#i would just ruin my life for that boy
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#they were my OTP before I knew what that was (via @selkiesstories)
Aogg reread and 🥰gilbert blythe🥰
#yes a thousand times yes#anne of green gables#anne and gilbert#gilbert blythe#i would just ruin my life for that boy#user#they were my OTP before I knew what that was#user raspberryzingaaa#user selkiesstories
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"Since the Netherbrain fell, you and Astarion have seen more of Faerûn than you ever thought possible. One night, he tells you that these last six months of happy memories are the counterweight to two hundred years of misery."
idk what's up with my obsession with drawing astarion being happy and cared for but I'm sure it's not gonna come up in therapy. AFFECTION BEAM!!!!
#baldur's gate 3#bg3#bg3 fanart#bg3 tav#bg3 astarion#astarion ancunin#astarion x tav#tav x astarion#zyrastarion#bloodsong#dinosaur laser art#can you tell I'm getting bolder with posting my shit on tumblr#hey welcome to my tags where I have a mental breakdown#I'm unwell about this character. severely#and I'll make it everyone else's problem thank you good night#listen I just think we should allow astarion to be goofy.#postgame astarion is a good old fashioned lover boy (tm)#spawnstarion my BELOVED I would do unspeakable things to you#what's the maximum amount of tags I can add to this#I don't care if this is ooc I don't CARE he's my silly rabbit#I'm 28 years old and I've lost control of my life#I'm on my second run and I tried so hard not to romance him#I was having a genuinely miserable time LMAO dear lord#I gave up and romanced him anyways it's fine we're all fine#in all seriousness drawing this kind of stuff is therapeutic#he's a comfort character to me due to shared trauma etc#and I find comfort in seeing him in mundane situations#but like. happy and thriving and free. as he should be#larian studios meet me in the pit you've ruined my life
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#this one's for choso#my baby boi#his kind of devotion is something you could search the world over for and only find once#its not necessarily a good thing in some cases which i find compelling in a character#but im glad a lot of ppl seem to like him. it would be sad for ppl to sleep on him when he does so much for yuuji#somehow he manages to keep from becoming a Plot Device though so mad respect to Gege for that#i love my baby. i would have done more quotes just about him and his mindset but#you cant have choso without his little brothers#its part of who he is#so.#and it does mention i think (and if canon doesnt im hcing it) that he did love his mother as much as he could without really knowing her#if only bc she gave him his brothers#and i read a fic once abt how she tried to protect them even when she was in such a bad situation herself and how choso never forgot that#and always remembered her because of how she fought to protect him and his brothers#so. yeah.#i love choso#jjk#jujutsu kaisen#choso#i will not do him the dishonor of calling him kamo choso he would have despised that#who would want to carry the name of the man who ruined your life and your family and left you festering in your own juices for 150 years?#and we dont know his mom's name so just choso will have to do. its not as though he's ever been unhappy with it. my good boi.#web weaving
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Been thinking about Hosea a lot as I write this analysis on Dutch and Micah.
Maybe I’ll eventually whip something up about him, but for now I’m left with thoughts about knowing that not only is Hosea just as guilty as Dutch when it comes to how their boys were brought up (and continued to be treated through adulthood and ultimately up to their deaths), but also the way the two irreparably damaged John and Arthur’s entire lives beyond even their own comprehension. FURTHERMORE, they set forth a viscous cycle of familial violence and neglect that maintained momentum into the next generation. (See: John and Jack.)
The way Hosea’s action, but more importantly his inaction had in part led to… well, [gestures vaguely to RDR1 + RDR2].
Hosea might have been gentler than Dutch on the surface, but he saw it all, and at times both implicitly and explicitly encouraged it through the meticulous timing of his decisions to remain a “silent watcher.”
Yes, refusal to mitigate the violence makes him complicit, but the matter of the fact is… Hosea can’t even feign partial innocence as a third-party bystander because of how calculated he is in nature.
