#i’m not losing it you are !!!!!!
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I hope you believe that you can still make a beautiful life for yourself even if you lost many years of it to grief, or darkness, depression, or a wound that wouldn't close.
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Bruce being a toxic boy mom when it comes to nightwing will never not be funny as fuck he is literally the biggest nightwing defender one bad word against him and the next day he’ll show up at ur house
Bonus:
#you won’t join the justice league you’ll be leading them#Bruce: nightwing is literally the best vigilante to ever exist#Bruce: when I grow up I wanna be like nightwing#meanwhile dick: ugh Bruce literally doesn’t respect me he always treats me like a child he thinks I’m incompetent#Bruce: you are literally who I aspire to me you’re the only thing I’ve ever done right in my entire life#dick: he’s such an ass I’m not a child anymore!! I can take care of myself why won’t he trust me??#Bruce: losing you would literally be the death of me I won’t lose you cause I’ll be joining you in death#batman#dc comics#bruce wayne#batfam#batfamily#dc robin#dick grayson#dcu#nightwing#good dad bruce wayne#unhinged dad Bruce Wayne#dick and bruce#shitpost#incorrect batfamily quotes#incorrect batman quotes#batman twitter au
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I’m in the South. I’ve got ears to the ground. Republicans are SWEATING at the prospect of Kamala being nominated. They’re not sure Trump can beat her.
Let’s prove them right.
#us politics#kamala harris#us news#joe biden#2024 presidential election#go vote#I want to see him in a prison jumpsuit. it’ll match his face.#I am FIRED UP#if we get off our asses and vote he’ll be a thing of the past#that alone should be motivating#I’m gonna lose followers posting stuff like this#but I need the anti voting crowd to tell me what the actual plan is#do you have a candidate in mind or are you just waiting for something better to come along#we have 3 months
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#this tav is not a durge#but she is a gd menace#mystra if you’re reading this I’m beating you with a lead pipe#wyll ravengard#shadowheart#gale of waterdeep#gale dekarios#lae’zel#karlach#astarion#astarion ancunin#mc: Miri Twohorns#bg3 wyll#dnd#bard#losing my religion#REM losing my religion#bg3 spoilers#bg3#baldurs gate 3#morights#(ps I am working on a piece still with that shade of green)
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It has to be here somewhere…
Funny ADHD ASD Memes
#autism#adhd#neurodivergent#neurodivergent memes#relatable memes#I lose my stuff all the time#and then find it a day later or something lol#I’m sure some of you can relate#neurodivergence#neurodiversity#actually neurodivergent#feel free to share/reblog#Funny ADHD ASD Memes (Facebook)
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John Watson is the BIGGEST hype man and that’s just canon
#you ever read the books??#bro will gas his bro UPPP#his homie Holmes#his holmie#I’m sorry it’s 3am I’m losing my mind a bit#my art#sherlock holmes#john watson#johnlock#sherlock#acd sherlock holmes
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I know we just got some angst, but I can't it's just too good
Can we get just a little bit more? pretty please with a cherry on top 🍒 🙏🥺
oops, lost your trine
#transformers#starscream#lucky for you I was already working on this one#never wanna lose track of your wingmates in the middle of a battle gone south#when did they fall behind?#when had you stopped paying attention…?#does this count as angst? idk if it counts as angst I’m gonna count it as angst so I can respond to this ask
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Jason gets so pussydrunk and it doesn’t take much at all. Like you’re talking to him while sitting down in a dress. You don’t think anything of it, you’re just getting more comfortable, so you open your legs. His gaze drops as your legs uncross and his eyes never leave you. His face goes bright red. Without warning, he rushes forward and falls to his knees. He thumbs at the seams of your underwear. “Please.” When you nod your head, he tugs them down your legs reverently. He kisses all over your thighs, leaving you speechless. Unacceptable. “Keep talking, baby. I wanna hear your voice. I need it.” His voice is whiny and he makes no move to hide it. His kisses trail closer and closer to where you want him, but right before he gets there, you lace your fingers through his hair and tug him back, making him let out a sound that you wish you had recorded. He needs to beg for it. You can see the thought click in his clouded eyes. Despite not having touched your pussy yet, he’s breathless. “I’ll be good. I���ll be so good. Please. I’ll be so good for you.” You push his face into your cunt and you can feel the vibrations of his moan, you take it as an excuse to grind into his face. Call him your slut, he'd like it.
