#i’m in a really good mood today so!! thats why we’re chill

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decided for no apparent reason that i needed to draw the five natural quads. so uhm

names shown are based on the council members that appear in TBoCI :)

[popcornforone]

The Alphabet Song

A Frankie “Catfish” Morales Fan Fic

Happy Freaky Frankie Friday Peoples! Was going to post another chapter of Javi Gutierrez today (still might) but after hearing a conversation at work I decided to take that conversation & it was initially going to be a short but here we are… I hope you enjoy it. You all loved my other Frankie story.

Synopsis: Like all Toddlers they obsess over hearing the same songs over & over again, but one afternoon Frankie suggests you both write your own versions of the song that been driving you both insane.

Word Count: 2600

Warnings: DO NOT READ IF YOU ARE UNDER 18! Established relationship, Unprotected PIV sex, mentions of alcohol & drugs & missions, swearing, mention of pregnancy, irritation, but a lot of fluff & sweetness until the sex gets going.

As always that’s for the read peoples it’s always appreciated

Your little girl loves bouncing to music & giggles & laughs at it too. She has definitely got her smile & love for life from you but she got her big brown eyes & curls from her daddy. But neither of you are sure how she’s picked up the alphabet so quickly.

She’s 3 in 2 months time & yet the second you put on the alphabet song about animals & plants she babbles it back at you both. She bounces & coos & makes little animal noises especially when it gets to d is for dog. She obviously recognises dog as your Labrador & try’s to mimic him or if he’s near, hug him when it gets to that point. This song & random video is driving Frankie & you insane though. You knew this would eventually happen with a song or a film at some point, but whenever the alphabet song is over she wants it on again & again. It’s starting to make you both go a little bit crazy.

“If I have to hear Q is for Queen Bee like Beyoncé & a bad child friendly version of all the single ladies again” Frankie comments one night after you’ve put her to bed & he’s done the washing up “I might just bombard Beyoncé with that video”. “Woooo Frankie” you laugh “it’s not Beyoncé’s fault she’s mentioned in the song” you say as you go into the lounge & grab the remote for a night of netflix & actual proper tv which isn’t just kids stuff. “I know I know, but then it gets weird that song, it’s like they wanted to make it as irritating for parents as possible” Frankie brings over a bag of nuts for you both to snack on, as you try & stay awake & not fall asleep on the sofa.

“You should just be so happy she’s picking the alphabet up so quickly baby” you say as you finally find that sexy intense new short series for you to watch together. You are secretly hoping it puts you both in the mood to start trying for a sibling for your little girl. “I know my love. Our little munchkin is so clever already, she’s gonna really go places later on in life” “just as long as she doesn’t fall for a handsome pilot & all the drama that comes with them, that’s fine by me” you chuckle & turn your head as Frankie sits beside you. Those big brown eyes making you remember that you are two people in love, not just coexisting. His kiss is one of relief that he finally has some alone time with you, & the way his hand trails around your neck makes you moan. “I’m guessing we’re not even going to get to watching episode 2 tonight then frankie?” You ask as you kiss him back & remove his hat so your hands can run through his curls “well it’s Netflix & chill my love right?” He winks with his reply before his kisses turn into something more.

Two weeks later & you’ve got some friends around for a toddler play date, when Frankie arrives home early from work. You & the other mums are all moaning about that alphabet song & how it’s good for the kids but so strange. You suddenly get a message from Frankie, who has gone into the shed to repair his bike, but heard your conversation as he walked past.

*why don’t we write our own alphabet song, just for us one night?

Thats what the message reads. You smirk at it, thinking about all the nice things you could put in it that remind you of Frankie & your life before secret missions, babies & stupid songs that neither of you can get out of your head.

*let’s both write one, about what we miss. Are you up for that😉

Your reply is instantly met with Frankies own response

*Friday for the reveal?

You send 👍🏼 & you return back to your play date. Crackers are everywhere across your carpet knowing that for weeks to come you will be hoovering this up after trying to control it with 4 under the age of 5 right now.

Friday night arrives very quickly. Most of the week you’ve added stuff to your alphabet, for things you miss doing with Frankie or things you are now grateful that you have with him. The plan is to sit down tonight with a Chinese & some wine & read them to each other once the meal is over. However this is the one night your little girl decides to act up. Waking up with a nightmare, wanting daddy cuddles, wanting the alphabet song. Your romantic evening has been scuppered by one or the other of you having to go & sort something out, just at the point each time when thing start to get moving. Finally at about 11pm it’s all settled down & you both slump onto your bed exhausted & change into your jammies.

“Sorry Frankie, she knows how to pick her nights doesn’t she?” You groan as you put on of Frankies oversized T-shirts on as a night dress, which just about covers your arse. It’s dark green & has some orange writing on it that has faded. Frankie is in his bottoms, blue & white stripe clown trousers you call them because the legs are far too wide. “The night not a total loss baby, we can still read each other the alphabets we wrote, technically reading in bed is good for you”. You laugh at this. In the 5 years you have been in a relationship with Frankie not once has he ever attempted to read in bed, in fact other than mission documents, you don’t think you’ve seen him read anything at all.

“Do we want to read them outloud or…” “yes” Frankie interrupts you straight away “rock paper scissors for who gets to pick if they go first?” You nod & you win. “I want to read mine first Frankie, mainly because if I get emotional at yours I don’t want to be a wreck reading mine” you grab your phone & scroll through your notes. “I’m glad to hear that because I was going to ask you to go first as well” he leans onto his pillow & faces you with a softening tired smile. Those curls so untamed that you just want to spend the whole night with your hands exploring every strand as he makes love to you. “Okay baby, here’s my catfish alphabet”. You sit up straight & smile as your eyes catch each other. He’s like a kid at Christmas waiting to see what Santa has brought him.

A is for Amore my true love

B is for Barcelona & our secret escape

C is for Catfish what else could I pick

D is for Drugs the ones you no longer take

E is Eternity what you promised me when we wed

F is for Father which you are to our

G is for Girl your most precious prize in our world

H is for Home which each time you leave I hope you return

I is for Ice Skating which you still can’t do

J is for Jakarta our Honeymoon

K is for Kills remember you promised no more

L is for Lost how we both felt before we met each other

M is for Mojito our favourite cocktail which we had to many of on that night

(Frankie laughs at that the memory of the night & the hang over making him smile)

N is for Notting Hill our favourite date night movie

O is for your eyes Only

(You wink at Frankie at this point & he is just beaming at delight from what he’s heard so far, his eyes welling up as you read)

P is for Pope who gave the best best man speech ever

Q is for Queen Bee because it had to be

(Frankie laughs & you try to keep going but you giggle as you deliver the r )

R is for rough how despite what you think I like I actually prefer you take me like that

S is for Standard your hat your mask but it covers your curls I adore

T is for Timing not your strongest attribute but you always get it right

U is for Unicorn which you said you would get our little girl

V is for the violets you brought me before you got on one knee

W is for Winter when it was cold while you are away

X is for eXcited “oooh no don’t interrupt me Frankie, I’m taking poetic license here” when I know your safe & coming home

Y is for You my husband my man my Frankie

Z is for zzzzz the sleep noise you make when you snore which I adore.

Your finished. You properly look at Frankie who has tears dripping down his face & before you can put your phone down on the bed side table he is hoovering over you, giving you the sweetest most loving kiss in the world. “Did that work baby?” You asks in amongst heavy breathing & feeling every nerve on your body come to life from being touched by your husband. “More than you could ever know baby”. He says in hushed tones. His right hand on your cheek stroking back your hair as his lips make contact. His left hand is squeezing another cheek, before it come back to the front to caress your thigh. You don’t even think, as you trail your own hands through his curls before going for those broad shoulders. His kisses & your words have unlocked your passion for each other as you groan beneath Frankie.

He makes quick work of his tshirt your wearing & you help him to shimmy off his Jammie trousers down the Bed, as he starts teasing your entrance waiting for the exact moment to make you feel every inch of the woman you are. “Frankie” you utter as you wrap your legs around him & he slowly goes pasts your entrance & you gasp at the felling of him filling you up. He shuts his eyes for a brief moment as he breaches your core, & a noise of lust & bliss escapes his perfect lips as he feels you. “Oooh baby, I love you” Frankie says as he opens his eyes & his hips do what they do best.

It’s slow & steady as his large hands play with your sensitive breasts. Your teasing your clit to make sure your cum in a few minutes time. As Frankie pours praise on you, you just moan his name back at him. He’s rendered you speechless with his slow, seductive thrusts inside you, every inch of him dragging you further along in both his spell over you, & approaching your climax. “Frankie” “oooh baby” & “yessss” are the only words in your vocabulary right now. Frankies panting interrupts each word he says in his breathy state as he looks down at you”yes baby just like this, you feel so good” each movement he makes he feels his own release growing. It’s not like you don’t have sex, it’s just never quite as sensual & as needy as tonight’s, as both your hands continue to explore each others bodies. A sweaty mess you might both look, but it’s one made from desire & love.

Frankie always makes sure your happy, that your moans are enough, he wants to make sure that as you reach your high you fall over the edge, that you are in a state of pure bliss, lost in your own world. He knows your body so well & knows that the slightest changes in his movement be it his hand or his penis inside you, will produce a different expression on your face. With each change he falls even more in love with you, not that he thinks that is possible. “Fuck… my love… you really as so beautiful & so good” more praises shower you as your heads meet for a kiss of devotion, as his thrusting starts to near its end. As the kiss breaks you gasp & then moan Frankies name deeply, letting yourself go & making sure you soak every inch of him that’s inside you.”I got your girl, I got…” his final praise is interrupted as he spill within your walls, coating them in his essence & he rolls his head back in pure exhaustion. Frankie knows how to make you feel good & that makes him feel good too.

Snuggles afterwards are a must, smelling Frankie & looking at those big brown eyes that come from a rouged handsome face, make you remember your voice, after only saying a handful of words in the last few minutes. Frankie kisses your nose, before he goes to get a warm cloth for you both to clean up, but you still do this while Frankie teases & strokes you. There’s a reason you married this man, no other man has ever been so attentive or enjoyed your company quite like this after sex.

“Frankie” you say once you’re happy “what’s your alphabet?” & he laughs “why are you laughing baby?” Frankie hands over his phone, “well it’s nowhere near as beautiful as yours, let’s just say that” you look at his notes intrigued & click on the morales alphabet of what we miss & what we want…

A is for Ass

B is for Boobs

C is for Catfish

D is for Drugs & Drink

E is for Energetic Sex

F is for Fingering

G is for Good little Bad Girl

H is for Humping

… it continues in this vain.

“Well I guess they are all memories of some sort” you laugh reading through the list. “P is for Penis in Pussy, well you still get that” Frankie smirks at his rude list as he watches your eyes widen. “S is for Shower Sex…” you raise an eyebrow. “It’s been a while baby” Frankie winks. “Well maybe we need to do that in the morning before our little munchkin wakes up” you hand him back his phone. “That list did work Frankie, im now remembering all the fun we have had & what’s still to come, except the drugs” you firmly state as you tenderly kiss him ready to snuggle in & fall asleep. “Oooh I could have written this list with sexy & naughty ideas about 5 times.” Frankie replies as he holds you close & strokes your hair as you nuzzle your foreheads together. “But none of them live up to the real thing, you’re just to good baby, to ever write down properly.” He sighs.

You hold each other close in silence as you both drift off to sleep, safe in a warm embrace, knowing the other will always love you no matter what. Your night sleep is only disturbed not by your girl, but by Frankie’s snores, the ones you spoke about which makes you silently smile & kiss his nose. The sleep nosies that you adore which always end with your name as the last words to part his mouth. He loves you even in his dreams.

[chenlelesdream]

— bulleted!NCT DREAM members comforting you when you’re down

Mark

ok so i feel like mark is jus they type to be good at listening to anyones problems

so he’s jus sittin there and listening to you rant or yk just be there while you let it all out

hes also jus SO HUGGABLE !1?1?1?

lets gosh he’s so cute and you jus wanna hug him becAuSe whO wouLdnT wanT thAt

so you do hug him and he juS UGH HUGS YOU

and mind you... It’s so comforting?

idk why but i feel like he’d smell rlly sweet oK moVinG oN

i feel like if you’re crying while hugging him he’d be the type to be caressing your head

“It’s ok i’m here everything’s gonna be okay”

SOMEONE TELL ME HOW TO NOT SIMP FOR MORKLEE?

imagine if he also sings “because i love you” with his guitar or humming it to make you feel better tHats SoCuTe oHmYgosh

and when you’re all better he jus suggest to cuddle cuz deep down he’s tired but he’s never too tired for you

there’s jus really chill music in the bg while you enjoy each others warmth

WHEN HE LAUGHS WHILE YOU’RE TALKING WHILE CUDDLING ITS JUS THE BEST MEDICINE I SWEAR

Renjun

i had a little help from @y0ngs95candy

can i just say i get softboyfriend!renjun vibes?

ok so i feel like renjun would be doing sum artsy stuff while chilling with you

painting together UGH OMG CUTE

but then he notices how awfully quiet you are

then he looks at you tryna figure out what’s wrong and what’s going thru ur head

then when you do look back he gives you that :] smile of his

AND YOU JUS BURST AND TELL HIM EVERYTHING THATS GOING ON

I honestly think renjun would just be the type to listen while looking down and nod

NOT LOOKING DOWN IN A BAD WAY BEFORE Y’ALL COME AT ME

like he’s probs jus intently listening to you

then after he jus scoots towards you and hugs you and tucks your hair behind your ear

and you jus sit in such comfortable silence

then he jus gets your hand and interlocks it with his and his thumb caresses the back of your hand making your heart bUrSt

then after a while you just look up at him and he just gives you his :] smile again and you just laugh

which makes him laugh so the mood just becomes even lighter

then to make you feel better he asks “Can I sing you a song?”

And you nod because you just love hearing his voice uH who doesnT?

but to your surprise he sings....

“WAE NEONUN NAREUL MANNASEO”

and you both just burst out laughing

but after that the atmosphere goes back and you both jus go back to hugging

and he hums “My Everything” by NCT U and you just sigh because it’s so calming

Jeno

Idk why but I get the vibes you guys jus walk late a night together hand in hand

so you guys were jus casually walking and your head was down the whole time

then jeno obvs notices because you’re usually talking about how your day went

so he squeezes your hand and smiles

“hey babe i know a convenience store nearby”

so he dragged you there and made you a full convenience store meal (ramen with your fave sides)

then you ate together in the tables outside

“I hope it makes you feel better” ( ◠‿◠ )

I swear his smile is so cute oHmYgOsh uR heart always jus BOOMBOOMBOOM

and there and then you just opened up

but deep down you felt better bec he made sure that you were always comfortable first

then after he jus listened and caressed your cheek and you jus closed your eyes and enjoyed his touch

after he took your hand and brought you to a mini claw machine and tried his best to win you a mini stuffed toy

Which he did and he was PROUD that jus was jus jumping around happily

then you just continued walking hand in hand and you kissed his cheek as a thank u

and his eye jus went wide while his ears turned red and he jus look at you back and forth while touching his cheek

Haechan

for this gamer!hyuck jus popped into my head

so he’s gaming and you were kinda down and unlike with the other members scenario you are clingy af with hyuck

so when you were down you decided to slip into his arms and sit on his lap

Because you jus love the comforts of his hugs especially during these times

he doesn’t push you away instead he kisses your temple and says “hey baby”

and even though he was playing his warmth and hugs jus made you feel so safe that you broke down

then he felt the tears on his shoulder and neck and his heart jus broke

he immediately paused his game and started caressing your back

you could hear the members yelling through his earphones asking why he paused but at that moment he jus cared about you

he showered you in kisses and pulled you away from his chest to wipe your tears and to tuck your hair behind your ear

then he jus connected your heads anD you couLdnT hElp bUt smiLe CUZ UGH HES AMAZING

then he asked you what was wrong and you jus told him everything

he then quit his game and carried you onto the bed and immediately cuddled you

you jus listened to him humming and you were engulfed by his warmth

and you jus fell asleep in his arms

IM SORRY THAT WAS SO CUTE UGH GDMI HAECHAN

Jaemin

i feel as though jaemin came over to grill sum bbq because he was craving it and wanted to eat it with you

so as he was cooking the meat he realized you were jus poking at your food

at first he asked if his cooking sucked you jus shook you head no

“If my baby doesn’t eat then I’m gonna be sad and we don’t want that..”

but then before he could continue he realized you were really down

so he turned off the electric grill and sat down beside you

“Why is my baby sad” he said as he cupped your face in his hands

and then the tears started to appear in your eyes

and he immediately wiped it dragging you out of the kitchen to the living room

he then went to grab a blanket from the room and put it over both your shoulders

and just let you lean your head on his shoulder

he took your hand and intertwined it with his

and you took a deep breath and jus let it all out

these were rare moments where jaemin would actually be serious and listened to you

once you finished you both jus sat there in comfortable silence

until he stood up and you gave him a look that screamed WhAt wHere Are yOu gOinG?1!1?

he jus smiled and came back with your bag full of skin care supplies wearing his bunny facewash headband

“WE’RE GONNA MAKE YOU FEEL BETTER WITH SKINCARE NIGHT”

and then you both just laughed and sat there doing each others masks and skincare

Chenle

Chenle really loves daegal so we shall include Daegal here

so you visited chenle’s apartment because you knew being around him always made you feel better

you both played with daegal until he noticed something off about you

you were’t really being obvs but he jus knows

then he jus gets up and sits beside you putting his head on your shoulder

and you both jus sat there holding daegal until he chose to run away

that’s when it was so silent and chenle jus goes fine fine if you won’t tell me that’s ok

Then he turns away fake crying and after pretending to be asleep

then you were laughing so hard until you finally decided

BOOM you open up

at that moment chenle gets up to sit on the couch and places your head on his lap while he plays with your hair while listening

and even if you’re letting everything out your heart was jus meLtiNg

then he jus listening and understood you

afterwards he jus put you on his lap your back facing him

and hugged you while placing his chin in your shoulder and started singing your fave song

you both jus sat there in his living room both wrapped around under one blanket with chenle’s voice filling the room

Then daegal felt left out and decided to run up and sit on your lap

after struggling to get up the couch

Jisung

I feel like he would’ve called you outta nowhere saying to open your door because he has something to show you

so at first when you open the door looking all down and something

i don’t think he notices

he’ll jus continue to be showing you all happy and excited

and ngl that lowkey made you feel better cuz he looks so proud and cute

so when he finishes you let him inside

and while walking in he’s like asking you all questions like

“Hey babe what did you do today..”

