#i’m still here just super busy w school

[baby-kittennn]

woof woof :p

[nereidprinc3ss]

omg i'm obsessed with the idea of spencer and a university student and i looooved the one you wrote with reader struggling with finals (i relate so much </3) i'm not sure if you write requests or not (if not, then i'm sorry and please ignore this hahaha) but i would love to see more of their dynamic? maybe spencer for once arrives earlier from a case and goes to pick up reader from university as a surprise? i don't really know but i would love to see more 💗 thank you and i hope you have a good day!

AHHHH omg you have NO IDEA how excited I was to open my inbox and see a request!! i am absolutely obsessed w spencer x uni student too

i kind of took this and ran w it so its a little angsty and random LOLOL but here is (drumroll)

spencer picking up reader after you fail an exam (sorry lol) and you are NOT in a good mood but he loves you so its fine

Tears, partly from the bitter wind and partly from shame, blur your phone screen as you exit the lecture hall. Another missed call from Spencer. It’s the third one today—you've been ignoring them in an attempt to remain focused on the final that you just bombed. Part of you now wants to keep ignoring them out of sheer embarrassment. How can you admit to your super-genius boyfriend that you are a bona fide academic failure? Still, you don’t want him wondering about you while he should be working. Your numb fingers fumble with the phone as you try to call him back without running into anybody on your walk back to student housing. 

It doesn’t reach the second ring before he’s picking up. 

“Hey,” he sighs. “I was starting to worry.” 

“I’m sorry, I’ve been busy,” you exhale, cutting through some trees as you approach your building. “What’s up? How’s the case?” 

“Well... that’s actually what I’ve been calling about. We wrapped up this morning.” 

“What? But last night you said it would be at least three more days.” 

“Rare instance of me being wrong, I guess.” 

“So when are you flying back?” you ask, not wanting to get your hopes up. You know sometimes his team stays behind to help with processing a case. He doesn’t reply for a moment. “Spencer?” 

“I’m... thirteen minutes away from your school. Twelve.” 

Your brain short-circuits as you process his words, the cold metal of the door handle biting into your fingers as you stop dead in your tracks. 

“You--are you driving here right now?” 

“Yes,” he begins, sounding embarrassed, “I kept calling because I wanted to ask first, but I know you had your last final this morning and you were going to come over when I got back anyway so I thought you might want to come stay with me for a few extra days. You can say no, obviously—” 

Some of the icy despair melts in your chest. 

“Of course, I want to.” 

“Good,” he exhales a laugh. “It would have been awkward if you said no. Can you have a bag packed by the time I get there?” 

You’re speedwalking through the lobby now, hitting the up button for the elevator more times than is necessarily effective. 

“Drive faster.” 

“Yes, ma’am.” 

By the time you blindly shove enough clothing in a bag, text your roommate to let her know you’ll be gone for the rest of the week, and make it back outside, Spencer’s familiar vintage car is already pulling up to the curb. He doesn’t even bother cutting the engine—just puts it in park and gets out, rounding the vehicle as you close the distance between one another. His smile is brilliant, and though you don’t feel particularly deserving of it, it’s for you. 

“Hi,” you breathe shakily as he loops his arms around your waist. 

“Hi, pretty,” he says, already leaning down to kiss you. It’s soft and sweet over too quickly, but then he’s gently pulling you into him. You drop your bag and bury your face in his jacket, trying to right yourself before you go into an emotional tailspin. 

As usual, he smells like lavender, clove, resinous amber. It makes your head spin. Right away you feel yourself relaxing; feel your guard slipping, like it always does when he’s around. 

“I missed you.” The words are quiet to begin with, muffled further by the fabric of his coat, but you know he’ll hear you. 

“I missed you too,” he murmurs, stroking your hair. “Everything okay?” 

Why are you always surprised when a man who works for the Behavioral Analysis Unit of the FBI accurately analyzes your behavior? 

“Just tired. Can we go home?” You pull back enough to look up at him, meeting his fond—and just a little concerned—gaze, averting your eyes before he has time to discern your... omission of truth. 

“Yeah, angel. Of course we can.” 

He opens the passenger side door for you, making sure you’re settled before tossing your bag in the back seat and circling around the back of the car. 

“Is that coffee?” You say as soon as he slides into the driver’s seat. His eyes dart down to the tumbler in the center cupholder as he buckles. 

“It’s from the jet. You won’t like it.” 

Despite his warning you reach over to grab it, taking a small sip as he puts the car into gear and pulls out of the parking lot. You make a sour face. Spencer glances over. 

“I told you it was bad.” 

You yawn, putting it back in the cupholder. “It was worth a shot.” 

Jazz music plays quietly from the speakers and the heat is blasting, but you’re too busy mentally rehashing question 37 to find it relaxing. 

“You didn’t get enough sleep last night,” he states. Not a question. Outside, the brick buildings of your campus roll by. You wonder if all the students rushing about on the sidewalks and side streets failed any of their finals.  

“Couldn’t,” you mumble flatly, picking at your nails.  

There’s a moment’s pause, and you’re imagining all the things you could have done differently. You’ve never failed a final before. If you’d just studied a little bit harder—if you’d stayed in instead of going out last weekend, if you weren’t so— 

“I’m going to ask you something, and I don’t think you’re going to like it,” Spencer says. 

“Mhm,” you hum, too afraid to speak because your eyes are already stinging again. Honestly, you’re surprised you made it this far without him getting the truth out of you. He offers his hand across the console as you slink down in your seat, and you take it, allowing him to run his thumb over yours in soothing lines. 

“How do you think your final went?” 

You bite the inside of your cheek, the bare branches of the trees outside blurring as you stare unseeingly. 

“Not good. Like, I definitely failed, not good. I'm an idiot.” 

“You absolutely are not an idiot.” 

“You didn’t see me taking the test, Spencer. I literally just sat there staring at it for ten minutes before I even answered one question. It was pathetic.” 

“Did you sleep at all last night?” 

The question takes you by surprise. Your frown deepens. 

“What? I don’t—that’s not—" 

“Just answer the question. Did you sleep at all last night?” 

“Yes!” 

“Don't lie to me.” 

“Fuck you! I slept for like two hours and had coffee this morning!”  

He squeezes your hand. 

“That’s why you failed.” 

The first tear traces its path down your cheek, composure overwhelmed by the confrontation. 

“I hate when you use your stupid interrogation tactics on me,” you say, voice wobbling. And then the crying begins in earnest. 

“I know, baby.” 

His hand moves to rub your back when you let go to cover your face. Torrential evidence of your frustration and utter exhaustion well over, slipping through your fingers despite your best efforts to stop them from coming at all. Having an emotional breakdown in the passenger seat of his car is far from how you’d wanted to greet Spencer’s surprise arrival, but you’re too worn out to mask your emotions—especially when he is so adept at drawing them to the surface. 

A moment passes like that before you take a shuddering breath, raising your head slightly and wiping your cheeks with your sleeves in vain. 

“I should have been able to do it. I just—it was like I was reading the questions and I knew that I should know the answers, but I couldn’t remember anything.” 

“You’re exhausted. Sleep deprivation has an immediate, devastating effect on cognitive functioning levels. My recall and processing speed start to fail when I’m tired, too. It has nothing to do with how smart you are.” 

It makes sense—but it doesn’t make you feel much better. You wanted to ace this exam. Of course, Spencer wouldn’t understand because school was as easy as breathing for him. He barely had to try to get three doctorates. It’s possible, you suppose, that dating a genius has put an academic chip on your shoulder—maybe you’ve set impossibly high standards for yourself.  

After a few minutes the crying finally ebbs, if only because you’re running into supply and demand problems with your tear ducts. You rub your weepy eyes on your shoulder, leaning against the cold window and watching DC go by. 

“You know, the final isn’t as important as you think it is. You’ll still pass the class.” 

“It’s symbolic,” you mumble, breath fogging up the glass. Spencer hums, still rubbing your back. 

“I know. I know it matters to you, but I don’t want you to think one bad grade is a reflection of who you are. Do you understand why it doesn’t make sense to measure something as abstract as intelligence by a metric as one dimensional as a standardized test?” 

“Yes.” 

“Good.” 

You shift in your seat, wiping your face with your sleeve and prompting Spencer to take your other hand once more. 

“Can your FBI friend hack the university database and give me an A?” you ask after a moment, sniffling. 

“Absolutely not.” 

“Pretty please?” 

“Nope.” 

“It’s like you don’t even love me,” you mutter, angling yourself away from him.  

He pulls your hand toward him and presses a kiss to the back of it. 

“I love you so much that I don’t want you to get expelled for academic dishonesty.” 

“It doesn’t matter anyway. I’ll probably just drop out.” 

You both know you’re just being overdramatic, but Spencer has a tendency to be sweet even when you don’t deserve it. 

“I’ll love you no matter what you do.” 

You blush, unable to come up with a sufficient reply. His eyes slide to you briefly and he smirks, clearly enjoying his ability to fluster you, and by extension, get you to shut up. 

“Eyes on the road, genius,” you grumble. But for the first time today you’re fighting a smile instead of tears. 

[countmur]

How Literate Arcane Characters Are - Headcanon Thread

(Vander, Silco, Benzo, Caitlyn, Vi, Mylo, Claggor, Powder, Ekko, Jayce, Viktor, Mel)

I’ve never used tumblr before so please be patient w me 🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️🙇‍♂️ some minor spoilers for arcane 1 ahead!!

Vander:

Barely literate. He gets by mostly but he reads increasingly slow and needs to read out loud. The undercity doesn’t have an actual school system so the kids usually have to teach themselves or have their parents teach them. Vander was just a little shit as a kid, thought it was useless then and now he’s trying to learn since he’s running a business and all that. He can write, but again, barely. Has to sound out every word and even then it’s not guaranteed to be spelled right. He doesn’t understand how people read for fun. You give him anything thicker than a pamphlet and he’ll look at you like you’re crazy

Rat bastard Silco 🥰

A lot more literate than his brother, he was always more of the brains than the brawn anyway. For his work the ability to write well is a must, and he was a little less of a shit in his childhood than Vander so he actually started learning early on. He does enjoy reading actually!! He’s a bit of an elitist though and thinks he’s better than everyone else for “enjoying” classics. Probably wrote some fanfics as a teen, If Vander could read then he would definitely bully Silco.

Benzo (off topic but he doesn’t get as much love as he deserves)

He’s around the same level of literacy as Silco. Read data sets and instructional pamphlets all the time as a kid. Probably stumbled upon an IKEA furniture assembling guide once as a kid and was so fascinated he just had to figure out what it meant. Vander always comes to Benzo for help when he gets an especially fancy message from Grayson. I think Benzo would actually have some nice handwriting and would be super proud of his signature. He’s used to tinkering with very small and complex machines so he’s got good control.

Caitlyn

Idk what you want me to say here she’s a piltie with a council member for a mom I don’t know how she could be anything less than that one kid in elementary who was reading at a 12th grade level in 3rd grade. Read fanfics as a kid. Still does occasionally. Probably figured out she was a lesbian from reading fanfics. Had a weird obsession with mystery novels back then which may or may not have led her to become an enforcer.

Vi

Yeah she’s obviously Vander’s kid. Didn’t see the need to read and Vander didn’t really push her to so she just kinda never learned to read. To her the most important thing is to be able to speak well and not die. Probably liked to flip through comic books and try and piece together the story from the pictures (that or she just made up her own). Being locked up in prison for several years also doesn’t really help with literacy so yeah. Vi is illiterate.

Mylo

Most literate of Vander’s kids. He’s not super advanced but he’s doing a LOT better than his siblings. Benzo probably gave him a book on lockpicking without telling Vander once and that’s probably where Mylo actually began to read a lot more. He enjoys the usual fantasy and adventure books but rarely has the time to read them. He’s probably around a 5th or 6th grade reading level. Likes to rub the fact that he can understand the comic books into Powders face.

Claggor (I couldn’t find any good gifs of just him sorry 😢😢)

A little less literate than Mylo but he can still read pretty well! Probably likes to flip through craft books and then never make any of the projects shown (cough cough I’m projecting cough). Same with cooking books except he actually MIGHT make a thing or two shown in the book. Likes Fantasy books as well.

Powder / Jinx

As a kid she definitely loved flipping through kids’ encyclopedias with different animals in them. That’s partly why she started reading, cuz she was so interested in what those animals were. She also had a lot of spare time since Mylo would always insist on leaving her behind and sometimes it was enough to convince Vi. Once she got older I think she stopped reading as much. She still knew how to read she just lost the love for it, reminded her too much of her past life. Silco didn’t push her to keep reading either.

Ekko 😢😢😢😭😢😭😢😢😢😭😢🥺😢

Benzo actually pushed him to read a ton, and Ekko absolutely loved and respected Benzo so he wasn’t a tough student. He loved loved loved learning from Benzo and just honestly enjoyed spending time with his mentor. Benzo wasn’t too bad of a teacher either so Ekko became very literate very quickly. Again, after the events of the first arc he also lost his love for reading. He’s a great letter writer tho especially when he needs to give instructions.

Jayce

He got into a university I think you gotta be pretty literate for that. Idk tho. Could be wrong. Again idk what you want me to say for him. Oh but! I think he speaks atleast one other language just not well. He’s highly literate in English but not in the language his mom speaks. He can understand it and can speak it but can’t read or write in it.

Viktor

Kinda like Jayce I think he speaks another language EXCEPT he can also read and write in the other language too! So he’s very literate in both of the languages he speaks. He may be from the undercity but from his accent I want to make the guess that he may have moved to the undercity when he was very young. Maybe the place he was from actually had a decent school system where he learned to read and write in both his mother tongue and English. Seems like a fan of French novels and poetry books. You give him Frankenstein and he gets excited as hell.

Mel She comes from Royalty so she is very very well educated. Speaks several languages that her mom made her learn and can probably read and write in atleast 4 different languages. Traumatized girlboss polyglot!!!

Once she was no longer living with her mother I think she really started to indulge in fiction while before her mom would rarely allow it, saying it was a waste of time or that it promoted degeneracy (off topic but if Ambessa was a politician irl she would 100% use woke unironically). Seems like she’d be a big fan of Jane Austen and Emily Dickenson.

End of thread!!