Additionally, there is no “third party.” Dutch and Hosea are a single unit. They occupy the same space even as two separate individuals in John and Arthur���s lives.
The deliberate nature of Hosea’s inaction puts him in the same position as the “perpetrator” because he isn’t just a watcher, he corroborates directly with Dutch and agrees with what he is doing on principle. He reenforces it in perhaps more subtle ways, but that doesn’t make him any less responsible for the outcome.
The only difference between the two is that while they’re dealing different cards, they are playing the exact same game.
#I’ve got some horrible little headcanons rattling around tbh#Dutch and Hosea have different methods and demeanours but truly are partners in crime not only in the literal sense but also are#one another's accomplice in how they raised/treat John and Arthur.#I think that Hosea gets let off the hook a little too easy and I really enjoy thinking about the implications of his behaviour on the boys#just as much as I enjoy analyzing that of Dutch.#Also??? The way that Arthur seemed to die not realizing this adds layers to it in my head. John had all that time to mull it over and think#after all that had happened with the gang throughout his life and I'm CERTAIN he did a LOT of thinking about when exactly Dutch's#true colours started to shine through over the years... so I'd say its safe to assume that he did a lot of thinking about the pair of them.#I want to know if he is capable of thinking fondly about Hosea in spite of this because he has been dead for a long time#Or does he hold a grudge against him even post-mortem? John at least got to have a conversation with Dutch and see exactly what he's become#I wonder to what extent that perfect image he had of Dutch being tainted caused him to see things clearer than#Arthur was ever given the chance?#Arthur died not knowing but I think John might have the tendency to ruminate on it in the years that followed.#I wonder what conclusions he came to about his life up until that moment while sitting alone in the aftermath.#Was he afraid? Did he even want to unpack all that? To potentially ruin every good thing he'd ever had just because Dutch went off the rail#in the end? If so... what would he have left if it turned out that nothing was ever the way it seemed?#red dead redemption 2#the curious couple and their unruly son#dutch van der linde#hosea matthews#arthur morgan#john marston#red dead meta#paisley.txt
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new fave reaction gif 😌
#asdfghjkl#there is SO MUCH happening here-#peter krause#my gifs#he's a babyyyy#hey there hi there ho there 😏👉🏻👉🏻#1990#!!!#littleshit.gif#😌💕#911 cast#9-1-1 cast#obligatory peter posting#another brown eyed boy ruining my life#hello tis i#i just *know* he has the lamest dad jokes#rip to this little fucker he would havenloved the steve wilko show
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i politely demand you talk about your nge/pacrim au!
thank you for enabling my behavior and for all your art omg <33333 i will attempt to coherently and briefly outline my thoughts
the short version is: yuuta/rika saves you post-battle and both are irrationally upset when it turns out that you already have a boyfriend.
yuuta would like to take some of the credit for digging you out the rubble, but the truth is, it was like his mech was on auto-pilot, overriding all of his controls to dig you out of a lifeless environment and stash your cold, limp body in the center chamber until yuuta and rika were transported back to the base.
yuuta doesn’t understand why he lost control of rika like that, nor does he understand why he feels so upset when he goes to visit you in the infirmary and there’s already some other man by your bedside holding your hand. he vaguely recognizes kokichi as a junior engineer who’s done a few surface level repairs on rika, and he’s surprised and green with envy to find out that kokichi is also your boyfriend.
yuuta doesn’t understand the anger he feels, or the headache he gets, or the panic attack that’s threatening to rise in him, or why his feet automatically drag him back to his mech, or why he feels like he could hear rika’s faint sobs and screams in his head and he lay in his pilot chamber. none of it makes sense and he can barely sleep because of it, but it happens every time he thinks about you and kokichi for too long; and strangely enough, if the thinks about how rika seemed to come to life to save you for too long. there’s some kind of missing link he can’t piece together.
