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mbrainspaz · 1 year ago

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1. Be me

2. Get cleaned up and dressed up after work to go out for once

3. Can’t get anyone to go to the gay bar with me on short notice

4. Decide to check out a local backyard brewery instead

5. Arrive in the middle of a cornhole tournament with the same demographics as Jan 6th

6. Get invited to sit next to a lady whose husband is playing cornhole

7. Sit there drinking a beer and making small talk for 30 minutes fully aware that you don’t belong but try to be chill about it

8. Go home and never leave again

#I’m never leaving my house again #I wasn’t allowed to play cornhole #things that happened #at least my dog had a good time #I’m laughing at myself #being queer in the south

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biblicallyaccuratemeat · 1 year ago

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Not me getting home from work and seeing MY PANTS WERE ON INSIDE OUT THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME!!!!

#the universe has humbled me greatly #I’m never leaving my house again

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willgrahamsipodnano · 1 year ago

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serves me right listening to my damn costar horoscope smh

#i’m never leaving my house again #i wasn’t gonna elaborate but it’s been 2.5hrs and i can’t sleep bc i keep thinking abt how shitty i feel in this friend group all bc of-#-one person who constantly talks over me and just expertly makes me feel left out #which sucks bc i like everyone else. and also seem to be the only one who doesn’t like this person #anyway i wanted this evening to be fun and i did have some fun.. but in the end felt shitty wondering if i even belonged there #whatever dom just throw it all under the bridge and move on #txt

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mochikage · 11 months ago

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your goofy fave who comes up to you when you’re out running errands or shopping with friends and says “my friend thinks you’re cute” while pointing off to the distance only for you to look where he’s pointing and see his reflection in a mirror winking at you

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doehoney · 6 months ago

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comedown blues 🎭

#whoever created hangxiety needs to go to jail #or I just need to stop acting a FOOL whenever a sip of alcohol touches my lips lmao #however I’m never leaving my house again until this weekend #me #selfie #my face

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sprite-periodt · 8 months ago

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The one day I’m not on tumblr all day and don’t have my notifs on, I not only miss @dbear2 lee mood era but also get attacked with @magicaltickles cute tease. That’s crazyyyyyyy

#ig I’m never leaving the house again /j #my lovely moots #dorkish derek #endearing em #are awesome #tickle blog #tickle fluff

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bibleofficial · 23 days ago

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ok so man that i hooked up w like 2 weeks ago that i wanted to see for like dates: cancelled. i’m bored of him 😭😭😭

#stream #ALKSALKSALKSLAKSLAKSLA #like ok #he needs to let me know like EARLIER than 30 MINUTES BEFORE to see me #& u need to not have like #an hour SHARP to leave like i need more than an hour IF IM HOSTING !!!!! like i want ATTENTION after #+ i would’ve cleaned everything like an insane person #‘like an insane person’ u mean ‘bc ur an insane person’#anyway #i haven’t showered in days bc i’ve been compulsively cleaning until im so exhausted that i just pass out #like literally everyday #but i mean there’s no reason for me to leave the house bc u gotta clean & then i can’t have anyone HERE bc i got SHIT TO CLEAN so they don’t #DIE FROM ILLNESS & DISGUST & MY DIRT (a quarter of a piece of a small leaf that was tracked in at the door)#ALSKALSKALSKLAKSLAKSLAKSL but ok what’s so fucking funny is that IF SOMEONE ELSE says like ‘i’m coming over at 5’ & it’s like ‘10a’ i will #LITERALLY get everything done so fucking quick like i will be SONIC & then im right there ready to go like :D #ALSKALSKALKSLAKSLAKSLA but if ive to do it for ME irs like wow this is agony im going to die i should kill myself bc ur such a wreck stupid #anyway maybe i should talk to the therapist abt this bc it does Not Seem to Be Healthy #so he will be like ‘we’re going for about 2 tomorrow :)’ at like 1p that day & i agree then he doesn’t message me until like 1 saying ‘i’ll #be free in an hour x’ like #like i sent questions to him like ‘so what do u think abt xyz’ would u do xyz like gaming or whatever u know then he answers them the whole #next day idk it’s like ur literally expecting me to drop everything to suck ur dick for 30 mins & that’s just #it ain’t it #like ALSKALSKLAKSALSLAKSLAKAS at this point i’m just going to block him next time he does that 😭😭😭#probably never going to see him again i’ve never seen him since the first time #literally i was like ‘hey i’ll be free …’ for like 1.5week & then just gave up on that bc he never was or wouldn’t respond until late like #girl …. this is BORING ur DULL u don’t even DO ANYTHING as far as i KNOW 😭😭😭😭 he’s always like ‘at work :)’ ‘watching tv :)’ ‘cooking :)’#that’s it #like …. ok