#galas are fun#almost made this mommy kink#jason todd#jason todd x reader#saph’s thots#red hood#red hood x reader#jason todd imagine#jason todd x you#red hood imagine#red hood x you#jason todd smut#red hood smut#red hood x reader smut#jason todd x reader smut#smut#my brain is losing my hyperfixation and I’m brawling with it. I will not go down without a fight.#as always I was too lazy to proofread#jason todd x afab!reader
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Becoming something Different
#viktor my babygirl where are you#waiting very patiently for riot to give us viktor content PLEASE where is he#viktor arcane#made this for that split screen twt trend but i’m unsure wether it’d even work here#viktor#arcane#arcane 2#arcane season 2#illustration#art#fanart#arcane fanart#viktor fanart#blue#purple#riot games#league of legends#i MIGHT be losing my mind a little help
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His eyes are up there, farmer..
((Also that’s a doorknob he’s holding I now realize that’s visually unclear, this started as a silly sketch))
#artists on tumblr#stardew valley#sdv shane#if you know me irl no you dont#he’s just a girl#every time shane is twinkified an angel loses its wings#it’s 2 am I’m so tired#I’m seeing shit#I think my curtain just moved??
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SEVIKA WITH HER NEW ARM???????
#I’M LOSING MY MIND#arcane#arcane x reader#sevika#sevika arcane#sevika x reader#sevika imagine#arcane fanfic#sevika x you#sevika x female reader#sevika x y/n
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ppl are so quick to modify and soften and put qualifiers on aromantic people’s statements. i’ll say “love loses” and here come seven thousand people in the notes going “funny joke but love is good actually!” “romantic love loses but not platonic love platonic love is great!” “but platonic love is still good though…” no actually i said what i meant the first fucking time. is it so hard to let someone just say something ever
#this is not just about the love loses joke specifically but it is the one that i get the most often and it does piss me off#anyway. you guys know what i’m talking about i’m sure.#aromantic people will say anything and here come seven thousand assholes to play semantics. shut uppp you know what the fuck i meant#talking#aromantic#aromanticism#arospec#aroace
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I love hazbin hotel. It’s made with hard work and love and I think that kind of magic is invulnerable.
I look forward to seeing Viv, Spindlehorse, and the whole team show us the beautiful project they’re making.
I want to hear the creator tell her story. 🪄💞
#I know there is unlawful sharing of the show going on and I don’t want to talk about it at all!!!#so dont come into my inbox with information you got illegally#consequences are instant block#thanks!#I’m a lil worried about my country going insane#I live in USA#but I hope I can get some fun drawing time in#if Trump loses#I’ll draw alastor and Lucifer making out in zoot suits
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a twitter user pointed out that everyone is helping izuku forward but the only one he looked backward for was kacchan and the director was like “hehe you noticed” and I’m UN FUCKING WELL
edit: clarification this is actually him just talking about kacchan pushing him forward but it’s still so cute 🥺🥺
#bakudeku#bkdk#mha spoilers#bnha spoilers#WHAT ARE YOU DOING TO ME#DO YOU THINK I’M STABLE ENOUGH FOR THIS#BONES WHAT THE FUCK DO YOU KNOW WHAT DID HORI TELL YOU WHAT IS HAPPENING#DONT TEASE BAKUDEKU YAOI RIGHT NOW I’M GONNA LOSE IT
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#I’m drunk right now and couldn’t possibly articulate how this makes me feel#just. the fact that they’re so codependent that you can see it from mars#+ adding the fact that taub turned in his letter of resignation to foreman in this same episode because he was sure that house would#at the very least ‘implode’ (or straight up meet his demise) after losing wilson…#he’s so real for that#I’m UNWELL#house md#greg house#gregory house#hilson#james wilson#house/wilson#hatecrimes md#chris taub
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IMPERFECT FOR YOU (18+)
you, doing a friend a favor, have to tutor miya osamu. but instead of learning about chemistry, he’s more interested in learning about you.
WC: 5.8k (send an ambulance)
WARNINGS: explicit drug (marijuana) usage, dubcon (sex under the influence), mentions of female anatomy and female identifying reader, use of ‘baby’ as petname, this is severely under-edited i’m so sorry
TAGS: frat/popular!osamu x nerdy/unpopular!reader, f!reader, porn with (some) plot, college au, post-timeskip, smut, hair-pulling, cunnilingus, petnames, reader has anxiety somebody pls give her a hug, if you get a magnifying glass osamu has a corruption kink
NOTE: i needed a palate cleanser so i can get back into writing so thus this was born. i intend to make this a mini-series (maybe?) or maybe just blurbs/headcanon series, who knows! let me know what you guys want <3
“Absolutely not.”
“C’mon,” Your friend whines, folding her hands together in mock begging, giving you the best puppy eyes she could muster even throwing in a quivering lip for her dramatic performance. “He’s a perfectly nice guy!”
“So what you’re telling me, this guy–” You begin, dumping a sugar packet into your coffee.