[offbrandkyoya]

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[Kaeya and Albedo had the typical high school sweetheart love. They were pure and honest and the perfect pair. Kaeya encouraged Albedo to pursue his talents and in return, Albedo encourages his.]

[“I got scouted to be in a band.” Kaeya tells him one day in his room. Albedo looks at him in surprise. “Woah really?!” “Mhm.” Kaeya was always shy when it came about expressing his accomplishments. Albedo scooches closer to him and kisses his cheek. “That’s great!” “Thanks.” Kaeya rubs his neck. “They heard some songs Diluc and i made so…”]

[Albedo pulls him into a hug. “I’m very proud of you, Kaeya.” “Thank you but..” He pulls away, “But what?” Kaeya looks down at his feet. “What if I don’t do good?” Albedo frowns and caresses the scar that was imprinted on Kaeyas eye. “You will do good, love. You’re super talented! You don’t give yourself enough credit. Everyone’s going to love you.” Kaeya puts on a small smile and rests his head on Albedos shoulder. “Thanks.” “Of course. Did you tell Diluc?” “Yeah. They scouted both of us, though I’m a little nervous since we’re entering our college lives soon.”]

[Albedo looks up, “Ah that’s true.” He looks back down, smiling. “Don’t worry. Everything will work out.” Kaeya smiles too and they share a kiss.]

[Such an unfortunate turn out it became to be.]

[Now freshman in college, Kaeya has been busy with the band lately. They haven’t debuted yet but he’s still got work to do. So much work that he’s barely able to make time with his boyfriend. Albedo sits on his couch with a huge frown. He was visiting home for a while and today was going to be a date night. Obviously, that wasn’t happening as Kaeya was 20 minutes late.]

[Klee walks to her big brother and hugs his legs. “Where’s Kaeya?” She asks with a pout. Albedo smiles softly at her and ruffles her hair. “He’ll be here soon.” Klee’s frown grows. “You said that twice already!” Albedo frowns too. “I know.” Was all he could say. Disappointed, Klee goes back to her coloring activities in her room.]

[Albedo slumps on the couch and throws his head back. “Where are you?” He asks to seemingly no one. After a few minutes, Albedo takes out his phone and checks his messages. Kaeya hasn’t even read the couple he’s sent in those 20 minutes. He frowns even more and distracts himself by going on social media. What a mistake that was. His stomach drops when he sees Kaeya’s post of himself, hanging out with his brother and members.]

[Albedo grunts and clicks out right away. He gets up and rushes straight to his room. Albedo slams the door shut and throws himself onto his bed. “That asshole���” He mumbles into his pillow. The door slowly opens with Klee sticking her head in. She fully enters with a big tears welling into her eyes. “He’s not coming, is he?” Seeing his sister in pain was enough for him so burst out crying. He shakes his head sadly.]

[Klee runs to his brother and hops on the bed, immediately hugging him tight. “Don’t cry.” She tells him even though she was crying too. Albedo lays her down with him in sobs. They held each other for a long time and in the end, fell asleep.]

[“I think we need to break up.” Kaeya stops dead in his tracks.]

[The two were on a date and Albedo moved on ahead, back facing him. Kaeya’s hands start to shake. “W-What? Albedo, why?” Albedo sniffles since he couldn’t hold in the tears any longer. “Because Kaeya!” “Because??” Kaeya takes a step forward. “You can’t break up with me! Not before I’m about to debut tomorrow!” Albedo grits his teeth and turns his head around.]

[“Is that all you care about?!” Kaeya immediately swallows and shake his head. “No! No, of course not! I just want you to be there! To see me in action!” Albedo looks to the side. “I’m sorry, Kaeya, but I don’t think being together is working.” Kaeya’s lips tremble. “Albedo…” “Kaeya, you have bigger things to worry about. It’s clear that I’m not at the top of the list.” Kaeya doesn’t know what else to say.]

[He stands there frozen which doesn’t help Albedo at all. The blonde lets out a shaky breath, “Goodbye, Kaeya.” “No!” He runs to him and held his hands. “I’m sorry! I’m so sorry! I didn’t mean to leave you alone! I was busy and-“ “That’s always your excuse and I’m tired of hearing it!” It took everything in Albedo to pull away from him.]

[“I’m happy for you but I think we need to stop seeing each other and do our own thing.” He didn’t stay to listen to Kaeya’s response. Instead, he ran away.]

[Diluc sits on his bed, reading a book he was assigned to analyze. It had started to rain and he decided to stay up a while longer to wait for Kaeya. A knock at the door and the redhead immediately puts his book down. “Finally.” He mumbled and heads to the door. He opens it, “Seriously, Kaeya. Stop arriving late-“ He paused as he sees his little brother drenched with a miserable expression. The raindrops blending into his flowing tears.]

[With a hushed voice, Kaeya says, “We broke up.” Diluc gasps and his brother starts to cry. Diluc pulls him into a tight hug. Kaeya grips onto him for dear life and continues to cry. “I’m sorry.” Diluc spoke. At the time, he didn’t know what else to say. He wasn’t with anyone at the moment but as his older brother, it’s his job to provide him comfort.]

[Diluc shared no words but he knew and Kaeya knew, that being in each other’s arms was enough.]

Albedo continues to sob outside. What a pathetic guy he looks. Kaeya pushes open the doors and spots Albedo right away. He rushes to his side but doesn’t say anything. He wasn’t sure if he was even able to touch him. Kaeya gulps and continues to stand right next to him, letting Albedo cry his heart out.

“I think that moment was my favorite too.” He whispers. “A bright day until it started raining but that didn’t really stop us.” Albedos cries start to slowly quiet down. Kaeya looks up at the sky. “You remind me of stars. So bright and shiny. You’re small but you’re still able to showcase what you want people to see in that big brain of yours.” Kaeya chuckles. Albedo sniffles and wipes his eyes. Finally, he looks at him.

“Why’re you here?” Kaeya shrugs and smirks at him, “I guess I just wanted to see you.” Albedo blushes but turns away. “Kaeya, we’re not together…” “I know.” “I broke up with you.” “I know.” “I hurt you.” “I know.” “So then why?” Kaeya tilts his head. “I already told you why.” Albedo shakes his head and another set of tears starts to arise. “No! Why’re you being so nice to me?! Why are you acting like nothing happened?? Like we’re friends?!” Albedo wipes his eyes again.

Kaeya faces his whole body toward him and grabs his chin, lifting his face to see his eyes. “Albedo, you shouldn’t act like you don’t deserve to be cared for.” “But-“ Kaeya squished his face to stop him from speaking. “I know you didn’t mean to hurt me. You were sad that I wasn’t giving you the attention you needed. I left you alone and I’m sorry.” Albedos eyes water again and grabs Kaeya’s wrist to pull it away from his face.

“I shouldn’t have said that. I regret it so much.” Albedo begins to cry. “I should’ve talked to you about it but instead I broke things off with you! I did it because at that moment, I truly thought you didn’t care. If told you, you would’ve continued to ignore me anyways but I know you’re not the person to do something like that! I was just so sad…” Before Kaeya can answer, Albedo hugs him, clutching onto Kaeya’s shirt like it was necessary.

“Oh Kaeya, I’m so sorry! I’m sorry for not talking to you about how I felt! I’m sorry I broke up with you instead of hearing you out! I’m sorry! I’m so sorry! It hurt me seeing you on TV all the time because I wanted to be with you! I wanted to congratulate you for your accomplishments but that never happened! I let you down! Im sorry, Kaeya!“ He dug his face into his shirt with tears staining it. Kaeya’s heart beats fast at hearing those words. He smiles, tears coming out of his eyes too.

“Albedo, I’m sorry too.” He wraps his arms around the short one. “I should’ve made time for you. You were my boyfriend and you deserved to spend time with me even if it wasn’t for a long period of time.” He tightens his grip and plants a small kiss ontop of Albedos head. “I love you, Albedo. I never stopped thinking about you. I’m glad you’re still doing art.” Albedo slowly lifts his head and smiles, “I never stopped thinking about you either.”

The boys let go for a moment to wipe their tears away. “You still love me?” Kaeya asks with flushed cheeks. Albedo nods, “I still love you.” They both smile. “This time, let’s not be shy about what bothers us.” Kaeya states, holding his hand out to him. Albedo nods and holds it. “It’s a promise.” Kaeya smiles wide and they hug each other again.

“Let’s not kiss yet.” Albedo says. “I want us to go slow.” Kaeya nods. “Of course but can I at least kiss you on the cheek?” Albedo laughs, “Yes. You can kiss me anywhere but my lips.” “Anywhere?” “Don’t ruin the moment.” “Okay okay!”

Kaeya pulls Albedo away from him a little and rubs his cheek. “Thank you.” Albedo smiles more. “You’re welcome.” “Albedo!” The boys jump and turn to the entrance and see the instructor with her arms crossed. “First Yn, now you! No making out with your boyfriend till this is over!” Albedo turns red and nods. “Y-Yes, ma’am! I apologize…” She walks back inside.

Kaeya stares, starstruck. “Wow, we’re boyfriends again…” “Uh huh. Klee is going to be very happy.” They hold hands and walk inside. “I miss her. She’s doing well?” “Mhm. She might come.” “Sweet! I can’t wait!” Kaeya kisses his cheek as Albedo leads him to his painting.

- I feel like I’ve been writing sm it’s not even a smau anymore…

- also im not sure WHY but my inbox says I received an ask but it’s not showing who…maybe it’s a glitch or something but if you asked me something: it’s not showing up and saying I have no messages

- kaebedo nation you’re welcome

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[trobedgirldads]

Favorite Cooliver headcannons?

ooooooooo okok i’m probably gonna forget some but here are some of my favs!!!!! (also plz plz plz y’all tell me yours!!!!!)

really long list under the cut :p

-they’re cat ppl. idc. like they don’t hate dogs or anything but when they’re all grown up their first pet as a couple is an orange cat :)

-normally i’m a huge supporter of every ship ever being girldads (literally my user lol) and like… cooliver are girldads but they’re also soooo boydads. they have a son. his name is spencer. also their daughter is probably named after katie

-OLIVER IS A CUDDLER. HE ALWAYS DENIES IT. BUT HE LOVES CUDDLING.

-^cooper is normally the big spoon

-cooper has really bad eyesight. he wears contacts normally, but then oliver sees him in glasses once and is like constantly begging him to wear his glasses bc they look soooo good on him

-obviously cooper calls oliver every spanish pet name ever

-cooper cooks, oliver does laundry

-when they get married, they consider hyphenating but they end up just being oliver and cooper otto

-when they kiss, cooper tastes like oranges (i literally wrote a whole fic about this) and oliver tastes like licorice

-they had their first kiss when they were 14 (cough cough s3 e5 “trust me” cough cough) and maybe had a few more casual kisses and moments after that but didn’t actually officially get together until the summer between junior/senior year of high school (so like right after s5)

-before they got together, oliver would always make fun of triplor for being so touchy/pda-heavy but then after he and cooper got together they’re even worse

-cooper asks greg and katie for permission before proposing. he knows they’ll say yes, but he still wants to ask.

-^they have a HUGE fancy proposal but actually a pretty small wedding

-when they start college they try to live separately for a bit but then they can’t do it bc they’re already too used to living together

-the version of katie’s 40th birthday pic w cooper and trip in it is framed and hung up in their house

-cooper never explicitly comes out to oliver, it just is something they’re both aware of

-sometimes cooper will just say something super out of pocket and oliver will be like “wtf are you talking about……. wait no you have a point actually”

-this is so engrained in my mind that i genuinely forget that iirc it’s not actually canon: they share clothes. like they don’t even really have separate parts of the closet. once oliver is tall enough that they’re the same size, all their clothes are communal property between the two of them

-^with that being said, there are a few sweatshirts that are distinctly oliver’s and cooper LOVES stealing them. especially if oliver has to go out of town for a business trip or something, he’ll sleep in them and stuff

[hellfirehottie]

California Dreamin' - Eddie Munson

Chapter Five - Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic

Content warnings: dr*g use (w**d), Nina is bad at expressing emotions, mental health warning (hinting at depression, past trauma), lots of fluff, lots of bonding, lots of fonding over each other. Super long chapter as I suck at uploading. Enjoy!

‘Every time I come near her,

I just lose my nerve, as I’ve done from the start. 

Every little thing she does is magic,

Everything she do just turns me on, 

Even though my life before was tragic, 

Now I know my love for her goes on.’ 

Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic - The Police 

Tuesday /  Hawkins High School library /  3:35pm 

Eddie is sitting in the corner of the library at a table, watching the clock intently, waiting for Nina to arrive. 

Nina: [bumbling in the room, carrying books and her bag, chaotic] “Sorry I’m late! I had to pick up my sketchbook and yeah, sorry, I’m here now!”  Eddie: [watching her, amused] “You’re not late at all, you’re early actually.”  Nina: [spinning to look at the clock, sighing in relief] “Oh thank god.” [setting her bag and books on the table] “Right, English. Did you find a song to write about?”  Eddie: [pulling out some scruffy pieces of paper from his bag, laughing to himself] “I found five actually. Couldn’t decide which to pick.”  Nina: [still getting herself organised] “Let’s see them!”  Eddie: (concerned) “Do you need a minute? If you’re busy we don’t have to do this, you don’t have to help me.”  Nina: [eyes wide] “No, not at all! Just having a bit of a whirlwind day. Show me the lyrics.” 

Eddie mutters ‘okay’ with a smile, handing Nina the papers. Nina fusses with her hair, clipping it back with a claw clip while reading over the lyrics.

Eddie: [taking ‘subtle’ glances at Nina, a small smile on his face.] “You suit your hair up.”  Nina: (shy) “You think so? It’s a mess today, keep getting it caught on everything.”  Eddie: “I think it looks nice. Pretty.” 

Nina smiles warmly at him. Eddie fiddles with his thumbs as Nina continues to scan the pages.