“Hey babe what did you eat today..”

“Hey babe....”

and after a few questions he realizes you seem really off

and he has a look of realization and jus

“Are you okay?”

and you nod yes because you didn’t want him to worry

but he’s like

“AniYa aniYa” and walks to the couch and jus signals you to go to him with his *im tryna be helpful and serious face*

and you laugh and while you walk there he welcomes you with open arms and you jus open up to him and he gave you the cutest reactions

“AH JINJA?” “Omo omo”

and those little things jus helped you feel better

afterwards you jus suggested to watch a movie together to make you feel better

then he jus tried to cheer you up by being all cute but he kept scolding himself

so you jus stood up and hugged him and gave him a peck and he jus turned red

after you jus hugged while watching the movie and him questioning everything happening on the screen

[cottage-babe]

Bolin x pro-bender!Reader

Masterlist

here... take this bolin headcannon... just take it

i feel like there’s not nearly enough bolin stuff and since i’m almost finished w LOK, i guess ill aid this deficiency :)

also, i just started Book 3, so if theres some things that aren’t right or something, ignore it 

___

Bolin HC (during Book 1/Book 2)

so you guys met at (you guessed it) a pro-bending match

you were an Earthbender for the Ba Sing Se Badgermoles, a widely known team because you guys represented such a big city and you guys were actually kinda good

the Badgermoles were constantly interviewed, put on the covers of magazines, and bombarded by fans. The people loved you and your team

and so the day came where the Badgermoles were put up against the Fire Ferrets

you had heard about this team a lot; how they lost a member of the team, then the Avatar, actual master of the elements, filled in that empty space

it honestly took you so long to process

anyways, your team didn’t get the chance to meet the Fire Ferrets before the match; you just threw on all of your gear and made your way to the play area

you saw the Ferrets and instantly saw Avatar Korra, the only girl on the team

honestly, you couldnt see her well, but she was so pretty

anyways

the battle started and the Badgermoles got the advantage pretty quick

you took out their firebender and was working on the earthbender while the rest of team handled the Avatar

the earthbender put up a huge fight, it was so impressive

he even knocked you back a zone, but you recovered and, with a streak of luck, knocked him straight out of the field

you guys won that round

the next round didn’t go so well

the fire ferrets managed to knock all three of you guys off the platform, resulting in a win and a knock out

this meant that the entire match went to the Fire Ferrets

the other members on your team were annoyed and angry, but you weren’t phased too much

after all, Ba Sing Se treated you all extremely nicely, whether you win or not

so after the game, your team found themselves walking through the Fire Ferret’s locker room so you could leave

after your team mates walked past, you stayed behind and talked to one of the Ferrets, the Earthbender

“Hey, you were really good out there.”

you took off your helmet, just like in the movies, and he swore time slowed

he just stood there, completely frozen with his mouth agape

you raised an eyebrow at his antics and it wasn’t until Avatar Korra slapped him on the back that he came back to

“You- good- were good, uh im- im Bolin.”

you just laughed at Bolin and smiled 

“My names Y/n”

you walked up close to him, noses inches apart

“And next time, we won’t lose.”

he just gulped and nodded him head

you turned and walked out, laughing quietly to yourself

the interaction boosted your mood up exponentially

anyways timeskip to when their looking for the airbenders

you were just chilling in Ba Sing Se in the upper ring

you and your team were given super nice houses since you were the city’s pride and joys

then suddenly, you see Bolin and his brother walking around calling for someone

“Bolin? is that you?”

that boy turned around so fast

he blushed so brightly when he saw you and kinda looked at his brother for help

“well, well, what are the Fire Ferrets doing in my city? you know.. i’ve been dying for a rematch!”

you were only joking of course

you knew that their team had broken up after the year you met Bolin

not that you were keeping tabs on their team

of course

“yeah not right now, we’re looking for someone” his brother said

“oh? need some help?”

it took some time to convince Mako, the brother, but eventually you annoyed him enough to let you join

you were all walking through the upper ring looking for some kid named Kai, but you weren’t really paying attention

you maybe, kinda, might only be there so you could hang out with Bolin

from what you had heard (once again, you definitely weren’t searching for info), Bolin was an outgoing, loud guy

now he was quieter than a mouse

“So, i heard you were making movers now. What, getting tired of being a Pro-Bender?”

“Huh? No. I still play! I’m just doing this until the season starts...”

you were visibly happier after hearing that

you had thought that acting was going to be his permanent thing from now on

but still one thing plagued your mind

“And whats that princess girlfriend of yours gonna think about it? Ginger, I think her name was.”

Spirits you had done wayyyy too much research on this man

to be fair, you didn’t think you’d see him ever again

he blushed and stuttered out something about how they weren’t really dating, how it was a publicity stunt, blah blah

you weren’t really paying attention because after hearing his availability, you decided that today was the day you were gonna make a move on him

if it fails, then you don’t really have much to worry about; he lives in an entirely different city and you would only have to see him once a year

but if it succeeds; ohohohoh you’d finally get to live out your crush

the pros really outweighed the cons right now

so you guys searched for Kai for a while more

you decided that you were going to make some subtle hints toward Bolin

you let your hand brush against his a couple times, but never really looked up to see his reaction

then, you guys found Kai

he was stealing some old guy’s money by... airbending? why does this day just keep getting weirder?

so you guys chase him down an the streets and eventually follow him onto a train

unfortunately, he tricks you and sends you guys all the way to the lower ring 

you used to live here when you were younger, before you became a Pro-Bender, and it wasn’t a nice place

only now, it seemed to have gotten worse

all of you tried to find a way to get on a train back to the upper ring, but none of you had your passports or any money

if only you hadn’t left your house in such a hurry

you even tried to pull the “im a Pro-Bender!” card, but it didnt work

so you guys stayed on the streets for the day

Bolin was really trying to lighten the situation up, but it wasn’t really working 

“C’mon guys! Korra will realize that we’re gone and then come rescue us! I know it!”

she did not come

eventually, they had to find a place to sleep and no where was letting the stay for free

so they found a place in an alley and slept on the floor

yup, the dirty floor

you were not used to this

you almost wanted to stay up for the whole night to avoid sleeping on the ground, but Bolin assured her that it wasn’t as bad as it seemed

it was

“mmm here! you can use my jacket.”

he took off his jacket and laied it out on the floor neatly before gesturing for you to lay there

you hesitated for a second before sitting, not really putting up much of a fight because of how tired you were

Mako was already asleep somewhere across the alley and Bolin began gathering up some papers to use as blanket

then he found a spot somewhere away from you and started to settle down

“hey Bolin? do you maybe wanna share the jacket?”

he looked up so quickly and even the soft light from the lamp post caught his blush

“uhh sure”

and so he came over and laid halfway on the jacket so that you could take up most of it

he even offered you some of his picked up trash to use as a blanket, but you grimaced at the grossness and shook your head

you turned away from him, not wanting to be too overwhelmed by his proximity, so you didn’t notice that Bolin was staring at you

before you could completely fall asleep, a cool breeze burst threw the alley way and you began to shiver

maybe you should’ve accepted his paper

“hey Y/n you awake?”

since you were currently bouncing between consciousness, you decided not to answer

you feel him scoot closer

“okay please dont be mad at me when you wake up”

then you felt his arm cover your cold skin and warm you instantly

Spirits, he should be a firebender with how warm he was

you scooted back to meet his chest and let him envelope you

you fell asleep so quick

both of you woke up to Mako above you speaking loudly

“hey lovebirds, wake up”

since you already know of the position you were in, you didn’t really jump back with the surprise that Bolin had

“S-Sorry Y/n! You just looked so cold last night that I-” 

“its fine Bolin” you smiled at him “and thank you”

spirits he was so cute

and so you guys went on with the day, thinking about stealing food, then meeting their long lost family

it was such a nice reunion

they talked a bit about their family history, but since you felt out of place, you settled for playing with the babies on the floor

you bended little toys out of rocks and watched as some tried the same

it was so cute

meanwhile, Bolin was having a little dilemma

he and Mako had just finished having a heartfelt conversation with his Grandma and now he walks out here to see you playing with little babies and laughing with them

you were just so cute

“you know she likes you too right?”

“huh?! what- staring? im not staring.”

Mako just sighed because wow his baby brother is so dumb

“just talk to her before we leave Ba Sing Se”

and so they got their passports and left to the Upper Ring

you were so excited to go back home and sleep in a real bed

but you had one more thing to do before all of that

“So uh Bolin”

“So uh Y/n”

you guys spoke at the same time

“Oh! you can go first”

once again at the same time

“listen Y/n, I think you’re really pretty and super strong, like you could beat me up if you wanted to and i think thats really cool.” *cue your confused stare* “um anyways what I meant to say was, I think I’m about to fight the queen of Ba Sing Se and if I make it out alive, do you think we could hang out? like just us two?”

you decided to ignore some parts of what he said because umm you can only handle so many things at once

you settled for kissing his cheek and confessing too

you went back home so excited

even tho your crush was about to commit treason <3

aww the two of you are so cute I can’t

[guozluvz]

The Boyz Weekend // vmin ff

! kinda nsfw / just for fun !

author - It was Bulletproof’s (their group name) rest day so they decided to chill at jimin’s condo. The group is consist of 7 members, Namjoon (leader), Seokjin (oldest-vocalist), Yoongi (main rapper), Hoseok (lead dancer), Jimin (main dancer), Taehyung (main singer), and Jungkook (lead singer). Hoseok decided to meet each other since he’s bored and he misses the members and jimin offerd his condo to stay on.

[ Saturday, 12:09 PM ]

pov : Bulletproof’s Group Chat

Joon (sexy brain) : Happy Weekend Guys! it’s our rest day today, sooo get some rest and get ready for another active week :) 

justin seagull : yeaaaahhhhhhh time for overnight gaming !!!

JDOPE : .... no

justin seagull : eh???

JDOPE : come on it’s our rest day can’t we enjoy the weekend with each other

justin seagull : no?

*Jimin joined the chat

rock bison : let’s go!! @ my place!

JDOPE : idk ‘bout u guys but im going

*Jin and Tae joined the chat

vante : I’m on my way! 

rock bison : <333

el mariajin : we are on our way 

justin seagull : “we”? who are u with???? *insert smirking emoji

Joon (sexy brain) : wdym? you’re with us and you’re sitting at the backseat tho *insert skull emoji

justin seagull : whatever just drive

rock bison : ㅋㅋㅋㅋㅋ

*time skip ...

- As expected, Taehyung was the first one to get to Jimin’s condo followed by Hoseok and minutes later Namjoon together with Jin and Jungkook arrived

*10 minutes before 1PM

- The boys were just chatting with each other and then there was a knock on the door

Jimin : finallyyy

*Jimin opened the door

Jungkook : wow, hyung we thought you weren’t coming

Yoongi : I wasn’t supposed to, but hobi forced me to 

*He said kinda annoyed

Seokjin : come in, Yoongi

- Seconds later and they began getting their seats and making their selves comfortable on the living room

Hoseok : oh Yoongi don’t tell me ur sleeping

*He said annoyed at Yoongi whos lying on the couch

Yoongi : why not?

Jungkook : well duh we’re having fun here

Yoongi : well, isn’t sleeping fun??

Namjoon : reading is fun too

Jungkook : nahhh, let’s play hyungs!!

Seokjin : wait, what was the plan exactly?

Taehyung : nothing, just meet and have fun together, thats it.

Jimin : right.

*Yoongi and Namjoon went on their phones but Namjoon is still listening to them

Jungkook : LETS! PLAY! HYUNGS! 

Hoseok : let’s play just dance!!!

Seokjin : it’s weekend and you want to make yourself tired

Hoseok : come on, its just a game

Jungkook : don’t mind him hyung (hoseok), he’s just old that’s why he doesn’t like your recommendation ㅋㅋㅋ

Seokjin : YAH you little brat ! whatever I’ll just cook 

*He went on the kitchen and started thinking what to cook for them

Hoseok : ...okay, so, just dance?

Jungkook : um actually I’m not in a mood dancing today.....

Jimin : me neither, but it’s okay hyung you can proceed  

- They discussed what to play for a long time and finally they have decided what to play. Hoseok stayed with playing Just Dance, while the maknae line started playing COD mobile as Taehyung requested, Yoongi fell asleep and Namjoon went to Jin on the kitchen

Namjoon : hey bub, how are you doing?

Seokjin : oh bub, I’m almost done here, do you need something?

Namjoon : none, I was just checking on you *smiles

Seokjin : oh okay *smiles back

*Namjoon went back on the living room

- Namjin has been dating for 5 years now, their band debuted 7 years ago and they were doing well and they confessed at each other on their group’s 2nd Year on the Kpop Industry. The other couples in the group are Vmin and Sope, Sope has been together for 5 years too. Vmin was late for a year because of Namjin’s assurance, Namjin didn’t want them (Vmin) to be official yet that time because they were too young and they thought that they may not be serious or be ready to be in a relationship. But, in good hands, they saw that Vmin really loves each other and since they were good friends since their college days

*time skip to 8:30PM. 

-The boys had finished eating and dealing with the dishes, and they rested for a while to digest what they ate. Sooner they prepared for their movie night as Hopekook’s request. As they were preparing, yoongi got 7 bottle of beers from Jimin’s fridge and Jin followed by bringing some chips as their snacks

Seokjin : oooh Jiminie, you have a lot of beers stocked huh? do you have problems and drink alone?? *He said concerned to Jimin

Jimin : ah no hyung, I just love drinking mostly on rainy days so I bought stocks in advance, you know... *He replied trying to stop Jin being concerned

Hoseok : It’s been rainy last week, so, were you drinking the whole week?

*Jimin looked at Hoseok shocked at his words, he got shocked because Taehyung doesn’t want Jimin to drink everyday because it’s not good for their health. It’s not that he’s guilty, he doesn’t want seeing his boyfriend worried to much

Jimin : WHAT?! of course not ! It’s not good to drink everyday you know..

Hoseok : ㅋㅋ chill, I know I know.. I just thought you drank the whole week because it was rainy the whole week (last week)

Jungkook : okay enough with the talking, the movie is about to start 

*Jungkook ended the topic as Yoongi gave everyone their beverages

- As time passes, they had finished the movie as they also finished drinking their beers. Hoseok started a topic that made the members stay at Jimin’s condo longer, as they were continuing Hoseok’s topic Yoongi went back to the kitchen to get more beers 

Taehyung : Hey hyung, can you get one for me too?

Yoongi : sure

Seokjin : Make sure you’ll be able to get back home, Kim Taehyung

Taehyung : I can control myself hyung 

*He said as he smiled at Jin 

Jimin : you’ll get drunk baby, don’t drive home okay? it’s not safe.. 

*He said concernedly as he whispered to Tae 

Taehyung : I’ll control myself baby, don’t think too much okay?

*He said as he kissed Jimin’s head, Jimin smiled at his boyfriend’s action

Namjoon : Get one for all of us hyung

Seokjin : what??? 

Hoseok : come on hyung, it’s weekend anyways.. let’s have fun !

Seokjin : how are yall going home?? how??

Yoongi : calm down... We’re adults now, we can control ourselves..

Seokjin : how about kook huh? how if something happens to you? JEON?? 

*He asked as he looked at kook

Yoongi : THEN BRING HIM HOME, KIM 

*Yoongi replied getting annoyed by Jin’s noise

Hoseok : GUYS ENOUGH, Yoongi stop answering that way.. Jin hyung has a point

Jungkook : But hyung you can bring me home right? 

*kook said teasingly asking Jin

Seokjin : YAH! be thankful that I care for you

Jungkook : *laughs* But no thanks, I wont drink hyung

Seokjin : well, better!

Namjoon : hey, bub, don’t think too much.. let us have fun okay? I’ll help you when they get drunk 

*He told Jin whispering

Seokjin : okay but, how? 

Namjoon : hmm? 

*He hummed confused at Jin’s response

Seokjin : you know you’re a big mess when you’re drunk, right? 

Namjoon : oh haha 

- After arguing with each other Jin, Jungkook and Jimin were the only ones that didn’t take another can and they continued the topic that Hoseok started a while ago. An hour has passed and some members are confirmed drunk, their topic has ended and they started fixing the living room.. Hoseok and Namjoon was drunk while Yoongi is used to it so he can control himself, in the other hand, Taehyung doesn’t drink that much so he was kinda lost ㅋㅋ

Seokjin : now, what did I told yall?!

