#i’m tired.

[dead-dove-orchid]

Rudy cmon that’s your coworker please be normal for five seconds

[aboutsedici]

is charles’s car built out of cardboard or something? why does it fall apart ALL THE FUCKING TIME???

[idkfitememate]

I’m Tired

૮꒰˶ᵔ ᗜ ᵔ˶꒱ა Pairings : Me.

૮꒰ྀི∩´ ᵕ `∩꒱ྀིა W.K. : 349

໒꒰ྀིᵔ ᵕ ᵔ ꒱ྀི১ Tags/CW&TW : Self deprecating thoughts, self dehumanization/objectification, dog metaphors

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…

… I can see you. Watching.

Can you feel me? Breathing down your neck?

I want to sink my teeth into your flesh.

<3

I don’t deserve it and I know.

Im a bad dog.

I constantly bark and bite, and I’m sorry.

I am so so sorry.

I can’t help it, not when everyone I’ve met had silenced me.

Shoving a muzzle on my maw and shocking my collar.

They hurt me.

You haven’t.

But it’s still so hard to trust.

I would bleed for you.

I will bleed for you.

Will you let me bleed for you?

I need to bleed for you, it’s the only way I can prove my loyalty.

Last time I laid belly up they split me in two with a knife, tearing through me.

My claws are too sharp.

I injure myself on them, trying to get to you.

I am a pathetic whining and whimpering mess on the ground.

For you.

Only for you.

I know I’m a bad dog.

It’s hard to forget when they drilled it into me.

With whips and lashes, punches and kicks, shouts and grins of sharp teeth.

That’s why I have to prove myself to you.

So you don’t leave me.

Please don’t leave me.

I’m scared of the dark.

[rebelrayne]

calling it now: we’re coming back from ca and our partner is going to be like “omg I saw what you did how could you” but it was amelia in the postcard they saw and not mc.

this is misunderstanding island now.

[charrywolfo7]

really early Sun doodle… It’s super early. I should be asleep lol. Take the silly man

[wlwvampirism]

“Well…my favorite author might be using the revenue they make from this book to fund public executions of marginalized people and they regularly tweet about how much they love natural selection and how everyone that they dislike should die and they also went on record to state that they view any person who likes their work as agreeing with their hateful values…but like I can separate the art from the artist, so it’s morally okay for me to keep reading and loving their works ☺️”

[nocontextbfdi]

[skoulsons]

“I love you”

It’s quiet and muffled in her hair, but it’s there. It’s real, coming from the one person she’d never doubt it from.

They never needed to say it. They don’t need to. Their loves come out in the way her cheek rests against his shoulder during Friday night movie nights and in how his lips kiss the hair above her ear every morning. Their loves are known in every baby girl and old man that’s said with every ounce of endearment or sarcasm. Their love is found in the way their hands fit together or how they watch each other in the mundane activities.

It’s unexpected to hear, and a part of Ellie wants to ignore it. She wonders if Joel meant to even say it, or if his inner monologue happened to slip past in a moment of vulnerability.

But she takes it and everything she knows it means and she squeezes him tighter to let him know she heard him.

She still debates saying it. If she’s ready to, verbally, at least. It’s no doubt she does. Way too much has happened in their time together to not look at him and for a quick I love you to cross her mind every time.

But actually saying it is a different story, so she settles on squeezing his middle tighter and snuggling her face a little further into his chest.

It’s not until the morning when she brews his coffee does she think he deserves to hear it.

Or see it, at least.

She pours his mug to the top and leaves it atop the counter, a note beside it.

Granted, she was nervous as hell to actually write it out and it took her five minutes of standing there, thinking back to the moments in their journey when the proof of their love only seemed to grow and prosper.

But when she hears him stirring upstairs and knows he’ll be down any minute, she pushes past her thoughts and grabs a nearby pen

She scribbles on a ripped piece of paper and sits it next to his mug, quickly grabbing her bag and running out the door before Joel is all the way down the stairs.

Joel is descending the stairs as she closes the door, shutting down his attempt at calling out for her.

The familiar smell of coffee makes him smile knowing she woke up early to make him some. And when he finds his mug and the note beside it, his smile only grows wider.

I love you :) is scratched on the ripped paper. The L is capitalized and tail of her Y is a bit long, but it makes Joel laugh. Her smiley face is crooked and Joel wonders if she’s ever written a note with a smiley face before.

She had a life before you.

She did, but it wasn’t nearly as good as the one she’s been given with him.

He relishes in the chicken scratch writing and the goofy, though endearing looking smile she thought was important enough to add to the note.

He keeps the note tucked in his shirt pocket for safe keeping.

And when they both get home that evening, they don’t mention it. Joel’s smile is a little brighter and his voice is a little softer and he’s a little more affectionate. Ellie has more of a pep in her step and she clings to him a little more and she laughs a little harder.

[salmon1012]

not feeling like myself

[smoreal]

Okay probably totally off the mark here but what if Gerald wanted to create Shadow in the exact image of Super Sonic, a la gold and red color palette, but Maria said ‘but my favorite color is black…’ and Black Doom was like ‘make him black, Gerald. And give him a cool red strip like me.’

[ddejavvu]

I just spent thirty minutes looking for one Lego piece that I fumbled

[hungergameshyperfixation]

Not to be that person but Panem had nearly 75 full Hunger Games before their system of government was overthrown. 75(+?) years. But things changed in the end. This too shall pass (but not without active participation)

[jupiter-descending]

trying to continue on with your plans for life with an undiagnosed Something is like. you have a low level fever for days and can’t do anything about it. people tell you you’re too young to feel this way, and most people find the pain goes away with tylenol. you have bottles and bottles of pills but you’re in pain anyway. you use a cane but don’t feel like you deserve to. you can’t afford to go to the doctor, you’re not even sure you can afford rent. you’re trying to make grad school and following the career path you’ve wanted your entire life and living in a city work. you’re not sure if you can keep doing this much without destroying yourself. you go to work. something’s wrong. you go to class. something’s wrong. you go to the grocery store. something’s wrong. you call your mom. something’s wrong. something’s wrong. something’s wrong. and what can you do about it? how can you even begin to ask for help when you don’t know what’s happening?

[quietly-collecting-spoons]

Love when a new issue pops up that counteracts my preexisting issues

Got a kidney stone today

Everyone online says “eat citrus. Don’t eat salt. Don’t eat meat.”

But I can’t do large amounts of citrus because of reflux, more salt is helpful because of suspected POTS, and red meat is the best way for me specifically to get iron

[r1nb0w]

if I … hypothetically.. made an edit blog.. what would I HYPOTHETICALLY make the theme too..