Nina: [thinking out loud] “Wouldn’t have pegged you for a George Michael fan.”  Eddie: (embarrassed) “Guilty pleasure. ‘Careless Whisper’ is a tune.”  Nina: [laughing] “‘Last Christmas’ is the second best Christmas song, I’ll give you that.”  Eddie: (amused) “The first being?”  Nina: [matter of fact] “Band Aid - ‘Do They Know It’s Christmas?’, obviously.”  Eddie: “You could not be more wrong.”  Nina: (laughing, aghast) “What?! What do you think the best Christmas song is then, you music snob?”  Eddie: (amused by Nina’s teasing, smirking) “Fairytale of New York, obviously.”  Nina: (backing down, smiling) “Hmm I’ll give you that one. I love Christmas, it’s my favourite time of the year.”  Eddie: “Not summer?”  Nina: (teasingly) “Why, cause I’m Californian surfer trash?”  Eddie: (blushing, smirking)  “Oh shut up.” 

Nina smiles and reads over the last of the papers, pushing them back when finished.

Nina: “All of these would work. Pick one!”  Eddie: [shuffling the papers around] “Well, I’m sort of stuck between ‘Every little thing she does is magic’  and ‘I want the one I can’t have’. I think I could write more on the Police one.”  Nina: “We’ll do that one then.” 

An hour passes as Nina helps Eddie with the assignment, under-lining metaphors and helping him write notes. Eddie scribbles on the paper, listening to Nina intently.

Nina: “I’ve never listened to the Police. Any good?”  Eddie: “Not my sort of style but Wayne listens to them all the time so I’ve kind of picked them up.”  Nina: “Oh, cool.”  Eddie: (shyly) “I listened to Rumours the other night at work.”  Nina: (excitedly) “Really? Did you like it?”  Eddie: “Yeah, it was good. I liked ‘Go your Own Way’.”  Nina: “That’s one of my favourites. You should listen to ‘Rihannon’, that’s my favourite favourite.”  Eddie: (mocking, smiling) “Favourite favourite? Spoken like a true grammatical genius.”  Nina: [embarrassed, giving Eddie a shove, to which he laughs] “Shut up.” [smirking] “I heard something about you.”  Eddie’s stomach drops, his face contorting with worry. Oh god, who told her I liked her?! He thought.  Eddie: (laughing awkwardly) “You did, huh? What might that be?”  Nina: (airily) “Steve told me that-” Steve, Eddie thinks, that shit stirring little shi- “-One time you got hit on by a cougar at the Hideout and now after every gig you have to avoid Linda Wiseman, the fifty-three year old diner waitress, incase she squeezes your ass again.” [Nina tries to hide her smug grin] 

Oh thank God he didn’t tell her- wait, why did he tell her that?! 

Eddie: [grinning, flushed, trying to play it cool] “She says I have a cute tushy.” [Nina bursts into laughter, Eddie grins proudly] “How did that conversation come up?”  Nina: (embarrassed) “Oh, erm-” [fiddling with her pen] “I heard something about you, wanted to see if it was true.”  Eddie: (teasingly) “And you couldn’t ask me?”  Nina: (awkwardly, blushing) “I dunno, I don’t know you that well yet, I didn’t want to intrude.”  Eddie: [hiding his nerves, faux confidence] “Ask away.”  Nina: “Really?” Eddie: “Sure.” (cheeky) “I quizzed you on your rumours in Science. It’s the least I can do.” Nina: “Okay then…” [smiling coyly] “I heard a rumour that you mooned the entire school at the school talent show in eleventh grade?”  Eddie: (flirty) “Are all these rumours involving my ass?” (Nina snorts and smiles to herself) “And yes that is true, earned myself a week of after school detention.”  Nina: (gobsmacked, laughing) “No way!” (faking thoughtfulness) “Hmm… how about the rumour that Hopper caught you smoking weed in your van and you bribed him with a joint to let you off the hook?”  Eddie: (smug) “For legal reasons, I can neither confirm nor deny.” [Nina laughs loudly and Eddie watches her fondly]  Nina: “How about that Steve was your first kiss?”  Eddie: “Wrong.” [coy] “He was my fourth.” [Nina giggles]  Nina: “You graffitied “Hail Satan” on the side of the school?”  Eddie: “For legal reasons, I can neither confirm nor deny that either.” [Nina raises her eyebrows at him, laughing] “I had a lot of pent up rage last summer.”  Nin: (laughing hard) “You’ve committed murder?”  Fuck, fuck, fuck!  Eddie: “Not true.” (uncomfortably) “Though I did get accused of it though, last summer.”  Nina: (questioningly) “Oh?”  Eddie: (sadly) “A girl, a friend- Chrissy, she was called Chrissy- she died in my trailer.” [coughing away the lump in his throat] “That’s what the whole ‘Jason Carver and his band of dickheads’ witch hunt was about last summer.”  Nina: (quietly) “Eddie, I’m so sorry.” [looking guiltily at Eddie’s glum face] “I shouldn’t have brought it up, I-”  Eddie: “Don’t apologise, you were bound to find out sometime.”  Nina: “But we were having fun and I’ve made you sad and-”  Eddie: [more to himself than Nina] “It’s okay! It’s okay. You’ve not made me sad. It’s in the past now, it’s okay.”  Nina: [after a few moments. making light, teasing] “Wow, drugs, arson and public nudity? What kind of friends is Robin keeping?”  Eddie: (smiling softly) “It doesn’t freak you out?”  Nina: (flirty) “Takes more than a bad rap sheet to freak me out. I like bad boys.”   Eddie: (chuckling) “I don’t know whether to be thankful or concerned.”  Nina: “We’ll go with thankful.” [looking at Eddie, softly] “Y’know, I know we haven’t known each other very long but you can talk to me if you ever need an ear.”  Eddie: (touched) “Really?” [Nina nods, smiling] “Thanks Nina, you too.” (nervous) “With all that California stuff I mean, I’m here if you need someone too.” Nina: (soft, fragile) “I think we’ll leave it there for today.” [Eddie tries to hide his disappointment] “Same time on Friday?”  Eddie: “You can count on it. I’ll be there.” 

Friday / Hawkins High School / 3:30pm

Nina is walking out of Maths with Robin and Steve. 

Steve: “You guys fancy doing something tonight?”  Robin: “Sure, what are you thinking?”  Nina: “Oh I’m helping Eddie with his English assignment. I could meet you guys after?”  Robin: (smirking) “Sure. Meet you at the diner?” 

Nina sees Eddie walking away from the school, up the field, through the woods. Following several yards after him is a blonde girl in a cheerleader uniform. Nina frowns. 

Nina: “Where is Eddie going? Who is following him?”  Robin: “Not sure where he’s going, I think that’s Sarah following him. New head cheerleader, surprisingly nice compared to the rest of them.”  Nina: “Oh.”  Steve: [knowingly, awkward] “I bet it’s nothing. Probably just doing a deal or something. I wouldn’t worry about it.”  Nina: “Maybe he’s forgotten he’s supposed to meet me.”  Robin: [awkward, trying to reassure Nina] “I doubt it. He’ll just have a thing.”  Nina: “Oh okay.” [turning on her heels, retreating to the library] “I’ll see you guys later then. Or in 10 minutes, if Eddie doesn’t turn up.”  Steve and Robin: (uncomfortable) “Sure.” “See you soon!” 

Nina walks to the library, setting her bag down. She chews her lip anxiously, thinking Eddie has forgotten about her. 

20 minutes pass and Nina sighs, disappointed. She begins to pack her bag and leave. 

As she opens the library door to leave, Eddie comes bursting in. 

Eddie: (frantic) “Sorry I’m late! I hadn’t forgotten, I had a… thing.”  Nina: (feeling rejected) “You’re late.”  Eddie: “I’m sorry, I had a thing to do. I’m here now, so teach me Obi Wan Ninomi.”  Nina: (smiles despite feeling glum) “Okay Eddie Skywalker.” 

Eddie stares at Nina, blinking in awe as his heart flutters at her reference. He shakes himself back to normal and unpacks his bag chaotically, papers everywhere. Nina sits awkwardly on a chair, not unpacking her bag. Eddie senses Nina’s quiet, subdued mood.

Eddie: (frowning) “Are you okay?”  Nina: [snapping out of it] “Yeah, I’m fine.” [fake smile] “Are you? You look all flustered and sweaty.”  Eddie: (embarrassed) “I ran from the top of the field.”  Nina: [curiosity getting the better of her] “I saw you walking up there. Meeting someone?”  Eddie: (uncomfortable) “Just a friend.”  Nina: (jealous) “She’s pretty.”  Eddie: (dismissive) “Yeah she is. So, English!”  Nina: (persistent) “Is she your girlfriend?”  Eddie: (shocked) “What, Sarah? No, no!” [laughing] “I could never get a girl like Sarah if I tried. She’s way out of my league.”  Nina: [sad, offended and trying not to show it] “Oh.”  Eddie: [trying to recover, failing] “I mean, she’s not my type. Too mainstream. I’m not interested in her like that. We used to go to primary school together.”  Nina: “Ah.”  Eddie: “I was dealing to her. Don’t tell anyone, it’s not something she or I is proud of. Gotta pay the bills somehow.”  Nina: [nodding, now understanding, still a bit jealous] “Ahh, I see.”  Eddie: (worried) “Don’t judge me.”  Nina: [half defensive, half reassuringly] “Hey, I don’t judge. You gotta do what you gotta do.” [trying to lighten the mood] “We should get stoned sometime.”  Eddie: (excited) “Really? You’d want to?”  Nina: (smiling) “Sure. I go really dumb when stoned though, just warning you.”  Eddie: (laughing) “I once ate an entire box of cereal dry cause I forgot to pour the milk in.” (Nina laughs hard, her nose creasing as she does, Eddie swoons)

Eddie and Nina stare at each other for a few moments, the atmosphere electric, before looking away shyly. Eddie coughs to soothe the flutter in his stomach. 

Nina: [pulling her glasses out of her bag] “So for the assignment, I think if we grouped the ideas in themes it would make more sense.”  Eddie: (blinking) “I didn’t know you wore glasses.”  Nina: (shy, embarrassed) “Oh, yeah, I’m supposed to wear them to read but I hate wearing them.”  Eddie: “They’re nice. You look nice.”  Nina: (shyer still) “Thanks.” [recovering from her damp mood] “So we could do weather metaphors for this point,” [highlighting the lyrics ‘Do I have to tell the story, Of a thousand rainy days since we first met? It's a big enough umbrella, But it's always me that ends up getting wet’] “With the rain symbolising the writer’s emotions -  And we could do hyperbole for this part.” [highlighting the lyrics ‘Every little thing she does is magic’ and ‘I resolved to call her up, A thousand times a day, And ask her if she'll marry me, Some old-fashioned way’ And ‘But my silent fears have gripped me, Long before I reach the phone, Long before my tongue has tripped me, Must I always be alone.’

Eddie watched Nina intently, trying to listen to Nina’s ideas but too focused on watching her.

Eddie: “How come you’re so good at English?”  Nina: (shrugging) “I’ve always enjoyed English.” [Confessional, lighthearted, embarrassed] “Plus this is my second time doing it so I’m nearly a pro now.”  Eddie: “You’re resitting?”  Nina: (awkwardly) “Yeah… don’t tell anyone please. Only Robin knows. I had to drop out last year ‘cause of… stuff. So I started to re-sit my final year in September and then I transferred here a few weeks ago…”  Eddie: (smiling) “Fair enough. This is my third attempt at final year so no judgement from me.”  Nina: (flirty) “Third time’s a charm, right?”  Eddie: (blushing, smiling) “Right.”  Nina: “So, Steve, Robin and I are going to the diner later… Do you want to come?”  Eddie: [excited] “Yeah! I’d love to-” [realising, sullen] “Shit, I’ve got Hellfire tonight… maybe another time?”  Nina: [dejected, but still smiling] “Sure. See you Monday?” Eddie: “Sure. Bye Nina.” [waving a sad goodbye] “Damn it.”  

The Diner / 6pm

Robin: [Slurping her milkshake, in a hushed tone as Steve leaves the table] “So, Nina, You and Eddie seem to be getting along well.”  Nina: [blushing, laughing off her humiliation] “Don’t start, I’ve already had the piss taken out of me all day by Nancy and Jonathan, I don’t need it from you too.”  Robin: “I’m being serious! Just give me a bit of gossip, just a little.” [Robin squeezes her pointer finger and thumb together to exaggerate the ‘little’] “How’s being his study buddy going?” Nina: (shy, stirring the last of her milkshake) “Things are nice, yeah. He’s a nice guy. We get on really well. We didn’t really have that awkward ‘getting to know each other' phase, we just kinda clicked.”  Robin: [Putting down change on the table, getting up to leave] “Do you think you’ll see any more of him outside of school and study club?”  Nina: [Getting up, grabbing her bag, fishing out change] “Honestly, I hope so. He kinda hasn’t made a move yet. I think he only sees me as a friend.”  Robin: “He’d be an idiot not to!” [walking away]  Nina: “Hey, where are you going? We haven’t paid!”  Robin: “Off to tell Steve the good news, he’s almost as gossip deprived as me.” [Robin runs off before Nina can chase after her]  Nina: [chasing after Robin, laughing, trying to grab Robin] “You little shit, come back here!” 

Nina’s Room / 9:30 pm

Nina looks at the clock by her bedside. 9:30pm. 

Robin: “I’m going in the shower, need the bathroom before I go in?” [Nina doesn’t respond] “Nina?”  Nina: (absentmindedly) “Hm?”  Robin: “You okay there?”  Nina: (half-heartedly) “Yeah I’m good. Nah use the bathroom, I’m gonna shower in the morning.”  Robin: (sighing) “Right, okay, what’s up?”  Nina: (laughing to cover her lying) “Nothing’s up, I’m fine.”  Robin: (lightly) “I know you well enough to know when you’re lying, Goose. Spill!” 

Nina pulls out a notebook from under her pillow. 

Nina: “Miss Kelly wants me to do this dumb mental health  journal thing. My punishment for punching Jason in the face. I don’t know, it’s just… I don’t know.”  Robin: “Is that why she pulled you out of Maths today?” [Nina nods, Robin picks up the journal examining it, Nina has doodled all over it, inquisitive] “Hm, that’s an interesting choice from her.” (Curious) “Is she going to read it?”  Nina: “No, she says it’s just for me to process everything in.” [sighing] “I don’t even know where to begin.”  Robin: (thoughtful) “You could write in it like you write your poetry.”  Nina: (softly, glum) “I don’t have any inspiration.”  Robin: (carefully) “Maybe do it one day at a time. Like, a sentence for each day, to summarise?”  Nina: “Sure.”  Robin: [standing up to exit, turning around] “I’m always here if you want to talk, bestie.”  Nina: [smiling kindly] “Thanks, Rob. Goodnight.” 