Taehyung : *chuckles* it was good hyung! 

*He said while he was on the floor with his head lying on the sofa

Seokjin : now how are we gonna deal with this weirdos?!

*The rest was talking about bringing the drunk members home then it became silent ..

- The silence was suddenly cutted off by Namjoon saying random things loudly which made Jimin burst out of laughter while Yoonjin was embarrassed

Seokjin : *annoyed by the noise* OKAY WE’RE GOING HOME, well its been a day Jiminie, thanks for letting us spend the weekend at your place 

*Jin said while letting Namjoon stand

Yoongi : yeah... I wanna sleep too 

*He responded as he also picked up Hoseok

Jimin : You don’t have to thank hyung, you guys can come anytime..

Seokjin : btw before we leave, how are you gonna deal with that? 

*He asked pointing at Taehyung whos still on the floor

Jimin : *chuckles* don’t worry about it hyung, I’ll take care of him

*He replied assuring Jin

Seokjin : okay good, goodbye and goodnight Jimin..

Jimin : yeah, bye hyungs!

Yoongi : bye...

*They said goodbye as Namjoon and Hoseok was on Yoonjin’s arms while going out of Jimin’s unit, Jimin closed the door after they passed his unit

- After closing and locking the door, Jimin picked up Taehyung and put him on his bed.. He was going back to the living room to double check some things on the living room when suddenly a hand stopped him

Jimin : *looked back* yes baby ? do you need something?

Taehyung : mmm.....

*Taehyung groaned while trying to say something

Jimin : what do you need baby?

Taehyung : I need you 

*Jimin blushed at tae’s words with it’s deep voice

Jimin : T-tae?

Taehyung : hm?

Jimin : oh, you’re fully awake but you’re drunk

Taehyung : I don’t feel like sleeping now

*He replied as he sits on the bed leaning on the headboard

Jimin : then what do you wanna-

*He was cutted of by Taehyung

Taehyung : I want you, baby I need you

*Jimin went on top of him

Jimin : I need you more...... inside me

*He said teasing Tae as he smirks

- Taehyung’s face slightly turned red and they kiss lustfully, while they were kissing Jimin started unbuckling his lover’s belt and the other was hard by its action, while unbuckling Jimin felt that the other was already hard

Jimin : are you excited? 

*Jimin asked teasingly as he unbuckled himself

- Taehyung responded by continuing the kiss until they were fully naked, He was so attracted to Jimin’s sexy body that even with the other members he couldn’t control himself getting too close to him. Taehyung laid them on the bed which made him on top of Jimin then they made another passionate kiss, minutes has passed and Jimin noticed that his boyfriend was teasing him by kissing him for a long time so he teased back my moaning which made the other wanna enter him already

Taehyung : ah, wow

Jimin : you thought I can’t tease back, hm? 

*He said proudly while smirking

Taehyung : shall I?

Jimin : slowly, it might hurt

Taehyung : mm 

*He hummed as a okay then he started by entering his fingers trying not to hurt Jimin, Jimin moaned by the action and tightly scrunched the covers

- After helping Jimin get used to his fingers he positioned them and prepared for the next actions

Taehyung : I’m coming, ready?

Jimin : mm ready

*He said as he covered his face with a pillow

Taehyung : *sighed* ah, almost forgot this isn’t soundproof.. but I wanna see your pretty face, bite this instead

*Taehyung gave Jimin his hand telling him to bite it, Jimin followed

- Taehyung slowly pushed his cock trying not to hurt Jimin, His cock was too big which made Jimin moan and bite his hand hard. Taehyung groaned more because of the pain

Jimin : *moan* so big-

- After adjusting Taehyung went really hard trying to get into Jimin, they went so hard that his teeth lose grip on Taehyung’s hand and moaned so loud that they forgot about the not soundproofed walls, Jimin gripped on the other’s back while Tae was gripped on the covers that Jimin was between. Time has passed and Taehyung already went inside Jimin, He can see Taehyung’s love coming out of him and the other laid beside him

Taehyung : are you okay?

*he asked as he turned to look on Jimin and caressed its cheek

Jimin : I feel so good, with your love, its so sweet.

*he replied as he looked back and smiled, Taehyung smiled back

- Minutes has passed and Taehyung stand up to clean both of them, Jimin tried to stand but his legs were weak which made him almost fell but Taehyung catched him quickly

Taehyung : rest there baby, I’ll do it myself

- Taehyung carried Jimin and brought him to the bathroom and started cleaning them, he got pajamas for him and Jimin and laid them on the bed as they finished wearing it. They saw their cum on the bed so Taehyung wiped it out and changed the covers quickly because they’re tired

Taehyung : goodnight baby

Jimin : goodnight baby, thank you for everything

Taehyung : thank you for trusting me, i love you

Jimin : i love you so much baby

*They kissed and fell asleep

[ Sunday, 11:00PM ]

- Taehyung woke up receiving a text notification from their group chat,

“JDOPE : hey, don’t forget we have a weekend practice later!”

Taehyung : FUCK!

*Taehyung cursed in shock remembering what happened last night, Jimin woke up by Tae’s noise

Jimin : baby you scared me! what happened?!

Taehyung : sorry baby, but, we have a weekend practice

*He answered with his face still shocked

Jimin : oh shit

*He cursed as he realized his condition

Taehyung : uh.. I’ll tell them you can’t come

Jimin : wait! we can’t tell them that we did it

Taehyung : I know, let’s just say you’re sick

Jimin : how if they wont believe us 

Taehyung : let’s try first 

- He replied at the gc saying “Hyung, Jimin can’t come to our practice today”

[ group chat ]

JDOPE : why not? is he with you?

vante : because he’s sick..

*Namjin joined the chat

Joon (sexy brain) : how? did he ate something that made him sick?

vante : no, and yes i’m with him

el mariajin : what happened? should we come?

vante : he said he’s okay hyung, and i’ll take care of him

el mariajin : okay, but tell us whats his sickness at least

*Behind the phone

Taehyung : should we tell them?

Jimin : NO

Taehyung : what will i reply then?!

Jimin : um.. whatever, just tell them my legs hurts

[ group chat ]

vante : his legs hurts...

Joon (sexy brain) : .....did something happened last night?

- behind the phone vmin’s eyes widened 

Jimin : shit shit shit!

Taehyung : u-uh w-what now?!

[ group chat ] 

vante : wdym????

Joon (sexy brain) : come on don’t act like you don’t know it

el mariajin : WHAT THE HECK NAMJOON

JDOPE : WDYM SOMETHING HAPPENED

vante : NO IT’S NOT WHAT YOU THINK HYUNGS

Joon (sexy brain) : also that’s not what i meant, i mean like did Jimin fall or something?? ya’ll dirty minded

el mariajin : your words are making it look like you were asking dirty stuff

JDOPE : but even if he meant that Taehyung wont do it, right?

- vmin’s eyes widened again and looked at each other

[ behind the phone ] 

Taehyung : baby, should we just tell the truth?

Jimin : i’m scared baby, hyungs will get mad

Taehyung : i know, but it happened and you’re not even pregnant

Jimin : of course im not yet, but the day will come

Taehyung : we’ll take care of it, don’t think too much okay?

Jimin : m okay 

*Jimin cuddled to Taehyung whos nervous to tell the truth

Taehyung : i’ll tell them now..

Jimin : mm

*He hummed in response

[ group chat ]

vante : hyungs...

el mariajin : are you okay? you keep on replying late, is Jimin’s condition not good?

Joon (sexy brain) : if there’s a problem just inform us quickly, we’ll help

vante : thank you hyungs, but..

el mariajin : but what?

vante : we did it hyung

Joon (sexy brain) : WHAT?!

el mariajin : EXCUSE ME-

JDOPE : i guess i was wrong...

Joon (sexy brain) : how? when???

vante : last night

el mariajin : but you were drunk?????

vante : i was but i remember doing it

*Yoongi joined the chat

AGUST D : whats with the noise here

JDOPE : read back, honey

AGUST D : can you just tell me

vante : Jimin can’t come to our weekend practice because we did it and because of that he can’t stand straight

el mariajin : MIN YOONGI THIS IS THE LAST TIME THAT YOU’LL GIVE THE MEMBERS ANOTHER ROUND OF BEER!

AGUST D : huh? whats wrong about me giving more beers? you and Jimin did what??

JDOPE : oh honey how could you not understand

Joon (sexy brain) : they did THAT thing

AGUST D : if yall told me exactly what “THAT” thing is then i would understand

el mariajin : they had a make out last night

AGUST D : ......

JDOPE : ikr

Joon (sexy brain) : okay enough with his topic guys, we still have to practice. Taehyung you better come here to practice and talk with me

el mariajin : you mean with us

Joon (sexy brain) : gather at 12:50, on studio

vante : okay hyung

- They finished chatting and Taehyung prepared for their practice, he’s nervous to face the members but he had no choice. Jimin helped Taehyung by picking his clothes to wear

Jimin : hey, are you okay? im sorry

Taehyung : what? baby don’t be sorry, and i’m just nervous

Jimin : keep safe going there, i love you baby

Taehyung : i love you so much, bye baby

Jimin : bye!

- The members except for Jimin already gathered on the studio, Namjin went close to Taehyung as they saw him enter inside the studio. Seokjin was about to say a word but they were distracted by a voice

Jungkook : ah, hyungs! let’s warm up before the practice!

- Jungkook knew about the thing about what happened at vmin, he just didn’t replied because Jin doesn’t want him to join those kind of topics. Yes, his age is legal to know those kind of topics but Jin just wants him to be safe from his words and actions

Namjoon : mm, let’s talk after the practice

- They practiced for an hour and after that Namjoon came back to Taehyung right away, Seokjin followed as he saw him going to Tae

Taehyung : can we talk about it outside? some staffs are here

Namjoon : sure

*Namjoon agreed as Taehyung went to the door leading them out the room, as they went outside and found the spot to talk about what happened Seokjin finally spoke without distraction

Seokjin : so, back to the topic, how did you do it if you were drunk?

Taehyung : i was drunk but i also felt i wasn’t

Namjoon : why did you do it last night?

Taehyung : because.. i-i was drunk?

Seokjin : i mean like, you can do it but you should’ve used protection

Taehyung : we were already on the bed and Jimin was only on my mind that time, and i ran out of it

Seokjin : if you ran out of it then why did you do it then?!

Taehyung : i told you hyung, i was drunkkkk

Namjoon : we have to inform our manager about this before something happens next

Taehyung : yes hyung

Seokjin : but how if Jimin got pregnant?

Namjoon : people don’t get pregnant quickly, as i know it also depends on how often you do it, but don’t even think of doing a second round!

Taehyung : okaaaay

Seokjin : how long did you take doing it?

Taehyung : i don’t know, i even forgot the protection so how do you expect me knowing how long we did it?!

Seokjin : okay, but Jimin still have to do test after after a few months

Namjoon : yes, we have to be sure

*Namjoon agreed as sope went outside to find them and join their topic

Hoseok : so what have you talked about?

Namjoon : we knew everything and were telling it to the manager before it becomes worse

Yoongi : let me ask, you loss protection didn’t you?

Seokjin : exactly

Hoseok : make sure you check on Jimin’s condition everyday

Namjoon : also search for the symptoms, so that if Jimin does anything you’ll know why, but don’t worry we’ll help you 

Taehyung : thank you so much hyungs

Yoongi : if you need protections, you can count on me

Hoseok : MIN YOONGI

Seokjin : what the heck-

Namjoon : also, guide him as he walks so he can recover quickly

Taehyung : yes hyungs

*After the topic Jungkook came out of the room and went to his hyungs

Jungkook : what the hell are yall doing here?! you left me inside alone with the staffs!

Hoseok : haha did you thought we left you?

Jungkook : but you did!

Yoongi : can’t we just join their conversation outside?

*Jungkook pout and scrunched his eyebrows as he was annoyed by Yoongi which made Yoongi laugh a bit

Taehyung : i shall go back to Jimin now

Namjoon : okay, practice is even done we all can go home now

- They fixed their things and selves as they went on their homes and Taehyung went back on Jimin’s condo, while Taehyung was driving he remembered that he didn’t made breakfast and Jimin and stand well

Taehyung : OH SHIT!

- Taehyung increased his speed to check on Jimin because he’s concerned that Jimin is very hungry by now, as he reached the parking of the condo he didn’t hesitate to take the stairs to go in the room quickly, as Taehyung reached the room he opened he door with the keys and went on Jimin

Taehyung : JIMIN? BABY?

*He said as he took of his shoes and closing the door

Jimin : baby? are you okay???

Taehyung : fuck, baby i’m very sorry i forgot to make you breakfast

Jimin : its okay baby! when you went on the studio i fell asleep and i just woke up 20 minutes ago, calm down baby

Taehyung : okay i’ll make you food now

*He said as he pecked Jimin’s lips and went on the kitchen quickly to make breakfast, he cooked ham & egg bread for Jimin and give it to him right away. While Jimin was eating he asked about what happened at the studio

Jimin : baby, where’s your food?

Taehyung : we had some food on the studio so don’t worry about me baby

Jimin : okay but, speaking of the studio, what happened?

Taehyung : they asked me more about last night and i told them everything

Jimin : what did they say about it?

Taehyung : they said i should search for pregnancy symptoms and they’ll help me and i should guide you

Jimin : aw our hyungs are so sweet, i thought they’re mad

Taehyung : i mean, they were shock but still helped. Oh, and yeah, Namjoon hyung said we have to inform the manager soon before something happens more

Jimin : sure baby

- At Monday, vmin with Namjoon finally informed the manager about what happened to them last Saturday, They were so nervous but it faded when the manager said that they’re happy for vmin and they’ll support them whatever happens. Months has passed and Jimin started having symptoms

[ 7;00AM ]

- vmin was still asleep but Jimin’s sleep was distracted by having a weird feeling, as he woke up he went on the bathroom and vomited on the toilet. Taehyung felt that Jimin stood up the bed and heard vomiting sounds which made him awake

Taehyung : baby?

*He called as he went on the bathroom

Taehyung : BABY! what happened to you?!

Jimin : i don’t know i was sleeping but i had a weird feeling which made me vomit

*Jimin replied as Taehyung stood him up and wiped his mouth

- As he was wiping Jimin’s mouth he remembered the symptoms that Namjoon sent him and saw “nausea with or without vomiting”

[ Taehyung’s mind ]

: okay calm down we’re still not sure, we have to check if he’ll feel some more of the symptoms

- Days has passed and Jimin already felt a lot of the symptoms, he peed every hour/minute, he had headaches, he craves a lot and he gets tired

[ group chat ]

*Jimin isn’t in a mood to use his phone nowadays so Tae chats the members on their gc 

vante : hyungs

Joon (sexy brain) : is there a problem?

vante : no, but i think he’s pregnant

el mariajin : congrats! but have you taken a test?

vante : not yet but he had most of the symptoms

*sope joined the chat

JDOPE : wow! you should go to the doctors Taehyung-ssi!

AGUST D : is that why he isn’t online for a long time now

el mariajin : yeah we noticed it too

vante : oh, he said he isn’t in a mood to use his phone and he only wants to eat nowadays

Joon (sexy brain) : haha i see, do you want us to help you bring him to the doctor?

vante : i would love too, but i want to surprise you hyungs

el mariajin : sure! no worries

vante : thanks hyungs, should i bring him now?

AGUST D : it depends on you

JDOPE : but its better to bring him now Taehyung-ssi

el mariajin : keep safe driving there

vante : okay hyungs, thank you :)

- After chatting with the hyungs, vmin went to the hospital to check about Jimin’s condition, it was confirmed that he was 1 week pregnant, they both looked on each other’s eyes happily. They went back after having the results

[ group chat ]

vante : everyone!!!

Joon (sexy brain) : yeah??

el mariajin : what happened?

vante : it’s confirmed! he’s pregnant!!

*sope and Jungkook joined the chat

justin seagull : congrats Taehyung-ssi!

JDOPE : wow!!! congrats Taehyung-ssi!!

AGUST D : congrats, how old is he pregnant tho?

vante : 1 week!

AGUST D : wow! congrats

el mariajin : congrats Taehyung-ah!!

Joon (sexy brain) : wow, 1 week already

vante : ikr!!

justin seagull : i bet Jiminie is crying now

vante : you mean we are

el mariajin : aww we’re so happy for you both!

Joon (sexy brain) : yeah we are! 

vante : thank you so much for helping and not leaving us hyungs!

el mariajin : of course, teamwork ya know!

Joon (sexy brain) : yes, we’ll always be here to help one another because we are bulletproof

AGUST D : this is not so me but i agree, whatever happens we are just here to help and support

vante : thank you so much guys! it mean a lot to us

- After talking with the hyungs, Taehyung looked at Jimin whos just looking at him the whole time at the bed, they both were crying since they were driving back home. Taehyung caressed Jimin’s cheek and Jimin did the same, they both kissed while crying. Times has passed and they’re expecting a baby boy! They finally had the strength to share everyone about their expecting baby and the fans were happy about it which gave them more strength, the Bulletproof’s career turned out better even if the two are home but they still have the time to meet up. While the baby was growing on Jimin’s tummy they left the condo because Taehyung finally got their own home! as the baby was growing healthy and their group is becoming successful step by step, they become a strong and happy family.

