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the great twitter to tumblr migration of 2023
#i’m gonna be more active here now#hi guys#hope the universe intervenes and shortens elon musks life
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how to live a happy and fulfilling life when everyone around you is obsessed with shame and guilt and suffering
#i DO already know how - i’m just complaining#if one more person apologizes to me unnecessarily i think i will explode in a mass of blood and viscera#like. i’m legit gonna have trauma about this it makes me so mad lmaoooo#ALSO i’m FINALLY getting the ball rolling for my mom and mom-mom re: getting a home care person to help out#and she’s like ‘whoa… maybe i could go back to work…’#and it’s like. dude. HOW did you not seriously consider this until now????#you haven’t taken a vacation in three years because you think that to love is to suffer dude!!!!!!!#get help!!!!!!!!#or a home care aide at the very least…#never thought that applied statistics would be my escapism activity but here we are…#despite how shitty my high school years were i think 2024 is probably objectively gonna go down as the worst year of my life so far#but a lot of good has happened and is happening also#and i’m much stronger now than i was then#so you know…#we move forward
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hi hi hello i have been gone forever due to various reasons such as “work” and “mental illness” and “having developed a kpop hyperfixation that has been occupying most of my attention recently” but i need everyone to know that i saw off book live twice last week (in philly with a friend and then in nyc with my girlfriend) and it was truly so everything. i didn’t get many pictures but i did get a few and none of them are very good but one of them is of jess’ amazing stool balancing act and that’s all i need really
#flow of the rings a volcano story i love you forever and ever#tryin’ the musical i love you also#also i asked a question during the talkback at the philly show :]#if it gets released as an episode and you hear someone named will asking about the hedgefrog logo that’s me <3#i want to be active on here more i miss it#i’m thoroughly enjoying being a little unhinged about kpop with my friend bee (the one i saw the philly show with actually)#but it does make a little sad that i haven’t been as fixated on zach and jess lately#they are still everything to me though don’t get it twisted#it’s very much a Special Interest TM so i will probably have other z&j phases#but regardless i do enjoy this silly little corner of tumblr#and i love that pibe has like Actual Fan Content now it’s beautiful#and i AM going to finish and post my malpal fic i PROMISE i just. don’t know when 😭#accidentally wrote an essay in the tags whoops#anyway i can’t promise i won’t disappear again but i’m gonna try to be more active#mine#off book#play it by ear#pibe#zach reino#jess mckenna
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i’m sorry i haven’t answered asks or been very present!! i’m gonna try to answer some tomorrow and sunday!!
#and then i think i’m gonna take a lil tentative hiatus#not bc of anything on here#my life is just very busy right now in both positive and negative ways!#i’m gonna be applying for creative writing and acting mfa programs#and i just need to focus there right now!!#i miss being more active and writing fun fic 💔#but my career and life has gotta come first you know!!#if anyone has any advice for applying to mfas i’d gladly take it lol#cielo rambles!
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walked into second cup today and julie glared at me
what did i ever do to piss her off i dont get it
#ooc: i wanna try and be more active on here. and my other rp blogs so expect more random text posts#I’m gonna switch up the tags starting now cause i don’t wanna clog the main big boy tags#spto#spvtw#young neil#neil nordegraf#rp#rp blog#scott pilgrim rp#in character#neil speaks
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why has this entire month been like this -_-
#pip.txt#ugggggggh today has been BAD bad#what if i just disappeared for a while then return and everyone has to pretend i didn’t disappear out of nowhere. ok? ok.#i genuinely feel awful. physically and mentally and idk if this feeling will go away#this semester has actually been the worst which is absurd considering it’s been my shortest#and i can’t help but feel miserable. if i’m not actively doing homework i’m agonizing over it#my first chem test TANKED my grade so the feelings warranted#also. need to change up how i look cause it’s making me feel terrible again#this is embarrassing -_- last time i felt this much anguish was from 12-16. WHAT ARE WE DOING HERE#anywaaaaaay. gonna do more note taking now. hopefully i can start the webassign tomorrow and maybe go to tutoring at least once
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STARTING SEEDS STARTING SEEDS STARTING SEEDS
#my thoughts#gardening#ahhhh it’s been too long since I used that tag#I’m gonna start being more active with original posts on here again guys I swear#I’ve been so busy but now it’s seed starting season so I’m gonna be soooo motivated to post
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I think I’ve said this before on here but. it really baffles and somewhat annoys me sometimes how people hear that a character is in their 40s-50s and immediately assume they should be weak or feeble or less attractive than they are. like. no. i think everyones just been brainwashed to think that attractiveness/health/worth is determined by how young someone is. why is it more understandable to view a teenager as more attractive and capable than a fit 40-50-something year old. kinda wack