Nina looks at the alarm clock on her bedside table, 00:23 AM. 

She is tapping her pen restlessly off the cover of the notebook. She is shaking her legs anxiously as she chews the skin off her thumb. 

She clicks the top of her pen and opens the page. 

Her eyes well up and she sighs, throwing the book down beside her on the bed. She lies staring at the illuminations of occasional passing car headlights from the street on her bedroom ceiling. 

Nina looks at the alarm clock on her bedside table. 2:33am. 

Nina looks down at the book. There are multiple sentences written out. 

“I’m scared to open up in case I can’t stop everything from overflowing.” and “I don’t want to get hurt again.” is scratched out harshly.

“I’m scared in case I fuck everything up.” is scratched out in a big black blob.

“I’m scared I’m unlovable”, “I’m scared in case I hurt Robin.”, “I’m scared to want him.” and “I’m scared in case it’s too much for him.” is blacked out, unreadable. 

“I’m scared.” is the only sentence readable.  

Nina throws the book at the wall, cringing at the thump it makes in the quiet house. 

Nina: [quietly, to herself] “I’ve got to get out of here.” 

Nina puts on her sweatshirt and flip flops. She quietly pushes the window up on its hinges, and looks down. She (somewhat carefully) climbs down the lattice on the side of the house and begins to walk. 

03:58 AM

Nina has walked for hours. She walked out of the housing estate, along the empty roads lit by flickering streetlights, through the forest, to a large field. The only sounds around her are the clacking of her flip flops against the rocky pavement and the soft sounds of nature around her. The sky is a deep blue, the sun beginning to crack over the horizon.

Nina hops over the fence to the field, making herself comfortable on the ground with a clear view of the sunrise. She breathes a deep sigh, closing her eyes. She suddenly flinches as she hears footsteps behind her, her heart racing. 

Nina: [frightened, voice cracking] “Is someone there?” [grabbing her pocket knife] “I have a weapon! Back off!”  Eddie: [with his headphones on, oblivious, singing quietly to himself] “Rihannon rings like a bell through the night and wouldn’t you love to love her,” [sighing to himself] “Yes Stevie, I would love to love her.” Nina: [loudly] “Hello? Who's there?” [Eddie walks on a twig that snaps, Nina flinches] 

Eddie hops over the fence, humming to himself as he walks through the field, oblivious to Nina sitting in the field in the tall grass. 

Eddie: “Takes to the night like a bird in fli-AAAH! What the fuck?” [pulling his headphones off his ears] “Who the fuck is that?” Nina: “Eddie?”  Eddie: “Nina? What the hell are you doing?!”  Nina: “I’m… Sitting.”  Eddie: [incredulously] “You’re sitting?! It’s four in the morning, why are you sitting in a field at four am?!”  Nina: [standing up, brushing the grass off her shorts, embarrassed] “I, I couldn’t sleep. Thought I’d watch the sun rise.”  Eddie: [clutching his chest, panicked] “You scared the shit out of me!”  Nina: “You scared the shit out of me! I was calling out and nobody replied, I thought I was about to get axe murdered!” [scalding] “And who walks around in the middle of the night with headphones on?! You could have been axe murdered!”  Eddie: “I… couldn’t sleep either.”  Nina: (curious) “Insomnia?”  Eddie: (shyly) “Nightmares.”  Nina: “Oh.”  Eddie: “Do you wanna, I don’t know, walk together? Somewhere? Maybe?”  Nina: (smiling) “Sure.” [They begin walking through the field] Eddie: (curiously) “Do you wanna talk about it?”  Nina: “About what?”  Eddie: “What’s keeping you awake?”  Nina: [guarded] “It’s okay.” [Eddie looks at her with raised eyebrows, she sighs] “I just can’t turn my mind off. It’s going like a million miles an hour and it just-“ [struggling] “Won’t be quiet. Y’know?”  Eddie: “I get you.”  Nina: (hopeful) “Yeah?”  Eddie: “Yeah. And I’ve got the perfect cure too.”  Nina: (surprised) “You do?”  Eddie: [grinning] “Yeah.” [he pulls out a spliff from his pocket] “Always calms me down when my mind won’t shut up. I was gonna have it to myself but I don’t mind sharing it. If you’d like?”  Nina: “Really?”  Eddie: “Sure, what are f-friends for.” 

Idiot! Why did you say friends?! No way you’ll get out of the friendzone now, dumbass, Eddie thinks. 

Friends? Oh. Better than nothing, I guess, Nina thinks glumly. 

Nina: “We’re friends?”  Eddie: (nervously) “Sure, yeah, we’re friends.” [rambling] “Science partners, study buddies, you’re friends with Robin and  that lot and I’m friends with them too so that makes us friends, I think, yeah, and now your dealer too apparently.”  Nina: “Eddie, chill, light your spliff.”  Eddie: “Oh thank god.” [he puts the spliff between his lips and inhales, then passes it to Nina]  Nina: [kicking the grass from under her feet as she walks] “I really make you nervous, don’t I?”  Eddie: [scratching his neck, flustered] “I- yeah, you do.”  Nina: [inhaling] “Why?”  Eddie: “I- I think you’re really cool.” [taking the spliff off her, inhaling] “Thanks.”  Nina: “Thanks Eddie. I think you are too.”  Eddie: (brightly) “Yeah?”  Nina: (warmly) “Yeah, I do.” [picking at the grass beside her as she walks] “So, do you wanna talk about it?”  Eddie: “About how cool you find me? Sure.”  Nina: [laughing, rolling her eyes] “About your nightmares.”  Eddie: “Nah, it’s good.” [Nina looks at him with raised eyebrows] “I will if you will.”  Nina: (unsure) “Okay. You first.”

They sit further on the field on a clearing, watching the sunrise. 

Nina: “Spill.”  Eddie: “It’s dumb.”  Nina: “Dumb enough to stop you from sleeping.” [Eddie pulls at the grass under him] “Try me.”  Eddie: [embarrassed, looking forward at the sky, rushed] “I dream I’m in this place, like another world kinda but it’s still Hawkins, and I can’t move and these bats are chewing on me and I look down and my body is rotting with maggots and bugs and stuff and I try to call out but my voice doesn’t work, and I wake up screaming.” [looking at Nina warily] “It’s dumb.”  Nina: “Doesn’t sound dumb, sounds traumatic as hell. And also kinda metal as fuck. Good thing it’s only a dream, huh?” [Eddie breathes a light laugh, if only you knew, he thinks.] “How often do you get them?”  Eddie: “A few times a week. I used to get them every night last summer, Wayne had to switch to night shifts cause he didn’t get any sleep.”  Nina: [voice horse from the weed] “That sucks. Have you tried anything for it? Sleeping pills, mindfulness, hypnosis?”  Eddie: [tying the grass in knots] “Yeah, sort of. I gave up on them to be honest, didn’t do much to help.” [taking the spliff off Nina, inhaling] “Now when I get them I just take a walk and have a spliff. Eventually I calm down and sleep again.”  Nina: “I’m the same, sort of.” [looking at the sky] “Life doesn’t feel so heavy when the sun comes up.”  Eddie: (teasingly) “Damn, that’s deep, you’re definitely a poet.”  Nina: [shoving him playfully] “Shut up.”  Eddie: [inhaling, passing the spliff] “Your turn.”  Nina: [rubbing her face stressfully, taking the spliff] “I just- I can’t stop my mind from racing. And I’m scared to close my eyes.”  Eddie: “Why?”  Nina: [voice cracking] “Cause I wake up and realise where I am and it hurts all over again.” [inhaling, tearing up]  Eddie: (joking) “Definitely a poet.” [lightly] “You okay?”  Nina: (nodding, half broken, half hopeful) “I will be.” [inhaling] “Just need to get my shit together.”  Eddie: “You can always talk to me, y’know?” [nervously, can’t look Nina in the eyes] “I know I said it before and we haven’t known each other for long and I hardly have my shit together myself but I’m always here. You can trust me.”  Nina: (smiling softly, warm) “Thank you, Eddie. You too.” [sighing] “I just suck at opening up to people.”  Eddie: (joking) “Try having your guts eaten my demon bats every night, I’m open for every bat and person in Hawkins to feast on.” [Nina laughs]  Nina: (teasing) “Who’s the poet now?” 

Eddie laughs. They both lean back on their hands to watch the sunrise, their hands brush each other's. They sit in silence for a while, hands barely touching, watching the sunrise. Nina shivers as they brush hands again. 

Eddie: (concerned) “Are you cold?”  Nina: (smiling softly) “I’m okay, I promise.” [Eddie is already shrugging off his hoodie] “Eddie, seriously, you don’t have to-”  Eddie: (protective) “Shut up and take the hoodie.” 

Nina smiles and puts on the hoodie. She subtly inhales Eddie’s warm scent. 

Eddie: “Are you tired?”  Nina: (humming, peaceful) “Mm, it’s nice.” [looking at Eddie] “First time I’ve felt relaxed in weeks.”  Eddie: [fondly, heart eyes] “Good. Come on, let me walk you home.” 

Eddie and Nina walk home together. The sky is warm red and purple, the chirping of birds beginning to chorus. Nina’s house is on the other side of town from Eddie’s, but Eddie insists on walking Nina to her door. They make peaceful, content small talk as they walk, and eventually walk in silence, happy in each other’s company. Their fingers brush as they walk, both of them so badly wanting to intertwine fingers.  

Nina: (at ease) “Thank you for walking me home, Eddie. Goodnight.”  Eddie: “Goodnight, Nina.” [sudden confidence, sweaty palms, wide eyes] “Nina, wait!”  Nina: “Oh sorry Eddie, your hoodie, here I-”  Eddie: (interrupting) “No no, keep the hoodie. I, erm, I was wondering-” [rushed, nervous] “I was wondering if you’d like to hang out sometime. Just me and you.”  Nina: (smiling brightly, happy) “That sounds nice.” (blushing, waving goodbye) “Goodnight, Eddie.”  Eddie: (affectionately) “Sleep well, Nina. Goodnight.” 

When Nina enters the house again (through the window) and is out of Eddie’s view, she grins, bringing the neck of the hoodie to her nose, inhaling and sighing happily. As Eddie is out of Nina’s view he jumps up and down excitedly, fisting the air with his success.

Nina falls asleep peacefully wrapped in Eddie’s hoodie. Eddie walks home, singing to himself softly, smiling the whole way home. When he gets home he falls asleep thinking of Nina and he finally drifts into a dreamless sleep. 

Monday / 4pm / Hawkins High School Library 

Nina: (concentrating) “Keep still.”  Eddie: “What…” [bashful, looking up from his writing] “What are you doing?”  Nina: “Drawing you.”  Eddie: [flushed] “You’re- what?”  Nina: “I need volunteers for my art assignment and the lighting here is good. Just keep doing what you’re doing, you won’t even notice me.”  Eddie: [blushing under Nina’s stare] “Okay.”  Nina: (worried) “Is that okay? I mean- you don’t mind?”  Eddie: “No, not at all. Least I can do.” (sweating) “Steve and Robin didn’t volunteer?”  Nina: “Oh I’ve already drawn them. Robin says if I draw her anymore I’ll look like an obsessed serial killer and Steve was way too excited, my sketchbook is filled with Steve’s face.”  Eddie: (jealous) “Oh.” Nina: “His hair is surprisingly hard to draw.”  Eddie: (amused) “Good luck drawing mine then.”  Nina: (concentrating on his features) “You have nice hair.”  Eddie: (self-conscious) “You think so? I keep thinking about cutting it.”  Nina: “No way! You pull off the glam rock hair well.” [Eddie blushes hard, his concentration on his assignment completely out the window.]  Eddie: [hiding behind his hair, mock confidence] “Make sure you get my good side!” [Nina laughs hard, Eddie tries to take a peak of Nina’s drawings] “Can I see?”  Nina: (teasing) “Hey! Concentrate on your own work!”  Eddie: (bashful) “Sorry.”  Nina: (smiling) “Finish the page and I’ll show you when I’m done.”  Eddie: (teasing) “Yes, Mom.”  Nina: “How’s the assignment going?”  Eddie: [returning to his work] “Good, a few more paragraphs and I think I’m done.”  Nina: “Can I read it?”  Eddie: (teasingly) “I’ll show you when I’m done.”  Nina: (laughing) “Well played.” 

Eddie tries to concentrate on his work, failing as he shies from Nina’s gaze. Nina concentrates on Eddie’s features and flicks back to her sketchbook, the soft sounds of the pencil against the paper filling the quiet library.

Nina: “You have very pretty eyes. And a nice smile.”  Eddie: [mock confidence, hiding his nerves] “Stop, you’re fuelling my ego.” 

Nina giggles at Eddie, he smiles widely. He stops writing completely and watches Nina as she draws him, this time she is blushing.

Eddie: “So…” [trying to continue the conversation] “Do you have any plans this weekend?”  Nina: [tucking her hair behind her ear] “Yeah, I’m hanging around the Family Video store until Steve and Robin finish work and then we’re gonna hang out at Steve’s. We’re having a BBQ at his place on Sunday.” Eddie: (stung) “Oh, nice. Fun.”  Nina: (oblivious) “What are you doing this weekend?”  Eddie: (cooly) “Band practice, I think. Then work on Sunday.”  Nina: “Cool. What about after graduation?”  Eddie: (teasingly) “Need to graduate first, then I can plan ahead.”  Nina: “Come on, you’ve got it in the bag!” [Eddie blushes] “You’ve got to have some idea.”  Eddie: [scratching his neck awkwardly] “I was thinking of maybe travelling for a while. Once I’ve got some money saved up.”  Nina: “I love that, that sounds so fun! I’m dying to go to New York.”  Eddie: (excitedly) “Me too! I hope one day my band can play a gig there.”  Nina: “I’ll come and watch, I’ll be your groupie.” [Nina flushes with embarrassment and Eddie laughs, finding Nina’s embarrassment adorable] “That was embarrassing, scratch that.”  Eddie: “Ideally Corroded Coffin would make it big but I don’t know… I’m looking for other jobs too once I graduate, but I don’t know where would have me.”  Nina: “Don’t put yourself down so much, you never know! You’ve already got the rockstar vibe, you could pull it off.” 