- end -

[mxtantrights]

✹ 　 PART THREE (DAMSEL)

HAWKINS, INDIANA

OCTOBER 31, 1983

It's not just regular Thursday afternoon. No, this is no mere mortal Thursday. It's Halloween! One of the few times of the year where I feel a twinge of happiness. I mean, Christmas is cool and all but when will you ever hear a scream and think good things?

On halloween you will.

However-

This is halloween in Hawkins. It's never been done before and I have to set the bar. Well at least for myself. I wanna dress up for tonight and scare some kids. As I am growing older I have grown to realize that scaring the shit out of little kids can be funny on the one day that it's mandated.

"Jessie!" The teacher calls out.

I'm a bit startled but I remain still, and just glance her way. "Sorry."

"Jessie would you mind telling the class what has your attention besides the trail of tears?"

Yes. I really would mind. I really really would mind. I am so not into being called out. What kind of shit is that? So I'm dozing off in class, it's U.S. history, it's not being told correctly anyways. But I won't get mad. I don't like confrontation with- adults.

I'll just have to answer her.

"Uh.." I trail off and blow raspberries with my lips until I can think of something on the spot. "Halloween."

There are fits of chuckles in the back of the classroom. But that doesn't mean it was funny to my teacher, Ms.Sean. She dares to flash a fake smile at me and circle her desk for something. I see her reach for something- a paper, most likely. She picks up one and then walks it over to me, placing it on my desk.

"I don't think Halloween was on our latest quiz."

Uh-oh.

I look down to see the bright red F. Great. Just great. Well I can't bring this home. If my dad or my mom finds out about this they will tear my ass in two. I will not hear the end of it from them. They'll probably punish me.

I say nothing and just place the quiz under my folder.

Ms.Sean takes this as her cue to walk away.

"Maybe if she took more time studying than doing her hair she'd keep up." A scrawny voice from the back said.

The classroom erupted in 'ohs' and whispers. I turned around in my seat to look through the back to find out who said it. And sure enough, a girl with a turtle neck and the farrah fawcet hair to match is holding a particularly evil smirk.

And here we fucking go.

I wasn't gonna be mad. I really was just going to swallow any snarky comments, any comments at all. I was going to sit here like an amazing behaved teenager and take my punishment or public school call out.

But now, oh boy.

If I don't nip this in the butt now, it'll roll. Roll right into a snowball that follows me until I'm graduating senior year. Or at one of these dances, or the next class. I'm not gonna let this spiral. Dayton taught me better than that.

"I really like your costume Trina, but you might give someone a heart attack."

The class really loses it after that. Ms.Sean has to calm them down as I turn back in my seat. I don't need to see her dumb-struck face. That comment didn't rub me the right way, I've got to keep my eye on that one.

As the class chills out, I can see that Ms.Sean is trying to hide a smile on her lips. She clears her throat in another effort to hide it and it works.

"No more disruptions. Back to the lesson...."

-

I set my lunch bag down in front of Jonathan as he mumbles a quiet 'Hi'

"Hey, whats up?" I ask him

But he just shakes his head and shrugs. He bites into his sandwich.

It must be one of his moods.

For the two months and change that I've known him, Jonathan Byers has these days where he just shuts down. I don't know if anything is causing it or if it's just because he's like that. And I don't even know him well enough to pry into his business.

I just know enough to leave him alone.

"So I know you do this thing where you like to keep quiet or minimal, do you mind if I just talk a little bit?" It's very- blunt to say the least to ask him this, but he's like my only friend here. Besides Nancy but I don't talk with her much.

I watch him carefully as he nods his head.

"Okay so I was in history today and this girl made a snarky comment about my hair and my grades. And I wouldn't say anything back home, because you know back home I knew everyone and we were all on good terms. But I had to say something back." I rant a bit. Then I realize that he's actually becoming interested in what I'm talking about, so I hold off a bit.

"Well what did you say?" His mouth is still a bit full with food.

I smile and shrug, since I have brothers I'm used to the piggish behavior. "I told her that her costume might give someone a heart attack."

He goes back to nodding. Oh did he not get-

"She wasn't wearing a costume Jonathan."

He looks at me with wide eyes. And then he begins to laugh. And then I join in. Then we're both laughing. And it hits me that I don't see him laugh like this in this school. He doesn't do much here besides go to class, sulk, avert his gaze from others.

I've seen him laugh the few times I go to pick up my brother from one of the boy's houses.

I push off the thought when he holds his hand up to his chest to stop laughing.

"Ah man, what'd she say to that?"

"Nothing, Ms.Sean decided to resume class. Thankfully."

He nods, but this time he seems a little brighter. I guess thats what friends are for.

My hand digs into my lunch bag and takes out the sandwich I made myself this morning. There was no way I was letting either roof my parents make me something. They'd call a slice of cheese between two slices of bread a meal.

Dayton was the one who looked out for me in cases like this. We went to he same high school together. Sometimes he'd just pop up at my lunch table and swing his lunch over. Or he'd pack another sandwich for me.

I miss my brother.

Not surprising, but it's something.

I take another look at my friend to see if he's dozed off again, but he's not. He's looking dead ahead at something behind me. And the face he has on his face means that it can't be good. Slowly I turn in my seat to steal a glance.

It's the girl I replied to in class.

I watch her take a seat with her friends. And they are joined by Nancy. Nancy Wheeler.

I must've been staring too long because she- Nancy- looks over at me. I don't 'know what to do, to smile or to wave or to do nothing, to just turn back around. I do none and keep watching. In a few seconds the girl- my new nemesis? maybe- looks in my direction too.

And she does something alright.

She gives me the finger.

-

The doorbell rings and I run to get it.

I'm on door duty this year. Mickey is at Will's house. Him and the rest of the boys are playing D&D like usual. It feels like that's all he does nowadays. Not to take it away from him though, I'm glad he's got friends.

But with him gone so much, my parents are surely gonna be on me a bit more. Not with my grades though. I made sure to rip that up as soon as school ended and throw it away in a trashcan that wasn't mine. Kind of paranoid about it, yeah I know.

Anyways, tonights dinner was an indication of my parent's peek interest.

They asked me how I was doing, if I was making new friends, how my grades were doing. Then my mom asked about how the job was going. It wasn't really going though. Yes I went and got an application but I didn't submit it.

It's been sitting in my drawer for a few nights now.

If I take that job then I'm really not gonna have time for my music. There is no way I can get away with blasting the radio in my room and try gin to strum along to the songs after nine pm. I barely get away with it now.

And if I don't make time for my music, then I'm really just a nothing. I'm not doing too good in school because I want to make something out of myself with music. And If I don't practice that then I just won't be doing too good all around.

You know what's also not too good? Whoever's kid is at my door.

I look at the young boy who seems on the verge of crying. "Are you okay little man?"

He looks to me with those wide cartoon eyes. And it ties in with his costume, the kid from E.T. The kid's got the basket in his hands and I really do want to take a peek inside and made sure E.T. isn't actually in there.

"My alien needs candy to survive." He quips.

Laughing I grab the bucket from the table beside me and give him like five different kinds of chocolates. He deserved it.

The boy smiles, thanks me and begins running away.

I thought I was gonna scare kids this year. But my parents told me they don't want to be 'the bad house' on the block. I guess even adults deal with peer pressure and social hierarchies. What was I gonna do, disobey them?

To their face? No.

I'm already doing that with my grades.

I shut the door and head back to the dinning room. My parents are watching some old people movie on tv which leaves me all by my lonesome. Which I would like if it weren't Halloween. I thought my night would be more entertaining than this.

The phone from the kitchen starts ringing. And I'm running again.

I pick it up after the second ring. "Hello?"

"Jess? it's me."

"Dayton? isn't it like early there in Stanford?"

"Yeah-just, don't alert mom and dad alright. I didn't even mean to call-"

"Okay I won't, but why are you calling?" As soon as I ask him it's like the line foes dead. I sure thought it did because I begin beating on the receiver. "Hello?!"

"Keep your voice down alright!"

"The reason for your call brother o'mine?"

More silence from him, but I can hear him moving around. "I'm- no just forget it. I didn't mean to call."

"Well you did anyways, so that must mean something..." I trail off thinking he might just say what's on his mind but he doesn't. Which is weird since he's always talking, that's why he's going to law school. "I miss you."

He sighs on the other end.

"I miss you too dude."

"Okay, so then let's leave it at that. You miss me, that's why you called."

I can hear him a bit of movement and a short laugh. "Thanks."

"Goodnight, or early night or whatever."

"Goodnight Jessie."

[gg-astrology]

hello!!! it’s me again hehe.... i just wanted to ask do the rulers of your rising sign affect on how people see you? for example!! i have a 16° (2nd decan) scorpio rising, with my rulers on (7°) 4H pisces mars and (18°) 2H sag pluto!! and i honestly don’t think i’m intimidating (or intense?) at all!! (maybe it’s my 2nd decan scorp rising) but any thoughts on this? tysm!! 🥰🥰🥰

Hey there!! 💕💕💕 Aaah everytime I see your name I just bust the biggest uwu!! 💕💕 (all the fan-meeting content with the boys in cute head-gears are so wonderful as well, so my mood is: high) 💕💕💕 

This is so interesting?? 💕💕I took some time to think about it, and it seems to be something people come to realize, expect or become a part of ‘how’ they get to know you? 💕

Chart Rulers n (kinda) How it works with ASC (brief)  ⬇️

Your chart ruler will probably have an effect on what you know about yourself as well (since thats essentially the 1st house ruler) 💕

*ALSO whatever placement you have in your 1st house!!! Is also!!! Important!!!! This doesn’t neglect from that!!! 💕💕💕 Pls remember!! 💕💕

Anyways, it can also contextualize things because it’s supposed to lie in certain houses (like your pisces Mars in 4th, sag pluto in 2nd) – giving context clues as to ‘where’ you belong and what you’re known for/best realized in (*aspects to angles can also indicate this as well) 💕

Like imagine your ascendant going ‘hello! 💕I will be your guide for today! 💕’ and leading the gaggle of tourists to your chart ruler ( ‘and here we observe x in their natural habitat’) as a part of a ‘tour in getting to know ‘you’’ – is how I’d imagine it? 💕(as part of the ‘components’ of you) 💕

For me, how I’d observe this in in what house it lies in (the chart rulers) and what connection is it making (aspects)? 💕I kinda start to realize how people approach me, what for. What they’re relying/depending on me for, what they know me as and how I come across through that? 💕

It’s an accumulation of descriptions people give about you, that’s not necessarily what you see yourself coming from, but resonates with what they came to realize/perceive you as as well? 💕

It’s kinda like not exactly knowing why people say you’re nice or like this/that – but also having a vague idea/clue about how they could’ve picked up on that from an interaction you’ve had together. That becomes a ‘defining’ factor for them, and their impression of you sometimes? 💕

Let’s work through some examples? 

Like with me, I have a Sagittarius ascendant and a Sagittarius Jupiter (chart ruler) in 12th. It’s conjunct to my Venus (Sag) as well. 

But I zoom in on the 12th house part of it and start to realize there’s a reason people come to me for help with self-realization (self-help) stuff? 💕

That’s the influence of my 12th house where my chart ruler lies, but it also influences how got to ‘know’ me as well (or realize things about me, past my Sagittarius ascendant) 💕

Contextually – I like being alone, quiet things, one on one conversations. I like to direct my energy that way– when I’m not ‘forced’ to interact but can do so with my own time, pace, energy if I need it. When I have ‘space’. And that’s a part of the 12th house as well. 

As my chart ruler– it’s literally telling me I do better when I can have a personal channel with someone in order to connect and contribute this way? 💕 And that’s when it manifests best. 

But it’s also telling me I’m a stickass for helping people when I can’t help myself, or don’t know myself all that well yet (which leads to embarrassment later for me to go through ksjdnk) 

Whatever house your chart ruler lies in doesn’t indicate  ‘good’ or ‘bad’ — it’s just things being things, put into a context for you to see, realize and work on skdjnf

So let’s look at you. Scorpio rising with your chart ruler being in 4th and 2nd. What does the sign say about your traits? Pisces can be homebodies, can find comfort in being ‘in touch’ with themselves (but not too much because otherwise its 🤪’time to yeet’ for them) escapism when conflict arises from someone else (escalation in tension/emotions/anger) – also a sense of self-isolation for self-preservation (protecting themselves from danger)

But also a sense of acceptance in allowing others to ‘feel’ things and talk about it– listener and confidant, a safe space for people to go to if it’s not too heavy. If others can accept you, then you can accept them (*not always since you do tend to have good judgment on who deserves and doesn’t deserve your ‘acceptance’). If you vibe that they’re ‘good’ (and low-maintenance let’s be serious) and they help make you feel ‘not anxious’ around them (comfortable) – then it’s all good with you.

Comfort is a thing, y know? You want to be stress-free or comfortable in a ‘safe space’. And that space sometimes is the home or those around you, it’s the ‘i dont want to be alone’ but at the same time not wanting to push/exert yourself into a high-energy side of you. Just a comfortable– relaxed, accepted state.

On the other hand, you also have Sagittarius Pluto in 2nd. Making moves, acquiring skills and goals. Ambition and desire to accumulate and make changes (or add coins into the piggy back you call ‘self’ or ‘value’ – or ‘self-value/worth’ sometimes) An enthusiast and connoisseur ™️ for the Things in life. 

Things that would serve a purpose after they’re bought/acquired. Things that can be referred to or used repeatedly. Things that isn’t expendable or disposable after one time usage. Harder to acquire things– whether it’s objects, values, philosophical ideas (self-love, self-care) things that can make changes bigger than just what it is (an idea, a book, clothes that can be styled so many different ways and become a ‘stable’ in your closet)

So what does this all have to do with your chart ruler and ascendant? It’s how people get to know you, impressions of you (part of it, part of the components) and how they perceive you.

People take note of this ‘value/worth’ quality in you from your 2nd house Sag Pluto, they may realize that you’re more interested in what to do with it rather than the thing itself as well. They may be fascinated with how you do it, how you just gravitate or naturally look past the initial and straight into the application/execution of the idea. What knowledge you’ve accumulated, what your insights and perceptions are. What and how it changes things. 

They can also notice how you accumulate those things– keep it safe from other’s hands ( since the 2nd house is the ‘self’ and the 8th house talks about ‘others’ ) you’re not necessarily the sharing type, but more like the person who has all these things and is doing something with it and people are taking notice of it. 

If I call you possessive would that be a fair observation? Sometimes you just don’t want to share, or hold yourself back from doing so unless it’s something you unclench your fist for ( clenching your fist around the 2nd house and calling it ‘mine, my safety/security, nobody is taking it from me’) – it’s not necessarily a bad thing, in fact most people probably realize your personal space and need for security with it. But also what you’ve accumulated as part of yourself/your self-worth as well.

Another component to your ASC + Chart Ruler component is this Pisces Mars in 4th. When you’re at home – you’re different. Well, not different. But if you have a comfortable and Good home environment (people who are good for you around you) you’re much more relaxed and less tense/nervous than how you are than say – another house.

It’s like coming home to see you chilling on the couch doing your thing, watching something or drawing/writing whatever it is you do. Having a catch up on What Goeth On outside in the individual daily life and just– y know, generally keeping the tension-low in the home/personal environment.

If there IS tension, it’s like your escapism kicks in. Either your anxiety rise and you scurry to try to fix it right away (because you know it’ll be a bigger problem later and you’ll drown in self-demotivation) or you plug in the ear phones and leave to go to bed (and chill in there until it’s over). 