#don’t get me wrong this isn’t to say that older characters shouldn’t show signs of aging#like obviously they should- though also keeping in mind here that people show aging vastly differently and throughdifferent lengths of time#ie; some people go grey in their 30s. some don’t go grey at all#and as for physical ability it just depends on a person’s routines and the life they’ve lead up to that point– a guy who’s been slumped over#a desk in a cubicle for 30 years isn’t gonna be as likely to maintain muscle as a lumberjack or a personal trainer#obviously I’m talking about ykz characters in this post and specifically kiryu/majima. mostly kiryu though really cause it’s more bizarre to#me to point him out as being Elderly and unrealistically fit and handsome for his age#like. becuase hes not even that old. he’s 54 currently and I see people saying stuff about him like this throughout the time he’s been in#his 40s to early 50s– like dude do you know that like. most of the famous actors you see in live action films are in their 40s-50s. this#isn’t the 1950s man. you can be 40 50 60 and look Not Elderly and have an active life. that’s the magic of modern medicine and technological#advancements. crazy I know#sorry ranting here I just always get so thrown off by this#admittedly I think it makes me feel weird when exaggerate their ages so much partly cause my own parents are smack in the middle#of kiryu/majima’s canon ages (1966) so I see like. literally every day what a person in their mid-50s is Like. and it’s not at all like the#weird feeble characature so many younger people in this fanbase have for them#I couldn’t view my mother- as she is right now (56)- as ‘elderly’ if I fuckin tried dude#and she’s not half as physically fit and active in her lifestyle as someone like fuckin kiryu or majima so. yeah#(she is still quite active but less in a Working Out sorta way and more in a gardening and yard work and goes to burning man sorta way)#(she’s a psychologist though so her job isn’t very physically active is my point- as opposed to someone who’s job is#physically active. you get it)#anyway sorry I need to stop talking vsncjdnd#rambling#yakuza#rgg
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Hiii raincloud!!
Welcome back to Tumblr
I didn't know you were into Cookie Run!
Heya Starbot :] yeah im in love with these cookie designs and have been since maybe 2019..? LOLLL i didnt draw much until 2021 tho and plan to draw more since ive been playin crob again with my sister
#raincloudanswers#also hi everyone else I’m gonna be active here from now on#plz enjoy looking at my cookie run fan art and future OCs#i wanna eat the art style so bad#wish more gamez were this cute but not gacha games RIP
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hmmmm it’s possible that i’m witnessing many coincidences and interpreting that through whatever fucking schizotypy i’ve got……but i think this time things are Actually Weird
#idk how to tag this#unreality#just to be sure#like yes ok i know i know i know i know#i’m just in a weird place emotionally and probably very vulnerable to Weird Ideas rn#but if one more Thing happens in the next half hour or so……..it is Real i swear#i don’t talk about psychosis here because i don’t want people to think i’m crazy!!!! but i am!!!!!!!!!#i think i just need to take some ativan and try to sleep before..?#personal#i do know exactly why i’m feeling this way rn and i have also actively made it worse#but i’m also feeling like my sleep is gonna be weird now so i kinda. don’t wanna#but if i don’t sleep i’m gonna Actually start hallucinating so. urhrnm#i think the next 2 weeks will be pretty bad for me on this front
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kinda wild how you can have almost every aspect of your life deeply intertwined with someone else for years and then have all of that thrown in your face when that person decides none of it meant anything and, in fact, was toxic and purge-worthy
#hahahaha it’s been a bad day#and I am spiraling and all around not having a good time#I keep looking at the bulletin board in my room that used to make me so happy to look at because of all the good memories on it and the#reminder of there being people who care about me and now it just sorta. does the opposite#most of it just makes me feel. dread.#he’s in almost every picture and 80% of the people in the pictures in general I don’t talk to anymore for one reason or another#mostly people who just drifted away because I’m absolutely terrible at staying in touch with people#like not in a quirky way. like actually actively ruins relationships for no reason level bas#but some of them are people who purposefully don’t talk to me anymore#found out recently about one of these people. it’s someone I’d been friends with for like 15 years. purposefully blocked me#I believe because of whatever bullshit my ex has told her. she never asked me about anything so whatever she knows is#heavily biased and probably warped#because I don’t have anyone advocating for me. lol#even my close friends- the extremely few I have- are ‘neutral’ on it. which. im gonna be honest hurts me quite a bit. I have no one who#truly condemns him for the way he’s handled (lack thereof) all this and bolstered all my trust issues in the process and has made me#constantly critical of my own intentions because I can never trust that what I do or say is manipulative or ‘unhealthy’ anymore and I don’t#think I’m an all around good person on top of that because of my low empathy and all that and etc etc etc. it’s really fucked me up#but yeah anyway. yeah. they’re still on good terms with him more or less (though not as close as I am but that’s partly just due to me being#physically close rather than in another city). and it