#i’m always gonna come back for her
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moving w my cat is crazy she’s so little she doesn’t know anything and she’s moved so many times she was on the street and she got taken in when she was young and malnourished and then moved to my family’s house and then i took her on a very long car trip to another state and she lived with my roommate and then two other peoples houses while the paperwork went through. and i would leave her sometimes but come back and now i have a place that isn’t the dorms and it’s her and me in this upstairs bedroom and she doesn’t know what college is or jobs or where i go when i leave all she knows is she’s in another new place now and that i love her. but at least she knows i love her.
#was trying 2 look at her affectionately as i type the end of this post but she’s in the litter box lmao#this room is pretty small so i’ll have to get doggy bags to keep the litter from smelling i think#dropped her off last night and then left for a few hours and she was so so so happy to see me when i got back#purring and rubbing all over me#i feel bad for leaving her but i came back#i’m always gonna come back for her
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Why do you think the tides have slightly turned from "Elia deserves better than Rhaegar" to shipping her and Rhaegar together? Like what is the psychology behind these people because I've seen some of them like/reblog anti Rhaegar posts while also shipping Rhaegar x Elia at the same time.
hey anon! my thoughts are a bit messy, but i’ve done my best to explain them coherently :)
so, rhaegar was the best man anyone could have when elia was alive, and most people want the best for their favs. he was considered the most handsome, didn’t have a bad personality, and he was crown prince—meaning elia was almost queen, which is often seen as the greatest role a woman can have. the narrative also treats rhaegar as a beautiful, tragic, haunting figure, and elia actually had this very aesthetically pleasing man all to herself at one point! she was married to him, had children with him, and her life was so close to perfect! but rhaegar just had to go and ruin it. 😠
for many elia stans, if rhaegar hadn’t fallen in love with another woman (they want him to have been a completely different character), then everything would’ve been perfect, and elia would’ve had the best, most desirable life. however, that’s not what happened—elia met a very tragic end, and as a result, these stans feel double the bitterness. because of this bitterness, they blame rhaegar for everything (even though it’s not logical to do so), but he’s just too ‘perfect’ to let go of. so, for years these stans have made rhaegar revolve around elia, filling his tag with posts about her out of bitterness. so, i do believe that this obsession with rhaegar x elia has always been there, but i think it’s become a more favorable stance on the elia stan side of the fandom because of a mix of reasons.
plus, rhaegar is one of the few canon relationships we know elia had, since she’s not much of a character. because of this, and the fact that most people don’t like to stray too far from canon, most elia stans are forced to focus on rhaegar, which has created an echo chamber. basically, if a sentiment about elia and rhaegar’s relationship becomes popular, then the whole elia stan side of the fandom will likely regurgitate the sentiment. (also, this desire to stick close to canon is likely why the elia x arthur ship was so popular. while it’s a total crack ship, it had good aesthetics, and since elia and arthur at least knew each other, it allowed the stans to create their perfect fanfiction whilst sticking it to rhaegar. but remember, elia was actually married to rhaegar and had children with him, so while arthur is cool, rhaegar was always ‘top dog,’ meaning arthur would never be able to match up to rhaegar to most elia stans. also, the arthur x elia crack ship is likely her second most popular ship, which just shows how little elia stans have to work with, so they’re always forced to eventually return back to rhaegar for a lot of things.)
however, even if the elia x rhaegar ship gains more popularity, these stans will never stop hating rhaegar because he wasn’t ‘perfect’—and he wasn’t perfect because he didn’t love elia. plus, rhaegar loving another woman and supposedly kidnapping her is what began the war that led to elia’s tragic death. that’s bitterness times 1000. and while i don’t actually blame rhaegar for the war, i do think that this is how an elia stan sees it. i also don’t view rhaegar’s complex relationship with elia as a bad thing—it’s actually a very realistic take on an arranged marriage between two decent people. but most elia stans will never be able to get over the fact that they almost had everything, which is why many have it out for lyanna, as they consider her a thief who ruined their ‘perfection.’
tbh, that might be why so many elia stans are so obsessed with the idea that rhaegar only got with lyanna because of the prophecy—they don’t want to believe that rhaegar actually loved a different woman and not their perfect self insert elia. that’s a bit mean of me… but i don’t know what else one would call the ‘elia’ elia stans have created.