These becomes things that defines part of your ASC as it’s chart rulers, and outlines things that will need to be dealt with or talked about as well. Sometimes it’s just taking notice of the way people treats you, and how it progresses from first impressions -> seeing you in different environment/context (4th house especially, like when they live with you) or just the trait they came to realize about you as you ‘let them in’ sometimes. 💕

Also sometimes its just.. hmm... the houses itself, the 4th house and the 2nd house-- perhaps the themes around those houses such as family, home/domestic life, private situation or personal stories. As well as ‘how to..’ do something situation can be how/what people approach you for as well? 💕 Word of advice and comfort, or your ‘expertise’ on subjects they perceive you to have good energy in (2nd or 4th) 

 So yeah!! 💕 It’s not necessarily intimidating, since we’re not just looking at Mars and Pluto but where they are, in what signs? 💕There’s obviously more to you than just your chart ruler, but it’s a really cool thing isn’t it?? 💕💕

Anyways, I hope this kinda helps?? ;; or answer your ask?? 💕💕💕 Thank you for sending it in!!! 💕💕💕And i hope you have a good day!! 💕💕

[stan-and-the-newbie]

A kpop newbie’s reaction to BLACKPINK

Alexa: bold Alex: italic

today you are reacting to... BlackPink!

o damn, are you sure this band isn’t your favourite?

pFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFT-  ok, good one, anyway this is them :3

((she tried sending me a picture but it didn’t work))

awh come oN

~ technical difficulties, please stand by ~

dfgfd shhhHhhHhH i know wot im doin smdh. this is alreaDY GOING BADLY

...should i just google them?

its okay, i got it. this is them

o damn. they're very pretty, but that was to be expected

yep.. so what concept do you think they have? lol as if it isnt obvious

idk man three of them are giving me death glares. uhh black? and pink?

tbh,,,,,they have the girl crush concept, like, theyre all badass and stuff

oh, well that’s..  interesting

i cant believe im letting you edit this post..  anyway, opinion on them? they dont look that similar, thank god

well the red-haired one i like the most so far since she doesn't look like she wants to choke me (and not in the kinky way)

fgjgfghj yes i see

the one wearing the 2b outfit is probably your goth waifu

omf

and the pink(TM) one looks like she's the sugar mommy of the group

m o o d

i'm guessing she's the leader? it could just be the thanos throne

they dont really have a leader..  this is also them

ah, lovely, a picture where they don't look like they want to murder me

yes, finally

a bunch of talented asian cuties, wot is new

to be honesT. i'll start with the first one from the second picture

alrighty

her stage name is rose

the first two from left to right are the prettiest imo

o rlly

i'm gonna get lynched alive for saying that, aren’t i

so, opinion?

she's uhhh 23? and a singer, and she's the goofy one

well youre right about her being a singer..  shes 21, and yes, she is pretty goofy. she is fluent in english because she is australian

n i c e

this is her kickin everyone's ass 

((Then she showed me this video))

i-

skinny legend

and they said infinity war was the most ambitious crossover... asian idols wearing brazilian carnival outfits as some dude sings that song from shrek 2? sign me tf up

LMAOO gee her voice still gives me chills rose step on me

alexa that's lewd, let us move on swiftly

sorry i just like her shes also a good dancer

i'm guessing she's gonna be my favourite

o

english speaking idols get bonus points, and she seems to excel at everything else, so...

yes, she is amazing. oh, she also cried over her fish's death

;-; oof

:( bless her anyway, you have any questions?

nop, she's gucci, let us proceed

right, the next one is jisoo

she's a qt ;; she looks like a dork i want to shake her hand and give her a hug

this is her smiling

i-

see thats the heart smile

is she the radiance? because my retinas are burned

SDFGFDSADFG MOOD

literally no one is gonna get that joke

wat if they do?

then they are people of culture

opinion?

uhh, she is the soft one, and.. she's short because why not, and she's 22 and she sings ;; 

o- i mean, she isnt really tall, but she isnt that short. yes, she is a singer, the oldest, 23 y/o and she is a goofball, a derp. very entertaining tbh

she looks adorable and has a cute name and is a goofy dork god bless

all of them are good at english but her. but she Tries- and is confused.  

o o f

tis a baby

she deserves all the hugs

she isnt the best dancer, but shes a Great singer, and very stable on stage

their hair alexa their hair is so fucking aesthetic

i KnoW

i am in pain, pack your dictionary we're moving to korea

fuck yeaH the next one is lisa

abs of JUSTICE

hot diggidy she's the sass queen, and she's uh..  23, and a rapper

oh, this is also her

she is also 21, and yes, a rapper!! a very swaggy one

jackpot

but shes a whole cutie, and the youngest

awh ;;

and she gets embarrassed easily

i see, so she's the tsundere of the group

she is from thailand, and i think shes fluent in four languages, including english

nice, man

she is also an Amazing dancer

n i c e ,  m a n

shes kinda my wife but theyre all my bias so i cannot decide it is Too Hard

i only have one bias  u-u

ofc u do

remember to only have one waifu alexa, too many waifu will ruin your laifu

a baby

they’re all cuties this is fucking illegal

it  i s do you have any question about baby lalisa over there :(

so far this is a very solid kpop band

o

lots of english speakers, cute dorks and pure babies everywhere

;-; yes

it has my seal of approval

n i c e the last member is jennie

o damn. jennie? j-just jennie?

just jennie. she doesn’t need anything else

is that an ACDC shirt

apparently

why do they all look so good and fashionable, and both glamorous and cute and pure at the same time, alexa the space-time continuum shouldn't allow this

pffft opinion?

hmm.. she's both a rapper and a singer, and uhh..  she's the second sassiest, but also a goof, and she's 23. I'LL STICK WITH MY 23 also damn nice thighs

she does have amazing thighs tbh.. WAIT HOW DO YOU KNOW SHES ALSO A RAPPER AND A SINGER

well usually in smaller kpop bands one of them does the support for both singing and rap..r-right?

,,,,,,,,,now that you say it

it finally happened folks, i taught alexa something about kpop

badass

THEY'RE ALL SO PURE, FUCC

THEY ARE, they have the badass girl crush concept, BUT THEYRE ALL FUCKIN CUTIES IRL also, take this

my poor heart

jennie is so smol ;; jennie is the smolest

i'm sorry, i was distracted by the thicc

mood tbh she is also fluent in english lmao

pack your shiT ALEXA WE'RE GOING TO KOREA

y ES theyre all really cute and entertaining, they dont go over the top, but theyre still pretty funny - as funny as a girl group can be anyway

pfft i find all of them entertaining tbh. show me some songs fam 

o, alrighty. this is a dance practice, it was the first thing that was released and everyone went nuts

((Then she showed me the dance practice video))

lisa is the one with shorts, jennie has the cap, rose is the one with braids and the last one is jenniejisoo

oof, a bit too edgy for my taste, sorry. but the routine is great!

well, they were kinda made to be badass

yeah, i figured

also, a little side note

o?

their company is one of the biggest companies out there, but theyre known for their shitty management, as in, they dont really give idols many comebacks or promotions, so they dont have many songs;; even tho they debuted two years ago

well, that kinda sucks

yep..

i imagine this business is pretty finicky behind the scenes. i guess it can’t be all sugar and glitter all the time

true..  anyway, this is is one of the two songs in their debut ep lol 

((Then she showed me “Whistle”))

also, may i add, their mvs are hella aesthetic

they seem to be..  not a fan of the super edgy american-ish songs though

yeh, their second ep was better. this is from the second ep

((Then she showed me “Playing With Fire”))

pyromaniac title, piano in the first second. this one's gon' be gud

yeah, this one was definitely better - well, not objectively, just imo 

yeah then theres this beautiful beautiful song 

((Then she showed me “Stay”))

that title gives me the hibby jibbies

y e p p

nvm i saw a mcdonalds in the background and now i'm chuckling

sdfdsdfg honestly the mv is So Pretty

ALEXA I DIDN'T SIGN UP FOR SAD TIMES

shhh its a nice lil song just dont read the lyrics lmao

...i'm reading the lyrics now I THOUGHT THEY WERE SUPPOSED TO BE A BADASS GROUP WHAT IS THIS

the chorus is so nice tho, with the claps

it is..  well, that was mildly depressing

at the end they hold hands and laugh and jump around in a circle in the mv and its just..  i rlly like the mv and the filter is very pretty

a e s t h e t i c

anyway, back to badass

((Then she showed me “Ddu-du Ddu-du”...?))

this is their most recent release, this time with a mini album

and i see thanos’s throne is back

y eS

these sets look expensive as fucc.. is that a fennec fox?

maybe..

and the evil parrot from rio? what is this, a crossover episode?

THE MOST AMBITIOUS CROSSOVER

first we had the shrek 2 song, now this they gon' hit me with dat turu turu du alexa halp meh  

i k r wat u gon do

is that.. a sparkly tank?

y ES jennie is an icon

i feel like i've ascended

tbh all these things were so unnecessary yet they did it anyway

well i certainly don’t regret it

that breakdown at the end is kinda cheap, but i think the diamond tank made up for it

definitely

sdfvbvGJHGthere are two mvs left

oh, just.. just two?

y es

i feel bad for them ;; did u say it's been two years

yeah..

this is so r00d

yes, always feel bad for yg artists

what’s yg?

its a company - their company

ah, i see

their shitty company

oof

here's their debut song (which i dont really like but Oh Well.)

((Then she showed me “Boombaya”..? who the hell comes up with these names?))

well, in all fairness if they're one of the biggest they probably have a lot of bands to manage

not really..  they had very successful bands though, so that kinda paved the way for the ones nowadays

ALEXA THESE FUCKING LYRICS ARE KILLING ME

ASDFGBFVDS MOOD CLICK CLACK BADDABING BADDABOOM QUEEN

"i'm so hot i need a fan i don't want a boy i need a man" BISH YOU'RE A 5 FOOT 20-SOMETHING ASIAN IDOL CHILL

hjkjhghj shhHHH

this is a whole drugtrip

it iS

are those..  black leather biker pants...  mixed with blue jeans? this is some next level shit alexa i can't handle this

y ES fashion icon

why do coke when you can watch this for free and legally?

ikr theres one last mv, and its better, trust me

..alright...

theyre cute in this one

((Then she showed me “As If It’s Your Last”))

jisoo is the one with the heart magnet and i love her

awh ;; man these titles are edgier than 13 year old me

oh come on, its a love song

that dancing, it's s-so lewd  <-<;;

it iS oh, i forgot lisa's rap is in english

n o i c e i didn't know jennie had her own ice cream business

girl is going places okay but 1:36

what about it?

th-the cotton candy part

pfff

sorry i remember the first time and saw it and was like fukc thas cute

well, it was. it was pure ;;

alright, final thoughts?

well, they're a bunch of cute and talented dorks, but that ain't nothing new. either way, 10/10 for the lewd dancing and the fact that they speak english. give dem more comebacks, fam

they have lewder choreos, but thats for another day. justice4blackpinkcomeback edition

yeS, let’s make a petition

Heya peeps, it’s a boii mod Alex here. This was the first time I put together a Reaction Wednesday post, so uh.. yeah...  I think it turned out pretty good! But seriously, a lot of work goes into these, even though it may not seem like it. Anyway, I hope you enjoyed it! See you next week!

[not-so-innocent-bi-sander]

Inflated Ego and Heightened Anxiety

So… I’ve always had this headcanon that Virgil would be the tallest and skinniest. In like a kinda… accidentally frightening way? So, heres my first ever sanders fanfic!

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Virgil awoke one morning feeling strangely. This wasn’t exceptionally odd for him, he never really knew what to expect anymore. One day he was Anxiety, someone the other sides sort of feared and possibly hated. The next he was Virgil, someone who the others were now insisting was “part of the family.” But today he felt a different kind of strange, maybe it was best he go back to sleep.

Patton busied himself with breakfast while Logan drank his coffee and read his newspaper. The other two hadn’t appeared yet for the day, so they enjoyed the quiet in their own way. Suddenly, Roman appeared through the door in what felt like an explosion. 

“Good morning my compatriots! Today is already shaping up to be a spectacular one!” His voice boomed, sounding even more regal than usual. 

“Ah, it appears Thomas is having a creative streak this morning.” Logan said flatly, not looking up from his newspaper. Roman began to flex slightly, his appearance much more robust and intense than usual. It was true, the sides had found, that when Thomas was feeling particularly strongly in one way or another, it would cause an effect on them. This was mostly apparent in Roman and Patton, but Logan also felt it at times. If he had to hypothesize, it must have been because he wasn’t a feeling.

“Well that’s just great, Kiddo! You ready for some pancakes?” Patton called from the kitchen. Roman strolled past the still reading Logan and sauntered up next to Patton. Roman smiled even wider when he looked and noticed he was even taller than usual. He prided himself on being the tallest, (even though he was maybe a half an inch taller than Logan) as he stood approximately two inches taller than Patton on a regular day.

A slight chill filled the air which caused everyone to look toward the stairs, Virgil kept his room cooler than the rest of house so they realized he must be coming down for breakfast. Things had definitely been better since they all opened up a bit and Virgil had told the others his name, but things were definitely still a learning process for all them. He trudged down the stairs, in his signature hoodie but still wearing baggy pajama pants. 

“Good Morning Virgil!” Called the ever cheery Patton, beckoning the purple and black figure to come grab a plate. 

“Mornin’.” He replied, sleepily. It seems he had only just awoken. In his sleepy state he nearly walked directly into Roman, who seemed to be trying to get Virgil to notice his enhanced state. 

“Whoa whoa there, Sleeping in with Sirens.” Roman held a hand out and gently held Virgil by the shoulder, causing him to look up. A small “whoa” escaped Virgil’s lips before he had the chance to stop it. “Haha! Notice anything different about me?” He bellowed, flexing once more at the groggy figure before him. 

“Hm… Your steroid use is finally catching up with you?” He smirked. Logan hid a small chuckle behind a cough as he entered in behind Virgil. 

“Virgil, are you aware of the physical changes that seem to occur when Thomas is utilizing one of our core functions? This is Roman’s usual change. He seems to get… larger?” Logan explained, pausing slightly on what word to use. Virgil’s eyes widened slightly, but he ducked his head a bit hiding his look of surprise and realization.

 “Hey it makes sense, they don’t call it an “inflated ego” for nothing.” He joked once more, to the continued dismay of Roman.

“Oh oh! When Thomas is feeling really happy I start to glow light green! And other emotions are other colors!” Patton happily chimed in. 

“Thats cool, Pat.” Virgil calmly stated as he walked to the table with his plate. They all made their way to the table, Roman still pouting slightly. 

“Yes, its quite a sight to be honest. And I.. well I can internally feel a spurt of intellectual growth, but it doesn’t seem to be as physical with me. Seeing as I am not a “feeling” like these two.. I suppose that makes sense.” Logan explained. Virgil nodded. 

“What about you Virgil? Have you ever felt anything like that?” Patton asked happily while Roman and Logan exchanged concerned glances. 

“Well.. Uh… I… Nevermind.” He seemed to slink even deeper into his hoodie. He quickly finished his breakfast and after dropping his plate into the sink, he immediately sunk through the floor and back to his room.

After a brief discussion, they decided it best to leave Virgil alone for a while. Roman slowly came back down to size, Thomas apparently ending his creative streak to go hang out with some friends. It was getting closer to dinner time when they noticed Thomas seemed to be in a bad mood. It seemed that he and his friends had done a bit of brainstorming together and they were having some creative differences. Patton suddenly had a tinge of red surrounding him and they realized something was up. As he drove home the red seemed to turn to a sad blue before suddenly Patton stopped glowing entirely.

 “Uh oh…” he suddenly started, startling Logan and Roman. 

“What wrong, padre?” Roman asked, concerned.

“Thomas’s mood… is… not in my territory any more.” He said, concerned. In unison they all looked to Virgil’s spot on the stairs. They all popped up and rushed up to Virgil’s bedroom door. Knocking tentatively, Patton called “Hey Kiddo? You alright in there? Wanna.. come out?” He tried to keep the fear from his voice. 

“N-“ they heard before the deep rumbling voice stopped itself. The three were extra concerned now, Virgil’s voice only began to shadow itself when Thomas was in a heightened state of anxiety. 

“Virgil? Please open the door, let us help you.” Roman stated, worried. It was a few moments before a piece of paper was shoved under the door. GO AWAY, scrawled in hurried writing. 

“Virgil, please. Allow us to help. We care about you and want to help.” Logan stated, ignoring the note. They heard the door click slightly and Logan reached out for the handle. Gently turning it, he pushed it open and they saw Virgil huddled in a small ball, his back to them. It looked like he was crouched down, still trying to sink into his hoodie. 

“Virgil? Please, we are here for you.” Roman called out to him, the three of them still huddled in the hallway. 

“GO. YOU DON’T WANT TO SEE THIS.” He stated as quietly as he could. Logan suddenly understood. 

“Virgil… What happens to you when Thomas has heightened anxiety?”

Virgil rocked forward on his feet, and began to slowly stand. He was enormously tall, towering at least a foot over all of them. His limbs looked gaunt and skinny. But still, he wouldn’t face them. 

“LAST CHANCE.” 

“We’re not going anywhere.” Roman assured him. He turned to face them. His eye shadow was the deepest black they’ve ever seen, not just under his eyes but fully around them this time. His cheeks were sunken and eyes looked huge. They had a wild expression and his pupils were so large his eyes looked nearly completely black. 

“YOU WANTED TO KNOW, HERE YOU GO. NOW LEAVE! NONE OF YOU WILL WANT TO BE AROUND ME LIKE THIS!” He yelled. Patton was visibly shaken by Virgil’s appearance but the last thing he was going to do was make Virgil be alone like this.

Patton rushed forward and wrapped his arms around Virgil. His head was only up to the anxious side’s chest, but he hugged him with all he had no matter the size difference. Roman and Logan only hesitated a moment before joining Patton. 

“I’m so sorry Virgil, please don’t feel like you have to be alone. Please come out of here. Please.” Patton was nearly bawling.

 “No matter what happens, you have us Virgil. We are always here for you.” Logan said quietly. 

“Virgil… You are important to us. Let us be there for you.” Roman added. It took a while, but with their kind words and Virgil’s overall guard dropping due to confusion, they slowly helped Virgil to the common room and had him sitting on the couch with them. They gently surrounded him and made sure he was comfortable. With their kindness and support, he eventually fell asleep, all of them holding him. Over the course of his nap they slowly exchanged glances, silently agreeing to make sure he knew they would also be there for him no matter how frightening he could be at times as they watched him go back to normal. It wasn’t his fault and they understood that.

He awoke sometime later, cheeks flooding red once he realized what had happened. 

“Uh…” he alerted them to his consciousness. “Sorry…” he said, sitting up. 

“Nothing to apologize for, Virgil. You have no control over that. Just like Roman can’t control his changes in musculature.” Logan explained. Virgil continued to blush until Roman stood and broke the silence. 

“HEY! And height! Dont forget that!” 

“Uh, Roman? I’m pretty sure I win on the height thing.” Virgil pointed out with a nervous chuckle. Patton began giggling.

 “Yeah, Roman. I don’t think you can argue with that one.” Roman crossed his arms and stamped his foot. 

“Alright Hot Topic. Stand up.” Virgil laughed and indulged his request. “See! I’m still the tallest!” Roman exclaimed.

