post ‘fuck it oliver x lester the doorman’#but i haven’t seen anyone suspect him yet#i don’t like leaving him out :(#lester omitb#omitb#anyway me when i don’t have any real theories because i’m too busy invested in the romantic subplots/musical numbers#and whatever is going on in charles’ mind
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Read one bucktommy fic by accident and now my friendship with buddie is over sorry everyone
#like okay I kinda get it now. like..I kinda get it now#personal#I’m actually trying so so hard to not get invested in bucktommy bc I’ve put too much work into buddie not to stick with her#and i can’t do multi shipping or whatever my brain doesn’t allow it :(#so this is sort of a joke but also not as much of a joke as I would like i fear#dw I am not abandoning us yet
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What are your most realistic predictions for Jayce in season two?
1. He cries snotty style, and 2. the fortiche animators finally cave after my 158 complaint emails and give him fuzzy hairy boobs.
Preferably they kill two birds with one stone and have him crying snotty style while he’s shirtless.
#real talk i dont wanna do realistic predictions#i feel like the arcane writers are for the most part very very capable and i’d like to put my blind trust in them#and believe they’ll find a way to wrap up the characters’ stories in meaningful ways#i feel like speculating about it too much for me personally ruins the fun of sequels#every time i got too invested in trying to figure out what was going to happen in the sequel i was disappointed#case in point: tears of the kingdom LMFAO#so I’m trying not to think about it too much. just sticking to my fics and minding my own#dicax answers#jayce talis#real talk i feel like him actually having a full on crying breakdown the way viktor did is kind of a given#they were going to make it happen in season one too (when viktor falls sick jayce was supposed to cry) but they backed down for whatever—#—reason#i feel like that might be something they return to and implement in this upcoming season
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Hey holly! Do you think you’ll ever get into that fantasy stardew valley like game with March? Cause of you I started playing and replaying stardew and let me tell you, I love March
i have actually been playing fields of mistria since august haha i think i posted screenshots of it too some time, but i’m really slow with progress since i’ll boot it up on a weekend, play like 14 hours and then not get to it for months, so i’m still in the first year ^^;
also march is totally my type of character, both appearance and personality wise, that’s a character crafted for me, he gets holly’s seal of approval <3
“fom/sdv are farming sims” nope, wrong, they’re march/sebastian marriage speedruns
in any case i’m happy i could influence you to play sth fun, holly’s marketing department strikes again hehe
#┊✩彡 divine correspondence ♡#┊✩彡 unsigned letter ♡#i noticed that i misplaced my barn and now i have to fix it and i don’t want to#i hope you can just move it around bc i don’t want it to be a pain in the neck#also i looooooove juniper she is so hollycore#i think ryis is my second favourite and i’m looking at eiland and balor respectfully too#celine gives me major zelda vibes and i’m so invested in whatever relationship juniper and valen have going on#good game all the characters are so lovable and i love how they all interact and get together#i think mistria feels a little more inhabited than stardew#alsooooo it’s so good that you can just barge into shops whenever and aren’t stranded when the characters aren’t there#i should play more fom again ㅠㅠ#i saw that you can have mounts now#they’re all so freaking adorable#march can judge me as i plow by on my pink cow now#fom
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and if i tell you i’m about to cry at my desk bc of a canceled concert then what 😭😭😭😭😭😭
#………………….#baby why do you commit if you’re not going to commit………………..#could’ve saved me the stress two months ago#and the sadness right now#like. i had already accepted it just wasn’t for me bc my city wasn’t included the first time around and i’d got over it#but then i got it and i got so happy and i got to excited for it and now it hurts more bc i was actually looking forward to it#like. it was a tangible reality!!!!!!!!!!!#but now it’s not and i got all these hopes and expectations for nothing and now i’m just fucking sad#and of course i understand touring takes a toll and i respect that#but i’m still just a person who now got emotionally invested in something that will not happen and for fucking what lol#anyway. feel free to ignore me#i know i probably sound fucking whiny but whatever#i’m just too sad
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not luty casually flirting in the background
#i’m way too invested in whatever these two are doing#and it’s always the gayest shit#anyway follow for more luty content ✨#(i am very normal about them)#mara’s violetta rewatch#s1 aka the sillies#1x41#ludmila ferro#naty vidal#luty#violetta
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I will never forgive the BFB fandom for the way they treated Loser 😭
#ppl can say ‘loser is overrated�� all they want but it’ll never change the fact that he is always eliminated ASAP#like brother you are NOT a minority for hating him stfu!!!#to be clear I don’t care if u hate loser (that’s a lie I do 😭) but when they act like they’re special for it it makes me mad#like NO hating Loser is NOT an unpopular opinion I was fighting for my LIFE as a Loser fan!!!!!!!#I keep seeing ppl say ‘why do ppl like loser more than (character who actually got to stay in the game)’ like shut uppp#people do NOT like him more than whatever other character you mentioned. most often winner who I have seen MANY interesting fan arts for#without even searching for it vs most of the interesting Loser art I saw back in my day being from ME lol#plus most loser fans like winner too haha. I like winner but I can’t help that I’m less invested in tpot than I was bfb (pre split)
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you know you’re pathetic when your fucking dad comes up to you and tells you he feels sad looking at how desperate you are with people your age