when you’re conscious, you can’t seem to recall any part your childhood, and only have your memories from college onwards, save for bits and pieces of the attack you were a victim of. yuuta learns that you were studying to be an engineer, that you were moving to work at the hangar and be closer to your boyfriend, that kokichi was slated to pick you up from the airport that ended up being the site of attack. a small part of yuuta wishes kokichi had been there, thinks that rika wouldn’t have found him in the rubble.
you’re the miracle save, and somewhat become the baby of the hangar. world-renowned pilots you’d only ever studied in class stopped by to give you their condolences, offer their help. you try to remain calm when satoru gojo and kento nanami make an appearance as a duo in your tiny recovery room, calling you brave and bowing to you with a home cooked meal in hand. senior engineers do their best to recover your work from college, assuring you that your injuries and recovery period would be a non-factor in the hiring process—that you were free to start as soon as you felt comfortable. you get the most attention from yuuta, who makes himself a friend, and a critical part of your recovery, essentially firing your physical therapist in favor of fixing you himself.
everyone makes you feel welcome, but yuuta makes you feel safe. he holds your waist while you re-learn to walk, he sneaks you into the pilot’s lounge while the jaegers have their repairs done—and nods in faux-sympathy as you mourn the presence of your boyfriend, who seems busier than ever these days with nuisance repairs, jokes about how yuuji and megumi seem to be particularly reckless with their jaeger lately—he squeezes your hand when you have headaches and fractured flashbacks of your past that you can’t piece together, he holds you when you cry out of pure frustration of not being able to remember who you are
yuuta’s a real smooth talker, too. always knows exactly how to comfort you while your boyfriend is busy, always talks to the press about you so preciously, always makes you feel like you have a purpose even if you can’t remember your past self—maybe you weren’t meant to remember anything before him and rika, maybe it was meant to be this way. it’s a twisted comfort, but it’s something to cling to, it’s better than crying over memories you no longer have.
everyone notices yuuta’s weird reverse stockholm syndrome lol… the way he hovers over you like he’s your sole protector and savior, the way he demands to be privy to all decisions about your health care, the way he remains close to you with no fear of your boyfriend. nobody says anything, though—yuuta’s a pilot, a good one, and one the few solo pilots in the entire world. he’s precious and vital to humanity, worth a thousand men, worth ten thousand engineers. besides, his friends see something special between you two, especially the co-pilot pairs; satoru and kento, megumi and yuuji, choso and yuki—they know compatibility when they see it, and boyfriend or not, you have something special with yuuta. they all share a common thought: kokichi is fighting a losing battle. and even if he could beat yuuta, he’d never win against rika.
#answered#teehee there's So Much Lore that i could talk about but i tried to keep this a reasonable length#and i hope it feels slightly ominious teehee <333#this is really just me bringing back my favorite point to light again: none of the jjk boys are SHIT!#boyfriend>? never heard of him! to yuuta he's YOUR save#he and rika pulled you out of the dirt and snow and brought you back to life... hows ur boyfriend gonna compete with that? he shouldnt ://#he should give up :// it sure would make yuuta's life easier... sigh#also note! the rest of them aint shit either! bc WHY are they rooting for him 😭 terrible#there's so many versions of the au the temptation to truman show it is also there but i think i want that for something different#teehee <333 anyway thank u for ur art my dear !!!!!!!!!!#there's also another version which is simply youre a co-pilot with someone else#and the yuuta comes along looking like a kicked wet puppy and somehow he's like 98% compatible with you#and everyones like whoah what the fuck... which makes u angry bc u were perfectly happy being previously more compatible with ur boyfriend!#and here comes along this LOSER to ruin everything....... love of ur life but a LOSER#yuuta x reader#pacrim au
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Interestingly enough, there are so many different views on why Ace didn't run away in marineford, despite the fact that Oda tried to provide an explanation. It feels like I have barely seen the same conclusion between two people.