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flippedorbit · 24 days ago

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i’m gonna be so for real, if things don’t start changing for me in good ways i will be disappearing off the face of the earth

#Rasp Rambles #vent #my mental health is already in a shitty state and i am already considering multiple different ways to end my own fucking life #suicide mention #like i’m genuinely hanging on by the thinnest fucking thread only because i have friends that care about me. i don’t want any of them to be #sad about me dying. i’d say the same for my family but i don’t they ever have really given a shit about me so what does it matter.#i’ve been forced to be the perfect; quite child my entire fucking life and that was never good enough. i had to be kind and respectful #even though none of the adults in my family ever really were that to me. and the ones who were didn’t stay that way for long. it truly #sucks so fucking badly that i can’t get away from any of them. i don’t have a job because mental health issues; some physical health issues #and my lack of drivers license and car. i can’t financially support myself. i never get to fucking leave the house and go anywhere but the #store or my grandparent’s house with my mom and sister. i have ONE irl friend who i’m not even sure considers me a friend because #we haven’t gotten to hang out much since i graduated in 2023. i have practically no fucking support system in the physical world.#i don’t get to do fun things i enjoy that aren’t internet related besides drawing. but artblock and general depression are doing their #damn best to prevent me from even enjoying the creative process at all. one may think its difficult to feel lonely when you’re living in a #house with at least one other person but its fully fucking possible apparently. for me at least. i really wish my mom would actually get me #a therapist or psychiatrist i can see in person but we all know that’ll never fucking happen because again; she doesn’t fucking care enough #to make any actually helpful attempts to get me medicated for whatever the fucks going on in this stupid head of mine.#sorry for being incredibly fucking depressed and mad at 3am. it will happen again unfortunately for all of us.

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raeathnos · 1 month ago

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#having one of those nights where I’m so desperate to be out of here that I’m searching prices for plots or land and yurts #why do rent and house prices have to be so high 🥲#like get me the fuck out of here holy shit #I cannot believe that like just a few years ago me and my dad were fine and not I can’t fucking stand being around him #I found out recently he’s been bemoaning never getting to be a grandfather again and I’m like #gee I’m sorry that I have a major medical condition that makes me horrifically ill and all you can focus on is that it makes me infertile #news flash! even if I didn’t have this I never wanted kids anyways!!!#and I can’t get that fact through his head #despite me always very loudly voicing that I didn’t want kids from a young age he’s co Vince’s this is a recent thing #fucking wild man way to show that you never paid attention to what I’ve ever said #also shoutout to never paying attention to how fucking sick I’ve ever been either #but you know you’re the real victim in this situation #I swear to fuck I am getting closer and closer to going no contact when we finally leave #I am for sure going limited contact but like #literally doesn’t care about the suffering I’ve been through in the past 22 years #I am once again reduced to only being a fucking uterus #it’s so fun dealing with the physical pain from said problem the emotional pain of him being an asshat and the dysphoria #I think he thinks the nonbinary thing is just a phase 🫠#I am very much in fml territory tonight #wish it wasn’t a work night I need a fucking drink #I wanna fucking scream and cry and leave and just never come back

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steviescrystals · 6 months ago

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i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school #so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away #i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute #and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with #someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over #so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job #not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people #and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie #or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn)#so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired #i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family #but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying #and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home #logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do #i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out #and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years #i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year #i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out #even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times #and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable #i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something #plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later #vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space #and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year #and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends #so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything #i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything #but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know #i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to #vent

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starscelly · 1 year ago

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#ive been very lucky in that the last family member i remember passing away was when i was like 6 #like i’ve never really known any of them since #but my cat is dying from a really aggressive form of cancer #and probably only has a month at most #and now i’m having to go through this with my best friend #we got her right before christmas in 2015 #or maybe 14 #because our cat went missing and a man reached out thinking she was her #and she very clearly wasn’t #but the guy couldn’t take care of her so we took her home because we could #and she’s been my best friend basically since then #she’s always been there for me through the worst years of my life #she’s never left my side #when we took her home that first day she peed on me in the car lol #she still doesn’t like leaving the house #even though she used to beg outside of a gas station before us #and last night on the way to the hospital she peed on me again #so i guess it’s full circle in that way lol #idk what to do #we can’t see her until tomorrow #so i just have to sit here and act like my best friend isn’t dying #delete later #yap yap yapping #you don’t need to reach out or respond or anything i just. need to vent and i’ve exhausted everywhere else and i feel bad messaging friends

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planetsallalign · 2 years ago

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Something needs to give so I can buy a house.