now that i’ve laid all those thoughts out, i’ll try to explain why the tides seem to be turning… i think it may have something to do with the ‘targaryens are all evil and bad’ sentiment losing popularity. i think this shift has occurred due to a mix of factors, such as years of fandom fights and fandom cycles leading to the targs being more liked now than before. it helps that canon doesn’t actually condemn the targs/favors them quite a bit, and the influx of new targ fans from HOTD has also contributed. this combination of reasons seems to have shifted the way the mainstream fandom discusses all the targaryen characters, including rhaegar. so, with this shift, it’s only natural that some elia stans/elia x rhaegar shippers—who’ve always been there—are using this opportunity to push their agenda. while these stans still hate rhaegar and see him as the bad guy, they just can’t let go of him. and as the mainstream fandom moves away from the anti targaryen sentiment, these smaller corners of the fandom, which tend to be echo chambers, are also affected, which has therefore led to a rise in rhaegar x elia shippers and the ‘shifting tide’ that you’ve also noticed.
#‘if only rhaegar did this’ is a very common sentiment amongst elia stans#most stans have always had the ‘if only’ mindset#‘if only elia survived’ easily leads to ‘if only rhaegar didn’t run off with his whore’ as the targs become less hated#it’s kinda a pipeline? rhaegar anti plus elia stan leads to rhaegar x elia shipper who still hates rhaegar#another reason that a lot of this happens is because elia and the martells plus dorne are the good ‘others’ a person can like#while the targaryens are the ‘bad others’ one can safely hate as they’re white & have a bit of demon symbolism + come from an ‘evil’ empire#the targs also ruled over everyone so a lot of fans like pushing all the blame onto them for all the problems#however the targs are cool and they’re hot af and being royalty is the best! so they’re the ‘bad others’ one can safely hate#but people still want their aesthetic and want their favs to have what the targs had. all the cool magic + the aesthetic + danys monikers#so people can convince themselves that it’s okay and logical and right to hate the targs but most ppl will still connect their favs to them#of course… things have been shifting in the fandom which i’m very happy about#and all of these sentiments are combined and compressed when it comes to rhaegar and elias relationship#so any big shift on how the fandom views the targs will always affect the way rhaegar and elias relationship is viewed#it just so happens that the targs aren’t the evil dragon nazis anymore so it’s kinda okay for elia stans to ship him with her#i’m not gonna go through my tags and make sure they make sense so i’m simply hoping for the best#anyways… i hope i didn’t digress too much. i just found this shift so interesting so i couldn’t help myself#asoiaf fandom critical#anti elia stans#rhaegar targaryen#anti rhaegar x elia#house targaryen#valyrianscrolls#pro rhaelya#lyanna stark#rhaegar x lyanna#anon ask#thanks anon this was a fun topic to cover#i recently found a really old post about both elia and lyanna and boy… it was quite discusting to read#elia stans kinda cycle from ‘elia deserved better x crack ship with shallow aesthetic’ back to elia x rhaegar while shitting on rhaelya#just know that rhaegar is always the bad guy to them! the sentiment on lyanna will go from hot to cold but rhaelya is always bad as well!
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My followers at my funeral: (Speaking to the closed casket) Poor Noms… she had so much to live for… well, hopefully now she’s in a better place…
My “casket”: GGGGUuuuUURGLLE ☠️
#the joke is that I’m inside of a belly#v.ore#v0re#soft vore#fatal vore#digestion#female pred#female prey#nom’s thoughts#not gonna label this as cruel pred because it was actually very nice of her to show up to the funeral tbh#a bit of a darker post but just remember I always come back!!#even if a post doesn’t explicitly say so!#reformation win
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while i do agree that saying rhaenyra’s inheritance is rightfully hers based on the fact that her daddy said so is incredibly weak and very much entitled of her (i can literally talk about this at length) it’s also a weak take to say she isn’t the rightful heir because of *checks notes* ah, misogyny. like, come on.