#it feels like a math problem everyone found different ways to solve for themselves#for example I myself never took “Luffy was behind me” as a direct parallel to mg#mf*#I think it's one of those cases where Oda wants you to think deeper#while yes Luffy was in danger during mf and while they were running he wasn't in direct danger at that moment#mf put the focus very obviously on wb#I find Ace turning back very connected to the scene of him sobbing at everyone trying to save him#this is a boy who was told he was worthless and unwanted all his life#because of Roger#and WB as someone who knew Roger well told him it just did not matter to him and in general#Ace made his own mistakes and disobeyed direct orders and still wasn't abandoned#(this also strongly differs from Garp's relationship with him)#and then when the man who gave him all of that was dying because he saved Ace#and when he was totally helpless and unable to save that man#Ofc the insult from Akainu would be triggering#and comparing the man he considered a savior to one he considered to had ruined his life too#a lot of people say the insult was too simple#I don't think what the insult was mattered at all#the nature of it was enough to get to him#I know “never running” has always been in Ace's nature and a habit#but still the reasons aren't exactly the same#it's meant to show Ace's protective nature and his fear of losing those dear to him as Garp said#am I digging too far into this?#Am I making it deeper than it is?#maybe but this is just my take on it and what has convinced me#lulu rambles#one piece#portgas d ace#portgas d. ace
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Wylan's wide-eyed reaction to Kaz calling him his demolitions expert is even funnier when you realise that Wylan actually has no idea what he's doing, like he canonically agreed to do demo work for the Dregs without even knowing the first thing about demo and now he's suddenly being called an expert at it and he just has to go along with it because this is his job and therefore he needs to at least act like he knows what he's doing (even though he has absolutely no clue and he's only doing this because he's desperate).
#and then i get sad because i remember how severe his imposter syndrome is#so it's also him not believing in his own capabilities#because he's spent his whole life being told he was stupid#when in reality he's a genius but just doesn't believe that he is#and he's also afraid that the crows would see him as worthless and abandon him as his father did#this was meant to be a lighthearted post but i've made myself sad#wylan my beloved#wylan my boy#wylan van eck#wylan hendriks#jack wolfe#shadow and bone#seige and storm#ruin and rising#six of crows#crooked kingdom#grishaverse#netflix shadow and bone#shadow and bone season two#shadow and bone season three#six of crows spin off#soc spinoff#kaz brekker#inej ghafa#jesper fahey#nina zenik#matthias helvar
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Ep 5!!!
#Episodes that make me go “The author has never talked with a woman ever” 😓😓😓#I don't like how Lucy's character is handled at all. And I feel like I can't talk about it because I'm just going to sound like a bitter–#ss/kk shipper... But I really don't like it. And if it can help my case I'm a multishipper so I really don't take any–#issues with atsu/lucy I like the ship quite a lot actually.#So you're telling me there's this girl... Who meets this boy who pretty much ruined her life by directly causing her to lose her job...#And the next time she sees him she's going to sacrifice her own freedom for him as well as tell him “when you're done doing your things–#come and save me” (longest ewwww ever)... And when she regains freedom (author didn't bother to explain how because they don't care)–#she goes to work... As a waitress at the café beneath his workplace. So he can keep doing his Cool Superpowers Job while she literally–#must serve him every time he visits the place. It's just ?????????????????????????????????#Look‚ I don't dislike Lucy and I feel general affection towards her. It's just that they make her act like no one ever would#Just for the sake of the plot I guess#And like I knoww it's (probably just a little) more nuanced than that. I know Lucy is living her own fairy tale fantasy.#It's just that what I've said about her story is still true‚ you know?#I'm sorry but as sweet as atsu/lucy can be. I really hate the author for making Lucy a waitress. Sorry. Sorry. Sorry.#It's so weird. This anime has women writing standards that feel like dating back to the 20s#Same with Katai and the ideal woman tbh. Like why are women to be seen as this abstract impersonal entities? Why can't they just be people?#Ideal for WHO. It's like super screwed up of a concept. What even is an ideal woman? What does it mean to be a woman anyways?