They look at each other for a few moments, content in the silence. Nina breaks eye contact first, continuing to shade on the paper. Eddie looks back at his work, the words blurring on the page, his mind scrambled. 

He closes the notebook and turns to watch Nina draw. 

Nina: (shy) “I can’t draw with you watching me.”  Eddie: “Oh, sorry. I can’t concentrate anymore, my head hurts.”  Nina: “We can pick up on Thursday if you want?”  Eddie: [not wanting to leave] “Don’t you need to finish your drawing?”  Nina: (smiling) “I can finish it another day.”  Eddie: “Finish it now. I won’t watch, promise.”  Nina: [quietly, smiling, happy in his quiet company] “Okay.”  Eddie: “What do you want to do after you graduate?”  Nina: [messing with her hair, eyes concentrated on the page, Eddie smiles at her] “It’s lame, you’ll laugh.”  Eddie: “Try me.”  Nina: “I want to be a florist.”  Eddie: “That’s not lame. Flowers and shit.”  Nina: (rolling her eyes) “It’s a bit more than flowers and shit but yeah, flowers and shit. I hope to get my own place once I’ve saved up the money. I can't live with Robin and Sheryl all my life. Maybe travel, I don’t know.”  Eddie: (curiously) “Would you go back to California?”  Nina: (uneasy) “Maybe. Probably not, no. Not much left for me there anymore.”  Eddie: “Friends? family?”  Nina: “Some friends, not good friends though. Family, no.” (Sad smile) “Just little old me.”  Eddie: (worried) “Would you stay in Hawkins?”  Nina: [hiding her sadness] “I can go whenever the wind takes me now, I guess. But Hawkins is nice, Robin is the closest thing I’ve got to family and I like it here, so who knows.”  Eddie: “Well Dustin and Max are pretty taken with you, they’d like it if you stayed. They didn’t stop talking about you after that study group a few weeks ago.”   Nina: (joking) “I think Dustin is just mind blown that he knows a girl who likes Lord of the Rings.” [Eddie laughs, Nina smiles] “But Max, sure, she’s cute. I’m going to take her surfing sometime.” 

As they are leaving the library an hour later, Nina tugs on Eddie’s sleeve. He turns around to face Nina. 

Nina: (shy) “When you’ve finished work on Sunday you’re welcome to come to the BBQ? We’ve got a tonne of food.”  Eddie: (awkwardly) “I don’t know…” [Nina’s face drops]  “I don’t want to intrude.”  Nina: (disappointed) “Well, the offer is there.” [winking] “And it’ll be the last invite I give since you’ve blown me off twice now!”  [waving bye before walking to her car] “See you later, Eddie.”  Eddie: [shouting across the empty car park] “Yes!” [Eddie cringes at the loudness of his voice] “Yes, I’ll come. Might be after 3?”  Nina: [smirking] “See you there.” 

Thursday / Hawkin’s High School / 9:05am

Eddie looks around the school car park for Nina’s car, disappointed to see Robin riding into school on her bike. 

Eddie: “Nina not in today?”  Robin: (sarcastic) “Well good morning to you too Eddie!” (Grumpy) “No, Nina is not in today, neither is her car because she won’t let me borrow it as the car is her “baby” and apparently I drive like a maniac! So yeah!” [angrily locking her bike to the bike stand] “And Steve wouldn’t give me a lift because he spent too long fussing with his stupid hair and was already running late, so now I’m drenched and late.” [mumbling] “Brilliant.” Eddie: (bewildered) “I mean, I can give you a lift home if you want.” Robin: (curiously) “Why would you do that?”  Eddie: “That's what friends do, right?”  Robin: (smiling now) “We’re friends? You class me as your friend?”  Eddie: (smiling) “Sure. Going through hell together kinda qualifies us being friends. What's up with Nina?”  Robin: (laughing) “Oh now I get it, you want to give me a lift home so you can see Nina!”  Eddie: (embarrassed) “No, no! I’d give you a lift regardless. I was just wondering where she was, that's all, we’re supposed to have study group tonight.” [Robin smirks knowingly, enjoying watching Eddie squirm]  Robin: “I’d be offended by your lack of subtlety if I wasn’t desperate for a lift home. She’s got a migraine or something, she didn’t really say. See you after school Eddie!” 

Eddie mumbled a ‘See you’ to Robin before walking to the day's lessons. 

3:30pm / Hawkins High School car park 

Robin hops into Eddie’s car.

Eddie: “Ready to go?”  Robin: (sighing in relief) “Yeah, please.” 

Eddie puts on the radio in the car. 

Robin: (amused) “You got Nina flowers?”  Eddie: (embarrassed) “Erm, yeah. Girls like flowers when they’re sick, right?”  Robin: (smiling) “Yeah, they do.” (thoughtful) “She’d like that. It’s nice you care about her.” [Eddie blushes Robin talks under her breath] “God knows she needs someone to.”  Eddie: (oblivious) “What was that?”  Robin: “Nothing. Just thinking out loud.” [pauses] “Before we go in, I just need to warn you, Nina’s a bit… rough today?”  Eddie: “Like throwing up?”  Robin: “Sort of… like…” [struggling for words] “Not well. Sometimes she can get a bit defensive when she’s ill. Don’t take it personally. It’s a whole ‘dark and twisty’ thing.”  Eddie: (realising) “Oh! Is it shark week? Should I have brought chocolate?”  Robin: (disgusted) “No it’s not shark week and ew! Never say that again!” (struggling to explain) “She’s just struggling a bit today, I think.” Eddie: (worried) “I don’t have to come in if you think I shouldn’t.”  Robin: “No! I’m sure she’ll be happy to see you. Maybe wait outside while I check?”  Eddie: (nervous) “Sure.” 

Robin hops out Eddie’s van, smiling widely. She says a polite ‘thank you’ and opens the front door. Eddie takes a deep breath, checking his appearance in the driver’s mirror, before walking to the front door and waiting patiently. 

Nina walks to the front door, shocked to see Eddie. She’s wearing a Eddie's baggy sweater and shorts, her hair messy and eyes red and puffy. 

Nina: “Eddie… Hi.”  Eddie: “Hi.”  Nina: (shy) “I wasn’t expecting you, I would have made more of an effort.”  Eddie: “Don’t be silly. The jumper is cute.” [Nina blushes, realising she’s wearing Eddie’s hoodie] Nina: "I haven't had a chance to wash it yet, sorry." Eddie: "Don't apologise. Here, Robin said you were ill. I got you these.” [handing out the flowers awkwardly]  Nina: [shocked, heart-warmed] “Seriously? Wow, nobody has ever gotten me flowers before.” (smiling sincerely) “Thank you Eddie.” [looking confused at the flowers, roots and soil covering the bottom of them, then laughing] “Did you pull these from someone’s garden?”  Eddie: [scratching his neck awkwardly] “Yeah, I had to improvise.”  Nina: [smiling for the first time today] “They’re lovely. I love flowers. Thank you. Do you want to come in?”  Eddie: (sincerely) “Oh, if you’re ill I don’t want to bother you. Just thought I’d make sure you’re okay.”  Nina: (happier) “I am now.”  Eddie: “Oh, and I finished the paper. Thank you for all the help.”  Nina: “Really? Already? Can I read it?”  Eddie: “If you want to, yeah.”  Nina: (warm) “I do. Come in.” 

Eddie comes inside, cleaning his shoes on the rug. He pulls the paper out of his bag and lets Nina read over it as they sit on the couch together. While she reads, he studies her frazzled appearance. He smiles softly at her, watching now she smiles as she reads his work, her messy appearance now lit up by her smile.

Nina: “This is brilliant Eddie. You’ve nailed it.”  Eddie: “Thanks. Couldn’t have done it without your help.”  Nina: [eyeing Eddie lovingly] “Anytime.” 

Nina tries to hide her disappointment at not having any more library ‘dates’ with Eddie.

Eddie: [reluctant, awkward] “I better go.”  Nina: [trying to hide her disappointment] “Oh, okay.”  Eddie: [slowly, not wanting to move] “I’ll leave you be. I hope you feel better soon.”  Nina: “Thank you Eddie. And thank you for the flowers. It means a lot.”  Eddie: (smiling) “No problem. See you tomorrow? If you’re feeling better?” [taking one last look at Nina as he leaves through the front door]  Nina: [nodding] “See you then. Bye.” 

Nina closes the door, resting her head on the door, smiling. Eddie lingers in his van for a moment, hoping to get a last glimpse of Nina, shaking his head and driving away, happy. 

Nina returns to school on Friday, happier than the day before. Eddie gives her a smile and a wave, happy to see her in the cafeteria. All Eddie can think about is seeing Nina outside of school hours on Sunday. 

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Next Chapter : Chapter Six - Everywhere (part One)

[impulsetheories]

hey y'all! this is peyton [sh/th, 21+, cst—also the mun of selena, dylan, mouse & dabin] and i'm stoked to be here with an older idol-verse character of mine, lee hyeon. he's just some dude who decided he wanted to be a rapper one day and never looked back. you can view his stats here, his pinterest here & read all about him under the cut.

born november 18, 2002, lee hyeon is the only son to a catholic priest & a schoolteacher :~) talk about a set-up for failure…

the earliest chunk of his life is fine—obviously his parents are more than willing to take care of a baby, but the older he gets (and the busier THEY get), hyeon’s pretty much left to his own devices. as a toddler, his parents take turns pushing juice boxes into his hands and making sure he’s occupied by the tv; by the time he’s ~12ish, it’s a “here’s ₩10,000 to get some food after school, we’ll be home late so don’t wait up” type of deal probably 4/5 nights a week.

he doesn’t care, really; or at least he doesn’t feel like he does @ the time. he has some friends that he’s really close to, so he fills up his time with those friends rather than worrying about his parents—until he can’t anymore. by the time he’s turning into an angsty teenager, he thinks a lot about his family situation & how his dad is out there “serving the community” but failing to serve his family and how his mom wouldn’t know his favorite movie if asked, like… these things chip away at a person!!!

it doesn’t help that his parents kind of have a “business” r/s; not really in love like they were once upon a time, just staying together because it’s easy (and it would be shameful for a priest to divorce—plus, in the catholic church, he wouldn’t be allowed to remarry so long as he stayed a priest) but anyways… hyeon didn’t have a good example of filial OR romantic love in his early life, which resulted in him being emotionally unavailable and having zero respect for his parents 🤙 oh yeah!

his life is like this: church services on sunday / pretty much no interaction with his parents any other day of the week unless it’s thru sticky-note messages around the house / go to school half the time, skip the other half / waste time with his four best friends / play league of legends all night / daydream of being a rapper like… obviously a very fulfilling life

anyway i’m really not trying to make y’all learn every minute detail of hyeon’s life story here so i’ll say tl;dr he got really into rap/making beats around 13/14ish, started a yt channel w his friends at 15, had a joke song go viral on yt that same year which kind of made him realize how starved for attention he was/how much he really WANTED to rap??!? / applied and got onto season 3 of high school rapper at 16, placed 3rd, signed with canvas labs the next year and consequently dropped out of high school to focus on music/training and ultimately severed his ties with his parents like… he obviously didn’t have time for church anymore/the desire to go and him turning his back on the catholic church AND dropping out of school??!? spitting on everything his parents stand for fr fr

worked part-time as a mechanic’s assistant while he was training, up until newave started prepping for debut—in this time, he got really into cars, got his driver’s license & then got into racing; super into racing go-karts!!! he still does some side work for his former boss from time to time for pocket cash: uses this money to support his love for designer clothes mostly or buy shit for his own car, which is a 2008 mitsubishi eclipse spyder that his former boss gifted to him (was a piece of shit at the time, required extensive work and is still a pain in the ass unfortunately)

as of march 2024, is a (somewhat) newly debuted idol—does not take it particularly seriously, and it’s not his career end-goal. ultimately he wants to produce a bunch of music for the group (and potentially for other groups), get rich off royalties, drop the group and return to the “real” rap/music scene… u know how it goes… selfish selfish man!

all in all hyeon is literally just some guy with a chip on his shoulder. he views other people as disposable, so he doesn’t care to get particularly close to anyone—but even if he does, he’s a pro when it comes to burning bridges & never looking back. if you have nothing to offer, hyeon has no interest; and if he has no interest, he won’t fake it. a lot of this is just a result of him having to be independent from a young age & (ideally) something he will grow out of in time :~) very hot and cold type of dude: might be nice to you, might not, and it’s always up in the air as to what side of him you’ll get 🤷‍♂️ but even at his nicest, he’s pretty rough around the edges—tough love is his speciality!!! will do anything for a laugh (or just for attention lbr), bitches & complains constantly but will still do what’s asked/expected of him, shows that he cares in quiet ways like carrying your bags/luggage or ordering a large fry for u instead of the regular like… he will not be caught dead doing any sappy/sentimental shit but if you mean anything to him he’ll never forget a thing u say…. he’s a villain fr but maybe he can still be redeemed.

other trivia: was a smoker for about 6 years, recently switched to vaping but is trying to quit completely because It’s Unbecoming Of An Idol (re: management caught him a few too many times) / was active in the underground rap scene for a little bit before he joined canvas labs, was never well-known ‘cause u know… he was like 17… but he went by the name sweendakk and still has a soundcloud profile under that name / as a celebrity, has a very loud, goofy, rambunctious & mischievous persona—all of his shit-talking and impulsivity is sanded down into something endearing (or at least halfway palatable) for the sake of selling an image; kind of whiplash when you meet him irl and he’s really just a jackass / king of pacing. catch him furiously walking back and forth at your local grocery store / used to be really into weight-training, currently is on more of a cardio kick—regardless, he’s a healthy guy & much stronger than he looks / catholic guilt but i’m sure you saw that coming / dishonest, will tell you a blatant lie straight to your face KNOWING that you know it’s not true. a shameless man with not much to lose. aiming to change that. there we go…

plot ideas

head’s up that i love extensive plotting—this is not at all a requirement & i’m also down to just jump into a base idea and see where it goes!!! but!!! if you’re like me and you love to yap about every little detail!!! i will never tell you no!!! anyways…

naturally, one of his close friends from before he was an idol. ideally this would be someone born around '00 to '03 who was generally up to no good as a kid/teenager: hyeon was shit at showing it, but he lovvvveddd this person and still thinks fondly of them despite having cut them (and the rest of the friend group) off when he signed with canvas labs. thinking he might be reaching out to them again soon, so let's hope they haven't changed their number...