#vagueposting the shit out of tumblr dot com#new resolution: I’m fucking done trying in friendships unless the other person reciprocates#I’m done begging I’m done pleading I’m done chasing#i don’t care if it leaves me sad and empty I’m worth more than that#I’ve already been doing this starting with my ex best friend#but yeah#I’m just. gonna try to be kind. live in my bubble. not care#step one of that is deactivating instagram#if I know nothing about what’s going on with other people it can’t hurt me#i don’t need a friend group I’m fine with my fellow loner introvert friends#I’ll distance myself stop going the extra mile#for real this time I’ve been burnt too many times#i have my people I have love in my life I don’t need…#yeah whatever#cant be sad if you’re not invested right
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see the problem with all of the puzzles in bg3 is like. sometimes the player (me) is stupid. and at least in a real dnd game you might get the dm to take pity on you
#the number of ‘’walkthroughs’’ that i’ve found that don’t actually. help#they tell you the map coordinates or whatever. what about if i cannot physically find what you’re talking about AT THOSE COORDINATES#or cannot figure out how to get to those coordinates (like when i spent three days trying to find karlach)#i’m in hell. actually still having a very hard time getting invested and like. not rly enjoying this game lmao#I AM PLAYING ON EXPLORER MODE AND SOMEONE GOES DOWN IN ALMOST EVERY COMBAT#also just. open world syndrome a little bit#too many quests that apparently i can’t actually move forward in yet. and too much open space#making me feel like. i need to go explore and grind when i just want to finish the quests i already have good lord#idrc about exploring every corner of the map. at this point???#tried going into the mountain pass and it was like ‘hey you’re really low level. reconsider <3’ and im like#literally WHAT is there to do for me here#(it wanted me to go to the underdark. which i figured would progress the story so i was trying to find lae’zel’s crèche while we’re here??)#also on a non gameplay note#inSANE that all of the questlog items for daughter of darkness list her and i having interactions that We Did Not#got to act 2 and she’s like ‘hey i worship shar btw. this is supposed to be a reveal’ but like. the quest log told me that immediately??#was i not supposed to read that?? she never told me that she wanted to join the justiciars. i never gave her the idol.#but it said all of those happened???#maybe i’m biased bc my first save was trying to play as her but it REALLY feels like they’re pushing her to be the main character#like. kinda sucks how she’s the only companion you can check in with and say ‘how do you think we’re doing’#and these fucking controls#why are the items hit boxes so weird. my cursor is a centimeter away and yet it still highlights something#the label isn’t actually next to the thing it’s describing so holding the alt key does nothing to show me where it is#god forbid you try to point at something through an open door#the fucking. camera angles. impossible to see what i’m doing or where i’m going because the trees and walls and shit keep getting in the way#straight up not having a good time#but this was a lot of money and i’ve heard it picks up#when tho#also the fact that i rly like wyll and he’s got like. nothing. id heard he has less content than other origins but#didn’t realize it was to a noticeable extent#maybe it’ll pick up and give him more to talk about once i save his dad. please god
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ever feel so unfunny :/
#honestly sometimes i feel too boring to be on this hellsite#i just don’t have the same wit or snappy humor as some of the other ppl here#i get some asks that i genuinely don’t know how to reply to lmao#i’m only 22 but i feel sorta ancient not being able to keep up with certain jargon#and then i spiral and think like. maybe no one wants to talk to me bc i’m so fucking awkward#i can’t leave my own blog damnit 😭#i already abandoned my last one but i never had a problem talking to ppl on there so idk#tbh the plan for this blog when i got into hockey was to be a… (this is stupid) lone wolf#just drop some gifs. not get involved otherwise or else i’ll become too invested in how well my blog is doing#when i literally want to not care and just let it be whatever it wants#but some of the ppl i met on here are so nice even if our friendships are so new#i guess i wish i was more interesting or had better things to say. it takes so much brain power sometimes#but live-blogging is easy since i just type whatever pops into my head and then hit post lmao#i should sleep but here i am making gifs to avoid my problems instead 🤡
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homestuck is getting SAD and i don’t WANT THIS i want to read about shitty children lovingly bullying each other i don’t want to watch them sobbing over each other’s corpses :/
#I’ve gotten stuck in reread village#just refinished act 3. skipping the stupid intermission. so not too long from now I will be right back at the sad parts#it’s just like. i think part of the reason i latched onto hs over christmas is bc a piece of engaging media with an interesting plot/#relatable and lovable characters/CRUCIALLY a very stupid sense of humor was exactly what I needed#and now I’m like. invested and it’s getting angsty. which I am into!!! but I’m like. v stressed out rn#which makes me fragile#and so I want my fiction to be an escape yk? which it can’t really be (at least not that kind of escape) if it gets my emotions up#but it’s like I rly want to get to act 6#I’m 2/3(?) of the way through 5.2 so I’m almost there#and I really want them all to get together + I’ve been promised lots of juicy character development and relationship building#but I also know it keeps getting angstier#and so idk what to do lol!!!#whatever rant over I’ll figure it out#my friend and I have been reading out loud a lot so that’s probably how I’ll do it#bc it’s more fun plus I can yell with her and also hit her when I’m mad that I started it in the first place lol#bc of the angst#(she’s starting htn soon and I can’t wait for the roles to be reversed teehee)#anyway. rant over for real now#if youre still reading this send me a spoiler free ask about how much you love terezi or kanaya or something#op#hs
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working on something that will probably never see the light of day.. BUT IT LOOKS SO NICE i’m so sad.