#They just want to say “ideal wife”. But women aren't made to be wives their existence isn't functional to another person.#Sorry. I derail. Next episode is going to be even worse on this front ughhhh#Back to the episode: once again it really shows they were running out of budget with this season‚‚‚ the animation looks very suffered#Too many flashback also... I feel bad for the animators tbh#I don't really like the shift in art style :( Not even Atsushi I found particularly pretty this episode my heart cries#The nail pulling thing made me feel like throwing up afhsjyabfsbfwasfvb I feel like I can bear worse gore but there's a couple of little–#specific things I can't stand and this seems to be one of them pffftttt#I like Higuchi I think she's both very funny and cool. I really wish she was explored more (but then again looking at Teruko... )#The relationship between Kunikida and Katai looks so interesting even though we only get glimpses of it. Kunikida regrets Katai leaving–#the ada but is also happy for him but also worries for him. He comes to his house seemingly to check on him and starts cleaning around.#The way he loves him and cherishes their friendship and shared history is really evident and it makes for a compelling dynamic.#Perhaps I should read their short story... In any case. Going to someone's house and compulsively start doing the dishes half out of will–#to help out half because he can't bear the mess sounds a lot like something I'd do lol
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ever since i was a little girl i always wanted to be someone’s knight in shining armor
#i wish this was just a shitpost#but unfortunately when I first saw someone rescuing a damsel in distress I realized what I wanted to be when I grew up#but my conundrum was that bc I wanted to be the dude in (most of) these scenarios#i didn’t know who could be my damsel#bc although saving another girlie would’ve been fun for me it wouldn’t feel ✨romantic✨#(why couldn’t I be attracted to WOMEN 😫)#and in my head saving a boy probably would result in him being all defensive about a girl saving him which would ruin the whole experience#but we kinda just ignored that for a while cuz that’s not an actual thing in real life#and then I discovered superheroes#at the lil age of nine#I watched the animated justice league series and fell in love with heroes and wanted to become one#I then went on to watch other dc series and then marvel series and then the live action marvel and then the live action dc movies#and then I found out about bnha and it’s had me hooked ever since ofc#but uh yeah this is all to say that my life will be complete if I get to catch my loved one in my arms and say ‘you’re safe now’#and that I probably have a savior complex#🎶song sings🎶
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Random Dan Rydell Gifsets #2/?
Sports Night: Season 2 Episode 19- "April Is The Cruelest Month"
#choices were knowingly and enthusiastically made when creating this set 😌#josh charles#dan rydell#dannyyyyy#another brown eyed boy ruining my life#this episode is so damn sad in so many ways but hooooo boy he's always worth the rewatch#hngh#sports night#sports night on csc#sports night abc#sports night 1998#my gifs#gods i just wanna-#dan rydell i could kiss you on the mouth#i would give you the moon#i want to kiss him and recite bad poetry with him under the pale moonlight#shut up ace#i am *such* a paradigm of composure and self control#random dan rydell gifsets
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the lost boys would hate me soooo bad cause I'm so childish dude they could be hanging out with me and I'd go.....guys do you still like me :((...and they'd just stand there and anyways i think David would throw me at a wall
#more than once#he would crumple me#tlb#The Lost Boys x reader#The Lost Boys#The Lost Boys 1987#x reader#my red flag is i act like a really sad little kid sometimes and no i dont know why and if i found out why it would ruin me#i cant help it though i have weird abandonment issues#and yes my irl friends do want to throw me around#for 1 im just a little guy#and for 2 i act stupid#i just ate the most undercooked pizza ive ever made in my life#i think marko eats undercooked pizza godbless
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I think the fact that u can just get prescribed ssris without being told about side effects to watch out for and then have your dose raised and suddenly have your mental health absolutely tank is. So funny. Absolutely incapable of feeling emotions to the point where all of my relationships are fucked (unable to feel affection/love) my academic career is fucked (unable to feel any sense of urgency towards assignments/attendance) my Everything Is Fucked (unable to gauge emotional well-being until things are actually hazardous) but at least I also can’t feel the Consuming Despair. Giving zombie realness. Going through the motions pilled. Apathymaxxing.