that one member of hi-fi he’s trying to rizz up ‘cause no way you’re gonna have hyeon living right beside a girl group and not expect him to cause problems… i’m open to discuss any/all details of their dynamic, but my idea for this is that he’s initially interested in her for very shallow reasons but ultimately she ends up becoming a muse for him (causing him to write songs such as this and this that he shares with her, but doesn’t actually release until much much later in his career when he ought to be leaving her name out of his mouth) and is someone he has every element of a relationship with without actually dating her—but in these early days of newave & hi-fi, there’s still an understanding within the groups that she’s “hyeon’s girl” but it never actually becomes something and in the end she cuts it off ‘cause hyeon can’t/won’t commit to her… wasting this poor girl’s time fr fr... all i'm saying is we're at the perfect time of the year for them to have a summer fling

various meet uglies because hyeon's a menace to society. your muse has the same workout schedule as hyeon & he's sick and tired of them hogging the one (1) working treadmill, your muse is also a celebrity (preferably someone with a higher profile than newave) and hyeon mistakes them for an employee at this appliance store where he was sent to buy a new microwave for the dorm, you bring your car in on the one day a month hyeon happens to be helping out at this mechanic shop and no way you've got an idol telling you your car is a piece of shit (as if you don't know that already) (is this a fever dream?), your muse is buying laxatives or lice shampoo or some other embarrassing item and hyeon's trying to rizz them up when they really just don't want to be noticed at all, alternatively hyeon's trying to rizz your muse up while HE'S buying something embarrassing and they can't take him seriously because of it, etc etc etc... if you have any ridiculous ideas PLEASSSE send them my way! i love these types of things!

i already know hyeon's putting those nda's to work... your muse is/was a fan so hyeon had a relatively easy time pulling them, talked a bunch of shit about how they couldn't reach out to him anymore/needed to delete his number but he's the obsessed one now (never meet your idols)

hyeon thought he could outdrink your muse but he's never been more wrong in his life. he wakes up with the worst hangover he's ever had and a text from an unsaved number saying some shit like "don't forget - you owe me a yacht"

anything... i'm a lover of strange & unusual plots, silly plots, intense plots, etc etc... pleassseee give me whatever u got!

[6okuto]

🍙 for @satorisoup from my fruits basket :3

Long Post. but i (Rlly) summarized the questions for viewing ease 🫡

1) life & school

i Am nervous about school hbdfhbg i’m a sociology major!! ^^ love soc but i switched to honours so i have to keep my gpa up, and most of my classes this year are really reading/writing/presentation heavy.. plus i'm trying a full course load for the first time so doing my thesis next yr will be easier, but i'm already easily stressed and burnt out.. lol.. ;; it's probably fine though

life’s getting busy.. and i’m not sure my cosplay will get here in time for my con but it’s ok tbh! the good outweighs the bad for those things. i wish i had money for the con outside my grants/loans but LOL that's life 

2) celebrating my birthday with keiji :3

tmi maybe. i haven’t had a great birthday since i was 15/16 to be honest FBHBDJ i'm so burnt out and depressed in dec that the past few years i haven’t done anything at all LOL but hearing this,, keiji makes it his mission to give me a good one ^^ ! 

he takes the day off and makes sure the day is just for us! practices making heart shaped pancakes and cooks breakfast.. i walk in on him in the kitchen super focused and accidentally scare him LOL he wanted it to be a surprise but it’s ok!! i watch and talk while i wait

it’s usually cold so i don't go anywhere ;; but we still have fun!! it’s nothing crazy,, we just talk, put on a show while we work on a puzzle or bake… play some co-op games.. order dinner.. yeagh

if it isn’t awful outside, we might make a little snowman or snow angels at the park nearby :]

he gets birthday gifts separate from his christmas ones.. since they're so close my birthday’s kinda overshadowed & i tell people to get one gift or none but keiji refuses!! he writes a long heartfelt letter, commissions art of us & our cat, and buys custom matching necklaces + little crochet accessories + ribbon 🙂‍↕️ (also macarons. i rock w macarons.)

3) favourite aki scene :3

his morning routine changed my life. they didn’t have to do that (not in the manga) but they did… my beautiful domestic soft morning dreams… it’s so Aki… and then i think about how he’d include u in his routine when ur together the way he does with denji and power… ouh..

4) art app + ur new stylus :0

looks down and kicks rocks. krita user over here. not that anything’s wrong with krita. i just feel lame when i see brushes i want because of course they’re never for krita. but it’s cool! how's ur new pen!! bro sometimes krita’s pressure sensitivity doesn’t work on start-up and i didn’t realize i could just restart the window settings . i kept reinstalling it. it’s fine but Wow i was miserable for so long (Months. like a stupid poopoo head)

5) Secret Art Opinions.

olivia wilde nodding gif. smoking duck gif. no one knows what i know no one’s seen what i’ve seen. BEAUTIFUL!! PERF!! i love his smile and jewelry (🤯) and hair and EVERYTHING!! your art style is SOO lovely cutieful lene!! and a 17 layer max seems nonsensical?! HELP.. how big is your canvas.. what app are you using bc isn't there ones made for what u want to try.. I believe in U!! no matter what i’m sure it will turn out awesome!!! he would be so flattered. his lips would wobble and he'd gasp/whine and hug and kiss u like WHAT!! FOR HIM..?..!!! yeah.

6) akaashi and i’s song :00

wanna say i will by mitski but that’s gonna be in every self-ship playlist of mine. maybe home by reese lansangan.. hesitate to say it’s Our Song but it’s a good one!!

My bones are safe / And my heart can rest / Knowing it belongs to you / My world is changed / And it's cradled by / The comfort that is you

7) monster lover post + ones i like

i wish i had good specific hear me out's but i don’t consume a lot of media with them so the ones i can think of are super basic and boring… i’d need a list in front of me so i could smash or pass. (if u have any in mind let me kneow.) but

the teacher from the girl from the other side. Like it’s my fault. doting adoptive self-sacrificial father figure DON’T TALK TO ME. also i must mention tokoyami. + shirou from BNA if he counts

tai lung from kung fu panda just once. the plague doctor (scp-049) obviously

probably some transformers. i like bumblebee 🩷 THE PACIFIC RIM JAEGERS . gipsy danger of course. striker eureka of course. gipsy avenger & november ajax & valor omega (Sorry.). azure defiant omgg PILIPPINS! 🇵🇭🇵🇭

i can usually get behind a “hear me out” if it isn’t like.. super slimey(?) or spikey. they could all hurt me but anything Very sharp/spikey i’m like nooo owwww ouchie nooo..

8) JJK since hell started on earth (+ lenoso!)

I Have been keeping up. unfortunate for my happiness. but Dear God. finding that out two hours after a comm and on FORTNITE is CRAZY? I’m so sorry. I get it. there’s like 3 vids and 6 pics of me crying. …did u at least win the fortnite match. i thank god every day my main thing is HQ because i just watch guys play volleyball. the manga.. a bit exciting.. hoping for an Ok outcome… maybe if gege has love and megan thee stallion in his heart

9) demon slayer opinions (+ genya specifically)

i watched the first season of kny but dropped it after hebfhsbjb nothing against it, just not rlly my cup of tea!! but i know quite a few deaths and the manga ending.. i don’t have a fave demon though.. i liked tanjiro + giyuu + sabito (predictable x3). also fond of rengoku (predictable) and mitsuri/obanai (predictable). Is akaza awesome and beautiful. i don't rlly know genya but i’ve seen him and his brother!! I will like him In Ur honour!!! ur friend reporting u for an edit is crazyehsbfjhb STAY STRONG… GENYA! i’m sure he’s fantastic!!

10) bnha + izuku thoughts!

Who’s calling izuku ugly. ☹️ i get u btw Like it’s my fault i’m always fond of the main characters and want the best for them. i don’t usually read stuff for him bUT i fr see the appeal, and he can be soo super interesting/fun to write and read about!! AND HE’S NOT UGLY!! ☹️ he’s very cutieful handsome. grown up deku… vivid and beautiful in my mind… 

11) favourite food, drink, etc. :3

rice . LOL i don’t think i have a favourite food but i love pinoy chicken dishes! my mom's adobo + caldereta + niligang manok. also been eating chorizo de cebu lately.. yummay..

sweet drinks.. frappes & taro boba… i need to expand my palette but y'know. and my fav soda is crush

i said this but i Love Macarons. you give me a plate of macarons i’m inhaling that shit like kirby. also sapin sapin and cheesecake! a great cake in general is so yummayyy

big hazelnut creme chocolate fan. I Love hazelnut chocolate. started when i was a child with kinder eggs and purdys chocolate hedgehogs and here i am

fav cereal is kellogg's krave. obvious chocolate fan here

SUSHI VIBES IS SO INTERESTING i’m pretty sure i’ve never had a piece. like ever. i do like fish… do u have any fave sushi.. i doubt i’ll be trying any soon but for future reference!!

12) anything and everything else ^_^ (mammon + mlp ment.)

Lene i have stuff to talk about at all times and will overshare every time

YAGH! mammon is the avatar of greed and 2nd eldest brother of 7 in Obey Me: One Master To Rule Them All. i actually didn’t like him at first (I’m sorry.) but he grew on me real bad. it’s serious. he's very tsundere which is Not my type but. something happened. He's a softie.. he cares about you and everyone So Much.. he's very empathetic and emotionally intelligent even if he struggles with being vulnerable.. he can generally control his emotions better /gets angry less than his brothers… he gets teased/mistreated a lot.. he loves money and hates working but he loves U even more So Of Course He’d do/give up Anything 4 U.. he's insecure and has called himself worthless on his own Which Devastated Me So Bad i love this guy so much Let’s All Just. oh man.

i Did like MLP. i stopped watching at some point but i want to go back and watch it all.. predictably obsessed with princess cadance and shining armor. I wanted to be her and I wanted him. Predictably. i cried over BBBFF when i was little btw /pos but hm.. my fav show was gravity falls maybe. so good.

we finally fixed what was wrong with the water in the one bathroom in the house that has a bath tub. exciting because i’ve never taken a bath… want to see what it’s like… perhaps use a bath bomb 🤔..

don’t think i’ve processed we’re going to have another person living with us. wow

been thinking about p5 akira a lot. my stupid beautiful loser sopping wet cat idiot handsome prince guy. Do u think 13 year old me would be surprised i still like him or that my bff likes goro or that i ship akeshu. i have 150 ss's from the p5 vn. and when i say he's written like my version of akaashi keiji.. hah......

might deactivate at some point tbh. saying this because i don't think people will read this far so it's like a little secret convo but i feel like i've overstayed my time / don't rlly fit anywhere bshdjsd i'll click delete account and just Stare for a while. like at some point u think about it so much it's like.. girl stop clinging on and just do it. but i don't want to lose my stuff so it won't happen until i put it all somewhere else. which won't be soon because i'm lazy as shit so. that's life i guess. 🤷🏻‍♀️ def won't until i finish my event.. will see if i can at least make it to my blog anni if not my birthday 🤔 would probably come back at some point anyway. also my users... can't lose 6okuto r u joking...

been rocking with pleasure delayer by between friends & rock-paper-scissors by katzenjammer lately.

broken 3 nails this week and may unfortunately break a 4th. my stupid baka life. might just cut the rest and restart... they were all Even. 1/2 cm long bro.. why does this happen to me...

excited to call and ask about my joke bear plate in a few days. i'm 100% sure i didn't do an even number of coats for everything and it'll look wonky in places, but i think that's part of the appeal. the nia 6okuto joke bear brand

thank u for joining and asking lene!! 🙆🏻‍♀️🩷🩷 i like 2 talk so do not worry. would u like some q's back.. a similar amount.. less.. more.. let me kneow. meow

[leclerced]

wait I’m dying to know why Carlos isn’t bunny’s boyfriend if he loves her and they have this bond and everything

is it possible he was a boyfriend and the move to Ferrari felt like enough of a betrayal for them to break up? if so, why would they still be hooking up? how does Oscar fit into the hierarchy of preference given the Carlos of it all?