“Who I’m tutoring.”
“Right. The guy you tutor, who never comes to class–”
You stir your coffee. She nervously chuckles.
“Who is on the verge of failing–”
You stab your straw into the cup. She lets out a tense ‘mhm’.
“And needs to pass this final to avoid being on academic probation–”
You raise the straw to your mouth. She nervously fiddles with her fingers.
“... Needs to be tutored by me instead?”
You take a sip of your coffee as your friend shrinks into the booth seat.
“Well, you didn’t have to put it like that,” she grumbles through a slurp of her drink.
You should have known that when your best friend offered to take you out to your favorite cafe, on her, she was up to something. And you knew that when she bought you your favorite muffin, she was going to be asking you something ridiculous. The last time you were offered a free muffin, you ended up having to pretend to her parents that you were dying in the emergency room so that she could sneak out to her hookup’s place.
The plan almost worked until they came to visit you out of concern, only to find you both not there. She was grounded for another two months.
You turn to her.
“And why can’t you do it?” Your friend was supposed to be the one tutoring him, so you were confused about why it suddenly had to be you instead.
“Because,” She grumbles as if it were obvious. “I’m already busy trying to pass my own exams, that stupid research paper for Professor Takeda is driving me crazy, babysitting my piece of shit brother–”
Translation: I’m in over my head.
“Besides, everyone knows you’re a genius and you’ll pass no matter what, so why not take on a charity case in your free time, huh?”
She grins at you, not bothering to hide her obvious attempt at fluffing your ego to convince you.
“Does this guy even have a shot at passing?” You sigh, taking a sip of your latte. “I mean, if he doesn’t bother to come to class, how much effort do you think he’s gonna put–”
“He’s a smart guy, trust me! It’s just… y’know how college is.”
Right, he’s a college guy. He was probably knee-deep in parties instead of his textbooks.
“Why’s it on you to let this guy pass? I mean, it’s not your problem–”
“Well, his brother sorta said if I’d help him, I’d be invited to all the frat parties on campus this semester…” There it is.
She trails off but still stares at you with pleading eyes, and you notice her sliding her muffin towards you.
“You’re not gonna let up on this, are you?” You ask as you inspect the blueberry-crusted pastry now on your plate.
“Nope,” she replies, popping the ��p’ and grinning with her coffee straw dangling in her mouth. “Does it help that he’s super cute?”
You sigh again and pinch your nose bridge. She takes your lack of response as a victory.
“Great! I already told him that you’d come by tonight. I’ll send you his address and phone number–”
“You told him I was coming before you even knew I’d agree?!”
“Well, what else were you gonna do tonight? And don’t tell me you’re gonna watch that shitty soap opera again.”
Again, you don’t have an answer. Maybe because she’s already said it for you. But it’s not shitty! It’s romantic, moving, thrilling– okay, yeah, you’re starting to hear yourself. Maybe you shouldn’t stay in tonight.
“Fine, where does he live?”
“You have to be fucking kidding me.”
At no point did your friend mention to you that the address she was sending you to would be a frat house.
You thought it was odd that the address was in the dead center of campus– but you figured that whoever you were tutoring happened to get an apartment with a great location. It should’ve been obvious to you that this area would be Greek life housing when you realize all the houses on the block were way too nice to be afforded by a typical college student. You have never stepped foot on this end of campus. Well, you hadn’t, until now.
You should’ve stayed home, nose-deep in the romance novel weighing down in your bag. But now, you’re standing on the front porch of one of the most popular frat’s on campus.
“I’m gonna kill you,” you sneer into the phone pressed to your ear.
“Quit your yapping! It’s not like there’s a party going on or something.” You could practically see your friend rolling her eyes through the phone.
You anxiously dart your eyes throughout the house exterior. It’s massive, obviously well-funded based on how nearly every window seems to be polished, and definitely better than the shitty dorm you lived in a few blocks away. You couldn’t help but dread imagining how many frat brothers lived inside.
“I’m gonna leave–”
“Hey brat, put that down!” She screeches to presumably her younger brother on the other end of the line. “Ugh, gotta go. Have fun!”
“Wait!--”
She already ends the call before you can say anything else, and you fume at her contact information staring back at you. Seriously, if somebody axe-murdered you here, you’d make sure to haunt your friend for the rest of her life.
You weigh your decisions– a part of you wants to bolt back to your dorm, imagining the comfortable blanket and pillow resting on your bed practically awaiting your return, or you could not chicken out and actually fulfill the promise you made to your friend.
Damnit, you knew you had to pick the latter. You’d feel really shitty if you didn’t.
Besides, you’d never hear the end of it if you ran out with your tail between your legs.