#rhaenyra targaryen#house of the dragon#hotd#i do agree and before anyone comes for my ass i thought it was very funny when emma said that ok no hate to that beautiful angel person#they were both (aegon and rhaenyra) “given” that inheritance if it’s a thing about character none of them “earned” it#“so i think aegon is the rightful heir bc he is the first born son”..... 😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐😐#y’all always bring up the great council i ain’t even gonna go there bc i just don’t want to#rhaenyra’s THE ELDEST BOY idc#plus what really like really actually determinates what makes them “rightful” heirs to something like that?????#mind im not even team black nor team green but this is seriously a very weak take#you can argue about the multiple holes in rhaenyra’s heirship but i don’t really think anyone can argue about the legitimacy of it#i DO blame visery’s for the dance bc he never actually stood up in a meaningful wayfor his chosen heir#and i’m not trying to blame CHILD rhaenyra for not even trying to secure her heirship beyond her dad’s word#but she grew up and still did not gaf#which actively fuled the green’s cause not that aegon was any better but ykwim#n sayin she isn’t the rightful heir based on law... law can be change?? and didn’t they use to say back then that the king’s word was law???
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https://www.tumblr.com/rist-ix/749015401700229120 not you reblogging this when you ship bloom with the man who murdered her family 😭
Bloom's into ppl who slay! Hope this helps :3
#alright snark and ship wars aside i get where you’re coming from tho#if you're genuinely interested in my thought process here i would love to elaborate#which is exactly what I’ll do!#first of all! the post you linked is about headcanons#which my brain kinda wants to put into a whole different category than ships — fandom ships in particular! — but i can leave that aside#because there IS an argument to be made that relationships are an extension of characterization and personality traits#if you wanna go that route i would wanna explain that Bloom's and/or Valtor's interest in the other is in fact based on canon#(even though I don’t really think ships need to be established in the source material. make shit up that’s what fandom is for#1) the Andros episode speaks for itself. Valtor specifically tells the Trix to back off because HE wants to be the one to fight bloom#2) the episode before that he asks questions about her (and only her; even though he has more powerful enemies to worry about)#demonstrating curiosity about and interest in her#3) that same episode (or the one before; can’t remember) is their infamous first meeting#where time LITERALLY slows down as the pass each other on the stairs#they get IMPACT FRAMES#the whole color palette changes!!!#idk about u but I eat that shit up. love the drama of it all no one does it like them#I’m gonna skip all the instances where Valtor is spying on Bloom through his little scrying spell because oh god who has the time#let’s go straight to Bloom#if I had a week I would not be able to collect all the moments where she growls his name in pure fury and single-minded determination#she gets a little bit obsessed with him over the course of the season and I personally think that’s very sexy of her#Bloom is known for her tunnel vision when it comes to her past and origins and Valtor's existence fits PERFECTLY into that#it ties in neatly with her overarching story of the past 2 seasons#literally PERFECT foils#which always makes for the juiciest stories#4) she singles him out for a duel in the museum episode#5) she can literally feel his presence#6) the mere mention of his name sends her into her weird faux enchantix#of course there’s no romance in canon but there’s TENSION AND CHEMISTRY which is all u really need for a ship#all their animosity and bad blood is what makes it so INTERESTING to wonder how they COULD work. it’s the spice that makes for good fanfic!