(she says knowing full well she would definitely pick Carlos over… everyone? some days not Danny but you would have to pry that man out of my cold dead hands lol)

ugh preemptive apologies for my word vomit 😭 i just smoked and i kept trying to condense my thoughts and i cannot so here u go.

so to me, there’s like timeline i want to write fics based on? like certain asks that i get that i’ve strung together in my head. i could go through them and try to make a timeline if yall wanted?? like td we talked ab how lando and her meet and it’s like at a grocery store at the end of his rookie season. she’s a virgin. he’s like her first real kiss so they might not even fuck until months or almost a year into their relationship bc he’d want to take it slow, he’s traveling all over the world and she’s in school and can’t travel with him plus its super early on so she wouldn’t even if she could bc that seems too serious to do with her first boyfriend ever yk? they don’t start fooling w the grid around until this current season when oscar is his teammate, and max is the first one. so she has no feelings for carlos in my head. we talked about it briefly but she doesn’t have feelings for anyone else really? she cares about some more than others and certainly loves some but she’s in love with oscar and lando they’re her sun and moon!! she falls for oscar bc he’s very respectful of her and lando’s relationship and her as a person, he’d remind her of how sweet lando was to her early on in their relationship and she can’t help but fall for him.

but bc its just an au we can talk ab anything. when ppl send asks ab like carlos and lando being teammates and bunny liking them both im not gonna correct them and be like “bunny was an innocent virgin who just met them both, she would cry if she knew the dirty things carlos wanted to do to her” bc now that we talked ab how they met, they’d be going into 2020 and their last season as teammates, and she would have just met lando in the off time yk? so realistically she’s not having sex w lando and much less carlos when they’ve only met a few times when she has time off school to go see him.

when i get asks ab like carlos and lando being teammates and dating bunny i just like assume theres a dif backstory like childhood friends to lovers or smth? they’re like 16 yrs old and she’s nervous ab her first date so lando offers to teach her how to kiss. then it could be a cute lil thing where she doesn’t even go on the date bc she’s too busy kissing lando and then he makes up for it by taking her on a date ! she’s by his side thru everything instead of a sebastian vettel fan who meets him in a grocery store. then when he makes it to f1 maybe they have a threesome w carlos and they get attached even though they shouldn’t and it keeps happening. then carlos leaves them for ferrari. they’d try to be distant w daniel but he’s so smiley and cuddly with all his friends and they can’t take it and wind up wrapped in his sheets too. then he leaves and they meet oscar and the pattern repeats itself ! in some brainrots her and lando will pine after carlos if thats what ppl wanna send asks about and i’m gonna run w it and write brain rots about it. but if i write more one shots in the universe i’m gonna follow a set timeline based on certain asks bc they don’t all work together in a realistic timeline. i hope this makes sense.🫶🏻

[boydepartment]

HOT TEA WITH HONEY WAS SO CUTE AND SWEET

you literally never disappoint

i love the way you write riki sm. i feel like you write him realistically?? ik it's impossible to know riki 100% unless you know him personally which as fans we don't but idk i feel like you really capture an authentic riki or at least a riki that matches well with the riki i see him as

thank you for taking your time out of your busy life to write my request 💕 im glad it helped you recoup after writing that crazy paper

i used to write but i don't really anymore and honestly it's so crazy to me how much you're able to write while juggling school work 😵‍💫😵‍💫 i couldn't do that...youre amazing jayjay!!

i will always wait patiently for you to write my requests. life can get crazy and writing takes a lot of effort and time!! please don't feel pressured to write my requests in any certain time frame okay!!

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IM SO GLAD YOU LIKED IT :3 i really loved writing it and i wish i had more energy to make it longer ‼️‼️ i love writing relationships where it’s like healthy teasing (i’ve never had that, every “teasing” i got was like bullying and being actually threatened)

IM ALSO SO GLAD THAT THE WAY I WRITE RIKI IS OKAY! i’ve been reading fanfiction in general since i was 11 SO I REALLY TRY MY BEST! i also never want to like make him shitty bc he already deals w ppl making him an asshole all the time. which is another pet peeve of mine. IDK IF IVE MENTIONED THIS BEFORE (i might’ve have i have bad memory tho) but even when i wasn’t super into enhypen. like to the point where i didn’t necessarily like riki (antis are extremely damaging when the situation is taken out of context) i still worried abt him partially. it’s hard enough being a celebrity in western culture i cannot IMAGINE how difficult it is in the kpop world at his age. especially the age where he started training and was shoved into the public eye. so even when i didn’t even like him i was worried. maybe i’m just too empathetic bc i don’t even know the guy. ANYWAYS- before i ramble more.

OF COURSE BUTTER MY LOVE! i will always write your requests :3 they really do help take my mind off stuff and im proud to be able to be good enough that you keep coming back to my account! it really does mean a lot 🫶

you should do try writing things again!!!! even if it’s little things!!!! i used to be big on wattpad and took a break for a couple years and now i’m here! so you never know!!! life is unpredictable :3

your requests are always a breath of fresh air!!!! so don’t worry about the last part :) plus you ask super respectfully and that means A LOT to me 🫶

i hope you have an amazing day butter butter 🧈 i can’t wait to hear from you again soon!!! ❤️ please stay healthy and take care of yourself

[moonchildstyles]

BESTIE!! i have to start by saying that i’ve missed being on here i have been so busy w school!!!! i hope you’re doing well!!!!

now🥸 i have to get smth off my. chest. i’ve been on a pedro pascal kick recently and i’m watching narcos but oh my god there’s this scene where he manhandles a woman and he says “ur breaking my fing heart baby” and when i tell u i Screamed. like pllssss the scene isn’t rly sexual apart from that but to me it screams prosecco h if yn is ever annoyed at him for smth like rly small and she’s been giving him the silent treatment for the day and she’s been ignoring im and being short. he’s super upset at first and gives her space but then it gets to be later in the evening and she’s still going strong but he’s in a mood and isn’t just gonna take his girlfriend not speak to him so makes sure to sneak up behind her while she’s in the bathroom getting ready for bed and starts trailing little kisses on her neck and teasing a little like been mad at me all day baby hm? can u please say something to me? i miss hearing your pretty voice. and she’s cracking bc she misses her man but she was rly annoyed!! but she’s rly liking what he saying so she wants to keep up the act for a little bit longer so she just says nothing except look at him through the mirror and just “hmphs” and goes back to doing her skincare. harry even notices that she’s not wearing anything unde her silk robe and he’s just 🥸🥸 i need to make her happy w me right now. so he keeps kissing her and touching her and he just lets out a sigh when she still doesn’t speak and he says you’re really breaking my heart here pretty. i can’t stand when you’re upset with me. and maybe his hand starts trailing further down and reaches where the robe hits her thigh and slightly pushed it to the side. he keeps kissing her and he can tell that she knows where this is going and she’s just “you rly upset me harry but im sorry for ignoring you honey i love u” and he starts rubbing and yk 🥸 getting to it and he says “been depriving me of your pretty voice all day baby. now i need u to b loud for me ok pretty?” but yea this might b a little out there for them idk i’m rly tired but i just missed being on here!! -👹

omg first of all bestie im so happy youre back its all good do not worry about being active on here if you have other things to take care of !!!!!! im happy whenever you can pop by:(

but now....to this 🥸 like she KNOWS shes being petty its just the way when she told him she was getting upset about something at school maybe like one of her classmates was just being annoying and she was complaining a little and he did that thing that guys do esp cause hes older bc he just doesn't Get it and he laughs a little like "baby then don't talk to her ? its not a big deal, drama queen" and hes meaning to be teasy and like playful w her and like he thinks hes being helpful but he doesn't GET it she has to talk to her theyre paired up and shes also friends w one of her other friends so she can't just blow her off and all of this stuff and he called her a DRAMA QUEEN?????? sure he's called her that before and she knows he was just being affectionate but thats not what to say to her rn! its like basically telling her to calm down which is not!!! what she needs to hear!!! so shes just grumped immediately bc fine then she won't talk bc its not a big deal and shes just a drama queen fine and she just finds an excuse like homework or something to leave the room after and she just ghosts him most of the day like not talking and being a little petty and leaving the room when he comes to sit w her and only making lunch for herself and like after he catches on that shes not just like...happens to be busy when he comes to cuddle or whatever then hes like ????baby????? like kind of confused bc where did this come from but he gives her space to feel whatever she needs to feel until it comes to bed time and shes all dressed in her little robe and her hairs pulled back as shes doing her skincare and everything in his bathroom and like she knows she needs to talk to him before going to sleep bc theres no way shes getting into bed w him when shes annoyed but anyway when he comes in and cuddles up behind her shes.....like shes not mad but seeing him again and how hes pleading w her to talk to him she just wants to stick to her guns bc shes stubborn! but omg when he kisses over her neck and grabs her wrists and holds them to her chest while he sways them a little pushing his hips against her backside and looking at her through the mirror like she knows shes going to cave all it takes is him dropping her hands to he can start slipping his own under her robe and feeling her skin but he still "you're breaking my heart baby really. I haven't heard your pretty voice or touched you all day:(" shes a goner immediately!!!!! looking up at him w sparkly eyes and you hurt my feelings this morning but im sorry I didn't talk to you:( and all is definitely forgiven when shes extra loud for him in bed to make up for lost time

(and ofc they have a long talk after about like hurt feelings and why what he said upset her and why what she did wasn't okay to ignore him and all but you know)

[annonniiiiieeeee]

I HAVE COME /kicks door/ Hello there my dear friend :D its good to have you back /virtual hugs <3/

Anyways heres my question

Sooo the Tenshu gang know they cant go into the upper word /aka New York/ at daylight bc of the humans and stuff..... but what about the goverment? specific a certain person whose name starts /w B 👀 who by asares del destino just kidnapted the turtle fam and did experementions with them. How would the Tenshu gang react to that? :)

/also me wanting to make so many drawing of your books and ideas but doesnt have the time bc school *proceeds to cry*/

Thank you my friend it’s good to be back.

I eagerly await whatever beautiful art you are will to bestow upon me.

But here’s the thing. I always forget about Bishop’s existence.

I haven’t reached that part of 2003. When I do I will let you all know and I will have more feelings about it.

Honestly Rise is so different from it predecessors in that it is very bright. Yes they acknowledge the fact that Bee York won’t be cool with …. This whole situation.

But they are also the only turtles to really go to the surface in daylight. They are in cosplay which is a lot more common then in 2003. They also have a whole mystic city to explore.

Rise has a much lighter tone to it. It still has its big emotional moments and the characters still have depth. But just even in it’s color palette it is much lighter.

2003 is very dark. It opens with the purple dragon as street thugs robbing people in and armor car. I’m pretty sure they were ready to kill Casey bull publicly beating him in like episode five. It is grungy and fits the dark super hero tone of shoes from that era. It’s not bad, but by any means. It doesn’t shy away from the cruelties of the world and the horrors of being mutants.

Yes the show is fully ridiculous in moments. Everything with the aliens comes out of no where and yet perfectly fits. When you watch it your like. “Yes what wonderful plot development” but when I try to explain it to my brother I would like I’m on crack. I love it so much.

That being said. Bishop a government agent that is here to experiment in the turtles. How does he fit in. In 2003 I can totally see it. I’m not at the part yet but it makes sense in there dark world that someone like that would exist and eventually come after them.

In rise the tone is so light. It’s hard to pitcher him in the show. Now after the movie? Where the government comes in to collect the remaining Krang?

Ya I can see someone like this showing up. Maybe he is crazy conspiracy theories that no one took seriously until the aliens show up. Maybe the government has deals with the hidden city to ignore mutants in New York as long as they aren’t causing harm.

Cause that’s the other thing. Rise has a lot of mutants that are just running businesses and not hiding. Like Repo liturally change the name of his business to Repo Mantis. He’s not hiding. Neither is Todd.

I don’t think Bishop can be this big scare government agent because the rise government doesn’t seem to care that mutants are in the street.

But a fanatic with a YouTube Channel? Or even a scientist studying evolution? Think like the crazy dentist. (Who I want to tackle some day because what the heck? He wants to go after Raph and boy howdy at I going to make that happen)

If Bishop exist in the rise universe he has to be his own entity because again their government does not care.

I will let you know more once I get to his 2003 arch but if y’all got ideas let me know.

[artisticbunny]

(Tiredsleepytiredsleepyboredtiredsleepyboredsleepy—)

Right HELLO! I been out for a few days haha sorry ya missed me! Saturday’s my off day and I went to an art museum yesterday to see my works! (And the many others) Also been working on my hair a lot this weekend and stuff to get it done and out the way for the next month, so sorry I’m late! But I’m here now!

So! In regards to your ✨wonderful✨ tale of Whispering Willow, how about some Corey lore?! (I know I’m going for like all most abstract guys lol I was gonna make a joke in regards to fractions but later—) Half dead, ALSO BETRAYED BY HIS TEAM! Big brain enough to have a potion on hand tho! Ôwô

Was it in cold blood this time!? It sure smells like cold blood bro. No way that was fraud or frame or lies!! HIS TEAM LEFT HIM FOR DEAD!! AHHHHHHHHHH I CANT!

(But gosh dang I hope I’m wrong at the same time lol. Also writers block utterly terminated! Yeah! Random Bonus question too tho: anything ur working on currently? Just school or something more? If it’s a secret that’s cool of course, but if it’s shareable I’d like to know! :D Oki I’ll buzz off now lol I need to finish an essay before I get marked down ^^” keep being awesome as always! Love ya Bun! <333)

Sorry for how long it took to answer this!!! I’ve been busy too >w<

Tw for gore, because Corey DEFINITELY didn’t get away unscathed!!!

Cory’s story isn’t super complex, they mostly just wanted to provide for their family!

Corey was an adventurer for hire, in simplest terms. He would go and join other adventuring teams for short quests. They never really stuck with a single group for longer than one or two quests, always on the move, and only taking a fairly small cut of the reward as compensation. Corey’s mentality is that others have families they need to feed too, he doesn’t need as much for his small family than others may need for theirs. His family consists of his mother and his little sister. he loves them dearly. Corey knows the work they do is dangerous, but he genuinely enjoys what he does, and is the main breadwinner of his family.

When Corey was betrayed and left for dead in Dread Caverns, everyone thought they died. His mother and sister were distraught. They tried to murder him so they could have just that little bit more of the money. It was their greed that pushed them to commit murder. Obviously, they told the guild it was an accident in the cave that lead to his death.

Though nobody knew, Corey WAS still alive, technically. He tried for months to find a way to get out, but with his limited range of movement, it proved too difficult to climb out of the caves on his own. Though there was ONE good outcome from his being betrayed: now having no heartbeat, he was basically invisible to the beasts that roamed the cave system. The same beasts that feed off of the fear of their prey. The first person to find him came soon after they realized this. Some random adventurer, trying to collect minerals and resources from the cave in order to study it’s properties. Corey tried approaching this person to ask for help, but as soon as he stepped closer, they freaked out. Corey is, quite literally, walking death. He has his head smashed in, cuts all over him, his lip split in half, dried blood running down his face, and even the limping walk of a zombie. To be completely fair, seeing him come at you in a dark cave like that, I don’t really blame the guy for practically pissing his pants! It doesn’t really help that Corey is partially mute, only really able to get out short sentences at a time, so on top of it all, he was completely silent walking forward XD

The adventurer practically bolted out of the cave after that, and told the guild. Thus birthed the rumor of the “King of Fear”, believed to be behind the properties of Dread Caverns.

Many would come over the next few years, none of them willing to listen to reason. They tried to kill Corey. Out of self defense, Corey ended up killing them.

He would rack up quite the kill count before Brook came along. Corey hates what he’s had to do, and hates that he’s begun to kind of like it in a twisted weird way. They hate themself because of this. They feel evil. They think they’ve started going insane. Being isolated in the dark for years with only the occasional battle, it was akin to torture.