You ready yourself to knock on the door, admittedly through a few deep breaths first, and as your fist is about to meet the wood of the door, it swings open from the inside. Had you been a second quicker, you probably would have tapped your tutee in the face.
Except, now that you’re looking at him, he’s quite tall. It would be more at his chest than anything. His broad chest was covered in a tight black shirt, with strong shoulders… In fact, you couldn’t even see his face if you were simply staring forward.
“Ya the tutor?” He states simply, breaking your train of thought.
You look at him to notice that there’s a face attached to the chest you were staring at. You look up, and dammit, your friend was right. He was super cute.
His hair is dark, with heavy gray eyes– bored and lazily staring at you, dumbfounded on his doorstep There’s a series of tattoos snaking beneath his shirt and piercings you couldn’t even begin to count– you nearly forget that you have to respond.
“Uhm– yeah, that’s me,” you reply, trying to regain your mental footing. “You’re Osamu, right?”
“Mhm, come on in,” he says, sticking his hands into loose gray sweatpants…. You should really stop staring. Or at least pretend you have a semblance of class.
You step inside and slip off your shoes as you briefly inspect your surroundings. The frat house is above all else, what you expected. Minus for the fact it actually seemed clean despite the typical frat stereotypes you heard– though, you’re sure their cushy funding got them cleaning services. There’s no way a bunch of college guys living together could keep a big house like this clean without some help.
However, that makes you take note that there is a lack of frat brothers in the frat house.
“Are ya just gonna stand there and stare or come inside?” Osamu remarks and your spine grows twice as stiff. You nod quickly and follow him inside and he leads you to what seems like a living room area– some couches and chairs around a TV and coffee table.
Osamu gestures for you to sit and you cautiously sit down, as if the couch had a trap door, leading you to fall into whatever scary basement sat beneath the house.
“Where’s–” You clear your throat, hoping you can keep a firm voice. “-- the rest of your brothers?”
“All of ‘em left on a trip for the weekend, somethin’ ‘bout a party at another school, but I gotta stay back and study for this damn final.”
You quickly pull out the textbooks and notebooks from your bag and place them on the table to ignore Osamu, who takes a seat beside you. He makes you unbearably nervous like you’re about to drop on a rollercoaster. But Osamu is… He’s… stoic? No, that’s not right. Maybe calm was the right word. You wouldn’t know– you’re anything but calm right now.
No, because, quite frankly Osamu looks like he was plucked straight out of one of the daydream sequences you fall asleep to. And you feel like your heart is about to burst out of your chest from how fast it was racing.
“So, you need help with medicinal chemistry?” You notice your voice is an octave higher than what it usually is.
“Yeah, I missed too many classes and now I don’t have a fucking clue what’s going on,” he sighed, leaning back in his chair and crossing his arms. Whatever you do, do not look at the way his arms are flexing or the distinctive veins charting throughout his forearms.
“We can start–” you flipped through your textbook to avoid staring at his arms any longer, “with the chapter on structure-based relationships–”
“Yer not who I thought Yuki would send.”
“I’m sorry?” You sputter back, and you think that your glasses pivot off your face. You were taken aback, did he think you were somebody else? Was he expecting someone else or?--
“She’s one of my brother’s friends. And my brother… Well, I don’t think ya would hang out with the likes of him.”
Oh, that’s what it was.
He was disappointed that you weren’t… someone more interesting, like your friend, or the people he knew in his frat, or…
It doesn’t matter. You should’ve expected this. After all, you’re just the tutor he has to tolerate for a few lessons until he passes his final.
But still, you feel some sort of rejection. You couldn’t blame him, his Friday night was being wasted on some nerd who couldn’t even look him properly in the eye because she wasn’t used to being near cute guys, let alone one of the most attractive guys she had seen in, well, ever.
“Don’t look like that, I think that’s a good thing.”
“I look like what?” Your hand flies to your face, instinctively going to hide it.
“Like I kicked yer puppy,” he muses.
You look back at him, and you see that he’s almost amused by your nerves. Your cheeks burn and you feel the need to wrap the cardigan you had on tighter around you, as if the wooly cotton would act as some sort of shield. But Osamu’s still right beside you, and you feel as if he’s intercepting some sort of barrier between you. But he sits still next to you.
“I like it, ya seem chill, and better than the damn morons I’m always ‘round. Yer a nice change of pace.”
A nice change of pace? You didn’t think that anyone would find your company… enjoyable.
“Please,” you laugh. The idea of you being chill momentarily makes you forget about your nerves. If only Osamu knew half the thoughts racing through your mind. “I’m a goody-two-shoes, and definitely not chill.”
“What, ya a good girl or somethin’?”