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Currently trying not to vomit over the fact that I essentially just lost almost a thousand dollars brb
#why me. why is it always fucking me am I just not allowed to have good things WHAT have I done to earn this kinda karma#my stupid fucking idiot roommate decided to resign the lease at the complex so I naturally contacted the landlords like hey. how does that#work with the security deposit cuz I paid that years before she even moved in do you guys need to come inspect the place after I leave#and they were like oh no ☺️ it just carries over to her. and I’m like. so. so even though I am not living here nor am on the lease#whether or not I get NINE HUNDRED FUCKING DOLLARS BACK hinges on this JACKASS not wrecking the place???? actually not even then because say#she DOESNT wreck the place when she moves out TURNS OUT the deposit goes to her cuz it’s her name and account attached to the fucking#apartment and I’m just left sitting here like how. how is that fucking fair how does that make fucking sense I have to trust that she doesnt#ruin the place OR GET FUCKING EVICTED BECAUSE SHE HAS NO JOB AND NO WAY TO PAY RENT and then also trust her to just give it to me when she#moves out. I’m actually sick I’m actually gonna fucking throw up and the landlords were like yes exactly ☺️ perhaps you could work something#out with her and she could buy you out of it and I’m just like. she doesn’t have a job she still hasn’t paid me for LAST months utilities#let alone this months do you HONESTLY THINK she is EVER going to pay me the 900 dollars I’m fucking owed#and it’s like does this actually affect anything? no. I didn’t budget with that money cuz I didn’t actively have it and that’s not smart but#like…. 900 dollars….. I could have paid off the rest of my credit card with that and also it’s just infuriating that that money is basically#just being GIVEN to this fucking bitch who I KNOW is not gonna keep that apartment in good shape and that’s again if she somehow doesn’t get#her ass evicted cuz she’s not paying bills why they even LET her sign her own lease there I do not understand she literally has no proof of#income but ig they probably didn’t check that cuz she technically already lived there I’m just so. I’m so tired and I’m so done can I PLEASE#stop being the one who constantly gets screwed fucking over in EVERY situation no matter fucking what#while all these fucking idiots and shitty fucking ppl get whatever they want and actively BENEFIT from me getting fucked over???? I’m done.#I’m so fucking done I am never living with someone ever again never being finanacially tied to anyone fucking again and you know what. thats#great goes well with me basically being convinced atp to never be vulnerable with anyone ever again and never trust anyone ever again and#never dedicate ANY part of my life in a genuine sense to anyone ever again I will be fucking alone in every sense for THE REST of my fucking#life and that’s that. it’ll be better. this kinda shit will stop happening. financially emotionally psychologically I will stop suffering#because holy fucking shit I can’t do it anymore man I’m sick of it I’m sick of trying to be a good person and depend on people and be#vulnerable and always uphold my side of the responsibilities and arrangements just to get fucking spit on like man if this is what being a#shit person gets ppl maybe I should try because they sure seem to get all the benefits and whatever the hell they want consistently and#always while I try and be considerate of others and devote myselves to them and this is all I fucking get for it#and ik I KNOW this is just the straw on the camels back and this is a lot of issues compounding and it’s not even about the money atp#but I’m just. I’m so fucking sick and tired and beaten down and I’m tired of trying I just want to be completely on my own#so at least if bad things happen or I feel like shit I only have myself to blame and it’s safer that way and I’ll have to stop feeling like#this and dealing with these types of things UGH
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oh i can already tell i’m about to have some really unpopular opinions about the edge of sleep tv show
#i remember everyone loving the podcast when it came out#but as someone who was an active fan of audio dramas and podcasts for years at that point the show just. made me frustrated#i realized later after listening to left right game that qcode has this very strange and almost uncanny production behind it#where they get incredibly famous actors to play characters and then bank their marketing on that alone#and the writing is always *almost* good. like sometimes you start to think you might actually be listening to a good show#bc i mean the audio quality and special effects are all stellar#but then the writing and acting is always just a little bit too over-the-top and dramatic for it to feel natural#like the writers don’t know how to portray emotion without visuals so they just make everything Way Too Intense#and each time it feels like they just ask ‘what’s the most insane thing that can happen next?’