#the emotions are there it’s just like. so disconnected from myself that my body feels it but I don’t?#like my sister was sick and my body was helping and fretting over her and my brain was just like 😑#my parents came to visit and I felt zero emotion#i can barely reach out to people to maintain relationships because I have zero desire to do anything but sit there and do nothing#my brain started drafting a note and I had to be like ohhh wait this is bad isn’t it#what irritates me is like. i thought this was the depression worsening when it started happening. so they increased the dose. which made it#worse. and if I hadn’t looked into it I would probably ask for another increase.#+ also I’m thankfully not a fan of drinking unless it’s socially but the emotions kind of return when drunk so it’s like#i can see how this would be a path to unhealthy habits for people who are prone to drinking more#u know that one tiktok audio that’s like ‘she’s looking at me and telling me she loves me and I just feel nothing’ ‘oh my god shut UP’ it’s#like that. but for everything. literally just trapped in my head talking to myself because I don’t have the energy or desire to speak.#thanks for the emotional blunting Zoloft you truly ruin my life like nothing else#and I can’t even stop taking it because it’ll fuck with my head more. we’re in some dire dire docks boys. minus the sick submarine.
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y’ever get like. really………. ‘bad’ i guess news about someone who profoundly and life-alteringly harmed you and now you gotta figure out how to deal with that.
#gav gab#got a text from my sister that was like hey if something Big happened to dad would you want to know#then told me about it#and it’s like- at least they’ve finally grasped i went no contact and meant it#and didn’t want updates or messages from the man#so asked permission first#but oh boy. now i know and it’s like#well the fucking. monster in my closet nightmare who ruined my life etc had a massive stroke so#that’s just. a thing in my life now.
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chasing tails spoilers if anyone cares about that
can u imagine if Taeyeon was the killer and she was sooo fucking out of touch with reality and just wanted to be famous and rich so she murders her friends to try to ride on the tragedy to make money afterwards.
#like the nanny 2 where the boys friend makes a deal with the devil bc she wants to be famous so she'll just sacrifice ppl#and like she somehow blames seongbin and his whole brotherly drama with dr ju comes out so shes out of the case bc of conflict of interests#but she knows somethings up and the story kinda builds up this seongbin+dr ju are evil narrative while still having a bit of leeway#for ppl to think “hmmm i dont think thats it” so then we get the twist that seongbin was watching from the sidelines and got his memories#jumbled up while taeyeon gaslit him#and itll be even cooler if junho is a good boy in this one bc yes shell even kill junho bc can you imagine??? she lost her best friend#and she can make up that she liked him and that she wanted to ask him out after they survive#and create a whole sob story#and while sure dr ju may be guilty and still have had killed people maybe she comes to an understanding of her familys issues#and like decides not to ruin seongbins life anymore#and maybe she learns mote about her mother about how miserable she was#chasing tails#why am i wasting my braincells on this i hate this fucking webtoon#and maybe theres a whole background as to why she would do such a thing but fr whatever tragic backstory she has she shouldve just#become a communist instead#<<<<this last one is abt taeyeon not dr ju btw
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LOOK AT HIS BAMBI EYES I CAN'T, I'M CRYING 😭😭😭😭
#Rhodey would be crying#He would be like: I'M YOUR FUCKING SOUL BROTHER TONS#I LITERALLY WOULD DIE FOR YOU WHAT ARE YOU TELLING#and I'm here for it#Tony Stark has a family#he just need remember it#my boy deserves the world#iron man#tony stark#the bambiest eyes of all movies#ho yinsen#marvel#the avenger#i hate marvel#they ruin everything#they ruined my life#they ruined me
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