You falter. You glance back at him and notice that his eyes still haven’t left you.
“What?” You say, but it comes out more like a squeak. You’re not dumb, you could hear the indication ever so slightly tinged in his voice.
“Ya just interest me, I guess. Wanna know ‘bout ya.” You hear slight amusement in his tone.
“So tell me, what makes you a goody two shoes?”
“I, uhm–” You barely are processing an answer with the way his dark-rimmed eyes bore at you. “Well, I haven’t ever smoked–”
“Weed or–?”
You shake your head. “Neither.”
“Ya drink?”
“Sometimes. Not often. I don’t go to parties or anything like that, and drinking alone is kinda depressing so–”
He snorts. You aren’t sure why you were answering his sudden questions, you were just here to tutor him in chemical structures. But something about his presence beside you is commanding and you feel the need to comply.
“Maybe we can change that sometime.”
You barely compute what he just said before he turns to the textbook in front of you.
“So what’s this ‘bout structure activity?”
Osamu’s smarter than what you expect for a student possibly facing academic probation. Honestly, you question if he had ever needed you in the first place. He’s quick to pick up on the topics you lay out, and he probably could have self-taught himself most of the material if he applied himself.
Or showed up to class, but you keep that thought to yourself.
“That’s pretty much all of chapter five,” you say, closing the textbook in front of you.
“I honestly think if you just kept studying on your own, you don’t need me to tutor you, I can send you some videos too if you’d like, but I think that you’re fine–”
“Nah, I’d prefer if ya came over.”
He says it simply in a lazy drawl. But for you, it sends your brain into overdrive. You feel like a computer whose code has an error but keeps trying to run its system.
“Oh– Alright– I can come around sometime next week then.” You barely maintain to keep your composure. You just needed to be on auto-pilot until you got home, where you could properly freak out in the sanctity of your own room.
“Ya okay with late nights? Stupid frat schedule keeps me busier than I’d like to be.” He asks.
You nod your head. “Mhm, I’m fine being over late.”
“That too much for ya?” And there’s a lazy smile across his lips. “Ya got a bedtime or something?”
You give him another small laugh. “No, I usually stay up late anyway.”
“Ya stay up late? Doin’ what?”
There it is again. That sliver of amusement in his tone, as if he knows something that you don’t. But he keeps his calm demeanor, the one that makes you question if you’re just reading too much into things.
“Reading, watching shows, y’know, the normal stuff.”
Reading the stack of romance novels piled in your dorm until you see the sun peak through your blinds, watching soap operas until the screen asks ‘Are you still watching?’ because they assumed you left it open when in reality you’ve watched about five hours worth of television, dreaming, and wondering if someday you could attain even a fraction of the romance you see in fiction.
Yeah, the normal stuff.
At least for you, anyway. But hell would freeze over before you admit that.
Especially to Osamu, who you couldn’t help but feel a twinge of a flutter in your chest for.
“That’s all ya got planned for Friday night?” He hums, fingers absentmindedly twirling a pencil in his free hand.
“Yup,” you reply, softly. Great, now he probably thinks you’re a loser just like everyone else. You should have just told him you were going to head to a party, like any other normal college student your age.
“Ya wanna do somethin’ with me, then? I’m bored as hell being in this house all alone.”
For a moment, you think that you hear him wrong. Certainly, a guy, as hot, as intimidating, and– and so many things you’re not, and certainly couldn’t match to, was offering to hang out with you. No way, this doesn’t happen. Not to girls like you.
“You wanna hang out with me? Like right now?”
“Would ya prefer a different time, then?” His tone though, doesn’t suggest that he wants to reschedule. It’s painfully sardonic. It seems like it would be now, or not at all.
“N-no. I’d…”
For once, you have a chance to not have a nose in a book. To not spend your weekend alone wondering if that was going to be the rest of your college life. You have the chance to do something for yourself.
And something as simple as hanging out with a cute guy on a Friday night could be the start of that.
You sit up straighter and hold your head up. Something is tickling in your chest as you look back at Osamu, finally meeting back those eyes that couldn’t seem to stop studying you.
“Yeah, I’d like to.”
Something is screaming inside you. This is unfamiliar territory. This is foreign. Leave now. Abort mission. But you shove it down, you weren’t stopping while you were already ahead. New is good, you told yourself. But you still feel the urge to bolt out the door to cower under your covers.
You had put all your school supplies back into your bag and nestled yourself into the corner of the couch, making yourself as small as can be. Osamu said you two could ‘watch a movie and chill��. You could do something as simple as a movie, right?
“Ya comfy?” He asks.
“Yeah, thank you,” you say quietly, as if speaking up would take up more space in the room.
“I can tell that yer nervous,” he comments. It was that obvious, huh?