#HSR is such a comfort for me i’m going to be honest#especially with huohuo being added?#like idk it’s just. giving me nostalgia to when i first started really getting into genshin#because the first character i ever wanted was hu tao#and they’re both.. spooky yk#augh.. i am so sad tonight for like no reason#i think i should just go to bed tbh that’s probably the issue#if anyone’s curious it’s a HSR network. because. i can’t help myself. but i am trying to help myself bc i already have st pavlov foundation#and the steambird (which isn’t a network but still) and i really… do not….. need to make another network…….. but i really want to#it’s something almost innate for me. every time i’d ever play a game with like#groups or guilds or clubs or whatever#any sort of thing like that#i would aaaaaalways make one. and i would have so much fun w it too.#it’s bled over into my tumblr life helppp#it was always a little bit unhealthy though.#like i would get SO invested into it that it would like. cause me stress.#which like.. isn’t good.#but i haven’t seen any purely HSR networks except for like 2 inactive ones and…#someone stop me actually. it’s the middle of the night. the sun is gonna come up soon. i need to sleep. not make choices.#i’m just gonna embarrass myself bye#especially if i keep rambling in the fucking TAGS ok i’m shutting up now#sorry followers/moots#byebye#me talking to myself like “see .. u literally have this in ur drafts rn.. u could just delete it” but then i go “but i already spent#x amount of time rambling and ppl could just like.. skip over this if they want to so why does it matter”#haha x amount of time. like x from the game reverse 1999#stop i’m so tired goodbye I’M SO SORRY
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are you pulling away from fandoms temporarily, or will it be a more permanent thing?
whatever you decide to do, i wish you the best and hope you feel better soon <3
is semi-permanent an option?
at the very least, i think i’m pulling away from contributing and interacting w fandom spaces for a bit til i can sort out my own junk, but afterwards i might return! however tbh even a hiatus of sorts won’t stop me from Consuming Materials and likely rb’ing stuff from them? it just won’t be like…. personal, if that makes sense. i don’t plan on actively interacting w fandom as much and instead just kinda. quietly rb’ing and enjoying things
if anyone’s interested jic, my main is @zozzlez and my “other interests”/misc fandom (kinda?) blog is @rekaleido
#really it’s just… I’ve gotten a little Too Self-Invested in fandom/this blog and I think it’s to the point it’s harmful#(like. basing self worth on numbers or interactions or Needing Everyone To Like Me So Much or whatever)#so I’m hoping kinda removing myself from that and Stopping myself from investing myself into it will help#and once I’m in a more stable position and less likely to immediately jump into doing the Same Thing I can return to like. PARTICIPATING#in fandom rather than just. observing it (like I plan to)#I hope this answers your question?#also THANK YOU for your well wishes I really truly appreciate it <33#og post#answered#anon#personal#AGAIN like. it’s a slow plan. im not quitting cold turkey! but it likely will Decrease at least#ill also likely keep using my spam but that’s bc I can’t shut up HDKDNN#but who knows w that one either
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Bro I’m </3 thinking too hard </3
#vent#ugh. artfight. bullshit. fucking shit#I would rather have banter with my friends than draw for people that don’t care#but alas. the all consuming art game#I love drawing for people in theory but I hate how it makes me feel. do you understand what I mean by this#idk what it is but the fact art fight starts TOMORROW has me feeling like a worthless sack of shit#and that feeling is only heightened by the fact that everyone is going to be invested in it while I fucking crumble for what? the 3rd?#4th year in a row?? god. fucking sucks. I get so in my head with this bullshit every year. but I want to do it#ugh. awful. and I feel worse when people make me things and then I don’t get to send something back#awful gross beast. and now I’m just feeling worse thinking about other things. I’m so overwhelmed#and not a damn person to talk to cus 1. there’s no one to listen and 2. I can’t articulate my feelings! I don’t understand myself!#the only reason I know how to act is because I do research for my fucking characters! I’m my own fucking character!#and I wish someone was there to make me feel special like how I (hypothetically) make my ocs feel!!#ugh. whatever I’m cool and fine and dandy and NOT on the verge of tears and I’m going to eat fucking jellybeans#am I going to have a breakdown every time there’s a Holliday or event? I canNOT be caught feeling like a fucking ball of lint every#valentines day dawg. I can’t be that person. I already did that one time too many ok#how’s it feel to have people enjoy talking to you? cus I’m either too much or not enough for people
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