#because I’m currently going out of my mind but there’s nothing on the market for me #unless I want to try to afford a $2800 month mortgage and never leave my house #or rent and just waste money again #idk how I’m gonna do this because it’s just me there’s no dual income that will be going into a house #and the lowest prices right now are $325K for 800sq ft #and condos are about the same price wise with $350-$500 a MONTH hoa fees

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falklore · 3 months ago

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I feel so ugly right now ✌️🤪✌️

#like literally I wan to never leave my house again #I genuinely feel like I’m some kind of a freak looking creature #everyone gets approached #not me though #never #and I even feel ashamed that I’m sharing this right now #yeah #that’s how life is going currently #and you can’t really text this to someone because it’s off putting #so I’m posting it here #kat speaks

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your-lovely-ghost · 9 months ago

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Day three of holding everyone’s laundry hostage until my father takes a shower.

The last of my father’s beloved white socks have fallen to the filth. There is little hope, and even less in terms of rest. The battle is ongoing, and it feels often that I am fighting alone. Morale is low; my ally in this conflict, mother, is injured. I long for the days when I can rest. When this war will cease, and all will be clean again. The dishes done, the people bathed, the laundry washed and folded. Alas. We know the struggle will never end.

I am Sisyphus, and my father’s horrid stench and apathy are forever my boulder.

My father is a war profiteer, and I am a hapless young recruit greeting a doomed mission.

Last shower date: December 25th, 2023

#collective tag #it spoke #i’m venting #but like… only half serious #god I am so so so so tired.#I’m so pissed man #at just. everything #this house is falling apart around me and It’s like I can’t do anything #I have begged and begged and begged this fucking man to take a goddamn shower.#I cry about this #because he just doesn’t fucking care #I CANT DO EVERYTHING!!!!!#NOT FOREVER #huge ass ants everywhere? sure. fuck it. why not #piles and piles of laundry? okay. I can do that.#not paying the mortgage until our shit gets shut down and mom and I yell at you?#cooking halfassed meals that are only barely tolerable to you and inedible to everyone else #and then complaining when we don’t eat them despite how much we’ve all told you?#and leaving the whole kitchen to rot?#PISSING YOURSELF REPEATEDLY AND NOT CHANGING YOUR PANTS BECAUSE YOU DONT FEEL LIKE IT AND NEVER SHOWERING FOR MONTHS ON END?#I’m just… words cannot describe how tired I am right now.#mom has a broken foot too so I also have to take care of her even more than normal #how did baby me handle this all the time on top of school?#‘yeah sure i can take care of two fucked up angry disabled adults on top of my crippling childhood trauma and schoolwork!’#—>#‘I swear to fucking god I will telepathically make my heart stop beating by sheer force of fucking will if I hear you call for me again’#deepest apologies to any poor soul that reads this #i really just needed to cry and scream and cry harder again until I throw up #and maybe a hug

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mutalune · 3 months ago

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on one hand I am very glad that ketamine therapy has been helpful for my severe depression and anxiety and ptsd and whatever else is going on up there, and I’m grateful that it’s available to me as part of my treatment plan

on the other hand I’m not a huge fan of the payment for that help being a 50/50 chance every time of having a bad trip that unlocks some deep scary part of my psyche and then having to address all of that in therapy until the next trip

#starlight personal #ketamine has saved my life and also scares the fuck out of me tbh #like I went into this trip being all ‘love and kindness gotta be nice to myself’ and it went ‘yes BUT -‘#and shoved me off a cliff into years and years of repressed existential anxiety and reminded me that I’ve had that since I was Very Small #bro please I just want to not off myself I don’t need to be unpacking deep childhood trauma rn I’m trying to buy a house #how am I supposed to buy a house when I now have to grapple with Deep Pain being brought to light #I was going to talk about house anxiety in therapy this week but that has now been derailed for -#I Am Terrified of the Universe and Always Have Been and Do Not Know How to Cope With This When It’s Not Repressed #and I do truly believe if it came up in treatment that it means it’s time to deal with it and learn to handle it #but like…….. I would’ve liked to be asked #not just thrown into the scariest psychedelic trip of my life and then left to pick up the pieces #anyway this is all to say that I’m once again cursing my genetics for not letting SSRIs work and leaving me with psychedelic woo-woo shit #like what do you mean I can’t take a pill and ignore some of this deeper shit what do you MEAN I have to face it #ketamine is very I Will Shine a Light on the Things You Have Hidden Whether You like It Or Not For Your Own Good #thank you I guess but right now I’m a bit grumpy about it #on the brightside I am hopefully going to be less depressed for the next two months until it wears off again so we love that!!!#hahahaaaaaaaaaa it’s fine we’ll be fine this will be good for me in the long run #what’s peace like I wonder I’ve certainly never known it

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doehoney · 1 year ago

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hungover 🫡

#live laugh lobotomy #like fr #never leaving my house again xoxox #also hi i’m bored #me #my face

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