“Yeah, I don’t…” you pause to collect yourself, “usually do this.”
“Hang out with guys only after a few hours of meeting ‘em?” He laughs, relaxing himself on the couch.
“Hang out with guys,” you mutter under your breath.
“What’d ya say?” He says, looking over at you questioningly. It seems he heard you.
“I don’t hang out with guys, at all,” you replied, tone clearer now, “much less cute ones–”
Shit, shit, shit. You didn’t mean to say the last part.
“Ya think I’m cute?”
You wondered if you sank deeper into the couch, that’d you’d disappear completely.
“I mean, yeah– you’re attractive, of course.” He has to know that, right? A guy like him definitely knows he’s attractive. “And usually… guys like you don’t hang out with… people like me, that’s all.”
You’re not sure where the sudden gust of courage comes from, considering you were so anxious moments ago– but the question spills out from your mouth before you can think twice about it.
“Why’d you want me to hang out with you?” You ask suddenly, turning to him.
“Maybe ‘cause I think yer cute,” he states simply as if it were an easy answer, leaning back and looking back at the TV.
You haven’t been paying attention to whatever movie Osamu turned on– What was this? Some slasher flick?-- Something with a girl shrieking at the top of her lungs while obviously fake blood pours out of her. It’s ridiculous and you would laugh if there wasn’t a weight weighing on your mind– the weight is also sitting right next to you.
No, you can’t notice the terrible special effects when you know Osmau is beside you– warm and taking up the majority of the space on the already small couch you’re both sitting on.
You can’t help but have your brain go into overdrive over what Osamu said. Did he just call you cute and then drop the topic? What were you supposed to do? Just watch the movie and just not address it? Is this what guys did? Is that how you flirt?-- you have a lack of answers. Mostly due to a lack of experience.
You spend the first thirty minutes of the movie wondering if you were just imagining Osamu slowly inching towards your half of the couch. By the time the first half of the movie is through and the killer is on his third victim, you decide you’re right when you realize that Osamu’s thigh is ghosting yours.
Now you really can’t deny it.
A part of you thinks Osamu wants to be closer to you.
But also, he could just be doing it subconsciously.
It’s probably the latter, but maybe…
“I can hear yer heartbeat from here,” Osamu practically chuckles from beside you.
“What?”
You try not to stammer it. You fail, anyway.
“I can tell that yer nervous, relax. I don’t bite.”
No, you’re certain that Osamu doesn’t bite. But you know that he’s close to you. Which could be worse. In fact, that is worse.
It’s worse because your senses are going haywire from how close he is.
You can tell he smells good. He smells better than whatever cologne sample you’ve ever smelled in a store or magazine. He smells like– what’s the term? Musky? Woody? You aren’t sure, you just know it’s slowly becoming your favorite scent.
You can feel his body heat, warm and consuming. You can hear his breaths– low and steady. You focus on all these other things to ignore the fact he’s boring his dark eyes straight into you.
“I got something for ya,” Osamu suddenly remarks. “Stay right there.”
You barely process what he says before he removes himself from the couch, and heads out of the living room.
Your brain isn’t able to overanalyze like it usually does because Osamu is back in about a minute. Your defenses are still up. What could he possibly have for you? Your mind is sprawling with questions as Osamu plops himself right back beside you.
“C’mere, this should help yer nerves,” Osamu hums, as he wraps an arm around your waist to pull you closer to him.
You don’t ignore the way you feel his hands skimming over the sliver of exposed skin between your sweater and jeans, like hot coals brushing against you.
“Ya never smoked before, right?”
“No, I’ve never…” You realize that what he was holding in between his fingers was a freshly rolled blunt.
“Would ya like to try?”
You couldn’t lie, you’ve always been curious to try, especially since your friends were always talking about how ‘amazing’ it made them feel and how it would do wonders for your nerves.
You look at the blunt between his fingers cautiously and peek back at him.
“It’ll be okay, I got ya, nothing to worry yer pretty little head about.”
Pretty. Did he call you pretty? He has you?-- Fuck it, you needed something to put out the fires of your nerves.
“Okay, let’s do it,” you nod meekly.
“Attagirl,” Osamu grinned lazily. You don’t even bother to think about that comment, either. If you did, you’d be dead in a minute.
You watch as Osamu digs around the coffee table for a lighter, which is conveniently laid out on the table, as if ready for this moment. You watch as he flicks a flame to the blunt. He languidly takes a hit, and the smoke that hits the air is pungent. You’re glad there’s a window cracked open so the smell doesn’t collect in the room.
You should be studying his motions to mimic them for when it's your turn, but instead, you drink in the fact that he looks oh so fucking attractive.