“Oh you meant tallest normally? Why didn’t you say so?” Virgil chuckled and pulled off his hood. For once, he stood up straight. With his large hoodie hiding his body, they never realized how much he slouched. Virgil raised himself up to his full height and there was no denying… Virgil was nearly two inches taller than Roman.

[cloudyyangel]

I did not stay up too late last night! Kinda. But I DID however sleep like complete and total ass.....

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa

I still managed to have a nightmare tho 😭 and then work was fine but then I found a blue jay wing feather I was gonna give my bestie and then I lost it >.< so I unfortunately cannot channel hyper puppy energy anymore. Only needy sad tired pup. (I have some days off soon) Still up for soft kisses and touches to make the stress go away. Little soft murmured thank yous and compliments that might not fully make sense to me but feel good to say.

(Putting a little warning here cause i progressively get more sad after this)

Also feel like being a bit of a little shit for some reason. Had some sassy response all typed up but can't bring myself to send it. Cant be impulsive when you can take what you say back i suppose. But you, really do spoil me you know that? I get so hyper sometimes it's hard to think. Or so anxious I can't stop thinking. So thats why being submissive sounds so good. Like maybe I can be calm. Maybe I can be safe.

I'm kind of, starved for affection and validation I'll be honest (and also touch starved of course). I dont understand why though. I have friends. Which is part of why I maybe, send an ask a day because I'm scared of getting too attached because when I like/trust someone I've become too much too quick and that wouldnt be right. I'd be treating you as a service rather than a person. And I want, and I want and i want. You remind me a lot of a friend of mine I used to have (just minus all the sarcasm, and the randomly ghosting me) and I think they knew I was too dependent on them. And they me. And they were terrible at saying when something was too much and I wanted and I wanted and I wanted. And I got so good at telling when they were overwhelmed and stopping but it wasnt right. I wasn't right.

Its not right for me to care about you when we hardly know each other. But I want to. I wanna be friends but I dont know how. And I dont understand why wanting affection or just, wanting to give it makes me so scared of hurting people. Because I thought that before I met them too. I just wanna be happy and make people happy. But I'm a person not a service too I'm just, bad at letting people close.

I have good days sometimes now. I can get excited and happy again. I think that's why this sorta, episode I just talked myself through here hurts in a specific way. But I think you said I could vent once. And as long as I'm remembering right I'm gonna try to believe you. That maybe this was okay to do. And if it wasnt then I'll do better. And I'm not gonna apologize cause apologizing for having feelings is bad. But I really really want to. Please take care of yourself okay? I'm gonna go eat some food cause I think I need it. And maybe hug my cat. But he hasnt really been in a hugging mood today so I might just lay next to him and stare at him til he bites me which is good too -puppy anon

Okay so this is really really long and I’m just going to respond to each paragraph.

I’m sorry you had a nightmare! I get really bad ones and sleep paralysis sometimes so I understand how that can be. Ah! But sometimes that’s a good thing! There’s this saying that if you lose a feather then it flies back to its original bird and grants you a wish!! It’s okay if your not happy today or hyper; being a sad and tired puppy is fine. I’ll always be up for soft kisses, telling you how good you are, and holding you close.

You can be a little shit. If you feel like being bratty and sassy then go for it. I do like to spoil people- have them open themselves up and be who they truly want to be. But I also understand that sometimes that can be detrimental to a person if they aren’t ready for it which I why I don’t try to push people- I let them take control completely despite however much control I seem to have. Being submissive is a big deal, you give up control but only if you feel safe and comfortable with that person.

I’m so sorry you feel like this- I know it can be hard to feel starved even when you have friends by you. I’m just going to say- you can message me however much you want, you can talk to me however you want whether on here or discord or wherever. Send me 50 messages a day and I’ll respond to them no problem. Send me one super long message and I’ll answer every little thing in it. Send me a novel on discord and I’ll read and review it. I don’t feel like you’re treating me as a service. I feel like you’re treating me as someone you can be open with and that’s a wonderful thing. You’re not going to be “too much too quick” no matter how you act okay? I’m really laidback and chill and flexible. I can handle a lot of different personalities and emotions. I know just saying this won’t turn off that anxiety, but you don’t have to worry about it. I know just saying “don’t worry” rarely helps so hopefully I can show you instead. A big part of me is communication so I will 100% say if I need to take a day to myself or if we need to change a subject. I’ll always let you know.

If you want to be friends then I’m over the moon excited about that. I do care about you; I care about how your day went and if you drank enough and how you’re feeling. We can be friends by just talking, asking questions and learning about each other or just say right now “hey we’re friends”. I can’t speak for others, but me personally- you are not hurting me. I give everything I have because I am able too. This person is who is I am and I will not be scared off, or overwhelmed, or ghost you. You are a person, a good person from what I can tell, and I will never want more from you than you’re able to give and the second I overstep I know you will tell me so.

You can always vent, or rant or cry or ramble. I’m not just here for the happy hyper side of you. I know you’re a person with ups and downs and I’m okay with all of that. I’m here for every side and every way. I give myself fully to people, but I don’t see it as a problem because I have so much to give, no one takes advantage of me or uses me and I never feel like that.

Cats are finicky.

[beanjuice-duh]

Oooooo for the prompt thingy, what about Johsnavi in the afterlife??

(Johsnavi 50) “I found you–in the afterlife”

“Buenodias senor, Johan!” (Good Morning mister, Johan)“Buenos…” (Good morning (informal))“Vas a camar la playa hoy? No es un buen idea” (Going to walk the beach today?Not a good a idea)“O?” (Oh?) “Y por que?” (And why not?)“El viento hoy…es muy, pero, muuuuy fuerte! Una tormenta va a visitar…no,no creo que es un buen idea, no saligas, por favor” (The winds are far toostrong. A storm is going to visit, no, I don’t think it’s a good idea, pleasedon’t go out.)“Disculpe me pero, tengo una promesa con mi…bueno, tengo una promesa, eso estodo…gracisas” (Forgive me but I promised my…well, I have a promise thatsall. Thank you).Johan waved at his beachside neighbor who was pushing a cart full of mangosdown to the town. His eyes well down to the shoreline where gulls were waitingfor Johan, yes this was paradise. Pearly sands and teal waters so clear thatJohan could have used it as a mirror. He walked down from his small, onebedroom bungalow with a basket in his hand. “Morning” He smiled at the gullsand sat down on the sand. He dug his toes into the grains and relaxed as hestarted to pick pieces of bread and feed the seagulls. “He said a storm iscoming, is that right?” He spoke softly to the white feathered birds thatpecked bread delicately out of his hand.

Itwas so nice out…how could there ever be a storm. The wind picked up a bit; itruffled Johan’s hair a bit as he stared off into the sea with a melancholiclook. It was a beautiful sight though he felt like he was only experiencing iton the surface. The scenery didn’t amaze him. It didn’t touch him like it wouldhave years ago. This place did little to fill the ebbing ache in his chest. “Youwould have loved it here…I wonder if you have a view like this…in theafterlife.” He breathed, a gust of wind lifted some loose grains of sand andforced Johan to cover his eyes so he wouldn’t get any in them. The wind pickedup and whipped around hard, when it died down he was surprised to find that thesky had darkened so fast. The clouds were gathering as far as the horizon,shrouding the midday sun. Even the gulls who enjoyed the free meal where gone,without a trace. “Tch…its true…beautiful things don’t last forever…” Johansimply closed his eyes and sank down on the sand. It was cold now. The sand, the atmosphere, it matched hismood. He could smile and smile for days on end but that didn’t change the coldthat filled his every thought. Every bitter memory that felt like a fading,happy, vintage tape of a time so long ago. Like it had been a dream this wholetime, Johan often wished it was. He wished it was all one beautiful dream andthe only loss was that he couldn’t dream another dream more beautiful thanthat. His eyes fluttered close…Thunder cracked, then…nothing. “Mm..” Johan pursed his lips, his skin was suddenly ambushed by a warmth. Hefelt cold for so long on the sand now there was nothing but warmth. A goodwarmth, not hot and abrasive like most tropical days. This was a mild, butterysunshine. The kind of sunshine that melted over his skin and filled him with a tendersort warmth. Like a hug or a kiss from someone he longed. He opened his eyesand saw nothing but clear, blue eyes that stretched on forever. A perfect sunsettled right above him beaming down all its delicious rays. “How long have Ibeen out for?” He groaned shaking his fluffy hair free of sand. Slowly he gotto his feet and started to shake some more. “Keep going, mi hijo, you are covered in it.” An unfamiliar withered voicespoke from a few feet away. Johan glanced over his shoulder and found anelderly woman laying on a beach chair wearing a mumu. “Uh…this…is…uh a private beach.” Johan blinked, he never saw this woman beforeand surely she had never crashed on his part of the beach before either. The woman didn’t say much after that, she took a long sip ofher coconut drink which was infact in a coconut with a straw hanging out. “Paradiseis to be shared with all of God’s children.” “I suppose God didn’t mention property rights? My house is right…” He pointedand caught himself sounding like him. He smiled a bit, and slowly lowered hishand. “You’re right…a little company wouldn’t hurt. I’m sure you’d enjoy thisbeach more than I would.” “Oh I don’t know about that, mi hijo.” She smiled, so wide and warm it made thesun’s rays feel chilled to Johan. He couldn’t help but smile back. “Maybe allyou need a stiff drink. I know a cute little bar just around the shore. I’msure the bartender would be more than happy to give you one on the house. Heand I, we’re fairly close.” She lifted up her sunglasses and gave him a wink. “A bar…” Johan blinked, had there always been a bar before? Strange. He nevermoved far from his small beach side home but he thought he would have noticed abar. “…I don’t really have many reasons to drink…” “At least go say hello, it won’t kill you.” “…Shame.” Johan got up and sighed, he found it hard to fight the old woman’swords. He did as she instructed, he walked around the shore, following the bendaround the trees to a small opening. Right there in the middle of secludedland, like a beautiful oasis tucked within a canopy of tall palms was a small barand shack. It wasn’t crowded, only two other, older looking folk, sat at thebar. Laughing and talking in Spanish, Johan honed in a few words. “…no se …si me vas a conocer…” (I don’t know if he’ll remember me)“Y como no!? No es tu novio? El amor de tu vida?” (How could he not?! Wasn’t heyour boyfriend, the love of your life?)“El nunco hasta mi ultima palabra” (The only one until my last words…) “Entonces no te procupas. Hijo, cuando es tiempo…” (Then don’t worry, son, whenits time…) Johan approached slowly standing behind the couple at the bar. “Uh…perdon a mepero…mi espanol no es muy bueno…eh..me llamo Johan … hola.” (Uh…excuse me butmy Spanish isn’t very good…I’m Johan, hi) He hoped these were friendlytourists. The couple turned and faced him, he was met with warm smiles and agedeyes. There was a strong wave of familiarity even though he personally didn’tknow them. Something about their eyes, their noses, their smiles made him feel…wholeagain. “eee~ tan lindo!” (Ee~ so cute!) The woman squealed, she was silenced by whoJohan assumed was her husband. He held her hand and slowly stepped off his stool moving aside from the bar. “About time, when were you planning on finally grabbing a drink.” That voice. It couldn’t have been. Johan didn’t turn his face, the tears rolleddown without reason. He was terrified to see what he thought was there, what heknew couldn’t be there. However longing was far more powerful than reason, heturned his head slowly and felt a cry escape his lips. There dressed in asmooth cabana button up shirt, polishing a glass was him. Usnavi, as young andfresh as the last time Johan saw him. He glowed, he smiled, Johan felt thequestion form in his mind long before he could utter it. Fear that the onlynoise that would escape him was a sob. “Abuela said she was looking out for you…” He smiled placing the glassdown. “You could have taken your time a bit…lived a little longer but…god damn,did I miss you Johan.” Realization sank in, Johan felt a grace wash over him as he took a seat at thebar and met Usnavi’s hand. He gripped it knowing he was never going to let himago. Not for an eternity. 

[odyseass]

i’m extremely emotional.......... today was a lot for me for some reason

seeing my best friends after so long was just like,,,,,,,,,ahhhhhhh but it was also weird because now they’re dating each other after i introduced them bla bla bla which is fine! it’s just this new dynamic that they’re so comfortable in after a couple months but i’ve never seen them like that so it was...weird. or maybe just jarring.  idk but then i found out that some stuff had gone down i didn’t know about with jed telling m to back off and he can’t flirt w me and be......like that around me (god there’s no context here the three of us hung out and he was being under the radar flirty, in a way that wouldn’t matter or probs even register if we didn’t have the history that we do, but we do, so it did, and it was ..bad) and now i realise that’s why he never got back to me about coffee or said bye even because of that and it’s just...........jeeessssussssss 

it was so nice of jed to do but i’m annoyed just a little as well because i’m so aware that lovin him is a mistake!! i’ve known that for years just let me make mistakes or do that i’m conscious of it so just... god i don’t know i’m not making any sense here. its just extremely hard knowing that fuuuck, i am, in unrequited love as much as you can be in love without it being returned, and he is the exact same way about another person, and he just wants to be friends but he doesn’t necessarily treat me that way! even though that’s where he’s at, and things have happened in the past that give me hope because that history informs the present etc and its not FAIR of him to do this but obviously i’m gonna bend with it because i fuckiiiing love him lmaooo and he aint even shitttt 

like. claire said to me today her and jed spoke about it when we were at a party and they’re worried about me and that like i’m just gonna get hurt because he’s so clear on the fact that yeah he doesn’t want me back -and that’s fine, like it sucks and absolutely isn’t fine but who am i to demand someone feel the same way about me that i do them, that’s not how the world works - but if he was drunk, or in a certain mood, he’d probably fuck around with me but that’s bullshit because i deserve more than that = but my anxiety and everything nd my terrible self esteem lol it makes me feel like if i was different he’d want me he’d love me back and that’s just. i hate feeling that way about myself because i KNOW it’s wrong but the knowledge of a thing is so different to the application of that to your mindset and life. 

so he only hmu when yeah, he’s drunk or bored or sad, and that’s what he does when he messages me when he’s bored or upset and he knows i’m around, and because he looks at this as “Well poppy and i yes have had moments but we’re friends and friends talk and i know she’s there for me” BUT he’s just pretending he doesn’t know that thats kind of..shitty behaviour

 because 1: although i have always been his friend and honestly want to keep being his friend, that’s not the cap on the relationship i have with him because eeeeeeveryone knows i want more from it, and 2: he’s well aware of that and when he pulls this shit, he’s not only talking to me as a friend because there is that layer of, idk, power that’s balanced in his favour becauseeeee ahh i fuckin love him! he’s not just talking to me as a friend bc he’s fuckin, seeking validation when he does that. and i’m giving it to him even though i know i shouldn’t. 

he knows i’m trying to be chill and his friend but he also knows that’s not the only thing i think about when i hang out with him, because it’s not, and this is incredibly complicated, and he’s not a bad guy because honestly he has his own issues and i’m a confrontational person who makes people uncomfortable sometimes and i’m at fault in some ways but god. it’s been a tough week and a tough day thinking about all this stuff that makes me so sad and feel so bad about myself but also like, seeing two of the people i love the most in the world and being with them and so so so happy but god it was conflicting i just. feel so drained but also very happy i got this out and fuck journaling honestly typing is faster. if you read this sorry and also congrats for knowing all this shit about my life that makes not that much sense if you haven’t known me and my friends since 2010 lmaooooo i’m so sad. i don’t want to see him in a month. i wanna get over this i want to be in a good spot about this but i’m really really not. 

I FEEL CLEANSED goodnight

[whore---ible]

hella bored once again. jk i just really like quizzes.