Brook, even while terrified out of her mind, was the first one to actually stop and listen to him. She helped him to escape and finally see the light of day after years underground.

Here’s the boy!!!

To answer your last question, yeah I’m mostly working on schoolwork right now haha! But I’m also working on a new profile picture since the one I have currently was originally made for Halloween XD I’ll finish it soon and post it for you guys to see when it’s done!

[boebluewrites555]

Hey Xenites. I am posting this chapter today and super excited about where things go from here. I am so sorry it’s been such a long time coming, I’ve just been going through a lot lately but I’m excited to update again soon, hopefully tonight. I hope that you enjoy this and thank you so much for all of your support!! Anyways let me know if you are still enjoying this! I really love to see your comments, they truly make my day! <3

“Gabrielle, it’s going to be ok. I promise. How about you stay with me for a while, that way if he even so much as dares to come near you, we’ll kick him where it hurts together?” Xena asked as she rubbed soothing circles on the dancers back.

Gabrielle looked up at her with tears in her eyes. “A-are you sure that’s ok Xena? I wouldn’t want to impose…”

But Xena gently wiped Gabrielle’s tear stained cheeks. “Of course it’s ok, your always welcome in my home Gabrielle.”

Gabrielle tried to hold back a blush at that, but soon realised that red would colour her cheeks and ears no matter weather she wanted it too or not around Xena.

When they got back to Xena’s place they ordered take out and watched some movies to try take Gabrielles mind off of the call. After she had fallen asleep quite late, Xena had carried her to her bed and tucked her in, opting to sleep close by on her couch so as not to push her into anything she hadn’t asked for yet, but when Gabrielle had stirred at 1 am, asking for Xena, she had gladly obliged as she put an arm around her and snuggled into the woman she loved.

The next morning Xena had woken up to find Gabrielle had made her breakfast in bed to thank her for allowing her to stay over.

Xena had grinned at the special treatment and said that she was welcome always, and when Gabrielle had insisted that she needed to go to work despite everything, she had made sure to drop her off and had offered as well to pick her up after work.

The whole time Xena was out on her patrol she couldn’t help but to feel worried about Gabrielle. What if Lila’s partner knew where she worked? What if he kidnapped her or worse? Xena should be there to make sure that didn’t happen.

But at the same time she wanted to respect Gabrielles wishes and she knew that she shouldn’t smother her. Not to mention the fact that she was clearly able to take care of herself. But Xena was in love with her, so not being worried, was simply not a possibility right now.

When Xena had gotten back from her patrol and had made the coffee she so desperately needed, Cyrene had noticed her mood and came up to speak to her.

“What’s up my warrior girl?” She asked, and Xena felt a little spaced out at the comment, as if the word warrior had somehow meant something to her that she couldn’t quite place.

“Just worried about Gabrielle. She’s going through a lot right now and I wish I could just do something about it. But I have to respect her wishes.”

Cyrene nodded and placed a comforting hand on her shoulder.

“It’s always tough being a cop and knowing that you could fix a situation, but also not wanting to overstep with the people you love. I hear you sweetie, but I’m sure everything will workout for the best and if anything does happen, I’m positive you’ll be able to help.”

Xena tried to manage a smile, she knew that Cyrene was probably right, but she still couldn’t help being concerned.

It made her wish that she was in a different time, where being a, as Cyrene had called it, warrior was the Norm and she could just go find this douche bag and make him back off.

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Gabrielle had been super busy that day, as was normal for the school holiday rush, but she had of course welcomed the work that took her mind off of Drake’s call.

However when it had come time to head home… we’ll back to Xena’s place, Gabrielle stiffened as she picked up her phone when it once again rang, hoping that it was just Xena.

But it wasn’t Xena. It was Drake.

“Hi there little mouse. I have a message for you and I’m pretty sure you will want to hear it. I have the one you love so much and I don’t plan on letting her go without you doing something for me first.”

Gabrielles heart sped up it’s pace in her chest as she tried to control her breathing.

“Drake if you hurst a hair on Xena’s head I swear I’ll-“

But the man just laughed.

“Now now little mouse, I won’t her your love, just as long as you come to meet me and do whatever I want you to. Than you have my word that I will let her go.”

Gabrielle tensed at that but tried to hold her resolve. She would do anything to save Xena, even if that meant that she would be harmed herself.

“Ok, just tell me where to go and I’ll be there.”

Drake laughed again as he gave her the address and Gabrielle made hast.

When her bud had arrived at the correct street, there was at least a five minute walk before she would get to her destination.

She frantically looked around, hoping that she would find something to help her in the fight she knew was coming, and when she saw a long piece of branch that had fallen from a tree, she quickly picked it up hoping that her apparent skill with a staff would kick in when she needed it.

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As soon as Xena had finished up her day shift, she made her way straight to Gabrielles studio to pick her up from work. But when she found the studio all locked up she panicked.

‘It’s probably fine. She probably just finished early and went home or to my place first.’ Xena tried to calm her racing thoughts as she jumped back in her car and drive to Gabrielles apartment.

She wasn’t there.

Now Xena was getting really concerned and when she got to her own flat and realised that Gabrielle wasn’t there either she really began to panic.

Where would she go? What if she was being hurt or worse by Lila’s partner?!!

Xena began to drive around the town hopelessly looking for her love but she didn’t know where to look. If she was right about her hunch and Drake had gotten to her, she had no idea where he would have gone.

Just as Xena parked on the side of the ride and punched her wheel in frustration, causing the vehicle to beep and pedestrians to quickly shuffle away in fear, she heard her phone ding.

Of course she had tried calling Gabrielle, but she hadn’t been able to get through, but now as she opened up her phone with bated breath, she only needed to read the text once to know exactly what she needed to do.

‘Help east docks.’ Is all it said.

Xena put her sirens on and sped as fast as she could in the direction of Gabrielle.

[longtallglasses]

i once had a job at a small produce market, it was the longest i worked somewhere, like three years - we had about five cashier employees usually only ever working in twos especially in the evenings for the closing shift. it was half indoors, half outside, on a not very busy road. one of the door ways outside was in front of the registers and when you stood behind one of them you stared directly out the door into the parking lot and onto the street. so it was always freezing inside and we all wore gloves while we worked(the worst in the winter). also this was not a super popular spot, it had been on the decline for a while, so it was usually always slow but even more so at night, so we would not have a single customer sometimes for two hours or more. and let me tell you on quiet nights with no customers in and your one co worker is not to be seen i would just stare out this door into the black abyss and wait and wait. me and a co worker (i say A, but i worked w the same guy every time which just added to the delirium) would just stand there throwing stuff at each other, receipt balls, fruit, pens, whatever. and like every shift seemed to blend into one and everytime that nighttime lug rolled around i would feel like i had never left i constantly mentioned that this is what purgatory must feel like - you’re just stuck in something and for maybe a minute you gain consciousness of like oh wait! i’m still here! waiting… and then suddenly it’s the next day and it may as well be yesterday or tomorrow. a tortuous purgatory, i’m sure most people can relate to this working in retail/service but weirdly though … sometimes i miss it? the general aimless mind numbing loop of standing in a dark creepy realm always made me feel like i was on some other plane. idk sometimes it’s good to feel weird and feel out of everything.

anyway that was years ago the place has since long closed down, it sat empty for years, buT recently a new produce/fish market has taken over the location and just out of curiosity i went in to see how they changed things (bc the previous owners were a mess, low key cutting some extreme corners) and walking into that place felt like i had never left! now, it was way cleaner and way better organized, way more people but to me and whether it’s from nostalgia of the place or just the general weirdness i had, i still felt like that place could be purgatory. i wouldn’t be surprised if i died and i found myself behind a register checking out peoples produce and telling people how to check if a watermelon is good again, none the wise that i had ever left. or staring out a dark door way just waiting to see car lights or waiting forever for just 15 more minutes to pass so it’s time to lock up.

there’s probably a term for this idk but it reminds me of those dreams you can have where in you’re back in high school or college and you try to think - what if i woke up and it was five years ago or what if i woke up and i was freshman in high school again - would you be able to slip back into the routine? would the muscle memory of everything just fall right back into place? like a schedule i had everyday for a year would i still be able to remember it if i woke up back then? idk these thoughts plague me and if i woke up back in the produce market i would definitely black out and forget everything i’ve ever done since.

i’m already living in a time loop it’s called being employed

[leejenowrld]

you don’t have to answer this ask but i enjoy reading ur responses!!!! so thank u if u do 💘 i’m the anon asking for rs advice ^^ i’ll be 🥟 anon so that it’s easier to keep track 🙇🏻‍♀️

dw im not a minor AHAHA i’m barely legal, just that my friends are at most 1 year older than me so actually age does make alot of difference in terms of maturity when it comes to giving advice, at least for relationship advice is what i’ve noticed!!

yeah id say hes sweet and i def don’t want to break his heart but we definitely do have our issues and lately our arguments have been so bad to the point that its almost impossible to resolve bc i’ve started to see his flaws?? in a way that it wasn’t obvious back then but its definitely obvious now and its enough of an issue that yk if i “date to marry” and i do end up marrying him, this would probably impact my life in a huge way

heres abit of my lore 🤣 basically ive always grown up kind of a loner? well maybe not a loner w 0 friends but i never really had as many friends that i was close to compared to people around me, so only when i was in upper sec in secondary school then i started really having friends and enjoying my life as i should! then we had this outdoor camp programme where we got to go on a camping trip with a group of people coming from 2 other secondary schools including our own, and from there i met my boy best friend. which is not uncommon for me since i play videogames but i’ve been in an all-girls school since primary school so the ratio of my female to male friends is probably like 3:1 + all my male friends are from other co-ed secondary schools and likely met through friends. i met him before i dated my current bf, and before my current bf and i started dating i did make it explicitly clear that i had a boy best friend or at least a male friend that i was sort of close to! so here’s the problem, i def respect my boundaries w that male friend bc i don’t want to make my bf feel like im prioritising someone else over him or make him overthink, so ever since we started dating i haven’t seen my friend irl like once which i mean its been a busy year for us all so its not that bad but i honestly don’t think i could go for the rest of my life without hanging out w him irl at least once a year or so bc i really see him like a brother that i don’t have and we’ve always helped each other to get through problems so there’s that and never at any point did i ever have any romantic feelings towards him 🙇🏻‍♀️

i think the whole root of the problem is that my bf thinks i shouldn’t be hanging out with a guy friend 1-to-1 without his supervision, which yes i kinda do agree to some extent bc if i was in his shoes i’d probably also feel slightly uneasy, but then again this is life and i cannot possibly be avoiding irl 1-to-1 male interaction for the rest of my life if i continue to date my bf right 😅 i’ve told my bf time and time again that i don’t feel anything towards my friend and neither does he bc if we both did then we’d be together instead of me with my current bf…yeah but i guess hes still unsure in that aspect bc hes a little controlling abt how my friendship w that male friend is and i often feel super trapped/suffocated bc if i play videogames w him i’m afraid that my bf would find out and get mad at me since we both play the same games but at different skill levels + this has happened before so 😞

if u have any advice how to approach this that would be great too!!! but honestly after all the arguments i’m starting to see that he probably isn’t the right one for me bc we do actually have different values, principles and interests so 😅

i def get that nct should be a casual interest/hobby, but then mayb again due to not having fully matured, my interests have never been anything “casual” to me HAHAHA like yes studying/my future is always my 1st priority to me and will always be, but the moment im done with my student responsibilities i straightaway turn to the dreamies as a form of escape cuz ngl it gets really tough and streasful here and i always feel more alone than not despite having friends if u get what i mean…maybe its just the academic responsibilities 🙂‍↕️ i’m not sure how best to put it to give u a better picture of what im like irl but in my free time i pretty much only yap abt the dreamies (on my socials) but i def agree with whatever u said though!!!! just maybe that i’m not ready to hold my interest to such a “casual” standard but i’ll keep what u said in mind 🙂‍↕️

thank u for listening to me ramble, its def easier to rant to someone who doesn’t know me irl but pls know ur not obligated to reply me!!!! 🙇🏻‍♀️ pls stay safe and healthy 💘

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no that’s okay please send me any asks <3 i like receiving them and answering them, i wish i got more 😭 sorry for the late response but i’m here now xx

ahhh okay!! and yeah i have been told i’m mature for my age but i have my moments obviously but i think being in a relationship has helped me mature especially emotionally mature.

oh i get that :( yeah that sounds super tough and tricky. it always hurts being in an argument with someone you love, and when you’re hurting each other. it seems like a super sticky situation as i can defo see where he’s not trusting you and creating problems. the thing is, i definitely see your pov as well as his. it’s not nice to see your s/o be such close friends with someone of their opposite gender, trust me, i’ve had a lot of jealous moments as my boyfriend has a lot of friends and some of them are girls. but jealously aside, being friends with someone the opposite sex isn’t a crime? you’re not doing anything wrong. just make sure you always communicate to him and make him feel like he’s your priority, always saying it doesn’t mean as much as actions. show him. my boyfriend is very very good at that, whenever i have jealous moments he will always show me that he prioritises me and that i’m his girl. and that i’m the only person he sees in his eyes if you get me. but if your bf has such an issue, try and find the actual root reason why he’s so mad and then start from there. it’s also unhealthy for him to get jealous so much, i get jealous but there’s over jealous and controlling. that’s a sign that your relationship isn’t stable :( and that you guys need to communicate and just prioritise each other and each others feelings. i always say this but being honest and communicating is the solution to everything!! im trying to imagine if i was in your situation and what i’d do. i don’t really have many friends (lmao) let alone guy friends, but if i did and i was hanging out with him (but as you described not a lot right?) hm i feel like if i didn’t tell my boyfriend he would get mad at me, or if i kept hanging out with this guy. i feel like if i communicated with him (which you said you tried to do) and was honest he’d be more chill with it. also would it help having your friend and your bf meet? i feel like my bf would feel more at ease if he met my male friend so i’m just thinking maybe that would help your boyfriend not get so weird about it.

if you feel like he isn’t the one for you then that’s what you feel! always go with your gut.

and i get you! you explained that well. i totally understand that things like kpop are a form of escapism. and no worries, always send me your asks <3 i love reading them and i love responding to you. please never stop lol. i love giving advice. hope you stay well mwah and update me if anything happens with ur bf !!