He leans back on the couch, and you watch the way he tips his head back to blow out the smoke into the air above. You study the way veins flow through his neck and the way his Adam’s apple bobs as he exhales. You feel– fuzzy, warm. Are you high already? There’s a heat creeping from your chest, and you think you feel dizzy.
Yeah, you’re high. Totally. That has to be it.
When Osamu takes a look back at you, you avert your stare to your lap– reminding yourself that you’re acting odd. Cool girls don’t gawk at a guy smoking a blunt, they would– Well, you have no idea what they would do actually because you’re not cool.
And that’s obvious from the way you look at the blunt in Osamu’s hand like he’s handing you an unpinned grenade.
Osamu clocks in on the terror painted on your face. It’s so obvious somebody ten miles away could probably sense the nerves emitting from your body. You’re hoping you aren’t giving the deer-in-headlights look you usually have.
But you definitely are.
Osamu’s face softens at you.
“Do ya still wanna try? Ya don’t have to if ya don’t wanna–”
“Nono! I wanna try it.” you nearly jump at Osamu’s words. You’re a lot of things– nervous, nerdy, probably weird if you asked the guy who sat next to you in chemistry, but maybe that’s because he’s seen you write in three separate color-coded planners before.
“Alright,” Osamu chuckles as he watches you take the packed roll from him.
But you’re not a quitter.
There’s a sudden adrenaline rush for you, almost like you’re taking a shot of tequila. You pinch the blunt and raise it to your lips before taking a hit– your very first.
You make sure not to inhale much. You’re already on the verge of coughing from the taste alone. You pull it away, letting out a meek cough, as smoke expels from your mouth. It tastes shitty and gross, like you expected. But you feel good?
“Not bad,” Osamu muses, and you realize he was watching you the entire time.
Osamu looks at you. He’s been looking at you a lot tonight, you realize.
But that doesn’t mean anything.
“I have no idea how you don’t cough,” you say, as you pass the blunt back to him.
“Taste bad?” He grins lazily. His arm is still around your waist. It feels good, too.
“Horrible.” It doesn’t stop you from inhaling more of the sour smoke.
“Look at ya,” Osamu chuckles. “Like it, don’t ya?”
You’re making Osamu smile, laugh even. And it makes your head spin even faster. It’s so good.
Good, good, good.
Everything feels so fucking good.
Osamu makes you feel good.
“What are ya mumbling about?” Osamu asks plucking the blunt from your fingertips, and you snap out of it. Well, almost, the feeling is still pooling in your chest, head– everywhere.
“I just– I feel–”
“Feel what?”
You start giggling. Doesn’t Osamu feel it too?
But maybe he does because he’s smiling at you. It’s not the same giddy heart-melting feely smile you have plastered on, it’s more relaxed. But you almost could see… a bit of amusement.
“Figures ya would be a lightweight for yer first time– probably shouldn’t have given ya the strong shit, but’s all I had.”
“I wanna do it again,” you sleepily smile waiting for Osamu to pass you the blunt.
But he doesn’t. Instead, Osamu pauses to look at you again. This time he seems… inquisitive. He looks at the roll between his fingers, and you can tell that he’s calculating something in his head– then he looks at you.
“Ya wanna try something?”
His voice is low and there’s that tone of interest again.
“Try what?”
“It’s a… different way to take a hit.”
It doesn’t take much to convince you and you nod at him. You just wanted more. More of the good feeling, more of Osamu.
You expect him to pass you the blunt, maybe with some sort of instructions, but instead, he takes another hit. You’re about to ask whatever question you had before Osamu reaches for your chin and takes it firmly.
Despite your brain being foggy, your brain is working overtime. Osamu is touching you– staring at you. And now his face is ghosting yours. You’re close enough to notice the slightest freckle ghosting his left cheek. Were you always this warm? No, you’re burning. There’s a fire sweeping in your chest, your head, your face– everywhere. You’re so warm– Osamu’s so warm.
And there’s a moment where you zero in. Osamu isn’t exhaling.
You realize what he wants to do.
The smoke inside his mouth isn’t for him– it's for you.
Your lip doesn’t even quiver in the way it usually does whenever you blurt out something nervously. Instead, your lips part invitingly, and you barely even register Osamu has closed the distance until his lips are brushing against yours and there’s a wisp of smoke pooling from his mouth to yours.
Osamu still had one hand steadied on your chin and the other was caging you into the couch corner. The further the smoke spills into your mouth, the more you sink into the couch. You barely even register there’s no more smoke to inhale because your back hits the seat of the couch, and Osamu’s on top of you.
“There’s a freckle on your left ch– mmph!”