1: when you have cereal, do you have more milk than cereal or more cereal than milk? 50/50 2: do you like the feeling of cold air on your cheeks on a wintery day? i hate the cold and i hate wind 3: what random objects do you use to bookmark your books? tissue hahaha 4: how do you take your coffee/tea? i like mocchacino or a latte 5: are you self-conscious of your smile? yes? 6: do you keep plants? no i’m not good for their health but i would like to 7: do you name your plants? no i just told you i’m a murderer -_- 8: what artistic medium do you use to express your feelings? i write 9: do you like singing/humming to yourself? yea 10: do you sleep on your back, side, or stomach? whatever i feel like doing 11: what’s an inner joke you have with your friends? im so white im translucent 12: what’s your favorite planet? the little prince’s planet 13: what’s something that made you smile today? my mom was being funny earlier. i rarely see her like that. 14: if you were to live with your best friend in an old flat in a big city, what would it look like? white, minimalistic but super artistic at the same time. 15: go google a weird space fact and tell us what it is! no 16: what’s your favorite pasta dish? alfredo/mushroom 17: what color do you really want to dye your hair? i like my white hair rn but i miss my pink hair 18: tell us about something dumb/funny you did that has since gone down in history between you and your friends and is always brought up. i did twerk on a car that was at a red light in the street juste beside a bar. everybody was looking at me….. i was so drunk i puked just after that lil dance. 19: do you keep a journal? what do you write/draw/ in it? i rarely write in it but i write who i had sex with and who i love and things like that so i’ll be able to stalk them when i’m older 20: what’s your favorite eye color? green 21: talk about your favorite bag, the one that’s been to hell and back with you and that you love to pieces. my little black leather backpack. 22: are you a morning person? not at all 23: what’s your favorite thing to do on lazy days where you have 0 obligations? netflix and chill 24: is there someone out there you would trust with every single one of your secrets? nop 25: what’s the weirdest place you’ve ever broken into? an “haunted” hospital 26: what are the shoes you’ve had for forever and wear with every single outfit? my high top white vans 27: what’s your favorite bubblegum flavor? mint 28: sunrise or sunset? sunset, but watching the sunrise is always funnier bc i guess im drunk with my friends somewhere cool 29: what’s something really cute that one of your friends does and is totally endearing? i dont know man. i think they are all super cute when they laugh. 30: think of it: have you ever been truly scared? yes, in bali, its too long to explain but i thought i would die or get kidnapped or whatever 31: what is your opinion of socks? do you like wearing weird socks? do you sleep with socks? do you confine yourself to white sock hell? really, just talk about socks. i dont really care. i mostly wear black socks. i would like to have some cooler socks but i cant find them anywhere. i dont know where to buy fuxking socks man. 32: tell us a story of something that happened to you after 3AM when you were with friends. im always with friends after 3AM come on 33: what’s your fave pastry? croissant 34: tell us about the stuffed animal you kept as a kid. what is it called? what does it look like? do you still keep it? dont remember 35: do you like stationary and pretty pens and so on? do you use them often? 36: which band’s sound would fit your mood right now? i’m into massive attack these days 37: do you like keeping your room messy or clean? i like it clean but im a mess 38: tell us about your pet peeves! my pets are boring af 39: what color do you wear the most? black and grey 40: think of a piece of jewelry you own: what’s it’s story? does it have any meaning to you? im slways always always wearing 4 rings. two that i bought when i was leaving for bali, one i bought in cuba i think and one i received as a gift after i had a threesome bc the girl didnt want me to forget her 41: what’s the last book you remember really, really loving? charlotte before christ 42: do you have a favorite coffee shop? describe it! cafellini, my friend owns it 43: who was the last person you gazed at the stars with? i cant remember  44: when was the last time you remember feeling completely serene and at peace with everything? dont know. its rare. 45: do you trust your instincts a lot? yasssss 46: tell us the worst pun you can think of. huh 47: what food do you think should be banned from the universe? why the fuck would i ban any food i love food 48: what was your biggest fear as a kid? is it the same today? being kidnapped. and yes it is. 49: do you like buying CDs and records? what was the last one you bought? not really. the last one was from de band “scyzzors” 50: what’s an odd thing you collect? all my bracelet from differents event i go 51: think of a person. what song do you associate with them? les sentiments humains - pierre lapointe 52: what are your favorite memes of the year so far? …. 53: have you ever watched the rocky horror picture show? heathers? beetlejuice? pulp fiction? what do you think of them? those are some cool classic movies 54: who’s the last person you saw with a true look of sadness on their face? cath 55: what’s the most dramatic thing you’ve ever done to prove a point? i kissed someone to make sure i could still be attract by men 56: what are some things you find endearing in people? big smile, kindness, honesty 57: go listen to bohemian rhapsody. how did it make you feel? did you dramatically reenact the lyrics? won’T do that 58: who’s the wine mom and who’s the vodka aunt in your group of friends? why? i think we’re all wine moms lol

59: what’s your favorite myth? that people get wild when its full moon

60: do you like poetry? what are some of your faves? yea i like contemporary poets 61: what’s the stupidest gift you’ve ever given? the stupidest one you’ve ever received? i gave nothing for my mom'd last birthday bc i was in bali... that was stupid. i received an unmbrella last christmas. i never use fucking umbrellas. 62: do you drink juice in the morning? which kind? nop. just water and coffee. 63: are you fussy about your books and music? do you keep them meticulously organized or kinda leave them be? im fussy about my book, not my music. 64: what color is the sky where you are right now? grey 65: is there anyone you haven’t seen in a long time who you’d love to hang out with? sure 66: what would your ideal flower crown look like? super simple. a crown in delicate wood with some pink and white orchids. 67: how do gloomy days where the sky is dark and the world is misty make you feel? i'm a little bit scared but i find it beautiful. 68: what’s winter like where you live? fucking cold. too much snow. 69: what are your favorite board games? i would say destiny wheel. but i prefer cards. 70: have you ever used a ouija board? yes 71: what’s your favorite kind of tea? green tea 72: are you a person who needs to note everything down or else you’ll forget it? yesss 73: what are some of your worst habits? im a mess 74: describe a good friend of yours without using their name or gendered pronouns. ughhh 75: tell us about your pets! theyre fucking cute but soooo boring. im allergic to them tho so maybe thats why i found them so boring lol. 76: is there anything you should be doing right now but aren’t? hmmmm nop 77: pink or yellow lemonade? yellow 78: are you in the minion hateclub or fanclub? h8club 79: what’s one of the cutest things someone has ever done for you? i dont know man people do cute things all the time you just have to open ur eyes 80: what color are your bedroom walls? did you choose that color? if so, why? yea three walls are white and one is black. it makes the room look bigger. 81: describe one of your friend’s eyes using the most abstract imagery you can think of. uasjdbskfd 82: are/were you good in school? yea  83: what’s some of your favorite album art?  84: are you planning on getting tattoos? which ones? nan i think i have enough for now 85: do you read comics? what are your faves? nop 86: do you like concept albums? which ones? 87: what are some movies you think everyone should watch at least once in their lives? hmmmm café de flore 88: are there any artistic movements you particularly enjoy? i dont know 89: are you close to your parents? i dont talk to my father and i have a difficult relationship w my mom 90: talk about your one of you favorite cities. i loooooove montreal, especially in the summer 91: where do you plan on traveling this year? maybe ill return to bali 92: are you a person who drowns their pasta in cheese or a person who barely sprinkles a pinch? i’m drowning in cheese 93: what’s the hairstyle you wear the most? almost my natural hair, they have waves 94: who was the last person you know to have a birthday? me 95: what are your plans for this weekend? i’ll get drunk for sure bc it’s my weekends birthday 96: do you install your computer updates really quickly or do you procrastinate on them a lot? i procrastinate, there are tooooo many 97: myer briggs type, zodiac sign, and hogwarts house? zodiac 98: when’s the last time you went hiking? did you enjoy it? this autumn, and yea it was cool 99: list some songs that resonate to your soul whenever you hear them. i have a lot of those 100: if you were presented with two buttons, one that allows you to go 5 years into the past, the other 5 years into the future, which one would you press? why? 5 years in the past so i would do things differently

[yoursalwaysfics]

ok question have you seen this "killing stalking" thing thats apparently the Hip New Problématique thing on tubmlr bc i havent actually looked at the manhwa itself (prob never will) but i took a gander at the tag and ive seen glimpses of the fandom and all i have to say is Wow but like. in a bad way. (also apparently ppl are comparing it to yoi?? idgi??)

*deep sigh* okay, so here’s the thing… (this might be a longer answer than you bargained for, but it needs to be said)

yes, I’ve seen it (I’m usually willing to give the latest bandwagon a shot just to see if it’s something I could also be into). I just finished chapter 12 today. KS is a train wreck, but not necessarily in a bad way (aside from the extremely obvious). it’s gruesome and horrifying and makes your skin crawl and your stomach turn but you can’t look away. it is definitely not for the faint of heart. that being said, it’s not bad. as a story, it’s intense and draws you in (if you can handle the heavier parts). the characters are incredibly flawed but incredibly well developed and written. the art is also very interesting (and I really like it tbh). the style is really bold and a big step away from what I usually see in manhwa.

but it absolutely is not comparable to YOI and should not be.

yoi gave us so many things that a lot of people have been frothing at the mouth for, namely beautiful animation, music, and a healthy, open, unfetishized same-sex relationship. 

a lot of people looking for the next big thing to ship (looking at all the fujoshi out there) jumped over to KS for the wrong reasons. the main characters in KS (Yoonbum and Sangwoo) should not be shipped. the comic makes no excuses or tries to cover up the fact that their relationship (and I use that term very loosely here) is incredibly unhealthy and abusive and manipulative. it is not a romance. it’s not even tagged as one. it is an unapologetic psychological horror. there is literally no redemption story here. if there is any justice, it will end badly with one or both of them either dead or in jail.

that’s mostly what I wanted to say about it, but I’m going to add one more little bit about mental illness depicted in KS, and this can totally be skipped over because it’s just my observation and personal opinion on the subject (this is mostly just if any of you have read or decide to check out KS, because I see a lot of people questioning and confused by some behavior that, to me, is very understandable, so it’s just a bit of perspective):

in chapter 1, we find out that Yoonbum has bpd (borderline personality disorder). this is a disorder that I also have. I knew the basics of KS going into it and was immediately put off because bpd is often portrayed horribly and all I could think was “fuck, yet another perpetuation that we’re crazy and/or dangerous” and I really considered quitting the series right then and there. but I continued on (mostly out of spite) because I wanted to make an argument that this was not how bpd actually is. 

I wanted to be angry at it, I wanted to hate it, but as I kept reading it…I couldn’t. because as horrible as it is, it’s really spot on. it’s an excellent depiction of the darker side of mental illness that lately we try not to talk about by basically saying “not all mentally ill” when the fact is…yeah, absolutely not all, not even most, but some. Yoonbum and Sangwoo are what can happen when two very disturbed and damaged people come together and have their personalities play off of each other with terrible consequences for literally everyone involved. it’s rare, but it can and does happen. there’s plenty of recorded history of it involving serial killers.

and about Yoonbum’s bpd: again, I wanted to be mad about how it was portrayed, but I just couldn’t. for those not familiar, bpd basically boils down to a mood disorder that results in unstable moods, behaviors, and relationships. it usually comes with an intense fear of rejection and abandonment (real or perceived) in addition to the mood swings. there’s also often a big problem with either idolizing someone or completely devaluing them (and sometimes swinging between the two with the same person). there’s a lot more to it (and if you’re interested, you can read a little more about the basics here) but with Yoonbum, when it comes down to it, as much as I wanted to say “that’s not how it is”…I can’t. the author obviously either has/knows someone with/or did a lot of research on bpd, because if I’m being completely honest with myself, if I didn’t have a partner who was as aware and supportive and understanding as I do, I could easily see myself ending up in a situation similar to Yoonbum (hopefully minus the murder).

bpd can wreak havoc on your personal relationships. I have very few people who I can call my friends because most people can’t deal with my instability (and I don’t blame them at all, it’s a lot to ask someone to accept). a lot of my familial relationships are shallow and strained because people just don’t understand why I act the way I do, despite my best efforts to be “normal”. you feel worthless and will look for anyone to validate you and give you some sort of purpose (I know from personal experiences, most of which were very bad and did much more harm than good). so I really lucked out to end up with someone chill enough to not only help ground me but also someone who pushes me to find purpose in myself instead of in him/other people.

it’s very easy for me to relate to and understand Yoonbum because I could have very easily been him. he’s not innocent in this. he’s not 100% a victim here. very poor choices on his part put him in a situation that is now out of his control. but I will say, as someone who struggles with and fights against similar thoughts and feelings, sometimes it is extremely difficult not to act on the sudden impulses and irrational thinking like he did. and seeing as he apparently had none of even what support I’ve been able to find, I’m not surprised at all by any of his behavior.

[survivormarmoreal]

Episode #1: “"So it's time for me to channel my inner-straight guy!" - Brian

is it time to die already? a fake tribe was taunted, the tribe is split half US half europe so that is going to be a pain, its 1:40am as i write this and in all honestly i just want to sleep and coast till merge. bet that won't be happening tho RIP me and dig me in a grave huh. Oh and I thought I knew the keaton but I didn't lol. I am MESS

It’s really good to be playing a game again. My goal for now is to try and bond with my tribe and hopefully make alliances to keep me in the game. Right now talking to Dennis. He seems really cool, wouldnt mind working with him.

So just from the start i can already tell these players I'm with are easy going for the most part... I over all really like the tribe and can see a very solid chance that I can work with a lot of them if not all! But for the sake of this confessional having value... I'd also like to add that I'm worried that due to the laid back tribe (atm) that I might have a hard time building the connections to get in an alliance without making it due to the fact making an alliance is a very bad idea early on!

Okay so let's just get some thoughts out of the way My tribe is...interesting. I LOVE BRIAN. Well actually I love his boyfriend but still a great foundation from my side to work with him because I know he is a super sweet guy. Dennis is weird. I want to work with Nicole just because I like to work with womana because it brings me closer to God. Everyone else is irrelevant. Absolem is okay. Nathan is hilarious. He better not flop because I want to be best friends. Annabelle is the love of my life. But we did just play an ORG together that got a little messy...so idk how willing to work with me she is. Jayden said things about sports so there is no chance of us being friends. And...everyone else is irrelevant. Madigan: I stan Matt. He had the best intro out of all of us. He's a nut and I love that. I thought I knew who he was...but it turns out he's a different Keaton...and now I'm confused by the popularity of that name...Anyways, BC be still my fucking heart in an ANGEL and I want to be friends. Marie is a star in my ORG community and I always stan her. So I lowkey love this tribe and I wish i was on it. Overall...I'm ready to get this game going.

Okay so i'm normally super good at Selfie Scavenger Hunts...but this one is tough. There are a lot of hard items on here. And because it's Day 1 I don't know if I can rely on anybody on my tribe to pull their weight...guess we'll find out.

Okay I jumped the gun on Dennis. He's not weird. And he seems like he'll be a good tribe member. Not too interested in working with him, but hopefully we win a bunch and that won't matter.

so the cast is cool so far from what i saw a mix of a few faces i recognize and a few i don't which is cool because i play best when i don't know anyone i think so we'll see how this goes hopefully we win immunity and there's nothing to worry about!!

Okay so I really might have judged my tribe too soon. Charlie is a drunken riot. And Maynor seems really chill too. We have a good group. Now let's just hope we're good in challenges.

First impressions: jayden: bad music taste but likes tea kind of hard to talk to but i will get the best of him annabelle: league player?? we stan!! nathan: played once before him dont remember if we were allied but um likes drag race wooh ignored me to go watch it https://66.media.tumblr.com/0640fc1858852ee803cc45252f782259/tumblr_pk6xsgLbtq1szcwcho1_1280.png cole: said "omg ur the cole from skype love ur lipsyncs" they said yes. turns out thats not them. why lie??? nick: seems fun idk

I think my tribe is very cute ! I can already see that a couple of them are big suck ups but I hope I can use that to my advantage. I low key want to go to tribal council but I think the safest thing to do is try our best as a tribe for this first challenge and not seem weak! So I will try my best

So yay Selfie Scavenger Hunt. My favorite... I should be fine if I play a solid social game and dont score too low (right?) Also me and Nick same tribe we runnin this shit.

I like my tribe so far it's the most active tribe I have had by far.  The challenge is pretty good though and I hope we can win it and be safe.

So day 1.  This is... ahh... I'm so nervous for this game!  I have been looking so forward to playing this, but I just feel like it's going to be a rocky upward battle to make it deep... I'm trying to relate and talk to these people, and I feel like I can maybe do it with some of them... but I also know I'm like "WIGGG" and "TEAAA" and "SHJDGJHDGJ" all the time, and I just don't know if this is the tribe to act like that around... I also don't really have anyone to fully confide and trust in.  I do have people like Marie on the other tribe, but I just... ahh....

Ladies and gents, I want you to know that I refuse to go home pre-merge, and I will fight tooth and nail to make it to merge and then day 39... even if it requires me to grow up and act like a real human... I will do my best... I don't wanna let y'all down, but I also don't wanna let myself down.

So like after my antics last night, I feel like I am in a good shape. My intro amused many on my tribe which is good, and they all like me, which is EXTRA good! I feel like im on the cusp of something atm, but i am still wary of course. BC and James are my faves atm, with Marie and keaton also. But Marie, Keaton and john aren't really giving me anything but i am still gonna try. Im here to F****** win (or at least make jury but we shall see about that LOL)

this tribe in a nutshell me: "alright guys! super excited to play some Survivor with you all!! woohoooooo lets do this yeah!!!!!!" BC: "yeah!! I also like to do the surviving!!!" matt: "yeah LMAO" keaton: "..." marie: "..." john: "...okay but have you considered: Skyrim"

idk what's up with this tribe. am I setting my expectations too high? did I do something to piss everyone off?? I just want to play survivor but no one seems to want to engage with me.

BC's the only reason I'm sane atm. he's a sweetheart, we've had a few fun chats already and he seems like good company. we've gotten on the same page and realized that we're probably the two chattiest players on the tribe and should stick together. Matt isn't awful. he's funny, and I can just meme at him most of the time and he seems fine with that. wish I could get a little more out of him though. I'll give Marie a pass because she's been legit busy and hasn't had much of a chance to respond to stuff. from what little I've heard from her she seems nice. apparently she's new to discord survivor just like me, so I might be a little biased in wanting her around. I wanted Keaton to be great - he's a Kirby, I'm a Kirby, so we already had something working for us. but he's not giving me anything to work with. I'll bring something up to talk about and he'll shut it down almost immediately, in a way that makes me worried I'm getting on his nerves or something. idk, maybe our personalities just clash? but atm with Keaton my mood is zzzzzz and then there's John. I get the impression that John just doesn't give a shit. he spent all of the first night playing skyrim and ignoring me, and he hasn't said much of anything to me today. his intro and his rant show that he knows how survivor works, so why isn't he putting any effort into talking? idgi. :/

soooooo yeah that's this tribe. BC and I have teamed up, we've talked about roping in Matt as a third sometime soon. I wanna give Marie a chance as well, even talking to her tonight she's not that bad. but I'd probably be fine with voting out Keaton whenever, and I want John to go asap.