#’oh ok he’s gonna chop dave’s dick off’#and every time you start to actually like a character they say something misogynistic or just otherwise batshit fucking insane#not to mention that time in left right game where a girl confessed her love to her best friend before LITERALLY DYING FOR HER#only for the best friend in the next scene to be like ‘erm i’m not gay 😐 awkward…’ and she’s NEVER BROUGHT UP AGAIN#qcode productions are kinda like the fast fashion of fiction podcasts i think#they churn out so many so quickly and they always feel just slightly unnatural or superficial#not to mention when i tried looking into them years ago and it’s impossible to find#literally anything about them. like their minimalist ass website was so insanely insanely vague#and yet clearly they’ve gotta have a fuck ton of money backing them to have this absurd amount of a-list talent on board#(which really i think that is all they care about)#anyways yeah some markiplier fans are gonna get pissed at me for not kissing the ground he walks on. but i was one of you. i AM one of you#and i hate that somebody out there is holding the iron lung movie over us like we’re dogs and if we wanna watch it#we gotta watch this show. which BTW they are giving no details about where to watch it#and seemingly no promotion or marketing material for a show that’s been in production for years coming out in less than 3 weeks#just weird as fuck man. and i don’t even think mark has much to do with it
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#christmas is always a letdown for me#for many reasons#and holidays this year have been really awkward and weird and uncomfortable#but today wasn’t hell - not like I was expecting#so I guess that’s a win#my older sister and I don’t speak all that much anymore#but her girlfriend is sweet#she thinks of me when it comes to food#veg friendly things always#unlike my mother who couldn’t even bother if she tried - which is whatever now I deal#but the girl can fucking C O O K like I’m stuffed#anyways - happy it’s over now#and glad to be back home because breaking out in hives is no fun#(thankful I’m a cat person because pretty sure I’ve grown allergic to doggos)#I love them tho so it’s okay#buddy in his bruins jersey is gross and I love his dumb ears#gonna go die now bye!#also peep the terrifier hoodie 😭#mine
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maybe my mother doesn’t realise it but when i message her for the first time in a few days to share something i’m excited about, her immediately suggesting i use it as an opportunity to look for a new job makes me not want to share things like this with her anymore
#el talks#it’s my city’s theatre’s open day today so i could go and stand on the stage like i used to do all the time as a kid#and i sent my mum a silly little message about it being really hot backstage like it always is#she immediately comes in with do they have any jobs? go look at the job listings#i’m not even unemployed and none of the jobs i could get here would pay me more than i’m already getting#and in fact would most likely give me less hours#AND they’re not actually hiring according to their website#when i tell her THAT she comes back with most jobs relying on them liking you#i guarantee that the people manning the jobs stand at this very busy event aimed mostly at 10 year olds make zero hiring decisions but okay#deep breath. i’m gonna go find a coffee shop and do some writing#it was just so unnecessary of her to be like that
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HERE I AM ONCE AGAIN!!!(feeling lost but now and then)
anyways!!
THE NEW CHAPTER WAS SO AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL YET SO AMAZINGLY CHAOTIC AT THE SAME TIME
FIRST OF ALL, SUKUNA MAKES AN APPEARANCE?!?! THE FACT THAT HE CAME INTO A STORY BC THEY DECIDED TO USE A OUJIA BOARD IS SO FUNNY TO ME. ALSO THEM DESTROYING THE CAFE???? I WAS TRYING SO HARD TO NOT LAUGH WHILE I WAS READING IT AT 12AM
SECONDLY, NATAILIA IS AN ICON FOR TAKING CARE OF MORBID MANDY!!! HUAK TUAH GIRL 2.0
AND LASTLY, SAVING THE BEST FOR LAST,,, THE DANCING!!!!!! HIM REACHING HIS HAND OUT AND THEN SAYING IT WAS Y/N WHO ASKED TO DANCE BC HE WAS EMBARRASSED. Y/N UNKNOWINGLY GETTING JEALOUS AFTER HEARING MEGUMI WAS DANCING WITH ANOTHER GIRL!!! FURTHER PROVING MY POINT THAT YAIL BY TAYLOR SWIFT IS THEIR SONG!!!!
IT ALSO REMINDS ME OF THAT ONE TIKTOK SOUND WHERE ITS GOES
"And there she was, holding hands with Bryce. My Bryce!"
"Less than 20 feet away from me was Juli. My Juli."
LIKE ITS LITERALLY THEM😭😭😭😭
ANYWAYS THATS ALL I HAD TO SAY THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR THIS BLESSING OF A CHAPTER IT WAS SO GOOD😝😝🫶🫶
liar, liar masterlist here:
HIIII, i wait for these analytical messages every time and you never disappoint!
amazingly beautiful + amazingly chaotic is correct. that’s exactly the vibe i was going for 🫡
i hate sukuna was a PASSION, y’know. like a PASSION. i do NAWT fw that four armed tarantula THING, but he’s literally such a menace, it’s the perfect addition to the story 😭 he can take spot no.2 for menace (y/n’s sitting at no.1 on the podium). i’m so glad it was funny enough for you to mention it!