Osamu’s mashing his lips into yours in an instant. You didn’t even think there could be any more room for Osamu to close in– he was already so close to you– but you were wrong.
The kissing– it’s sloppy, depraved, even. Your glasses press against your face painfully from how quickly Osamu pounced on you, so you pull them off your face, not even caring where you throw them. You both feverishly want more, more, more. Osamu’s grabbing at your hips, his hands big and pawing at you. Your own hands are mapping the outline of his shoulders through his shirt. Osamu’s large body dwarfs your own, his weight resting on you. Your hands feverishly grabbed at him as your lips chased after the feeling you’ve been relishing– the good feeling– the feeling is pouring straight into your lips like rushing water and you’re drinking it in. It marries itself with the dizzy euphoric feeling clouding in your mind. So, so good.
He’s everywhere– you feel him everywhere. Your head is spinning. Osamu’s lips– coated in saliva mixing with your chapstick, pull you in even further. You don’t even know how you’re breathing, you haven’t gone for air in what feels like years.
But Osamu, selfishly, wants more. And so do you. So you don’t protest when you feel him rut his hips directly into yours– the throbbing bulge in his pants hitting that sweet spot you weren’t even aware was wanting for more. You moan feverishly against Osamu’s lips, the sound barely spilling out against him.
Osamu pulls himself off your lips, burying his face into the crook of your neck so you can feel every rugged heavy breath against your skin.
“Fuck, baby.” He’s panting, his hips grinding deeper into yours. The sweatpants he’s wearing, the jeans you have on, it’s too many layers. You’re unashamedly pawing at Osamu’s pants, begging for him to take them off so you can feel more.
“‘Samu, please,” you whine. You don’t even think of the nervous, shy, girl who walked into the apartment a few hours ago. She had been replaced with someone more desperate, unashamed in being so greedy for more.
Osamu doesn’t need to ask what you’re asking for, before shrugging off his pants and kicking them off somewhere on the floor. And in a moment, he’s unbuttoning your pants and pulling them off you like it’s burning you. Osamu’s already dark eyes– grow even darker at the sight of the wet spot growing on your panties and your sweater riding up your stomach.
“Please, please,” you cry with moans of his name in the absence of movement.
“Tell me what ya want,” Osamu pants.
“Wanna feel good.”
“Fuck,” he groans, before lowering his face to meet your stomach. He trails wet, firm kisses along your stomach, trailing down until his face is centered with your dripping cunt– clearly begging for more the way it clenches when you feel his hot breath ghosting the outside of your panties.
You absentmindedly grab at his hair, pushing him further to your aching cunt, encouraging him to continue– practically pleading the way you attempt to grind your pussy into him.
Osamu yanks off whatever panties you had on, and you swear you hear fabric ripping. But you couldn’t care less when you feel Osamu’s tongue languidly lick a stripe against your slit before beginning to circle your clit.
Your back arches off the couch and your wanton moans fill the empty air. You hope that Osamu’s didn’t have thin walls. But when Osamu suddenly slips a finger into your– it’s suddenly the least of your worries.
The combination of Osamu’s tongue suckling at your clit and his now two fingers pumping in and out of you sends you into ecstasy. Every nerve in your body was vibrating as your head clouded between the weed running through your system and Osamu buried in his pussy eating you out like his life depended on it. Fuck what you smoked, Osamu was the real drug.
There’s a moment where your nerves pinch together– and everything in your chest collects, all those funny feelings turning hot and heavy in your lower stomach, before you cum. And you cum, hard.
You grab Osamu’s hair at the roots with a moan– no, scream, almost reflective of the horror movie actress you were making fun of earlier, as you coated Osamu’s face with slick. You don’t even realize how much it was until Osamu raises his head and his mouth reflects glossily.
You’re swimming in the hazy cloud of pleasure for a while, until your breathing steadies and you’re settling into the couch with heavy pants.
“Not bad for yer first time, right?” Osamu chuckles, wiping his mouth with the back of his hand.
“What?” H-how did he know–
“Yer first time smoking?” Osamu smirks as he pulls himself up so he can sit on the couch.
“Oh, y-yeah,” you mumble, pulling your sweater down so you can cover your lower half.
You avert your gaze from Osamu, embarrassed by the lack of clothes you had on. You felt a tinge more sober now– enough to realize that it was way past the time you thought you’d stay. The movie credits weren’t even playing anymore– the TV had just gone into sleep mode. Osamu notices this too when he takes a glance out the window.
You think about what he said. Your first time was good. And maybe… Maybe you should try having more firsts.
“It’s late, ya shouldn’t be walkin’ home at this hour–” So that’s why…
“Ya wanna just crash here?”
You let Osamu take another first.
“Yeah, I’d like that.”
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