I was called Keaton from Facebook and mistaken for Maria on my tribe. This game is going great for me so far.

So far making bonds with Brian, Charlie, Dennis, and Sharky (Matt). I genuinely like them. No game talk just yet. But i wouldnt mind alligning with them. Havent talk to Nicole yet. So i need to start. Hopefully we are good and win this first immunity.

Okay top of Day 2. We're plunking away at this challenge. It's weird because since we all have our own lists we aren't talking very much... Charlie, Nicole, and Maynor are still yet to upload anything so I hope they get it together soon.

I feel like my tribe is being lazy rn like I did three tasks and I gave up because i only saw one other person doing shit!  and they can GOOO if they are going to be like that! OVER IT

no one pm's me first and when i pm them i have to keep the conversation going and it stops after like 5/10 minutes so um thats fun. really hoping we win immunities until a swap or sth. or maybe we intentionally matsing and then i just get rid of all the ppl who GHOST me. the only person who had a real conversation with me today was jayden and even that was super short and ended with him leaving me on read so um.. i guess im just super popular obviously. reading this back its gonna look so cringe NNN but this is how i FEEL

Ok so another update! So today I approached Bryce who seems like a amazing guy and I asked if we could work together and he said yes! So I hope this is a relationship that can last

I still feel kinda... like an outsider looking in.  It's only day 2, but I just feel like I have so much I need to change about my social game already.  I'm normally a crackhead when talking to people and can find those one or two people to be crackheads with, but I think I literally have to go through a complete change in order to succeed.  I need to be more ... adult?  If that makes sense...

So it's time for me to channel my inner-straight guy!  I need to just be cool and casual and normal and not be the uber obsessive Ariana stan I normally am or... "wig" this... I know I touched on this in my first confessional, but it's even more true now... I'm finding talking to some of these people a lot more challenging because I have to kinda flick on the normie switch.

Ahhh... this is going to be one hell of a ride…

Honestly I am REALLY happy where i sit in this game. I have a solid alliance of 3 with BC and James which is already good. I have a feeling we will end up at tribal, however I am not too worried because i feel like there will be some clear targets like Keaton or John. Marie is kind of laying in the middle but I know what a good player she can be so im keeping my eye on her.

Honestly I am REALLY happy where i sit in this game. I have a solid alliance of 3 with BC and James which is already good. I have a feeling we will end up at tribal, however I am not too worried because i feel like there will be some clear targets like Keaton or John. Marie is kind of laying in the middle but I know what a good player she can be so im keeping my eye on her.

Ooo girl. Do I have tea for you? LMFAO. I would make a video, but I have a lot to talk about, so you'll have to read for now.

where to even start? like LOL I guess I'll start with... this tribe fucking sucks. Literally can't stand it. And b4 someone says... "ew bboy it's b/c you don't have anybody you know huh??? you relying on meta!!!" no it's not because of that. well, sort of...

i play these games to meet new people so being on a tribe of new people doesn't phase me too much. it's that i don't like it when the tribe is inactive. like half of the people don't talk to me so it's kinda hard to do a cast analysis but I'll do one then get to the tea.

keaton: nothing really to say about him cuz I don't know him. I literally messaged him and it was SOOOOO hard to hold a conversation with him. then, I confused him with marie cuz he was kinda forgettable. thank you, next john: girl bye. idk if there's something wrong, but like john literally does not message me. and like i'm fine it's ok whatever, like i'm fine i'm fine I'll be fine, but still girl... seriously??? I would say "hey john! how are you doing?" and he'd be like "good." HOW THE FUCK AM I SUPPOSED TO WORK WITH THAT? LAGHALHG marie: I actually like her a lot. we get along prob cuz we're both similar - she's quirky, I'm quirky. quite the combo. we don't have any set alliance or anything, but I definitely don't want her to leave before dem inactives -.- matt: I like him... enough. he's cool and we chatted for a bit yesterday and the first day. there really isn't anything else to say but he's kinda fun??? i guess idk laghlahg but yeah there's that james: i'm prob the closest to him on the tribe. we just vibe so well together and I really do like him a lot. he's funny and chill and he was the one who initiated the alliance, to which I was like "yess girl add me in!!!" idk what else to say, because although matt/james have been more active, I jjust haven't had many convos with them individually yknow

but the little alliance we have going on is cute. <3 the name = Transcontinental Trio. It prob won't last (just being honest) but if it can get me past these few couple of rounds before the swap, I'll take it. my goal right now is to win these next few challenges and hope we don't have to go to tribal before the swap. if we do, I'd rather see john leave before keaton, because I think there's a relationship to work with keaton whereas I don't see one with john unfortunately

the tea that I have to spill is really just bitching about my tribemates I mean come the FUCK on y'all!!! wtf is the point of joining an ORG and then not talking to anybody. like does that make any fucking sense??? literally like... nnnn what is the matter with you? John infuriates me b/c like bitch if you don't have time sweetie, stick to playing Skyrim or w/e the fuck you play. my mood was when he sent us a pic of something happening in the game (idk what it was it looked dumb af) and literally NO ONE replying. like yes stick to his boring ASS!!

on top of all of that, no one (excluding my alliance) talks about anything of substance. like sure it's only been 3 days but y'all can at least find SOMETHING to talk about. i'm just so goddamn frustrated

that's it. I'm tired of bitching. i'll confessional again after results. hopefully we win or imma have to pop a bitch.

Okay we're closing in on the challenge deadline! I've gotten a ton of points. Dennis/Brian/Maynor all also posted a bunch so I'm hoping this is enough to keep us safe. Idk what Nicole is doing? But she better post something. ANYTHING really.

Where is Nicole? Like...girl, are you good? Wtf

omg so. based on nathans and nick's talking in the tribe chat they seem to know each other/mutual ppl. i will break their bond and make sure they want to work with me instead of each other. even if nathan hates pm'ing me and nick was fine to talk for a bit yesterday but today seems to hate me!

The scores are locked in. Hopefully we had enough points to keep us safe but Nicole didnt turn anything in. Hopefully nothing too bad happened. But i think if we do lose, maybe Nicole being first boot isnt too bad. Hopefully everyone thinks the same.

Okay so we demolished. Lucky for Nicole because she didn't contribute at all. And she didn't tell us she was abstaining. I'm sorry...you didn't have time to take a selfie with your cat? Bye.

MY MIND IS SO BIG AT 1:20AM. Right ok so to catch the confs up, James BC and myself have made an alliance called the transcontinental trio (An iconic name ik) so like im really happy that exists. THEN we somehow win immunity, even though Marie and John both had single digit scores LOL. like wow didn't know we could do that. then anna announces the idol system, and i fully expect too like not get far so i do it anyway. 4 mins later and i HAVE A FUCKING IMMUNITY IDOL???? LIKE BITCH WTF. I AM SO FUCKING SHOOK ITS UNREAL. I have been playing orgs for 1 1/2 years now and like I have never been able to find one! and now i do???? Jesus Christ maybe this IS my Game!

not to overreact but i want my entire tribe to go home. i had to PLUCK egg shells out of my VERY CURLY hair like i was some monkey picking ticks. i took an egg, a poor chicken would be, and used it not for nutrition. but for "fun". and its all for NOTHING. but thats ok. everyone keeps saying bc i carried i should be safe and like yes. but the REAL reason i should be safe is that its like im the only person on this tribe who wants to socialize at all!! also this idol system is so fun love choose ur own adventure type stuff. sad how i flopped first try tho.. but in 24 hours catch me with the idol! or catch me as first boot. someone just catch me im falling FAST.

This immunity is great because it gives me time to build better friendships without pressure of a vote. Charlie seems to like me, he wants to share idol guesses which is cool with me. That probably also means he'll tell me if he gets an idol which is powerful info to know. Also I won some cookies on my search. I hope they're oreos. But I'm curious as to what they'll be good for.

So....Charlie found the idol...and he told me. So guess I'm working with Charlie now. Because I want to keep tabs on this idol.

https://imgur.com/ZrG7wNV clearly doesnt realize ive never met a girl i didnt want to ally.

So we lost the challenge! Are we surprised? NOOOO AHHAHA! *sighs* anyways I think i have the numbers to get anabelle out, sorry not sorry

First tribal then Walrus is a bitch. I hate this game

i want to vote jayden out but annabelle and cole did worse in the comp so it might be hard so awk.. like nick wants annabelle out and he told cole that so its kind of over for her huh this is so sad i refuse to be on a tribe full of MEN

So far so good I really hope we can continue this momentum and I hope I can last 6 more days until the 20th of January and then I get to be two ages in one org which I have never done yet.

BC has brought me and Matt into an alliance (Transcontinental Trio!). BC is like the obvious alpha on the tribe and I’m kinda fine with that? At least I hope BC looks like a bigger threat than me, I don’t want that label lol. Matt is super charismatic, we’re finally talking regularly/about the game. He’s probably the scariest person on the tribe just because he’s so damn likable.

Keaton’s opened up a little. We bonded over thinking that we were the only ones hearing nothing from John lmao. Our first vote will probably wind up being Marie or John. I don’t want to push buttons too early, but if I get a chance at a clean shot at John I’m taking it.

So we lost the challenge which is terrible but I got the legacy advantage which is great! I’m worried ppl r voting me but that’s could be just my paranoia so ima stick to my plan of waiting for a name to be said

We won immunity and it feels great. Hopefully we could just go on an immunity run and stay safe till swap happens. I need to start making my talks with people go to game talk but maybe not as fast skmce we are safe.

edit: I really need to start watching the movies. Choose your own adventure like Idol systems always require background knowledge.

We won the first challenge and I'm so happy because I could've been voted out if we lost! This is my first Tumblr org so I'm completely lost and I accidentally told Matt that I knew Bryce from the other tribe so yay... that put a target on my back I think so hopefully we just keep on winning!

I don't have too much to update on, but I'm so glad that we aren't going to tribal because highkey I'd be in so much trouble... I've been in an emotional rut so the communication has been rough.. but we won so I have time to enjoy my tribemates in some conversations and make them love me…

Cole like what are you doing bro. Also I assume Keaton and Dennis are running shit on the other tribes.

Wow so I gotta say I am seriously impressed by this cast. I don't really know anyone and there are only 2 other people from EM... is this for real lol?? Seriously though I'm so happy to finally be playing an org with so many new people!!

Ok so first impressions of my tribe. I've already embarrassed myself by sending drunk videos to every single member of my tribe bar Nicole who wasn't online at the time.

Dennis- Easily my fav so far. I feel like we click so well and I've already talked to him way more than anyone else. Really hope I can go far with him.

Brian- Ok so I've seen this guy around on facebook and he seems funny and really nice! Our convos have been fun so hopefully we can develop a good relationship from here!

Maynor- He likes Charlie the unicorn. Therefore I like him.

Sharky- Haven't talked to him so much yet, but he seems cool and I know he was an early boot in KC.

Nicole- Haven't talked to her yet at all.

Ok so my tribe mates are KILLING this challenge! It's been difficult for me to take part cos of being up in London, but I need to add more stuff to the list lol. Otherwise we could lose, and I'll probably get blamed... eeeek.

WE WON!!! I can't believe it!! I'm so FUCKING HAPPY right now. One of our tribe mates abstained and we still won by over 200 points.. crazy shit

https://youtu.be/_LqWkiWMQw8

so we are about to go to tribal in about an hour and I think we have a plan sorted, I know nathan is saying my name and I will get votes BUT what the plan is that myself,bryce and annabelle vote jayden, jayden votes nathan and the other two will prob vote myself so we will get a 3-2-1 and jayden will go! lets hope

ok so i was out all day. and barely on. but i tried forcing jayden out bc he ignores me and i hate him. but NO. cole is cracked and when itell him to talk to nathan to secure his vote. he instead wants to vote him, then leads to jayden telling nathan that cole wants him out. so now he has no shot. bye bye cole this is sad but u so overplayed NNN glad queen annabelle is safe tho!

Cole is voted out 5-1.

[yannabooger]

what do you notice more in a song - the drums or baseline? the drums 

 favourite 80s music video?

who’s the first person your mind goes to when you hear a love song? who ever I’m fangirling over at the moment lol

how many languages do you speak? I really only speak English but i do know little tid bits of sign language and a few phrases in German

what’s the longest journey you’ve been on? I went to Germany when i was extremely little but don’t remember it, so if we’re talking remembering then probably California 

who was the last person you danced with? probably my dad in the kitchen

where did you spend your last friday night? in bed scrolling through Instagram watching ASMR videos and queen edits

what would you do if you found out your best friend was seeing your ex? well I’ve never had a boyfriend so I don’t really know how I’d react. I feel like theres a lot of different scenarios that could happen so it ll depends. 

what’s your home town like? well the one that I was born in was kinda boring and empty but I only lived there until I was 5 so I could have it completely wrong, the one that I spent the most time at was probably on Jamie lane, thats where i spent most of my childhood and while there wasn’t a lot around me and alex would play in the creek down the street and ride out bikes to the library down the block. 

relationship with your parents? difficult. it was really strong for a long time and then me and my mom had a falling out. ever sense then its been extremely difficult being normal around her. I’m closer with my dad. we have always been pretty close

opinions on the police force? I honestly don’t really get into those things so as to avoid arguments especially because i don’t see myself as a very political person and police are apart of government. I will say that i respect their authority but I do know that there is a abundance of cops now a days that abuse their power. anybody that uses power over someone just because they can and want to harm others for fun is not cool in my book.   how old were you when you joined the internet? I think i was 12. i could have been a bit older or younger honestly i don’t remember. but I remember how. I saw my aunt on the computer playing games on facebook and she told me all about it and I ran upstairs to ask my mom if I could get an account because it looked like a lot of fun. She said I could get an account if I was supervised and yeah. 

when was your first kiss? still haven't had one. waiting.

favourite musical? I like a lot. I’m a big Disney person so I guess Moana. but if we are talking not Disney then little shop of horrors.

do you like country music? Low key yes. there isn’t a lot of it that I actually like but the ones I do I LOVE. 

what makes a good rock song? I think there are a lot of things that make a good rock song. Skilled players, people who love their craft, use of multiple instruments besides just drums and guitar, but honestly I think the most important thing is that the group meshes well together. if you don’t get along as individuals then you won’t get along as a musical group.

are you sentimental? VERY. thats all I got to say about that.

what was the most expensive thing you bought in the last six months? I haven’t bought anything myself because I don’t have a job but my grandma bought me queen ticket and my parents bought me a hella dope coat that I’m absolutely in love 

are you seeing anyone at the moment? Nope.

favourite film genre and why? Indie. I think it encompasses a lot and can have almost anything in it, action, comedy, drama, and almost has its own quirky twist

chocolate or sweets? I can’t choose. it really just depends on my mood.

how far do you believe in the paranormal? I don’t believe in ghosts or stuff like that, spirits. nah. but I believe in demons and their ability to make us see things that we might consider ghosts. But I don’t mess with that stuff.

does true love exist? I think so. I don’t Soulmates really exist. maybe that certain people click better then others and maybe that there are multiple soulmates for people but yeah I think true love exists and its hard work. it doesn’t come easy.

what’s your crush’s favourite music genre? I ain’t got a crush at the moment but I remember sophomore year I got really into weezer because the guy I had it hard for was a huge fan of them. Turned out he was a douche bag so it kinda ruined some of weezer’s songs, not all of them though because I have memories of listening to weezer with mama when I was younger.

favourite song currently in the charts? I don’t really follow popular music or recently release stuff, I know I’m so cool because I don’t listen to mainstream stuff right? ew. anyway I would have to say thank u, next. thats one I’ve actually heard and added to my playlist so yeah.

if you could relive any ten minutes of your life, what would you relive? this is just a quick answer, If i put more time into thinking about it I would probably pick something else but just off the top of my head it would be going to Tennessee to meet Olan Rogers. 

how far apart do you and your best friend live? Probably a little less then 30 minutes away maybe like 20 or 25 depending on traffic.

do you believe everyone is deserving of love? of course! I think a lot of the problems in this world is because people don’t love each other. sure there are outliers, people with chemical unbalances and mental disturbances that can causes chaos even when shown love but for the most part if more love was shown I think so much of this worlds problems would dissolve

what’s been the biggest hurdle you’ve faced in your life so far? my self esteem, the way I view the world and my anxiety. Its a constant battle with myself and those who think I am wrong for what I believe. Between th two it can get pretty exhausting.

which was the song of your childhood? there was no specific one. my mom kinda raised me on oldies which is why I think I like them so much. It’s what made me so eclectic today

describe your perfect first date. Honestly just chilling and relaxing, maybe making a dinner together or watching a movie at home??? I’m not to sure, I just don’t want so much pressure put on the first date so i think it would be nice to make it low key.

is there anyone from your past that you regret cutting ties with? probably. there have been plenty of toxic relationships in my life, but I wont say that I didn’t play my part in them.

favourite 80s movie? uuuggghhh there are so many. I think for now I’m just gonna say Ferris bueller day off because its a classic and so quotable but I’m sure theres others that I like more 

give an example of a world event that occurred the year you were born. the Y2K scare. lol. although I just looked up other events from that year and it said it was the first year to have an air balloon go around the world without a stop. pretty neat if you ask me.

what would you value most: a relationship or a job? relationship!! without a doubt. my definition of success is a fulfilled life with people I love and growing relationships with family and friends

what do you like most about your appearance? probably my height at the moment. or my hips. there are always things I hate about myself that get better or things I use to like that that I don’t anymore.