HUAK TUAH — DKMMM 😭 mandy is based on a real life person. do with that info what you will (i hate herrrrr). stan natalia for giving her what she deserved.
yeah, according to megumi, he never asked her to dance (which, yk, isn’t a complete lie. he never ASKED her to dance). he tells everyone that she forced him (and everyone collectively believes him over her bc of her heinous reputation of lying).
that’s an interesting take you’ve got there. i kinda wrote y/n’s reaction to be more of a surprised one than a jealous one. like, ‘my childhood best friend megumi fushiguro who-hates-it-when-the-sun-shines-a-little-too-bright-and-absolutely-detests-watching-couples-do-PDA-in-front-of-him is dancing with someone?’ type of reaction. i mean, her first thought after that was to try and embarrass him (getting yuji to record it) quite like her reaction to hana liking him during middle school. but i like hearing alternative points, it makes writing more fun 🤭
oh they’ll get their flipped moment. they will.
they won’t.
will they? 👀
TYSM FOR YOUR SUPER KIND LONG BEAUTIFUL ANALYSIS. I NEED TO HEAD BACK TO STUDYING ‘CAUSE THIS WAS TOO GOOD AND I’M GETTING DISTRACTED BUT I’LL ADD MY RANDOM COMMENTS IN THE TAGS LATER, LOVE YOUUUU ❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
#okay wait i’m editing the tags now several hours after#miffysmittens always coming in clutch#i wish everyone on the planet was as nice as miffysmittens#cutie pie#LMFAO why did ‘cutie with a bootie’ tag come up HELLO? 😭#anywaysss#her analysis is always on point#i find them so interesting to read#like yes so and analyse my work and send me back ur thoughts like the genius that you areee#i’m so tired so i’m gonna take a nap and try and lucid dream every single one of you#😀#megumi x reader#megumi fushiguro x reader#fushiguro megumi x reader#fushiguro megumi x y/n#megumi x y/n#liar liar asks!
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I’m in such a state I was going for my little winter walk and ofc it started with the icy rain instead of snow immediately 😡 so now I’m at my little museum cafe by the park but in the visage of a drowned rat and not an etherial winter enjoyer 😡
#and also I blew off shoveling bc nothing was sticking really and now the lady downstairs is pissed#and she always makes ME call the super and ask him to come by because they hate each other#and his phone is off#but I’m like a hour away I’m not gonna run back and shovel for her when the STUPID RAIN is gonna wash it all away any minut ughhh
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Uzi gets really creature brained when she gets tired and considering glitch’s been in front alone for almost 5 days (only with Cyn popping in every so often), I’m surprised she didn’t get this bad sooner
And when I say Creature Brained, I mean “does not want to English, mainly going on all fours, grabbed a pringles can from our snack drawer with her teeth and tried to stick her face in it, and generally acting very Animal”
Thank god our roommate isn’t in here to see this; Uzi definitely couldn’t keep up a human act very well for them
I’m gonna pull glitch out of front and let Doku take over; he can deal with classes for a few days
-⚡️N (He/They)
#seeing Uzi like this always scares me honestly#not because I’m scared of her#but because I’m scared for glitch#I’m always worried she’s not gonna come out of it even though I know she will#its happened plenty of times before so there’s no reason for me to be so worried#it’s not like in source where the Solver was always trying to take control of her#glitch pretty much has control of her powers and stuff plus the Solver isn’t here to try taking over#biscuits… I still worry though#she’s my girlfriend for Robo gods sake!#I’ll just stick with her in headspace until she’s back; it’s the best I can do for her right now#⚡️N#☠️uzi#🟣dokutaro#plurality#actually plural#multiplicity#plural system#fictive#alterhuman#nonhuman#extranth
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Now he’s trying to lie when he literally tagged Princeton like 5 fucking time. White people are so evil, bro. They always know what they’re doing when they do shit like that. With the attempt to bring harm to Black people who they want to “get out of the way,” because they don’t think that we belong in the same spaces as them while at the same time, believing they should be allowed INTO our spaces and afforded hospitality and a whole red carpet rolled out. The sad thing is, she has connections to the industry because of her uncle and name so what if this was just a random Black woman who worked for Princeton without this kind of protection at all…?