honestly hurts me that they could actively be centrists here#like I. just. really don’t trust anyone anymore. how the fuck could I#uh. anyway. im not sure if i want to take the board down all together or just take off almost all the photos on it#not sure what’s more depressing#cause they’re both pretty bad lol. almost all my major good memories from the past five years have included my ex so they’re basically all#tainted and unpleasant to look back on now. really just wasted five years of my life for this#another reason I’m constantly contemplating my own intentions these days is because I have a lot of thoughts and urges that I’d never do but#that are. related to purposefully hurting others or myself physically or emotionally or both. like. every part of me wants to deck my ex in#the face but obviously I’d never do that. but even just the compulsion feels like a justification of his narrative/view of me as a person#like haha maybe I am a shitty toxic abusive manipulative bastard. maybe I do just deserve to be alone where I can’t hurt or think about#hurting anyone. it’d definitely be better all-around if I didn’t fucking exist. burden lifted. but you know.#not sure how im like this but also egotistical and self centered but alas here we are. anyway I’ll delete this soon sorry
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brb gotta queue things till october
#snail thoughts#september was supposed to be my ‘hiatus’ month anyway#but now with yara here i doubt i’ll be active#i’m not gonna fall off the face of the earth or anything#i just doubt i’ll have much time for more than reblogs and mutuals
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Six, the Little Monster
To assist in retaking the universe for his Goddess, Akira used the vortex that the Original Three appeared through to pull beings through time and space to aid in battle. The first of whom was Six, an off-putting but seemingly innocent little girl who just so happens to be able to utilize the powers of void-time due to the unstable nature of her home world. She is very prone to anger and violence, but this is due to her simply being confused and scared to find herself in a massive, empty world with her only company being gods and their subordinates. Not to mention a whole lot of unattended trauma (seriously get my girl therapy)…
Because of how differently her home universe is structured- especially in the differences of how time functions- Six can become unstable when she gets emotional (which she does a lot) and contorts into a lanky monster. In this form, she becomes far stronger with the downside of constantly being in intense pain. Only singing a soothing lullaby to her will return her to her child form.
#Sheik scribbles#Lifelight AU#Lifelight Six#ln six#super smash bros au#character art#here’s my contribution for six’s sixth birthday!#I’m gonna try to be more active on this blog now but no promises#who knows what’s gonna happen lol#little nightmares
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it only took one (1) hot man for footyblr to stop sleeping on the south korea nt 😤😤😤
#football#south korea nt#my friend was watching the kr FA cup and was like ‘mark my words guesung is gonna go viral’ 😭😭😭#i’m rly excited to see his further career i heard his first season @ jeonbuk was ass but that he improved in leaps and bounds#i mean he was best player @ FA cup#i’m glad his coach at uni changed his role to striker bc i can’t picture him as a midfielder LMAOO#same friend has been watching him since he started w jeonbuk and after the FA cup finale he texted me#‘규성이가 지금 축구를 잘하고 있다 ㅋㅋㅋ’ which SENT me 😭#(guesungie is playing football well now)#anyway. like i told nico sk is having an emotional wc#gonna try and be more active here from now on 👍🏾#this doesn’t mean there aren’t other hot players on the sk team btw y’all know what i mean 🙏🏾#also the sk nt is a hardworking team pls watch them for their talent 🙏🏾#rahul.txt
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Should we call you yandy?
Rag or Andy works. Yandy is funny tho
#peeps here have seen my real name but I want it to be uh#less present online now#ask#anon#I’m using the tags for updates#but I’m gonna update the fic soon I’m just swamped with work cuz finals and catch up#then I wanna write one’s shots and just be more active in general#I just have to yknow#pass college
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#I’m really sick of seizures I’ve decided#like so sick of them#I’m so weak after and literally flopping against the floor to move to where I need to and it’s just#I’m sick of it#it’s exhausting and scary and I scream and wail during it which makes me feel even more awful after#I can’t work and I need to make more art to get progress with comms but I worry my art isn’t good enough and the tremor these things leave#me with doesn’t help#like will I ever be able to do decent enough art?#it’s mainly my diabetes but I know I have GI and neuro shit happening#alongside mental health in the garbage and the disabilities there#oh and my sight that’s bad and actively getting worse which makes reading painful#esp at night I get these horrid headaches#and I’m left wondering what I’m even meant to do#hell my mother is sick and I’m supposed to be watching her but she’s the one who wrestled me last night to get some sugar on my gums as I#screamed and thrashed#now I’m achy but she’s achier#we don’t even get along which makes it worse to me#how am I gonna grow if my health keeps getting in the way#I need to save up money to move after I’m done caring for her and I plan to move to Canada bc diabetic supplies here are insane#but can I even manage that if I can’t function for shit#I’m sick of being sick
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