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#I’m glad that she’s alright though#why is he trying to dumb down what he intended by saying that ‘she was trolling so I trolled back’ like she like many other black people#are always dead serious when we tell whites and nbs to stay out of black folks business#simply put#he just got offended since a black woman told him to stay in his own lane#he dumb ass didn’t even know who she was even though he’d interviewed her family multiple times before#a Russian making millions off of black culture what a joke#black people gotta be tired of being used#one day man#the sad thing is of course black men hate black women sm that they were defending vlad on his behalf (not surprised lol)#and I saw other black women being pick me’s going on about ‘what makes her SO much more special than other black people-‘ like are you….#do you bitches have rocks for brains or… these same people are the reasons why nbs and whites will always feel comfortable coming into our#shit and wrecking the place you guys don’t stand for anything and you allow others to trample over your own people#stand up one day#the sad thing is#ppl are still gonna go onto his platform to allow him to interview them and make money off of their name#this is one of the first times that I’ve seen black people really get in vlad’s ass though because what he tried to do to this black woman#was absolutely vile and this is the kind of shit that gets black people killed and put into bad positions#fucking loser#rambling
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I’ve been improving a lot mentally lately and today my wife (best friend who I’ve lived with for 7 years) told me she’s divorcing me (moving to a city we both swore we’d never live in) and she’s taking the kids (our dog) and this is just further proof that god will never allow me to be happy or hopeful
#i know I sound dramatic but it feels like a divorce#my entire life revolves around her#she’s my soulmate and I’ve known her for a million lifetimes#I spend all day anticipating her coming home from work so we can spend time together#I schedule nothing on the weekends because weekends are for being with her#she’s come to every family gathering I’ve gone to for at least the last five years#she’s my entire fucking life and she’s leaving me#I’m gonna have to leave our apartment that we’ve been in for 3 years#I don’t even know how to make other friends because we’ve never needed anyone besides each other#and maybe we’re codependent and rely on each other too much but it’s never bothered us#and I always swore I’d follow her anywhere but she knows I can’t go where she’s going this time#I’m still so sick that I need my family nearby to help me so I can’t leave them#and my doctors are all here and I’ve spent years finding doctors I actually like#and I HATE where she’s moving#we lived there together for a summer and it was awful and she swore that we’d never go back there#and when she told me she’s leaving she didn’t bother asking me to come bc she knows I can’t#and I’m so fucking mad at her#I don’t know who I am without her and I feel like chunks of me are being carved out of my chest
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The sheer desperation and frenzied manner that I keep telling myself “just one more week just one more week just one more week” to keep from snapping and going fucking insane is honestly getting concerning
#I think I’m just at my limit#in a lot of ways but mostly in the fact that I have literally been unable to exist#by myself somewhere peaceful and quiet in MONTHS now#like because she isn’t work she is ALWAYS home so I can’t even get a couple hours to myself every now and then#I wake up in the morning and she’s up stomping around and banging cabinet doors open and closed#and watching videos on her phone at such a loud volume I can hear it across the apartment with my door closed#I come home from work. same thing#I go to bed at night. same thing#does she ever FUCKING SLEEP????#like I’m sorry maybe it’s the autism and it wouldn’t bother most ppl as badly#but if I don’t get some actual genuinely quiet time to myself where I don’t have to hear/deal with another person#I feel like I’m gonna explode into shrapnel#also I’m not exaggerating I hear literally every step she takes because she stomps around#I feel so bad for the ppl who live before us#it just ties back to her being completely situationally unaware and inconsiderate of literally everyone else#like girl you try to be quiet for the sake of other ppl and the fact that you never learned this is astounding#also I’m so goddamn fucking sick of her cat it’s like he knows we’re leaving so he’s being as god awful as possible#he has ripped apart a lot of the boxes I’ve gotten for moving#and has been antagonizing my cat even MORE often and then morning she has scratches on her face from him 🙃#and yes this is while my roommate was out sitting on the couch and did fuck all to get him to stop#because she still thinks it’s funny and my cat is ‘just a bitchy girl who’s playing hard to get’#I need it to be the first so bad so so so so fucking bad GET ME OUT OF HEREEEEEEE#kaz rambles
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have barely talked to my sister since she went back to grad school cuz she can’t handle me talking about anything to do with my mental illness / disabilities n like idk that’s literally my whole entire life ?
#metal speaks#she called me n we barely even talked before i said i had to go#she didn’t even ask about the stomach ulcer situation:/#plus she’s gonna stay in her state n not come back home so like idk#so like i get it i’m unbearable to be around#she’s always been pretty shitty to me about my mental illness n got worse after i be ame much more physically disabled#🤷🏻♀️
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